#also dont even sTART on how 30° isnt that hot

[soiwatchthestars]

this heatwave is unbearable. it was 30° today and it's september this is halloween eve. it's the run up to christmas. why does the air feel like soup

[waterloggedsoliloquy]

mutual 1: sorry the update for my webcomic this week is a bit late! i really had to rush it so it prolly looks really sloppy lol [some of the most sophisticated comic art ive ever seen]

mutual 2: call me uterine lining the way astarions cervix got me bleeding profusely

mutual 3: do you think nanowrimo will give me a posthumous pity publishing deal if i mention it in my suicide note

mutual 4: okay fine i finally started revolutionary girl utena

mutual 5: does columbo know the service he did for butch lesbians. for all of us

mutual 6: wish you were here [blurry picture set of conifer woods in early autumn evening, taken as if frantically running down a winding trail]

mutual 4: im pretty hardy i dont need the trigger list but thanks for looking out for me guys

mutual 7: good morning lovelies another day the wizard tried to best me and another day i successfully locked him in the spare bathroom lol hope u like drinking shampoo fucker

mutual 8: here is a zip of every yuri manga scan i have and here is a backup in case i get dcma'd. the himejoshi lifestyle will never die

mutual 9: i wish i could go back in time to the shinzo abe assassination and ask to hold the doohickey

mutual 10: here's my essay on how wanting to be loved is the same as wanting to be eaten. three paragraphs in you'll find out that this is 100% tied to an obscure beauty and the beast manga i've been reading lately and how much i want to fuck the beast

mutual 4: oh thats why there was the trigger list.

mutual 11: YOU CAN'T LOCK ME IN THIS BATHROOM FOREVER

mutual 12: why do i have to defend my thesis to people i dont even respect. im not dickriding you just give me the degree

mutual 13: its just me and this scab ive picked into my scalp against the world

mutual 14: my little dragon got glazed and is ready to go into the kiln! everyone wish him good luck!

mutual 3: nvm i am a beautiful genius. perhaps the most beautiful genius of all

mutual 15: i think we should give david lynch rpgmaker and whatever happens happens

mutual 16: kpeyboaatrds brpokem gpuys

mutual 17: also heres my work in progress glossary of mixtec words! i still have a long way to go but i love being able to preserve my roots even in this small way

mutual 4: i just finished the black rose arc. question: what

mutual 18: i need emet-selch to be my wife

mutual 19: i need glados to be my husband

mutual 20: visited the ocean today!!! <3 beach pics!!! there is a darkness growing within me

mutual 21: the forms for my legal name change came in. pls vote in this poll of what my middle name should be: Dill Pickle (Dickle for short), Optimus Prime, Tumblr User Gorgonicteratologist, Smeve

mutual 22: just finished my 100th book of the year! this weeks read was the uses of enchantment by the psychologist bruno bettelheim,

mutual 23: reeses penis butter cups lol

mutual 4: i need to hunt akio for sport

mutual 24: oouugghhrgh. hot. dog.

mutual 25: your favorite character or fictional other would want you to brush your teeth and wash your face so you're well rested and wake up feeling refreshed! make them proud!

mutual 26: being a delivery driver isnt the worst job ive ever had but i do keep wondering what itd be like to drive off into the wild blue yonder one day and not come back

mutual 27: weird dog? [phone picture of critically endangered stork]

mutual 28: i think the two phone line polls in front of my house are having a lovers tryst. no way to prove it tho

mutual 4: WHAT

mutual 29: while you bitches are balduring your gates or finalling those fantasies im doing what a REAL gamer does. playing a b tier rpg that came out in 2004 for the 18th time

mutual 30: ^ real. hamtaro ham ham heartbreak is a masterpiece of interactive art. im not even going to call it a video game at this point

mutual 4: THAT'S HOW IT ENDS?! ANTHY?

mutual 31: can you help me pick which drawing looks better: 34% overlay or 36% soft light?

mutual 32: new video essay out. its called disability in video game narratives: final fantasy 14's most reliable fault. i churned the script out over an all-nighter and my mic crapped out halfway through but by god i did it

mutual 33: my new zine bundle is out! if you buy it you also get a discount on all my game jam games! i really cant wait for you to play them!

mutual 4: yall should watch revolutionary girl utena

[wolkewatcher]

imo a lot of the advice online is discouraging and exaggerated esp for natural hair or supr vague so from my xp

yes you can bleach your hair with baking soda and 3% hydrogen peroxide

hydrogen peroxide w/o the baking soda doesnt seem to be effective

coat your hair with oil b4 to minimize it breaking or drying out etc

my hair was jet black naturally and it got a natural looking reddish brown tht kind of resembles my skin tone i think

i put the mixture in myself n tried to distribute evenly but my roots got a lot lighter than the edges of my hair it doesnt look bad imo it kind of gives a like highlights vibe but if you're hoping for a really even result i'd advise having someone else apply it for you

i didnt wash it out with any specific shampoo just what i usually use

a bit more personal idea

so i hv texturized hair the last time i texturized it was a little short of a week b4 bleching it.

my hair isnt in a terrible state but it does hv some damage n suffers from not staying moisturized which im working on but the bleaching did not make it feel any more dry or damaged than it already was and again i think coating it with oil helped tht.

i dont hv a specific hair care routine but ive been trying to coat it with castor oil at night so i did tht the night b4 bleaching it n then bleached it in the morning.

my hair is short but i kinda had an undercut mohawk thing growing out so the back n sides are shorter myb 1/2 inch n the longest parts are abt 2 inches. the shorter parts bleached like fully the longer parts the roots bleached but the ends didnt as much they're pretty much almost my natural hair colour

i initially sprayed the peroxide all ovr n waited almost 30 ish mins checked n nothing happed so i mixed the peroxide n baking soda n within like 5 mins it started getting really hot n sizzling (very fun feeling!!!!) n then i washed it out in abt 15 mins ish

i didnt do a spot test or anything b4 so if like me u just wanna 'make a risky decision' ur not likely to run into any srs problems but i've used peroxide on my skin for cuts n stuff in the past n i wash my hair with baking soda from time to time so i didnt expect any bad reactions.

edit: also it will get lighter as time goes by it's been a week and my hair is much lighter than it was at first i'm intrigued to see how much lighter it will get over more time

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

theres a lot of different ways people have illustrated the greed and evil of billionaires from visual portrayals of how big a billion actually is to comparing their philanthropy and how much money they have to highlighting the sufferings of those theyve exploited, and theyre all great demonstrations in of themselves.

but one i dont see quite as often is comparing the charitable works of every day people to that of billionaires. i think part of it is that a billionaire can donate more money to charity in one click of a finger than i can in my entire life, but i think another part is a combination of not wanting to look a gift horse in the mouth while also not wanting to rock the boat.

a great example of that is the fact that you cant criticise mr beast/jimmy donaldson without people pushing it aside with the notion of "hes helping people" or "the guy could cure cancer and youd find something to criticise about it", which are endlessly frustrating and engaging with your criticism in bad faith.

but outside of him, youll see versions of it across the board for any philanthropic rich person. people automatically assume your criticism is coming from a cynical point of view, and often that you dont ever take part in charitable acts yourself.

and it is endlessly frustrating to run into that attitude every damn time like youre a dog running into that same glass door. because there is very valid criticism to be made about it.

because most of the time, these people could use that money to make lasting structural changes. i mean, the UN estimates you could end world hunger with $6billion, but no billionaires attempted to. on a smaller scale, you can build shelters or youth hubs or rehab facilities, or you could invest in ongoing work to help people out of poverty or improve local education or help people get better healthcare. or even just put your money where your mouth is and financially back the people trying to make these structural changes.

but these so-called philanthropists dont because systematic changes arent what they actually want. theyre this rich because of the system.

and their philanthropy is a form of propaganda; they want you to think the system is unchangeable and that your only options for improving your life is working yourself to the bone or for some kindly rich person to take pity on you and just hand you the money you need. the system is fucked, but the rich are good people who just want to help. this isnt some hot take, ro ramdin made a great video about mr beast specifically regarding this sort of thing. müne cat also has a video about it which is basically a 30 minute rant from her stream.

