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ssahotchhner · 3 years ago

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young heart (part three)

nobody knows me like you do

PART ONE | PART TWO

hi besties! thank u for being so patient with me the last couple of weeks! i hope this makes it worth it. once again, the title of this part is taken from another track off birdy's album young heart ((: this is your third reminder to stream her album

some dialogue and one to two scenes were borrowed directly from the show in this one from episodes 1x06 and 3x14 so just a reminder that that specific content does not belong to me, i'm sure you will all recognize as you're reading what exactly i'm referring to.

there will indeed be a part four and i'm hoping i'll be able to wrap this up soon. thank you all again for reading i appreciate your kind words and support so so much!!!

warnings: as always, some mentions of murder and violence in reference to a case. also reference a character's previous gunshot trauma

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“What are you thinking about?”

Tom’s voice jolts her out of her thoughts as they lie in bed next to each other, “Hm?”

“You’re obviously not here.” He reaches over and tucks a strand of hair behind her ear, “So where are you?”

Sweat still glistens on his brow from when they had finished having sex a few minutes ago. The truth was, Ava had only been able to come when she closed her eyes and imagined he was Aaron instead and it infuriated her to no end. That’s what she had been thinking about. “I don’t think we should see each other anymore.” She says instead.

His hand drops and he rolls back onto his back, “Was it not good? Did you not finish, because I can–”

“No, no I finished.” She swallows, “It’s not you, I just don’t think I’m ready for a relationship right now.”

He sighs, “Well, listen, I’ll take whatever crumbs I can get, if you just want to sleep together that’s fine by me.”

“I appreciate the offer, but I don’t have time for something like that. It’s all or nothing for me.” She turns her head slightly to look at him, “Sorry.”

Shrugging, he swings his legs over the side of the bed, standing to pull on his jeans, “Don’t be sorry. It happens.”

For you, maybe. She thought, For me there’s only ever been one person.

And of course, she had known that before Aaron had abandoned her. Had realized it at some point in their relationship and had thought that he felt the same way. Had been sure of it actually, because he had told her so.

He had invited Ava as his date to some fancy cocktail dinner with his colleagues, bought her a pretty black gown to wear. She was just finishing applying lipstick when he walked back into the bedroom, adjusting his cufflinks.

“Jesus, Ava.” He said, coming up behind her, “You look incredible.” He wrapped his arms around her waist and rested his chin on her shoulder.

She closed her eyes at his touch, “You think so?”

Gently, he spun her around by her waist to face him and she smiled up at him as he brought up both hands to cradle her face, “Is it really possible that you think differently?”

She shrugged, “Maybe I just like hearing you say it.”

He laughed and gently pulled her face to his, kissing her tenderly. His lips moved slowly against hers and then his tongue slipped in her mouth. Ava couldn’t help the way she moaned against his lips. “You are so easy to rile.” He said darkly.

Ava pulled away smirking, “All I had to do was put on lipstick to rile you, now who’s easy?”

“Hey,” He laughed, “I’m only easy for you.”

She laughs and playfully smacks her hand against his chest, “Oh, stop.”

“I’m serious.” He said, but he was still smiling, “You’re the only one for me.”

Ava rolled her eyes, “Okay, Aaron.” She mocked, but secretly she was pleased by his admission.

He had watched her that whole night at the party. Introducing her to everyone he could, informing all of them of her outstanding grades and what a great lawyer she was going to be. The men in that room alluded to the fact that she was just his arm candy more than once and Aaron would just nod and then calmly tell them about how Ava was at the top of her class and would have her pick of any firm she wanted when she graduated.

Ava would nudge him with her elbow out of embarrassment when he did this, but Aaron would just put his hand on her elbow and then slide it gently down her arm until he intertwined her fingers with his.

“Did you bring me here to network for me?” Ava asked when they had left a particularly embarrassing conversation where Aaron had bragged for at least five uninterrupted minutes about a paper you’d recently turned in about legalization of marijuana.

He shrugged, “If you won’t do it, someone has to.” He grabbed her by her arms and turned her to him. “It’s time you started standing up for yourself. You need to show them you deserve to be here.”

Ava frowned, “I shouldn’t have to prove myself, my grades should speak for themselves.”

“Baby, I know that, I do. Of course you shouldn’t have to, but…”

“But I’m a woman.”

He stared at her and she could see him interpreting her defensive tone, “Honey, I’m not the enemy here.”

“You’re worried I’m not going to be able to get a job on my own after graduation, aren’t you?”

“It has nothing to do with you or your ability—”

“For your information I do just fine on my own, Aaron. I didn’t need you to help me get into law school. I didn’t need you to get me my teaching assistant position. I didn’t need you for all the internships I landed. I don’t need you for this either.”

He looked at her sadly and shook his head, “You’re right, I’m sorry. I only meant to help.”

“If I don’t ask for your help then I don’t need it.” She snapped. She didn’t mean to be so harsh. Truth be told, she was more upset by the society that told him she needed this kind of help than she was with him.

Aaron was quiet the rest of the evening until they got home. She anxiously watched him take off his cufflinks and begin to undress, taking off his suit jacket and tie.

“I’m sorry.” She said quietly, “I know you were only trying to help, I shouldn’t have lashed out like that.”

He didn’t say anything in response and she knew this meant he was stewing. She watched as he took off his belt, his dress shirt now unbuttoned and hanging open to reveal his bare chest. “Aaron?”

“I’m not upset.” He responded, not looking at her.

She walked up to him then, stopping his movements and forcing him to look at her by placing her hand on his chest. “I appreciate your support and I love you.”

He sighed and took the hand she had placed on his chest and gently kissed the back of it, “I love you,” He pulled her to his chest, “I’m not mad at you, I’m mad at myself. In the process of trying to make sure nobody underestimated you, I did just that.” He leaned down and kissed her hair, “So I’m sorry.”

“You’re a really good man, you know?”

His chest rumbled as he laughed, “You think so?”

“Yeah, I do. I don’t ever want to be loved by anyone else.” She said seriously.

His body stilled at that and she worried she had gone too far and braced for the rejection. But after a moment he pulled away just slightly to look at her, “You mean that?”

“Yes.” She said without hesitation and then she smiled, “I think you might be stuck with me, Aaron Hotchner.”

And then he smiled so big, she saw his dimples, “It would be a privilege to love you forever, Ava Wilmington.”

Once again, she believed him. A little over a year later, he would leave her.

***

There were two weeks left until the hearing resumed. Aaron went back to work as usual, doing his best not to think of Ava. After seeing her with someone else, he became full of rage all the time. Snapping at his colleagues, taking unnecessary risks in the field.

When Aaron and Reid headed to a prison in Connecticut to question Chester Hardwick before he was scheduled to be executed, Aaron knew he shouldn’t have been there. He was itching for a fight, hoping someone would provoke him. Chester didn’t disappoint and when he began threatening to kill both himself and Reid, an unsettling calm fell over him. He found himself wanting to fight someone to the death and who better than someone who’s death warrant was practically already signed.

He had also considered the fact that Chester may very well kill him and what scared him the most was that he found he wasn’t particularly frightened by that outcome either. He knew this man from the profile and he told him things he knew would only make Chester want to strangle him more. He practically begged Hardwick to strangle him with his bare hands. And just as he could feel his skin prickle with the anticipation of the fight, Reid interjected. As Reid talked, Chester listened, drawing his attention away from Aaron. The adrenaline that had moments earlier pulsed through Aaron’s veins seemed to leave suddenly, the feeling of shame instead replacing it. He had been reckless again and this time he had endangered Reid as well.

“It was smart to get Hardwick to focus on himself long enough for the guards to come back.” Aaron praised Reid on the car ride back.

“I find I do some of my best work under intense terror.” Reid didn’t seem upset, but the statement only intensified Aaron’s guilt.

“I’m sorry.”

“For what?” Reid asked, frowning.

“I antagonized the situation.”

“No you didn’t.”

“Well, I certainly didn’t help.”

Reid ponders this for a moment and looks back out the windshield, “Yeah, I guess you didn’t really help.”

Aaron sighs heavily, “Ava’s started seeing someone.”

Reid nods, “And you feel betrayed by that?”

“No, I…” He pauses, “I don’t know. Maybe.”

Reid’s quiet for a few moments, “I don’t think you should give up on her.”

“Why’s that?”

“I’m pretty certain she’s still in love with you.”

“What makes you think that?”

He shrugs, “For one, the way she says your name. Even though all these years have passed between you, she still only calls you by your first name. Then there’s the picture frame in her house that she tried to hide of the two of you–”

“What?” Aaron frowns, “What picture frame?”

“She has a picture of the two of you still in her house, she hides it behind one of her plants. But it’s not dusty, it looks brand new, which suggests she looks at it often.”

Aaron doesn’t respond, only stares ahead with a sense of renewed hope.

***

Ava had nearly called Aaron several times since sending Tom away. She spent most of her days working from home since the shooting. Her coworkers sent her flowers and food. But there were other gifts that were left on her doorstep. Her car had been egged more than once. She spent the better part of her day scrubbing away the “Die Bitch!” That was spray painted on her front door. She was beginning to feel like she couldn’t stay here alone anymore.

And then, in the middle of the night, her window shattered. Someone had to have come here to kill her. She sat up in bed and immediately closed and locked her bedroom door, grabbed her cell phone from her nightstand, and dashed into the bathroom. She closed and locked that door as well. Barricading herself in, she tried to slow her breathing before flipping open her phone and dialing Aaron.

“Ava? What’s wrong?” He had checked his caller ID for once.

“I think there’s someone in my house.” She whispered, terrified of being heard.

She heard rustling on the other line, most likely Aaron getting out of bed, “Where are you?”

“I locked myself in the bathroom in my bedroom.”

“Good, that’s good. I don’t suppose you have a gun?”

“No.” She whimpered.

“Hey, it’s okay, I’m on my way.” Sure enough, she already heard a car starting, “But I need you to hang up and call 911, can you do that?”

“No, no don’t go, please don’t leave me.” She hated the way tears filled her voice, but she was more scared than she’d been in her whole life.

“Ava, I’m on my way, but you need to call the police in case they can get there faster, do you understand? They’ll stay on the line with you, just tell them I’m on my way too. Okay? Can you do that?”

She swallows, “Yeah. I can do that.”

“I’m gonna hang up now, I’ll be there in five minutes. You’re gonna be okay.”

He hangs up and she dials 911 while trying to stop her hands from shaking. The operator stays on the line with her and reminds her that the police are on their way. And then she hears the footsteps. “Someone’s coming.” She whispers.

“Ma’am, stay calm and quiet, the police will be there any minute.”

The footsteps get closer. They’re slow, careful. They creak on the wood outside her bedroom door. Her lower lip wobbles with the effort to keep quiet. The bedroom door knob jiggles and she thinks she might pass out. When it doesn’t turn, she’s momentarily frozen in terror, until there’s a voice on the other side, “Ava, it’s Aaron. There’s no one here, you can open the door.”

She’s frozen in place, not able to get her legs to cooperate as Aaron and the 911 operator are both calling for her now. She hangs up her cellphone as she hears sirens approaching, cutting off the woman on the other line.

“Ava, open the door.” Aaron’s close to shouting now as she pushes herself up to standing, “I don’t want to break your door, but I will.”

“I’m coming.” She’s able to say, finally opening the bathroom door, “I’m coming.” She repeats, walking across the floor to her bedroom door where she unlocks it to find a nervous looking Aaron on the other side.

“What took you so long to open the door?”

She blinks up at him, “There’s no one here?” The sirens are getting closer, but for some reason, her vision is blurring. She tries and fails to blink it away.

“Someone threw a rock through your window, but no one’s here. They just wanted to scare you.” She could hear him speaking, but he sounded far away. “Ava, are you alright?”

She felt something hot and warm trickle down her abdomen, “I think… I think I might be bleeding.” It’s the last thing she says before everything goes dark.

***

Aaron curses and throws out his arms to catch her before she hits the floor. Sure enough, as he lays her gently to the floor, he can see that her stitches have opened up where she was shot. Relieved that that’s all this is, he rushes to the front door to let the paramedics inside. He watches as they work on her and within a minute, her eyes blink awake. They tell her they’re cleaning her wound and restitching her, that she’s fine, and he watches as silent tears fall from the corners of her eyes. He has to turn away.

Wandering back out to her living room, he begins picking up the glass from the window and disposing of it in the trash. After opening a few closets, he’s able to find a broom and dustpan, sweeping the remaining glass off her hardwood floors. He told her a rock had been thrown through her window, and that was true, but he had neglected to tell her about the note attached to it that read she would burn in hell for what she’d done. He carefully bagged the rock and note in an evidence bag and brought it out to his car to bring in later. Maybe Quantico would find some prints. He stopped in front of her door on his way back inside. It was clear she had tried to scrub off the graffiti from her door, but the ghost of its words still lingered. Standing there, staring at those dirty words, his jaw set. Anger filled him to the brim. He would come back here tomorrow and repaint her door.

Once he was satisfied with the state of her living room, he walked back to her bedroom where she was now sitting up, the paramedic just finishing up. He averted his eyes from the bare skin of her stomach as she held up her shirt for the paramedic. He tried desperately not to remember all the times he’d kissed that skin. Or the times he’d laid his head on it, its softness and Ava’s fingers running through his hair lulling him to sleep.

“Thank you for coming.” She says to him as the paramedics begin packing up to leave, “I’m sorry you came here in the middle of the night for nothing.”

“Ava, someone threw a rock through your window. That’s not nothing.”

She puts her face in her hands and he notices the way her body shakes with sobs, “I don’t know what to do, I don’t feel safe anywhere anymore.”

“Is there anywhere else you can stay? With your boyfriend, maybe?”

She looked up at him like he was insane, “Boyfriend?”

“I– The man who was here a couple weeks ago?”

He swears embarrassment crosses her face as she understands what he’s saying, but it’s gone quickly, “No. I stopped seeing him.”

Aaron stops himself from asking why, “You can stay at my place if you want.” He says instead, “I have the day off tomorrow, I’ll fix up your window and install an alarm system.”

“You don’t have to do all that.”

“I want to.” He says as genuinely as he can, making sure she sees his eyes when he says it, “You don’t deserve what all these people are doing to you. I know you don’t believe that, but I do.”

“Okay.” She says slowly and sniffles, “Let me pack my things.”

He waits for her in the car and when she gets in, he wordlessly backs out of the driveway. As they pull away, Aaron reaches over and lays his hand on top of hers. He expects her to pull away from his touch, but instead, she intertwines their fingers and squeezes gently.

***

Despite herself, Ava finds that she keeps seeking out Aaron’s touch even after he stops the car. She waits for him to come to her side of the car and open the door for her, something she used to roll her eyes at when he did it years ago. She lets him carry her bag up the stairs and she holds his free hand as he leads her into his apartment.

“Sit down,” He says gently, gesturing to the couch, “I’ll make you some tea.” She knows from the way he’s watching her she’s scaring him. She knows why, too. Knows how out of character it is for her to accept help. Even more so, how odd it is that she’s seeking out his touch. It’s not odd for her, it’s what she’s wanted this whole time, but denied herself. But she knows how he must see it.

