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HELLO ALL!!!! APPARENTLY I STILL HAVE FOLLOWERS HERE, DESPITE HAVING WRITTEN SHOCKINGLY LITTLE!!!! SO IM HERE TO EXPLAIN WHERE IVE BEEN OVER THE PAST??? YEAR???? I THINK???

PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE THING I BEG

SO SOME BACKGROUND

i started this blog at 13!!!

i was a HEAVY dsmp fan and it was my biggest hyperfixation at the time

i was very mentally ill and was getting zero help whatsoever :,(

i also had literally no friends to talk about dsmp with because they had all lost interest D:

SO WHAT HAS CHANGED?

im 16 in like three weeks! crazy!!!

i use he/she/fae/it pronouns

im not very into dream smp anymore, and im not a wilbur supporter whatsoever. sorry not sorry lmao

im also an intense dream anti. not in the sense that i hate all dream smp enjoyers, because a lot of good came from it! but i do not like that man

honestly i didnt when i started this blog, but i was discreet about it (i think i was - i refuse to go through my old posts)

i am still on tumblr, you can find me at @simonfairchildirl

im also on ao3, under daftdaffodils! my current wip is "Slay The King", a treebark slay the princess au, featuring many other life series members :3

WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE??

honestly? i dont know

the people i wrote about have grown and changed a LOT since i started this account in autumn of 2022, and just as i have, they have moved on from the dream smp. i personally don't want to keep writing about what is essentially a time capsule of who they were. no hate to people who still write for them, obv, it's just not for me :)

since i still have an interest in mcyt, i may consider writing some life series bits and bobs here and there, but that would depend on what you lot at home want!

i would have to look into specific boundaries because, whilst a lot of ccs on the ogmcyt/hermitcraft/life series side just. dont care about fan content, a lot of boundaries are very up in the air.

also martyn littlewood is a fucking heathen and is watching like big brother iykwim

obviously, any followers from here are free to move over to my current blog, but i cant promise that any updates about a potential life series blog will be posted there! if it does happen, itll most likely be posted about on here :)

CONCLUSION

when i logged back into this account i didnt even remember this blog, and to come back to such lovely support has genuinely made my day.

if 13 year old me saw this, she'd be so happy, and that means more to me than any kind of embarrassment or cringe i might feel.

i am proud of all that i did here, but given that my last writing was like. early 2023? late 2022? i dont know. anyway it's probably time to leave it behind lol

i wont be deleting any of my work, because as much as i do not support wilbur (SHELBYSUPPORTSQUAD WOOOO), this is literally an archive of the bare minimum of my old work, which i think is cute lmao. i like looking back and seeing that my writing style hasnt changed whatsoever lol

thank you all for being so kind to me while i was here, especially anons, you guys were lovely <3

perhaps I'll see you again soon ;3

bye!!!!!!

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I'm very sorry if you've sent a request between now and late February/early march, but burn out is a bitch right now and making it very difficult for me to write anything that I don't absolutely hate.

Asks are still open, especially for anons <333

Requests aren't happening at the moment, but if Tumblr hasn't ate them by the time I've got motivation again, I'll definitely get to them :)

- Marin <3

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can we be lonely together

We deffo can <3

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MARIN!! how do you like the QSMP so far??

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I honestly don't know very much about it :,)

From the clips I've seen, I'll definitely be watching some of the vods. It honestly looks hilarious.

However, I do find the thing with dream making the "first" multilingual Minecraft server stupid, albeit hilarious. Personally, I don't support dream, though I try not to judge those who do. However, this screenshot from after dream released his new SMP made my fucking day.

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marin alive challenge! my birthday is soon. imagine it being reader birthday but them not telling creator? (and birthday is not open to public) CUS IM FEELING SILLY!!!

sorry if it’s a lil complicated. - ☕️

You can't expose me like that

AND I'M SORRY IF YOUR BIRTHDAY HAS ALREADY PASSED, BUT HAPPY LATE/EARLY/ON TIME BIRTHDAY ☕ ANON!!!! :D

You didn't specify who you wanted, so I did a few short headcanons for each person on my list :]

Pronouns: they/them

TW: none

To you, your birthday was always your business - nobody else's.

You celebrated with your family and your friends in real life

You'd never revealed your birthday to the public

You liked your privacy and it felt a little too risky for your taste

You were showing one of your favourite gifts you'd received today, having forgotten they didn't know your birthday.

It takes Ranboo a second to realise that he didn't know your birthday in the first place. He thought he'd been told and just forgot about it, so he sat there apologising for forgetting about your birthday for a good five minutes.

