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Tuesdayâs Gone â Chapter 4
Russell Shaw x reader
Summary: When the police does little to no help to find your missing daughter, you are forced to contact Colter Shaw. What you donât expect is how his investigation will reveal secrets about both your past and your daughterâs, in ways you never imagined.
Warnings: missing child trope, description and mention of murder, language, crawling in a narrow vent (Iâm sorry my fellow claustrophobic loves), being held captive, being kidnapped
A/N: While proofreading, I realized my subconscious was probably influenced by @zepskies â S.I.N.G. (Beau Arlen x reader) fic â even with the different Jackles character. So, I want to give her credit for the first part of this chapter. đ€
Titleâs based on Tuesdayâs Gone by Lynyrd Skynyrd.
Catch up on Chapter 3 here
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You couldnât stop the giggles, even as Russell held you firm, your back flush against his chest, his hands pinning yours effortlessly. The whole thing was just⊠well, kind of hot, really.
âY/Nâ he sighed for the hundredth time, clearly on the edge of his patience. âYou canât giggle your way out of an actual assault. Try to focus, will you? What would you do if I were someone else?â
âBut youâre youâ you teased, half-joking, half-distracted. âAnd anyway, self-defense is kind of pointless. We live in a safe neighborhood. Nobodyâs going to lay a hand on me.â
He let out a frustrated sigh, his grip tightening slightly as he paused, clearly choosing his words carefully. âLook, sweetheart⊠youâre a young, attractive womanâ he said finally. âItâd just make me feel better if I knew you could handle yourself if⊠anything happened when Iâm not around.â
At the time, you had no idea what he meant by that.
âCan you hear that?â you whispered, your ears straining in mock suspense. Russellâs brows knit together as he shot you a confused look.
âHear what?â
âParanoid by Black Sabbath. Pretty sure itâs coming from over here,â you said, playfully poking your finger at his temple.
He deadpanned as he repeated your name once more. It sounded almost⊠pleading. You didnt miss that, and though you still thought he was being over-the-top, you decided to give in.
âFineâŠâ you sighed âshow me these life-saving moves, oh, mighty master!â
Russell cracked a grin, but his expression quickly shifted to that serious trainer look he was trying way too hard to pull off.
âAlright. First rule: break their grip. Grab my wrist⊠Come on, like you mean it.â
You reached out, gripping his wrist, and he showed you how to twist and pull back, making it surprisingly easy to break free. âSee? Leverage, not strengthâ he explained.
âOkay, fine. Not badâ you admitted, trying not to let him see you were actually impressed. It was kind of cool.
He moved on, showing you a move to throw off an attacker.
âStep in close, get low, and drive your shoulder up under their chinâ he said, positioning himself as the attacker. You gave it a try, and he stumbled back with a laugh.
âThatâs the spirit!â he said, straightening up. You didnât miss the small glint of pride in his eyes. âAlright, one more. This time, if someone comes at you from behind.â
Before you knew it, his arms were around you from behind, pulling you close. It was very dĂ©jĂ vu to the way heâd started this whole lesson. âNow, if you were actually in dangerââ
âDanger, yesâ you teased, leaning back into him just a bit and looked up at him through your lashes. âHowâs a girl supposed to focus with such a handsome teacher breathing down her neck? Iâm kind of having trouble concentrating, you know.â
He shook his head, a grin slipping out as he loosened his grip. âLaugh it up, sweetheart, but Iâm serious here. Youâve got this. Just remember what I taught you, alright? Whatâs the most important rule!â
You smirked, crossing your arms. âWhen in doubt⊠aim for the balls.â
Russell chuckled, eyes sparkling with that familiar mischief. âThatâs my girlâ he said, pulling you into a kiss.
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A sharp throb pulsed through your skull, but it was nothing compared to the hollow ache in your chest. The cold floor beneath you felt like concrete, but you couldnât be sure. For now, you kept your eyes closed, trying to piece together what the hell had happened.
The last thing you remembered was the warehouse â those two men ambushing you and Russell.
It was a trap. All of it, carefully set to lure Russell back in, and you along with him.
Your thoughts turned to Russell. He had to be here, somewhere⊠Somewhere close. The thought pushed you to crack one eye open. Dim light filtered through, casting shadows that made everything look warped and surreal.
You sat up slowly, feeling your muscles protest as you took in your surroundings. The room was small, cramped⊠more like a cell than a room.
The smell of mildew filled the air, mingling with the unmistakable metallic scent of rusted metal and something else. Blood. Your pulse quickened as you took in the details, every instinct screaming that escape wasnât an option here.
Your gaze drifted to the far corner, where a dark shape slumped against the wall. Heart pounding, you squinted through the low light, hoping beyond hope that it was him. âRussell?â you tried to call out to him, but it was more of a whisper than anything.
A soft groan answered you, and relief mixed with dread flashed through your veins. You crawled forward, ignoring the scrape of the rough floor against your palms and knees.
As you got closer, Russellâs face came into view. It was uncharacteristically pale, smeared with a hint of dried blood. It wasnât that bad, but still⊠it looked like his. His breaths were shallow, his eyes half-closed, and a few small bruises bloomed across his face and arms, telling you he hadnât escaped this unscathed.
âHey, Russâ you murmured, reaching out to touch his shoulder gently. His nickname felt both foreign and natural falling from your lips. Itâs been a while since you called him that.
His skin was cold and clammy, but at your touch, his eyes fluttered open.
âY/NâŠâ he rasped with a voice that was both hoarse and somewhat defeated. He took a few moments to compose himself, but he quickly took in his surroundings. âI shouldnât⊠I shouldnât have brought you with me.â
Your heart twisted, but you forced a small smile. âNot like I gave you a choice.â
He attempted a smile, but it faded rather abruptly, leaving a shadow of worry on his face. âWhereâs Colter?â
âHeâ heâs not hereâ you replied scanning the cramped cell. âDo you think theyâve added him to their collection of âmissing personsâ?â
âI donât know. I can only hope heâs busy slapping some sense into our captors while weâre stuck hereâ he said, as he tried to stand up.
As the weight of the situation settled in, the sound of footsteps echoed from the hallway.
You exchanged wary glances, instinctively stepping closer together.
The door to your cell creaked open, revealing a man in a brown suede jacket, sunglasses â mind you, it was inside a semi-dark room â flanked by two guards. Your heart raced as he stepped in, a self-assured smirk playing on his mischievous lips.
Behind him, a small figure shuffled into view, clutching a foreign stuffed toy anxiously.
Emma.
âLook whoâs hereâ the man said, his voice dripping with mockery.
Emmaâs wide eyes scanned the room, filled with confusion and fear. âMommy?â
You felt your heart stop. âBaby girlâ
As those words left your lips, Russell seemed frozen in place, his mind momentarily shutting down. It was the first time he was face-to-face with her, his daughter. He took in her small figure, the way she clutched a stuffed toy she probably got from these men tightly, and the wide green eyes that reflected the fear of the days spent in captivity.
His face shifted from pure shock to something that looked like it hurt, like a dam just burst inside him. For a second, all the chaos, the danger, everything melted away, leaving just the connection he felt for her.
But the moment didnât last long, quickly swallowed up by the harsh reality. You saw the pain flicker in Russellâs eyes as he processed it all. âYouâre okay, sweetheartâ you assured Emma, stepping closer âonly for Mr Doucheâs goons to block your path with a grunt. You shot him a look, then turned back to Emma. âWeâre getting you out of here.â
The man in his Aviators chuckled, sounding like a cold, amused cacophony. âIsnât this all so touching?â he said with a mocking smile. Then, his face turned serious. âShaw, itâs good to see you. Been what? Five? Six monthsâ
Russell didnât answer, clearly not falling to his little tricks. The man spoke up again. âBut letâs not forget why weâre here. Youâve got a decision to make. And this time, itâs not just about you.â
You shot a glare his way before leaning closer to Russell. âWho the hell is this guy?â you whispered.
Russellâs answer was dry as his eyes stayed fixed on the man. âThe greatest jackass of all time.â
This was James Rourke, head honcho at Horizon, the very top of the food chain in the world Russell once belonged to. Rourke looked out of place in his fancy brown suede jacket, like heâd wandered in from some luxury lounge instead of a prison cell. And his mustache â a perfectly trimmed little fucking pornstache, practically begging to be mocked â did nothing to make him look any less ridiculous.
Rourkeâs smirk widened, clearly enjoying the tension. He glanced over at Emma, who clutched her stuffed toy tighter, her little eyes darting between you and Russell. âSweet girlâ he said, his voice soaked with fake warmth âyou must be wondering whatâs going on. Donât worry, itâll all make sense soon.â
âLeave her out of this,â you snapped.
Rourke tilted his head, smirking like he found your defiance cute. âOh, sweetie,â he drawled, flashing that irritatingly smug smile. âI donât think youâre in any position to make demands.â He glanced at Russell, his eyebrows lifted with mock surprise. âCome on, Russell. Did you actually believe you could just walk away?â
Russellâs jaw tightened. âIâm done playing by your rules, Rourke.â
Rourkeâs eyes lit up with that twisted, almost playful glint, like he was savoring every second of Russellâs resistance. âOh, Russell, you seem confused. There is no choice here. You either come back⊠or things might get, well, complicated.â His gaze slid over to Emma, who instinctively shrank back, catching the meaning immediately, even if not completely.
Your heart hammered in your chest. âYou wouldnât dareâ you hissed.
Rourke laughed, sounding genuinely amused this time. âOh, wouldnât I? Letâs just say I believe in incentives.â He shot a dark look at Russell âSo, either you get back in line⊠or your little girl here learns just how persuasive I can be.â
The room went ice-cold. Russellâs fists clenched as he glared at Rourke. âYou leave her out of this. Sheâs got nothing to do with your mess.â
Rourke shrugged like he was discussing the weather. "Then stop pretending youâre free to leave. You knew the fine print when you signed up.â He stepped back, giving the guards a nod like they were his personal fan club. âThink it over, both of you. And just a heads-up⊠I donât make empty promises.â
As Rourke strode out â with Emma being pulled by her tiny hand, crying out for wanting to stay with you â he shot a final smug look over his shoulder, and the guards followed, slamming the cell door shut behind them.
You sighed as the lock clicked, trapping you both in again. But Russell wasnât about to throw in the towel. Staying put? Not a chance. Not with you and Emma tangled in this nightmare, and definitely not with Rourke trying to pull the strings.
His gaze swept the cell, then froze on something up high: an air vent, nearly hidden behind a stack of old crates.
âPerfectâ he muttered, a hint of determination lighting up his face.
He grabbed one of the crates and slid it under the vent, then looked at you with that familiar spark in his eye. He hauled one of the crates over and tapped it, motioning for you to step up. âGive me a hand up, sweetheart. If we can get the screws loose, weâre gone.â
The nickname caught you off-guard. It fell so easily from his mouth, yet, it seemed so bittersweet now. âSweetheart?â
He flashed a quick grin, already reaching for the vent. âOld habits die hard. Now, help me with this, yeah?â
You nodded, steadying him as he climbed up and started working on the vent cover. Using a rusty nail he pried from one of the crates, Russell twisted at the screws, working them free with grunts of effort.
With the last screw finally out, you both heard voices echoing from the hallway. Adrenaline kicked in as you climbed up and squeezed into the narrow vent, praying this actually led somewhere.
You hated this. Your claustrophobic ass was kicking you from the inside. How did you end up in a mess like this?
âHow are you holding up?â he asked in a whisper, but the concern in his voice was unmistakable. Right. He remembered.
âStop talking, continue crawling.â you said hurriedly. The less you acknowledged the suffocating surroundings, the better.
YYou crawled along, knees scraping, until you spotted a grate at the end. Kicking it loose, you dropped into a pitch-black storage room. Quietly, you slipped into the hallway beyond, letting Russell lead â his sure footing somehow both reassuring and a little unnerving.
âYou know this place?â you whispered, trying to keep the nerves out of your voice.
âNahâ he muttered, casting a glance around. âJust following my instincts.â
âOh, good. And what do your instincts say about where Emma is?â
Then, like something straight out of a scripted movie, you heard it: a small voice that was unmistakably hers. âMommy?â
You turned the corner, and there she was, standing behind a closed door with a small window, clutching her stuffed toy. No guards in sight felt like a miracle. Relief and desperation flooded you all at once. The door was locked tight, and there was no key laying around, for obvious reasons.
You watched with a continuously racing heart as Russell pulled a paperclip from his pocket â of all things â and straightened it. âCanât believe they missed this little bad boyâ he murmured, working it into the lock. His gun and knife hadnât been as lucky; those were gone in an instant. But the paperclip? Somehow, it had slipped right past their search.
With a quiet click, the lock gave way, and Russell shot you a quick, triumphant grin.
You threw the door wide, scooping Emma into your arms as her tiny hands clung to you like a lifeline. She was trembling. Crying.
âShh, baby girlâ you whispered, holding her close. âIâve got you. Iâve got you.â
Russell debated to reach out, but decided now was not the time for a great family reunion. His eyes darted down the hall. âAlright, letâs get out of here before Rourkeâs even had his morning coffee.â
âWhat about Colter?â
âI donât know if heâs here. And the sooner we get her and you out of here, the better chances of⊠this ending good.â
He knew Colter could be in hot water, but he told himself he could handle it. At least, thatâs what he kept telling himself to suppress the guilt. So far, there were no signs of Colter being around, and Rourke hadnât mentioned him at all, which made him hope his brother was safely hiding somewhere.
And his priority right now was standing in front of him.
With Emma safe in your arms, you took a breath, steeling yourself for the final sprint to freedom.
You three tiptoed down the hallway when you turned a sharp corner and spotted a guy in black standing there. No visible weapons, which was a small victory in itself.
Your heart skipped a beat, but Russell quickly pulled you back next to the wall. He weighed his options, knowing he had to act fast.
âThis ainât going to be pretty. Justââ he said as he motioned for you to turn around. You knew well what he was planning. And that indeed wasnât going to be pretty. You nodded with a leaping heart and turned your back to him, clutching Emmaâs head close to your chest, desperately trying to muffle any sounds that might come soon.
God, she's going to need a mountain of therapy after this. And maybe that puppy sheâs been talking about.
Russell shot you a quick squeeze on the shoulder, a silent promise that everything would be okay. Then he stepped forward, moving with the kind of focus that made you hold your breath. You pulled Emma close with your heart racing as the seconds felt like goddamn hours.
There was a muffled thud.... and then silence. Russellâs hand on your back signaled it was safe, and you turned to see him standing over the guard, dusting off his hands with a grim, almost satisfied look.
âAlrightyâ he whispered âno more interruptions, yeah?â
You let out a shaky breath and nodded, tightening your hold on Emma. Step by step, the three of you crept down the hallway, avoiding every echo and shadow, your goal almost within reach.
Then, up ahead, an exit sign cast a faint glow. Freedom was close enough to taste, and you exchanged a quick glance with Russell. You fult that tiny flicker of hope.
You took a deep breath, squeezing Emma a little tighter. Her small arms wrapped around your neck, a reminder of why you were risking everything. You need to stay calm.
Well, seemingly calm, at least.
You and Russell exchanged a look. Words werenât necessary; you both knew exactly what was on the line here. Funny, you thought, how his combat skills now felt like a strange kind of comfort.
Just a few more steps down the hallway, and you ended up in a large, warehouse-style room, crates stacked high, lights flickering like something straight out of a bad action movie.
âReally? A crate room?â you muttered.
Russell scanned the area, eyeing a side door. âThat might be our way out.â
âOh yeah? Is that your gut talking, or do you actually know?â
Before he could shoot back, footsteps echoed down the hall. Russell hissed a quick curse and signaled for you to duck behind a stack of crates.
You crouched down, holding Emma close as the door creaked open and two guards strolled in, giving the room a once-over like they had it all under control.
âThink theyâd make it this far?â one guard muttered.
The other chuckled. âNo way. Shawâs decent, but those two heâs with? Dead weight.â
Russell sized them up and he leaned in close. âStay low.â
You gave a small nod, clutching Emma tighter.
Russell edged closer to the guards, blending into the shadows like a pro. In one smooth motion, he slammed the first guard into the second, and they both crumpled to the ground like a pair of falling dominoes. Before they could even register what was happening, he struck with quick punches and a perfectly timed knee, leaving them both out cold and wondering what just hit them.
Once they were on the floor, Russell wasted no time. He crouched down, quickly rifling through the guardsâ gear. âWeâre gonna need theseâ he muttered, pulling a pistol from one guardâs holster and a knife from the other. With practiced ease, he tucked the pistol into his waistband and handed the knife to you. âThink you can handle it?â he asked, a smirk tugging at his lips as he looked you over.
You raised an eyebrow at the guards' bodies, really, desperately trying to convince yourself theyâre just sleeping. As you gripped the knife, you tried to motion your position to cover most of the scene from Emma. It worked, she was only focused on you. And you were only focusing on the difficulty of keeping her close with one hand.
Man, she is getting big.
âWell, my self-defense teacher never covered how to use a knifeâ you quipped.
Russell chuckled softly, a hint of pride in his eyes. âJust use it on instinct. Donât hesitate when it counts. And remember toââ
âTo aim for the ballsâ you finished with a smirk.
âIâd really like to meet your teacher. Must be a real proâ he said with a smirk.
You shrugged. âEh, he was handsome, sure. But turned out he kept secrets.â
âSounds like a total doucheâ he muttered, though you caught the guilt in his voice.
âYep. Was a major douche.â
âWas?â
You gave him a teasing glance. âWell⊠Iâm still trying to figure out what heâs like now.â
With a small smile and a quick glance at the guards, he pocketed extra ammo and anything else that might come in handy. Armed and ready, he led you both to the side door.
With Emma snug in your arms and a renewed sense of determination, you stepped into the night together.
For a second, the three of you standing there almost looked like some offbeat family photo⊠bittersweet, and about as far from normal as it gets.
But the moment you took in your surroundings, you felt a chilly sensation. This sure as hell didnât look like Idaho Falls. Nor the rundown warehouse youâd started in.
You had no idea where you were.
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Next on Tuesdayâs Gone (Sneak Peak from Chapter 5)
Emma tilted her head while her expression turned adorably thoughtful. âYouâre hairy. Like grandpa.â
Russell chuckled as he ran a hand through his beard. âYeah, I guess I am. Itâs my pirate look.â
Her eyes lit up at the word pirate. âAre you a pirate?! Can I be one, too?â
âAbsolutelyâ he replied. âBut we have to be sneaky pirates, okay? No one can know weâre here.â
Your heart did a little flip at the sight. The way he talked to your daughter â his daughter â his voice surprisingly soft and sweet, even in this situation. Emmaâs reaction wasnât a shock, though. She had a habit of linking beards (like the one your dad rocked) with safety and familiar love.
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Whoa, we finally got that wonderfully chaotic family reunion! Canât wait to dive deeper into Emma and Russellâs relationship in the upcoming chapters.
I hope you enjoyed reading.
Chapter 5 coming soonâŠ.
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megumi đ€đœ yuuji
dying even if itâs only for a good minute only to be brought back to life bc fate realizes if they died for real then they would need to find someone else to fuck over. those two are like fates favorite barbie dolls.
apologies if this post is going to seem all over the place, just bear with me. i donât even know if youâre going to see this BUT itâs okay bc i need to get this out my system đ.
starting off â god, imagine the chaos that will ensue when megumi tells nobara & yuuji about his very tragic history with the zenins. but like he wouldnât even tell them straight up, heâll just make a little deadpan joke (my sarcastic, sassy son) & the others would look at him like : ??? wtf do you mean by that sea urchin head???
like imagine itafushikugi going shopping for like traditional japanese clothes for a little festival or some shit (megumi was dragged by his spikes to come along) & nobara is having the time of her life finding outfits for her & the boys. like it got to the point where sheâs dressing them herself & she shows megumi an outfit that looked similar to the robe he was forced to wear bc of the zenin (itâs obviously not the same) & megumi just refuses to wear a robe with similar color patterns to the zenin robe.
megumi: that looks like the outfit the zenin forced me to wear. i wonder what happened to it, cause the last thing i know, i got blood all over it. so as the second member of the zenin hate club, im not wearing thatâŠ.
megumi: wait that blue one looks decent. iâm going to try it on.
nobara:
yuuji:
nobara: âŠdid he really leave without giving us the â getting blood on a zeninâs robeâ story?
imagine maki complaining about naoya in front of the first years, & maki just brings up naoyaâs onesided beef with megumi & her stories of how naoya was so petty back in his childhood made him remember who tf naoya is (megs have selective memory, itâs okay)
megumi: ugh, he was so annoying. i remember when he came to my middle school back when gojo was busy dealing with the aftermath of his evil ex boyfriend evil plan & he basically kidnapped me. i was stuck in a car with that man for 40 minutes..you would hate him nobara.
maki: yeah you would hate him nobara.
yuuji: iâm sorry he kidnapped you??? why did you say that so casually?
nobara: fuck that. megumi is a disney princess, we know this already. BUT weâre just gonna gloss over gojo had an evil boyfriend?
& imagine when megumi finally tells his friends about the zenin clan was when yuuji just came back from the dead & they were asking how tf thatâs possible. & somewhere in that conversation megumi just let it slip that his heart stopped beating once & itakugi looks at him in silence:
megumi: yeah the zenin clan basically forced me to exorcise some curses & complete a ritual to get a snake â that snake fucking bit me. it was my least favorite. but yeah i basically died. then yuuta brought me back. then i was blind for a good minute.
nobara, yuuji, & even sukuna:
megumi: it was a terrible time for me. gojo was even more clingier & protective. it got to a point where he started treating me like i was 6 again⊠reading me bedtime stories, singing me lullabies & describing the pictures in the stories since i wasâŠyknow blind.
cue itakugi & even sukuna wanting to burn down the zenin but ofc they canât do thatâŠso they settle for pulling pranks on the members & traumatizing them ofc.
IM ALSO imagining how funny it would be for yuuji to be jealous of yuuta. like bro is basically living yuujiâs fantasy world. iâm giggling at the idea of yuuji fighting for his life to be either megumi favorite or nanamiâs favorite.
you also opened my eye to the potential of maki & tsumiki⊠like i also like to imagine that in a happier world, they would understand each other on such a deep level. but they would also find parts of the other that they wished they had. but on a happier note i like to imagine that megumi would suffer whenever it was brought up that his aunt is basically dating his step sister. like maki would be a menace to megumi. every little thing he do? maki is texting tsumiki in a corner.
maki watching itafushi cook together in the kitchen: i canât believe megumi has a boyfriend. itâs so cute that he thinks that he can hide this from me. lemme go snitch to tsumiki.
maki listening to megumi describe his fight with sukuna, a cursed spirit who apparently has a stripping problem: oh my god. megumi is truly yuutaâs boy. they both got cursed spirits obsessed with themâŠi need to tell tsumiki.
maki to megumi after witnessing his suicidal tendencies: donât make me tell tsumiki.
i honestly love your story. the way you added so much more to megumi childhood is beautiful. it just make soooo much sense. but also your characterization of gojo is so precious to me. iâm waiting for gojo to go apeshit on the zenin. iâm also giggling in anticipation at gojo finding out about yuuta attachment to megumi. i like to imagine him to be kind of worried about it actually, bc thatâs not fucking healthy. but i imagine him getting used to it since megumi will have a protector in the form of yuuta & his power of love.
iâm also curious to see maiâs role in this story since.
*sighs in disappointment at gege writing choices*
since she had a crush on megumiâŠyeah. but imma just interpret that as she wants to be his family. it keeps me sane
i also wanted to ask if thereâs a chance that you would write a megumi POV of what happened in the zenin clan? ofc i would understand if you wouldnât since it leaves a much more ominous feeling to the events. plus yuuta running commentary is a good mix of angst & humor so ofc i understand.
Yuuji: man fushiguro almost checks the boxes for a Disney princess. except he was never kidnapped or enslaved
Megumi, sold to the Zenin clan, who later kidnapped him: *sweating*
Nobara and Yuuji would be the co-vice presidents of the "fuck the Zenin clan" club if they knew what happened. They would be the presidents but yuuta and maki are already in a death match for the position and they're trying to avoid the bloodshed. they are not allowed to be treasurer because neither of them know how money works.
megumi is unaware that a formal club has been formed.
Megumi is suffering SO HARD in any world where maki and tsumiki are together. they won't stop ganging up on him when it comes to his love life and general wellbeing and holding hands where he has to see it. maki lectures him about his suicidal tendencies in the field, holds up one finger, calls tsumiki, and lets her pick up where she left off. maki tries to talk to him about relationships one (1) time and he tries to drown himself.
see i'm pretty open to writing a megumi POV but it, like most of my stories, falls in this nebulous category of "if i have the time." like, i've thought about writing megumi's pov before, there's a lot of stuff that happened that exists as like, background knowledge for me that will never make it through yuuta's pov because it doesn't make sense for yuuta to find out about it. It would be very tonally different, but if i did write it, it would be a different work entirely and i'd be making sea glass gardens into a series.
i'm eternally tempted by the siren call of making my works into a series. If i did it with sea glass gardens, i would want to add a one shot of Megumi's pov during the time leading up to sea glass gardens and a short multi-chapter of the gojo, nanami, shoko teen parenting trio. If I have the time, it will exist; if i don't, it won't.
#ironically the one thing that WOULD endear yuuta to yuuji is finding out about all of this#yuuji would instantly love him for all he did for Their Boy. it's the only way i see megumi actually fessing up to what happened#i think megumi's just someone who's really private and uncomfortable with people knowing a lot about him and he would try to hide this from#itakugi for as long as he could. it probably eats at him that the second years all saw him like this. i think he just hates feeling vulnera#megumi gives him the /extremely/ abridged version of events to get yuuji and nobara to chill about yuuta and how he acts (yuuji is convince#that there's no one who could be that perfect nobara keeps looking for homosexual explanations) and they instantly veer hard into finding#out everything there is to know about the zenin and how to hurt them and also yuuta's like. beloved in their eyes. megumi is their boy.#they love their boy. yuuta saved their boy. ergo they love yuuta now. it's simple math.#tonal shift is a huge sort of struggle with me as a writer just because i change my styles with every narrator#which is why it's kind of hard to flip between works if the tone is too different. i was trying to juggle sea glass gardens and toy rosarie#and i was just internally screaming b/c yuuta and jack could NOT be more different with narration styles and i was like 'fuckkkkkkkkk'#with yuuta i structure sentences with a lot of 'space' in them. i don't have a better word for it i'm not actually trained in writing so#it's all just whatever shit i made up along the way i have no officially terms. anyway. Yuuta's sentences are structured to have this sort#of detached distance between the actual message and the start of the sentence. So we end up with a lot of sentences that start w/ structure#like âyuuta thinksâ and Yuuta feelsâ b/c I think of yuuta as a very detached person because of how he lived. it's a survival mechanism.#a lot of the meat of what he feels has to come in almost absentmindedly. So you end up with Yuuta's suicide scene and losing the knife and#him having a line like âHe swears he never meant any of the bad things he didâ and the fact that he thinks his own survival is a bad thing#/he's/ to blame for is almost backdoor'd in as a given premise. it's assumed. it's not even the point of the sentence. he's been living wit#jack murdock meanwhile is an intensively retrospective character that's meant to make you almost feel claustrophobic from how âcloseâ his#narration style is. a lot of the actual message is conveyed through imagined scenarios and emotional recollection. he's a character steeped#in regret who has been torturing himself with it for years. yuuta's survival mechanism is isolation but jacks been yearning to get back wha#he lost for so long and dreaming of it that he's steeped in really vivid internal imaginings.#with jack you have multipage lamentations remembering his son buying cereal with him but yuuta drops the fact that his parents stopped#loving him at some point and it's not even the most important thing in the sentence. it's included as a qualifier because yuuta has accepte#so much of the bad things that happened to him when he shouldn't have whereas jack hasn't accepted ANYTHING that happened.#Yuuta uses a lot of very clean cut grammatically correct narration and jacks is riddled with a bunch of âain't'sâ and grammatical errors.#he has an accent for lack of a better term. so you end up w/ two characters who convey information in different ways prioritize different#info in their sentences use different sentence structures etc. so megumi would have a /very different/ style and tone from yuutas that woul#sort of shape any fic that came through him because all of my fics are primarily shaped through the narrator's voice. it's also why I set#kind of hard lines about whether a fic can have any narrator or just specific narrators b/c it determines the whole tone.
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(Theyre also blushing but i cant figure out why). Both Kenzan and Johan are more focused on Judai tho, which could either be bc theyre both gay for him or cause this takes place post s4 (so theyre happy to see Jou enjoying life again after his depression). Then you have Fubuki and Asuka in the corner. Fubuki is doing his standout uncoordinated cloudcuckoolander bit by not wearing blue/black/white/yellow like everyone else (get with the program, man!) Instead he's going for that... christmas ensemble? With the rare red....tho now I see it, there's also judais pants and the coke bottles and the red cups and oh my god it was a red/blue/green/yellow colour scheme all along. ANYWAY, while Asuka is more serious with her modest clothing and walking boots, she has this small smile. Like, clearly she's not super duper ecstatic over his dumbass ukelele serenades, but she'll humour him today of all days, not just because it's a special day but because she looooves having her brother back.
Final verdict: this pic honestly just gets better the more you look at it. It makes me wish i had synesthesia just so I could taste the cozy hot chocolate vibes. Like its truly utterly immaculate. Kudos to you for all time!!!