i know why you dont see the comparison of billionaire philanthropy to every day charity that often, and its because you have to preface the entire thing with the explanation that i just had to make, because most people dont want to think further than "give money to charity is good". i think part of that is people not realising everything is political, but thats a discussion for a different post.

originally, i started writing this just to get something out of my head. two days ago, i asked my mom if she still had the trumpet i accidentally stole from school (long short story) because id been thinking about the fact like, i could flog that for £200 and £200s a good bit of money. during the conversation, it came up that one of our neighbours had bought an empty guitar case from a charity shop for a fancy dress party, and all thoughts of flogging it were suddenly gone from my mind.

because it reminded me that i could donate it to a charity shop or find a local musical program aimed towards giving poorer kids a chance to learn how to play an instrument. and like, how could i flog it when i could do just a little bit of good with it.

a similar thing happened with these big marvel pictures i had in my room as a teenager. idk how much money theyd go for but they werent cheap when we bought them. but then my mom found this local charity where you could donate items that theyd then auction off and that money went directly to the local foodbank, and so thats where they went.

and this isnt for me to be like hey how good of a person i am; i do not give a shit about that. its about the fact that this mindset is directly opposed to that of billionaires and to neoliberalism in general.

you cant earn a billion dollars by being a good person, we all know that. but i do think a great illustration of it is to compare those billionaires with the people who run your local food bank or run charity drives or the people who put free period products in public bathrooms or the local deli owner who lets unhoused people eat for free.

[grgwshngturnt]

played today for about 8 hours - my most coherent thought: WE'RE SO FUCKING BACK

im legit having so much fun my every waking thought is consumed by this game which is unfortunately as due to The Circumstances i cannot SPEND every waking moment playing this game. i am in agony but we stay silly.

(there will be spoilers for the start of the game up until post darvin recruitment below)

i love my rook - sometimes i wish they could be a bit more of a shit but im viewing it as the chaotic good au of my very chaotic neutral oc i decided to make my first rook. i think this will stand out less on a further playthrough where im playing a rook that i made for veilguard instead of an existing character who is best known for being an absolute wanker. this is also what i have stand and de riva (working title) for, as the antivan crows need to understand what a little shit they recruited. i also did tear up a little bit when they could literally say they were trans like. in as many words. that was so huge. theyre also GOREGEOUS i struggled a bit with cc at first and made what is canonically a 6'3 man tiny and had to go back after the start and totally remake them in the mirror but i actually like them better the second time lmaoooo a wins a win

game is fucking beautiful absolutely 10/10 every single environment is gorgeous and so are all the companions. feys hair is so bouncy when they run i am transfixed by it. d'meta's crossing was fucking hideous in a very good way and everything is so stunning. my pc is doing its level best and while we did crash once it seems to be running smoothly otherwise (apparently an ogre and rain physics is too much but the DRAGON runs fine. go figure)

the sound i made when dorian rocked up was not one from a rational human. that's my HUSBAND RIGHT THERE and hes GOREGEOUS. anyone saying he looks ugly is such a fucking coward thats the most fuckable late 30s man in thedas. i adore his stupid facial hair its so Him. i also gave my inquisitor a stupid mullet i like to think they are at an impasse where dorian will shave only when mahanon gets a reasonable haircut. theyre so husbands yall.

SPEAKING OF MAHANON i almost cried in the cc yall. getting to make him again and seeing him older and maybe-not-wiser and hearing the inquisition music in the bg.... wish we got a few more choice about him but ill live with it as it isnt his story anymore. im nervous for him to show up but im probably going to scream and cry about it in equal measure. anyway hes hot even with his stupid mullet. im so delighted we get to see him againta

literally in love with all the companions - fey is my planned lucanis romance bc im LITERALLY OBSESSED WITH HIM and have been since pregame and that has not changed but im SO excited to see everyone elses romances on my subsequent playthroughs - bellara is exactly what i wanted for my shadow dragon rook and she was their planned romance. also very excited for harding and the weirdo that is the mourn watches very own crypt baby cessair and for neve and her thembo boyfriend mordred the veiljumper but im also not sure if i can ever abandon treviso :((((( like i agree with lucanis there even without the romance minrathous HAS A WHOLEASS FLOATING SECURITY SYSTEM and youre telling me that did jackshit??? so we'll see how the neve romance goes lmao

ill probably post some screenshots of my rook tomorrow thats my favourite little fuck <3 im having so much fun and i dont even have all the companions yet i cannot wait to see how this all plays out and then do it over and over and over again

[tumbling-down-the-hall]

Melancholy

I've been in a weird place the past couple of days. (in reality its been like the last month or so but I have only been wanting to write a post for the past couple of days)

I don't want my relationship to be like my parents relationship but I think it is already like it in so many ways. but it is also like it's own relationship.

I talked with my mom the other day about resentment. My mom has been the one to provide for us for all of my life and i'm feeling like that a lot recently. That i'm the only one putting in effort and i'm the only one paying for things and while that is true in the moment that hasn't always been the case.

The beginning of our relationship he paid for most of it - but he was also making more than I was. Then we started living together and it was still heavily towards him but then he started pushing back so i started paying more.. but then things happened and i was the only one paying. I got a new position so i started making more and i was able to cover more. So i didn't try to complain about it because i knew that he had paid for a lot at the beginning but we hit the point where we were balanced or i guess in my mind we were. maybe we aren't. maybe we are askew again.

but then he lost his job. and it felt like he was taking advantage of the situation. Yeah he was applying to jobs but it was still a rough time for both of us. Even though it was only for a month it was still rough on both of us. We got into a couple of bad fights, one was after drinking at the bar - we both had the same amount of drinks (or close to it) and we got home. idk what led to the conversation but we ended up talking in the bathroom and he tried making a move and i didnt like that because i was not in the mood to have (but i'm "never" in the mood because #ace/demi/whateveryou want to call it that isnt hetero) and I was sitting on the bath tub and he jokingly (which didnt feel jokingly to me -obviously) pushed me with his foot - i lashed out because i was irritated and we ended up fighting over the bathtub and he was like you are so abusive you don't bite me like that in sex - that would be so hot but no you use violence and I constantly have to be like I use violence because you don't listen otherwise. He doesn't listen when I say stop or No (not in sexual things but outside of that) and so i get physical because that stops him.

A couple days later he was on top of me (both clothed) and he was tickling and i said stop it and he wouldnt and he was just being annoying so i was gonna reach up and pinch his nose to be equally annoying... well my hand slipped or i miscalculated or something and i ended up hitting his lip with my thumb. He got off me called me an "abusive cunt" and slammed the office door and then threw something at the door (i was going to immediately kick him out if i found out it was the cat.... it wasn't but still)

He later apologized for calling me that and said he acted out of anger but I was like do you really want to be with somebody who you see as "an abusive cunt" because thats a hard line that you crossed. (he didnt know it was a hard line... like how the fuck is that not? Yeah you call me names but cunt is not one of them) Do you really want to be in that relationship? He has been sleeping in the office since then.... (it doesnt help that his new job his hours are 12-8:30 ) After that i think he realized how fucked up our situation has been. And he has been working on it... or at least i think he has. He realized that i wanted to be done with the relationship.... like very done. He was like we should do something this weekend together and then followed it up with because maybe we can fix the cracks and not have you leave.

I then got sick when we were supposed to go to an Oktoberfest. and then he missed 4 days at work. One night when i was coughing he came in the bedroom and scared the shit outta me... (i coughed in my sleep and he asked if i was okay... i wasnt) and was like i dont want to be a meat cutter anymore.. but ive been doing this for years how do i change? everything is entry level and doesnt pay enough... (in having conversations with coworkers i'm realizing how lucky I got moving up to CHQ.... I'm comfortable and able to cover if he has issues covering his portion... it means i can't save like i would otherwise... but still i can be fine)

His hours suck but he is at least making money. We haven't had any substantial conversations since the two fights. we have gone out and done things but we dont touch. not really. its been 2 weeks since we have kissed, held hands or any of that. It's so isolating to have this happen. i have my cat but she also favors him. :( I was kicking her out of the office (she is a minion of chaos) and he held his hand out this morning... so i held it for a little bit because i didnt know what he wanted.