Tommy is about shouty, tbh. He's in shock that you told him your birthday by showing him the fucking cow print trousers that your mum got you.

Tubbo kind of forgets he didn't already know your birthday. He's just going with it, like he knew all along. He tries not to make a big deal out of it.

Niki is quite honoured that you've told her. She doesn't know a lot about you, since privacy is very important to you, so she's glad you're letting her into that part of your life.

Jack finds it quite funny that this is how he's finding out it's your birthday. Yes, he's glad you trust him with that information, but that doesn't mean it's not quite funny. He'll probably forget you don't share your birthday online though, and he might let it slip.

Wilbur is quite annoyed that you only just told him. Not because he feels entitled to know, but he's annoyed that he hasn't had time to get you anything, so he sends something to your house to arrive tomorrow with Amazon prime.

Schlatt half-thinks it's a joke - a way to throw him off and make him think it's your birthday, when it's actually not. He's quite confused when you laugh at him for thinking that.

C!Techno, though he doesn't act like it, is glad you told him. To everyone else on the SMP, you were a mystery. Nobody knew where you were from or when you were born, so he was quite honoured to know. He tries to throw something together as a small gift, though.

Phil is in disbelief that you've told him with no issues - so casually. He's glad you told him, it proves that your relationship really has changed over the time you've known each other.

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I KEEP LOSING REQUESTS, BUT 🛐 ANON I SEE YOU, YOU'RE ONE OF US. I'LL TRY TO REMEMBER YOUR REQUEST OR YOU COULD RESEND THE REQUEST OK ILY BYE

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p!cc!schlatt w teen!reader who met because they both joined the dsmp at the exact same time and they ended up getting terrifyingly close? n maybe a drabble or hcs, up to you!

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Omg pretend this isn't a month late.

They/them pronouns for this one 🫶

TW: swearing

You were the last person Schlatt expected to befriend from this SMP

He knew some people, and he knew of some people

You, however, where a complete stranger

You two spoke a bit when you first joined, and it felt oddly natural

It was weird to talk to someone he'd just met (nevermind a CHILD) like he'd been best friends with you for years

You just had that effect on people, I suppose

Lots of weird jokes came out of your unlikely friendship

"Hey, that is my CHILD you're talking about, back the fuck up."

A very bad influence on you

Definitely convinces you to do very out of pocket things

Likes to call you when you're at school, especially if you live in a different timezone

"Hey man, what's up?"

"It's six o'clock in the morning where you are, why the fuck are you ringing me?"

"Damn, would a hello have killed you or something?"

Yeah.

This man is a risk to your mental stability (assuming that you have any)

A very "I don't care what you do but don't get hurt" sort of older brother figure

He'll only snitch on you to someone else if he thinks you'll actually get hurt from what you're doing

And even then he'll try to get you to stop himself before he calls someone

Very much wants to meet up with you

Would pay for trains, flights, whatever it took

Would even drive or fly to you himself if you couldn't

Always tells you to stay in school and not drop out

He wants you to have a backup plan if things don't go to plan, and I honestly rate that

Doesn't mean he won't call your teachers stupid and say your work is pointless, but you win some, you lose some

But if you're genuinely not getting anything from it and it's a waste of your time, he'll just tell you to do what you think is best

Goes feral when you get weird people in your chat

"THAT IS A CHILD. A LITERAL CHILD."

Doesn't matter if you legally become an adult, you're still a child

You two have a joke where you call him old and he calls you an infant

"You're basically a fetus, shut the fuck up."

"Alright grandad, calm down. We have to be back at the home soon."

You're both very chaotic

pretend this isn't incredibly short because I'm trying to get some writing out :,)

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How dare you leave this in the tags

Can you imagine if we had dream SMP members in a series with those from Hermitcraft and Empires? More specifically, a double life-esque thing?

Well I have, so you're going to as well.

Phil, who survived five years of hardcore Minecraft, with scar, who survived five minutes of Hermitcraft season 9

Eret and Ren is just a very fun duo, I think

Grian and Wilbur - just two little guys

Tommy and Jimmy, who are relentlessly bullied by Grian and Wilbur.

Jack and Doc - a robot guy and a redstone guy. I think their characters would be very interesting together.

Schlatt, who swears in every sentence and Mumbo, who hasn't sworn since 2009 /exag

Techno and Lizzie. The blood god and the literal cat girl.

