#also i currently have to wifi haha

[djevelbl]

I'd say I felt fancy but nah I just wanted to cook and raided the fridge/pantry — that's just the culmination of thinking hm. maybe I should add this

[falldogbombsthemoon]

Yall haha, my dad made it so I have wifi access for one hour a day. which I can use from like 14 to 21 german time. So once my mobile data is dead, I will not be active that much ig. So please dont think I'm abandoning yall.

[true-blue-sonic]

Do you remember that ask back there suggesting Gold to write stuff and publish on internet?

Because I just had the mental image of her writing a poem about Blaze, then publishing it and someday later, when Blaze is around, Amy comments to the group about a poem she found that almost seems like it was done specifically to Blaze and when she shows it, the tenrec white-pale like paper when she sees that's indeed the poem she wrote

Now that you say it, I remember! ^-^

I love the idea of Gold scribbling out hundreds of verses about lavender fur and eyes as bright as the sun on the water and royal demeanours that leave her knees weak and what-not, putting it away on her hidden account online and turning off all comments and ways for people to interact with it because she feels so awkward about it, poor thing XD I like to think people love it and that she's legit very good at writing poetry, but Gold herself is struggling with accepting that. So she just kind of becomes this enigmatic author who appears on the internet every once in a while to dump like five poems about romance that all center around someone with lavender fur, sunny eyes, and royal demeanours... and when Amy happens to stumble upon her account she's just like "Huh, interesting🤔", haha!

Though I can also imagine that Blaze sees the poem and immediately begins to think of reasons why it isn't about her, because who would she have to write love poetry about her and post it online? The one (1) love of her life doesn't even have access to current-day internet because she only uses futuristic technologies! (Gold begins heavily sweating in the background lmao) (okay but the idea here is probably that Silver just gave her an old cellphone so she could always call for someone even when in the past, and she found out it could connect to wifi and things just went from there XD)

And to make matters even worse, Gold is always nervous, so her immediately turning in a wreck on the spot probably doesn't even catch people's attention that much. But that does mean Blaze can calmly but firmly chastise Amy for making Gold flustered somehow and then take her gf away to calm her down in private :>

[growling]

Ok one more thing about Hundred Line is apparently they are currently hosting a user survey (the links is in the official website) So after the questionare…please tell them to make the characters normal teenagers.

The first question is "please indicate your area of residence" with a bunch of continents listed and I picked Europe and they thanked me for the cooperation and told me to close the browser the poll ended I just thought it was funny. None of them Europeans allowed we've heard enough of you's

So I thought "huh whats up with that" and tested the other options. Asia is fine. North America is fine. Literally anything else listed? The survey just tells you to fuck off. Which like, kinda hilarious. I mean the largest fanbases/people who Buy That Stuff for Danganronpa/THL are in Asia (mostly Japan) and North America (mostly USA) so it makes sense they aren't interested in anything the other ones have to say. But damn. That is cold sjdhfgdajwksdfdskldj. A bunch of people in the twt post comments are pointing this out they're so mad lmaooooo

Ok so I'm going undercover as a north american dude named uhhhh John Freedom. Ok so first question. Gender question ok this is easy I'm getting such a good grade on this. Second question. Age question also a classic. Third question is how you found out about this survey uhhh from the tweeter post yesterday. Ok fourth question. Occupation?? damn shit they gotta know I'm unemployed now. Fifth question devices that you can use freely (to Buy Their Games). Ok I said none I'm actually writing this reply from my family heirloom world war II era calculator connected to wifi. Sixth question. "average amount of money you can spend in a month" ohhhh you rapscallion, I know what you're doing buddy haha you're so silly. Seventh question. Some game events that you have watched recently. I watched none I got no idea what they're talking about. Eighth question select all game streamers slash youtubers you have watched. They're all japanese I think so I don't recognize any of these uhh none. Ninth question select all following games you know of. As in played or just know of. Well now that you mention them existing I know all these this is so easy. Why is among us here. Tenth question oh now this is one for all the games you played haha I see. Eleventh question thoughts on danganronpa v3 uh oh. uh oh. uh oh. I'm gonna pick the "not satisfied with the pricing cus too high" so they take my helpful advice and make that shit cheaper. Ok twelvth question. "why didn't you play rain code but played danganronpa" im sorry i am so sorry im sorry im fucking sorry im sorry okay leave me alone im sorry.

Sigh thirteenth question. Line break cause now they're actually asking about hundred line... "what do you think of it" ohohohoho. what i dont think of it. im just picking options i dont have the energy to submit an essay i just know theyll skim over and disregard. lmaoo one of the options is "i can feel the essence of danganronpa". Oh wait they don't have an essay option that is great. Fourteenth question is what kind of bonuses would you like to receive when you purchase the game. hahaha i do not care. Next fifteenth quesion if tookyo released another game what elements would you look for in it or something. oh they have essay option enabled im gonna say something deeply fucked up and evil but straight from the heart. Sixteenth question. if tookyo releases a game what device would you play it on. None. Next question. Seventeenth question. Final question comments and requests for THL... damn this is hard. Ok I said something profound. Survey ended

I feel empty

[onekisstotakewithme]

How much do you plan WIPs? Is there a master list of some sort you add to or do you keep them in your head? Do you have a place to write fic preference

Hi Lil!

So I fall victim sometimes to this phenomenon I refer to as the Outline Curse (aka "if I outline this too much, I'll lose inspiration") and thus when it comes to planning my stories, I stick to the broadest possible outline.

Does this backfire on me? Only sometimes, shockingly.

Most of the time my WIPs fall under "simple concept, complex execution" (as in, "wow this will be simple" and then it takes me six months...).

My current WIPs are also all multi-chapter, and none of them are moving fast, so they're all unpublished and I'm miserable about that haha. (Is the fact that I'm both working and trying to do grad school affecting my writing output? boy is it ever 😭)

There's mostly a list in my head, though I sometimes write it down when I'm trying to give myself a sense of what's the priority. This usually doesn't work 😂

And I usually prefer to write in my room, but sometimes I'll sit out in the yard, drink my coffee, and knock out a few hundred words. Or I'll be up at the family cabin, devoid of wifi and thus forced to write (ideal solution).

