#also idk who that is in the photos just found em from one of those repost pages

[teathattast]

Always on my mind

Your star burns so bright

I was scared sometimes

You had a power like a lightning strike

[desire-mona]

Opinions on jacksfilms v sssniperwolf?

Penny for ur thoughts plz 🪙 (<- pretend that is a penny shhhhh)

this ask is an equivalent to asking for my hand in marriage just btw.

so in case anyone doesnt know anything abt this old ass drama (i dont know as much as i could either, this is a retelling from the bits and pieces i remember):

so basically sssniperwolf used to be this gaming youtuber but she eventually turned into a half baked "reaction" channel where she just watches tiktoks, makes low effort surface level commentary, and then doesnt credit the creator of said tiktoks. jacksfilms is a comedy youtuber who does a bunch of stuff (sketches, streaming, something called YIAY where he gives ppl prompts / questions to answer n reads em out(with credit!(also hes been doing stuff with ai recently but mostly to show how mid it is which like. eh idk how i feel abt it but its not a dealbreaker))) and he at one point in 2023 called out sniper for her content stealking and lazy content.

he started doing this thing where he reacted to her videos the way she reacts to the videos she steals? i think? and then he gives credit to the creators that sniper reacts to i hope ur following. sniper eventually got mad and was like "uhhhmmm ur stealing from me....." which is rly funny considering she steals from SO many ppl. they had lowkey beef for a while (and obv jack was in the right the entire time) and on uhhhhhh lemme look this up hold on. october 13th of last year sniper posted an instagram story poll like "jacksfilms is close to this place im shooting at should i go see him" i guess to like? talk things out?

(src)

and then some amnt of time later while jack was playing jackbox on stream with his editors and stuff (dubbed the council) sniper showed up at his house, stood outside, and posted a video OF HIS HOME ON HER STORY. ON HER INSTAGRAM WITH OVER 5 MILLION FOLLOWERS. also to add even more context that i found out from youtube comments, sniper has been arrested for armed robbery before, so! some council member alerted jack and erin (jack's wife) was like "erm im gonna go outside" and everyone was like NO DONT OMG. eventually she deleted the story but by that point it was like wayyyy too late. and photos of his house were alr on twitter and stuff. the most ridiculous part is that when jack was rightfully like WHAG GHE HELL she was like this guy is creepy and hes been harassing me! i just wanna talk!!!

jacksfilms made a video being like heyyyyy youtube can u do smthn abt this???? youtube, of course, did nothing in response. i honestly dont know how it ended but snipers still doing her thing and so is jack so ultimately nothing substantial came of it, i guess. i wasnt on stream when it happened but i was GLUED to twitter as it was unfolding since ive been a big jacksfilms fan since i was 12ish. crazy times

WAIT EDIT I FORGOT TO ADD MY OPINION OOPS LOL: FUCK SNIPERWOLF

also fun fact! ive had a couple convos with a council member (marshaldoesstuff u will always be famous) and i was in his discord FOREVER ago. like 2018 forever ago. got groomed in that server it was kinda goofy (NOT marshal's fault - nor the mods of said server, im still friends with a few of those mods and they were always so protective of me and were there to put a stop to everything, i love them dearly.) so yeah im kinda etched into jacksfilms lore in a way that VERY few remember. which is the case for a few different fandoms tbh.

second fun fact: jack and erin r house md fans (erin has a crush on house and jack has a crush on cuddy which is sooo based of them)

thank u for asking and thank u for reading :3 i luv jacksfilms

[necro-hamster]

do you have any advice for digital artist who is just getting started with digital? i have a cheap tablet (wacom) and i use photoshop. thank you!<3 sorry for bad english

ok first of all your english is really good, dont apologize <3 second of all yeah i can give some advice! keep in mind that i am not a professional by any means, im just a 20 y/o who's mostly self taught. took a couple of classes in high school but honestly they didnt teach me much beyond what i already knew unfortunately. still, self taught is something, and clearly my art is decent enough that people enjoy it and are coming to me for advice, so! here's a list of advice i can think of.

stop using photoshop. this might be a bold one to start out with, but don't use photoshop for drawing, man. i know how to use photoshop REALLY well, i'm like taught in it. and that program is ASS even at editing photos, much less drawing. it's outdated and overpriced and really needs to stop being an industry standard. it's one thing if that's the program you've been using for years and you're comfortable with it, but if you're just starting out? ditch that shit. i personally use both sai2 and clip studio paint, but both of those are paid programs. not that i paid for them, but yknow. if you don't want to pirate or pay, some good free programs include krita and sketchbook pro ! also most programs come with a free trial you can test out.

the deform tool is ABSOLUTELY your friend, especially in the sketching phase. the face looks a little off? adjust it a bit instead of redrawing it. make it look perfect. leg not in the proper place? grab it and move it! just keep in mind that you should generally do this before you line/paint/etc. it's best to make these adjustments to the sketch, because oftentimes deforming something will reduce the quality of it. this depends on both the program and the amount of adjustment being done, but as just a general rule best to get this out of the way early on.

flip your canvas. a lot. this will REALLY help you. say you're drawing a guy standing up straight, and you're like huh, this looks kinda weird, but i can't tell why. it just looks super off for some reason. flip the canvas, and i can promise you that that drawing will be leaning all sorts of ways that will be immediately obvious to you once you're looking at it from that angle. make it look good from that angle too and it'll look WAY better from the normal angle.

on the same note, rotate your canvas! it'll really help you out just like rotating a piece of paper when you're drawing traditionally. a lot of people seem to just... not want to do this for some reason? but it's really a big help.

using references isn't just okay, it's something you should ABSOLUTELY be doing. idk why people online used to constantly cry about how using references is cheating, but it's not. using references is a great aid and will drastically improve your art.

use clipping masks !! say, you want to put some sparkles on your character, but you only want them on the character, not the background. instead of tediously going around the character and erasing the leftover sparkles from your brush, you can just make the layer of sparkles a clipping mask above your character layer, and that's it. no cleanup necessary, it'll only be on your character. this is a HUGE help.

experiment with shit!!!! play with brush settings, layer effects, textures, anything. get to know your program, and use everything you have at your disposal. nothing worse than finding out about a feature and thinking 'awh man i wish i knew about this three year earlier' but you just never found it because you never bothered clicking on that button.

i don't have much else at the moment, but if yall have any specific questions go ahead and hit me with em i guess

[mgg-theprettiestboy]

cross my heart (pt.3)

spencer reid x oc

cross my heart masterlist

word count: 1103

“Pretty boy’s got his head in the clouds.” Spencer snapped out of his daydream to find the source of the teasing sing-son voice. As suspected, it had come from Derek, who had a grin plastered on his face, “thinking about someone, huh Reid?”

“I’m thinking about the case,” he said, standing from his chair to go over to the poster board and pin another crime scene photo up.

“Uh huh, sure. C’mon, man, you know you can tell me anything,” Derek said, leaning back against the table covered in files and watching Spencer take a step back to view the whole pin board, his tongue darting out over his lips before he spoke, “there must be a key component of the profile that we’re missing, or we’re wrong about.”

He sighed, “okay kid, you don't wanna talk about it, that’s fine. But you know I’m always here if you do. So, what do you think we messed up? Maybe the gender?”

Spencer glanced to his friend, giving him an small appreciative smile before getting back to work.

-

“I’m glad you’ve found a nerd friend.”

Raye rolled her eyes, setting another mug down for Tamara to dry. This was one of those nights when The Hideout was completely empty. They usually had at least three or four people in at this unreasonable hour, but for once, there was a quiet period in the cafe.

“Thanks. And he’s not a nerd. Well, maybe a little. He’s a literature nerd, that’s for sure,” Raye said, and Tamara scoffed, “says the one with a degree in the subject.”

“I mean, yeah, I am. That’s besides the point,” Raye dismissed, picking up another dish to clean, “my point is, that I need to pick a new book to give him. It’s my turn to recommend something to him, and I can’t think of anything. Head empty, no thoughts.”

Tam rolled her eyes at her friend, “oh come on, suggest one of the classics. Tell him to read fuckin’ Hamlet.”

“No, Tam! Shakespeare is boring when you’re forced to read it. I need something that’ll impress him, something that he probably hasn’t already read,” she said with a frown. Tamara sighed dramatically, “dude, I don't know! I’m a faker, okay? I talk a big talk, and I own this cafe with the books and shit, but I haven't read like any of them. They bore me. I just like the whole academia aesthetic.”

Raye snorted a laugh, washing the final dish before drying off her hands, “I get it. I like it too. I guess I’ll just go to the library and see if any inspiration strikes me. It opens in a couple of hours.”

Tamara gave her friend a look, before glancing back down to her hands. She didn't want to make her concern for her friend so obvious, because she knew that her concerns would just be dismissed. But Tamara couldn't ignore the nagging feeling, that things just weren't right. “How are you doing? With everything?”

Raye inhaled sharply, “I’m fine. Don't talk about it.”

“I just think that maybe we should, G,” she said, before raising her hands in defence at the look she got, “sorry, I’m sorry, I keep forgetting.”

“Spencer heard you call me G that day we met. I told him it was a nickname for my middle name,” Raye mumbled, and Tamara raised a brow, “well, technically not a lie. Because it’s Giselle, right?”

“Right,” she nodded slowly, and Tamara sighed softly. The bags under her eyes were becoming more prominent every day, and they both knew it. Tamara pushed away the obvious concern, and took her attention back to their most urgent problem, “just recommend something you liked reading. That’s what he wants, right? To find out what you like, and read it?”

“I guess so, yeah,” Raye said softly, picking at her nails, “I just wanna impress him, I guess. I doubt he’ll enjoy Narnia as much as me.”

Tamara giggled, shaking her head, “you might be surprised. Doctor Reid is full of surprises, trust me.”

“Doctor?” Raye tilted her head, “i didn’t know he was a doctor.”

“Yeah, he’s got a handful of PHDs. I think one of ‘em is in math, can’t remember the rest,” Tamara said, as if it was the most casual thing in the world. Raye sat in silence, before shaking her head, “what can’t he do?”

“Probably cook. Or do laundry. With men, there’s always a downside, trust me. Glad I never have to get with another straight guys,” Tamara said, and Raye gave her a look, “you’re bi.”

“Yes, and? Doesn’t mean I’m gonna be running after any more fuckin’ straight dudes, no sir. Me and Ollie are very happy,” Tamara said, and Raye furrowed her brows, “I thought you guys were fighting.”

“We were. She found it odd that I suddenly had this friend from high school called Raye who I never mentioned before, and now spend so much time with.”

Raye felt guilt tug at her heart frowning, “I’m sorry.”

“You have nothing to be sorry for, G- I mean, Raye. We kissed and made up. I think Ollie just got a little jealous that I had another woman in my life. You know I was always more friendly with the guys. I just never really had friends that were girls. And I never mentioned you, cause we went our separate ways after high school,” Tamara reasoned, hopping up to sit on the counter opposite where Raye stood. She just sighed, “I am sorry, though. I just barrelled into your life and now look at the consequences.”

“Shut up, you’re always welcome here. This is your home now. Where were you before this?” Tamara queried, watching as Raye sat on the counter opposite her. She took a deep breath, looking around the empty shop before answering, “California. LA, to be specific. I didn't really like it there. I liked Louisiana, everyone was so nice. Hated Florida. And Texas.”

“How many years has it been... since you’ve seen your mom?” Tamara asked cautiously, knowing it was a sore spot. But since she was slowly getting her to open up, she figured there was no harm in trying to ask. Raye flinched slightly, before murmuring, “it’s been six years.”

Tamara felt her heart hurt a little. She couldn't imagine a life without her parents, “I’m sorry. I can't imagine how hard it is. But you know, the way you're living... its not gonna be like this forever.”

Raye nodded in agreement, but deep down, they both knew that she might be wrong.

-

NEXT CHAPTER

a short, but important chapter ;)

comment and tell me what you guys think! I have so many ideas for this fic, so feedback is always appreciated!

also i was considering maybe making this a reader fic rather than an oc fic? again idk so comment or send asks if you want :)

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[thebraingremlinsaremad]

Daily Blog #15: August 22, 2021

Dollar Tree is honestly pretty fucking awesome 👌👌👌

I set my alarm for like 6:25 this morning, but it took 6 minutes for the "Horsin' Around" theme song instrumental to wake me up. I was pretty tired lol. I just dismissed it and went back to sleep.

I only went back to sleep because I knew I had another alarm set for 7:00. That got me up.

I should mention that this was still in the RV over an hour away from the house.

After I got up, I went to go get a shower, and did so successfully.

Unfortunately, I had forgotten my brush this time and had to do it afterwards after my hair had a bit of time to dry, which did make it a little more difficult lol.

I got dressed and grabbed my stuff, putting it into my car.

I made it a point to see and say "see you later" to my grandparents before I left for the flea market.

My dad insisted that I stayed to say goodbye to my mom, so I left.

I did NOT have cell service up there, as was mentioned in my previous 2 blogs of which I could only post today, so finding my way was a tiny bit difficult until I got some service to ask Google to take me to "...".

It worked and I got there.

On my drive, I listened to 1 by Simple Kid, a CD I had previously purchased at a Dollar Tree location.

I got a call from the guy at the flea market saying that I had some people there waiting for me. He asked how far away I was, to which I said "about 10 minutes." Ironically, that call made me miss my exit, as Google couldn't talk during the call, and added about 3 minutes to my arrival time lmao.

I did sell the Xbox that he said someone was interested in. I got $40 for it. I spent 27¢ on it. Pretty good return if you ask me.

I couldn't sell it with anything other than a power cord because the controller and AV cables I had been using to play it there were for my personal console. I'm just glad I can actually hook my Xbox up and stop having to drag them to the flea market along with a small library of games.

