#also be proud i have 9 things in queue

[snnynaturalarch]

the shifter taking over sonny would so snitch on her

[kyri45]

✨ISAT Sky: Cotl!AU Q&A ✨

Welcome to the Q&A! A space where I can answer related or similar question about the ISAT Sky: Cotl!AU! If you submitted your ask anonimously, then you’ll have to check the whole post if it’s answered here, if it’s not, worry not! Your asks might have been used for a future comic or just in the queue~

Anonimo ha chiesto: sometimes when im bored i just go to your profile to position your pfp to siffrin's hands so it looks like they're holding you

I feel threatened bc if Siffrin would know what I'm making them pass through with the next comic updates he would crush me insteantly with a fist.

Anonimo ha chiesto: Damn Siffrin is dying and no one will ever remember them. 😔 Oh Loo~ooop!

Loop coming to save the day even tough they aren't paid enough for this shit

Anonimo Siffrin isn't aware of the hole in the wall you can go through for those two statues without having to get pelted by rocks smh my head. (said jokingly) ((Love your comic btw!! Thank you for this AU, I love it))

THE

WHAT?

YOU CAN GO THROUGH A WALL TO GET THEM WITHOUT RUNNING FOR YOUR LIFE?????

Anonimo My reaction to this chapter of ISAT COTL CROSSOVER AU (10/9/2024) GO BBG YOU GOT THIS IN THE BAG!! OH YOU DO NOT GOT THIS IN THE BAG.. oh now you're out of the bag oh god ruh roh

Oh yeah he does NOT have this.

Anonimo pst hey hey are you gonna pose the statues, it would be funny i swear totally not more heartbreaking for siffr- WAIT HOW WOULD THEY REACT TO THE FACT YOU CAN BARELY SAVE ALL OF THE STATUES WHEN YOU REACH THE FOREVER STORM PART-

he has enough memories that he should recover a good amount of statues. It's not a matter of wheter or not he can save everyone, but mostly themself....

Anonimo ha chiesto: Hey so I cannot believe I am so late to see your ISAT and Sky AU because I love!! Both of them!! So much!! And I just wanted to thank you for making it and sharing it with us because it’s really cool! And both fandoms need more attention imo <333 @ucorpwhalingyaoi ha chiesto: I know NOTHING about cotl but my god your isat au of it has made me want to play it so bad 💔 (very /pos…) @primrosechronicles ha chiesto: HEYYYY ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE IVE SENT AN ASK!! Ive been silently reading the isat comic since my last ask and im very very proud of you for making this far!!! mwahh!!! Thank you for inspiring me to play sky again, cuz if not i wouldn't have able to meet my sky friends Anonimo ha chiesto: first of all, I came here from the shadowpeach au but your comics dragged my ass to the ISAT fandom second of all, HOW DARE YOU PLAYED WITH MY HAPPINESS LIKE THAT (love your art and story telling, I wanna eat it like a fancy dinner) @prince0fghosty ha chiesto: It's been hard for me to find Sky: Children of the Light content anywhere! I found you through a friend and not only are you interested in Sky but also Lego Monkie Kid this is truly the best day ever!!! I got back into the game because of you. I like to help moths out in Eden @phoenix-is-here ha chiesto: You are the person who introduced me to the ISAT fandom and I gotta say thank you for that. That's one of the best games I've ever played and I would have never known about it without stumbling onto your account first (because of a strong hyperfixation on a show about monkeys ofc) so.. Accept this virtual cookie and glass of milk as a gift : 🍪 Anonimo ha chiesto: I followed for the shadowpeach, stayed for Sky CotL, keep cookin

HIII!!! AND TYSM!!!!!

@elianaroselight ha chiesto: This feels a little silly, but what is ISAT? I read through your ISAT Sky AU comic and I feel like I am missing half of the story. I love what I'm seeing so far and want more, but I also don't know or completely understand who the characters are and why I should care about them (more than I do already at least). Sorry if this is silly. I just want to understand.

ISAT is short for "In Stars And Time". It's an RPG game made by @insertdisc5. ABsolutely go check it out otherwise you wont understand a thing about the characters of the AU!

when i was reading the most recent page of the In Skies and Time™️ comic I had the most hilarious image in my head of just a bunch of sky kids smacking down on the same area and making this. sky kid pileup????? [since it seems liek theyre all gonna come back like that..] it was super funny to imagine 30 CAR PILEUP 🔥🔥🔥

AWWW SKY KID MOUNTAIN!! Lol probably it would happen? Like when you do Eden just after reset and when you get reborn there's like 7 other players clipped in you rebirth animation in the aviary /home space

Anonimo ha chiesto: Awwwww Bonnie was so excited 😢

poor Bonnie they will get their comfort moment eventually

@sohrleas ha chiesto: YOU YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I got Sky 'cause I saw your isat sky au and got super curious about the game Your art is beautiful and I love it 💚💚💚

LET'S FUCKING GOOOOOO!!!!

Anonimo ha chiesto: HOPEFUL STEWARD WOOOOO-

IT'S MY BOY!!

@o0mochacoffee0o This isn’t related to you Bio dad AU Like my usuals- I just saw in your abut that you like CotL! Now you share two of my interests!! I’m curious to know your favorite parts of the game, if you have any ships, head canons, etc!! I always love listening to people’s opinions on things I love!

About Scotl? I don't have any specific headcanon, but I do ship Moments Guide and Reassuring Ranges. The only thing that I crave for that game is MORE LORE GODDAMN IT

Anonimo ha chiesto: When I said the fun was dying. I did not expected this. I'M SCREAMING AND PUNCHING THE BED NOOOOOOOOOOOO SIFFF

*sips coffee* welcome to hell (literally)

Anonimo ha chiesto: "is that thing a sadness?!" sweet summer child that thing is a menace of death

It absolutely is

Anonimo ha chiesto: Poor Siffrin’s gotta be absolutely TERRIFIED Big scary beast thing spotted them AND suddenly getting bathed in the color they associate with bad stuff? I can’t imagine anyone who wouldn’t be quaking in their boots.

He is in desperate need of comfort that wont come in like- a irl month I think

Anonimo ha chiesto: I know you won’t be doing the golden wastelands but… Once the party discovers that the groundwater has the same effect as the forest rain, Isabeau decides to bridal carry Siffrin the whole way. Leaving Siffrin a blushy mess. Also, almost if not everyone is scared shitless of the Dark Dragons/Krill (totally not projecting)

ooooohh that is soooo cute i'm dying!!!!!

Anonimo ha chiesto: THE FAKE ACT 4 LOOKING SMILE . THE ACT 5 EDEN MOMENT. THE PARTY BEING SENT BACK . DIES "oh yeah if I still have energy I can loop back" ← me when I'm lying

@starlight-and-clockwork ha chiesto: bawling and kicking and screaming and pulling my hair out THAT PANEL OF SIFFRIN ASKING HIS FAMILY TO REMEMBER HIM WILL HAUNT ME FOREVER YOU ARE SO TALENTED AND CAUSE ME MUCH PAIN THANK U<3

@aro-aces-world ha chiesto: I just caught up with ISAT sky au Fuck you /affectionate

Thank you! Be ready to be even more destroyed by the following updates!

@cherryblossomventi ha chiesto: I’m gonna go feral, Sif did that because he knows he can kinda come back from this with the shooting star thing Im guessing but the others cant/might not because they aren’t from this land,,, oh buddy why didn’t you tell them stop being cryptic idiot

Sif doesn't really remember that he can be reborn like in Sky. He knows only that, if he can reach the light right at the base of the cataclysm, then maybe he can return as well.

[pbandjesse]

We are just now leaving Jess's soupsgivings party. It was such a nice evening. And it's been a pretty great day.

I am wildly full right now though and pretty uncomfortable. But I will be okay. I am glad we should have a fairly quick hour drive home.

I didn't sleep amazing. I woke up with a nose bleed. I had had such a nice time watching shows with James and felt really happy but physically it is starting to be consistently hard to find a comfy way to sleep. I'm trying really hard to not toss and turn and just stay in one orientation. But man. It is tough to stay comfortable, and on top of that I can't breathe? Not fair.

I didn't wake up enough to hug James but I do remember them kissing my cheek. Love them so much. They had moved the car and unloaded some stuff so we would have room for what Jess was giving us this evening. And I appreciated all the things they do for me.

When I woke up I made the bed, and took a shower, washed my hair, and tried to feel ready for the scary Ticketmaster queue.

I have never bought tickets for something that may sell out, something people describe as a war. All I have heard was about the app or website crashing and scalpers getting all the tickets. And I had resigned myself that it may not happen. I felt like I have to be emotionally ready for that.

At 945 I realized that while I had attached my PayPal, I had not attached my credit card to my account. So I quickly did that. I would get that done one minute before the waiting room lobby opened. I was basically trembling with nerves.

I would be in the lobby for 9 minutes. And then I was in the queue. With almost 16,000 people ahead of me. I was stressed. I was doing all of this on my phone and was very afraid of closing the app, in case it made it restart or crash. So I was also on my tablet googling things.

This is a stadium tour. I checked how many seats are in citizen's bank stadium. About 50,000 seats. So I figured with the behind the stage seats not being available, but the field being available, I was probably in a good spot. And the time would slowly ticket down. I was in the queue for a half hour but then it was my turn.

No thoughts when into this. I grabbed the first two tickets I saw. $93. Some of the cheapest tickets they had. I was thrilled. And even with fees they were only $127. And then I had them! I didn't even know where they were in the stadium. I would check later and was fine with them. Like they are high up, but a baseball stadium is set up to see a tiny ball so there aren't actually any bad seats. I was so excited.

My chemical romance has been one of, if not my favorite band since I was 13. I have never seen them perform. I never thought I would get to see them perform. I feel so lucky that I got tickets. I didn't even try last time they were in Philly and I have regretted it for years. I am just thrilled. Like I don't even know if this is going to be a full album playthrough, new music, or what. But it for real does not matter. They could just play covers of other bands and I would be so excited still. This is going to be such a good time. Can't wait for August.

