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[dearestaeneas]

ceo of Feeling Weird has logged on, boys!

here’s part 1 of what i expect to be at least 3 parts? maybe more? i want to play with how i do world building and go even harder into how i tend to mess around with tenses and narrators. this was meant to be a vent piece, but we haven’t even gotten there yet, babey! who knows if that’s what this’ll even evolve into. take this for now!

word count: 1056

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Listen: Mara has been replaced.

You know it, I know it, everyone here knows it.

We do not know where Mara is, but the woman in front of us is definitively not her.

She doesn’t even look like her, but no one here seems to care. I certainly don’t.

Not-Mara stepped out of her car and knocked on the front door, beaming with pride as she handed our host an expensive bottle of white wine. Mara does not drink wine. Not-Mara wore her hair up, collarbones exposed and pale cleavage concealed just enough by her gown’s neckline. She possessed a traditional femininity that would never even whisper in Mara’s mind to present itself as an option.

She smiles and chats, polite and boring, as demanded of all dinner party guests. She even says a handful of words to me, although I could not for the life of me recall them. They are forgettable and unnecessary and she says them with a conviction foreign to Mara. Mara does not care about appearances. Mara does not care about etiquette. I do not remember if it was her the invitation was addressed to, or if Not-Mara was the intended guest. Surely it must have been the former.

I believe she’d been excited for the party, or at least tried to be. Although Mara did not care for appearances, she at least understands that a certain level of face must be presented in social niceties. Politeness and attempts at conformity are well within her wheelhouse, and I do believe she truly wanted to want to come.

That does not matter, however.

Our host has summoned us to the dining room, and Not-Mara sits across from me. She sips her own wine, swirling it in the glass and making comments as to its quality in terms I barely understand. The man beside her, who is fat and mustachioed, laughs heartily and responds conspiratorially, leaning in so only she can hear him. She laughs in turn, a delicate, tinkling affair. Mara’s laugh is not like that. Mara’s laugh alternates between high and squeaking and bark-like.

I do not know the man Not-Mara reacts to. I know and do not know everyone in this room, all faces familiar and foreign to me. I imagine they feel the same.

Food is placed before me, and I eat. It is good. I do not know what it is. Different shellfish have been placed in front of my fellow guests, and I assume that is what lies before me as well, although all I can see is gray sludge. Edges of the sludge crack, and juice spurts out, as if I were cracking a claw. I am sure that is what it is, although I cannot confirm this.

I fear I make myself sound a prude. I was not simply an observer in this affair, but a raucous contributor. I laughed with my mouth full, responding to queries and comments with the appropriate politeness and charm. I was the picture of a perfect dinner guest. We all were.

“I’m glad to see you, my dear,” our hostess said, addressing Not-Mara. “Considering the alternative.” She enunciated the word, her ‘t’s’ lethal. The guests murmur their agreement, my own voice mumbling its assent. Not-Mara shrugs mid-sip before grinning brightly as the wine glass leaves her lips. A red kiss sits on the rim.

“As if that were an option,” she replies coyly. The hosts laugh. Their laughs are fake, practiced.

A thin wire of a woman huffs into her own lobster-shaped sludge. Her blonde hair is as wiry as her body and frames her gaunt face in a haunting manner. Everything about her seems the same pale shade, but which color that shade belongs to I cannot tell. “I do not know why you tolerate her.” Her voice is tinged with an accent I cannot place. “No reasonable person should have to.”

Murmurs of agreement ring out again. Our light conversation is steadily replaced with the sounds of silverware clinking on plates and chewing.

It isn’t that I dislike Mara. That certainly is not the case. She has her own charm, misplaced though it may be. Her eyes are dark and inviting, playful and fiery. It is inappropriate and I perceive it with the necessary distaste. I would like to believe that she could find her own people and be loved in the way humans deserve, but such a thing requires someone willing to give that love in the first place. I do not think Mara has that. Certainly not from me.

Not-Mara is lovable. Even as she eats silently all eyes in the room fall on her, mine included. She is charming in the way one should be. It is appropriate.

“Who says I tolerate her?” Not-Mara asks suddenly. She speaks with an accent Mara does not possess. There is no influence of the city tinting her words.

“How could you not?” The host asks. He dabs at his mouth, removing invisible crumbs.

“Darling,” her voice drips with the polite condescension of the upper class. “I don’t even speak of her unless I’m forced to.”

The fat man chortles. “Starving a memory is one way to kill someone.”

“Is she dead?” The wire woman pipes.

He rolls his eyes theatrically. “Do you even listen?”

Not-Mara smiles with the air of one accustomed to addressing fights between children. “Not literally,” she says kindly to the woman, while placing a hand gingerly on the mustachioed man’s forearm. “Although, who can really say?” She smiles again, as if she has a secret. I am entranced.

Dessert is served. I do not know what it is. I eat it and it is good. My fellow guests have custards and cakes in front of them, and I assume that is what lies before me as well. The sludge crunches and crackles between my teeth.

We retire to the sitting room and the men smoke, the scents of tobacco rising from our pipes and settling into our clothing. Not-Mara taps her cigarette on its case, looking expectantly at me. Her eyes are inviting, but not dark. They are not playful; they are hard. I lean forward and light it for her, the match pinched between my thumb and forefinger. She thanks me with those hard eyes and leans back in her armchair, smiling.

[prettycottagequeer]

ok maybe I'm a little late to this BUT I'm gonna do a to-do list motivation thingy because I've had the worst two weeks since I started college :)

SO these I should start on asap:

50 I make the snack I really want but I haven't had the motivation to make

100 I clean my dorm. another thing I've been meaning to do for a week

150 I do the presentation about mid-victorian fashion I've been putting off (due Monday)

200 I start memorizing the monologue that was due a week ago (now due Tuesday)

these can wait longer:

300 I spend time outside. It's so nice but I'm getting stuck scrolling because I feel like shit. vicious cycle ect

500 I start setting a better weekend routine (aka getting up before noon)

1k I start working out again. I was doing a routine to get more masc and build muscle and I liked it but life hit me like Crowley driving the Bentley and I've missed like 3 weeks

2k I buy my first binder. I've been coping with sports bras for almost a year now and I haven't been able to justify spending $50+ on a binder even though I know I'd love it and use it everyday.

Do I tag people? I don't know but I'm going to. @the-globe-theatre-maggot @weirdly-specific-but-ok @howmanyholesinswisscheese

here's just some context if you want to read, feel free to skip. some of this I've talked about in the maggot server, some I haven't, but I really just need a place for this to go that's out of my head. tw homophobia, transphobia, car crash(??)

How I Have Been Run Over By The Bentley Going 90 In Central London What Feels Like 50 Times In The Last Two Weeks

I'm going to college about 4 hours away from my parents, and it's been really nice. They.. suck, to say the least. transphobic/homophobic ect, super traditional conservative catholic, racist, all of it. so i tried to move somewhere where I wouldn't have to think about them and I could be myself and do what I can to be happy. March 1st was the start of my spring break, which meant going home because the dorms close. I was already not excited, but I was prepared. the problem with being away from home is I forget just how bad they are. My optimism gets the better of me and I think maybe this time they'll be better. so I decided to not hide my septum piercing.

that was a mistake. it starts a whole fight where they say we know you're trans, you're actually a girl and you always will be, we have the bones argument, they think I'm being influenced by demons or something (if only they knew about crowley) because I want to change my name, and they tell me that going on t will completely ruin my body and give me cancer and other things. They're also mad about my dyed hair, septum, and general style, and say I'm setting a terrible example for my (5) younger siblings and make it a point to tell me just how much of a disappointment I am. I think I'm pretty cute and fun but y'know, whatever. very fun time. I lie so much, don't give them any more details about my identity, and say I'm not planning to go on t to save my ass. which is all on instinct which makes me feel worse because if I'm really trans I should be able to stand up for that, right? maybe I'm faking the dysphoria.

the next morning I wake up really sick, and spend the rest of the week sick and feeling like shit because I'm home and back in the same place and situation I was a year ago that I thought I escaped. at one point I pretty much lose my voice but also kind of get gender euphoria from it. it's weird.