We went out to a friends going away party. (I was still sick) and he didn't get a beer.. nor did he want any. he just wanted food. which was fair. It had been a long day lol. but i think there has finally been a connection made about how i feel about drinking and his BS. He knows he has a problem and he is wanting my help with it. He will drink on his weekends and if he comes home with beer he has told me that i am allowed to hid it. He drank saturday night (because 1 i gave him $$ back from what he gave me because it was $20 i didnt care and 2 then he also found a 20 in the wash...) I was upset. I was like oh cool i see where your priorities lie. You come into money and immediately get beer. His response was I want to go to bed at a reasonable time not when you are getting up for the day and have you think i'm an idiot. even with drinking he didnt go to bed until almost 5 am.... Alcohol supposedly lets him sleep earlier.... but thats not true... i have so many photos where he fell asleep in his chair.

I have chatted with one person about most of this (some of this has been chatted with to other people...) but she was like it sounds like you are already checked out of the relationship and i thought on that and honestly it does. I both am and am not. It has been 3 years with him... but this year has been eye opening. Mostly because of said friend getting engaged. It has opened my eyes about what i am seeing in my own life and my own relationship.

Yeah i have been comparing my relationship to theirs. (we arent the same but we are. But we arent. Its weird. ) But thinking of everything that they are working on in regards to their wedding is making me think of how lonely i really am. Gamer doesnt care about anything enough to make a decision so most of it would be left to me. I would be doing everything alone. and that is overwhelming.

I still dont know if i really want to get married. I dont know if i trust him enough for that. My mom already advised me not to combine our assets and that we should have a joint account but not to give him access to mine. I am not engaged to him but like their engagement made me think about the long term and what do i want. I want him to care about the little things. I want him to do little things. I want handwritten notes or a long paragraph on the days that i have something big happening. He did kinda that at the beginning but he stopped and i told him that i wanted that but that i needed to give him time and let him figure out when to send those messages and stop bugging him for them because if he sent them then it would only be in response to me asking him and not genuine.

My love languages are words and actions. His is touch. Neither of us are happy in this because i am not a touchy person and he isnt a wordy person...

I know he does little things for me but he also doesnt.

Is my relationship worth saving? Is this the relationship i want to be in for the rest of my life? I dont know what the answer is to that. I need to stop complaining so much about everything that is going on.

I need to stop complaining to the one person who understands the most. The one person who knows him because she lived with him at one point. Because she is his brothers fiancee. I feel like i only tell her of the bad things... not the good. I only see the bad and i dont talk about the good. I dont talk about the fun times we have together.

About the time we carved pumpkins and mine looked derpy for absolutely no reason. About the times we have gone hiking together (not often... we need to go more) about our adventures to the coast. It doesnt feel like we have done anything together this year because i have been sick or he has been sick. We didnt celebrate our 3 year in january because i was sick. we didnt do anything for his birthday because i left to go to a wedding, we didnt do anything for my birthday because he didnt have it off. 27 is for cleaning house... does this mean...?

My parents dont show affection at all... The only time i can remember them showing affection in front of me was for photos.... they dont even hold hands when going about. My mother paid for her engagement ring. My dad proposed with his running shoes (showing her he wasnt going to run away... it is a cute story) I dont want to pay for everything. I want this to be a partnership. If he doesnt pay as much can he contribute in other ways, but he brought up that i dont ever cook for us and he wants me to cook more...

I dont know what i want anymore....

[winderlylandchime]

2/2 Emmett just popped up on screen with that black eyeliner look ‘OKAY EMMETT! LOOK AT HIM! This might be the only good part of this fucking episode’ Em/Ted tell Brian he must be sad over the break up ‘of course he’s sad! And i am too! Finally someone acknowledges his feelings! (Brian says he’s not devastated and theyre not sorry) you know he might be onto something there besides that one little lie. Why is Emmett being passive aggressive towards Brian about Blondie? Bri Bri isnt gonna be happy about Mike and Ben. Fuck them both. This is partly their fault’ And we are now at the Lindsay dinner scene ‘what the actual fucking fuck is happening this season?! Did i have a fucking stroke? What the fuck is happening?! SEE I TOLD YOU HER MOM IS A BITCH’ And we are at the second worst scene aka Brian/Mikey ‘Brian! And he’s drunk. Fuck you Ben! He has every right to want some answers. CALL HIM OUT BRIAN! FINALLY! Whats wrong with enjoying clubbing at 30…..5? TELL HIM BRIAN! EXACTLY BRIAN! HE WAS PERFECTLY HAPPY! Yes, he was happy! What the fuck would you know Mike?! Oh Mike is still upset because Brian never told him he loves him in that way?! (Mikey says Justin left because of Brian) *gasp* what the fuck? (Mikey says who wouldnt) *bigger gasp* WHAT? (It shows Brian’s face) you can tell mike is the last person he thought would say that. Punch him again please. He looks completely broken(It shows Justin) *even bigger gasp* oh i just lost a very tiny bit of love for him because why would you allow him to say all that? What the fuck? *looks at me with teary eyes* why would they say that to him? Who would write such horrible things? Why is everyone okay with people talking that way to him’ Lindsay comes on ‘oh get lost with your bad haircut! I need Brian to make sure he’s okay’ ‘BRIAN! Ignore what Mike said, he doesn’t know anything. (It shows Brandon getting head on the dance floor) HA HA he’s getting kicked out. Fuck you baywatch’ Ben shows up on screen ‘i will pay to never see Ben and Mike again’ and we are at the scene with Jen/Justin and his loft(?) ‘This is an infection waiting to happen. I MISSED JEN! He wants to live here?! (Justin says jen wasnt happy when he moved in with brian) but now they are best friends and that’s all that matters. EXACTLY JEN I ALSO WISH THEY WORK IT OUT! And they will! So he is fully aware of everything Brian did for him but it somehow isnt love? And he still allowed Mike to say all that to him?’ Justin says thats not love it’s sacrifice *long pause* ‘damn it, i hate that he’s right BUT Blondie’s change came out of fucking nowhere this season and Brian’s change doesn’t count cause clearly writers are on drugs.’ And the Brian/Brandon scene is up ‘fuck off Baywatch. HE IS THE HOTTEST GUY! THATS RIGHT! Were? Brian hit him with the stick, i am begging you! Baywatch, on your best day, you are still less hot than Brian on his worst. Theyre gonna bet? Im confused (Mikey pops up on screen) man, fuck you’ ‘i dont wanna sound rude but why is the show political again? Cant we focus on Brian and Justin? I get it was real life cause I remember that…kinda..but we kinda did this already’ and the Britin scene is up again ‘BRIAN! JUSTIN! Please make up! Im begging you. (Brian says hes not rage and justin looks away) okay but why does everyone expect him to save the world all the time? (Brian asks if Justin is okay) no, he isnt! He lives in a dump! Hepatitis C waiting to happen!’ *he pauses the episode after justin says he has to go and they just look at each other and he puts his cast to his face* ‘look at them! Look how theyre looking at each other! LOOK AT BRIANS FACE! That is not a person who is okay. He looks broken.’ *you are my sunshine starts playing and he immediately gets teary eyed* ‘DO THEY THINK THIS IS A FUCKING JOKE?! HES HIS SUNSHINE AND THEY TOOK HIM AWAY! WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST WATCH?!’ He then looked at me and just went ‘i can’t continue this shit if they dont get back together in the next episode. I cant do this, man.’ And then he got up and went outside

Sure Brian's not devastated. I mean he does just want Justin to be happy even if it's at his expense but also god forbid he even think about what he wants (in terms of a relationship, obviously when it comes to material possessions Brian is in the Donna and Tom camp of "treat yo'self.")

His commentary about the Brian/Mikey scene is completely and totally correct. It is such a heartbreaking scene. And yet everyone can look at Brian and somehow still believe he has no heart and that it cannot break.

Jen defending Brian this season is everything! I am glad we get that AT LEAST.

Blondie’s change came out of fucking nowhere this season and Brian’s change doesn’t count cause clearly writers are on drugs. <- I need that on a t shirt, thank you.

OHHHH AND BROTHER'S HEART IS BROKEN with that last scene. I am so sorry.

