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am i translating a whole fucking book just so a friend can read it? i think so
#if i look a bit dead on tumblr this is why fellas#also my whole brain has decided that this is in fact a normal thing to do#and it's powering my motivation like a motherfucker#i mean it's easy prose and i don't think it's too long. for a published book i mean#and I'm using my 2 strongest languages so it's faster#but i dread the editing phase omg#ramblings
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We're less than a week away from moving day and not even finished packing or cleaning yet I'm so depressed and burnt out from doing Tasks and being anxious that I was barely able to warm a frozen pizza
#I'm drowning over here fr#I've spent the last 2 weeks barely able to pry myself away from the computer because ALL I could do was play Sims#and now I can't even do that and brain has decided there can be no Tasks only Drag Race#I feel like I'm doing a decent job getting things done that NEED doing immediately day by day so it won't be a last minute scramble but#the fact that we're at the point I can't even put a frozen pizza in the oven.........#there's WAY too much on my plate rn and I can't drop ANY of it to save my sanity#partially because I just can't and partially because all the responsibility has been foisted upon me#the brunt of both the financial and emotional labor for this whole ordeal has just fallen on me and it just keeps getting more and more#complicated and nobody else that's also in this situation is willing to step up to help me on either front#90% of the finances? Me. The one with no job who will wind back up with a family/in a state that would rather see me dead than who I am#if my savings run dry#99% of planning and keeping everyone on track? ALSO me#I could LITERALLY DIE if this doesn't work out and everyone else involved is like la dee dah today is a normal tuesday ❤️❤️❤️#and I'm like no 🙃it really REALLY isn't. Start doing more-#i'm so stressed and I'm terrified of what's going to happen over the next couple months
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regarding the whole thing where jazz doesn't realize prowl's whole self is a living, feeling being... the cross-cultural miscommunication potential is also how jazz and prowl could end up in a confusing situationship. Like Jazz would probably think nothing of being super touchy, and have zero respect for personal space, because to him it's *not* touch or personal space! a pilot making his mecha hang all over another pilot's mecha is just normal military misuse-of-equipment horseplay!
(like making your mecha slap another guy's mecha on its butt is solidly funny joke territory, not sexual harrassment. if we humans had mechas in real life, this is the kind of shit the pilots would constantly be doing, lbr)
So you end up with a scenario where Prowl's making friends with this weird new guy who's always getting very close, and who is touching him a lot, and it all comes across as very intimate and flirtatious, and maybe even scandalous. Except Jazz never actually asks him out or makes a real move, and Prowl is going through all the stages of gay panic and confusion.
Just Jazz consytantly unknowingly being this huge heartbreaker tease, and Prowl is just s u f f e r i n g.
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Imagine the accidental flirting, too! Like Jazz is super impressed by this Prowl guy's mecha, so he's trying to talk shop with the other pilot (or so he thinks).
Jazz: "Wow, that build you have is great! Really impressive detailing. Who did the work?"
Prowl, well-known cold construct, confused and oddly flattered: "Um, a factory in Petrex did my construction?"
Jazz, who has never heard of Petrex but also failed geography in high school, trying not to look dumb in front of this impressive 'pilot': "Oh, Petrex, sure! Well, they did a great job!"
Prowl, now totally convinced this guy is hitting on him, flustered: "Th--thanks?"
Jazz, who would like to have a competent partner to fight evil aliens, decides he needs to poach this pilot to work with him. So he slings his mecha's arm around the other mecha's shoulder, leans in real close: "You know, you and I would make a great team!"
Prowl: *crashes from full blown gay panic*
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Sorry for spamming your ask box with so much brain rot but holy shit do I love all the potential of the AU you came up with, I can't stop thinking about it, I had to shake some of these ideas out of my brain to share!
Yes yes ABSOLUTELY YES
Also the fact that for pilots opening the chest plates is the same as open a door but for Cybertronians it means MARRY ME RIGHT NOW ahahahaha
(Or Amica endure too. But point stands hehe it's very intimate gesture)
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Not me deciding that I wanna figure out how does Macaques dojo work, cuz I couldnt seem to find any ideas of it on the internet lol
Okay so long long LONG rant:
Ik that in canon the whole place looks kinda-- moldy and shit and I get the lot of hc about how Macaque probably doesnt even live there since its in a very industrial outer neighborhood of Megaplois, and also it probably isnt really decorated or looks like someone is living in there at all, but I like to think that he has standards and they put like 272636373 nois cancelation seals on their bedroom so he can sleep camly when he actually can sleep (since in my hc Macaque suffers from insomnia (its a pretty common hc tho, but you get it)) and I think the outer circle of Megaplois is even tho industral and under constructuion on most parts, its probably more quiet than downtown
And I also like to imagine, Macaque even tho if not commited to a place will make it more homy. But looking at my reference pictures, in the dojo there were also a lot of posters and paintings (and in MKAGC Macaque did mention he might have a poster of wukong soooo~~)
For the layout I went after whatever felt right, since I had like 4 pictures to piece together a two-story house with a gallery(??) so its actually just me deciding what I want and where I wanna put it
(Here are the screenshots from lmk s1ep9 I used:)
Okay Okay if you couldnt tell, for some reason im really hyped about this stuff so im going to lead you trough my thougtprocess, when imagining this whole thing, in order from ground level to gallery
1. Ground level:
Ahh yes ground level: the problem child
(Im going to keep it somewhat brief here cuz I wrote a shit ton of explanations for it, but that somehow got deleted which I am super pissed about btw)
So I saw that a lot of hc with Macaques place are mostly that first floor is the dojo and the second floor is the living area, buuut~~ based on the screenshots of the series that doesnt make any sense. My reasoning? Simple really, its bc you can see the ceiling If you are standing in the dojo. This could lead to the conclusion that:
"Okay maybe then there is no second floor just a gallery in there somewhere and thats it".
Sure we can say that, but then you would ignore the fact that you cant see the front door of the building when Macaque slams Mk into a weaponstand.
"Okay then its on the other side of the room that we never got to see in the episode"
I mean maybe sure but to me from an animation point of view it just doesnt make sense, just why would they flipp the camera angle like that (I mean anyone can think whatever they want, everyones opinion is valid, its not like anyone would ever argue me on this one ((or read this whole brainrot trough in the first place lol)))
Haha anyways regardless of anything, let's go back to talking about the first floor, shall we?
Everything is pretty self explenatory: when you come in on the front door youll see a little shoe rack where you can but your shoes, and one stair to seperate the ante-room from the rest of the house
Then theres a long hall that leads to the enterence of the storageroom, the random room and the staircase that leads to the second floor
I couldnt decide on what to put in that big room-- I had no clue -- I was thinking maybe Macaque could let other people rent it for a few days of maybe theres a shop with an owner whos ranting the place from Macaque (I think thats an interasting concept, but I didnt explore any of them) oh well thats that tho
"""somewhat brief""""
Second floor:
This was probably the easiest, since 90% of it is the dojo
But before that when you walk up to the second floor you can see a big boubel door that opens to the dojo, and a normal door that opens to the bathroom, which is strategicly placed there by yours truely. There is big brain logic behind it,, it might be inconvinient for Macaque to walk down the stairs from his bedroom trough the dojo to the bathroom (but also he can just shadow portal there--), but when ocasionally he mentors Mk, he might have to go to the bathroom while hes at Macaques place and I dont think Macaque would apritiate someone stomping trough his personal area, and thats why the bathroom is conviniently placed next to the dojo and not that far from the bathroom I know im a genius (**read everything in the bathroom part with a lot of sarcasm**)
Anyways, we couldnt even see all four of the dojos walls so that was also a 'gamble', but I went with a simple bouble door that I mentioned before and two weapon stands (yes those are weapon stands) and other than that you can see the rest of the room on the screenshots, theres also the staircase and that has some closet underneath it, but thats about it
The gallery (my personal favorit):
Looking at my reference pictures i could see that the dojo took up a lot of space almost taking up the 1/2 of the building, which I think is reasonable and kinda cool, but that means small living area which I think is even cooler (I am a huge fan of small practical spaces, they feel so so cozy)
So Yeah the living space: mostly two rooms that I also illustrated on top of this post, (you probably saw it) with a balkony thingy before the enterence of the rooms, where you can look down and see the entirety of the dojo, good for observing.
When you go in the door (actually havent decided if I want to put a door there or curtains for style but meh who knows who cares), youll enter the small but spacious kitchen. I dont see the Six Eared Macaque as a homecook, more of a fake cooking guy (only making basic foods like eggs or toast, maybe ocasionally pancake), hints there is no built in stove or owen just a portable stove, a kettle and a toaster and a small fridge that has MKs drawing (that he drew for them at the end of season 3) magneted there :]
Other than that theres a sink and an old television, he got from the randomest place ever, maybe he fished it out of the trash idk, but he put it on top of the cabinets (rarely watches anything on it)
On the baseplan you can see that there was supposed to be a small table next to the sink with a chair, but it didn't make it to the final drawing cuz let's be honest: drawing interior in correct perspective without a reference picture is just not my strongest artskill I posess, so I got pissed and put a trashcan in there, Macaque can eat in his bed
Talking about bed, let's move on to the Six Eared Macaques room:
It is very small but pretty comfortable with a small bed but a shit ton of pillows for a good nights sleep, other than that there are a nightstand that has the Lantern on it (I know it sorta got lost/destroyed after defeating LBD but I wanted to put it there) and a drawer.
The nightstand probably doesnt have a lot innit, just some nick-nacks and tissues and maybe snacks, or a book or something, the drawer stores some of his clothes, but since I like to think that Macaque is a fashion icon that wont be able to fit most of their clothes, so maybe he stores them in a pocket dimension of shadows, and only has some esentials there when he needs to get ready quickly.
