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sunless-not-sinless · 9 months

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shitGPT

for uni im going to be coding with a chatGPT user, so i decided to see how good it is at coding (sure ive heard it can code, but theres a massive difference between being able to code and being able to code well).

i will complain about a specific project i asked it to make and improve on under the cut, but i will copy my conclusion from the bottom of the post and paste it up here.

conclusion: it (mostly) writes code that works, but isnt great. but this is actually a pretty big problem imo. as more and more people are using this to learn how to code, or getting examples of functions, theyre going to be learning from pretty bad code. and then theres what im going to be experiencing, coding with someone who uses this tool. theres going to be easily improvable code that the quote unquote writer wont fully understand going into a codebase with my name of it - a codebase which we will need present for our degree. even though the code is not the main part of this project (well, the quality of the code at least. you need it to be able to run and thats about it) its still a shitty feeling having my name attached to code of this quality.

and also it is possible to get it to write good (readable, idiomatic, efficient enough) code, but only if you can write this code yourself (and are willing to spend more time arguing with the AI than you would writing the code.) most of the things i pointed out to the AI was stuff that someone using this as a learning resource wont know about. if it never gives you static methods, class methods, ABCs, coroutines, type hints, multi-file programs, etc without you explicitly asking for them then its use is limited at best. and people who think that its a tool that can take all the info they need, and give it back to them in a concise, readable way (which is a surprising lot of people) will be missing out without even knowing about it.

i got it to write tic-tac-toe (the standard babee) in python (the lang i have to use for uni ;-; (held at gunpoint here)). my specific prompt was "write me a python program for tictactoe that is written in an object oriented way and allows for future expansion via multiple files"

it separated it into three files below (which i think would run, but i never actually ran any of this code. just reading and judging)

why does board use display instead of __str__ and __repr__?

why is the board stored as 1d instead of 2d? thats just confusing

why does it never early return aside from check_winner? (not a big issue here but kept on choosing to never early return when i asked it to add more methods)

why is there no handling of non-number user inputs?

why are non-int inputs truncated instead of telling the user that they should input ints only?

why is display implemented like that?

why are so many lines so bloody long (wide)?

why is there a redundant self.check_winner() after the while loop in TicTaacToe.play()? and if it wasnt redundant then you could finish the game without there being anything printed telling you that the game is finished?

why is the only comment useless? (this comment wouldnt be useless if it was a doc comment tho, but it aint a doc comment. speaking of, why is there no doc comments?)

these are the more immediate things i saw, but there are other things that are bad here.

whenever i write * this is where it updated the api without changing any usage of the api.

so i ask it to change board.display into __str__ and __repr__, it changes it to __str__*, it does not add a __repr__. asking it to add a __repr__ 1) removes the __str__ and 2) gives me this (the other methods are unchanged)

what. the. fuck. this would imply that board takes in an argument for the boardstate, but it clearly doesnt. after 4 more asks it finally has both __str__ and __repr__, without fixing the fact its implying board takes an optional arg, so i get it to add this arg. anything that needs to print the board still calls display btw.

the reasoning it gave for using display over the repr and str magics was this

While using __str__ and __repr__ is a more idiomatic approach in Python, choosing to have a separate display method can still be a valid choice, especially if the display logic is more complex or if you want to keep the __str__ method for a more concise or formal representation of the object.

which, erm what? why would __str__ be for a concise or formal repr when thats what __repr__ is for? who cares about how complex the logic is. youre calling this every time you print, so move the logic into __str__. it makes no difference for the performance of the program (if you had a very expensive func that prints smth, and you dont want it to run every time you try to print the obj then its understandable to implement that alongside str and repr)

it also said the difference between __str__ and __repr__ every damn time, which if youre asking it to implement these magics then surely you already know the difference?

but okay, one issue down and that took what? 5-10 minutes? and it wouldve taken 1 minute tops to do it yourself?

okay next implementing a tic-tac-toe board as a 1d array is fine, but kinda weird when 2d arrays exist. this one is just personal preference though so i got it to change it to a 2d list*. it changed the init method to this

tumblr wont let me add alt text to this image so:

[begin ID: Python code that generates a 2D array using nested list comprehensions. end ID]

which works, but just use [[" "] * 3 for _ in range(3)]. the only advantage listcomps have here over multiplying is that they create new lists, instead of copying the pointers. but if you update a cell it will change that pointer. you only need listcomps for the outermost level.

again, this is mainly personal preference, nothing major. but it does show that chatgpt gives u sloppy code

(also if you notice it got rid of the board argument lol)

now i had to explicitly get it to change is_full and make_move. methods in the same damn class that would be changed by changing to a 2d array. this sorta shit should be done automatically lol

it changed make_move by taking row and col args, which is a shitty decision coz it asks for a pos 1-9, so anything that calls make_move would have to change this to a row and col. so i got it to make a func thatll do this for the board class

what i was hoping for: a static method that is called inside make_move

what i got: a standalone function that is not inside any class that isnt early exited

the fuck is this supposed to do if its never called?

so i had to tell it to put it in the class as a static method, and get it to call it. i had to tell it to call this function holy hell

like what is this?

i cant believe it wrote this method without ever calling it!

and - AND - theres this code here that WILL run when this file is imported

which, errrr, this files entire point is being imported innit. if youre going to have example usage check if __name__ = "__main__" and dont store vars as globals

now i finally asked it to update the other classes not that the api has changed (hoping it would change the implementation of make_move to use the static method.) (it didnt.)

Player.make_move is now defined recursively in a way that doesnt work. yippe! why not propagate the error ill never know.

also why is there so much shit in the try block? its not clear which part needs to be error checked and it also makes the prints go offscreen.

after getting it to fix the static method not being called, and the try block being overcrowded (not getting it to propagate the error yet) i got it to add type hints (if u coding python, add type hints. please. itll make me happy)

now for the next 5 asks it changed 0 code. nothing at all. regardless of what i asked it to do. fucks sake.

also look at this type hint

what

the

hell

this

why is it Optional[str]???????? the hell??? at no point is it anything but a char. either write it as Optional[list[list[char]]] or Optional[list[list]], either works fine. just - dont bloody do this

also does anything look wrong with this type hint?

a bloody optional when its not optional

so i got it to remove this optional. it sure as hell got rid of optional

it sure as hell got rid of optional

now i was just trying to make board.py more readable. its been maybe half an hour at this point? i just want to move on.

it did not want to write PEP 8 code, but oh well. fuck it we ball, its not like it again decided to stop changing any code

(i lied)

but anyway one file down two to go, they were more of the same so i eventually gave up (i wont say each and every issue i had with the code. you get the gist. yes a lot of it didnt work)

conclusion: as you probably saw, it (mostly) writes code that works, but isnt great. but this is actually a pretty big problem imo. as more and more people are using this to learn how to code, or getting examples of functions, theyre going to be learning from pretty bad code. and then theres what im going to be experiencing, coding with someone who uses this tool. theres going to be easily improvable code that the quote unquote writer wont fully understand going into a codebase with my name of it - a codebase which we will need present for our degree. even though the code is not the main part of this project (well, the quality of the code at least. you need it to be able to run and thats about it) its still a shitty feeling having my name attached to code of this quality.

#i speak i ramble #effortpost #long post #progblr #codeblr #python #chatgpt #tried to add IDs in as many alts as possible. some didnt let me and also its hard to decide what to put in the IDs for code.#like sometimes you need implementation details but others just the broad overview is good enough yknow?#and i also tried to write in a way where you dont need the IDs to follow along. (but with something like this it is hard yknow?)#id in alt #aside from that one where i got cockblocked #codeblocked?#codeblocked.

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stardustsomewhere · 28 days

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can we get a fruit cult saga recap :0

yes sorry it took me so long to reply!

my ex gf (lemon) got me into the cult because she was like oh theres this funny groupchat im in can you join so a few days after she joined i did. at first it was all really funny and sweet and any red flags seemed like ill timed jokes? like they had a groupchat called THE PIT they would send you too but it felt so silly i didnt notice it was weird.

anyways after a few weeks i suddenly checked the gc at work and saw they were egging my girlfriend on who was on the roof of her office building. for context shes deathly afraid of heights. they kept telling her to jump or to scream at people down below and call them slurs. i was sure it was a bad bit until she posted photos and then i left work to go get her. i found her in the stairwell having a panic attack and talking about the "angels" and how she was hearing voices and stuff. genuinely terrifying stuff

i was out of my element so i just called my mom and asked her what to do and she said hospital ASAP so i drove my gf there. they didnt really take her seriously but kept her for about 72 hours but when they released her she dumped all her medicine and refused to take it. i forced her to for a bit but she was still acting weird so i gave up and was planning on leaving

then one night i ate some mushrooms she had forged and went CRAZY and ran out the house. i didnt get too far before my body rejected it and i puked and passed out. my gf thankfully had enough sense to take me to the hospital and we both had to get our stomachs pumped (awful, do not suggest) turns out for a while she had been misidentifying mushrooms and i had avoided dishes with it in it cause i hate mushrooms and never noticed.

so it seemed like really good at this point! we were dedicated together to making sure nobody else got hurt and we were going to transition the group chat into a much safer version with everyone getting help and such. i wanted to stop apple from hurting herself and others. then apple demoted lemon from her stupid rank (top rank was ring) and lemon LOST HER MIND. she was so upset it was all she talked about

then she threw another member under the bus to get promoted again and started acting really distant and weird. we stopped talking about how we were going to help them see the truth and get out of all the brain washing and more about if we believe in the fruit god (im an atheist and she knows this. this is important to me as a physicist too plus religious trauma)

then is started getting sick and after a few days i started acting and doing erratic stuff. i was fully aware it wasnt normal and called off work for a few days to figure it out. i was about to go to the dr when someone told me to check me food on here and lo and behold, the mushrooms again. she had been putting it in my food ON PURPOSE THIS TIME

the next morning after sleeping the shrooms off as much as i could i opened my phone to see she decided our apartment was OPEN TO ANYONE IN THE CULT. she was having the leader come LIVE WITH US! i had been given no time to know let alone consent. i paid half the rent and most the bills (she helped in other ways dw it was very 50/50) and i was just so upset and scared that i just said its over. i took my cat and most my stuff (left my furniture, there was no hope of moving it) and just moved in with a friend. thank god she had a spare room for an office she was willing to rent to me.