[sabaramonds]

let me tell you about fate/negi. so you might be wondering what the fuck mahou sensei negima is. well it was (takes a deep breath) (grimacing) so it was a harem manga published from 2003 to 2012 by ken akamatsu (yeah that ken akamatsu who got elected into politics to protect loli manga. yeah thats another can of worms.) i read negima in my public library when i was like 10 years old, the same age as negi as the series start. to be honest i should not have been running around the library unsupervised because this also led to me reading angel sanctuary. another separate can of worms. anyway so negi graduates magic school and a magic hat full of slips of paper tells him his career is going to be Go Be A Teacher In Japan and hes literally 10 years old. and its an all girls school. the general premise is that more and more of negis students discover his magic and involve themselves in his life and also the school itself is run by mages and also aliens exist and also magic is siphoning the life from mars. or something. its been a hot minute. the thing with negi and fate specifically is that our wretched author wrote himself into a huge corner with fate because negi had a more engaging and entertaining dynamic with fate, who 1. actually looks negis age so it isnt as weird to see even if fate is technically a lot older but hes like a homunculus basically, and 2. too popular and OP to be killed off to avoid the gay ending, so akamatsu had to commit to the bit you meet fate relatively early on in the series, like within the first 30 or so chapters, but he disappears just as quickly for something like 50 more chapters until negi and his students get their asses thrown into the magic realm and fate frames him for terrorism. really fun stuff. we are off to a great start. consistently from this point on, negi is shown having way more fun fighting fate than he ever seems to experience any other time, ever, and this is reciprocated. fate, who is reticent and rarely changes from his default 😐 expression, cant help but...

and then at the end of negima he shows up at the school to hang out with negi because theyre going to build an elevator to mars together and stop the planet from dying and the girls who have a crush on their literal 10yro teacher (and they are like, 16-17) about who has the best chance and because akamatsu is reluctantly committed now, fate manifests in front of them to say

???? OKAY. in fact akamatsu had to commit so hard that in the sequel, which takes place 70 years later, (negi is missing and possessed by the embodiment of human suffering or something its a lot), negis own "grandson" (kid made with cloning technology) is like ummm....

like ok we also got to see some hilarious things like fate trying to say, dead serious, "i dont love people" and then a chapter later hes full on crying about negis suffering and how HE should be the one experiencing that pain and not negi

and then 20 chapters later negi shows up possessed and oh no terrible things almost happen but fate and negi talk in negis soul or something and they very meaningfully (despite being fully grown adults) appear as the age they met one another and its like. wow.

fate tells negi about how he wants to make all of humanity immortal to cure suffering and pain and then the thing possessing negi should be satisfied, right? (this is not true and he should know this because that thing created him. yeah i forgot to mention that he used to work for her or whatever because shes his mom. sort of. i dont know) and he does this knowing negi wont want that because it wouldnt be right to force on others and the world will stagnate and also it wont even work, but hell do it anyway, for his sake. and negi doesnt even hate him for it

however to compensate for how gay he had to keep making this, akamatsu did create a failsafe to prevent rivalship yaoi from happening with touta (negis grandson) and kuromaru by making kuromaru a fantasy intersex species that chooses their sex during puberty and hes spent his entire life living as and wanting to be a boy but because he likes touta his body starts to become that of a womans. even as he actively thinks of himself as a man and does not want to be a girl, he just wants to be with touta. but he has to be a girl. for that. because. ? so i do think ken akamatsu should kill himself. but unfortunately 20 years of autism has me biting my desk over negi/fate. forever. to say nothing of albireo and nagi.

Do you ship it?

[lode5tars]

22/11/22 - Tuesday Nov 22rd.

guess whose motivational pikachu isnt working?

For today:

Refine the blog

correct other pages

correct article pages

Digital Drawing Workout 34

open:

start frontend mentor challenge

anatomy practice

one chapter of Blue period manga 32

if finished:

play Hades or Play Pokemon White

tranquilstudy

Day 19: How do you calm your nerves during exam season?

try breathing but it doesnt work at all. i just bear it

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lunluns autumn study challenge

Day 19: How was your day? You can talk about anything; vent or share a moment. I personally am willing to hear!

Nikis high school in Jakarta hits all the sore spots from back in high school, despite me well.... not living in jakarta lol or had any experience with romance . its carthatic. right now its 11:30 and im arming myself for when dad comes to the room to work. its sorta exhausting living here. there too much shouting and no privacy or personal space. i also need a chat with the tax people soon... i dont want to, im lonely and feel a bit too close to a failure. i have a couple of tasks at work to finish today but all i want to write is a fanfic where the main characters play videogames together. its too fucking hot outside 30 degrees celsius on a november. i need to use less social media, ill cut twitter from my laptop bcs a friend texts me on the phone and our different timezones make us never talk well, talking about chats i got into one and they are nice but they are so many i cannot tell anyone appart, but they are sweet. i miss drawing things i liked. i wonder what will happen if i drop everything just to draw pokemon, talking about pokemon txt loves pokemon, that makes them feel even more like that one comic that ended up with "maybe 20 years old me likes pokemon battles too" i should probably play pokemon., white is halfway through

my motivation right now its Taehyun shaped and he asks me if i will let the noise beat me so easily without putting up a fight, what will i do if i dont face my dreams now? its also shaped like Kai saying that videogames and cool stories are great. He doesnt say anything else. because i want to make videogames and any person who stands and appreaciates the work people like me dreams of is exciting.

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yesterday report:

sketch the blog (OK I GOTTA)

Digital Drawing Workout 33

sketch scheadule i need to restablish goals

now playing

"did you hear amanda is going back to colorado, its 2013 and the end of my life~"

[firefistlaw]

How One Piece males would react to their s/o biting their tits 

❀ ──────── ❀ ──────── ❀

Roger

Would be slightly confused but he gets it honestly whenever he sees himself in the mirror he knows why he is considered a king I mean have you seen his d cups? probably pats your head and snickers

Shanks 

Eye for eye baby you’re biting on his tits? well he’s biting yours now its a free estate its give and take 

Eustass Kidd

Judges you and later on tells Killer how weird you are you swear Killer starts serving you milk for breakfast now. Kidd is such a fucker honestly its not like he isnt chomping down on yours every chance he gets 

Zoro

Stutters and tells you a swordsman doesn’t allow stuff like that but he actually likes being bitten so guess what else a swordsman is Zoro? a big tiddied man. thats what he also is. he might also cut you into two if you do it too much and make them sting

Kaido

doesn’t even notice it have you seen this man he probably thinks you’re a fly and smacks and kills you on accident rip

Whitebeard

holds you like a baby he’s now your mother 

Ace

rolls his eyes and cups the back of your head he probably says shit like UGH you’re so obsessed with me. actually, he might start talking in baby language with you omg uwu is yn hungry for milk? .... maybe marineford wasnt so bad after all

Sabo 

Silently judges the FUCK out of you he’s looking down on you like ok weirdo... but then bites his lips when he starts whining in high pitch!!! this you sabo? weakest link

Katakuri

used his haki to see what you were about to do so he just pressed his massive hand on your forehead and shook his head while walking off 

Mihawk

lets u sit on his lap while you do it, will massage the back of your head while you do it but dont do it too much or he will start asking about your childhood and whether or not you got enough love as a child 

Marco

smirks and pulls you up by the hair and starts making out with u. might even be like shanks and say eye for eye baby CHOMP 

Oden

gets turned on and he tells his other 30 side lovers to do the same as you he’s now a whole buffet but who can we blame he is so hot and for what?

[reynie-muldoons]

"Free of Pointless Commands" liveblog!

It's finally time!! My period's been leaving me feeling like garbage, but I'm on the upswing now. It's time for blorbo from my shows.