Not too long after I sold the Xbox, someone came in and asked if I wanted to see some electronics he had in his car. I went out with him. It was a pair of 3ft speakers and a Pioneer audio system with dual cassette decks (although neither of them works) and a 25 Disc CD-changer, as well as the standard AM/FM tuner. Additionally, there was a Fisher amplifier and AM/FM tuner as well as a Fisher Direct Drive turntable. He said he wanted $60 for em, but before that he casually, and probably accidentally, dropped that he was just gonna take em to the thrift store.

Big mistake.

I got em for $35 lmao. THERE GOES MOST OF MY PROFIT.

Oh well.

I tested everything. As I mentioned, the cassette decks don't work, but everything else does apart from the turntable needing a new stylus.

I posted some new photos of the shop to Facebook, and someone soon DMed me about a stereo system.

I priced everything, and it turns out I have about $300 worth of equipment from that deal, the Fisher amp and tuner being worth about $150.

The buyer will hopefully show up next weekend, for he wants to buy the Fisher stuff ($185 with the turntable), the 3ft speakers, an 8-track deck, and a Kenwood deck we've had for a week or two.

The speakers are listed for $50 (and are worth around $100-150), the Kenwood Deck for $50 as well, and the 8-track for $35. That makes it about $320 in equipment. Since he's buying so much, I'll knock it down to $270 and essentially give him the speakers or cassette deck for free lol.

Apart from that stuff, not much happened at the flea market. I sold some records, cassettes, CDs and I think 2 DVDs. One person bought a VHS tape? That money was the other guy's though. Oh well xD.

I can't say that I didn't miss my wonderful partner while on the trip. I actually brought along the stuffed animal they gave me (who's name is Greg) and snuggled with him both nights.

I was very happy to hear from them UwU.

They let me rant and I let them rant.

I honestly give them too much responsibility over me xD. I'm like, "Okay, I'm gonna do this. HOLD ME TO IT."

I know I can't hold myself to anything I personally say (this blog being the only exception apparently), but I listen to them pretty well I think 🤔. If they tell me, "No, you don't need that VCR," so long as it's not some weird specialty thing, like a worldwide VCR 🥵, I'll be like "Yeah, you rite bro."

I love you man xD. You control my craziness pretty well. I'm so thankful for you UwU.

#relationshipgoals

So part way through the flea market day, I went over to Dollar Tree to buy some snack, but ended up looking through the CDs to see if there was anything good. I took photos of about 18 CDs and flipped through them online for the remainder of the flea market day.

I deleted the photos of the ones I didn't want and kept those that I liked. Surprisingly, I ended up buying 13 CDs there, but not before dropping them on the floor like the dumbass I am.

Also, sorry for all the nerd shit I spilled on your lap earlier. No one cares about amps and tuners xD.

I'M LISTENING TO ONE OF THE DOLLAR TREE CDS RIGHT NOW THO.

I already transferred over to my online library on iBroadcast and put the disc into my CD changer, which is now holding 164 CDs.

Its max capacity is 300 discs 🥵

WHY AM I NERD

Oh well

I like being a nerd gurl

Also maybe a technosexual 👀

I get really excited over some electronics. Like. REALLY excited.

Some editing VCRs are like "Holy shit that is SEXY. Look at those goddamn VU meters 🥵. And hhhh there are like 7 inputs on this thing and individual controls for left and right audio gain, not to mention Hi-Fi S-VHS recording. Hhhhhhhhhhh please gimme 😭. Why are you so expensive?"

I uh, mean, uh, *cough* look, pretty lights.

Oh yeah, I was gonna say the album I was listening to xD. MAN I GOT SIDETRACKED.

It's 37 Everywhere by Punchline. Def give it a listen; it's pretty heccin good.

Another notable album I picked up was Page One by Steven Page. I very much like the first track, "A New Shore." It's quite catchy and he has a great voice imo.

Also at dollar tree, I bought a regular bag of Fieras and 2 bags of Fieras Sticks, which were marked down to 75¢/bag because they're expiring soon.

I honestly like the generic Dollar Tree version of Takis more than actual Takis. They're a lot more flavorful when it comes to the lime, but also hotter at the same time.

Don't get the hot nacho ones tho. Hot nacho? More like hot pile of shit.

HAH

Goteem.

They're not that good xD.

THE REGULAR ONES ARE FIRE THO

"How do you do fellow kids?"

I got home and started working on putting the CDs onto my computer, and then onto iBroadcast, but not without first adding The Music Man to my digital library, something I had neglected for a month or two. The CD had just been sitting there lol.

I also switched my digital file for "The Black Parade" to that of the uncensored CD, which I had purchased before I event started working over 2 months ago.

MAN I'M LAZY

I eventually get around to shit tho lol. I guess it's just a matter of priority.

What usually takes priority is digging through everything to find something that I forgot about but then remembered, making a mess in the process that I would then have to clean up, at least partially.

I think the album just ended. I've been writing for a while xD. I'ma start "I Made You Something" by The Island of the Misfit Toys.

I'll tell you where that album came from in a minute.

In the meantime, where was I?

I kinda lost my train of thought despite reading up to see where I was. Oh well. On I go.

I ate dinner and kept working on those CDs, eventually putting my clothes from the week into the washer.

I FORGOT TO PUT MY SHAPING UNDERWEAR IN. FUCKING HELL MAN.

I wanted to wash em for this week 😭

No tight pants for Leonna I guess qwq.

Meanwhile, the box of my CD album cases is overflowing. I need another box.

I keep all of the album artworks in a big CD folder. That's almost full.

I wanna fill my entire CD changer. That's one of my big goals in life. Idk why, but I just wanna legitimately fill the entire thing.

My clothes are in the dryer now. I don't think I have the time (or energy) to fold them tonight. I'll leave that for tomorrow morning before work.

And God. Fucking. Damnit. I start school again on Wednesday. NOT looking forward to that, and neither are my 2 coworkers. We already have low enough staff, but only the two of them working is gonna be a pain in the ass.

I'll still work Saturdays.

I need to contact my guidance counselor to get out of the gym class I signed up for. I scheduled this shit before I found out I was trans, and I don't wanna deal with the fucking locker room situation 🙄 I have far more important matters.

Okay so anyway, the album I'm listening to came from a cassette. I bought this cassette a few months ago at the flea market along with a few others. The reason I bought them? They were all newer cassette releases from the 2010's, and they're all actually pretty good music from very indie bands.

Currently getting mad at iBroadcast's compression algorithm. It's unnaturally fucking anything over -10db up. Oh well, there's not really anything I can do about it.

I have like 13GB of music on my phone btw. That's about 3.5k songs on 268 albums.

I'm kind of an audiophile, but I'm too cheap to pay for a lossless service. Oh well.

They do actually have a lossless service on iBroadcast, but once again, too cheap.

Someone just sent me a friend request who legitimately posted that BLM and the democratic party are hate groups.

BLOCK.

Goodbye ho.

I don't get that. They call the democratic party a hate group when they hate people like me, and I, being more of a democrat although not fully because the 2-party system is fucked, think nothing more of them than they're very wrong about certain things, especially, as shown, that black people, as well as asian, Indian, native, and people of all ethnicities and backgrounds, are not equal to white people.

Yeh.

Totally.

You go buddy.

Anyway, yeah, I can, and do, convert music and video from analog formats to digital files in order for me to archive and listen to whenever and wherever I please. I've actually made a bit of a business out of it, but I don't get too much work from it. At least I'm not overloading myself xD.

I honestly have so much more to say, but I should probably go to sleep soon.

A few final shoutouts to the following people and companies:

-Dollar Tree

-Steven Page

-Broken World Media

-The Island of Misfit Toys

-Simple Kid

-Punchline

-My incredible partner QwQ I love you so much. Thanks for being the best all the time. I hope I can give you the best life ever.

Anyway I suppose this is goodnight. Lmk if you want a full list of the CDs I bought today! I'll link that song by Steven Page here.

And here's a good song from Simple Kid

I really like music lol. Enjoy these pieces.

Anyway, goodnight lol.

Lots of love,

-Leonna.

[tylerwritez]

TUESDAY JULY 13 10:42 A.M.

JUDE IS BACK FROM HIS HIATUS!!!!

One thing I think I will no longer be doing is writing down negative feelings and thoughts and... leaving them there. No. Next time I vent, I delete it right after.

If you want something to be sad over, you'll find something. But if you GENUINELY ATTEMPT to be happy, you will be.

So try harder.

Also, my new phone background is a collage thing of me and my friends at Rebecca's house.

I originally did it as this cool way to remember my besties XD but now it also kinda helps my #SelfEsteem because whenever I think my face is ugly, I look at my phone background and I'm like "that's what you look like, no filter, nothing" and it makes me happier because in that background image I just see a boy being stupid with his friends and I sorta smile like "yeah, that IS what I look like, no filter"

I like it cos, those pictures were taken without me doing anyhting to try and look better, so I KNOW that's like. How I REALLY look. And tbh? Not that bad.

I don't even really mind my smile lines anymore. Cos they're from SMILING!!! means I'm a happy guy.

ALSO I THINK I PASS IN MY BACKGROUND? because I'm that kinda of ugly that says "male" yk, especially next to my friends who are girls/nonbinary I just seem so Boy idk its gender... the photo set is very Gender for my face XDDD THIS IS REALLY STUPID

oh well. Positivity only now, babes.

Also! You may have noticed my HIATUs from posting!!! Yeah, I'll still post, and I'll update y'all on my life... but NOT DAILY... I don't really have the time for that.

I'll do it maybe whenever I feel like, but I'll try and stick to weekly, biweekly, idk, whenever I feel like I should talk about my life, whenever things happen.

Right now I'm actually on a roadtrip!!!

We just spent a day on all the amusement park rides at the Calgary Stampede!! It was AWESOME.

Also we have spent time in #nature and I'm COLLECTING! ROCKS! >:) THEY ARE WAY COOLER OUTSIDE MY HOMETOWN JUST SAYING...

Maybe I'll find a hagstone.

So far no, I've only found cool stripey ones but no hagstones.

Maybe I'm not meant to find a hagstone. Maybe whatever gives me my good luck is protection enough.

ACTUALLY, ON THAT NOTE, I HAVEN'T STOLEN ANYTHING FOR THIS WHOLE TRIP... SO LIKE 1 OR 2 WEEKS. WHICH IS CRAZY!!! PROUD OF MYSELF :)

ALSO I HAVEN'T CUT MYSELF FOR LIKE A MONTH MAYBE(?) WHICH IS SO WOW.

see? I can totally do this! You'll see.

Lately I haven't been stressing AT ALL. like. So much happiness and fun, out on my roadtripppp!

I have had a few stressors.... but like. I've done my best to push them aside, because I know it'll be better not to think about them.

Like, I'm starting to think all my unhappiness cOMES FROM THINKING ABOUT MY STRESSORS TOO MUCH... OVERTHINKING.

However, if I tell myself "don't worry, you'll find a way, you always do" and then try n forget, I'm so much happier.

Here are my current #stressors... since everyone loves some drama (I'm listing em)

1. I MIGHT LOSE MY VIRGINITY UHHHH AND IM NERVOUS AND IDK IF I SHOULD OR WHAT ITLL  FEEL LIKE OR IF I SHOULD WAIT.... AAAAAAAA IDK ITS KINDA SCARY COS WHAT IF IT HURTS A LOT... WHAT IF IT FUCKS ME UP. IDK. I KNOW NOTHING.

2. MY STEALING + CUTTING ISSUES... LIKE. I'M ADDICTED???? AND OFC IM HAPPY I MANAGE TO GET BY WITHOUT IT BUT SOMETIMES ITS VERY HARD. TO RESIST. YOUR URGES.

man if that god guy is real I bet hes happy with me (or I guess god can be a girl, or nonbinary, or maybe is not male but still uses he/him, or maybe DOESNT use he him pronouns and we are fuckig it up???? Idk I will just say "he")

(I doubt god has a gender tho lol. He made man and woman in his image yeah? So then.... uh.... he would be intersex(?)

Personally I think god has No genitals at all and No gender either. But then again, I dont even believe in a god...)

ALL IM SAYING IS. IF GOD WAS REAL. THEY WOULD PROBABLY BE PLEASED THAT I AM. RESISTING SIN? SO WELL.

... cos cutting yourself IS a sin....

That used to upset me so much dude. I read this bible passage... and it would be CONSTANTLY referenced. Your body is a temple. Its sinful to harm your body. Its sinful to use drugs, is what they said at school, but like. What about other types of intentional harm? Sin. Sinful.

I used to be so invested in that Catholicism shit, man. And afterward, after I. Did the cutting. I'd be covered in half dried sticky blood. I'd smell the metallic smell so strongly.... because I bled out A LOT... its incredible to me honeslty, how such minor styros and occasional light fat cuts can gush out so MUCH blood. It's a lot. It's more than you'd expect from a little cut. The cuts pool up with blood and then overflow.

It trickles down your legs.

But I'd be patching myself up afterward (basically tryna clean the blood, stop the bleeding, make sure I didnt bleed out onto my sheets and dirty them in my sleep... make sure I didnt leave evidence) and I'd think to myself "this is a sin, I am a sinner..."

Ofc my stupid ass was constantly begging for forgiveness, praying, reading the bible, blah blah, please I just wanna serve you, please help me, please...

What a pathetic state to be in most of my junior high years HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA XD XDDDDD LMAOOOO LMFAOOOOOO ROFLLLLL

like. I had a corner of the school I used SPECIFICALLY to cry.

How sad...

BUT NOW IM IN HIGH SCHOOL!!!! AND I AM PLEASED TO INFORM YOU THAT I HAVE

0 CRYING SPOTS

MANY MAKING OUT SPOTS

like woah its almost like. I dont have to suffer at all.

I'm winning now.