Ava sits on his couch and allows herself to sink into it. The whole apartment smells of him, but besides that, there’s nothing to suggest that this apartment is his. No framed pictures, no games or books or albums. No guitar that he used to lazily strum as she read a book nearby. She didn’t understand it, he hadn’t been like this when they dated. They used to make whole days out of sifting through secondhand music and bookstores. They had piles of them when their shelves ran out of space. Their apartment had always looked, no matter what else, lived in. This place looked like it had been furnished before he moved in and he hadn’t thought much about the space since.

When he comes back over to her, he holds the mug of tea as promised as well as a plateful of something that looks suspiciously like–

“I had some leftover sweet potato fries. I know they’re your favorite.”

She smiles when he sets them in front of her, possibly the first time she’s smiled in weeks, “Thank you.” She says softly.

They wordlessly sit like that, side by side on the couch while she sips her tea and nibbles on the fries. She pushes the plate towards him, silently inviting him to eat some with her. And when the fries are gone and she’s drained her tea to the dregs, she says what she’s thinking: “Why does this apartment feel like it belongs to a stranger?”

“Are you the profiler now, then?”

She shrugs, “I just remember how it was when we used to live together. It didn’t look like this.”

He seems to ponder that for a few moments, “I suppose I’m not here very often so I don’t think about it too much.” When she lets silence fall between them, he speaks again “You can sleep in the bed, I’ll sleep out here.”

“No,” She says, “No, that’s silly, I’ll sleep out here.”

“You want to sleep next to the door?”

She swallows, “As a matter of fact, I do.”

He smirks and nudges his shoulder against hers, “Come on, don’t be stubborn. I normally sleep on my office couch anyway. At least this couch is newer.”

She pushes her shoulder back against his, maintaining the contact, “Could we just sit here for a while first?”

When he moves his shoulder, she prepares for rejection, but instead he lifts up his arm to wrap around her and pull her to him. “As long as you want.”

***

They must’ve fallen asleep at some point because when Aaron opens his eyes, Ava’s laying fully on his chest, snoring softly. He’d forgotten that she snores and he smiles at the sound. Unable to help himself, he runs his fingers down the curve of her head. She makes a content noise at this and then her eyes are blinking open.

“Oh, shit.” She groans and tries to move, but Aaron tightens his arms to stop her.

“No, don’t. Please.”

She stills, “We shouldn’t.”

“We’re just lying down.”

She pauses, “We both know it’s more than that.” She says, but too tired to fight him, she settles back against his chest anyway.

Thankful she gave in to him, he closes his eyes again and listens to her breathing before falling back to sleep. It’s the most restful sleep he’s gotten in months.

***

The sunlight wakes her again, Aaron’s arms still wrapped protectively around her. His chest rises and falls slowly and she allows herself to close her eyes again and simply enjoy being held by him.

But then she hears someone outside and she shoots up involuntarily, waking him.

“What? What is it?”

The footsteps fade away and she deflates, remembering she’s in an apartment building, “I—I’m sorry, I thought I heard something.”

He looks at her through sleepy eyes, “We should get up anyway.” She’s sitting up on his chest still and for a moment she can imagine that they wake up like this every morning. That they had woken up like this every morning for the last fifteen years. “You feel okay?” He asks, concern flooding his face.

Ava climbs off him, swinging her legs around to sit on the edge of the couch, “I’m fine, I just… I don’t know how to keep going like this.”

He sits up as well, leaning over his knees, “What do you mean?”

She shakes her head and sniffles, “I give absolutely everything to every single client, every case I take until I have nothing left. And…” She takes a deep breath and Aaron puts a hand on her knee, “And now I’m afraid of loud noises. I’m afraid to sleep in my own bed.”

Aaron scratches his head, “I can teach you how to defend yourself. How to shoot a gun.”

“You’re in the FBI. You must see women like me murdered every day. Do you think knowing how to shoot a gun would help?”

“I think it might make you feel more confident and in control.”

“But will it keep me alive?”

He swallows, “I think maybe you should consider hiring a professional security team, at least one guard posted outside the house at all times. I think that would keep you alive. At least until this case is over.”

She looks down at her hands, “Except there’s always going to be another case.”

He nods, “If it makes you feel any better, most of these people don’t want you dead.” She snorts. “No, I’m serious. Less than 1% of them actually want you dead, I don’t think Chloe’s father even realized what he was doing.”

“Your agents told me that Chloe’s father would come back for me if he wasn’t arrested.”

He shakes his head, “They said that to get you to give them a name. He wouldn’t have. He’s not a killer.”

“Oh, so you let your agents manipulate victims to get what they want? Who’s the bad guy now, Aaron?”

He closes his eyes, “How do you go from sleeping on my chest to speaking to me with disgust in a matter of moments? Don’t you find it exhausting?”

“I could ask you the same.” She said quietly. They both knew she was referring to the demise of their relationship.

“I don’t know how else to prove to you that I regret the way I acted then and I don’t see you that way anymore. If I could take back the last fifteen years, make myself stay and talk to you instead of running, I would.”

She sighs and looks away from him, standing from the couch, “Could you take me back to my house? The hearing resumes tomorrow, I have to prep.”

He watches her for another moment and then nods, standing and then sidling past her. The whole ride over to her house she has to sit on her hands to keep from touching him.

***

They had fought before, long before Aaron had decided she wasn’t worth it. Mostly over silly things, but back then Ava had worn her heart on her sleeve. Thinking about it now, she was almost embarrassed by it. Aaron had always been quiet and stoic when he was upset whereas Ava always was on the verge of burning the house down. He would ask for space and she would reluctantly give it to him, immediately heading to the kitchen to grab a beer. Then she would blast either Fleetwood Mac’s Rumours or Joni Mitchell’s Blue on vinyl and wait for Aaron to come out to turn it down. Once, he came out and instead of going to turn off the music, sat next to Ava on the kitchen floor where she nursed a beer. He takes it out of her hands, takes a sip, then hands it back.

“Why do you always sit on the kitchen floor when you’re upset?” He asked.

“Because this is where we keep the alcohol and the ice cream.”

He huffed out a laugh, “But why the floor? We have chairs, you know.”

She shrugged, “Sitting on the floor feels more dramatic.” Silence fell between them and she took a large gulp of her beer while waiting for him to speak, too stubborn to break the silence herself.

“I’ve never learned how to share parts of myself with another person.” He said quietly. So quietly, she wasn’t sure she heard him correctly over the sound of Joni Mitchell’s voice. “My childhood wasn’t like yours, I wasn’t encouraged to talk about my feelings or how my day went. No one wanted to hear that from me. I never had a serious relationship like this that I wanted to put the effort in for.” He sighed and she immediately softened, wondering if she’d been too hard on him. “I guess what I’m trying to say is that I’m still learning how to be a good partner and I’d… appreciate it if you could give me that patience. But I understand if you don’t want that and you’d rather be with someone who isn’t so hard to love.”

Her heart broke when he said that. The anger that just a little while ago had risen in her like a tsunami, ready to wreak havoc on everyone around her, became no more than the gentle kiss of the ocean lapping the shore. “I don’t want anyone else.” She said firmly, “And I’m so sorry that I made you even question if that's what I wanted.”

He didn’t say anything, only reached over and rested a hand on her thigh, so she continued, “Thank you for being vulnerable with me.” She put her hand on top of his and lightly squeezed, “We’ll figure it out together, okay? But I’m not going anywhere.” She turned her head slightly and pressed her lips to his cheek.

Aaron turned his face into hers, eyes closed, and she could feel the way the tension went out of his arms at her words. “I’m sorry.” He murmured, nudging his nose against hers.

“It’s okay,” She said, placing a hand on his cheek, “We’ll be okay.”

Aaron used to be softer then. He was rougher now. She thinks the FBI has changed him, partly for the better, but some for the worse. He had been alone for so long and had seen the worst that humanity had to offer. He still struggled with being vulnerable, even more so than when she knew him the first time, but she could see him taking down those walls for her again. That scared her even more. If he kept dismantling the fortress he had built around himself in her absence, if he laid down the drawbridge for her, she knew she would have no choice but to cross it.

***

When they get to the house, she shuts herself in her office and Aaron stares down the hallway after her. He chews the inside of his cheek before sighing and turning away. He leaves the house again to go to the hardware store to get what he needed to repaint her door, replace her window, and install an alarm system.

He works quietly, doing his best to make sure he doesn’t disturb Ava while she’s working. He tries to stifle the rage he feels while he paints over the graffiti on her front door. Anger at the people in this city, but mostly anger at himself, because was he any better than them?

“Oh.” The sound of her voice startles him and he peaks around the door to look at her, “I thought you’d left.” She looks around, sees the fixed window and the alarm system still in its box, “How much do I owe you for all of this?”

He frowns, “I don’t want your money.”

“Aaron, I can’t let you pay for all of this.”

“It’s already done.” He says with a small smile, “Look, I know you hate owing people, but this isn’t that. I just want to help you. And I was going to ask you if you wanted to go to the gun range with me tomorrow after the hearing. To teach you how to shoot.”

She chews the inside of her cheek, “Let’s go tonight.”

He raises his eyebrows, “Don’t you have to prep?”

“I had already prepped before I got shot.” She shrugs, “Most of it will be your testimony anyway and you’re a pro, so.”

He smirks, “Are you admitting that I’m actually good at something?”

She actually cracks a smile, “Oh, please, Aaron. You don’t need me to fuel your gigantic ego.”

His grin widens, “Well, let me just install the alarm system and then we can go.”

***

When they get to the gun range Ava finds herself unable to stop her hands from shaking.

“Ava?” Aaron turns to look at her when he notices she’s not following.

“Have you ever killed someone?”

His warm brown eyes search her face and she remembers that look. Even before he was a profiler, he’d naturally been able to read her mood, no matter how hard she tried to hide it. She’d never been able to lie to him, even about trivial things, like a surprise party she’d thrown him or a date she’d planned. “Yes.” He says finally, “But only if I absolutely had to.”

She slowly shakes her head, “I don’t know if I could do that. Not even with my own life hanging in the balance.”

He looks down at his feet for a moment and then back up, “You’d be surprised how your body will react when faced with death. You’re not making a decision to end another’s life, you’re making the decision to save your own.” She looks away from him and starts picking at the skin around her thumb nail. He gently takes her hands into his own to stop her from breaking skin and her eyes meet his again. “Just let me teach you how. There’s no harm in learning. And if I teach you well enough, you’ll be able to shoot in a way to injure instead of kill whenever possible.”

“Okay.” She says softly.

He brings his hand up to caress her cheek lightly, something he used to do a lot when they were dating, knowing that she found his touch soothing. “You can do this.” He says now, slowly dropping his hand to hold hers again. She nods and he lightly tugs on her hand to start walking again.

“The three things you need to remember,” Aaron starts as you both put on the goggles and earmuffs, “Are front site, trigger press, and follow through. Focus on your front site, not the target.” He points to the front site on the gun, “Second, trigger press, self explanatory. And three, follow through, after the shot keep the gun on the target.” He bends down and pulls up his pant leg slightly, revealing a gun at his ankle.

“You carry two guns?” She asks.

“I like to be prepared.” He hands the gun that he pulls out of his ankle holster to her, “You can borrow it today.” He quickly goes over the basic mechanics of the gun, the safety, the trigger, loading and unloading the magazine. Once she’s able to label all the parts of the gun for him, release and load the magazine without his help, he shows her how to shoot. Taking the gun off his hip. She watches him as he lifts the gun and reiterates the steps to her before firing off three bullets in quick succession, all striking the paper target ahead of them right in the head.

He gestures for her to step in front of him and she hates herself for how hyper aware she is of his presence behind her. Lightly, he puts a hand under one of her wrists and lifts as she clutches the gun. “Front site, trigger press, follow through.” He reminds her and then drops his hand. She immediately feels vulnerable, but repeats his words in her head again. Looks to the front site, pulls the trigger, and does her best to keep her hands steady until she’s sure the bullet has torn through the target.

“Not bad.” He says, looking at where the bullet had landed, just on the edge of the target’s abdomen. “How’d that feel?”

Pushing the safety back into place, she puts the gun down and steps away, “Um, weirdly comfortable.”

He grins, “There’s nothing wrong with that.”

“Feels wrong.”

“I know,” He says, “But you’re learning for safety, not because you want to hurt anyone. You have to remember that.” She’s still staring at the target, but he can’t take his eyes off her. “Try again.”

Her smile is shaky when she looks back at him, but she steps back up all the same, picking up the gun again. “Front site,” She murmurs to herself, “Trigger press,” The gun pops, “Follow through.” When she drops the gun again, she sees the hole she made right in the middle of the target’s abdomen.

Aaron lets out a low whistle, “That’s impressive, ba–” He catches himself before calling her “babe,” but she still hears it. “Nice shot.” He finishes instead.

She glances his way, but he refuses to meet her eyes, his face flushed with embarrassment. She wants to tell him not to be embarrassed, that she wishes he would call her babe. And then she feels crazy for thinking that so she picks up the gun again.

***

“You ready?” It’s the next morning. Aaron had dropped her off back at home the night before, showing her how the new alarm system worked before reluctantly leaving her alone. Now she stands in front of him, briefcase in hand outside the courtroom.

“I should be asking you that.” He says.

She shrugs, “You’ve done this before and your testimony is solid, I’m not worried.”

“Are you okay being here again?”

Her face darkens, “I’m fine.” She says sharply, though he can read it all over her face that she’s not.

“It’s okay to not be okay.” He says softly.

He thinks her eyes are shining, but she looks away too quickly. “I’ll see you in there.” She says and then she’s gone.

He’s called in soon after and he concentrates on the sound of Ava’s voice as she asks him the questions they’ve rehearsed dozens of times. He tells the court that he believes Jason is innocent and that there is a serial killer still on the loose. Ava rests, sitting back down next to Jason, and then it’s time for the cross. Aaron recognizes the prosecutor, a man who had called him several times since seeing his name on the defense’s witness list. He had answered the call once and explained his side before hanging up, ignoring the prosecutor’s desperate plea that he not do this. He let all further calls go to voicemail.

“Agent Hotchner, how long have you been with the BAU?”

“About thirteen years, I believe.”

“And you’ve testified in many court cases since then, yes?”

“That’s correct.”

“And in that time, have you ever testified on behalf of the defense?”

He pauses, “No, I suppose I haven’t.”

“So why this case?”

Aaron frowns, “I thought I had already made it clear that I was here to clear the name of an innocent man.”

“And why do you believe that the defendant is innocent?”

“Objection,” Ava says tiredly, “Your honor, we already went through all of this, if the prosecution doesn’t have anything new to add we can let Agent Hotchner go.”

“Withdrawn.” The prosecution says before the judge can respond, “How did you get involved in this case, agent?”

“The defense had done some research on profiles and believed that the profile of these killings did not match the defendant. She contacted me as I am the Unit Chief of the BAU. We talked about the case, I drew up a profile for her and confirmed that it didn’t match the defendant.”

“Was this the first time you had met the defense?”

