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‘6” You degenerates’
*crawls back into her coffin*
#[i am lord and master] - headcanons#this is my Sinday contribution#also I need sleep… badly#but I am high-key stressed and triggered from my arachnophobia#one walked on my hand while I was gaming and I threw my controller across my room#and fell off my chair which fucked up my bad ankle again#panic attack following#I’m relatively fine#but shit like this makes me go fetal and worse#I’m glad I had inbox stuff to distract myself with
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another wip, that i wont be able to finish for a while
#guys send help and motivation for the next week i have 3 tests and a homework to finish rip#star wars#obi wan kenobi#commander cody#codywan#my art#wip#uni is kicking my ass so badly 😭#trying my best not get back to the mindset i was in the past few months#but its hard like this ugh#at least only a week and exam mont left of this semester#sorry for rambling here 🤣#you guys should watch the vampire gay show#thats what keeps me going its so good#im obsessed with it#i made a typo *month#thise drawing was also inspired by that show#its great show#i think i need sleep why im still rambling here#okay sorry if you are still reading the tags#made another typo *this#*screams silently*
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can't stop daydreaming about a soulslike zelda game yall i'm so normal about this
#vasira rambles#don't mind me#it's the themes of unbreakable cycles slowly destroying the world for me#how perfectly does the hero of time fall into the souls story tropes#i love how mailable souls games are when it comes to their narratives#the way story is woven into the gameplay is *chefs kiss*#u don't understand how badly i want this#like mechanically yea i want it to be like dark souls or bloodborne but i want the story to be told like it's done in souls games too#princess zelda could be the maiden who lvls up link#also link should be a customizable character but the name should be locked#i need to go to sleep but i need you to taste my dreams#for they are delicious
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what if i just cut myself from online except maybe discord. like the exam lockdown barely worked but what if i just cut myself and retreated in my room or better yet took a backback and ran away. what if the world stopped being so much and so loud. what if i ran off a cliff. what if things stopped happening. what if things werent the way they were
#i am not doing well i am doing exceedingly poorly and the slightest trigger is enough to send me into a meltdown#or a screaming match or knocking me out for six hours straight sleeping or just zoned out#i am. not good. rn.#i am doing very very badly#i am not being a good friend or person and im still not a functional member of society#i can barely parse my own existence#i want to interact with others but it also gives me hives#i need the world to just stop. now#eli talks#ze brains
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[image id: four screencaps from bbc ghosts, series one, episode three, 'happy death day' when pat tells alison tomorrow is his death day. the first screencap features a subtitle that's been altered to read, 'tomorrow's bbc ghosts final series day.' the following three screencaps show alison initially looking happy, then progressively more sad. the subtitles for these screencaps have been changed to read 'oh! happy...bbc ghosts final series day'. /end id]
#bbc ghosts#ghosts bbc#shitposting my way through the pain#anyway sorry this is badly captioned i made this so fast lmao#also i'm scheduling this for midnight because this 27 year old baby needs sleep#but alison's reaction here is exactly how i feel about s5#effie rambles
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They're so lovely, your Honour. Dadmare is king, his boys forever goofy. I refuse to stop complimenting your art-
The one where Nightmare, he HIGHLIGHTED concerning lyrics that he PRINTED OUT to show CROSS. It's so wholesome- he's such a dad and I love it. I love your art, it's so sweet. I love it.
Asdbkjbfjk STOP I'M GOING TO DIE hello 911 somebody's being nice to me on the internet help
Thank you!! <3 You are FAR too kind, I am sending 1 million good vibes directly to your home as revenge >:3c
He just worries! He wants his sons- I mean boys- I MEAN UNDERLINGS to be happy and when he hears one of them absolutely wailing about feeling numb and disappointed he wants to check in. Also he finally learned to use the printer without help and he's taking advantage of it.
It's also important to note this is all Pigeon's fault for having such amazing cool ideas and going feral with me about them, which is how we get things like this
Smooth.
#UTDR#UTMV#Ask#Thelunarsystemwrites#Pigeonstab#Tagging you because you're responsible for this motivation!!#But for reals alhdgdkks thank you so much!! This was way too nice it made me squeak when I read it <3#Also these are so messy I'm sorry#I just really badly wanted to draw something for this#And with tonight's thoughts I was inspired#Don't notice that I forgot my own tattoos in that first drawing#Genuinely hearing that I make the boys goofy is such a high compliment to me#I am always striving for goofy so thank you very much <3#Okay now I need to sleep for reals goodnight gang!!