List of "current" TWW WIPs under the cut, just to illustrate my point:

podcast fic (in progress/nearing completion; one shot)

seekrit dating s3 (in progress; multi-chap)

collab fic (in progress/nearing completion; one shot)

awkward post-canon post-break up wedding reunion (in progress; multi-chap)

requiem First Time smut fic (in progress; one shot?)

Presidential Campaign!CJ (in progress; multi-chap).

[an-aroaces-harem]

My first impressions of Morudoru

First of all, my current progress is Xeno's chapter 1 plus skipping through a few bond (called commu here but I prefer bond) stories.

1. The game's a bit buggy. Well, it is new, I had to download it via a third party app and my wifi is not greatest here, so yeah, it's a bit off-putting but I'll survive. But seriously, I had to restart several times to skip the prologue in the memory because it got stuck.

2. At first glance, it has the same features as Ikemen Prince and Ikemen Villains. You know, bond system with voiced lil' scenes, battle with an unknown opponent, story split after chapter 20 and so on. But there are differences. There's no avatar shop, for example. You can put TWO LIs in your room. There seems to be no epilogue. The ends are named differently (Melty and Passion). The CGs are all over the place. With that, I mean that we don't have the usual chapter 1, mid-route and ending CGs. For example, Xeno has a CG in chapter 1, 6, 13, Melty 21, Melty end and Passion end. Or at least I believe they are all CGs because game tutorial said something about 'still cards'. Well, we will see.

Two suitors! Andy my empty room xD

3. Finally, my CG bug didn't follow me to this game. To clarify, Genjiden, Prince and Villains I have the problem of CGs zooming in way too much and support doesn't help me. Anyway, that's a big, fat plus. I only got one CG so far and looks pretty.

4. On to the boys.

Xeno: Chevalier's personality + Ellis' looks minus the murder lust is a very fitting description xD Since he has a personality that shares a lot with my own, he's kinda relatable. Also, black and purple are my favorite colors. I don't regret choosing him first.

Ivy: He's the mom of the group, ngl. And I found a post here on tumblr, translating the little plot summaries. My hot take is that his overprotectivness could kinda turn yandere? If that's true, man's right up my alley haha. And since I followed a bunch of Ivy users, I unlocked his first two bond stories. That's what we get greeted in the second one already:

Half of his shirt is already unbuttoned??? Gonna google translate my way through it later. And black dress shirts totally aren't my weakness.

Jace: Can't say too much about him. I just know that he's a womanizer who caused trouble for the group, so Eito (their manager) asks Rina (our MC) to fake-date him or something like that. And in typical Cybird manner, our playboy seems to be a playboy because of trauma. Can we please get a playboy who just genuinly likes to sleep around for once?

So yeah, that's all for now. Ivy's definitely creeping up my list.

[steamishot]

memorial day weekend

sigh, i’m working on my last class, intermediate accounting III, which is a two part series. i passed my first test and got exemplary grades (lol) and now i have one more to knock out before end of month then i am officially done with my bachelors degree. i feel pretty stressed out on average and can’t wait for the days when i won’t have studying to do after work. 

my director has still not gotten back to me about the new position. i followed up with him a month after he told me the job will be posted in a couple weeks. it’s been like a month and a half now? it’s still pending approval from compliance. anyway, my excitement for it has died down. there’s so many new changes in the populations i deal with in my current role that it’s been quite hectic - GSRs now unionized, new contract ratification for the housestaff and postdocs, voluntary series requiring formal reappointments and downsizing, etc. i don’t know what management’s plan is if i take the new role - i wonder if they’ll pay me a stipend to continue doing my current job until they find someone else. i don’t mind haha

i went to TN/smoky mountains with matt and his parents two weeks ago. the trip was overall nice but it wasn’t totally relaxing because i was worried about completing my degree on time. i felt stressed that the vacation was cutting into my work/studying time. 

we did one night in nashville, 4 nights in ol’ smoky and one last night in nashville before heading back to NY. this was the first time that we flew out in two months (literally an accomplishment for us). after not traveling for a while, we realized how tiring the whole process is. after matt’s 7 days on, we do last minute errands, clean up the apartment, throw out all trash, water my plants, pack, carry our luggages over to the subway, be on the subway for 40-50 minutes (also this time we had a mini celebrity sighting - babish! - who was in the same cart as us), either take a shuttle or airtrain, check in, lounge or not, fly out, fly, deplane, etc. 

the first 3 nights, we all shared a room which was.... too intimate. the second and third night we stayed at a treehouse. matt and i slept on the loft and his parents slept downstairs. the treehouse had an open air concept which i appreciate, but it was cold!!! the office was already closed by the time we checked in so we could not request any more blankets. we all had to layer up with our jackets to be able to sleep that night lol. the second night, i asked for 4 extra blankets and the lady looked at me like i was crazy. 

in TN, i saw ‘hillbillies’/country folk in real setting for the first time lol there was a lot of obesity and visible mobility issues... i did not expect TN to be so lush! under canvas, the luxury tent service, was the highlight of the trip. matt and i had wanted to go to the one in acadia but could not justify the price. we had a big tent with a king sized bed and a little tent with two twins where matt’s parents slept. bathrooms and showers were communal. i am guilty of peeing in front of my tent early morning because i didn’t want to walk over. there also isn’t any cell signal or wifi on-site, which i felt was a good call. it really forces you to be in the moment and unplug from the busyness of life. in comparison, autocamp might be too comfortable to be a real city escape. there’s an ensuite restroom (hot shower, bathroom), high speed wifi, heater and AC, bluetooth/speakers, and a very comfortable tempurpedic mattress. under canvas is the more ‘primal’ luxury option. 

the next thing we may fall prey to is the getaway house. we’re interested in checking out all the marketed glamping services. 

[purplesurveys]

1613

1. Is there a certain place or store you especially hate going to? So we have this local bookstore chain that’s majorly gone down in quality over the years. I used to love going to their branches just to spend half an hour going over their book catalogue and all the pretty school supplies that they had, but it seems as though going to any of their stores these days just feels like walking through a ghost town. Barely any books and all their writing/crafting/whatever supplies scream entry-level/basic. Sometimes I think about how they’re still managing to pull through when customers don’t really walk through their doors anymore.