As always, spoilers under the cut :)

Before I even start the episode I want it on the record that I read the episode description and the bit about Constance "using her gift". PLEASE let this be the necklace from the book PLEASE I am BEGGING

0:14 I unironically love these recaps

1:08 "car 15" this dude is definitely in cahoots 🥴

1:16 HAHA GET HIM REYNIE

1:34 "your accent insults the nation" LMAO CONSTANCE WHAT

1:40 why are you saying this out loud WHY DO THEY DO THIS SO MUCH

1:52 I like how they call them "the greys", it has a good ring to it lol

1:59 "they'll probably take us back to where mr benedict and number two are" okay valid

2:01 "the same grays who tried to brain sweep me?" OKAY VALID

2:44 I dont know this man's mother but I love her 😂

NOO I ACCIDENTALLY SKIPPED THE OPENING

Okay I rewound LMAO. In this house we dont skip intros unless they really suck

4:27 why does kate know what non-liquid assets are 😂😂

4:53 if that spyglass is also a kaleidoscope I would actually scream

4:59 "I'll take the whole bucket" buddy that is a price far too high

5:16 baby girl, what's up

5:23 🥺🥺🥺 please dont let that be a necklace from mr b

5:54 I love these girls so much

6:32 "I dont know. I'm hungry." No worries bb we all get hangry

6:36 whaaaat was that face connie girl

6:38 "Constance, what's wrong?" REYNIE NOTICED TOO

6:48 fucking christ how does she know

6:54 shit. SHIT.

7:01 okay it's time for fucking PAIN bc sure he's happy and carefree and will probably eat and sleep better but this is synthetic bullshit that isnt doing anything good for him in the long run and I'm feeling a lot of things about it

7:07 "My." Shut up you pretentious dickhead

7:15 all that flexing can't possibly be compensating for something, can it? Hmmm?

7:26 kiss ass. A kiss ass with a long standing grudge and too much pride.

7:30 "I'm so proud of you" NO

7:34 "...and almost bizarrely happy" okay so he's aware that it's strange

7:46 stop being manipulative challenge (impossible)

8:03 curtain is the sort of guy who very obviously peaked in high school and talks about how much he loved it way too much

8:34 "it's your associate.. she seems to have your ear, and she doesn't strike me as particularly joyful." ohhhhh, so that's his angle. I'm so glad she got out when she did

8:45 "the way I feel now, anything seems possible" this shit is so creepy, like a hivemind

8:53 there's our girl!!!

9:24 "....👌🏼 I'm over-parenting" LMAO IM DEAD

9:42 okay but where did Miss Perumal go

9:51 RHONDA DONT LEAVE HER BEHIND

10:12 "we won't be putting her in a dangerous situation where she wont be able to-" *Miss Perumal rides in on a moped like a badass* YOU WERE SAYING????

10:29 daaamn, she knows her stuff!

10:56 "did you hot wire this? 🧐" "there are things you dont know about me 😐" SGHDJDJD THIS EXCHANGE

11:04 YES Milligan in the sidecar 😂😂😂

11:43 "Constance has the gift" Constance: 😳 please tell me she didnt barter the gift away for their taxi fare

12:29 NO SHE REACHED FOR HER NECK, IT WAS THE NECKLACE

12:38 Awwwwww

12:43 "now, make a wish." "I wish to be free of pointless commands." ROLLLL CREDITS

13:06 AWWW they definitely missed Rhonda's birthday by now then 🥺 the two of them are so sweet. What a funny fucking gift too

13:13 "it will be tough to outdo this, but I enjoy a challenge" have I mentioned I love them

13:15 they are about to saw the cake in half LMAOOOO

13:28 oh my gosh constance backstory. CONSTANCE BACKSTORY.

13:34 "I'm fine." Oh sweetheart, my baby girl, she was so quick to deny but you KNOW bbg is messed up about it

13:47 "this is my home. I'm fine." brb sobbing

14:06 NOOOO 😭😭

14:10 AWW ITS A SEASHELL

14:17 AND IT HAS A PEAAAARL

14:44 "Kate would fall apart without her bucket" true

15:07 two things:

1. There's another one now???

2. Neither of them are smiling anymore

Okay I lied three things, 3. J&J are doing this in secret, without Curtain knowing. J&J redemption arc????

15:29 "I dont see the problem" then congratulations on being blind

15:44 there you go jill!!!

15:52 "is he currently in a good mood?" LMAO DUDE

16:12 "just... find them a doctor" good fucking luck with that

16:28 "every time. Unwanted tomato." I sympathize, I also do not like tomatoes on my sandwiches

16:29 well that's just wasteful

16:32 LMAO I DIDNT EVEN SEE THEM THERE

17:11 oh my gosh is she about to trade her bucket? The whole thing???

18:07 daaaamn they're so sneaky

18:24 the performance of a lifetime 😂😂😂

18:48 good job but please get out of there while you can

19:16 my love I am so glad you went to the authorities but unfortunately they are the authorities, the justice system fails more people than they dont

19:34 "your claim is nonsensical." "You malign a good man." And there it is.

19:55 "someone's finally at the wheel" THE QUOTE FROM THE FIRST SEASON. 'LIKE NO  ONE'S AT THE WHEEL'. SHDJFHDHJD

20:04 "you sound like someone who could, frankly, use some time in dr curtains program" that's fucking terrifying

20:06 "compulsory or not" that's fucking terrifying

20:27 please I'm begging you call Rhonda

20:28 SHIT I FORGOT THEYRE NOT THERE

20:32 THATS THE ONLY NUMBER SHE HAS FOR THEM, SHIT

20:43 noooo they're out of gas

21:10 the POSE 😂

21:12 AND THE RUN HAHAHAHA. WHY DOES HE RUN LIKE THAT

21:22 they're so confused LMAOOO

21:29 what in the hell is happening here

21:30 oh. Okay 🤪

21:57 he is learning so much from Miss Perumal. I LOVE THEIR RELATIONSHIP SO MUCH

22:40 the pearl can just be taken out of the shell like that? What's kept it from falling out up until now?

22:44 IT IS THE GLOBE AFTER ALL 😭😭😭

22:57 off to Germany then, but that's incredibly vague

23:17 "Curtains men could show up any second" damn right they could

23:21 speak of the devil and he shall appear

23:24 oooh and theres a couple of them now!!! Exciting

23:32 *breath* "I'd like a receipt please" why did that make me laugh

23:38 okay but what the fuck is happening

23:41 "hnnnng what's happening?" GSHAHHAHA MY QUESTION EXACTLY DUDE

23:48 *walking in aimless circles giggling* this is me when I'm drunk

23:53 oh my god she did come back I KNEW SHE WOULD BREAK OUT JUST TO BREAK BACK IN

24:01 poor number two 🥺 she looks so freaked out.

24:01 Someone please give this woman a hug and some anxiety medication

24:11 the pure euphoria in "my brother has pie trucks?? :D"

24:23 "they're ALL cult of Curtain" okay but cult of Curtain is a great way to describe this

24:23 I really hope his cringe isnt for her wording even though I totally know it is WHEN WILL THE OTHER SHOE DROP

24:47 "what's there to smile about" kinda rude but yeah he's literally giggling at her

24:49 HIM TRYING TO BE SERIOUS AND FAILING 💀

24:54 that eye narrow. She knows.

25:01 "and of course our current status" "kidnapped. Status: kidnapped." She is the sole voice of reason

25:05 THAT EYE WIDEN. SHE KNOWS.

25:09 the quiet "oh no" GOOD LORD THE QUIET REALIZATION. There has to be at least one fic that will be written about this scene alone.

25:33 "this incredible newfound joy is not going to influence my ability to do what is right" okay two things:

1. I do not believe you

2. It will stop you if your body shuts the fuck down??? I mean they dont know about that but still

25:39 SHE HAS HER HEAD IN HER HANDS. SHE COULDNT BE MORE STRESSED

26:25 "there's no conventional reason for this, this... vacancy" okay the word vacancy makes it seem one thousand times more sinister holy shit

26:29 oh good lord another one

26:29 also I'm pretty sure this shot is the one from the trailer, we all thought it was that prof from season 1

26:58 "kate, do you have a pen?" "Do I have a pen?" The SASS

27:18 PALINDROME, GERMANY. 10/10.

27:24 her visible disappointment that there is no city specifically named Palindrome has me giggling

27:50 PLAN SHAKE AND BAKE 😂😂

28:00 noooo no no no the adults got there just barely too late. AGAIN.

28:11 at least the kids will actually have tickets this time, it's a lot harder to hide on a train

28:17 watch that be some random passenger with her hair like that

28:24 called it

28:32 okay she looks so precious in that yellow coat. So freaking cute

28:40 NOTHING but air hahahaha

28:43 well shit, the polo team is a problem. It's like I said earlier, it's a lot harder to hide on a train

28:55 oh shit, they arent working with the greys? Or maybe Curtain did plant them and the two parties just dont know each other?