W. What was I talking about before I started rambling. Idk. I forget. Oh well.

POSITIVITY ONLY BABES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ILL KEEP YALL UPDATED I SWEAR

SIGNING OFF,

JUDE SHEPARD

[kikoqueenofrats]

Okay bukkarooos let’s get down to business-

I’m gonna be doing a frame by frame of one of my favorite AvM fight sequences (AvM 14) per request of the Ava enthusiasts discord-

This is gonna be a long one so buckle up and let’s goooo!!!!

also keep in mind the fight scene has alot of death, swords, bows and violence, ya know...usual kid show stuff- 

so if this stuff triggers you be careful okay.

(also please keep in mind that there aren’t gonna be alot of photos thanks to Tumblrs ten picture limit)

So the sequence starts at 3:49 ish when they’re all falling-

pfft Green looks like they’re just running-

I went through the frames and their hands are now on their hips-

Idk why I found that so funny…

oh wait no they just had their arms out nvm-

Behold- the spider!

Righto the fight is kicking off, enough with the funnies!

Blue is immediately pulling out their bow, makes sense since they are the archer of the group, it’s also a safe way to dispatch of enemies that can poison you with one bite.

Oh boi here come’s the spiders-

Yellow and Green draw their swords first...hmmm-

Orange also drew their sword pretty quickly afterwards

Then Red-

Guess we now have who has the fastest reaction time out of the sticks?

However Blue had already drawn their bow before this so I guess it’s not entirely accurate.

Red got the first hit.

The Blue and Yellow double teamed on the second...wait that spider tried to web Blue-

Good thing Yellow got it before it did-

Orange got the third

Then Green hit the same spider again

at the same time Red murdered another spider

Together Orange and Green have hit the same spider three times now-

guys isn’t that a bit overkill?

Using the momentum of pulling out their sword Red flies over to Blue.

Ooop Yellow’s got a spider on their back-

Orange also has a spider clinging onto their leg-

Pfft I can imagine Blue saying “hold still” whilst Yellow is like “get it off, get it off get it oooofff!!!”

Green almost gets a face full of spider but skillfully parries the attack with their sword.

Orange has now killed the spider clinging to their leg-

Yellow finally manages to push the spider off just as Blue releases their arrow resulting in the spider now having an arrow through it’s front..

Green curls up into a ball...perhaps recovering from the shock of almost getting a face full of spider?

Or maybe they were using it a shield against the spider Blue sent their way?

We may never know-

Blue grabs onto Reds hand and throws them and they hit the three spiders as they fly by.

Like there is absolutely no planning it’s just, Blue and Red grab hands and Blue just yeets Red into the spiders.

The amount of trust this group has is amazing and it’s about to get even better!

Now Orange has grabbed onto Reds foot, wonder what they’re planning?

Dude I think Orange just kicked a spider into Greens back-

Oooof-

They handle the spider like a champ tho so it’s all good!

Yellow kills another spider whilst Red and Orange exact their plan-

Blue sends an arrow at another spider.

Orange is now on Reds feet, oooh boi it’s spring board time!!

waaait...did….did...wait-

a spider just crawled up towards Yellow-

Don’t worry tho, Yellow smacks the gravity defying spider back into the abyss-

Blue gets another spider with an arrow before Yellow slays the gravity defying spider-

during this Orange is flying at the remaining spiders, almost hitting Green on their way there.

Just before Orange actually hits the spider Green pulls out their fishing rod.

...Yellow and the spider freeze mid hit before they move again...it’s like...pfft Yellow really is an anime kid-

So Green has thrown Red the line...is Red gonna pull a Tarzan?

Oh wait Oh boi Orange is trapped within three spiders did Green see this coming? ohhh boi-

well two technically the third one is kebabbed on Oranges sword-

phew Orange wriggled their way out, Blue looked like they wanted to help but Yellow stopped them?

That or they were prepping to catch Orange?

Wait no, Blue was using Yellow as a spring board nvm-

Blue shoots off one arrow just as Red is coming in with the triple spider kill!

Green pulls Red back and Blue just...makes a kebbab with the three spiders and their arrow.

Green uses the momentum from pulling Red back to push themselves forward and just...helps Blue stick the spiders together even more with their sword-

now if that isn’t over kill I don’t know what is-

Unsurprisingly Greens sword gets stuck, they pull it out tho.

Ohh boi now for the mine-cart fight!!!

Yellow and Orange land first.

Then Blue, the absolute mad lad lands on their feet!! that’s gotta hurt!

Then Green, landing back first, that’s also gotta hurt-

before Red lands Orange gets a spider on their back, though Blue just stands there as Orange deals with the spider themselves-

Hah- karma-/J

Blue also gets a spider on their back just as Orange is finished dealing with theirs-

In comes Red as Orange is debating whether or not they should smack the spider on Blue with their sword.

Red is also grappling with a spider...and then proceeds to fall into a mine-cart full of em-

Red is not having the best of days-

Orange decides that they should and knocks the spider off of Blue.

Now Orange and Blue are just watching Red struggling with the spiders, they probably just trust their ability to help themselves but that doesn’t mean some help wouldn’t be nice….that or they just couldn’t do anything at that moment considering their distance n all

Green get’s a face full of spider

wait no the duo is helping, pfft I keep forgetting this is a frame by frame of course it’s gonna take a while-

anyways Green kicks the spider off them.

Orange kills a spider Red sends their way.

And then proceeds to throw it at Blue, who skillfully ducks out of the way.

Red manages to get all of the spiders out of their cart-

Orange smacks the last spider Red gets rid of and manages to not almost hit Blue with it this time.

During this time Yellow has joined Green in their mine cart.

The group are now off the incline and onto flat tracks!

Orange and Blue are riding their carts like a skateboard-

Blue is taking care of the quadruple mine-cart filled with spiders that are currently pursuing Green and Yellow. Well trying to at least, they do only have one bow.

Green’s been glomped by another spider whilst on the floor above Red and Orange are preparing to deal with an incoming spider on a mine-cart.

Red and Yellow simultaneously get rid of their respective spiders.

Yellow kills another brave spider trying to repeat what the other spider did to Green whilst Blue is continuing to help clear the mine-carts.

Red gets rid of another incoming spider during this.

Orange, having nothing to do just stands there...watching the chaos-

Ooop now another large train of spiders are closing in on Blue, Orange and Red-

Green has pulled out their trusty fishing rod!

Orange just jumps onto the lower tracks!!! like they really are using the carts as a skateboard!!! *wheeze!!*

Green has caught another mine-cart and pulls it towards them, the momentum almost throws out poor Yellow-

meanwhile Red is grappling with another spider-

Blue is now dealing with the train of spiders heading towards them.

Red deals with the spider just as Green pulls the mine-cart towards them.

Orange is now dealing with the train of spiders following Green and Yellow singlehandidly-

What a mad lad!!

Two spiders try to jump on Blue at once but the dude just jumps and sticks them together with an arrow!!!

as Yellow is jumping into the mine-cart Green just pulled over Green is rescuing Orange from the pile of spiders they just walked into with their fishing rod-

Blue is also helping by killing the pile-

Blue pushes the cart next to them over to Red who is probably motioning to the incoming pile of spiders in a come get me sort of way-

YOOOO!!!

Blue was only tempting the spiders, they jumped off their mine-cart just as the spiders lunged at them and sniped them with their bow!!!

whooo!!!

and now they’re helping Red with their mine-cart full o spiders!

Orange, Green and Yellow just b chillin’

wait no they’re dealing with the spiders off screen nvm-

Orange just climbed into Yellows mine-cart, Green is slowly being separated from the group-

OOOh the line Blue and Red are on suddenly dips!!

Red looks like one of those...before the end credits roll and the group jumps and freeze frames ngl-

anways!! focus on Blue!!!

they do this magnificent flip whilst shooting the spider that is now clinging onto Greens leg, then they let off another arrow mid air before LANDING ON THE SPIDER RED SENT THEIR WAY AND JUMPING OFF IT AND ONTO A NEARBY MINE-CART!!!

Blue is the ultimate mad lad!!!

meanwhile Red has now joined Orange, Yellow and Green on the tracks below…

….as Blue is jumping from spider to mine-cart they shoot another spider-

like...Blue’s acrobatics are on point today!!!

Green manages to shake off the spider and skewers it into the tracks-

Yellow and Orange are still dealing with the mine-cart full of spiders in front of them

Green is now jumping onto the mine-cart train with the remaining spiders on it and taking them out!

Blue is shooting spiders out of the air.

Red beckons to Orange and Yellow, Yellow proceeds to jump into Reds mine-cart, they both then make their way over to Green… leaving Orange to fend off the cart of spiders in front of them-

Orange notices that Yellow and Red have left them and proceeds to follow them.

Just as they are falling off another ledge Orange jumps mine-carts, landing in Yellow and Greens mine-cart and Blue jumps down to join their friends.

Blue continues to snipe spiders after the group lands.

The others watch in awe, since the spider cart is nowhere near them, as Blue continues to snipe spiders.

Blue jumps to the mine-cart closest to Red.

The lines shift...the line on the top becomes the line on the bottom and vise versa-

Blue instead of jumping to the mine-cart closest to Red they fall onto the track below them-

landing gracefully onto their stomach-

Red almost shares Blues fate but they pulls out their trusty fishing rod just in time and swing themselves up onto the mine-cart just in front of Orange.

Yellow and Orange are fighting spiders during this.

Green leaps into the air and swats an incoming spider

That landing must’ve been rough because Blue is still recovering from it….the spiders are closing in-

There’s a blockade right in the path of the other sticks!! it sends all of them, the spiders and the mine-carts flying!!!

ORANGE LEAPS AT JUST THE RIGHT MOMENT AND THEY AND RED AVOID THE BLOCKADE ALL TOGETHER!!!

Blue Orange is coming for your mad lad crown!!

during this Yellow and Green land near Blue, rescuing them from the spiders.

Yellow stabbing the spider ontop of Blue results in them loosing their balance and almost falling, however Green pulls out their fishing rod and pulls Blue back into the mine-cart just as the tracks turn into a ramp.

The momentum flings everything in the mine-carts into the air launching poor Blue, who is still connected to Greens fishing line, into the air.

Red reels in one of the airborne spiders and slays it.

Blue once again snipes spiders mid air as Yellow and Green are falling into the abyss below.

Convenient tracks are convenient!

Blue jumps into the mine-cart Orange and Red are in as Red is continuing to fish for spiders.

Green lands gracefully onto the mine-carts below.

Red catches Yellow with their fishing rod just before they hit the mine-carts.

They hit a ramp soon after.

Yellow is still in the air, fighting spiders at this point and Green is singlehandidly taking on any spider that dares invade their personal mine-cart train.

Yellow is still fighting mid air-

Red and Green are now fishing for spiders!

Orange is still trying to keep the mine-cart free of spiders as Blue continues to snipe the spiders attacking Green.

The line cuts out on Greens end and they fall only to use their ever trusty fishing rod to pull themselves into their friends cart!

As they’re swinging up Orange grabs their arm and pulls them into the mine-cart….

They all yay before falling off the end of the track!

OOOOH boi!!!

yeah this isn’t the best but uh...glad you made it to the end of this trainwreak-

This probably isn’t gonna be a thing but uh….yeah-

Bye!

*goes into hole-*

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #332

i’m even more tired than before to try and think up song lyrics, i’m pasting from Word and then fucking off to bed lmao.