2. When was the last time you made plans with someone? Earlier this evening Angela, Reena, and I made plans to go out for some drinks then a sleepover at my place next weekend. Separately, Reena and I also plotted out our game plan for snagging Yet To Come tickets tomorrow morning lol.

3. How long do leftovers usually sit in your fridge? It really varies. Some leftovers will be gone within the same day; sometimes we forget about certain Tupperwares until somebody finds mold in it already lmao.

4. What is something you do for other people that shows you care for them? Ask questions about whatever it is they’re sharing.

5. What was the last animal/pet that you met? This jolly little aspin that walked over to us at our Tanay accommodation. According to the staff, he isn’t owned by the place and is most likely a stray who just wandered through the premises, and ugh was he the cutest. He had the most active little tail that wagged more quickly than I’ve seen on any dog hahaha and also liked head scratches.

6. Is there anyone in your life with whom your opinion changes on frequently? My mom. Most of the time we’re in good terms but sometimes her attitude that I hate so much will spike up. The difference between just swallowing it down as a teen vs now is that at 24, I’m pretty much numb to it at this point and will not hesitate to bark back, which will lead to bigger arguments. It’s a big reason why I’m in the belief that we will never have that close mom-daughter relationship that others have; we’re just too fundamentally different from one another.

7. Do you ever look up set lists for concerts? Yeah, I hate not knowing!

8. Have you ever woken up thinking that the dream you had was real? Sure.

9. Have you ever kept a journal? Do you currently keep one? I’m going to count these surveys, which I’ve been doing since I was like 10. I didn’t start archiving them through Tumblrs until I was 14, though.

10. Is there a certain song or band who remind you of specific people? Well yeah, I feel like that’s a very focal and universal point about music; there’ll always be songs that remind you of certain people, memories, experiences, etc.

11. Would you prefer to take a picture of yourself or have someone else take it for you? I never figured out the perfect selfie angle for myself so I’ve always asked other people to take photos of me instead.

12. How often do you style your hair differently from how you normally style it? Not often at all.

13. What was the last thing to really surprise you? How well my pitch went today (honest to god thought we were gonna flunk it into oblivion) + hearing the news about my latest promotion.

14. What did you do this past weekend? I spent the weekend with my family in Tanay. Barely any wifi and no cellphone signal at all for those two days, so we learned to make do with games we thought of off the top of our heads haha. 15. Is there something in particular you always seem to forget? Continued from last night. It’s always the little things. Like forgetting I turned on the water heater to make coffee, charging my phone the night before, where I placed this and that, etc.

16. Have you ever found out that you have been sleep walking? I found out because I was told that I did, yes. But I’ve never woken up mid-sleepwalking, if that’s what you mean.

17. What’s the last thing you promised yourself? That I’m gonna have to work on this thing that I’ve been procrastinating tonight.

18. Have you ever tried making something from one of those short cooking videos? How did it turn out? Does Yoongi’s tuna salad crackers count? I literally made a batch as soon as I watched him making it in that short scene from In the Soop, haha.

19. When was the last time you had to wait in line for longer than a few minutes? Like three weeks ago when I was trying to order food from this deli inside the grocery store. Staff had no sense of urgency and I was getting hungrier by the second, but it didn’t feel as though I was ever gonna get my turn so I just walked away from the line and told my dad we could get drive-thru instead. 20. Have you ever written a review for a product you bought online? Sure, that’s a norm in the K-pop buy-and-sell scene but you mostly review the service and not so much the product.

21. Would you rather go out somewhere with your friends or stay at home and hang out with them instead? Go out with friends! I can easily get bored at home.

22. Do you ever interact with any brands/companies online? If I have a concern or complaint, yeah.

23. How happy are you with your current job? If you don’t have a job, what’s something you think you think you would dislike about working? I have my ups and downs with it. I got promoted again so my personal morale is a bit higher right now, but of course I get bad days too.

24. Is there anything you seem especially sensitive to, such as sounds, smells, etc.? Yesssss, I’m sensitive when it comes to certain sounds like when somebody scrapes their utensils against their plate a certain way and it makes this high-pitched sound that I can’t stand. Also loud bangs, slamming doors...I hate those.

25. What was the last board game you played? No idea. 

[weabooweedwitch]

Nah man, I really don’t think you have to feel guilty about us worrying and caring about you. Like, this is your blog and you can overshare as much as you want here. It’s 100% on us for sticking around and cheering for you.

Glad to hear that your motel costs are already covered and you got the luggage worry cleared up. And even better that you got an early paycheck so quickly! 🎉

And aww, don’t worry about things being awkward! Your friend is probably feeling the same way, but hey, you two are friends in the end so I’m sure you’ll hit off in real life perfectly fine! (I know it sounds cheesy, and it’s easier said than done to not worry, plus it’s hypocritical coming from me who worries about that whenever I meet people fjskdjdkd) And if not, eh, at least you have a week all for yourself with no responsibilities in Canada! That’s super cool, too!!

Since you’re saying that it sucks, I was wondering: are international data plans expensive? :o I used an eSIM back then, and IIRC it was only like $15 for 5GB (and that was more than enough for me). But eh, of course that’s a data only plan so regular phone calls couldn’t be made (wifi calls are fine tho).

So I currently use Straighttalk as my cell provider and I kind of just googled "straighttalk plan that includes calls and mobile data in Canada" and it's a $60 plan which, uh, that's a lot imo for something I'll only need a week and also given my current financial situation, but it lasts a whole month and I think it give some like 25 GBs of mobile data which is actually twice as much as what I get for my basic monthly plan so maybe it's kind of worth it? Kinda? It's just important I have my phone for multiple reasons especially if there is an emergency so I gues i have no choice but it still blows

I'm glad you guys are so sweet because as you've all become intimately aware, I dont exactly alway have the best support system besides my online buddies. My mom has just made a lot of comments about this trip and even outright asking me if im going to have sex with my friend and like, even when I hit mistakes a few times she would kind of rub my nose in it and say things like "well I told you not to do XYZ"

I'm just in a constant on and off state of Going Through Some Shit and any validation that I'm not a compete failure wasting space on our planet is always welcome haha

[ijustcantwaittobeme]

ZR characters & questions

*waves* Hello ZR community and fandom! I know it’s been awhile but I wanted to toss this out to you all if that’s cool. ^_^ What character(s) would you say from ZR are motivating/inspiring for you and or your Five? It can be Sam or it can be any character from ZR but what is it about them that inspires you or motivates something good for you on a weird run or day?