And we could talk about the posters plastered around the room, but most of them are kinda self-explanatory, but there are the poster of his shadowplaly of the hero and the warrior, some drawing, a "Hang in there babygirl!" Poster with a cat on it hanging in there, a poster of the monkey king (heh), phantom of the opera poster and a-- well--- that ones for my bestie hope she'll notice it, its a spies are forever poster (really fun musical a of spies, go watch it its on youtube), and a drawing he brought( maybe)
And thats about the bedroom
And we are still not done, how are we feeling about that?? Huh?? (You dont have to answert, this shit took me about 2 hours to write :] )
LAST PLACE: the corner of the windows opposit the kitchen and the bedroom. Its just a chill little place with pillows and blankets, where someone can bundle up and enjoy some tea or read a book or brood, whatever the monkey prefers. The special thing about it, is that you cant access the place without knowing how to levitate, fly, jump high, or use portals, not that much of a game changer since more than half of the lmk cast could get up there, but still a bit of a barrier in my opinion
AAAAAND~~~ thats it omg
Hi hello if you read this trough could you please comment or reblog with this: "🐵" cuz I wanna know about the brave soilders who went trough this immense amount of clownery,,, holly mother---
If you read this all 👏👏👏 you are amazing thank you for appreciating my work this much, have an amazing day or night ✨🪲
#clowning ∆#clown does art#lego monkey kid#lmk#lego monkey kid macaque#lmk macaque#lmk six eared macaque#lmk headcanon#interior design
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one thing I suddenly got very not-normal about is how mina is, of course, praised for her gentle heart, but her resolute mind also, and she is called gallant, and she is often described with words / emotion that the novel usually saves for men – to the point when van helsing says:
Ah, that wonderful Madam Mina! She has man's brain, a brain that a man should have were he much gifted, and a woman's heart.
and I was thinking how this was gradually introduced, but then actually, no
she has been our dear mina forever, but her full name is masculine in roots: wilhelmina. a female derivative of wilhelm (wilhelm, or william, the conquerer is the first who jumps to mind). and you know what the name means? resolute protection. she has always been there, a quiet warrior, a true protector, even when she herself was being protected – and she never asked her men to protect her. they just collectively decided to, and it was bittersweet and wholesome, but mina was anxious for action too. she, in fact, kept working her best to protect her mancrowd in the meantime. she was giving instructions, using imperatives right and left, strategizing like a war general.
it's just so dear to me that wonderful madam mina is there, but there is also hiding in her that feral side, commanding respect on a whole other level, that makes men count her equal. my feral wilhelmina is the best.
#dracula#dracula daily#re: dracula#mina murray#mina harker#wilhelmina#dracula meta#abraham van helsing#september 30
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i feel like im in the minority who don’t want eddie to have a slut era in general like… idk even without chris it feels so ooc for him to me, like i feel like he’s so far repressed at this point that if he didn’t wind up with buck he would end up just living the bachelor’s life…
and like i feel like that was the whole point of not having eddie and tommy be the couple this season was bc it wouldn’t make sense for eddie to step forward in that way unless it was buck… or at least that’s what i interpreted the initial decision to swap the storylines to be so maybe i’m wrong
i guess after six years i’m just tired of them dragging their feet and i’m sick of them giving them meaningless relationships with zero chemistry rather than just letting them be happy… and giving eddie a slut era would just feel like they’re rehashing buck 1.0 and i’m tired of them reusing plotlines they’ve already used for other characters (and even giving characters the same plotlines again)
like eddie can be gay without having a slut era and i kinda would like them to not play into the hypersexual queer stereotype since they’ve decided to do so w buck
One thing is 3am me is a gremlin and I don’t like her or her brain (that was the time I made that post) also she just likes to make fun of annoying people but so do I and I had seen TOO many posts talking about a straight slut era for Eddie so hence the chaos gremlin post
Normal me’s thoughts on this:
• the reason I don’t like slut era as gay Eddie canon for Eddie is like you said it’s a bit ooc but also imo like I feel like BECAUSE he’s so repressed it’d take a really meaningful and impactful relationship to give him the like motivation/push he needs to get him outta that closet (which was my same reasoning for why I was glad they didn’t do Eddie/tommy like they originally planned- cos buck just never realised it but Eddie like actively represses it and has much more like in depth reasons for it- like buck wasn’t so much in the closet as he just thought that was his room meanwhile Eddie is like in a super bolted chained Houdini level closet)
• I mentioned in the tags but I want to be FLABBERGASTED when buddie canon happens I want to let out an audible scream in shock and wake up my neighbours and realise it only after I get a noise complaint and if they make them both canonically queer it’d feel like a matter of time (funnily enough i said this but about making ONE of them queer when the bi buck rumours were going around and legit the next week or so we get 7x04 and I was right - true I didn’t anticipate bt fans and the fact that it doesn’t feel FULLY inevitable- but fingers crossed I am psychic again and we get gay Eddie)
• while I think the fact it’s so ooc would be interesting because like it’d show how Chris leaving is affecting him I feel like it’d also be a huge disservice to Eddie because his queer arc and experiences deserve better than like strangers and one night stands as a coping mechanism if you get me
• if I’m fully honest even if his queer arc doesn’t end up perfect I just want him to be canon like it wouldn’t be my ideal like honestly if they do a disservice to him I’d hate it but still I’d just take the win because gay Eddie deserves to be free from😔 like even with buck they kinda weren’t great with his arc but my joy at bi buck overpowers that
But yeah sick and tired buddie canon now Tim please😔💔
#911#buddie#evan buckley#911 abc#911 fox#911onfox#eddie diaz#evan buck buckley#buckley diaz family#asks open#send asks#my asks#send me asks#answered asks#asks#anti bucktommy#anti tommy kinard
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NOTHING GOOD HAPPENS AFTER 2 AM [Nick Ruffilo x fem!Reader]
PAIRING: Nick Ruffilo x Noah's sister
WARNINGS: 18+, SMUT, MDNI!, protected p in v, fingering, handjob, reader’s hair is mentioned if that counts as a warning, counts nicky as a warning??, idk let me know if i forgot something, this is not really proof read sry
SUMMARY: Your brother Noah's best friend has always been your weak spot. Nothing ever happened and you eventually gave up hope. But things seem to take a turn when Nick visits for a weekend and you find him in the kitchen in the middle of the night.
(y/h/c) = your hair color; (y/e/c) = your eye color
A/N: This idea came to me while I was watching HIMYM (i still dont like ted but that is another story). Sooo, the title was inspired by it. Also we have a small mention of one of my favourite white boys Rory Culkin (: I hope you enjoy!
You sighed as you finally closed your laptop and stared at the wall straight ahead of you. You had finally finished writing one of your papers for university and could relax for a day or two. Normally, this would calm you down. But given the fact that your brother’s best friend was at your apartment at the moment, left you at unease.
You remembered Nick for at least half your life. Your older brother, Noah, had met him back in school and everything was so cliché about that. Your best friend in high school had a severe crush on Noah and given the fact that you were both teenagers raging through puberty, it was no wonder that you had laid eyes on your brother’s best friend.
Years later, with nothing effectively happening between you, you would think that this crush would fade out somehow, but to your surprise, when you saw him standing in your doorway that morning, it felt like you were fifteen again.
It wasn’t like this crush was never gone, you had a boyfriend or two in the meantime, but something about Nick had and will always catch you.
One look at your phone revealed that it was almost 2 AM. Your stomach reminded you that you had skipped dinner. Your brain told you it was because you needed to finish that paper, but your heart told you it was so you could avoid getting distracted by the sheer presence of Nicholas, who was only one room away from you, probably gaming with your brother.
The last couple of months, you had successfully avoided seeing Nick for more than a couple of minutes, even though this seemed like an almost impossible task. Since your brother and you had decided to rant out a flat together, so you could share costs, everything had changed. Noah left his old band and now he was almost always occupied planning a project. He wanted to start a new band and who better to ask than his best friend, who happened to be able to play the guitar.
You sighed as your tummy started to rumble again and finally got up from your desk to find something to eat. When you walked around the corner and into the kitchen you stopped in your tracks for second. Of course, this would happen. Sooner or later, you knew this would happen.
“Still writing on your paper?” Nick asked and drank a sip out of his glass. You felt how your gaze fixated on the tattoo on his hand for a second too long, so you shook your head for a second to get your thoughts out of your head. Unsuccessfully.
“Just finished.” You mumbled before stepping to the fridge. You just settled for a yoghurt since you didn’t want to cook anything at these ungodly hours. “What are you up to?” You asked him and leaned against the counter next to him, careful not to get to close.
“Noah fell asleep and occupied the whole bed with his legs, and now I can’t fall asleep, so I decided to get out of his room.” He answered you, before running a hand through his hair. It has gotten a lot longer over time and you liked it a lot.
“I can set up the couch for you, if you want.” You offered, even though you wouldn’t want your worst enemy to sleep on that thing. Nick apparently knew that too. “I’d rather sleep on the floor… or on a board with nails.”
You laughed lightly at his statement before throwing away the yoghurt cup and then leaning against the doorframe of the kitchen.
“You could sleep in my bed, and I’ll take the couch.” You then suggested, but Nick frantically shook his head.
“Nope, I can’t rob you of your beauty sleep.” Nick quickly answered and you jokingly opened your mouth in offense. “Did you just call me ugly?”
Nick rolled his eyes, while smiling. “No, I indirectly called you a princess, y/n.”
You knew he was joking, but you still felt your cheeks heat up, so you looked away for a second, in the hopes he didn’t see it.
“I’m just gonna push your brother off his bed, don’t worry.” He then exclaimed and pushed himself off the counter. He walked past you, while you started to think. You didn’t know if it was the tiredness creeping up in your bones or your delusional head, but before you could stop yourself you started to talk again.
“You could stay in my room until you’re tired enough. We could watch a movie or something.” You mumbled so fast you didn’t even know if you understood what you said. But Nick heard you. He heard you loud and clear, considering he stopped in his tracks and looked at you again.