#Incrredible absolutely incredible vibes here holy cow. Especially as an australian freezing in midwinter. Unmatched coziness#like it has that top tier cozy wood cottage setting (respect for graining the floor panels btw) so you can practically see the snow outside#I know they're drinking coke but in my heart that is hot chocolate ok it is beautiful hot chocolate and maybe there is pho somewhere#anyway I also really like how the orange/blue/green mesh together in this piece. It's not too uniform or restrained or blocky. Instead#the colours are diffused throughout the piece. This gives it a lot of balance while simultanously preserving the warmth and cohesion#like manjo asuka ryo and johan in their matching obelisk blues + the night sky outside + the blue books + the blue on Yugis poster tv etc#then ofc the green of the plants + yellow/green rug + Jims croco and fubus pants. The green works esp well to bridge the blue and orange#as opposed to a blade runner style scheme. Anyway I also love how you use blue/black shadows. Specifically how they go fuzzy at the ends#With a nice lil orange glow. I think the strongest example of this is Johan. his white shirt really shows off the blue/orange -> purple fuz#It makes the lighting feel really soft. Also mad respect for this whole setting concept like this room is impressively geometrical#and perfectly angled yet it has that lived in clutter vibe with the book under the tv + the abandoned singular sock + the unkempt comic#books + spread cards + etc. Theres also so much personality to it in the kitty rug smiling clock and posters all over.#Im gonna guess its judais place bc pharoah and the pic of Judai and Johan. Also its slightly irresponsible in a very Judai way.#this would NOT be jims place! he would NOT let his croco eat. uh. Movie film? its not croco food is all Im saying. Anyway. Adding into how#cozy and real this piece feels is the excellent lighting work. Not only is there multiple sources of light and shadow but they overlap#impeccably and have a subtle yet defined limit. I particularly love the two lamps by Asuka and Fubuki. The little shadow hatching on the#walls and window sills around them + the soft airbrush lighting makes this lovely subtle yet defined circle shape. Together with the#light coming thru the door its rly nice. Then theres the general shadow on Croco side of the piece with the deeper shadows from the house#ornaments and edo and such. Like its a small thing but it requires so much thought and dedication and fuckin math that I must salute#speaking of maths the most impressive part of this pic geometrically is the wall at edos side. The angle is sharp yet feels so natural.#yknow what I think that gets into the coziness too. The setting is so boxy and well defined that it almost seems to snug hug the characters#we get the sense of a limited space which is filled by the presence personality and warmth of this friend group. Nothing feels empty#this realisation makes me appreciate the cut off second floor that the stairs lead to cause it adds a roof which further boxes em in#the effect is like peeking into a moeblob yugioh diorama. But instead of being saucy or claustrophobic its just so cozy you could die#anyway last notes I love how the calendar on the wall has a little x we can infer is today!!! because the homeowner was So! Excited!!!#and I love the lonely fan on the bookcase and flower on the cactus (that is a well loved spiky boye). Anyway. Now onto the characters!#now onto the characters! (tho I feel like the environment deserves even more love I just dont have the words yknow) to start with#I love all the eye contact and how it economically explains so many relationships. Edo has this smug grin @ Ryo while Manjo looks both#annoyed and unimpressed (maybe because Ryo is late after work?). All of them have suits to show theyre all hard working pro duellists#Sho and Judai are also looking to Ryo but with a more casual vibe like âwelcome home bro!â âwelcome home bro of my bro!â Theyre also
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I love early seasons supernatural aesthetics so much. The isolated highways, funky motel rooms, neon signs, shiny guns and shiny cars, leather jackets, old books, through a film camera lens in seasons one and two, makes for such a specific atmosphere. It transfers the isolation Sam and Dean experience so well, cramped into the seats of a 67â Chevy impala, claustrophobically un-alone while individually lonely. The nasty, sometimes created with horrible special effects, monsters really do look monstrous, unsettling more than outright terrifying. With yellow eyes, in dirty clothes, glitching and pale. The whole colour palette is grey-ish and cold, you almost feel the contrasted darkness, the distrust, the nagging belief that something wicked may be hiding behind every corner, behind every corner of your own self as well. Idk. The blood looks dark, the sulfur looks sickeningly yellow, the skin looks unnaturally pale. Itâs all so horror-coded, and gives such an atmosphere of instability in your own existence in the world, which aligns with the themes of the seasons. This atmosphere, to me, makes it a better horror show than if it had had better special effects and scarier monsters. Because the horrifying is in the daily existence, in how you are, rather than what you face.
#supernatural#this is more of a rant really#spn#dean winchester#sam winchester#john winchester#winchesters
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Through Me (The Flood) - secret baby fic Simon Riley / female reader
Simon's short term rental is almost claustrophobic.
He tries to stay out of it, tries to keep himself busy. Active. After a week since you asked him to go home, to give you some space, he noticed he's lost weight. The thick of his ribs, his stomach, his thighs, has thinned out, cutting his bulk, exposing more muscle.
The grief feels more fresh than it has in years. Talking to you, telling you, has dredged up long buried things, agony and regret, pain that steals his breath and leaves him paralyzed. He forces himself not to think of it, but it still finds a way to creep in. To make him feel torn apart, turns him into a ghost.
He walks a lot. Walks to the store. Walks to the pub. Walks to the park. Sometimes he sits on the bench and watches mums push their buggies, wondering if it's something you might enjoy, if you were feeling better. Wishing he had made more of an effort to get you out of the flat, into the sunshine.
He's still walking to your building at night, standing under the tree, watching the lights flicker on and off. Your windows stay lit longer now, periods of sleep more infrequent, leaving him to worry that you're not getting enough rest, not taking care of yourself.
He walked all morning into early afternoon today. Tried to quell the nausea swirling in his stomach, tried not to watch the clock, or count the seconds. Tried to brace himself for the bittersweet he knew was coming.
>Hey, I'm going to be leaving pretty soon for work, and could be gone for a while. Could I see Orion before I go? Spend some time with him?
>Sure.
Your reply still rings in his ears. Short. Torturous.
But he doesn't blame you. He did it the wrong way. You have a child, his child, to protect, to take care of. Of course, you should be concerned. Maybe he should have found a better way to tell you. Maybe he shouldn't have told you at all.
A large part of him, the instinctual part, considered refusing you, when you asked him to give you some time, and he still hasn't made a decision about what he will do in the long run.
It would be so easy, to hide you away. To take you in the middle of the night, wake you up in a brand new home, high in hill, in a whole new country across a border.
When the knock on his door finally comes, he crams the overflow of emotion coursing through his heart into a teeny tiny box, and prays he'll be able to keep a lid on it.
"Hey." Orion turns in your grip, looking for Simon's voice, and you smother a wince at the shift in his weight.
"Hi." You look through him. Past him. To the left of his elbow, at his shoulder, the floor. Anywhere but his eyes.
"Thanks for letting me spend some time with him." Your lips go flat, but you shuffle the baby into his arms, managing to avoid skin to skin contact. It makes his stomach hurt worse than it already did.
"Of course, you're... you're his dad." You peek around him, trying to get a better look of the flat. "Do you uh, have stuff for him?"
"I went to the store."
"Okay. Well, good." You hand him the bag next. "I wasn't sure what you had so there are a few changes of clothes in there, just in case, and some bottles. They should probably go in the fridge. Diapers, some toys. Just in case... I didn't want.... I wanted you to have everything you might need." It's thoughtful of you, and he wants to smile, but you won't look at him.
"Thank you." You nod.
"Alright well, I'll come pick him up later? Just text me I guess, when you're ready. Hopefully he'll take a bottle."
"I can bring him-"
"No, that's okay." you cut him off sharply, shaking your head. He frowns.
"Why not?"
"I- I don't mind, coming by to get him."
"But if it's dark..."
"I can manage." You snap, and he purses his lips, but says nothing.
"Alright well, see you later then." You make some noncommittal noise, and then step closer, mouth pressing to Orion's cheek.
"Bye baby, love you." You finally look up at him, really look, and he holds his breath when he sees it all in your eyes. Pain. Confusion. Worry.
He did that.
The evening goes too fast. He manages to get Ry to nap, and drink over half a bottle, a huge win, but spends most of the time just holding him, walking him in circles in his flat, trying to memorize the feeling of his baby in his arms. He's fussier than usual, crying anytime Simon tries to put him down, which he doesn't mind, but concerns him. Is he like this at home, with you? Is this why you've been up more at night?
Still, it's over too soon, and when you're knocking on the door again, he stands on the other side a few seconds too long, wishing he had more time.
He's always wishing he had more time.
"How was he?"
"Good. More fussy than usual, but I got him to take most of a bottle. Is he doing alright?"
"He's been like this, the past few days. He's either going through a growth spurt, or developing some late colic. I hope it's the growth spurt." Oh no.
"Well, I'm here if you need anything. If you want me to take him at all." You nod.
"When uh... when are you leaving?"
"Two weeks or so. Once the guys get back, they'll have a few days debrief and then... we'll be off."
"Okay, well. Just let me know, when you want him again?"
"I will." He kisses Orion's cheek, whispering in his ear how much he loves him, before passing him to you. You have to reposition your posture to support his weight, and he winces. "Are you okay?" You blink at him, skeptical and surprised.
"I'm great Simon. Really peachy."
"Look, I know I really sprung-"
"Sprung? Is that what you're calling that? Simon... you blindsided me. You... you-" He holds up his hands.
"I'm much more careful now. I've learned a lot of hard lessons, and I would never, ever allow anything to happen to you or Orion." His shoulders slump, and he drops his eyes to the floor. Ashamed. Grief trying to work its way, trying to break him down just as it has all these years before. "I've learned from my mistakes." There's a long, uncomfortable since between the two of you, one that Orion fills with fussing, and then your voice cracks.
"Simon, that wasn't your fault.... I'm not... I'm not upset about... that. Or anything, that happened to you. I mean, I'm upset but not at you for that..." You take a deep breath. "I am upset for you, that those things happened to you, that you've been through such trauma, such horrible things." Tears wet your cheeks, but he doesn't move. Doesn't breathe. "I would never hold that against you. I'm upset about your job. And the danger it puts us in. I'm upset that I didn't know that you'd been gone for weeks, possibly months at a time. I'm upset that you promised me you'd be here, and then never mentioned the super secret task force that will... take you away from us." Orion cries, and you bounce him back and forth, finally looking Simon dead in the eye, facing him head on. "It feels like you've been lying to me, for weeks now. I thought we were in this, together, that we were- we were building something, together. Now it just feels like... I could lose you at any second instead. That Orion could lose his father, grow up without you." The last word rips from your lips in a sob, and you shake your head as he steps close.
"You will never lose me. Do you understand? That will never happen." He vows it, swears it, forces it out into the universe as a covenant, but you only shake your head again, sadly.
"You can't promise that."
#peaches writes#through me (the flood)#simon riley#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley#simon ghost riley x reader#ghost x reader
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I Hate The New Hero!
Pt 3: How bad can a day get?
Tim gazes at you. He doesnât know what to do or feel.
He hates you, he really does, but at the same time he kind of enjoyed the afternoon with you. If you put aside the arguments and such it was kind of fun being in your presence.
Heâs conflicted, he should hate you â youâve done bad things in the past and you hate Aranea! But, hanging out with you gives him some kind of weird feeling â euphoria fills him when you make a sarcastic comment in jest or when you chuckle at one of his jokes.
There were times you both fought but it felt nice to see you come back into the room and not just leave â his parents tended to leave for the whole night if they got into an argument and heâd have to stay in his estate alone.
He watches as you sleep peacefully, youâre in the lower age part of his class â with you being sixteen and he seventeen â yet you look so much more youthful while sleeping, your face isnât in a scowl or bored look, you look content.
Tim slowly gets up from the bed and looks around the small, cramped room. It's easy for anyone to feel claustrophobic and it feels wrong for someone to live in it who acts like how you usually do.
His attention is drawn to the toy chest in one corner, curiosity fighting with respect to open it. One peak wouldn't hurt and surely you wouldn't find out.
He walks over, one of the floorboards creaking, it was only two steps but felt longer for him. He opens the chest. As he stares down at it's contents he's filled with disappointment.
In the chest there's only diaries, metal and engineering bits and pieces. He guesses he should have expected this, you're a civilian, you wouldn't be hiding anything to begin with.
His eye catches on a childish diary decorated in stickers and press on jewels. Before his mind can register what he's doing he picks it up and turns it over in his hands a couple times, examining it.
The date goes back twelve years. So you'd be about four at the time. There's nothing to hide so he opens it - a sneak peak never hurt anyone.
Diary entry 1:
Today I got this diary from my mama! I can decorate it however I want! Mama said it's my birthday gift, I wanted a stuffed toy but this works too! I don't want to disappoint my mama by saying I don't like it!
My neighbor, Susan, is helping me write this! I love her, she's very old and wrinkly and I think she is going to turn to dust. Which is sad.
Bye now!
The first thing Tim noticed was the messy handwriting. It was endearing in a way to see it. The next was the way you spoke about Susan. It was blunt but it seemed you liked her.
He goes to turn another page when he hears the front door of the apartment open and talking entering the once quiet apartment.
He quickly places the diary where it was before and he packs away everything. He debates putting you into the bed before deciding that you're fine.
He walks out and is immediately met with a plate smashing the wall next to him as a frazzled man stands in the kitchen, cowering almost. Tim puts his hands up slightly to show he's harmless and the man's stiff form eases slightly.
The man raises his hands and signs out a sentence.
"What are you doing in my apartment?"
Tim raises a brow, should he sign back or just talk? After some consideration he decides to sign back.
"Your child and I are partners on a project for school"
The man's eyes darken slightly at the mention of his daughter - or who Tim guesses was his child, they bare some resemblance.
"So my child is a slut like her mother then?"
Tim stares, jaw dropped. No fucking way he just said that. Tim shakes his head.
"No, of course not! We had to do a poster!" He states, he doesn't bother with the sign language, the man didn't seem to be deaf judging by the scar on his throat.
The man points to the door before signing.
"You better go right now before my wife punishes you! As it is my child is in trouble!"
Tim, not wanting to cause a fight or scandal, walks to the door and leaves. He wonders how your father is going to "punish you", clearly you had to have been spoiled by someone to end up so rude - even if you were fun to hang out with for those hours.
Tim gets to the front of the apartment and gets into the car waiting for him. One thought was one his mind however:
Are you as bad as they all assumed you to be?
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You wake up the next day to your dad and mother standing above you angrily. Not a good way to start the day and you had to sort out your red eyes before people asked if you'd been crying.
Heading to school was as uneventful as Gotham gets and when you get to the front gate you realize your two friends aren't at school today. Great. Your day is the best!
You debate sneaking back home and going on a day patrol, maybe running into Signal, though you hope not. He's nice and all but he along with the other Batman lackeys and Batman himself give you bad vibes, they set off your spider senses and cause you to feel icky when in their presence.
Before you can make a decision you hear your name being called out and Tim walking up to you with a serious expression. You think you're going to barf - now that you think about it, Tim gives you the same reaction Red Robin gives you - a feeling of anger and motion sickness.
Each vigilante gives a different type of icky feeling so it's crazy you haven't noticed Tim giving you the same feeling.
It's not your business though so you won't think about it further.
"Did you bring the poster?" He asks, his arms crossed over his chest as he looks to you in slight annoyance. "Duh. It's in my bag." You respond, rolling your eyes and handing him the poster.
He hums and puts it in his bag and you raise a brow. You won't question why he did it, probably just wanted the credit of handing it in.
With that you head to your first class of the day: Engineering.
#dc#dc comics#dc universe#dcu#yandere#yandere dc#dc robin#yandere batfam#yandere batfamily#dc fanart#platonic yandere#bruce wayne#jason todd#dick grayson#tim drake#damian wayne#duke thomas#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#alfred pennyworth#yandere batboys#batman#nightwing#red hood#red robin#robin#signal dc#black bat#spoiler dc#I hate the new hero!
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Panic Attack àšËÌŁÌŁÌŁÍà§
rafe x fem!reader àšà§ summary: âWhat have you done to yourself?â warnings: mostly panic attack + comfort, abandonment
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You could feel the soles of your feet dragging on the cold hardwood floor of Tannyhill. The entire house was deadly quiet except for your occasionally scratchy breathing. Rafe had left two days ago on a panicked mission of some sorts. You tried to protest his leave by begging him to talk to you, asking for anything. Unsurprisingly, Rafe gave you nothing. He shut the overarching front door abruptly, promising to be back soon. Two days passed.
The funny part was that you could see the regret in his eyes as if he wasnât thinking about anything else. Rafe looked at you like he was being pulled out at gunpoint. You regretted things too, like focusing on your pleas for any explanation rather than taking in his features for what could be the last time.
Your feet were sore and tired from the endless pacing that took you by storm each day since he left. Your eyes were sunken into the deeper parts of your skull for no reason other than the weighted feeling of exhaustion paired with the inability to find any rest. Your hair was disheveled, thrown into whatever could keep it out of your pale face. Stress and anxiety wore down your heart until you felt as if you saw the world from two feet shorter. You had become a shell of the person you were before.
Until there was commotion at the front door. Your delayed reflexes caused you to only look at Rafe when he was mere feet away from you. Even though you had felt utterly lost, his presence was enough for you to feel your own eyes lighting up.
âBaby..â He whispered, looking at you with a horrified expression and walking up to you as you wobbled on your own feet.
Rafe wrapped you into a tight hug instantly, kissing the side of your head as you tried to register your own feelings, shaking in his arms. He took a step back, moving to cradle your face in his hands before looking over every sunken feature of your face that had weighed you down for the last two days. Rafeâs eyes were narrow with heavy concern.
âI didnât mean..â He trailed off, noticing just how dire your condition was.
His eyes felt judging as they trailed over your face and body, almost like they were trying to seep into your mind. A thin layer of panic started to coat your lungs as his presence served to be less than comforting.
âWhy did you.. leave me?â You whispered, your voice cracking as you felt your whole body shaking again.
âI..â The sentence died on his tongue, again.
Pushing away from his grasp, you stood back and tried to support yourself.
âWhat did you do?â Rafe barely whispered, furrowing his eyebrows and setting his sights on your disheveled appearance.
âW-what..?â You replied, everything weighing down on your shoulders all at once as his words broke the world around you.
âHow did you let yourself..â âNo..â You whispered, backing away and letting tears form on your waterline as your face contorts into that of a crying child.
âOh, baby..â He walked back up to you, supporting you in his arms, âWhat have you done to yourself?â
Your chest heaved as you tried to suck in more air. Your heart felt like it was going to pound its way out of your claustrophobic ribcage. A gag left your mouth as you let a cry go with it. Tears finally freely streamed down your cheeks as you sobbed into him. Your legs collapsed beneath you and he helped you to the ground, giving you space and taking a seat in front of you.
Rafe had only been next to you through about two panic attacks this far into your relationship. Each one felt more traumatic from the last, but you both knew it wasnât true. You relied on Rafe, so it was easy to let yourself crave his presence during your flash-panic attacks.
âLook at me.â He said clearly, hesitating with a hand in the air, debating if he should touch you or not.
Every part of your body felt like it was being squeezed dry as he tried so hard to bring you back to the moment. You wanted his touch, his skin on yours, his pretty words in your ear, but your mind was racing while your body stayed frozen. You resorted to begging him through your own thoughts, nothing else feeling capable.
âDeep breathes, baby. Youâre safe. Itâs okay.â He recited a few times, finally deciding to hold your hands in his.
âH-hurts..!â You managed to sob out, referring to the doom-ridden feeling in your chest.
âI know it, princess.â Rafe whispered.
You mustered up the energy to lean forward, watching as he got the hint and moved next to where you were piled so you could curl into his body.
âSâjust me, okay?â Rafe repeated a few times, his hands finding a place in your hair.
Looking up at him and feeling him looking back slowly helped you calm your ragged breaths. He held one of your shaky hands to his chest so you could mimic his breathing while he kept your head up.
âI canât.. canât..â You started, feeling more out of breath after focusing on his patterns instead. âI know it, baby. Itâs okay, just look at me.â Rafe said, holding your foreheads together and letting you relax into him.
He left innocent, chaste kisses to your cheeks while he made you hold eye contact, letting his presence sink back into you.
âIâm so sorry.â Rafe whispered to you when your sobs finally slowed down.Â
With a deep breath, you nodded and broke eye contact by shoving your face into the crook of his neck. He let his hands find your hair again, kissing the side of your scalp right as you calmed down enough to breathe properly.
âI love you.â Rafe whispered, picking you up gently to support your weight on his own.
âI love you too.â Your voice cracked but you stayed strong, not letting tears fall again as you moved to your shared bedroom.
Rafe rubbed your back as you fell asleep on him, letting the lonely feeling disappear.
âMy baby..â He whispered before you closed your eyes.
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#mariespen#outer banks#rafe cameron#obx fic#rafe cameron fanfiction#rafe cameron imagine#rafe cameron x reader#rafe cameron x you#rafe obx#rafe x reader#rafe x you#rafe drabble#rafe fanfiction#rafe outer banks#rafe imagine#rafe cameron blurb#obx x reader#obx fanfiction#obx#rafe cameron hurt/comfort#hurt/comfort
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the aftermath (of champagne & tequila)
synopsis: so maybe those few glasses of champagne and tequila wasnât your smartest choice of beverages at your high school reunion. but how were you supposed to know that running into your childhood crushes absolutely wasted would have you dealing with the aftermath of making out with not one, but both within the same hour?
pairing: haechan x fem! reader & mark x fem! reader genre: love triangle, childhood crushes au, college au, fluff, humor word count: 7.4k warnings: swearing, making out, mentions of alcohol, vaping, weed, jokes about death and just a 'hol lot of y/n being a dumb drunk
note: thereâs really no plot to this, just pure thirst and chaos but then again, isnât that all my fics everđ (and god forbid any of my irls see this bc they'll know exactly who everyone is based off ofđ)
[ playlist: all my friends - snakehips / feels - calvin harris / pretty please - dua lip / one kiss - dua lipa / leave the door open - bruno mars / nasty - ariana grande / streets - doja cat ]
IN YOUR DEFENCE, you werenât planning on getting this drunk.Â
In fact, you remembered reassuring your group of friends about this the day before, emphasising your astounding hatred towards the very limited selection of the free alcoholic beverages available at the bar (namely, beer and wine).Â
Further backing up your case, you had initially turned up to your high school reunion an hour late with the lazy excuse of your last-minute decisions towards your outfit that day â which, considering your turbulent meltdowns about having no clothes at two in the morning, was a complete fucking lie â only covering up your actual reasonings of not wanting to face your high school year group.Â
You didnât exactly have any particular reasons to avoid anyone â a matter of fact, you liked to think you got along with everyone back in the day, often bouncing around from friend group to friend group with shiny eyes, inviting smiles and friendly banter â but there was something about reuniting your cohort again after a year which felt awkward.Â
There was no doubt that everyone would have changed in some way shape or form.Â
Heck, you were a completely different person from when they last saw you in the body of that wide-eyed girl in the crisp white blouse with the conservative knee-length pleated skirt. Plus, judging by the daily scroll of your Instagram feed, many of your peers seemed to don an altered version of their high school selves as well â meaning you had to get to know everyone all over again.Â
You vaguely remember turning up at the congested bar next to your high school building. The entrance was decorated with popped bottles of champagne with only a few clean empty glasses left on the display tray. The rest are in the hands of the various levels of tipsy college kids packed together like a can of sardines in front of the bar, eagerly milking out the bar tab set by the committee. Despite your school renting out the entirety of the second floor, it felt a little too tight, almost claustrophobic inside as you discreetly tried to scan the drunken crowd for your usual group of friends. However, your search didnât last long, resulting in you eventually giving up after a few seconds, opting to ease the mild squeamishness with some liquid courage.
The cheap champagne burned the back of your throat as you settled on painfully chugging the glass in mere seconds, sticking out your tongue in disgust. Regardless of your initial reaction to the first taste, you began lining up for another glass, maybe in hopes of finding your intoxicated friends swimming in the chaos.
âOh my god, Y/N! Is that you?âÂ
Your ears perked at the familial voice amid of the loud chatter, head whipping towards the warm beam of Huang Renjun â a longtime locker mate/bandmate during school. Crushing you into a tight hug, you momentarily thanked the higher power of the universe for sending at least an old buddy as your first very sober interaction.Â
Though you and Renjun had never exclusively shared the same social circle, your friendship went way back. It started from being in the schoolâs so-called ârockâ band together to trauma bonding over some unfortunate extension English classes in middle school to being neighbouring lockers for the entirety of high school. You recalled Renjun being a wholesome-looking guy, uniform always neatly tucked in, hair short and well kept, so when you spotted his long bleached hair and a silver ring hanging off the left corner of his lip as you pulled away from his grasp, surprise was an understatement of your reaction.
âYou pierced your lip!â you exclaimed, turning your face to various angles around him to have a closer look.
A hearty laugh escaped his lips, throwing his head back as he playfully modelled his new accessory with a childish smile, âI did! Though I would be lying if I said I got this voluntarily.âÂ
You cocked your head at him as the two of you received your preferred beverage from the bar counter, gesturing for him to elaborate. Renjun paused, sipping on the overflowing bubbles of his beer before adding, âI lost a bet with Donghyuck.âÂ
Lee Donghyuck, a name you would say you were well acquainted with. He was a popular figure with the female community of your school for his visuals and many other talents, an eye-catching part of Renjunâs circle and your childhood friend. Well, sort of.
The two of you met in second grade, the joyful period of a childâs life where everyone was automatically considered friends if you shared a class or your mothers exchanged more than two sentences and invited you to their birthday parties. Also meant, playing with the designated child of your motherâs chosen friend of the day until their hour-long conversation was over.Â
Considering the sheer amount of afternoons spent with Donghyuck throughout your elementary school days running around with his family puppy on the school grounds, you would think that would automatically deem the approval of the âchildhood friendâ title. But the two of you didnât really talk outside of your forced interaction nor did you share the same lunchtime activities much to your pathetic heartâs dismay.Â
It would be a lie if you said you werenât charmed by the warm scruffiness of the little boy, oftentimes guilty of shamelessly boring holes into the back of his head during class and daydreaming about your futures together instead of listening to your homeroom teacher. You had a feeling your mum knew of your little infatuation towards the boy, often sending you a knowing gaze after your weekly runarounds with him and after the mention of his name in conversation prompting you to believe that her coincidental run-ins with Donghyuckâs mother werenât so accidental afterall.Â
Though growing out of your shorts and summer tunic dresses and into your somewhat maturer age of a teenager; the validation of the excuse of your motherâs budding friendship to catch him after school expired alongside the dissipating giddiness you had once held for him. Something you saw coming for a while as you found yourself seeing less of him around which came as no surprise as neither of you shared the same class nor the same friends as you naturally started gravitating to different parts of your enlarging year group.Â
Finishing off the remainder of your flat champagne, you raised your eyebrows at the boy, âDonghyuck? Havenât heard that name in a while, how is he?â
Renjun hummed, fingers drumming on the sides of his beer glass, âWhy donât you ask him? Heâs here today,â he began standing on the tips of his battered converses, peering around the bar for the boy in question.
You shook your head with a chuckle, âDonât worry about it. Itâs going to be impossible to find him-â
On queue, Renjun hollered Donghyuckâs name at the back corner of the room, waving at a shadowed figure exaggeratedly. You werenât even sure how he was able to spot him within the chaos so quickly when you were still left in search of your friends. But that wasnât your biggest problem anymore as you recognised Donghyuck emerging from within the darkness, jokingly shoving past the large group of huddled and what you assumed to be intoxicated boys.Â
He didnât look too different from the last time you met, maybe a few centimetres taller, skin sun-kissed from the recent summer weather but holy shit, was he still as hot as ever. If not more.
âDamn Y/N, is that you?âÂ
You were too sober for this. Sure, you had started to feel the buzz peppering various parts of your face; but your emotions, the logical voice in your brain remained intact, with it blaring âDONâT FUCK UP!â in bold capital letters the closer he got.Â
Shoving your jitters further down your lame excuse of a brain, a playful smile was forced upon your lips, âThe one and only.âÂ
Donghyuck grinned, lightly pulling you into a welcoming embrace, catching you off guard, âItâs good to see you again.â
You could tell the alcohol had already hit his systems judging by the uncharacteristically physical greeting and eyes lazily half-lidded as he pulled away from your grasp. âLooks like someoneâs had a bit to drink tonight?â you teased, eyeing the lingering closeness between the two of you.
Donghyuck chuckled, softly shaking his head, âI havenât had too much, maybe a couple of glasses of champagne at school and a few beers here. What about you?â
âOnly two glasses of whatever theyâre serving at the bar,â you shuddered at the thought, placing your empty glasses down on the side of the countertop.Â
âSo what Iâm hearing is that you havenât had enough yet,â Donghyuck sent a cheeky wink your way, completely forgetting about poor Renjunâs presence in the conversation as he lightly tugged at your sleeves back in front of the bar, ordering your preferred drinks with the bartender. Clinking your topped-up glasses with the boy, you wondered if making conversations with the boy was this easy before. It wasnât like he was antisocial or judgemental during your high school years, maybe a little arrogant at times which initially caused your group of friends to have a slight dislike towards the boy.
âY/N no,â you remembered your best friend Ningning immediately shutting down your thoughts followed by the excessive nods of your friends.Â
The five of you sat on the floor in front of your lockers, the smell of the freshly made fries Minjeong had bought from the deli next door wafting down the corridor as you had your heated discussion for the day. How you ended up on the topic of your resurfacing feelings for Lee Donghyuck was a whole other question of its own. (Ah, you remembered. Minjeong tripped down the stairs as you and Donghyuck exchanged smiles and pleasantries, whilst she panicked about her one fry which flew out of the cardboard box, all you could think about was him)
Ningning scrunched her eyes, lips formed into a sour expression, âHeâs just soâŠâÂ
âEgotistical?â Shuhua offered.
âShort?â Yunjin added, throwing a handful of fries in her mouth.
âBoth,â Ningning affirmed. She patted your lap, a thin smile drawn on her face, âYouâre too good for him Y/N.â
It was safe to say that the droplet of leaking feelings had shrivelled back up into your heart that day, both due to your friendâs confronting opinions towards the boy and the unapproachable aura he exuded. (Ok, maybe you admired his golden face from across the room from time to time but who could blame you? It wasnât your fault his stupidly good looks started appearing at every extracurricular activity you signed up for that term)Â
A full glassâ worth of conversation passed at this point, and the both of you head deep into your storytelling of your crazy nights out. Bursts of booming laughter thundered as he described canon bombing into his universityâs questionable lake and audible gasps sounded as you described your New Year's celebrations earlier that year. Maybe you were wrong about your skepticisms towards the boy during your schooling years, blaming your tendency to catastrophize any minor inconvenience to blow his inherent âunattainablenessâ out of proportion.
Pulling your phone out of your handbag to check the time, you were greeted with several missed calls and spammed messages from your friends, slapping you back to your original goal in mind.Â
âEverything alright?â Donghyuckâs face appeared beside your phone screen, eyes concentrated on your sudden change of expression.
âUh-â you began typing your response to your group chat, reassuring them of your whereabouts in the heavily packed venue, â-yeah. Yeah, sorry,â you clicked your phone shut, stuffing it back into your purse before facing him again, âJust reassuring a panicked group chat.â
He laughed, dipping his head in understanding, âIâm guessing Iâll have to let you go?â
You shrugged, offering him a small pout, âUnfortunately but hey, take a shot with me later?â
A soft smile littered Donghyuckâs face, hands squeezing the tops of your shoulders.
âBet, Iâll come find you.â
NOTE TO SELF: Donât go into the female restrooms during a big event in a relatively logical state of mind.
The girls' restrooms were a lively place for the residents of your school, always scented with the popular fumes of grape ice and strawberry watermelon vape, the tile floors littered with abandoned pairs of laddered stockings in the winter and forgotten multicoloured hydro-flasks perched on the benches. With quite the vaping addiction of your school, it was always a fun game of guess who when you took the trip to the restrooms during class, which clique was occupying the stalls together, which flavour they were attempting that day or what piece of drama you were going to be handed.Â
You realised that not much had changed when you found your friends huddling with quite the assortment of other girls in your year group in the bar restroom. The air was concocted with the nostalgic smell of blue raspberry vape and Maison Margiela, accompanied by loud loving gossip in the unoccupied stalls and the occasional drunken mirror selfies in front of the basin.
âOh my gosh Y/N! Youâre alive!â Ningning screeched, glomping you into a tight hug, âI was about to get up on the tables to find you out there.â
âSorry, I missed your calls,â you wheezed as Minjeong came over to peel the girl off of your body, âI didnât realise my phone was on silent.â
âDonât even worry about it,â Shuhua slurred attaching herself to Minjeongâs side, âYou mustâve been bouncing around like you usually do, judging by how long it took you to find us.â
âYeah,â â if bouncing around meant from one drink to another with the same person â âYou could say that.â
âYunjin said hi by the way,â Minjeong interrupted, pulling up a photo of your absent friend striking a cute pose in front of a sushi train in Hawaii, âShe said to drink on her behalf, which I donât think is the best idea.â
âThat girlâs probably drunk right now,â Ningning snickered, turning to face the large mirror to reapply her lip gloss, âBut Iâll take any excuse to drink more.â
Minjeong raised an eyebrow at the girl, âDidnât you say that you were saving your liver for next weekend?âÂ
Ningning merely shrugged, waving her off before grabbing ahold of your hand with an animated wiggle, squabbling about something along the lines of you looking too sober. You ran into many old faces on the short journey to the bar front, hearty laughter and juicy gossip unconsciously spilled and overheard from the neighbouring conversations (Though whether it was true or not, you werenât sure, but considering the topics of accidental pregnancies and very messy breakups â maybe it would be best to wish for the latter)
You were on your fourth glass of champagne at this point, something you couldnât understand as every sip you took attempted to change your mind; it really just tasted the same â like fucking ass. The state of yourself on the other hand arguably has made some progress, to your best friendâs delight. You had joined in on Ningningâs nonsensical babbling a half glass ago, nodding along to whatever came out of her mouth with a small giggle tickling up your throat. She leaned into your ear, slurring some muddled sentence that was drowned out by the screaming lyrics of ABBA. A nod came as a reflex for you, a dazed smile tugging at your lips.