You also can use quotes or something they’ve done or said, I’m just curious on what ZR characters resonate with you guys the most and why if possible. I’ll do my best to answer with my own soon (and actually be back on this week) but -- things have been kind of rough recently and I know we all go through it, whether for personal reasons or even from an exercising standpoint... I’m sure that a lot of us have had some awful or harsh workouts that kind of left things feeling rougher or bleaker in that regard as well. I’m not sure if what I am saying or even if my question is making a lot of sense but if anyone wants to share feel free but also no obligation to do so! Would love to know what everyone’s thoughts are but no obligation either! This is just a curiosity of mine and I hope that everyone is doing well here. Been missing you guys. ^_^ *waves for now*

[carpisuns]

Hello :)

You always give the best recommendations.

Do you have some Adrinette and Marichat recs (art and writing)?

Fluff and happy endings are very appreciated.

Thank you! (I hope you are well) 🤍

Oh thank you 😌 I pride myself on enjoying good things djdjdk

i've recced a lot of these before so sorry alksdfja they're just so good! also sorry i aways go overboard with recs lol I CANT HELP IT, PEOPLE MAKE SUCH GOOD THINGS THAT I LOVE

this list ended up very long so I’m putting it under a cut fjdjdm

adrienette fics:

golden (like daylight) by @anna-scribbles — FAV FAV FAV literally so exquisitely written, gorgeous prose, lots of nuance and it all ties together to perfectly at the end HNNNG it has some Angst but it’s also very soft and the end is so fluffy💜💜

more than words by @zimtlein — another current fav, ongoing wip!! adrienette fake dating, angst but also lots of humor and shenangians (pre reveal pre relationship)

Operation Mega Sleepover by @smellerbeee — literally the purest sweetest adrienette friendship ever 😭(pre reveal pre relationship)

Comfort Food by Reiaji — GORGEOUSLY written adrienette bonding thru cooking lessons 🥺(ft. reveal)

the right side of his face by @hamsternamedmarinette — i just really love this, it's well written and i think it shows their relationship in a beautifully nuanced way 💜(pre reveal pre relationship)

new marinette by @rosekasa — this is a marinette memory loss fic so it's so sad but it has a perfect happy ending, dw! (alizeh also has tons of fluffy adrienette oneshots so check them out too!)

the roses still bloom by @botherkupo — this one is sad but so sweet and pure i just 🥺🥺🥺 platonic hurt/comfort, pre-reveal

Make It True by @ominousunflower — prpr closet makeout alkjdfasf

Plaggatouille by @gabriel-agreste-has-no-rights — peak adrienette shenanigans + cute reveal!

Short-Circuited by @mikachu-chu — this fic has such cute chaotic energy hdjdjd I love it. ft that one Electric Love tiktok trend 👀

Photograph by @sha-nwa — this one makes me cry but it's still fluffy just like.......bittersweet 😭(post reveal, established relationship)

marichat fics:

the way i loved you by @sha-nwa — FAV, ongoing wip that owns my entire mind!!!!! painful but so so good and beautifully written 😭

a lie for a lie by @botherkupo — I always gotta rec this one, Kim’s a fantastic writer and this is one of the first things I read in the fandom and it’s still on of my favs! Marichat fake dating (kim also has tons of other amazing marichat, check out all of it lol but Glad We’re Friends is so sweet and I’ll Be Your (Wing)Man is hilarious)

spark by @zimtlein — marichat tinder fic that starts out silly but evolves to be more angsty and it's like a delicious slow reveal aaa

home is where your wifi connects automatically by @zimtlein — cute marichat reveal!

Madame Snare by @jettiebettie — possibly my fav marichat fic ever aaaa such a good, in-character, canon-compatible exploration ft adrien (detransformed) acting as chat who is pretending to be a female model asflkadsjf i cry it's perf

Loopholes by @gabriel-agreste-has-no-rights — I don't think I've recced this before but it's such a cute and sweet marichat reveal! (also check out Tali's other marichats bc they're the best,,,I will mention Charcoal Lines but literally they're all my fav haha. ok also read Tastes Like Dirt. And Your Kitty. And The Wrong Balcony. Screw it all of them!!! dhsjsm)

Ladies’ Choice by @smellerbeee — this has been a fav for a long time, she just gets them and I love Kim’s writing 😌

where timing is kind to us by @deinde-prandium — this one is so sweet I just really like it 🥺 they’re nerds and they’re in love

A Breath of Fresh Air by @trashcatontherooftop — I’ve reces this a bunch before but it’s such a perfect wholesome brand of marichat dancing that like bt platonic and romantic!! wip

these are more like drabbles but they're so delicious i wanted to include them as some Tasty Tidybits

and i never saw you coming by @bugabisous — marichat fluff

i feel you holding me (tighter, i cannot see) by @botherkupo — marichat angst

This one is adrienette and marichat so it deserves its own category haha but How to Be a Hot Mess by @botherkupo is so cute and fun!

as for art!!!! here are some of my fav adrienette and marichat pieces :) these artists all have tons more amazing content so I highly recommend checking them out!

umbrella scene by @jascurka

adrienette sleepover by @anna-scribbles

post-reveal adrienette by @sweet-childhood-dreams

ML Amalie by @shishitsunari

Adrienette Phinbella by @inkshila

adrienette cuddles by @leviaana

umbrella adrienette by @nokkiart

Weredad animation by @bugaboo-n-bananoir

cute marichats by @thechatsmeow

marichat movie night by @queenlypirate

marichat sketch dump by @eona-art

midnight spaghetti by @cat-saturn

reverse crush animation by @miraculouslylazybug

marichat dating by @sabertoothwalrus

grocery store marichat by @matchalaatte

marichat cooking by @zivazivc

comfy marichat by @secondlina

[idiot-detectives]

I apologize for the wait but @itssagaruu I was your secret Santa! I didn't have wifi for a long time and got sick with a cold so I apologize if this fic is a mess haha...

I wanna apologize to @dcmksecretsanta for taking so long but also thank you for hosting this event!!

An Outing With Five Children.

I'm currently writing on mobile so I will update this when I have access to desktop.