On Friday it's time for me to drive back 4 hours to school, and I make it about 3/4 of the way when google maps takes me on a random gravel road and I crash my car, really crash my car, like sideways-in-a-ditch-windows-broken-crawling-up-out-the-door crash it in the middle of nowhere. (I was fully paying attention to the road, it was raining and super slick) I call my parents because I have no one else to call and I sit in a Subway for 3 hours while they drive to get my car. when they get there they're (understandably) really mad, and they tell me that I'm not mature enough to be going to school so far away and I need to get my shit together and stop depending on them. which. is probably true. but made me feel even more stupid about the fact that I crashed my car. I get back to school and I'm still Very Sick with no energy or motivation to do anything. So I've spent the last week trying to get better and honestly to do anything. it hasn't really worked. I'm a lot better health-wise (Not emotionally), still sick but I have a lot of work due, so I really need a push to get started

[ourbeloved1011]

Yibo is a straight man who has publicly stated countless times he’s a straight man, and he has denied cp countless times since 2019. So he’d never address a gay rumor lol. Not only would that be shameful but it would bring unnecessary and unwanted attention to him especially in a largely homophobic country like China and it’s government. As for xiao zhan he will continue leeching on Yibo because while the former’s career has stalled since 2020, Yibo continues to go higher and higher and make a name for himself in every industry that interests him (film, dance, racing, fashion, skateboarding, motorcycle, etc.). Maybe you dirty turtles will finally wake up when one of them gets married? Although it’s well known that xiao zhan is currently dating his jingjing manager. <3

I see what you're trying to do here, solo fan 🏍️Thanks for dropping by ☺️

I bet you know everything about xiao zhan, I guess? 🤔 Do you know him personally? Otherwise, you won't be spreading hate against him confidently here.

I don't have issue with solo fan. Solo fan have all my respect as long as you don't incite & encourage hatred in society.

Xz leeches on wyb? You got it wrong. They are mutually leeching on each other 🤣

No offense but your fav doesn't even know you exist. Why bother to be useless keyboard warrior? I hope you will be sued for your hateful comments one day 🫶🏻

"Yibo has publicly stated countless time he's a straight man" - he did mention this before. However, no one in their right mind will come out publicly & announce "well, actually- not really."

He's a public figure. I'll use back your word -especially in a largely homophobic country like China. Why need to self-destruct?

Personally, let me repeat this again, in my personal opinion, wyb doesn't like guy in general but xz is an exception.

I don't know if yibo is a straight guy or was a straight guy & I can neither confirm nor deny anything. Only yibo knows the truth behind his words.

Yibo: hey, I'm a straight man too.

Also yibo: 🤝🏻🫰🏻☺️😘😛😉👀 at xz. Shamelessly say I love you.

Yibo's double standard can be seen clearly when it comes to xz. What an extreme way to tease a friend. I see.

If you can't watch xz, it's ok. Just focus on yibo. Especially his eyes cos eyes never lie.

As for xz- he can date whoever he wants to. I don't own him. I don't have any right to decide on it.

Once again, I will never know for sure if yizhan is a real thing. I'm not their parent or family or close friend. There's no way- me, as a mere fan knows 100% what is real and what is not.

Some 🐢 say they will be seen together in public in 2026. To be honest, I don't even trust that 2026 prediction 😂

For me, let's say they aren't together now, at least, at some point, they did have a crush on each other esp yibo. He's wearing his heart on his sleeve 😂

Their happiness is everything. Whether they end up together or with someone else. It's their life.

That's how I see it and it's plenty enough for me. However, I've made a choice to believe that both of them are doing fine & their relationship is still going strong until today.

On what basis?

Actually, they don't have to prove to the world if they are in relationship. Somehow, they kindly leave some hidden traces to decipher from time to time. It's still ongoing.

Call it what you want. Throwing 🍬 or fanservice or leeching onto one another 🤷🏻‍♀️

Thought solo fans dont trust 🍬 ? Then please don't make fuss out of them. Let us, the dirty 🐢 enjoy & make a fool of ourselves.

Again, either one of them gets married to someone else or marry each other or never marry at all. It doesn't have anything to do with you. Your approval or your words mean nothing.

Don't act like you are the mighty one. Acting like you are on the 'right side'.

So please. Don't say to others to wake up.

You. Please. Wake up first.

We are just an unknown fan.

[xx-midnight-candy-goblin-xx]

INTRO POST!! :D

[This will update over time]

Old blog: @midnight-candy-goblin (I can't access it anymore)

I'm taking drawing requests!! :)

The fandoms I'm in are;

TV show/movie/indie animation fandoms:

Helluva Boss

Hazbin Hotel

The Owl House

Heartstopper

The Amazing Digital Circus

Nimona

She Ra

Gravity Falls

Monkey Wrench

Death Note

The Hollow

RAMSHACKLE

Jurassic World Camp Cretaceous

Jurassic World Chaos Theory

The Music Freaks

Carmen Sandiego 2019

Wild Kratts

How to Train Your Dragon

Rise of the Guardians

Coraline

Octonauts

Book fandoms:

Wings of Fire

Nimona

The Land of Stories

The Hunger Games

Loveless

Solitaire

A Good Girl's Guide to Murder

Heartstopper

Coraline

The Reappearance of Rachel Price

Webcomic fandoms:

Jackson's Diary

Castle Swimmer

School Bus Graveyard

Heartstopper

High Class Homos

Love Me to Death

Spicy Mints

Verses:

Hellaverse

Osemanverse

I post my art sometimes and make my own posts, but I mostly reblog things

He/they/it, chaotic, INTP, therapist friend, bisexual, call me Goblin or Ado or Avocado (long story) (or any masculine name that starts with the letter A, really)

I live in Japan currently, but was raised in Washington State and Peru. I'm Peruvian-Japanese-American 🫡 Kuzco is my cousin btw (The Emporor's New Groove)

I speak English, Spanish, some German, and I'm learning Japanese. I also know Morse code ...././._../._../___ :)) (my Morse is a bit rusty though) I also know the runic alphabet and a code called Atbash.

Pfp art is NOT mine!!

Hola, me llamo Goblin. Hablo inglés, español, un poco de alemán y un poquitito de japonés.

Hallo, ich heiße Goblin, ich spreche Englisch, Spanisch, etwas Deutsch, und ein bisschen Japanisch.

私の名前はゴブリンです。 ごめんなさい英語を話せますか? (-_-;)

I'm a ✨minor✨

(but my doctor told me I have the maturity of a junior in college ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)

If you ever want to talk about any of these fandoms 👏DON'T👏BE👏AFRAID👏TO👏ASK👏ME👏

I LOVE getting asks and messages, I want to get to know my mutuals and other followers better

Also if you have any recommendations (smth to watch/read) please tell me!! I won't get to it immediately, but (probably) at some point, so don't be afraid to recommend smth <3

Thank you for coming to my TedTalk :]

[Insta: xx_midnight_candy_goblin_xx

Pinterest (obviously I only post JD things, it has infested my mind): Ken Okamoto ]

I AM CRINGE BUT I AM FREE

Transphobes, racists, ableists, sexist, homophobes, pedophiles, zoophiles, DO NOT INTERACT.

Free Palestine. I will not be taking questions.

Time zones suck ass. Wdym you're eating lunch? It's midnight??