She gave you a little squeeze on your shoulders, shuffling past a sea of people and to the other end of the room. The world seemed to move faster than what your brain could handle at that given moment, only registering the disappearance of your friend as well as the foreign group of kids gathered around you a few minutes later.Â
There you were, at square one once again, like a clueless fish stuck between the school of other wandering creatures. Except, replace the ocean with flat champagne and cheap house beer.
With an exasperated sigh, you took a step back from the chattering circle, but what you thought was an empty space was in fact a person. A person with a full glass of beer â well, half full after you knocked into it.
âShit- Fuck- Iâm so sorry, is your drink oâŠkay?â Your words trailed off as you came face to face with your ex-best friend Mark Lee.
Ah yes. Mark Lee and Y/N L/N, quite the known duo during your middle school days. Inseparable, protective and unanimously voted as most probably secretly dating or housing feelings for each other â which to be fair, wasnât exactly false.Â
Your rather complicated feelings for the boy began in fifth grade when the boy slipped you a silly doodle of a duck in a top hat during math class. The two of you were seated a table apart from each other with your respective seatmates so you werenât too sure of why he specifically chose you to gift his work of art but regardless, you giggled, pencilling in the words âTaffy the Duckâ on the top of the page to pass back to him. Your little note passings continued throughout the rest of elementary school, leading to middle school where in your despair realised that you shared zero classes with the boy. Despite this, your friendship stood as strong as ever, hanging out during lunchtimes and visiting the local 7/11 after school until well â it wasnât.
There was no pivotal moment when you stopped being as close as you were; in fact, it was a question that remained frustratingly unanswered throughout the years. It wasnât like the two of you ever argued or had a major fallout â which couldâve given you a proper reason to either make up or talk to him again â but rather be described as a painstakingly slow drift, enough to the point where it was unnoticeable. Maybe it started with the branching of different friend groups then led to your attention on your respective crushes at the time â which now that you recollected on your past, think that your hidden feelings for each other at the time were the only thing holding you together.
Sure, you had attempted to revive your friendship at times, starting with the ever-so-awkward first hellos in the stairwell to a couple of sentences exchanged before classes started in your final year, but all efforts seem to have unravelled as you graduated from school and went on your separate ways, until today.
âOh hey, Y/N?âÂ
You handed him a napkin from the bar, âMark.âÂ
Shaking the excess residue off of his hand, he mumbled a quiet thanks as he took the napkin from you. You wanted to die, really. As a matter of fact, you were convinced that it would be a much more pleasant experience than silently standing like some dumb wooden doll in front of your ex-best friend, as he cleaned up after your mess.Â
âSo,â he cleared his throat, âItâs been a while huh?â
You gulped down the last sip of your drink, feeling the burn of the champagne trickling down your oesophagus, âYeah, I mean the last time we talked was, one and half years ago?â â Technically, it was his birthday a little less than a year ago when the two of you last exchanged messages. It entailed your short greeting of âhappy bâday mark!â and the equally blunt response of âhaha thanks y/nâ. However according to the Cambridge dictionary, a conversation is defined as a discussion about a particular subject and well, nothing was discussed.
âWell, how have you been? Your brother doing well?â Mark passed his fingers through his dark locks, turning his full attention to you.
You were surprised he remembered your brother, with him starting school not long before you guys stopped being friends, âHeâs doing well, grown up a lot since you last saw him,â you snorted, remembering his little presence trailing behind the two of you after school, begging for you to buy him Mcdonald's fries, âHow about you? You attend NCIT right?â
âYep, studying Business,â he rolled his eyes, âQuite the regretful choice. How about you?â
âCommunications at Yonsei,â you responded, âThough, I did originally transfer from Business, due to as you said. Quite the experience.â
Mark chuckled knowingly, raising his glass to take a sip of his remaining drink, âIt suits you. Communications that is.â
âWhat? Because Iâm loud?â you joked.
He shook his head, âYou always had great ideas, people always looked to you for advice.âÂ
A warm smile made its way onto your face. It was a reassuring phrase to hear, short but impactful nonetheless. Especially as you struggled to figure out your path after school, switching from one faculty to another in hopes of finding the one that didnât make you want to throw yourself off a cliff side. Communications was a spontaneous jump but it was the only choice that made you confident in your abilities so hearing this sort of external validation felt nice, especially from him.
Mark returned the gesture, eyes crinkling into the tender crescent shape. Despite the maturing of his facial structure, he still housed the same childlike smile. The one which stretched to the outskirts of his cheeks, softening his overall cold exterior. The one that made you fall for him in the first place.Â
âHow come I didnât catch you at school earlier?â
You blinked, snapping out of your thoughts, âO-Oh, I turned up pretty late so I missed out on the terrace drinks.âÂ
âThat makes more sense,â Mark hummed in affirmation, eyeing you up and down, âI feel like I definitely wouldâve noticed you if you were there.â
What.Â
âTequila shot?â he offered.
You bat an eye, âUh, sure.â
YOU SEE, you were an affectionate drunk â most often seen clinging onto your friendsâ bodies for dear life or littering kisses on their cheeks towards the peak of your night outs. You concluded your drastic personality change was due to the massive confidence boost and the silencing of the practical parts of your brain, meaning that your already concerning amount of extrovertedness maxed the scale.
Before that evening, this quirky little trait of yours never caused you harm, only resulting in the multitude of âfriendsâ being made in the clubâs restroom line or several new followers on Instagram the morning after â half of which you barely remember the existence of.Â
It was barely eleven when Donghyuck snatched you away from your friends, keeping what you thought to be an empty promise of taking a shot with you. Although you were the one originally suggesting your actions, you wonât lie that you held low expectations for him to follow through â most definitely considering his current state of mind.
Clinking your shot glasses together, you downed the liquor in mere seconds, followed by the soothing taste of the lime, melting away the burn that chased up your throat. An electrified laugh sounded from your left as the familial chords of Bruno Mars blasted through the speakers. Donghyuck held no hesitation to grab your hands, dragging you to the front of the speakers as he playfully serenaded you throughout the way.
You could only shyly giggle as he twirled you around the circling crowd, blatantly avoiding his grand gestures for you to sing along. But your resistance didnât last long as the chorus hit, finding yourself swaying to the beat of the music, accepting the enclosing distance between your bodies. You peered up to meet his eyes, still filled with the childlike wonder and life from the early days of your friendship to the sharp slope of his nose to his scattered moles down to his supple lips.
âYou know Hyuck, youâre really hot.â
A satisfied grin laced Donghyuckâs lips, âAm I now?â
âCan I kiss you?â
You werenât exactly sure what initially prompted you to blurt your relatively forward words to the unsuspecting boy. Maybe it was the lingering fresh taste of the lime on your tongue. Maybe it was the way he swiped his tongue against his bottom lip to soak up any last droplets of the liquor or simply because you just wanted to. Either way, what you didnât expect was for a smirk to tug against Donghyuckâs lips, stepping closer to your body, eyes flickering to your lips as a finger grazed the underside of your chin. He momentarily wavered a couple centimetres away from your lips, warm breath fanning against your face before his lips met yours.Â
The once horridly ear-deafening music of the room with the bubbling chatters of your cohort seemed to fade into the background as the ghost of Donghyuckâs hands skimmed the bare parts of your waist. His tousled curls tickled the sides of your cheeks as he nipped at your jawline, pinning your body firmer against the wall.Â
âGod forbid if our mothers saw us right now,â you let out a slight gasp as he kissed the sensitive part of your neck.
âWell, good thing our mothers arenât here to see us, right?â a low chuckle rumbled from his throat before reconnecting your lips again, his tongue fighting for its place in your mouth. Your fingers gripped at the back of his head, tugging at the strands to elicit a staggered moan from the boy, filling your chest with a weird sense of pride and definitely not helping your already inflated ego.
You could conclude you had certainly passed your tipsy stage, with the last shot of tequila seeping into your system and pushing your brainâs irrationality almost a bit too far. You remembered once hearing your tenth-grade biology teacher talk about the effects of alcohol on the human body and how it altered your brainâs chemical composition. Specifically, how it lowered an individualâs inhibitions and social rationalisation.
And considering your ongoing messy but undeniably hot lip-locking with Lee Donghyuck, you began regretting zoning off in the latter part of that science lesson (not really. You did manage to beat your personal record in 2048) where she had subsequently explained how to piece together the drunken jumble in your brain as the following few words which tumbled out of your mouth, you would inevitably regret.
âWait, I need to pee.â
YOU HAD TO ADMIT. It was quite scary the amount of things you managed to figure out about yourself whilst severely intoxicated.
One, you really couldnât hold your bladder. Evident by the frequent trips to the restroom every thirty minutes or the number of times you had bumped into the same group of girls gathered outside the basins, offering you a hit of their neon-coloured vape and a piece of their drunken secrets.Â
Two, realising the sheer amount of time and money wasted spent trying to figure yourself out during your high school years as the one night of limitless alcoholic beverages seemed to be a confronting personality test in itself.Â
Three, the emotions you spent years persuading to simmer down in your heart were capable of rapidly firing out in mere seconds alongside the memory bank of shitty pick-up lines and your apparent drunken rizz that went through the roof.
Four, maybe your best friendâs words of you supposedly being in your âhoe phaseâ were really true because at that moment, you really, really wanted to kiss someone â more specifically, Mark Lee.
It wasn't exactly the best course of action, considering your heated make-out session with Donghyuck not too long before â which you left halfway through, might you add. But wise decisions werenât things you were great at making. Especially a few too many glasses of champagne and spirits deep.
According to your very skewed sense of time, it was around midnight when you stumbled into Mark once again, this time hidden within the shadows behind a pillar in the corner with another drink in his hand. Not many people lingered around this part of the room. You guessed it was due to the immobile bodies sprawled across the dingy carpet a few metres in front and a frustrating lack of both music and alcohol. With a light trip in your step, you made your way towards the boy.
âOh my gosh Mark! What are you doing here?âÂ
A concerned grimace appeared upon Markâs lips, prompting him to place his drink on the carpeted floor to steady your rocking body. The room had begun spinning at this point in time, with Markâs face distorting ever so slightly to your hilarity.
A giggle bubbled up your throat, followed by your hands which gravitated towards the poor boyâs face, poking various parts of his features in such fascination. Mark could only sigh, registering his sheer lack of control in the situation, as he sat you on the plastic chair.Â
A wave of peace washed over your bodies for a few minutes, with Mark quietly sipping on the remainder of his drink whilst you traced your fingers across his jawline. Though much to his despair, the calm before the storm barely lasted three minutes as your loud ass mouth began itching to dominate your brain.
âMark, has anyone ever told you how fucking hilarious you are?âÂ
Mark deadpanned, crossing his arms over his chest, âI havenât said anything.âÂ
âSEE?!â You bounced out of your seat, âA fucking knee slapper that one!âÂ
Another sigh escaped his lips, getting ahold of your shoulders again to place you back down, âY/N, how did you manage to even get like this?â
âYou know Donghae? Haechang? Whatever his name is-â
âDonghyuck.â Mark corrected, eyebrows furrowing at the mention of his name, âWhat did that overgrown cabbage patch kid do to you?âÂ
âRelax, he just bought me a shotâŠâ You drew out your words before pouting, âOr two, and maybe a couple drinks before that.â
Mark shook his head, patting your head, âIâm gonna get you some water.â
âNooo! Donât go, youâre so sexy!â You latched yourself onto his waist, fingers twisting around the belt loops of his jeans.Â
You could feel him visibly freeze on the spot, occasionally twitching nervously the closer your hands lingered to his crotch. You staggered up from your seat again, hands grazing his torso to wrap around his neck. Despite only a part of his face being illuminated by the light behind the pillar, it was enough to make out his parted lips and widened eyes.
Just like Hyuck, you realised how much Mark had grown into his mature face over the years. His cheekbones were more prominent, and his hair styled with the hard gel he refused to use in middle school. You reached to pass a stray strand across his forehead, though your eyes never left his and your lips inching closer towards his.
âYouâre drunk, Y/N.â
You shrugged, eyes flickering down to his lips, âI wasnât drunk when I wanted to kiss you.â
âAnd when was that?â
âMiddle school, high school,â You paused, pondering for a second, âAfter graduation.â
A moment of shock flashed across the boyâs face, lips partly ajar and what seemed like a rollercoaster of emotions tumbling within his eyes. You had always questioned what his response wouldâve been to a potential confession back in the day; maybe he wouldâve reciprocated your drawn-out feelings and lived as a happy couple to this day, or if you wanted to be pessimistic, suffered the horrors of a toxic middle school relationship and be forever traumatised by love for the rest of your life; or maybe he wouldâve rejected your feelings and just remained as an awkward pair of âbestiesâ.Â
There was a little voice shrieking from the depths of your brain to shut the fuck up, most probably belonging to your sober self trying to save your face. However, it seemed as though the mystery to your decades-long question would be answered that night as Mark chuckled, clearing his throat.
"Middle school me would've gone crazy hearing this."Â
You knew you were definitely wasted at that moment, his words of reciprocation to your elementary school feelings flying over your head and rather hyperfocused on the warmth of his embrace and the subtle gulp of nervousness he took.
"What about present-day Mark?â You murmured, your breath hitting his lips, âIs this making him crazy too?"
"Absolutely insane."
You were reminded of your friendsâ comments on your drunken rizz, with apparently any form of embarrassment and dignity thrown into the gutter to crash and burn. With the amount of unknown dms you had woken up to the morning after drinking, youâd think you wouldâve learnt your lesson by now â but your drunken alter ego was a stubborn bitch.Â
A bitch who definitely needed some kind of therapy.
As Mark smashed his lips onto yours, it was then you were hit by your motherâs words about drinking responsibly. Obviously, to avoid alcohol poisoning, potentially blacking out and passing out on the side of the road, but most importantly, to avoid involving yourself in sticky situations in which your sober self had to deal with the aftermath.
But how were you supposed to anticipate that the aftermath of a fuckload of champagne and tequila shots was going to have you hooking up with your childhood crushes at your school reunion?
Oh, and blackout whilst you were at it.
YOU WERENâT GOING TO LIE, waking up in the comfort of your sheets came as a surprise for your tired self.Â
You were quite proud of yourself for making it back in one piece, or even back at home at all and not passing out on the side of the road somewhere, considering the rather large gap in your memory and the fact that you were most definitely still drunk when you woke up.Â
There was a slight wobble in your step as you made your way over to the kitchen, head pounding and face still numb as you took the first miraculous sip of water. Your phone screen lit up with a bomb of message notifications and Instagram tags from last night, in which you nervously opened your active group chat.
[ yunjin ] did i miss anything?
[ shuhua ] i shit talked about ppl with aeri and somi whilst high
[ ningning ] yk i donât think i recall parts of last night
[ you ] i mean,, understandable. u were pretty fucked
[ minjeong ] y/n wrestling tongues with donghyuck was the most unexpected for me
[ shuhua ] you whatđ
[ you ] we are not mentioning thatâŠ
[ ningning ] wait i swear it was mark, was it not?
[ yunjin ] lol plot twist: it was both
[ you ] âŠ
[ minjeong ] YOU MADE OUT WITH BOTH OF THEM!??!?!?!
You chose to shut off your phone at that moment, predicting the bloodbath of capitalised screams and spammed Facetime calls from the group. Which, in all honesty, you severely lacked the willpower to deal with.
A soft shuffle of slippers sounded at the kitchen entrance, and you turned to face your mother. Still in her pink fluffy pyjamas, drowsily waved as she made her way to the fridge, delicately opening the door to grab the milk.Â
âHow was last night?â she asked, making her way to the milk frother.
You hummed, walking to the coffee machine with a mug in hand. âIt wasâŠâ
An absolute clusterfuck of chaos â would be the correct answer. But telling your mother you had drunkenly made out with the sweet little son of her old friend and the name of a boy she hadnât heard from for half a decade probably wasnât the best piece of news to be told first thing in the morning â if at all.
You slipped a capsule into the machine with a crack, half haphazardly pressing buttons on the top before a mellow whir filled the silence, â... Interesting.â
A short chuckle resonated inside the refrigerator door, âWhat did you do this time?âÂ
You scoffed, offended by the direct jab of her question, âHey! I donât always get into trouble!â
âSo you didnât do anything last night?âÂ
You groaned, pouring the foamed milk into the coffee mug, âWell, noâŠâ Dragging on the o, you passed the mug to your mum, huffing as you sat on the countertops, âHow can you always tell?â
âI think Iâve heard enough drunken antics from you to know,â she took a sip from her mug, raising her eyebrows at your phone lock screen, âAnd I think the amount of notifications youâre receiving says a lot too,â
You reached over the end of the countertop, swiping your phone with a roll of your eyes. Your once pretty lock screen of you and your friends had been bombarded by the stacks of message notifications, fulfilling your prediction of incessant exclamation marks and illegible keyboard smashes. However, one contact profile stood out from the rest â that being a concerned Renjun.
[ renjun ] u feeling alright after yesterday?
[ you ] physically, pretty decent. [ you ] mentally, very confused.
[ renjun ] haha fair, u did seem pretty wasted before u left
His message made you pause, attempting to dial back your inefficient memory to when you left the venue.Â
Did you even see Renjun before you left? Pfft, who were you even kidding â you didnât even have any recollection of how you got home in the first place.
[ you ] remind me how i got home..? :)))
[ renjun ] ⊠mark left u with minjeong who called u an uber home [ renjun ] god, how much do u remember?
[ you ] ⊠not a lot
[ renjun ] u free wednesday? i think we need a debrief
âIS IT TRUE that you kissed both Mark and Donghyuck at the reunion?â
Now. When you agreed to get a casual drink with Renjun the following Wednesday, you had expected a few questions about your little flings with his friends to come up in conversation. But boy, did you fail to prepare for such bluntness so early on.
âH-how the fuck- did you- know?â Choking on the sharp intake of the unmixed gin at the bottom of your cocktail, the calm approach you had rehearsed on the way over to the bar fell apart as your response came out as a desperate splutter of coughs and stutters.
Renjun threw you a sidelong look, chucking the pathetic remains of the stale popcorn at your figure, which you barely dodged.
âBecause those horny fuckboys told me, how else?â
You crossed your arms over your chest, the accentuation of the word fuckboys making you feel rather defensive over your drunken behaviour, âJust for the record, I donât usually go around sucking faces with every hot guy I see.â
âI never accused you of doing so.âÂ
A smug look settled on Renjunâs face, clearly amused by your unfortunate situation judging by the quirk of his lips as you reached for your drink once again.Â
âYou are insufferable.â
âSo-â Renjun dragged on, resting his elbows against the tabletop, âWho was the better kisser, hm?â
The alcoholic concoction got caught in your throat once again, sending both you and your rapidly declining self-preservation into a downward spiral. The straightforwardness of the boy is one of the contributing factors, the rest being the rather vivid flashbacks of your liaisons a few nights prior.Â
It wasnât like you hadnât talked about this before â in fact, you recalled it being one of the first questions shoved into your face when you picked up your friendsâ calls. However, whether you gave them the answers they were desperately seeking for, you werenât sure because simply. You werenât exactly certain about how to answer it either.
âI cannot believe that you hooked up with both your childhood crushes and managed to mess up both interactions,â you remembered Shuhua splutter incredulously through your FaceTime call with the approving nods of the rest following shortly after.
âI just- how did you get the courage to pull the two hottest guys in our year whilst being the drunkest you had ever gotten?âÂ
âIt was because I was the drunkest I had ever been,â you grumbled in response, rolling your eyes at your screen, âI wouldnât have otherwise.â
âSo youâre saying you wouldnât hook up with them again?âÂ
You chose to remain silent for Ningningâs question, neither wanting to directly confirm or deny any theorised accusations which plagued your best friendsâ minds, but, with the growing giddiness which reflected on their faces, you realised that no amount of silence could ever hide your real thoughts from your friends, prompting the passing notion that maybe the silence was actually meant for you and your restless little brain.Â
Shaking away your thoughts, you turned back to Renjun, âWhy are you so interested in this anyway?â
Renjun slurped the last droplets of his cocktail, eyebrows raised in amusement, âWell, aside from the fact that you chose my two best friends as your hookups for the night â which, may I add, coincidentally happens to be both your childhood crushes â Letâs just say those two arenât exactly on good terms right now.â
Your lips parted from the straw, âArenât on good terms?â
As far as you remembered, the three of them had been best friends since early middle school â a fact that made you want to coil up into a shameful ball of nonexistence â you recalled seeing them on the soccer field at lunch, oftentimes doubling over themselves over something on Donghyuckâs phone or the rare exchanges of shy hellos and flustered smiles when they had met up with Mark as he dropped you off in front of your classroom.Â
Despite the drift in friendship from your end, Markâs friendship with Donghyuck had always seemed to remain close â which, considering their shared activities of partying, sports and residing in the same social circle, made sense.
Noticing your puzzlement towards his revelation, he added, âBelieve it or not, they fought over the same girl a few months ago.â Renjun popped the fries in his mouth as if he wasnât casually spilling his best friends' secrets to a girl he randomly reunited with a couple days ago, âwhich is funny because thatâs literally whatâs happening right now.â
You groaned, slinking further into the wooden seat with your head buried into your hands, âGreat. So what youâre saying is that Iâve just further ruined your guysâ friendship because of some silly drunken mistake.â
âI guess you could say that.â
You rolled your eyes at him, âOh, lovely. What a great reassurance to hear.â
âI was just offering my pure honesty, no harm intended.âÂ
The two of you slipped into a comfortable silence, ordering the last deserving round of the cheap happy hour cocktails before it was too late. As you waited for your orders to be delivered, Renjun spent the time scrolling through the photos of their drunken nights out, replaying the short clips of Donghyuck with a traffic cone over his head and his own unfortunate events of being rolled around the empty city in a stolen shopping cart.
With the number of snorts and giggles exchanged, it felt like no time had passed since your high school days â except for the increasing recklessness between both parties.
You began retelling your version of your nights out, from the gasps extracted as you mentioned witnessing a random street brawl in an alleyway to the disapproving tuts of his tongue about your case of being stranded on the side of a highway at three am.Â
âYou know Y/N? You really are the bringer of chaos.â
You could only chuckle in response as you reached for your phone, âTrust me, Iâm not that bad.âÂ
However, as you unlocked your phone to read through your missed notifications for the evening, you realised that maybe you should fix your habit of making bad decisions whilst severely intoxicated, as what you found waiting on your lock screen served as a painful reminder of quite possibly your stupidest mistake yet.
Noticing your sudden change of demeanour, Renjun frowned, âHey, is everything alright?â
You could only bat an eye, pushing your phone to his side of the table for him to read.
[ mark ] hey, what u up to?
[ donghyuck ] { image 1 } [ donghyuck ] wuju misses u :((
Yeah, you took it back. You really were the bringer of chaos.
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Kaz Brekker x Reader
Summary - Kaz Brekker doesn't make any senseâand trying to understand him is getting to be exhausting.
Warnings - fem!reader, reader worked at a brothel, subtle hints at past abuse, some major dog / master symbolism idfk, mentions of blood/weapons, close proximity, could deviate some from canon, based more on book!kaz than show, NOT EDITED SO IF THERE'S A TYPO IDK
Word Count - 3.8k
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âTouch me.âÂ
Youâve only just slipped inside Kaz Brekkerâs room at the Slat, and youâre convinced youâve misheard him. The doorâs still cracked, after allâand the mindless clamor of those playing cards down in the foyer is loud enough to play tricks on anyoneâs ears.Â
You push the door shut, habit making you click the lock into place before spinning around to face him. âPardon?âÂ
The lanterns burn low, dim light chasing shadows across the spacious attic. Kaz stands over by his desk, leaning his weight against the edge in lieu of his cane. Heâs dragging a gloved hand through his hair, looking uncharacteristically flustered.Â
âDonât act like you didnât hear me,â he snaps.Â
Your laugh comes out breathy and awkward. âWe both know Iâm a shit actor, Brekker.âÂ
Itâs why youâre never picked when the Dregâs need a decoyâsome girl to saddle up next to a sleazy merchant or another hapless mark, distracting them with batted lashes and a well-timed hand on their thigh. In Jesperâs words, youâre so socially inept that youâd probably blow the operation before it even got started.
To your dismay, Kaz doesnât repeat himself. With his gaze carefully pinned to the tops of his black boots, he demands, âWhy are you here?âÂ
Your brow quirks. âAt the Slat?âÂ
âIn my room.âÂ
The answer eludes you. Why did you come up here? Itâs not like tonight was the first time Dirtyhands has ever skipped out on playing Blackjack with the rest of the group, and yet heâd caught your attention when he slipped from the foyer and went limping up the stairs.Â
Then again, thatâs not so surprising. Kaz always catches your eye, doesnât he?Â
In the year since you joined the Dregs, youâd earned an unfortunate nickname for yourself around the Barrel: The Bastardâs Pet. Wherever Kaz Brekker goes, youâre sure to be hot on his heels, following after him like a dog, loyal and clingy.Â
You tell yourself itâs because thatâs your jobâto keep Kaz safe, to watch his six. But the devilâs got eyes in the back of his head, and you know Kaz Brekker doesnât really need protection.Â
So, it begs the question: Why are you here? In his room, at the Slat, as a member of the Dregs? Why does he keep you around?Â
Unsure of the answer, you simply avoid giving one.Â
âYou should play games with them sometimes,â you tell him, giving a subtle nod over your shoulder. Their voices are muffled now, but you can still hear everyone downstairs exchanging jeers as they shuffle another round. âIt makes you look like a recluse, always sneaking off to be by yourself.âÂ
Kaz drums one finger against the desk. Itâs an erratic beat, following no set rhythm. âI am a recluse,â he grinds out.Â
You almost snort. Clearly.Â
Itâs not like anyone joins a gang with the hopes of making friendsâand none of the Dregs are dumb enough to think theyâll find a buddy in the infamous Dirtyhands, anyway. Still, you donât think itâd kill him to try being a little more sociable.Â
The others would like having him around.Â
You like having him around.Â
âIâll ask one more time.â Dark eyes flick up, heavy as stones when they land on yours. Suddenly, the large attic feels awfully claustrophobic. âWhy are you here?âÂ
A lie comes easily enough, slipping right through your teeth.Â
âI got bored playing,â you tell him. âAnd Jesperâs cheating, anyway.âÂ
âTheyâre all cheating,â Kaz points out.Â
âBut Jesperâs bad at it,â you argue. Lifting a shoulder, you add, âIt ruins the fun.âÂ
His finger falls still against the desk, ceasing its rhythmless beat. Warm light flickers all around him, dark shadows dancing over the harsh angles of his face. You watch his jaw tick, note the subtle curl of his upper lip. Youâre overcome with the distinct feeling that youâre staring down the barrel of a loaded gun.Â
Probably because you are.Â
Youâve seen this face before. Been the one to clean the bloody mess left behind by whoever was unfortunate enough to find themselves on the receiving end of it. Now, as the one standing in the line of fire, you feel your stomach start to twist.Â
You tell yourself itâs dread. Anxiety for whatâs to come.Â
âFrom where I was standing,â Kaz grinds out, his stare unflinching, âyou looked to be having plenty ofâŠâ A sharp breath, his tongue gliding over pearly teeth. âFun.âÂ
Thereâs something hidden in the word. A meaning that goes well beyond its dictionary definition. Is it a challenge? A dare, maybe? Orâperhaps the most unlikely of the optionsâsome sort of plea?Â
âAnd what is that supposed to mean?â you ask, finally daring a step closer, slowly drifting from the closed door.Â
Kaz shakes his head. âIt means what it means.âÂ
As you draw closer, he moves around the desk and takes a seat. He stretches his bad leg out in front of him, mindlessly rubbing a hand down toward his knee. Itâs always bothering him by this point in the night.Â
âGo back downstairs.â An orderânot a suggestion.Â
Across from him now, you place both palms on his desk. The smooth wood is cool against your skin, though the rest of you feels impossibly warm. Itâs a side effect of standing too close to him, you think. The flushed cheeks and the vice around your lungs, always leaving your mind fuzzy and your pulse erratic.Â
You hate him for it, sometimes. For the effect he has on you.Â
âWhy?â you ask, riding out your little bold streak. âSo you have a reason to gripe some more about me having fun?âÂ
âIâm not griping,â Kaz shoots back, very evidently griping.Â
âGriping, carping, quibbling, or complainingâdoesnât matter how you word it, all of 'em fit you to a T right now, Brekker.âÂ
Heâs not looking at you anymore, focused instead on the swirling patterns of the wood grain or the neat stack of papers or anything else that gives him an excuse to keep his head low. A month or so after you joined the Dregs, Kaz told you that you had a talent for getting under his skin. Maybe thatâs why you donât need to be able to see his face to know just how annoyed he looks.Â
âGo downstairs.âÂ
âI will,â you vow. âAfter you explain what you meant.âÂ
Frustrated, he insists, âThereâs nothing to explain.âÂ
âWhat did you say when I came in?âÂ
âGo downstairs.âÂ
You throw your hands up. âIf you wonât tell me what you said, then at least explain why âfunâ is such a problem!âÂ
âGo. Down. Stairs.âÂ
âMake me.âÂ
Wood screeches, the chair flying back as he shoots to his feet. The stiffness in his leg makes the movement a little clumsy, and you donât miss the subtlest flash of a wince before he leans against the desk.Â
âDo you know why I brought you in?âÂ
For a moment, itâs all you can do to blink at him. Because, noâyou donât know why Kaz offered you a place with the Dregs.Â
Youâre not a sharpshooter like Jesper or a trained Grisha like Nina, not as smart as Wylan or as silent as Inej. Youâre decent when it comes to sleight-of-hand and slightly above average with a blade, but even those skills are ones youâve only learned since joining the gang.Â
Back when you first met Kaz, you were nothing and no one. An unlucky girl roped into an indenture with Pekka Rollins, forced to work out of the Sweet Shopâthe nastiest, most dangerous brothel in all of Ketterdam.Â
âBecause youâre secretly a big softie with a heart of gold?â You hope your sarcasm is enough to mask the twinge of shame brought on by your past.Â
But Kaz is too good for that. Nothing gets past himâevident by the tiny wrinkle of concern that forms between his dark brows, instantly picking up on the faint dip in your tone.Â
Fortunately for you, being observant doesnât equate to being consoling, and so he doesnât mention it.Â
âBecause you didnât make me sick,â he answers, low and even. Youâre not so sure if itâs an insult or compliment, and before you get a chance to ask, Kaz continues, âIt was late. And raining. Iâd just finished teaching a Razorgull lackey what happens when you breach parley. He was a real bleederâmade a mess of my suit. I ended up leaving him for Jesper to deal with. Thought Iâd avoid eyes by sticking to the shadows, walking in the alleys behind the brothels.â Your eyes must be betraying you, because you almost think thatâs a smile twitching at the corner of his lips. âImagine my surprise when a runaway harlot nearly knocked a helpless cripple like me off his feet.âÂ
You bite your cheek, still deciding if you want to slap him for calling you a harlot or laugh in his face. In spite of his limp and cane, Kaz Brekker is far from what youâd consider helpless.Â
âSo, what? You had me join the Dregs because I nearly bulldozed you in an alley?â That whole night was spotty for you, the panic youâd felt having rendered your memory foggy and incomplete.Â
âInej had told me about you,â Kaz says. âThat Pekka Rollins got a new girlâan escape artist, always trying her luck at running away.âÂ
You didnât know that, but maybe you should have. Inej isnât the best spider in the Barrel without reason. She knows everythingâand all she knows is reported directly to Kaz. Even so, youâre not sure youâre catching his point with all this.Â
As if he can see you trying to mentally connect the dots, Kaz says, âMaybe I had another purpose in walking behind those brothels. Maybe I wanted to see just how quick on her feet Pekka Rollinsâ escape artist was.â His head tilts slightly. âOr maybe I just didnât want anyone to see me when I wasnât looking my best. Either way, I left that alley knowing youâd be a part of my crew.âÂ
Your memory of that night may be spotty, but the one after is still crystal clear. A Suli spider had crawled through your window at the Sweet Shop, told you that Per Haskell was willing to pay a very hefty sum to buyout your indenture if you agreed to work for the Dregs. To this day, youâre still unsure of how Kaz managed to convince him you were worth itâor why he bothered.Â
âYouâre not making any sense, Brekker,â you admit, rubbing at your temple. A headache burrows there, seeming to grow worse with every minute. âIs that why you wanted me for the Dregs, then? Cause Iâm⊠fast?âÂ
It sounds stupid. It is stupid.Â
Youâre no faster than anyone elseâand you certainly hadnât been fast enough to outrun Pekka Rollinsâ goons. Everytime you made a run from the Sweet Shop, they dragged you right back, kicking and screaming the whole way.Â
âNo.â Kaz sighs. Drags a hand through his hair, tugging at the dark locks. âI wanted you-â
Kaz doesnât finish that thought.Â
A violent CRASH! steals your attention. Both of your heads snap toward the closed door, listening intently for any sign of danger.