I was in a great mood after getting the tickets. And the day wasn't even over yet. I still had soup to make!

And my soup went really well. I was proud of how it came out. I wrote out the recipe in a post earlier. But in the moment it was mainly off the top of my head. Loosely based on Liz's chili soup from back when I was in bronze casting classes at community college. I always loved when it has lots of bell peppers. And so that's what I do. And I added orange bell peppers this time and not just green. I could have minced the garlic a little more maybe but it was a valiant effort for something I hate doing (cutting garlic and shallots).

It took me about an hour to make my soup. And once it was done I had a bowl, and put the rest in jars to bring to the party. I was also just texting with my dad and talking about music. He told me that him and his brother saw Led Zeppelin for $8. Wild.

I would spend some time resting. Just hanging in bed. It was nice to just lay down. I'm 22 weeks pregnant today. Baby is the size of a papaya. She's finally reached a pound. At least statistically. The last ultrasound they said she's 29th percentile so she's just a little small. But I am feeling very round. My organs already feel squished under my ribs. But I am doing okay. I'm more comfortable in some ways, and way more uncomfortable in others. I'm just taking it a day at a time.

Eventually I would go for a walk. I went to the CVS down the street and picked up some cereal. It was nice outside but I got a sharp pain in my leg and didn't want to walk more then I had to go get back home.

When I got back home I had a bowl of the cereal. Hung out on the couch with sweetp. And eventually went upstairs to gather myself for heading to pick up James to go to Jess's party.

I got a flannel for James. And packed up my soup. When I got to the car I realized that I couldn't put the seats down because of the wagon behind the passenger seat. So I took that back to the house. Jess said she had a bunch of stuff for us so I wanted to make sure we had the space.

And then I was off. I would get to the musuem a little before 4. And I was just happy to sit with James behind the desk. It's been kind of a hard week of work on James. I hope that my presence brings them some peace.

I told them about my day and getting the tickets. And it was just nice being together.

We would finish up at the museum and start the journey to Jess's at 430. And it was a fine drive. Not much traffic and at all and got to her house right at 6.

We beat the other guests. But it wasn't a long wait. In the mean time James helped Jess bring a box to the attic and loaded up all the baby stuff she had for us in the car. And then we were just waiting.

4 other people were coming. And I was looking forward to trying the soups. Besides my chili soup, Jess has made a cauliflower, Kelly made a pickle soup!!, Rex and their partner made a gourd soup, and Chuck made a Thai noodle soup. It was so fun to get to try all of them. Jess also made an excellent salad and tiny bread bowls for each of us. The conversation was good, though I was feeling really tired which made me feel withdrawn. I have been feeling very withdrawn lately and it's hard to hold conversations. I feel like I'm making a really big effort every time. But I still enjoyed the conversation. I liked sitting next to James in the bench seat. And I was just feeling happy and warm surrounded by the holiday decor.

We stayed for the ranking of the soups and then dessert. The pickle soup was a favorite of basically everyone. I liked my chili best but no one should be surprised by that. All of them were good though and the bread only made it better.

But I was feeling wildly full. Which was just not comfortable and I was struggling finding a way to sit. If I crunched up I hurt my back, but if I sat straight I hurt my belly. I couldn't win. Jess let me try her new back massager thing but I found it a bit painful. But really it was just time to go.

We said goodbye to everyone. Jess yelled at my belly to try and get baby to hear her. And then we were off.

We're about 40 minutes from home now. And I am very much looking forward to bed. Tomorrow should be a full day. With the market and then an educator event in the evening. I believe that's a wedding. So it'll be a busy day but I hope to get some rest in the middle. And hopefully I can make some sales and just have a good time.

I hope you all have a good day too. Taken care of yourself. Goodnight everyone.

[chemicalbrew]

tagged

by @radellama thanks bestie!!!

1. why did you choose your url?

multiple reasons:

I chose chemicalbrew as my go-to handle everywhere important, because the handle I picked for this purpose as a teen is cringe

I like having canon URLs; especially if they are kind of hard-to-get and\or subtle references, which this one is perfect for, IMO. The last time I felt good about a handle in this sense was when I went by theplanetbuster

I like katzero :) a normal amount :) and I always will I think :)

Chemical Brew is just a good track and I love being reminded of its existence every time I log on anywhere.

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them.

I'm too lazy to upkeep them, so I compensate with my tagging system... Well, there is actually one where I wanted to put my writing if I ever did any, but in the end all writing I do is roleplay stuff on discord that's not meant to be shared widely HELP. And what I do end up getting out once in a blue moon, I just put on AO3...

I used to hoard a whole lot of URLs, but I got scared of getting terminated for a second time, so aside from the almost empty writing blog I mentioned earlier, I just hoard five that I'd hate to see anyone else have (some of these I used to go by, too)

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

Almost ten years; I haven't remade once, so you can see this just by going to the archive (don't do that, actually)

4. do you have a queue tag?

I do, and it's a Transistor reference :) I can count on my hands the amount of times I've queued stuff, though.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

Found this place while looking for Zelda fanart; thought it would be easier to use the dashboard instead of checking individual pages. At least I think that was the biggest reason. IDR

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

Zero I like him :) At this point it feels wrong if I don't have him as my pfp on here and\or discord so... here he is!!! (since I'm still Four on discord) Not to mention that I kinda need him here to match the rest of my stuff.

I put the NB flag border for Pride month this year for fun and I'm too lazy to put the old version back (also, once again, I like weird subtle shit like that.).

7. why did you choose your header?

I always choose my headers with purpose, though it's not quite the case here: this is a holdover from when I was cherrymegablaster, and it's meant to directly complement that URL in a way that's obvious if you played the game. LOL

I kept it because it's funny to call a drink a chemical brew (and because there's not enough DLC footage for me to make a nice gif with. There's a few stills I really like, but I prefer my headers animated!) ...and because I'm just really happy with the gif.

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

I can't be assed to use the site that scans for this stuff and I'm not proud of my ancient random shit that blew up a bit anyway. So... I'll just tell you this gifset I made on a whim is the one with the most notes.

I REALLY hope the rainbow katzero set outpaces it one day because it's also continuously showing up in my activity and it's easily the one I put the most work into. I need to get off my ass and make more gifs!!!

9. how many mutuals do you have?

...does anyone keep count of that? just the right amount to keep me happy :3

10-11. how many followers do you have? how many people do you follow?

343 \ 1414. why are these such nice numbers

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

Yes, but I don't post them, I just send them to my friends on discord. I'd say hatewar but it's on fire alone counts as a collaborative shitpost of the highest tier, but barely anyone knows what I mean and I love it.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

Ehhh, it depends... I know I check my activity mostly every morning just in case, and I check the dod3 and katzero tags once or twice a week, but it's not a strict schedule thing, I forget sometimes :] The tags are slow anyway, and I have sooo many active katzero posters blocked that it's even slower for me :p

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

I don't think so..? Definitely not in public, I've had arguments with friends I made here, but it's a different thing. I think everyone on my dash is largely chill and has moved on past the disk horse or whatever the fuck

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts

DO PEOPLE STILL MAKE THESE...

16. do you like tag games?

That and 'reblog and put your opinion on X \ what you did today' is always really fun, I <3 being annoying about minor details in my boring life (also I'm literally doing one rn, aren't I)

17. do you like ask games?

Yes, but I never get any asks, so I don't reblog them too often. :]

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

@/ositia, they're a very good artist and I miss seeing them around

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

I have only had two crushes in my life, and one of them was on a former mutual I've drifted apart from. I know he won't be reading this cause he blocked me, but I still think about him and I hope he's moved to a nice enough place, at least :")

20. tags

uuugh just do this if you want to

[idontknowreallywhy]

Best Jupidad Moments #6 Nevermoor Ch 9 - What’s Really Important?

Right, I’m not going to lie, I’m struggling to differentiate between “the best Jupidad moments” and “ALL the Jupidad moments” as each one has its particular charm but… I’ll try to rein myself in!

First: trying exciting new things…

The bone-shaking terror she’d felt watching the platform speed towards her was washed away by a wave of adrenaline, and she let out a triumphant shout as they hooked on to the rail. Jupiter grinned, throwing his head back to enjoy the ride.

I especially love this moment right now because I recently took my daughter on her first proper rollercoaster ride. She wanted to do it, to start with, but got herself very worked up and tearful in the queue. Part of me wanted to just say “ok fine, we don’t have to do this today” but I feel like I know her fairly well(!) and I was sure she’d enjoy it and also be really proud of herself for facing her fear and going through with it. So instead I said “we’re going to do it, I think you’ll love it but if not it’ll be less than a minute, you’ll be safe and I’m with you and we never have to do it again”. Thankfully she did love it, but I did question myself and my parenting a lot in that queue!

Our Jupidad is making a similar call, albeit without the assurance of physical safety cos… Nevermoor… and sure enough this becomes one of Morrigan’s favourite things about living in the city. Did he know for sure she wouldn’t hate it? No. But he pushes her to try anyway.

I also suspect he’s running distraction here - she’s nervous about the garden party, so he gives her something else to focus on, where she gets a big old shot of adrenaline and arrives at the party thinking “wow, I did that!” which should take the edge off the nerves at least a little. Clever Jove.

He also lets her choose her own outfit, rather than forcing her into something that would make her either blend in with everyone else’s pastel vibe, or match his own flamboyant style…

… filled with people in light linen suits and pastel dresses. Jupiter had allowed Morrigan to choose her own outfit – a black dress with silver buttons, which Dame Chanda declared ‘smart, but utterly lacking in spectacle’. Morrigan thought Jupiter’s lemon-yellow suit and lavender shoes provided enough spectacle for both of them.