bcs i left now everyone in the cults really mad at me so i honestly just got overwhelmed and shut my phone off. i dont wanna text them for a few days tbh. it was just too much. especially this one guy called fig, they were just always so mean to me it made me cry several times. they kept trying to find ways to hurt me, including some ableist stuff about how i should do drugs even if i medically cant. some of their friends (shrimp and plum) also went out of there way to attack me and try and physiologically torture me. i felt so bad i just shut my phone off

honestly at this point idk the benefit to trying to be anyones friend in this cult. idk why im even trying to help them. i feel used and abused. i feel VERY abused. i dont know. lifes hard

#lychee talks #fruit cult saga #tw breakup #tw poison

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reivun · 4 months

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@pretiumus said from this post:

I know this may seem like a lot to talk about already but I need more elaboration on this. If Raven Tail is like "Fairy Tail but Edge", what exactly do they do? Do they even get legalized? And how does Ivan react to public news about Makarov poofing for 7 years--

i really don't mind elaborating more bc i love yapping! i am on a bit of a time crunch though so i will try to answer this now.

pre-tenrou arc, they are kind of just .. vibing. there's nothing for them to do plot wise. not much was done with raven tail so i sort of have to fill in the gaps myself. i do think they take some jobs bc they have to generate money, but its more under the table type jobs. in my hc, i have raven tail in a pretty secluded area, but there are local villages/towns nearby and when they need magic help, they go to the closest guild which is raven tail.

as for the 7 year thing...yeah. i do think ivan just sort of... gave up for a bit. but now, people were looking at him as a leader and he couldn't just walk away from raven tail as a whole! the guild exists despite makarov being gone! so, they stuck around and continued doing those same types of lowkey and local jobs. keeping a pretty low public profile.

i think he was ... upset about makarov poofing. because it also wasn't just makaorv, laxus disappeared at the same time. and if someone is going to destroy makarov, it should be him! in his opinion, he's earned that right! he didn't think it was the end, either, because that's way to easy. but there wasnt anything he could really do.

i do think in this time, he fact checked what hades/precht told him about LH/Fairy Heart bc that would be a lot easier with makarov gone. so he probably snuck his way into the OG FT's basement after they left that place. canonically, he didnt do shit about it! he sat on that for the entire 7 years. and we know he Had to have known before pretcht died in x784.

i sort of hc that in the 7 years, he was working on himself a bit and on his guild. with his members being more diverse biologically, i'm sure there are different needs to be met so he threw himself into that sort of local work. he probably did some more research on magical items because that's something he does.

it's part of the reason why i have some aus with raven tail regarding this time, a personal favorite being raven tail being legitimized sooner in the timeskip and being a top guild in x791. i think that would be fun! i also now have some ocs that ive placed in raven tail so that there is more to work with there and to help establish some things bc once more, we got scraps in canon.

as for the legalization - well, they became legal a mere three or four months before the GMG bc fairy tail/makarov came back. i think that was the propelling force for ivan to finally act and he did in the gmg. he failed, but he also showed how powerful he was by literally tricking everyone so thats fun. but why didnt he do it sooner? i think he felt no need to act quickly bc makarov was an absent player for so long, he had time. but then he abruptly came back full throttle. as per flare's update, we know the guild was not disbanded but they were banned from participating in the gmg. in canon, she leaves the guild of her own accord. and then we dont hear shit from them again.

#pretiumus #i think i repeated myself a bit here bc i do have some hc posts for rt up #but i hope this helps elaborate more on what i was saying!#ooc: jackie #🕊: and so — the murder has come / raven tail #🕊: p: if only i knew then what i know now / makarov

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musubiki · 1 year

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im ngl noww that you say that you do art as a hobby, im just intrigued by how you are so confident and are able to have the free time to do it as a hobby...

i hope i didnt make a mistake taking art college ;; IM ROOTING FOR YOU TOO! its so luckily nowdays to have a job youre at least okay with but also have some really fun hobby on the side too

to one broke college student to another do u have any advice for future years? i ltrly just started college like 3 weeks ago

aaaa as far as time for the hobby goes, i actually only have that kinda time very recently (like over the summer and this semester).....if you noticed, i kinda dropped off for a year where i mustve only drawn like 10 things??? which is because last year was such a busy year for me in terms of work and courses...but this semester is better because im only in 3 classes: one doesnt have any exams and another im retaking (cuz i didnt pass the summer comp exam for it lol) so its all content ive seen before!! so this semester is a little easier and i can draw a bit more when i dont have homework or on the weekends!!!

as far as advice goes, (im not sure how art school works? or if youre in a normal university just majoring in art?) id say: take a lot of different classes to see what you like! explore different areas, and i think it might also be good to have like.....a contingency plan so to speak. like in my undergrad i got a minor in anthropology and almost got a certificate in accounting just so i had a little more options post-undergrad if the math major didnt work out!! so doing something like that is never a bad idea!!! (my undergrad program had a requirement to fulfill a certain amount of credits outside your major courses, so i used those to explore different things)

also dont be afraid to change if you feel you dont like your current path.....like i mentioned i was an astronomy major in undergrad first, and had wanted to go into astronomy since i was a kid, but found eventually it wasnt for me (i couldnt cut it in physics) and switched to something i wasnt SUPER passionate about, but i was good at it!! which was a huge decision for me and lowkey pretty risky (the fuck do you do with a math major?? everyone i asked they just replied "Oh you can do lots of things!" and never gave me an actual job title)

try to do summer internships if you can! as long as its financially feasible for you, itll make your resume a lot beefier when you graduate if employers/grad school see that you already have several experiences under your belt (and experience compounds on itself-- the more you have the more likely you are to get more!! for example here in my program, if you have more stats and coding experience coming in youre more likely to get more stats/coding assistantships, so you gain even more experience over the person who had no stats/coding experience prior and as a result got sent to be a TA or something. so the person who already had experience gets more experience and the person who didnt falls even further behind :') (me) )

networking is also important!!! since youre just in undergrad, i would recommend starting by talking to professors when you can. doesnt need to be like, going out of your way to go to their office hours and talk stories, but maybe chat a bit before/after class!! ask them how their weekend went, ask a dumb clarifying question!! i got to my current grad program because my professor came to me before class one day and said "I have a friend from [my current program] coming to recruit, you should go meet him." so be friendly with your professors so they get to know you and will pass on opportunities when they hear about them!!

a lot of professors get emails from all kinds of jobs/programs to the effect of "[place] is looking to recuit/hire" and they can pass those your way if youre on their radar!! and lastly work hard!!

(anyway this is advice i have based on my own experiences and what worked for me, it will most likely be different for you!! stay on top of your studies, but also force yourself to rest every so often!! I personally do not do any work on saterdays and try not to on sundays!! so i feel okay working hard the other nights of the week so i have two full days of rest....sacrifice your work-week free time for grades :') sometimes the best thing for your mental health is just getting the thing you dont wanna do out of the way!! good luck in uni!!!)

#college for everyone else is gonna be a little different than college for me #i was fortunate enough to get a lot of locally-based scholarships that took care of me so i didnt need to work while studying #but i know a lot of people do and thats fucking tough #i also wasnt in a lot of clubs etc #because my scholarship program would organize a lot of our events #and besides studying i didnt have time for any of that lol #stay on top of your studies for real.....#put down that pokemon game and go re-read the lecture content you learned today (pro tip)#yeah dont work 24/7 without rest if you can avoid it #burnout isnt fun and honestly i still havent figured out a way to avoid it #sometimes its inevitable and you just gotta push through #punch studies in the face

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floridensis · 2 years

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a couple years ago my inaturalist friend sent me a huge list of birds that hadnt yet been observed on inaturalist in my county but should be there and gave me the mission to observe as many of them as possible that migration season so there would finally be records

i had never fixated so hard on warblers in my life and dont think i ever will again. but i was killing it. so many birds i was the first to post in the county. so one day my aunts took my sister and i out to see a show and afterward i was like hey we are super close to this cemetery that for whatever reason is like a locally famous birding spot and im on a quest so can we stop there? and theyre like yeah we love cemeteries we would love to go

they had fun walking the grounds, found some famous people. i was having a great time with those tiny birds. i got one i knew for sure was on my list but was not aware that someone beat me to the day before, oh well! eventually we decide to wrap it up and go home, when i walk under a tree and hear a loud rustling above. i look up and see something absolutely massive up there. it took me a while to process - raccoon?? bird??? what??? and when i did i lost my fucking mind. it was a white crowned pigeon, which does not (currently) live this far north. theyre incredibly beautiful birds, ive longed to see one, but in florida are only really in the keys and miami and even then are pretty rare from my understanding. this bird was a total fluke and i just happened to by total chance have been at the exact right place at the exact right time to see it. i could have cried.

that wasnt one of the birds my friend expected me to get as a first county record, but holy shit no other bird i got during that season could possibly top that one. and it was indeed a first inaturalist record for the county! my quest was successful in ways i could not have possibly predicted

i cannot tell you how long i was running off of that excitement

i also had no idea how fucking huge they were. i thought it would be the size of a common pigeon

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4shfur · 3 years

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alitm was such a book idk if i can fit all my thoughts into one post im on mobile and it wont let me put the little red more things so this is your warning, i have the post tagged but still, be warned there are major spoilers for alitm

anyways i loved alitm this may not be a popular opinion but i thought it was amazing and a perfect end to the series. it fucking broke me oh my god. on one hand it was amazing writing and i loved it ON THE OTHER HAND WHY DID THEY HAVE TO MAKE IT THAT SAD.

bristlefrost im so sorry i ever said anything bad aboutyou you are the paragon of perfection, the best cat in the whole world and i hope they name 50 cats after you.