Instead, you hear Jesperâs boisterous cackle chime. Wylan starts shouting about something indiscernibleâvase, shattered, and moron among the words you catch.
A smile sneaks up on you.Â
But, when you turn back to Kaz, itâs promptly wiped away.Â
He looks like heâs had a lemon rind forced into his mouth, scowling at the door. âWhatâs going on with you and Van Eck?âÂ
You blink. âWhat?âÂ
âYou heard me.âÂ
You didâbut hearing him is a far stretch from understanding him, and itâs seemed like Kaz has been talking in circles since you came in. Whatâs Wylan have to do with any of this?Â
âI donât get what youâre asking.âÂ
âStop making me repeat myself.âÂ
âThen stop being so confusing, Brekker!â you huff, crossing your arms. âI donât understand-â
Kaz cuts you off with a look. Cold as death, he grinds out, âAre you fucking him?âÂ
Shock. Confusion.Â
They course through you in equal measure, coupled with slight amusement. The latter must show on your face, because Kazâs scowl deepens before he looks down at his desk, pretending to fiddle with something.Â
âI have work to do,â he says stiffly. âGo downstairs.âÂ
Your feet stay firmly planted, the deskâs width all that separates the two of you. âWhy would you think that?âÂ
Of all the assholes and degenerates in the Dregs, Wylanâs probably the closest you have to a real friend. It came with the territoryâboth of you having become newbies around the same time, trying to learn the ropes and fit in.Â
Youâre not fucking him, though.Â
Kaz sinks back into his chair. His usually-squared shoulders curve slightly, as if some weight is pressing down on them. âGo downstairs.âÂ
âI thought you didnât like repeating yourself?â you ask, almost taunting.Â
âGo.â The word strains between his teeth. âNow.âÂ
For no good reason, you make a stand. Stare down the barrel of the gun, unafraid and unrelenting. How strange, you think. The tightness in your chest has never once been apprehension.Â
It was excitement. Anticipation.Â
Youâve always liked getting under his skin. Finding out what makes him tick, figuring out which words earn the sharpest glares. You want him to pull the trigger, if only because it means you have his attentionâand like a dog waiting at its masterâs feet, you could care less if it comes with an open hand or a closed fist.Â
So long as it comes. So long as he notices you.Â
âWhat did you say when I came in?â You uncross your arms, make yourself stand up tall. âTell me.âÂ
Dark eyes shoot up. Kaz almost looks shocked, the dull echo of emotion creasing the lines of his face, parting his lips. You wait, but no sound comes out.Â
Dirtyhands is used to giving orders. Not taking them.Â
âYouâve heard what they say about me.â You wave a dismissive hand toward the shoddy window overlooking the Barrel. âBrekkerâs Pet. Always with you, always following you around! Ask any sod in Ketterdam and theyâll say the sameâthe only way Iâd have time to fuck someone is if you were in the room!â And even then, it wouldnât be Wylan.Â
A steel rod takes the place of Kazâs spine, turning your words over in his head. âFine. Maybe you havenât,â he relents. âBut you want to.âÂ
Itâs a gamble. An unusually shitty one, at that.Â
You blow out an exasperated breath. This whole thing is getting old. âSaints, Kaz. Whatâs your deal?âÂ
He opens his mouth. Shuts it. Then opens it again.Â
âI saw you downstairs,â he says. âTouching Van Eck.âÂ
Your brows lift, fists clenching. You donât know what you expected from him, but it certainly hadnât been a bold-faced lie!Â
But then you start thinking of the moments before you saw Kaz head upstairs, laughing and playing Blackjack before you folded your hand to follow after him. Youâd been sitting cross-legged on the threadbare rug, wedged between Wylan and Raske, when you noticedâShit.Â
Kaz is right, and that makes you want to scream. Why is Kaz always right?Â
It was after you noticed Jesper was cheating, that heâd poorly marked the deck with daub; a sticky, ash-colored substance. Youâd leaned in close to point it out to Wylanâyour hand against his forearm, your lips dangerously close to the Merchlingâs ear. After he noticed the marks, you both exchanged quiet giggles over just how bad Jesper was at swindling.Â
Still, there had been nothing sexual about it. Nothing between you and Wylan.Â
But, even if there was, why would Kaz care?Â
I saw youâtouching Van Eck. His words race through your mind, pulsing in time with the dull ache in your temple. Touch me, touch me, touch me.Â
All of a sudden, the fog begins to clear. Something in your memory clicks.Â
That night behind the brothelsâwhen you were running from the Sweet Shop, when Kaz had been drenched in the blood of some Razorgull. Barefoot and frantic, you really had almost knocked him off his feet. Gloved hands had held your arms tight, keeping you still. His hair had been messy and your mind a blurâand when youâd seen the crimson smeared across his cheek, you hadnât thought twice before wiping it away.Â
Youâd done what so few have. You had touched Kaz Brekker, skin-on-skin.Â
Because you didnât make me sick.Â
When you donât speak, Kaz shifts in his chair. Straightens an already-neat stacks of papers. âYou wonât try and deny it?â he asks.Â
Maybe you imagine the quaver in his voice. Or maybe you donât.Â
Either way, you start around his desk. Your every step is slowâcautious.Â
You stop beside him, and Kaz shifts again. Youâre standing closer than youâd usually dare to get, so close that you can hear it when he swallows.Â
âYou should go downstairs,â he tells you, lower than before.Â
Your head tilts, hair shifting over one shoulder. âIs that what you want?âÂ
His answer hides in silence so thick itâs a tangible presence. It curls around you, makes gooseflesh prickle along your skin. Your mouth feels dry, your stomach like itâs tied in knots.Â
Suddenly, you donât need him to repeat what heâd said.Â
As always, Kaz was rightâyou'd heard him the first time.Â
âAsk me again.â The words drip from your tongue, an order and a plea. âAsk me and Iâll do it.âÂ
Kaz gives you a look, one youâve never seen before. Dark eyes rove over you, brimming with worry and stress andâand Saints, a sense of desire so strong it makes your toes curl in your boots, a feeling like lightning coursing up your spine.Â
In a voice like stone on stone, raspy and urgent, Kaz breathes out, âTouch me.âÂ
So you do.Â
You cup his face, graze your thumb over his cheekbone. Kaz stiffens, swallowing once moreâbut he doesnât flinch. Doesnât try to pull away.Â
âYou know, to be such a bastard,â you start, a note of teasing in your voice, âyouâre awfully pretty, Brekker.âÂ
Heat blooms against your palm, a deep blush crawling over his pale cheeks.Â
âShut up,â Kaz grumbles.Â
You grin. âWant me to go downstairs?âÂ
A gasp rips from your throat as a gloved hand clamps around your wrist, Kaz pulling you down toward him. Anxiety still tightens his features, but beneath it he looks all too pleased with himself when you stumble clumsily into his lap.Â
For the sake of comfort, you adjust your legsâcareful for his bad oneâand settle your arms over his shoulders. Then, when it fully settles that youâre straddling Kaz-fucking-Brekker, it gets a lot harder to breathe.Â
âShould I take that as a no?â It sounds like a pant, your lungs constricting.Â
He lifts the hem of your shirt, the feel of leather cool against your skin as Kaz jabs a finger into your side. âDo I always have to repeat myself around you?â he asks. Dark eyes dip past your jaw, his tongue gliding over his lips. You donât think he actually cares to hear your answer, which is goodâbecause youâre pretty sure you just forgot how to speak.Â
Kaz drags his finger up the curve of your waist, his touch tentative and featherlight. It feels a lot like being studiedâthe way his dark brows knit together, staring at you as if youâre a magic trick heâs yet to master, a puzzle he hasnât quite figured out.Â
âItâs not because youâre fast,â he says, somewhat distracted. It takes a minute for you to realize that heâs referring to your earlier questionâIs that why you wanted me for the Dregs, then?Â
âGood,â you manage. âBecause Iâm not.âÂ
The slightest twitch of a smile. âNo.â He takes his time tracing over every divet in your ribs, slowly trailing up, up, up. âYouâre not.âÂ
âBut I didnât make you sick.â Youâre not prepared for the wave of sickness that comes with the reminder, stomach roiling.Â
The Bastardâs Pet. Is that truly all you are? All youâre worth to the Dregs? Useless at saddling up next to sleazy merchants, but good enough to curl up at Kaz Brekkerâs feet.Â
As if he can read your mind, Kazâs hand goes still against your side. âWipe that sour look off your face, would you? If I only wanted you to touch me, I wouldâve just come to the Sweet Shop instead of getting my ass chewed by Haskell.â
You wiggle just enough to knock one knee into his hip, glaring at him. Both of you pretend not to notice the catch in his breathâor the growing hardness straining against his trousers, pressed against your core.Â
Gruff, Kaz continues, âYou were in an alley and saw a man dripping with blood, and your first thought was to reach out and clean his cheek.â His head shakes, a strand of coal-black hair swaying near his temple. âIt was ignorant,â he tells you. âAnd⊠decent. Innocent.âÂ
You almost laugh. Innocent. Thatâs hardly a word youâd use to describe yourself. Especially right now, your every muscle straining in an attempt to keep your hips perfectly still, hands folded at the base of his neck.Â
âI didnât know innocence like that could survive in the Barrel.â His hand starts again, tracing little shapes against your side. âEven if you never touched me again, I wasnât gonna let Pekka Rollinâs crush someone like you between his grimy little fingers.âÂ
âSo thatâs the answer?â you ask, nibbling on your lip. âIâm in the Dregs cause Iâm innocent?â What a reason to have someone join a gang. Hey, you seem pure! Wanna get corrupted?Â
âYouâre in the Dregs because you know how to persevere,â Kaz answers, holding your gaze. âHow to get up and try again, no matter how many times youâre knocked down.â The sensation of smooth leather drifts higher. âBecause youâre a survivor.â Your eyelids flutter, sucking in a breath as he palms the plump curve of your breast. âBecause youâre loyal,â he starts, and itâs almost reverent the way he almost whispers, âmy perfect little pet.âÂ
The world grinds to a halt.Â
Outside of this roomâthis momentânothing exists.Â
Too quiet, you ask, âWhat do you want from me, Kaz?âÂ
You want him to feel in control, to be the one that decides how this is gonna go. But your self-restraint is a fraying cord, mere seconds from snapping in half.Â
If it were up to you, how far would you go? How much of Kaz Brekker would you explore? As far as I could, you think, desperate. As much as heâd let me.Â
Thatâs the trouble with dogs. Theyâre loyal and clingy, forgiving and insistent. They want for everything and take whatever theyâre given. Theyâll spend hours begging at your feet. Lick scraps from the floor until their tongues begin to bleed.Â
When it comes to Kaz Brekker, youâll take whatever he has to give.Â
And youâll never stop begging for more, more, more.Â
âEverything.â His breath is warm against your lips, the leather cool on your breast. âI want everything.â
a/n - just in case anyone couldn't tell, i obviously just finished reading six of crows (yeah ik i'm very late to the party). i randomly started writing this while i was stuck in traffic and it just sort of spiraled over the past 24 hours and now here we are! this was born! idk if i'll get anymore kaz ideas, but it was fun writing something more dialogue heavy (dialogue has my heart<3)
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there's a man in the woods | Leon Kennedy
Leon Kennedy x f!Reader
summary: everything changes when you find a man beaten, bruised and bleeding half to death in the woods.
word count: 2.5k
warnings: horror imagery. unsettling themes. mentions/description of blood, decaying flesh, organs, guns. mention of plagas. canon-typical violence. injuries. slow burn. eventual romance. hurt/comfort. plot armour goes crazy. language.
a/n: i have no idea what i am doing so please bare with me hehe. i would like to apologize for the lack of dialogue in this.
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Chapter 1
It starts the same way it always does.
A room so bare it may as well have never existed, a room so claustrophobic it may as well not have any oxygen, a room so untouched by light it may as well have been forgotten in time. And you; always in the centre.
Agitated by the slow sound of dripping water. Drip, drip, drip. You can never figure out where the noise comes from; above, below or one of the sides? You canât tell because you cannot see, blinking rapidly pleading that some stray beam of light enters. But no, nothing is coming, no one is coming.
Breaths become shallow, chest constricting in pain as you fall to your knees, hands pressing over your heart as bile washes up in your mouth, tasting bitter. Then itâs the walls, they close in at a pace that you still canât figure out. Helpless to its whim. And it almost does feel like a predator playing with its prey.
But just before it can crush you, embed your being in its rotten surface, soaking in your crimson colours as you lie awake, powerless to fight against your fate, tears wetting your cheeks as your screams of terror are heard by no one.
No one is coming. No one is ever coming.
A flicker of light, the gentlest hue of gold, and thatâs all it ever takes for you to plant your feet, nails scraping against the stone, and run. You donât dare to blink, terrified that it will vanish and leave you stranded. The light is like a distant star, always out of reach, mocking your efforts to escape the darkness.
Itâs frustrating, legs feeling like theyâve seeped in molasses as you grunt and heave and fight to not sink. But it is fruitless as you feel a stabbing sensation in your chest, air exiting your lungs, watching in horror as your veins turn black, desperately clawing against your skin to stop it.
Repent and seek penance.
And then you awake in your bed.
Your eyes flutter open, the sound of your heart prominent in your ears as you lay in your pool of sweat, trying to control your breathing. You see nothing and neither do you sense anything, flaring the sense of panic in your chest.
Your fingers splay against the material of your bedsheets, inhaling the familiar scent of your pillowcase to pull yourself back into reality. Three deep breaths. The sound of a whine grabs your attention, brown eyes staring into yours, ears standing up in alert and the usual wag of her tail was nowhere to be seen. Â She must have heard you in your sleep.
You manage a smile, reaching out to pat her between the ears, âSorry, Luna. Did I worry you, girl?â Â
The sound of the alarm startles you, groaning as you shut it off before it reaches the third sound. You peel the covers off of you, a layer of sweat stuck on your skin, cringing at the dampness that you found beneath you. Propping yourself up on your elbows, you wait for your eyes to adjust to the light. The ache in your shoulder returns, fingers moving deftly against your skin to ease the pain, hand slipping momentarily due to the slickness in your palms. Â Â
Itâs a bit suffocating still, your clothes sticking to your body, the vague dampness on your sheets and the duvet twisted between your legs, almost locking you in. You kick it away from you, the material falling onto the floor with a gentle thump as you finally stand up from the bed, giving Luna one more pat on the head which finally has her tail wagging again.
Itâs still dark out, you note. A soft breeze blows in through the cracks of your window, gently jostling the cotton curtains. You peer out for a while, the first story window giving you a view of the woods, the trees standing still despite the obvious wind. But over the top of the thick foliage, in the far off distance, painting the pale heavens is a flock of birds, flying about in agitation.
Crossing your room to enter the bathroom, you close the door behind you with a soft click and hear the gentle thump of Luna taking her spot on the other side. You stand still. Hands clutching the marble of the sink, letting the coolness engulf your burning palms and you stare in the mirror only to find exhaustion looking back at you. Bloodshot eyes, the dark circles and lifeless cheeks.
A hollowed out version of the person you used to be, knowing itâs you but still being unable to recognize yourself in any reflection. You clutch the heart pendant that rests against your neck, its edges digging into your skin. What would your mother say if she saw you now?
Cold water splashes against your skin as you turn away from the mirror, shutting the sink off as you entered the shower. You donât wait for it to heat up, finding this a better method to wake up, to ground you, to ensure that youâre in your own home.
And you scrub, almost desperately, against your skin, hoping that this would be enough to wash away the rot you feel festering in the depths of your stomach. Your hands move faster, fear beginning to slowly creep up on your back, long bony fingers tightening around your neck, waiting for the black veins to appear.
But they donât.
The water is shut off, a towel wrapped around you and youâre out before the steam suffocates you. Itâs gotten brighter outside, the first few rays of the sun peeking out over the horizon.
Luna follows you diligently as you dress yourself, earning herself scratches on her black-brown coat, patiently waiting for you to go downstairs for her breakfast. You undo the lock on your door and make headway for the kitchen, ordering to Luna to âstayâ as you fill her bowl up, take a few steps back, pause and then give her the green light.
Itâs your usual routine, nothing out of the ordinary. Your isolation forced your hand to establish a routine for without you would feel yourself slowly descend towards insanity. You needed a purpose, no matter how small. After one decidedly panicked evening, you had brought back a handful of chicks to raise with nothing but your sheer will and a short guide book to help you.
Your need for a purpose was fulfilled and the chicks grew into beautiful hens.
Breakfast. Tend to the hens. Hunt for meat. Lunch. Take a walk. Stare at the landline hanging idly on your kitchen wall. Read. Dinner. Play with Luna. Sleep. Repeat.
But something feels wrong today, off, almost as though the world had tilted on its axis and youâre the only one who notices.
An egg falls and cracks on the floor as you fetch it from the fridge. The toast comes out burnt on the edges. Your tea doesnât seep well.
But you donât have time to linger on it, donât have the energy too, already drained by your hellish subconscious. You need to check on your hens. You whistle for Luna at your front door, shrugging on your jacket and tightening the laces of your boots; always a good sense to dress for the terrain.
And then you reach into the small closet by the door, wrapping your fingers around the cool metal of your rifle. You check the cartridge, reload, slip a few extra ammos in your pocket, pull the strap on your shoulder and step outside on the porch.
The dew is glistening in the morning sun, shaking itself off the blades of grass as Luna bounds through them excitedly, not venturing far into the tall woods. You smile, watching her stretch her legs, descending down the stairs and looking up to the sky, frowning at the lack of yellows and oranges painting the blue canvas.
The sun has seemingly vanished, snuffed out like a cigarette bud on the pavement by the heavy rolls of dark clouds encapsulating the sky. The air smells different, charged and almost expecting to see sparks fly if you run your hand through the air fast enough.
Frowning, you stare hard at the trees, watching as far as your eyes take you through the rough foliage, the twisted roots overlaying on the ground. You wait, ears perked for any sounds of a howl, a break in the branch or a low growl, grip tightening around the leather strap of your rifle.
But nothing comes and you ease, although still unable to shake off the feeling of something amiss. Maybe you just woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.
You twist on your heels, beginning the march to your little coop when you feel your feet falter, freezing at the sound of a loud crow echoing so loudly, it felt like a gunshot in the stilled air. You twist your head to your right, heart loud in your ears as you're met with beady, black eyes and a pitch black bird perched on your railing. A raven.
It bobs its head, twisting and hopping on the railing until itâs looking at you dead in the eye. You hold in your breath. It waits a beat before suddenly brandishing its wings to their full span and lunging at you, making you stagger backwards as it flies past your head, talons scratching your coated arm that you use to cover your face.
Loud, urgent barks fill the air. It drains the colour from your face, hand flying instinctively to your rifle as your panicked eyes dart around you in search. âLuna!?â And you donât see her, finally registering the sound coming from the side of your house, near the chicken coop.
You run, stumbling on the uneven ground, the rocks poking out of the soil hindering your speed. The little coop comes into view, Luna barking maddeningly in its direction, teeth bared and hind legs charged up. You donât see the obvious danger, taking a quick scan of your surroundings as you jog up to Luna, hand darting out to her collar as you try to soothe her, âHey, hey. Itâs okay. Whatâs-â
And your mouth runs dry.
The metal screen that you so dedicatedly had fixed a few weeks back, making the treacherous journey of two hours to and back from the nearest town, to keep out the predators from reaching your beloved hens was torn open from the side, the carcass of one of your chicken flung on the ground, its pristine white coat now drenched in maroon, organs exposed to the sky.
You feel a burn in the back of your throat, contents of your stomach churning viciously as you find a symphony of insects nestled inside, eating away at the decaying flesh.
You bite back the burn, shutting your eyes momentarily and exhaling a shaky breath. You need to get rid of this, and fast before it attracts all the unwanted predators in the area.
You do a quick count on the remaining hens, kick the metal screen back in place as best you can, gritting your teeth and rush back in your home to fetch a plastic bag, making sure to take Luna with you. You donât want her engaging in any foolhardy duels with the coyotes. Your hands shake as you rip out a trash bag, making sure to knock on the wood for good measure.
The sharp noise of distaste from your mother runs through your mind. She never liked your belief in superstitions.
You shove the rotting carcass in the bag as best you can, making sure to leave no entrails behind. No visits by any wolves or bears would be appreciated right now. The sky above you begins to rumble, sneaking a nervous glance as you walk through the woods, weaving through the branches and roots, holding the bag at a distance as Luna carefully carves out a path in front of you. You need to be quick to avoid the rain, wanting to not get caught up in the storm.
You shake the bag as best you can when youâre satisfied with how far away the distance is from your home, emptying the carcass. Your heart falls when you notice there isnât a single speckle of white left, all of it tainted. âOkay, girl. Letâs head back and enjoy a day of snuggling on the couch.â You scratch her chin, the eager wave of her tail easing the tension in your shoulders.
You make your way back, slightly different to the one you took in case you had left behind any scent. Itâs quiet in the trees today. No rustling of the leaves, no chirping of the birds and no scampering of little feet on the muddy ground. There was a deafening silence today, an eerie atmosphere, only the sounds of branches snapping under your boots in the air.
And then you sense the shift.
You sense it long before Luna stills, ears perked up fully and taking her stance to lunge. The hair on the back of your neck rises. You feel your heart drumming in your chest, senses heightened as adrenaline slowly pumps into your system. The stench of despair; you know it all so well.
Your hand once again reaches for the rifle, shrugging it off your shoulder as you bring it up, finger lined up next to the trigger, breath slowing down as your steps become feather-like, gliding forward. There is barely any light out now, despite the morning hour, whatever left of it seeping in through the thick foliage like spotlights following the heroine on stage.
You suck in a sharp breath.
Lying there on the forest floor is a man. His limbs are sprawled, hands outstretched away from his body, head turned to the side, propped up on the roots. His blond hair is scattered on his forehead, sticking to the skin underneath, skin so pale and ghostly that he may as well be made of porcelain, decorated prettily with shades of black and blue.
His lips are parted, a gash rushing through them and a stream of blood dripping along its side. He lays in a pool of red, oozing out from underneath and extending as though in the shape of battered wings, his body marred in cuts and bruises, some deep and some shallow, leaving no part of him untainted. His shirt is ripped, holes in his pants. His chest rises and falls in shallow breaths, a faint wheeze accompanying each exhale.
But thatâs not whatâs jarring you, tipping off every alarm in your system, the rot returning in your stomach.
Itâs the guns. The gear. The holsters. The grenades. The knives.
Who the fuck was this guy? And how the fuck did he find you?
No one was supposed to be able find you, no one.
You were promised.
if u see this pop up on ao3 in the next few weeks or something, don't worry, that'll be my evil twin. thank you for reading<33
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Thirsty
vampire!hyunjin x gn!reader
warnings: vampire typical biting stuff
genre: fluff, a bit suggestive (??)
word count: 1,4k
author's note: i enjoy writing about supernatural beings and monsters a little too much and halloween's right around the corner so here we are. i'm too obsessed with jjam hyunjin and the MV as a whole so these pics are gonna get used a lot, I'm sure đ oh and, do NOT pick up random bats.
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You never expected bats to be so docile and cooperative until you found an injured one on your way home from work. The little critter was looking awfully smug in the blanket mountain you arranged for him so he could have somewhere soft to rest after you took care of him.
You had expected him to start thrashing about, maybe even bite you but after you had thoroughly proved to him that you were not a threat by softly cooing at him on the side of the street, the little guy had simply let you pick him up in your gloved hands to carry him to your home without much fuss.
You sighed, carding your fingers through your hair as you observed the bat for any signs of lingering discomfort, but you only found him fighting to stay awake, his eyes droopy and slowly closing every now and then.
It must have been one hell of a day for the little guy, getting injured by who knows what and then getting essentially kidnapped (batnapped?) by a strange person.
âItâs okay. You can sleep. Iâm not gonna move you around, nothingâs gonna hurt youâ â you whispered to him in his blanket cove, and it almost seemed like he let out a sigh of relief before hesitatingly closing his eyes to get some much-needed rest.
You had placed him near the windowsill, so he could overlook your entire room and not feel claustrophobic or trapped while also being able to observe whatever you were doing in your room.
What you didnât know was that Hyunjin was observing you for entirely different reasons. You assumed the bat would feel threatened by you, while he was anything but. His little bat heart thumped faster at the prospect of you fussing over him and taking care of his injuries. While he really wanted to fully enjoy having someone watch over him like this, his brain kept reminding him of the fact that he wasnât just a random bat, he was a vampire that needed to feed on someone sooner or later. He would rather it be sooner, knowing how weak, cranky and irritated he gets if he doesnât get his blood fix.
That could wait, however, because for now he sank into the many blankets you provided him with and drifted off into very vivid dreams of you.
Your dreams werenât nearly as nice to you as they were to him, an uncomfortable weight was pressing into your body. Your chest felt heavy, leaving you breathless and giving way for the rising anxiety in you to increase tenfold. Before the nightmare could take you further into its cold embrace, you jolted awake, your head hitting something solid that was hovering above you.
You and the unidentified object both let out a groan at the same time, your eyes snapping open at the unfamiliar voice right in front of you.
A gorgeous man was kneeling on the side of your bed, pouting while rubbing the spot on his forehead where the two of you collided. While he was distracted, you let your eyes involuntarily wander, taking note of how the flowy silk shirt he was wearing revealed far too much of his chest and long neck. His skin was pale but perfect and looked soft to the touch.
You blinked to rid yourself of these thoughts.
âIâm really sorry, I didnât mean toâ â he was already standing again at the side of your bed, fiddling with the ends of his sleeves, biting into his plush lower lip nervously.
âItâs just⊠You helped me, and I am really thirsty. My mind just kinda thought thatâŠâ
âI helped you? How? Who even are you?â
At that, something in his face lit up and a small sheepish smile appeared. He continued fiddling with his sleeves but nodded towards the small mountain of blankets that was still by your windowsill and now entirely empty.
âIâm Hyunjin. The bat. Vampire?â â he sounded unsure himself.
âWere you trying to drink from me? While I was asleep?â â your hand instinctively reached up to touch the side of your neck that he had been eyeing for a while now. In your half-asleep state you thought that maybe you would have let him if he did.
âI-âŠuhm, I think so? Drink from you, yes but Iâd much rather you consented to it than me⊠descending upon you while youâre unconscious or-â
âDo it, then.â
âHuh?â
âYou said you were thirsty, right? So drink.â
Hyunjinâs mouth was slightly agape as he stood there gawking at you like you just told him to perform an entire circus act, so you patted your neck for good measure. His Adamâs apple moved as he gulped and moved his lithe body back onto your bed and as he came closer, you suddenly got increasingly more unsure about your own decision. Your hands uselessly grabbed the bedsheets as your pet bat turned vampire peered down at you from his kneeling position on the side of your bed.
âAre you really sure?â â he questioned in a silent voice as his eyes flitted between your face and your clenching hands.
âYou can say no, you know. I know how to take care of myselfâ, his hand came to rest above yours, slightly massaging it as he spoke, âyou taking care of me just did something to me. Something I havenât felt in a couple of years. I donât really want to leave but Iâd hate to hurt you even more.â
The moonlight shining through your blinds made his gentle eyes seem all the more sweet and inviting, casting a soft glow around his head.
Lost for words, you nodded at him, signaling for him to continue but he wouldnât have it, his bottom lip jutting out in a dramatic pout.
âYou have to say it, darlingâ â he began to reposition his body to lay beside you, stretching out his long legs and propping up his head with his hand. His free hand reached out to caress your cheek and you wondered how you were supposed to say anything comprehensible if someone so beautiful and irresistible was touching you, albeit innocently.
âYou can bite me, drink from me, whatever you wantâ â you answered him finally even if it was a bit shaky and a smile broke through his features.
âLetâs stop at drinking, hm?â
And then he was on you, the hand on your cheek now angling your head the other way so he could reach your neck the way that he wanted. The sensation of his plush lips coming into contact with your clammy skin in a gentle kiss made you gasp. Hyunjin let out a deep chuckle before his fangs punctured your neck.
The contrast between the harshness of his fangs and the loving hold he had on you made you even more dizzy than just the general bloodloss. You found that your hands had wandered from the bedsheets to the front of his shirt, tangling themselves into the silky fabric, unsure if they wanted to pull him closer or push him away.
It felt like an eternity had passed when he finally removed himself from you slowly but not before giving a tender kiss to the wound almost as if it was an apology.
âThank youâ â he licked his lips contently before moving to get up entirely. You didnât want him to leave, your hands stayed twisted in his shirt. He giggled and you countered with a whine.
âDonât go, Hyunjin⊠please.â
The vampire hadnât expected you to be this needy after a simple bite but who was he to refuse?
âIâm not gonna leave, sweetheart. I drank from you, so itâs only right I make sure you donât feel like shit in the morning, donât you think? Let me take care of you.â
Well, when he put it like that. His words soothed the gnawing anxiety at the back of your head and your grip on him loosened, your eyes droopy and your body tired.
As you slowly drifted off to sleep, Hyunjin made sure to grab everything he needed to take care of you in the morning.