28:58 okay gang maybe stop shoving your faces in the very visible window

29:13 "disgrace to the sport." the pure DISDAIN

29:29 "couple of broken ribs, maybe a dislocated shoulder, but we'd live!" Why do I have the feeling these are injuries someone will attain

29:39 STOP I WAS GOING TO COMMENT ON CONSTANCE AND STICKY'S EXCHANGE BUT I PAUSED ON A GOLDEN SCREENCAP 😂😂😂 HOLD UP

look at that FACE

30:01 she looks like such a gremlin holding the whistle like that 😂

30:06 AWWWW Reynie fell asleep on him 🥺

30:14 what's on your mind bb boy, it's not your shift but you're wide awake

30:22 daaamn. that time of night is that time where it could be super late or super early, depending how you look at it

30:30 "you haven't slept. Why not?" A valid ass question

30:50 "you havent prepared yourself" valid! He needed the rest to be alert enough to keep watch

31:19 oh now he's sleepy. I can relate though- I used to work shifts in that late/early time of night while I was in college, and I would never be able to get to sleep before my shifts, but I would be dead tired while I was supposed to be working. It's a vicious cycle

31:31 okay the fact that it faded out and faded back in so many times makes me think either the rest of them were taken, or that their situation is drastically more dangerous somehow

31:59 NO NO NO NO NO

31:59 WHERE IS SHE. WHAT DID THEY DO TO MY BABY GIRL

32:12 DAMNIT. of COURSE they would end it there.

Part of me thinks that Constance will be in the bathroom or something super mundane, and she'll have some snarky remark about how she can handle herself. Every other part of me is thinking the obvious, implied, and very unfortunate circumstance 🥴

What a fantastic episode. I cant wait to think about it for the next 3 days straight.

[murdocks-cheesecake]

A list of things that can happen if/when Larry come out

 this is just a list of probabilities, i will be adding more if i feel the need to

Their coming out news will probably start like “Broken hearted ex-one direction member Harry Styles finds comfort in ex-bandmate Louis Tomlinson?” or “Two members of one direction see together, reunion soon?”

Larry coming out will have a Domino effect, it will lead to many, believe me, many things.

first off, if Larry come out, the next spectaculated relationship of 1D ‘Ziam’ if real, will come out

S*mon C*well has been mia for very long now, if you notice, and the only time he he has been on spotlight recently is on TXF news of it not being aired anymore. He wil continue being MIA, because soon all the news will be focusing on him and how unfairly he has been running the industry.

Rebecca Ferguson will speak out even more about her and the other artists’ mistreatment

Firstly, Harry will lose a lot of fans. It is expected because a lot of solo harries wish for him to be straight, and while the others do see him as queer they do not wish for him to be with Louis.

Louis will also lose fans, but they will not be as many as Harry’s, because his fandom is smaller and a very few believe that he is straight.

 This will cause a LOT of chaos in the industry.

The radio and the news stations will have field days for months before anything is confirmed, which will only lead upto more hate. It is important for us to be supportive in this stage.

The next question will be of the kid who was dragged into this mess. Louis will take the pat test and when it turns out that he isnt the dad, the whole family will be going mia and more spectaculations will be raised by the media but nothing we have already anticipated.

There will be a few more sightings of them together.

I feel that somewhere in between all this, there will be music promotion, because they will be trending and all the news will be about them, because of course, the are the new, ‘hot’ stuff.

The other artists who were/are being closeted or mistreated will speak up more, and this time, they WILL be heard and not just by the Larries but the whole media because it relates to L and H.

To clear everything up, they will be called on a tv show, most likely the Late Late Show.

The question rises, who will be in control of the management if the most famous one was taken down? Louis knew this would happen so guess what he told us a few months ago? That he was working on making a management which will be a safe space for all artists. He specified it that it wasnt a label, but a management. L and H have been through one of the worst experiences of being famous only because of the blatant homophobia in the industry, and they dont want it to happen all over again. They are trying to make sure they save the younger artists from the treatment they faced when they were younger.

Coming back to sim*n cowbell, the moment he had seen Louis he knew that he had the capability to become big enough to overthrow him from his throne of lies, so he put the most pressure on him. Stripped him out of his flamboyant personality and made him more calmed down. Gave him a long time girlfriend. Made him do stunts and give him a playboy and a party man image around 2015 when he started to protest and even gave him a kid, because he knew that 1d was coming to an end and he couldnt pawn off them for very long, so he had to squeeze out whatever he could get out of them and tarnish their image so bad that his comeback will be difficult. In a way, this is going to make their comeback stronger and salmon’s fall harder

He gave Harry a ‘womanizer’ image and fuck me if it doesnt make me want to punch that botox off his face every time Harry is seen with a blonde skinny woman and is spectaculated to be in a relationship with her. He groomed Harry from such an early age by putting the ‘he likes older woman’ image on him. The poor boy was rumoured to be dating Caroline Flack when he was 17 and she was 30, shame on you Cowell!

He did everything to make them seem straight, but God knows that they are as straight as Harry’s curls. Made it seem that their ‘bromance’ was ruined by the ‘delusional’ larries and blamed it on them because we were too close to the truth and he couldnt make that happen. 

Fast forward to 2021, and their images. Are. Still. The. Same. Harry is still seen as the womanizer and the person who likes older woman and Louis is seen as an irresponsible father who never meets his kid and doesnt introduce it to his long time girlfriend. Honestly, straight Louis is a disaster and i dont know how you can stan him if you think that he has had a 4 year girfriend, broken up with her and dated another model for a brief while, then partied and had a one night stand kid and gets back with the previous gf and doesnt introduce the kid and her to each other.

Babygate will be reduced in the industry, if not completely stopped.

This is all I’m writing for today, and as i mentioned earlier, i will be adding more if needed

Let me just add here, that this will not happen in a matter of days or weeks. It will take months or maybe even YEARS for these possibilities to take course as Louis and Harry do not seem to be coming out publicly any time soon.

This does not mean that they will stop queercoding or write each other messages through their songs

[annavysoul]

I can confirm, they introduced themselves as 3 readers and they made a post how Bee is leaving and starting their own channel. They even made a post to support it and linked the blog, that's how I knew of the Bee drama. But yknow whatever. But they shouldn't demonize those poor future apouses lmao, it's not gonna be them, or any of us.

Warning very long, I got carried away my bad lol

But the drama on tumblr is kinda mild conpared to Youtube "readers". At least the readers here on tumblr try to hide the fact, that they're describing themselves very well but yoooooooo.... Youtube readers are a different breed. Most of them are super young (12-13, but there are a handful of readers old enough to fucking know better) and just straight up describe themselves with no shame. I even found some who put pics of themselves lmao. Me and my friends like to go through readings and bet, who is describing themselves as a spouse. There is one reader who has over 30+ vids on Mrs. J, and most readings are like over 20 mins long. How much is there to know about a person, that doesn't exist yet??? But most YT readers are obssessed with the fact, that Mrs. J is from India, what a coincidence that the reader is also from India lmao. I'm not saying BTS wouldn't ever date someone from that country, I'm saying it's impossible to get a specific country, age, height, religion etc from tarot cards. The pics on the cards might give you clues and the cards can say that the person is different from you, but they go into way too much detail. And it's funny because they're always soooo specific for Jungkook and V, but for the other ones....crickets🦗 On one hand it's so sad bc you have these little girls, putting out their private info, looks and secrets for the whole world to see (these vids have thousands of views) and they don't really grasp the consequences of their actions bc yknow, their just children. The internet never forgets. But on the other hand, you have these grown women who, like I said, should know better than these little girls. Not only do they get so defensive if you don't 100% allign with what they said, they are borderline so obsessed of the idea of being a spouse. Like tf??? Bts aren't Gods. They're very attractive celebs, who's purpose is to entertain people with their contents and music (hence the word idol & entertainer), while they do feed into that perfect bf material scheme, it's up to the fan to not actually develop real romantic feelings (a celeb crush and being a stan is something very different). Most are actually fans for very superficial reasons, they just find them attractive, not the music. And if you take the glitz and glamour of fame and money away, Bts are regular human beings, with flaws and issues. Like. The. Rest. Of. Us. They only show you the best side of them, because it's part of the whole idol package. We truly do not know these people, no matter how sincere or authentic they appear on camera. Like so so many were suprised that they wanted to disband a few years ago, bc they couldn't handle the pressure. These readers always believe if they meet/marry them, their life is going to be better and they feel alive again or smth. Most of these readers actually need therapy, I don't mean that in a condescending way. They imagine that their spouse, a celeb they've never met, will be their sole reason for their happiness and only then they are able to fix their issues and unhappiness. That reeks of co-dependency. And even if they'd become couple and be public, then what? A really big big chunk of Armys are actually in love with Bts, no matter if they even know tarot or not (Armys usually claim that only 2% of the fandom are delulus but that's definetly not true🥴). You'd get send d*eath threats, be harrassed, get doxxed, be hated for all eternity, even if you'd decided to break up. Look what happend with Jk and the tattoo artist he only hugged. She lost her job bc Armys were reporting her, some were trashing her workplace, she got threats, her friends got harassed and doxxed and she lost a friend (Jk). Not only that, but people would legit stalk you and try to hurt you, if you were a romatic partner of Bts. Then you also have the tarot side, who'd try to curse youa nd paint you as the evil demon, who is toxic to member xyz. And I don't think you'd want to spend your entire life locked in your house. And I personally could never deal with like millions of haters, no matter how hot my partner is.