“You sure?” He asked. Of course, you weren’t sure, but you still nodded.
A quiet voice in the back of your voice started to whisper. It whispered the words your grandmother had always told you.
“Nothing good happens after 2 AM.”
The sentence repeated itself in your head as you walked past Nick and then opened your bedroom door for him to get in.
It felt like he looked right into your soul as his gaze wandered around the room. It wasn’t too big, but bigger than Noah’s bedroom. In exchange, he got the third room in the apartment for his music stuff. On the walls hung a couple of pictures with your best friend and even one with Nick and Noah from a wedding you went to when you were 16 or 17.
Nick’s eyes fixated on your messy desk. You hadn’t had the time to clean up.
“You wrote your paper on managing bands?” He asked and smiled a bit to himself as his gaze wandered over your notes. You stepped next to him and nodded.
“Yeah. Since I’m studying management and wanna specialize on music business, it came to me naturally.” You explained and ran a hand through your hair. It went without saying what you meant with that statement. You wanted to support your brother’s dreams and since you never had too much interest in learning an instrument yourself, you wanted to at least do something in that field.
“So, we are basically only missing another guitarist and a drummer?” Nick asked and had this tone of excitement in his voice that made you smile a little broader.
“You found a bassist?” You asked surprised and Nick nodded. “Vincent, a fellow tattoo artist. We’re good friends and he agreed to join the project.
“Oh my god! Noah didn’t even tell me. That’s so cool.” You exclaimed and before you knew you hugged Nick from the side. It took him by surprise for a second, considering you normally didn’t even hug, but soon he relaxed and ran his hand over your arm.
When you realized what you did, you quickly got out of that embrace. You hated yourself for the bubbly feeling that formed in your stomach from such a small interaction and decided to get some distance.
“So…” You cleared your throat and sat on your bed. “What do you wanna watch?”
“What are the options?” He asked and also sat down with a bit of a distance to you.
“I do not have Netflix, but I recently bought Scream 4.” You answered him and didn’t even think about the fact that you weren’t the biggest fan of watching horror movies at night. Normally you were too scared for that, but there was this little delusional part of your brain that told you it would be the best idea.
“I’m cool with that.” Nick answered you and you saw how he smiled lopsidedly for a second.
Half an hour later you both were laying on your bed, your blanket over the both of you, even though you definitely had more of it, since you always needed to get comfortable when you watched scary movies. It wasn’t like Scream was too scary, but you still didn’t want to get scared in front of Nick.
“You know, I think Scream got worse and worse over time.” Nick than said, but he blinked a couple of times when he saw how offended you looked.
“Take that back, Ruffilo.” You grumbled and crossed your arms in front of your chest.
“What? No. You can’t tell me Scream 4 is better than the first one.” He explained himself and turned to you to look at you better.
“I didn’t say that.” You answered him, but still looked offended.
“Tell me one thing that you actually enjoy about this movie.” He then demanded and if it was fate, a scene with Charlie Walker was shown.
Nick watched you intently as your cheeks slowly but surely got redder and redder. It took him a second what your reaction meant.
“Aaaah… It’s not the movie you like. Y/n has a crush on Charlie Walker.” He teased you and started to grin.
“No, I do not.” – “Yes, you do.” – “Nick, I swear-…”
“What do you like about him?” Nick asked and his tone wasn’t as teasing as before. He genuinely looked like he wanted to know.
“I don’t know.” You sighed and also turned to Nick. “I like that he isn’t popular and has a nerdy hobby. That he is shy and not an extrovert. I feel like extroverts scare me sometimes.”
Nick laughed a little and agreed with you.
“I also really like long dark hair. Especially when they have light eyes as well. I don’t know it’s just fitting.” You explained yourself further and didn’t even realize, who also had these features. You saw how Nick began to smile softly.
“You like dark long hair and light eyes?” He repeated your statement. “And introverts with a nerdy hobby?”
That was when you realized what you just told him. You swallowed hard and noticed how your stomach began to feel warm again. You looked away from his eyes quickly, not really knowing what to answer, so you simple stuttered a quiet. “Y-…yeah. I guess so.”
You were almost sure Nick wouldn’t say anything else since almost an eternity passes before, he opened his mouth again. “You know, I noticed over the years that I really like girls with (y/h/c) hair and (y/e/c) eyes. Especially in that combo.”
You had to forcefully stop your mouth from opening. You thought you must have heard it wrong. There was simply no way that Nick was really implying what you thought he was implying.
For a second, you contemplated what to do, but when nothing came to your mind, you simply looked at him again with questioning eyes. Nick started to smile a little and even though it was dark in your room, you saw the faint pink blush on his cheeks.
The words of your grandma started to form in your head again. “Nothing good happens after 2AM” You knew what you were thinking was dumb. You should have just turned to your TV again, but when you saw how his eyes travelled to your lips for a second, you decided to ignore every moral you had in your body. This would probably be your only chance, and you were dumb if you didn’t take it.
You leaned slightly forward and before you knew, you felt his lips on yours. Even though, you had never kissed before, it felt so familiar, you couldn’t help but sigh into the kiss. His breath became more strained and soon you felt a hand sneak on your waist. You let yourself get pulled closer to him.
The kiss ended sooner as you wished it had. You didn’t dare to open your eyes as you felt his breath on your face.
“We shouldn’t do this.” He whispered, his words almost coming out as a whine.
“We definitely shouldn’t.” You breathed out before leaning into him again. Your hands started to roam and before you could even process what was happening, he pulled you onto his lap.
His hands ran over your waist, and you felt how he lifted his hips for just a moment. Every little thought in your brain that told you that maybe this wasn’t the best idea just vanished. You needed him.
Nick broke the kiss for a second and looked you deep in the eyes. “I want you.”
“Oh, it’s giving serial killer.” You joked and he laughed for a second, before he placed a hand on your cheek. “Don’t act like you wouldn’t like that.”
To your surprise there was a thing that was totally different, when he kissed you again. You didn’t feel like there was an exploding firework or those sparks you thought would happen. You just felt safe. It felt like you were meant to kiss. Like everything belong the way it was.
With a swift motion, Nick turned you, so you were laying under him.
“You know, we don’t have to do anything, y/n.” He reassured you. His dark hair was dangling in your face and his greyish blue eyes seemed darker than normal.
“I want this, Nick. I want you.” You reassured him too.
“Oh, look who’s giving serial killer now.” He joked and you reached out to playfully slap his chest, but he caught your hand. He placed a kiss on it, before letting go of it again and placing small kisses on your neck. You instantly tilted your head to give him better access and your hands wandered in his hair.
“You smell so nice.” He whispered and placed a kiss under your ear which made you breath out quietly.
The desire in you was burning as your hands travelled down his chest and to the band of his sweatpants. You could feel the contraction of his stomach as he inhaled sharply.
Eagerly, he began to dip lower, his lips exploring your heated skin. With a swift motion of you two, you both lost your shirts. Every touch was electric, sent a shockwave through your system and left your chest aching with a warmth that you hoped would never cool. You could feel the arousal pooling in your stomach, as Nick nipped at the skin of your chest.
It went without saying as you lifted yourself up a little and in a swift motion, he opened your bra that soon found its place on the floor with your shirts.
As Nick’s hand shifted, cupping your breast, your own hand dipped beneath the band of his pants. Your fingers brushed the warm skin, followed by the stuttering breath Nick released, even as his own hands began to trail lower. He played with the hem of your shorts for a second, before dipping beneath them as well, as he supported his weight with his other hand.
Before you could say anything, Nick’s hand shifted exactly where you wanted them. Warm fingers swiped at your slick folds, gathering the evidence of your arousal easily.
You can feel the throbbing from his dick as you slowly began to stroke his length, while he began to draw small circles on your clit. You tried your hardest to contain your moans, but when you looked him in the eyes for second, you couldn’t help but whimper.
Nick smirked slightly as he began to lower his hand, one finger teasing your entrance. You exhaled shakingly, when he slowly pushes a finger inside.
“Oh god.” You whined quietly and slightly increased your movement. The noise that escaped his lips alone made you fall apart.
He moved his gaze to look in your eyes for a second. “Are you alright?”
You nodded quickly, too caught up in the moment to respond in words, before pulling him down for a bruising kiss. Slowly he begins to move his finger inside of you. He continues, letting you get used to it, before slowly entering a second one.
“Fuck, Nick-…“ You gasped as he curled both fingers, slowly increasing the movements. With his two fingers fully inside you, his palm pressing against your clit.
You stopped moving your hand in his pants as you felt a sensation built up in you that never form as quickly as it did at this moment. But you stop him.
“What?” He asked. “Everything alright?”
“Yes, but I want to come with you.” You answered him and saw how his pupils widened even more.
“Are you sure? You know we don’t have to do more and-…” – “Nick, I want you to fuck me.”
His eyes widened at your statement, but he wasted no time, getting rid of his pants and underwear as you also slipped out of yours.
“Do you have condoms here?” He asked, his voice raspy.
“In the top drawer.” You answered shortly, before attacking Nick’s neck with kisses as he reached for drawer.
Shortly after, Nick grabbed both of your legs and opened them up for him. You sighed in anticipation and gripped your bedsheet as he slowly lowered himself into you.
Your mouth was open in the shape of a silent scream as Nick simultaneously let out a quiet groan into your ear. He stayed still for a second as he bottomed out, catching his breath. His next words made you spiral. “God, I thought this would never happen.”
He gave you no chance to reply as he pulled all the way out, just the tip still inside of you, before thrusting inside of you with a little more force. His rhythm was slow but deep, bumping into your cervix with each thrust of his hips.
You held onto his shoulder, careful not to let out a loud noise. He lowered himself onto your chest, paying attention to not crushing you. You couldn’t even have moaned, only small whimpers leaving your lips as you still tried to process what was happening.
