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Absolutely fascinating behavior by the public tonight
#had a woman (I hope? a tourist?) loudly declaring how#if there was anyone with a megaphone shouting their political beliefs she was going to lose it#which um. I’m. ma’am do u know where you are#and so many unhinged convos heard in passing#and then just had a near-fight on the metro#bc some dumbass white guy responded to a drunk/high dude hassling him with stupid macho shit#all ‘’do you want to go outside?’’ (we are on a moving subway train) ‘’let’s take this outside’’ (we are on a moving subway train)#also bc the train was so packed#I was clinging to the top bar with my fingertips and this poor woman#took one look at me#one look at the bar#sighed#and then hopped up to grab it#and basically hung there on her tippy toes for the whole trip 😭😭😭#props and also lord we need better transit#personal
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Since it's summer and hot as fuck what ice cream, smoothie, and popsicle flavors would asoiaf characters like?
first of all yes it IS hot as fuck my god i have to walk like a mile to work (and a mile back obviously) and it always feel like so much longer because i'm walking along a busy street that has NO FUCKING TREES it's hell, there is never any goddamn cloud coverage, i smell so fucking bad by the time I get to work alksjdf
ANYWAYS.
Sansa - obvious answer here is something lemony, I think she'd really like a nice, sweet lemon sorbet
Arya - arya actually also likes lemons, but given she's younger and also Siblings Don't Like Copying Each Other, i think she'd like orange creamsicle stuff. like you know that new wendy's frosty? i think she'd bankrupt ned eating those
Robb - robb is a good boy and he likes rocky road because it's an easy flavor that everyone has no matter where they go but it's also Not A Boring Flavor so he doesn't look like a square
Theon - theon will tell everyone that he really likes pistachio ice cream (because nuts, yes he does always make ball jokes) but in actuality he's a lil instagram girlie and he goes fucking wild for those delicate flower flavored things like lavender, rose, hibiscus, etc, and no one but robb and sansa know
Tyrion - he strikes me as a rum flavor guy, I remember him commenting a lot on the taste of the ales and beers and how he likes them a lil thick, so I bet he'd love a thick rum ice cream smoothie that you gotta go crazy on the straw with
Stannis - he likes french vanilla. sometimes he adds a cherry.
Davos - this is me projecting but since he grew up poor, i'm giving him part of my grandma's life (lmao) where the Local Sweet Shop lets his mom bring home leftovers so he hates most common flavors now bc that was dinner BUT he goes ham on a regional flavor. you know like the superman flavor in the midwest or tiger tail in canada, hokey pokey in i think australia? something like that that's a swirl of three really weird flavors
Shireen - she goes for sundaaaaaes baby, she loves getting funky with it with Patchface. Every time they go in one of those ice cream shops where you can add a million toppings, she loses her mind and spends like $40 for the two of them
Brienne - Butterscotch and she gets so self conscious whenever people are like "isn't that just caramel" NO there's an important flavor difference!
Catelyn - something maple flavored that was really easy to get in the riverlands but because they don't have that sort of tree in the north, it's a rare treat.
#if you're like 'can't you take the bus' so there IS a bus i can take for that mile walk but the thing is i have a long commute#and after the mile walk i take another bus or train depending on the day. and i Do NOt Fucking Trust the bus on the mile walk#it is ALWAYS fucking late and some days it gets so packed they'll just blow past you at the stop so i usually don't risk it#because if i miss that bus/train connection i'm FUCKED i'm either showing up like half an hour late to work or shelling out for a lyft#PACE CTA METRA BOARD IF I CATCH YOU IN THESE STREETS#asks#anons#i answered this one bc i'm at work and the caffeine has NOT kicked in yet btw#that's a true story my great grandma worked at a local bakery and they let her take home the cakes#so my grandma ate cake for dinner for years and she fucking HATED sweets after that. she only ever liked oreos bc they were too expensive#so she never ate them as a kid. my grandma like davos was like. POOR poor and also religious w bad taste in men &that's why i love davos <3
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I slept so much today AND we're falling back tomorrow so I get even more time to sleep AND I'm only working at caregiving job this month so my work is going to be contained to regular business hours <3 <3 <3
#a sock speaks#work tag#migraine? I don't know her#obviously this doesn't guarantee that I will sleep well but my chances are so much better#on the other hand I am going to need more meal planning or else I'll run into trouble there#at restaurant job I can just show up without eating first if I need to and just get some mozzarella sticks to eat when I get a free moment#for caregiving job I can maybe prepare a snack to eat at a client's house but I feel so awkward eating there#so if it's under 4 hours I'm probably not going to#and bc of my (not quite ARFID but bordering on it at some points in the past) picky eating I struggle with cold packed lunches#then I also have training this month in the afternoons#Zoom some days and in person other days#and the sessions are like 3-4 hours long so I assume there will be breaks but I need to plan so I don't crash#I think I'll usually have time to come home for lunch if I have things that are quick to microwave. worth the trip I think.
