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tricksteroftheheart · 2 months ago
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so is the fandom gonna realize qwel was being manipulated by rox and that she is also a victim or .
(recent post for screenshots of qwel admitting she was being manipulated. also a debunking of the claims in the qwel doc.)
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joshuamj · 4 months ago
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Hi! You don't have to actually answer this but someone reblogged your art recently (lozhero) and I just wanted to let you know she is extremely and publically trans/queerphobic, just in case you are not comfortable with someone like this reblogging from you!
uuuhhh yikes...
I mean, I suppose I don't mind people like that reblogging from me, cuz its still, like, free notes. but like. If you're someone who follows me and ur against LGBT+ people, or ship things like incest or children with adults, just know that I don't want to talk to you. I can't stop u from existing or doing your thing despite me disagreeing with it, so lets please just agree to leave each other alone.
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puphoods · 9 months ago
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ive only seen bits and pieces of what happened to predesterone, i know they got deleted (at least twice) and the ceo is making defamatory statements about them, but im genuinely confused as to where I could find this all going down. if u dont wanna gather links or whatever i get it its just that everything popped up on my dash suddenly and i want to know whats happening but i dont know how to find out
theres obviously a lot of people posting rn but ill try to get some links together to sum it up as best i can find- keep in mind i never followed her myself and only distantly knew of her so there are people closer to the situation that probably have more stuff they can tell you though, and searching her url(s) has a lot of info
avery has i think two blogs deleted yeah, unsure about any older ones but predstrogen and avewy/predesterone were both deleted very recently
predstrogen (the first blog) was allegedly deleted for "sexually explicit material" despite any posts that may have been labelled as such being marked with a community label and her blog recently being manually approved as NOT containing adult content. she also talks in this post, as well as here, about how she has had a support ticket open for several months for harassment she was receiving that has not been dealt with
this is an example of the threats and harassment she has been receiving. ive seen a few different people get this ask copy pasted
the CEO of tumblr made a post wherin he publicly aired information regarding her deletion and threatened legal action against her , showing examples of the alleged death threats where no actual threats were made and telling people in the replies to just leave if they were unhappy with the moderation of the site
avery made a post about this and her new blog was again deleted within five minutes of her making it
multiple people who have made posts about the situation have said matt has DMed them and confronted them
this is word im hearing secondhand, so if i get any details wrong please correct me, but posts of hers such as her transition timeline are apparently ones that were flagged. i cant find any screenshots but many of her posts, including one that was a silly edit of a snow leapord wearing shoes, have been completely wiped from the site. if anyone has a screenshot or link to both the original post and it being deleted i can add it to this
again there are a lot of posts going around but these are i think what you really need to know whats going on...
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heyitslucky · 1 year ago
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sooo, regarding the previous few posts ^^"
i decided to post this silly thing, like i always do. just babbling whatever comes into my head, yelling it into my little void
the post im talking about ↓
however, unlike my normal posts, this one broke containment >.>
after just a few hours, well...
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people started complaining that i wasnt following them fast enough (i am so sorry im trying my best .////." ). at some point, people started teasing/bullying me into following them. at that point, ive gotten the attention of so many pretty girls, which i think kinda broke me a little -////-
This was on day 4 on progesterone btw
the bullying and teasing, and all the attention felt amazing??? so i posted this, completely forgetting what happened to the previous post. ↓
this also blew up, also a lot-
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im still getting messages that i should follow them, but i dont have enough time to follow everyone who interacts with the first post TwT
so im sorry to everyone, i really am, but i have to say ill only listen and follow if im asked in asks, dms, and reblogs if you add something there (otherwise i cant find you im sorry!!!). i dont have enough time anymore to follow everyone who likes and reblogs ill make it up to you guys somehow, dont worry!!
kisses and hugs for you all :3
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boyinthevoide · 7 months ago
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this might be very obvious or like well known but one thing i think goes kind of unspoken about and i think is really interesting is how when eridan does his whole "fight sollux and kill fef and kanaya" thing, he does not initiate the fight. he doesnt show up with the intention of fighting, and he certainly doesnt show up wanting to kill two people.
(its under the cut because there's a LOT of images, i wanted to make sure as much stuff as possible was in context.)
first, kanaya, because it's short.
when kanaya tells eridan about her plan to restore the troll race, this is what he says:
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[Image IDs: two screenshots from returniabound, where eridan is angrily saying "if theres goin to be any sort a hope for our race as the prince of hope i demand to be involved so dont go anywhere without me got it".
End ID.]
firstly, this implies he isn't literally on his way out and stopping to get feferi. this also makes it very clear he didn't start out wanting to kill kanaya, because if he did, he wouldn't've gotten involved in her plan. obviously. she wouldn't be able to go through with it if she was dead.
then, feferi and sollux, because he talks to both of them at once.
the thing is, the way eridan and sollux's interactions work at least to me is that they're both just vaguely annoyed with each other, then when they interact they basically just provoke each other the whole time (i dont ship erisol it just doesnt fit to me). their interactions here follow this formula.
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[Image IDs: a conversation between eridan and sollux. it goes thusly:
sollux: "oh GOD it's him. [feferi] can you tell him to go away, i don't even have the energy for this."
eridan: "hey finless this doesnt concern those with mustard sludge slippin through their veins [...] so keep your mouth closed or ill slit you open over my next meal"
sollux: "w/e bro, not interested".
End ID.]
admittedly eridan isn't exactly fond of sollux, and he is threatening him, but eridan does just kind of talk like that. they're both just pretty hostile towards each other.
and to feferi, eridan says this:
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[Image ID: eridan saying "all i want to do is have a word with you" End ID]
this is just an honest statement. he has no reason to lie about this.
then, theres the actual thing that causes all the problems.
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[Image IDs: a conversation between eridan and feferi, that goes thusly:
eridan: [...] so im gonna ask you this one last time and give you the chance im about to go please come with me
feferi: Go with you? Eridan, you weren't really serious about going to find Jack, were you?
eridan: of course i was and we should do it together
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feferi: Jack Noir is INSANELY powerful Eridan! Please, I don't want to see you doing anything foolish by trying to fight him.
eridan: fight him are you fuckin nuts [...] im goin to join him and youre gonna join me in joinin him too fef come on lets go [...] only thing left to do is serve him and hope he spares us and im extending the invitation to come with me cause even though you dont think so i really do care about you
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then there's some more dialogue and feferi resolves herself and sollux to stopping eridan.
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[Image ID: feferi saying "That's it. This makes me sad, Eridan, but now we have to stop you. We can't let you find Jack and risk you leading him to us." End ID.]
eridan didn't want this to happen. he wanted feferi to agree and leave with him. he didn't not want to fight sollux but it doesn't seem to have been part of his original plan.
but here's the thing. eridan doesn't kill sollux.