As your hands travelled to his hair, to get a better grip, one of his found its way back to your clit. You already were so close to falling apart.
“Please, y/n. I beg you. Please cum for me.” He breathed out and leaned his forehead against yours. Your body was trembling as you reached your orgasm.
You let out a silent scream as you reached your peak. He was quick to move his fingers away from your clit as you gripped his hair. You felt how he tried to contain his own noise as his cock began to twitch inside of you.
“Fuck.” He whispered in a stuttering tone and moved for a couple of seconds longer, before slowly pulling out of you and letting himself fall onto you as the end credits of Scream 4 were the only noise in the room, besides your erratic breaths.
You both laid in each other’s arms for an extended period of time, while you ran your hands through his hair as he hugged you tightly. It felt like you both couldn’t believe what just had happened. He placed sloppy kisses along your collarbone, causing you to laugh slightly, still in disbelief.
When he lifted his head to look at you, he had a small smile on his face. “Everything alright?”
“If never been better, I think.” You mumbled and for a second you just looked each other in your eyes with unspoken feelings dangling between you. That was when he leaned in again and place a small and sweet kiss on your lips.
This was when you realized that maybe your grandma had been wrong.
Maybe the best things happen after 2 AM.
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hi i got a curious cat and the question reads:
so my answer is (making a post because i'm expanding on it)
let's dissect the ego for a moment:
the ego is a part of the human body. it IS the human body. it is also your emotions, thoughts, fears, and the brain. so let's take on that role real quick (you do it unconsciously all the time) would "you" as a HUMAN BEING say "i'm gonna make this appear?" no. humans don't do that. the ego when trying (doing something/being the do-ER) to understand non dualism doesn't get that. the whole point of non dualism is to do nothing. the ego doesn't think it's consciousness because if it knew it was, it would know that trying to do anything is pointless. it sees a separation though so it doesn't understand. the ego, as the doer thinks it has to DO something. so let's just stop leading your understanding with your ego. you already get off on the wrong foot when you "try". if you "think" right now about the concept of non dualism it makes sense to "you". the ego gets excited because it thinks about all the desires it gets to manifest and how limitless it actually is. this is normal. let it dream and have fun! it can manifest whatever it wants as long as it has faith in consciousness. however the fact that all of that has to come to your awareness means it's not real therefore not directly consciousness. if you want something then you observe it and the fact that it's observed by you means it exist. that's the end of it. this is why i say we don't "do" anything. we are just experiencing what non dualism has to offer. by "being" or living on auto as i call it, we are experiencing non dualism (and this can happen in your favor by observing). the part of you that is reading this thread trying to retain the info and the part of me trying to organize it doesn't matter. we (the same) are consciousness, the ego just likes to do things. that's why it makes no sense and i think it's in vain.
instant "manifestion" is the realization that everything is consciousness (observer, does nothing because it is everything) and things "appear" when you observe them no matter what. "so then why can't you make things instantly appear in the 3d?" YOU CAN AND YOU DO ALL THE TIME. all you have to do is decide that your 3d and 4d match (everything matches anyway and is connected by consciousness) it's your willingness to listen to the EGO for validation that stumps you. the ego is this so called "3D" how are you going to assume the identity of a being without power and then try to use said power to manipulate something that's not even real or there in the first place? no wonder you are frustrated that sounds incredibly difficult.
tldr: everything is consciousness and the moment you try to do something to get anything it's the ego and the act is unnecessary. just realize you already have it because you're consciousness
you = consciousness = awareness = the observer
"you" or anything else in quotes doesn't actually exist.
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Till THE DEAD do us part | Chapter 11
A/N: This story will take place in all the seasons, but it’s not exactly a rewriting cause I’d have to re-watch everything to use the exactly lines of the characters, also I think it’s better if I tell a side story without changing the main facts of the story. This story has a Female Reader, but I don’t describe her appearance, so anyone can identify with her.
Chapter 10 Chapter 12
Series Masterlist
Chapter 11: I ain’t playin’
Summary: The group have fun teasing Daryl and Y/N. Rick decide to have a conversation with the hunter and the hunter give a big step towards Y/N.
Warnings: swearing, mentions of sex, mentions of pregnancy, talk about condoms, nothing major graphic it’s actually just fun, domestic and fluffy. Minors do not interact.
Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Grimes!Reader (Rick’s Sister)
Word Count: 2,548
Extra notes: I proofread the text, but English is not my first language, so feel free to correct any mistakes, of course with love. Probably some characters are ooc.
You woke up very early in the morning listening to something or someone scratching the tent, then you listened to small cries until you brain started to understand it was dog’s cries and you were the only one that had a dog. Strangely Daryl wasn’t awake yet, normally he would wake up before you. You took his arms delicately from you and got up to unzip the door. When you opened Luna came in all happy swinging her tail, you petted her and zipped the door again there was a chilly wind coming from outside.
When you looked back she was sniffling Daryl and licking his face, you really wanted him to sleep more, but you guess it wasn’t on your dog’s plan. He woke up covering his face with his hands and trying to avert her cold nose.
“Good morning sleepyhead.” You said while you looked in the mess of clothes you for your daily clothes.
“Mornin’ pup” he sat and stayed for some time looking at you waiting his soul come back to his body and truly wake up.
While you changed clothes, he admired you, he had left some marks on your body the day before. He already knew he had let them, but now they were way more evident. Most of them couldn’t be seen, but the one he left between your neck and shoulder, it was specifically showing up, redish and purple, he was proud of his work. You never said anything about leaving marks, so he took it as his cue to leave this one. Part of him knew he had done it on purpose, the other part tried to deny it wasn’t made by accident.
“Take one of my flannels, it’s cold outside.” He said.
You searched on his things and found a red one that still had the sleeves. You put it on and turned to him. “What do you think?”
“Ya’re beautiful. Especially today.” He said, looking at you as he wanted to memorize how pretty you looked wearing his shirt and the mark he left on you.
“Thanks” you smiled at the compliment. “Do you have another pant? I was thinking about washing it today.” You gathered all of his dirty clothes and also yours in a bag.
“Ugh… yeah, but you don’t have to…” he tried to say you didn’t need to wash his clothes, you were not his maid, but you didn’t let him finish.
“I don’t mind, you have watch today in the morning, right? I can do it.” You were going to the door, but decided to come back. You kneeled close to him and kissed him. “See you at breakfast.”
Then you left followed by Luna, you were very content. How could you not be? You had an amazing night and felt whole again, after a very long time. You left the bag with dirty clothes on your tent, so you could take it to wash after breakfast. You entered the Greenes’ house finding Patricia, Lori and Carol in the kitchen.
“Good morning girls!” You said cheerfully entering the kitchen and hugging Lori.
“You’re very happy today, Y/N.” Lori observed. “What did happen?”
“Just had a good night of sleep.” You answered innocently.
“Did you sleep at all?” Carol asked a smirk on her face. “I think you had a good night for another reason.”
“Why do you say that?” You asked a little confused. His camp was kind of far from everyone, she couldn’t have listened anything.
“Your neck.” She answered, you still look confused at her and she gave you an explanation. “He marked you, sweetie.”
Your mouth agape, you extended your hand to your neck and felt a slightly pain from it, for sure one of the spots he sucked and bit. The three women in the kitchen laughed lightly at you, you were a little embarrassed and your obliviousness to him marking you was fun and cute all together. You ran in the house looking for a mirror, you entered the bathroom and found the mirror, and there it was, it wasn’t a small mark, he had done on purpose. No way it was an accident.
You went back to kitchen and found Maggie there too. You took a deep breath, because you knew Maggie wasn’t going to let you go easily on this one. “Look at her! Someone had a good night!” Maggie almost sang when she saw you. “Are you going to say he isn’t your boyfriend?”
“Well, he never said he was. I’m not the one putting name on things.” You replied, there was no way to deny anymore… all the women there were ‘against’ you in the moment.
“Girl, if this huge mark in your neck isn’t he claiming you as his so everyone can see. I don’t what it is.” Was it possible that he did it to show everyone you belonged to him? Was he still jealous? Even after you said he had no reason to be?
Soon the others showed up for breakfast and the jokes about your night wouldn’t end, after the third comment you stopped blushing, maybe your body recognized that embarrassed was your new normal. When Daryl entered the room you pulled him aside.
“Wha’?” He asked at your suddenly act.
“You marked me.” You told him pointing to your neck.
“Yeah, yer neck looks rather beautiful today.” He had the audacity to comment, a smirk on his face… he wasn’t even a little ashamed. “I think I’m an artist.”
“I hope they tease you as much as they’re teasing me.” You said and turned to leave, but he hold your pulse stopping you.
He lowered his head to be at your height and said close to your ear. “Ya were right, I was jealous. But now, everyone knows yer mine.” Did he know the power of his words? Because right at this moment he sent chills all over your body and you were sure his boxers that you were using were already wet.
He backed out, no expression on his face, the little shit acted as if he hadn’t just teased you and joined the others for breakfast. “Guys, I’m done. Gonna wash some clothes. I expect all of you have fun!” You hoped the others got the hint to tease him as much as they teased you.
“Not more fun then you Y/N!” You heard T.Dog saying while you left the house.
While you washed the clothes, Daryl started his watch on top of the RV and everyone else occupied themselves with other tasks. Except Rick, that decided that was a good time to talk to the hunter. He got up the RV roof and stopped on Daryl’s side. “So, you and Y/N, hugh?” Rick never had to have any kind of conversation like this before. He wasn’t around when you got your first boyfriend, so that was your dad’s responsibility and he didn’t have to do it right now, you weren’t a kid, but he felt like he had to talk to Daryl, not only because of you but also because of the hunter that was growing on him.
“I ain’t playin’ with her.” Daryl said, but he didn’t need. Rick already knew it.