Yoooo! i search again in yt and watch a couple of videos... these are kids for go sake🥺🥺 where are their parents and why they let them public private infoooo?!? internet and children isnt the best combination...

and yess, theres also grown up women and thats really creepy, u can understand that children might do that cause they are young, BUT WHEN U ARE OLD ENOUGH, U SHOULD ACT BETTER!! and i insist, they just trying to prove to themselves and to the world that they are worth it to be with a celebrity, like yeah of course u are worthy, like any of us, but this is not the way u know? its weird, i dont think its sane at all, they just are using the cards to feel better, and thats bs. and if it is just a cope mecanism, plz work on yourself, get help, life its better when u are in a healthy place

also its interesting about mrs being from india and most of all the videos i watch where from indian armys, tarot doesnt work like that, yeah u can feel the energy that its different, perhaps different culture and think that maybe it could be a foreing, but the cards will never tell you something that specific, less if u dont even know in person the people you are reading for

we dont know them at all, and people put them in a such high pedestal just for being famous and hot, so i really have trouble to think that some tarot readers can pick their real energy, im a very intuitive person, but i need to be in the presence of the person to feel their real energy, so to be so specific in a reading they need to energise the cards with the energy of the person, they need to at least shuffle the cards and connect with the reader, sooo thats why i only see these reads as enterteiment, and its bad for the community to claim that we can see ALL of about them.

i'll never forgive the people who threaten the tattoo artist, poor girl, and thats why the guys cant have healthiest relationship, let them have a LIFE

[shigarakisslutbag]

TW: yandere themes, toxic relationships, etc .

(If theres any other warnings i should put just send in an ask or a dm!! Im so sorry if i missed anything!!)

Okay so this isnt what i normally write. if youre new to my blog, i typically write mommy kinm stuff (and i will continue to do so! so dont worry, if thats what you followed me for!!) But ive been thinking a lot about toxic relationships with either shigaraki or dabi . For now im gonna do shiggy cause, well, look at my blog name lol.

So i imagine in a scenario where shigaraki is toxic. It wouldnt start out that way. Itd be very gradual. Theres red flags of course, but sadly, some people, like yourself have rose colored glasses that make you blind with attachment. And that kind of love never helps you in the end.

Shigaraki isnt the kind of toxic where he likes other girls posts and hypocritically tells you not to like other guys/girls posts. Hes actually pretty loyal, in a sense.

Heres how i imagine his toxic side:

- lets say you have a group of friends, right? And youre very comfortable with one of them. You like to show lewd pics and hype eachother up, telling eachother how great you are, and how lucky your s/o's are. If shigaraki ever saw those messages, like maybe your phone wad open for a sec while you were gona and he took a peak, hed be furious. Not at you ofc. But at whoever send you pics of themselves. Because how dare they assume youd want to see anyone other than your boyfriend? Your loyal, caring, boyfriend. Were they trying to one-up him? Show you how much better they were than he? It doesnt matter if you both blatantly consented.

He'd talk to you about it, and would try to manipulate you into cutting them off. If you fall for his manipulations, hes very content. And from then on keeps an eye on your friends, even going so far as to messaging them privately, intimidating them and scaring them into never thinking they could be as close to you as he is.

But if you say no ? He wont block them for you, or get mad at you. He convinces himself that youre too kind to understand . And instead, convinces the other person into blocking you . Youre absolutely heart broken because you were so close. You told that person everything. They were the longest friendship you ever had. And then out of nowhere they send you a message telling you its hard to stay friends with you. That youre hard to love. Little do you knkw thats exactly ehat sjigaraki had them say . That was the last message you had of theirs before you were noticeably blocked.

Shigaraki also refuses to let you order at places or be independent in public in general because he hates the thought of you interacting with anyone. He has you sit at one of the tables or has you both stay at the hideout while one of the members gets things for you.

He still lets you hang out with friends ofc, but expect to have messages sent to you at least every 30 minutes to an hour, asking how everything's going.

You can also only wear hot clothing around him, he tries to convince himself he isnt jealous, but deep down if anyone were to ever EVER take a glance at your body other than your face while he noticed, they wouldnt have eyes to look with from that moment on .

The thing about this relationship, is that you dont quite notice most of his toxicity because its all behind a façade of niceness . He carries himself quite well. He truly does love you, he just cant express it like a normal person would. Just dont make the mistake of going through his phone or his pc's search history. And youll never be disappointed <3

(Again im sorry this isnt what i normally post, but fantasizing about toxic relationships is fun to me lol . Only in fanatsy though ofc )

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SKSKSKSKSKSK CODI CODI PLEASE I LOVE DADRAGON HISASHI PLS CAN I GET A COUPLE HCS

*SLAMS DESK* THANK HECK SOMEONE ASKED ME BECAUSE I *LOVE* TALKING ABOUT MY MENTAL IMAGE FOR HISASHI MIDORIYA

listen. ok. in my mind, hisashi is the COOLEST DAD EVER. THE COOL ONE EVERYONE *WISHES* THEY HAD

-he has red hair and bright green eyes and freckles EVERYWHERE just like deku. except i hc that his firebreathing thing is partially a dragon thing!! so he has little horns on top of his head and a few patchy areas with scales. he looks COOL ASF until u get to the back n see his tiny ass wings that dont do nuthin

inko makes fun of his stubby wings so much n hes always like "BAAAABE STOP U KNOW I WAS BORN LIKE THIS 😭" but its ok bc he still luvs her

HE. DRESSES. HORRIBLY. Like im talkin stupid unbuttoned polos with band shirts underneath and ratty ass jeans. he wears socks and sandals and sometimes even jorts. hes always wearing like 30 unmatched pieces of jewelry bc hes a dragon and he HOARDS

most of the jewelry is handmade bracelets izuku sent him as a kid and he NEVER TAKES THEM OFF even if theyre literally falling apart

AND LIKE. OK. DEKUS RED SHOES RIGHT?? HE ACTUALLY GOT THOSE FROM HIS DAD WHO BOUGHT HIM AND BAKUGOU MATCHING RED AND BLUE ONES AND A RED ADULT SIZED PAIR FOR HIMSELF TOO. bakugou stopped wearing them after he grew out of them but IZUKU AND HISASHI ARE STUBBORN MFS N WEAR THE SAME SHOES EVERYDAY.

dekusquad jokingly is always like "ahh finding the male midoriyas in a crowd is always easy! just look for them big ass red shoes ✌"

all that aside tho. if u look past the disastrous fashion sense. hisashi midoriya is HOT hot.