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[Image ID: sollux lies against a wall he's just been blasted against. there's blood trickling from his mouth and in a trail down the wall, and there is text on the right reading "KO'D." End ID]
he ko's him.
and that's important, because the move he uses is a very similar/more powerful version of the move he uses to kill feferi and kanaya.
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[Image IDs: three images of eridan using hope magic to laser someone. in the first he engulfs sollux with it, in the second and third he is blasting feferi and kanaya respectively with it. End ID]
i have no trouble believing he could have killed sollux, but he doesn't. he doesn't want or need to. maybe it's just energy conservation, or maybe...
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[Image ID: eridan saying "im not going to very well kill you am i that would be fuckin unconscionable what kind of friend would i be"]
...he just doesn't want to kill his friends?
because he only turns to killing after this set of panels:
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[Image IDs: three panels from homestuck
panel one: feferi stands over an unconscious sollux with a horrified expression. eridan lurks in the background.
panel two: feferi turns to eridan with a furious expression.
panel three: feferi lunges towards eridan with 2x3dent in hand and still looking furious.
End ID.]
maybe feferi didn't want to kill eridan. but lunging towards someone with a murderous look and a sharp object does tend to have that sort of implication. eridan for this whole time is literally just standing there. feferi is the one to escalate it to possible attempted murder.
he then kills kanaya, who only actually attacks after he destroys the matriorb. fair enough! he had no reason to do that! but at that point his ex-moirail/flushed crush had just tried to kill him and he'd killed her, so it's safe to assume his emotional state wasn't exactly stable at this point.
so as a recap/TLDR:
eridan didn't start out the conversation wanting to end up killing/maiming three people. he made a plan with kanaya that basically requires her to be alive, he has every ability to kill sollux in the duel and quite specifically doesn't, and the entire reason he's here in the first place is to protect feferi and keep her alive. he doesn't initiate the fight, and he doesn't escalate it to murder.
basically he would be correct to go "they started it"
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mizugucci · 3 months ago
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onf in chicago
hi yall im finally posting my account of seeing onf in chicago!!!! its only like 4 days late... like i said best day ever!!! below are all my notes + a bunch of photos, please forgive what i look like lol but i was so happy :)
for those that know me, know this was a HUGE deal. so of course this is going to be very long and detailed. luckily for most of my followers ill be putting it under a readmore <3
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so i bought the highest tier ticket for obvious reasons, so ill just so chronologically:
first was sound check and they did ugly dance and i could NOT believe i was seeing onf in the flesh. im pretty sure i died and went to heaven then and there
once they were done with soundcheck, they did the hi-touch and group photo. the actual practice was messy but it was fun so i don't think people minded. i dont remember anything except that for whatever reason, i was legitimately the FIRST PERSON and it was a lot lmao
additionally during the group photo i had wyatt to myself lol i froze for a second but he was so kind and polite, he asked what pose i wanted to do and i dont remember if i responded or not but we did a little heart together <3
then the fansign happened and i dont remember the majority of it, partly bc i was a flustered idiot lol but i got my complete album signed!!!! life goal met for sure. wyatt i remember specifically thinking again how kind and polite he was, idr seungjun/etion but i got to hyojin and he had his hand up kind of for a highfive and i gave him the album and tried to high five at the same time it was. very awkward LOL he thought it was funny (i hope) then yuto complimented my kitty cat ears!!! i remember saying something stupid and being an idiot in front of minkyun too but. what can we do
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finally was the long anticipated fanchat!!! i had my fanchat with yuto obviously and it was nerve wracking as hell but i love him so much i powered through and i hope he got something out of our conversation
the photo that we took & he signed was my best one of the night, so im really happy with how that turned out. its going to be my treasure for a long time to come:
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anyway first thing i want to note is that we were sitting at high tables for the talk, but he couldnt even sit without the table dwarfing him so he stood the whole time LMAO my short king i love him so much
so after we took the photo i sat down and honestly im not sure how much he understood the first half, bc he didnt react/respond and he was slightly confused about english in the 2nd half but ANYWAY i told him i was so so proud of him, how far he's come and especially weathering the time of being alone during military era... lots of gushy stuff lol
then i asked him what b-side he liked dancing to the most and he was SO CUTE when he cocked his head and went "b-side?" so it took a moment to get my point across and he was like ohhhh, umm fly me to the moon! and i almost made a total fool of myself reacting LOL bc as some of you know, fly me to the moon is literally my favorite ONF b-side. of all time. and partly due to yuto's center dance break with the saxophone.
yuto was confused but excited when i reacted (like i audibly gasped) and i said omg thats my favorite too!!! and he got so happy and i even proved it further being like, *points to u* dance break center! saxophone! and he nodded a bunch and was so excited lmao
i think he was also surprised at being a favorite, especially when he asked me when i became a fan and i said end of 2017 (which was true i was a fan, but became a stan in jan of 2019) and he seemed impressed! then our chat had ended there and i almost passed out afterwards haha
then we all had to leave the venue again before the concert started. i met a lot of really cool people that day so some of us went across the street to dunkin. had fun lmao
the concert started and my GOD minkyun's mic was on!!!!! and how does he always have so much energy??? also i had the lightstick and was having the time of my life screaming along lol they were fantastic incredible showstopping etc etc i tried to take some videos but i was just vibing (and shaking) too much i had to give up. but it was so nice to finally go to a concert that i had the lightstick for
went into the concert with solid 3rd bias (etion) and came out of it 3rd bias as seungjun lol. theres a lot to talk about song-wise but ill save that for later. in short, i almost cried when they did bye my monster. and tmwl. and byubyu.
also elle i did record asteroid for you (not that its a good video, or one that ill share...) but it did remind me of you lol! they did difficult & moscow moscow which were both surprises to me but very welcome. all day as well was fantastic!
about halfway thru the concert (but not the ballad section) i had given up on videos so i was just rocking out w the lightstick & i pretended to hit hyojins high note with the lightstick as a microphone until someone that i met nudged me & looked up to see seungjun staring at me
it was sooo funny the facial expression he was making. i cant even describe it but once we made eye contact it was like he smiled slowly literally like the grinch and went 'hehe' to make sure i knew he saw me doing that LOL
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so i knew i had to get a snapshot with him that showcased the lightstick:
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theres so much more about the concert but its all mainly about the songs & the fact i finally saw them live. but i do need to mention the fact goosebumps was practically a rave lmao loved it
after the concert was the group photo selfie which was really cool but would be better if my phones camera wasnt absolute shit & they did a more flattering angle...