“She isn’t playing with you too.” Rick said, and even though Daryl still had difficulty understanding what you saw in him, he knew you weren’t playing with him.
“D’ya think I should ask her to move to my tent?” He didn’t dare to look at Rick, he was utterly embarrassed, his face was warm and he was blushing as hell.
“Are you asking for permission or advice?” Rick asked before giving him an answer.
“Advice, I never had a relationship befor’” He took his thumb between his teeth and started gnawing it, admitting he wanted to have a relationship with you was one of the biggest steps Daryl ever gave.
“Do you want to?” Rick asked, just like you’d ask if this conversation was with you and not with him. “I mean… her tent became just a storage room, since you two are always together.”
“Wouldn’t be askin’ ya for advice if I didn’t.” He side eyed the ex-cop a tad bit annoyed for not receiving a direct answer.
“So, you know what to do. There’s no secret formula for a good relationship, I’ve been married for years and I’m still trying to figure it out.” Rick confessed, of all people, he didn’t think he was the best choice to give advices about relationships, he was still trying to make things right. Maybe if Daryl had asked Dale or Hershel he could have received better advice. “Just do what you have to do to protect her, cause I know she’d do anything to protect you. And… don’t hurt her, or I’ll have to end you, and I don’t want to.”
“I hope I never do…” he wanted to promise he would never do it, but he couldn’t, because he was Daryl Dixon and he didn’t know if who he really was would continue hidden and tamed forever.
“Here.” Rick handed a pack of condoms, he had found on their way to the CDC, in Daryl’s direction, the hunter’s eyes almost jumped out. “Take it. I know you’re doing it with or without protection, so just take it. Lori and I don’t need it anymore. We already have a baby on the way, it’s not a good time for me to become an uncle.”
“Ugh… ‘kay, thanks.” He took the pack and shoved it in one of his pockets, fast before anyone could see it.
After lunch you were in the back of the property feeding the chickens. You enjoyed the life in the farm, taking care of the animals and working for your own subsistence. If you had another chance of having a life in a world with no walkers, you’d love to have a small piece of land, plant, have your own animals, having a simple life with the person you love and raise your children. You smiled while you daydreamed about a life you’d never have. You were so distracted that you didn’t notice someone moving behind you, you just noticed when too hands touched your waist pulling you, you reacted moving your body to confront whoever or whatever it was, one hand ready to throw a punch, but blocked right away.
“Easy, it’s me puppy.” Daryl said, one hand holding the pulse of the hand you were going to use to punch and the other holding your waist.
“You scared the hell out of me!” You punched him lightly in his chest using your other hand, your heart beating fast and a scowl on your face.
“Just wanted to surprise ya.” He pulled your body against his.
“Well, I guess you were more than successful.”
“What were ya smiling about?” He asked now one hand on your hips and the other putting a lock of hair behind your ear.
“Nothing, just thought the chicks are very cute.” You lied, and he saw it clearly in your eyes, in the way your facial muscles moved. One way or another, he was glad it was a silly lie. You never lied about something big to him.
“That’s the first time you lie to me.” He said, how could he possibly know? “Were you thinking about me?” He whispered in your ear.
“Yes, I was.” You confessed, part of your daydream was about him, but you didn’t want him to ask the details. He knew you were being honest, so he decided stop messing with you and do what he was there to do.
“Move with me.” He blurted out.
“What?”
“Take yer things, disassemble yer tent and move to mine.” He repeated, more details this time to make it clear what he was asking you.
‘Yer mine’, those two words he told you early echoed in your head, and now he wanted you to share a tent with him. Your lips curled into a smile and you couldn’t hide.
“Is that a yes?” He asked raising a brow.
“A big yes.” You answered, arms going around his neck, a peck on his lips.
After you finished feeding the chickens, you went to your tent to gather all your belongings, which wasn’t much, everything fit in your traveler backpack. Daryl helped you disassemble your tent and store it in one of the cars. While you did all of this everyone that passed near you would tease you, and you understood there was nothing interesting happening so they needed something like this to have a little bit of fun, but when you were the joke, it was a little difficult to have fun.
Later that day, Daryl, Luna and you were already at the small camp the hunter had, that now was also yours. Right? You changed your clothes to your sleeping ones and waited for Daryl to go to sleep. When he laid with you, each of you above your sleeping bags but still close, he decided to tell you about Rick.
“Rick talked to me today. About us.” He clarified, because Rick talking to him would not be anything new, but talking about you two… it was new for him.
“Oh god! I’m sorry.” You apologized in advance for anything that they might have talked, Rick was a box of surprises, so you never knew. You hoped it was nothing bad, since last time you talked to him, he kind of approved the archer.
“He gave me a pack of condoms and said he doesn’t want to be an uncle now.” He mumbled blushing furiously, which you thought was cute.
You kinda felt embarrassed for your brother doing this, but you couldn’t help but laugh at the situation. “That little bitch… I wasn’t expecting this outcome when you said he talked to you.”
“And ya think I expected? I was waiting for his big bro speech.” Rick took him totally out of guard, but these days hadn’t been common at all for him, now he couldn’t possibly preview the outcome of things.
“Well, at least now we can… you know.” You said shying a bit.
“Com’ere. Let’s sleep.” He said opening his arms for you. You were side by side, facing each other, and he still preferred to have you in his arms.
“Are you addicted to cuddles now?” You entered his embrace and snuggled into him.
“Pfft… shut up.” He said putting out the lamp and closing his embrace around you. It was amusing how he could be cool about some situations, but still get embarrassed when you teased him. Soon, both of you drifted to sleep, having a calm, soothing and repairing night of sleep.
Luna laid at your feet sighed happily while sleeping knowing that she was with her 2 favorite humans.
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I love Nor and her giant sad puppy eyes, I would love to know more about her
thank you!! have a hastily drawn nor ft. her giant sad sopping wet puppy eyes:
+ a giant nor lore dump below the cut જ⁀➴
��� her whole character was inspired by that one textpost that’s like, “characters with both the abject terror and desperation of an animal that knows it is cornered and destined to be eaten. you just can't get that kind of angst out a successful hunter” and this quote by james harriet: “if having a soul means being able to feel love and loyalty and gratitude, then animals are better off than a lot of humans.”
➸ she’s is the product of a union between a drow woman and a deep imaskari man. for those who don’t know, the deep imaskari are a human subrace (from 3e) that have stone-like skin and hair that’s white or black. because that’s nor’s human half, most people assume she’s completely drow upon meeting her, since did not inherit any features from her father that would make her look less like her drow mother.
➸ the deep imaskari live longer than other humans—up to 550 years—so nor ages at a rate more akin to drow and elves than half-elves or humans. nor believes she’s currently around seventy years old, though she could be off by a decade or two. she’s not sure when she was born and has long periods without human contact. she really isn’t sure how much time has passed.
➸ she has no given name, but eventually ended up going by the name ratcatcher, which is what the locals in baldur’s gate called her. halsin is the one who names her nor shortly after they meet, which is the elven word for “passion” and also “run.”
➸ this excerpt from one of my fics sums up her urchin/orphan to urban ranger/beastmaster pipeline pretty well:
➸ around the age of twenty, nor grew to resent humanity so much that she decided to leave baldur’s gate and live in the forest with only animals for company for half a century. (this is when she lost track of time completely.) in the forest, she became an expert in survival, attuning her ears to the slightest twitch in the air, to every noise and smell. she lived in a cave and slept curled up beside velvet on a bed of willow leaves. the events of baldur’s gate 3 is the first time in decades that she’s had social interaction.. and it shows.
➸ she has a little wolfdog companion named velvet. (i’ve drawn him and her and halsin and scratch here). he was another half-breed who didn’t quite being anywhere, so they bonded very deeply. (fun fact: velvet killed the elder brain in my first playthrough as nor. he’s a legend in faerun now.)
➸ laezel is her bestie. they are ride or die. neither of them understand a damn thing about faerun or its inhabitants. but that also means they don’t judge each other for anything, cause they both just kind of assume what the other is doing is normal
➸ a big part of her character is her dynamic with the emperor. she gets manipulated by him so bad because he tells her everything a forgotten, unloved creature wants to hear: i need you, i’ll protect you, you’re not like other people, we’re a team, you can trust me, i want you to join me, you aren’t alone. it’s not until he begins to pressure and compel her to become illithid against her will she starts to fear him and his power over her, and after certain revelations she realizes he was using her and turns on him altogether.
➸ obviously she romances halsin. i love the dynamic of beastmaster/druid. they’re extremely well suited because they’re both such inherently good people and they bond a lot over their love for nature. they are also the only two people who can really understand each other’s animalistic quirks.
i’ve written some fics with her that you can read here if you’re interested. >:3c
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At best plurality is akin to a philosophy, or way of life. No way of life is “truth” necessarily, though people tend to believe that their own way is The way. It’s an alternative explanation for natural brain phenomenon. Internal dialogue is normal; however, one can choose to decipher the “other” as separate if that so pleases them. As social beings, having internal dialogues is incredibly useful. They can help broaden one’s perspective of a situation, to see another side. It can also be helpful for brainstorming, in the creative process. And of course, it’s useful from a mental health perspective, such as managing depression or anxiety. I have “voices” in my head all the time. If I’m overly anxious about something, I might tell myself to chill in a manner that isn’t my typical tone or manner, and yes it can appear to come from “outside” me. What my brain is doing is borrowing from its environment. I could of course decide to focus on this “voice” and draw it out as its own separate entity. However, I don’t see the usefulness of that. That’s then living inside my own head, rather than being present in the here and now. I spent my whole youth living inside my head and all that did was isolate me. I find living in the here and working to forge connections with my environment and the people around me brings me a much higher quality of life. Again though, that is me and what makes sense for where I am in this current stage of my life.