What was the last video message you received on your phone? I think it was a clip of Doris (Sara's beardie) eating and just being her perfect self? Was your last birthday cake homemade or store bought? Store-bought. One thing you miss about middle school? Shit, nothing. Middle school was the worst. Do you have any shirts signed by famous people? No. Have you ever entered an art competition? Yes. Would you ever pierce yourself? No. I am very much about having a professional do your body mods/art. Plus, I have tremors in my hands. Do you live in a safe neighbourhood? Supposedly. We haven't lived here nearly long enough to know. What is the last thing you did that shocked someone? /shrug Do you often find yourself questioning your future? Only always. Have you ever been for a ride in the back of a truck? Yeah. Do you like your license photo? I hate my permit picture. Are you into superheroes? Who’s your favorite? Not very, but I like 'em enough. I always say my favorite is Deadpool, but I know he's technically an anti-hero, but whatever. If you don't include him, uhhhh... maybe Spiderman. Have you started watching any new TV shows recently? No. Have you ever been able pet a normally wild animal, like a tiger or dolphin? No. :( At least, not to my recollection. Have you ever eaten snow? Yeah. There's actually a winter treat 'round here that you make with snow and sugar called snow cream. Good stuff. What is the messiest area in your home? Right now, the spare room/my wanna-be "office." What’s your favorite computer game genre? Still horror, like video games. Do you have any exes your parents never liked? No. Have you received financial help from your parents in the past 5 years? I'm completely financially dependent on them still. Are you a fast or a slow eater? I eat like, stupid fast, but without being messy. People *cough*Mom*cough* will absolutely point it out, but I seriously can't help it. Making a conscious effort to eat slow feels way too weird. What was the last thing you purchased from a small local business? I don't know. Is there anyone in your family/household whom you frequently argue with? No. Have you ever used chewing tobacco? Ew, no. Tell me what's on your mind? I've been considering yet again reaching out to some tattoo parlors and asking if they're open to hiring someone to handle the front desk and take care of business besides actually performing piercing and tattooing, given my tremors. My group therapy has kinda been encouraging me to use the possibility for social exposure, and besides, I'm very comfortable in the environment and just general aura of tat parlors. I'm sure I'd have to answer the phone, handle money, and obviously talk to costumers, but I know and accept that. I've been at such a stagnant point with my social anxiety in particular that I have to start pushing back harder, and doing this I feel would be one of the most relaxed, social job positions I can hopefully handle. I don't dare to even try this though until I get vaccinated to protect my immunocompromised mom. Writing this all out has actually been pretty encouraging about this idea... Do you wish you never dated someone you dated? Yeah, Tyler. It was such a "I'm lonely and he was nice in high school, so we'll try it" situation. I got nothing from it. Are you scared of growing old alone? Pretty badly. What are you listening to right now? I'm listening to/semi-watching John Wolfe play the remaster of Resident Evil 2. What breed was the last dog you saw? He was a German shepherd. Would you ever go swimming during a thunderstorm? No. Any time a thunderstorm was brewing and I was in the pool, I'd always get out. What is the next concert you will attend? Mom and I plan to see Ozzy when/if he reschedules his tour after he had to cancel with his Parkinson's diagnosis. What was the name of the last pet of yours that died? Teddy. :/ What's the highest science class you have taken? I don't know, actually. What makes you squeal like a school girl? No shame, seeing Mark and Amy do something cute together actually does this, lmao. What’s your favorite symbol? (i.e. the pentagram, the cross, etc.) Do fictional ones count? Because in that case, the Halo of the Sun from the Silent Hill franchise. I'm getting it tattooed somewhere at some point, I'm thinking the left side of my neck. I'm either gonna fashion it in a way where it looks branded on or carved into me. Have you ever been on anti depressants? For all of my pre-teen, teen, and some of my adult life. Apparently, I've only had one truly educated psychiatrist out of no less than a dozen I'd seen, because he fixed me right up. He taught me that those who suffer from bipolarity should avoid anti-depressants; they ramp up your bipolar symptoms. Instead, mood stabilizers are favorable. And what do you know, after I was prescribed a stabilizer and a catalyst for that medication, my depression decreased dramatically and became handleable. Have you ever starved yourself? Kinda. What’s the stupidest name you’ve ever given a pet? I had a guinea pig named Harry Potter. For no particular reason lmao. I'm not even a Harry Potter fan. Do you have nice legs? God no. Do you like fedoras? Okay so I know I am in the strong minority, but I actually do, haha. What is your favorite food group? Carbs. @_@ Have you ever got told that you should be a model? No, but one of the most flattering indirect compliments I've ever gotten was being mistaken for one. Jason's phone wallpaper was one of my favorite pictures of myself with my first snake, and someone asked him if I was a model. ;v;' What song is in a language you don’t speak, but you love it anyway? "Donaukinder" by Rammstein is one of my faves. Who’s a villain you sympathize with and why? SOBS Darkiplier bc his origins are so damn tragic and unfair. What book do you think should be directed as a film? Was The Giver ever made into one? I don't remember that book well, but I do recall it being absolutely beautiful. Have you ever found a stranger’s note somewhere? If so, what did it say? No. Have you ever edited Wikipedia? No. Have you ever edited any other wiki? Yeah. I have thousands on the Silent Hill wiki, where I'm one of the admins. I'm also a content moderator at the Team Ico (Shadow of the Colossus devs) one. Every now and again I used to go on the meerkats wiki as well, where I mainly fixed the fucking nightmarish grammar. Very briefly, I edited at the Dragons of Atlantis wiki as well. Do you get scared when you know some virus or sickness is being passed? Not very, but of course I still acknowledge the risk and am more conscious of hand washing and stuff. What popular social media platforms AREN’T you on? Snapchat, I don't actually use my Twitter, I don't have a personal Instagram... There may be more, idk. Is TikTok a "social media platform?" Because I don't have that, either. What was the name of the first porcelien doll you got? Never had one, given I was afraid of dolls as a kid. What’s your favorite Paramore song? "Decode." Would you be happy with a life without romance? To be entirely honest, I'd feel like I was missing something. Was your childhood happy? Mostly. What fundamentally matters do you? Love, kindness, peace, all that gooey stuff. Is true world peace ever possible? As much as I hate to admit it, I don't think so. The human population is far too big to come to a unanimous agreement on anything. Do you hold yourself to higher standards than you hold others? Yeah. Would you ever own a pet black widow spider? No. I'm getting more into the idea of owning invertebrates (I jabber enough about wanting tarantulas, and there are others, like mantises, I'm interested in as pets), but black widows, I'm not into the idea of having. Too venomous for me to be comfortable risking. If you have a job, what is the longest shift that you've worked? N/A Do you know all of the words to "Bohemian Rhapsody?" FUCK YES I DO. ^ Do you sing it with all of the different voices? sho nuff Do you own more than one copy of a certain book? No. Do you like interpreting poetry or just reading it for fun? Both. I love symbolism, so I get joy out of digging for subtle meanings in poems. Do you have a favorite Dr. Suess book? Yeah, it was always Green Eggs and Ham. Do you watch The Walking Dead? If so, favorite character? Not the show, but I've watched let's plays of the games, haha. In which case Clementine is inarguably one of the best female characters in a video game universe. Who has/had the most mature romantic relationship you’ve seen with your own eyes? Uhhh. I mean I never saw them much, but probably my late grandmother and her last husband. He was fucking incredible to her, and Grammy adored him as well. They helped each other so much and just obviously had the purest love between them. When was the last time you got something for free (legally)? What was it & have you enjoyed it so far? Lmao do balls in Pokemon GO count? Their occasional free boxes are the reason I can play the game because PokeStops are essentially non-existent here, so yes. What is the one fruit you can’t stand to eat? How about vegetable? The first one that came to me were oranges. I enjoy orange juice, but I just caaaaannot with the white veiny shit that you can't totally get off when peeling it. Without that, I might actually enjoy them, but idk. As for vegetable, asparagus is absolutely abhorrent. When’s the last time you actually recited the pledge? If you aren’t American, do/did you have anything similar in your country that you do during a time at school? Probably not since high school. Last person you shared food with? Ummm I have no idea. It's really just Mom and me here and we eat our own stuff. What was the last song you heard for the first time and enjoyed? I believe it waaas... "Down In The Park" by Marilyn Manson, maybe. If your life was a TV show, what would be the theme song? My inner high school emo just screamed "All Signs Point to Lauderdale" by AD2R. Who are some of your favorite female fictional characters, and why? Gahdamn, there's a lot. I don't feel like going through a mental list in my head and then describing why. A character (in anything) you wish hadn’t been killed off? Vol'jin; I think the entire WoW fanbase will forever be pissed about it. It was THE most "lul we dunno what 2 do w/ him anymore, let's let a totally random, unnamed, unimportant demon kill him" like what the fuck, Blizz. Most of his "oomph" was in the book, and I just really wish they'd done so much more with him in the game. Has anything “cute” happened in the past week? Off the top of me noggin, no. When did you last say “I love you”? Did you mean it? Yesterday to Sara. OF course I did. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times? Hi, PTSD, how are ya. Have you ever slept all day? Essentially. When I was on a larger dose of my anxiety med, I physically couldn't stay up for barely even five minutes, and when I'd lie back down, boom, I was OUT. I stayed on that dosage for I think just that one day, it was so bad. Can you have kids? Well, I have a functioning menstrual cycle, so I would assume so. Doesn't mean I will, though. What colors of mascara have you worn on your lashes? Only black. Do you like eating sour things? Hell yeah, I love sour stuff, candy in particular. Do you like pickles? fuuuuck yeah Did you ever have a really close friend move away? Yeah, in elementary school. I feel bad I can't remember her name at the moment... What's the most creative thing you've ever done? I mean, I guess the things I've written in RP. What's the most creative thing someone has done for you? For me? I don't really know. Do you like to watch ghost-hunting shows? Sure, they're some of my favorites. What’s something you’d like to be better at? Social interaction. Have you ever stayed up to talk to someone who was sad? Yeah. Do you think you would make a good parent? No. I know I wouldn't. The only time I ever wanted kids was with Jason, and honestly, I really hope I don't end up with a man because I never want to deal with that urge again and make a mistake. I'm just in no way emotionally fit to be a mother. How many best friends do you have? Just one. What do you cry over the most? My PTSD, honestly. I never sob about it anymore, just shed some tears. What language did/do you take in high school? Latin for one semester, then all four available for German. Which sports do you follow? None. Who was the last person you talked about marriage or having kids with? About marriage, Sara. Kids, the subject was lightly touched upon with Girt, though "with" was never a part of it, but obviously implied seeing as we were dating with long-term in mind. Have you ever been in a house fire? No, thankfully. Have you ever made out for one straight hour? them is rookie numbers Are you any good at remembering phone numbers? No. I literally don't even know my own, nor my mother's. I need to fix that. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex? Girt. Do you have a bookshelf? If so, just one or how many? No. If I gave you twenty bucks what would you do with it? Save it to go towards Venus' terrarium. Is there a movie from your childhood that you still watch today? Well of course! I'm unashamed to watch any "kids" movie I enjoy, like Disney ones. Most "kids" movies tend to be better than those intended for adults, it seems... Are you afraid of mice? Oh no, I adore mice and I think had a pair as pets before I got rats. What type of souvenir do you usually purchase when on vacation? I can't really answer this; I haven't gone on nearly enough vacations to develop a theme. I can say confidently though it'd probably be something small. If you could see any musical on Broadway right now, what would it be? I don't enjoy musicals. Have you ever watched Doctor Who? One or two with Sara, yes. I know we at least watched the weeping angels episode. If you read, which book or series did you enjoy most as a child? Warriors by S.E. Hinton. Sometimes I wanna get back into them, but I am YEARS behind and more into Wings of Fire anyway, so. I don't read nearly enough for both. How do you get rid of your hiccups? Literally no trick seems to work for me. I just suffer lmao.

[waverly-gossip-academy]

ND Replay Review #2: Stay Tuned for Danger SPOILERS

AKA, the game where they took a great concept and made it better. 

Wow. So many things to love about this game. First, we need to discuss the elephant in the room, Aunt Eloise. The talented, badass Aunt Eloise. Who handed us our first two mysteries (and a dope apartment in NYC) on a silver platter. Coincidentally, she eats all of her meals off a silver platter. *That* is how awesome she is. 

What happened to this woman? Why does she never reappear? Nancy can’t even bother writing her letters about all of the mysteries that spiraled from these first two? Rude, Nancy. Justice for Aunt Eloise. 

Moving on... 

Thanks to Aunt Eloise we get to cab around New York City, around Central Park, hang out with soap stars, and solve a pretty fun mystery. 

In only their second go around HeR managed to fix what was obviously wrong about their first game, the snoozefest characters. We’ve got an abundance of interesting suspects to choose from here. Maybe it’s just because they are adults and not like, high schoolers and some suburban dad criminal? IDK, but whatever it is keep em coming. Mattie is a tragic, fame is such a burdan, femme fatale. Rick is just the right amount of cocky and creepy. Lillian is a badass. Millie, while underutilized, is a delight. Even faceless Bill Pappas brings me joy with her ramblings and, just under the surface, anger issues. Dwayne is kind of an eh for me. Maybe it’s just because the rest of the characters are *that* good. He’s pretty spooky in the end. But I can’t get over a man who keeps his wallet and briefcase in his office overnight. WTF Dwayne? (Pour one out for Ralph too. I love that we never really get to talk to him, but he totally ends up saving us in the end sequence. You get an honorable mention. We will not forget about it, or your donut face.) 

The location of this game is an A-. I think it’s pretty fun kicking around the studio and the prop room is such a clever way of Nancy finding random items (which isn’t always HeR’s strong suit). Aunt Eloise’s apartment (never forget) is hilarious with all of those crazy photoshopped heads floating around. Literally the funniest thing about these games by a long shot was someone’s idea to photoshop these characters into real life peoples’ photos. I also like how HeR shows just how dangerous NYC is. You can just get buzzed into any apartment building and break in with your credit card. This pre-9/11 era is a hoot. The music goes super well with the locale and I think it’s just suspenseful enough. 

What they didn’t quite master just yet was puzzles. I said it once, I’ll say it again, those silly word scrambles that aren’t necessary to solve the crime? Exhausting. I also didn’t get the wire cutters the first time in the prop room so I had to wait in the studio for HOURS (aka step away from my computer for a bit) so I could go back into the prop room after 6:00 pm. Though it was clever for them to start introducing time as a real factor in solving puzzles this early in the game. Thank god for the set-able alarm clock starting next game. They definitely got the decoder part right though, so props for a step in the right direction. 

The culprit makes total sense. I love how he just seems more and more deranged as the game goes on. Everything really clicks in the end. Even if some of the other characters for culpable something they don’t totally deserve to go down for any of their “crimes”. 

Final Rating: 8/10

They definitely found their footing with this game. While the puzzles still needed a bit of work at this point, this game really started the phenomenon in my opinion. 

[benhaardy]

king of my heart || b.h.

(i apologize i do not know where this gif is from i found it on weheartit but im not sure thats who made it but here is the post. if you are the owner please let me know so i can credit or take it off at your request. thanks!)

Summary: Ben takes you to the Bohemian Rhapsody premiere and you reminisce of his accomplishments and your years-long friendship.

Request: Can you do a fluffy first kiss imagine with Ben? Thanks!

A/N: so uhhh the request was literally the simplest thing EVER but my extra ass had to put some Extra Sass™ upon this lol. idk why i wanted to go big for such a simple prompt but its ben and its his birthday today so HE DESERVES IT!

gotta add in that S H E E R D R E S S S H I R T because i’m still not over it, thank u, next.

the outfit i had in mind: dress (the one in the middle) shoes necklace earrings, though obviously you can imagine your own outfit.

song that the title/some of the fic is based off: king of my heart by taylor swift

obviously, i am a huge fan of the longtime best friends to lovers cliche and idk if anyone else thinks this but i write my characters as super affectionate in the first place so i hope it isn’t weird to anyone to have like the really touchy-feely best friends or friendships in my stories ig? idk, just a thought cause i literally just noticed how affectionate my characters are ANYWAYS here's wonderwall

thank you for sending a request in! hope you enjoy it!

also happy birthday to our king i hope he has a beautiful day

Wordcount: 1.7k

Warnings: a few frick words (2). fem!reader. mention of nudity. fluffy!! not proofread, but beta’d

“Ready, Y/N?” Ben called from downstairs

“Ready as I’ll ever be.”