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dont let this photo fool you, they are short kings (im as tall or taller than multiple of them, minkyun & wyatt are the only ones i remember being taller than me. wyatt was surprising)
i didnt really say anything memorable during snapshots bc i was just so star-struck, but i do remember wyatt going out of his way to be nice lol also i saw yuto multiple times & i was sooo mad there was only a few of us that bought premium snapshot for him. i also got along well with minkyun and highfived him again. i let most of the members choose their poses. yes i got multiple mks. yes i made him do cat ears.
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and here are all the others. i got at least 1 type of snapshot with each of the members
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anyway tl;dr best day of my life, its only downhill from here! unless they announce another tour... we shall see... im so glad they're getting so much love from fuse, i know we (both onf and fuses) have been waiting for a long time
im also very happy that there really is no reason NOT to have overseas tours... we've already beat the 7 year curse & completed military. the world is onf's oyster and i cant wait to see what they do going forward <3
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themouthwasher · 27 days ago
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sighhh, this is my selfship sideblog, for jimmy, i selfship with him
i guess you can call me LP, kinda like lp records lol, thatll be my nickname here, he/it pronouns, 18 years of age
taken by my beloved @swansuke (and jimmy too of course)
pleaseeeee check hidden theres some clarifications in there cause i know an account like this needs clarifications (plus a bit more random info bout me)
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PLEASE READ THIS!!!
yes i know hes a horrible piece of shit, i dont support his actions, i hate him, but my brain says fuck all to morals when it comes to stuff thats fictional and decided "hey this guy seems silly, im gonna fall in love now!" whenever i think of lovey dovey stuff i try to place it in a sort of au where he didnt do... all of that. but yeah, theres really no "good" way to do it is there? i get most people will see it as wrong no matter which way i try to spin it so just please block and move on if you have a problem with it
not particularly proud of the fact i selfship with him (if you couldnt tell by how ive been talking about it so far) which is reason i made this blog, im not gonna admit this to anyone else so i might as well make an account where i can love him anonymously, honestly i have quite a bit of internal turmoil over loving him but thats to be expected when its... him. expect random bouts of "i fucking hate this man he makes me so mad /srs" immediately followed by doting on him cause my brain hates me being happy
tldr; i dont support his actions and lowkey hate the fact that i selfship with him, but hey i didnt chose to fall in love (if i could chose this would be a daisuke blog just sayin)
a bit about me
uhmm ive got autism, adhd, and bpd, and i feel like that definitely all shows itself in the way i act, i guess i act pretty unstable?? im also a very paranoid person, over like, everything, idk what causes it but its basically the stereotype of what people think of when they think of paranoia, i dunno i think that pmuch sums up whats wrong with me
i draw sometimes, though i doubt ill post anything, and i like music a lot, its my spintrest (but ill try to keep music talk to a minimum lest anyone manages to figure out who i am by my music taste) other than that uhhh i guess i like horror and bugs, and i bet youll never be able to guess what my favorite game is
dont really have much of a dni? dont hate on me obviously, i wanna say proshippers dni but with the nature of this blog i feel like most of the people who would actually accept me are proshippers :/ id prefer if you guys didnt follow me if you were open about enjoying really problematic stuff but id be hypocritical to cuss you guys out, id say im an anti but at this point idc, if i have a problem with you ill just block and move on
speaking of not really having a dni, any doubles, if youre out there i guess, feel free to interact, although sometimes i do get really protective and jealous outta nowhere so do be warned
tag list!!! woohoo!!! this post is also tagged with all of em so you (or more likely i) can easily click on them and get scrolling
"💚 i can fix this" is my rambling tag, check that out to see me talk about how much i unreasonably love that man
"💚 tuplars copilot" is for fanart reblogs
"💚 kills 99.9%" is my misc reblogs tag, whether it be non fanart posts about jimmy or completely unrelated posts that i reblogged with him in mind
"💚 polle says" is my ask tag, just any posts where im answering any asks i get
"💚 lp draws" is any of my art that i post, couldnt think of anything creative for this one
"💚 chatterbox" is me either talking to other people or posting stuff that doesnt really have anything to do with jimmy (and the tags not a reference, how revolutionary!)
"💚 i hope this hurts" is things reblogged/posted with hatred or anguish in my heart, i mightve actually got seething mad at jimmy seeing/making those posts but bleh whatever its jimmy so on the account it goes
"💚 not safe for tuplar" i think im so funny, i wont be rebloging anything too extreme and ill try to keep post like these to a minimum, but thats just there if you wanna mute it i guess
"💚 favorite posts" is self explanatory
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jazzically · 1 month ago
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mag 190
wait the cultists are freaking cute
Nightmare supermarket,??? omegamart??? hello???
OMG ANIL GETS A POET CAMEO that's absolutely lovely
hey is this the first episode that hasn't had a statement??
mag 191 (why is it titled What We Lose???)
oh mh god he sleeps with his eyes open i cannot decide how i feel about that detail
MELANIE AND GEORGIE MELANIE AND GEORGIE <33
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oh..oh that's so sad...melanie no i love you please
dude this is amazing
mag 192
I LOVE THEM
new headcanon jon is very pedantic about various aspects of various works of obscure literature
ROSIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! underrated!!!!!! i think she probably looks like joan of arc but specifically the joan of arc from bill and ted's excellent adventure
ah yes me when jonny does an impression of the archivist's impression of the eye's impression of alasdair's impression of peter (seriously though he nailed it the speech patterns sounded the same in that line)
tempted to build the panopticon or the new institute tower in minecraft
OH MY WHAT
that speech was SO EPIC but also WHAT
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OK HOLD ON THIS IS THE SICKEST THING EVER. U KNOW WHY cause cause ben got to do this epic speech thing and in order to make it hit hard jon probably wrote it with a lot of consonants idk but ben's acting in the background is just AMAZING and deserves to go noticed. like HELLO CAN WE TALK ABT IT PLEASE EEEEEE it's also incredible ???? i cant yet understand what he is saying but ALSO THE SOUNDSCAPING IS BRILLIANT LIKE it makes me think of the swirling storm things over ominous buildings in like my little pony or the bossfight in the animated sleeping beauty ?? yknow dramatic cinema weather. i can hear the hurricane. IT'S SO GOOD.
umm ya :D ok i did listen through those first three minutes or so twice so i could follow along, first with the main story and then with ben's monologue which btw did i mention was INCREDIBLE it sounds similar to when the archivist did his hell-world-door-opening speech thing at the end of mag 120
yk i dont think ill get through all of s5 tonight. i thought i would but i shouldn't lol
ITS AMAZING THOUGH AAAAAAAA RRREEEEEE
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etherealspacejelly · 6 months ago
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Hey dad,
Are you out to your parents? I can never come out to mine, which creates a lot of questioning for my future.