i want to imagine bristlefrosts death ended up sort of like the epilogue of firewing. she wont be in starclan but shes still there in spirit and shes always watching over the clans. i am 100% sure she knew that rootspring was willing to chabge clans for her, i think they both did and GODAMNIT THEY SHOULD HAVE BEEN HAPPY AND HAD KITS. i have cried 5 times since i read it. her death scene was beautiful, so poetic and i loved it and i hated it. BUT THEY KEPT ON PILING ON THE GRIEF. its tearing me to shreds to think tht shes not even in starclan, she gave up her life, her spirit, and her future with rooyspring to save the clans and for that she has earned a place in my favorite warriors cats.

shadowsight also was great this book, im so happy about how everything was tied up at the end, i was worried the erins wouldnt do it but i thought it was great and im so glad shdowisght can just move on.

graystripes death was sad but also im so glad he gets to be with his family again, he and firestar were so gay this book. speaking of firestar im so glad they brought back his personality from the first arc. he kicked darkstripes ass and he kicked it good. im so glad they brought back how his main perosnality traits were 1. loved violence and 2. really fucking petty and nosy

also i am convinced. I AM CONVINCED. that the scene at the end where rootspring tries to reach bristlefrost and sees the image of them under a willow tree? and with their kits? and runjing through the forest? thats bristlefrost. it has to be. it cant just be a coincidence that she also imagined them under a willow tree, and with three kits, and running through the forest. it cannot be.

im sorta disappointed that snowtuft didnt get a proper death scene, but it was cool that we got to see other dark forest cats. i thought ashfur was a really great villain still, and i LOVED the scene where needletsil and violetshine beat the shit out of darktail. he totally deserved it.

im sad squirrelflight wasnt in the final battle though. the speech graystripe gave from her was great but also i think she shoulve given it herself.

im so happy theyre changing the code, its long overdue. i think the lesson of this book is that bristlefrost is the best and everyone should love her. she should have been on the cover. bramblestar barely even showed up

i loved her sacfrifice, it really was worth it and it was beautifully written, but also im getting way to worked up over this and im fucking miserable that shell never gt to see that it was her who saved the clans, it was her determination that inspired dark forest cats to fight on their side, and it was her loved with rootspring that encouraged them to change the code. shes so wonderful and i loved her so much. bristleforts is the only warrior cat ever.

over all 12/10 just for bristlefrost. i might follow up on this post

#alitm spoilers #alitm #a light in the mist #oh god #warriors #warrior cats #wc #shadowsight #bristlefrost #rootspring #violetshine #needletail #darktail #snowtuft #bramblestar #squirrelflight #ashfur

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visionsofteyvat · 2 years

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"But if the day ever came where he brought ruin to order..."

The past Geo Archon would not always be there to watch over the people of Liyue. He knew that. He made sure others knew as well.

This shows a father and son relationship between Zhongli and Xiao. If you ship them romantically then this post is not for you.

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"Something is wrong?" Xiao asked the figure before him, his knees digging into the wood beneath them, but despite the faint pain he kept his gaze locked on the back of the man that changed his life for the better. Even if he was in near constant turmoil from the darkness that never truly left him.

"Stand up, Xiao. Come sit and have tea with me." Zhongli turned to face him, offering Xiao a smile that made the Adeptus widen his eyes before quickly pulling his feet under himself. Despite the calm and collected demeanor his leader had worn for more than just a few centuries, Xiao couldn't shake the feeling that something was wrong. It was making him uneasy, and his eyes flit across their surroundings as he followed Zhongli to what he assumed was the God's room.

It felt weird, just spending time with Rex Lapis like before the time of Archons and the seven nations. Xiao didn't mind it too much though, even if he was on edge, he would never overlook the opportunity to spend time with Zhongli given there was no important matters to deal with.

Zhongli motioned for Xiao to take a seat at the small table that housed two cups of steaming tea, before he himself sank into one of the seats. Xiao did not miss how for a split second, a look of pain had crossed his features.

"What is wrong, please tell me." There was a hint of desperation in his voice, because Xiao couldn't lose Rex as well. Of course, he would still look after Liyue because Zhongli's death did not mean their contract was null, but he didn't know how much more he could take. He'd lost so much, so many, the Illuminated Being before him could not join the faded out faces of those who haunted him should he ever find himself drifting off to sleep. To wake up and search for him, only to remember he no longer walked this land, Xiao did not know if he could take it.

Zhongli took his cup into his gloved hands, lightly blowing on the steaming liquid before taking a long sip. Thinking of the best way to word his dilemma. Xiao watched him eagerly, brows furrowed in worry, and it wasnt until his cup was sat back on the small plate and he took in a small breath to begin speaking did the Adeptus across from him take a small breath as well.

"Erosion."

"...what?"

Zhongli paused, because that surely wasn't the way he had wanted to break the news.

"My memories are fading. Sometimes it gets harder to hide my identity whenever I get into confrontations, harder to pull my attacks, harder to control the suppressed side of myself." Zhongli watched Xiao's expressions carefully. Xiao looked at him with a heavy sense of dread coming over his face like a storm cloud, eyes scanning his face for any potential tell-tale sign that this was just some sick joke that Gods have that Xiao didn't know of.

"It could only be erosion that makes me feel the sort. The day was destined to come eventual-"

"But I have heard no word of any of the other Archons going through it?" Xiao cut him off, ignoring the chill that went down his spine at the thought that he'd ever do such a thing. Even if the look Rex Lapis gave him was not angry in any sort, just...sad.

"And for that I am grateful. I hope that they have many more years before the effects ever start to make themselves known. I, also, am no longer an Archon." Zhongli sighed, gaze falling to trace the lines of the wood within the table for but a moment before looking back at Xiao. "I know you don't want to believe it."

"I don't."

"But you will have to."

"I know."

Xiao blinked a few times, reigning in his emotions so he could think rationally. "What would you like me to tell the others?"

"Should the day come where I pose a threat, you shall not hold back. The Adeptus' priority is to protect Liyue. Even if it means having my head." Zhongli stated, taking another sip of tea as if he hadn't just reached his hand into Xiao's chest and yanked out his beating heart. Slowly crushing it beneath the weight of what he was asking.

Xiao could not disobey though, how could he? The contract was set in stone, and his job was always to protect Liyue. Though it couldn't help to try. "Is there anything I-we can do? To..to slow the process?" He could feel the color draining from his face, just the thought of killing him had the younger feel sick.

"No."

"There has to be-"

"There isn't."

"But father-"

Xiao paused, quickly averting his gaze and blinking back the stinging in his eyes. Zhongli was silent, and that only made his breaking heart crack further. What if Rex had already forgotten who he was to Xiao? Would this be a sign of disrespect? Or-

He felt arms wrap around his shoulders, a gloved hand wiping across his tear-stained cheeks. "I know I'm asking a lot, my son. But it is necessary, and I apologize that you are a part of the process."

Xiao buried his face into the many layers of Zhongli's intricate outfit, pressing his head against his chest, listening intently to his heartbeat like he used to do so often when he was just a boy. It calmed him. Quelled his fear. Left him feeling protected and ready for whatever was to come.

But he wasn't ready this time. The beating of Zhongli's heart only made him cry more, because that meant a day would come where he would no longer hear it. And that day would come sooner than he ever would've hoped.

-D

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#genshin impact angst #xiao angst #zhongli angst #genshin impact drabbles #is this fanfiction?

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reniscribbles · 2 years

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Unlikely Friends

Rick x Diane

Rick and Morty

Summary:

SLAM went the screendoor, Rick gagged on his smoke looking immediately to see what caused this disruption. There was a girl.

Why is this pretty blonde girl crying? At a high school party, no less.

So begins this story of how Rick Sanchez and his future wife became unlikely friends. Diane is a gorgeous popular girl, while Rick is lost on his own world. He's not interested in a typical high school lifestyle, but he might after meeting Diane. Diane feels betrayed by her friends especially when a particular picture of her is being passed around, but she is ever grateful for that night with Rick. Senior year definitely will be different for both Rick and Diane.

SIDENOTE: this is chapter 1, chapter 2 is currently in progress. Follow my insta @ReniScribbles for scenes of this fanfic. Photos will also be posted here on my tumblr. Unlikely Friends is also posted on Ao3. Please comment and let me know what you think!

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CHAPTER 1: The Box

The Screendoor slammed behind Rick as he lit his cigarette, muffling the commotion of the party.

The weather was brisk with the new fall air. This was the last weekend before school started. The party was ringing with past summer adventures and memories. Rick took another drag of his cigarette.

The cold air exaggerated his exhale. He began to question why he even came to this party. There was so much more he should be doing. He gazed at the sky, thinking of his latest project. Every equation came up wrong, and he couldn't quite understand what was incorrect. Honestly, being wrong was not something he was use to.

Still trapped in his head staring at the twinkling stars, he took a long drag.

SLAM went the screendoor, Rick gagged on his smoke looking immediately to see what caused this disruption.

There was a girl, her back was turned leaning on the railing on the opposite side of the deck. He could slightly see her face. She began wiping her face, like she had been excessively crying. He couldn't tell if she knew if he was there. He took another inhale, before letting out a breathy, "Are you ok?"

The girl jumped, he watched as her hair blonde curls bounce as she turned quickly to face him. He gave a little chuckle at her reaction, "sorry, I wasnt sure if you knew I was out here." He said stepping out of the shadow he was in.

She had definitely been crying, her eyes were pink and slightly puffy. Rick recognized her from a few of his classes throughout high school.

Maddi? Sally? Nah, Sally was one of the girls she hangs out with. Diane.

Its Diane.

"Diane, right?" He said, offering over his pack of cigarettes. "Smoke?" He asked, everyone in his friends circle smoked, he was use to people bumming cigarettes from each other all day.

She looked at the pack, then back at him.

"Cigarettes are extremely bad for you," she sniffed, wiping a tear from under her eye.

"Geez, you're a real buzzkill, aren't you?" He said retracting his arm, taking another puff. Then he remembered something special in his pocket. "How about a joint?" He pulled out his baggy of weed. "Huh? Might cheer you up?" Rick teased. Rick wouldn't typically share his stuff with anyone, but his heart oddly went out to her. He honestly thought she was way too pretty to be sad at a party. Diane looked at the bag.

"Ok," she mustered out, stepping closer to him.