I am an atheist, but will say stuff like "Oh my god", "like god intended", "holy shit", etc

Yes, I write fics. No, I will not give you my ao3 acc. See if you can figure it out tho :)

I use Heelys still. Be more like me /hj

My favorite quote is "Suck it up, eat cookies." from my band teacher (9/9/22) However my head is FILLED with vine quotes

My art is (usually) tagged with #my art, my posts are tagged with #my post For reblogs regarding bigger fandoms, I probably won't tag them, but if it's a smaller fandom or something I want to find again then I usually will tag it properly

Rules for drawing requests: if you want something NSFW, it's an immediate no. However if it's something mildly explicit (some nudity, kissing, touching, etc) then ask through DMs. If it's something absolutely SFW then please use my asks! I'd like to make my art public. The drawing(s) most likely won't be fully finished drawings, but more like sketches or doodles. No OCs, only characters from the fandoms mentioned above. All drawing/sketches/doodles are COMPLETELY FREE!

I might take writing prompts soon, but we'll have to wait and see. . .

Thank you for reading!!

[bonedo-enthusiast]

coming out to bnd 𐂐◯𓇋

A/N: my first ever actual tumblr post! (AHH) i’m still learning about how to use tumblr and whatnot but… i had this thought one day and figured maybe i should post it. hope you guys like it. (also btw lowercase is intended!) :)

tws: none(?), mention of homophobia/transphobia but only in passing

genre(s): fluff, comfort

wc: 723

sungho

“oh, really?”

surprised but tries not to be too surprised because he doesn’t want to make you feel weird

will take your secret to his grave if need be

probably won't ask you many questions because he doesn't want to make you uncomfortable

assures you that this won't change anything about your friendship

he might be a little awkward though, unsure of how to segue into a different subject

if you came out as trans, it would definitely take several months for him to be able to switch to your new name and pronouns

not out of malice, but because he knew you for so long as (insert deadname)

he would cringe every time he slips up, quickly apologizing and moving right along

riwoo

"oh... thanks for telling me."

similarly to sungho, he's surprised

but he's definitely more awkward about it

like to the point you wonder if he's homophobic/transphobic

but he just has so many thoughts and questions swirling around in his head

like how long have you known? what does this mean? does this change anything about your friendship? (no, of course not!)

once he pushes those thoughts aside, he smiles at you tells you he's glad you told him

now you both are closer than ever! <3

no but i feel like whenever riwoo would mess up your pronouns, he'd apologize profusely

like to the point where it's very awkward...

but he's trying his best! :,)

jaehyun

"oh word?"

no but something in me tells me jaehyun would get excited (?)

(like this man may or may not have taken a "am i gay test" in high school kind of vibes)

"whaaaat?!"

if you came out as trans, he would definitely insist on buying necessary supplies for you, especially if your birthday is around the corner :D

he's super sweet and supportive, immediately asking you what your new name/pronouns are

"ooh, that's such a cool name!"

and if you came out with your sexuality, he would always consider this when talking about attractive people

like pointing out cute people you'd potentially be attracted to with your newly revealed sexuality

might even try setting you up with them lol

taesan

"okay... and? took you long enough."

bro already knew 😭

taesan strikes me as a very observant person, so i feel like he'd already have some idea

maybe he'd even start viewing you as the gender you transition to, before you even tell him

(he's psychic! /j)

in his mind, that's who you are and who you always have been! <3

as a result, he would have no issues with getting your pronouns/name right

as for sexuality, he really doesn't care (respectfully)

"cool."

like. so nonchalant.

leehan

"oh? tell me more."

i feel like he'd be very curious about your identity (if you're comfortable telling him about it of course!)

he's a big listener and likes learning about things, so he would be very good to talk to about these things

and actually, i could even see him doing some research to try and learn more about his friend and understand them better :)

i see him as the kind of person you'd come out to first, just because he's so understanding

like you could come to him with your fears and worries about your realized identity and he'd just be so so sweet :(

"you're still the same person, and you're still my friend. you are never alone. it's okay, we can figure this out together."

PLS 😭💗

woonhak

"huh... so what does that mean exactly?"

i'm not sure he would understand anything beyond the basic terms most people know (like gay, lesbian, trans)

so if you were to come out to him as, say, nonbinary, he might need some explaining about what exactly that means

but regardless, he'll just smile and nod

but still be confused because why are you telling him this??

he wonders if he's supposed to do something with this information, or just listen

i can so picture him trying hard to pay attention to what you're saying while at the same time trying to figure this stuff out in his head lol

but once he's past this internal debate, he's so sweet

messes up your pronouns/ name quite a bit at first though

"yeah, me and (insert deadname)-- i mean, wait! sorry, (insert chosen name)..."

[scumashling]

Thooughts on Redo of Healer/A Whump Rewrite

CW: mentions of abuse, physical torture, noncon, misogyny, homophobia and slavery below

Incoming long post. It does have a point.

So, awhile back before I made this account I decided to do an endurance watch of a somewhat infamous anime entitled Redo of Healer. For those of you blessed with ignorance, Redo is a dark fantasy harem romance/rape revenge story based on the light novel of the same name by Rui Tsukiyo.

Set in the Kingdom of Jioral, a kingdom currently at war with the Demon population and built on the slave trade of the demi human population, the story follows Keyaru, a Healing class hero, who after 4 years of being enslaved for his uniquely miraculous abilities, (and enduring a fuck ton of emotional, physical and sexual abuse along the way) embarks on a brutal quest for revenge against his sadistic former party members/tormentors, (Bullet the Cannon Hero, Blade the Sword Hero, and most prevalently, Princess Flare, the Magician Hero who orchestrated his drugging and imprisonment.)

He gets Flare first, escaping prison, cornering her in her own soundproof bedroom, and proceeding to torture her physically and eventually violently raping her. So, now that he's gotten his revenge, does he just kill her? Call it a day and leave her a broken, ruined mess like she did to him? I mean. What more could he possibly do to bring her lower?

He changes both their faces, fakes both their deaths, erases her memories, and when she comes too, he tells his named is Keyaruga (groan) her she's his loyal attendant and lover, dubs her Freiya, and immediately coerces her into having sex with him. They then embark on a journey to destroy the Kingdom she doesn't know is hers.

Along the way, he slowly begins recruiting more girls into this party/builds a harem, often by coercive or outright nonconsensual mean like drugging/brainwashing and having a lot of sex with

Setsuna- A slave demi human wolf girl named that he purchases as a battle slave/it's okay she wants to be a slave because he's just so great

Kureha- A knight of the Kingdom who Keyaruga who he drugs and raped after she attacks him

Eve-a extremely powerful demon girl. The only one he doesn't coerce into fucking him

(note: below is all my subjective opinion.)

I wanna stress that while it is a very Whump heavy story, Redo is extremely Not Good and I cannot recommend it. And I'm not just saying that because it's a rape porn with high production values (though it has a pretty intolerable amount of extremely brutal rape for anyone who either doesn't have a hardcore CNC kink or who's brain isn't broken from reading violent fanfiction at age 13 like yours truly),it is genuinely one of the worst written pieces of fiction I've ever read. The pacing is terrible, the magic system is generic , the dialogue is atrocious, try character designs are so mediocre ( wow another hot girl with gigantic tits? How did you come up with that idea?!), the villains are all vile depraved power tripping rapist idiots who immediately get their comeuppance by the equally vile protagonist, who is always one step ahead is also so insufferably smug. Its also extremely edgy and lazy in regards to how it treats shit like slavery (pure shock value pretty much,). Because plot and theme is not the point though, the torture porn is.

Redo of Healer is also, and I cannot stress this enough, extremely extremely homophobic ( if you disagree that's fine you're allowed to be wrong <3) I won't go into it too much bc this post is already long but Blades character can be be described as every horrible stereotypes about lesbians stacked on top of each other in a trench coat. The author is so transparently trying to offend me by writing her this way that she actually has the opposite effect and gives me the giggles. Which now that I type that out is kind how I feel about the whole story. it's a pretty terribly male power fantasy about a terrible violent man who sexually tortures slightly more terrible violent men and women. And quite frankly, when I watching it , all I could think was "I could write this so much better."

