#also btw I'm not diagnosed
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Pro tip: If someone is hating on you or annoying you, aggressively do ur hyperfixation on them. Observe.
Hater: U suck >:((
Me: *Aggressively plays 2048 on them while aggressively blasting musical songs into their ears* GET AUTISMED, BICTH!!
Hater: Well shit, ur right.
Annoying dude: Yapa yapa yapa yapa yap-
Me: *Aggressively explains the lore and magic system of Redacted while aggressively knitting* FEAST UR EYES ON MY AUTISM, BITCH!!!
Annoying dude: Damn, u make a good point.
Thank you for coming to my TedTalk
#shitpost#idek what this was#it came to me in a vision#also btw I'm not diagnosed#so basically I'm not autistic#if it ain't confirmed it ain't existing#them's the rules#🤷♀️#oh welp
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magma fiddlestan be upon ye
#gravity falls#fiddlestan#fiddleford mcgucket#stanley pines#stan pines#grunkle stan#gravity falls fanart#fanart#disney#sorry but they're literally a disease to me rn. i'm chronically and fatally ill.#professionally diagnosed btw#anyway posting this by itself because i like the pose fuck you#also i think stan looks pretty hot here so#yk. had to do it to him#mods art#my art#mods draws
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You know what? Maybe I'll get through college purely for the sake of learning to write strong academic papers to prove my mom wrong about things.
#i am pissed the fuck off right now#she told me i don't have tourettes cause my MRI and EEG were normal#i told her that those tests are used to rule out other causes so they're actually evidence FOR me having tourettes rather than against#she did find some academic articles showing evidence that it does show up on scans#but it's all pretty recent developments and it seems to be inconclusive so far#so yeah sure fine it can go either way#but also. i know my lived experience. and SO MANY FUCKING OTHER PEOPLE HAVE THE SAME LIVED EXPERIENCE#so many fucking people. diagnosed tourettics with normal fucking MRIs#other topics i need to prove my mom wrong on: neil gaiman. PETA. whatever drone conspiracy theory shit she's getting into#Mommy. I love you. You are one of the smartest and kindest people I know.#But your stubbornness and confirmation bias are quite frankly ridiculous.#btw you're allowed to sympathize with me but don't say anything too strong about my mom#cause yeah she has some shit opinions but you don't know her. she's complicated like anyone else and i love her#it's just that i usually only bring her up when i'm venting so it tends to create an incomplete picture of her#but uh. yeah#vent#oh yeah also every time i bring up my bpd symptoms to her she goes on a long rant of why i don't have it#making it very clear that she is mixing up bpd and aspd#and every time i explain the distinction she's like 'whatever they're all just meaningless labels anyway'#and then forgets it within a week and we go through the whole schmuckaroo again
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What if we had a tragic friendship and chased each other around forever. I think that'd be awesome
DoubleTale belongs to XWolf26.
#Also!! While these are slightly headcanon designs wings-does-art made the base designs. Please check out his art. :-)#Sorry for the surge of DoubleTale fanart btw. I'm Sick in ways that cannot be diagnosed#my art#treesters#digital art#art#fanart#2024#doubletale#xwolf26#angel the hacker#anthony the anarchist#csp
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amazing things going on in my word document. it's still an unedited work-in-progress but do you get my vision. would this be of interest to anyone, if i ever end up seeing this through till i finish
#sorry about the complicated jargon i promise i will use simpler words this is just while i'm doing research SORRY AGAIN#also impt caveat as always. i'm only using it in the context of character analysis#im not making diagnoses or speculating on the research itself i just want to write an extended piece on hajun#it's an oversimplification of the concepts i'm going to discuss. again i'm not an expert. i'm just a nerd#i'm not making any promises btw... ok i'll shut up now
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I recognize a lot of ADHD symptoms in Nightheart too.
The thinking everyone hates him is a big thing, taking rejection harder than it should be,
You're right... the Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria... I am Nightheart's therapist and I am slapping him with so many mental illnesses.