He grabbed the blankets from the windowsill and curled up beside your sleeping form, already giddy at the thought that you were fonder of him than he had originally assumed and that he could spend the morning with you.
And as he watched you sleep with fondness in his eyes and his heart calling out to you, he thought that maybe it was worth it to get into a fight with a random stray cat.
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A Surprise^**
Hello friends, thank you so much for your patience. I ended up having quite a disastrous day and it took longer to finish editing! But here is the one shot based off of this request. Hope you like it!
Warnings: TW! abusive partner: mentions of love-bombing, gaslighting/accusations of infidelity, verbal arguments, intimidation tactics (psychological and physical), physical altercation between M/F ( described, but more intimidating than violent or aimed to hurt), physical altercation between M/M (not described but the aftermath is mentioned, bloody nosy type of thing), mentions of law enforcement and law enforcement processes. Mentions of sex, unprotected sex, oral (M/F receiving), fingering, unplanned pregnancy, ultrasound procedure.
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You were nervous as you rode up in the elevator. You werenât claustrophobic or anything, so the feeling of it closing in on you was one you had no idea how to deal with. You were trying to keep your breathing as calm as possible and clearing your head of any irrational or negative thoughts, but it was truly a challenge. It had been a nearly a year since you and Harry had been in any space together and it was nerve-racking. What was originally supposed to be a month or two-long break, turned into all this time and distance. He said he wanted to talk and get some closure, which you thought was bull shit, and thatâs why you were so nervous.
Before âthe breakâ you and Harry had been dating for four years. Things had been going really well up until he started getting antsy to work again. Youâd moved to London for him and now that he was finally âoffâ you saw that he was jumping into the next thing he could. You understood that he felt like he needed to do something with his time but soon enough he was back in the studio for hours at a time while you just hung out at his house. You lasted a year like that before you told him that you couldnât do it anymore. You felt lonely in your relationship with him and you saw that he wasnât ready to slow down and settle a bit like he said he was before. That was the whole reason why youâd even moved to London for him. So when you suggested a little time apart to have him sort through his priorities he freaked out on you. But the following morning the tune was different, he was more open to this idea of taking some time apart.
You had assured him over and over again that you loved him but that you were ready for the next step and he clearly wasnât. He then assured you that you were the love of his life and that heâd take a month or two to just tie up all the loose strings with his current project and then focus back on your relationship. You even went back home to LA to give him all the space he needed. You checked in with each other a lot but when the two months were up you reached out and didnât get a response back until two weeks later. Much to your dismay it was just an âIâm sorry.â And with tears in your eyes you just deleted the entire messaging feed you had with him.
A few months later you were back on the dating scene. One of your co-workers set you up with her cousin, Steven. He came off as sweet, smart, and mature. He mostly had his shit together from what sheâd said and you had seen, so you gave him a real chance. Yeah, he was no Harry, but no one would ever equate to Harry, so you stopped comparing and got to know him for who he was. Soon enough youâd started to develop more feelings for Steven, he showered you in attention and time and affection, it was almost too much, you thought. But then you recalled that things had been so cold with Harry towards the end that maybe you just werenât used it anymore. It wasnât love-bombing, it was just a man who is interested in showing you what you meant to him. After two months of seeing him casually you started talking about the future, about starting a real, committed relationship. You talked about properly meeting each otherâs families and taking serious steps forward, you were gearing up to properly move on with someone who clearly prioritized you! And then Harry called.Â
He was jealous, you heard it in his voice when he called, but the fact that he was jealous pleased you in a way. Honestly, you thought youâd be so well off that when you spoke to him youâd feel above him somehow, but when you heard his voice your heart ached with longing and your small victory suddenly made you feel a bit sadistic. He then asked to see you to get some closure and you quickly agreed because you needed it too. But thatâs how you ended up at his hotel just an hour later. So far you were just standing there at his hotel door just taking each other in. Quite frankly, you were just pleased you had made it out of the elevator alive. But it felt like itâd been ages and no time at all at the same time, your heart was racing in the confines of your chest, making it hard to breathe once again. It made you so happy, but hurt your heart at the same time to see him. It was so confusing, feeling relief and joy and disappointment all at the same time.Â
âYou look great.â He complimented you after a few moments of staring.
âOh! Thanks.â You smiled timidly, âH-how are you?â
âIâm alright. Come on in.â He said moving aside and you wandered in. You sat at the couch in his suite as he headed to the kitchenette.
âCan I offer you some water or tea?â He asked.
âNo, Iâm alright.â You assured and he nodded before coming over to sit near you on the couch. You sat in silence for a few moments again before he chuckled in slight disbelief and shook his head.
âI canât believe youâre actually here.â He confessed with a shake of his head.
âMe either.â You chuckled a bit humorlessly. He had wronged youâŠthe only thing that you knew about him right now was that he did not love you as much as he said he did. If he did he wouldnât have left you hanging like he had. âI guess I justâŠneeded to see you one more time. I donât think that we left off on a good note so-â
âExactly. Thatâs why I wanted to see you.â He said leaning forward and taking your hand and your facade of stoicism and ease melted away immediately. The hurt from his actions just came to the surface and made a pang of pain ripple from your chest all the way out to your fingertips, you swore even your scalp hurt as his eyes met yours apologetically.
âHarry, itâs almost been a year.â You pointed out and he frowned.
âI know, love.â He confirmed, âAnd I havenât even tried t-to apologize since that text I sent you.â He said and your eyes started welling up. âIâm so sorry, Y/N. I justâŠI got scared that if I took that step forward with you it meant that my work was gone.â He explained and you scoffed.
âHarry, no! When I asked you to slow down thatâs all I meant. Slow down, not stop! Iâd never tell you to stop.â You sighed, exasperated and upset that he even thought that youâd ever make him stop doing what he loved most, âI just wanted you to slow down a little and enjoy your life for yourself. Spend time with your mom and your sister and your cousins and nieces and nephews!â You vented, âW-with me.â You added towards the end and he nodded in understanding. âWhat you do with your work matters to me. I see how happy it makes you. And I donât think Iâve ever done anything to make you feel like you couldnât be honest with me about your priorities.â You said and he shook his head.
âYou didnât. I shouldâve talked to you about it all, Y/N. I know I fucked up, big time, but I love you and-â
âNo you donâtâŠâ you interrupted with a scoff as you pulled your hand away from his, âYouâre just jealous because Iâm ready to move on with someone else now.â You said to him and he glanced up at the ceiling and smiled sadly.
âYeah, of course Iâm fucking jealous!â he confessed through a pained, breathy laugh, âAnd I still love you and whether you believe it or not because of my previous actions, I respect you and you deserve an apology. Thatâs why I wanted to see you.â He explained as his eyes met yours again, âI know that Iâve lost you, Y/N.â He said sadly, âBelieve me, I didnât come to try and talk you out of that decision. I just wanted to tell you, in person, that I love you with my whole heart. I shouldâve fought for you. You showed me so much love and gave me all of your care and support all the time! I shouldnât have been scared t-to talk about it. I shouldnât have let you go.â He explained, âIâm going to have to live with that for the rest of my life, Y/N. I know that.â He sniffled and you wiped your tears carefully. âI just needed you to know that itâs not anything you did. I love you, even still, I think Iâll die loving you.â He said.
âJesus, HarryâŠâ you inhaled sharply before standing up quickly. You grabbed your purse from the coffee table and started rushing back to the door.
âBaby! Baby, baby, baby-â he rushed in front of you blocking the door, âJ-just wait.â He sniffled, he looked panicked.
âWhy should I?â You questioned him, âWhy now?â You asked for clarity and he swallowed thickly, âYou had this whole fucking time and now that Iâm just about t-to forget about you, y-you show up andâŠâ you trailed off as your anger boiled over and your tears started to trickle down your face more heavily.
âY/N, Iâm sorry-â He started.
âY-you better not be trying to manipulate me!â You warned, your voice raised in accusation and he shook his head.
âI know it might seem that way b-but Iâm not, love. Iâm not looking for anything from you, I know I donât deserve it. I just needed t-to see you and apologize to you and tell you how I feel before you wouldnât entertain the idea of me in your presence ever again. And I know you probably hate me so much right now-â He explained and you inhaled sharply with a disappointed shake of your head.
âThatâs the stupidest fucking part of this whole thing! I-â you stopped and shook your head, âI felt so happy when I heard from you.â You confessed, âAnd I still have so much love for you.â You sniffled and felt sick to your stomach just admitting it. You felt like an idiot for it.
You had gone over a very similar scenario in your head if not millions of times before while daydreaming or lying in bed. You dreamed of him coming back and apologizing and you having the strength to not come crawling back to him after whatever excuse he gave. Except youâd gotten it wrong. Harry wasnât standing before you asking you to come back to him with an underlying arrogance that came with knowing that your love was enough to have you come back to him. He was actually just coming to be accountable for his mistakes and to apologize to you for hurting you. He came with humility and sincere repentance for his errors, no ulterior motives. And well, you werenât nearly as strong as you thought youâd be by now.
âOh, babyâŠâ he sighed, âI donât deserve it.â He recognized, âAnd I know that youâre happy.â
âI am.â You sniffled.
âIâm sorry if I made you feel confused, I really didnât want that. I really just wanted to make things as right as I could after all this time.â
âThank you.â You responded and he gave you one firm nod. âI think I should go.â You said and he glanced into your eyes and just waited for a moment and when you didnât waiver he exhaled and moved out of your way to let you leave.
You reached for the door and opened it up before stepping out into the hall, pulling it shut behind you as you cried quietly as you walked back to the elevator, what seemed like a trap before now felt like your much needed escape. You were just about to step inside when you glanced back down the hallway at his door, questioning if youâd been too harsh. After all, you did miss him and you still loved himâŠyouâd definitely regret not giving him a hug goodbye or even just confirming to him that you forgave him. So with all the strength you had, you ignored that pull to return to him and got inside and left. It was time to move on.
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Youâd been quiet and in your head all afternoon. Internalizing everything you were feeling was weird because you were never one to just let things brew in silence. You had to talk about it and your best friend was back in the UK and she had an important work thing in the morning so you couldnât interrupt and you just wanted to talk to someone who would be 100% real with you. You decided to just distract yourself until stopped by for dinner, surely his company would provide an adequate distraction.
But even when Steven arrived you found yourself ruminating on how awkwardly youâd left Harry. You certainly got what you needed but you were out of there so fast that you had no idea if he got the closure he needed from you and now you felt bad! Thatâs what you were thinking about, but your silent and pensive demeanor had Steven feeling iced out which he did not like. So after sitting in your little living room on his phone for half an hour in complete silence as his football game droned on, on the TV he figured heâd just ask you.
âBabe, are you upset at me?â He finally asked as he came into the kitchen. You were just grating some carrots into the salad you were making for dinner.
âNo.â You assured him with a small smile as you glanced up at him briefly.
âWell, youâve been oddly quiet since I got here. More than half the time Iâm wishing youâd just shut up for five minutes but I donât know anymoreâŠitâs weird.â He joked, trying to make light of the situation. But upon hearing that your brows pinched in confusion and offense at his âjokeâ.
âThatâs quite rude and not funny at all. I heard you turn on the game and you donât like it when I talk to you when youâr watching so I just stayed quiet.â You mumbled a bit spitefully before going back to grating and he came closer and placed a hand on your hip.
âDamn, youâre so sensitive, it was a joke.â He said mawkishly and your irritation continued blooming so you refused to look at him, âY/N, youâre clearly in your head about something and now youâre taking it out on me.â He said and you sighed.
âIâm not taking anything out on you, Steven. Iâm just thinking some stuff through.â You shared with him.
âStuff likeâŠ?â He pressed.
âLikeâŠmy ex, Harry.â You said and he straightened up at the mention of Harryâs name.
âAre you fucking kidding me?â He asked with a sardonic smile and you put down the carrot and glanced up at him.
âYou asked.â You emphasized and he huffed out a sarcastic laugh, âIâm not done, so listen up because itâs good news for you.â You said and he clenched his jaw and nodded, âWell heâs in town and he asked to see me so we could talk,â You explained and Stevenâs expression twisted into a disconcerting look, âso earlier I met up with him and we talked-â
âWait.â He cut you off, âWhy the hell would you think to go see your ex?â He asked you, fully offended over what youâd done this afternoon.
âI went to get closure! And well, considering weâve been talking about starting a relationship in the near future itâs good for us that I just close that door for good.â You explained and he shook his head.
âAnd you didnât think to tell me about this before you went there?â
âIt happened so fast and I know you were meeting clients all day so I-â
âYou should have at least asked if I was fine with you doing that!â He groaned with frustration and you frowned.
âLikeâŠask you for permission?â You asked and he shook his head.
âDonât put words in my mouth, Y/N.â He snapped quickly.
âIâm not, I was asking for clarification. You said I shouldâve asked if it was alright with you before going. Is that not asking for permission?â You asked and he sighed.
âLook, not permission but likeâŠat least consider me! Like, have me be there so he doesnât get any ideas.â He said and you looked at him like he was completely delusional.
âW-what?!â You asked in disbelief, âWhy would I invite you into a conversation with me and my ex about our old relationship?â You questioned.
âBecause, I need to make sure nothing weird is going on! And if you didnât want me there, which you clearly didnât, then you shouldâve asked if I was cool with you going to meet him all alone! It makes me uncomfortable to think of you two alone.â He said and you were complete confused at his logic.
âAnd what if you said that no, I couldnât go?â You asked.
âI wouldâve said no and you wouldâve not gone.â He rebutted confidently and you were in total shock, âYou have no business talking to him again, Y/N.â He added and you sighed and shook your head in exasperation.
âI wanted answers and an apology, Steven. I am owed at least that! And he took responsibility. He was able to give that to me.â You said and he scoffed.
âYouâreâŠyouâre so fucking naive.â He said and you looked at him in confusion, âItâs a test. He was testing you! Testing you to see if youâre still loyal to him. Testing to see if he still has power over you! And guess what? By going there all alone the moment he called you up, you confirmed that for him. You confirmed that he still owns you!â He was speaking to you in the most belittling way. You felt your rage flaring up inside of you.
âWhat are you even saying?!â You scoffed in disbelief, âIt was just a conversation! I was in and out of there in less than 10 minutes!â You laughed incredulously.
â10 minutes? Really? That alone fucked you up so much you couldnât talk to me?â He asked with a sardonic look on his face and you rolled your eyes, âSee now, Iâm not so sure that something else didnât happen between you two.â He soft-launched his accusation and you scoffed.
âNothing happened! Iâm telling you that he said what he needed to say and I just left!â You explained, âIâm just thinking on it because I donât feel right about just having left like that.â You explained, âIt was awkward, the way I handled it. I didnât even ask him if he had any questions for me or anything else to say, I was selfish. I just got the apology I needed and that was that.â You said a bit sadly and his jaw clenched for a second before biting down on the inside of his cheek.
âYou promise that was it?â He asked you after a few moments of silence.
âI promise! Literally we just talked.â You reiterated and he nodded.
âFine. Iâm sorry.â He said grumpily, like a child who is dying inside because they had to apologize. You imagined he was feeling a bit ashamed or even embarrassed for jumping to conclusions like that and being so off the mark. So you walked up to him and hugged him tight as you rested your head against his chest. You relaxed in his arms and smiled when you felt his hand grab your jaw and angle up your face. Your eyes met for a few tense seconds, you were preparing for him to ardently kiss you but suddenly his hand fell from your jaw and grabbed around your throat, right beneath your jaw. Your eyes widened in fear as his grip got a bit tighter by the second. His eyes were dark as he stared into yours.
âS-steven.â You gasped in concern as you started to run out of oxygen. You tried to wiggle out of his grip, eyes watery and full of fear as your nails dug into his wrist hoping to startle him out of whatever possessed him to do this.
âI donât want you talking to or seeing him again. Never again. Do you understand me?â He demanded and you felt your entire body just turn cold. You had no idea how to even react to this change in Stevenâs demeanor so you just nodded. âYouâre going to be mine soon and I need to know that I can trust you fully.â He said âI want to trust you. But can I? Can I trust you to stay away from him?â he asked and you nodded again, youâd do anything to get out of this situation, âThen say it. Swear to me.â He insisted darkly as he loosened his grip around you.
âI-Iâll never talk to him or see him again.â You whispered, âI swear.â You insisted with tearful eyes and he let you go before walking out of the kitchen silently.Â
You grabbed onto the counter because your legs unexpectedly lost their strength. You were panting, struggling so hard to breathe as this entire interaction processed in your brain. You suddenly felt extremely nauseated as a wave of fear overcame you. You trembled wordlessly for a bit, feeling so devastatingly mortal. Youâd never had such little power. Youâd never felt so small. After a short, uncomfortable, and contemplative moment you grabbed the carrot you had been working on and got back to grating. You just had to take deep breaths and grate.
You were walking on egg shells for the remainder of the night, doing anything and everything to act as normal as possible and not bait him into another aggression. Meanwhile, he was genuinely chatting with you so casually, as if he hadnât just grabbed you by the throat like that. It terrified you that he wasnât acting, he was genuinely fine. You were questioning yourself now, wondering if there were signs you missed? Granted, you were now getting into more serious turf, but there was nothing that youâd seen before that indicated towards him ever behaving this way. Even as you lay in bed attempting to get some rest you just stared at your ceiling thinking about that moment. How dark his eyes lookedâŠdid you need to tell someone? Itâs not like heâd actually hurt youâŠor threatened youâŠhe just made you promise to stay away from Harry. There wasnât even a mark on you. Who would believe you or what could you even do about it?
He sweetened up intensely after that though and it had your mind reeling. Even when youâd had sex earlier he had been so possessive. Normally, any type of sensual talk got you going but when he told you he was âgoing to make you hisâ as he finished it didnât have the usual or intended effect, it made you feel uneasy and made you regret having slept with him after what had happened earlier on. You immediately hopped into the shower because you just needed to wash off the memory of him of on you. You held in your tears because you thought he would join you but he just called out a goodbye after some minutes. But even in your solitude you were practically frozen and emotionless. Youâd never experienced him like that and it worried you, so you decided to talk to your friend about it.
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You were nervous to talk to Marie about this because she was also his cousin, but you just needed to know if there was a history to Steven that you didnât know yet. Maybe heâd done something like this before, just got aggressive and overly possessive with another partner? Or perhaps heâd been cheated on and severely overreacted because of his past hurt? But Marieâs sort of distant demeanor shouldâve tipped you off that things were not going to be good with this conversation.
âThanks for meeting me. I actually wanted t-to talk to you about something important.â You said as soon as the waiter left after bringing your drinks. âSomething that happened w-with Steven.â You said and she pulled away from her straw.
âLook, you donât need to tell me what happened, Y/N.â She interjected, âSteven already told me.â She said flatly and for a second her anger seemed just. You were glad she was angry at him for you. âAnd look I love you and youâre my friend, but quite frankly, I canât believe youâd go and hook up with Harry after how good Steven has been to you.â She said and your jaw dropped in shock.
âW-wait what?â You asked incredulously.
âDonât do that with me, Y/N. I know how weak you are for Harry.â She said and you shook your head, âI meanâŠI did warn Steven early on t-to be careful and take his time with you because youâd probably cave and run back to Harry.â She said and you frowned, âBut after all this time? I mean Jesus, Y/N! The man pretended like you didnât exist for almost a year! How little self respect do you have t-to allow him back in after everything?!â She questioned you with disappointment and a harsh judgement.
âIs that really what you think of me?â You asked her and she sighed.
âLook, Iâm sorry for being so harsh but I love you and Iâm angry at you for cheating on my cousin. Heâs a good guy!â She defended her stance and you shook your head.
âI didnât cheat on your cousin. Weâre not even in an official or exclusive relationship so even if I had fooled around with Harry he has nothing to be upset over! Heâs the one who hasnât wanted to be exclusive yet!â You corrected and Marie smiled incredulously down at her drink, âYou donât have to believe me about Harry if you donât want but believe this, Steven? Heâs not a good guy.â You said and she looked up at you again fully offended.
âY/N, look-â
âNo, listen to me. I just need you t-to hear me out. Last night heâŠh-he grabbed me really hard by the throat and made me swear I would never talk to or see Harry again. He terrified me.â You confessed and her eyes didnât even soften up, âI came t-to ask if maybe Iâd struck a nerve by mistake, looking to justify how he behaved towards me but the fact that he got to you first and lied about what happenedâŠthat just confirmed to me that I want nothing to do with him. Heâs a ticking time bomb and I refuse to be collateral damage.â You said as you stood from your seat.
âHow dare you.â She said and stood as well and you shook your head. âYou canât just go around throwing accusations about someone like that! Especially about this sort of thing! It could ruin him, Y/N!â She said with a quiet and calculated rage.
âBelieve what you want, but I want nothing to do with either of you ever again.â You said to her and walked off. When you sat in your car you were trembling with rage, you could not believe the last 24 hours of your life. You were just collecting yourself before taking off, you didnât want to get on the road with that much anger flowing through your veins. You jumped in surprise when your phone started ringing loudly from your purse and you groaned and reached for it and when you saw Harryâs name on the screen you just felt a wave of comfort and then it turned into fear. You knew Steven wasnât here but you couldnât help but glance around your immediate surroundings before answering the call.
âHello?â You spoke into the receiver tentatively.
âY/N, I ummm, I need you to come down to my hotel right away if you can.â He said to you and you felt your stomach drop.
âW-why?â You asked him nervously.
âYour boyfriend broke into my suite and tried to attack me.â He said and you gasped. âAre you alright?â You asked instantly.
âYeah, thankfully. But now h-heâs telling the officers that you put him up to this.â He said lowly, âJust come and weâll sort this out.â He assured.
âOkay, Iâll be there soon.â You said and took off despite your heightened emotions.
Just before you arrived to Harryâs suite you saw a pair of officers guide Steven away down the hall in hand cuffs. He had a bandage over his nose and a busted lip. He barely held eye contact with you as they pulled him along. You rushed down the hall and hurried into the open suite more than relieved to see a paramedic only icing Harryâs hand while he talked to one of the officers looming over him.
âOh my god, Iâm glad youâre okay!â You exclaimed in relief and he stood right away and hugged you tight as you leaned into him and thatâs when all of your emotions from even the night before caught up with you and you started to cry.Â
âHey, hey, hey, itâs alright. Iâm alright.â He assured you lowly.
âYeah, but sometimes you minimize things to not worry anyone soâŠâ you reminded and he chuckled a little as you pulled back, âIâm so sorry about this, H. Sincerely. Genuinely! I-I canât believe he went as far as pulling something like this.â You expressed, still quite flabbergasted at what had gone down. Harry rubbed over your back in comforting circles.
âItâs alright. Iâm alright.â He assured you, âHeâs worse off than I am.â He smirked a bit as he delivered this news.
âOh, I saw.â You chuckled through your tears and he hummed. âYouâre not gonna get into any trouble, are you?â You asked.
âNo, love.â He assured you, âI acted in self-defense so weâre all clear there. He did give me a good scare though.â He said more seriously and you sighed.Â
âThis never should have happenedâŠI just donât get it where this came from? I swear, this is not at all like him! Iâve never seen him behave this way in the couple months weâve been seeing each other. Even last night was just so out of character for how heâs always been towards me! And Iâm not trying to make excuses for him. Clearly this is fucked-â
âWait. What happened last night?â Harry asked you more seriously and you sighed and shook your head.
âNothing, really.â You said to him and he gave you a look, not a scary one, just an insistent one. You sighed and shrugged, âLast night when IâŠwhen I told him we met up to talk and get closure he got really angry at me. Like, he was livid. It was truly an overreaction to me mentioning that I was really happy over having received that apology from you but that I felt like I had been awkward about it and left it weird with us.â You explained, âThen, he asked why I didnât ask for permission t-to talk to you or see you or why I didnât ask him to come with me? And I explained that I agreed to meet with you so that we could clear the air so that I could move on with him in peace and he accused me of fooling around with you.â You explained monotonously as you felt like you were there all over again, âI assured him we just talked and he then pretended like it was fine and apologized half-heartedly⊠and I went in to hug him but then itâs like a switch flipped.â You recounted what had happened, âI thought he was going t-to kiss me but heâŠâ your voice faded out into an exhale, âH-he grabbed me so hard by the throat and made me swear that I wouldnât see o-or talk to you ever again-â
âMiss?â One of the officers interrupted and you turned towards the officer as Harry released you just a bit.Â
âYes?â You asked softly.
âCan you elaborate more on this altercation?â He asked and you swallowed thickly.
âI donât want to get anyone in trouble.â You said softly, eyes now laser focused on Harryâs dangling pendant as your vision started to blur with more building tears. You were scared more than worried about getting Steven into any more trouble and Harry could see that. âLove, look at me.â Harry insisted and you blinked rapidly as one of your tears trickled down your cheek before you looked up at him, âIf he did anything to scare you, you need to report it.â He said, âHeâs fucked as it is for this, he canât do anything to you ever again. He wonât.â Harry assured you and you nodded.
You proceeded to explain what had happened and how he had grabbed you. You explained that you felt intimidated and frozen and unsure of what to do next after the altercation. You were asked why you didnât call the police or make a report and you explained that you didnât think there was anything to report. He hadnât technically hit you or injured you. You had no visible marks on you or anything to prove this apart from the fear youâd been harboring ever since. But the officer informed you that even a forceful grab is considered assault in the sate of California. And that speaking to you that way, exerting any tactics to make you feel subdued or intimidated were also considered acts of aggression and intimidation that were reportable offenses. And after a few more questions and you assuring them that he had never done anything like this to you before they moved back to the situation with Harry. With police reports filed they went on their way and you offered to get Harry a new place to spend the rest of his trip.
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It was just a few hours later and you were sitting in your living room waiting for Harry to come out of the shower and for his lawyer to arrive. You felt awful for this whole thing with Steven, you really had no idea he was a psycho like this. Marie had actually tried calling you almost 20 times and had sent you about 15 texts asking you to call back and that she was sorry for not believing you earlier. You were still too angry at her to respond so you put your phone on âDo Not Disturbâ and just focused on the TV and wondered if it was a good idea to have brought Harry to your home. You had found another place for him to stay but before you booked it he asked if it would be alright to use your guest room because he was concerned for your safety since Steven knew where you lived.Â
His concerns were valid. And you knew that Steven was well connected and had several lawyer friends who you were sure could get him out on bail by the morning, so you agreed to let him stay. You just didnât want to also put Harry in harmâs way again. You would never forgive yourself if Steven did anything to hurt him. All in all, none of this felt real, you felt like you were in an unhinged daytime soap episode just waiting for another tragedy to befall you and those in your life. You were so on edge that you flinched in fright when the doorbell rang. Once the shiver passed through your body you hurried over to see through the peephole and saw Harryâs lawyer waiting there.
âHi Darius.â You greeted him with a smile and he smiled back upon seeing you as well. Itâd been quite a while.
âY/N! Wow!â He chuckled, âItâs so great to see you!â He greeted you happily as you led him inside.
âLikewise! I think Harryâs just finishing up his shower, he had quite the day.â You said as you locked up behind him and he sighed.
âYeah. Iâm so sorry to hear about that. But Iâm glad heâs safe and that youâre also safe.â He assured you and you thanked him before guiding him over to the kitchen and allowing him to get set up while you went to grab the Coca-cola heâd requested.Â
It was just a couple of minutes before Harry joined you two and caught up a bit with Darius before he got into the story of what happened. Harry was going to follow through on pressing charges and he was even more motivated to get it all done ASAP when he heard what Steven had done to you the night before. He wanted to give Darius his statement as well while it was fresh in his memory so that it matched up perfectly to what heâd told the police and so he started answering the questions while Darius recorded and took notes as well. But hearing it in detail for yourself made it all the more sinister for you. You werenât even thinking about it all that deeply when you reached for Harryâs hand under the table and he paused and briefly looked at you.
âSorry.â You mouthed and started to pull it away from him but he instead tangled your fingers together and kept talking.
You stayed at his side for the rest of the time until Darius left, assuring you both that heâd let you know as soon as any headway was made in this case. With a final farewell you were locking up behind him as Harry waited for you just a small distance away. You sighed and turned to him.
âIâm so, so sorry about this, Harry. If I had know that he would do something like this⊠I mean, I just shouldnât have said anything to him about you or-â
âHey, itâs not your fault. How were you supposed to know, love?â He asked as he grabbed your face gently, right under your jaw and you swallowed thickly and he quickly slid his hands down to your shoulders. âShit, Iâm sorry. I forgot.â He said and you shook your head.
âItâs alright. Itâs still fresh.â You reminded and he sighed and shook his head.
âIâm sorryâŠif I had just come back to you when I was supposed to we wouldnât be in this mess.â He said and you sighed.
âYou werenât happy though, I meanâŠyou preferred to be alone all this time instead of back with me soâŠit was the right thing for you at the time.â You said to him.
âYou forgive me though, right? For notâŠâ he trailed off and you nodded.
âYeah, H.â You assured him and he pecked your lips quickly.
âThank you.â He said quietly.
âOf course.â You whispered back. Your lips still tingling from his quick kiss.Â
âSorry, I just needed to kiss you.â He said and you smiled slightly.
âI get it.â You assured him. âD-do you want toâŠsleep with me?â You asked with a little bit of hesitation.
âYeah, love.â He said without a hint of a doubt, âOf course. Iâm a bit shaken up myself.â He said and you nodded.
âCâmon then.â You said and grabbed his hand and guided him to your bedroom. You guys washed up and then cuddled into your bed.Â
You faced each other silently, just looking at each other, taking each other in. You were telling each other you had missed each other with your shared, longing gaze, but you refused to touch. You both loved the static and electric feeling buzzing between your bodies far too much. It was masochism in its purest form. It hurt to be apart, you missed his vibe. His energy. His presenceâŠHarry was a warm, little ball of light, even on his dark days. He was the kindest, most thoughtful person youâd been is fortunate to encounter. He was so hard on himself also, and you knew he was angry at himself right now. You didnât want him to be though, you wanted him to be here with you and enjoying this reunion, however unfortunate the situation was that led to it.Â
The amount of love you felt for him was impossible. As you laid in silence you smiled because you had truly missed the sound of his breathing. You inhaled his exhales, feeling more than grateful to be within his reach. You wanted to feel him on you, skin to skin. You shivered as you felt this intense love just surge through you.
âHarry?â
âYeah?â
âI love you.â You said softly and sincerely. His eyes glanced down, averting from your gaze as he smiled in disbelief. âI mean it.âÂ
âEven after all this time?â He asked, âAfter everything Iâve done?â
âI didnât say I wasnât hurt by you.â You smiled and he chuckled, âBut yeah, I still love you despite those things.â
âEnough to give me another chance?â He asked.
âIâŠI mean, yeah.â You chuckled nervously. âAnd I donât know i-if Iâm a complete fool for that?! But Iâve missed you.â
âIâve missed you too, baby. More so latelyâŠâ he said and you hummed.
âWhyâs that?â You asked.
âUmmâŠI was cleaning out your side of things. Like to send âem back to you and I justâŠI found this little box in the corner on your side of the closet-â
âThe memory box!â You exclaimed, remembering its existence.
âYeahâŠI just got to see all of the wonderful things weâve shared together. How youâve been there for absolutely everything. Youâve never let me down.â He said softly, âAnd I justâŠfelt like a total fool for dismissing that. Nothing feels the same without you, youâre the thing that justâŠtied everything together, you know? You made my heart feelâŠwhole.â He explained, âWhen I say that I miss you thatâs what I mean. Iâve been incomplete without you around, Y/N. Iâve been missing you from everything. Iâm so sorry that I waited until I almost lost you to reach out to youâŠâ he whispered with shame. You frowned and reached for his cheek
âEverything happens for a reason, honey.â You whispered, âI mean, Iâm glad you came along at this time because you saved me from a potentially dangerous situation.â You said more solemnly.