Aaron narrowed his eyes, “I’m sorry… I’m not sure I understand the question.”

“Fine, I’ll make it more simple for you, are you and Ms. Wilmington romantically involved?”

The court erupts in whispers, Ava’s staring at him dumbfounded before standing, “Objection,” She says, “Relevance?”

“Your honor, I think it’s relevant to know whether the defense is sleeping with her witness, don’t you?”

“Order,” The judge says, banging the gavel, “Everyone settle down. The prosecution may proceed.”

Ava looked like she wanted to use that gavel to beat the judge’s head in, but she set her jaw and sat back down.

“No.” Aaron said firmly, “Ms. Wilmington and I are not romantically involved.”

The prosecutor pauses, “I’d like to remind you that you’re under oath, Agent Hotchner.”

“And I’ve answered the question honestly and to the best of my ability.”

“I’ll rephrase then, have you and Ms. Wilmington ever been romantically involved?”

He can feel Ava staring at him, practically begging him to lie, but he won’t compromise his integrity. The fact that they had once been romantically involved had nothing to do with this case or what he believed about the defendant, and he would prove it. “Yes, we were, we ended our relationship fifteen years ago.”

“And did you keep in contact with Ms. Wilmington after the relationship ended?”

“No. I hadn’t spoken to her again until she contacted me about this case.”

The prosecutor nodded, “And you don’t think having a previous relationship with Ms. Wilmington affected your profile? Maybe you wanted to help out an old lover, no one would blame you for that.”

Aaron hated having to air out his personal laundry for a whole courtroom to see, especially on such a high profile case, but he knew if he wanted to save this case he’d have to be honest. Brutally honest.

“The problem with that theory, Mr. Dremel, is that the relationship with Ms. Wilmington and I ended badly. We hadn’t spoken because I did not wish to speak to her. Because I thought, like a lot of other people in this city, that Ms. Wilmington was immoral, setting humanity’s worst free to commit the worst atrocities we can imagine. So when she called me I immediately shut it down. I didn’t want to help her set another murderer free. But she begged me to look over the files, and I did, if only to prove her wrong one last time. But she was right and I stand by the fact that Jason Bajaj did not commit these murders. If anything, your questions only affirm my integrity rather than denounce it. I wanted the profile to lead to Jason Bajaj. It didn’t.”

Whispers slowly rise in the court as Aaron finishes his statement, the prosecutor staring at him blankly. He assumes he caught the prosecutor off guard, it was clever to assume Aaron would be biased when building the profile given his and Ava’s previous relationship. He might have tried the same tactic as a prosecutor. But it wasn’t the truth. When he glances over at Ava, she’s urgently whispering to Jason.

Finally, the prosecutor sighs, “No further questions.”

***

“Aaron?” He turns at the sound of his name, Ava stands there, looking nervous. She pushes a loose strand of hair behind her ear and licks her lips, “Would you want to have a beer with me? At my place?”

He pauses, “I can send an agent over if you’re worried about being alone.”

“No, I…” She shakes her head, “I just wanted to thank you for saving the case.”

“You don’t have to thank me, I only told the truth. We both know he only pulled that up there because you’re a woman and if you were a male attorney he never would have considered that line of questioning.”

“I know, and I know the judge hasn’t decided yet, but if we win I know it will be because of you.” She sighs and looks down at her feet, “Please just come have a beer with me, being this nice to you while sober is making me nauseous.”

He chuckles, “Okay, I’ll follow you in my car.”

***

He can’t explain the sense of relief he feels to see her walk in her home and disable the alarm before it dials emergency services. He watches her kick off her shoes, shed her blazer, and pad delicately over to the fridge where she grabs a couple beers. She takes the bottle opener out of a drawer, uncaps both beers, and then hands one to him as she wordlessly sits on the kitchen floor. He smiles to himself before also lowering himself to sit next to her, reveling in the nostalgia he feels sitting on the floor next to her like this.

“I thought you only sit on the kitchen floor when you’re sad.” He says.

“Well, I am sad.”

He frowns, “Why? You almost certainly just won one of your biggest cases.”

She takes a sip of her beer, “Because soon I won’t have an excuse to call you anymore.”

He huffs a laugh through his nostrils, “Oh, come on.”

“What?”

“You didn’t really think you could get rid of me again that easily, did you?”

“Mmm,” She hums, “Well, it was even easier the first time, so.”

“Ouch.” He murmurs, and knocks back some of his beer.

She’s silent for a few moments. “Do you think,” She starts again, “Do you think that the real reason you left me was because you were afraid of committing to me fully?”

He sighs, “There were a lot of reasons and at the time they all seemed rational to me. And yes, I’m sure that was one of them. I don’t think I fully believed that you would still love me if I was truly vulnerable, no matter how much you told me otherwise. But no, Ava, most of it really was that I was just an asshole.”

“Are you still an asshole?”

He looks at her, wondering if she’s really asking what he thinks she’s asking. She won’t meet his eyes and is peeling at the label on the bottle.

“I’m doing my best not to be.” He says finally and she looks back at him.

After a few moments of staring at each other, she places the beer bottle on the floor and straddles his hips, lightly placing her hands on his shoulders, “What are you doing?” He whispers.

Instead of responding, she slowly brings her face to his. He nearly holds his breath at her closeness, terrified that if he moves too quickly, she’ll go away again. Slowly, so slowly it feels like torture, she brings her lips to his. He thinks she has to know the way the taste of her is his undoing. His hands shake as he brings them to her back to pull her just a bit closer. Her breath hitches at his touch and he wonders if she’s coming undone as well.

After a few moments, she pulls away and his mouth follows her, but he hits only air, “I’m sorry.” She says breathlessly, “I don’t know what I was thinking.”

“Don’t,” He says, and he’s also trying to catch his breath, “Don’t take it back, please.”

Her eyes are darting all around and her lower lip is starting to wobble and she looks frantically from his shaking hands up to his face and back down again, “Are you okay?” He asks slowly. She used to have panic attacks when they were in law school and he still remembers how she used to look, the signs she’d give him. She doesn’t answer him now, but he can see her breathing rapidly increase and without giving himself time to think about it, he wraps his arms around her and pulls her to his chest.

Ava doesn’t fight him, but she doesn’t hug him back. He remembers that she used to like pressure when she was feeling anxious so he squeezes her lightly every so often, keeping his arms tight around her until her breathing slows again. “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to do.” He says gently, “I can leave if you’d like.”

“No, no.” She says quickly and finally wraps her arms back around him, “Stay. If you don’t mind.” She buries her face in his neck and he feels as if he could burst into flames. This was all he wanted. She was all he wanted.

“I’ll stay.” He says and tightens his arms around her. They sit on the floor like this for a long time, neither wanting to break their embrace. Eventually, her arms loosen and her breathing evens out. He smiles to himself knowing she feels safe enough with him to fall asleep in his arms like this. Doing his best not to wake her, he carefully stands with her in his arms.

Ava groans a little, but doesn’t fully wake as he walks down the hallway to her bedroom. He manages to pull the sheets back and place her under them before she starts blinking up at him, “Did I fall asleep on you?”

He smiles, “Yeah.”

She swallows, “Can you hold me while I sleep?” She looks away from him, seemingly embarrassed, “The last week or so, the only time I really slept was when we fell asleep on your couch.”

“Sure,” He says, and he’s sure she must hear the way his voice breaks a little. He climbs into bed with her and pulls her to his chest. She’s asleep again almost instantly, her slow breaths turning into soft snores. He smiles a bit to himself, reveling in the fact that she’s so close to being his again. He can’t let her go.

***

Waking in Aaron’s arms is a trippy feeling, to say the least. Her first instinct is to absolutely freak out and push him away, but she manages to slowly breathe through that and push the thought away. He had stayed. He had come for her and despite her best efforts to push him away, here he still was. He still wanted another shot.

And then her phone rings and she’s pulled from him, her thoughts of love and romance clear as she sees it’s a work call.

“Wilmington.” She answers, “Alright, I’ll be right there.”

“What is it?” Aaron asks groggily as she hangs up the phone.

“The judge has made a decision. I have to go.”

“I’ll come with you.”

“No.” She says quickly, too quickly. She turns to see a flash of hurt on his face, “You can stay here if you want, but you can’t come.”

“I don’t understand.” He says slowly.

“After yesterday, the cross from the prosecutor… Do you understand how that would look if we arrived together today after leaving together yesterday? I can’t risk that.”

She flits around the room, hurriedly getting dressed, putting earrings in, conscious of the way he’s watching her, “Ava,” He says slowly, “Why did you kiss me last night?”

“Do we have to do this now?”

“Yes.” And for the first time since they met again, she hears anger in his voice.

She stops what she’s doing to look at him, “I have to go.” She says firmly.

“Fine.” He says, “I won’t be here when you get back.”

“Aaron–”

“I understand that I hurt you in ways that I will regret for the rest of my life, but I didn’t take you to be intentionally cruel, stringing me along like a lovesick puppy.”

“I’m not–”

“I think I’ve made it pretty clear that I still have feelings for you. You ask me here. You all but tell me you’ll miss me when the case is over. You kiss me. You fall asleep in my arms. And now you act like nothing’s changed. You give me hope and then you strip it away and now you’re looking at me like I’m crazy. Like I’ve somehow misunderstood.”

She looks down and away from him, “You’re not crazy and you haven’t misunderstood anything. But after yesterday… That line of questioning… If we get a new trial, I’ll need you again. You and your team. Aaron, if anyone were to find out it would look like you lied under oath. You could lose everything. We both could.”

He knew, logically, that she was right, but logic went out the window when it came to her and he found himself angry that she was capable of thinking that way when he couldn’t. “So what are you saying? You kiss me and that’s it? We can never be together?”

“No, I… Just until Jason’s out.”

“That could be years.”

She looks at him hopelessly and reaches out for his hand, but he snatches it away, “Aaron,” She says and the hurt in her voice and on her face is nearly too much for him to bear. “I want this.” She says fiercely, “I want you. I thought that was what you wanted.”

His phone rings before he can respond and he sees that it’s JJ, “I have to get to work.” He says coldly and looks away from her, gathering his things that are scattered around her room.

“We’re not going to talk about this?”

“You said you had to go.”

“I do, but…”

Her voice trails off and he ignores it. He’s punishing her, maybe unfairly, but he’s angry. He’s tired of things coming between them, of having to put their jobs first. It was their careers that got in the way the first time and here it was again, collapsing the bridge they had built between them.

“Aaron, please, don’t leave like this.”

She had been so sweet and vulnerable the last 24 hours, it reminded him so strongly of the girl he knew fifteen years ago. His phone rings again and he sends it to voicemail. “I’ll call you later.” He says brusquely and brushes past her.

***

When she hears the front door shut behind him, she stares up at the ceiling, doing her best to breathe deeply and keep the tears at bay. Once she felt certain she wouldn’t cry, she got ready for court, pushing thoughts of Aaron to the back of her mind. She promised herself she could let herself fall apart after the work day was done, but she had to get through the judge’s decision.

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aquafinha · 3 years ago

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buddie have u been watching UK v The World? thots on that and/or S14?? (I've got my faves on each but don't wanna put in the ask in case it might be spoilery since it's technically mid-season for both)

Hi!! I've been watching both and I DEFINITELY have thoughts but I've been lazy about expressing them here more than vaguely. I have time, so let's get into it :) Sticking it behind a read more obviously due to spoilers!

OK, UK vs the World first....before it started I wanted Lemon to win...well lol, back to the drawing board I guess. (for the record I think her being in the bottom was BS, but I am biased, so...)

As of now I'm pulling hard for Pangina, I love her, she's a gem. Please don't send her home anytime soon, y'all...

I just want Baga to go home, tbh - I don't have a problem with anyone else but her. I remember on her season, I thought she was funny....now I'm wondering why I thought that. The "Oh, it's totally ok for me to pay someone from a foreign country to do my work for me" thing was...really super cringe to me.

I'm wondering if Jujubee is playing the long game or what? (not that the show is too long, but you know...) I love her, I don't want her to go home but I feel like it might happen soon (no, I haven't read any spoilers for today yet so IDK who goes home this week lol we watch it at 9 PM on Tuesdays).

Mo has been stunning (obligatory to use that word for her, hello) and I hope she finishes high!

The only UK girl I was really pulling for was Cheryl and now she's gone too :( (nothing against Blu, I just wasn't actively rooting for her)

I didn't watch any of the Holland seasons so I hadn't seen Janey before, but....idk. She's beautiful! But the attitude...I dunno.

And Jimbo is...well, Jimbo is Jimbo. I never know what to expect, lol.

As for S14....ok! I have ✨opinions✨I don't completely understand the "send people home the first two episodes and then bring them back" concept but whatever... I get wanting to show everyone off in smaller groups, though.

I'm not doing the greatest with my favorites! I love Alyssa, she's gone, I love Kornbread, she's out, I love Maddy, she's gone too...I hate to ask who's next, lol (also I would never ask because I hate spoilers!! Thanks to the person who replied to Maddy's Instagram post and let me know a week ahead that she would be going home, ugh.)

Willow is my absolute favorite though and I feel like she really has a good chance of winning! Angeria is amazing too and I'll support anyone from my state (well...except for Tamisha Iman last season...anyway) so I hope she keeps up the pace she's at! She's amazing.

I like Daya (more than her sister...sorry, unpopular opinion, I know) but I don't get getting upset because you asked for critique and got it??? I completely understand wanting to hear some critique if you're safe a lot, but don't be upset when you don't hear what you want to hear.

Still baffled that Lady Camden didn't win the challenge this past week because her look was gorgeous! And she sold it so well in my opinion! I like Jorgeous but I wouldn't have picked her as the winner.

I don't get why things got so...whatever between Maddy and Jasmine on Untucked, but it appeased the people who hate when the girls get along, so good for them I guess 😐

I know there's more I could talk about but my brain is fried from all that thinking, lol! We'll see how much of this is invalid after watching UK vs the World tonight...

#ask #answered #talking about drag race #drag race spoilers #uk vs the world #rpdr season 14

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gunsatthaphan · 3 years ago

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feel like i should attach a disclaimer first: THIS IS ONLY AN OPINION EVERYONE ELSE IS FREE TO THINK AND DO WHAT THEY WANT lol 😂 anyway, i totally get that people who are invested in teh and oh aew’s relationship are allowed to be upset but the way some are reacting to this like the show is complete trash is. unsettling to me. they never promised smooth sailing idealistic romance. after itsay idk how u thought ipytm was going to be that anyway. maybe my younger self would’ve agreed with calling the infidelity plot point horrible, but as you grow older u just really start to see how things are never black and white. the show never glorified the fact that teh’s emotional state is volatile and he’s facing temptations. the intent of this isn’t shock value and its odd to me that people think it is. it all comes down to the fact that sometimes certain media exists because it’s purpose is to be critically analyzed by the viewer.

to give an extreme example: the book trilogy hannibal; the author isn’t saying cannibalism is okay. he isn’t trying to sell some pro cannibalism agenda. are you going to “cancel” thomas harris saying that was his intent?? its up to YOU, as the reader to understand why characters are written as they are. this is why the meme: “idk why literature teachers always say what could the poet have meant when they said the curtains are blue? maybe it’s because they were blue!! 😭😭�� is kind of stupid because, the whole point is to teach consumers of media to critically think?? yeah, maybe curtains were just blue, or maybe, it’s up to us to dictate our own reading experience and attach meaning to it. the same way the purpose of showing teh having sex with oh aew for the “experience” can be interpreted as disgusting, because IT IS!! THATS THE POINT!! but its also not the ONLY point of that scene and its a disservice to that beautifully shot last 20 mins or so to reduce it to being only that.