If you are, how did you do it (I’m presuming you have parents)?
Thanks from a closeted new follower of your brilliant posts :)
I am out to my parents! I came out about 5 years ago now, it was my anniversary recently actually!
i came out to my dad first. i was going to his house for a different reason, but i decided to do it then because. idk. i just felt ready i guess. i sat down with him and he could tell something was up, so he asked me if there was anything i wanted to talk about and i said yes. and i told him i was nonbinary and aroace, and that i wanted to use they/them pronouns and go by a shortened version of my birth name (this was before i had decided on robin and he/they). he asked me what those things meant, with genuine curiosity because he hadnt heard of them before, so i explained it to him and he said ok! thats fine. and he said he loved me and supported me no matter what, and that it would be a bit hypocritical for him not to since he is queer himself (which i was not aware of at the time! he just assumed i knew??? hes pansexual lmao)
he did a bunch of research in his own time, watching videos by nonbinary youtubers and stuff like that. he learned how important it is for parents to facilitate social transition, so he took me to get my first gender affirming haircut a few weeks later. he also bought me my first binder, and took me shopping in the mens section for the first time. he also took me to my first pride that year! he has remained super supportive, calling me his son at work, greeting me with "hey my boy!" every time he sees me or calls me on the phone, has barely ever slipped up on my pronouns. basically, my dads a fucking legend lmao
i think a few weeks to a couple months after i told my dad, i came out to my mum. that went. not great. she was like. ok. and immediately went back to her phone. my heart just sank. she still gets my pronouns wrong 5 years later, she says often that i will always be her daughter. she even said that trans people are just mentally ill. she loves jkr and often uses terf talking points. but, she Says she supports me and isnt transphobic, and she Tries to use my pronouns so. yk. that makes everything ok /s
she also thinks that ill change my mind about being aroace when i find 'the right person'. i never told her about the queer platonic relationship i was in because i knew she would just use that against me. i had an entire year long relationship, and to this day she has no idea.
the thing is, my mum had always been a self professed supporter of the lgbtq. when i was a kid it was always "when you grow up and get a boyfriend or girlfriend" or "when you get married to your husband or wife", so i thought it would be a slam dunk. i thought, theres no way she wont accept me. but here we are. meanwhile, i had been quite nervous about telling my dad! i didnt know how he was going to react.
so, you never really know how these things will go. this isnt me telling you to come out, by the way! if you feel unsafe or unready then please dont. do whats right for you first and foremost. but, sometimes people will surprise you i guess, and not always for the better.
you will find your people. family is about unconditional love and acceptance, and if your parents arent providing that for you then they're not doing their damn jobs properly.
im always here if you need a dad, it would be my honour.
I love you, and I'm proud of you, kiddo :)
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neptuniadoesstuff · 4 months ago
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Finally finished this alcoholic old guy named Beef (joke) whom I'm deff not gonna take in hostage-
(Small Warning for main pics: Does contain scars & burns but those are healed so nothing too serious)
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(Danger Man McGhee on the Left, Normie Beef Man on the Right)
So I am kinda feeling better but still kinda meh atm. Anyways some art I wanted my time on & think it's not really good. (This is for a DT btw but I doubt the person I'm having the dt with will approve since kinda just... boring imo..) (Except one of my frends ON SCREb FRIKIN "SIMPS" FOR HIM BCS HE HAS A BEARD-)
(BUT UNFORTUNATELY I CANT CHNAGE THAT NOW BCS MY NECK WILL START HURTING & ILL FRIKIN H8 MYSELF AGAIN SO YAY!)
Anyways imma tell you some things about this moron:
He's a complete idiot who's a mechanic, but due to him being a idiot he often hurts himself on accident. (Which explains the burns)
He is divorced 6 TIMES! But only has one kid named Jasoer who is the child of his first spouse. (Which makes Jasper his estranged son)
He's a alcoholic & sometimes passes out from drinking a lot. (Btw kids don't drink you'll prob pass out or even die)
He's jealous of Sanchi (my Fallout OC) bcs well... Sanchi is smarter than him also bcs ANGUS IS LITERALLY JUST A STICK WHILE SANCHI CAN LITERALLY SNAP HIM IN HALF IF HE SO WANTS TO!
He gave himself the nickname "Danger Man McGhee" which is the most stupidest name to think of but hey a idiot giving himself a dum nickname is prob like "The floor is made of floor" or smtn.
Despite his stupidity & his very poor taste in men (srsly bro yur first lover literally SCRAPED YUR FRIKIN ARMS FOR SOME MALIOUS REASON), he's a good fighter, however ever since he stopped raiding, he kinda just works on machines & be lazy.
Thats really it tbh. I'm just not really to well mentally so I'm not really well motivated to actually do a thing like actually talk to ppl. (Plz don't ask why its... personal)
Some Extras:
(Warning: Does contain lots & lots of bl00d on one of the extras so beware)
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01:
The Moron w/o his cloth things & GoObLeS (God just smite me down I don't wanna be here anymore).
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02:
McGhee but w/o the goggles which aren't even canon to Fallout or FNV.
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03:
MaN, drawing the bl00d on this one was as hard as me trying to keep my sanity & not try to frikin screech at my mom anytime she won't leave me the frik alone. (Dont... ask... Again personal stuff)
Anyways that's all for the bonuses/extras. I hope you enjoy this, or don't, just don't dictate what ppl like or not, I'm just a random ahh kid on the net who draws for a hobby/living & is very much not sane.
Credits
Character was created & designed by me.
Art is mine. (Do not take w/o permission or imma throw u off a cliff)
Program: IbisPaint.
Bubs' TOS: Plz don't repost/steal, trace, or recolor my art WITHOUT MY PERMISSION! If you do, I'll take yur femur and pelvis.. SO, DON'T THINK ABOUT IT! (The PNS on my blog's pinned post clearly means "Please No Steal" plz follow that rule.) If you do post my art on anything like yur blog or somewhere else (With my permission) PLEASE CREDIT ME!
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heavens-sin · 11 months ago
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By liking this post you are agreeing to the following:
I get full rights to bother you about our characters.
this is including, but not exclusive to: Moodboards, tagging you in things i think our characters would do, musings, random starters, playlists, etc.
My undying love and affection
A special spot on my carrd just for you ♡
me sending lots of stuff in your inboxes from meme/ask posts.