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I am so normal about Jodie Whittaker holy shit
(appreciation post cause I'm too gay to not yell about this on social media)
Okay so- no spoilers but I just finished her season 12 finale of doctor who and this just is cementing how much I love her???
I almost like her more than 10th doctor- David holds a special place in my heart but I need to re watch his seasons because omfg I love 13 so much
Genuinely I am unwell because have you seen her??? In general she's really fucking pretty but then also in the spyfall 2 part episodes they put her in a suit???
I say this as an ace person but I'm starting to understand what y'all see in celebrities ngl-
Also this post so far isn't even mentioning just how good she is at acting- idk if I'm just gay and bias but Imo she's one of the best doctors acting wise they've had
Look at her??? I love her so much??
Anyways I'm off to watch broadchurch because David and Jodie?? Excuse me????
Right okay so please just- anything anyone has to say about her please respond to this because I am unwell and I need to find my people-
Nkhnvkbmk anyways last 13 gif before I go :]]
#doctor who#dw#no spoilers#13th doctor#thirteenth doctor#13#jodie whittaker#i love her#so much#i am unwell#and gay#Also stfu her writing is amazing#Idk who's saying she's written badly#But you're wrong#Have I mentioned her in a suit????#she's so pretty#omfg#i need to go to bed#it's almost 2 am#and i need sleep#my little space weirdo <3
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(attempting to have coherent thoughts while looping mizisua cure) (failing) so unlike ivan and till who basically have their own solo sections, until the very end which doesn't exist in the actual round 6 mizi and sua trade lines more often, more like a proper duet which makes sense, since the ivantill dynamic is unrequited and mizisua isn't
however... mizisua somehow ends up harmonizing less?
the second-last verse
Until these falling stars Are buried in the blur of time On your icy lips Read my soul Yes, my soul
in the ivantill version, you can hear till singing alone at first, but then ivan comes into harmonize with him after the first two lines (italicized) it feels like... ivan's shown up just to catch till as he falters, almost?
but in the mizisua version, mizi sings this entire verse alone* it's only in the last and final verse where they harmonize ...and even there
Sick of these nights to come To be engulfed in silence In your gaze where I'm seen Consume me Yes, me, oh oh
ivan only sings the very last Yes, me, oh oh alone but sua drops off even earlier than till does there, so mizi has to sing the Consume me alone too...
what does all this mean... uhhh let me get back to you when my brain is working again but one thing I'm reminded of is: my clematis there, mizi has to sing the final verse alone since sua left her, but ivan and till trade lines presumably as the song was meant to be sung
no matter the nature of their dynamic, I suppose ivan and till did have a bit more time together here than mizi and sua...
*if you listen really closely, you can hear something very faint behind the On your icy lips line specifically (at about 3:20 in the video) and only that line. I don't think it's a harmony exactly, but I'm... also not confident enough in my hearing ability to actually what it is
for now I will just point out sua's thumb on mizi's lip here
#alien stage#alnst#ivantill#mizisua#sorry if any of this is wrong i sometimes have trouble differentiating voices#but i think... im not wrong...? ??? help. ive been listening to this for 89 min exactly now#also. icy lips#like... of a corpse?#also as a guy who very much does not know music:#mizisua sounds like a perfect harmony. for the short harmony that they do have#but ivan and till sound clearly like till has the lead in his verse and ivan has the lead in his#even when they're harmonizing it's not equal#does that make sense???#anyway since sua sang the consume me the first time#maybe you can edit them to harmonize#(i very badly need to sleep sorry if this is incoherent orz
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hhhhhhhhhhhh praise that I did it etc. and just before midnight struck too, I somehow managed to kill the possessed (taxidermied as we learn later lmao) dragon corpse in the necropolis! man that was. so hard and so much fun haha (I was woefully underleveled, I suspect, but it made the ol' stubborn fromsoftware game instincts kick in and forced me to learn how the enchantment system works to make up for it. sidenote: do not sleep on the enchantments they're incredibly powerful when kitted out right holy moly). I probably could have left it for later, but in-character there's no WAY rye would just jog merrily along after discovering that haha. 'NO no flying taxidermied alligator is going to wreak havoc in MY city we are doing this, watcher's duty!!! ' and so I kept running face first into the wall until the wall gave up. anything for you babyboy
it came together so neatly on a characterization/emergent headcanon narrative level too, because part of what helped me win the fight was speccing completely into deathcaller -- a type of magic which rye has been avoiding using right up until this moment, ever since they were sent away from home. so probably not two days in-story after emmrich welcomes them home and they have tea down in the memorial gardens, after probably a year of barely doing any necromancy at all, rye saw the grand necropolis under threat and fully turned into an avenging angel of death cyclone on the spot, none of the old arts forgotten only slumbering until called on once more. *chef's kiss* couldn't have asked for better payoff for that idea I've had in the back of my head since the start of the game. emmrich you're a hero you're doing the exact opposite of the 'you ruined a perfectly good necromancer is what you did look at him he has anxiety' thing