(((i had to talk to someone about it, doreen, i’m sorry it had to be you but you’ve been really open minded about ep 3 so thats why. i hope you don’t mind)))

hello anon!

thank you for sharing your opinion (and for the much needed disclaimer!) and sorry for the late reply. I was thinking about not posting this because the discourse is so immense but I didn't just want to ignore your message. Especially because I agree. but maybe I'll delete it later sjfhsk

I'm usually hesitant to read too much into other people's opinions when it comes to certain shows because I sometimes let my own opinions get spoiled lol. That's why I usually stay away from discourses etc. But the reactions on this episode are insane. Never seen such a huge shitstorm tbh and it's just making me shake my head. Which is NOT me undermining anyone's opinion in any way or saying it's unreasonable but the extent of that backlash is disproportionate in my opinion.

Like of course I get why it's upsetting but some ppl are acting like they've never seen a story like this? One that's been told and retold countless of times - All because it's teh and ohaew? And more importantly I completely agree with you - Some are acting like they promised us idealistic romance; Which they didn't? I'm not saying it was bound to happen but they're no superhumans. Which brings me to what you said here:

"maybe my younger self would’ve agreed with calling the infidelity plot point horrible, but as you grow older u just really start to see how things are never black and white. the show never glorified the fact that teh’s emotional state is volatile and he’s facing temptations. the intent of this isn’t shock value and its odd to me that people think it is. it all comes down to the fact that sometimes certain media exists because it’s purpose is to be critically analyzed by the viewer."

I have nothing to add because I completely agree; especially the part about Teh's character. 👏🏻

On that note I'm gonna end it here. This will be the last ask I will answer about this episode - if you or anyone else wants to talk more about it, my dms are always open! 😊And thank you again! 💜

xxx

#opinions #discourse #again this is just my opinion; im not looking to offend anyone #if you disagree then thats okay #and what i said about the majority of the fandom reacting the way they did does not apply to everyone #please note

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yahnnieee · 4 years ago

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(So before I start the story I wanna tell you this is my first post so please don't judge my writing and story also the stories I'll be writing are not short or like mid-long. And I'm mostly going to be using my name at all times and so bye bye~ have a great day or night)

I woke up to my alarm ringing, I looked to the side seeing '4:20' flash in the clock I shut the clock and got up I took my phone that was charging in my nightstand. I looked at it and saw messages pop up. "Morning sunshine" I smiled and replied with "Morning, William" I went to the bathroom to take a bath and get ready for the day.

Let me introduce myself. Hi, I'm Rianne Suh I'm an Actress, Model and Dancer I'm 19, half Filipina, British and Korean I'm currently living in London and I'm in a relationship with NCT's Lucas Wong's Brother (Kris Wong) and I'm currently working on a project with Will Poulter and Thomas Sangster along with Ki Hong Lee and Tom Holland about a Mafia Couple who started there own little family and taking the biggest heist of 1.8 billion. Will and I are the main characters as for Ki Hong and Thomas being our helpers and Tom as our enemy.

After taking a bath I went to my walk-in closet and took a black spaghetti strap crop top and black ripped jeans. I took a pair of black ankle boots and a gold bracelet with a golden watch. I put on lip tint and styled combed my hair keeping it down but I still bought a black hair tie that was resting in my wrist. I looked at the Mirror for the last time, I then took my phone and a small gold and black backpack then put necessary things I'll need. I went downstairs to my kitchen and put my backpack down. I went to get a bowl and oatmeal with some berries and hot water. I took the oatmeal from the upper shelves and lucky me I'm 5'8 so I can reach high shelves and stuffs. I poured the hot water in and stirred it alittle then put the berries and banana slices on top of it. After prepping my breakfast I sat down eating while checking my emails and talking to Will. After I eating I picked up my bag and went to my garage, I picked out my black Lamborghini and hopped in. I drove thru the city of London to Our filming site. After 25 mins I got there, I went out of the car and was greeted by staffs I greeted back with a smile. I got inside the site and saw Thomas talking to our Director. "Hey Rianne!" Thomas greeted me with a smile. I smiled back hugging him. "Hello" I said patting his back. "How's your morning?" I heard someone ask as I pull away from Thomas. I looked over to Thomas' shoulder and saw Will walking towards us. I exclaimed and walked over to him hugging him tightly, almost like we didn't see eachother for years. "Rianne, hey!" Someone greeted me and I looked back. It was Tom. "Hey Tom!" I greeted as I hugged Tom. "Great..." He replied chuckling. I chuckled and heard our director call us. "Rianne, get ready please. Filming starts in 45" I nodded and walked over to my make-up chair. I sat down with Thomas and Will next to me and Tom next to Thomas. "What's today's series or something?" I asked as my makeup artist put on gold eyeshadow in my lids. "Umm... Meeting up with Tom" Thomas replied, his hair stylist fixing his slightly messed up hair. "Ohh... Hot!" I said and laughed alittle. "How are you and your boyfriend?" I heard Will ask. I looked over to him my brows furrowed. "Oh... Close to breaking up, I'm actually going to break up with him" I said simply. Everyone stopped there movement for a sec trying to comprehend what I said. "Why?" Tom asked. "Well.... I really don't wanna hurt him but I love someone else I started feeling this way a month ago and it got stronger as the days pass by" I replied. "Who's this lucky guy?" Asked Thomas. "Secret" I replied after a minute my make up was done, I stood up and took my phone walking towards some staffs.

After a few minutes Thomas, Will and Tom came all in the same time, Thomas sat next to me and asked. "Seriously... Who's the guy?" "The guy I'm working with at the moment" "Which one?" "William.." "Shuck! Mate seriously?" "You think?" "Well yeah" "then yeah" Thomas and I whispered shout at eachother while I could feel Tom and Will's gaze directed to us. "Rianne.. Will ,Tom on set please" our director called us out. I stood there with Will and Tom in front of us. "Action!"

It's been a few hours since we started filming and we're actually done already. It's currently 6:22 pm and we've been filming for 12 hours straight. I'm currently sitting in my makeup chair taking my makeup off and washing my face. Will came in and sat next to me. "Tired?" He asked leaning back. "Yeah" I replied leaning back too resting me head after drying my face. "It's definitely tiring when people are all over you" I said. "Introverted" he said chuckling. "Hey Will, do you wanna stay in my place? I'm feeling really weird when I'm alone this past few days well not weird or alone I think I just need someone with me" I said waiting anxiously. "Sure... Why not?" He said I quickly looked up at Will smiling. I jumped out of my seat and run to him hugging him tight. My legs wrapped around his waist tightly, his hand landed his hands in my waist pulling me closer. "Thank U" I said lifting my head looking at him our face only inches apart. Suddenly the door open Thomas entered the room, his eyes grew wide seeing us in our position. "I'll leave you 2... Continue what your doing" he said and quickly shut the door. I looked at Will again and we burst to laughter. "Let's go home." I said standing up he stood up right after me and we both went out picking out things up and saying goodbye to our other crew. We took his car and drove to my house. We got home after 30 mins stopping by 7/11 to buy snacks. "Come on..I'll just go take a shower" I said and went to my room. I showered and put on an over sized shirt and shorts. I went to my room and saw Will sitting there looking at some framed photos of me and my fam and with Will himself. "Hey... Will? You good?" I asked catching his attention. "What's this?'' he asked picking up the framed photo of me and him. "Nothing... Can't i frame it?" I asked, he shook his head and stood up went to the bathroom to shower. He came out after a few with a towel loosely hanging in his waist. I stared at his toned upper body, he noticed this and smirked. "Staring is not very respectful you know" he said staring at me. "Just get here already!" I said and layed down. Will layed next to me wrapping his arms around me protectively, my head resting on his chest. I looked up at him seeing him stare at me I then I meet our lips kissing him, he kissed back immediately making me smile in the kiss. "I love you" I said staring at his bluish green eyes. "I love you too,baby girl" he replied kissing my forehead. And we both fell asleep in eachother's arms.

(So I'm going to do a part 2 of this and again please don't judge my writing!! If you have any advice to make a story better I'll definitely appreciate that so Thank U and have a great day or night ❤️)

#will poulter #will poulter imagines #thomas brodie sangster #the maze runner #tmr

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aaviav · 4 years ago

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🎄HAPPY HOLIDAYS, GUYS!! 🎄 2020 was quite a year for everyone, man. i'm so glad i decided to rejoin tumblr and because of that, i got to meet some super cool people. and i drew a fair amount of handsome 2D boys!! things slowed down in the last few months but i hope i'll learn to juggle uni and personal drawing better soon. fingers crossed 🤞

there was this post where people mentioned the ones they’re thankful for in 2020 and well... i thought it’d be nice to give a couple of shoutouts myself. “you”, you ask, “the one who is terrible at words and also expressing their feelings?” yes, absolutely. (also aaa thank u to @/otonymous @/scummy-writes for tagging me back then ; ; )

TIME TO TEST THE LIMITS OF HOW MANY PEOPLE I CAN TAG?

@op-peccatori nanaaaaaaaaaa ;__; 💖 i'm so so glad i got to start talking to you this past year. i feel like we can relate on a lot of things, and somehow a few short sentences always evolve into walls of text???? like. bruh. how. 💀 💀 i know i take a while to respond sometimes but getting to read your replies is a joy every time. hope you're doing ok and please give Theo lots of kisses from me HAHA 💖

@beni-draw-ikemen-please BENIIII you're The Sweetest Ever™ 🥺 i mean it!! you're also so genuine and v v fun to talk to, i hope we get to do that more often in the future! ; v ; thank you for sharing your thirst and wonderful art with us all. ALSO ALSO: don't forget to take care of yourself. OR ELSE 😤 sending lots of virtual hugs your way! 💖 💖

@scummy-writes we're both shy beans but whenever i see you around or on on the occasional messages to eachother, you're The Sweetest Ever™ #2 🥺 for 2021 (and beyond) i wish you more confidence in yourself and your writing, because you're amazing! sometimes u just gotta channel ur inner Shea LaBeouf and Just Do It! i believe in u!!!! 💖

@littlegrrl7 hi! i appreciate you and the things you make!!! a lot!!!! you're a fic writing machine, haha. yours were the first longfics that i read and honestly, your writing is so engaging in that you keep it interesting and it's also fun and easy to read and with a healthy dose of smut cough cough. thank you for sharing! 🥰

@dear-mrs-otome Mrs O! i might or might not have been slightly intimidated at first hahah orz ANYWAY our Best Boi venn diagram might have the thinnest overlap ever but thank you for the support all the same, and i'll also always BE thankful for Drained Dry which feels like a sorta ikevamp themed discord home for me 🥺 🥺

@maanawa HELLO U!! thank u for becoming my first penpal in years!! 🥰 for some reason u always seem like such a unique person to me?? if u put a gun to my head and asked why, i wouldn't be able to answer bc i have no idea, but like. i mean it in the best way 0: 👌

@hideoutpastel HI PASTEL, i'm glad i get to interact with u a bit more bc of twitter! u are a delight!! 😤 also i think u already know but like. ur art is so ✨ sparkly ✨ and bright and beautiful ok. kthx #bless

@yenanng i might not always reply or interact, but seeing your twt updates is somehow v cool haha. i hope you get to rest and work on personal art soon! i'm cheering u on!!! \o/ 💖

@nan-chi @weird-profiterole HI HI! 🥰 we haven't talked to eachoter much but you guys seem super genuine and fun, i hope we get to interact more in the future!! also your art is so cute i cri 😭💖

@mikotomizuki LEO HOES UNITE 🤝 🤝 thank you for being hilarious and bringing your tiddy memes everywhere you go LMAO. let's keep our fingers crossed for more amazing Leo content in 2021 🤞💖

@pseudofaux you are delightful!! thank you for all the support always. you're an angel and we don't deserve you 😭💖 (also hello ur writing skills? y e s)

@pickle-scribbles Faa, I LIVE FOR YOUR THIRST COMMENTS. SERIOUSLY HAHA. and i die bc of your masterful smut 😭 just,, thank you 🥺💖

@otonymous i've probably mentioned this before but your fics were one of the first ones i read when i got back into tumblr, and honestly? what an amazing author to start with. #thepowerofthirst 💀 i kinda stopped consuming MLQC content so i haven't kept up w everything you put out but i know that you're still AMAZING and also so funny and just. 10/10 man

@tacogawa @savourthelittlethings u guys are just. so cool!!!!! that's all thank u for coming to my ted talk 🥰

@akirafanarts hi!! i haven’t forgotten u!! hope you’ve been doing ok!! 💖

@meowlayn-art you are v sweet! your art is gorgeous! and your OCs are amazing!! 🥺 i'm cheering for you! 💖

@incorrect-ikevamp-quotes a lil random but like. thank you for your insights on a bunch of idiots under one roof aka the ikevamp boys!! 💖 and also for the Top Notch 11/10 memes. bless 🙏 🙏

special shout out to everyone on Drained Dry that i haven't yet mentioned, u guys are v cool ; v ; 💖

and lastly, thank you to everyone who liked, reblogged or interacted with my posts or just took a second to appreciate my art, really. drawing 2D boys is a joy, and i'm glad if it brings even the tiniest bit of happiness into other people's lives too! you guys are the best 💖💖💖

#YELLS #sorry for the wall of text............#it's 3am guys pls forgive me if i don't make sense #do i feel like i forgot someone? oh absolutely #FINGERS CROSSED THAT EVERYONE GOT TAGGED PROPERLY ;__;#i hope everyone reading this enjoyed their holidays ; v ;#ily guys #non art

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i agree how you described twt, sometimes everyone's just ready to fight it seems, i've genuinely had fun on both platforms at different times but now it's just too much on stan twt (no space for difference of opinion djsjdjj) it's good to know you're having fun as well :3 & omg i've seen few of my moots starting to give svt their attention after fallin flower dropped, everything abt it is <3333 the song, mv, choreo i love it.

hdjdjddkdjdj " virgos 😐 " also me in next breath "happy birthday mark :D i love you so much 🥺💕💗" any virgos reading this i really hope you enjoy your month to the fullest djjdjd <3. righttt?? you're correct abt mark's temper being very virgo djdjdkd.

your line screams hard-working people <3 jihoon, jaebeom, jeonghan the 3Js <3. isn't jaebeom also an infj? (i don't take mbtis seriously but at the same time it also makes me happy if it ends up matching someone i like djdjjd) chan & yugs 🥺 these two imo have the sweetest personality, like the one which makes you feel welcomed & they also have the cutest laugh 🥺.