Conan swallowed nervously. A thick tension hung in the air, a knife could barely pierce it. Today was supposed to be a fun day, a day where the small detective could finally relax and not worry about any murders.

But now, as Okiya and Amuro glared daggers at each other, Conan had to worry about who was going to murder who first. How did he get into this situation in the first place??

… Oh right, the professor is sick and Ran had extra karate practice to get to. Somehow, a miscommunication led to both Amuro and Okiya chaperoning the Detective boys trip to the newest amusement park. Haibara had immediately claimed to have to take care of the professor as soon as she found out Okiya was chaperoning. Without her, It was up to Conan to take care of both the two feuding adults and the children who never seemed to stop getting into trouble.

He sighed. If he came out of this alive, he was going to take a long trip to anywhere but Tokyo. Even Osaka seemed more appealing than this right now. 

Ayumi grabbed Amuro’s sleeve, pulling him away from his glaring contest with Okiya.

“Ne, Amuro-Niisan? Can we go ride the super coaster first??” She gleefully begged.

The other kids joined in, pulling the two adults in different directions. Mitsuhiko thought it would be better to go see the games first, since the coaster had a huge line. Genta agreed with Ayumi, However it was Okiya who made the final decision. 

“Why don’t we go and see what there is first?” He suggested, “The line should go down as we explore. Much better than waiting for a long time, right?” 

The kids frowned slightly but admitted he had a point. 

“Hold on, Why don’t I take Ayumi and Genta to the Super Coaster and we wait in line? That way I can hold our spots and let Conan know when we’re close to the front?” Amuro spoke up.

“But then we’d be having fun without you guys!” Mitsuhiko protested. 

The other two protested as well, forcing Amuro to follow begrudgingly. Conan could see in his eyes he didn’t want to be anywhere near Okiya if he could help it. But at the same time there was something that just kept him near the man. It puzzled the young detective, their relationship confused him. 

(HIm, It was him that kept Amuro from leaving.)

The games weren’t that special, themed of course to the park’s theme but otherwise didn’t have anything too special to those at other parks. Some ring toss booths that Conan could never remember winning in his life, A water shooting game with the balloon that pops, and numerous easy to win games for the children who were too young for the skill based stuff, just to name a few. But what attracted the detective boys was the infamous shoot the star out game. They eagerly paid the tickets needed to play and grabbed the bb pellet gun, aiming carefully. As soon as the buzzer rang they began shooting rather erratically, exhausting the ammo in mere moments. The papers with the small stars pulled forwards as the attendant took them and inspected the torn pieces of paper. Genta frowned as he found he did the worst out of the three, leaving nearly the entire star untouched. 

“Man! This game is unfair!” 

“Then why did you play it then?” Conan muttered.

“Okiya-Niisan, Amuro-niisan, Conan Why don’t you give it a try?” Mitsuhiko suggested, holding his nearly shot out paper. 

There was a small bit of red left, meaning he didn’t get a prize either. 

“Ah, I don’t-” Conan began to speak but Okiya interrupted him.

“We’d love to, Wouldn’t we? Amuro-san?” He calmly spoke, Glancing to the cafe worker.

“Of course, It sounds fun.” Amuro stepped up and took the gun from where genta stood. 

Okiya followed suit by taking Ayumi’s place, inspecting the gun’s weight in his hands. 

Conan felt a bead of sweat fall down his neck. Amuro was doing the same thing, nearly the same actions as Okiya. These two really were more alike than they thought. Conan sighed and took a spot between the two, picking up the gun. The two secret agents gasped quietly, both grabbing the gun in front of Conan. Their eyes met, first with surprise but slowly turned to a subtle glare. 

"What do you think you're doing?" Amuro kindly asked Okiya. 

"I believe I was going to show Conan-kun here how to properly shoot a gun of this kind."

'It was just a BB pellet gun', Conan miserably thought. 

"I see, you've shot BB guns before then,  Okiya-san?"

"I have, back in America."

"What a coincidence, I have too. How many years?"

"About 4, I'd say."

"Oh?  Well I have 5 years of shooting behind me."

"I see,  I see…  But have you considered.."

Their level headed argument continued,  under the guise of conversation.  The detective boys watched with awe but Conan could tell, the two agents were arguing over him. The attendant sighed, leaning on his elbow and hand.  

"I don't get paid enough for this." Cojan heard him softly mutter. 

 Eventually, Amuro conceded the gun to Okiya with a well hidden pout as Okiya began to show Conan how to use it. 

“Ah… thanks, Okiya-niichan…” He muttered.

‘Not like I didn’t already know how to use one…’

With that thought, the three took their places and waited for the bell.  With a loud, deafening tone the three began to shoot the rapid fire pellets.  

Within moments, the stars were pulled forward and the kids gasped.  Both Okiya and Amuro had neatly shot out their own star.  Conan had as well but it wasn't as neat as the other two, a few stray pellets hitting the edge of the paper. 

The two agents looked at each other's paper,  Conan felt deep in his bones what was going to happen next. 

"Ah, you're quite adept at that, aren't you Okiya-san?"

"You're not as bad yourself, however you did miss a small bit right… there."

The kids swarmed Amuro's paper, where the smallest, most microscopic dot of black was left.  The worker shrugged.  

"I'll allow it.  What do you three want?"

The two adults ignored him, continuing their small squabble.  Both Conan and the worker sighed.  

"We'll take whatever you wanna give us." Conan muttered.  

The worker nodded, forcing three plushies into Conan's arms.  

He turned to the adults, a defeated look on his face.  

"What do you think, Conan-kun?!"

"Your thoughts,  Conan-kun?" 

The two turned to the small detective who simply blinked with surprise. 

"Ah… " his eyes darted back and forth, looking for salvation,  "look!  The line for the coaster is down!  Let's go!"

He darted off, the other detective boys cheering with glee.  The other adults were forced to quit their childish argument and follow, much to their frustration.  

Maybe this outing wasn't going to be as bad as Conan thought. 

Perhaps it would be worse. 

[harbingers-appointed]

Cell service is back online!

Huzzah! Now I am able to answer some text based asks and do other things that don't require a lot of data ! (I only have a limited amount haha)

The people that'll get the WiFi up and running won't be here until Tuesday the 19 (agh frustrating)... so won't be able to upload any art or anything data heavy unless its relatively low resolution... either way I'd rather wait until I have Internet because I don't want to go over my data limit- it's unlikely! But would rather not risk it...