#ALSO FOR THE RECORD I DONT HAVE BPD#I just have people I love who do#And take a sincere and adoring interest in how their minds work#I do have ADHD though. Recently diagnosed.#But I've known my entire life.#But anyhow#I just like BPD I think it's neat. It reminds me of people I love. And loved. It's so demonized and I hope that I can help ppl understand#It's just an emotional regulation disorder. There is no 'bad person' disease.#People with BPD can be good or bad.#Btw I plan to do this with NPD too at some point. I did a leetle research and know where to start now#But I haven't picked a cat to get it#And I have personal close experience with BPD so like. That's why it comes up so much. I feel confident in how I portray it#And I get super good feedback from people who have BPD so I think I'm doing good#Also inside joke lmao; Bird Perception Disorder#Because for SOME REASON I keep using birds as a BPD metaphor#And partner found that hilarious#The birds are being perceived#bone babble
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I've been trying to get on a more "normal" (not normal for me lol but normal for the world we live in) sleep schedule lately and I'm struggling with it and today my therapist recommended I make a pros and cons list....... I've got a lot on the list already but help me think of more things to add to it ? Looking for suggestions, pretty much anything to consider or think about one way or another about radically changing your sleep schedule please
#btw if anyone remembers me talking about this last week: i have confirmed with yet another mental health professional that i DO NOT have bpd#or bipolar disorder!!!! my therapist actually almost laughed when i brought it up to him and told me that I'm def not bipolar and that in#the two years hes known me i have not exhibited enough symptoms of bpd consistently for long enough to be diagnosed by anyone who should be#diagnosing. lol. and he said that even the so called symptoms i do exhibit occasionally are actually perfectly normal emotional responses#not only to the current situation but also within the context of my past traumas and shit. GOD thats so validating and nice to hear!!!!!#i am promising myself now that im not going to ask another doc/professional about diagnosing me with either of those ever again. it's pretty#clear now that its other stuff presenting symptoms that look like bpd a little. im not degrading myself like that again.
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One thing about us having the Thing In Our Brain Going On™ is the way we describe it can either be horrifying or funny (talking about a neurological condition)
Like if we need to describe it we either say that our brain is falling out of our head or our brain stem REALLY wants to make out with our spine
(Also said condition is a bitch. Would not recommend it, 0 stars)
#chiari malformation#Chiari#We were like 10 when we got diagnosed#Does your hospital with a MRI have the little movie thing?#I'm curious#It causes like migraines and trouble swallowing and poor balance#There's other symptoms but those are the once we exprenice#We're only stage 1 so it isn't that bad ig#Yapping#Disabled#rare disability#neurological conditions#Rambling#-husker#Feel free to ask questions BTW#It also caused our scoliosis
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sometimes you have a shitty day but there are things that make it easier to keep going like:
- being silly with basically strangers
- hugs when you really need them
- quiet 3 am phone calls with people you really love
#idk. it's been such a hard couple weeks for me honestly#i've had to adjust to back 2 back changes over and over again. and i also feel guilty for a couple different reasons all at the same time#couple that with 0 free time and no money? and bills? woooff#today in particular was really hard because i went to bed so late (it was worth it) but in turn i got up later#had to hurry to my appointment which meant i didn't eat anything besides a yogurt. which is better than nothing#but then i had to get my blood drawn. twice. and was sooooo worried about the time bc i had work after. i almost fell asleep in the lobby bc#i was so tired. also i almost couldn't afford my appointment and almost had a heart attack. then i rushed to work and my boss made me drive#30 minutes back to my house to change my pants (pants i'd worn like 5 times before) because they had a TINY rip in them. i mean like 2 inch#there was 1 rip. girl. anyways i had to leave in front of all my coworkers AFTER JUST RUSHING THERE and i felt even MORE guilty bc i alr#leave and hour early for school WHICH ALSO doesn't help. me financially.