This is also the call for shipping. if this is something you are interested in. if you’ve not reached out already (Though if you want to further discuss things, my IMs are open! considering.. the fucker I'm portraying - pairings are gonna be heavily selective. and discussed thoroughly with muns. ) 
if youre already on my list you dont have to worry! this is just for new followers :> though please still like this so i can make sure youre still interested since ive been absent for a while. if not let me know! ill still bully you [affectionate]
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Shipping with me can include, but is not limited to:
All them tropes.
Platonic love, antagonistic shit, etc.
this will also include the not so pleasant troped ones. of course this should be approached with extra caution. its not meant for everyone. and will be tagged and hidden under cuts.
thats including nsfw topics. all will be hidden under cuts.
Exclusive shipping rights which includes your own tags and ship verse. (I am still a multi-ship, but the exclusive ship partner does mean i will only ship with your version of a character)
Expanding ships we currently have.
Anything in between you’d like to scream about me with.
Fair warning: Shipping with me does include me becoming absolutely insufferable eventually about our characters. Also I'll only be accepting people as mains that I either already write with, OR we don't write atm but we are actively talking through IMs to plot or organise a thread or whatever.
(although i’m very willing to pop into your IMs anyway to discuss things if we havent written/talked but you are interested in being mains/exclusives).
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blue-banditt · 5 months ago
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INTRO: ... gods I'm so over typing this out for the 6th time
Hi I'm blue :] some stuff about me: I'm 21 years old, I work professionally in horticulture (seasonally rn 😮‍💨), and I'm a man. I might post about work stuff sometimes.. since I'm a full time working adult. Sorry if it gets boring
This is an anonymous account where I can talk about SH and Addictions without triggering other people. If that's not your thing, feel free to block me, as I don't tag my posts so less people see them.
I WILL however put a TW and read more cut if the post is super duper triggering, like detailed descriptions of triggering topics etc. or like pics of my scars etc.
I have a lot of mental illnesses unfortunately!! My current diagnoses are: PDD (chronic depression), DP/DR, C-PTSD, BPD (borderline), AUD (alcoholism), ASD (autism), Gender Dysphoria, and I have Misophonia too but it's not actually a diagnosis atm— that doesn't make it any less real or debilitating though!!
Diagnoses I used to have but no longer fit the criteria for: SAD (social anxiety), ADHD // I'm also diagnosed with situational mutism but recently I've been thinking it was a misdiagnosis so I no longer identify with it as a label
I highly, strongly suspect I have AvPD, and as soon as I'm in a position to request a professional diagnosis, i will.
ummmm ok boundaries;
Minors be cautious! I'm not gonna say not to interact but be aware that I probably will not be interested in becoming mutuals etc. and if you have your age/range in your bio I will steer clear of interacting with your account. Feel free to block me if it makes you feel safer
EDblr feel free to interact with me!! I may not have an ED but y'all struggle with similar comorbidities as me so if you find relatability it's chill. I don't get triggered by ED content so no worries there
DMs open to mutuals (if I've followed you back) asking for/trading SH pics is ok if you're 18+ but please dont send them unsolicited. I will not respond to people im not moots with or if you're a minor
I think that's it ??
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slimeylee · 8 months ago
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🪲🧃 || pinned -- # introduction post . *
The Whole " Being Dead " Thing
1:03 ──⚬──── 3:45
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❝ Hey , folks ! Beggin' your pardon !
'Scuse me ! Sorry to barge in ~
Now let's skip the tears and start on
The whole , y'know ... bein' dead thing ! ❞ /lyr
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## last updated ;; march 19 , 2024 ,,
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my blog introduction . . . remade !
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this blog is a semi - tickle , semi [ normal ] blog .
♡ ‧˚⊹ ❝ Ready ? Okay ! Hi ! I'll be your guide !
I'll be your G-U-I-D-E to the other side ! ❞ /lyr
๋ ࣭ ⭑ 🧷 ABOUT ME
⚝ . * || names i go by are ;;
— slime
— loser
— les / leslie
— kenny
i steal most of my names from my favs :3
nicknames are okay , but i prefer them from closer moots only .
* . ^ i am a minor & my birthday is on april 1st . NSFW & 20+ DNI + DNF . 20+ & sfw are free to int .
please do not be weird and also do not dm if over 20 preferably please n tyy
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⟡ i identify as nonbinary and omnisexual . i am taken ! and have a preferece for females
i use they / it / xe / star pronouns .
i am still experimenting with he / she n idk if im more comfy w one , the other , or both . so i didnt add them . pls dont use them unless i say
you do not have to use my neopronouns . at the least just use they them
๋ ࣭ ⭑ 🧷 BYF
— i am unhealthily obsessed with my fandoms and characters . and i will post about them daily .
— i make kys / kms jokes . they're never serious / gen
— slurs . i say FAGGOT and FAG a lot . its all / lh i swear
— i have a very difficult time reading tone . please dont misuse or overuse tone tags but use them .
— i get attached to people easily so i might talk to u a lot
— i am not usually dry but i will try to match peoples energy most of the time !!!
— i use emoticons !! and i often talk in caps
— i have a typing quirk ( spaces before punctuation ) n im also either VERY GOOD or very bAD with spelling theres no in between .
i also never use grammar i hope you never expect me to use grammar
๋ ࣭ ⭑ 🧷 DNI / DNF
— basic dni criteria . [ this includes but is not limited to ;; racist , homophobic , transphobic , ableist , proship / comship , etc . ]
— nsfw or primarily nsfw blogs
— 20+ blogs that are nsfw
— tickle kinks / fetishisers
— people who misuse tone indicators
— extra sensitive people cuz i make insensitive jokes sometimes . im also a helluva boss , hazbin hotel , and south park fan so
— wilbur soot , dteam fans
— i love talking abt my fixations and fandoms PLS TALK TO ME ABT M FANDOMS also im so sorry if i post a lot abt a singular topic its just bcus im rly excited abt them . or it or whatever it rly is
.𖥔 ݁ ˖ [ are you still reading ? maybe leave a follow .. im pretty kewl rite ?! :3 ]
๋ ࣭ ⭑ 🧷 FANDOMS
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- south park
- hazbin hotel
- helluva boss
- dsmp / mcyt
- beetlejuice the musical
- total drama island / action / world tour
- my little pony [ friendship is magic & equestria girls ]
inside out
- sally face
- fnaf
✮ bold italics are fandoms i will write for
✮ bolded are fandoms i might write for but im unsure ;; you can send requests for these and ill lyk if i will do them .
✮ italics are fandoms that im in but wont write for
fandoms that are unlisted you may ask if ive heard of them . this list can always be updated as well !