i love jus2 <3 focus on me is one of my favorite kpop mvs of all time & also drunk on you??? i love this song so much, very sexy of them. the vibes, style and everything w/ their album, i want more songs like that. and for when i am feeling melancholy i need more songs like jjp's verse 2 😭💔 but i am also okay if they don't want to go back to these units bcoz everything so far they've been giving is just as great <33 ( maybe in future we'll get blessed w/ features 🥺)

honestly g7 as grp and individually have won me over with their music style, even if i don't like full album ik there will be 3-4 songs which will be exactly what i like to listen to, all of the music they've released individually i've liked it so much. there is this song of youngjae's, titled "i'm all ears" i had no idea of its existence until it popped up in my spotify i'm so glad it did, it's been in my playlist ever since. there was also a time when i was obsessed with jackson's 'on the rocks' djdjdk.

aww <3 the live performance video of 1° has mark as thumbnail so for long time i used to associate this song with him jdjddk. i think the only j*pe thing i'd miss is got7 studio live sessions 🥺. RIGHTJDKSKS aju nice's mv is very cute djjddk I love it, in reality its reverse tho, i see them and boom! 💖💛💗🤍💕💙

it was the year they won first bb*as award so that gave them the exposure, and no i don't follow them anymore. mixed feelings abt them, very negative feelings abt f*ndom fjdjdjd. i do miss what it used to feel like liking them sometimes. at that time i never thought i'll willingly drop them from my interest (i've stanned zayn since 2012 first him as grp member then solo. sometimes thinking abt it gives me a whiplash hddjks it's been 9 years, really thought it would be same with them too but it didn't happen)

i've had falling in love by yugs and in to you by jaebs on loop for days djdkdk i really love these two songs and also air by bammie <3 (i'm slow jams kinda person djdjdk :3)

(bam released the most fun album & title this year idc abt others, ribbon is one of the soty) also special mention of look so fine & running through the rain. yes! you do make sense they feel organic & very them.

exactly 😭 it's more believable when they drop stuff out of nowhere like encore 😭😭. the way youngjae posted his letter on twt too ddjjdkssk the announcement & release of encore is such a 'you just had to be there' situation the excitement, nervousness, confusion and everything 😭 sometimes i can't with them. also is the bibi with mark on ost, the same one you mentioned in last ask? the ost is really good <3, it must've been fun to see it happen (if its same bibi).

making a whole ass playlist just for me???? 😭😭😭🥺💗 yza you're so sweet nooooo 💖

and don't worry abt replying late jdjdkdjd i mean it, sometimes my friends text me after weeks and i'm am the same. it's really okay <3. i hope this week is treating you kindly, take care yza - 🪂

p.s ( just saw last post djjej) - it was me who manifested more bunny dino <3 manifesting even more <33

i was on stan twt during my younger years too and it was v fun and memorable to me ngl <3 idk what happened though.. it's evolved to be.. Something Else.. i still see a lot of good people there though 😭 and now that i'm in my Hag Era... idk it's just too fast for me now 😭 it's still my go-to place for updates though nothing can top twitter on that dept

and ms fallin flower.... i feel like everyone was blown away by it (based off of what i see carats when talk about it) and rightly so!! she SERVED. the looks too oh my god. it's another factor i look forward to and enjoy so much when i watch their performances!!

u know what? virgos 😐 indeed KJJKDFJKFDJKFDKJ i want to slander virgos today because it's their season and no one slanders them that often so <3 ABOUT MARK'S VIRGO TEMPER THOUGH... i know i've said i enjoy seeing it sm but whenever i think abt it i cant help but say that.. I Love His Temper <3 he doesn't get pissed off in a scary and douchebag-y way it seems so... contained?? IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT he punched an a/c though so that might not be the perfect word to describe him lmaoo <3

THE J TRINITY HFDJFJDJHDF BESTIE UR MIND IS SO!!!!!!!!!!! honestly... maybe it's the acts of service for me <3 JKDFKJFDKJFJKD i think this is just my eldest sister and savior syndrome speaking though kfjkdkjf ALSO OH MY GOD THE WAY U NOTICE THESE THINGS <3 THAT'S SO SEXIE OF U!!! and yes he used to be an infj!! there was an interview that's more recent wherein he mentioned that he's now an enfj though but i cant rmb which interview it's from :/ ALSO MOOD FKJJKGJGKF i dont believe in mbtis too but im just... a little obsessed w it for the fun of it all <3 and the way u described them </3 what if i tear up a little </3 I LOVE CHAN'S LAUGH SO MUCH BUT IM SO SOS O GLAD U BROUGHT UP YUGYEOM'S LAUGH??????????? IT'S NOT TALKED ABT ENOUGH LIKE...... HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! one of my bird moots said he sounded like a schoolboy in choir 😭😭😭😭😭😭

GOD UR TASTE!!!!!!! what if i start falling in l*ve a little :/ what then :/ focus on me was ahead of it's time and people fucking slept on THEM i cannot fucking believe this. this has to be some kind of sick joke 😭 ALSO HAVE U SEEN THE CHOREO FOR SENSES!!!!!!1 INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!! holy fuck!!!!!! sorry for the expletives but like.... holy SHIT they did THAT!!!!!!!! ALSO UR SO RIGHT </3 jjp verse 3 when... ALSO did u know i let go of the jjprojects url... thats the worst mistake of my life KDKJDSKJDSJK also agree wholeheartedly <3 i think they're all trying to find their footing this time around as soloists and im so proud of them for that!! i'll stand by my jus2 agenda though bc they're almost in the same company so maybe.. i might have hope left 😭

SO TRUE BESTIE!!! the same principle goes w svt for me as well <3 got7's such a flavorful group musically like... all of them have the capacity to go solo and they're still considered flops.. waht the fuck <3 ALSO OMG FJDKJFKFJD YOU'VE HEARD The Song!!!!!!!! maybe he'll be releasing something along those lines <3 esp now that he's supposedly coming w an album KJSJKDJSK on a similar note.. do u also listen to jamie (the other artist on the song) <3 NOO SHUT UP THIS CANNOT BE FOR REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i was obsessed w on the rocks too 😭😭😭😭😭😭 IT WAS MY FAVORITE ON THE MIRRORS ALBUM HELLO??????????????????????????? im proposing to u rn

ok now i have to watch all the live vids again JKDSJKSJDKDSKJ ik keep saying 'ur so right', 'i agree', and 'so true bestie' but im gonna have to say this again bc i LOVE LOVE LOVE live sessions sm no matter the artist. i also just am a little partial to live bands in performances like that in general so JDJKKDSJDS

the way you're saying these cute things abt the svteenies.. </3 giving me heartache!!! i'd bully them though i can't coddle them anymore <3

not the fandom JKFDKJFDKJFDKJFKJF ok but i think it's mostly their younger fans tbh. it wasn't this bad before.. i also really liked bts during their debut days. their songs were really good!! i kind of lost interest though and couldn't really get into them although their songs slapped lol. my irls are still into them though so i still hear about them. 9 YEARS............................... wait oh my god it HAS BEEN a little over a decade since 1d was The Thing huh 😭 now i feel kinda old lmao. and i totally get that feeling </3 it really do be like that sometimes JKFDJKJKFD

you really ARE keeping up w the sevens oh my god how are you doing it!!!!!!!!!!! it's like getting svt content now at this point but more complicated bc u need to get the updates from different sources JDKJSDKJJSKD love ur song choices too <3

ALSO FULLY RELATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i saw bam's teasers... the aes was my cup of tea and THE HIGHLIGHT MEDLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't fucking get it out of my mind it's objectively one of the best things i've seen from kpop in 2021. i'm super impressed <3 love how abyss really supported bambam on this. they really went all in for him!!

I KNOW GKJDFJDK I GOT SUPER ???????/// DURING THE TIME EVERYONE THOUGHT THEY WERE DISBANDING LMAOOOO they pulled a move that's so unheard of though no one really expected That. i respect jaebeom so much for handling all the paperwork and shit behind the scenes it must've been HELL!! ALSO IT MEANT I CRIED FOR NOTHING THEN 😭😭😭 AND YES OH MY GOD IT'S THE SAME BIBI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE SHOCK I HAD WHEN I SAW THE LIST????????????????????????? thought i was gonna black out like,,, mark,,, AND BIBI??????????????? she's fucking phenomenal how is she just a YEAR older than me.. INSANE!!! ... and i also thought jackson was gonna have an ost for this movie.. idk why it wasn't released though i didnt look into it :/

i had a rough few days so i'm not yet finished with the playlist (my laptop's Dead i am still trying to revive her and uni's starting soon 😭) but for the mean time, here's another one that some people from caratblr previously asked for JDSJKSDJ these are mostly english songs though its not my k-playlist KJDSKJSDJK

i do hope this week gets better!!! and i hope that you'll have a fun one too <3 thank u for being so patient w me 🥺 i just get so many messages and find the need to recharge FDKJDFJK

ALSO I FELT LIKE IT WAS U!!!!!! OH MY GOD, i even searched my blog for the word manifest but for some reason your ask didn't come up in the search so i didnt mention u in the tags so i wont misattribute if it ends up not being u 😭 thank u for manifesting this chan for me he's my little... hop hop now ig... 😭

#lov u u genuinely make my days better!! <#*<3 #also the way u called me by name... passing out rn </3 #🪂 anon #anon #y.ask #long post

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chwesolai · 5 years ago

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change up. | lee chan

inspired by change up by seventeen and grease, yes, the movie (you’ll understand why in a second don’t you worry)

university au!

nerd!chan x class clown!y/n

chan spent his times in his books, in his studies, in ‘always looking in the future’. he never took a break. but towards the end of his senior year of high school, his parents wanted to reward his hard work and studious efforts. it was post-finals, he finished, he got into the university he dreamed of.

he was free, finally.

so the trip began, his family packed their bags and the road trip to Daecheon Beach from Iksan. chan and his younger brother remained silent most of the ride, chan's brother playing on his phone, occasionally showing chan the new character he unlocked.

"you're going to fry your brain because of those games," chan scoffs, lifting his head up from reading.

"you're going to become evil because of all those scary books you read."

"then, let me."

the two brothers laugh and slowly immerse themselves into their activities and as the sun sets, the two fall into a deep sleep.

four more hours later and the sun began to warm chan's face, they have arrived.

y/n's parents allowed her to pick this year's summer family vacation, her older sister picked last year and her older brother did the year before. they've been to the us, europe, japan but she just wanted to stay home. but her family just didn't allow that so she picked the beach.

"THE BEACH? Y/N ARE YOU KIDDING?" her sister wasn't here for that, but her brother backed her up, "hey less money spending for us then. we wouldn't need to exchange money, buy flight tickets, bla bla blah."

"exactly." y/n proud of her decision.

"alright, i guess we could go visit my hometown's beach then," y/n's dad shrugs looking at her mother, who was nodding in agreement, "ok, saving money this trip, I like it. we could stay at mom's house then," it was set.

y/n packing her bags, excited to just bathe in the sun, swim, eat her grandmother's food again, this was her trip.

the car ride was absolutely chaotic.

y/n gained the entire back seat to herself with her two older siblings stuck ripping each others' heads off in the middle seats.

"I WILL GIVE YOU TWO MY LAST TWO POCKY IF YOU SHUT UP RIGHT NOW."

"ok bet," her brother held out his hand as his little sister handed him a strawberry pocky packet and her older sister then received her chocolate pocky.

"thank you," y/n bathes in the silence as she goes back to her drama.

the two met at y/n's grandmother's restaurant. y/n was peeling oranges as chan's family walks in, if you're offered to earn some money on vacation, you take it, y/n dropped the peeler, telling her grandma she can take this table.

chan pushed up his glasses as he looks up at the possibly cutest girl he's ever laid eyes on. she was definitely she was shorter than him, her hair held back in two braids, she kept her pen behind her ear and she looked just like how chan envisions the female characters in the classic novels he reads.

"hi welcome to kitchen by paradise, i'm y/n and i will be your server today and if you have any questions about any items on the menu, i'll be more than happy to recommend you anything! now, could i get you all anything to drink?"

chan's mom ordered water, his dad got a cola, his brother banana milk and chan didn't have a clue.

"and for you?" y/n says as she turns her attention towards chan.

"u-um. um. do-do-o you guys have any specialty drinks?"

"oh yeah! we grow our own oranges so we have a whole specialty of drinks. we have an orange-hibiscus iced tea, an orangeade, an orange-pineapple refresher and an orange mint sunrise."

"could i get the orange-pineapple one? please?"

"of course, that's my personal favorite," y/n smiles and chan could've sworn his heart melted, "i will get those ready for you guys and again, if you guys have any questions, call out for y/n!"

"thank you!" chan's parents chimed in as y/n walks away.

"channie has a crush channie has a crush."

"i will drown you." chan glares at his little brother as his cheeks began to flush.

chan never knew he could fall so easily, i guess this is what happens when you're not focused on studying instead of girls, but this charismatic waitress got his attention.

chan watched y/n peel oranges and make the drink he had ordered, almost feeling bad because the drink looked so tedious to make. he saw the tray of drinks coming their way as she finishes pouring the yellow-orangey iced drink.

"here we go!" she places the drinks at the table, handing each drink to its rightful owner, "so are we ready to order?"

y/n took everyone's orders and y/n couldn't help but giggle at this nerdy guy stuttering ordering his seafood bibibimbap.

he's cute i can't deny it.

"alright let me repeat your guys' order and i'll send this to the kitchen!"

chan's family finished their meals and had left while y/n was on her break, disappointing chan, so he jumped to this opportunity. his 18 y/o heart couldn't believe himself that he left his number for this cute waitress he just met, i mean she probably is a local here and i'm here for the next two weeks.

y/n couldn't believe either. she smiled that that dorky kid thought she was cute, so she saved his number, texting him around sunset.

to orange boy: hey! this is y/n!

to server girl: hi! i'm chan i can't believe you actually saved my number ha

to orange boy: i just had to thank the guy who called me cute and also thinks my favorite drink is good because its our least popular haha

to server girl: thats surprising its rly good omg

to orange boy: so are you free tomorrow?

to server girl: i think my family is just hanging out tmr why?

to orange boy: my grandma is sending me to the market tomorrow to pick up some ingredients and i know you're here for vacation and i know im just a stranger but idk want to explore the coast tmr?

chan couldn't believe it, in his 18 years of his life, he is being asked to go out. with a girl. and she isn't trying to steal his study book.

y/n couldn't believe herself, she just asked a stranger to go out with her.

to server girl: i'm down wanna pick me up?

to orange boy: tmr 12pm i'll bring us lunch

to server girl: sounds like a plan, so whats your favorite color?

the two spent all night getting to know each other, learning they're the same age, chan was older by a month and a half, y/n's favorite color is every color and said some picasso joke making chan laugh in his hotel room. they both felt like they've known each other for years.

the next day came and y/n packed her backpack and her scooter for the day, writing down the list her grandmother has told her the night before and then sending a text to chan for his address.