I think this is a pretty big deal actually and perhaps not something Morrigan would have foreseen after the “black isn’t a colour” conversation. Would it have been kinder to have said “I think everyone else will wear something more spring-ish”? It might have saved her from a couple of insults from Noelle… but the two of them were likely to clash anyway and isn’t it better to start making new friendships by being yourself? It’s easy to want to protect a child from getting splashed by social waves, but if you coddle them too much they won’t learn to swim in the sea.

There are some waves, however, that nobody should take to the face. Like raw sewage, radioactive waste, or Baz Charlton…

He was cut off by a sharp look from Jupiter, his mouth left hanging open. ‘Consider your next words carefully, Mr Charlton,’ Jupiter said in the low, cold voice that Morrigan had heard from him only once before, on Eventide at Crow Manor. She shivered.

Baz Charlton closed his mouth. Jupiter stepped aside, releasing the long-haired man from his gaze and allowing him to stumble away. He sighed as he smoothed down his yellow suit and gave Morrigan’s shoulder a quick squeeze. ‘Told you. Odious man. Pay no attention.’

I really want to know what the deal is with Jupiter’s low, cold voice because it really freaks everyone out! I wonder how often he uses it other than in Mog-defence-mode? It’s a very effective way of protecting Morrigan here and although I think we’d all like to see Baz dropped from a great height into a skip, I really appreciate how there’s no physical threat used.

Enjoying yourselves?’ Jupiter wandered over with a placid smile, ignoring the stream of servants rushing past with nets and brooms. Morrigan chewed the side of her mouth guiltily. ‘A bit.’

Ha, I love the image of that smile where he knows exactly what’s gone on here. I also adore the fact that Morrigan has somehow befriended the one child out of 500 who is probably the most like Jupiter was at school 😅

Plus the moment of mirroring later when she asks Jove a question she knows the answer to:

‘I’m here illegally, aren’t I?’

Jupiter chewed the side of his mouth. ‘A bit.’

How do they debrief later? Not with a “so, what did you think of Wunsoc?” but…

‘You made a friend.’ ‘I think so.’

‘Anything else of interest?’

Morrigan thought for a moment. ‘I think I made an enemy too.’

‘I didn’t make my first proper enemy until I was twelve.’ He sounded impressed.

Oh poor Morrigan, you’re going to rack up a few of those pretty soon. Thanks to Jupidad for making that sound like an achievement rather than a character flaw 😬

‘Promise you’ll think about it?’

‘Only if you promise you’ll stop thinking about not getting into the Society.’

‘But if I don’t get in—’

‘We’ll blow up that bridge when we come to it.’ Morrigan sighed. Just give me a straight answer, she thought. But she said no more.

Jupiter ushered Morrigan down the hall ahead of him. ‘Now. Tell me more about your resourceful new friend. Where in the Seven Pockets did he find a barrel full of toads?’

And just like that he brings it back round to what should be important to an 11 year old - friends, having fun, new experiences - and sharing the excitement of these things with a parental figure is such a precious and vital part of the relationship. Jupiter proves he is as interested in these details of her life as much if not as more than the big picture “what does the future hold, what is my purpose?” kind of stuff that threatens to take over.

This is maybe my favourite thing about Jupidad - how he constantly values her as a person (and as part of that her everyday life experience) above everything else, even though he is confronted with the BIG thing that makes her particularly important to the world every single time he looks at her.

[bananakarenina]

20 questions writer meme!

Tagged by the wonderful @breakaway71! A little Friday night break to help me jumpstart some writing, hopefully?

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 26

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 219,077

3. What fandoms do you write for? Julie and the Phantoms, though I have a CW Nancy Drew fic percolating!

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

our hearts can speak ourselves unseen (first collab with @where-you-go, peterpatterlina + modern cyrano de bergerac)

complications you could do without (remix of crescent moon, peterpatterlina)

for love's sake only (the fake marriage historical/regency au, rulie)

want your midnights (the OG! new year's eve 1994, hint of peterpatter)

heaven above and closer (the other collab with @where-you-go, the 90s road trip coming of age au, julie x luke x reggie x bobby, willex)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Oh gosh. i try, for real, y'all. i often put it off because i want to get a good grade in commenting/responding, which is something real you can achieve, and then i end up not doing it at all. but i love each and every one i receive! i'm just so inconsistent about actually replying.

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? hmmmmm. excellent question; even if i write angst i tend to veer toward a happy or at least hopeful ending (example: leave the light on)

actually you know what, heart like a wheel is probably the angstiest if you think about it. it's just that the main character doesn't know it, lol.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? oh gosh. i love a happy ending, so pick one. they're mostly all varying degrees of happy, lol

8. Do you get hate on fics? i have been very lucky so far in that i don't get outright hate, no.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? it's not the thrust (heh) of what i write, generally, but i have: for love's sake only and its sequel, to love's self alone, are both in the vein of a paperbook romance and are written as such. i do have a carrie x reggie smutfic in the queue though...

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? i can't say that i have! i might nod to another fandom but full crossovers seem so ambitious to me--two different worlds to track, two styles of story. i love reading them, though!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? if i have i'm not aware of it...

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? i have not!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? @where-you-go are now on our third collab (she, through some sorcery and witchcraft, got me to round robin on a luke x bobby fake dating story one week on here, and we're expanding it to a full fic, hopefully out before the end of the year!) and @daintyduck99 and i have put on that old song, aka the "i can't believe you married a rodeo cowboy" au, also hopefully coming soon! also maybe i'll poke @breakaway71 again about some dialogue i sent her ;)

14. What's your all-time favorite ship? i am a proud multi-shipper and you can't make me choose lololol

15. What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? lol is "all of them" a valid answer? kidding. i have been struggling with getting over the finish line with WIPs this year so.

16. What are your writing strengths? dialogue, def. that's my theatre training/playwright classes coming through. i can always tell when i'm tired because my drafts devolve into dialogue only, haha.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Oh gosh. endings! i can never seem to wrap things up in a snappy way! also lately stakes. like figuring out what the characters have at stake to lose in terms of the story.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? i'll do it sparingly but i generally avoid whole conversations. my grammar in spanish is terrible and that's the only other language i'd feel comfortable writing any dialogue at all in. maybe i'd ask family about tagalog.

19. First fandom you wrote for? oh man. hahahahahahahaha the real answer might be "self-insert o-town fanfic in which my friends and i fell in love with the band members"? but i think it might be gilmore girls. i do want to archive all my ff.net and livejournal (well, the stuff i can find :( ) things so you may see them on an ao3 near you

20. Favorite fic you've written? oh gosh. i love them all because they're mine! maybe for love's sake only because it really feels like i finished a full novella with that one. or heart like a wheel because i love tertiary character explorations. or want your midnights because it started this whole thing. see, i can't choose. don't make me

Tagging @innytoes, @jmrothwell, @daintyduck99, @invisibleraven, and anyone else who sees this and wants to participate in the fun!

[dykedragons]

oh ps im so fucking glad to be done with school (dgmw i LOVED college but it was an INSANE amount of work and im exhausted). i can do whatever i want now guilt-free. its AMAZING. i can play minecraft guilt free i can do COMMISSIONS guilt free like bro....... it was so hard doing commissions during school TToTT

like yall.... what NINE (9) fucking classes in a term will do to an mf. i only recommend it if u have like zero other priorities bc. WOW. it was a LOT. (i also put 100% into literally everything i do but still it tested my fucking LIMITS.) (only one all-nighter had to be pulled though and it wasnt even on a school night so thats cool of me)

more. rambling under the cut

(like im soooososo grateful for the business + JUST whining like i needed the moneys regardless so i dont appreciate it any less. and they were still a lot of fun. but the workload was cray cray. im so grateful my commissioners didnt mind the ~2 month wait bc i felt so bad kjdnfnkjsfds blows yall a kiss... excited to get thru my current queue too!! once i. have the weekend to myself bc. GOD i need that.)

im really amazed im not burnt the fuck out?? like i look forward to drawing still!! and doing more 3D when i have the mental capacity for it (done my current comm queue). i love that stuff so much. ive pushed myself so much and created things in time crunches i thought would wreck me but ive proven myself wrong again and again and its amazing. im truly proud of myself and the person im becoming yall its a magical thing!!!! and my WORK. is the best its ever looked even when its rushed. i am fucking gobsmacked. my god. i NEED to keep doing gesture studies someone pplleease be on my ass about that lol /j

and NOT TO MENTION MY FRIENDS....... like MAN i fuckin love those guys holy shit. my dumb ass coming to school like "ohghggh i hope i make friends" BITCH YOULL MAKE THE BEST FRIENDS OF YOUR LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was so silly... i met one of my best friends on the FIRST DAY and DIDNT EVEN KNOW IT!!!!!!! ugh im just. im so grateful. eternally grateful for this experience. i have grown tenfold i have gained tenfold.

i feel. ready for my next steps... i have my first job coming up and im gonna be doing 3D for freelance and learning new things... getting my shit TOGETHER making money (hopefully a lot) and learning to be an adult n shit. "catch up" to my peers (thats how it feels). it feels good and in my best moments i feel like the future is bright yk.... like. yeah i can do this!!!!!!! yeah. yeah. its gonna be alright.

[animeomegas]

you're so right about shika reacting like that, I totally agree!!!

