#also goofy perspective ig

[maggyoutthere]

This song will be the end of me it's not even funny anymore

[spyxfamily-yapper]

With Mother's Day passing I've just been thinking about the relationship between Yor and Anya and how FAMILY the Forgers are.

Which sounds so silly bc it's literally called Spy x Family HZJZ BUT I'm just so obsessed with how they're so...FAMILY

I've always loved the juxtaposition of the fake Forger family with the other real families like Damian's and how this pretend family is so much more real than most other families. It may just be for the mission or to cover the assassin job but man these silly goofy guys truly love and care for each other despite everything and gosh darn it!!! it makes me!!! !!!

Thinking about Yor specifically in the mother role, I feel like she has a lot against her in different ways. Firstly, she is obviously not her real mother, and not even Loid's actual wife, and that's mutually understood. So there's no real reason to really care in this fake arrangement aside from keeping up appearances for others. She also is not the traditional mother from the perspective of others in more ways than one. To others (and to herself ig), she's the step mother, filling the role of one she'll never measure up to in the eyes of her new husband and child. She also does not do typical "wifely" things that are expected at the time like cooking.

DESPITE ALL THAT. Yor is such a great mom!!!! I feel like it was so much easier for her to step into the role of a mother than it was to step into the role of a wife. Part of that comes from her inexperience with what relationships are supposed to look like and her experience with raising Yuri, but I think it's mainly because she is at her core a caring person. She will do her very best to help others even if it is at her own expense. Like with the old woman who was robbed during one of the first Forger family outings--Yor immediately stepped in to try to help without hesitation. That's just who she is. And that's what she did with Anya. She supports and defends Anya as if she were her own child (and she really is her child is who are we kidding).

Despite all the forces that are against her, despite her inexperience, despite one of her biggest obstacles of low self-esteem, she never stops trying to be a good mother to Anya. She gives everything, and she constantly feels like it's not enough and Anya deserves better. And I just. RAAAH. That's more than a lot of real parents can say.

(warning I will be yapping about the Forgers' family-ness again Code White made me feRAL)

[rocketbirdie]

Have you ever drawn Sephiroth? Also my favorite post of urs is Cloud and Zack chained together and getting caught by a poll XD ALSO ALSO how do u find an art style?? I've been asking this question to a lot of ppl but never get anything that helps me- my "art style" is always inconsistent and I'm trying to do something that expression how I feel as a person while drawing a character (but maybe it's because as a person I'm all over the place and I can't pinpoint how to express myself) I can give a little ref for a few of my drawing to show how inconsistent they are😓 though some things stay the same a lot of other things change (people say I'm hard on myself but I feel like it needs to look a certain way for me to like it ig also also also the 2nd drawing was a fixed version of the og because it was well elongated.. can you tell im no good at anatomy-?)

ANYWAYS SORRY FOR THE RANT!! 😓

HI NO WORRIES FOR THE RANT!! Regretfully I have not drawn a whole lot of Sephiroth... perhaps that shall change someday? 🤔

Hmm I think I know what most people's advice would be, like "oh don't worry about art style just do whatever you like!" and yes, that's kinda true, but it's not really helpful. So here's my thoughts on the matter:

I find that the best approach to finding a style that fits you is to start by identifying your own tastes in art. Instead of worrying about consistency, focus on finding brushes/tools that feel good to use, colors and lines that appeal to you, and then play around with those. You'll find it a lot easier to make art that you like if you let yourself have fun with it, as opposed to subjecting it to pass/fail criteria.

For example, it's probably not surprising to hear that I love vibrant, colorful geometric art. I struggled for so long trying to use fancy brushes and weighted paintstrokes to make more realistic portraits, and it frustrated me because even if other people said it looked great, nothing I made looked right to me. Turns out it was my toolkit hiding my own art style from me. The moment I switched to solid colors and the goofy default pen setting, BOOM. Suddenly I was on a roll.

As for anatomy, you're already doing great!! My trick for anatomy (and for anything at all, really) is to break it down into simple 3d shapes. Fun fact, almost everything with the human body is just varying cylinders. Your neck? Cylinder. Hand? 5 cylinders attached to a cylinder that's been slightly squished. Torso? That's cylinder, babe! Arms? Legs? You guessed it, cylinders.

Challenge yourself HARD, EARLY. Don't wait until you think you're "good enough" to do a big intimidating project, or else you'll be waiting forever. Draw those difficult angles, perspectives, and compositions NOW, not later! It'll make the things that you're already good at feel ridiculously easy, and make those things come naturally to you, enabling you to focus your efforts into the stuff you do want to get better at.

[akane-kurokawa]

Chapter 147 thoughts!

Ruby not recognizing Kamiki is weird and disappointing tbh. The man looks literally just like Aqua, Akane spotted it at a glance. She’s been acting against Aqua pretending to be this man for months, it feels so contrived that she doesn’t recognize him.

Speaking of contrived, this entire conversation feels so out of no where? No one’s been talking about any of their thoughts this entire arc, but once Ruby steps out with (from her perspective) some stranger, she unloads everything on her mind.

Some of his responses are a bit interesting, I’m curious to learn more about his perspective, and how he feels about his children (especially since the writing keeps baiting the idea of Ruby being a future target) but I can’t get over how forced and out of place this whole scene is.

This isn’t confirmation that he’s attempting on her life to me, solely because I REFUSE to think Kamiki is that dumb. In broad daylight, in public??? On a whim??? If Kamiki is the 5d chess player the story is trying to make him out to be he can’t be doing goofy shit like this.

Oh hey Akane, we thought you were dead.

Seriously I’m glad to see her again, and I’m even more glad that she was actually doing something while in off screen purgatory. I’d like to get more information next chapter on what she’s been up to and what (if fucking anything) she’s managed to learn from her backslide from Private Investigator into stalker.