âIâm glad I was here for this. May-maybe this is aâŠsign of sorts for you to come back home with me.â He said a bit carefully.Â
Harry was nervous to bring this up to you but he really just didnât want you staying anywhere near this man. He wanted to be certain that he could keep you safe, that he could protect you and ensure that you were never so easily in harmâs way again. And on top of that, his love for you continued simmering lowly in the background, it had never gone out. He just fled out of fear and he regretted it so much. He had been selfish and didnât realize it until far too late. It filled him with gratitude that youâd even hear him out for an apology, let alone give him another chance. A chance that he may have blown with this suggestion heâd just put out there.
âUmmmâŠIâŠIâm not sure w-what to say to that.â You responded honestly, âLike, my first instinct is to say yes.â You chuckled nervously and while he was relieved to hear that, he held off his excitement to hear what would come next, âBut like youâve acknowledged a couple times already, weâve been apart for a while and I think we both hurt each other to some extent and I worry thatâŠin jumping right back into where we left things off that weâll forget about all of the issues that led to us breaking down instead of working through them.â You said and he hummed.
âYeah, thatâs extremely valid.â He responded, âAnd I guess I want this right now mainly because I donât want you here all alone.â He explained, âI realize we have things to work through before we can get to where we were before all this. And Iâm so willing to put in the work with you to get to that stage again. But right now I just want to ensure that youâre safe and far away from that prick, Steven. Thatâs my main concern as of now, baby.â
âWell thank you for worrying about me. I would love to leave with you but I donât think itâd be a smart move.â You sighed.
âEven just for a few weeks until things cool off a bit? I can set you up somewhere else even.â He said and you bit your lip pensively.
âIâll think about it.â You responded.
âOkay, thatâsâŠthatâs enough for me.â He whispered back.
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It was a couple weeks later when Steven finally showed up at your place. Obviously you had the locks changed, so his key didnât work, which really angered him. And when you heard him shouting at you and pounding on the door, threatening to break in if you didnât allow him in, you immediately called the cops as you had a restraining order filed against him. You also recorded everything this time as you tried to calmly coax him into leaving before they showed up. He was angry that Harry was pressing charges against him and he wanted you to talk him out of it. You knew better than to say anything about Harryâs case, so instead you asked Steven how he even got access to Harryâs location. Up until this point it was all speculation, you just assumed he grabbed the information off of your phone, that really was the only way. But there was no proof yet that this was a premeditated aggression on Stevenâs end. So when he confessed to you that he searched for the information on your phone you were relieved and would submit that as further evidence to get a more strict order against him.
He refused to leave and the longer you didnât let him in the angrier he got and even broke a window. Thankfully, the police were just arriving when this happened and they submitted an Emergency Protective Order, this was far more strict than the restraining order but that was really all they could do. You really didnât feel safe anymore so the next morning you contacted your landlord and explained to her what had happened and let her know that youâd have to terminate your lease early for your safety. She was kind and didnât make you pay the extra fee or even make you finish out a whole month, she just hoped youâd fine somewhere else soon.Â
You contacted Harry and of course, he said you could stay with him for a little bit. You felt stupid for not just doing that to begin with like he had suggested. But the reality was that he had also hurt you and let you down and you were worried about what moving in together again so soon would do to impact your future. But for the time being this felt like the safest choice. Steven knew your friends and co-workers in the area thanks to Marie, so there was no one you could go to in LA that you felt he wouldnât think of. It pained you to quit your job and pack up your life and go, but you needed to. Of course, Harry welcomed you with open arms and you were grateful to know that you were a whole continent and ocean away from LA right now.Â
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It had been three weeks of you living with Harry and things had been going well so far. You felt drained though, like completely fatigued from everything, you often felt this way when you were anxious or depressed so you prioritized reconnecting with your therapist from before right away. You were seeing her every week so far and were eager to see and feel the results of doing this deep and healing work after what had happened to you and Harry in LA. You also reconnected with a few friends and they were helping you network a bit to find a job. Harry assured you that he was more than capable to take care of you but you didnât feel comfortable with that, especially since your romantic future together was still a bit up in the air.
You two were doing well, you were reconnecting as friends more than anything right now. Living with him was comfortable though, you had lived together before though, so you knew how to exist in the same space together. You soon noticed that just being in a situation that was familiar to you both was making you both more affectionate towards each other though, which you both had been working hard to keep at bay. Of course, the feelings were there, but having those little things that reminded you, you werenât alone made you smile, like nowâŠ
âBaby, Iâm home! Are you here?â Harry called as he came into the house.
âYeah, Iâm in the laundry room!â You called back over the rumble of the washing machine as you folded your laundry. Moments later he was coming into the small, warm room with a smile on his face.
âHi, love! How was it today?â He asked as he came up to you and hugged you.
âIt was good. I met with Poppy and her friend, Sheila, sheâs the one who just started up her own tanner line or something and needs an accountant? Sheâs interested, so Iâm meeting with her and her partner again her next week when sheâs back from her vacation to see about the position.â You shared.
âThatâs really good. Hopefully it pans out.â
âI hope so too.â You said as you dropped the t-shirt you were working on in the basket with folded laundry so that you could interlace your fingers as you clung to him.
âAnd like I said before though, no rush, okay? Youâre doing plenty to help out here. And after everything else youâve been through, taking it slow canât hurt.â He added.
âThank you. I really do appreciate that, H.â You smiled.
âOf course, love.â He hummed. You pulled back slowly and looked into each otherâs eyes. âIâm really happy youâre here.â He reassured you.
âThank you, baby.â You whispered.
âBaby?â He asked with a grin and you rolled your eyes and sighed.
âWell, I meanâŠyou call me that, soâŠâ
âIt feels right, doesnât it?â
âYeah.â You agreed with a smile.
âI love you.â
âI love you too.â You whispered with a smile. He tucked your hair behind your ear and kissed your cheek.
âCan I kiss your for real?â He asked you quietly and you just nodded. Moments later your lips met in a tentative kiss. There was a little bit of hesitation at first but seconds later you were kissing with more depth. Your hands held his as he cupped your face tenderly as you continued to kiss. Youâd kissed very quickly a handful of times since your arrival but nothing like this where you could feel yourself getting all hot and bothered by it.
âBabyâŠâ you mumbled into the kiss.
âRightâŠsorry.â He hummed and let you go breaking the kiss abruptly and you chuckled as you blindly reached down your leg and finally grabbed the dryer sheet that was half hanging out of the dryer and tickling your leg. You crumbled it up and tossed it in the garbage bin just a few feel away from you before turning back and looking up to him.
âYou can continue now.â You said with a small smile and he grinned before picking you up and setting you on the dryer as your mouths met with more urgency. Your kiss and need started to grow and grow and boil over very quickly.
It really wasnât planned when he carried you to his room and got you undressed. Even though youâd yet to resolve everything from before, you didnât feel worried or wrong about this. You felt comfortable and beautiful as you felt his bare skin against your own. You were eagerly awaiting it as he kissed down your body and made you feel so good along the way. He wasted no time in getting down and going down on you, showing you just how much he had missed you. He savored you and gave you his best until you were starting to lose your grip on reality.
âOh fuck, I missed youâŠâ you giggled through a moan as his tongue did itâs wonderful work between your legs. You were tingling all over as he flicked over your clit until you were trembling and then he started to suck, âOh my god!â You gasped as your eyes started to roll back. âIâm getting so close!â You warned.Â
Your lips parted and you started to pant when he started to work two fingers into you. Your breath hitched when he curved them up into your g-spot. You felt your body melt into the bed for a second before he started to fuck into you harden until you were so tense your legs trembled as you started to come. The soft moans flowing from your lips were egging Harry on, making him even more hungry for you. You pulled him back up to you and your lips met eagerly as you reached for the button of his jeans.
âWant âem off?â He asked and you nodded, âSure, baby?â He asked and you nodded.
âYeah, baby. I want you. I need you.â You whispered and he smiled before kissing your lips quickly before pulling back a bit.
âI justâŠI need you to know that if we do this I want us t-to be the thing that means weâre going to try again.â He said and your gaze softened, âObviously, Iâve missed your body and having you like this, but this is more than that to me. I want it to be more than that.â He said and you nodded.
âI do too, baby. I want to try again. I really do.â You said to him with welled up eyes and he smiled and kissed you slowly again.
âYou are everything to me.â He mumbled as you helped get his pants off blindly as he tugged the material down, âIâm never going to forget that again. I swear it, baby. You make me so fucking happy.â He panted as he toed off the pants before he climbed over you and pulled you up with him towards the the top of the bed. You climbed over his lap and kissed his passionately. Harryâs hands roamed your naked body with expertise. He knew the spots to touch and to pay mind to as you guys worked up to the love-making bit. You too appreciated his body. You touched and kissed over his body and took his length into your mouth, working him up just a bit more before you two had sex.Â
âShit, babyâŠfuck thatâs so good!â He groaned as you sunk down on him until you gagged around his tip. You werenât as used to his size as you once were.Â
âCareful, baby. Go easy.â He reminded as he stroked over your cheek lovingly before running his thumb along your stretched out bottom lip. He loved seeing how you fit him in your hot little mouth. It had his abs clenching hard as you rolled and fondled his heavy balls in your hands until he was fighting the urge to start thrusting in your mouth. âBaby, pleaseâŠplease, I need you.â He panted and you popped off of him and glanced up at him.
âCan I get on?â You asked and he swallowed thickly.
âA-are you sure you want this?â He asked and you nodded.
âI do, H. I want this with you. I want everything with you. Everything that we had, I want it all back. I love you more than anything in the wor-â he cut you off with his kiss and laid you down. You were dying of impatience as hi heavy erection glided against your slicked up and swollen folds, you were so ready to have him back.
âI love you. I love you so much.â He whispered as he lined up to your entrance.
âI love you too. Please justâŠI need you.â You begged and so he pushed forward until he was sinking deep in your hot, wet little hole until he bottomed out.Â
You hissed as you adjusted back to his size, he was great about it, so patient and eager to get you going by rubbing over your clit until you were so wet you were sliding up and down his shaft. He watched you hungrily as you lifted your hips up and down to feel him moving inside of you. But it got to the point where he needed to take over and just get you both to come. His thrusts were deep and slow, he was bottoming out with each one, it was making your brain blank each and every time he sunk into the deepest part of you. Your body was tingling and your walls fluttering and pulsing around him with every movement. Everything felt so good with him. He was looking down at you with so much adoration it was making you even more emotional.
âBaby, baby donât cry.â He chuckled as he kissed your forehead as a few tears streamed down your cheek.
âIt just feels soâŠgood.â You sniffled and he kissed you quickly, âIt feels so good to be with you.â You hummed as you rolled your hips up against his and he moaned lowly and kissed you again.
âYeah? Are you gonna come for me?â He asked and you nodded. âGood girl, let me know when youâre getting close.â
âI will.â You whined out as he delved deep and ground against you until your eyes squeezed shut, âShit!â You gasped as he started thrusting a bit faster into that spot until you just felt yourself leaking around.
âFuckâŠâ he laughed, âFuck, youâre so wet fâme, I-Iâm getting close.â He panted and you whined and started to rub your clit to catch up to him.
In a few moments you were right there on the edge with him. Your back was arching as you moaned his name as your orgasm nearly took you out. Your ears were ringing and your vision was blurring as you started to come around him. He started to thrust faster to get off, but he was drawing out your orgasm until you were trembling.
âFuckâŠfuck, Iâm coming!â He warned as he started to press himself up to pull out. âOh fuuuuckâŠâ he moaned as he started to stroke himself as he came all over your mound. He thrusted his sensitive cock through your folds, making a little mess of you before kissing you ardently. âI love you. Love you so fucking much.â He whispered, his voice cracked as he started to cry and you pulled him into your chest and held him tight as you both just let your raw emotions out in this moment.Â
You both needed it desperately. After he settled down he hurried to get something to clean you off and then you started to talk about you two. What you wanted, what you hoped to see in the future. Youâd had these conversations before but even now the things that Harry was saying to you were complete different than before. Losing you seemed to be the thing that woke him up to how much heâd been taking you for granted. Heâd gotten used to it, heâd gotten complacent at your expense.
âItâs going to be so different this time.â He said softly as he looked deep in your eyes, âI will be different this time.â He assured and you sighed.
âI believe youâŠthereâs just a little part of me that is still not ready to let you back in.â You explained after he had explained how he was going to show up for you from now on, âI want to just trust you fully, but Iâm afraid that youâll make a fool of me again. That youâll hurt me again.â You explained, âAnd I know y-you wonât but I just need to let you know that Iâm still learning to trust you fully again.â You explained. âSo please justâŠbe a little patient with me.â You requested and he smiled.
âI know, baby. I will be patient with you and I will do everything I can to prove to you that I will never do anything to make you doubt choosing me again.â He said and kissed you slowly. You smiled into the kiss and let him pull you closer to him again and thatâs how you fell asleep, nestled close together.
âŠ.. ONE MONTH LATER âŠ.
In this short amount of time things had drastically shifted between you and Harry. Youâd started to go on a date a week, doing thoughtful things for each other, sharing your feelings as they arose, communicated openlyâŠheâd matured a lot in your time apart and helped you overcome your fears faster than you anticipated. You were so proud of him and it was spilling over into every moment. Like now, you were filled with a surge of love as you wandered into the kitchen to see him pulling out your favorite salad dressing from the fridge.
âHiya, baby. Whatâre you up to?â You asked.
âJust making us your favorite salad for a light lunch.â He said.
âWow, lunch already?â you asked and he smiled as you went over to him and hugged him from the back as you peeked over to his hands, eager to direct him on how much dressing he needed to add.
âYeah, love!â He chuckled, âWe had breakfast at 8! Itâs already past 2pm.â He informed you and that surprised you. But youâd been so sucked into your work that it was very possible that you forgot to even feel hungry.
âOh, I didnât realize.â You explained and he frowned a bit.
âBaby, have you been feeling alright? Itâs not just today, Iâve noticed that you havenât had much of an appetite at all lately.â He pointed out and you frowned as you gave it some thought and realized that yeah, this was something youâd been feeling for at least two weeks. Maybe it was intense PMS? You hadnât gotten your period since moving here, so you hoped it was just your body finally catching up with itself.
âYouâre rightâŠI mean, I have very visceral reactions to stress and big changesâŠI mean, my whole body and system have just been out of whack for a little but theyâll balance out again.â You assured him and he hummed.
âThatâs true, itâs been hectic for you.â He said as he opened up the dressing bottle, âHonestly, I was thinking that-â he stopped as you gagged as the scent of the dressing wafting up towards you. You had to let him go and go hunch yourself over the sink as you felt the scent of the dressing just linger in your nose and mouth. âBabyâŠ?â Harry came over and rubbed your back slowly, âAre you alright?â
âYeahâŠâ you grimaced, âBut I think the dressing is bad. Didnât you smell that? It was rank!â You turned to him with a disgusted look on your face and he frowned.
âI didnât smell anything. You look a bit awful now though. Youâre all pale.â He said feeling your forehead and you exhaled slowly to ward off the nausea that you suddenly felt making your head spin.
âI might throw up, the dressing smells so bad.â You explained and he frowned and turned to the counter and brought it up to his nose and it smelled just fine to him. He even checked the bottle for the usage date and it was still good.Â
âThis is fineâŠshould I mix your salad with something else then?â He asked and you shook your head.
âI think Iâm fine. Iâll just have some toast.â You said and he nodded. Eventually, you had to go back to your âofficeâ and leave him hanging for lunch because you could not handle the look and scent of the salad, especially that dressing. By the time dinner rolled around you were still feeling a little off so you just had some veggies in a chicken broth and that was that.
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Youâd truly forgotten about your sensitive sense of smell until once again, you were assailed by an unbearable scent. Except this time it had happened at your friend, Poppyâs house. And this time you did actually get sick.
âGod, Iâm so sorry, P.â You apologized as you returned to her kitchen with embarrassment, âI swear its not your cooking, my nose has just been so sensitive lately and I get to grossed out by certain scents. Iâm not sure what exactly yet though.â You explained to her.
âGod, you sound like my sister when she got pregnant.â Poppy chuckled and you froze. That hadnât even crossed your mind. Yeah, youâd missed your period for the last two months but literally everything impacted your period, your cycle was fickle, especially when you were under as much stress as youâd been. You werenât surprised that it hadnât come at all. Truly, this wasnât new to you, especially when you were stressed out, regardless of whether or not you were on the pill (which you werenât after moving back here, youâd run out the week before you came out). Then, you recalled that when you and Harry had sex the first time he hadnât used a condom. Yeah, heâd pulled out but that was never a guarantee.
âHey, whatâs wrong?â Poppy asked you with concern.
âI think I should probably take a test just to rule that out. I mean, itâsâŠvery unlikely but I was a bit irresponsible a bit ago and just need some peace of mind.â You said.
âOkay, I have some in my bathroom, let me get you one.â She offered and you nodded so she hurried off to get it for you.
You were sure you were good, but you just needed to see it for yourself. There was absolutely no way you could be pregnant, you werenât ready for that. Harry wasnât ready for that. Like emotionally you guys were, but you had just rekindled your relationship, the last thing you needed was something this crazy to throw a wrench in things so quickly after youâd gotten back together.
âAlright, here you are, babe.â She said handing over the box as she came up to you again.
âThanks.â You smiled nervously.
âW-would you mind if I did it here?â You asked her and she smiled and shook her head.
âOf course not.â She assured you and with that you were off to the bathroom again, sitting there, willing yourself to pee enough to saturate the stick and finally it came and you put the cap back on it and washed your hands before coming out. âI hate to be that person but what if you are pregnant?â She asked and you sighed.
âI have no ideaâŠâ you confessed through a nervous chuckle while you stared at the wall blankly, âI mean, H and I justâŠGod, weâre just getting back into the groove of things. Throwing a baby into the mix at this time isnât going to make anything easier. Itâs just not what we need right now.â You explained to her.
âYeah, I get that.â She chuckled, âCam and I try and then we stop because of the same thing and likeâŠugh, itâs just a vicious cycle! And genuinely, if you have that many doubts itâs just that youâre not prepared for it, you know? Thatâs what I had to tell Cam after a few months.â She explained and you nodded in understanding. âI-if you areâŠwhat do you think Harryâd say?â She asked and you sighed.
âI have no fucking clueâŠâ you admitted, âObviously, before, we had said we wanted to have a family together. But again, that was before everything went to shit with us.â You sighed, âAnd like, weâre in such a good place right nowâŠâ you sighed, âLike I know he wouldnât be a prick about it but weâre not quite ready for that yet.â You chuckled nervously and Poppy nodded in understanding.
âWell, donât worry, youâll see in a few minutes that everything is fine.â She smiled with encouragement.Â
You decided to believe her that everything was going to be fine. You were already booked for a full body, deep tissue massage next week with Poppy when your timer went off. You turned off the timer and then brought the test up closer and your heart stopped beating and you stopped breathing for what felt like an eternity. Staring right back at you, clear as day, were two little pink lines.
âTh-that means IâmâŠright?â You asked showing Poppy and she bit her lip nervously and nodded.
âAre you okay?â She asked you with concern and you just exhaled slowly. You were completely taken by surprise. Then you started to get worried.
âI ummmâŠI think I need to get home.â You said to her, still in shock. You swallowed thickly as you tried to imagine how Harry would react to the news that he would be a father.
âDo you want me to drive you over?â She offered, since you had walked from Harryâs to hers. It was just a 20 minute walk, you guys lived quite close.
âNo, no, P, itâs alright. I think walking will be good for me, I need toâŠI needâŠâ you trailed off as your eyes started to well up with tears as you started to imagine the worst case scenario.
âHeyâŠHey, hey, hey, câmere.â She said pulling you into her arms as you started to cry, âItâs going to be alright, babe. H is not gonna be angry, you know that.â She assured you as she rubbed comforting circles into your back as you held her tight. âYou have options, yeah? You know that heâll have your back no matter what.â She said and you nodded, âLet me get you home, yeah?â
âOkay.â You whispered to your best friend and she gave you one more squeeze before letting you go.
 Once you got to your place she encouraged you to have a shower and that sheâd get some tea going for you. You texted Harry that you needed him to come home as soon as possible, you didnât want this solely on your chest for another minute. You took your time and when Harry started pulling into your driveway Poppy popped in and let you know before shouting a goodbye to you. You sighed and relished in the warm water for just another moment before turning off the water. You were soon reaching for your robe and slipping into it. You padded over to the mirror to wash your face and you bit your lip before untying the robe and looking over your body. You looked the same, you saw no evidence of a baby.
âBaby?â You heard Harry calling from downstairs. Soon, his footsteps were heard coming up the stairs and you quickly tied your robe up and got to lathering your face wash in your hands.
âIn the bathroom!â You called back before rubbing it into your skin. He rushed into the bathroom and looked more than relieved to see you intact.
âAre you alright?â He asked and you sighed and quickly bent over to rinse your face. You then dabbed it dry as you reached for your toner.
âI think soâŠâ you responded after a little bit, âI donât know.â You sighed as you grabbed your moisturizer.
âWell whatâs going on? Hmmm?â He asked you as he came over and kissed your shoulder, his arms wrapped around your middled and pulled you in closer and suddenly you had to throw up again. You gasped and wriggled out of his hold and turned around to face him. Your eyes started welling up with tears again and you were just building up the courage to say it. âBaby, youâre worrying me.â He said softly and you swallowed thickly.
âUmmmâŠIâŠIâm pregnant.â You said and his jaw slightly dropped. He let out a small and nervous laugh before he just pulled you back into his arms without a single word. You hugged him back and just held each other for a little bit.
âWhat do you want to do?â He finally asked you and you shook your head.
âI have no fucking clueâŠâ you said and he let you go and hoisted you up onto the counter. You draped your arms over his shoulders as he held your thighs, âI mean, what do you think?â You asked and he sighed.
âI donât fucking knowâŠI mean, thatâs gonna be our baby so IâŠlike Iâm inclined t-to give it a try. But at the same time I donât know that our relationship is ready for something like this. I mean, I want this with you in a few years but weâre just getting started again.â
âI knowâŠI donât even know how thisâŠlike you pulled out.â
âI know, but itâs not always a guaranteed thing.â He said and you sighed.
âI shouldâve said something thenâŠâ you shook your head as you rubbed your forehead with one of your hands.
âHey, thereâs no point for any wouldâve-shouldâve-s,â he said, âItâs gonna be alright. Weâll figure it out soon, okay?â You nodded, âJust take your time, baby. Whatever you decide, I have your back.â He assured you and you nodded. He grabbed your face and kissed your lips until you were smiling.
âStoooop.â You giggled, âMânot in the mood.â You pouted through your smile and he smiled.
âI think youâre lying.â He hummed and you rolled your eyes. âLook, how about we get an appointment with the doctor and see how far along you are and maybe thatâll help us decide what we might want to do.â He said and you nodded.
âYes, good thinking.â You smiled, âGod, I was so scared to tell you.â You sighed and he tutted.
âWhat made you think to take a test?â
âI smelled something P was cooking and got sick.â You said, you felt tour cheeks growing hot in embarrassment. Harry chuckled and then furrowed his brows pensively.Â
âDidnât you almost get sick at the salad dressing a bit ago?â He recalled and you chuckled.
âYeah, thatâs trueâŠâ you remembered, âI mean, I know I havenât gotten my period but-â
âHow was that not a sign?!â He chuckled in disbelief and you proceeded to explain how your period often skipped when you were under a lot of stress so this wasnât an odd thing for you. But he was sweet, he was calm, but you could see the cogs just turning at full speed in his mind. You hoped he wasnât angry at you, but you couldnât help but think that he was and that he would run again. âIâm not angry, you know?â He mumbled softly and you glanced into his eyes and smiled a bit, âI can see it in your eyes, you know?â He whispered.
âYou sure?â
âI am, baby. But I amâŠexcited tooâŠI mean, I donât want to dwell on it too much incase we decide not to proceed with this butâŠI am. I mean, youâre the only person I want to have a life with. No matter how it happens, itâs you that I want to have babies with and raise them with and just share that experience with. So if you did want to continue with the pregnancy that would be good with me too.â He hummed.
âOkay. Thank you for your opinion.â You whispered before kissing his lips and hugging him tight against. You kissed at his neck as you just nestled yourself in the crook of it. âI love you.â
âI love you.â He smiled.
âŠ. TWO DAYS LATER âŠ.
You currently found your self peeing into a cup at the doctorâs office. You knew you were pregnant, but the doctor wanted to verify before they did an ultrasound to see where you were at. Once you finished you closed up the little jar and left it not he shelf as instructed. You washed your hands and then scurried across the hall and back into your room to see Harry intently reading the poster on the wall abut pregnancy.
âYou know you get super horny during the second trimester.â He said in amusement, âAs if you needed any more of that while pregnantâŠgreedy.â He mumbled with a grin and you chuckled.
âYouâre dumb.â You said as you went back over to the bench and sat again. You dangled your feet back and forth for a bit before Harry came over.
âWhatâre you thinking?â
âIâm thinking thatâŠthis is fucking insane.â You chuckled.
âIn a good way?â
âYeahâŠbad too.â You hummed and he nodded and leaned in to kiss your cheek.
âItâs going to be just fine, baby.â He assured you right as the doctor knocked at the door. âCome in!â Harry called and soon the woman was coming in.
âHello, Y/N!â Dr. Sallow greeted you sweetly, âGlad youâre back!â She said with glee and you smiled.
âThank you.â You replied, âAnd ummm, this is Harry, myâŠpartner.â You said and she turned to him and smiled.
âHarry, wonderful to meet you.â She smiled and extended her hand and they shook them quickly before she walked over to the screen. âSo, youâre here because you are pregnant.â She said and you nodded, âI can confirm that.â She smiled and Harry squeezed your knee when you inhaled sharply. It sort of felt official now. âSo we can definitely do an ultrasound if youâd like, the room is available. Or did you have other questions?â she asked.
âDefinitely an ultrasound. Want to know how far along I am and that sort of thing.â
âIâd assume fairly early if youâre just noticing any symptoms, so donât be too disappointed if we donât see much of anything just yet.â She forewarned and you both nodded. âAlright, Iâm gonna have nurse Debbie set up the room and then sheâll escort you over and weâll get a look at you.â
âThank you.â You smiled and soon she excused herself before fluttering off to her next patient. You only waited a couple of minutes before nurse Debbie came to escort you to the ultrasound room and got you all set up. Harry was practically bouncing beside you with anxiety as he waited.Â
âLet me get the doctor.â Debbie said and hurried out. You glanced over to Harry.
âHey, hold my hand.â You said and he dragged a chair over and interlocked your fingers. âIâm so excited to see.â You whispered and he grinned wide.
âMe too.â He confessed and you chuckled. âMaybe weâŠthink a bit more about keeping itâŠâ he suggested and you smiled a bit.
âYeah? You mean it?â You asked softly and he nodded.
âI do, baby.â He smiled.Â
A few moments later Dr. Sallow was announcing herself again before coming in. She explained the procedure and then got the gel on you before grabbing the camera and gliding it over your tummy, looking for the best spot.
âOhâŠthere we are.â she hummed and Harry immediately shot upon seeing the image projected on the screen.
âOh my godâŠâ he whispered as he squeezed your hand tight and you smiled up at him quickly before you both glanced back over to the screen.
âSo that there is the head and the arms and legsâŠâ she pointed out and shifted the angle, âDo you want to know the sex?â She asked as she turned to you and you chuckled.
âThatâsâŠummm, isnât it a bit early to know that?â You asked her and she shook her head.
âNot at all, we can tell as early as 10 week if the position is right.â She explained and youâre heart stopped.
âAnd Iâm already 10 weeks along?â You asked shakily as the realization of what this meant started to settle in. You felt Harry starting to pull his hand away from yours.
âOh no, youâre more like 14 weeks, dear.â She said and thatâs when Harry completely pulled away from you and you felt the air completely leave your lungs. You turned to him and he just clenched his jaw as he ran his fingers through the top of his hair. âSo do you want to know?â She asked and you were so frozen that you nodded quickly as your eyes teared up. âItâs a girl.â She said with a smiled and you just nodded.
âThatâsâŠthatâs so great.â You whispered and then brought a hand up over your mouth in an attempt to muffle the sound as started to cry. Dr. Sallow turned to you quickly with concern and then you felt Harryâs hand grab yours again. You turned towards him and saw he was crying too. âIâm sorry.â You whispered and he shook his head.
âWeâll talk about it.â He said to you softly and you nodded.
âIs everything alright?â Dr. Sallow asked and you sniffled.
âSorry, yes. I just didnât mean to say that.â You explained and she apologized but you assured her it was fine.Â
You just wanted to get out of there⊠you were mortified. This wasnât Harryâs baby and now you really had no idea what to do. You always used condoms with Steven, but now that you knew he was psycho, you had no doubt that he was capable of sabotaging you like this. More than anything you were so hurt and angry that he had taken this from you and Harry. For a second you almost turned and asked for an appointment for an abortion but you glanced at the screen and you were flooded with guilt for even thinking that.
âUmmm, Iâd like to leave.â You said as you started to sit up and Dr. Sallow was quick to clean you off. Harry helped you off of the reclining seat and you were back on the road not even ten minutes later.Â
You were just silent the whole way home, you felt like shit. You felt awful for getting Harry all excited only to know that this was not his child you were carrying. You were so confused right now, you almost wanted to pinch yourself and hope you woke up. You could feel Harry continuously glancing over at you but you couldnât look at him. There was no way you could look at him after this. It was over between you twoâŠthere was no way you could ask him to stay with you after this. It wouldnât be fair to him. When you got to the house you made it to the stairwell and plopped down as you started to sob violently.
You moved to the side when you saw Harry coming over, assuming he was just going to go up to the bedroom. But then he crouched down and sat a step above you and pulled you into him by the shoulders.
âItâs o-â
âDonât say itâs okay.â You cut him off, âThis is not okay.â You whispered sadly. âI hate Steven.â You seethed and he swallowed thickly as you started to sob and he pulled you closer and kissed the side of your head.
âI love you, okay? This doesnât change that for me.â He said to you and you shook your head.
âI would never ask you or expect to stay. Itâs not fair to you, HarryâŠâ you said sadly, âI was about to tell Dr. Sallow that I wanted to abort but then I saw the screen again and I justâŠI donât think I can do it. Thatâs likeâŠa part of me too and I justâŠI donât think I can go through with it.â You said again, sputtering on your tears. âIf that means that weâre over, I get it. I totally understand it.â You sniffled.
Harry frowned deeply as he heard you say this. His heart was completely torn right now. He thought you were reacting this way because you were going to terminate the pregnancy upon finding out that it wasnât your baby together. But hearing you say that you wouldnât be able to do that, it made him so angry and so hurt. Despite his own feelings about this, he fully understood why changed your mind. After seeing the tiny little thing tucked inside of you his heart was in shambles too. He was fully ready to advocate for you guys keeping it, but hearing how far along you were, it completely shattered his heart. He felt physically ill as the moment replayed in his brain. Youâd both slept with other people during your time apart, so he wasnât angry at that, it was more that it was Stevenâs. A man who had hurt you and disrespected you and that scared you. It made the hate he felt for him grow even more intense than it already was. He was livid, he could kill him for taking this from you two. Harry had to decide how he would proceed from here. You were fully prepared to leave him again in order to keep this baby and the thought of it put so much sorrow in his heart. He didnât want to lose you.