My right hand is also very weirdly swelled and sore (likely from all the lifting these past few days)... hoping that'll calm down soon so I can draw again.

More packing of the remaining stuff from the old place happens tomorrow (wee so...fun) and I get my new mattress tomorrow too! (Have to sleep on the couch currently- haha ouch my body)

This is just a Boring life update that sadly effects progress on the game.

Hoping things can resume when I'm more settled 🙏

I really forgot how exhausting moving can be...

-Vee

[Might answer some simple asks later tonight]

[r-ene]

07.19.22 - sign of life and what's up

Hello !! hmm... yes I didn't update on anything I said I'll be doing this summer break for several reasons but here's some life update, in case any of you are interested, haha.

just got off a 2-week no phone (because it decided to "overheat" and never turn on again) and of literally no social media use. it was a fun, peaceful, 0% anxiety activity I might go on again soon while I still have a month or so in my break. planned on going on this fast long ago, during my gap year but since I felt very anxious from getting away from soc med and stuff I guess my phone decided it was time for me to go on the fast at this time.

as soon as I get a new phone I might do this academic year's 100 days of productivity challenge again as I plan to do advance studying as well as to reinforce my study habits again.

all in all, I'll be going through uni in 6 years, including my gap year because I wasn't able to cross enroll this midyear term as our 2nd semester ended late compared to other unis. So I plan on registering on just my majors this 3rd year and take Mandarin and the rest of the minors I haven't taken on my 4th year together with my thesis.

well, until I start my 100dop for this new school year, I might just continue to be off social media as much as I can and make the most of my summer break with reading non-academic books, watching movies/series'/vlogs and do some advance studying :)

currently reading:

To Room Nineteen by Doris Lessing

Becoming by Michelle Obama

currently watching:

Warm and Cozy (kdrama)

plan on rewatching Happiness (kdrama)

also doing some catching up on the news since we didn't have wifi for a week, haha. I hope everyone's well, I'll try to post as soon as I can 🤍☁️

here's one of my favorite spotify playlists I usually play after a long day of chores and errands with a cup of tea or coffee

[maeelizabethg]

NEWBORN MUST HAVES (FIRST 4 WEEKS)

I’m back again with a complete list of items we used in Quinns first month of life! Every parent is different, and every baby is different but these are the items we have used in her first four weeks. If something is straight forward I’ll just link the item, but if we use an item for a specific reason I’ll list why so you can see if that scenario seems right for you as well.

NIGHTIME

Arms up Swaddle : We switched to this one on night two at home because she could roll on her side and it scared the heck out of me! She was born with a large head (don’t worry she is back down to 52 percentile - haha) and the arms up swaddle keeps her head from rocking her to the side.

Halo Bassinet with this mattress cover (x2) and the SOFTEST sheets : She sleeps in her bassinet exclusively at night and I LOVE it. It swivels 360 degrees, has mesh sides incase she were to ever get pressed up against the sides she could still breathe, the side comes down to place her in, and the adjustable height allows you to have baby right next to you in bed.

Hatch Sound Machine : I know this seems like an expensive purchase but I love it so much. You can make multiple custom settings so all you have to do is tap the top. For example, I have three settings set up for nighttime feeding - sound + brighter light, sound + dimmer light + and sound with no light. You can also use it when they are older and make a setting for colorful lights to come on and off to tell them when it’s time to get up.

Owlet Sock : Lots of controversy around this item but we are big fans.

Zipper PJs : Double zip PJs or magnetic Pjs all of the way!

Travel baby monitor : I use this baby monitor when she naps in her bassinet during the day and will take it when we start traveling. No wifi needed!

Books : I highly recommend asking your baby shower host to do “books instead of cards” because we have a great library of books now and reading to her at night is our favorite time of day! I also got a library card and have stocked up on more books to read to her because that’s how much we love it.

Crib / mattress / sheets: she has technically taken one nap in her crib so I’m listing that, the mattress, waterproof cover, sheet, and monitor (I don’t love the monitor to be honest).

BATHTIME

Bathtub

Water Thermometer : This gives me peace of mind knowing the water is the right temp. We use it every time.

Shampoo : Your choice on what you use, but this is what we currently have.

Swaddle Blanket : We use a swaddle blanket in her bath and she loves it. She screamed before we started doing this. This is my favorite swaddle brand here but any swaddle blanket will do!

Rinse cup

Spout Cover

Kneeler and Elbow Rest

Toy Bin for bath toys that drains the water out.

Bathtoys

COMFORT/PLAY

Solly Wrap : These wraps take some learning to use, but I love them because it keeps baby warm and snuggled up against you like they were in the womb. Perfect especially when they are super new.

Ergo Carrier : We only started using this now because she is getting used to life outside of the womb and is more aware.

Boppy with Covers : We use the Boppy, the waterproof cover, and the regular cover for feeding and to prop her up for tummy time.

Bouncer : Hands down my most used item!! It’s incredibly compact, can be folded flat, and she loves it!

Swing : Not her or my favorite item (because it’s massive), but we occasionally get her to use it.

Lovevery playgym : (shop here or on Amazon) This gets used EVERY day - we love it so much I have this extra sensory strand to go with it! I know it’s pricey but it comes with mirrors, black and white cards, tons of sensory items and can be turned into a tent.

Oball Rattle

Safari Block from WeeGallery

Mombella Mushroom

Musical Star Toy

Crinkle Book for entertainment out and about

DIAPERING

Diaper rash cream : We tried several but are liking this one the best so far.

2 sizes of diapers : Find what diapers work best for you but hold off on opening your newborn ones until you know for sure your baby can fit in them. Quinn was 9lbs+ so she used newborn diapers for a veryyyy short amount of time. You can exchange any unused diapers at Target.

Diaper Cream Spatula : We keep the large one at her changing table in her nursery and the smaller one in the changing basket in our room. I’m about to buy another small on for my diaper bag.

Ava + Oliver Changing Mats : We love these vegan leather changing mats! So easy to wipe clean. We have three of them!

Wipes : So far Water Wipes and Sensitive Wipes are our favorites.

Ubbi Diaper Pail - We have no issues with smell and you don’t need special bags.