You put the final touches of your outfit on. Perfume on your wrists, Tiffany necklace on, you went down the stairs carrying your nude Louboutins and adjusting your earrings. It wasn’t really your style to do any of this, really, but your best friend Ben had wanted to take you to the Bohemian Rhapsody premiere. Go big or go home, you figured. At his asking, you didn’t see or know what he was going to wear so you played it safe with a black dress.

You went down the stairs and got to the bottom floor. Ben was standing in the middle of the living room, back turned to you. He was looking down at the cat weaving in between his legs. As far as you could see, he was wearing an all black suit. “Ben?” you said. He whipped around to see you as you were putting on your shoes.

“Oh, wow, Y/N,” he beamed. Ben put his hands over his mouth, his eyes wide with surprise. “You look so good!” You opened your arms to embrace him, to which he stepped into, his arms around your waist.

After a few seconds, you both pulled away but his arms still stayed in their place and your hands lingered on his biceps. “I could say the same about you, Benny! Everything looks great!”  He let you go fully. You looked up and down at his outfit. Sheer black dress shirt, black blazer and trousers, everything was tailored perfectly to his body. You grinned. He cleaned up very well, but it wasn’t like he didn’t dress nice in the first place.

“Ready to go?” he asked. “Car’s waiting outside.”

“Ready.”

--

You watched from the side of the carpet as the main cast were getting photographed together. That was your best friend! Standing next to Roger fucking Taylor and Brian fucking May. Everything still felt surreal, though he had been in the public spotlight for the past few years, this felt different. Your senses just felt heightened. The flashing lights, the hues of purple and pink and gold all around, surrounded by people you either knew well or were complete strangers to you. Your eyesight was crisp, noticing everything you could, taking it all in. You did musical theatre, you hadn’t really dealt with something as big as this, even with Apocalypse.

And here your best friend was, in the middle of all of this. Your mind played back all the memories of you two in drama school with his all-nighters, monologue after monologue, script after script. You couldn’t be more proud of your closest friend, all of his hard work going to this. You could remember Ben’s shifty eyes backstage the very first show of Judas Kiss and the blush on his cheeks after the show when he remembered that you had watched him perform and there was that one scene of full frontal; he figured it was worth the embarrassment, it’s not as if you hadn’t seen worse.

Back to Eastenders and its countless shirtless and kissing scenes. You thought back to the countless nights that you spent up with him when he was weighing leaving the show or becoming Archangel. At your own urging, Ben left Eastenders, ready for the next chapter, ready for the next big thing. One of the best memories of your life was traveling to the United States with him for Comic-Con and driving up and down the west coast a week before he had to attend it. He took you to Disneyland and Universal Studios after everything with the convention was said and done.

Now, Bohemian Rhapsody! You laughed at the memories of Ben scrambling to find a good drum teacher close by and how he turned up in the middle of the night to your flat to tell you he got the part. You couldn’t ever forget his embrace in the dark of your living room, his face buried in your shoulder and his arms, tight and strong around your waist. Your happy tears wiped away by Ben’s hand as you drew apart. Though you both were excited, it was still the middle of the night, so you both just slept in your bed once more with the cats.

Ben would always invite you over to watch him play and give your input. You had to admit, he had gotten pretty good over all the lessons. Though you discouraged his lying about playing the drums and seeing the consequences in his clamber to learn as much as possible, it paid off in the best way possible. They started the process of making the movie. Though you couldn’t really be by his side throughout filming, you were basically there, his perpetual FaceTimes keeping you in the loop with everyone. You even “met” the guys and Lucy, who you hit off with very well. Ben made sure you were always by his side and he was always by yours.

So when you saw him here, at his biggest premiere surrounded by even more amazing actors and actresses, you couldn’t help but shed a tear. This role of Roger had basically brought him into the light.

You watched them take pictures until Ben beckoned you over, the group disbanding and walking over to their families and significant others to pose for their own photos. You came over and he put his arm around your waist, hugging you close. Your hand was on his back and you both posed for pictures, the flash basically blinding you, the sounds of the shutters all around. “Smile,” Ben whispered into your ear.

--

Everyone was at the rooftop restaurant that you were all going to eat at after the premiere. You were sitting in between Roger and Ben, having been introduced to all of the people around the table. Never in a million years, you thought, never in a million years did you think you’d be here, conversing with the real Roger Taylor or getting along with his daughters, or telling Lucy Boynton and Anita Dobson where you got your necklace and earrings.

“If you’ll excuse us, Y/N and I are going to go out to the balcony,”

You scooped another spoon of food in your mouth before saying, “Oh, okay we are? Okay.” You gave a polite smile to Roger, who you were talking to before Ben got your attention. Standing up, you followed Ben out of the tall, ornate door, out to the terrace where you could see all of London. The view was breathtaking.

“What is this all about?” you inquired as you came over to Ben standing with his hand on the glass, observing the scenery in front of him, the various coloured lights illuminating London.

“How do you feel about all this, Y/N? The whole shazam,” he questioned, wanting to know your true feelings about everything.

You shook your head, “What can I say?” You looked out along with him. “If you had told me in the first year of uni when we met that we would be here right now. Eating dinner with two freaking members of Queen and their families and being around some of the best actors and musicians in the world!” You said, your voice breathy. It was crazy what your best friend had been able to accomplish. “I would’ve slapped you and called you mental. This is all so... wow.”

“I couldn’t have made it here without you, Y/N. I’d be a complete and utter trainwreck. I wouldn’t even, like, survive without you, you know?”

“Ben,” you shook your head vigourously, “Don’t…don’t. This is your thing. This is your work. This is your doing. I was just there along for the ride and you were there with me,” you reasoned. “It’s just...just that simple.”

He shook his head but smiled. “None of this is that simple.” Ben turned to face you, still looking down. You moved to look at him yourself. “You mean everything to me, really. It’s not just the support. It’s the little things. It’s how you never fail to put your jumper sleeves over your hands and bury ‘em in your face. It’s how you look at me when you’re adjusting my suit and doing that little,” he paused and did little sweeping movements in the air, “that little sweepy thing on my lapels and you look back up at me and smile. The way you smile, the way you look at me, love, it just- it drives me crazy in the best way. You’re always there for me, yes, but that is not the only reason that I love you.” Ben took hold of your hand and held it close to his heart, his hand encapsulating yours entirely. “I want you, Y/N.”

You leaned forward and an abundance of holy shit holy shit did I just do that did I really just do that did he reeeallly just say those amazing things about me?’s rang through your head, echoing and echoing. You kissed him. His plump lips were upon yours finally. At first, Ben was stiff, taken by surprise at your sudden action but he softened quickly with the feeling of you on him. Your hand stayed on his chest while his moved down to your hips. As the kiss deepened, you laced your hands around his neck.

He pulled away. “You don’t know how long I’ve wanted that, love,” he said, breathless, his lips swollen and pink.

“Me too, Ben.” You smiled and cupped his cheek in your hand, to which he kissed your palm and held your wrist lightly. He looked down at his shoes, blushing.

“We should—“ he started, his thumb pointing back to the inside. “We shoul—“

You exhaled. “Y-Yeah, yeah we should, we should.” Ben grabbed your hand and led you inside. He pulled your chair out for you and you sat in it. You brushed imaginary dirt off your dress, trying to act casual.

“Looks like you two had fun out there!” exclaimed Roger, a bellowing laugh coming from him.

[hyenahunny]

AHS 8x07 Promo Breakdown

Heads up - possible/definite spoilers for the next episode

Welp I’m back on my bullshit, here we go - a fucking long shot-for-shot breakdown of the promo for American Horror Story Apocalypse’s 7th episode. This is hella long so I’m gonna put it under the cut but give it a look and tell me your thoughts.

1. It’s Mead! And she’s in the same store she was in when Michael knifed that butcher! It’s not that same day tho - her outfit is different.

2. Butcher guy behind his counter looking confused/shook, looking at something behind him and then turning back to face the camera

- pretty sure it’s not the same butcher Michael killed

3. Butcher guy wrappin’ up a hoof (what type idk i’m not a vet nor a farmer)

4. Mead lookin’ excited, and she’s finishing saying: “Just give me a pound and a half of goat’s hooves for Satanic zing.”

5. NEXT WEDNESDAY

6. Obviously in Robichaux’s. Ariel DrAmaTIcALLy walking through, holding a silver canister. A bunch of students droppin’ all around him, but he pays em no mind

7. Shot of his hand holding that same canister during that walk

8. Myrtle and Joan Collins (who is she playing for real is she still evie or??) sitting side by side at a table with hella food.

- it’s def in warlock high based on the background and lighting

- Joan says “Now they need to kill one of ours.” Which um makes it sound like they’ve killed a warlock? holy shit do they blame john henry moore’s death on the witches?? shit???

9. Baldwin Pennypacker (that’s literally on BD Wong’s imdb i can’t that’s the character’s actual name) in the dining room of Robichaux’s dining room blowing white dust off the top of the same canister we saw in shot 6 and 7 

- the plates are empty so dang they didn’t even get to eat

- Cordelia is standing at the head of the table with Joan Collins, who is still sitting while all the students behind them seem like they’re SCRAMBLIN’

10. oh SHEEEET it’s Cordy, Myrtle, Zoe, and one of their fuckin cool as hell henchmen are walking with their black parasols in an empty open area - and the henchman is carrying rope and a gasoline can. IT’S WITCH BURNIN TIME

- we know some of the people in attendance based on THIS pic from RM’s insta.

Cordelia, Myrtle, Zoe, Queenie, Coco, 3 henchmen, Michael (based on all of those photos of Cody with Sarah Paulson and that one pic of him bein a cutie on that same set) and also... JOHN HENRY MOORE? a bitch won’t stay bbq in this show this is gonna be w i l d 

11. Myrtle during the dinner scene in shot 8 saying “It’s kill or be killed” dramatic but v accurate which is very on brand for Myrtle

12. Someone sticking the barrel of a gun out a car window and shooting someone wearing a hooded cloak or something similar.

- the person they shot has shorter blonde hair but I really, really don’t think it’s Cordelia - her hair is longer

13. Joan Collins screaming on the floor and boy oh boy is that tacky wallpaper

14. a shot of the silver canister with white powder

15. Ariel looking at... Balwin Pennypacker (I can’t I just can’t) really intensely

16. Baldw - fuck imma just say BD - talking to Ariel. He says “Careful, it’s the deadliest I’ve ever created.” Great so they’re definitely murder bois now

17, 18. two SpOoPy shots of Dinah decked out in African-inspired prints with her hand up on a black background

19. Cordelia talking to Dinah outside (with like FANCY landscaping behind her) - she says “I need your help Dinah”

20. Cordelia and Dinah in a room that I thinkkkk is in Robichaux’s? They’re in the same outfits as the last shot and they seem to be doing some magic shiz

21. Dinah with some dope earrings in the same scene as shot 19 in front of a nice house and she says “I don’t do favors.”

22. A black woman’s hand making a doll with a tiny like rodent? skull for a head with voodoo markings on it

- I’m guessing it’s Dinah and I’m guessing she’s tryna summon Legba

23. PAPA LEGBA SHIT’S GONNA POP OFF

- He says “The Witch Queen? HAHAHAHAHA (echoing lols)”

24. Zoom in on Cordy on the leather couch in the warlock hogwarts’ library looking v serious

25. AMERICAN HORROR STORY APOCALYPSE ALL NEW NEXT WEDNESDAY AT 10PM hunny we been knew

so...

MY PREDICTIONS (i’m such trash)

Things I think are gonna happen: the witches are gonna be blamed for John Henry Moore’s death. 

So in retaliation Ariel and Baldwin Pennybaker (ugh) try and straight up murder all the witches. Idk what happens, looks like they’re pretty successful. BUT WAIT what if Mallory survived or resurrected herself and she brings back Zoe, Queenie, Cordelia, Coco, and Myrtle (and maybe she resurrects everyone else too) or something like that. Commence Operation IMMEDIATE MALE REGRET.

The witches somehow bring back John Henry Moore. Because JHM might be barbeque, but I don’t see that as a problem for Mallory.  and he’s like nope I wasn’t killed by them, I was killed by Kathy Bates. And they burn ol’ Baldy and Ariel for what they did. And maybe this makes JHM the eponymous traitor of the episode for helping the witches. 

And maybe they find Mead and burn her too. Michael couldn’t reveal his connection to her without outing himself as connected to the crime of killing the one guy who wasn’t on Team Michael at the time. So he watches Mead burn and decides welp i better start really doubling down on this ending the world business. Let’s murder people and start a business venture that makes fallout shelters and robots.

ALTERNATIVELY the burning scene is at the beginning and they’re burning three (a number based on the instas taken on set) warlocks. For some reason. Idk. No matter what Cordelia wouldn’t allow the burning of any witches.

But this doesn’t really make sense because JHM is in the burning scene. So?

I’m not sure why or when Cordelia tries to contact Papa Legba.

Maybe Behold and Madison communicate somehow to Cordy what they found out and Cordy goes to the one person she knows who can contact (a) devil. IT’S DINAH Y’ALL. It seems like Dinah does help her but as she said - she doesn’t do favors. So who knows what Cordelia gives up ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Maybe instead of just asking Papa Legba about Michael she asks to be made temporarily un-killable - like Marie Laveau bc tbt when she was dismembered but still serving sass before she was BeTRaYeD (i’m bitter she could have just been reassembled like Kyle goddammit.) Because if she’s not dead, she’s still the FUCKING Supreme. 

It’s gonna be an intense episode.