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transfem furries hornyposting online about the relatively niche/"out there" things they're into have inadvertently helped me accept myself more than the body positivity movement of the 2010s ever did
#this will not be rebloggable because i don't want people to get transmisogynistic in the notes#it's just something i've been thinking about lately#i hope i'm not like out of line for saying this please let me know if i say anything disrespectful#i just have a lot of love in my heart for transfems; especially those who log on to this website to be gay on my dash and do their thing#trans wlw being proud of their identities helped me come to terms with my own in a way. idk how to properly explain it but#idk. our experiences are very different - you have to fight to be seen as a woman and i have to fight not to#(though that is part of my identity in most cases people would use it to negate the rest)#(and of course none of us should Have to fight that but. i hope it's clear what i mean lol)#and idk like. womanhood is not achieved painlessly for you and yet so many of you embrace it so beautifully and in so many ways#it makes me want to accept that part of myself i thought i had to kill for so long#i am not entirely a woman but i love being a woman and loving other women-#platonically romantically sexually it doesn't matter#i'm so grateful i get to share a community with you all and read/hear/watch your thoughts and experiences and such#which goes beyond sex stuff but sex stuff is a particular personal struggle of mine and it's something i've been trying to cultivate a more#healthy relationship to lately. and i also know that unfortunately transfems get treated even worse than everyone else when it comes to#kinks or whatever. i don't mean to imply that everyone has to be open about that stuff. i just mean that i'm grateful for those who bravely#and proudly are. anyway i'm losing my train of thought bc i'm packing for a trip and i'm a little scattered atm but the point is#transfem wlw i love you dearly thank you for existing#[oh also this post isn't meant to bash body positivity stuff and i know it's not all the same. it just often felt too sanitized and forced#for me to relate to. ok bye]#finielspeaks
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it is so incredibly hard to not book/organise things prematurely for my move bc i don’t want to accidentally send post to my airbnb way early before my stay BUT ALSO GOD !!!!!! I WANT TO SORT THINGS
#i need to get a new phone bill but i know i can sort that out much much closer to the time#there’s like admin stuff i desperately want to do#it’s happening so soon#3 weeks!!!!#i have to do the last clearing up once i’m home#and then it’s like. packing#i also have to buy some things which is fine but i also can’t do that until im home#i also tried to call my gp and i think bc im not in the uk my calls r bouncing >:(#which means i don’t have a huge amount of time to organise getting an advance on my medicine#i booked french classes though !!!#and my trains to see my brother#and when i get home from here ill be back on the job search#altho lll start doing that again over the next few days
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i haven't posted in a while & don't have much of an update, except to say that i was genuinely, strongly considering if i should wash Mischa - his anxiety in public spaces* isn't any better, though we also haven't done as much actual training as we should have (when we go someone, e.g. the supermarket, we're there to shop, not to train. but i really gotta make time to go there for training as well!). but he always surprises me - even though he's clearly not happy to be there, he's extraordinarily well behaved (except sometimes for some leash pulling...), and always does really well.
we've finally joined our local dog training club (now that we've moved and have access to one), we had our first session last week. we haven't been to a dog training class since puppy school, so i expected Mischa to be distracted and a pain, but he was so focused and did so well! the last ~5 minutes he was getting a bit antsy, but i'd run out of treats lol. and normally when we go to the dog park (where training is), it's to play and run around with other dogs, not to sit quietly and learn for 45 minutes. so i was very impressed!