๋ ࣭ ⭑ 🧷 TAGS
#slimey-thinks ;; my thoughts
#slimey-selfrbs ;; self reblogs
#slimeyLER ;; ler mood
#slimeyLEE ;; lee mood
#slimeySWITCH ;; switch mood 😭
#slimey-reblogs ;; reblogs
#slimey-asks ;; asks
#slimey-art ;; my drawings
#slimey-fics ;; my fanfics
#slimey-ficlets ;; short fics / oneshots ( ? )
๋ ࣭ ⭑ 🧷 CHARACTERS I WON'T WRITE FOR
hazbin hotel characters __
— valentino - self explanatory
— lilith - dont know enough abt her
helluva boss characters __
— stella - self explanatory
— striker - dont know enough abt him ( he could be a side char or mentioned in a fic tho )
— mammon - self explanatory
— verosika's team [ -vortex maybe ] - dont know enough abt them
south park characters __
— linda and stephen stotch - self explanatory
— liane cartman - i hate her
dsmp members / characters __
— dream
— wilbur
— punz
— georgenotfound
— sapnap
you're free to request any characters from BJ , MLP or TDI/A/WT and ill lyk if ill write for them :3
and any characters unlisted you can request , ill let you know if i will do the req and or if im adding a new character to one of these lists
๋ ࣭ ⭑ 🧷 WHAT I WILL WRITE
for tickle fics :
— pinning down ( no tying )
— feathers , wings , nails , hands .
— ALL SFW
— angst
— fluff
— hurt / comfort
— ships romantic and platonic
๋ ࣭ ⭑ 🧷 EXTRA
i like to roleplay !! but i am rusty so bare with me ok
i love drawing and i like to sing :3
i also used to play gacha club / gacha life 2 a lot
anddd thats pretty much it :3 ty for reading and make sure to FOLLOW ME i am very cool .
maybe
♡ ‧˚⊹ ❝ See , I wasn't kidding , its a show about death ! ❞ /lyr
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lazinni · 2 months ago
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All the Kalafina drama is making me so angry. People spent YEARS spamming Wakana, Keiko and Hikaru with how much we miss Kalafina. (I do, too! But lt rubs me the wrong way that people can't respect their will). Now they offer a concert so we can enjoy their music once more, and all they got is a massive amount of hate.
They probably posted the announcements expecting a happy reaction, but they got so many attacks and mean comments... I feel so so bad for them.
I actually understand Kajiura. It's heartbreaking that she (most likely) found out via twitter/news instead of being told by someone. She has all the right to be furious. And I 100% respect her decission and support it.
However, she shouldn't have made a post like that. Her feelings are valid, but when you have such a big following, you should be more careful with your public statements. She should have talked about it privately first. She should have listened to the girls' reasons. Because I feel no one had ill intentions, and all of this was just a massive misunderstanding.
Even if she tried to sound less harsh on her next tweets, at that point there was so much damage done already.
I'm sure Kajiura's intentions were not bad either, she just shared how she genuinely felt. But the way it was worded blew things out of proportion.
"they're trying to remove Kajiura from the project" "they're replacing Kajiura" "they think they are better than her" mmm no???? All that was announced was a anniversary live. No one mentioned resuming "full time" activities. Nor releasing new music. It was wrong no one contacted Kajiura earlier, but as far as we know, no one is "stealing" her project.
For me, it's more like a tribute live. A tribute for her 10 years of work, and a tribute for us.
I agree Kajiura is the one who created and shaped Kalafina's identity. I dont think there's another group with such an unique and varied discography.
For me the best Kalafina era music-wise was 2008-10. I agree back them the girls were more like Kajiura's "instruments", and Kalafina was Kajiura.
But I feel with time girls grew so much. They became Kalafina. Their stage presence and charisma were a big part of the success of the group.
In fact, most anime tie-ins since 2010 (besides Meguca), the one they became popular for, are pretty bland and generic songs. What made them special was the way they performed it and how they shone in stage.
Imo Kalafina became "mainstream" not (just) because of the quality of Kajiura works, but because of the girls. (don't get me wrong, she does have a lot of great works.... But the anisongs are not one of them).
In fact, I dont enjoy as much FJ lives. Despite Joelle/Yuriko/Kaori being much better/stable vocalists than Wakana and Hikaru, the vibe is completely different and (for me) not as enjoyable. Kajiura is still my fave composer and all the girls are great..... But Hikaru/Keiko/Wakana work too well.
Also, I don't think it's fair to talk as if girls "owe" everything to Kajiura. They gave her their best years, the best moments of her voices. Hikaru and Wakana lost their chance to became solo artists when they were on their best.
They're all adults, that's the decisions they made and no one is to blame about them. But my point is, both parts put a lot of work into the project. It's not like Kajiura was some charity who wanted to help them, they worked their asses and they *deserved* to be part of the group.
Please don't get me wrong. I don't want to shit on Kajiura, I think she's a genius and the one who made everything possible. But the girls don't deserve to be treated as if they were less than her.
This is not about picking a side, but about respecting everyone.
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yveltalreal · 10 months ago
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Redoing this because Yveltals old one was shit.
Welcome to the rotumblr blog for the real actual god of death Yveltal! They/It/She/He pronouns. She enjoys Barbie media, baking, playing various video games I show him, listening to classical music like the old geezer (/aff) she is, and spending time with its family and friends. Do not call her a bacon bird or a murder chicken or anything like that, she doesn’t like it. Also you can ONLY call her Yveltal. If you are allowed to call her something else they will tell you. This is primarily their blog, I just live here.
I’m Maple, host of the Reaper System! I use He/She/They and we use She/They/It collectively! We’re Yveltal’s Chosens and frequent hijackers of this blog because we can’t be assed to make our own!! There’s me (#from m), Whirlybird (#whirlybirds musings), Circut (#circuits circus), Marble (#marble posting), and Acer (#acer speaks). We’re attending university at Naranja-Uva Academy and also are Paldea’s very own Dark Type gym leader (Fuck you, Iono! It’s my gym now!) You might also occasionally hear from my rotom, .ZIP, or my Ninetails, Glacier. I don’t think any of the others know how to use rotumblr.
some of the others in question are:
Pickle - Meowscarada (Service/Partner pkmn)
Dash - Cyclizar (We do a lot of racing)
Hephaestus - Houndoom/Lycanroc hybrid (Service/Partner pkmn)
Glacier - Chimeric Shiny Alolan Ninetails (Alpha)
Little - Shiny Scolipede
Bubblegum Bitch/Bibi - Shiny Lopunny (Freak)
Eepy - Zoroark
Tami - Absol (Basically my mom)
Biscuit - Hydreigon (General in the Deino Army)
En Passant - Kingambit
Wave - Wattrel
Sneeze - Houndour
Theres a couple others like the rest of my gym team and all of en passant's army and a few others. Also I USED to have a kilowattrel named storm but. lets not talk about him :D
Oh, also sometimes I turn into a houndoom for a little bit and it’s Zygarde’s fault apparently.