Also Nino! She was just like… hiding away in the rain during the earlier scene ig, but I’m glad she’s here. If she, Kamiki, and Kaburagi have some evil alliance or whatever I’ll be so thrilled, that’s hilarious.

Confirmation of Aqua’s plan! If this had been said near the beginning of the movie I would’ve said that I called it, but honestly, this contradicts Aqua’s actions this entire arc in my eyes. Aqua goes out of his way in both the writing and acting to portray Kamiki as sympathetically as humanly possible, to the point where even the real world audience of Oshi no ko feels for him. He’s been humanized even more than Ai, who was the one this movie was SUPPOSED to humanize.

And wow, there goes the rest of filming I guess. We ended up not going in order after all, which makes that line about chronological filming only more confusing. There goes the big “forgive or not forgive” moment that had been built up since the beginning of the arc. Whatever.

With the filming arc over, I wanted to give me thoughts on it in specific, at least my current thoughts. Many in the server are planning a reread and I’ll probably do one as well.

First, the good. I think the artwork in this arc has been some of the best in the series, especially during the filming itself. Ruby’s breakdown as Ai and Frill’s performances as Airi are my biggest highlights.

I think there’s a lot of compelling setup in this arc, Nino is a fantastic character and im thrilled that her chapter we got before won’t be the end of her relevance. I also enjoyed meeting Ai’s mother, even if it was briefer than I would’ve liked.

I have two main problems with this arc that I think mostly come down to its structure. While a lot of it was strong setup for later arc things, despite being the longest arc in the series, it hardly had substance of its own. We set up the incest arc, set up Kana getting marketed differently, set up Akane’s big stalker adventure, set up for Aqua’s entire plan, set up for Kamiki’s entire plan.

What did we resolve this arc? Kana’s jealousy? Not really, she just lashed out about it and Ruby said “Nuh uh” and it was done. It feels like we spent all this time doing nothing, in an arc that had so much worthwhile material to cover that it chose to skip instead.

That said, I believe the FILMING is over, but we’ll probably have to do test screenings and marketing and so on. I’m hoping that we’ll be expanding on those skipped scenes and lack of character thoughts on them in the future, but this arc has just been a series of me going “oh they skipped that? That sucks, I hope they do it later” and while I suppose they can with some of those things, I doubt it’ll be getting closure on EVERYTHING I’ve said that about.

Either the next arc will be another really good one, paying off all the setup from this wet blanket of an arc, or it’s the beginning of the end and the conclusions won’t live up to the mysteries that have been dangling in front of us all series.

Regardless of which it is, I plan on sticking it out until the end. I may have to start lowering my expectations I think, I was expecting more from this series than an arc like this. I wouldn’t be so harsh on it if it didn’t have as much potential as it does.

[ellieaka]

Apparently a lots of adults in this fandom still don't think teen psychology is a thing to be considered in netflix nordic pr strategy. There are some things that can be easily done to avoid at least half of the mess we've seen in the past few days.

1. Move the "Next" event a few days later than 18 March, even if it is only a day later. Showing that 18 March is for young royals and young royals only. Or at least announce the young royals fan event FIRST!

2. Have APOY promoted at least 1 months later than YR so that Edvin (and Felicia) doesn't have to promote the two projects side by side.

3. Some goofy contents (no spoilers) to distract the fans. And announcement of the promo events that's on the way.

Netflix Nordic could've easily done a thing or two so it doesn't have to end up in a situation where Edvin and Felicia being viciously attacked and the NN IG comments section filled with angry yr fan comments purposely trying to tank APOY using the zionist director as the perfect excuse.

This is a PR failure, no matter if you agree with me or not. It is also obvious that NN started damage control as soon as they found the comments were spiralling out of control. They annouced the yr fan event (which I suspected it's earlier than their planned schedule). They have the Sweden official account posted the yr event announcement. Lisa came online and replied DM from concern fans.

Considering teen feelings in the promotion of a teen drama where a lot of audience are teens who spend way too much time online is not encourage bad behaviors but in fact lead to better fans behaviors and less conflicts. There is a reason why K-pop is extremely successful among teen fans. And I believe there is a thing or two from their perspective that can be learned, instead of arrogantly dismiss whatever the "problematic" teens do online.

If there is a online massive outcry from the teen fans for something that seems as trivial as "Edvin posted APOY first!", maybe people should take a look and see why this is happening and what can be done now to de-escalate. Additionally, what can be done next time so it won't happen again.

I honestly think the yr fandom teens are actually very civil already. The situation could be worse if it were a kpop fandom back in my time. I'm talking about death threats and collective boycott towards the other projects and statement of apology being issued etc.

[batmanisagatewaydrug]

Hi! It’s the catholic school maybe ace anon again. I just have one more question.

I want to be open and okay with sexuality and that kind of thing, but from a very young age I’ve been taught it was Not Okay.

Is there anything you can recommend to me (books, blogs, channels, etc.) that might help me.. understand more, ig? I try really hard to keep an open mind, but I don’t actually learn enough to be at a point where I’m chill with it (I try to be, I really do).

hi catholic anon (cathnon, if you will),

I did drop a couple of recommendations in my answer to your last query (shoutout to Lindsey Doe's Sexplanations and Heather Corinna's Scarleteen again, I really can't say enough good things about them!) but let's talk about some more cool resources!

Dr. Nadine Thornhill is an educator doing THE COOLEST work, definitely check her out!

if you want to read about asexuality and aromantic experiences, check out Yasmin Benoit's writing on her website! she's one of the most outspoken aroace figures in the business.

while I have my gripes with Teen Vogue, they write a lot of very accessible articles about sexual topics ranging from abortion info to disability-friendly sex to tips on buying vibrators. give it a look!