#anyways then i had to email my prof that i'll be late bc work Needed me longer today. n just#christ. i was so fucking stressed#SO stressed#but i'm in bed now and#i was thinking about all the kids at work who gave me a hug today. like i always get hugs but today i Needed one. so it felt different#and in my lab today me and these total strangers were laughing like a pack of sleep deprived hyenas bc we kept makin silly jokes while#diagnosing a car and doing circuit work.#and i thought about how i talked with myself today even though i was in a rush i still made the time to journal for a bit#how my best friend sounded last night. how they'd drop everything no questions asked#how even though it feels like you've got no one in the moment you turn and suddenly someone's there#sometimes it's hard to see. it's blurry in our peripherals while we move through our days but. you sit at the end of it all#i like remembering all that.#sap says#txt#feel free to add in the tags btw
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me trying to stroll thru the ted nivison tag on tumblr for some sick art X READER, IMAGINE, OTHER THINGS I CAN'T REMEMBER THE NAME OF EVEN THO IT'S QUITE LITERATLY RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME XDD
#No shade btw I get it#look. I was on mcyt wattpad as a small small SMALL child and I mean FUCKING TINY#and I get it!#Where are the fanartist tho I want art grrrrr#do I have to do everything myself#anyways guys can u tell that maybe i've found myself in a new yt fixation.... erm#like 4 chuckle sandwich podcasts and a barbie movie review and i'm in the trenches#seriously though i do think that most of it is stemming from my video creation fixation#i blame school coming up#SCHLATTS MONKEY VIDEOW???? Beautiful editing i want to edit like that#don't know the editor off the top of my head sorry#i'm going crazy over video creation honestly and they're my vessels (This is very hyperbole)#snazum talks#I have an idea cooking btw.... maybe I'll share it here when i'm done but otherwise i'm gonna be tight lipped about it :)#if ur a mootie/friend tho feel free to ask me in dms :D I can't help but want to ramble bout it#I may be a little shy though since it's not embarrasing per say but i also don't like talking bout it that much#It's nothing serious it's actually the most not serious thing ever but i feel like a bragging bitch when i talk about it so i don't#but also i want to talk about it. cause the subject matter isn't even what i'm proud about it's the idea of how to present it that is#this is so vague i'm so sorry i started fucking rambling in these tags jesus christ#why am i like this ANYWAYS YEAH BYE#EDIT: okay but tbf back to the original point i didn't think this shit would be main tagged?#I find it usually isn't when it comes to rpf stuff but what do i know#all i know is 2012/2014....#the trenches dude.#u don't want to see my old art it contains so many terrible terrible youtubers#I sure know how to pick em#i think the amount i ramble in tags really really represents my adhdness#i got fucking diagnosed and i'm scared to say that i'm just gonna say my quirkyness
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so deerbrained outta nowhere.... m was kind enough to walk me through getting my meds n water as i dissociated. my not-hooves are really really bothering me for now reason
#chirping#teared up seeing her honestly#or. hearing her. whatever.#i thought she was gone bur she came baxk#she also helped me stay calm when i couldn't find one of my deer plushies#i asked her if she wanted to say hi and she fully turned away LMAO#i ain't claiming or diagnosing anythin btw#this is just whatshappening in ym brain#i'm os sad we don't have ajy frozen strawberries rn#madr the last to make a really good smoothie#so worth but. atill aad#honestly h#not havijg a muzzle.is really bothering me#which is why i mneeded m's help to takw my meds
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being ND in a southerner family is hard
#most of the ND people in my family are heavily repressed or don't believe “in that stuff” or are outcasted#my brother is diagnosed ADHD and I'm just quietly looking at my dad#anyway my point is Im def one of the weirdos of my family but also hide it half the time#to the best of my ability#I think the infodumping about WWE is a good hint#I'm way too embarrassed to ever even mention “hey I'm super crazy about these cartoons too���#btw I am not southerner myself but my family is#not calling myself southerner when I'm from Florida lol
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yellow: if you could have any view from your bedroom window what would you choose? what’s your favorite thing to do on a sunny day? what do you consider lucky? what made you smile today? what makes you happy?