[lovemesomesurveys]

Have you ever worn those Drunk Goggles? Nope. Which decade before the 90s had the best makeup trends? Hmm. Maybe like the 50s or 60s. The classic Hollywood look. Can you agree to disagree, or usually get upset over conflicting views? I usually just agree to disagree. Does it bug you when long socks are constantly falling down? I wear ankle socks, so. Rodeos – entertaining, or cruel? I wouldn’t find that entertaining.

Why can’t politicians debate politely? I don’t know. Who is the best female rocker? Why? “i like amy lee from evanescence. idk, maybe its the goth / emo in me that jst refuses to die” <<< Yeah, her voice is insanely good. Can you even taste a difference between Cheez Its and Cheez Nips? I can. I like both, though. What about between Pepsi and Coke or Sprite and 7Up? Yes and yes. I prefer Coke and Sprite. Do you care what kind of toilet paper you use? We use Charmin. What color of roses do you find the prettiest? Good ol’ red roses are beautiful. Which celebrity has the cutest butt? Alexander Skarsgard. ;) Do you still have any decent arcades nearby? Nope. After a holiday, do you go to the store to get candy on sale? I used to. Did Marilyn Monroe look better before or after cosmetic surgery? I think of her looking like how you typically see her in photos and such, not sure whether that’s before or after cosmetic surgery. She was pretty. Bullfighters who get gored kind of had it coming, right? I mean... you do know what you’re getting into and what can happen. If you make surveys, do you care what people rate them? I don’t make ‘em. Have you ever accidentally found porn when looking for something else? Yes. Ever run into those 'celebrity lookalike porn’ blogs? No. Do you think religious leaders just like to manipulate people? There are corrupt and fake ones just like with anything else, but true ministers don’t. Why do so many fans with OTP’s insist that their ship is real? Some people just get really into that stuff. Even when the writers (or real people that they ship) tell them it isn’t? They just really want it to be real. Do you draw fanart of anything? Nope. I’m no artist. Do annoying city kids ever loiter outside your library and harass people? I don’t think so. Do you like to hang out at your local library? No. On that subject, do you like the smell of books? I do. What’s on your Reading List, so-to-speak, right now? I just started a book recently. Read any great non-fiction books lately? Yeah. What do you like on your burger? Honestly, I’m good with just cheese and mayo. Sometimes ketchup and mustard, too. I also dip it in ranch. What do you NOT like on your burger? Lettuce, tomatoes, and onions. Do you like 'loose meat’ sandwiches? Like deli meat? Yeah. Have you ever heard of the restaurant Maid Rite? Nope. What is the best thing to put in a grilled cheese (other than cheese)? I just like cheese, honestly. Homemade tomato soup, or just out of a can? I don’t like tomato soup. Favorite thing to see in museums? Historical items. Have you ever seen an unwrapped mummy in person? Not an unwrapped one, no. What things have people shamed you for? No one shames me except for myself. Do you always reply to private messages? (On any website) Not always. What device do you seem to always be buying batteries for? I haven’t had to get batteries for anything in a long time. What’s worse – snow, or all the mud after it melts? It doesn’t snow here, but I’m familiar with mud and it sucks. Especially as a wheelchair user because it gets on wheels, which then gets on my hands. Are there any 'adult stores’ in your area? In my town, but not near me. Have you been inside of them/shopped there before? Once I went with my friend because she wanted to go for her 18th birthday. Do you watch The Masked Singer? Any theories? No. I kind of wanted to check it out, though. Peacock is totally 100% Donny Osmond, by the way. Oh. Favorite Alfred Hitchcock film? I don’t have one. Do you like Funko Pop figurines? Yes. I have a really cute I Love Lucy one that is a black and white version of Lucy. I also have a Chewbacca one. If so, do you have any? Which ones would you like to have? Oh ^^^^ Which ones do you think they should make (but haven’t yet)? I feel like they have one for everything.

[sonderei]

I got bored and answered one of those 100-questions things so if you ever wanted to know a stupid amount of useless information about me read on, otherwise enjoy whatever content is in the next post!

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Spotify

is your room messy or clean? my room is a mess, the rest of the apartment is pretty clean

what color are your eyes? brown

do you like your name? why? its grown on me. I used to get teased a lot in school “hey Ariel, where’s your best friend Flounder??” but now I work on Disney property and it’s on my name tag so I get to make a lot of kids (and adults) happy

what is your relationship status? been dating a small mess of a person for 4 years, whom I love dearly 

describe your personality in 3 words or less basically a cat

what color hair do you have? brown, or like a really dirty blonde if I spend enough time in the sun

what kind of car do you drive? color? a black 2013 hyundai accent hatchback (named Jazz)

where do you shop? where I shop: target, forever21, H&M, BoxLunch, Garage where I’d LIKE to shop: ModCloth, ASOS

how would you describe your style? I once bought an oversized Polariod windbreaker and I wear it everywhere I can??? I also love passive aggressive crop tops (”no thanks”) I wore it to a mandatory meeting at work at 9am and any time my managers asked me a question I just pointed to my shirt. So idk that should tell you something

favorite social media account I think I enjoy Instagram and Tumblr equally?

what size bed do you have? queen

any siblings? one full brother (5 years younger), one half brother on my dad’s side (13 years younger), and one half sister on my mom’s side (18 years younger). 

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? idk because I haven’t traveled anywhere I’d actually like to live. I love the idea of living northwest US (Seattle, Portland) or in NZ or like Scotland or somewhere with beautiful scenery but like...never been so can’t say for sure?

favorite snapchat filter? flower crown

favorite makeup brand(s) NYX is pretty much all I use but I also do like bare minimum with my makeup

how many times a week do you shower? typically every other day unless I’m super gross

favorite tv show? too hard. Steven Universe, Game of Thrones, A:TLA, and Adventure Time?

shoe size? 7-8 depending on who makes them

how tall are you? smol. Like 5′3″ or so? 

sandals or sneakers? sneakers, unless going somewhere involving water and/or sand

do you go to the gym? nah. I’m up and down stairs at least 20 times a day, usually while carrying stuff. that’s my exercise.

describe your dream date sitting in front of the Ocean Voyager exhibit at the Georgia Aquarium all day. like literally that’s it. and my date lets me without asking to move on, and ideally enjoys it as much as I do.

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? uhhh like $25 because that’s how much you have to have to open a new bank account which I’ve been meaning to do for like two weeks now

what color socks are you wearing? not wearing any, but I was wearing shark socks all day

how many pillows do you sleep with? just one, super soft and squishy

do you have a job? what do you do? I'm a server at a restaurant in Disney Springs at Walt Disney World. Its challenging and often frustrating and stressful but I get to meet some really cool people so it evens out. (Pat Sajak from Wheel of Fortune was in last week, I didn’t ask him if I could buy a vowel because I have some dignity)

how many friends do you have? like true friends, would drop everything for me if I asked them / needed them to? I’d say 3. But my social group is like...maybe 10 people? That I actively try to hang out with semi regularly.

whats the worst thing you have ever done? I honestly don’t even know. I forgot a woman’s ketchup last week at work and apparently I ruined her entire Disney vacation so

whats your favorite candle scent? usually anything with jasmine, so long as it isn’t overpowering

3 favorite boy names Nathaniel, Sebastian, Milo 

3 favorite girl names Riley, Maisie, Phoebe

favorite actor? robert downey jr probs

favorite actress? tessa thompson?

who is your celebrity crush? ugh. tom holland, tessa thompson, rdj? 

favorite movie? Spirited Away or Howl’s Moving Castle

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? I used to, before I worked at a bookstore. For some reason that killed my love for reading. But favorite books were the Bartimaeus Trilogy and Abarat.

money or brains? brains

do you have a nickname? what is it? Skip (long story short, its a Cabin Pressure reference because I’ve always wanted to be a pilot)

how many times have you been to the hospital? for myself? 5? maybe 6?

top 10 favorite songs in no particular order Evolve by Phoria Put ‘Em Up by Priority Cleopatra by The Lumineers Feel It Still by Portugal. The Man Miracle by CHVRCHES Dissolve by Absofacto Taro by alt-J Lavender by Two Door Cinema Club Dinosaurs by The Maccabees Ambling Alp by Yeasayer

do you take any medications daily? nope

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) ehh a bit on the oily side

what is your biggest fear? losing the ones I love

how many kids do you want? NONE ZERO NADA ZIP ZILCH FUCK NO

whats your go to hair style? pull it back, messy bun if possible

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) a p small apartment (but not tiny, I think it’s like 800-900 sq ft)

who is your role model? Steve Irwin

what was the last compliment you received? a guest at one of my tables told me I looked like one of the recent Bond girls

what was the last text you sent? bailing on a few friends who were going to Blizzard Beach because I was exhausted from having my dad in town for the last two days so I wanted to sleep

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? like 2 or 3. not very old

what is your dream car? realistic? a nice Subaru or Audi. Maybe a Tesla unrealistic? bugatti veyron

opinion on smoking? cigarettes? ew gross not around me also poor life choices weed? don’t care, just not around me please and thanks my other half is allergic

do you go to college? I did, graduated two years ago, still haven’t done anything with my life / degree

what is your dream job? anything working directly with animals, especially marine mammals, big cats, or non-venomous reptiles

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? big city. right in the middle of it.

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? not usually, I have specific stuff I use for my hair that’s a lot nicer than the stuff at hotels

do you have freckles? not like a ton but yeah

do you smile for pictures? if I feel like it? also depends on who’s taking the picture

how many pictures do you have on your phone? I’d say somewhere in the realm of like 650-800?

have you ever peed in the woods? yep, used to go camping a lot as a kid

do you still watch cartoons? hell yeah, I usually prefer them to anything else. Steven Universe, Adventure Time, Voltron, A:TLA, Foster’s Home for Imaginary Friends...that shit is my jam

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? mmmm Wendys but I usually don’t get c nugs from anywhere

Favorite dipping sauce? chick fil a sauce or ranch

what do you wear to bed? just underwear

have you ever won a spelling bee? no but I came close in middle school

what are your hobbies? not many tbh. I have a few reptiles that I take care of. I collect / trade Disney pins. I love swimming but don’t do it all that often. Uhhh...seeing how many times I can ride Kilamonjaro Safari in a row before the cast members begin to judge me?

can you draw? not really, no

do you play an instrument? nope, I can’t even read music and I can barely hum

what was the last concert you saw? uhhhh...I think Death Cab for Cutie and CHVRCHES?

tea or coffee? tea

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? Starbucks for drinks, Dunkin for food (donutssssss)

do you want to get married? yeah, eventually. I told the SO that ideally before I’m 30 and that we’re not having a wedding but we’re gonna elope instead because fuck weddings I don’t have the money for that or the patience to plan it

what is your crush’s first and last initial? not really a crush but more of a “current-and-potentially-forever life partner” but DU

are you going to change your last name when you get married? no idea. D wants to change their last name but idk if they’d take mine or they’d just change it to their middle name and then I’d take that? honestly it doesn’t really matter to me each way so long as I don’t get their current last name (because of bad associations)

what color looks best on you? no idea honestly. I prefer dark, muted blues?

do you miss anyone right now? my parents and siblings, and two of my best friends

do you sleep with your door open or closed? open, otherwise the cats would never let us sleep

do you believe in ghosts? nah, not really. I grew up in a town that had a bunch of history and by extension ghost stories, so it was more a part of “tourist culture” than something that seemed legitimate to me

what is your biggest pet peeve? I never know until someone starts doing it around me. but uhhhh I hate loud chewers, people that refuse to even try to see your side of an argument, and when you’re sitting somewhere in public like on a bench or something and there’s plenty of other empty seating options nearby and yet someone comes up and sits RIGHT NEXT TO YOU nope you know what that’s it I fucking hate that and it happens to me all the time at Disney

last person you called` I think my mom?

favorite ice cream flavor? cookies and cream, unless I’m at one of those places where you can basically make your own flavor in which case I will ALWAYS do a rose-infused ice cream with pistachios 

regular oreos or golden oreos? please don’t make me choose

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? rainbow!

what shirt are you wearing? not wearing one ;)

what is your phone background? just a basic stock photo of some ferns. kinda boring but I like simple backgrounds

are you outgoing or shy? its pretty even but if I had to say one over the other I’m probably slightly more outgoing than I am shy.

do you like it when people play with your hair? only people I know and allow. don’t just come up and start playing with my hair unless you KNOW that I’d be okay with it

do you like your neighbors? haven’t met them! we moved in like a month ago but we still haven’t seen anyone that lives on our floor

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? if I remember, but honestly I’m really bad about doing it unless I’m in the shower in which case it’s every time I take a shower

have you ever been high? nope

have you ever been drunk? sadly no. I have a ridiculously high natural alcohol tolerance, so I get sick to my stomach before I can even manage tipsy.

last thing you ate? pizzaaaaaaa

favorite lyrics right now idek and that’s a lot of effort so sorry here’s me “free pass” I’m using it on this question next

summer or winter? ugh winter always I can’t stand the heat there’s only so many layers you can take off

day or night? night

dark, milk, or white chocolate? milk or white. milk for straight eating, white for flavoring other things

favorite month? october

what is your zodiac sign leo!

who was the last person you cried in front of? my significant other

[indelible-stars]

So I finished reading ‘I Was Born For This’ by Alice Oseman and it was superb. Brilliant. A masterpiece. From the moment I heard about this book and what it was about I was intrigued. I’m so, so glad I won one of the giveaways and got the chance to read it early. It certainly lived up to the hype. The characters were loveable and real as Alice’s characters always are and I loved them all dearly. I wrote down my thoughts while reading so below is my stream of consciousness on what happens throughout the book.

MAJOR SPOILERS AHEAD BEWARE

MONDAY

ANGEL

• This is such a realistic meeting of two internet friends • Omg how could you do this Juliet? I'd die if this happened to me. I'd just combust on the spot or sink into the ground and stay there forever.