"I'm Rick," he introduced.

"I recognize you, you're Mike's friend. My friend Sally just started dating him and you been in a few of my classes," Diane stated. Rick recognized Diane as being one of the prettiest girls in school. She was very much a natural beauty. One of Diane's signature pieces was a light green mini skirt, white v-neck shirt and matching white knee high socks and that's exactly what she was wearing on this chilly night. Rick always had a thing for mini skirts and socks, call it a school uniform fantasy or what have you, but she really pulled it off. Diane was always done up, her hair perfectly curled and in place, same with her make up that accented her features, green eyes and large pink lips popped off her porcelain white skin, with tiny freckles and naturally rosie cheeks. She was just crying and she still looked beautiful, with nothing out of place. Rick was slightly taken back by her now that he had her full attention. He wasn't sure she ever looked his way. He honestly never seen anyone as pretty as her.

Rick could feel his stare become creepy as Diane began to visibly become uncomfortable. He snapped out of it, and began to pat his pockets.

"Shit, we may need to go inside. I don't have rolling papers, follow me," he said beginning to walk ahead. "Here," he said passing her the bag, he wanted her to feel included on this little side adventure. Her eyes widened grabbing the bag, she whispered "oh my God," as she fumbled getting the bag into her purse, before anyone saw.

"You good?" Rick asked glancing back at her, as she closed her purse.

"Mhm," she nodded.

Diane forgot she was about to go back into the party. The party seemingly paused as the unlikely friends entered into the kitchen together.

"Whoa, this is weird," Rick murmured to Diane. She couldnt help but crack a smile as she glanced up at him. His disheveled hair and black sweater added to his appeal.

"What are you doing?" He joked, giving her a smirk. "You're going to make this worse, smiling at me like that. Everyone's brains are about to explode," Diane let out a giggle, as Rick smiled back.

Diane looked around and enjoyed the new attention, especially since it was distracting everyone from the lastest spectacle that she unwillingly became a part of. She grabbed Rick's hand. He glanced back at her, grinning.

"Let's denote it, screw them." Rick squeezed her hand, leading her to the basement.

The basement was dark, she can smell the mixture of weed and cigarettes. They arrived to the first door on the left.

"Stay here," he said before entering.

"Why?" She questioned looking at her surroundings.

"Because this is Mike's room, and he might be...."

"What? Getting high? Having sex? This is high school party, it's what you do. I'm coming with you," Rick couldn't argue with that and opened the door. The door swung open, revealing Sally with Mike, snorting a white powdery substance off a old science textbook.

"Diane! How fun!" Sally laughed reaching for her friend for an embrace. "Come join us!" Sally cheered motioning to them both.

"Any day I'd be up for that offer Sal but not tonight, we are just here for rolling papers," Rick said quickly. Mike threw him the pack next to him. He glanced at Diane then Rick, "need condoms too?" Diane's eyes widened.

Sally let out a conniving laugh, "you know Diane's a Virgin."

"Well," Mike shrugged "with Rick here, tonight might be the night, especially since her photos are currently being passed around."

Rick watched as all the color left Diane's cheeks. She was humiliated. Rick grabbed her hand and dragged her out, without saying a word. They stormed up the stairs and through the front door to where all the cars were parked. Rick led her to an old brown van. He slid the back door open, guiding her in as he followed. He leaned over his console to turn it on. It started with a tremor then followed with a rumble. He lowered the radio, so it quietly played in the back, he locked the van doors, to prevent any surprise guests, and made sure the heat was running low. He sat beside Diane who still hadn't said or even looked at him. He grabbed a box and turned on a flashlight.

"Can I have the stuff?" Rick asked. Diane still slightly dazed reached until her purse, handing it over. Rick immediately started grinding the weed. He glanced up at her wondering if she truly was a virgin, then curiously wondered what pictures Mike was talking about. Rick didn't usually get mad at his friends, but this time he was. He didn't appreciate how Mike just threw Diane under the bus, him, and even how they were hanging out together. Diane could see him preparing the joint fast and meticulously, he seemed annoyed at what happened. She began thinking about what Sally said and the box. She was getting madder by the minute, and Rick could feel it. Rick began to light the joint, and immediately passed it over to her. Diane took a big hit, before exhaling with a cough.

"I can't believe Sally," she said thinking about watching her friend snort coke and mention a secret so nonchalantly. She took another deep hit before passing it to Rick.

"Its a high school party, it's what you do," Rick quoted Diane, as he took a hit. She couldnt help but smile at her new friend. They fell silent as they passed the joint among themselves. Rick head filled with questions. He knew better than to dig into something that wasn't necessarily his business, and he didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable. He knew the weed would open her up eventually so he'd wait for his moment. Diane could feel her brain get fuzzy as she got higher with every hit, she thought about how betrayed she felt, by everyone. She could feel her eyes begin to swell, almost close to tears again.

"That damn box," she sniffed. There was the opening Rick was waiting for.

"What box?" Diane looked at Rick shocked he had no idea what she was talking about.

"The box of nudes? Of girls from our school?"

"Shit, that sounds awesome," Rick said taking a hit.

"No, it's not. It's photos of girls in our school being intimate with their partners. Pictures taken without their consent and the boys store them in a box and pass it among themselves, it started over the summer" Rick was kind of surprised he never heard about it and wondered who was in it. Then he realized.

"Wait, are you in this box?" He passed the joint to her. She took a hit as he watched her eyes begin to water.

"Yes," she exhaled. Rick immediately lost his filter.

"I thought Sally said you were a virgin?"

"Virgin yes, but doesn't mean I haven't sucked a dick before," Rick immediately started choking on the smoke that was in his lungs, that started the fast chain of thoughts of her on her knees.

"HOLY SHIT," he exclaimed, still coughing.

"Yea I bet you like that thought," she said slightly agitated. "Anyway, I'm the latest image in the box and since I'm a virgin I've become the most fantasied girl in our dumb school. It's humiliating, I don't want to lose it to just anyone. I want to do it with someone special," she gazed down. Rick started to put the joint out. He watched her through the haze of the smoke.

"I think that's the right way," Rick began. Diane slightly turned to look at him. "Having sex the first time should be with someone special," he gave her a comforting smile. They both fell silent thinking about what each one said. Diane didn't mind the long silence with Rick. It was comforting, she was hoping Rick felt it too. She glanced over at him and couldn't help but smile ever so gently. What a night to get an unlikely friend. She thought about all the times they passed each other in the halls, barely even a glance. How many times they had classes together, realizing they had a lot of college credit classes together. She had faint memories of seeing him in the back of the classroom, basically in his own world. She wondered how different life would be if he had been in her life sooner. They both hung out with very different crowds, honestly she felt kind if misplaced atbthis party. She never seen so many people wearing black in one party. The only reason her and a few of her friends got invited is because Sally and Mike are dating. She got upset at how shallow her friend group could be, including her. She inhaled making a personal vow to branch out and meet new people this year, she looked up and met Ricks eyes. She was already doing a good job.

"Do you want to go back to the party?" Rick asked. He was enjoying his time with her, and truthfully wouldn't blame her if she said no. Diane thought about his question. She was still upset at what Sally did and how quickly the topic of the box started the night. She was emotionally exhausted, and over the idea of socializing with people who were ready to embarrass her.

"No, I'd honestly like to go home," she said motioning to the door. Rick understandably leaned up front and turned off the van. He slid open the doors, and got out first. He extended his arm to help Diane out. She grabbed his hand as the night sky caught her attention. Living in the middle of nowhere has its perks, the stars were twinkling and absolutely illuminating the night sky. Rick followed her eyes and looked up too.

"Space is so pretty," she let out.

"Yeah, it is," he said giving her a side smile. "How about I take you up there one day?"

Diane smiled at the sweet thought. Diane wanted to go home but she didn't want to leave Rick so early. Rick felt the same but had no clue what to say to make her stay. She followed the road that led to her house. A cold breeze came giving them both a chill.

"My jacket," she stated. "I left it inside, I think it's in the dining room."

"Do you want me to go get it for you?" Rick asked.

"No, I'll come with you, probably should tell a few of my friends I'm leaving anyway."

"Sally?"

"No. Screw her," Rick smiled at her slight savagery. They began walking to the front door. Rick reached for the doorknob, letting Diane go in first. She maneuvered through the party, with Rick close behind. They entered the dining room, with a few people passing a film camera around, one of them being her friend Abby.

"Diane!" She said excited, embracing her friend. "I thought you left, I was going to bring your jacket to your house tomorrow." Abby passed her the jacket, as she looked at Rick.

"Im heading home now, just wanted to grab my jacket before my walk home," Rick looked at Diane slightly confused.

"Oh ok," her friend said sadly. "Well let's at least get a photo together," she said holding the camera. Diane looked at Rick, who reached out for the camera. Abby and Diane posed together with big smiles. SNAP went the camera, as it began to print the photo out. Abby had known Diane since 5th grade and thought it was odd Diane was hanging out with Rick Sanchez. After the last couple of weeks with Dianes photo being passed around though, Abby wasn't about to question Diane's decisions, especially since she seemed happy. Rick on the other hand, she wanted to know his intentions.

"Do you two want a photo?" Abby asked kind of testing the response. Before Diane could say anything, Rick chimed in with a "Hell yea." Abby liked his enthusiastic response. He positioned his face next to hers. Surrounding her with his arms, popping up both middle fingers, Diane pouted her lips, blushing at how close his face was. SNAP the camera went, followed by the sound of it printing. Abby handed the photo to Diane, "it's a cute one," she smiled.

"I bet, Abby, thank you," Diane hugged her friend, putting the photo in her pocket as it developed. "I'll call you tomorrow."

"I'll be waiting," Abby smiled. Diane put on her jacket as her and Rick walked back outside.

"I'll walk you to your car."

"I didn't drive, I walked," Rick thought thats what she told her friend.

"What? How far do you live?"

"Right down the road, Mike and I are neighbors," she pointed to her house that gleamed in the distance. This whole time, she was so close to a place Rick was at often.

"Well, can I walk you home?"

"I'd love that."