btw I think the dragon is the highland ravager that went down in a mutual kill to the last heir of the house that emmrich mentions during 'walking the graves', which is so neat and pleasing! that was schröedinger's dead highland ravager all along haha
#'watcher's duty!!! (and also lucanis is here :) )' should be the name for my emmrich + rook + lucanis missions fjdskfhas#ghostbusters. and lucanis. who I guess is sort of half a ghost by some reckonings#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#my nervous system has been Unhinged today and I need to sleep very badly. but it was nice to get a win first haha#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar
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I’ve run out of uncrustables and it is taking a noticeable toll on my mental health
#lance stroll#it’s only a week into the break and I’m actually losing it#also this was done in a note taking app#also I need sleep and ibuprofen so badly#HOW DO YOU DO HAIR HELP#I don’t want to tag this with f1 because that means more people will see it#how cowardly does that make me?
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NEED TO WATCH A MOVIE SOSO BADLY!!!!!!
#will probably be doing this soon i cant hold myself back any longerrr not watching stuff is taking a toll on me idccc NEED TO WATCH#a movieee :'((#also guys help i can’t stop daydreaming about being hugged and hugging and laying next to and holding hands w someone :’)))#also um just sleeping need to go to sleeeeeeeeeep so badly…#what exam time sleepiness and love and feeling lots of affection#will do to a guy heheheheehehehehe 🤸♀️🤸♀️🤸♀️🤸♀️🤭🤭💌 this was perhaps an embarrassing thing to post well perhaps...#i am literally delirious rn guys i’ve been doing these stupid reflections for FOUR HOURS
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idk how to live so im going to talk to myself out loud until i do
#listen. take a deep breath. i know your bpm is high but you need to think with me for a second.#remember that you are paper thin. all your facets are sheets of paper and what you gave her is just another one.#make a new one. you dont need it. you dont need her to see you. i know you think you need her but you will be okay. i know its hard.#you wish you could have shown her how you loved her. listen to yourself. you are made of paper.#she might be concrete or maybe wood or maybe gold. you need to start laying your roots elsewhere. shut that thought down#and blink and listen. the parts you keep thinking of arent lost. they still happened and they are yours to keep.#there is beauty in this loss. tell me about the beauty in this loss. its okay to think about it. you got to see it all and nothing more#and this is great because it would have been bad. you know it would be violent in a way you dont need. you know this to be true.#you are going to look at that empty space in her shape and youre going to fill it with everything that happened when you knew her.#the memories with her but then also the the way your friends talked you through it. the game with the clovers.#your first allergic reaction you almost died and you couldnt stop laughing and you were held so close to their hearts.#learning the names for all the floursecent gene tracking dyes that everyone else knows already. about the exam - listen again.#i know you think if you fail your life is over but you need to try your best. youre not going to get a good grade in a uni test for the fir#youre going to make up for it. youre going to make sure you make up for it. do you understand? i love you. you have to do this.#right now you need to sit up. breathe. i know your heart hurts. go to the living room. grab something to eat. i dont care if you feel full.#youre going to clean your mattress heater. youre going to study a bit longer and then youre going to sleep. youre going to tell your mother#im sorry and i might genuinely fail a test. shes going to tell you its okay. if you do badly in this course you can just become a neurosurg#just agree. dont argue right now. its okay. youre okay. you are paper thin. i know any puncture hurts.#breathe. think of your friends. think of their hands in yours. it isnt eternal.youve lived through worse. the empty sky is still beautiful.#the lack of her is still beautiful
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some bobbles (+ two unfinished things)
#bonk.png#undescribed#exocolonist#i was a teenage exocolonist#iwatec#iwatex#anyway first thing bc its the shortest i dont think sol would actually id as anything n prefer to be unlabeled#bc of like. the timeloop stuff n every life kind of blending together BUT i think it'd be funny as hell if they were aro#n just never became aware of this bc their self reflection skills in regards to shit unrelated to the loop are That Bad#also im aro n like when characters are aro + love it when characters are kind of deranged about their friends#speaking of which madoka au! forever ago i drew the 🤝 meme with sol n homura n now im coming back to that#its not a 1 to 1 au straight up the commonalities begin n end at ''tammy & sol are kind of like madoka/homura''#stuff i got down for it in a sleep deprived haze were that sol nemmie n tangent were the only magical