Because see, even though everything I said before about redo is true, i also find it incredibly interesting:

There are a lot of Whump tropes in redo. Slavery, dehumanization, beatings, bastards Whumpees getting revenge on lady Whumpers, conditioning I think? intimate and sadistic whumpers, mind control whump, non consensual drugging, human pets. Theres prob more I forgot. They aren't handled well but they are there.

I love the rape revenge genre. I have vivid memories of getting together with my teen girls friends and watching Jennifer Hills and Hailey Stark tear apart some bastards. Based shit.

Redo is the first male victim on female perpetrator rape revenge media I've come across. it is also, the first I've seen where a victim makes their rapist into a willing sex slave as part of their revenge.

There are story elements and themes that do hold potential, specifically around power and the places lines between victim and abuser get blurry. Eg: Keyarga assumes locking away Flare's memories has made her into a new person, because Freiya is so sweet, and Flare is an abusive bitch. He eventually has to come to terms with the fact that he didn't erase Flare. They are they same person. Freiya is sweet because she has none of Flares life experience, and is with someone who shows her love and appreciation. More if this instead of a smug asshole fucking hot women because he can

When I found myself disgusted I briefly entertained the thought that I might be sexist. analyzing that thought for more then a minute I realized that ridiculous. I don't hate it for being a male rape revenge, I hate it because it's a male power fantasy. And I hate it because of Keyarga. Because he is a man who is constantly drugging and brainwashing recruiting women who cross him into his slave battle harem, all of whom he rapes has sex with aside from Eve, and even if he's not framed as a good person, he's framed as a badass. People who feel entitled to hurt others because they were hurt are not badass. They are pathetic. And more importantly, they are broken. Any story about people like him worth it's salt with acknowledge that.

TLDR I am re writing Redo Of Healer as a Serious Story about a Bastard Whumpee Who Brainwashes and Enslaves his Whumper, and Falls in love with her in the process.

It's still in its early stages. I have some picrews, some plot outlining and the basic jist of how I want to change about the characters and what I want to keep, and my partner, who's more familiar with fantasy RPG stuff, is helping me develop the magic system into something more interesting. But I do want to thank this community because I've been stewing on this horrifying story about torture and the nature of power for so long wondering who would want to read it and now that I've learned of Whump I know there is actually a chance that there is an audience.

Anyway, I've been typing way too long. I will post more about this at another time.

Also a reminder, I am new to writblr and to tumblr in general. Im still finding my footing in terms of some of the functions of the site and the etiquette/social norms/terminology, or like, the ways people follow each other's writing? Idk where I'm going with this just please keep that in mind

[parkerdoesart]

Heyya!

So, I'm doing commissions on another website (amino lol) and I decided to post some information here as well! (I'll be posting some art as well as I do commissions!)

How to commission me?

1. Look at this post. You can also ask me to send the info graphic I've made with prices and a few art examples! (I have many, some of which I'm going to be adding here!!)

2. Tell me your payment method (Cashapp/Venmo), what you'd like from me (Full body, half, etc), and the details of your commission. (Ship art, added characters, background, etc!)

3. You must provide a character reference (or references for similar characteristics if it is a description based explanation), pose, and anything else I need for your specific character.

4. I will tell you what slot you're in (I currently have 4 open) and the range of how long it'll take. Then, you will pay at least half before I start the commission (preventing scams). Once I finish the sketch, it will be sent to you for a once over and then I'll send you updates!

5. You can then take the art piece, with credit to me, and use it however you'd like to! Since I'm a young artist, I would like exposure (shout out/credit) but this isn't required!

What to keep in mind:

1. I have a job, go to school, and have a life outside of doing commissions. Do not spam me if I don't get to you immediately. I will when I am able to.

2. If I find you have stolen my artwork, I will report you. If you try to scam me, I will report you. I don't stand for it. I'll sit and block you <3

3. I am a learning artist. I haven't had much experience in drawing armor, animals, Gore, or anything of the sort. I am open to those things (to a point) but I may be unable to draw them. Be patient with me.

Some rules:

What I will draw:

- Ship art: I will draw characters kissing, holding hands, cuddling, etc! I don't mind ship art.

- Group shenanigans: While this may get expensive, I will take on the project! I just need a reference for each person per group. Each person will add money to the final product, though.

- Certain weapons: Knives, swords, bows. I'll draw them if I have a detailed reference! However, I will NOT draw firearms. Complete no. Do not even send me a reference with one.

- Animals: Furries, animal companions, or humanoid characters are all fine! However, experience is still an issue.

- Slight Gore: Blood, mostly. I'm also in the creepypasta fandom (Jeff, for example) so scars are fine! I don't have much experience with much detailed Gore, though.

What I wont draw:

- NSFW: I won't draw anything suggestive. (Bikinis and skimpy clothes do not count. Poses, words, and actions do.) If you're unsure, ask, but I will tell you no if I find it's in this category.

- Hateful: Racist, Homophobic, transphobic, etc. I wont draw anything with misinformation either (Ex: "Cryptids" from indigenous folklore that is disrespectful to even say the name of.)

- Mecha: Lack of ability/interest. I literally do not have the ability to draw this. If I do, it's simplified. Full sets of armor or highly detailed lace/clothing/patterns are also in this category

- Firearms: This is a trigger for me. I will never draw this.

- Whatever I explain I'm uncomfortable with. If I'm uncomfortable drawing your commission, I won't draw it. I'll refund you even.

Prices:

Head Shot/Pfp's:

Sketch: $5

With color: $7

With lineart/Color: $10

Full color/Shaded: $15

Half Body:

Sketch: $10

With Color: $15

Lineart/Color: $20

Full Color/Shaded: $25

Full Body:

Sketch: $15

With color: $20

Lineart/Color: $28

Full Color/Shaded: $35

Other Prices:

Backgrounds:

Single color: + $0-$2

Simple pattern: + $5

Complex: + $10-$20

Added Prices:

Added Person: + ½ original price

Animal: + $5-$10

Prop/Weapon: +$2-$7

Reference Sheets:

Base price: $25

Added poses: +$5-$10 each

Each small detail graphic: $2

Description: +$5

What are you paying for?

My time and effort.

It takes me hours (10+ at times) to finish an art piece. I have to balance it between work, school, and other life things.

My skill.

I have spent years learning what I have about anatomy, clothes, shading, and color. You are paying for the active learning and previous skills I've learned. However, if you do not like my prices, then you can find another artist or draw it yourself!! It's not that hard, is it? Right?

In commissioning me you are paying for my time, skill, and effort. If you do not want to pay for that:

Don't commission me.

Art examples:

Full Body, color, and shading: $35 (with a simple background)

A full body, color, and shading: $35

A Half Body with full color, shading, and another character: $30

A head shot, simple background, color and shade: $15

Full Body, color, shade, and simple background (added character): $50 (Old art)

Sketch for ref sheet + small head: $30

Half Body Sketch and character: $15

Headshot Sketch: $5

Full Body Sketch: $15n

[ultimatebottom69]

Could you make a list of your 10 favorite Romance club love interests?

So Anon. I made the list. And as usual imma explain each choice of mine. And mainly i will take stories that have ended except for 2 of them. My rating is my taste so the main rating is How entertaining was it ? Did I get bored ? Did I think of never finishing this book ? Did I like the characters ? Was my female LI interesting ? And yes stories who haven't ended do get points taken away. Did I laugh out loud while reading it ? Did It take long for me to end the book ? Did I like the plot ? Did I give a fuck about the characters's fates ? Did I spend money ? Did i do it on DR ? Can I say to someone a part of the book I liked WITHOUT searching it up ?

Also Did I need the walkthrough ?

All this contributes to the list below. Again this as an Female LI romancer specifically. It was a time before slots. So i am judging specifically how much entertainment was I getting despite My LI not being here at all cause every female LI here is sidelined as usual.