Wipe Dispenser from Ubbi

Plum and Sparrow Changing Basket : This is the one in her room.

Diaper Caddy : We keep this in our room for middle of the night feeds and change her on our bed. During the day we change her in her room at the changing table. It holds our diapers, diaper cream, diaper cream spatula, changing mat, and wipes.

TRAVEL

Carseat : At the time of writing this our carseat is the lightest on the market. Love it!

Everyday Stroller : I LOVE our Nuna stroller. It folds up with one hand.

Jogging Stroller : We use this jogging stroller with the Nuna carseat adaptor.

Car Camera

Car Seat Protector

Freshly Picked Diaper Bags : This is my everyday bag and I just got this one to use if I need something that looks more like a purse. Both are vegan leather!

Stroller Bag - it’s washable!

Travel Sound Machine - used this in the hospital, in her room, and I take it with us.

Travel Wipes Case that I keep in my diaper bag

MISC

Nail Trimmer : Using clippers is scary so I recommend this nail trimmer 100%!

Neeva Sanitizer : You definitely don’t need a sterilizer this big, but I do use it often and like it.

Newborn Milestone Discs : I use these for cute photos.

Burp cloths : I have several but these are my favorite so far.

Booties : I use these booties from Amazon and these booties from Goumi (code MAE for 15% off) way more than socks.

Hats : babies need to stay warm and I used these hats - here, here and here.

Thermometer : this one and this rectal one.

Fan : We used this fan when it was still warm outside. Mostly for me, haha, but I plan to attach it to her stroller when it gets hot again.

CLOTHING

I like to dress up Quinn! Click here for my Amazon clothing finds, Goumi Kids (code MAE for 15% off), and my LTK.

FEEDING

See this blog post for a complete list of my breastfeeding items!

MAMA RECOVERY ITEMS

See this blog post for a complete list of my c-section recovery items!

[earthlyemily]

I’m struggling so much financially and honestly just wanted to vent somewhere. I’ve always lived in poverty and I think in my whole life I’ve had maybe 2 years where I didn’t have to stress about money and not be able to buy groceries or pay rent or be put into collections for not being able to make payments etc and that was when I was in college. For at least the past 5 years I’ve been struggling but I never talk about it. I don’t even know where to start haha I don’t even know what it’s like to not stress financially and be in debt. I’ll just start with the first things that come to mind with what I’m owing maybe. So it’s Dec. 23 and rent was due yesterday because we moved into this small suite attached to someone’s house on Nov. 22. It’s $1200 which is so expensive, but also the average price for BC if not even cheaper for a one-bedroom with a yard, utilities included. and no first and last, no pet deposits, etc because this is just short them for 4 months until the end of March because i reached out and asked and they said yes.

After 1 month I already remember why we went into the trailer almost 2 years ago and it’s literally because we can’t afford any other lifestyle. I think that’s the difference between us and some people that live in trailers, vans, etc. like we lived in a mouse & mouse shit infested trailer for 6 months breathing in their feces and urine and having it all over all our belongings. i literally had to take my whole life to the dump and we officially have no food storage because they ruined it all. there were at least 50-60 mice because a few birth cycles happened in the ceiling. I could write a whole post about my experience of living with field mice, but now isn’t the time so for rent, i only had $600 yesterday so that’s what I gave them. thank goodness they were okay with me asking for a few more days to make the other half. but I don’t even know when that’s going to be :(

my etsy shop veganveins has been doing so bad lately for more than one reason, most of my orders are just postcards and stickers, and while I’m grateful for them, that $1-3 profit isn’t going to keep my business going. and it’s so hard for me to work lately. the wifi doesn’t work sometimes for hours and I always get distracted by shawn and the dogs working from home in a small space. I need to get better at my time management. I got up at 8:30 today which is actually early for me so I’m proud of myself. I’m chronically ill and I really need to go get a blood test and see what’s happening because I haven’t gotten one since being diagnosed with graves disease again 1.5 years ago. anyways. i switched to a print on demand method this year for veganveins for some shirts and sweaters because i couldn’t afford to keep ordering shirts in bulk, and it’s honestly been so, so expensive and i barely make any profit. I’m currently owing my t-shirt printer $999 on one invoice (it was originally $2196 so I’ve at least paid half of it) but that was 2 weeks ago and I still need to pay it. Mario, my t-shirt printer has been with me since I started veganveins and I’m so grateful he gives me extensions on paying the invoices. every other t-shirt printer I’ve ever asked has said no. in addition to the $999 there’s going to be another $2200 invoice I’ll be receiving this week for my last order. I think because of the holidays he’s going to give me some time to pay off that too, but the problem is when I have outstanding invoices he doesn’t print new orders for me. He’s closed now until Jan. 4 so I just need to somehow make that much before then.

btw I don’t have a credit card ($8500 all used on veganveins and it got put into collections last march) and I had a fully used $5000 line of credit but I got a debt consolidation loan for $16,000 1 month ago and my payment for that is $167 a month. it fully paid off and closed my credit card and line of credit + $3000 overdraft which is nice. but now I don’t have any extra money except for what comes in. my credit is only 640 which is really bad in canada so I won’t get approved for a new credit card or loan until I build that up, which is going to be a few months of regular payments. so for regular payments, the $167 for the loan is due on Dec. 27. Yesterday the trailer loan which is literally unliveable from what the mice did until we renovate it came out for $260, that’s how much I pay once a month for it on the 22nd. I didn’t have $260 in my account so it got rejected and I got charged a $48 NSF fee. omg if anyone is reading this long i’m shook. i’m genuinely just writing this for myself to process my feelings and in case anyone was curious about my financial situation here you go haha. maybe some of you can relate, maybe some can’t. anyways. so now I somehow have to get $260 in my account for that for when they try to take it out again in the next few days.