Planned Parenthood's website is chock full of useful info that I frequently use as a reference in my work, with a section specifically geared towards teenagers.

for asexual-specific writing you gotta check out Angela Chen's book Ace: What Asexuality Reveals About Desire, Society, and the Meaning of Sex. it's a fantastic piece of writing, and makes me so hopeful for the future of ace and aro scholarship written from within the community.

Sexuality: A Graphic Guide is also a gentle illustrated into to a lot of big ideas about sexuality and orientation, by Meg-John Barker and Jules Scheele. you may also be interested in another of Barker's books, How to Understand Your Sexuality, written with Alex Iantaffi.

another book I'm very fond of is Jaclyn Friedman's Unscrewed, which looks at ways in which sex can be exploited by patriarchy and capitalism and contrasts that bleak outlook with people doing real, tangible good to advance sexual freedom, queer rights, and reproductive health.

also hey listen I'm going to say one that's a little goofy but a lot of fun: there's a show on Netflix (or elsewhere, if you know how to pirate) called How to Build a Sex Room that's short (only sex episodes, I think?) and nothing but fun, following designer Melanie Rose building her clients' ideal rooms to have sex in. clients range from eager to overshare to adorably awkward, and Rose is always there to encourage them to think about what they really want and how to express that desire. it's very cute and a great way to get cozy around casual convos about sex!

[mishalikessoundsandcolours]

Hey guys, just wanted to say that I'm alive since I haven't been on here much recently, school just started last week lol. Hope y'all are alright, I'll try to get back into posting and checking on my moots, I just don't have as much time for that rn. Eleventh grade is wildddd, I've got a bit of an existential crisis since I've only got two years left at school and I dunno what to do with myself and whether I'll survive these years, but it's okay :D

Over here we split from our classes and start choosing subjects in 11th grade (though there are still a lot of rules at what we have to take). I've got English and Art as the main subjects, and German, Math, Chemistry, History, Geography, Latin, Music and Theatre for the rest. Well there's also PE, but we can choose to not count the grades into our report cards there.

I'm satisfied with most of the teachers I've got, except maybe our history teacher because she's a bit difficult personality-wise, but I also had some classes with her last year and I managed to get good towards the end, so I can keep up with her methods. Our German teacher is really awesome though, he's just such a goofy and dramatic guy and I've honestly never had such fun German classes in my life! He's also a Bowie fan, so that's a bonus :D Art class is a bit overwhelming though. It's not even the amount of theory we have to learn, but the amount of tasks our teacher throws at us, like during the lesson she gives us ten minutes to find several objects and make photos of them from different perspectives/use contrasts etc. (our topic is photography) and I just can't find something interesting in our school fast enough, and then we get another bunch of homework that we have to send to her in time and not just bring to the next lesson and we also have to make a portfolio, it's just a lot. But I'll get it, somehow. If I don't get good grades in art I'm just gonna be a failure.

The weather finally turned nice and rainy on Monday and I've also started getting into some 80s postpunk/new wave stuff, it just kinda fits the weather and my mood better. And I discovered Hedwig And The Angry Inch for myself recently, so I've got a new musical to obsess over. So that's what I've been doing ig :)

[emproleon]

HI IZZY 🗣️ i present to you a random free pass to tell me five things you love about dio's goofy ass 🎟️ but also no pressure 🧡

OOOH HI KAT THANK YOU FOR THE FREE PASS💖 this is gonna be long LMAO and im actually gonna keep this in line with canon as opposed to my psychotic daydreams (yall get that in discord)

Honestly, i love how funny he is?? like he is definitely overly memed on, and it's gotten old, but a lot of those moments just on their own are so funny to me SJKDHVS like the whole "how many breads have you eaten" line is so ????? why did u say that king..... and honestly i dont think he gets enough credit for the whole Muda shtick like hes the first (i think?) character to start the whole catchphrase thing back in part 1, pre stands, and it's again. not complaining, but what went through ur mind in making that decision, bud. plus the weird little homunculi he just made for funsies in part 1?? a real comedian 10/10

His fashion!! i genuinely LOVE his fits and all the little details in them so much, including the ones he wears in one off illustrations. the leathery, feathery, one is his best looks EVER and i honestly kinda wish it wouldve been in part 3. wouldve been very Lestat. ALSO this includes the Moorish shoes!!! i think they tie in his themes and design SO WELL and im tired of people clowning on them

His impact on the story! Dio Brando really, truly is That Guy™️ i love that he continuously haunts the narrative (at least in parts 1-6) and even with Diego, who is a different character, but still undeniably Dio. just as a reader/watcher getting through the ENTIRE old universe and finally feeling like dio and his mess is done forever just for Diego to show up in part 7 is just really funny to me, esp with how similar Diego is to Dio as opposed to Johnny and Jonathan or really a lot of the other counterparts. You can't get rid of him.

I thank Araki every day for that character sheet he released last year bc Dio intending to have a soft voice is SO GOOD to me. like i love both anime performances a ton and they're iconic and fit the whole over the top theme of it all, but big, scary, villains with smooth, level, soft voices is my kryptonite 😩 ive thought of it before, but if i had to pick like. an actual more "realistic" voice claim for him it would be Harry Lloyd👀 loved him in game of thrones, and his character voice wise in that def has RANGE like ii think dio would have, but he also does audiobooks and they're SO lovely to listen to💖

The way Araki ties him to the Arts, as pretentious as that sounds💀 i think depicting him as someone who appreciates art, literature, and philosophy makes him SO FUN to play with from a fan/creator perspective. i feel like it's a great way to toy around with other bits of symbolism and really expand on him in art and fics.

throwing in a sixth, but i like his dumb face unfortunately!!! Sorry i know this is a shock to all!!! but esp his character model in asbr/over heaven.........so handsome😔 THAT is pookie right there

in conclusion hes alright ig🙄🤚

[the-casbah-way]

Hi.