JIMMY

• I love,,, them? Yes boys • I want all their outfits • “If we can talk about anxiety we can talk about poo. They’re basically the same thing.” Sure sure true that true that • I love how Cecily says babe all the time. She's an icon • Our girls like our boys I love it • I already love the boys friendship so much and it's only Jimmy's first chapter

ANGEL

• Mac is such a basic bitch. There's so many guys like him that think they're original bc they like really popular slightly old bands. You're not that edgy stop.

JIMMY

• Bliss is Rowan's girlfriend???? I didn't expect that to be her role. I thought she was gonna be a fan.

ANGEL

• Mac can you go??? Or at least shut up • I like how realistic Juliet is. Like I'm annoyed on Angel's behalf but I get how she is. • I thought the ship was going to be Rowan and Lister!!! Ah but Jowan makes sense and I'm interested in how this will play into stuff • Convincing evidence...yeah they're totally together Angel...you keep telling yourself that sweetheart

JIMMY

• We're like brothers • I would actually love this band. The angel wings and aesthetic? Yes bitch fuck me up • Oh I'm glad Jimmy likes something about being in his band • I was born for this... title reference complete

TUESDAY

ANGEL

• Ah what cute platonic cuddling. Eh guys? That's what you're freaking about isn't it? Their beautiful friendship? Also it's really creepy that someone got pictures of them sleeping in their apartment. Like what? It's gross that celebrities have to go through that • I don't think you should base your point of living on a fandom relationship Angel....that might be unhealthy....Do you perchance think there's something else going on here?

JIMMY

• Note to self: never read the start of this chapter when on a plane • How Jimmy logically knows that he's not as likely to die on a plane than so many other things but is still panicked is super relatable. Like logic and anxiety do not coincide. Anxiety knows no reason • Ah what's on the iPad has been revealed! A photo taken out of context and ridiculous article • Two whole months? Damn Rowan's a tough one. I'd be annoyed at Lister too but he shouldn't have to be really careful. It's shitty that one photo can be posted and Jimmy is forced to come out. • Aw no Lister :( aw no Jimmy :( how gross and invasive that someone else took it. Fuck man. I'd be terrified • Ro Ro. • No I just want my boys to love each other and be happy and safe :(

ANGEL

• Your dad might be getting at something Angel.... • Angel and her dad are cute. I like them • Everyone watching B99 all the time. Good choice in TV show. They know what they're doing • Yeah they just might not be thrilled at the situation girls.... • That sounds like a bloody long fanfic and how could it be a fave when the prospect of solo careers is involved?!?

JIMMY

• Shit I would not want any of those worst days. They really do sound awful • A secret for 2 years? That's pretty good going. Cecily well done • “Do you think if we hired a full-time bodyguard they’d do the hoovering for us?” bitch meee. Lister has his priorities in order. • Ah yes Alex you treat Jimmy as a person. The way he deserves • That new contract doesn't sound fun...not something that Jimmy will like... • Oh god Lister you mess • Ah this interview. Make it stop. I'm clenching up for them • Go away Dave! Give them a break • Breaking news: a fictional interviewer found dead by the hands of me

ANGEL

• I read Muliet as mullet and honestly? Same thing • “I think the truth is that everyone in the entire world is confused and nobody knows much of anything at all.” Angel speaking the goddamn truth. If I've never heard a more accurate statement. • Oh god Angel has balls I'd never be able to tell someone that I think someone they like's annoying • Oh is Juliet moving away from home...is that why she feels uncomfortable talking about parents? Did something blow up for her? • Ah Angel is a big name fan account. Why am I not surprised? • J2O my drink. My go to. My one true friend. • Omg is it Bliss? Why is Bliss there? • IT IS BLISS! • I love Bliss. It's been like 2 paragraphs but I love her! • "The world's a bit shit. Can't save it all at once." • “I learn that Bliss is bisexual. She says it with such extreme confidence that I'm suddenly jealous." Angel I relate. If it ain't me. • I wonder who your boyfriend’s best friend is Bliss.... • Well shit man... Angel sweetie how can you not believe love exists if Jowan isn't real? If only you knew you were saying this to Rowan's gf • Yeah it's ironic...it's not like it's actually Rowan or anything... • Omg Mac. Dude. • I can't believe they just left without her. Well, actually I can. • Alice is so good at writing nuanced sad moments. Like you ache for the characters and it's not even like they're balling their eyes out. Their feelings are just so real and shown in such simple ways.

JIMMY

• I love the transition with the flickering lights on both sides. Jimmy's grandad sounds ace and their apartment sounds lit! • ffs Lister. I couldn't live with him • Okay I need to state my love for Bliss again • Aw no my babes. Mummy and daddy are arguing. How dare fame ruin their relationship • Oh a cute X factor winner. Intriguing • Okay never mind he can get to fuck. Piss the hell away forever Magnet • Ooh Lister and Jimmy tension. Don't fight my boys. And I really wanna know what's up with Lister. • Honestly Jimmy is me if I ever became famous. Which is why I don't want to be. I could never handle it • I love Piero with all my heart • Ohmygod Jimmy my baby imma cry

WEDNESDAY

ANGEL

• Wow Tuesday was a long day. Never mind the rest of them. I'd be collapsing by now • Fuck. No. It wasn't her! No Bliss don't think it was Angel. Oh god poor Bliss. Who leaked it? I'll bloody get em. Is it someone in there life that has access to photos that's leaking them or something?

JIMMY

• Don't take this out on Lister! • Dave can actually die. I'll kill him yet again • Why must my boys hurt like this? Give them happiness goddammit!! • Screw getting big in America that contract sounds awful

ANGEL

• Yes Angel help the poor girl. I know it's a terrible circumstance but I'm happy they'll see each other again

JIMMY

• My boys no. In pain. No. Stop treating Lister as such a third wheel you don't notice him. Stop it all. Happiness only please

ANGEL

• "I will try to remain between you and the group of scary men at all times. Most of them are shorter than me. And I'm wearing heavy boots. If they get near us, I'll just kick. Like a giraffe." • Bliss and Angel? The ultimate friendship • Yasssssss @woman tripping the paps

JIMMY

• B99 mention number 3 • Ah yes some Jimmy and Lister quality bonding time. This is what I needed • "At once?" OMG I died haha. • “Druggie bisexual slut.” • The extremely famous girl band member is someone from Little Mix I bet • Does Lister like Jimmy? All these signs. I thought I was being tricked but does he? • A 32 year old woman? Fuck that's awful • Aw lister baby no :(

ANGEL

• “Is the word you're looking for "gay? It ain't poisonous.” • Did I mention I love bliss? Her every line is iconic • Mac’s been booted

JIMMY

• B99 again • Jimmy just stand outside in the rain don't go on a walk. Please be okay. Oh god • All the adorable old people in this book. They're so pure • This is so sad. My heart is aching

THURSDAY

JIMMY

• Jimmy and Angel are gonna meet! They're gonna meet!!!! I’m kinda scared about what will happen. • #LetListerWearTheBinbag2K18 • I want Jimmy's clothes. All of the things he just mentioned? I want • Yes Rowan fuck it up with that dress!! • I love the cape moment. My boy • How can you forget your birthday Jimmy? Ah • Oh I love the boys being happy and having fun and being...boys. Yes you dance to the Killers

ANGEL

• Love isn't a lie Angel!!!

JIMMY

• Why Lister whyyy • Lister does like Jimmy! Oh jesus. So much drama. I want Jimmy to like him back. I want there to be happiness. Don't kiss him while you're in the bathroom and drunk Lister! Oh god. Fuck

ANGEL

• Something bad has happened with Juliet and probably her parents. Why don't you see that Angel? • Piss off Mac. He has a point but I still wanna punch him • Jesus so much drama. Poor Juliet. Poor everyone. Why can't they have a second of a break?

JIMMY

• I'm nervous now. What's going to happen? Something big probably is going to happen when Angel and Jimmy meet or idk

ANGEL

• WTF WTF WTF WHAT HAPPENED TO ROWAN? WTF

JIMMY

• Someone threw a brick? What? Oh Jesus no! That girl can go to hell! Fuck. How did she even manage to get away with having a brick with her?? • Make this stop. Make this stop • Cecily! Save them! • They're meeting this is it. • Oh god • She's not going to hurt you Jimmy!

ANGEL

• Ah no • Don't be scared of each other • By god I think she's got it! Yes a panic attack Angel! A panic attack. Help him please • First Bliss and now Jimmy. Angel really is the saviour • Fuck man that was one hell of a meeting

JIMMY

• Your fans aren't monsters guys. I mean some of them are but they're real people just like you. Of course they'd help you in that situation

ANGEL

• Why can't my boys and my girls all just have happiness? Give them happiness goddammit. At least some peace • My,,,heart,,,Is,,,aching

FRIDAY

ANGEL

• All the emotions in this book are so real. I feel them in my gut • No Angel don't leave this way! • Mac. It's Mac. Time for a heart to heart • Juliet my girl my gal she deserves better. I want to hug her. I can't believe some parents can just do stuff like that. • She did take the knife! This is how they'll meet again though. The knife will bring them together

JIMMY

• They never have time my boys. They need to talk to Lister about his relationship with alcohol. Rowan deserves a relationship not affected so deeply by fame. Jimmy deserves so so much and it's not getting more anxious. They need to not sign the new contract • Rain rain so much rain • Jimmy that probably isn't a good idea..... but y'know what! Run. Go.

ANGEL

• Yes Angel you choose Juliet! • Or y'know Jimmy can message you... • Angel you be his bodyguard!!!!!

JIMMY

• He asked her to stay. Oh my babies. They're going to see Piero together ;_; • I love seeing Angel from Jimmy's perspective so much

ANGEL

• This whole section I just my heart is swelling • His grandma was called Joan. I'm going to cry • Piero my man I love him. He's adorable • Piero is wise. Piero speaks the truth. Jimmy and Angel both need to sort their shit out my babes

JIMMY

• No Jimmy please don't leave the ark just get a better contract. Idk. Ah this is so sad.

SATURDAY

ANGEL

• It's the boys. "I've got a bone to pick with you." Lol. Angry • This is certainly one way to meet your favourite band your obsessed with

JIMMY

• Jimmy noooooo • This isn't Angels fault Rowan. Just because she's a fictional protagonist so ends up in all these wild situations. • That's right Piero you tell em

ANGEL

• Angel you really gotta stop leaving without telling people • Yes Angel talk to your mummy. Is every interaction in this book going to split open my heart? • I wanna hug Angel so badly. I wanna hug them all • Statement of my love for Bliss again

JIMMY

• They're jamming like they used to. I'm going to cry. I never cry at books but I think I'm going to cry. • Why are they all so broken? Why do they have to break up? My heart it can't take this • Juliet is coming. The gang will be complete

ANGEL

• "I'm going to need another glass of milk" • Yes you definitely should care about yourselves more

JIMMY

• NO don't fight and leave NO • I'm going to need this fighting and hurt to stop now please. Time for happiness. Chip chop • Exactly don't let them leave Piero. It needs to be bloody resolved • Goddammit Lister. Just. Goddammit • Lister definitely has the knife doesn't he? • I'm so sad and there's not much left. This better get resolved enough for me to be smiling by the end or help me god

ANGEL

• Where's Lister? Jesus it just keeps coming. This needs to stop • Yes Juliet you snap at your idol. Don't take any shit girl

JIMMY

• Why do Angel and Jimmy both think everything is there fault. Stop it. Just. Ugh. My babies no • This weather is dramatic • Oh fuck. Oh no. Lister!!!! No. Why ah my heart no fuck no. Why the hELL would you do this to him? Why write this? Ahhhh • What the fu k? What the FUCK? WHY?

SUNDAY

ANGEL

• Yes yes yes. Angel would make a great band manager • I want Angel and Jimmy to stay in touch. I love their photos. I love these characters. It's nearly over and I'm not ready

JIMMY

• Yes guys you do whatever you want! Fuck the contract! Live your life! Be the band you're meant to be! I love them so much and yeah they're all a right much of weirdos • And I'm finished. My heart has gone through so much. I love all these characters. I want more of them. I don't want it to be over

damn that was a good book! @chronicintrovert well done!!

[choisgirls]

OMG I LOVE YPUR BLOG YOUR DOING AMAZING 💖💖 I wanted to do a headcanon of the rfa +v+saeran + vanderwood reacting to MC being pregnant with quadruplets (Like they knew she was pregnant but went to the ultrasound or something idk work your magic) sorry if this is to much to ask for lolol but you can write it however you want Thanks 💖🌈

A/N: I will try towork some magic my friend~ after all, it does include the sacred number 4 *winkwonk wink wonk* ^^ (also thank you thank you omfg im trying ;u;) ~Admin 404

*YOOSUNG:

               -When you told him the two ofyou were going to have a baby he was already t h r o u g h t h e r o o f

               -So!!! Excited!!! To start afamily with you!

               -He was extremely nervous to gowith you to the ultrasound, though. Sure he knew he was going to be a father,but it didn’t…. /hit/ him until then.

               -There is a living being insideof you that is half him and half you… it’s living, heartbeat and all

               -And he was!! About to see it!!Still inside you!!!! This was so different than ones he’s had to perform onsome animals before…

               -Ready to see his first son (ordaughter!!! He’s excited either way!!), he holds your hand and watches thescreen with you

               -“Oh! It does look like acats ultrasound, they’re really similar!”

               -You have to tell him that itisn’t supposed to look like that. Cue the panicked look at the doctor and theintense squeezing of your hand

               -When the doctor explained thatthere were four babies in there he… well he burst into a gross sob. You hadto try and calm him down while simultaneously laughing at how adorable he was

               -Four babies!!! He’s about tohave four babies with you!!!! He was so excited to have you, his work, and nowhis babies, he couldn’t believe it! At one point he was so concerned and lostabout his life but now he’s got it all!