1- Arcanum. Argue with the wall, Mary's route was a good 9/10, Alice was cooking and serving I did like the change of ambiance compared to season 1. Because despite the weak ass season 2 we had our moments and Selena's obsession with bridges...Incredible I would have liked a longer season 3 cause what do you mean it was all connected ? Also the fucking horses. Selena is such a delight because she is a RED FLAMING FLAG. No need for a red flag LI with her ass and yet they delivered Mary. No one could beat that in FLI (Xantheia enters the chat) I would like to remove my previous statement about no competition.

9.7/10

2. Heaven secret 1. I know. I know. But in my defense *pulls out Mimi out of a comically small bag* This fine lady was in here. Also the plot...Is funny, the main character was hilarious and very bold. The team of friends "Adi and Sammy" were a delight. Lucifer was an asshole but what's new. Fencio...Well I am mad we couldn't kill the man. I was on demon's path and i really liked it. Also the fact we killed Malbonte with his own power. Not bad for a gal who has an art degree at best. Bravo Victoria.

9.65/10. Because Alice is homophobic. I am not forgiving you for Austie not being in the li roster woman. Also for robbing us of Bont. I am still mourning.

3. Exceptionnaly I'm going to add a story that hasn't ended yet but to me it's the same as if it is cause it's just too good. Path of Valkirye. God damn. It would have beaten HS1 by a fucking landslide had the author stayed the same. In fact it could have beaten everyone if it wasn't for the fact the author changed unfortunately. The Loyd route ? Hmhm. Finger licking good. The plot ? 10. The characters ?8. Loki and the blod guy are here. I did like the blonde gal and the one episode we had of jealousy because I was romancing both at the same time. Also Loyd carrying me like a sack of potato. That is all I ever wanted.

And she is litterally HOT, 9.55555555/10

4-HOT. Now. I know what you're thinking but in my defense. Gisella is the GOAT. MVP. Hell yes. She is an icon and she is the moment. Except for her weird fart joke accolyte. I forgot his name fuck that guy. She was the real one her route is a 10. Simply for how long the episodes are. But there is no plot holes at all. None. I did hate the interlude had the most interesting moments. And also rare book where you can shoot a man in the balls with a fucking arrow.

8.5/10. Yes i did include the weird SA jokes in the grade but we can shoot a man in the balls. It kinda evens out. If we could have shot more people (including the people who were trying to SA) I would have made it a 9.

5. Vying for Versailles. Maria Theresa. For short we call her MT. The plot is cool but god damn you need the walkthrough for this book. Like oof. But i loved the characters loved the accurate ass historical representation of Louis xiv cause yes as a french we all knew that guy sucked MASSIVE ass in a bad way. I do love the book made him the town bycycle by how many women were passing through.

Hated we couldn't kill the guy but they DARED let me the option to kill my queen ? Fuck you author. I am meeting you in the parking lot for that one. Square up. Oh and I am doing that for Bonne too. This was a hate crime. Loved the happy ending, loved the vibe, I surprisingly liked the religious talk, mainly because I am fine praying with Maria Theresa yeah I am converted this is my religion now, if it gives me an excuse to have more time with her. I am still beating your ass.

8.25/10, the bonus point was cause I am french. Also louis's mom had got it going ON !

6 .Heaven Secret 2 : Yes. Yes yes. Yes. I know. I know. I know. I know. I never said my taste were immaculate. I can enjoy a shitshow when I see one cause this was Shepha's goofiest ass apocalypse I ever seen.

The chaos was worth every diamond. The goofy ass reveal of Vicky's true power. The reveal of Mammon dying a second time just to go "Psych ! Still alive." Eliza. Lord above. Mimi you lucky your mom ain't an LI. Austie's dad...Being a bad father ? Please this was not a reveal, you look at Austie three minutes and you can tell she has a difficult relationship with her parents.

I am mad we didn't see her more by the way.

The Mother of life was...Well she was not giving Mother, she was giving Cunt Slay Wine Aunt. Good for her is all I am saying but huh the sprite was not it. War was...Well i killed him. I am mad we didn't kill or fuck Plague. Yes I am one of these peoples. Sue me.

And the CG for Mimi were highly AI generated. The wedding and the last one. Like hm. But Mimi saved this book for me despite her change of sprite, and her weird decision to try become an actress and I am over here like "But you said back 10 years ago that....You know what ? Sure. I'll watch you with pleasure." . She was everything and it took me 5 episodes to love HS2. Can't wait for HS3. Now the rating is low. What would have upgraded immediately the rating ? Let me kill Rebecca in the finale battle. Let me do it. Why you cockblock me. Why are you a misogyn Alice ?

7.99/10

7. Rage of Titans. Now. I love greek mythology. I love that shit. Love Hercules. This book was supposed to be ranked higher but the plot was all over the place but the endings were a chief kiss in comparison. The female LI was good except for her change of personality...Well more like gain of a personality because until the reveal of they are Gods she was bland. Another book where the brother dies. Frankly heh. Aphrodite's route got a CG my lord. A cg like hmmmm. Also any book that lets me insult Zeus scott free gets my vote also...There were very funny background moments. I don't remember his name but one of sprite is so funny in season 3 the demi son of zeus. Good story too bad for the weird plot definitely needed another season and more then 1 female LI.

Anyway 7/10

8.Ok so. Another story that hasn't ended yet. But overall it is one of the rare stories where I don't really have a bad opinion of it. But I don't have either a strong love for it but I would say it fits here for me and my taste. W time catcher. So the book is solid. Again well Fantasy and I. Love story. Main female LI. She is MILF. Love the diverse cast no sprite looks like the others. The MC is super interesting. The only person I don't like of the squad and that's why i don't love the story much is the nonbinary pal with the pink streak in his hair. I don't really care about him but that's a me issue. The plot is bland in my opinion but again I prefer books who are very chaotic and have tons of comedy. WTC fits ONE criteria. The comedy is here it is funny. So I am giving a

6.6669/10 for now when the story ends I am pretty sure I will rate it differently.

9. Gladiator Chronicles. I like swords. I like gladiators. I like killing people. I like blood. So why is not higher in the classement ? Well the plot kinda...Huh. exploded like the death star. Augusta became sidelined somehow and did went through a personality change. Which we can't say the same about her brother. Fuck that guy. Nor her sister miss Delias 2.0. The ending was good and I had the meme "Oh Hi mark." On repeat. 6/10

10. Flower of Tiamat fire. Ok so. I like magic. I love fantasy. I love random fantastical animals. I loved the plot. I loved the side characters. Fuck Niall though, Hate the man. It was a guaranteed hit for me. Loved the story. It took only 2 days DR for me to finish it that's how good I was having it. I was buying them tea cups like it was black friday. The mother of Life ??? BITCH SHE WAS GIVING MOTHER OF LIFE ! Also the chaos energy thingy loved that plot line. Now though, why is it not in top 5 ? Despite all my praises ? Well IT WAS in the top 5. Until. Sue's ending ? I am mad. Very mad. Extremely mad even. This is me going "We were rooting for you, WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU ! HOW DARE YOU ?!" level of indignation. Author this was worse then just being homophobic. This was a total let down. I never been more mad in my life of a fucking ending especially how the route was built up. Like damn. I spent my money on this and THIS is the thanks I get ? I hope every water you drink always taste bad and you can never smell food, get out my house. 5/10. My disapointement is immeasurable and my week was ruined.

[moka-nek0]

Im finally making an introduction post :D

My name is Mocha! I'm 19 years old and my pronouns are she/they/kitty/and any other cat-related pronouns! I'm an IRL catgirl, or kemonomimi! I'm still figuring out my gender, but as far as I know, I'm catgender/nyanbinary. Im also pansexual/demisexual!