OOC UNDER THE CUT!
okay hi second pinned post yippe.
likes and follows come from @vibossvi
peliper mail, musharna mail, and magic anons are on if i think theyre funny enough/arent like annoying or really fucked up, and in this vein musharna malice (sending nightmares) is off. you can also send ic anon hate just dont be like. too over the top with it. i may smudge the rules if what you send is something im not particularly freaked out by and can figure out how theyd respond, but dont push it. if you aren't completely sure just like ask me with a dm or something, either here or over on discord if you already know it (im not giving it out just in case. if you know you know, and if you dont you dont.)
mod and characters are adults however reaper system does include a little in it and also im just generally not comfortable with nsfw?? i might make slur jokes or kys jokes so keep that in mind but i do tag them and thats p much the extent ill go.
while high stakes shit might be mentioned (i will tag it as high stakes) uhhh it probably wont be too much?? at least other than occasionally mentioning offhand highstakes events.
maple and yveltal primarily exist within a discord rp, meaning events, characters, lore, and places specific to that rp may be mentioned on this blog ans maple and yveltal will favour interactions with people from that rp as they will have already been friends/know eachother but i will try to interact with others as well as long as you dont contradict any of my lore too much!!
mod and character are both systems so please be normal about that. this means dont be systemphobic but also dont try to drag me into like discourse about endogenic systems.
homophobes/transphobes/racists/other bigots are not welcome. neither are pedophiles/maps/no-maps/pears or whatever the fuck you call yourselves. also general rule of dont be a freak /neg and just dont be an asshole. the amount of batshit anons i have that you people should not be sendinf a random guy roleplaying a bird on the internet is insane.
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heroictoonz · 6 months ago
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not going to comment on the ramcoa stuff? yeah thought not.
Crazy how I have a life and a job and didn't give a shit to respond to u when I'm busy n only scrolly tumblr idly but since u clearly got a thing for me ill bite cause you also need my opinions reexplained to you like a child
Also I googled ramcoa cause I didn’t know what that word means (i also didnt know what endo meant till like earlier this fuckin year cause everyone was being very loud and annoying about it) and all I got was "RAMCOA is an acronym for Ritual Abuse, Mind Control, and Organized Abuse." which like. what the FUCK are you even talking about mind control? fucking ORGANIZED ABUSE this is like classic cult aligned shit how does this even relevant to endos and that stuff. please tell me this is a word or acronym for something else that google isnt telling me cause just genuinely huh
listen i took a look at the link u sent i dont wanna post that cause i dont want ppl harassing others on the internet like you seem to want but just for the love of fuck listen to me for two seconds like honest to god read my words and let them sink in
the post you sent me i have literally no context for to me it looks like a shit post. ive made jokes like that before and i need to reiterate that they are JOKES and i am NOT ENDO and i say shit for goofs cause to me and my friends its funny. whether it is or is not a joke is, honestly, not my business. I dont know that person personally i dont know their life i dont know their story so i dont set it as my mission to find people i dont agree with and flip my shit at them. again. life. job. no interest. im 24 and literally not my job to babysit other ppl on the internet i block who i dont like follow who i do and live on w my life (which. highly recommended for all. you too Chuck. makes life so much more livable)
in regards to ur stuff about misinformation the way I see it is people will spread bullshit about just about every topic under the sun. it is, once again, not my job to go around "um actually" everything on the internet. if someone asks me a question i answer if someone im directly talking to has wrong information i try to correct them
When it comes to a lot of people, however, not many of them want to change their minds on things. sometimes some people arent even at a point of their life to be open minded and listen. which, im not gonna stress myself out to correct someone else. Even i had a point in my life where i was so hardheaded and full of hate (it was a weird cringe culture group i was in and didnt think for myself and honestly i caused a lot of damage in that time of my life and even now I regret it. But man thats life. And like if i try to correct and if they dont listen i go okay and dip after a point (which, for you. is prob gonna be here. cause im gonna say all my thoughts here and be done with this conversation honestly also work is suuuuuper busy rn like fr wish me luck w this summer season sobs) theres a part of me that hopes you will either see reason with this reply and chill out or you will continue to disagree with me but at least for both of our sanity stop messaging me either way i wont be replying again to you just so you are aware
now im just gonna be so fucking blunt here. do i believe endo is a thing? (ie: people can be systems without trauma) honestly? i dont know! here is how i see it; im not a medical professional. I have an interest in psychology i have a copy of the dsm5 cause im a nerd (its with my law books. again. im a nerd.) but im no scientist. at the same time; i dont really trust medical professionals all that much? i would like to. really i would. but it always feels like so many of them dont take the time to actually try with diagnosis. too many people of color or fat people and shit like that always say that they are constantly misdiagnosed or ignored due to predigests. again, because i was born a girl i was never diagnosed properly when i was a kid. this happened twice actually! and even then ive had to deal with doctors and therapists who dont believe me even WITH a formal diagnosis to my name. ive had a therapist tell me that i DIDNT have bpd because i was, in her words, "too nice" and she refused to start me on cbd insisting the doctor was wrong. its scary as fuck honestly. plus, like i said in the last post, mental health is so under researched. which is also so scary to me. theres so much that doctors dont know. that WE dont know. theres so much that doctors get wrong. sometimes cause theyre only human and sometimes cause they willfully ignore patients.
so, the way i see it, is that maybe you can have a system without trauma or maybe you cant. i dont know personally and where i stand i dont know how much credit i would put to research done on a mental disability that is still to this day so disgustingly stigmatized and viewed as dangerous or scary. ive seen split. i know david haller (i like david haller but also every time i think about the live action show or how they really treat him as a character i sob in my little heart every fuckin day man fr) so to me i chalk it up to 'fuck if i know' and move on.
The other thing is that since i personally am not an endo in my head i also have no evidence to form a hard opinion on this at all. Again, my system DID come from trauma. In fact, for most of the system mates i can pinpoint exactly which traumas and/or parts of my life they came from (some i dont but i am also pretty sure im missing a very large chunk of my middle school memories so who the fuck knows) but honestly. if you have a hard opinion on the yes or no here thats fine youre intitled to your own opinion ig
but you shouldnt harass people on the internet or accuse them of being fake. this is what my problem is with anti-endos.