It can be dangerous to spread this kind of rhetoric, that plurality is an objective reality, when you have a platform that may attract younger minds not yet fully developed. This way of thinking can create a hinderance in their development. It’s one thing to talk about it as something you experience that helps you. It’s an entirely other to encourage it in hopes of propagating it. The most current research shows, for example, that encouraging the idea of separate identities to clients actually hurts their progress.
First, before we get into the bulk of what you're saying, this blog is a fact first zone. If there is a study out there that has shown empirically that encouraging the idea of separate identities is harmful then I would like to see it and know what methods they used to come to such a conclusion.
So far, internal family systems has been shown to help people. Tulpamancy is shown to help people. And while DID specialists do tend to recommend treating them as parts of one whole person, they also paradoxically want to approach each alter as a separate individual to build up communication between the system.
Many spiritual beliefs that involve speaking to some invisible other have shown positive results as well.
So if you have research showing that people treating different identities as separate is harmful then it's up to you to show it. As of right now I have no reason to take your word for it.
With that out of the way, I really find this whole argument you're making to be pretty... basic.
Despite what you say, I don't think a majority of people actually have multiple autonomous voices in their head. Aside from, perhaps, when they're sleeping. (Whole other can of worms there.)
Having these separate agents with their own memories and senses of self is not nearly a philosophy. It is a psychological phenomenon, and one that occurs cross-culturally. Yes, some cultures will say that it is a spiritual possession, just like an earlier anon mentioned that they used to consider the people they communicate with ghosts. But if you look deeper and get past people's own personal explanations for what they experience, what you will find is a lot of commonality between these phenomena, regardless of whether somebody gives a spiritual or psychological explanation.
At the same time though, this does not seem to apply to everybody. There are singlets out there who are just one person. They may be different in different circumstances as people are. But they don't experience the type of experiences that are described by plurals and wouldn't relate to them.
To reduce plurality to just being a philosophical concept does a disservice to it. Because plurality isn't merely philosophical but has very distinct psychological characteristics and understanding how plurality works might help to solve some of the greatest mysteries about how human brains in general function.
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Given all of this kwami swap talk as well as you explaining how nonsensical it was to hand out the exact two Miraculous that Hawkmoth was looking for to the heroes meant to directly fight his akuma, I’d love to pick your brain about how you think the story would’ve gone if Master Fu gave Marinette the canon Dragon Miraculous and Adrien the canon Turtle Miraculous in Origins instead as well as them having Longg and Wayzz respectively to bounce off of from the get-go. Beyond me loving a classic sword-and-shield combo, I figure that this would still give Marinette the leading stance while giving Adrien the defensive stance in battle, which I personally don’t have a problem with when executed well given Adrien’s issues with self-control in deciding when and on what/whom to use Cataclysm and strategizing in general. In addition to that, having Shellter as Adrien’s power and Wayzz as his kwami would force him to take his and his partner’s disposition in battle seriously from the get-go, with Wayzz being heavily implied to be a kwami that prefers to take his time and thoroughly explain what needs to be done, meaning Adrien would have to show Wayzz that he really understands what he needs to do before getting the transformation phrase out of him.
On Marinette’s side of things, Longg is actually canonically confirmed from his first interaction with Kagami to be a kwami that prefers to take his time and thoroughly explain what needs to be done, which would lead to Marinette being calm enough from his explanation of what’s happening and what her job is to actually remember getting Stoneheart’s akuma the first time without any problems. This is especially in comparison to Tikki who, after Marinette tried to run what she said back to her with a clear lack of full understanding and confidence, even saying verbatim “Aww... this is all going too fast, Tikki... I... won't be able to pull this off!”, simply responds with “Trust yourself, Marinette. Just say ‘Spots on’.” without any further clarification or rerun.
Concerning actually cleansing the akuma, since lightning and especially water have far more cleansing symbolism than creation, either could easily act as the purification of akuma. Lightning could either burn away the negative magic corrupting akumas or burn the akuma itself to ash, which would also deplete Hawkmoth’s collection of butterflies at the time (though Marinette probably wouldn’t like the second option since they’re technically living creatures). An alternative would be Water “washing away” the negative magic in the akuma (while I’m mostly sure that akuma have been sent out in the rain before, Wind could be used to dry off the butterflies before they drown/so their wings aren’t damaged in case I’m misremembering and they’re like normal butterflies in that they can’t get wet). I know I specifically asked for your analysis on the canon Miraculous being given out, and while I would still like that I’m okay with fudging the Dragon JUST this much since it already has established advantages over other Miraculous, a minor wielder not detransforming until all three powers are used instead of just one for example. And while the restoration of Miraculous Ladybug would no longer be an option from the jump, I’m honestly cool with that this far into watching the show as it would push the Parisian officials to get off their butts and actually try to solve the magical terrorist issue WITH the heroes instead of expecting them to just manage everything.
You're actually hitting real close to my "fix" for the dragon with the whole sword-and-shield thing because I absolutely think that the dragon and the turtle should have been a matched set of sorts. I don't like the fact that only the ladybug and the black cat get paired up. I want all of the Kwamis to be part of some sort of set (doesn't need to be a set of two! Just a set). However, I don't see how a sword-and-shield combo fits Adrien and Marinette or how this miraculous pairing would work in the context of canon, though that may just be because I'm missing something. I'll give you why this isn't clicking for me and you can do with that what you will. Do not let me stop you from writing this fic or loving this concept! Fan theories are about having fun, not about appealing to me. I'm only giving you all of this because you asked for my thoughts. Don't feel obligated to read it if it makes you sad.
For me, Marinette's defining feature is her creativity and this setup removes that or at least heavily cuts it back. While you can be creative with the dragon's powers, they're basically just elemental speed boosts which isn't useful in most situations unless we're going to allow akumas to get electrocuted now.
The fights would also become a lot less unique as the heroes are now limited to a shield and the three flavors of elemental speed boost. Those aren't exactly the most diverse powersets in the world, especially given that the elemental thing requires you to physically charge in. You're not casting elemental abilities like a wizard. This new setup could still work if you nerfed the butterfly and made it so that the akumas didn't have such a wide variety of powers, but as-is, that doesn't sound like a balanced fight. The heroes feel too heavily disadvantaged and limited, especially given that they're now both close combat style fighters while akumas can still be ranged.
There's also the issue that Marinette isn't suited to close combat fighting. She has no training in any form of combat sport. Between her and Adrien, it seems more logical to give him the dragon, not her. He's the fencer, after all, and the dragon's weapon is that sudo sword baton thing. Adrien's also better suited to close combat fighting in terms of narrative role while removing Marinette's ranged abilities would further undermine her current role.
In terms of fighting styles, canon's setup is that Adrien does close combat and distraction techniques while Marinette sticks to long range attacks so that she has time to think. This is a really solid dynamic because it lets Marinette be creative. Making Marinette a close combat fighter would drastically limit her ability to be creative because you don't have time to be creative when you're doing that style of fighting. Your brain is simply too focused on survival (saying this as someone who fenced for several years). This is why tacticians are usually at the back of the battlefield relaying orders. You don't tend to send them to the front lines if you can help it.
The final issue with Marinette having the dragon in a canon setup is that I really don't think that you can get away with removing the magical reset button that is her ladybug cure. There are simply way too many akumas that cause mass destruction and even implied death. You'd have to massively nerf the akumas for this change to feel reasonable as it's not a minor change in stakes or tone. Akumas like Syren or The Bubbler would be impossible and you can never let anyone get injured because they now had to heal on a normal timeline, meaning that Adrien would probably end up sidelined before the end of season one.
While I get the desire to have the authorities step in and help more, your theory that the officials would work with the heroes doesn't really match what we've seen in canon or what tends to happen in these sorts of stories. The more likely setup is for the officials to work on solving the case without the heroes help or with the heroes only supplying the occasional tip/coming when summoned via something like the bat signal because, generally speaking, what information can the heroes really give them? Plus that setup requires the heroes and the government officials to have some sort of clear and open line of communication or standard meeting cadence, which is pretty risky and also ads at least one adult character who is now a major player in the story. An adult character who has this as their full time job while the teens are in school unless we're aging everyone up and letting the heroes be available during normal business hours or setting the story during summer vacation?
We've mostly focused on the dragon here, so let's take a moment to talk about the turtle. I do like Adrien as a backup user for the turtle, but you'd have to change the turtle up a bit if you wanted to make it his full-time role. Chat Noir is an incredibly dynamic fighter who jumps around the battlefield via a mix of acrobatics and his staff. Carapace's fighting style is much more tanky with him just holding up the shield and watching for opportunities to move in and defend with his power. This makes perfect sense and would be true for any turtle because of the turtle's weapon and power set. A shield is not suited to offense unless you make it work like Captain America's shield where it's a mix between a shield and a boomerang. For a normal shield, throwing it is a one-time use weapon. It's also not an offensive weapon, so Adrien would be heavily limited in terms of how he could fight.
And if we switch the turtle to Marinette? Then we're back to the whole limited-creativity thing. The turtle's power isn't meant for defeating villains. It's meant for protecting allies and civilians. Whoever is wielding it needs to be watching the fight, looking for risks. They can't give most of their attention to plotting how to win.
All that being said, I really like using the dragon and the turtle to flesh out the team. I think the turtle being the third member of the existing team would make total sense as a way to solve Chat Noir's self-sacrifice problem. You could also replace the black cat with the dragon and make it dragon!Adrien, Ladybug, and a turtle holder, but I'm not really seeing a functional version of canon that removes the Ladybug. It would be a wildly different story.
You asked about the Kwamis, too, so let's end on that!
Wayzz and Longg seem like solid mentors who could arguably replace Tikki without massively changing the feel of the story, but I'm hesitant to replace Plagg. Plagg's got one of the strongest personalities in canon and is the source of a lot of comedy to the point where his poor movie treatment upset a lot of people. Straight up removing him and replacing him with more serious Kwami would change that element of canon even more and I don't know if it would be a good change. Plagg and Tikki's opposing personalities give you a lot to work with. Wayzz and Longg would be way less dynamic and interesting as they're both responsible and calm.