So I may not be the best person to respond to your “my work/art doesn’t mean anything to anyone” but I’m still trying so

Your work!!! Your writing!! Oh my goodness!!!!! It’s a very cute thing that makes me wish I had love sometimes, even if I’m Aromantic. Sometimes I read like the softness of Jed and Oct or the goofy and I think “wow I wish I had someone to talk with me like that”

and your art!!!!!!!!! Your DtL art is literally amazing and like ig some of your works are things I don’t feel deeply bc I’m still a mentally legally physically child but they’re still awesome!!!! I may not be mentally mental enough to fully appreciate it as it could be but I’m trying my best to appreciate it with the understanding I have. I want you to know that what you post here is something we love to see and we’re glad you post. They’re very beautiful things as you are very talented and I hope you do know how talented you are. Seriously. I’m so glad you have this space to show off your talent I’m so happy about it.

I love you, I hope you find your own peace

this is the sweetest thing ever and it really cheered me up. you’re so so kind, thank you <3 also i understand what you’re saying about not being at a stage in your life where you can fully appreciate some of the themes in my work; that is a really fair point to make. but i hope i don’t sound condescending when i say that just because you are technically a “child” it doesn’t mean you don’t have valuable and meaningful interpretations to lend to the media you consume. i’m sure you know that already, but yeah. i’m just very appreciative that you would see something worthwhile in anything i make, even if some or a lot of it doesn’t apply to you. i’m sure loads of what i make isn’t relatable to loads of people who see it, but i’m still really grateful to have them there and i still love to hear their perspectives because that’s what makes it all fun. anyway. thank you so much again. i hope you are well <3

[pinyatapix]

art tutorial alignment chart

(my honest opnion)

personal alignment explanations below (warning looooooooong)

drawabox's got that lawful good aura to me. promising great improvement through a more rigid less flowy kinda drawing (boxes boxes boxes) yeah that's kinda lawful good ig. kinda resource for those who care for their drawings to look more accurate to perspective and proportion than just straight up wingin it dont have much to say about sinix. he's peak. he gets that neutral good label from me. morpho books by themselves would prooobably be lawful good (but less rigid more flowy) but i gave em the chaotic good label because that's the feel i get from the morpho fans themselves, who all preach about the greatness these books hold within their small thin compact travel sizes. it's partially because they're one of the very few books that actually teach about body fat (which is... kinda concerning if you really think about it. body fat is weirdly scarce among regular art tutorial books despite it having as much importance in the body as muscle and bone) and i put draw like a sir here because he himself has that chaotic good vibe. he teaches stuff (especially for beginners) REALLY well in a super easy to grasp manner and isn't afraid to be a bit humorous in his videos bob ross's pick is a lil weird, but lemme try to explain. his videos feel less like tutorials and more like... meditation i guess??? and i mean that's fine i guess. less for learning and more for unwinding by drawing along. we like a chill guy. i see less people on youtube use his videos to seriously learn and more people use his videos for extremely goofy art challenges lol. neutral in terms of educational value but lawful in terms of vibes ig lavendertowne is true neutral cuz i find her kiiiiinda mid. some of her videos are fine and there's a few interesting ones but most of them are kinda boring, there's better more interesting ones out there with similar subjects, especially on tutorials. bluebiscuit is also true neutral but a tier above lavendertowne. she's fine i dont hate her i guess her tutorials are nice for newbies and pretty accessible but still. there's videos with the same subjects as hers that i think are way better and more extensive ig true neutral (derogatory) and true neutral (affectionate) ethan becker, holy shit is this man chaotic neutral, both in personality and manner of teaching. he teaches some hyper-specific and potentially really useful skills for drawing anatomy and shape construction in a very simplified way (use the weirdly shaped triangle for everything) BUT the way he teaches it... god, he does it in the most drill-sergeant, nitpicky, push-you-down insults and spits on you kinda manner ever that it's actually kinda hard to actually retain the information you've learned in your brain even if you still remember how it went, somehow. i'd still recommend him but only if you enjoy being a masochist. there's prolly two kinda people who leave from an ethan becker tutorial: those who learn really fucking well from him, and those who felt so ashamed and insulted by him that their art progress and motivation just dropped by an entire year. megamegamikey... i mean, i havent watched his videos, but there's a good reason why i won't. i can just tell his tutorials are only for those who wish to draw anime girl tiddy gooner stuff, and not for learning actual serious anatomy (it's on the opposite side of the morpho books on the chart for a reason), and i dont wanna learn big bazoinga shit!!! if i wish to learn booba i will learn from the most accurate least sexy boingboing sourcessss!!!!!

also if you post a video with that as the title and thumbnail there's at least one thing VERY wrong with you and i will not trust your opinions on children and women anyways kooleen is neutral evil. i don't need an introduction. when i compare myself to her i actually develop pride and confidence from it instead of shame and envy like most cases because like. i feel so SMUG being able to draw and come up with much more interesting ideas than her. i can conjure up twisted beasts and floating vistas of wandering giants and the horrors of the self and gay fish yaoi from my rich and vast mind palace. she can only conjure up basic-bitch kpop boys and girls from her vaguely racist eurocentric-beauty-standard worldview. I am BEYOND her. I am STRONGER than her. I am SMARTER and more CREATIVE than her. I am more CHARMING and FUNNY than her. I am OBJECTIVELY better than her in EVERY SINGLE WAAAYYYYYY (evil laugh)

and last but not least. i think those how to draw manga books are on the same level of "if i give this to you as a christmas present i really fucking hate you" as these things