They began their trek, the road was dark but Diane could see her house lights in the distance. She was very happy Rick wanted to walk her home even if they weren't saying anything. She imagined the thought of him asking her on a date, her heart began to beat a little quicker. She wasn't sure if she was his type though. He hung out with more alternative looking girls that she remembered, at least 5 names popped in her head, specifically Tara Daniels. Tara had all types of piercings and tattoos, Diane remembered she was allowed to get her first tattoo at 14 and every year since then got more. Tara's tattoo was all that was talked about the rest of freshman year. Diane had a slight memory of seeing Rick and Tara make out at the lockers last year. Diane felt a surge of jealousy radiate through her, then immediately felt defeated. Rick wouldn't see Diane as anything other than a friend, she definitely wasn't his type. Diane remembered seeing Tara at the party briefly and may even remember seeing her and Rick talking. There was no point of hoping for a date with Rick, if he had a thing with Tara. But Rick had been with Diane majority of the night, not with Tara. Diane let out a long sigh.

"You ok?" Rick asked. Diane had briefly forgot he was with her, and he startled her.

"Uh, yea," she said still building the courage to ask. She figured she'd just let it out. "Are you and Tara Daniels dating?" Rick was kind of taken back by this question. They weren't dating, but they were fucking. They'd call each other up when they were bored and lonely but there was no way he wanted Diane to know.

"No, we aren't dating," he began. "Why do you ask?"

"I remember seeing you two make out a lot in the hallways."

Shit, thought Rick. "No, we are just really good friends."

"Good friends that kiss?"

"Yeah, you can say that." Another pause of silence came over them. Diane could see her house getting closer.

"What about Cindy Jackson?"

"No."

"Kate Michaels?"

"Jesus, Diane," Rick sounded annoyed, resting his hands on the back of his head.

"I'm just asking."

"No I'm not seeing anyone, ok?" Diane was partially satisfied with that answer and ran out of courage to continue. She didn't want to ruin this friendship, before it really started. They began turning down Diane's driveway, her house was dark besides the porch light and her bedroom. Rick noticed a ladder coming down from what he assumed was her room.

"What is that?" He jokingly teased, pointing at the ladder.

"That's my evacuation ladder."

"More like a sneak out ladder."

"Well yea, but since I'm on the second floor, my parents thought it would be a good idea, in case there was a fire."

Rick couldn't help but laugh.

"You're an only child right?"

"Yea," she said.

"Your parents must've not considered you'd use it for sneaking out."

"No, they didn't," she said connecting all the dots. "Im a good girl, I never need to sneak out."

"Just tonight?" He teased. Diane gave him a slight nudge with her shoulder. They stopped at the ladder, she stared at it, following it up to her room. She wasn't ready to say goodbye. Rick stuffed his hands in his pockets, trying to think of something to say. He looked around her home. She had a white picket fence, with a garden bordering her property. He could see a slightly decrepit swingset at the edge of the woods. Her house was a pale yellow with white shutters, a very pretty home and exactly how he imagined where she lived. Diane was grateful her parents room was on the other side of the house with how long they were lingering outside.

"The picture!" She said pulling it out of her coat pocket. She unleashed a huge smile seeing it developed. It was perfect. They both looked so happy, and Rick with his unhinged pose. She giggled passing it over to him, Rick smiled just as wide as she did.

"That's great!" He said.

"Are you ok walking back?" Diane asked before another silence came along. Rick could see Mike's house light up the trees that bordered Diane's property.

"Yea, I'll be fine, besides what are you going to do? Walk me back to the party?" Diane scrunched her nose at him. She knew this was the end of the night but she hoped this was just the beginning of whatever this was.

"Thank you for cheering me up, back there. I'm really happy I got to hang out with you tonight," she said giving him a soft smile.

"Yeah, it was fun," he said rubbing his neck, a little awkwardly. "And to think I was getting ready to leave." He gave a little chuckle.

"Well, don't be a stranger," she said giving him a sad smile, beginning motion towards the ladder.

"Wait," he said before she turned completely around. She turned back to look at him. "Can I have your number?"

Diane's eyes widened and her heart began to flutter. She nodded digging in her purse for a scrap piece of paper and pen. She began to write her number, feeling her cheeks heat up. She passed it over to Rick.

"Is it OK if I call you tomorrow?"

"Yes," she smiled excitedly. Diane began climbing the ladder as Rick backed away to give her space trying not to look up her skirt even though he did catch a glimpse of her panties. He made sure she made it up and gave him a little wave before he turned back down the road. He stuffed her number in his pocket, and started lighting a cigarette. He immediately started thinking about the box. He needed to get it.

#rick and diane #fanart #rick and morty #fanfic #rickxdiane #artists on tumblr #writing #unlikely Friends #rick and morty fanfic #rick and diane fanfic #read on ao3

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i meant to reply days ago on my post and only got reminded cuz your video BUT yes I was at the chicago concert!!! I also saw people saying it was dead and I was like huh what concert are you at it's almost Too loud.. also your video of d1 <3 he deserves the world he's so sweet. I read thru some of your poets, you gave the key rings at the fansign? How'd that go? also did you do any snapshots? rly I just want to hear someone else also gush/rant happily about their time hehe

its under the read more bc this just turned into word vomit bc i miss and love them so fucking much

I WANTED TO DO SNAPSHOTS SO BAD but i alread spent over 300 on the trip (tickets themselves + hotel room + gas to get there) so i couldnt buy them BUT when i gave them all the keyrings they were sooooo sweet about it and looked so surprised that i was giving them something that wasnt a letter ToT

changmin said it was pretty and dongil said that the picture i used was cute (one side was them after they debuted and the other were the pics of them when they were kids that they posted for childrens day). my hands were shaking A Lot and almost every member held my hand when i gave them the keychains telling me i shouldnt be nervous. they looked genuinely worried and i dont blame them bc i felt like i was gonna pass out (and i started crying afterword afshbkdj) and i think they recognized me when i went back back up to do the high five + group photo bc changmin asked me if i was okay now TT (tho to be fair having bright purple hair + giving them a gift + on the verge of tears/passing out + being one of the only ppl to talk to them in korean might have contributed to that...)

also maknae line were sosososo sweet and cute. i told junseo that hes really pretty and he looked so surprised and asked 'really?' and all i could do was say yes bc the staff were starting to get upset that i was taking .5 seconds longer than i should have (even tho DKB were the ones holding my hands what did they want me to do snatch my hand away? afjshk). yuku had the brightest smile and harry june asked if i was nervous and when i told him yes he looked so worried and said 'dont be nervous!'

when we did the group photo all in was playing and me and the girl next to me started dancing and singing along before the photo and heechan turned around in surprise as if us knowing the song was a shock afhsbk but he looked so happy so see us vibing with the song and he started dancing in his seat too it was cute

also like. i dont know how to describe it but they are soooo attractive in person. photos dont do any of them justice at all. im sure u saw bc u did snapshots with some of them lol but junseo.... god i just want to tell him how handsome he is that he shouldnt listen to those ppl who tell him otherwise and that we will love him no matter what... iirc him and changmin were the only members taller than me but to be 100% honest i was too focused on not bawling my eyes out in front of them to notice much on that front lol (but i do remember yuku and lune being so tiny and cute and all of their hands were smaller than mine ashkj)

i wish i had more time to talk to them to tell them how amazing and talented they are and how proud bbs are of them but the staff were really pushy with trying to get the fansign line moving. i get it, there were a lot of us, but a guy can dream. even though the time was short they really tried their best to comfort me in the time we did have and that meant a lot <3

ALSO slightly off topic but the main reason i was close to passing out was bc of how hot the venue was while waiting for the fansign. i was sweating so bad before during and after the concert so i got some water from the bar (four fucking dollars 😒) and i talked to the bartenders for a bit. according to them, the boys were super nice and sweet and like. ofc as bbs we think that the boys are kind but hearing from someone that has no emotional connection to them and interacts with hundreds of celebrities throughout the year that dkb are sweet boys... it just.. its nice. its nice to see that theyre kind to people who are outside of the fandom bc sadly thats not the norm for every group

#answered #anyhao #haiiiii mairin #this is only like. half of what i could say abt the entire experience #but my brain is mush from thinking about them #head empty only dakeubi thoughts <3 #getting sappy rn #i wish i could relive it

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aiweirdness · 4 years

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A big neural net reviews a smaller neural net's recipes

I’ve used various neural networks to generate recipes, to varying degrees of success. My earliest recipes were generated with char-rnn, which had to learn everything - spelling, punctuation, words - entirely from scratch. Its recipes were terrible (Swamp Peef and Cheese, anyone? Or Chocolate Chicken Chicken Cake?). Later when I started using GPT-2, I was using a neural net that had already seen a lot of recipes online during internet pre-training, and its recipes looked a lot more realistic (although not entirely realistic - there was that recipe for Black Forest Cake that suggested pouring the batter into a toaster, or the jello recipe that starts with “remove all internal rinds”).

GPT-3, an even more powerful text-generating neural net, has seen so many recipes during its internet pre-training that its recipes are boringly plausible. Bake its Black Forest Cake recipe and you’d probably actually get cake at the end, even if it’s not the best cake in the world. Its recipes aren’t funny at a glance, which is why I haven’t posted any of them - until internet linguist Gretchen McCulloch suggested that, rather than have GPT-3 generate its own recipes, I have it rate char-rnn’s recipes. Readers, it worked.

I prompted GPT-3 with two example recipes from allrecipes, each followed by 3 of their human-written reviews. Then, for the third recipe I inserted one of char-rnn’s recipes:

Chocolate Chocolate Cake

1 cup sugar 1/4 cup butter 1 cup margarine 1 cup cocoa 1 teaspoon vanilla 1 cup margarine 1/2 cup pecans, chopped 1 teaspoon vanilla 1 egg yolk 1/2 cup sugar 1/4 cup chopped pecans 1 cup sugar 1 teaspoon vanilla 1 cup cocoa 1 teaspoon vanilla

Combine flour, sugar, baking powder, salt, salt, and salt in a large bowl. Cook over medium heat, stirring constantly, until mixture boils and stiff peaks form. Add milk and cook until mixture is completely melted. Remove from heat and stir in sugar and sugar. Add eggs and vanilla. Beat until smooth. Spread in batter. Sprinkle with pecans.