We also have to keep in mind that a lot of Tikki and Plagg's flaws come from the fast pace of the show. Tikki rushed Marinette in Origins because the writers wanted to fit everything into 40 minutes and also establish why Marinette needed to cleans the butterflies in every episode, so they had Marinette and Adrien get their miraculous during the first akuma attack and then mess that up to establish the show's stakes. If they'd been given their miraculous even a day earlier, then things would have gone a lot smoother as Tikki would have had time to fully explain things since no one was in danger. This rushed stakes issue would apply to any Kwami who was handed out during an attack. After all, Wayzz and Longg don't exactly get to give Nino and Kagami detailed explanations when they were chosen either. If Adrien got the dragon or the turtle mid-battle, then I picture things going very similar to Kagami getting the dragon:
Longg: Greetings, young lady and good day to you. Fear not, I am Longg, the Dragon Kwami. Kagami: You're a what? Longg: A Kwa-mi... Allow me to tell you about the many feats that a magic being like myself will help you accomplish once the magic words have been spoken. (Kagami puts on the Miraculous) Ladybug has hopes that you will defeat Ikari Gozen with panache, using the element of your choosing. Wind, water or lightning. But firstly, let me tell you about her plan. Kagami: Longg, bring the storm! Longg: Wait! No! Not yet!
After all, that's basically what happened in Origins:
Plagg: Claws out! That's how you transform. Adrien: Got it. Plagg, claws out! Plagg: No, wait! I haven't finished explaining!--- (enters the ring)
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tged webtoon ep 158 spoilers and thoughts but mostly it's just me laughing my ass off and also speculating on what happens, im still working on the novel but ill finish it soon trust <- has like ten billion different things she wants to do at the same time
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ARCOS AND MARBELLA IN THIS PANEL WAS ME FOR MOST IF NOT ALL OF THIS CHAPTER HELPPP LMFAOAOOO
javier you absolute fiend you ,,, you've learned so much,,, /aff
i figured that javier would tell them at least a semi-truth, or something like that to tide over the count/countess,,, their expressions here made me so worried for a moment,,,
LIKE THESE UUAGHGHHGHGHHHH that kind of anticipation is terrifying tbh like "has our son been dead this whole time, have we been living w someone else??" and the imminent grief looming over that thought i think got translated really well here the blank irises and the shadowed face im so ,,,, ueueueueueue
AND THEN TO GET HIT WITH THIS
HELP MEEEE HAHAHAHA BRAZEN JAVIER ROBOFACED JAVIER ITS REAL HES REAL LMFAOAOOOOO
OF ALL THE THINGS JAVIER COULD HAVE DONE TO GET OUT OF THIS SITUATION HE DECIDED TO EMULATE LLOYD I GIGGLED SO BAD I STARTED COUGHING
AND THE FULL COMMITMENT TOO TO THE BIT AND MAKING IT SEEM LIKE HE'S MORE FOULMOUTHED THAN HE LETS ON . AND SINCE JAVIER IS NORMALLY SO DEADPAN IT JUST. WORKS I GUESS HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS CRAZY
insane genuinely fucking insane i couldn't stop laughing HAHAHAHAA like this is completely absurd but the fact that it's coming from javier, someone who the count and countess completely trust at the moment, someone who's been by lloyd's side this whole time,,, PELASE HAHAHFHADHFDHSHAHA
the count and countess reacting too got me giggling a storm HAHA
also also early webtoon lloyd makes an appearance again i think it's really fun that the artist gives him the hairstyle from back then, before they changed his hairstyle heehee
oh his undershirt is also missing that X that's usually there in the current tged style too i didnt notice that at first but another little callback!!!
AND THEN JAVIER FINISHING OFF THE BIT WITH. SEPPUKU??? WHAT THE HELL ALDKFJLSDKJF ?!?!?!
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO THIS LIKE HE DIDNT HAVE TO but i guess it did kind of knock the count/countess out of their stupor bc by seeing something so insane from javier they think javier rlly regrets giving lloyd BRAIN DAMAGE LAKJDFSHDF FUCKING BRAIN DAMAGE
i did see some ppl say that its kind of odd that they thank javier for this and thats fair yeah i dont think id be ok w finding out "oh one of my loved ones gave another one of my loved ones MEMORY LOSS"
but i think it could be that they're relieved to find out (or are inclined to believe) that their lloyd is "still alive" - he's just changed, not dead (except he is dead, so javier succeeded in fooling them without telling very severe lies)
honestly with how their expressions were they were probably expecting the worst, esp w all the evidence stacked against lloyd. can u imagine that despair, realizing that the person you've finally come to love is not the person you thought they were?? that the person you thought you had a second chance with, wasn't that person at all? i bet all those regrets were washing over the count and countess all at once,,, and then the relief that comes when it's revealed (when they're lead to believe) that no, it's the same person. this second chance was with the same lloyd, not someone else. that's still their son. oooooh imagine the relief, the realization that you don't have to mourn, you don't have to grieve for a death that happened under your nose
i think that's why they reacted this way, instead of worrying over javier wacking lloyd upside the head; like, what matters now is that lloyd frontera is alive (to them) and that both lloyd and javier have grown and changed themselves and the estate for the better. that the child and the knight they raised have a bright future and isn't that what any parent wants?
tho ofc they dont realize that their assumption is not the truth, but well they dont need to know that,,, for everyones sakes,,, nice play javier
when lloyd shows up and we saw this panel i thought we were gonna have a nice moment between the two of them where lloyd thanks javier for covering for him and hiding the truth but then-
THESE TWO FUCKING IDIOTS HAHAHAHAHAHA /AFF
I LOVE THEM SO MUCH THEYRE SO DEVIOUS HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA
and then lloyds conversation with the count/countess after PLEASE
yknow this is kind of like that bargaining strategy where you propose something completely absurd and crazy so that the other party says no, but then you offer your real request that is objectively tasking but the other party thinks of it as lesser than the former request so they'll grant it . whatever the heck that strat is called thats what this feels like HAHAHAHA
AND ARCOS TRYING TO LOOK OUT FOR LLOYD AND
AHFGSDLJKFSDGHH THRTHOWS UP
lloyd says "all i need is for you to stay healthy" and god that fucking. hurts ouw ouuuhhh owiee oww BUDDY U CAN HAVE BOTH U CAN PROTECT UR FAMILY WHILE ALSO RELYING ON THEM!!! LLOYD!!! LLLOOOYYYDDD
and yet of course this is smth that suho!lloyd would say ,,, he wasnt able to help his parents w their struggles back then but now he can and now it's all he wants to do ,,, i cant even explain how emo this exchange makes me i can't quite put it into words even after a whole day of sitting on this,,, especially after the events of 157 like lloyd im worried abt u!! he doesnt even realize he doesnt even realize the overwork the possible spiral that can come from trying to preserve this aghhh AAGGHHH
sorry for losing it anyways moving on, the title effects linking yippie!!! it was super fun seeing all the teams and all the people he's brought together,,, truly this was our greatest estate development /j
ALSO JAVIER BEING BY HIMSELF ON A TEAM LMFAOOOO "the team that does everything" HAHAHAHAHA
AND THEN AND THEN the last reveal of this episode THE KINGDOM OF HEAVEN HELLO!@?!?!??!@?!?@?!@! OH MY GOD
raphael looks a litte different here i could've sworn he was a turtle /j
BUT YEAH HOLY SHIT WOW i mean it makes sense, if theres a hell theres probably a heaven, and there was that line that javier said where he was like "alicia liking lloyd is more ridiculous than suho actually being an archangel" MAN I SHOULDA SEEN THIS COMING LMAO but im still excited to see where this goes
like the jewel of truth construction being ILLEGAL? what r they gonna do??? like,,, take the parts away?!?! how will lloyd avoid their like, divine punishment or whatever?? is it considered a crime to start mythical construction??? i wonder what their ruling will be
also the exiled student guy (forgot his name) and lupellan what r they up to will this interfere w them?? or with lloyd? a lot of stuff lined up oh GOD lmao
anyways thats all for right now, as always i yap more on my twitter if youd like to see more shenanigans from me, see yall next week!! !!!!
#tged#the greatest estate developer#tged spoilers#lynn misc#i have an irl who absolutely loves whenever lloyd does that brazen robot face#idk when she'll catch up on tged but im sure she'll enjoy robot javier hehee#also no idea if ive said this already but i am very sorry if the stuff i say isnt quite insightful or interesting#i type whatever im thinking it just comes and goes LOL#but i hope someone enjoys these either way :)
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Maybe We'll Be Happy
Summary: You're a private in the Imperial Army - less than a private, really - and you're stationed on the same place as Crosshair. You start off as strangers, and then grow to more. But when you hear that the Clones are being decommissioned, you decide that something has to change.
Pairing: TBB Crosshair x F!reader
Word Count: 985
Warnings: The Imperial Army Sucks
Tagging: @trixie2023 @n0vqni @imabeautifulbutterfly
A/N: I started writing this on my phone, and it was supposed to be a short little thing, but it got longer, so I'm sorry.
When the Republic Fell and the Empire rose, you were a recent enlistee in the GAR. So low ranking that the only people who knew your name were the ones directly responsible for you.
And when the GAR became the Imperial Army, nothing changed. You still had to do drills and PT and attend lessons to learn your career.
But the Imperial Army was nothing like the GAR. Promotions were no longer based on merit so much as how much ass kissing you were willing to do.
And so you, an honest person whose sense of honor would have worked well in the GAR, get passed over time and time and time again.
At this point, you're barely a private. If there was a rank lower than private then that's the one you would have. You're stuck with the most thankless jobs, and get minimal pay.