girls#n tammy hasnt been offered to become one nemmie n tangent arent aware that sol is a magical girl for a while#friendgroup at school is nemmie cal tammy n sol (tangent goes to a different school n is separate until she teams up with nemmie)#nemmie n tang team up bc somehow witch attacks keep being diverted from certain locations n grief seeds are disappearing#which is actually sol's doing theyre moving witches away from areas tammy will be n the grief seeds are to 1. discourage nem n tang from#fighting witches n 2. so sol can stockpile them basically bc they use timetravel a lot n need to keep their gem clean#the timeloop has progress (to an extent) its not a singular month looping its kind of like. video game save mechanics#like reloading the save u have before a bossfight n then if ur not adequately prepared reloading a save u have farther back#n then continuing on until u get stuck on a specific fight again yknow#theres more but moving on to the two unfinished things those are meant to be like a utdr au (specifically dr)#in a similar manner to the previous au of same premise n setting but different story bc theyre different characters#there's a lot less set for this au its entirely just playing in the sand n has nothing beyond vague role assignments#the first one that's like lineart in different colors is entirely scrapped bc i didnt like how it was turning out (meant to be darkworld fit#second one i struggled BADLY with marz oh my god this au is literally primarily for having fun with character designs but oh my god.#as it says there shes meant to be a modern art styled metal monster (got the metal idea from her dads' names n the modern art bc shesrefined#n sleek) but i had no actual idea how to convey that n i was trying to tackle it from a pixel art angle this time n i could notfigure it out#n then nomi nomi was super easy literally didnt even sketch them theyre a tiny pixie im sorry marz T-T#probably not gonna touch on this stuff again cause i was fixing on exo to avoid thinking about my bday but its happened so im fine now 👍
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in my productive era may it last longer than an afternoon this time
#the hyperfixation is dire and the hyperfixation is ruining me#but it's ok because blorbo from media i don't consume loves me#i need to fix him i need to make him worse#i need to watch him self immolate in the fires he sets under everyone he used to love#i need him to be scarily competent because he is trained and meticulous#i need him to break because all he wants is to be loved and for his dad to care#because he died and it was awful and he died and it hurt and he died and nothing changed and nothing will ever change#i need him to move on i need him to be trapped forever in the cycle of his self-perpetuating tragedy#i need him to want the best for others and i need him to want nothing more than to ruin them#good lord these tags got derailed#me: can i really call this a hyperfixation. does it count#also me: executive dysfunctioning so badly that i'm actively fucking over my sleep and diet and future#it's so dire. it's so bad. save me blorbo from media i don't consume
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Reason of the week for why i need a gf/partner: take bath with me after work to make sure i don’t fall asleep and drown
#also to lovingly rub my scalp as they wash my hair#wlw#wlw mood#sapphic#sapphism#lesbian#was very close today#i think ive said it before but i usually am not the type of person who likes being cared for#BUT work has got me NEEDING that#never wanted to be held so badly before i s2g#criminal that i feel THIS single during PRIDE month smh#suggestive#cw suggestive#i guess??#i don’t mean it that way but tbh i also don’t NOT mean it that way so if anyone wants any tags lmk#im always happy to add them#and if my future gf/partner/etc is out there: wtf why are you not here so we can cuddle so rude honestly :(#im gay and i like sleeping
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for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........
#MOTHER FFFFUCKER#to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants#im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night#at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn#to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS#the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori#but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey#consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!!#just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick#outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to#animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better#at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH#i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc#im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over#where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands#there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE#ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles#but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your#health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!!#im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves#also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet#im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to#have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to#to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up#their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ#yapping
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