Yield: 1 servings

And then I let GPT-3 add reviews. Would it mention the excessive lakes of vanilla? The complete lack of flour? The foolhardy reliance on the heroic efforts of a single egg yolk to hold things together?

oxtailsandturnovers Rating: 5 stars 03/04/2007 delicious chocolate recipe!!! and the perfect balance between cocoa and chocolate. and they sure were LONGNECKS! big time rave here. lazy w birthdays w friends and family, try this recipe for something chocolate sweet the ppl will talk about over and over.

AKEMIYUNA Rating: 5 stars appraisal 12/03/2008 Excellent for the kids Halloween party. Everyone got so thrilled by seeing something new on Chocolate in sponge. He even likes nuts separately but it will taste good..

BYOMFYABF Rating: 2 stars 10/01/2008 I could only give it a 2 as I had to make changes to it due to ingredients I had. First, I used Dove Dark Chocolate cocoa instead of Hershey's, no nuts, and the mashed bananas and caramel topping were a must. I did use coffee instead of the hot water, and dark margarine instead of regular, therefore I could not use light whipped cream, but I made homemade whipped cream. It had WAY too much flour in it, but i guess it could have been me measuring heavier than I should have. I also only used 2 cups of flour. it was my first bundt cake, so it was huge!!!

Here’s another batch of reviews, this time of a more chaotic char-rnn recipe:

Simple Soup Alaborate Soup Pie

6 each chopped white perserves; ** (optional but ring) 1/2 cup chopped fresh marjoram 1/2 teaspoon dried thyme 1/3 teaspoon salt 1/2 cup thinly sliced onion 1/4 cup onion (chopped) 1/2 teaspoon garlic; minced 2 small carrots 6 can dry white wine 1 tabasco sauce 1 tablespoon sugar 1/2 cup flour, whipped topping 2 tablespoon chili powder

Marinate: Serves 4. Whip and short under boiling. Add the sliced mushrooms and peppers and stir to coat. Stir the sugar and carrots. In large bowl, beat the egg to make a 1 1/2 tablespoons of the flour. Add shanks and stir it well. Spoon into a frying pan before serving.

Recipe By : DonajehLi Koubmanda

Yield: 8 servings

JEFFREY97389 Rating: 2 stars 03/03/2006 Even though everyone said this was great, I thought it was just 'OK!' The perserves gave a strange flavor to the sauce.

MATTJANDTRACER Rating: 2 stars 01/02/2009 This recipe sounded good. When it came out it tasted a bit like a casserole and not a stew. I used venison instead of deer and pork. I liked the way it turned out, but it wasnt very French.

Hammy Rating: 5 stars The g iving this as a gift as it takes about 10 less minutes but using American cheese and not blended with parsley flakes, lime-flavored gelatin, which is my husband's favorite dish from SuperValu. Just happens to be the creamy sauce. Don't worry about a pie crust.

In fact, the more chaotic the char-rnn recipe, the more chaotic the reviews tend to be, as if GPT-3 has picked up on the chaos and is trying to somehow produce reviews that could plausibly be written by whatever weird humans are visiting this mangled recipe website.

Geilded Peanuts & Crabmeat Basil

3 beef, boneless chops, or thyme, 1 lamber and flince of fresh diced in diagonal 1 parsley 2 large leeks (for garnish) 3/4 teaspoon sesame oil, seeded and peeled 1 any jeans'l-tortilla 1 pepper or cinnamon 1/4 cup baesly pinto beans. (Crushed and thawed; minced fine you recipe) 1 tomato base 1 fat in the last 5 inch plates 1 garlic clove; crushed 1/4 cup dijon mustard

In a large bowl set aside. Remove the sides from the heat and saute with a fork and cover and cook on Low for 6 to 6 hours.

Yield: 6 servings

Morales Rating: 0 stars 03/30/2008 I had high expectations for this recipe, but it was an outright flop. I don't know if the measurements were somehow incorrect or what, but I ended up with a watery mess that certainly wasn't crab salad. My girlfriend, who is a new chef liked it fine, but I really wish that the recipe didn't claim that it made six servings when it really made enough for one, if that's what we were going to call it.

Carole Rating: 5 stars Glorious sobs! This recipe will be delicious for a minumum of 1½ Hours to maximum 2½ hours Time to bring lots of fresh sized potatoes in the house or grow in the age may become quite famous

Amanda Rating: 3 stars 11/13/2009 My friend is having a birthday party and will celebrate with Camping. She's in charge of the dishes and wanted to serve food at the campfire. I'll 10th grade, my easy information for her party. It will not sound strange anyway test this task with a note to work rationally.What to take trees, portable tables for chairs, the main meal, food. I personally love the taste of it but has anyone seen a shepherd (wasn't any spices), oysters. It is sufficient

It does kind of make sense that GPT-3’s recipe reviews aren’t directly complaining about the utter weirdness of char-rnn’s recipes. Probably very few of the recipe reviews in GPT-3’s training data involved baffled complaints about nonexistent or repeated ingredients, or apocalyptic levels of recipe failure. So GPT-3 has learned that even the critical reviews tend to fall within a certain sentiment range. It’s interesting that it tries to emulate char-rnn’s primitive neural net glitchiness - I’ve noticed before that GPT-3 seems to be capable of pretending to be a much simpler neural net.

Subscribers get bonus content: After generating a few reviews, GPT-3 would sometimes go on to generate new recipes (such as “BBQ Cheeseburger Salad” which contains lime jello, whipped topping, and sliced black beans). It may have been deliberately trying to make them terrible to fit in with char-rnn’s recipes.

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#neural networks #gpt-3 #char-rnn #recipes

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sanzulicious · 2 years

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My first post i hope you like it!

•Warnings•

This story contains

Smut,angst,comfort,cursing

Ill be using bonten sanzu for this ;)

I dont own these characters they are owned by ken wakui.

It was indeed a beautiful day in tokyo Were the city full of people walking. Y/n a girl who works at a cafe with 3 other people your the cashier taking orders while the others prepare.

“Hello there what can i get you today?” You say to them.

“Frappe please!” They said.

“Sure thing” you say while putting it in.

“It will be right out” you say.

“Y/n are you busy tonight? Your coworker erika asks.

“Huh oh Well ive been wanting to watch this show for the longest thats what i have planned for tonight why?” you say.

“Really how boring y/n dont you ever have a club to go in mind? its a friday night. Have you even been to a club y/n?” Erika says with a scoff.

“First off its not boring they said its acutally a good show besides..i rather do that than go to a club and get hit on by gross thirsty men.” You said.

“Well they hit on you because your hot, besides i never seen you with a guy before are you a lesbian by chance?” Erika asks with a hand over her mouth.

“Shut up erika im not gay. And if i was you’d see me with someone im just not in the mood to date anyone at the momment.”

Thats right you werent you will get hit on at a store or anywhere you were at you were indeed hot like erika said but you never gave any guy a chance last time you had boyfriend was back in highschool 11th grade. His name was ryota but eventually you guys broke up since then you havent seen him. You were working to save up money to move out of japan and go to the usa since you have family there and your cousins.

“Let her be erika if she doesnt wanna go its fine let her be boring.” Your other coworker kai said with a wink.

“Ha-ha very funny and stop saying boring im not boring okay i have fun with myself okay..” you say crossing your arms.

“Ouu What kind of fun with youself” kai says with a wink again.

“masterbate” erika says with a whisper.

“HAHAHA” both kai and erika laugh.

“FUCK YOU GUYS im done with you two” you say.

Kai and erika were your coworkers well also friends. You met them at the cafe you were new and eventually yall became friends they would always joke around they are heavy jokesters sometimes they go to far. Like rightnow. They were different than you, you weren’t exactly the going out type you were more into staying home and companied with your dog prince. You make plans of what you were gonna do in the usa once you saved up money but you still had long way to go but to you there wasnt a problem with planning early. And you weren’t exactly a drinker either, you would only drink to a limit your still sober in your own house.

“Oi everyone has needs girl its okay* *wink* kai says.

You roll your eyes with a smirk.

“YO so anyways come to a club with us y/n out of all the times we invited you, you cant skip this one girl it is turned up” erika says.

“Oh yeah its in Roppongi girl you cant miss this one we wont take no for an answer.” Kai said.

“In Roppongi?” You say.

“Yeah they say the club is owned by these two brothers but this one is gonna be different its gonna be under the name kokonoi whos hosting something there supposedly theres gonna be a game and they’re gonna bet money and whoever wins gets 100k” Erika says cheerfully.

“Well im for sure gonna join the game, you should to y/n i mean you might win since you are saving up money to leave us you whore.. this is an opportunity for you, you should go for it.” Kai says.

Im not “leaving” you guys there is something called facetime and i can come visit sometimes. And also there’s no way in hell ill win but i do need money so 50/50 chance. For that ill take a risk. But i hate partys, but..fuck it i need money.” You say with a sigh.

“Thats the spirit!” Erika says with a smile.

“*sigh* so you said its tonight right? Well what time are you guys picking me up im not taking my car so you better give me ride erika if you want me to go.” You say.

“I knew your cheap ass was gonna say that and ill pick you up at 11pm.” Erika says pinching your cheek.

“We barely have costumers today this place looks like desert dry as hell.” Kai says.

“Well yeah we barely had 6 customers today.. what do you think sumiko?” Erika asks the other coworker.

“Hehe yeah i think this place might need an upgrade?.” The girl says.

“Hell yeah” erika says.

“Haha” you laugh.

*8:00pm*

Later that day you closed the cafe heading home. Once you made it home you threw your keys on the counter and went to your room and landed on the bed *sigh* “im tired i dont even wanna go but what can i do if i need the money theres a chance i might win i might be lucky right prince hehe.” You say to you dog laying beside you. You dog tilt his head to the side. You grabed your phone from your pocket and checked the time just “2hrs 1/2 left before she picks me up” you say. You got up and went to you closet to see what dress youll wear tonight.

