lode5tars

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hello character who is desperate to be a good person; i want to play a game. in front of you is the one person you will never be able to save. you have the rest of your life to make peace with this. there are no defined repercussions if you fail, but we both know you're going to attempt to win regardless. your time starts now

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Introduction

So i started this a few days ago but maybe the best way is to introduce myself! specially since ive been absent for so long. i have been in tumblr since 2014, and was very active until 2018-2019 but after the pandemic i shifted to twitter but im planning on reanimate things here a bit due to its cozy and chaotic vibes.

You can call me North

im a spanish native speaker, i live in Mexico so feel free to speak in spanish to me

I graduated as a Media Designer

I have a really hard time sticking to routines and starting things

i work full time.

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we sooo back (or were bad enough to be back)

Status Report Energy levels: 40% Mental levels: 50% Mental status: tired, sleepy, sad?, guilty, inspired

To Do list:

consider going out for swimwear or to the gym(?

Work

Head Above Water Captain.

i deliver my first comm today! i hadnt opened comms in very long so i was quite nervous

the horror podcast is going crazy

i like the feeling of typing in my keyboard with fingers short

Currently Rolls:

recommend me music!

rambles:

i the enegry levels had a purpose but i dont mind now, getting it jotted down works at first, should i paint my nails? should i write it down????? im so stupidly full of wonder its making me a bit crazy.

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Day 3 of getting my life back

Again, like yesterday, I started my day late because bad period cramps kept me up the whole night. Because I’ve couldn’t concentrate and study I’ve done some chores and then headed to work at the garage with my bike. I‘m so happy that I can rely on my e-bike when I‘m not feeling well and can’t cycle with my road or gravel bike. God I’ve worked so hard and saved so much money to buy these bikes. 😅 But they are sometimes the only things that keep me sane and give me joy.

The best part about today was, that we ordered pizza for the whole team at the garage.

Unfortunately I didn’t study anything today. But I’ve looked at the cute neighbours cow. For today it’s Criminal Minds and a blanket on the sofa and hoping for colder temperatures.

Tomorrow I won’t have to work and hopefully my period isn’t that bad anymore. I’m planning to study the whole day. Wish me luck!

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MASTERPOST OF MY POSTS

Advice posts:

Small things you can do to help keep somewhat sane when life is chaos incarnate

Tips for a super busy life with add-on by lilliesandlovebirds

How I prep for a new semester at uni

STEM writing advice

Realistic academia

schedule time for yourself

Broke college student tip: cook

Overwhelming failure

Small changes make big impacts

Gathered school advice

advice for new college students

Failure is normal and a part of the learning process

tips for playing catch up

Getting back into school

UNIVERSITY WITH MENTAL ILLNESS

How to bounce back from failing a test

How to get a good work/life balance

 Study stuff:

review/summary pages

Testing tips: minutes before the test

Fun ways to help stay focused while studying

A survival guide for finals week

different study methods

How I condense notes for quick reviews

How to study for a test with lots of info

Testing tip

My 20 Favorite Language Learning Tips

Autism and School

Productivity:

Productivity and disability

One of my favorite productivity tips:

Healthy productivity

don’t be productive all the time

How to make the most out of a sick day

slow mornings

How I limit my productivity and why you probably should too

Other:

Easy and cheap study snacks: stuffed croissants

failing is ok

academic wins

You got this

Easy, fast and cheap foods for under $5

Don’t feel shame about your academic journey

TIPS FOR MANAGING CHRONIC MIGRAINES AND ONLINE CLASSES with add-on by phdstudygirl

Things I learned from failing classes

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we sooo back (or were bad enough to be back)

Status Report Energy levels: 55% Mental levels: 20% Mental status: tired, frustrated, sad, angry, resented, unmotivated, generally burnt out

To Do list:

Pay Taxes

Doctors Appointment

Work

Head Above Water.

Monarch butterflies migration probably started i saw maybe a handful or a dozen in our bushes doing the dishes this morning, they were beautiful

I started a horror podcast yesterday i should watch more today

I finished the preliminar lineart of a comm, and the colid colors which means the fun part is coming.