Tubbo and Katherine, he was a bee, she was a flower girl, can I make it anymore obvious? but platonic

Ranboo and Joe Hills. I haven't watched very much of Joe's content, but I think they have some similar vibes

I can rant about this idea, I can run with this-

If I get bored and I've finished my requests, I'll deffo be making this into something >:)

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Genuinely one of the best fics I've ever read, I can say this without shame

HEY

If you like Renthedog and Docm77 and/or are interested in reading some good and comforting DID representation in a fic consider checking out my fic Strangely, He Feels at Home in this Place

It was finally completed TODAY so all twelve chapters are up to be read rn :)

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Can you imagine if we had dream SMP members in a series with those from Hermitcraft and Empires? More specifically, a double life-esque thing?

Well I have, so you're going to as well.

Phil, who survived five years of hardcore Minecraft, with scar, who survived five minutes of Hermitcraft season 9

Eret and Ren is just a very fun duo, I think

Grian and Wilbur - just two little guys

Tommy and Jimmy, who are relentlessly bullied by Grian and Wilbur.

Jack and Doc - a robot guy and a redstone guy. I think their characters would be very interesting together.

Schlatt, who swears in every sentence and Mumbo, who hasn't sworn since 2009 /exag

Techno and Lizzie. The blood god and the literal cat girl.

Tubbo and Katherine, he was a bee, she was a flower girl, can I make it anymore obvious? but platonic

Ranboo and Joe Hills. I haven't watched very much of Joe's content, but I think they have some similar vibes

I can rant about this idea, I can run with this-

If I get bored and I've finished my requests, I'll deffo be making this into something >:)

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I'M NOT CRYING OVER THE FACT THAT REN FACETIMES HIS MUM AND DAD EVERY WEEKEND WHILE THEY LIVE IN SOUTH AFRICA AND HE LIVES IN THE UK, YOU ARE.

I'M NOT CRYING BECAUSE HE ACTIVELY SAYS AND BELIEVES THAT FAMILY IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYTHING, YOU ARE.

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GUYS VOTE SCAR THIS IS AN EMERGENCY VOTE SCAR.

ROUND FOUR:

GOODTIMESWITHSCAR (1)

nominated from Hermitcraft, Last Life, Create Mod Server, Third Life, Double Life, Among Us, The Crafting Dead, MCC

vs

TECHNOBLADE (16)

nominated from DSMP, SMPEarth, Cyberknife, 100 Mcyt VS Natural Disasters, Minecraft Mondays, Sir Billiam, Potato Wars, Hypixel Mayor, Sky Block, TFTSMP, MCC

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HELP IM LOSING TOUCH WITH DSMP

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That happened to me for a while, but I'm autistic and it's my special interest so 🫶

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just realized that in order for my fics to be finished and posted, I’d have to actually write them myself. shocking.

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hiii marin! can we get pt 2 w/ p!cc!jack x teen!admirer!reader, blurb, and let's say reader gets uncomfortable with the teasing at some point ?

MMMM YOU SHOULD SEE THE WAY I STIMMED READING THIS

It makes me sO HAPPY that people actually like my writing, especially since it's writing about Jack, who doesn't get anywhere near as much hype in the fanfiction community as he deserves

I'm also currently pretending this isn't from before Christmas omfg

TW:

It felt stupid that you were upset because of this

You knew it was all lighthearted and you knew he didn't mean to upset you

So why did it bother you so much?

You weren't ashamed of your admiration for him, why should you be?

But that's all you seemed to be at the moment

Just... A fan-turned-friend

People didn't really seem to notice you were your own person, beyond being a jack manifold fan in the past

Jack notices your change in attitude whenever he makes one of these jokes

He's absolutely a people person, he notices little changes in the way people act

He won't ask you on stream, he doesn't want to embarrass you or anything like that

He'll wait until you've both definitely finished and you're just sat in a call together

He really doesn't know how to bring it up, my man is trying his best

He tries to do it quite casually

"You went all quiet for a bit, earlier, you alright?"

"Yep, fine."

"You sure? You can tell me if I've done something to upset you, I won't be upset."

"... I know it's stupid but like, d'you mind not making the jokes about me still being your fan? Just feels weird now."

"It's not stupid, I'd feel the same way if I were you. Sorry, I hadn't really noticed you didn't like it. But yeah, I won't do that anymore!"

God I love this man /p

He doesn't really think much of it after that

If anyone asks why he doesn't say that sort of thing anymore, he just pretends he didn't hear them or explains it in a discreet way

And will absolutely have a go at anyone that says you were being oversensitive about it

With no shame

Won't even think twice about it

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technos song :(

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OH MY GOD I KNOW :(((

I love that technodad is still staying active in the community and just filling Techno's shoes, it's honestly lovely :)

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school has trapped everyone i knnow 😟

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COVID flashbacks-