another payment that was supposed to come out yesterday but hasn’t, but I’m sure will come out today is our truck loan. they deferred it for 8 months because of covid which was so nice, but we started paying it again 2 months ago. for both those months I called and made my payment a later date and that helped, but there’s barely any service here so when I called 4 times yesterday to try and change the date the payment comes out, I was on hold for 20-30 mins then my phone would disconnect and hang up. so that’s $586 and it will come out today, I have $0.46 in my account right now so it will get rejected and I’ll get charged another $48 NSF fee. this is why being poor always costs more and the banks are always harsher on those who don’t have money. today I’ll try calling again to see if I can ask for it to come out on a different day like january 10 instead, so I can first have time to pay rent and the trailer and also our $190 truck insurance which got rejected from my account 3 days ago, which was another $48 NSF fee. oh and something else i’m so stressed about is CIBC is going to put me into collections on December 28 if I don’t pay $1000, $700 of which is purely their fees. I have a $300 overdraft which they said i have to cover by then and the $700 is literally their $48 fees added up over the past 3 months. I got a text from them today saying my account is over and it’s because an amnesty international $11 monthly donation came out and obvi there’s no money in there, so that’s another $48 they charged. they’ve already given me a month to pay it and don’t want to wait any longer :(

I owe everyone in my family money, my sister $1650, my mom $700 and my brother also lent me $700. none of my siblings have money either and my mom definitely doesn’t so I hate that i had to borrow that much, and it’s literally been months. thankfully they’re so patient but i can’t wait to not owe them that

omg and i can’t even think about the amount of money shawn’s grandma has lent us. she’s genuinely the only reason we haven’t been completely homeless. but it’s a lot. like i don’t even want to say the number on here. she let us use it from her line of credit over the years and we’ve been slowly paying her back, but she lets us go months at a time without making a payment which i honestly hate doing, but have no choice. i’ve felt a lot of shame and guilt about this, but I also know that she genuinely would rather help us than see us suffer.

so i’m gonna talk about a big reason I’m broke this month especially - saving a pig named buster. his rescue cost me $1850 out of pocket that I didn’t have. but otherwise he was going to be killed in 2 days, he was my baby and I loved him so I had to do it. I somehow made $1350 that went towards it but I’m still owing $500, which I just asked for an extension for today until the new year. i’m not really supposed to talk about it but everything I’ve ever posted here has stayed here, so that cost was literally just from me buying the pig off the farmer. myself along with everyone else ive talked to is disgusted that he charged that much, but he wasnt budging and if that’s what it was going to take, of course I’m going to do it. I wouldn’t think twice about doing it for my dogs and Buster was smarter and more affectionate than them. i love him and I’m so happy he was saved. a non-profit organization transported him to a sanctuary and it was my biggest wish come true and the happiest moment I’ve had all year. my eyes are literally tearing up haha i love him so much. i could write a whole post about his neglect but basically he hasn’t had fresh water in weeks, he was only being fed handfuls of mixed nuts, he was constantly dirty in a muddy enclosure with an electric fence that he was always getting shocked on. he never got true love or affection except for when I gave him it. i posted an instagram story about him and asked people to message me and that i needed help, 2 people donated $111 and $120 each, and 2 other people donated $15 and $12. Someone also e-transferred me $20. These 4 donations equaled almost $300 ($277) and I was so grateful for those people wanting to help me help buster. if anyone else wants to help me with the cost of his rescue i still do need help and would appreciate it so much. this feels really weird and vulnerable for me to do and i’m sorry if anyone is annoyed by this post, I just genuinely am struggling and figured if someone does have extra and wants to help, there isn’t harm in that. but i do feel guilty for asking because i know there are so many other people struggling out there that need even more help than i do :(

i haven’t talked about it publically but i guess I will now, this farmer that I bought buster off of is the owner of the organic vegetable farm i was living and working at this past spring and summer. we worked really hard all summer to be able to stay there and park for free in the winter, but this past fall he told us no one was allowed to stay at the farm anymore, including us, so we had to find a new place to bring our 14ft trailer in to live. so that was an unexpected bummer and if we had known we wouldn’t be allowed staying there anymore (despite doing the labour of $1200 a month for free harvesting organic kale, for an off-grid spot he told us was worth $350 a month to park) we wouldn’t have driven 8 hours with the trailer and we would have stayed in the snow in northern BC and sucked it up and lived on the land we got the opportunity to rent this fall. Donna, the woman who is renting the land to us has been the biggest blessing in my life this year. I love her so much. Basically, she’s letting us live on 170 acres for $600 a month. letting us do whatever we want on the land (building a cabin, setting up rainwater catchment systems, having a solar passive greenhouse and a huge garden) LIKE WHAT. we could even open a farm sanctuary if we had money, i wanted to so bad but obviously that dream didn’t even come close to being reality. opportunities like this literally don’t exist in canada, especially not in BC. i cant even process my gratitude, i cry everytime i think about it. when we go back in the spring it’s going to be the beginning of the rest of our life :) i want to rescue so many senior dogs. everything we’ve always wanted to do we’ll be able to do, assuming we have money haha. but i want to have an organic farm and grow veggies to donate to families in need, especially since we live on stolen indiginious land and I see how the goverment actively restricts their access to fresh healthy produce. but anyways by then it was too dangerous to drive 8 hours back hauling a trailer in the snow and it was just easier to stay in the okanagan until the spring. i know the farmer probably doesn’t realize this and he’s also probably struggling financially but not being able to stay at the farm for the winter months we worked for, and buying buster for that price is a big reason I’m in the financial stress I am now so I figured i’d talk about it.

anyways. i think this is long enough and i think anyone reading this gets the point, i’m drowning in debt, my small business is almost costing me more to run and i’m not making nearly enough profit to live, the past few months ive been living off grid (not by choice) and just focused literally on surviving and not freezing and getting water etc and not having service or internet has affected me negatively. there’s internet now in the suite I’m in, it works really good in the morning and not as well at night, like for example tumblr doesn’t work past 5 pm for me to post photos. but ive been in a bad sleep schedule since i got here that i need to change. im sick and i need to heal myself. tomorrow i’ll set my alarm for 7:30. hopefully i make some money today. i got a social media managing job and it will end up being $1000 a month once i do the 3+ hours a day of work which im already feeling like i barely have time for my own basic life tasks. but i can do this.

if anyone reading this wants to help me out a bit, my paypal email is emilymiddin@hotmail.com or http://www.paypal.com/paypalme/veganveins

and my e-transfer email is emilymiddin@icloud.com i have auto deposit so you won’t have to ask a question :)

this is my first time in 7 years i’ve made a post like this or asked for help. i won’t do it again but figured i have nothing to lose. if you read up to here i love you a lot and thank you so much for being here <3