I love the fact that the supernatural are known in your novella, that's so uncommon for books like that and I love it! the vampiric animals is a really cool and original idea omg I can't imagine vampire cats, they're so chaotic already, add vampirism to it??? they would rule the world and I wouldn't complain. the implied conversion of the MC though?!?!?!? I love it, it would definitely be me, who would say no to being a vampire????? I would love to read it 😭😭

you got me with the mystery part of your other story, I'm obsessed with that. I also love it when authors use classic tropes but switch the characters around, it makes it so fun! we almost never get playboy MCs either, so that's also super cool!! and the fact that they help each other heal from their issues and grow? &? $? $? I bet I would cry reading that novel but I would love it 100%

AMY????? FIRST????? THAT IS SO COOL I'M SO PROUD OF YOUUU. CONGRATULATIONS OMGGGGGG!!!!!!!! TELL ME YOU CELEBRATED OR SOMETHING! '! &!! & &

how bad is it to get sick during a trip? that's so sad!! also YES I recommend them, I didn't watch them all but I watched a recap and they look cool, it's a classic whodunit and the murders are brutal at times. there's 6 movies in total!! the 6th was released this year and jenna ortega is a mc, I love her. she also played as Wednesday last year and she's such a good actress. I'll definitely check out happy death day after I finish scream 6!!! <3333 also thank you for your congratulations you're very sweet

Yes! I really wanted to include some of the societal impacts of the supernatural in my book, like my MC being a lecturer in Supernatural Studies. One of her classes is in the book, so you'll get to learn a little about how the Black Death affected vampire clans in London :D

And vampiric animals, yes I wanted to include one, so there is one haha. The process is much trickier than with turning a human into a vampire and it takes much longer, so there aren't many around. Most big clans have one though.

MC doesn't get turned in the book, but it is directly expected and referenced that they will be at some point soon.

As for the novel, yes, I switched it because I thought it'd be very cool to get the playboy's inner monologue. The first parts of the novel include, along with the mystery, a lot of the MC slowly focusing more and more on the male lead and forgetting about flirting with others. Let's just say that MC's friends are sick of hearing them give a play-by-play of what the male lead ate at dinner, and then denying that they're interested in him as anything more than a bit of fun lol.

As for the mystery plot... It's my first time writing a proper one, but I'm having a lot of fun and I think it's a decent one, but we'll see haha.

Haha, I didn't celebrate no, because results were so delayed from the strikes, I only just found out the marks and idk, I'm probably going to get something tasty as a celebration at some point :D Thank you though!!!!! You're so sweet!!!! <333333

I was pretty sick in Tokyo, but it was a combination of the flight, which I predicted would happen because it always does, and then also a really heavy workload while there. I lost 9 lbs in ten days because of how much walking I had to do and I the fact that I was too ill to eat more than two apples over three days. It was a shame, but that's what happens when you're in a big group: you can't tailor the trip to your individual needs like needing to rest after a 14 hour flight and two hour queue at customs XD I still had fun though!

And oh, I didn't know Scream films were who dunnits, that's awesome, I'll put them on my list of things to check out! Thanks for the recommendation!!

And you more than deserve my congratulations for surviving exams hehe

🎉🎉🎉

[aceiestartist]

I posted 2,334 times in 2022

23 posts created (1%)

2,311 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@aryashi

I tagged 2,121 of my posts in 2022

Only 9% of my posts had no tags

#queue it - 2,077 posts

#submas - 50 posts

#a classic - 19 posts

#i draw things - 17 posts

#cat - 14 posts

#star trek - 11 posts

#hollow knight - 11 posts

#pokemon - 11 posts

#splatoon - 10 posts

#outer wilds - 9 posts

Longest Tag: 118 characters

#y'all that grew up in the western us just think the appalachians are unimpressive b/c your mountains are jagged babies

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Last bit of Art Fight for this year; posting these separately b/c I’m especially proud of them. Lumafly for Lumaberrycream, and Empty Fool for @torturecube.

53 notes - Posted July 31, 2022

#4

Hello, Submas fandom. I have been dragged into your depths kicking and screaming and now the Train Men have taken over my brain. Please enjoy my humble contributions.

70 notes - Posted March 20, 2022

#3

So I saw a Reddit post about 5 years ago that refitted every weapon from DS3 into D&D 5e, and was inspired to do so myself. Now that it’s finally finished, I am releasing it into the internet. Note that I am not an experienced homebrew maker, so if there’s some glaring flaw I missed somewhere, please let me know so I can fix it. Feel free to take these and run with them, or tweak them for your own purposes. Also please let me know if you use them; I’d love to hear about player reactions to them or what kinds of nonsense they cause when in actual play.

102 notes - Posted September 17, 2022

#2

I have been rotating the fic Curse of the Fuzzy by @thoughtfuldollia in my brain for days on end, so have some sketches.

116 notes - Posted May 20, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Been rewatching some streams of Ghost Trick and doodled some kittens. I love this cat whose name I’m not allowed to say. He is a very good boy.

746 notes - Posted May 11, 2022

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[browneyesandhair]

Hey! It's ya girl! August Edition

I got no chill and a large obsession with a lot of things. So this year, I'm tracking it! Okay, so this year, is the year of recs! (you may have seen some of my posts, but I also have an extensive queue, so maybe not (check out the #recs on my page)). Very late as I was on vacation, still we persist.

Anyways, I've created a collection for this year overall and then also for each month! Let's check out August's stats -

Works read (&finished): 93

Fandoms (top 8):

Harry Potter: 53

The Vampire Diaries: 11

Avatar: 6

Percy Jackson: 4

Teen Wolf: 4

Bridgerton: 4

Merlin: 3

DC: 2

The rest didn't make the first drop down section of AO3, so oh well! Let's check in on relationships (top 8):

Harmony: 10

Klaroline: 10

Dramione: 9

Tomione: 9

Drarry: 5

Jily: 5

Polin: 4

Percabeth: 4

There were 5 fics that were reread / added to my recs list this month:

Bridgerton:

Plenty Far To Fall by useyourtelescope

Summary:

When financial troubles mean third-son Colin Bridgerton must cease his yearly travels and find employment instead, he has difficulty finding something suitable. Until he learns of a unique position being offered by the notorious gossip columnist Lady Whistledown.

DC:

Banshee In A Well by liverobinreaction (bugbee)

Summary:

Tim is five years old when he drowns in his parents' pool. He dies quietly, waiting for parents who love him, but will never be there, to realise that something is wrong. They never show up, and he sinks into oblivion. When he wakes up and claws his way out of the water, the sun has set, and the lights of his house are on. He is cold and wet and his lungs burn. But most of all, Tim is alone. (If you die and no-one is there to see it, were you ever alive in the first place?)

Avatar:

Returned for a Better Try (to Make a Better Time) by atypicalhypocrite

Summary:

The Fire Lord’s blast is sharp and thorough. Still on his knees before his father, a thirteen year old dies instantly. Another Zuko, once teacher to the avatar and a Fire Lord himself, jolts into being in his place, and deals with the consequences. Timeline preservation nothing, he’s going to be a better Fire Lord this time, and start sooner.

Pride comes before by KingLilith

Summary:

Zuko spins in his bed, and somehow keeps spinning until his feet hit the floor. There is a sudden dizziness and heavy feeling blanketing him, like the tail-end of a heavy cold, and he feels a strip of fabric fall off his shoulders. It feels strangely like an Agni Kai shawl, he thinks disoriented as he tries to get his bearings again. In which an older Zuko is transported to the first Agni Kai he ever fought.

Harry Potter:

House Proud by astolat

Summary:

His house liked Draco Malfoy more than him.

Alright, that's all folks (mostly), for fun, here are the top 8 additional tags from the stories that I read in August:

Alternate Universe: 17

Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence: 16

Fluff: 10

Post-War: 8

Explicit Sexual Content: 8

Smut: 7

Romance: 5

Angst: 5

And, that's all folks (for real this time)!

[ghost4ghosts]

well

things i can talk about here that aren't just the pirate show:

i put my bingo cards in the queue, so it'll be a week until that posts. the finale left such a bitter taste in my mouth, man.

i can still talk about my knitting(!!) because it's a fun hobby of mine that isn't writing fanfic. i started on a vest for myself and i am very proud of its progress so far.

i have a list of all the books i read this year, i can talk about that, too. i cannot keep a themed journal to save my life, and i like lists better anyway. maybe in december i'll post the list?

did somebody say farewell my concubine (1993) and angels in america (2018) rewatch??? at least the major character death was earned, god fucking dammit. even the unlikable gay characters get an arc. also combined the runtime for these films are like 9 hours total lmfao

[tmlfan1977]

Well, 2 days ago we went on our trip to Canada's Wonderland. Let's break it down:

Friday night, my nephew Keith and his friend Dallas came to spend the night at my place as we were heading out extremely early the following morning. We ordered pizza, watched a couple of concerts on the tube, and basically just shot the shit. It was around 10pm when I decided we should all call it a night as 5:00am came early.

One problem......

Throughout the night, I drank a little too much Pepsi. 3/4 of a 2 litre bottle to be exact. To make a long story short, I did not, nor could not sleep. Keith was by-and-large in the same boat, so we ended up talking until about 2am when he finally crashed. I played his Switch for a little while and dicked around on the computer until about 4:30, about the time I got everyone up because we had to be on the bus for downtown at 5:40.

I made Keith an 'energy drink slushie', and made the troops some french toast so they wouldn't be hungry during the morning.

We made it downtown by 6:15 and caught the GO bus to the Square One terminal in Mississauga, where we had arrived at 7:55. After some minor confusion as to where our connecting bus would be located, we boarded at 8:25 and arrived at Canada's Wonderland by 9:30.

At that point, they were already letting people in the gate, although none of the rides would be operational until 10am. We walked through the metal detectors, had our tickets scanned and away we went into the park.

We made a beeline to Medieval Faire to the right of International Street because our game plan was to ride Leviathan first. For those who don't know, Leviathan is the tallest, longest and fastest Giga-Coaster in all of Canada. From what I had heard, it is the most popular ride and often has the longest queue.

This wasn't the case for us! Most of the queue was empty and we managed to make it pretty close to the ride itself. Of course by this point, we still had to wait as it wasn't quite 10am yet. But once it was officially running, we were on within minutes!

Keith was very apprehensive about riding Leviathan, but insisted on doing it, although I told him multiple times that he didn't have to if he didn't want. But, he went through with it!