I'm in many fandoms, but my biggest one is Senyuu/戦勇! I do digital art here, and I post all of my music (instrumental covers and originals) on YouTube! I don't do any commissions at the moment, but I plan on opening them up sometime in the future. I own an AU of MLP/My Little Pony that's basically just Senyuu but with MLP characters, and it's called Ponyuu! My music isn't very great considering it's not made with a professional program but rather a browser chiptune maker called Ultrabox. I have LMMS but it's very hard for me to learn how to use it,, but at some point I'll be able to make better music!

I am extremely socially anxious and very shy around people, so please be patient with responses to asks or messages!

more serious stuff (mental disorders, triggers and dni) below the cut, tw for triggering topics

I have many undiagnosed and untreated mental illnesses (as you can probably tell lmao), and I know not a lot of people like when others self-diagnose, but until I can actually afford a proper diagnosis (which is extremely expensive), and after a lot of research (and being told im likely this) I'm 99% sure i am either neurodivergent or autistic, it is very hard to tell but until I can get a diagnosis, I'm either both or one of them. I also have RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria), depression and anxiety. because of this and many more personal problems, I lose my motivation to create fairly often, so please be patient with me!

My main triggers are kitchen knives (especially the emoji), topics about politics, war and the world ending, stalkers and yanderes, and irl gore (art is fine!).

please do not interact if you're any of the following: basic dni criteria (homophobic, transphobic, racist, and zionist), anti-neopronouns and anti-xenogenders, anti-selfshipping/OC x Canon shipping, anti-polyamory, proshippers/darkshippers (basically if you support r4pe, any kind of abuse, incest, pedophilia, zoophilia etc.), and if you enjoy or identify in any way with Sal from Wadanohara and the Great Blue Sea kindly fuck off <3

[dearestaeneas]

ceo of Feeling Weird had logged on, boys!

here’s part 1 of what i expect to be at least 3 parts? maybe more? i want to play with how i do world building and go even harder into how i tend to mess around with tenses and narrators. this was meant to be a vent piece, but we haven’t even gotten there yet, babey! who knows if that’s what this’ll even evolve into. take this for now!

word count: 1056

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Listen: Mara has been replaced.

You know it, I know it, everyone here knows it.

We do not know where Mara is, but the woman in front of us is definitively not her.

She doesn’t even look like her, but no one here seems to care. I certainly don’t.

Not-Mara stepped out of her car and knocked on the front door, beaming with pride as she handed our host an expensive bottle of white wine. Mara does not drink wine. Not-Mara wore her hair up, collarbones exposed and pale cleavage concealed just enough by her gown’s neckline. She possessed a traditional femininity that would never even whisper in Mara’s mind to present itself as an option.

She smiles and chats, polite and boring, as demanded of all dinner party guests. She even says a handful of words to me, although I could not for the life of me recall them. They are forgettable and unnecessary and she says them with a conviction foreign to Mara. Mara does not care about appearances. Mara does not care about etiquette. I do not remember if it was her the invitation was addressed to, or if Not-Mara was the intended guest. Surely it must have been the former.

I believe she’d been excited for the party, or at least tried to be. Although Mara did not care for appearances, she at least understands that a certain level of face must be presented in social niceties. Politeness and attempts at conformity are well within her wheelhouse, and I do believe she truly wanted to want to come.

That does not matter, however.

Our host has summoned us to the dining room, and Not-Mara sits across from me. She sips her own wine, swirling it in the glass and making comments as to its quality in terms I barely understand. The man beside her, who is fat and mustachioed, laughs heartily and responds conspiratorially, leaning in so only she can hear him. She laughs in turn, a delicate, tinkling affair. Mara’s laugh is not like that. Mara’s laugh alternates between high and squeaking and bark-like.

I do not know the man Not-Mara reacts to. I know and do not know everyone in this room, all faces familiar and foreign to me. I imagine they feel the same.

Food is placed before me, and I eat. It is good. I do not know what it is. Different shellfish have been placed in front of my fellow guests, and I assume that is what lies before me as well, although all I can see is gray sludge. Edges of the sludge crack, and juice spurts out, as if I were cracking a claw. I am sure that is what it is, although I cannot confirm this.

I fear I make myself sound a prude. I was not simply an observer in this affair, but a raucous contributor. I laughed with my mouth full, responding to queries and comments with the appropriate politeness and charm. I was the picture of a perfect dinner guest. We all were.

“I’m glad to see you, my dear,” our hostess said, addressing Not-Mara. “Considering the alternative.” She enunciated the word, her ‘t’s’ lethal. The guests murmur their agreement, my own voice mumbling its assent. Not-Mara shrugs mid-sip before grinning brightly as the wine glass leaves her lips. A red kiss sits on the rim.

“As if that were an option,” she replies coyly. The hosts laugh. Their laughs are fake, practiced.

A thin wire of a woman huffs into her own lobster-shaped sludge. Her blonde hair is as wiry as her body and frames her gaunt face in a haunting manner. Everything about her seems the same pale shade, but which color that shade belongs to I cannot tell. “I do not know why you tolerate her.” Her voice is tinged with an accent I cannot place. “No reasonable person should have to.”

Murmurs of agreement ring out again. Our light conversation is steadily replaced with the sounds of silverware clinking on plates and chewing.

It isn’t that I dislike Mara. That certainly is not the case. She has her own charm, misplaced though it may be. Her eyes are dark and inviting, playful and fiery. It is inappropriate and I perceive it with the necessary distaste. I would like to believe that she could find her own people and be loved in the way humans deserve, but such a thing requires someone willing to give that love in the first place. I do not think Mara has that. Certainly not from me.

Not-Mara is lovable. Even as she eats silently all eyes in the room fall on her, mine included. She is charming in the way one should be. It is appropriate.

“Who says I tolerate her?” Not-Mara asks suddenly. She speaks with an accent Mara does not possess. There is no influence of the city tinting her words.

“How could you not?” The host asks. He dabs at his mouth, removing invisible crumbs.

“Darling,” her voice drips with the polite condescension of the upper class. “I don’t even speak of her unless I’m forced to.”

The fat man chortles. “Starving a memory is one way to kill someone.”

“Is she dead?” The wire woman pipes.

He rolls his eyes theatrically. “Do you even listen?”

Not-Mara smiles with the air of one accustomed to addressing fights between children. “Not literally,” she says kindly to the woman, while placing a hand gingerly on the mustachioed man’s forearm. “Although, who can really say?” She smiles again, as if she has a secret. I am entranced.

Dessert is served. I do not know what it is. I eat it and it is good. My fellow guests have custards and cakes in front of them, and I assume that is what lies before me as well. The sludge crunches and crackles between my teeth.

We retire to the sitting room and the men smoke, the scents of tobacco rising from our pipes and settling into our clothing. Not-Mara taps her cigarette on its case, looking expectantly at me. Her eyes are inviting, but not dark. They are not playful; they are hard. I lean forward and light it for her, the match pinched between my thumb and forefinger. She thanks me with those hard eyes and leans back in her armchair, smiling.

[sincerely-idiotic]

Intro

This blog is so incredibly unserious, I am inactive every other eon but I never made an intro/pinned post so I figured I should! :3

Who Am I?

Or well, We!

We are Feather's & Flames! A DID system!

My name is Vesper and I'm the main Tumblr User and one of the Hosts! I use He/They/Vae/It pronouns and Identify as Demisexual and Staticgender. You can also use Sin/Sincerely

Askbox Rules??

Go ham, Go WILD even. I don't have any rules besides don't fuckin' spam it. That will probably get you blocked.

Also if at any point you think "Should I send this?" Probably Dont <3

Anything Else?

Occasionally I or someone else may use a signoff to signify who's talking. [Will update if someone else posts

📺- Vesper

🕊- Crow [He/They/Fae]

💗- Percy [She/Her]

🖋 - Rowan [He/They/It/Angel]

We do have a lot of OCs and like to write and draw them a lot so hopefully if we don't drop out of existence again we may post more art here!