(only how to draw manga guy that's actually kinda good is mark crilley. he's not the best but he's an alright starting point. along with morpho he's also got the only tutorial books that actually teach about drawing fat people (though only for a few pages. it's still a very kind-hearted gesture, especially since anime casts tend to lean towards super skinny so i kinda saw that he wanted those who learned his wisdom to change that lol) whhheheheenrhbefdushid i loev art

[redhead1180]

saw the last anon and I wanted to say something

anyway, I get you and anon so much. I hate her too, not that I would send her hate like other ppl do, and I can't even explain it. idk if the accusations are true and idc bc her vibes are just off for me and my vibes rarely lie 😭 but yeah, cropping her out is perfectly normal.

sometimes I wonder bc his presence has changed so drastically from before they were together and then immediately when they got together yk, and maybe it's all her, to me it is definitely her a lot. just look at how much he used to post on insta, all the funny shit and then they got together and it got less and less and then he deleted all of those posts last year and even more like a month ago or so, was fairly recent. people say it was his management who told him to but I don't really believe it. a lot of those posts he deleted weren't something that would've caused issues from a media/marketing perspective.

I don't even wanna look at the mess that is his basically ruined friendship with Madison bc that's mostly been a fan issue of those ppl shipping the two imo, but she probably had her hand in there two just by looking at how close Rudy and Madi were in the bts of s1 and then just the change that came slow first and then very drastic.

I also have a big issue with the whole production of the show bc so many ppl who are working on it are in there bc they have connections. like her being friends with one of the Pates daughters (who is also a reoccurring extra on OBX with her brother) long before the show started and then she got the job. you cannot tell me that there wasn't a way better photographer on line that could've done a way better job than her. but she has the right connections, so ig talent isn't that necessary in that case. (seriously her pics are always grainy. that can't be a realistic style choice bc it makes 90% of the pictures look worse than they could be)

There is so much to unpack here. Because yes my main reason for not liking her is my gut feeling. Something in my gut just tells me the same thing, something is off with her.

And yes, someone else that notices the HUGE change in Rudy. He is used to be goofy, always being in the BTS shots dancing, just full of life. It's not even him cleaning off his posts, it's his demeanor. Like if it's still there, he hides it well. I miss our goofy and full of life Rudy.

I try not feed into rumors, but I honestly do feel something happened between Rudy and Madison that changed their friendship. I don't know if it was fight about Elaine or her causing the issues, but it isn't even the BTS. It is interviews, BTS of course, but just body language. But that's on them, the still should be professional and do the job, which for the most part they do. Although to me I can't feel the chemistry between jiara.

And I can't with her and her supposed photography. I don't see it, don't think that she is that good. All I see with her constant vacation pictures is her mooching off Rudy and not having a job.

And as much as I hate the Pates showing favoritism, that unfortunately is pretty common in Hollywood.

[topconfessions]

I'm a bisexual person, and I must say that I'm highly sure that top is either gay, or bisexual with an at least 80% lean towards men. In bigbang people tend to say this more about GD because of his androginous style, but in my opinion top has shown way more signs of being attracted to men. Considering he said before he doesn't like physical contact with people he's not close to, he shows an affection and intimacy towards men not in a "I'm a man and I feel more comfortable with other men" way, but in a "I'm interested in you and I think you're handsome" way. And I think these signs aren't exactly unintentional. He might be a private person, but I'm sure he would be open about his sexuality if South Korea wasn't so conservative. There's a interview where the guy asks him what kind of person he's attracted to, and his reply is about both men and women, with men coming first. I don't know the full interview or context, but I find it odd that he not only talked about BOTH men and women in a question about attraction, but he also didn't specify anything, like "I like this type of men in a friendship/business partnership/etc" knowing people might have other interpretations. Also, unless he has a strong need to affirm his masculinity (which I don't see it), I can't picture straigh men having a flower vase in form of a... I think you know it, lol.

Anyway, sorry for the long text. I just wanted to share this with someone and you seem to have similar thoughts.

I've been saying this forever. I too believe he is primarly into men like 80% leans to men. women he dates when men aren't working out or just for the sake of it unless he meets one that really attracts him. He doesnt like women at all to me deep down. I dont think he would be open about his sexuality if korea was like america unless his bf or older bf was very open and pushed for him to be open too. I think somewhere in his psyche he is very in deep with the push and pull of fans vs him. I always say there is a reason taeyang and many other idols were openly dating while he acts like his whole life would end if he ever even claimed anyone. Yep. These idols at least back then used to sprinkle in a LOT of honesty about who they really are with questions like that. He told us blatantly from that interview you're speaking of what he likes and he knew the interviewer meant romance not general speaking with people. I Know someone will come in here with a counter confession saying that isnt true but he has proven too many times over he's legitmately into men and really only men, just women as a causality which whatever makes him happy is okay. TOP knew what the interviewer was asking and thats him letting his real orientation slip through. all his answers and behavior towards women is just too complicated. You'd think he had trauma from a woman with the way he used to answer.

I remember an anon long ago agreeing with me on the fact we both suspected all the men he'd post up with on IG, nearly all (ALLEGEDLY) were men he has been involved with or hooked up with. I didnt know he had a penis flower vase. he's definitely gay then and This is just on him in general.

T.O.P the image and idol was very masculine at times and I think he hated it deep down, aside from the variety apperances where he got to be goofy and act like a child, where he is now as a person is where he truly wants to be in my perspective and opinion. I just notice he's not the suit and Tie polished guy anymore so that was an image.