Currently Rolls:

recommend me music!

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the last time i updated my notion was like, early 2023! and since i started uni, i haven't really been able to use it as everything IS A MESS. ive only got the time now to set it up again for a new year :) hopefully i get into notion again, let me know what u guys think (₌♥ᆽ♥₌)

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Rincon Peak from J-Six Ranch on a fair weather evening, Cochise County, Arizona.

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summer & healthy habits productivity challenge 🐚

i want to get my life a little more in order & what better time to do this than during summer... hopefully this allows me to create a routine and stick to it even when the new semester begins :P i also want to make some more progress with my 2024 goals! university has taken up a lot more time than i expected :') i wanna get back on track

health, wellness & soul - drinking 2L of water everyday - waking up @ 7am, sleeping @ 10.30pm - daily skincare habits - podcasts instead of mainstream social media - leave sundays free to relax & reset - 30mins reading every day (at least) - journal & scrapbook at least once a week - 3x fruits / vegetables every day

social - make weekly & monthly plans with friends and family - go on solo dates / discover new places

spiritual - Bible before phone - commit to a study plan or guide

work / goals - 1h of editing every day - at least 30min language study daily - music theory & piano practice daily - driving theory & practice daily - work towards a long-term goal - skincare morning & night - at least 2 chapters of my current reads daily

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i think that all the people who argue about gender by saying "the woke left cant even define a woman" need to get hit with the "who are you" question by a buddhist monk. no, thats your name, who are you. no thats your profession, who are YOU. no you fucking idiot thats your species, who are YOUU. dumb bitch u cant even define yourself

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you will get up & you will make that to do list & you will be realistic about your limits & you will take it easy but steady & you will eat good food & you will get things done & you will move your body & you will do things that make you happy & you will limit your screen time & you will be the thing that saves you

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i will die without routine. also this routine is killing me

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Mary Oliver, from “Hum Hum”, A Thousand Mornings

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Artist: RaeGunBlast

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Over thirty years of working in Western medicine, I had learned to comply with the increasing need to label everything as if it was an illness, but deep down I believed that this did many patients a disservice. If I had been more truthful with Sienna, I would have said I thought her symptoms indicated a difficulty coping with escalating academic pressures. I would have said they were not an illness, but a sign that the life she had chosen was impacting negatively on her. If she was struggling to achieve her goals, maybe they were the wrong goals. But, in Western society, when things are going badly for a person, medical explanations are often sought because they are found to be more palatable than psychosocial explanations. Western medicine has, in a sense, learned to comply with the needs of the people. Thus, the lines between behaviour and illness, normal and abnormal – even the demarcation between disease and health – have become so blurred that it is possible to give an illness category to almost any person. Once that is done, a person becomes a patient. [...] Dissociation is a normal phenomenon, in which it can be hard to know where normal stops and abnormal begins. That is the same for sleep – we all sleep differently, so, while creating norms within a population is practically possible, it is not as easy to determine exactly the right amount of sleep for each individual. I suppose one could say that abnormality begins the moment a deficiency in either sleep or dissociation leads to significant difficulty functioning in the world. If that is the case, the extreme dissociation Sienna experienced did represent illness and my course of action was the correct one. But that does not allow for the potential effect of labelling a person as ‘ill’. I could have tried harder to avoid a label and frame the discussion in terms of Sienna’s interaction with the world. I chose to offer Sienna a medical classification because that was the only outcome I thought she would accept. In doing so, I accepted the risk of Hacking’s ‘looping’ and ‘classification’ effects and gave her an opportunity to embody a new sick role. That is Western medicine’s culture-bound syndrome – we make sick people. We medicalise difference, even when no objective pathology is available to be found. Sometimes, we are right to do so, but we are also wrong more often than people realise. And while resignation syndrome and Havana syndrome affect small groups of people, when Western medicine introduces new classifications to the world, it does so on a grand scale, without people’s consent, and there is something frightening in that.

Suzanne O’Sullivan, The Sleeping Beauties and Other Stories of Mystery Illness

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Feeling like every day’s the same, no matter what happens. But maybe I should be grateful for just living each day. I should give my best effort to be happy every day.