(the training class is definitely too easy for us - sit, stay down, etc. - but i wanted to start with things we already know because its such a different environment than we're used to. i'm glad we did, i think we'd be ready to move up to the next class (Good Citizen) soon, but i think it's best to ease into it).
all that is to say, i'm more confident now that, with the exception of his anxiety, there's no real reason to wash. not at this stage, anyway. i'm moving interstate next year to go to uni, and i really, really want to be able to bring Misch with me. i just stayed for 2 weeks interstate for surgery, and i left Mischa with my dad because i knew i wouldn't be able to exercise him, and it was really hard! by the end of the 2 weeks i kept dreaming that when i got home he didn't recognise me anymore 😭. so if 2 weeks is that hard, i don't want to try 5 years!
*when i say 'public spaces' i mean things like shops, indoor malls, etc., not just out on the street or whatever. he's shy and doesn't like strangers, so i think a big part of that is the overwhelming, lots of people environment. (i get it, it makes me anxious too lol). but that said, he also doesn't like being in shops when we're the only people there - just the other day we went to a pet shop, we were the only customers, and all we did was walk around sniffing things and rewarding, but Misch was still very glad to leave.
my only solution i can think of is to keep training, gradual desensitisation, short visits only. but that's hard when you have limited energy - choosing between going to the shop for 10 minutes to train, therefore helping both Mischa and I for the long run, but feeling like i've "wasted" a trip (and energy) by not going shopping. or, going to the shop to do actual shopping, helping myself in the short term (by being able to eat lol), but overwhelming Mischa and using up all my energy for the day. i know that the long term solution is the better one, because it means eventually we can go to the shop to actually shop, and Mischa won't be overwhelmed because we did all this training. but the short term solution is also a necessity - i need to buy food to survive lol. (most of the time, i just leave Mischa in the car when I shop. we're not at a point where I can manage shopping (overwhelming and exhausting for me) and training a nervous dog at the same time). (i remember someone saying once that an ADiT becomes an AD when they're no longer a hindrance, but a help. at this stage, Mischa is still a hindrance!).
no one really talks about the struggles of training a dog when you're disabled, even though that's the whole reason why we have assistance animals!
#dogpost#described#service dog in training#assistance dog in training#assistance dog#maremma#white swiss shepherd#maremma sheepdog#service dog#berger blanc swisse#also my car (with mischas vest & leash in it) was stolen. thankfully most of my dog stuff was in the house but some of the important stuff#- (like his vest! and the expensive leash with the handle that i need bc of my grip issues!) was in it. and we found the car but theyd -#- thrown away all the stuff inside it. like even the rearview mirror and the first aid kit and literally everything. and we couldnt rescue#- the car anyway so its probably a burn out husk by now lol... i was more upset about loosing the stuff inside the car than the car itself!#so now we dont have an AD vest anymore. i have a dog backpack (ruffwear's approach pack) that i want to use as his 'vest' but i need to -#- get patches for it so it identifies him as an AD. only ever had 1 access issue (before i got the vest) but i like the security AD -#- identification gives us. esp. because we arent with an organisation or anything.
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i thiiiink my headache is finally gone. at least i desperately fucking hope so
#purrs#i could’ve pushed through it but i didn’t and now i only have one day left of this three day weekend to pack / buy stuff for the trip / prep#the redacted / get some driving practice in and i have therapy today mid afternoon and didn’t finish my homework for it bc i was overthinkin#g what im supposed to do. but aughhh i haven’t even looked at restaurants yet i haven’t even started planning i haven’t even prepped my#sessions really but im so excited but also so scared and i haven’t thought ahead far enough and i still feel the ghost of the headache and I#im SO scared i’ll get another one or like train sickness (?) during the trip or be sleep deprived one way or another. asb was a nightmare#for me bc i couldn’t sleep and this time im also responsible for the group but nowhere NEAR to the same degree / loneliness so it should be#ok but it was so bad that im rly nervous to be in that same kinda position again… but hopefully it’ll be ok#conference tag#<- WILD to be using this in the present btw. i haven’t been to an in person one of these since 2019. and a lot has changed……
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someone took ONE of my cookies.