We are AuDHD !!

Side Blog(s):

@sincerely-an-artist [Run by Rowan 🖋]

DNI LIST UNDER THE CUT:

3nd0s and their supporters

Pr0ship and c0mship (y'all NASTY)

Zi0nists

Z00philes and M@Ps (gtfo)

ANTI-LGBTQ+ (anything transphobic or homophobic will not be tolerated)

And of course... Anything else shitty (not that you would know or acknowledge it but if I find out you're Blocked :>) I am here to have a good time and if you fuck with that then you're ✨gone✨

I BLOCK WITHOUT WARNING, AND WILL ALMOST NEVER JUSTIFY WHY I BLOCKED SOMEONE.

[tea-time-with-london]

I agree with the Hopper s3 anon. He was absolutely toxic and what they did to his character was out of pocket.

One thing it was shown that he was on meds in s1, which likely contributed to having his anger issues under control, and he might have gone off the meds between s2 and s3.

But still Hopper isn't the best suited father figure for the Byers or El. Their fight in s2 was so hard to watch, I get him frustrated, but El is a traumatised girl who missed her friends. She only knows violence since she was born essentially, and Hopper can't handle a child like this.

He couldn't even talk normally to Mike in s3, which, yeah, Mike was an ass but he's still a child.

Does the fandom really think Hopper would be supportive of Will coming out? Nope, he was already homophobic to him in s1. He doesn't know how to talk to kids or show empathy for their struggles.

Bob was the only person I could have seen been right for the Byers. He cared about Joyce and the kids. Even though Jonathan didn't like him, Bob was never mean to him. He gave him space. Bob was patient and kind. Hopper is the opposite. He's a lot like Lonnie in terms of having a bad temper. He will trigger Joyce and the boys. Like I love him as an action hero, but he is terrible for the Byers family. And now, with more added trauma, he won't process that well idk. He would need therapy, but it's the 80s, and men show no feelings. Men don't cry kinda bullshit.

I love Jopper in theory (childhood friends to lovers), but they made Hopper into Lonnie 2.0, so I can't ship him with Joyce. She deserves someone like Bob, a gentle soul who keeps her calm and doesn't yell at her for minor things.

Confession #119

Hm. So like I partially get where you're coming from but allow me to touch on a few things, if I may. First, let me just say I also loved Bob. He was a sweet, gentle soul who truly did care for Joyce and the boys. (I wish I could describe my dad's reaction to Bob's death. My dad was mortified. He loved Bob.)

As for Hopper...I don't remember anywhere in season 1 where Hopper was homophobic to Will. I haven't watched season 1 in a bit so I could be misremembering, but I can't even name a scene in my head where he was homophobic.

But a genuine question for you is do you not believe he can change? At all? What would be the point of Hopper going through all 5 seasons and remaining exactly the same?

Hopper is re-learning how to be a parent, this is something I think we all have to remember. His only child died at just like five or six years old. As a parent, he was probably feeling so unbelievably helpless because he couldn't protect or save his little girl. This helplessness transformed into the overprotectiveness we saw in season 2. While he may have been overbearing, it wasn't out of malice. He was trying to do everything he could to keep El safe from the people that wanted to hurt her. And sure, he absolutely could have gone about it a different way, I won't argue against that at all because there were times he could have exercised grace and patience and figured out a solution where they were both happy.

As for season 3, I also wasn't the biggest fan of how Hopper acted toward Mike, but also he's watching his daughter grow up and branch out with friends and her boyfriend and there comes that protectiveness again that a lot of parents have toward their kiddos. Again, obviously I don't approve of the way Mike was treated. I think Hopper could have eased up on him while also implementing boundaries as a parent.

And remember...Hopper only got to spend 5 years with his daughter Sarah. El is like a preteen/teen in seasons 2-3. This is a whole different experience for Hopper. He's never parented a teenager before, much less a teen daughter who is superhuman as a single father. Parenthood is trial and error.

And then we obviously have to factor trauma into the conversation as an explanation for a lot of his behavior, but of course that's never an excuse for behavior. But Hopper loves El, and Hopper loves Joyce (and though I feel like we don't really see Hopper and the Byers brothers in scenes together, I'm sure he loves them too) then I think that's some motivation to work on his own healing so he doesn't project onto other people. My point in saying all this is that characters grow and change. And I think Hopper has honestly showed a lot of feelings. Just think of the conversations he had with Enzo in Russia. He showed genuine, raw emotion talking about Sarah and El and all the shit he's been through. That's process. That's development.

At the end of the day, you feel the way you feel about it all and that's perfectly fine. Just wanted to open up the discussion a bit :)

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hii!!

How are you? I hope you're doing fine. Letting you know that i love your blog sm and you as a person? chef's kiss.

I've seen you helping out people and giving advices and i've read all of them. i really adore you doing so.

I too wanted a advice/help. I've been stressed out of this lately and i know for a fact that i myself am doing this to myself but i still can't help but spiral and am not able to come out of this.

so the thing is i am straight.

i am in a lot of fandoms like the marauders, and too a lurker in lgbtqia community it's cause i always have been the type of person to learn and seek things. if there is something new i want to know about it. i want to be educated on everything and be familiar with it, know people's opinions. and coming in lgbtq community was something of that sort too. (i love it here you all are so sweet and the nicest people i've met) i was curious and i wanted to be comfortable with and to see is there something so wrong that i see my friends (homophobic) talk shit about it. (i remember this girl, she told my friends that she was bi and they were like uhm..i felt so bad for her and that was when i realized that i felt nothing odd about her liking girls? like it seemed normal to me and kind of made me furious that they were acting like that when it was not a big deal. and after that i started learning about all this cause i wanted to be familiar with it, know about other people's opinions) and now here are we.

I read bls, gls, ship queer ships, a huge supporter of lgbtq community, friends with good people.

but recently i've been spiraling due to being straight. yk being in this fandom, i don't say that straight people can't be in this fandom. but uh i've seen others say that and it haha makes me feel like i'm catfishing?

i've always tried too hard to fit in. so...recently i've been forcing myself to fit it the queer community, be a queer. (i hope using this word isn't disrespectful) i've been seeing that i kinda am 'trying' to like women. (ofcourse before too i pointed out omg she's so pretty and all but not in that way but now maybe i'm forcing myself to do so)

idk how to more put what i am feeling in words. sorry for the long ramble hope it made somewhat sense?

do you have some advice for me...?

Hi hon!

Okay, so I'm gonna say some stuff that I think you need to hear:

You do NOT need to have any sort of sexuality to be in any fandom. There is no bouncer checking your id at the entrance of tumblr. You can be any sexuality and it is VALID.

As far as being queer. I mean, I can't tell you if you like women or not. But...you can find someone pretty and not be attracted to each other.

I think you need to take a deep breath and remind yourself that whatever your sexuality is, is is valid, and people should accept you for it. Then...start reflecting to yourself about what you find attractive. And if you're not sure yet, that's okay! It sounds like you're young, and you have all the time in the world to figure it out. It sounds so cheesy, but: Instead of trying to fit in with others, try to stand out as you. Figure out who you are, you know?

(Also, I would just say, because you mentioned it...sometimes people do find offense to being referred to as "a queer" versus "being queer." It sort of depends on the person.)

Let me know if you need to talk! <3

(Also I am naming all the anons who write to me in case they want to write in the future, and I am using a random positive affirmation generator to do so. So I dub thee: sophisticated anon. Enjoy your free tag!)

[spectrumspace]

ranking the messages of the official Friends™-themed conversation hearts

PHBE/ROSS/RCHL/MNCA/JOEY/CHDLR: lazy. 1/5 because i guess you can communicate via shipping if you and your beloved are those kinds of people.

GNTHR: why are we referencing a background character? 0/5.

TRFLE: 0/5.