I can describe Leviathan in only one word...... INTENSE! That first drop, and well, virtually every drop during the ride lifts you right out of your seat! Between the height and the speed, I swear we were out of our seats more than we were in! Upon completion, Keith was incredibly shaken up and overwhelmed, and it more or less deterred him from wanting to ride more coasters. But I give him huge props. Takes some intestinal fortitude to take on a ride of that magnitude, so I'm definitely a proud Uncle. As for me, I absolutely loved it!

From there, we decided to slow things down a bit as Keith wanted to ride Viking's Rage, which is an old school swinging ship that has been at Wonderland since the park opened in 1981. Always a fun ride, especially if you sit on one of the end seats, as they provide the best air time!

We then hit Dragon Fyre, a steel looping coaster (also a 1981 original). I used to LOVE this coaster when I was a kid, but somewhere along the line, that ride got ROUGH. My head was bouncing against the restraints like no tomorrow, especially through the corkscrew. I was incredibly light-headed when I exited. Thinking I may have to boycott that one on principle.

Next, Keith and Dallas wanted to ride Spinovator, basically a super fast tilt-a-whirl type ride.

After that we walked around a bit. Keith and Dallas wanted to check out a couple of shops, including a candy store. Heading over to the Grand Exposition area of the park, we were just in time to see the diving show. This show has been a Wonderland staple since 1981, where divers jump from atop Wonder Mountain over a waterfall into the water below. It was very short as there were only 4 divers, but entertaining nonetheless.

We eventually came upon Windseeker.. Picture a rotating swing ride, but a couple hundred feet in the air! Keith and Dallas gave a unanimous "hell no" on that one, so I rode alone. Having not gone in 14 years, this was my first time on it.

It's difficult to describe this one. When you're at the very top swinging around, you get this sensation as though you're almost flying. You're so high up, you barely hear the hustle and bustle of the park below. The wind hit different..... a very freeing feeling, if that makes any sense. I had my arms up for the entire time. I think serene is the word I'm looking for here. My only chagrin with Windseeker is that it was way too short. I would've loved to have spent at least another minute or two up there.

Next to Windseeker was a dive coaster called Yukon Striker. Evidently the tallest, fastest and longest dive coaster in the WORLD. Again, I flew solo on this one. It was probably the longest wait time of the day, but even still it wasn't that bad. The line had stopped for around 10 minutes as there were apparently issues with the ride. But once it got moving again, I was on in no time.

Now, Yukon Striker's trains are different than your average coaster. Each train is only 3 rows deep, with 8 riders in each row. At the end of the queue, staff delegates where you sit. You don't get to choose. So, I made it up there, and I was told to sit in the front row! I had no complaints as in my experience, the front row is always the best way to experience a coaster!

So as the ride leaves dock, the floor underneath disappears and you're left with feet dangling. You go around a corner before you reach the lift. Upon reaching the top, it makes another right turn and then inches......ever......so......slowly to the edge of that first dive. Of course I'm in the front, so I'm seeing nothing but my feet dangling in front of me, like I'm going to fall off the edge of this thing. Then without warning, down we go! The ride was insane with so many different inversions. You eventually reach a second dive point where you're inched closer to the edge yet again, albeit not as high as the first. Still exhilarating nonetheless.

Once that was done, Keith wanted to ride Thunder Run, which is a coaster that runs through the park's Wonder Mountain (the centerpiece of the park). Another fairly short line! We rode in 2 separate cars, one behind the other because there was no way we were both squeezing our asses into the same one. lol Without question, Thunder Run is still a hell of a lot of fun. It's a short ride, so they send you through twice. Hasn't changed a bit from when I was a kid. A point of interest I noticed as well is that the front of the trains sported the ORIGINAL Canada's Wonderland logo from the 80's. Loved that they kept that!

So, after Thunder Run it was close to 2pm and we were all getting a little famished. So we decided to eat at new place that was just built at Wonderland a couple of years ago called Lazy Bear Lodge. A rustic-style restaurant that served mostly BBQ fare. I had Korean style BBQ chicken, with potato wedges and cornbread. Keith had beef brisket, pit-smoked mac & cheese and cornbread. Dallas had chicken fingers, wedges and cornbread. It was a damn good meal to say the least. The only caveat was Keith's mac & cheese. Not the greatest taste, and was served cold. All I want to know is where the hell I can get that sauce they put on my chicken. Damn that was good!

We were ready to leave Lazy Bear Lodge, but Keith first had to use the facilities. About 15 minutes had passed when he hadn't yet returned. Concerned, Dallas went to the washroom to check on him, only to find out that he was TRAPPED in the bathroom stall, and she had to get restaurant staff to help him get out. I guess the lock handle was wedged and wouldn't budge. Eventually he was set free. No harm, no foul...... Ok, maybe a little foul. lol

So from there, we headed to another souvenir / candy shop and then made our way to Canterbury Theatre in Medieval Faire to catch their stage production. This year's was called "Cirque de Ambiente". I wanted to make sure we were there early for the 4pm show as I wanted good seats as a result of my limited sight. We managed to score front row center!

This show was AMAZING. This was stuff you would see on America's Got Talent. They had jugglers with glow-in-the-dark bowling pins. Roller Bladers, acrobatics, curtain climbers, hula-hoopers, etc. I was in awe from start to finish.

After the show, Keith wanted to ride Thunder Run again, this time with Dallas. So I found a place in the shade to sit and wait for them. This was the least eventful part of the day for me as I had sat there for 45 minutes. When running on no sleep, it felt like an eternity. But they had a blast, so it was all good.

We then went to the arcade. Keith had been wanting to play some games all day so I thought I'd oblige and buy some tokens. I had intended on spending $20 (the equivalent of 100 tokens), but for $30, you got 200 so I went with that. Most of the games there awarded you tickets. After you've redeemed enough, you can trade them in for a plethora of prizes. The games themselves were fun. I find I had the biggest payout playing "Piano Tiles". A game where you have to press huge clunky buttons in correspondence to what you see on-screen...... and fast. I did great at first, but got a little sloppy the more I played, so I cut my losses. I also tried my hand at Pac-Man, Wheel of Fortune and a few others. Keith played basically the same ones I did. We rounded the arcade off with a game of 'air hockey', only this table was unique as it was sloped on both sides. Made for a unique experience. Problem with air hockey is, Keith and I play a little TOO aggressively and I wound up hurting my arm while playing. (P.S. I still won!)

After the arcade, I was in desperate need of another adrenaline boost as I was running on fumes at this point. So Keith rode Spinovator for the second time, this time with me. I don't know if it's just me, but I don't remember that ride being so damn fast! No complaints though!

So back to shopping we went after that. Keith got a stuffed axolotl with 'Canada's Wonderland" printed on the stomach, and I bought my mom a keychain.

We decided to head to the front of park and get some funnel cakes. My love for this dessert knows no limits! It was the first I'd had in 14 years. Couldn't get over the price as they were now $17.99 a pop. I still say you get your money's worth because those things are HUGE. I grabbed my plate and I swear it weight a good 2-3 pounds.

Keith had never tried funnel cake before, and as it turns out, he didn't like it. That really surprised me actually, because let's face it...... What's not to like? Dallas ate most of her's but couldn't quite polish it off. I finished mine, but it took some effort! It's easy to underestimate just how filling those things are! I certainly enjoyed it after all of these years!

I'd decided at that point that I was done going on rides for the day. I was too full and too tired. So we hit a couple of souvenir shops near the front of the park. One of which had mostly Wonderland apparel. I was gutted because in one section of the first store, they had 40th Anniversary apparel sporting the original logo (the aforementioned one that was on the Thunder Run trains). Problem was, they were only available in small and medium sizes. Needless to say, I'm neither small, nor medium. Wonderland's 40th Anniversary was 2 years ago, and they were trying to get rid of what was left by selling it for 50% off. I would've been all over that t-shirt if only they had it in my size.

We then went to the other souvenir shop located at the front gate, which had a little bit of everything. After walking around a few times, I'd decided to wait outside the store. Dallas came out with a surprise for me. She had bought me a Canada's Wonderland pin sporting that original logo!!! I thought that was so incredibly thoughtful, and it meant so very much that she would do that for me.

Anyway, it was getting dark and we decided to head back to the Frontier Canada area of the park to find a refresh station for one last refill before we left. Now I have to say, their unlimited drink refill package is WORTH IT. For only $18.99, they give you a souvenir cup which allows for free refills for the ENTIRE day with only a 15 minute wait between each. On a hot day, this package is a godsend, because I assure you, you would be paying a hell of a lot more out of pocket throughout the day for each individual drink!

So, we exited the park about 9:30pm and headed to the bus terminal which is located to the left of the parking lot. A bit of a walk from the gate. The bus came at 10:25. We were back at Square One by about 11:15. We waited an hour there for our connecting bus, ad we were back in Guelph by 1:40. After calling a cab, we'd reached my apartment by 2am.......and in bed by 2:01. lol

Yesterday was strictly a day to recuperate. We didn't do a whole lot aside from chill and relax. I made Keith and Dallas corn on the cob for dinner. I think that was about the extent of my activity that day. Dallas was picked up around mid-afternoon and Keith went home shortly after.

It goes without saying that this was one of the best weekends I've had in a VERY long time. A way to destress and just have pure FUN. One of my big concerns was how I'd handle the rides at my age. Turns out...... even at 46....... I still have that need for speed!

[strawberryspence]

A Dinner and A Future

Fluff | Spencer Reid x Reader

Summary: Spencer just wants your first date to be perfect and surprisingly, it goes really well.

Word Count: 3,7k.

Warnings: some cursing, first date nerves, but that's it. just pure mindless fluff.

Writer’s Note: Hello! I've been going through a writing dry spell and the thing that solved it was writing this. I've been seeing a lot of edits on tiktok about Spencer's traumas and I just wanted to give him something simple and happy. I was also listening to Kodaline on repeat while reading this, so yeah it's going be hella sappy. Enjoy! <3

Gif is mine. Lesley Smith-Juniment, you have my heart.