#smudgy.txt#its nothing but also taking into consideration#we got two packs of cookies both nearly gone in the day they were gotten#because my mother and the 2 children shes training to ruin their own lives like she does hers#will stuff as many sweets as they can get in their faces without immediately getting sick#so freaking jumbo bags. hell one whole and a half. of candy. will be gone in a DAY#before i even know they were bought#so i had saved. 4 of each on a plate. foil on top. w my burger#n i took a few of one of them. didnt touch the other bc its my favorite kind#wanted to save them#i did notice someone peaked in there bc the foil was disturbed before id even got up#this morning#and i just. sighhh.#i cant say anything bc ive already got a strike against me for bothering to#speak up abt mother insisting on gettnig pets she herself wont take care of#and another strike for fucking being alive i guess#so. biting my tongue. whateverrrr. im gonna game
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shotaro is so hard on himself :(
#i mean im a fire sign too so i'd also be shitting myself & crying if somebody put me on the studio when i'm the weakest vocally in my group#not only that but to sing in two languages that are not my mother tongue lol#actual position wise i'd say he's the lead rapper and that's me being generous. he's not to blame tho bc he has focused his whole life into#dancing. you can't turn a dancer into a mariah carey unless they were already born with it or trained themselves to get good vocals#and obv sm wants to lead him into being a main dancer who occasionally raps but in my humblr opinion#they should also train him vocally so he gets more confidence in himself. like at least they should try to get him to be able to#do something else other than talk singing or screaming singing cos my guy can't hold a note yet they should focus on that first#and i feel sm only gave him + sungchan many parts in memories and get a guitar as a gift for fans who waited for them to debut#i suppose the next songs will be more seunghan and sohee heavy bc they're the only ones who can sing. add wonbin and anton to that too bc#they're fan favorites but they're not that good vocally lol#so that leaves eunseok sungchan and shotaro doomed to one liners. nct johnny style. sad!#it kinda pisses me off tho bc In My Mind every single person in a sm group should be able to sing#wait i take that back sungchan can sing and he can do a decent job rapping so then its only eunseok n taro#i suppose they barely have time to eat since their schedule is so packed but pls sm add some vocal lessons there 🙏#taro has a similar tone to tsuki from billlie in the way their voices break frequently but tsuki released a fucking solo song!!!!!!!!! they#trained the hell out of her!!!!! if she was able to do it taro can do it too#222
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I am a normal person with a job and various normal hobbies but also if you sliced open my brain you would find a region which has existed for years and is singularly dedicated to storing my needlessly overspecific post-OOT / MM Zelda headcanons covering the span of several in-universe decades and in fact aren’t headcanons because they are all completely correct and accurate and ~thematic~
#okay so canon strongly suggests that TP Link is a descendant of OOT Link but I dislike the trope of biology/bloodlines = magic destiny#also OOT Link was raised by a talking tree and literally never even met an adult until he was like. eleven.#therefore dude has no attachment to the concept of marriage or a ✨nuclear family✨ and by the time he grows into adulthood again#he gives like. negative fucks about anything. he’s paid his dues to the world man.#therefore he ends up in some kind of polycule thing + raises a bunch of kids some of whom are maybe ‘’his’’ but several are adopted orphans#so like. inherited generational Stuff is going on and he’s a parent in every way that matters but as far as biological ancestry: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#he obsessively teaches them all the survival skills he knows but is super lax in most other respects#(no sword training tho bc he didn’t want them to HAVE to know and then by the time he was maybe ready he physically couldn’t anymore)#and is thrilled to see them turn all rowdy and rebellious bc he feels like his life would’ve gone better if he’d been that way as a kid#in the same way that Link was somewhat modeled after Peter Pan (or really one of the lost boys to be more accurate)#the kids end up akin to Robin Hood and the outlaws especially after Link dies at a fairly young age bc they’re quite reasonably like#‘’hey fuck you queen Zelda you ruined our dad’s life fuck off fuck offffffffff’’#(cue them being derisively called a wolf pack—foreshadowing the whole Assigned Wolf Fursona at Death thing lmfao)#this ends up being extremely relevant to 1.) what happened to the actual ocarina of time between MM and TP#2.) Ordona becoming a semi-independent province within that timespan as well#but BEFORE ALL THAT HAPPENS so like relations between Hyrule and the Gerudo people are like. Very Poor at this point. for many reasons.#so by the time zelda actually becomes the ruling queen—