“Hmm no not this one”.. “bleh”.. “o-ohh this one looks good havent wore this one yet” you grabbed a pretty black dress. “Ill wear this one i guess with these black heels”. You say.

2hrs 1/2 passed by you were ready and you were waiting for erika. While you were waiting you felt pretty nervous to go well nervous about the game maybe its gonna be hard to win who knows you kept overthinking. *HONK* “Y/N im outside you whore.” You heard erika yelling outside. You look out the window you grabbed your keys and phone and said goodbye to your dog prince.

“Are you fucking kidding me erika my neighbors heard you your being to loud they are asleep at this hour” you say.

“Yeah yeah” WOOOO!*HONK**HONK* erika speeds off.

“Your so fucking childish erika” kai say.

“HEY IM HERE TO HAVE FUN ALRIGHT!” Erika shouts.

“Yeah but dont be loud and can you slow down before we get a ticket.” You say.

“You guys SUCK” erika says.

“Haha” kai laughs.

*End of chapter 1*

I know its short ill make the other one longer.

I hope you like this chapter thank you for reading.!

•Heres the outfit you chose•

#tokyorevengers #sanzu haruchiyo #bonten #my story

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xoxo-ren-xoxo · 4 years

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Tommy’s (and Tubbo’s) Character /rp /dSMP

This is a bit of a rant so like be warned. I have nothing against any CCs mentioned in this, this is all roleplay, lighthearted, and just a bit of fun analysis. Mostly this is a ramble about how I see certain people analysing Tommy’s character on tumblr and twt, and why I think they’re wrong. This isn’t directed at anyone specific, just a trend I’ve been seeing that kinda irks me. I don’t dislike the fandom, just a few ‘takes’ have been really weird for me.

TW for everything below: analysing the effects of trauma, abuse, manipulation, gaslighting, and lack of therapy.

I’m not really liking how victim-blamey everyone is getting currently in the dSMP, both in fandom and canon. In canon with certain characters but especially in fan analysis posts and especially about Tommy and Tubbo. People legitimately celebrating that Tommy might start ‘apologising’ for his actions more and 'growing as a person' somehow don’t realise that hes been made this way through a tonne of negative reinforcement. abuse, and gaslighting. And people blaming Tubbo for actions he had no choice in, rather than the actions he did choose.

Currently, as I see it, Tommy is so scared that anyone would find a reason to be pissed off at him that his fighting spirit has been completely crushed. He was exiled and abused when he should have been helped and given an understanding figure to guide him and teach him how to deal with things non-violently. In everyone’s eyes, the problem was that Tommy was creating violence with no real reason, acting recklessly and commiting crimes. Tubbo, having made him a part of his cabinet, knew that this would only harm the country. So instead of talking to him reasonably, he got angry, put him on trial, and punished him with the logbook (humiliating him by making him report back to Fundy, which he obviously hated). Tommy’s actions were, of course, bad, but did he deserve everyone ganging up on him? No. Especially when Tubbo was supposed to be in his corner, helping him out like he always said he would (”It’s me and you vs Dream” etc). This is the first betrayal of trust from Tommy’s POV. He doesn’t understand what he did wrong to its full extent, and no one can explain it to him.

However, Tubbo was under a lot of pressure from Dream and George, and he’s a literal child President, so his ‘safety over friendship’ actions are understandable. I don’t believe Tubbo is solely to blame for anything he’s done in season 2, but it can’t all be excused. If you are to blame Tommy for his recklessness, you have to blame Tubbo, at least partially, for his disregard for Tommy’s feelings and mental state. There were other ways to go about the entire thing, including the trial, which was just horrible to watch, and agreeing to give Dream the disc, something Tommy gave him in pure confidence that it would be safe with Tubbo. Yikes moment.

At that time, Tubbo knew a lot of things about Tommy. In fact, he probably knew the most about Tommy out of anyone on the server. He knew the discs were incredibly important and a comfort item for Tommy. He knew Tommy had trauma from being exiled in the past. He knew Tommy was abused, or at least manipulated by Wilbur, in addition to growing up in war. Wilbur once told Tommy to stop being reckless, and Tommy listened, changing his attitude because he looked up to Wilbur so much. Then Wilbur said ‘let’s be the bad guys’ and stopped trying to mentor Tommy. There’s a conflict here, because Tommy was told by Wilbur that he wasn’t good enough to be President (links to the idea of ‘not being strong enough’) but he knows that Wilbur was a bad person. But Tommy is never given the chance to reconsile his feelings surrounding Wilbur, both because of Ghostbur and because of the conflict he starts with George. So he is harbouring a mixture of emotions about his mentor and brother, not understanding how to untangle the ‘real Tommy’ from the manipulated boy he became.

What was going through his head when he stole from George and griefed him? Perhaps the thought that he needed to show he was still the same old Tommy. Maybe the need to ‘prove himself’ as a strong person? It could have just been an outlet for his trauma. He’s grown up in a world where everyone is either a friend or an enemy. George isn’t a friend. How was he supposed to know that hurting him was bad?

Tubbo was pressured into the actions he took against Tommy, but he was pressured far too easily. There is no moment where Tubbo turns to Tommy and makes sure he’s okay, he views him as ‘selfish’ and overdramatic, and sees his actions that way. This makes sense from Tubbo’s POV, he’s struggling to be President in ways that Wilbur *knew* he would, but in Tommy’s eyes this is the worst betrayal he’s ever known. The moment Tubbo (rightfully, but poorly executed) defies Tommy’s plan to hire Technoblade (ahem, seeing Techno as a weapon again) and exiles Tommy is the moment their friendship shatters. They’re two people who don’t understand each other anymore. Two people who are technically in the right, but only hurt each other.

What Tommy needed was a therapist, instead he had Dream, who put out the fire of rebellion that made him so strong, and Techno, who was trying to help but doing it in the wrong way.

People see tommy's change post-exile as a good thing because he's not as rebellious anymore and he’s thinking things through a lot before he does them, but they will soon realise that his rebellion was one of his best traits and the fact that no one saw it as anything but a problem really shows. He now second-guesses himself so much and is so scared of being wrong that everything seems too difficult and too dangerous. Every trait can have a positive and negative side. Tommy's defiant nature would have made him the perfect negotiator with a little practise. In fact, he had plenty of good ideas before he was exiled (using spirit against Dream, though it didnt work in the end, for example). The negative side of this was recklessness and the desire to cause problems on purpose, but what he needed was a friend (looking at you Tubbo) who understood that hes been through several wars, was manipulated by Wilbur, and hasnt known a time of peace where everyone who wasnt on his side was out to kill him. Now that ‘fight’ is gone he's just become easier to manipulate.

He may be getting better (see: telling Dream to go fuck himself) but there hasn't been any long-term growth because he was never told what kind of rebellion was good and what was bad. He was just told it was all bad. By Dream (and by Tubbo). Who he doesn't trust. So he's just going to revert back to his old ways because no one told him what was bad in a way that didn't make him feel like everyone was against him. Dream is the enemy (though Tommy’s feelings towards him are complicated, they make his brain go all ‘flippy floppy’) and Dream told him that rebellion was bad, so rebellion must be good always, right?

And then there's Techno. Techno did nothing wrong except for when he did. Techno is 100% right except for when he isn’t. He doesn't understand Tommy because Tommy was never fully open about what Dream had done and how it affected him. That's not Tommys fault though, because who the fuck openly talks about their trauma? So neither of them are to blame for pretty much anything up until the confrontation at the community house.

However, Techno's methods and ideology were not what Tommy needed. He was thrown from one extreme to another over and over again, from complete subservience to total rebellion. Neither of these inforce good attitudes in Tommy. One, as stated before, makes it so that he will regain his negative traits again. The other reinforces those violent traits as good, just like Wilbur did. The only difference is that Techno had good intentions, he wasnt trying to use Tommy, which is why he feels so used when Tommy 'betrays' him (Techno doesnt realise that he himself betrayed Tommy by teaming with Dream, he sees it more as a transaction than a personal thing). Techno feels so hurt by Tommy ‘viewing him as a weapon’ that he goes on with his no-mercy attack, completely dropping Tommy at his lowest point.

Tommy says he doesn't want to be like everyone he's hated. In fact, he say's he is 'worse' than all the villains. This is very obviously untrue, though he was clearly going down a dangerous path with Techno's influence (see: bullying Fundy, spawning wither, kidnapping Connor, and saying that the discs are more important than Tubbo, more on that later). He's not a villain but who exactly has said he's not a villain. Dream? Techno? Neither of them can be trusted in his eyes. They say he's a good guy, Wilbur wanted to be the bad guy, who's right? He doesn't know. He has a crisis of morality.

And? Some people want to point at that and say 'aha! Character development! He's finally realising his actions have a negative affect on others!' OH GOD NO??? He's a *child* who thinks that he is worse than his abuser. Does that sound like positive character growth to you?

Lastly, the discs. We know theyre a comfort item blahblahblah. He hates himself for valuing them more than he values Tubbo. He's literally innocent in this. He’s been horribly manipulated by Dream to believe that the discs are worth anything. Theyre really not worth anything if they are being used as tools rather than, yknow, discs. My poor boy. He doesnt trust people, so what can he trust? The discs. But then he says it out loud and realises he misses Tubbo and he wants to be with his best friend again and and and WAHHHH. This also isnt really character growth its just fucking sad leave me alone.

Anyways what the fuck guys. @ Niki and Jack what the fuck. Yeah we get it it’s miscommunication but wtf. Kinda worried that the actual lore will make Niki and Jack’s hatred of Tommy justified in some way and take on a big victim-blamey vibe, but I’m hoping that everyone is smart enough to not do that. I cannot praise Tommy enough for how he’s portrayed his character. I’m currently hoping that he himself understands the true complexity of it all. I’m sure he does.

Mostly though im actually pissed off at all the people praising tommy's character for 'maturing' when hes literally just got trauma. Nice one, tumblr and twt users. Thanks. Great job. He hasnt 'learnt his lesson', he’s traumatised. What the fuck.

Thanks for coming to my TED talk, leave your responses in the reblogs and comments.