[haven-gum-rockrose]

11 & 29 !

tumblr ate the fucking shit i was typing for this- lets see if i can replicate.

okay! thanks so much also first of all- really appreciate it

so 11(describe your ideal day) and 29 (three songs you connect with right now)

okay so 11 is difficult cuz im not a very- planning and future oriented bitchbut id probably have to say its a day where i do things? or have an idea or something?

so maybe like- i wake up and do the shit people normally do when they wake up, yall know the deal- the ideal. actually eat breakfast lol. id go on a walk because even hell knows i need the sunlight, maybe pet a dog in the process. Theres a park by the house so id probably go there for a bit. if its an ideal day im not spending it at home. itd be sunny but not too hot- enough to sunburn tho. wouldnt do much at the park, im not a park person, but maybe id make a temporary friend? like the kind youre never gonna see again but while you were talking you made eachother's day just a bit brighter. i probably would have brought my sketchbook or art tablet and maybe i was able to do a really nice drawing or something. Then i remember theres bugs and that- oh also a nice patch of grass is very important for it to be ideal. kidding i dont really mind dirt. but anyways i start heading back because its noon or approaching noon or something. i have absolutely no endurance tho so at some point i stop and just sit on the curb and watch the road for a bit? idk i think it sounds nice.

[obligatory paragraph break] OH! and its one of those days where you're able to consciously recognize the beauty of everything, fucking love those. come back and clean and do laundry and shit because i fucking need to. and then sleep for six fucking hours straight uninterrupted. wake up, see what yall have been up to cuz cuz thats always a highlight, and by then its like 6 or 8? oh also not talking to any family lol- except maybe my sister. yeah, ideal day i talk to my sister for a bit. also i think in order for it to be the ideal day i would have had to help at least like one person, and maybe they said thanks but its not really necessary. its a bit hard to plan for people needing help tho- and seems a bit iffy regardless so - ykno.

anyways its a bit basic for something so long but- idk i dont really think about that stuff much so - take it or leave it.

AND 29 CUZ YOU KNOW IM A FUCKING PLAYLIST BITCH

Girl Anachronism by The Dresden Dolls: probably not great how much i relate to this song on a personal level but it also gives me gender and mentally ill swag ig so its cool. yall i could pull fucking any line from this song and essay on how i relate to it (theres just a couple i couldnt actually)

Toxic Thoughts by Faith Marie: Yall this has been- one of those "my song"s since for the past like 4-5 years or something- 100% played a role in shaping who i try to be and how i view the world. like yeah its a wee bit cheesy the lyrics but like- yall dont know how much this shit impacted me. go as far as to say it mightve played a part in me being here still? idk tho i think i still would be regardless but like- yeah W song for me

EP. 4: Important by Ian McConnell: i need everyone with anxiety to listen to this actually. it goes so fucking hard and its so goofy. absolute god tier exhanple of positive nihilistic philosophy. actually for ease of access lemme do this cuz im not overexaggerating this shits iconic: (maybe not it may just be my philosphy brain likeing the change of perspective on typically negative thoughts and the comedic delivery of it)

[jiamour]

pushin’ n pullin’

pairing: guitarist!jisung x reader

side pairings: markno, rensung, … & more

genre: band au, enemies to lovers, angst, fluff, nsfw, hurt/comfort/more hurt but mostly they’re just some goofy guys, humor, slowburn, kind of slice of life

warnings: heavy themes relating to mental health disorders, !!one of the characters has ocd (because i have ocd and i wanted to write about it) so they mention “obsessions” that may trigger psychosis!! mentions of doctors and meds, emotional abuse, minor character death, absentee parents, drug use, addiction, extreme homophobia, chronic disease, toxic relationships, A LOT of talk about sex and sexuality, i’ll add more as they come along (welcome to my trauma dumping au :]) 🔞🔞

a/n: there’s a lot of pov’s in this au so if i think it’s confusing or if the perspective is important i’m going to add a heart that matches the pov.

(💗 - yn, 🖤 - js, 💛 - rj, 💙 - jn, 🧡 - mk, 💜 - dh, ❤️ - jm, 💚 - cl)

band au

~ in which your neighbor, jisung, keeps you up at night in more ways than one. not only does his shitty band practice until ass o’clock at night, he’s also hooking up with your roommate, whose room you happen to share a wall with ~

alternatively: your circle small but all y’all crazy🤪 (and queer)

playlists:

dh.♩ rj. ♩cl. ♩ jn. ♩ mk. ♩ jm. ♩ js. ♩ yn.

INTRO: meet the band // ig

TRACK 1: aquarius be gone

TRACK 2: spin spin

TRACK 3: space jam tw//bugs

TRACK 4: homophobic

TRACK 5: role model

TRACK 6: rejection sensitivity

TRACK 7: mercury in pisces

TRACK 8: ratatouille tw// chronic disease

TRACK 9: hoodie

TRACK 10: tarot reading

TRACK 11: literally just a markno fight

MARKS INTERLUDE

TRACK 12: 1984

TRACK 13: stocks // pokemon spoilers??

TRACK 14: wednesday

TRACK 15: incognito

TRACK 16: quarter

TRACK 17: omnipresent

TRACK 18: :( (manipulatively)

TRACK 19: [redacted]

TRACK 20: warblers

TRACK 21: literally just a rensung fight // read tws

RENJUNS INTERLUDE

TRACK 22: therapist // read tws

TRACK 23: boyfriend material

TRACK 24: leave him

TRACK 25: pottery

TRACK 26: here we go again

TRACK 27: moon song

TRACK 28: bad hair day

TRACK 29: woohoo

TRACK 30: aita

TRACK 31: jobless monday // read tws

JAEMINS INTERLUDE

TRACK 32: love or hate?

TRACK 33:

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extras:

when i don’t feel like actually writing

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[cage-cat-yt]

Art dump of random stuff

1 - first one is my fan design of Red guy/Harry wearing a Red Hot chili peppers shirt because the headcanon of him being a fan of them popped in my brain and I wanted to make it a thing. You'll see more of Rhcp mentioned in this post for an animatic idea

2 - second is Duck guy/Robin (fan design) and Spamton looking through some book! I like to think it's a memory book thingy but it's truly left up to interpretation. I just felt like doodling them ig while in summer school.