Spencer is nervous.

Wait no, scratch that, nervous is not good enough. He was brimming to the edge with worry and queasiness. What other synonyms does nervous have? Spencer was antsy, anxious, perturbed, uneasy, at this point he can recite the whole thesaurus.

Spencer closes his eyes and takes a deep breathe. He can do this. He has waited for this for a long time and he won’t waste it because of burnt pasta.

Okay, he looks back at the note that David Rossi himself wrote in his own special handwriting.

1. Cook 1 pound pasta until Al Dente. Boy Genius, Al Dente should be firm when bitten. You cook it on a boiling water with salt and oil. SALT AND OIL.

2. While that’s cooking, do nothing. LITERALLY DO NOTHING. Watch it. Do the sauce later. In some miraculous way, if you don’t watch the pasta you’ll burn it.

A grin spreads across Spencer’s face as he puts down the paper and reaches for the fettuccine pasta and dropping it on the boiling water (which he measured with measuring cups he borrowed from JJ)

“Okay, now I wait for it to boil.” Spencer stares at the pasta as it cooks. Did he buy enough parmesan cheese? or enough pecorino cheese? Oh no. He looks over the other side of his counter where all the (complete) ingredients sit and he sighs in relief as if he hasn’t checked it 15 times since he started.

The pasta was still cooking and isn’t going to be firm anytime soon. Spencer ponders if he should just cook the sauce while waiting but he knows he’s going to mess it up if he doesn’t give it his undivided attention.

He looks at the watch on his wrist as it ticks to 5:21. He has one hour, thirty nine minutes and forty six seconds. He still has time before the date. The date with you.

It took him nine months, Derek and Emily annoying him to death to just ask the pretty librarian out, one extensive background research from Penelope, two separate talks of the “You deserve to be happy” advice from JJ and Hotch and one lecture about marriage from Rossi to finally ask you out.

He’s kinda annoyed really because he spent so much time thinking about you and thinking of the perfect way to ask you out but he shows up at the library you work at one day with a cup of coffee in hand and his heart on the other.

You didn’t even hesitate. There was no pause to process what he asked, there was no questions following the embarrassing stumbling of the words, “W-will you go have d-dinner with me? L-like a date... Date?” You immediately said yes with a small hop and the biggest smile on your face.

This date has to be perfect. He asked you to come to his apartment at 7. Spencer would’ve picked you up but he was making you a home made dinner and the date was taking place on the rooftop of you apartment, which Penelope and Derek helped him decorate with lights.

He tries the pasta and when its finally firm to the bite, he takes this as his queue to read the paper again. Of course, he can remember all of the instructions but Rossi still wrote it down and reading it calms his nerves.

3. If its cooked, drain your pasta water but leave a little pasta water on the side. Then you can continue.

4. In a pan on MEDIUM heat (just around 2-3 on the stove setting) cook one pound diced pancetta and 1 cup chopped onions in olive. Put this down and chop chop!

Spencer puts the paper down as he follows the instructions to drain the pasta. After he was done with it he puts the pan on the stove and starts chopping up the ingredients he needs.

Cooking is strangely calming. He never thought he’d find it calming. He always found himself burning stuff. So he sticks to the microwaveable meals and fast foods, even if he knows the statistics about these kinds of food.

After finishing the chopping he reaches over the paper and reads it again.

5. Are you done? Okay. Put the chopped stuff on the pan with olive oil and cook it until the pancetta is browned and onions are soft.

He immediately follows the instructions written. The onion and pancetta create a silent hiss as it hits the pan. As it cook he looks down again.

6. That’s going to take a while, so leave it but stay by its side. I am giving you permission to do two things at once. Dr. Reid, please be mindful of it.

Spencer rolls his eyes before proceeding to #7.

7. Combine the two cheeses. Then divide it in half. Then pour the half into 4 egg YOLKS. Just yolks! The yellow ones! Then beat it lightly until its really combined.

He has already separated the egg yolks from the whites (a job he didn’t think would be that hard but was surprisingly very hard) before he started cooking. He adds the combination of cheeses to the eggs and lightly beats it as he watches the pan of onions and pancetta sizzle.

When done with the egg and cheese combo, he gives the pan a stir before looking back down.

8. Is the egg done? Yes? Good. Is the pancetta and onion good? Yes? Good.

9. Okay, now you put your pasta in the pancetta pan.

10. REMOVE IT FROM THE HEAT! REMOVE IT!

Spencer follows the instructions to the T. He puts the pasta on the pancetta, gives it a stir and immediately removes it from the heat. He sighs in relief. He hasn’t burned anything yet.

11. You haven’t burned anything yet? I am proud of you.

12. Now, pour the egg mixture into the pan and toss the pasta until coated. TOSS IT GENTLY. If you’re scared use tongs.

13. Pour about 1/4 cup of the pasta water I told you to set aside earlier. You don’t have to pour all 1/4 cup, just until you get the creaminess you want.

Spencer reaches over the nearest tongs. He’s not going to toss anything tonight that involves pastas or pans. He’s taking the safe road because he wants everything to be perfect.

14. Add the rest of your cheese! Toss some more and then add salt and pepper as NEEDED!

15. You can serve it with parsley.

16. Now, go take a shower and change into some cleaner clothes.

17. Just be you and have fun, Spencer. Goodluck! :)

Spencer smiles as he puts the paper down and makes the finals touches to the pasta. He starts doing what was instructed and it surprisingly, ends up in the perfect texture. Just like the one he tasted when Rossi had a pasta night.

He was proud of himself as he takes it off the stove and makes sure that all the stoves are turned off. There was this report he read in 2018, that cooking and leaving the stove open was the leading cause of home fires.

He takes the food, puts it into a fancy tupperware (another thing he borrowed from JJ) and puts it in the microwave. He cleans up a little and stuffs the pans and pots to the dishwasher, because you are coming in his apartment even for a second.

He starts getting himself ready for the date with a shower. As the warm water glides through his body he thinks of how funny life could be.

Spencer first meets you in the library. He has not slept well in weeks so instead he opts to go to the library to get some reading done. But as soon as he sits in one of the (surprisingly) comfortable leather chairs, its as if sleep knocks him out. It wasn’t until the closing time that you wake him up and he thinks that you were an angel sent for him. This elicits a giggle from you.

“I am sorry, I am not an angel. I am just the librarian and we’ve been close for over an hour now. I just didn’t want to wake you up. You looked like you really needed that sleep.” Spencer immediately jumps to his feet as he apologizes profusely to the kind librarian, “Oh, it’s okay! Don’t say sorry. I was also reading so I didn’t mind the peace and quiet.”

That’s how Spencer meets you. He comes back a few days later after a case with coffee, croissant and an apology. You immediately become friends and thats how all of this started. Spencer finds himself falling in love with the kind, gorgeous, clever librarian faster than he expected.

Every week after that, Spencer comes to the library with pastries and coffees for his favourite librarian and every week, you welcome Spencer with a warm smile and a new book for him to read. He can read it in one sitting but he reads it in the slowest pace he could so it can last for a week.

Spencer comes out the shower and stares at his closet. Should he go casual or formal? Casual or formal? Its just dinner, he’s chill and casual is the way. He picks one of the few plaid shirts that he has and puts it on with a white shirt underneath. He tries to brush his hair, it sits for a moment before it starts curling again. He cringes but leaves it be.

Spencer proceeds to the kitchen to start packing the food into a wicker basket (that he also borrowed from JJ, he basically borrowed her whole kitchen). He packs the utensils in a table napkin that comes with the basket. The main course for the date was the carbonara, and the dessert was a tiramisu Penelope made.

He reaches over his sofa where the bouquet of paper flowers are. He made it a few nights ago with Penelope’s help. He stayed up to make more of it with old books he found in the BAU.

Because what kind of flowers is the best flowers for librarians? Origami flowers made with old book pages.

He shouldn’t be nervous. You’ve been friends for all the months that he didn’t have enough courage to ask you out. You’ve taken trips to old bookstores together for book hunting. This shouldn’t be different from your other trips.

The pitter patter of rain against his window takes him out of his thoughts.

“Shit! Is it raining!?” Spencer yelps, before opening the closed curtains. Beads of water runs down his windows and if its any other day he would love it. But not tonight, when he planned a rooftop date. He cringes as he thinks of the fairy lights hanged up and the table set up that is probably soaked now.

“Don’t panic. Don’t panic. Think, Spencer, think.” Spencer thinks fast. He finds the extra table cloth that JJ gave him because “Just in case.” He reminds himself to buy her a bottle of wine as a thank you. He places it in his small kitchen table before taking the utensils out of the basket and placing it on the table in a fancy way.

Candles. Does he have candles? Spencer scrambles around his kitchen, like a chicken without its head, looking for candles and he finds it underneath the kitchen sink. He lights some of it up and props it into some glasses (he doesn’t have a candle holder he realizes after lighting it up).

With the lights dimmed down leaving the light from the window and the light from the candles, his dark apartment gives off a romantic, kind of comfortable, vibes. It was kind of perfect because with the books on his shelves and the lighting, it actually has the same vibes a library gives off.

He was ready now, bouquet of paper flowers in hand. He can’t believe how smooth things are going, minus the damn rain. Only thing that’s missing is you.

A knock comes to the door and he instantly opens it. There you were, hair a bit wet and messed up from the rain.

His future was bundled up in a cozy cardigan and a pair of jeans right in front of his eyes and he didn’t even know it.

“Hi.” Spencer smiles.

“Hi.” You smile.

-

“A little to the right. No. No. Too much right, now give it a little bit to the left.” You sigh, your hand under your chin, “No, no, baby, its crooked.”

“Love, can we do this later? The pancetta is going to burn.” Spencer laughs as he climbs down the ladder with the frame.