LIKE. ok. hes mostly lean w a bit of chub, from working as a successful barista in america, and hes also TALL AS HECK. hes like. maybe a few inches shorter than all might. bottomline is that hes REALLY ATTRACTIVE. ESPECIALLY WHEN INKO DRESSES HIM UP

and when deku introduces him to 1A and his teachers for the first time everyones looking at hisashi n blushing n they look at deku n theyre all like "....dude"

(and maybe because they notice the fact that deku actually looks pretty similar to his dad 1A starts to realize that deku isnt actually that plain when you stare at his face long enough and oh wow uh—"

ANYWAY katsuki 💯 had a crush on dekus dad when he was younger. mitsuki makes fun of her son like ALL THE TIME for having a crush on her best friend. hisashi demonstrated his quirk once in front of the bakugous to show off a bartending trick and that was literally the first time katsuki ever complimented a quirk aside from his own

hisashi and deku at the same time combining their adorable energy: kacchan!!

katsuki, furiously blushing: STOP

anyway aside from katsuki—uraraka, todoroki, and shinsou DEFINITELY also have a crush on dekus dad. NO ONE CAN FIGHT ME ON THIS. obvs everyone in UA thinks hisashi's cool and SMOKIN, but those four have it like BAD.

SO BAD.

dekus oblivious to this. so is hisashi. he goes up to shouto once and ruffles his hair and calls him sport and todoroki sets his desk on fire.

uraraka keeps making things float accidentally because she gets sidetracked staring at deku and his dad side by side and "oh wow they both have a freckle on the back of their neck just a little below their left ears—"

shinsou just. goes up to deku n hands him a note that says "get ur dad out of my school"

BUT THE FUNNIEST PART THO. THE FUNNIEST PART.

all might has a crush on hisashi too.

LIKE HISASHI COMES BACK TO JAPAN N IS ALL LIKE "wow i miss being here! is all might still no. 1? hows my son doing? america was so stressful! im so glad to be back in sweet home musutafu :)"

n then he comes home and all mights eating ice cream on the couch cursing at the football game on TV

hisashi: ....all might-san?

toshinori: u-aH? uh? good evening er. uh. mr. midoriya?? welcome home! im going to gay—i mean go!!

hisashi: w—

toshinori, panicking and reverting to symbol of peace dealing with PR mode: ENJOY YOUR SON! HAVE A NICE STAY! DONT DO DRUGS *leaves house in sweatpants and slams the door shut*

toshinori, internally: oh my god what the fuck what the fuck is this a quirk am i dying

when it calms down tho toshinoris still a blushing stuttering mess buT AT LEAST YK WHAT?? they bond over talking about america and deku!!

they both go on long af rambles about american lifestyles n all the weird people theyve met while in there and then they start throwing around words like bucky's convenience store and bubba gump shrimps and everyone stops listening

izuku notices how weird his mentor is around his dad but doesnt rlly care bc two!!! two father figures!!!! and a mom figure!!!!! they all play (quirk powered) dodgeball every other sunday while 1A watches in a mix of horror, attraction, and unbridled joy.

toshinori: oh my god why did they both have to be hot. why couldnt it have just been inko? thats easier to deal with. i cant do both. i cant HANDLE both. who allowed this? why?

aizawa: how the fuck did you get into my office its 4 am yagi.

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I know april fools just passed but,, could you do a bakugou headcanon where his s/o decided to dye her hair like shouto’s because he is her best friend and todoroki was like “what if we were twins for a day” and she thought it was a good idea to see how bakugou would react to it?? love your blog btw!!

this is so cute! thank you for requesting! and let us all imagine that its currently march 30 rn + idk how long dyeing your hair takes cs my mom wont let me dye my hair 😔 #ripjanshairgoals 

sometimes you ask yourself how did you get so lucky to meet shoto todoroki and become best friends with him just because of this stupid idea he got for april fools day

as well all know todoroki has 2 hair colors parted in the middle right

and his brilliant idea is to dye your hair the exact same colors of his hair and call it a day

so of course you had to agree with him even if it costed you your natural hair color

so you two hit up kirishima in secret to help you dye your hair

also this is just to fuck with your boyfriend bakugo

^^ thats what todoroki said

anyway

so like planned, at exactly 8:30 where bakugo would be knocked out cold, you three would start your grand fools day joke

“babe, i’m getting tired” bakugou yawns as you two watch tv in the common room 

“awww is it time for boom boom baby’s bedtime?” you cooed, pinching his cheeks

bakugo huffs and pulled you closer to his chest

literally 5 mins just passed and apparently bakugo cant take it anymore

“i’m sleepy. i’m going to sleep now” he checks the time on his phone and it deadass reads 8:05 PM 

“goodnight katsuki” you kissed his cheek briefly to which he returns your love with a kiss on the lips

“night” he smiles, walking back to his room

after the coast is clear

both kirishima and todoroki emerge from the kitchen holding up what seems to be a plastic bag filled with hair dye

“let’s get this bread” kirishima giggles as you and todoroki share a knowing look

~an hour into dyeing your hair~

“holy fuck kiri how do you deal with this shit every other week” you whined as they placed your head above the sink for what seems like the nth time tonight

“stop whining” todoroki tsked as he holds half of your hair up

“stop scolding me who are you? my fucking dad?” you retort sending ur bff a glare

todoroki literally flicks your forehead but he forgot he got dye in his fingers now your forehead is stained in the color of red

“SHOTO WHAT THE FUCK” you screamed as you rapidly wiped your forehead

“heh you sound like my dad” he snickers

kirishima had to deal with the two of you for 4 fucking hours

but luckily those hours are over since the look is complete

you looked in front of the mirror with todoroki and kirishima beside you

“hOLY FUCK YOU GUYS” you squealed, twirling your hair with your fingers

“looks sick dude” kirishima comments, complimenting his work which is the hair job lmfao

“sho look we’re twins!” you turned to todoroki and gave him your iconic grin he grew up with 

“i wish we were actually twins y/n” he says with a small smile pulling you into a side hug

you know what he means by that 

you quickly thanked the two boys for their hard work and you tied your hair with some plastic so it doesn’t stain your pillows and shit

+ you had to get some beauty sleep to surprise your mans

fast forward to the next day

since bakugo sleeps early, he also wakes up early

and when he went downstairs to the bathroom to do his business he almost had an heart attack and blew up the boys bathroom after seeing the red stained sink 

“fucking shitty hair and his shit he doesnt clean up” he grumbles to himself, staring at the sink

you on the other hand, you overslept because at the time you went to bed last night

so bakugo had to come all the way to your room to wake you the fuck up

bakugo knows you dont lock your door cs everyone probably knows by now that you’re dating him so if anyone who isnt bakugo goes to your room might be killed by bakugo himself if he finds out

and what bakugo saw was something he thought he only saw in movies

my boy lost all the color in his face when he noticed icy hot’s hair IN YOUR BED

(what he assumed was todoroki) 

its safe to say you were awoken by the smell of burning caramel and explosions going off in your room

“FUCK IM AWAKE” you jolt up from your bed in high alert after literally witnessing a grenade go off in your room

“WHAT THE FUCK?!” bakugo YELLS the moment he saw your hair color

you faced bakugo who was literally at the brink of crying cause mans thought you were ch**t*ng on him behind his back

“KATSUKI” you laughed, walking near him to give him a hug

bakugo was holding in his tears at this point

he wiped a stray tear angrily and sniffled

“WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT FOR” he croaked, his nose getting red

“IT WAS APRIL FOOLS. I’M SORRY” you apologized, holding his face

so basically everyone in 1-a was outside your room wondering what the fuck happened

todoroki took the liberty and opened your door to see you holding bakugo like he was a baby

“it was todoroki’s idea by the way” you throw todoroki under the bus, bakugo stays silent and just lets you hold him lmfao

“haha april fools” todoroki laughs as he watched bakugo cry 

bakugo turns around and gave him the bakuglare™ 

which todoroki understood as “get the fuck out”

so he leaves quietly and gave you a smile of accomplishment on the way out

you let out a laugh and turned your attention to bakugo again

“i’m so hurt right now i don’t even know what to say” he starts, “but i’m not gonna ignore the fact you look good in it” bakugo admits

“i’m going have to punish you for making me think of things” bakugo says through gritted teeth before scooping you up at ease and throwing you to your bed

;)