WAH PAH: fair enough given the original context of this quote. 3/5.

I KNOW: one of the jokes nobody ever shuts up about, appropriately distilled into a single ominous message that you could also interpret as a reference to the homophobic dog. 4/5.

THE 1 WITH: could probably be mangled further via mental gymnastics to make some sense in a romantic context. 1/5

CFFEE / LATTE: way to genericize Central Perk into something this uninspired and meaningless. 0/5.

HOW U DOIN: 5/5. precisely the kind of references you need to make on this kind of candy.

SAND WICH: too easy to misinterpret as misogynistic, and not a joke that lends itself well to romantic interpretations. 0/5.

UNAGI: i love chasing women down the streets of new york to attack them. 5/5.

PIVOT: could be a sex joke if you squint. 2/5.

OFF PLANE: another one of those well-known lines that deserves to be referenced if you're trying to be "sappy" i suppose. 5/5.

OH MY GAWD: not out of place on this kind of candy. 5/5.

HAND TWIN: dumb. 5/5.

MOO POINT: dumb. 5/5.

COUCH: you already made a couch joke. might as well just write "CAT" at this point. come to think of it, i haven't seen a single Smelly Cat heart in this entire bag. 0/5.

DUCK CHK: points obtained for a message dedicated to the most important characters in the show, points deducted for not committing to the bit by omitting the vowel in "duck". 3/5.

LBSTR / UR MY LBSTR: solid, but not sure why they were so proud of this one they had to make it twice, given there already seems to be a wide variety of messages in this one even without artificially inflating the numbers with character names, therefore i must subtract half a point. 4.5/5.

ON A BREAK: -10000/5. your beloved is going to kill you.

FINAL (AVG) SCORE: -397.86/5. (i get ushered off the stage and someone whispers to me). i mean uhhh 2.1

[the-heaminator]

OKAY SO; Heinrich's mom died when he was young like 8-9, and his dad being a veteran of ww2 with ptsd & some pretty heavy survivors guilt & now a wife who just didn't wake up one morning turned to drinking. So Heinrich has this whole "after my mom died my dad was never sober, not as far as i remember, and yeah he went through a lot but I still resent him for not being there for me".

Heinrich's dad dies when Heinrich is just shy of 18. He has a little melt down, goes "i don't want to be here anymore". And with literally zero plan and two bags of his stuff just leaves. Ends up in the UK, with no job, barely anything to his name, and not sure if he's even going to stay there. (part of him thinks it's not far enough from Germany)

Romulus was a hippy through and through, he was all 'peace and free love ✌️' probably lived in a commune of sorts (just too many people in one house but hey it was home). He had run away from home when he was about 16 because his parents were ✨shitty✨, and was living his own found family trope.

Heinrich finds out finding a job when technically you're not there at all, and also homeless is harder than he thought. So he's on the streets for a solid two weeks until Romulus is walking home from a party and finds him. He tells Heinrich he can come stay with him and his 'family' and Heinrich has a moment of "i could get murdered if I go with him, i could also get murdered sleeping on a park bench" he goes with Romulus. They share a room (did I mention too many people in one house) and it's fine bc they're strictly homies, plus it's just for a few nights until Heinrich finds a job.

a few nights turns into a few months, about a month and a half in Romulus tells Heinrich "Listen, I don't mind you staying, but you should come with us to this march! It'll be fun, and it's for a good cause and I don't think it's much to ask on our part :\" While there some idiot says something, Romulus looks at Heinrich "Can kiss you?" "what?!" "Can I kiss you?" "...sure?" and Romulus kisses Heinrich right on the mouth for the cause of pissing off a homophobe.

a few nights later before bed "you know how you kissed me a few a days ago?" "Yeah, why? Did u like it :p?" "...yeah" "do you want me to kiss you again?" "...yes please" they never officially label their relationship but they sure are kissing a lot.

anyway six to eight months go by, Heinrich still hasn't found a job. And while he's grateful for a roof over his head, and he doesn't mind pitching in with housework, and Romulus sure isn't bad either, he gets tired of waiting around, and he gets real sick of the rest of the housemates.

One night he tells Heinrich they have to have a talk, he enlisted in the military. He was going to be an army mechanic, they get in a whole argument "I want a family Romulus!" "we are your family!" "no! I want a spouse! someone who's just mine, I want kids, I want my own house, I don't want to have to rely on kindness for food that night or money for rent," Romulus gets really quiet, "We're anti military, if you joined the military you can't live here anymore. Leave" Heinrich didn't say he expected anything else. He leaves.

He's going to get his wife, and his kids, and the house and a steady job. Romulus will too eventually, it would take him awhile longer though.

Then fifty years later they're both going to show up for some seniors game night and go "...oh fuck"

but anyway yeah thoughts?

thoughts. THOUGHTS?????

MY BROTHER IN CHRIST I HAVE NO THOUGHTS THIS IS WONDERFUL AND ACTUALLY SO WELL THOUGHT OUT WTFFFFFFFFF.

Imagine seeing the guy you lived with and kissed a couple times in a free love commune in the 80s 50 years later and you once again have the violent urge to kiss him after 50 fucking years even if the last time you saw him you had a massive argument.

And they're both widows, Heinrich at this point has a 7 year old Gilbert and a 3 year old Ludwig and needs help and Romulus is more than happy to provide it but over time they get really close again and Ludwig basically grow up with Romulus as Grandpa number 2 and so much of Gilbert's formative experiences with affection between adults comes from Heinrich and Romulus being fucking Weirdly Cuddly. Which is why later on he can't tell the difference between having a crush on Alfred and just being good friends.

But also imagine present day Gilbert going, hey, how did you two even meet?

Heinecih evades the question and Romulus flatly goes hippy free love commune. And blows Gilbert's mind.

"Opa, you weRE A HIPPY?

"NO, NO, I just needed a place to stay."

[dolledupwh0re]

introduction ! ༊*·˚

hii ! my name is coralynn, im a 19 y/o filipina using she/her pronouns !

ive been on the "kinky" side of tumblr lurking in the shadows for a few months now but i've finally decided to start posting.

dolledupsl5t was my original acc but i forgot my password lol

my blog is open to most people EXCEPT minors (obviously), transphobic people, homophobic people, racists, and really anybody trying to harass me. as long as you're not any of the above, any gender, sexuality,race, any identity people are always welcome and you will be welcomed with love and support !

my kinks are as follows but not limited to : bdsm, praise, degrading/humiliation, cnc, overstim, edging, org denial, masochism, sadism, somno, dd/lg, knifeplay, weapon play, intox, kidnapping, stalking, spanking, choking, spit, blood, brat, bimbofication, petplay

kinks i dislike : scat, piss, beastiality, tentacles, feet

other things about me:

🫧 i speak english and tagalog, ( i also understand ilocano, a dialect from ilocos in the philippines but sadly i dont speak it) as well as very basic french and spanish

🫧 i dance, act, sing, play clarinet ukulele and piano (im veeeeeery good with my mouth and hands/fingers ;3 ) , draw/paint, LOVE reading, love watching horror movies, love building legos, and a bunch of other crap lol

🫧 im bisexual and enfj-t <3

🫧 i will not be showing photos of my face or most of my body nor disclose anything too personal about myself, sorry not sorry

🫧 i suffer from mommy/daddy issues, depression, anxiety, anger issues, eating disorders (bulimia/anorexia), n suicidal thoughts so if u ever js wanna vent, my messages/asks are open! yes, im mental, ik. and yes, all stated above are diagnosed by doctors, not self-diagnosed

🫧 i run on a really 50/50-ish ratio of being horny and normal so i won't always just be posting horny crap 24/7

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feel free to message me or send me asks! if anything is too personal or uncomfy for me i'll just tell you politely that i'd rather not talk about it or answer it but if such topic or questions continue i'll just end up ignoring them or blocking said users.

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