"I'M TAKING THE SCOOTER!" y/n yells as she runs down the stairs, "TEXT ME IF YOU NEED ME!"

her family all replying as they hear her leave.

as she makes it to the garage, she ensures she brings the second helmet.

this is a vacation. the wind blowing in her hair as she follows the directions to chan's hotel. her dark blue scooter shimmering in the sunlight and she arrives in front of chan's hotel, rich kid huh?

to orange boy: outside by the lobby!!

chan was already in the lobby for the past ten minutes, didn't want to look like a complete weirdo and come out right when she texted so he waited for a good minutes before walking out. he was wanted to be casual, didn't want to screw anything up with her.

"hey! chan over here!" he walked out seeing the pretty girl from the restaurant on a blue electric scooter? taking off her helmet waving her hand around. he smiled and waved back as he walked towards her.

"this is tomi, my trusty stead," she smiles proudly at her scooter making chan stifle a laugh, leading y/n to laugh at his poor hiding of a laugh, "this is yours, hop on!"

"did not expect this to be the start of my day," he laughs as he puts on the helmet, he gets on the back of the scooter and before y/n turns on the scooter, she grabs chan's arms and to his surprise, wraps them around her stomach, "we're going fast so i don't want you falling off," she turns and smiles at him. what am i feeling right now? butterflies swarm around the two teenagers' stomachs, falling in love before they've even gone out.

"oh o-ok."

and they were off.

y/n parked the scooter in her usual spot, the noise of the market sang to her and before getting off, she introduces the market, "welcome to daecheon market where old men try to peddle tourists and where local teenagers find the best clothes AND one stand has the BEST fruit produce."

"y/n i think i should just call you fruit girl because you seem very enthusiastic about them," chan smirks

"i dare you to, orange boy."

"alright fruit girl."

the two laugh as they barely even notice chan's arms are still around y/n, y/n begins to take off her helmet right before she bumps chan in the face with her helmet.

"OH MY GOD! i am so sorry chan oh my god im sorry oh my god i-"

"y/n its ok really," chan laughs at her worried look, "i'm all good no bleeding see?"

"alright im still super sorry i kind of forgot i had a passanger with me," she nervously laughs, im such an idiot what is wrong w me wtf y/n

chan hops off and helps y/n down, "thank you, sir," y/n bows.

"you are very welcome madam," chan bows back, leading them both to laugh once more because of their dorkiness.

"here hold this," y/n opens the scooter compartment and hands chan a camera, "thats my prized possession, keep it safe." she pretends to glare at him but ending up laughing anyways, "you're on picture duty and i am on food duty," y/n pulls out a picnic basket and a large water bottle, "before we explore lets eat!"

y/n leads chan down to a secluded area next to the market, "my siblings and i love coming down here and eating lunch and playing ball. its our secret hideout, and you are a new member of paradise cove, mr chan."

"i'm honored," chan couldn't believe how comfortable he felt around her, a stranger that he had a very long text conversation last night about their favorite colors and whether or not aliens exist. y/n couldn't believe either. why did she feel so bubbly around a kid she met on the job at her grandmother's restaurant?

chan helped her put out a small picnic blanket from the basket and y/n began to pull out the food, “so i remembered your order from the other day and grandma pulled through and made some more this morning and a special touch, an orange-pineapple refresher. dig in!”

their picnic was nothing but boring, time passed so quickly while they talked more about the city and high school and where they want to go for univerity, and what they want to be. a convesation nether of the two have had with another human being. they both took some pictures while they were at it, y/n always doing some silly pose when chan had the camera and chan always looking away from the camera. they were comfortable with one another.

“so, let’s explore the market shall we?” chan standing up, offering his hand to her, she was hesistant at first, “come on y/n i don’t bite,” he laughs, looking away. feeling odd with his hand out for so long, he looks back at her smiling this time, “i’m feeling a cramp coming on”

standing up, she grabs his hand and pulls him close to her, both of their faces flushed now. y/n had NO idea what she was doing, “can i?” she looked at his lips and then back up at his eyes, prepare for any reaction

“yes,” once y/n heard his answer, his hand caressed the side of y/n’s face and pressed their lips together, almost melting into the kiss. y/n felt her cheeks burn up, the kiss lasted a few seconds but felt like an eternity. pulling away, the two laughed with their eyes closed and foreheads pressed against each other, “so the market?” y/n slowly opened her eyes, seeing the flustered boy in front of her interlocking their hands together.

“i thought you were the romantic,” he smiles back.

two spent nearly everyday together. y/n told chan she didn’t live in daecheong, they both knew they were both on vacation and the day one of them was leaving was soon appoarching them. “what will you do without me?” “cry.” “shut up chan” “you asked i answered~!”

chan didn’t want to believe but neither did y/n. their two weeks was up, y/n helped chan pack. “are you really going to cry?” “y/n you’re my first kiss, my first love, my first crush, the first girl that actually has gotten my attention so what do you think?” “now, you’re going to make me cry.” she pouts “y/n you have my number, i have my license, you have a kickass scooter. we have ways to still see each other even if that means our universities are miles apart, we can do this.”

to orange boy: i miss you

they couldn’t do it. the long distance lasted about a month and then school started.

to server girl: i’m sorry

chan was at yonsei university and back to his old ways. head in the books, no partying no social interaction just studying. this physical therapy major wasn’t moving an inch.

now, what chan didn’t know was y/n was ALSO at yonsei. this visual arts major was the biggest party animal on campus. she ruled frat parties and she was a good students. her professors loved her and her charm.

- ten months later -

HALLOWEEN

“CHAN! you have to come dude!” chan’s roommate, xuxi, begs him. xuxi was the polar opposite of chan, same age same major COMPLETELY different social class.

“no ‘xi for the last time, i’m not a party guy.”

“chan please dude, its a costume party, nobody will know its you.” chan began to consider it, when was the last time i had fun?

“what are you dressing up as?” “i’m going to be capt. american because im going as the avengers with mark and the other guys. if you don’t want to be recognized then wear a mask, be a masquarade ball dude? idk wear a suit and a mask, be that DUDE”

“i’m in.” here we go lee chan

to server girl: finally going out with the boys for the first time hope you’re well i miss you

y/n read the text almost immediately, “i wonder where he’s going?”

“who?” y/n’s roommate jungeun asled as she’s doing her makeup.

“some summer fling, he just texted me after like three months.”

“he’s more than a summer fling hon if you saw his text so fast.”

“shut up”

“kiss me,” jungeun stuck her tongue out at her, “so what are you dressing up as y/n?”

“poision ivy, mark said they’re going to be the avengers and so i’m showing him up and being dc’s sexiest villian.”

“you’re such a heartbreaker miss y/n let the boy breathe, he may have cheated but-”

“but nothing! he treated me like a one night stand and i wanted more! im going all out!”

chan looked at himself one more time in the mirror and xuxi walked behind him in his captain america outfit, “my son you look so fucking good,” pretending to tear up

“shut up,” chan rolled my eyes, sitting back down on his bunk, “should i still go?”

“YES! you look good dude! can’t even recognize you, you look so different and the contacts? you’re really hiding your identity with this one channie.”

“this is the only night we get to be other people so,” he puts on his lacey masquarade mask he bought from target, ‘let’s go.”

xuxi wraps his arm around him, “LETS FUCKING GO!”

“MISS Y/N YOU DID THAT HONEY!”

jungeun and y/n nearly in shock of how well this costume curves around her body.

“green is your color girl,” jungeun sighs, “you knock them dead baby.”

“you look amazing yourself j OMG ms daphne over here.”

“I’m finding my fred tonight ok?” she smiles as she ties her scarf around her neck.

y/n places her red mask on, “i’m heading out!”

“HANG ON!” y/n was practically out the door before jungeon runs out, “ok ready.”

“let’s go fuck shit up.”

the party was everything chan was not used to, drinking, loud music, people EVERYWHERE, you could say he was slightly overwhelmed.

you could say he also wasn't used to the attention around him, girls coming up to ask if they wanna hook up or take a shot with him which he declined all of them until she walked in.

ms poison ivy walked in.

it was about 30 minutes after the party started and y/n walked in like she owned the place, jungeon next to her, y/n walked in red heels and green latex in its full glory.

"i'll go get us drinks!" jungeon pracatically screams in y/n's ear.

"OK!" now alone, chan saw this as an opportunity, still not knowing who that was or even who he was in this moment he walked up to her.

"hi!" y/n was drawn back but the handsome stranger in front of her

"HI!"

"I THINK YOU LOOK REALLY PRETTY!"

"THANK YOU! I THINK YOU LOOK PRETTY HOT YOURSELF! LET ME GUESS, a VAMPIRE?"

the music got increasingly louder as this conversation went on so chan yelled back, "NOT EXACTLY, IM A MASQUERADE BALL HOST"

y/n felt eyes beaming her up and down and she saw him, mark, and before he could come any closer, y/n kissed this handsome stranger in front of him.

chan had no idea what was going on but he really didn't care anymore, this kiss began to be a full makeout session in the middle of the dance floor.

"IM SORRY BUT DO YOU WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE?"

"YEAH I DO ACTUALLY"

both of them walk out of the loud frat house, "so who do i owe this honor to mr masquerade man?"

"chan, i'm chan. how about you?"

"i'm sorry did you say c-chan?"

y/n hasn't heard that name in what feels like ages until today.

"yes? is something wrong?"

was it really him?

"no its just i knew someone named chan awhile back, ha." she sadly smiled.

it can't be him chan was never this bold.

"ah i see, how about you ms poison ivy?"

"y/n"

"y/n huh?"

"yes, what about it?

"do you still have that blue scooter?" chan takes off his mask and turns to face the girl he's been wondering about for so long.

"c-chan?"

"long time no see huh?"

"i-i-i didn't even recognize you? where're your glasses? did you get your braces off too? your hair's lighter, you look really good, chan," she sighs in disbelief.

"college does stuff to you i guess," he nervously rubs the nape of his neck, "and you? wow. i didn't think someone could look so gorgeous in latex." he smiles all goofy.

"chan."

"y/n?"

pulling herself into his chest, "i've missed you, im sorry for being an asshole, im sorry for saying those things i shouldve held on im sorry im-"

"nothing is your fault y/n, look at me," he pulls her out of his chest, "i'm here now! we just needed time i guess," he lets out a small laugh.

"now you're the jokester mr lee."

"lets restart. hi im chan."

"hi im y/n," she smiles and takes his hand in hers, "lets never leave again."

"yes ms poison ivy."

“never call me that again.”

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sludgewoman · 5 years ago

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Hey Lauren, I did my first modeling photoshoot last month and I was one of two plus-size models. The photos came out today and mine are really bad--even my best friend, who's also fat and body-positive, recognized that. It's an independent label and I thing they're just starting their foray into plus-size fashion so things may be a little rocky at first, but it really sunk my body image. I have a fashion show in the state capital next month, but I'm worried I'll look just as bad. What do I do?

First, I want to apologize how long it’s taken me to reply! I wanted to make sure I took the time to give you a good answer and on top of everything I’ve been dealing with a lot of stressful things so I’m so incredibly sorry it’s taken me so long to get back to you. I know you’ve probably done your next show by now and I hope it went so much more better for you this time, even though I haven’t been able to respond fast enough, I swear I’ve had this message on my brain for a awhile and I’ve been sending out good thoughts out to you

I know we live in a time where people have access to cameras and editing tools more than ever and when we’re all posting our best selfies to social media, it’s so easy to forget that it’s way more human to take a bad selfie than a good one! A bad picture doesn’t mean anything about whether you’re beautiful or not and doesn’t say something about your worth. A bad picture is simply a bad pic! Literally everyone takes bad pics, we just don’t post them!

Your size has absolutely no influence on if a pic is bad or not.

Think about how proud your younger self would have been to know they grew up and became a model?? They would be so proud of you! They wouldn’t have cared how the photos came out, you got out there and did it.

Plus size rep is soooo incredibly important, even if what we make doesn't come out how we want it to-it’s there! it’s beautiful! it exists! Even when you fail, what you make still means something to someone else. There are people who will always see you, no matter how bad a pic turns out, and see how beautiful you are. Look for those ppl and be that for yourself

Ngl it really sounds like the designer and the photographer just absolutely dropped the ball and let you down! Being a model is a skill of its own but to do your job right, you need a designer and a photographer who knows what they’re doing so you can all create something great! A designer okayed your look and sent you out and the photographer wasn’t checking their work as they took pics or communicated with you enough or something! Like it’s their job to say something, make alterations, and point you in the right direction so the clothing looks great, you look wonderful, and they can sell their product!

The more shows you do, the better and more confident you’ll get because you’ll have more experience to back you up. You will work with better people in the future, if you have an experience like this again it’ll just make you stronger and sharper for next time.

Here’s some things that help when I’m in the dumps:

-Look at photos of yourself when u were a kid

-Look at photos of other plus size women

-Take some cute selfies

-Start a journal and fill it with happy thoughts about yourself

-When u have a bad thought about yourself, say three good things you love about yourself

I hope this helps and you continue to grow as a model!! you got this!!

#asks #anon #i really hope this made sense and helps!!#also i hope you're not lactose intolerant bc i cut you a BIG slice of cheesy goodness lol

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jksofficialwifey · 6 years ago

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Sugar, Sugar.

Sugar daddy!Jin au & fckbuddy jungkook drabble

pairing: jk x reader/jin x reader

warnings: nsfw & sexual themes, cussing, a bit of smut if u squint hard enough, toxic relationships.

A/N: this was rushed and unedited, but i just wanted to post this drabble & get done with it so there's that 😝 sorry for the grammatical errors & errythin as always. ily all tho & i hope u enjoy this shtpost 😁😘

♡

"Come get back in bed babe, I'm sure he can wait." Jungkook pleads, his lips now starting to pout.

"You know I can't kook, and even if I know he'll wait, I wouldn't want him to." You say, as you put on your clothes hurriedly, preparing to leave.

"Of course, you wouldn't want to keep your glucose grandpa waiting so long. He might have a heart attack or something," He sarcastically retorted now sitting up on the bed.

"Ha. Ha. Very funny kook. Though that ain't it, He's not even a grandpa. He's still 26, very healthy and active, if you must know."

"Ya whatever. He's the same age as my older brother though, your glucose granddaddy's probably uglier." He scoffed.

"Hey! My Financial supporter isn't ugly, He's ethereal. I bet if you saw him you'd want to be his sugar baby too. Your straight ass would probably reconsider being straight cos he's too beautiful for this world." You confidently replied.

"So, is that why you like him that much? cos he's beautiful? he prob gives good head too. But I know for a fact, no one can devour your pussy the best like me." he says and smiles smugly. "Ew. Please don't use big or cringy deep words again when talking about our sexy time, or I'm really gonna vomit. Also, I've told you a thousand times we haven't done anything. Not all sugar daddy relationships do and have to do stuff like that you know."

"Sure, says the one who used sexy time to describe how we make love. And if you're gonna vomit, do it on his expensive ass floor mat. Since he can afford to replace it and the whole house if he wanted to."

"I really have to go kook, see you whenever i do," You say now truly heading for the door. He just nods at you, acts indifferently though he was begging for you to stay a little longer, just awhile ago.

"Jin, Sorry if i was late. The traffic was horrible you know how they are."