3 - Josef and Sauer chatacters Frank Macpherson and Quinn Lolan (facing away from perspective). Frank is Katz's uncle, pretty sure he's just a support character within the series since he has some important parts but isn't one of the main people you'll see.

4 - crying Nurse because I've been having a really rough day. Can't go into detail, but it's just gotta do with parent marriage issues and my perfectionistic brain acting up.

5 - Jack Walten for an animatic idea to By the way by Red Hot chili peppers (told you they'd pop up again!). The next one is also for it, but I had a ton of fun drawing Jack since the pose is interesting. Though I'll be reusing it for a drawing I'm gonna work on after the ask the goofy gang for today

6 - Mirror Man but shirtless and having a bandage on his stomach. Also just animatic sketch ideas

Anyway, thanks for reading! Remember to hydrate and I hope you have a good day :)

[judyhopps934-mt-zd]

Thoughts on Lies

Warning: Spoilers! And possibly having your heart torn into pieces. Other than that, have fun!

We open up with Marinette figuring out the recipes for the power ups as the new guardian.

I am disappointed that she still has not stopped oogooling over Adrien when he appeared on the news. Especially since she was allegedly with Luka by then. (I'll explain what I mean in just a minute)

Adrien was tired after the day he had as Adrien, which is a contrast of what Marinette believes his life is like. But being Chat Noir is the highlight of his day...

...only to not see Ladybug show up for patrols. And we see that it was all due to her figuring out the powerups.

Also, the patrols are a thing in cannon and I am still not over it after "Truth".

Chat Noir hoping for an akumatization so he can escape his civilian life radiated the same energy as Alya asking for akumatizations to interview the temporary heroes on her IG post. I get it, but still! We do not have people in danger for our needs.

Plagg being the one who announces any voice messages for Chat and asking for cheese through the feature on the Chat Phone brings me a whole other level of life.

Also, the whole milk thing at Le Grand Paris bar counter. It was hilarious, but also very sad. He really missed his m'lady

He ends the patrol after he saw Kagami training with her mom. And the smiles on his face! *Cries in Marichat and Ladynoir*

Plagg is the one that encourages Adrien to move on from Adrien, just like he applauded him from doing so in Loveater.

Kagami apparently said that fencing lessons are scheduled an hour in advance and Adrien (with that goofy grin on his face) knew what was up!

Both Ms. Tsurugi and Gabriel are very pissed at one another for the schedule change. That's hilarious, although everything comes at a price.

The parallels! Kagami is apparently learning Russian at her mother's request. Truly is a reflection of Adrien, civilian life wise.

Kagami? Lying???? The hell???? Who are you and what have you done to Kagami????? (Why am I surprised, y'all did this in Desperada)

She lies to their parents and the teacher to be in the art room with Adrien. I get it, teenage rebellion after being under an uninvolved parent, but still!

I like how the writers gave Kagami another dimension by saying she loves art, but her mom does not like her passion for drawing.

To Kagami's mom: WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOUR DAUGHTER IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH???!!! HER DRAWINGS BELONG IN A MUSEUM!

Also, art reflecting the truth? Hmmm.....

Since people like mentioning that Marinette has a thing for people with absent parents after "Truth", I will now say that Adrien has a thing for people who are great at drawing. I do not take criticism.

Kagami is hinting that Adrien's civilian life is not his true self (thank you for understanding him!)...

...but also says that being a "clown" (it was the Chat pose) is also not who he really is. The fandom would disagree with you. Although that brings up the question of whether both personalities merge to form who he really is and cannot be seen completely by anyone in any part of his life. But he is more like Chat Noir regardless.

Also, I want to see Adrien and Kagami spend more time together prior to this episode to see why she was not pleased with him being a clown if that's who he truly is, because her repositioning him against the wall made me feel like she is trying to place Adrien into a mold that reflects the image she might have created in her mind. (I don't know, this was just the first thought that came in my mind.)

They almost kiss, with Adrien being taken into shock (not terrified as we thought) until the alarm saying they have fencing lessons starting interrupts them and Adrien runs out, not before BLUSHING LIKE HELLO?!?!?

This is what I referred to in my second point and confirms what everyone was saying about this episode: this is "Truth", but through Adrien's perspective. Finally, an Adrien-centered episode!!!

To continue, every time Adrien and Kagami are together or were about to kiss, a sentimonster appears, with Ladybug trying to do something about it. Just like Lukanette, just like Adrigami: being a superhero affects your love life as a civilian.

Chat being thrown off the roof by accident and being rescued will never get old or less funny lol.

Montages continues up until the boat scene, where Adrien missed the intro to the performance, but I will never get over the fact as to how Adrien made it there before Marinette. It is beyond me.

Kagami not letting Adrien stay for 5 more minutes. Hmm...

Their cute moment together was what will lead to the demise of Adrigami as Kagami noticed he dropped the infamous lucky charm bracelet. *le gasp!

Why *le gasp*? Because 1) I fear it symbolizes that something will happen to Adrienette or that Adrien has forgotten about her, and 2) Wait until later.

Kagami revealed she lied so she can spend more time with Adrien alone, lying about leaving rehearsal earlier, lying about the fencing lessons rescheduling, and who else knows what else so she can be with him.

She tells him she loves him. But Adrien notices Ladybug and an Akuma. Oh boy, he wasn't able to give her any attention.

Because he left towards the direction of the boat (and said he left something there), Kagami used that to conclude it had something to do with Marinette. Oh boy.

Either I missed an entire scene about Ladybug knowing ShadowMoth's name, or we were not supposed to know how they know until this episode. It feels out of place to me, but oh well.

"I..am...AN INCREDIBLE SWIMMER!" still cracks me up even when I know how important it was in protecting her secret identity.