The idea of leaving you and letting you do this all on your own made his sad. You didnât deserve that. You deserved to have a good pregnancy, one that came with a supportive partner, someone to share the experience with. He wanted to be the person to be there for you but right now the thought of that little thing growing inside of you made his blood boil with hatred. He couldnât think clearly in the slightest.Â
âI ummmâŠI love you so much, baby. I just, I think I need some time t-to process this and just think about it all.â He said to you and you nodded. âI love you though. You know that right?â He asked and you nodded again as he kissed the side of your head.
âLove you too.â You whispered and he hummed. âShould I go for a couple of days?â You asked quietly.
âNo, baby.â He said quietly, âYou stay here and rest up.â He hummed lowly, âI think Iâm gonna go up north and just spend a few days with my mum, clear my head, if thatâs alright?â He asked. You wanted to say no, the last thing you wanted right now was to be all alone with this information. But you had no choice but to agree, you had just put him in the most impossible position and he deserved to have the space to think about it as calmly and comfortably as possible.
âYeah, sure.â You whispered.
âCan I tell my mum?â He asked and you sighed.
âWhy the fuck notâŠâ You chuckled through your tears and he pouted.
âHey, look at me.â He insisted, âI wonât if you donât want me to, baby. This is about you, about your body. If you want me to keep it to myself I will.â He assured.
âSorry. Iâm just afraid that itâll change how she feels about me.â You explained nervously. Youâd had a wonderful relationship with Anne. You missed her wisdom and kindness and friendship during your time apart from Harry and hearing that another man had impregnated you, her sonâs girlfriend, well youâd understand if it upset her.Â
âNoâŠI mean, things happen. Accidents happen.â He said and you shook your head.
âBaby, I-I donât think this was accidental because we used a condom every single time. Iâm certain of it!â You wept, âLike Iâm not stupid, or careless like that.â You assured.
âYou think he ruined the condoms?â He asked and you sighed as you recalled all of the overtly possessive things Steven had been saying to you during sex the last month or so that you had been together. Things about making you his forever, about giving him babies one day, making you a momâŠyou thought he was just introducing some of his preferences in bed with that kind of talk, but maybe it was more than that.Â
âItâs very possible.â You said softly.
âJesusâŠâ he shook his head, âHow fucked up was this guy?â He asked you and you shrugged.
âI never saw that side of him before all of this.â You said and Harry sighed and nodded. After a moment of silence he cleared his throat.
âUmmmâŠIâm just gonna pack and head out soon, want to avoid that rush hour traffic near Birmingham.â He said and you nodded.Â
He stood up and then offered to help you stand as well before you guys went up to the room. You sat on the bed as you watched him pack a couple days worth of clothes. You wanted to ask him to stay, but you couldnât be that selfish. This was the least you could do for him after that a-bomb was just dropped on him. Not to mention the a-bomb youâd just dumped on him too. When he finished packing up his bag he went over and kissed you quickly.
âIâm not running away from you, okay? I just need to clear my head.â He reassured you, his words were mumbled against your forehead before he kissed you there, âI love you so much.â He whispered before kissing your lips.
âLove you.â You mumbled, âText when you get there, yeah?â
âI will, baby.â He assured.
âBe safe.â
âAlways.â He hummed before he bid you farewell once more before he left.Â
Once you heard him pull out of the driveway you just curled up on your side and started to cry. This couldnât be realâŠthere was no way this could be real. You felt completely defeated. The only thing you could think that made you happy was that you never wanted Steven to know about this, you didnât want to give him the satisfaction. You had no idea how that would go down with your child in the future, but right now you wanted him not to know a single thing about you ever again. After coming to that conclusion you ended up calling your mom and telling her everything that happened. You talked and cried for nearly an hour before she had to go, but not without promising sheâd call again and chat the next day in order to keep you some company, even from afar.Â
After that you decided to draw yourself a warm and relaxing bath, that always made you feel so calm. So you started out on that, letting your bath bomb melt in the warm water as you made yourself a nice cup of tea, your last caffeinated one for the foreseeable future, and then got inside.
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Harry had been driving up the M1 motorway for a bit before he quickly texted his mum his ETA. This caused her to call him right away and ask what this surprise visit was about, but he couldnât speak when he answered her call. He just sobbed, he sobbed for nearly 15 minutes before he shared what had happened that morning at the doctorâs office. He explained everything he was feeling, even the bad things he was thinking, but the one thing that kept coming up was how much he loved you.
âI love her so much but I just donât think I could get past the fact that, that prick is the babyâs dadâŠI cannot for the life of me sit with that information and not become enraged by it.â He said, it pained him to spare Steven a thought.
âD-do you feel angry at Y/N for being with him?â She asked and he frowned.
âNo/ Itâs not like I didnât see other people but I hate that she thinks that I couldnât be with her after this. Like, I think about letting her go, like sheâs saying, and it absolutely guts me.â He explained. âAnd likeâŠI feel bad that it crossed my mind at some point, but not for the reasons you might think, itâs just that I donât know i-if I am even prepared to take that role on.â He sniffled.
âNo one ever is, even when itâs meticulously planned, H.â She reasoned and he sighed,
âAre you concerned about him wanting to come back into her life?â She asked and he nodded.
âYeahâŠa bit.â He admitted, âI mean, I donât think heâs the type to take any accountability for his actions but if he finds out about it heâs so arrogant that he might want to just to make her uncomfortable. I mean, Y/N thinks it may have been deliberate because she said she always made sure t-to use protection. I mean, I wouldnât put it past him to do something like that, the man was completely mad.â He shared and his mum hummed in understanding.
âWell sweetheart, it doesnât sound to me like youâre all that conflicted. It sounds to me like you donât want to end things with her.â
âOf course not! But what if IâŠwhat I canât love that baby as much since I now know this?â He asked.
âI-is that whatâs holding you back?â She asked and he hummed on confirmation. He felt like a complete prick saying that but he was legitimately concerned about this. What if you went on to have your own kids together and it just changed something in him? What if he was open to being with you now but then changed his mind? What if he saw Steven every time he saw that baby and only felt anger instead of love? The chances of something like this happening were extremely low, practically non-existent, but not 0%. And in the end he would hurt you and that baby even more if he walked out because one of these things happened.
âYou know what I think?â
âWhat?â
âI think you will love her just fine, H. You know why?â She asked and he hummed, âBecause out of everyone in the world you know the impact that one incredible and dedicated man can have on a child.â She said and he sniffled, âYouâve seen for yourself that a biological connection is not needed to give someone unconditional love and support. Youâre lucky, you got that from two fathers.â She said and he smiled.
âYeah.â He whispered.
âIâm not saying that it wonât be scary and difficult at times t-to do this, but it can also be extremely beautiful and rewarding. Youâre both such wonderful people that if you decided to stay and do this together you could impact that childâs life for the better, just like yours was.âÂ
âRightâŠâ he said softly
âAnd well, honestly sweetheart, these concerns you have, theyâre things you need to figure out with Y/N. She will listen to you, H. I mean, if youâre feeling this conflicted about things I canât image how she must be feeling now.â she said with sympathy and when he saw himself nearing Birmingham he felt awful. It got as bad as him feeling sick to his stomach as he pictured your fearful and distraught face back in the bedroom. Heâd done it again, heâd left you hanging at a time when you needed his love and support the most. He loved you so much, he could not believe heâd left you alone in that state. And in two seconds he started to signal to get off of the motorway.
âMum, I ummmâŠI need to go back and be with, Y/N.â He decided, âI shouldnât have left here there by herself after everything she had to hear todayâŠIâd be surprised if she was still there after I just walked outâŠfuck!â He groaned in frustration.
âH, she loves you so much.â
âI love her tooâŠwhy do I keep doing the wrong thing and hurting her?â He cried now as he got off at the next exit. He was waiting for the traffic to clear before he could make his turn to turn around.
âI think it kind of scares you, how much you love her. And I think in a way you might feel like you could lose her, so you pull back regardless of how that might make her feel. Itâs self preservation.â She explained and he swallowed thickly. Hearing this helped him mentally decide that he wasnât going to run any more, after everything heâd done youâd given him another chance regardless of the possibility of him hurting you again. This was his chance to show you that his love for you was bigger than everything else. âDonât be afraid to open your heart, sweetheart.â She added and he hummed.
âAlright, thank you for listening. Iâm just gonna call Dr. A and ummmâŠhopefully sort some mental things out before I get back to Y/N.â He said.
âOkay, bub. Be safe, please let me know when youâre home safe. I love you.â
âLove you.â He mumbled before he hung up and got back onto the motorway but heading back towards the South. He wasnât going to do the same thing again and leave all alone to guess just how much he loved you, not this time. He was going to be there for you and support you and love you both.
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It was a bit odd to you when you heard the large gate to Harryâs house opening up. But then you recalled that sometimes his PA would do errands that required him to come to the house. So you just got out of the tub quickly and rinsed your body off in the shower before getting into your robe in case he came upstairs for any reason. You were just getting one of Harryâs hoodies when you heard his voice.
âBaby? Are you still here?â He called out as you heard the front door shut heavily against the frame. You hurried into the yoga pants youâd grabbed and rushed out to see him coming up the stairs.Â
âYou came back.â You sighed in relief as he hurried up and he just pulled you right into his arms and you started to cry.
âIâm so sorry. I should never have left you like this, baby.â He sniffled as he kissed your head over and over again. âI love you so much. I love you so fucking much.â He assured you. âIâm not leaving you alone with this, baby.â He said to you and you pulled back a bit to look at him.
âWhat do youâŠmean by that?â
âIt means that weâre doing this together.â He said to you and you shook your head.
âI canâtâŠI couldnât do that to you.â You said to him and he shook his head.
âYouâre not doing anything to me, baby. If youâre keeping this baby I am choosing to do this with you. I know itâs going to be hard but I will be there for you every step of the way and love our little babygirl with everything I am. I love you far too much to not see this through with you.â He said and you just broke down and hugged him tight.
You had no words, there was just joy. You knew this would be hard and challenging and even sad at times, but heâd come back to you and he wanted you to stay with him.
âI love you so much, H.â You finally whispered before kissing his lips.
âYouâre everything to me, baby. Weâre gonna get through this.â He smiled and you smiled.
âPromise?â
âI promise.â He smiled, âIt was actually my mum who reminded me that biology had nothing to do with being a great father, soâŠshe doesnât hate you.â He said and you chuckled through your tears.
âGood, that wouldâve definitely been the worst outcome.â You said jokingly and he smiled. âAnd look, I know that there are a lot of logistics and other things to discuss and Iâm still sorting through that mentally, s-so if you can just be a little patient with me while IâŠget that together in my head I would really appreciate that. Iâm still processing that thereâs a little person forming in there and itâs kind ofâŠfreaky.â You said as you looked up into his eyes and he sputtered on a laugh. You frowned at his reaction, âWhat?â
âI thought you were going to say it was magical or amazing, not freaky.â He giggled and you did as well.Â
âOhâŠwell, IâŠI donât feelâŠhappy about it yet.â You confessed to him and this brought on a fresh wave of tears, âI feel like shit about that. Like Iâm gonna be a mom, I should be happy, not freaked out, shouldnât I?â You asked him.
âNot necessarily. You can feel however you want about it, baby.â He assured you, âEspecially in this situation, itâs come as a surprise to you. I donât judge you at all for not feeling happy about this yet, baby.â
âPromise?â
âI swear it.â He promised before pecking your lips again quickly.
âThank you.â You whispered and he nodded and smile at you.
âWanna do something to take your mind off of things for a bit?â He asked.
âLike what?â
âWe canâŠsort through the pantry and fridge and see what foods youâll have an aversion to?â He offered and you smiled and shook your head at his bizarre, yet completely productive suggestion. âI see you trying to hold back your smile.â He teased and you finally gave in.
âThatâs the wildest but most genius thing youâve ever suggested.â You giggled.
âI know. Imagine how smart our kidâs gonna be?! Weâve got this in the bag.â He said confidently.
âYou think so?â You asked and he nodded.
âWith you as her mum, I know so.â He smiled.
âŠ. 1 YEAR LATER âŠ.
You woke up feeling completely refreshed and renewed. It was absolutely quiet in the house and it was strange to wake up in silence. When you rolled over and looked at your phone you saw it was nearly 10am and shot out of bed. You had no idea how youâd slept in that much! The baby needed to be fed and changed! You hurried over to the nursery already thinking up an apology in your head for Ellie. But when you made it into the nursery it was empty. Harry had some work to do for Pleasing today so you knew heâd be out. Maybe he called someone to come look after the baby? When you passed by his home studio on the way to the kitchen you heard his voice along with others, so you knocked on the door.
âCome in!â He called quickly and you peeked inside and immediately smiled when you saw Harry spin around in the chair with Elara sitting on his lap, she was literally just chilling there while she drooled all over one of the newer nail polishes Pleasing would release soon. He smiled at you over the sounds of whoever was speaking right now. âHey guys, are we good for today or is there anything else we needed to go over?â He asked with a smile as you waved from the background.
âWeâre all good!â You heard and then heard the multiple voices bidding farewell to you and baby Elara before he hung up.
âYou didnât have to do that.â You said to him as you walked into the room to grab her from him.
âItâs alright, baby, we were just chatting a bit.â He assured you, âWerenât we?â He asked the baby who just ignored him to keep attempting to bite the bottle in her hands before he started to rub at her back.
âI know you had work, you shouldâve woken me up.â You said as you kissed his head.
âNo way.â He chuckled, âYou know, you slept through two whole alarms, you clearly needed the rest. I thought you were dead for second there.â He said with grin and you tutted.
âDonât even say that.â You scolded.
âYouâre right, sorry. Bad joke.â He corrected himself, âBut really, my love, I donât mind doing these launch plan meetings online, itâs none of the fun stuff so.â He shrugged and you smiled, âBesides when I have Ellie on camera everyone is so obsessed with her little smile that theyâre so agreeable, so itâs a win-win.â He chuckled and you smirked.
âGod forbid the paps see her and exploit her for money, but her own father is exploiting her cuteness for sway in the board room.â You said with a grin and he chuckled.
âHey, she likes hearing all the commotion too.â He added and you smiled before kissing the top of her head and she sighed and laid over his chest making you both coo. âShe finally slept through the night. Sorry you missed it.â He said softly and you chuckled.
âIâm sorry youâre so used to waking up to her crying that you noticed!â You giggled as you raked your fingers through his curls easily and he hummed.
âI donât mind it. Reminds me that this little cutie is finally here.â He said and you smiled at how sweet he was with her.
âI canât believe sheâll be six whole months tomorrow.â You said in disbelief.
âI knowâŠSâyour half birthday, bub.â He said to her and she just blinked tiredly, "Sheâs perfect though, isnât she? Your little twin.â He hummed with pride as he looked down at her and then at you again. You nodded and watched him with her for a few moments.
Harry had nothing but love for baby Elara. He adored her completely. He almost felt silly for being so worried that he wouldnât bond with her as genuinely as if she were his biological daughter. Once he saw you starting to show and you guys started shopping for the nursery, and picking out baby names, every ounce of doubt he had melted away. That was his daughter in every sense of the word. He had so much love for the both of you that he felt like his heart would burst sometimes.
âI love you so much.â You said to him and he glanced up at you.
âMore than Ellie?â He smirked and you chuckled.
âThe same, I think.â You hummed and he looked surprised.
âOh wow, I was expecting a firm no.â He laughed.
âOh my godâŠI love you both. Itâs a bit different for sure but I somehow get it all to fit in my heart.â You said and he smiled as he stood up.
âLook at her, sheâs about to pass out again.â He said as he looked down at the baby.
âI think we should get her back in the crib and have a cuddle. We can watch that show youâve been pestering me about.â He suggested
âLove is Blind?â You gasped and he nodded.Â
Soon enough you had washed your face and brushed your teeth, as you did every morning, all while Harry got Ellie down. But he soon joined you in bed as you waited for him to return. He climbed into the bed beside you and like a magnet, you immediately scooted right up against him and kissed him gently, it caught him by surprise.
âThank you for letting me sleep in, baby. That was exquisite.â You confessed and he smiled and pecked your lips again.
âOf course, baby. Anytime.â He smiled. âI do have a question for you thoughâŠwhen are we going to have another baby?â He asked you and you giggled.
âUmmm, ask me in a year!â You laughed.
âA year?â He scoffed.
âHey, itâs hard work!â You added and he smiled.
âYeah, but itâs so worth it, isnât it?â He asked with a smile and you sighed happily at his response.
âYeahâŠâ you hummed, âItâs all worth it.â You smiled.
âOur little family makes me so happy, I just want one more.â He said and you glanced into his eyes.
âJust one more.â You agreed and he chuckled.
âYeah, just one.â He assured you, âSo in a year Iâll ask again, okay?â
âOkay.â You sniggered and kissed him quickly again before you got the show going.
You were explaining a little bit about why you were suddenly so interested in this show without trying to give away too much of what you knew had gone down, thanks to your friends and social media. He easily got sucked into the narrative and when you both started commenting as you watched on you just got so happy that you could share something so simple together and then also something as huge and serious as a baby. It made your tummy flutter and swirl with love for him and you then realized that maybe it would be less than a year before youâd be trying for another baby and you were perfectly alright with that.
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Reach Out, Touch Faith (Father Charlie Mayhew x Reader)
Summary: Day 22 - Thigh Riding. Someone to hear your prayers, someone who cares.
Note: Female reader, but no other descriptors are used. No spoilers for the show in this fic. I finally caught up on Grotesquerie and had to write something for Father Charlie! Shoutout to @leopard-skin-pillbox-hat-ok for even putting this show on my radar. Title comes from Personal Jesus by Depeche Mode.
Word count: 1.1k
Warnings: Sexually explicit content involving a member of the clergy, thigh riding, some degradation.
Only Father Charlie could walk the line between a wet dream and a saint. You found this out rather quickly after becoming a parishioner. Itâd been years since you went to church, but moving to the small town offered little in the way of a social life outside of work, so you swallowed your pride and began showing up to mass, and then getting involved in everything from the soup kitchen to movie nights. He didnât judge you when you admitted you were there to make friends. In fact, he encouraged it.
âPeople feel increasingly isolated these days,â he had told you. âThe church used to be a place for people to meet and make connections, Iâm glad itâs serving you that way. Gives me hope for the future of our parish.â
After just a few weeks, people actually got to know you, to the point where you were invited to get coffee with some or join others for dinner. But in your heart, you knew you were mostly showing up for Father Charlie. Especially since he followed you on Instagram, and you almost considered softblocking him so he couldnât see what you were up to. Morbid curiosity got the better of you, and you followed him back, dragged to the depths your desire by the videos of him exercising on his feedâhis toned muscles flexing, skin glimmering with sweat. Your hand flew to your mouth when he squirted water from a bottle on himself. What the fuck kind of priest even did that?
You could hardly look him in the eye the next time you saw him. When he cornered you after a book club meeting, it was almost like he knew.
âYou know, for everything youâre involved in, all of the meetings and events you show up to, Iâve never had you for confession,â he said.
It was the way he said itâhad youâthat made you take pause. As if his being a priest obscured something close to lust, almost implied consummation.
âI thought you werenât supposed to know whoâs confessing,â you said.
âIâd know your voice.â
âI guess Iâm just scared, Father.â
âOf what? Godâs judgment?â he asked. âHeâs merciful if you bring your sins to Him.â
âMore along the lines of what youâll think of me.â
He smiled. âYou havenât killed anyone, have you?â
âGod, no!â
âWell, thereâs blasphemy,â he joked. âCome by tomorrow at seven. No one else will be here. No pressure.â
Sitting in the confessional almost made you feel claustrophobic. You didnât know what to do with your hands, so you folded them across your lap, waiting for Father Charlie to speak from the other side of the screen.
âHow long has it been since your last confession?â
You paused, trying to remember an exact date, but nothing came to mind. âA few years, probably.â
âThatâs alright. What sins do you bring forward today?â
âI donât know,â you lied.
âYou donât know?â he repeated incredulously.
âNo. I canât think of anything.â
He scoffed. You could practically see the sneer on his face through the screen. âI can list off some. Pride, selfishness, leading others into temptationâdo you have any idea what youâre capable of doing? The depths you can cause a man to sink to? The sins of the flesh proliferate every aspect of our modern lives and youâyou justââ
âFather?â
After a few moments of tense silence, he spoke your name softly. âI want you to leave the confessional. If thereâs no one around, come over to my side.â
âWhat?â
âDonât make me repeat myself.â
Against your better judgment, you left the confessional and rounded it to the other side. When you opened the door, he looked at you expectantly, curling his pointer and index fingers to beckon you inside.
You hesitated. Almost took a step back, except he reached for you, pulling you in with him. If you thought it was claustrophobic before, your body, cramped in so closely with his, would have been enough to make you anxious on its own, but the proximity, his body heat, his dark brown eyes blazing with a vengeful lust, drew a whine from you when you were maneuvered onto his lap, one of his thick thighs between your legs. You suddenly wished you hadnât worn a skirtâknee-length, modest enough when you picked it out, but woefully inadequate for the way his hand slipped up it, his fingers brushing your pussy through your panties.
âYou should be ashamed of yourself, dripping with arousal in the house of the Lord.â
Rage filled your chest at his taunt. âYou have some fucking nerve to accuse me,â you hissed. âYour socials are shameless. I almost thought I was on OnlyFans, the way you flaunt yourself.â
âBut you liked what you saw, didnât you?â he pressed. âWhy else would you have come to confession if not for your guilty conscience?â He flexed his muscular thigh beneath you, a pathetic sounding whimper echoing from your lips in the confessional. âUnless youâre only chasing lust, that fleeting, deadly sin.â
âFor the love of God, put up or shut up,â you snapped.
He was at a loss for words, then, and letting your pride get the better of you, you kissed himâclaiming him was more like it, sinking your teeth into his bottom lip until he shivered beneath you.Â
Steadying yourself on his shoulders, you rocked your hips back and forth against his thigh, the friction from the fabric teasing your clit so perfectly, you couldnât help the cry that tore from your throat until he silenced you with his mouth on yours. Sweat rolled down your back at your exertion, making your blouse stick to your skin, the confessional almost suffocatingly hot.
âIs this what you had in mind, Father?â you mocked, your voice husky and almost cruel, though you knew if anyone walked in, theyâd be able to hear. Wouldnât take very long for a keen listener to figure out what was going on. âIs this my penance?â
âGod, yes,â he groaned, his strong hands kneading your ass.
You chased your orgasm, finally finding it when he moaned your name in your ear like a prayer. Rode out your ecstasy on his thigh, a sick thrill rushing through you at the thought of the wet spot youâd leave on his pants, the physical evidence of your debauchery, if the only witness to it was the ever-silent, omnipresent, judging eyes of God.
âIs that all, Father?â you asked breathlessly, glancing down at the prominent tent in his pants.
With a shaky sigh, he leaned his head back, palming his crotch. âGoâgo say ten Hail Marys.âÂ
When you knelt down at the pew just outside of the confessional, you began the first of your penitent prayers with the sound of his groans and soft curses echoing in your ears.
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A Spot of Lunch || The Queen of the Clan pt.4
CW: fem!chubby!reader, stalking, animal aggression (no violence)
Paranoia wasn't something you have ever associated with the vast grassy planes of sunlit savanna. An unsettling feeling of being constantly watched, followed, stalked seemed more suitable for the claustrophobic confines of a big city with its tall concrete walls and sleepless eyes of neon signs and late night windows peering blindly into the darkness - or maybe even a cold, isolated cabin among winter woods, with howling wind and creaking floorboards eerily masking the steps of whatever was looking through the frosty glass planes from the other side.
An open space full of busy with their own survival wildlife and sun burning every little patch of shadow anyone could hide in never crossed your mind as a place for a worry of unwanted following.
And yet you felt it.
You've learnt to distinguish this creepy sensation of being watched by something from the constant presense of your crew's cameras and curious looks of the animals. Even coming face to face (from afar, obviously) with the lion pride that was your main target for the documentary and attracting their attention left a different aftertaste - sure, you did feel like prey looking into the big eyes, adorned with a nature-given eyeliner, twinkling predatorily at you from the muzzle of a huge feline partially covered by the tall grass, but it still was just an animal watching you and gauging if you and your weird pack of two-legged companions were a better dinner option than an antilope.
What watched your back when you were sorting through your footage in camp or unloading the rover for another static filming, didn't feel like an animal.
"Well, we didn't even have that much visitors in camp for the last few days, so I'd say we're pretty safe," Kir, the shoulder you're used to rely on at this point, listens to your concerns carefully as he accepts heavy equipment from your arms - you reached a suitable place to have some food, so a temporary camp is being prepared. "Besides, we're always staying together out here, right? I'll look after you for now. Let's see if you still feel this shadow of yours when we get back to homebase, and then we'll look for a solution again. Maybe it's just the savanna getting to you, city cookie."
You scoff and roll your eyes at him, but his reassurance helps shake the unpleasant feeling from your scruff a bit - Kir has a point, the crew is being careful about animals and it's not like there are any other humans in these parts nearby, so you'll probably be alright. Definitely feels nice to have someone who doesn't simply dismiss your concerns and is ready to take more precautions if the initial ones fail to work.
"Maybe it's a heatstroke or something," you mutter awkwardly, now almost ashamed of how serious you make it all sound when no one else is having such problems. Kir immediately turns around, a big duffelbag on his shoulder, skin glistening with sweat, and gives you a disapproving look.
"I'm gonna pretend I didn't hear that. This isn't a hike outside your hometown, every concern you have is worth looking into. Better be overcautious than become someone's dinner, especially when you're already a total snack," finally having gotten you to smile, he winks and hurries to the main camp. When you reach the others to set up your lunch break, a hat lands on your head - you lift your eyes, almost covered by it, and of course, it's still Kir, wiping his forehead with a smile. "No heatstroke for you, cookie. Go have some water."
The hat is a bit sweaty on the inside, but it keeps the sun away better than the scarf you couldn't tie properly this morning.
As you all sit around in the shadow created by a lone acacia and chew on your not so bad meals - apparently, veteran participants of these trips have experience not only in getting close to animals unnoticed or navigating vehicles through uneven sandy terrain, but also in making quite the unappealing looking canned food taste good - quiet human chatter mixes together with the birds calling each other out and little chirping mice sneaking around your camp in timid curiosity. A fit of laughter bursts here and there. Your worry melts into nothingness in the heat, you feel safe as you look at your crew.
These people are doing what they love, and you notice that the dull apathy that was eating at you to the point of taking a break in your studies slowly steps away. Surprisingly, your impulsive idea turned out to be not so bad - maybe you'll take additional courses when you return, to be able to move here, work at the sanctuary, watch-
"Psst, look," a gentle nudge makes you stop digging into the little bowl you have with your mighty fancy teal spork (your 100% recycled plastic pride and joy), and you look up to where Kir points with his chin and puckered lips. "Even I recognize that snout already."
So do you, of course.
A wide, happily grinning, sniffing vigorously at the direction of your temporary camp, round-eared snout with a thick mohawk of a lush mane.
"Finally brought a friend," chuckles Kir next to you - and he's right, shoulder to shoulder with your old pal Stinky stands another hyena, spotted so generously that its fur seems almost brown, as does its shorter, but even thicker than Stinky's mane. Pure elegance shines through the stance of its long legs and the whole form, especially compared to its bulky mate.
And there they are - the most enchanting, heart-stealing, soul-charming dark eyes you've ever seen an animal have.
"Shit," you nearly choke on the corn you forgot you had in your mouth before swallowing anxiously, and try to muffle your coughing, afraid it might scare the animals away; but instead they only tilt their heads in an adorable way and watch as you scramble to shove your food bowl into Kir's hands and grab your camera.
It takes you less than two minutes to sneak to your bag (not the one that was sprayed - that one is banished to lay alone next to a rover far, far away from where you eat, God) and grab the camera, but when you turn back, both hyenas seem to have lost all interest in you and your camp, rolling around together in the patchy grass and partaking in a ritualistic play.
Subtle breaths of warm wind bring over quiet growls and occasional sassy cackles from the scuffle, nips and paw slaps exchanged in equal amounts. The sight is nothing short of adorable: two members of one of the most dangerous species on Earth tossing each other around like playful cubs, almost as if they're fighting over-
"Hey, look, they've got something!" One of the other camera operators points out gleefully with her spoon and you close one eye, focusing your camera on the pair. They definitely are fighting over some scrap, and just as you zoom in on their scowling mouths, Stinky jumps to its feet, yanking something that looks like a piece of hide in attempt to wrestle their toy from the other one's maw. "Hey, can you see what it's about?"
You hum, squinting as you meddle with the settings - it's quite hard to make out what it is, some brown-ish rug, stretching between two pairs of powerful jaws, clenched and pulling in a simple game of tug-of-war. Just as you take a series of quick shots, that dark, lean hyena also gets up and twists its neck, trying to snatch that thing from his broader mate - and it rips.
In your lense you see loose strings hanging from the ripped edges of the torn toy.
"Huh, looks like a piece of cloth!" Curious, you zoom in some more, taking several fine portrait pictures of Stinky's big, displeased-looking snout. Its ears flatten a bit as it shakes its head, sand flying off the fluffy mane and landing on the dark hide of its buddy. The latter seems to be much more content with the end result of the playfight, already lying back on the warm ground comfortably, long frong legs crossed in an effortlessly graceful way and half of the desired prise being chewed enthusiastically before it's dropped with a yawn. "Maybe someone lost a scarf? No pattern though..."
You point your camera at the unbelievably stunning dark-furred hyena and take more photos, almost holding your breath at the beauty of the animal resting on the dusty ground. Its slightly lazy gaze slowly trails over the surroundings and then lands on you.
And then, you swear, it winks at you.
You press the button on your camera automatically, capturing this moment for you to stare at later, when you'll start doubting your own sanity. A lopsided smirk stays on the hyena's muzzle for a second longer - and then it's gone.
"What the hell..." you mutter under your nose, lowering your camera with a dumbfounded look and stare at the embodiment of innocence the cheeky fluffball is now. Almost as if they both heard you, Stinky perks up too, and you finally notice that whatever they were playing with is now hanging off its pleased snout shoved through a neat round opening in the material. So it's definitely something man-made. A shirt that's been shredded by predators' teeth until only the collar or a short sleeve remained?..
You shudder at the thought about how the hyenas got their sock-clad paws on the thing and what happened to the owner. Maybe it's just been discarded after researchers used it to wrap a hyena's head when they darted and collared one of them. Or it just fell out of someone's backpack on the bumpy road. Or...
A loud whoop interrupts your heavy thoughts and your eyes snap back to the furry menace, only to find it clearly posing for you, slumped over its pal's back and resting its chin between the other's fluttering ears. Surprisingly, the darker - maybe you'll call it Chocolate, it seems almost toothrottingly sweet from afar - hyena doesn't seem to mind much, waving its tail with a black brush on end languidly and laying still until you take a few pictures. Even though the rag Stinky can't seem to let go clearly gets in its eyes no matter how many times it tries to brush it away with an endearing ear movement.