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when u tell someone who hasn’t had to apply for a job in a while “the interview process is like 6 weeks atp” they don’t believe you but a lot of employers will wait like 2 weeks to follow up, and they always need to do multiple rounds of interviews which takes a week for each round, and then there’s two more weeks of dead silence before you hear back. sometimes you’ll apply for something in january and they will call you up in the summer like “hey you still want the job” it’s crazy. they’re out here putting desk clerks through two phone interviews and two in persons at two different locations. they make the pages interview TWICE and they also have to do TWO sorting tests!! that job pays well below minimum wage, it’s a job meant for retirees and high school students why do you interview them like it requires a mlis
#i had to do a skill test for carson’s too but at least it was only one round of interviews#i know it’s not just libraries bc i applied to two eye doctors four dentists and as a desk clerk type job but idr where#i think they could tell i wasn’t enthusiastic about the job tbh and how dare they put me all those interviews aksjsj#also the one eye care made me refill out my entire resume when i got there. i think they didn’t like that i didn’t drive#but a lot of library workers are also car less lmao. like half of them like me could never afford it so we never got a license#and a good quarter are retirees who do this as basically a hobby and they only have one car so the husband takes the car bc he works farther#that may sound specific but i know like 12 different old white ladies with exactly that story#at goodwill they wrote us up if we were late bc of the train that was literally down the street meanwhile in libraries ur manager is always#late bc she commutes in from The Big City and the most senior person in the department is always late bc the bus was late and her husband#had the car that day and she is the oldest most wrinkled woman you will ever meet. a stiff wind will blow her away. she smokes 8 packs a day#anyway i hate applying for jobs#rani makes text posts no one will read
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slamming my fists against the floor like an animal thinkinh abt dadfario
#marlena isnt rlly innnn rog that much so grus home life seems sortof sanitised but likeeee even still gru says she wouldnt care abt him bein#kidnapped. and would actively pay them to keep him#so like even in jokes .. this is still bad#and yeah plus shes not around. she doent even notice gru is GONE for at least like a day. and only realises bc they get attacked by v6#i did actually kinda change my mind abt wk dying. i think it works well enough even tho the moon stuff is a bit silly#also strange that its kinda ambiguous if he actually trains gru or not. we dont see him again after the funeral even tho they leave togethe#sure gru knows some fight moves but he cld also have learnt them from chow. who he DOES stay in contact with#ig my current idea is that he trains gru a littleeee on the downlow cus hes. supposed to be dead#but like hea old and got fucked by the fire sooooo. oops. goodbye granpa#idk how longgg. its kinda weird#seems gru partners w nefario IMMEDIATELY cus hes still packing up the shop.#maybeee actually its moreso. wk gives him some Sage Wisdom and then fucks off into hiding for a while until he dies#like retired. i guess that wld be nice seeing as his crew and henchmen both left him LOL#ANYYYYYWAYY. back to the topic at hand.#while u clddd say wk is a father figure to gru they dont rlly spend enough time together to rlly be like that. whereas nefario sees gru all#the way thru to adulthood#Yeahh… his dadddddd.#ignore me being mentally ill its just very cathartic to me imagining a little guyyy getting loved properly for the first time#and not treated as weird and listened to anddddd getting to do nice things togetger#mannn tho nefario was sooo chill and nice when he was young … makes me wonder what hsppened to make him LikeThat in the first film#coming from a guy who was on the brink of retiring from villainy. to then sacrifice grus happiness for a scheme#ig u cld say he saw it as better for gru in the long run. being able to earn back some respect from the villain community#and selfishly nefario himself#buttttt idk its too late for thst. im tiredddd#all i know is. nefario adopted one kid and one million yellow thangs. and life is so beautiful