Ohh, fuck yeah, you're giving me a license to be a sappy dumbass and I'm absolutely taking it if you could have any view from your bedroom window what would you choose - Is it weird that I miss my city from source? Yeah, life was stressful as fuck, given what my job entailed--but also, that was home for me, in a way we're still only getting fleeting glimpses of here. Big trade-keystone city, with a river that opened up into a harbor and then the ocean, mountains in the back. Ocean on the west. Messy, corrupt (I would know, lmao), scarred after the invasion, beautiful. Full of hope and grit and old wounds. what’s your favorite thing to do on a sunny day - lie in a puddle of sunshine with my favorite person in the world, just a sleepy warm golden haze while she tells me I'm handsome and wonderful and very, very loved. Friends can come too, so long as they compliment me--I'm kind of like a male lion or a wolf where I feel like I'm supposed to have a pride or a pack? Like, I've got My Person, but then I'm also supposed to have a larger group, too, where I have some kind of hard-to-translate-to-human-terms specific social role, but if you think of a pride of lions you'll get the right idea. what do you consider lucky - Hm, I don't know about that one. Nice weather, a good song coming up on shuffle, getting a neat idea for something to write or make. what made you smile today - Listening to music while going for a short run, got an unexpected headspace memory ("memory"/image/whatever/who knows) from one of my subsystem facets who (we think?) has been kinda hanging out in the wilds of L's side of headspace for a while, running around through the mountains with L's dragon form. Really joyful and kinda sweet tbh, in a particular combination of adventure-y emotions I don't exactly get all that much of most of the time. what makes you happy - several things, actually (there's a relevant line from my source that I'm thinking of, lmao, if you know you know) ...but nothing else comes close to the most important one, and she knows who she is. <3
#S.txt#asks and answers#if you know the voiceline I'm thinking of you get a star btw#couple of the other less-important things that make me happy aren't quite so wholesome but hey#let a bad guy fictive have his vices alright#also if anyone's wondering yeah the “favorite person” phrasing is intentional#idk where I am relative to the diagnosable threshold currently (I get a lot of internal help with symptom management)#but all those “common experiences in BPD/NPD” posts better stop quoting my diary entries lmao
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time for my once every four years semihiatus from weekly posts due to burnout!! (don't worry I still will very much be active lol)
I have some posts scheduled through october but BRO I am so burnt out and none of my usual stuff is fixing it lol. so. I'm just gonna be answering asks and taking a break from longer posts until my brain wakes back up lmao. in the words of fake guy fierri we've all had it. hm.
#blog update#believe me I don't like this anymore than you guys do#/lh#I'm okay btw#just#hnng#got like 3 new diagnoses recently so uh#also transferring jobs slowly#it's been a lot\#BUT I MISS YALL#I LOVE YALL#AND I HOPE YOURE DOING GOOD#LOVE YOU GUYS#<3333333
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ok so I am debating bringing up ADHD with my therapist next time I see her so I'm like looking at the symptoms and I go to this website and it's long and there's text between each symptoms and their organized by age gener etc and im like "ew no wtf i cant read that thats so boring" and i go to pictures and see a pretty purple infograohic thats colour coded and am like yes thats bettee and the first thing i see on it is "gets bored easily" "struggles to stay on task" "short attention span" so like.. mega oops there
#I also don't know when I'll see my therapist again cause I forgot to schedule my next appointment...#But I just watched Jaiden animations video on it and am like... Maybe it's not just the autism cause this shit is hitting too close to home#And I've been planning on getting diagnosed for a while now but genuinely keep forgetting or procrastinating#It's like#I had a cancer scare recently (it's not cancer it's something normal dw they just never teach you about your body unless it's periods)#And it's been going on fo like... Years#And I notice in the shower#Panic#Go “shit I need to tell my mum”#And then immediately forget#So..#Yeah I'm going to see about getting that checked out cause oh boy#On today's episode of is it a new diagnosis or just my autism being a bitch!#Btw I'm not going like “I just hopped a fence I'm so autistic 😝😝” I have genuinely thought about this for a while now#I just keep forgetting#Yk not to be a stereotype or anything !
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How could you cope with knowing it was your fault? Surely, then, the agonies of your delusions were more comfortable than knowing you would never be punished to the degree you deserved for letting her die? - "But for God's sake, for the sake of all that you love, don't bring my daughter into this. I'll kill you. I've got nothing to lose anymore. She's all I have left."
#cropsey#<- the title of this au btw because i think I'm not done with it#both the urban legend and the have a nice life song#also yes not to be the ao3 people but they've diagnosed me with epilepsy and the anticonvulsants are giving me insane dreams which is#how come the insane au spawning has resumed. i am fine btw just bruised and missing a part of my tongue
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