“But you said you’ll help me with putting up the frames!” You pout at him, Spencer chuckles before kissing your nose, “I know but you also asked for my famous carbonara and I can’t do both at the same time.”

“Hmmm. I still don’t think you can call it yours when its originally Dave’s.” You follow him to the kitchen, zigzagging through the boxes of books you’ve both barely opened.

“What he doesn’t know, won’t kill him.” He winks at you before giving the pancetta and onions a stir.

“It already smells good, love.” You snake your arms through his waist and lean your head on his back. Spencer lets go of the spatula and spins around to face you.

“Thank you, sweetheart. Go unbox some of the books and I’ll call you when its cooked so we can fix the frames. Okay?” Spencer kisses the top of your head and lets you go.

You walk out of the kitchen to the hallway full of boxes full of books. You chuckle as you open the nearest box and its just full of chemistry books. You push it to the room where Luke, Derek and Spencer has built shelves for all of your books. An olive green couch sits in the corner beside the built in fireplace.

Hmmm. This is your home library but as a former librarian the dewey decimal is calling you. But then again, the books you and Spencer have doesn’t have classifications on them. You began unpacking the chemistry books and placing it on the shelf. You can hear the distinct hiss of the pan and Spencer humming Kodaline’s The One.

You push in another box from the hallway to the room and its another one of Spencer’s, this one full of philosophy books. You start unpacking it to the shelf below the chemistry books before stopping as you pull out a book that doesn't belong with the philosophy books. A smile graces your face as your hands glides unto it. It was the book Spencer bought for you on your first anniversary.

The Peter Pan cover is a bit tattered, it was an older edition he found in your favorite old bookstore. You open the book and Spencer’s messy writing greets you with nostalgia.

“We are most alive when we are in love. Thank you for making me feel alive everyday for the past year. Happy Anniversary, love. I live a full life as I love you fully.”

You smile at the book before hugging it to your chest. You sigh deeply as you looked around the room and how it felt so surreal to be in the new home you share with Spencer.

“Love, I am finish. Come meet me in the hallway!” You leave the book on the shelf as you hear Spencer calling you.

“Are you helping me with the frames?” You clap, excited to finally put up the frames. Spencer smiles as he sees you excited to put up the pictures.

“Yes, okay you need to tell me if they’re straight okay?” He instructs before climbing the ladder.

“To the right, just a bit. Oh! Perfect!” You scramble to reach for another frame as he comes down the ladder to move it, “Here! This one.” He climbs again and you instruct him with directions for the frame again.

After a few more frames, he finally comes down and looks at the frames you asked to be put up.

“It’s pretty, isn’t it?” Spencer smiles down at you and gives your cheek a kiss as he wraps his hands around your waist, “It is. Thank you for framing them.”

The frames comes in different shapes and forms, the biggest one in the middle is the picture of your wedding day. Your wedding took place in a library you immediately fell in love with when looking for places to get married at.

In the picture, you were smiling, your head rested on Spencer's shoulder as he reads a Harry Potter book he found in the kids section. It was a candid moment, both of you running to the back of the shelves to get a moment to yourselves after the wedding and the photographer snapped it before leaving the two of you in peace.

Beside it are pictures with the team on the wedding day, some on thanksgiving, christmas, new year with the BAU team, some with your family, some with Diana and in the corner is a shadow box containing the paper bouquet that Spencer gave you on your first date, the same exact flowers that was in your hands as you walk down the aisle to him.

“So, how's the first six months of officially being a Reid-Y/L/N?” Spencer teases as he lets you go from the back hug to face you and you roll your eyes at him, “Oh very hard. They hear Reid and they immediately expect greatness.”

Spencer laughs, “Same as the last name Y/L/N.” This time your the one who laughs at his statement, “Uhhh. I am not the one with 3 PhDs and 3 BAs.”

“And I am not the one whose a New York Times best selling author.” Spencer laughs even more when he sees your nose crinkles, making his heart dance and swell in glee.

“Hey, let’s dance.” He takes your arms and leaves it on his shoulders as he wraps his arms on your waist.

“We don’t have music, you silly goofy boy.” Spencer rolls his eyes at the endearment used, “I’ll sing.” He hushes you down.

“You make my heart feel like it's summer when the rain is pouring down.” Spencer’s singing voice was soft and sweet in the edges. Most nights you lull him to sleep with your humming to keep the monsters at bay and some days, his better days, he’s the one who sings and these were the days you treasure the most.

“You make my whole world feel so right when it's wrong, that's how I know you are the one... That’s how I know you are the one.” He sways you to the gentle buzz of his voice. You close your eyes as he sings the same song he sings to your ears on the dance floor for you first dance as a married couple.

“When we are together, you make me feel like my mind is free and my dreams are reachable hmmm.” Spencer hums as he runs his hands on your back. Your head on his chest and your ear listening to the way his heart is beating for you.

“You know I never ever believed in love, I believed one day that you would come along and free me.” Spencer feels at ease as he sways and sings, knowing that he’ll have you in his arms for the rest of his life.

The song ends but you and Spencer continue to sway to the music of silence.

“Can you believe its been 4 years since our first date?” Spencer asks, in disbelief of how fast time is running when he’s with you. You pull away from his chest so you can face him. You find a small spark in Spencer’s eyes as he thinks fondly of the night.

“Really? 4 years since our first date got rained on and Penelope cried because we broke all her fairy lights?” Spencer laughs before protesting, “Hey! I paid for that!”

"4 years later and I still can't get enough of that damn carbonara." Spence cackles, like an evil villain, "Don't tell Rossi that I stole his recipe for my beautiful partner."

"4 years later and I am still completely in love with you." Spencer smiles as he leans down to place a small kiss on your temple.

"4 years since I almost completely lost my mind because I was so nervous about our date." You roll your eyes, "Love, our first date was perfect. We've had this debate how many times now?"

"19 times." Spencer answers and you pinch his nose before looking around the room that’s still full of unopened boxes, “See. We should probably eat lunch and unpack. Why do we even have so many boxes of books?”

“Honey, you were a librarian and you are a writer. I am a professor and FBI agent that can read 20,000 words per minute.” Spencer answers as he looks around the unpacked house.

You smile fondly at him before standing on your tiptoes a bit to reach him and give him a kiss and he immediately steadies you with his hands. Kissing you was intoxicating and Spencer loves every bit of it. You only pull away when the kiss finally takes away your breathe.

“I love you, Spence.” You smile as you hold his face in your hands, “I love you more, sweetheart.” He smiles at you as you untangle yourself from him.

“Let’s eat your famous carbonara and unpack the rest of our house. It doesn’t really feel like home when all we can see is boxes.” You giggle before dragging him to the kitchen, making Spencer sit on the island as you prepare the pasta he cooked. Spencer watches you as you sing and dance through the kitchen in one of his old cardigans.

He doesn’t say anything but you were wrong. Home is not four walls with unpacked boxes and hundreds of books.

Home was when you showed up bundled in a cardigan, wet from the rain for your first date with him and home is still you, four years later, bundled up in his old cardigans and singing songs that magically fills and heals the crevices of his heart.

-

the recipe i copied for the famous carbonara!

taglist (if you want to be added, please message me 🥰): @all-tings-diego @shemarmooresfedora @averyhotchner @samuel-de-champagne-problems @bingereid

[shrimpathizer]

nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

1. why did you choose your url? not a clue. i came up withe the phrase a while back and now its my thing. i like shrimp but i honestly didnt have any strong opinions on them before getting the url.

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. @noodlecankilljod for tlt posting. @a-nice-place shared w tiger and bear for happy and nice thinggs when youre sad. @consonant-counter bc i wanted to run a gimmick (also co-run). @souroboruoss to post my og art since my seperate acc got nixed by google :(

3. how long have you been on tumblr? like since. uh. fall of 2021. i think.

4. do you have a queue tag? most of the time its #queue btw but sometimes i dont bother. like the pizza pasta post i queued till september.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? tbh i was one of the pinterest girlies or whatever whose pinterest was essentially just tumblr posts and i figured why not.

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? i found a duo set of icons in a post and sent it to tiger to share. then we found the og vid it came from and sent to bear and fish so they could also join. (yes im aware we are all animals. that was not intentional)

7. why did you choose your header? skixjsk ummm. i saw it once and i feel like it comes up every other week at least (in my kinds of convos) and i think its hilarious. i really wanna print it out and make it like a card that i can just pull out whenever relevant.

8. what’s your post with the most notes? my current posts georg is probably this post. (a dr who post). my highest posts georg though is from my art blog and its the ace explosion i believe.

9. how many mutuals do you have? honestly maybe around fifty (idk how :0). i interact or have interacted with most of them, but talk to about ten the most (i wish i talked to the others more)

10. how many followers do you have? uhh. 102? i believe.

11. how many people do you follow? 413.

12. have you ever made a shitpost? i have made a couple. my favorite one (off the top of my head) is the one about white people being the systematic problem. :) im very proud of it. though im not too great at shitposts

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? honestly. more than i should. idk how long though and i dont want to check .

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? no. i dont really get into arguments. (i dont start them and im not popular enough to have people just come up to me angry)

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts i think that those additions are unecessary. it just makes me feel bad. yes i know its important. however i dont want to and i dont like being made to believe that im a bad person for simply not wanting to reblog some random post on a social media website. its usually not that big of a deal. let me make my own choices without shoving them on me. it just makes me less likely to interact with that post.

16. do you like tag games? i think theyre fun. some times i dont have a lot to say but i like talking to people and learning about people. and i think its an interesting way that tumblr has cultivated to connect with each other especially in such a time of isolation on social media.