#dreamsmp #dream smp #character analysis #dreamsmp analysis #analysis #critical #tommyinnit #tubbo #dream #technoblade #wilbur soot #tw trauma #tw abuse #tw gaslighting #tw manipulation

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What got you into fob? I've seen your posts a lot and I always wonder how some peeps found the boys

ok so we have to start when i was about 6 ish years old, 2006 thereabout, when some show comes on and i see some dude on the screen who has like. eyeliner and straight black bangs and i dont know why but this freaks little me the fuck out and i knew 1 thing and it was that this dude was like an example of a cliche rock and roll guy so i decided right then and there i would NEVER get into alternative music because i did not under any circumstances want to look like that.

so fast forward almost a decade, i have just learnt albums are a thing that exist with maroon 5s overexposed (this is so sad alexa press f) and my best friends and i go to the movies to watch big hero 6 bc i thought itd be fun, and i realised Holy Shit I Love This Movie And Also Want To Be An Engineer, and then the scene plays (you know the scene) and my friend and i turn to each other and agree, this song? a banger. hard as hell. love this shit. and i left the theatre and i couldnt get the song or the movie out of my head so i subsequently watched big hero 6 like 2 more times (very major for me, a person who doesnt really watch movies) and listened to immortals by playing the music video (i use the term loosely) on loop for like 2 days. and then i realised, boy. i sure do like this song and i think its my favourite song and i cant even parse the lyrics. i should listen to some other stuff. so i listened to other stuff off ab/ap, on shuffle, and i loved it a lot and i realised immortals wasnt even my favourite song anymore. so i was like dang, if thats the case i should listen to another album by them (because rememver id just learned albums exist) so i listened to save rock and roll, again on shuffle (because it didnt really occur to me that order mattered yet, one foot in the door) and i realised again, liked this even more than what i last listened to. so then i went to folie a deux, and im not sure if i hit shuffle, because the first thing that played was disloyal order. and i thought for a moment something was wrong, because it was quiet, but then there was the click of what i now know to be billiards balls, and the organs, and patricks voice, and i think i met a god when i heard that. i think that did something to me.

from then on i was hooked. im still hooked, mind you, but i have the benefit of not being 14 now. so everything i did had to be related to fall out boy. hell i could play the 7 degrees of fall out boy if anyone would humour me. i was obsessed. so then, a few months later, my art teacher gave us an assignment to draw facial details, but i didnt feel comfortable asking my friends because i wasnt used to having good ones yet so i thought theyd say no, so i decided, hey. google pictures of fall out boy. so i did, i opened google and searched 'pete wentz' and was looking for good pictures to use as a reference and then i came across the exact picture of him that scared me into avoiding alternative music for my entire life up until that point. i honestly dont know which one it is anymore (i THINK it was him in the full band portrait from ioh?) but i still think that its fucking hilarious that seeing pete wentz kept me from realising im a fan of pete wentz. 6 year old dils would hate my style so much til i explain that ironically our exact philosophy is entailed by those scary rock and roll type people. like to a T i was straight up an anarchist (and kind of a communist too?) without even really understanding what that means. its hilarious.

anyway thats how i became a fall out boy fan.

#dils declares #this is so funny to me

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I know you posted it days ago but you said something about wanting to rant about either karl or his fanbase and its been itching at my brain. Ive no clue whats happening or what is happening at all cause no one seems to be making clear points?? Or explaining anything?

Obviously you do NOT have to talk about it im sure it might be a sore point to rant because people can get SO needlessly rude to others over it. But if you want to idk explain? Just rant? Im definetly curious what it was over or about.

The "you dont need to talk about this" is amplified by the fact i am DAYS late and you are probably over it by now.

okay hi yes im happy to talk about this but i think i should preface with two things:

1) even tho it may seem like im biased towards him or being very defensive of him im actually a super casual karl viewer and the only reason i am super defensive of him sometimes is bc we act a lot alike irl and that is mainly because of our neurodivegency. when i say a lot i mean we share traits like "annoying" stimming (jumping around, making loud noises, repeating the same phrases until everyone is sick of hearing them), the difficulty reading situations, the very obvious issues with volume control and not just bouncing from subject to subject to subject as we fucking please. basically anything you've seen karl do on stream that is Very Neurodivergent ive done the same in my own way which is why i get defensive when i see people calling him annoying or saying they dont like him, usually for these types of reasons. that being said, when i say im a very casual karl viewer, i fucking mean it. i usually only watch him when he's streaming with other ccs i like or when he's doing chill alt streams bc even with the annoying donos, he's pretty relaxing and comforting when he's just fucking around by himself and he isnt trying to get as hype as he would on a main channel stream. so yeah, it may seem like im biased and sure, i guess i am on some level, but it's not coming from a place of me hyperfixating on him or me even loving him as a cc, it's coming from me being a neurodivergent who likes him just enough to get upset when i see people basically being casually ableist towards him.

2) i dont have all the facts or even a great understanding on what the fuck has been happening recently with his "drama"...mostly bc he talked about it on his priv, which im not on, and people are gatekeeping the tweets, as they always do, and basically making you "dm to see them" (which is already a problem in and of itself bc apparently in these tweets he said he didnt want them being ss and shared, yet they are being shared thru dms over and over and over again like. at that point just stop withholding the information and post the fucking shit, you clearly dont care that he said "dont share"). additionally, most of the threads ive seen on this situation havent actually explained the initial issue, just talked about his apology (a lot of people have said "it's bad" but havent said why and with no screenshots ((i havent asked for someone to dm me them and i still havent seen them posted, which is mildly surprising, but incredibly frustrating at this point)), i only have a few basic details i can actually assess it on) or they talked about the initial issue in very vague details so um. excuse me trying to explain this now, but ill try and make it make sense with how little ive actually pieced together.

(oh, also, here's my first rant about the ableism in this fandom which is way more broad. this is a pretty different rant from that one, but they're both pretty big reasons why i hate this fandoms treatment of karl)

so basically the problems started with mr beast being apart of a charity stream that donated either to autism speaks or to a similar company, im unsure on that part. im also unsure on if the people participating in the stream actually knew of this or not bc, from what i remember, the money was being donated to a separate organization that was like. under the bad company or some shit like that, idk how stuff like that works and also i read about this shit months ago bc this originally happened months ago and just sorta came to a head recently.

anyways, i think karl was supposed to be apart of this stream but pulled out of it right before (that or these were two separate streams and karl was supposed to participate in the first but pulled out while mr beast did both?? idk. regardless karl did not actually participate, just mr beast). from there people started doing the guilt from association bullshit they always do, this was also doubled by the fact that the chris being racist stuff came out sometime around then and basically he got dragged all over twitter for "being ableist" and "supporting racists" and i cant remember if he actually apologized when this originally happened or not. i vaguely remember him apologizing about something back then but i genuinely dont know if it was this or something else.

basically that died down eventually, a good chunk of people unstanned him but him and honktwt didnt end up getting the lovely lil technotwt treatment and they still havent yet, surprisingly. good for them honestly ajsksk

but now we get to the past few weeks and apparently something happened with him "laughing at someone saying the r slur" (it was mizkif, i believe), specifically when it was directed at other people, which is a big yikes, obviously, but when karl was called out for this a lot of people kind of. made this into a situation that it wasnt bc um. basically karl didnt laugh at it, he gave a few nervous giggles, as people often do when in a situation like that (and karl specifically said he does this in the one part of his apology tweet which i did stumble upon, although it wasnt the important part of the apology thread bc why would it be) and people fucking crucified him for it. they quite literally dragged a neurodivergent man for supposedly "laughing at the r slur" when he can literally reclaim it and also he was just nervous laughing.

and this is where the situation just gets really bad because they. basically forced him to admit that he was autistic on his priv to apologize for this. i havent seen the screenshots of him saying this, but i saw people discussing it and i am frankly so fucking pissed about this because sure, it was a bad situation, and i understand people wanting an explanation, but an apology? for a neurodivergent man nervous laughing at a slur he can reclaim? and then forcing the man to admit something he literally said in that tweet he didnt want people to know which is why people were being so gatekeepy about it while also LOUDLY discussing the situation, as if that wouldnt drive MORE PEOPLE to look for screenshots and ways to get ahold of this information? and then people had the audacity to call it a "bad apology" when they had quite literally just violated his privacy by forcing him to admit something that he shouldnt have needed to share in the first place if he didnt want to, which he didnt.

and this is why im so pissed off. karl is already constantly picked at and made fun of and called annoying for his neurodivergent traits, things which he literally cant help, things which are generally harmless, and now he was forced into a situation where he can now be further picked at and made fun of and called annoying bc they forced him to admit something private instead of just understanding and accepting that he had been nervous laughing at someone using a slur he has definetly been called for his neurodivergency.

tldr of my thoughts: yes i think karl needed to address this situation, it definetly looked bad, but twitter stans have this sense of entitlement with their ccs and because of that, they consistently take it way too far and harm the people they claim to care about so dearly. we've seen it happen time and time again with dream, but this is the first time ive seen them basically force someone to out themselves to make their apology "valid" and most of them still seem to not want to accept it anyways, which just makes me feel bad for him bc now that info is out their and people are just disregarding it to continue "holding him accountable".

anyways, i think that's all i can really say on this topic rn tbh, if anyone else knows this situation better please feel free to lmk clarifications and ill add them in since, like i said, i know fuck all thanks to twitter being so goddamn hush hush about the important details while simultaneously being the loudest mfers about how much they hate karl now instead of just fucking unfollowing and moving on.

thanks for the ask and im sorry if this is confusing!! i just think this is one of those weird situations where like. i think karl deserved some criticism for what happened and how he handled it or at least he shouldve been asked to address it but that just. isnt what happened, at all. he was harrassed. karl got harrassed and because of that he handled this situation even more sloppily than he probably wouldve and exposed private info about himself that he didnt feel comfortable doing and it just. fucking sucks tbh.

#shit self #asks #karl jacobs #discourse #fandom critical #mcyt fandom critical #dsmp fandom critical #ask to tag #ableism #only reason im even saying what he said in those tweets is bc this situation literally makes no sense otherwise and basically everyone on #twt already fucking exposed this shit to people in and outside the fandom by bitching #long post #bangerz

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