Happy Birthday Prince Ali!

Apparently, Kagami lied that her mom was in charge of watching over Adrien (or maybe not? I can't tell at this point.)

Yep, Kagami believes that Adrien is going after Marinette and probably resents them both if her facial expression says anything

We get to see that Ladynoir moment from "Truth"!! I love these two and their banter.

Adrienette stans, not much has changed. Adrien was concerned that he lost the Lucky Charm bracelet, for real. But said again because he though he would be clear of the lie since he thought he had it on him.

Kagami confronts him with it. AND THIS IS HIS SHOCKED FACE SCENE FROM THE TRAILER!!!

Thinking that she lies to get out of being with her, she leaves. With the bracelet. The leaving part is understandable, especially because she does not know about him being Chat Noir or what entails him to do. But why take the bracelet???

Adrien is also saddened by what happened. He also liked her.

We've never seen that part of city hall. Well designed in my opinion.

She was the akuma in City Hall with the glowing sphere! We were right!!!

Adrien feels guilty, though it is not really his fault. He has a duty to Paris!

Why is the music sounding different in French.

Jagged Stone. How do I feel about you after learning you purposefully abandoned Luka and apparently Juleka? Also, what's with the song??? (Rhetorical question. Do not answer)

We were wrong about Kagami's power: it paralyzes people who lie, not kill everything in its path.

Jagged, you abandoned your children. And you apparently lied about your age?!?!?! Both episodes show something about Jagged Stone that make him seem like an awful person on the inside.

Ladybug, how do you know about Lies's powers?!?!? There is a hole in the plot here! Unless there were other paralyzed civilians that gave her power a dead giveaway.

Chat Noir, if you lie as a civilian for whatever reason, of course Ladybug will too, since as a civilian, you need to lie to keep your secret identity a secret. Same rules apply to Ladybug, especially as the guardian.

The Lucky Charm is a drone, not a camera like I thought. How the hell did I get into an ivy if I can't tell the difference?!?!

Chat Noir pretending to lie is funny. It might also be his peppy attitude to lying. Also, his funnier version of ShadowMoth's name.

Ladybug finds the akumatized object and gasps. I wonder if its only a eureka moment or also the fact that she recognizes the bracelet, especially if its custom made.

Brutally honest people does not exist (we have all lied at some point, even Kagami who is usually brutally honest with people), but animals can't lie.

Fang being involved in destroying the akuma is cool.

This is the moment that we dreaded so much, yet knew was coming: CHAT NOIR DIES!

JK! He actually is paralyzed by truth because he jumped into the glowing orb. We were right that this is an anguishing scene to watch, but we're wrong about the part that he's killed. Yet, he still unnecessarily sacrificed himself and caused Ladybug to be angst about it.

WHAT IS UP WITH CHAT NOIR BEING HAPPY ABOUT SACRIFICING HIMSELF?!?!? AND DO NOT SAY ITS BECAUSE HE TRUSTS LADYBUG!

Yes Ladybug. Chat is crazy. And also crazy for you. And you are right about the crazy unconscious part. My Ladynoir heart!

ShadowMoth almost won until Fang bit off the charm bracelet. Thanks Fang!

Chat backing away from Fang licking him is a mood.

My favorite Ladynoir moment of the evening: Ladybug telling Chat to stop sacrificing himself and Chat saying she likes her adorable angry face. Her smirk afterwards.. And then their pound it.

But no seriously Chat. You need to stop doing that to Ladybug. She cannot take it anymore

Plagg said that even if Adrien loves someone else, he is likely to go back to Ladybug. Just like he goes back to Camembert. Seriously, despite his cheese analogies, he gives great wisdom.

Not Kagami almost beating up Adrien during his fencing lessons. And Mr. D'Angercourt notices this too as he stopped Kagami's final blow.

Also, isn't it illegal in fencing to push people? Oh boy.

And there's the Adrigami breakup scene: Adrien telling Kagami that he enjoys their time together and Kagami knowing their is sincerity in him. It is sort of unclear who actually ended things when Adrien asks if they could still be friends, but Kagami ends it all by saying that she will let him know once she can face him again. Ouch.

Adrien is hurt and stares at the lucky charm bracelet with what looks like sadness. Once again ouch.

Like Lukanette, I want to see Adrien and Kagami be happy together at least until halfway through this season. The issue is that it will hurt them more in the end.

Also, I noticed the difference between Luka and Kagami when ending their respective relationships. It hurt them both, but Kagami was more forward about it and Luka was somewhat passive. It could be based on what they know about their now exes (Luka knew that Marinette had feelings for Adrien and was not secretive about it even when they were together if the truths her friends said and the opening scene to this episode reflect this, whereas Kagami only has a suspicion and Adrien does not say anything regarding to it.

Also, I really did not like how the breakup on this end resulted in. While more realistic for a lot of people, it did not help that it involved Kagami as there are people who will go after Kagami after watching this episode, and I believe that the writers know this. Kagami is a good person who has a different response to the trust issues and lack of communication, as well as lies in their relationship. Not saying its a perfect one, but an understandable one. In conclusion, don't trash Kagami, especially if you saw this coming.

I take back what I said before; this is my favorite Ladynoir scene. I want to hug them both because they have to lie and keep secrets from everyone, even have some secrets between themselves! But at least they can trust each other! Excuse me while I cry over how much we are being fed. Also, the fact that they broke up with their respective partners makes this both heartwarming and heart breaking.

Overall, this episode is just as good as Lies! It is the first fully Adrien-centered episode, which makes this a first and already exciting. While I did not like how their breakup was handled, it was realistic and showed that honesty and communication are important. Also, can my children be happy together for longer than an episode??? I swear, their pain hurts me.

But at least Ladybug and Chat Noir have each other's company to get them through. May us Ladynoir stans continue to be fed!