17. do you like ask games? yes! i love ask games. sadly i never really get asks from the ask games but i wish. theyre cool and another fun way to interact with people. the ones that say "if you get this you have to send this to 10 other people" or smth similar annoy me though. in the same vein as the posts about "you need to reblog this." i am doing this in my free time i dont need to be doing anything.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? definitely @godmodebeginswithlesbians i have no idea how i scored such a famous mutual and i always forget cuz i see her in my notifs a lot. but yeah. Hi link ily you are very cool (also a little intimidating)

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? nope but theyre very cool and i really want to be friends with them but idk how to talk to them besides asking a bunch of...mundande questions (ive resorted to asking what their favorite dish was that theyve had recently)

20. what is the last song you listened to? ...the good omens theme. its on my everything playlist for some reason and i had it on shuffle.

21. what are you currently watching? uhh. i started Make Some Noise cuz i liked those episodes of game changer the best. and its very fun i would definitely recommend.

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? sweet or savory. i sadly have a very low spice tolerance.

23. what is your current relationship status? single and id like it to stay that way (aro)

24. what is your current obsession? uhh. circus? adhd? im not sure. i havent had an actual obsession in a long while. i dont have that many emotions so its hard to get excited about things. i end up having to find people/friends who are excited about things i like so they can freak out about it and i can then be excited through them.

25. what are nine albums/ songs you've been listening to lately?

The Show Must Go On by Queen (yeag. feelings from the freddie mercury post about this song)

Good Luck Babe by Chapell Roan (i dont know her music but id seen a lot about her and ppl liking her so i tried and so far this is the main one that i like. i dont have any strong opinions)

Not Like Us by Kendrick Lamar (awesome. im a bit late but thats per usual)

Withdrawl by Max Frost (my dad played this when we were working on a puzzle and i liked it)

From Eden by Hozier (i really want to write an essay about this. like. the lyrics. the music. And I know both music theory and literary theory. so yeah. but im busy and dont even know where i would start with that. but this song makes me insane i love it)

Giant by Django Django (the piano part is very interesting to me. specifically because its so simple)

Csikos Post by Czech Philharmonic String Quartet composed by Hermann Necke (@littlemissmedicalmalpractice i noticed there were two songs that i believe were from my playlists. hmm)

Country Song by Seether (i found it from a post and link said it was cool and also it was the music video and someone captioned it smth like "this is exactly how little kids play")

Oh No! by Marina (not really any comment for this one)

26. tagging (no pressure <3) ehm. @eepybubble @cloudydays69 @gayfraggle @winggy-wanggy-doobledoo @/ anyone who wants to

nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

(thank you for the tag @lianhuajing !!)

1. why did you choose your url? uh. it was a play on "rose tinted glasses"

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. nope!

3. how long have you been on tumblr? I think 2022? i knew about it before, just never bothered to make a blog

4. do you have a queue tag? don't kill me, what's a queue tag?

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? I had some Thoughts about Blue Lock and wanted to post meta for it

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? uhh Flora.

7. why did you choose your header? Reo is one of my Blorbos and I just really liked that panel of him

8. what’s your post with the most notes? probably the "do you download fics" poll

9. how many mutuals do you have? about 20? i don't remember

10. how many followers do you have? 120?

11. how many people do you follow? 91

12. have you ever made a shitpost? yes. i think.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? an hour?

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? nope

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts meh. some of them are funny i guess

16. do you like tag games? yep! it's nice interaction

17. do you like ask games? i do! but uh. it's a silent empty void here. an echo chamber, if you will.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? i have no idea but i see @kingsandbastardz a lot in the mlc community

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? nope

20. what is the last song you listened to? 若梦 by 周深

21. what are you currently watching? i just finished The Double! probably starting on Dashing Youth next

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? savoury!

23. what is your current relationship status? single

24. what is your current obsession? The Double,,,,

25. what are nine albums/ songs you've been listening to lately?

若梦 by 周深

如故 by 张碧晨

如初 by 张碧晨

借过一下 by 周深

万物不如你 by 张杰

Our dawn is hotter than day by Seventeen

Hitorijana by Seventeen

my music taste is kinda...i tend to stick to a few artists...

26. tagging (no obligation to do this!) @randomingoftherandomness @good-vs-evo @chrysofightme @bbcphile

[funkymbtifiction]

Sorry to potentially bother, feel free to ignore if you'd like! I'm just terribly curious, though, as to what you discovered that made you sure of your 3 fix over a 2 fix. It would be interesting to hear your process of discerning it in yourself since it's your (I believe) last fix. I (and I'm sure many people) have trouble with the last fix.

Also, I hope your break was refreshing, and thank you for all you do!

I think it's true that your first fix shows up loudly, especially as an area of play (like me escaping reality into writing and wanting a quiet life and even not possessing much energy outside my hobbies) and that your third fix is a ghost. I always had the most trouble with my heart fix and bounced around -- but I think that's the point.

Bermudas (369) can't locate themselves easily. They use 9 for inner peace, 6 for endless questioning and rethinking, and 3 to just put their head down and work rather than deal with their feelings. And that's what I do. I am less about people and their needs than achieving my goals, beating my own deadlines, and being proud of my accomplishments. I can't take time off, get bored with down time, and need to be doing something all of the time that is productive / gets something done, in order to be at peace with myself. I think 3 is pushing 9 not to be lazy; it's pairing up with 6 and saying, "You had a list of 6 time-intensive things you wanted to get done this summer -- let's do them all now!" (I got them all done in a couple of weeks, btw. Characteristic of me.)

I decided to take my own medicine and journal more this month, and I found a lot of frustration being recorded about self-perceived time-wasting and inefficiency in myself. I'm also always striving to improve; it's less about 'finding my heart' and more about 'why wouldn't you want to be the best?' I really like something John Lucovich said about 3s:

In teaching the heart Types, I often compare the heart to a cat. If you walk into a room and directly approach a cat, most of the time they’ll ignore you or run away. If you indirectly approach a cat, giving it space and no pressure, generally, most cats will find their way onto your lap. The heart is similar. This principle is most obvious in Type Threes who are deeply heartfelt, but there’s a way in which they become so preoccupied with efficiency that they expect their lazy, temperamental cat-like heart to be efficient as well, to meet them when they schedule a meeting - but the heart doesn’t show up on time and the three decides they’re not coming to the meeting, so better get back to their tasks. Thus, over time, the actions and goals of Three can become out of sync with their hearts real wish.

That pretty much encapsulates my difficultly in finding my feelings. I'm upset and depressed -- but I should still have written 4 thousand words today on my book! What's the matter, why can't I push through and get it done anyway? I sat down here and am ready to deal with my feelings, but 60 seconds has passed and they haven't shown up, and there's 15 profiles I want to put in the queue. So I reread his sp3 description. It has always resonated better than sp2. Task-oriented, goals, get it done, body is a machine, what do you mean I've caught Covid and can't get out of bed? Dammit, the living room needs painted!

I'm only still feeling out the 3-ness, so I may have more to add later. But it tripped me up initially because I thought, "I don't shape-shift that much." 3s often can do so skillfully. But then I realized, I do but it's conscious -- a tactic 6 is using to fly under the radar. I know the games other people play and either choose to go against them, or to go along -- "I don't believe this or care about this, but if it's what they want..." I can deliver it in a passable way. And I've always, always been hyper-tuned into how things look and "right" aesthetics.

I also have been noticing fixes in others, and the 269s are more loving than I am, less critical, and way more approachable. I tend to come across as aloof, whereas people are always approaching them for assistance. It's kind of funny, really. I gladly help people whenever I am asked, but I care more about making sure my manuscripts are flawless and "practice make perfect" than serving others. I am a lot more like a 369 that I know. We both have trouble with "down time," both struggled to find our locations, both second-guess things too much, and are generally amiable online.

[asgardwinter]

tag game!!

thank you for the tag @barnesafterglow !! 💕 (doing it on a separate post because is getting really long lol)

1 - Why did you choose your url?

my fist was @/habisbi (I was only here to read) but once I decided to write for marvel I chose it @/asgardwinter because I mainly write for Loki and Bucky (and winter is also my favourite season lol)

2 - Any side blogs?

I have I library blog (more for me than my followers because my own reblog makes me feel more confident when I post lol) and a fic rec blog I'm still working on

3 - How long have you been on Tumblr?

I created this acount a bit more than a year ago but only started to really use it on april/may

4 - Do you have a queue tag?

I did but I don't use it anymore

5 - Why did you start your blog in the first place?

at first I was curious about it and than when I returned this year I saw a lot of people writing here and it souded like a fun thing to do (I'm not a native speaker so it was a way to test if I really knew english lol)

6 - Why did you choose your icon/pfp

I liked it and that's it ? (I wish I had a better explanation)

7 - Why did you choose your header?

again, I just found it pretty

8 - What’s your post with the most notes?

my Loki fic Silly Wooden Box I'm so proud of this little oneshot

9 - How many mutuals do you have?

i don't know exactly but love every single one of them (I also know I don't have many but it's just because I'm afraid of talking to people)

10 - How many followers do you have?

244 (I still have no idea how)

11 - How many people do you follow?

about 161 but it increases every day 🙃

12 - Have you ever made a shitpost?

idk maybe?

13 - How often do you use Tumblr each day?

more than I should, for sure

14 - Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

no, the only thing I ever got into was some people translating tumblr works without permission

15 - How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

I just ignore most of the time? idk I fell like not reblogging is my protest lol

16 - Do you like tag games?

I love them!! (I'm just really afraid of tagging people and upsetting them, but I love to see that someone thought of me)

17 - Do you like ask games?

yes yes yes!!

18 - Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

idk about famous but I'll say about people that I freaked out a bit when they followed me. @buckysbiota (Ari's so talented I was shocked lol), also @poetic-fiasco (I read her stuff on ao3 and was like "you?? here?? on my page??really??")

19 - Do you have a crush on a mutual?

i need to confess that i fall for everyone who is even a bit decent to me... so more than one 🥰

💕 no pressure tags: @/buckysbiota + @janetsnakehole02 + @writing-for-marvel + @/poetic-fiasco + whoever wants to do!