You tell him upon arriving at his place, though you know it wasn't just the traffic that made you arrive late, it was because of another guy you didn't tell him about but he didn't seem to bother to ask too. "It's okay love, I completely understand. How are you today though? are you feeling alright? you texted me yesterday that you were so tired, are you overworking yourself again?" He says a bit concerned and empathetically.

He's always been so considerate and kind to you, and you've always liked that about him. "Yea, I'm good. Peachy. I was just worn out because of work yesterday, (and of riding jungkook's cock til we both passed out) but now i'm feeling great." You smiled at him trying to reassure him you were fine.

"How about you dear? dear. your endearment for him, how are you feeling today?" You asked. "I'm feeling good too. Actually better, now that you're here with me." He smiled, and you blushed a little embarrassingly, though it was cheesy but you had a soft spot for him.

"Anyway, I'm glad you aren't overworking yourself, but remember you can always ask me for more support if you want to. You know I'd give you everything in the world, anything for you." You were quite flustered by his words.

"Thanks, Jin. for everything really, you've always been so kind and helpful to me, though I don't do much or even enough for you, to repay you." was your pathetic reply.

"No, don't say that again love. You know, you being here with me is enough. You don't have to do filthy things to repay me. You know I'd be happy already if you just spend your time with me."

"But what if i want to do filthy things with you? I mean, if you allow me to. I want to make you feel good, daddy." You don't always call him daddy, in fact you rarely call him that. Your relationship was just pure companionship actually. That was what you both agreed on, when your partnership started. You both wouldn't do anything sexual ever. At first you thought he was asexual, but he said he wasn't when you asked him. Now, you wanted to repay him for all the good things he's done for you, but how will you when he doesn't want you to? You were confused and a bit taxed actually.

"Y/N you know what we agreed on...let's not break our agreement. I think you should rest more, maybe you're still feeling unwell." he replied quite tiredly. he doesn't usually call you by your name too, was he mad? disappointed? you weren't sure, but you didn't like it and you weren't sure you wanted to know.

"Ok...I'll just go to the room then," you replied. "Actually love, I think you should just go home. Maybe you'll be more comfortable resting there." Did he just say he wanted you out of his sight? ouch that hurt quite a bit, ok mayhaps a lot.

"Oh. ok then, I'll go home sorry for bothering you," You say, starting to walk away from him and head for the door. "Y/N, It's not like that. You know you're not a bother to me, and you never will be." Jin says.

"No, I get it. You don't want me and that's okay, we're just fellow associates anyway right?" you snap at him.

"No, why are you being like this love? I do want you. I just don't want us to be like them and everyone else. I don't want us to use eachother to that exent. I want us to be friends first, to get closer and if it leads to something more then why not? please...let's not fight about this," he pleads pityfully.

"Do you really though? do you want me? anyway, it doesn't matter. Let's just talk about it later tom. just call me or whatever." You say as you open the door and head out fast, not hearing what he might've replied to your question.

"You're back early? bet ya 5 bucks glucose guardian had a stroke and u had to send him to the ER and leave him there?" Jungkook was still there when you came back, and on his dumb ass phone, playing games. Apparently he was in a mood for jokes as always, but you weren't.

"Stfu junglecock, I'm not in the mood. Why are you still here anyway? don't you have other hoes to do? just make sure to always keep safe and try to catch fewer curable stds, or I'll never fck your nasty ass again."

"Wow someone's pretty ass is pissed, what's wrong baby? did your grandpa have a hard time getting his ancient magic stick up? is that why you're so mad cos you needed a good dicking down but you didn't get it?" he annoyingly implied.

"Jungkook, if you don't shut the f up for real you'll never be able to use your magic stick again, and I'm really serious about it." you glared at him as you said it.

"Ok. fine babe, chill. I know what always helps you relax..." He says as he drops his phone and moves towards you, backhugging you and rubbing your shoulders softly. He knows that you like how calming it feels although you don't forget the sexual implication that comes with it too.

"You know you can tell me anything right? we're not just fuckmates, we're saltmates too. We're friends aren't we?" He says while looking at you, trying to guess what's on your mind. "Of course we are kook. It's just things with jin...I feel like I'm not doing enough or good enough for him. Sometimes I feel like he just doesn't want me, but then he says he does. And I'm just- confused i guess."

"Hey, don't be too hard on yourself babe. You both agreed on that partnership, so why should you do more than what you agreed on? he's not asking for other things or forcing you to do something to repay him right?" he says a bit bitterly.

"No. He's not like that." You reassure jungkook. "Anyway, we'll probably make up later tom. and everything'll be just fine. So, you were talking about helping me to de-stress?" you told him suggestively.

You and jungkook went on it all through out the night. He pounded on you like there was no tomorrow. After your 8th round, the both of you were taxed and almost asleep. Or so you thought he was too, til he made small talk.

"Baby, are you still awake?" he asked, moving closer wrapping his arm around your waist to hold you tight. You mumbled something like "urm yea" and he took a peek at you to see if you we're still actually awake.

"You don't have to go back to him ya know," he said out of the blue, making you face him. "You could stay with me. You could be happy with me y/n. We could fuck forever happily." You didn't know what to say to that.

"Can i be honest? these past few months I didn't think I'd feel something more for you, But I did. I do. I kinda like you more than just a fckfriend y/n, hell I think I'm inlove with you. Do you feel the same way? even just a bit?" he suddenly asked and you didn't really know what to respond. So you replied something lame, "I think you're just tired guk, maybe we should really sleep now." You said looking somewhere else in the room, anywhere but his handsome face, you tried to avoid the subject, hoping that maybe he'll drop it and forget it but you know he won't.

"Is that your reply to my confession? Wow, I didn't think you'd be this mean baby. Are you rejecting me cos I'm not as rich as him? I can support us both too you know. I can save up for the things that will prob cost us our whole lives if you want to have them. Anything for you. I may not be as debonair and grand as him, but I promise you I'll love you and give you everything you want more than him. You'll have my whole heart and all of my attention, so will you please stay and choose me instead?" he begged. But you already made your choice a long time ago.

"I like you too guk, and I'll stay." you said though you know better. You lied. You left his handsome figure still sleeping soundly behind. After you told him you'll stay last night, you both fell asleep right after. But now here comes the morning, and you're already halfway to the door. You take one last look at his beautiful face, knowing it might be a long time before you see it again.

"Jin, I think I wanna go with you on that business trip." You said to him, eager to leave with him right away. "You mean the one in Japan I'll be going to later? I thought you didn't wanna come love? but ok, i guess you changed your mind. it'll be lovely to be with you there." You're glad he's okay with you coming with him.

"Yeah, I realized it'd be boring here on my own and I already filed a leave for work. And i'd probably miss you too so I wanna come with you." you said and a faint blush showed on your cheeks.

"Just probably? so you won't really miss me? jk. love, did you already pack your things? you should get ready. I'll have to stop by the office for a bit to get some things, so just meet me there when you're done. I'll be going now, so I can get ready and check that I didn't forget anything at the office, so I'll see you later love?"

"Yea, see you later Jin." You didn't call him by your endearment but you hope he didn't mind. To your surprise and delight, he gave you a peck on the cheek before running off to leave.

"Uh excuse me, can I ask if Jin's still inside his office?" you told the secretary.

"Kim Seokjin our CEO? yes, he's still inside his office. And who are you miss?" The secretary inquired.

"Uh I'm-"

"She's my girlfriend and fiancee. Her name is y/n and you should remember her face from now on." The familiar ethereal voice said from behind you, It was Jin who just arrived to meet you. The secretary apologized soon after, she was probably regretting why she had asked that question, though you assured her it was okay. "Hyung are you leaving now for that japan business- Y/N, is it really you?"

You wouldn't forget the owner of that voice of course. Though you left him behind. He spoke from behind you, and you didn't wanna face him or move. You didn't until Jin asked you, "Love, do you know my brother jungkook?" You turned slowly to face them, and mustered the courage to reply.

"Yes, We were kinda friends during college." you lamely said. "Oh. You didn't tell me you were friends with my brother. Anyway, yes jungkook I'll be going on that business trip, and Y/N will be accompanying me." Jin told his younger brother.

How could you even know jungkook was his younger brother when he didn't even tell you? He might've mentioned a brother before, but Jin didn't say it was actually Jeon Jungkook. And they have different last names anyway, so they're probably just half brothers? your pondering was interrupted by no other than jungkook speaking,

"Oh really? Before you go though, can i ask y/n this question; Is my brother the sugar daddy you were always talking about? or is your glucose guardian a different one too?" his words shocked and hurt you, though you couldn't blame him, you hurt him too.

"Jungkook, what the hell are you talking about? you don't know anything about us you brat. Mind your own damn business." You've never heard Jin cuss before, or it was rare that he did. Mayhaps he was really mad this time.

"Y/N what is he talking about? what does he mean that I'm the one you're always talking about with him? I thought you were just old college friends?" Jin inquired. "Jin...I-" you wanted to tell him about everything, but no words seem to come out of your pathetic little mouth yet.

"Oh come on baby, It's just a simple question. Is my brother the old hag you always come back to, for money or what? if he isn't, then how many are they? just curious babe." Jungkook sarcastically said. Jin was furious at this point, how dare Jungkook call you his baby? and the accusations he's saying are just over the top. Jin knows he's your only financial supporter, he's the only one right? "Jungkook you ass-" before jin could finish speaking, you spoke, though you were holding back tears.

"Yes. He's my benefactor, my sugar daddy, whatever you call it. And so what if he is kook? it's none of your business anymore. And just for the record, he's the only one. I don't have any other patrons or sugar daddies."

"Great. Just fcking amazing then, You were screwing both of us at the same time, that's why you never told me your sugar daddy's name, you planned this didn't you? I didn't see you as a gold digger who targets siblings but here we are-" Jin grabbed Jungkook by the collar because he couldn't take all the bullcrap the younger was saying about you. "Jungkook if you don't shut your filthy mouth I swear-"

"You'll what hyung? punch me? kill me? I'm already dead. Can't you see hyung? she's the one playing with us! ask her what the two of us have been doing behind your back! Sorry hyung, but i didn't know you were her sugar daddy though," Jungkook shouted.

"Love, I don't know if what he's saying is true, but i wanna hear it from you. Please tell me what's going on? why is he saying you're screwing the both of us?" Jin pleaded at you.

"I...he's my fckbuddy Jin. I'm so sorry, we didn't touch each other and I have my needs, so i had to find someone else to fulfill them. But we stopped it already. I left him and lied, and maybe that's why he's so mad at me." You said exhausted with it all,

"I promise you though I didn't know he was your brother, and I wouldn't have messed around with him if I knew. Dear, please believe me. I truly am sorry." Now it was you who was pleading.

"I'm not mad at you for leaving, I'm mad at you for lying to me. You shouldn't have said you felt something for me when you didn't." Jungkook said, now more glum than angry.

"You were really lovers then? You should have told me you wanted to hook up with other people y/n. We could've made it clear in our agreement. Maybe all of us wouldn't be hurting so much," Jin calmed down too, though disappointment and sadness was written all over his face. "I can't and won't compete with my brother y/n, we might not agree with things all the time but I can't bear to see him hurt. Jungkook likes you, and if I have to let you go so he'll stop hurting, then I will."

"No. Jin please don't do this, you're the one that I love, not Jungkook. Please don't give me up." You begged jin.

"I'm sorry love, but I can't choose you." And that was the last thing Jin said before he left you.

Jungkook took took you back after all, and you started dating him. You've learned to like him after Jin left. Though you heard Jin inherited their multi-billion dollar company in japan, and was managing it too. You were just moping around when you got a text from your boyfriend Jungkook: "When are you coming home babe?" it read. "Probably not soon yet, babe" you replied.

"What do u mean baby? how long are you gon stay there?" he texted again, probably for a really long time You replied mentally. You were still on your business trip or that's what jungkook thought, what he doesn't know is that Jin is the business trip, and you're just on your way there. You liked Jungkook he was hot, but you loved Jin more or maybe his money a whole lot.

~fin~

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This was a pain in the butt to make but well worth it! It's all over the place but it still presents my point of the many reasons why Pidge and Lance is most likely Endgame. Some may be a stretch but most of them have meaning! I know I missed some but it was hard to fit all this together and still remember everything lol

Ofcourse, whether your for Plance or just scrolling around, it's your opinion to agree or disagree! It's fine! This is just an analysis of mine and other gardeners of why Plance may be endgame in our eyes! :)

Alrighty Then!

Okay, I’m starting off with all the comics of them that I know of!

“Lance’s Guide To Falling in Love” explains that you need activities that you both like to do each other. That sounds a lot like Pidge and Lance with the Game Console they both got! That’s a similar activity they always do! “Love is about feeling vulnerable. [. ] finding your best friend. That’s why you have to create opportunities to fall in love.” That whole line pretty much explained Lance and Pidge’s relationship. They are pretty much best friends and I’m so sure they have been vulnerable towards each other in many ways that I will explain later on as well.

That second image on the right is just so cute because Lance is holding her shoulder for reassurance as she plays that chess game they’re lives depend on!

The second two images I put an arrow on so u guys can see which scene starts first. On these two panels, first, Pidge had forgotten a lot of things when she put on that crown. I think it was that it gave her too much knowledge that it made her forget things or something but slowly started remembering and the first thing she remembered was Lance. If that doesn’t show she cares about him, aside from her actually saying she’s glad he’s not dead, then I don’t know what is! I'll also add that the last bit where he said "I think that's the nicest thing you've ever said to me" and she replies "Is that true?" maybe made her question herself because maybe she thought, Why would I be mean to him if I know I like him? Who knows. Lol.

So the third row of two pictures with Pidge, we all know she super smart and loves intelligent puns and Lance, well he tries to catch on. On the second picture he made a pun that Shiro caught onto so what is his reply? To not tell Pidge lol That just shows how much of an influence she’s become in him!

The fourth picture going down, we have Lance and Pidge saying some sort of jokes where they switch it up the next time they use those phrases again but I just love how close they seem and how gentle of expressions they seem to give each other on the second half of the panels!

As for the famous picture where Lance and Pidge are playing their game, well, Lance says that after seeing his family and so on that the next thing he will do is be with Pidge, and not just that! Take her her favorite cookies as well! That’s a great boyfriend right there! ;)

The last picture all the way on the bottom left is just cute banter and oh gosh. They are so cute!

Now, the final picture on the bottom-right, we have a page of Kaltenecker. But wait, his name is colored in a shade of Cyan… Cyan is a greenish-blue color, the color of the two Paladins who own her! Pidge and Lance! That’s just so darn… ugh! And the fact that Lance replied “Moo” for all the answers and the part where he said “we presume” only means they did all this together! That’s just so boyfriend/girlfriend of them!!! Lol

I’m sorry ahead of time if this gets confusing. I added what season/episodes some are in that I remembered.