This has also been my like, whole side of this conversation. Which is why im really begging you to listen and read my words cause i very much think you are reading me wrong here. I literally couldnt give less of a shit about your personal opinion on this kinda stuff. Like i dont know you were not friends you’re a random anon on the internet. You disagreeing with me does not phase me one bit. I clearly have stuff to say but thats just cause i talk a lot and like to share my thoughts more than anything else. Honestly. You can send me a like one sentence question and ill accidentally reply with an essay. Have you SEEN the rants ive been on lmaooo
What does frustrate me, is that you feel the need to harass people and accuse people of faking stuff for attention with NO fucking thought. When you sent your first anon i can only assume its cause i reblogged my friend Wendy’s post about endos and syscourse (i hate syscourse so much but MAN that is a good fucking play on words it almost makes me mad lol) you asked if i had did/osdd and i said yes and you IMMEDIATELY went into my asks and accused me of being 1) an endo and 2) faking for attention despite that neither of those can be inferred by my answer especially when i 1) never once said I WAS endo personally (because. Again. Not) and 2) i specifically explained in my first response (thinking u were just a good natured random) that while, yes, i am a system, i dont talk about it very openly or much at all only vaguely mentioning it here n there on my personal blog when i feel the need or want on a specific topic (like when i made a joke post about being a system and watching RvB and the Meta who is this character that has a buncha AI crammed in his head). If anything, it makes you more fuckin wrong cause me NOT mentioning being a system almost ever shows more to the light that im NOT focusing on wanting attention or shit like that if anything i think i make more jokes about being autistic and trans. Are you gonna accuse me of being fake trans and fake autistic just for attention? Because i talk about it more? No, cause that would make like zero sense. (Unless u want to ig tho honestly i think being called a fake trans would be so funny as anon hate like genuinely that would make me snort i think. Guy who uses he/him and openly talks about having periods and shit like that accused as fake trans rguireghrhuigr)
To me, at least, you have already proven that your ideology is flawed. Your method of pointing out ‘fakes’ and ‘attention seekers’ is just really nonsensical. Either that or you do honestly have the reading comprehension of a five year old. The oooonly reason i could maaaaaybe see you thinking im ‘attention seeking’ is when I vaguely mentioned in the tags of that first post that I had a system specific blog however i also 1) do not advertise it nor did i put the name of it on that post OR ask you to follow it and 2) admitted that its barely ever used. Again, still making no sense to your accusation
And like, honestly, at the end of the day, accusing people you dont know on the internet just by random posts they post or terminology they identify with for being fake is just so, in your own words, gross. You dont know these people’s lives. You dont know what they’ve been through. Again, completely ignoring whether you can or cannot have system without trauma my original long response talked about how the person identifying as endo might actually have trauma and not know/recognize it as such and by harassing them you are only making everything worse for them. You LITERALLY do not know these people. You dont know me and you made that very clear when you were so crushingly wrong about me by literally just the second anon you sent.
As someone who deals with the anxiety and fear that i am secretly a fake and dont know it, not just about being a system but like. A SHIT ton of stuff in my life, it does not help when random fucking people come accusing me of that exact fear. Going back to that therapist who tried to tell me she didnt think i had bpd it took me SO FUCKING LONG to accept i did in fact have bpd after that. And it was fucking painful to deal with mentally. When every sign in the motherfucking book pointed to YES i have this thing but all it took was ONE woman with a degree to tell me i was ‘too nice’ and suddenly my world fell apart. I no longer felt like i had a name to the feelings and thoughts i was suffering from. Dude that shit SUCKS it is SO painful and stressful. Like literally, please, for the love of all that is holy, do not inflict that on others. You might think youre bringing justice in some weird way but theres a higher chance that you are hurting people just as much as you seem to think endos cause hurt.
Now, because i know you SO DESPERATELY wanna know my opinion on the post you sent in the unanswered ask, honestly? I dont know how much i agree with that persons post. Like. Playing in the field of maybe that was an honest to god opinion and not just like a joke they were making, really not sure how i feel about it. In my opinion, i wouldn’t be running around trying to get my brain to spawn in more little fuckers to deal with. But i also have a lot of mixed feelings about being a system and my headmates. For one i dont get along with all of them, and not all of them get along with each other. Shits really annoying and in some extreme cases stressful as fuck. Every time something new pops into existence, I’ll be real, im kinda scared. I dont know how things will once again change or shift. And my head is just a single head. Its one brain that now has to deal with so much going on i get a lot of headaches and dissociate sometimes even in the middle of doing things or talking to people cause shit will just randomly become chaos (tho im sure other mental things attribute to all that too here n there idk) but I wouldn’t say i hate being a system. I also dont think id ever wanna do that like fuse therapy shit and get rid of the others. Both out of a fear of losing myself and a fear of losing some of them. That shit sounds kinda scary to me. And where, yeah theres some that i dont get along with, there are others that i do get along with! And love a lot! I jokingly call some of them my siblings cause a lot of them have been around since i was a little kid (tho ill admit for a while I thought i just had a REALLY strong imagination and that for some reason my imaginary friends kept talking to me even as an adult till i finally realized hm. Maybe this is not the case. Lol) so like ya you’ll never see me honest to god saying ‘man i wish i had MORE random bastards in my head’ but like, thats just me
I’ve met so many systems and a lot of them are different. I’ve met some that WANT to fuse (i dont think thats the word they use for that therapy but i just got home from a stressful 8 hours on The Grind so I can’t think words all too well lol) ive met people that LOVE being a system people who hate it people who are pretty indifferent to it. I’ve met systems who are have a different person fronting every day ive met systems where you almost never see or hear from the others and its just primarily the host that takes charge. So many different people feel differently about the same things. That’s just life. But I am not gonna use ONE post randomly shown to me to 1) make an assumption on someone (especially something as harmful as faking) or 2) as a valid reason to harass them. Especially not when the person showing the post to me has only acted hostile towards me. Like honestly. Genuine tip here, being rude and mean to people is not how you try to change their minds or try to educate them on something. Walking into my house and telling me im the fake hedgehog just cause of one post and one answered ask and then trying to tell me im wrong is like so not the way my guy fr
I’m pretty sure ive said my entire peace on the matter here. So yeah, again if you send me any more anons i wont be answering them. I’m saying this just to try and save you some time and also some peace of mind. Honestly, please block me. Please forget my existence and go live your life. Its honestly worrying how you have now spent like two days in my anons about this shit, like i am not even joking like the joke is over please please please finish reading this, block me, and go watch one of your favorite comfort movies and smile i mean this so seriously
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