*ZEN:

               -“And the doctor’s going totell us if we have a prince or a princess, right??”

               -“Yes Zen, if we want toknow the doctor will tell us”

               -Literally told everyone at hiscurrent rehearsal that he had to leave early because there was going to be arevealing in the kingdom and as king, he needed to attend

               -He was almost bouncing off thewalls waiting for the doctor to come into the room

               -Turned away from the monitorbecause he was so nervous! /But you were the one who was extremely ready Zen,wtf man/

               -“JUST TELL ME IF ITSHEALTHY FIRST, I NEED TO KNOW IF MY BABY IS HEALTHY” okay Zen stopshouting

               -The doctor turned the sound onthe monitor up, commenting on the babies strong heartbeat…. but then theymoved to another.

               -And another… and another.

               -He whipped around so fast it’sa surprise he didn’t get whiplash. Four heartbeats??? Four of them??? But.. butthat would mean… four.. babies??

               -As excited as he was, he alsohad to be dramatic enough to match. With his foot up on the chair and hisfinger pointed triumphantly to the sky, he announced that the kingdom shallreign supreme and his army of beautiful babies will run a fantastic kingdom!You had to interrupt his rambling to remind him that the two of you were in adoctor’s office, not the stage

*JAEHEE:

               -The two of you decided that youwould get inseminated, and Jaehee was extremely cautious of you the whole time

               -/So/ many doctors appointments,so little time

               -The two of you were excited themoment you found out you were pregnant, but that is also exactly when Jaehee’sAnxiety™ kicked in

               -So you guys were going to anultrasound appointment to check on your baby!

               -She had read too many articlesand stories on the internet of false positives and now she was just extremelyparanoid no matter how many times you’ve tried to calm her down and no matterhow many positive pregnancy tests you’ve taken

               -“I know you’re nervous MC,but it’s okay, I am too!” She tried to calm you, though she was the onevisibly nervous

               -Watching the monitor intensely,she noticed it looked /nothing/ like the ones she had researched online.

               -Oh no, what if something’swrong? What if you’re in danger? What if-

               -“Congratulations! All ofyour babies seem to be happy and healthy!” “I-I’m sorry. All? Of ourbabies?”  

               -The minute the word“quadruplets” left the doctors mouth, Jaehee is practically sobbing-happy tears of course! After all of the stress you had been put over trying toget pregnant in the first place, now you were going to have not one, but FOURof the precious angels!!

*JUMIN:

               -EVERYBODY GET OUT OF HIS WAY HEIS ABOUT TO GO SEE HIS BABY ON A TINY MONITOR

               -Probably the type to get one ofthose fancy 3D rendered ultrasounds

               -HE WANTS THE TWO OF YOU TOCLEARLY SEE THE BABY BECAUSE HE CANNOT EXPRESS HOW IN LOVE HE IS WITH THE BOTHOF YOU, OKAY?

               -But he made a mistake. When thedoctor pulled up the image it just looked like a monstrous… blob? What isthis? Does his child actually like this?

               -Doesn’t hesitate to ask thedoctor just what the fuck was up??? Are you pranking him??? Don’t do that????

               -The doctor is pointing out andexplaining where the head, hands, and feet were- which he could see after someexplanation!

               -But the doctor… kept pointingout more heads.. and hands… and feet…

               -“Are these just differentangles? Is that what we’re seeing here?” “Um, no Mr. Han. You’reseeing all 4 of your children”

               -If you thought Jumin Han couldbe Cool Calm and Collected™ during this, you are wrong. Did his deep, silkyvoice raise about 6 octaves? Yes. Did it break like he was going throughpuberty? Also yes

               -There are four, count ‘em, FOURbabies for him to spoil!!! He can!!! Spoil them so much!!! And give them allthe love and attention he’s wanted as a kid! Did he cry when he held you afterthis information? You can bet on it

*SAEYOUNG:

               -He was already!!! Super excitedto start a family with you!!!

               -So he was practically jumpingup and down, ready to see his baBY!

               -He’s so extra, he had to carryyou into the doctor’s office

               -“I am not letting themother of my child so any sort of work, got it????”

               -If you try to protest, he givesyou a kiss on the forehead and gets really serious with you, “MC. You’rethe love of my life and you have brought me down to earth. Let me spoil you andour baby, alright?”

               -He was recording the ultrasoundfor everyone in the group chat because he is just!!! So excited!! To show theworld his family!!!!

               -Zooming into the monitor, hegiggles as the doctor points out a head… and another head… and anotherone…. and.. another one

               -The ending of the video is theview turning from the monitor to the ceiling as a loud thud can be heard as hehits the ground

               -You and the doctor have to pickhim back up and fan him off since he fainted at the sight of four babies

               -That’s like!!! 2 sets oftwins!!! MC!!! He would have been ecstatic for one child, but you’re giving him/four/??? /FOUR/ of them??? He never expected this kind of happiness anddefinitely not this big of a family, but he was so in love with each and everyone of you!

*DADDV:

               -You are his love and he isready for a family!

               -He was a little afraid, ofcourse, but all his fears were thrown out of the window the moment you kissedhis cheek and told him about the ultrasound

               -Brought his camera to recordthe genuine reactions to the ultrasound!

               -Thought that your face would bethe one that was video worthy, but he was w r o n g

               -Turned the camera to selfiemode to get the both of you in it and watched as the doctor turned on themonitor

               -Laughed at your  face once the cold gel was put on yourstomach though, the light smack to this shoulder was worth it- you were socute!

               -The smile on both of your faceswas definitely screenshot worthy, he’d have to remember to do that later so hecould print it out for the baby book!

               -But apparently he’d have toprint… four of them…. He watched as the doctor pointed out all four babieswere happy and healthy and his smile dropped to make room for the completeshock to take over his face

               -All you could do was laugh atthe sudden change! You pulled him in for a kiss to snap him out of it

               -Four babies, he couldn’tbelieve it! MC, can you imagine the baby photos?? How amazing family portraitswere going to be??? How much fun the photography trips were going to be fromnow on!!

*SAERAN:

               -The moment you told him he wasgoing to be a father he panicked

               -Since then, he had gotten nextto no sleep, and constantly had break downs

               -He couldn’t be a father?? Whatif he hurts the baby? It’s bad enough he’s terrified about hurting you!!

               -This… thing… is going to betiny and depend on him for basic life things and he doesn’t know if he’s readyfor it!!!

               -Cries many nights, telling youthat he doesn’t deserve you nor a child and it just breaks your heart topieces???

               -Maybe taking him to actuallysee his baby will help!

               -So you drag him along to theultrasound. He just sits in silence and holds your hand the entire time becausehe’s terrified to let go

               -His eyes are practically gluedshut when the doctor turns on the monitor. He isn’t ready. He doesn’t want to see.There’s going to be a human in there that is half you and half him. The halfthat comes from you is sure to be an angel but the half from him? Not as likely

               -One eye cracks open after wordsof encouragement from both you and the doctor, and on the screen he sees notone, but four little humans inside you. Tears pour out of his eyes without himeven realizing it- he can’t look away from the screen

               -There were four babies, four ofthem! He didn’t think he deserved even /one/ but… the both of you were blessedwith /four/ of them… maybe… maybe this was a sign? Maybe it was a sign thathe truly was ready.. that someone, somewhere, thought that he could be a goodfather. With your help, he thought, maybe it was actually possible

Masterlist

[love-someone-special]

92 Truths

I was tagged by my lovely friend and beta @nicolouis-flamelinson

LAST

Drink: Gin and Tonic (it’s Christmas, lemme live)

Phone call: My cousin called me from upstairs with a baking emergency (it was not an emergency, I got out of bed for nothing.)

Song you listened to: How to Make Gravy by Paul Kelly. A masterpiece. A Christmas masterpiece.

Time you cried: I cried like three mornings ago whislt listening to niall horan on the couch. Rough hangover. Some bad life decisions. Mourning my innocence. The usual.

HAVE YOU EVER

Dated someone twice: No, I have not! No one’s ever wanted to date me once let alone twice, so. Natural selection?

Been cheated on: Nope. Probably will tho, so I’ll let you know. I might start an update blog on it.

Kissed someone and regretted it: Yes? I mean, sort of? I couldn’t figure out if I regretted it or not. Hence the crying on the couch the other day.

Lost someone special: Yes, and no. Because no one you lose is ever special enough if they didn’t stay. (except for my grandpa. He was the specialest.)

Been depressed: As in, depression? No. Do I have sad days? Regularly.

Been drunk and thrown up: No! I can proudly say no. I have drank. I have thrown up. But neither of those things were caused by the other.

IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU

Made a new friend: yes! Yes I have! And I love them all dearly!

Fallen out of love: Honey I haven’t even managed to fall in love yet how do you expect me to fall out of her?

Laughed until you cried: that “never have I ever” video with the boys on the jonathan ross show? You know the one? Kills me. Also, the gif of harry falling like a cartoon character across the whole stage. Gets me every time.

Met someone who changed you: I’ve changed every day of my life for one reason or another. But yes, is the short answer. Many.

Found out who your true friends are: Every year. Without fail. It’s like spring cleaning, but it also helps you clean out your photo albums. And contacts.

Found out someone was talking about you: Yeah the other day my mum was telling some other mum about how I was at the same school as their kid. I was pissed. Mum and I don’t talk any more.

GENERAL

How many people on Tumblr do you know in real life: none? Soz.

Do you have any pets?: I have my beautiful beautiful beautiful golden retriever who has my whole heart forever and I love her.

Do you want to change your name?: I’m getting a middle name! One day! Soon! Hopefully!

What time did you wake up this morning?: 9.03am I can’t even sleep in properly anymore I’m ruined.

What were you doing last night?: Spending the evening with my beautiful family, and fic writing.

Name something you cannot wait for: Louis Tomlinson’s album. One direction reunion tour.

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: I have. Multiple. They’re (mostly) all brilliant and lovely.

What’s getting on your nerves right now?: when people leave wet towels on the bathroom floor. I’m about to move OUT because of this shit.

Blood type: this is a thing? Like people just, know this? I honestly could not tell you for the life of me. I think my bloods red though, if that helps?

Nickname: undefined. Unrevealed. Will share one day perhaps.

Relationship status: if you don’t know I don’t know., life’s tough.

Zodiac: Gemini (Imma twin and I act like it)

Pronouns: She/her

Favorite show: Brooklyn Nine Nine and Friends. And the Gilmore Girls.

College: yea college exists. Am I there yet? Not quite. Working on it. stop pressuring me.

Hair colour: I get told it’s like an ombre. I would mostly call it golden though.

Do you have a crush on someone?: yeah. I think. Perhaps? Maybe. Idk. Come back to me.

What do you like about yourself?: I have the rad ability to remember lyrics straight of the bat. I also love that I’m happy to be living. I Genuinely like to participate in life, which is something I like about myself, yes.

FIRSTS

Surgery: yah. Got an ovary removed. Have a super lovely scar (several actually). It was good fun.

Piercing: the regular on the ears. Considering cartilage tho. Anyone got any thoughts on that?

Sport you joined: ugh. Sports. I hate. But tee ball! Is that how you spell it? I don’t even know.

Vacation: I think I went to paris when I was like, one. first one that I can remember is probs England.

Pair of sneakers: the delightful converses. Wore them to pieces.

RIGHT NOW

Eating: nothing. So full from Christmas dinner. I ate wayyyy too much dessert.

Drinking: Water. Gotta stay hydrated bitches.

I’m about to: Continue fic writing gotta go gotta get the job done.

Listening to: the click of my keyboard and the sound of the ocean.

Want kids?: Yes. No doubt about it I want babies. Not just yet. But god do I want babies.

Get married?: Ofcourse. In fact, I plan to do it before I have the babies.

Career: currently I’m a student. Fun, right? But the dream career I want is to be a writer/publisher.

WHICH IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: Eyes (when they’re really blue or a beautiful brown or bright green or literally any type of eye I’m bound to fall in love with you) (tho don’t get me wrong a good pair of lips will have me tripping)

Hugs or kisses: Hugs. (the long ones where they really wrap you up and it’s all calm and lovely? Yeah, those ones.)

Shorter or taller: Shorter (that way you don’t have to bend down, less work.)

Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous (spontaneity can be romantic. Give me both)

Sensitive or loud: Both! At once! Give me the sensitive loud ones! Where my hufflepuffs at?!?!

Hook up or relationship: undecided. Depends on the person.

Troublemaker or hesitant: Troublemaker (more fun. Also, you get to blame everything on them)

HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed a stranger: No I haven’t. I seem to have made it a rule I only kiss people I’ve known for over five years. it’s been a problematic approach so far.

Drank hard liquor: yewwwwwwwww. Shots shots shots shots shots. Does this make me all cool and teen and rock chic? Hang on lemme grab the leather jacket my mum bought for me.

Lost contacts/glasses: Don’t wear em.

Sex on first date: I have not. I also would not. Obviously, sex is a prior to first date kinda thing.

Broken someone’s heart: yes. I didn’t mean to. And I’m still sorry.

Been arrested: can’t say I have. That’s one for the new years resolutions tho.

Turned someone down: ah. Yes. Regularly.

Fallen for a friend: ah. Yes. Regularly.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: sometimes. Generally it has to be before 3pm on a Tuesday. If not, chances are slim.

Miracles: Yes. I’ve held miracles in my arms (not to get like fake deep) so yes, I believe in them.

Love at first sight: No. not yet anyhow. If someone wants to change that belief, be my guest.

Heaven: As an atheist planning to take down the catholic church, I’m gonna have to say no purely because I know I wouldn’t get in.

Santa Claus: Don’t make me say it.

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