Of course Stinky just drops its toy altogether on Chocolate's head the second something else attracts its attention - the way it perks up and loses that trickster grin, looking directly behind you, startles you, but almost twisting your neck to look over your shoulder proves futile. It's just Kir.
"Sorry to ruin your fun, cookie, but we'll have to get moving in a few, thought you'd want to finish your meal," he sighs with an apologetic smile, clearly not immune to the cuteness of the hyenas himself, and hands you your bowl, immedietely earning a growl.
A growl much closer than you'd expect from where your visitors stayed.
You jump, nearly dropping both your camera and food, and quickly turn back to see both hyenas, tails and manes belligerently fluffed up, just a few meters away. Kir steps in front of you immediately, shielding from the animals, but it seems only to aggravate them more.
Maybe it's not the brightest idea you get, but your adrenaline-high brain offers you a memory of Stinky obeying when you raised your voice at it.
"Stay down you two! Shoo! Get back!" Leaning around Kir's muscular shoulder, you wave with your spork at the unfriendly couple.
Somehow, it works.
They almost look upset, tails slowly hanging down and ears lowered - they even lean their whole bodies to the ground as they back away. Stinky is clearly more reluctant, and you would be melting at the sight if your heart wasn't still racing after the scare.
"You get back too, Stinky. Or I'll sign every picture of you with your nickname in all the wildlife magazines!" Perhaps it's your tone making the animals nervous, but Chocolate suddenly lets out a short giggle. Still feels nice to have someone appreciate your humor, especially when it earns him a nip at the scruff from Stinky, finally distracting him from you. "And you don't laugh at Stinky! What, you think there won't be enough of me for the both of you? I'll make fun of every fucking four-legged menace if you keep growling like that!"
An barely started new scuffle between the two stops abruptly, two pairs of huge wet eyes looking at you with almost human perspicacity. Remembering too late that a direct stare can provoke an animal, you avert your gaze, but it's unnecessary: even from the corner of your eye you see both hunched figures slowly gaining speed as they further away from the camp.
"What, you a hyena whisperer now?" Kir lets out a subtle relieved breath and you par his back gratefully, exhaling yourself. "Probably got scared of me because of my size... well, now that's you've proven your dominance, how about you finish your food? I'll pack everything for you, so don't rush."
Still glancing over your shoulder in case the predators come back, you mutter your thanks to Kir and nod at the other members of the crew who praise you for keeping your cool against the animals again.
"Didn't know they teach you that in school nowadays," jokes one of the older scientists with some canned food juice staining grey stubble around the corners of his mouth. "Good job, kid. Hyenas are all about hierarchy, if you show them you're more dominant, there's little they can do. Just maybe don't get into actual fights with them, you know?"
"Not planning to," you chuckle and finally get back to your food. While you chew absentmindedly, wandering around the camp being taken down, your legs bring you to where your slightly rough (and fluffy too, to be fair) around the edges neighbours left their tattered toy.
Just a weird shaped brown cloth, punctured in several places with the deadly weapon hyenas carry in their mouths and with clearly manufactured seams. That round hole Stinky utilized also has neatly finished edge, like clothing would have.
Huh. Weird. Somehow that chewed up and slobbered snippet looks familiar. Can't really quite put your finger on it though.
Part 3 | Part 3.5 | Part 5
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A/N: Please, don't use any of this story as a guide to handling any animals, wild or not. Although I try to use real documentaries and stories of hyena whisperers as a reference to how hyena-human interactions can look like, it's still fiction. Use actual guidelines provided by authorities as to how to behave in contact with stranger animals.
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bare sugars
â°âș thatâs my baby, thatâs my sugar, i donât need no honey on the side . . . thatâs unconditiona-nal.
pairing: f!reader Ă jaehyun â tags: motel. lotta tension. jae likes to show skin lol. history i allude to but never explain sry. short scenario inspired by this teaser photo. diabetes keep away 5k
It âs a place in between places, on the outskirts of some sunbaked desert town. What began as a hopeful promise, somewhere in the chaos of the last seven days , has faded into obscurity.
When this road trip kicked off, the entire crew was pumped on the : âNo oneâs getting ditched; everyone âs got to be part of âââ no matter how intense the next adventure gets.â Yet, here you are , left behind with the one person you were hoping to dodge.
A velvety green sofa sets the scene & the honey glow of golden hour falls on wood - panelled walls âââ Lying on his back , Jaehyun rocks yet another one of his 250+ crumpled print tees, retro lettering in: âThe Grateful Dead.â Its fabric hiked up , intentionally or not , giving his casual style a little extra edge.
âââ This specific old shade of blue denim jeans, those grey Calvins, the belt that struggles to keep the outfit together ... His belly that just kind of vacuums in whenever it wants ... A plush land really ... The faux freckles on his cheeks which mimic sunflower seeds, and his hair that shines like a field of gold ...
A babe , though the design guilt he wears in his dark eyes remains as you capture yet another moment with your camera.
The two shy cuties in his cheeks and his keys lying abandoned on the pink carpet. His languid binks & perpetually movey lips. His Converseâs loose laces.. The unhurried. The lazy. The slow...
Itâs all captured on film & as you pull the camera away from your face, he still keeps an eye on you, not necessarily looking for a reaction but...Â
Well, you better... drop that feedback, or things might...
take a turn for the worse...Â
Andâ
And they do... with him tucking his hand under his head & his shirt riding up thoughtlessly even more...
And itâs bad. ItâsâItâs like heâs in charge of how you feel and is directing the scene. Like as if heâs your television & thereâs no turning him off.
This almost ever so present paradoxical quality to himâa blend of approachability and impenetrability thatâs hard to elaborate. Or his lazy attractiveness which simply defies logic: for heâs simultaneously doing nothing and everything, drawing you in completely without lifting a finger.
Or... how these are just a few of the countless reasons why youâve never asked him to bring you the horizon, or, hell, dared to dream about having him.
Of how the four walls and the door close on you and how looking at him strikes you with a funny fear, making you want to melt deep into the contents of the floor.
Oh, to fuck with that...
-
Gently, you adjust the fine black lace along the hem of your brown silk dress; draw in the fluffy cardigan tighter around you; and to escape the perfect features of his perfect face, you walk up to the window.Â
Yet, no matter how hard you search for a way out, the four walls of this claustrophobic room offer little in the way of escape. Youâre fucking stuck... Counting your fingers anew whenever gets nothing done, and flipping through the channels on the tiny TV does nothing to clear the monotony. The minutes drag on endlessly, and no matter how many board games you play or photos you take, the clock seems to mock you. Each moment drags as if the world has hit the pause button, leaving you with him in this quiet space.
âUuggh, coome oooon!â You stomp your feet, looking out the window. âThe losers promised theyâd be back by six!â
Jaehyun blows a bubble that bursts with a loud snap, grinning at you. âUmmmâYou realize promises arenât really being kept here anymore, right?â
Yeah, right... Fuck promises! You told yourself you wouldnât get attached to him but look at you now...
Rolling your eyes, you glance out the window again, right as he asks,
âWhy? Are you hungry?â
And sure, they were supposed to be the ones bringing the food, but it seems their adventure has taken a detour into yet another town at the end of the world; said, âThis is what happens when you skip outâSo, you two sort it out.â
âSome sweets would be nice. But no, um,â you tensely pull at your cardiganâs sleeves, clenching the ends in your fists. âAre they okay? Iâm a little nervous.â
Though all he does is just casually burst another ridiculous bubble...âIâm sure theyâre fine.â
Right⊠So next youâre left to watch him scrape bits of pink gum from his lips, and before you know it, a wave of irritation pulls you back to his side.
Youâre barely balanced on the edge of the sofa, aiding in his clumsy efforts. Your thumb brushes against his bottom lip, and the air around him gets to your head just instantly, thick with the sugary scent of the sticky residue that you find yourself obliged to help remove... Itâs so sugary that it borders on being revolting! Or perhaps itâs your sweet tooth thatâs igniting this feeling?
Silly, cause you feed into this quirky theory that butterflies taste like bubblegum, and now that notion takes on a funny twist, well... considering the butterflies dancing in your stomach.
As you pull your fingers away from his lips, a rush of blood roars in his ears and he quickly adds, âMight have something in my bag, let me see.â
And totally! The bag that somehow collected a ton of pendants during this road trip does sit by the sofa, and with Jaehyun lounging back, stretching his arms overhead to grab it, his shirt gets pulled up even higher, & just like that, it becomes the cause for another thing you wish you never said.
Definitely not the sight you were hoping for... The tee hiked up, way above his ribs, exposing a good portion of his slim waist as he giggles, showing off that boyish grin while rummaging through the bag behind... still looking at you.
The eye contact ****
The fcking gum that just so erratically becomes his plaything, getting relentlessly crushed beneath the pressure of his teeth, repeatedly transforming into a sticky mass that fills his mouth, stressing the rugged contours of his strong jawline...
His fucking belly...
The happy trail...
Godsent personal hell!
Your heart is thumping away in your chest and your ribs arenât exactly doing much to protect it. The stressed thing seems ready to pop like one of his balloons and leave you in an ever-sticker mess...
âMmmmm...â he hums, trapping his bottom lip between his teeth and pulling a handful of candies from the bag behind him. âLetâs see what we have.â
Placing each treat onto his stomach as if the world were about to erupt in a frenzy of sugar-fueled chaos, Jaehyun carefully begins to arrange each piece, making sure theyâre spaced out just right and sorted into rational portions in case such an outbreak actually happens. In no time, a vibrant array of treats sprawls across him and his funky-ridden shirt, everything from lollipops, chewy gums, gummy bears, and sour candies, to little chocolates.
Imagine a carnival! The flashy colors are super distracting, and those chocolate bars are practically begging you to grab them. Still, you canât help but tease him a bit to annoy him, specially since youâve been going back & forth for the past three days.
âReally,â you pout cynically, âYou took this many?? Youâre such aâŠâ
With a burst of laughter that is hearty & sweet, Jaehyun sends the poor candies resting on the very sides of his waist to tumble down onto the sofa as if that earthquake had REALLY made its presence felt.
âMmmmm- Why would I want to spend money on fancy treats? Besides...â He spaces out for a bit... then remarks with a smirk, âMy theory is basically sweets are sweets.â
And he tightens his lips to seem all serious, but honestly, it just makes everything worse. The dude doesnât even lift a finger to be funny; itâs like humour just radically appears around him, and the stuff he comes up with...
Poof! A total goof or a creative thinker? It really just comes down to your mood at the time.
You grimace once more, shaking your head at him, and subtly shift your weight to your legs rather than sitting on the sofa, your body ready to leap away at the slightest hint of contact.
With an adorable, surprised expression his eyes grow round as he stares at you, âWhat!?â His brows shoot up too in effort to justify himself.
âThat piñata was there for everyone to go wild and, umm- grab whatever they could!â Lifting his hands defensively, he pouts, âNot my fault!â
Aaaand that fucking shirt of his?
Isss at it againnnn!@#ÂŁ%^*
Your mind is reeling as the candy mountain spills over in a fun avalanche.
No, because why go through all that trouble to arrange them perfectly just to wreck it himself!?
Yeah,
anyway, you find nothing to match that, indeed it was up to anyone to snatch whatever they wanted, it just looks like he had deeper pockets than the rest of you idiots to stash all that stuff, thatâs all there is to it. So you give in to the urge to âscrew it,â let out another eye roll, and grab a tiny bag of gummy bears.
-
As if heâs achieved something, Jaehyunâs hands find their way back beneath his head, and the flirtatious smile continues in his eyes. He just basks in the moment until your frustrationâthe sting of yet another cheeky defeatâcauses you to fumble to open the bag and so all the gummy bears go flying everywhere.Â
Add chaos?
Check!
Is he into it?Â
Also, check.
The pack is but what that piñata was a few days ago, bleeding in beautiful colors and gushing all things sweet.
âUgghhh!!â Tossing your head back, you groan dramatically.
And understandably so!!! While Jaehyun?
He beams as he sticks his tongue in his cheek, and snatches the empty bag from your hands. He casually spits his spent pink gum inside it, takes a pair of gummies from his abs, and gently runs them against his lips before sliding them in...
And t
And itâs so fucking frustrating that this guy has no clue about the importance of breaking eye contact! Youâre always left searching for a word thatâs stronger than âinsufferable,â but really, the dude just constantly goes all out with everything. Legit!Â
It drives you crazy. Heâ
Munching on them playfully, Jaehyun thinks for a moment, swallows, & then quirks an eyebrow, smirking,
âWanna hear what the gummies just whispered into my mouth?â
What the gummies have what??
You shake your head at his nonsense but arch a brow back. Because if you had to be honest, those jelly babies arenât the only thing looking to spill some secrets in his mouth... So, yeah, youâre JUST listening! As a matter of fact, youâre all tuned in to catch what absurdity heâs about to dish out next.
Pushing his lips together, a bratty shape that just begs to be kissed, he sits with his answer. Thereâs something very precious and terribly frustrating about how he keeps his responses close like theyâre the best puns ever. Then he eventually smiles, âThank you for releasing us.â
........ Woaah, theyâve at least been honest with him! Which is... cool...
Cool! Great! Awesome! You next!
âMmm-hmm,â for dummies, some skeptical eyes and a cynical head nod are all you have...
When the magnitude of his languid x menacing should be studied!!!
Really, a quirky cotton candy man! A sugar. A delicate toxic substance.
Like, fuck! HeâHeâs just- unbeatable.Â
Thatâs an overwhelming amount of power for him to have... Like, thatâs too much hot... Too much sweetâŠÂ Itâs no goodâŠÂ
Like-
Like the doses got all jacked up when he was made... Accidentally spilled too much of each, and now heâs just a walking health risk.
Catch it!
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The disease spreads just like it always hasâquickly and definitely. This earthtone babe just knows exactly how to get under your skin.
So hard to resist... So hard to not take a bite...
Itâs just how it goes, you know?
Things...
Eyes...
Fingers...
& before you realise it, your fingertips glide past his jeans, over to his skin, igniting a rush of sensations with each line you draw across his abs.
Inevitably, the air gets charged with an energy... thatâs not innocent. You feel the sparks. Not the good kind of sparks, but the sinful ones... Theâ
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Itâs like a dream at first, experiencing the thrill of someone yearning for your touch so badly.
Jae is every bit as tough as he looks, but the moment your fingers brush against him, that narrative shifts entirely. It feels like heâs been craving your touch, and those days without it have been an unbearable! fucking! stretch!
Gentle, sensual skin, a supremely royal shade of luxury milk. Everything thatâs connected with a beautiful sweet, sweet & touching is associated with him.Â
Heâs just spot on! And your stomach is growling. And youâre looking for a bite to eat...
In fact, youâre so down bad, your sweet toothâs at an all-time high; honestly, youâd probably go as far as to start licking him right now.
In a straight line? Curved? In any manner that sparks your creativity? Anything realâ
...The hot transference from his skin onto your hand? The way he teases his lip!?? The way he shyly and discreetly raises his hips against your touch as if silently pleading for
Thisss baddieee!!
Reading into all these crazy action bits has you all jittery that you completely jump when his hand lands on your bare thigh, right at the lace border.
nononono-
With a gulp, you instantly! rise from the couch. HowâJust why did you end up falling back so e
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Fast, desperation kicks in- just- again like those moments ago... and youâre back to pacing this same motel room, seeking an escape from him. Except every aspect now feels as if itâs been cranked up to ten times the difficulty.
The reddish-brown timber panels on the walls give off tough prison steel, and the pink carpet feels all squishy and weird under your bare feet right when you need a stable solid... All while Jaehyun is- just- there... planted in place, now seated, legs all spread, on the green sofa. Thereâs really nothing you can do but hope he stays right where he is.Â
But! once somethingâs set in motion, it stays in motion. Like a wildfire racing thru dry lands, fierce and unstoppable. And you just happened to let a match slip past your fingers a heartbeat ago, screwing everything up...
Naturally, he gets up. Also, that belt of his really accomplishes nothing... itâs just there to be there, so heâs just got to pull up his baggy jeans himself before he can even take a step forward.
& what his rising does is kick off a frantic chase as you two whirl around the room in a relentless spiral, & heâs hot on your tail... The very thought of him catching up on you sends dopamine through your veins, making your pulse quicken.
Plus that stunning smile? Plus his unconditional happiness? Well, both make him even more irresistible but both also complicate things for you. The excitement mounts as he approaches in the chase, each heartbeat making the thrill even stronger; that once he abruptly stops, the sprinting exertion takes its toll.
His breath comes in heavier gasps, his cheeks are flushed with a pinch of peach, and his bangs are a tousled mess, dancing around him like dandelion fluff does in the wind. Just a pure, natural and effortless elegance. Heâs so incredibly attractive it almost hurts to look at him.
The tension though peaks as his words build to a sharp climax of a fact.
âYou-um- Youâve been avoiding me this whole trip.â
...That sinking feeling in your heart like a rock just hit it? Yeah...
Yeah, you wish that voice of his didnât resonate through your very being, scraping against every nerve ending, but thatâs what it always does. It freezes you in place, making you overwhelmed and powerless.Â
Itâs kind of wild how bringing up a heavy topic during a playful moment can make it feel that much more sincere. With so many choices, he went right for the thing that drives him crazy, and that should show you whatâs on his mind... at least-
But, you-you
Instinctively, you pull the same fuzzy cardigan around you, clinging to it as though it were a barrier against him, and softly slide your hand from your sleeve, unveiling a lollipopâthe only item you managed to pocket earlier.
And this should sweep everything away, right?
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âMhmmmm,â Jaehyun hums, back on trend â
acting like he didnât just mention something that could spark a whole conversation...
â though this time he picks up the bat resting by the bedstand which at the beginning of the week tore through that heart piñata...
And currently, with the sun set, the moon in the sky, and the desert sky glowing a delicate lilac blue, his eyes narrow and his sly grin comes in the same old style as he twists the knob of the yellow lamp, teasing, âSo... a thief, huh?âÂ
...Itâs as if heâs putting you in the spotlight, pointing out your crime, and calling you out for being a naughty girl.
& sure, heâs got you in that tight spot he wants you in, okay? But you still tilt your head and nibble on your lip, still going at it, âMaaybee.â
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& as you start to walk backwards, everything is still beside your breath and the gentle thud of the bat as he taps it against different surfaces. Only muted noise of what seems to be Spanish drifts in from the neighboring room, but neither of you pays it much mind.
His hands fist around the bat tightly, consumed with angry adrenaline, & veins bulge along his smooth skin, sending filthy pulses up his arms.Â
Itâs a sight that attracts goosebumps all along & across your skin, igniting a warmth that curls from your legs to your belly. The same very electrifying rush of adrenaline wraps around you as if heâs pulling you into the grip of that wooden bat...Â
Hiss, twist, loosen, and turn, just like how his hands manipulate that wood...
And you know... it doesnât take much to find yourself backed up against that mahogany wall.
At once, âtrappedâ takes on an even greater weight than what it meant before. You feel twisted and turned in advance, completely taken apart by the sheer passion in his deep brown eyes.
Jaehyun lifts a brow. Heâs all about this vibe. That big toothy smile of his. The way heâs locked in on you. The âJust a couple of steps away, baby.â
Uh-huh, but what about that horrible, horrible crave youâve told yourself you CANâT have!??
The itch sits on your tongue, fruity in flavourâperhaps strawberry or raspberryâyou arenât sure. A tang that lingers in your memory, the same as of candy gum that had been in the air around him earlier and one which grew bolder with each step he took toward you. This sickness makes you wish that your tongue is already wrapped in his, tightening for a deeper inspection.Â
Yikes! Please, letâs just avoid that!
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To drive away the feeling, you look down to your toes in the cotton carpet, shift your weight, and then peel away the wrapper of the lemon lolly, seeking a bitter flavor to replace the trace of his scent.
Then eventually, accept the proximity between you two as it is - as you let your back land against the wall, hoping the tension will melt away.Â
Feeling the lolly along your lips, you grimace at the acid but take it...
And as you look down, even in your peripheral view, itâs clear that Jaehyun is still watching you, & you realize heâs focused on your mouth. & after giving the lollipop a couple of spins on your tongue, you proudly look up, thinking youâre good and that youâve totally neutralized the crave for him...
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Because the suddenly too sure of itself face?
Your neck, your collars, the hard candy prodding at your cheek?
The sleek brown silk and the intricate black lace trim which ascends higher on your thigh as you shift your weight to one leg, elegantly placing the other in front as you find your stance? And then the glossy black polish on your toenails as you draw them from a point in the carpet, just barely hovering above it, & in a straight line with him... As in ???
Yeah, absolutely not; thatâs far from a quiet invite...
No! Youâre totally not just âasking for it.â
On the spur, the dynamics shift... As you let the lemon hang in your mouth, Jaehyun abruptly brings his bat up & uses it to delicately move a piece of your hair aside, and then the very tip of the bat makes a gentle tap at the heart of your collars.
Your breath catches in your throat, a fragile spectacle he zeroes in on as your cords constrict, and then, with knitted brows you swallow in the sour juice of the sucker.Â
Really!?? What more does he want of your sorry soul when youâre just trying to get through each breath?
But no! You certainly didnât ask for it⊠Just remember heâs not one to give up when told to quit. So, either pack your things or choose a better design, Sugar.
Though thatâs the very thing... You canât deny the magnetic pull of Jaehyunâs game...
Sure, youâre feeling the heat from your toes to the top of your head, but letâs keep things in check, yeah?
Feeling the groove, as you pull out the lollipop to give your lips a little lick, your eyes wander down to what could be seen as a âdangerous toolâ, and you smirk.
Jaehyun sucks in on his lip, very slowly, very cheekily. The guyâs clearly amused with you.Â
âAre you seriously just going to keep looking at me like that?â you ask eventually, taking a moment before adding, âIâm not a fan of it.â
âMmmmm,â he gives his hundredth low hum, tilting his back head just so, & flexing that tight jawline that always seems to be up for something... something explicit and offensive.
However you pout and slide the lollipop right back in your mouth.
âTasty?â
...You had to know that was coming, right? And so, as the duel continues, you shrug, allowing a slight grimace to escape your lips, piquing his curiosity about the taste heâs missing out on.
& it runs like a charm.
As Jaehyun lets his eyelids droop in the slowest blink imaginable, &, in his infamous deep voice, says, âI waaanna taste.â
Nuh-uh, even if you tried to reject, it wouldnât make a difference since heâs right in your face; his mouth hanging agape, eager for absolutely, really absolutely! anything you might have to offer... Cause, thereâs always room for a shift in sentiments, wouldnât you agree?
Though the âweaponâ somewhat still stays pointed at you...
Take notes!
For sure! But being the fantastic person you are you tap into your generous spirit & pull out the candy with a satisfying pop while Jaehyun stares at you, mischief even spilling out of his open mouth.
With only inches between you, you gently slide the bad sugar in, pushing it along his tongue and unconditionally savoring the moment and the view.
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His slightly downturned, sultry eyes as you still hold onto the other end of the white plastic, & he keeps sucking on the lemon in his mouth.
Those damn sunken cheeks of his. The tiny scratch on his nose from a few days ago which has mostly healed, but you can still see it.
The dense, dark brows in disagreement with his bleached hair with a still lingering odor of ammonium hydroxide... Really, a look born from a reckless bet on a chaotic road tripâa decision that seemed utterly foolish but now is somehow working in his favor...
In a way, itâs even funny how the flashy hair is soooo out there⊠but itâs there, being just one aspect of him. Still, you have to admit its impact is real. A gutsy choice that jazzes him up a notch. This new arc heâs projecting, where it seems, heâs flirting a bit more with his impulsive side? Yeah...
Somewhere between handsome and creamy tabby cat... Heâs just bursting with the most obnoxious playfulness, and heâs paired with a smile that raises up his dimples.
The way heâs making you curious and wild >>>Â Heâs so sexy, itâs unmatched...
And you understand the gravity of wanting such a fine man! Theâ
(!) The despite knowing, yet failing... or at least in what you think you know and what you think is better.
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Youâre completely focused on his lips, and in an instant, reality just seems to melt away like itâs under a spell.
Tis a state... A mood! The ninth cloud where you canât feel the air or the ground... All there is is his insane eyes scrutinizing your reaction to what he does to the lolly, and itâs honestly the worst kind of pressure.
Finished savouring, Jaehyunâs tongue casually circles his sensuous lips, collecting all possible leftover like heâs just finished you in style.
âUmmmâŠâ Scrunching his nose at the flirty, piquant taste, he takes a step back. Mulls over the candy choice; pushes his cooked bangs; and hesitates before he says, âNah, this isnât the one... I-um... I bet thereâs something better out there... Itâs likeeeâ suppresses smile in advance of saying it, âItâs just on the tip of my tongue.â His brows flatten too, mans serious! âHelp me think?â
OH, Sir!
A treat that can out-beat this bittersweet taste? A goodie that packs an even bigger surprise?
Your always rambling mind goes thoughtless, & that burning need to press on drops off like a light switch. The coming panic. Your gotcha moment. You go quiet. It hits you that this is the first time your playful teasing has backfired and that maybe you canât be bailed out of whatâs to come.
Worse, as itâs one of those silences that just hangs in the air, making things feel more tense. Your self-imposed rules about âwhat you think you knowâ and âwhatâs betterâ dissolved, leaving you fully present and stimulated.
& Jaehyun digs right in, spreading the cavity...
He lifts the bat again, its tip gently pressing into your belly, and itâs like you can almost feel his warmth seep through it, then past the fragile silken fabric to your skin.Â
You get so hot. This bizarre ripple from your legs to your tummy as you tightrope between pleasure and unease, joy and hesitation... Itâs like you two are finally on the same wavelength, knowing what the other is about to say before the words even come out.
A delicate crease develops between his bushy brows which deepens as he tenderly whispers, âIâm sorry.â
âJae- donât.â you murmur, your lips curving into a sorrowful pout as you gently shake your head âno.â
Needless to say, something nuanced only you and him know...
The result of everything thatâs happened...
The âthis whole trip has messed up the trajectory of our friendship.â
The reason why he chose to hang back today...
The tactics which kicked in since everyone piled into that Jeep truck this morning & sped away.Â
The from âgetting schooledâ in all the board games to the countless Polaroids he let you snap of him, to that little âIâm sorryâ hand peck he gave you that had you making the death stare, and the âDonât ever try to do that again!â
The rude âskin-feedingâ masked behind the pretense of a âgenerousâ food provider.
And how you slipped past every move, pushed back, and resisted until he has put you up against this wall... and now âthe-no-escapeâ.
Still and all- your pushbackâs like a sport. Be afraid of what follows...
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For Jaehyun gnaws into the very walls of your sensitivity as if sensuality were his chosen medium. Each deliberate motion of the bat becomes a brushstroke in the masterpiece of your downfall...
He glides it along the contours of your waist, teasingly skimming over your curves, trails it down your legs and inners, and even lifts the hem of your dress just enough to make your skin hurt in anticipation.
Then, it finds its way to your stomach yet again, as if to indicate something deep & unexpressed, before tracing a direct path up your sternum, sweeping along your collarbone until heâs made your cardigan slip down your arm, taking the delicate strap of your dress with it...
So much of âJae, donât,â huh? Oh, sweetheartâŠÂ
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Certainly, the last thing you hope he avoids is the very thing Jaehyun does...
Trailing the bat along your jawline, ultimately he rests it under your chin... Something something about a âclear display of dominance.â His insane eyes about render you completely motionless as he insists on glancing between your eyes and your lips the way one searches a dictionary for definitions. Again and Again... And then gravity happens...
In an instant, the bat slips from his grasp and tumbles to the floor, making you flinch as his lips finally find their way to your bare shoulder, where seems like heâs achieved something.
Oh, the bite-
An insidious heat stroke as you moan the most promiscuous hiss there is.
âJaee, we shouââ
âBaby-â
Vibrationssssssssss...
It comes out even more whiny as he gets all of that word muffled against your neck. It roughly cuts into your focus, seeps into your ears, and goes straight to the wrong place.
The very last thing you feel yourself do is slide left against the wall, scraping for any last escape routes, but he just moves in sync with you.
Up to the moment heâ
The sound of yearning?
Jaehyunâs palms slamming into the hardwood, spreading out like wings on either side of you, creating a cage of flesh. Brushing off the idea of consent, his hot body presses against yours.
With his hands up, that whimsical teddy bear tee yet again peels from his jeans. It constricts around his arm sleeves, flexing the impressive curve of his biceps. His veins, too, scrumptiously pushed in motivation: âAll mine! You canât outrun this, baby. Iâm keeping you right where I want you.â
Really, the rest itâs all in your perceptionâeither a trap or a safe spot.
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A little motel inside a world of sand... youâve never felt smaller than you do now with him towering over youânot literally, size in drive and ambition.
You watch yourself fade&wilt in his unsettlingly lazy eyes like Valentineâs flower petals from their vase falling onto the white desk dirtied with graphite from pencil shavings and candy wrappers.Â
Itâs so desertly calm, that your nails accidentally strike a chord in tune as your hands casually fall past his belt buckle...
A beautiful melody that makes his dimples grow deeper, though he still tilts his head, frowning adorably as he perpetually continues to figure things out just for the sake of figuring things out...
Yeah?
Cos, what is the motive here? As your hands do settle gently at the hem of his jeans, fingers teasingly dipping into the softness of his navel?
Hook + Pull = Gravity.
Oh, man, do you make him feel insane things? Cause youâve been on your guard for the whole day, some goals are hard!
Are you coming ahead of all his sneaky schemes? Are you a baddie too?
Cause now youâre just holding up a higher card like youâve been doing in every game today. Maybe you... are... on top of your game... The candy of victory is better when itâs hard...
Gravity... Your lips inch closer.Â
Your slightly parted lips & that parched swallow might just give Blondie a hint of how desperately you want him to melt on your tongue. And youâre over worrying about it. You even yank at his necklace.
The way his hair falls over your lashes creates a delightful distraction as your noses nearly collide. And the best you can pretend in this intimacy is filthy, âI still havenât forgiven you.âÂ
âUmmmmm...â
On brand! Disturbingly sexy hum that flows like honeyâa sugary glaze, coating your lips in a deliciously gooey way. Youâre hit with the sting & the toxin even before Jaehyun has a chance to consider kissing you or taking any steps. He smiles, heâs just that awful...
âYou will.â
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Alas,
the abrupt grating noise of tires screeching to a stop cuts through the dull ambience outside. A lively group seems to spill out of the truck, loud and as if theyâve just been recharged. A voice you both instantly recognize calls out, saturated with sarcasm and clearly wanting to grab âsomeoneâsâ ears.Â
âGreeat! Weâve just rolled into âLosers Place!ââ
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What a Dullass Bullshit Scenario... for Losers.
Jaehyun scoffs lightly, giving a flimsy half-eye roll, his lips pursed in a way that shows just how unimpressed he is with the moment... Inexplicable urgency drives his body into yours one last time, likely a final act of connection.
He hadnât even had the chance to pin your hands above your head or hold your jaw in a way that would leave you feeling completelyâ
There was no pulling of hair, nor did you wrap your arms around his neck to-toâ
Nor did your tongue map out the crossroads on his stomach...
Orâ
Clear anger paints your temple, too, each line bearing frustration... Just thereâs something about keeping it a secret that bodies the danger factor, making everything feel so much more smoky and intense.
& you pout as much, nudging your nose against his as to where you feel all deprived but electrified by simply- just- doing that, softly whispering against his lips, breath all drenched,
âDo you think they know?â
Girlie, Fuck! Do you know what you do to him?
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