The first four I want to talk about (First Two Screen Caps on the first and second row) are from 1x1 (Season 1 x Episode 1) where they are talking about a ship entering earths atmosphere. The fact that they didn’t say spacecraft or shuttle but chose SHIP makes it feel that DW (DreamWorks) did this on purpose because as soon as Pidge says it’s a ship then Lance snatches the goggles, that she is still holding, and uses them! And then she says “We gotta see that ship!” and Lance FOLLOWS! Only Lance! Hunk stays behind!

Top Right>> Okay so now I’m doing this to make it easier lol. This SC (Screen Cap) is Lance noticing that the Kurboros Mission is a touchy subject for Pidge. He’s been close to her since they met so that only makes their bond stronger. That and Lance has amazing Intuitive Skills that we all know of which I will bring up again later!

R2 SC3 (Row 2 Screen Cap 3)>> Pidge is annoyed of Hunk touching her equipment. You know who she isn’t annoyed of touching her things? Lance. 😏

R3>> This whole row is just dedicated to their lack of personal space towards each other! Just a few from many SC! This has to be another foreshadowing man lol

R4 SC1-2>> 7x6 The episode that gave us all heart attacks lol I’m sure you all have heard this already but this episode had so much Plance/Kallura. The cinematic perspective of this whole episode just yelled Plance and Kallura. In these two scenes both couples specifically grab onto each other, there being SC of only when Keith grabs Alluras hand and Lance grabbing Pidge's. The shot where those light creatures come around them, you see Pidge, while holding Lances hand in the sweetest way in the back and same with Allura with Keith. Its just so… so… cinematically pleasing if you go for either ship lol

R4 SC3>> This was just a cute shot of them I put in to fill in the gap lol but its great!

R5 SC1-3>> 1x4 This episode was when Lance saved Coran from the explosion the fake Rover made. When Shiro and Lance are captures by Sendak, Pidge goes to save them only to be captured by him but Lance suddenly woke up from his unconscious state to shoot Sendak and save Pidge. He then falls back to the floor. I think this shows so much. Sure, he has yet to know Pidge was a girl at that time but he’s so close to her that he wouldn’t let anyone hurt her, even when he’s unconscious lol.

R6 SC1-2>> 1x1 Going back to this episode. I had seen this since I started watching the series but didn’t think much of it until I really put attention to the scene the second time around. Lance was showing off to Pidge, calling himself “The Tailor” and what not. Pidge in response gave a small blush, even of he did fail the simulator test. Sure, he obviously has yet to know she’s a girl but whose to say that’s just how their relationship has unknowingly built up? ;)

R6 SC3>> 2x6 This is interesting because Lance made fun of Pidge first saying her fancy Galra Finder didn’t work, then her showing her annoyed face. It then changes the scene to Shiro talking to one of the Aliens telling them the Galra were there only to change the scene back to Lance and Pidge, Pidge saying “So the Galra were here, Lance.” With a smug expression causing Lance to blush. Why would DW go back to this scene? It’s just playful banter BUT playful banter of them hinting us of a relationship to be maybe!

R1 SC1-2>> It’s cute how Lance is all excited telling Pidge “That’s my thing!” when she didn’t believe he was a good shot haha like he gets excited telling her things!

R2 SC1-2>> These both are from different episodes but are of both Lance and Pidge blushing. Lance from him acting cocky and Pidge from seeing Lance in a body suit (at least that’s what I think) where she can see all the toned parts of his body ;) She is a teenager after all lol

Top Right Down Three>> All these SC are symbolic to me. A foreshadowing because these are a few of many where it shows them together in a single scene or doing the same. This shows me that they can’t be any more similar than they already are! They are one in the same honestly.

Last Three Down>> 5x6 This scene is one of my Favorites! Allura and Lotor had left to check out where Altean Alchemy is held along with the knowledge of Alteans and Lance is freaking out talking to everyone asking if she will be alright or if they are doing anything as Pidge and the rest try to turn the Castle back on. This whole time Lance interrupts them as Pidge works on the castle. Sure it sounds that she’s simply annoyed but if you listen to the tone she sounds more than annoyed! It’s like she’s annoyed, not just because he’s interrupting them, but because he’s over exaggerating about Allura. Obviously everyone is worried but Lance just goes overboard causing Pidge to also go overboard as everyone just stares at both of them back and forth. Haha.

Last 3 Second Row Down>> These three shots are from different episodes but you can see that it’s Hunk and Pidge doing their Team Punk Bump as Lance watches. I don’t exactly remember the order of it and some scenerios are different than others but you can see that he’s not always keeping a big smile. Almost like he’s jealous that they have a ‘Thing’ while he doesn’t have one with either of them *cough* Pidge *cough*.

Last 3 Third Row Down>> This could kind of be related to the last point. 6x3 When they are done playing M&M, Pidge and Hunk got out of their stump from what they are doing, make an explanation of what to do next and run off. Meanwhile Lance looks somewhat annoyed, saying that he doesn’t understand the science words as much as the fantasy ones but his expression from looking at them then look away seems to show otherwise!

R1 SC1-2>> These two scenes have Lance with Pidge’s stuff! Her headphones and some of her pillows! Strange that she’s okay with Lance getting her stuff but not Hunk lol

R1 SC3>> 1x6 Where Pidge reveals she’s a girl and everyone BUT Lance knew. It’s weird that he didn’t know because he has amazing intuition. It kind of feels to me that maybe he’s playing dumb? Maybe he DID know? That’s why he’s always been ‘show offy’ with Pidge. Maybe… just maybe… that’s a big stretch right there but an interesting thought lol.

R2 SC1-2>> These two are a little different. The first one, Hunk and Pidge are teasing Lance because Allura is with Lotor but Pidge is kind of teasing in a ‘Haha she won’t return your feelings’ kind of way because she likes him. In the next one Lance and Pidge are teasing Hunk with Shay but her expression is more playful. Hmm. Interesting. ;)

R2 SC3/R3 SC3>> 7x1 “Wow. They’re a lot uglier than I thought they’d be.” “I think it’s cute. You know, in a creepy hideous sort of way. Like you Lance.” The fact that Pidge acknowledged Lance was even remotely cute shows she likes Lance! C’mon y’all! The look that Coran gives Pidge after that comment just kills me haha. He’s like “Ahhh. I see you Numbah five.” 😂 but really. The fact that Pidge says that right after Lance talks shows it even more!

R3 SC1-2>> So I actually have these two flipped wrong but the one with him by himself is when Pidge calls him the goofball of the team. At first it seems like he didn’t care much, since it’s their usual banter but then when Lance talks to Allura, it seems that Pidge’s words do somewhat get to Lance. Not in a mean way but Lance is vulnerable when it comes to Pidge.

R4>> 2x4 It’s taken me a while to figure this scene out because it was always strange to me how Pidge’s tone is. (Also, sorry I cut off some of the subs 😅) Pidge is amazed by how beautiful the tech is while Lance replies saying “It’s not a sunset Pidge” because maybe he loves sunsets. In that, Pidge replies “Your right. A billion sunsets just happen every day” with a kind of somber tone. Maybe she’s never really cared for sunsets? But in that third SC in the row, there is a small picture of a sunset on a beach on her wall. Maybe she’s coming to enjoy sunsets because of Lance? Maybe he’s talked to her about it? Maybe it reminds her of him? Interesting. There is also one more piece I will bring up in the next set of SC’s.

R5>> These! 1x4 Lance sees Rover but right away wonder where Pidge is because he knows she’s close to it. 7x4 The third SC is from The Feud when Lance is trying to remember Rolo's name. Interesting that right after trying to remember Rolo he says “Yeah. Pidge loved that Robot.” Not “Nyma was awesome.” Or “They tricked us”. He could have said any of that but chose something that reminded him of Pidge!

R6>> 2x2 Lance mentions he likes mermaids (maybe because he’s always loved the beach) and in 4x2 in Pidge’s room, she has a stuffed Mermaid!

Out of context but I just realized that for the whole Rover thing, its on Ep 4 of S 1 & 7. For the mermaid thing it’s on Ep 2 of S 2 & 4. What a weird coincidence lol.?

R1 SC1>> 6x2 Chulatt and Chuchule making a heart with their cute little mice tails! This scene is where the mice tell Allura Lance’s secret of him liking her. What I feel gives away plance, and is ironic, is that those two specific Space Mice create the heart! The little one (Chulatt) is Pidge and the pink one (Chuchule) is Lance. We know this because there was a photo of the mice in Paladin Armor and they were in those specific colored armors. If anyone wants to add that picture in the comments, knock yourself out lol.!

R1 SC2-3>> 2x7 Hey look! Another sunset! And not just that. In the store they got a game console that they worked hard to get together, along with their Moo Child, Kaltenecker! 😏 Lol. This episode really brought out the relationship they have in full bloom! First! Lance was originally going to go with Allura and get her something pretty and shiny BUT instead, he stopped flirting to go and help Pidge get something she really wanted! Plus, had a blast doing it! The tender look he gives her when she’s holding the game is so heartwarming and he’s just as excited as she is to start the console up! Remember what he said is a point to falling in love? “Love is about finding your best friend.” Welp. There ya go Lance.!

R2 SC1-2>> 4x3 Before this scene Matt had complimented Pidge for being smart, so she responded with a goofy smile. Lance also compliments her intelligence right after Matt. She gives him this soft look. I rest my case. Lol.

R3 SC1-2>> 7x9 The Paladins arrive back on earth where their loved ones await them. The most anxious is Pidge as she jumps to her mom and who, you may ask, does it change to right afterwards? Lance. The shot has Lance and Hunk but it’s more zoomed in on Lance with the gentlest look that I believe he’s ever gave honestly. He then gets interrupted by his family running to him, him in tears of the joy in seeing them. THIS is another reason why I believe they are endgame because both love their family so much, who reside on earth. I can’t imagine them wanting to stay in space once the war is over. They are made for each other honestly haha.

Top Right going Down SC 2-3>> These two scenes are parallels. They both have strong feelings for eachother and are extremely protective of one another. 7x3 First Lance with his “Don’t you touch her!”. His choice in words just scream I’ll kill you! Because of how protective of her she is. Knowing he is tired up and unable to do much, he still tried to rescue her. 2x10 Pidge’s “Lance! No!” Just tells me she has liked him for so long. Her feelings were already strong since the beginning. This scene didn’t need to emphasize on her wanting to save Lance and showing emotion but DW did it this way on purpose! ;)

R4>> 6x3 Ahhh. Monsters & Mana again! You know how we’ve all found out that the filler episodes aren’t actually fillers but a foretelling of future things? Well, look at these cuties once again having lack of personal space! And then the second SC is of Pidge looking up at Lance instead of looking at the view like the others but still enjoying herself with her big smile! The third SC is now of Lance giving her that gentle look once again. Instead of looking at the view, he looks at Pidge as she is having the time of her life!

R5 SC1-2>> 5x1 I kind of messed up on my choice of SC but I’m sure you all will still understand. This episode is when Matt and Pidge failed in saving their dad. Pidge is there hugging her legs from the thought of her dad not being around anymore. Lance is the first to turn to see her and then Hunk. What I see though is Hunk having a worried expression and Lance looks a little worried for her as he is turning but once he is standing and looking her way, he looks more determined. Determined for her to get her father but for her to also be safe maybe? Last thing is that on the SC where it shows her hugging her legs, Lance is still in the shot. I would say that this is a vulnerable scene for Pidge because she is so in distress because of her father.

R5 SC3>> 6x7 Just a simple SC of Pidge looking back at Trash Lance as they get ready to leave the Castle of Lions. Trash Hunk is there too but she looks over Trash Lance lol.

R6>> 4x3 This whole row scene is just so cute. Lance and Hunk run to Pidge as she lands. Lance being the first one to get to her just smile at seeing his girlfriend back lol. She gives them all a smile as she holds her little space mouse.

R1 SC1 Down First Two SC>> 1x10 I don’t think many think much of this scene but how can you not? The first SC Pidge messed up the robot and said “Whoops” but the second one was after Lance was asking about Allura, giving off a goofy smile until Pidge’s robot smacked him in the face. Afterwards she said “Whoops” again but in a more sarcastic tone. That’s jealosy at its finest lol.

R1 SC2 Down First Two SC>> Lance is showing off the pictures of him with the alien girls but to Pidge. I sometimes wonder if he did it on purpose to get a reaction from her because she was smiling before he showed her the picture. Jealousy moment numero dos! Lol

R1 SC3 Down First Two SC>> 1x10 I love this scene because as soon as Keith leaves after Lance told him to not leave, he glances over to Pidge who is very unimpressed. Afterwards he turned his head with a smug expression saying “I think I told him” and Pidge responding with the most sarcastic “You are the paragon of leadership, Lance” with him still being all proud. Its all just ugh. I love their relationship hahaha.

R3>> Dancing buddies? I think Yes! Lol how much more perfect can they be for eachother? Hahaha

R1>> 2x4 Yet another scene I love because in this scene Lance and Pidge are kind of moving in sync. Lol. It’s so them haha.

R2&3 First SC>> 7x10 This is another scene that I don’t think that a lot of people take too in depth but Allura and Lance just had a moment where they both blush. Afterwards, all the paladins head out to their destination as they concentrate but Pidge looks like the only one that’s a little… sad? Distressed? The little lines under her eyes show a different emotion than the other paladins. She looks like she’s just thinking. I think she may have seen Allura with Lance and now is torn by her feelings because Allura might reciprocate his feelings. Right after her shot of the green Lion arriving to her, it turns to Lance who is calm and ready but we all know that scene that red showed up just in the Knick of time. I think red knows that Lance is meant to be with another, not with the one he wants but someone he will need.

R2&3 Second SC>> 6x2 This is where Lance is trying to get Alluras attention but she’s too into Lotor to care. Lance says “She’s smart, courageous, and makes me want to be a better person”. Adding on that aside from being an alien princess, she’s those things but that he isn’t a prince like Lotor so what does it matter. The first SC he honestly explained Pidge so if that’s what he is looking for in someone then maybe that was a hint to us. And then he goes on saying that Allura won’t take his feelings seriously and that he has nothing to offer. Maybe this is another foreshadowing that Pidge is going to take it super serious and he doesn’t need to offer anything with her because the way is is already everything she wants ;) That is a stretch though lmao.

R2&3 Third SC>> I’m just going to show you guys and not explain to much with this haha The Plance Nebula! We all know it but I don’t think we all yet know that it’s been in front of our faces all this time! In the intro of every episode when the screen pops up. That’s the nebula just on its side! Now answer me this. If it wasn’t important then why would it be right after Pidge’s Nebula in the trailer for S8???? That’s the only different nebula aside from all the others being the Paladins themselves!

I’m telling Y’all that alllllll this is what makes me think that Plance is Endgame!

This I needed to add alone because they are so cute! They are the only onea that did this lol

7x13 If these scene itself isn't enough to have you think they are foreshadowing them together then man. I don't remember seeing any other two Paladins do this when they use their bayards at the same time on voltron. Its just such a powerful scene for a super power couple!!!

Omg guys I can't believe I finished this. If you read all this then kudos to you! Please let me know what you guys thought or what your opinion is because I put alot of work into this for everyone to have their plance super watered lol

Thanks for the help guys!!! :) @callmesath @ohfishwall @truegryffindorforever2 @gracekogane

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