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#another weird dream. woke up shaking#dreamt i was getting ready for some church stuff like a baptism or smth#and i was going with my grandparents and id have to wait my parents there#but when i stepped outside the sky was just. fire and snakes#literal apocalypse#and i started freaking out but no one else around me could see it#and driving slowly towards us in the distance was this gigantic hellish train#for some reason we simply kept walking to church. but when we arrived it wasnt a church but a beach#and it was packed full of people#and for some fucking reason only children could see what was actually happening#i was like 15 in this dream#i was freaking out so hard bc no one else seemed to care but other kids around#everyone was just standing at this beach doing nothing while literal hell was happening around us#i walked off in search of my parents and found my friends who were also freaking out#we walked around for a bit and then the train reached the beach and more train came after it#and the adults simply got in the trains and left without a word#so i ran back looking for my family but i could only find my dad and i was crying and sobbing#at this point the people who didnt manage to get on the trains would either run after them or lay down and wait for the next train to run#them over#so i grabbed my dad sobbing and told him you CANNOT get on the train do you understand. mom is already gone you're the only one left#and he looked like he was drugged and loopy not fully understanding but just nodding and looking back at the train#and i just kept trying to keep him siting there while i shouted for my mom and my grandparents#and then i woke up
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if there's one thing about me is that im a pro procrastinator
#that's actually my first user sorta#i for one was planning to go home with the morning train (7am)#had not packed a single thing and just figured out that sim card is expired#tried to reactivate it online but it takes time apparently so can't use it in the morning#that was an hour ago#now it's 1 am and i still haven't packed a thing sim card expired gotta deal with noon train tomorrow (hopefully it won't rain or be so hot)#and most definitely sleep deprived#also i technically have no cash money#i have back up cash but yeah#im always sleep deprived when i go home probably bc i procrastinate on packing#dspd#sleep deprived#college student#college life#college#proscrastination#procrastinate#adhd
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im going to budapest tomorrow on a train all on my own i havent travelled alone for so long and im so nervous . ive never been to budapest and there are many train lines
#i think last time i travelled abroad completely alone was 2 years ago#i actually really like train rides but i think this one will be absolutely packed and also its so hot outside and trains a/cs really suck#here sometimes#also i should change my blog theme ive had this one for so long it kind of annoys me a little bit by now#txttxt#its just a day trip im going back during the night thatll be fun#i love night trains so much#i miss when i would visit my friend and took the overnight train for eight hours in the winter#it was completely dark all around and it felt like you were going through space#i hope its a train w compartments though i really hope#i think euronight usually has compartments#im actaully really excited for it now i only got the tickets today#i was worried abt going bc my mom is really sick rn and i didnt want to leave for too long#but its just a day so i think itll be ok#i hope
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scariest going to bed bc i have to wake up bright and early for my hr training
start my first full-time job tomorrow 😱🫣🤢☠️
#tbh I’m mostly nervous for waking up early and also the logistics of transportation bc my dad’s car is in the shop so we’re carpooling#and I’m a New Driver still so my 40 minute commute scares me tbh#everything else is like I’ll just show up and do what I’m asked#also like not knowing where I’ll be eating my lunch or like what that vibe is gonna be like is a little scary but whatever#also i have No Idea how long the training will be it could be 40 minutes it could be All Day. I will probably ask when I get there but#and I picked my outfit and packed my bag already#and had less caffeine today so I can sleep more easily#but today was not fun it was moving furniture with my family all day and cleaning so im tired and havent had fun#what i would like to do is watch batman for 2 hours but i should lie down and watch asmr to sleep#but i did nothing fun today which is a bummer
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