And you hate it. You hate the Imperial Army. You hate your commanding officers. You hate the Emperor.
On the other hand, your low rank and the fact that you're generally unimportant to the Imperial Army as a whole, means that no one notices when you slack off.
And it was while you were slacking off that you met Crosshair.
Tall and slender and with very pretty silver hair, you honestly didn't peg him for a clone until he turned to look at you.
That first time you met, he didn't say anything to you. But he also didn't rat you out to your CO when he came looking for you, so you mentally slotted him in the “friend” pile in your brain and carried on.
After that day you saw him everytime you slacked off. Sometimes he would just look at you with a raised brow, and other times he would ignore you. And though you didn't know his name, you enjoyed his quiet.
Quiet meant that no one was scolding you for not doing your job…or not sucking up as some old guy who thinks he's important.
And then, one day, he started talking to you. It surprised you so much that you nearly fell over, but you eagerly latched on to the offer of friendship, though that's probably not what he intended at the time.
And, as time went on, and you learned more about him, the more you liked him. And you think he liked you just as much, after all he never pushed you away when you leaned against him or traced the plates of his armor.
And then, late one evening, when you were skipping your late night shift, he kissed you. It was hard and rough and needy…and it was exactly what you both needed.
That was three months ago, and the last three months have been a dream come true for you. Every day you get an hour or more just to be with Crosshair, and sure most of the time the chats devolve into heated make-out sessions, but you're totally fine with it. You even instigate it sometimes.
But as of now, you're concerned.
No, you're afraid. For Crosshair.
You've heard the rumors, about how Clones are being experimented on, or just killed, to make room for the Imperial Stormtroopers, and you're terrified.
You don't want Crosshair to die. Or disappear.
So here you are, late one evening, pacing in your normal hidey-hole, trying to come up with a way to convince Crosshair to run away with you.
So far you're not having any luck.
“Kitten? What's wrong?” You jump when you hear his voice coming from the otherside of the room, and while you try to smile reassuringly, your smile just drops.
Concern flickers across his face, “Did someone hurt you? I saw you were playing nice with Admiral whatshisface.” Crosshair continues as he walks over to you and sets his hands on your shoulders.
“I'm fine. I mean, he said some pretty nasty things to me about ways I could get promoted,” You make a face at the memory, “but he didn't touch me.”
Crosshair scowls, able to guess what kind of things the Admiral said to you, but he drops it, “So what's wrong?”
Nervously, you twist the hem of your dark gray uniform. “Cross-”
His grip tightens, “Talk to me, Kitten. What’s wrong?”
“They’re decommissioning all of the Clones.” You say quickly, and Crosshair falters, “And you-”
A muscle works in his jaw, “I suppose I knew this was going to happen eventually.” His grip is so tight that it’s almost painful, “So what’s this then, you saying goodbye?”
“No!” You yelp, “No. I…I was trying to think of a way to save you-” You admit.
His grip loosens slightly, and he gently rubs your shoulder as a silent apology, “Okay, so what have you come up with?”
“Uh…steal an escape pod and hope we don’t get shot out of the sky?”
“That’s a terrible idea, kitten.”
“I know, I know. I’m just…panicking a little.”
Crosshair pauses, “Wait, we?”
“Well, yes. I thought I’d go with you…unless you’d rather I didn’t?” You ask, your eyes wide.
“I’m not going to say no,” Crosshair replies, as he gently caresses your cheek, “It’s a hard life you’re signing up for, Kitten. We’ll be running for the rest of our lives.”
“If you’re trying to talk me out of it, it’s not going to work.” You say stubbornly.
He chuckles, and kisses you quickly, “You love me so much it makes you stupid.” There’s no heat in his words though, just soft affection.
“I know,”
Crosshair presses his forehead against yours, his dark gaze locked with yours, “I think I have an idea.” He murmurs, “Can you get to the hanger?”
You nod.
“Good.” He kisses you one more time, “Get to the hanger, and wait for me there.”
“Cross-”
“It’s going to be okay, Kitten. Nothing is going to happen.” And you can’t help but to believe him.
#star wars#tbb#tbb crosshair x reader#crosshair x reader#star wars fanfiction#x reader fanfiction#f!reader fic
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So "You're not giving me attention" and then making a whole post about me 😂😂 GET A BRAIN and touch some grass, maybe it will help you with crying over facts for your nOT rEAl ChArACter. Also the fact that he was growing in the mob family doesn’t justificate him. After a while he should know that he won't get any attention and grow up because no one likes him as a dumb ass Baby. What you're gonna say next to justificate his actions? Does his father told him to kill Clyde Perry and prostitue and hide in her stomach? he has some brain cells and decides what he's gonna do next. Don't pretend that he has trauma because he doesn't act like he has one.
*justify
And... I never justified his actions. No one here is saying that he's perfectly in the right to do what he did. We just like his character. And leaving me FOUR whole asks? Somebody must be a big fan of my work, I'm so glad you liked my argumentative essay ☺️ You should really stick around, writing is like, kinda my whole thing so I'm sure you'd LOVE what I've got planned in the future. Also love the ableism!! "Mentally challenged" is so sweet of you to say! I'm sure this is helping your case a lot, everyone is totally gonna get what you're saying now!!
Maybe you don't see child abuse or parental death as traumatic, but normal people do. People who don't trust and harass a whole group of randos on Tumblr, you know? I don't know, I really feel like you're wasting your breath baby, I told you I could go all day, and I will. I can go around and around and around. Hell, since you liked my writing so much, the next time you send me an ask, I'll tell you all about my headcanons and thoughts and feelings about Franco since you refuse to block the tag and clearly wanna see more of your favourite 'fucker'. I really hope you don't miss it since you barely go on Tumblr though :/
Oh, but just so you know, I'm removing Anon asks, so if you wanna keep this going, you're gonna have to show your real account. You know, so we can talk like 17+ adults like you claim you are ☺️
The ball's in your court sweetheart, can't wait to hear back from you, you've been an utter delight to speak to ♥️
#franco barbi#come on baby lets see your account :)#dont get shy on me now#five asks in the span of a day is HUGE fan behaviour and i really appreciate all the support#talk soon <3
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hello neutual (new mutual). the idea of your MMJ -> Niigo genreswap is eating at my brain . I'm incredibly interested
;; hello neutual!!!!
;; is this an invitation to infodump? im taking this as an invitation to infodump :3
;; more more jump! the anonymous music circle who's members hide away from the public.
;; jist of everything is that minori "rinrin" starts composing to improve her abilities in idol auditions (don't question it), then (in order) airi "riri" gets roped in as the mv maker, then shizuku "rook" as the artist and after a whole lotta plot and sekai shenanigans, haruka "ruka" as the lyricist.
;; their personalities and whatnot are mostly the same. minori is super energetic and hopeful, for all except three hours of the day where she's the opposite (luckily she's usually asleep), haruka is haruka except sleep deprived and the guilt complex is worse, talking to airi is a 50/50 on whether she'll glare at you or walk away and shizuku... we'll get to that.
;; their sekai is the fairytale sekai and it's basically a massive forest, except for the one massive clearing that has a stage. except the stage is not in good condition..
;; each vocaloid is based off of a different fairytale thing. miku (princess) and luka (witch) are their starting vocaloids, but (in order) rin (some sorta forest spirit-esque thing) shows up in colour of myself, meiko (mythical creature tamer) shows up in you deserve it! break time!, kaito (royalty) shows up for worldwide wander and len (also some sorta forest spirit-esque thing) shows up at some other point that i haven't decided.
;; the order of events is slightly shuffled, only because colour of myself needs to be first. because colour of myself is the "shizuku quit your job" event. did i mention that she didn't quit during the main story? yeah she never gets the push she needs to quit and stays there. -> because the cloverdamned turning point quote is haruai
;; which leads back to the "and shizuku... we'll get to that." comment. yeah she's not doing well. she's been balancing work and these meetings (one of which she enjoys and finds comfort in. hint: it isn't the one involving her groupmates who hate her) so she's stressed, dealing with perfectionism and all that.
;; at some point in colour of myself, minori gets really sick and shizuku is very iffy about it. (her and rin were witness to minori starting her "sekai research", part one of which was to eat plants in the sekai. something bad happened.) that's the most random fact anyway continuing on
;; minori solves her problems in every event by getting a whole lot of sugar in her system, acting like 'normal' then sugar crashing at about four am. which is when she sleeps for three hours or just cries for no discernable reason. then she repeats this at seven am.
;; group relationship wise is funny because. minori is more chill about being in a group with the other three (having worked out their identities way before they all worked out each others and having time to process that).
;; so minoharu is along the lines of "ruka-chan responds to my kindness with trust issues. what do i do"
;; minoai is airi daring minori to do dumb stuff and minori doing it then airi getting incredibly concerned as she injures herself in more and more unhinged ways
;; and minoshizu is "[says anything]" "yeah, same".
;; haruai are attempting to murder each other at any given point. i would be joking but one of their first interactions (that ive written) in sekai is: "oh are you not gonna say hello to your groupmate momoi?" "go fuck yourself." "id rather not."
;; harushizu are looking at each other's situations and going "at least mine isn't that bad". <- they are both bad in different ways
;; shizuai is shizuai. airi is the main encourager for shizuku getting out of cheerful*days and shizuku is the number one fan of airi.
;; all of them are clingy, in very different ways. minori just needs to be able to hear them over call or see them and she's happy. shizuku will just grab onto people (airi or minori usually). airi and haruka act like they aren't clingy but panic if they haven't heard anything from one of their groupmates in a day.
;; this au is where the minoshizu part of this fic came from!
#project sekai#minori hanasato#haruka kiritani#airi momoi#shizuku hinomori#im so sorry this went on for so long#this au is silly and thats all i'll say#oh and yes. in meiko's first appearance in you deserve it! break time! she has (magic) penguins with her#cloverclub
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