#all of this sounds SO much more personal
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"You went against your word and defied our contract! In doing so, you brought the chaos of your world into mine! I will not abide it!" - Raphael (Baldur's Gate, 2023)
#raphael#baldur's gate 3#bg3#raphael bg3#raphael baldur's gate 3#games#bg3gifs#okay one of the things i love is how if you do the team raphael route and sign the contract and choose to break it#all of this sounds SO much more personal#like kudos to Andrew Wincott... Raphael just sounds so angry and dissapointed#like he's not being smug or smarmy for the most part#which is pretty damn rare already#when he pops in and says “You?!” it's with such utter disbelief#like he genuinely didn't think you'd ever even consider doing such a thing when he has been actualy pretty truthful#he just operates LIKE THAT because as Korilla mentions “he's the devil! It's his nature!”#i LOVE that#like that third line? when he says “littlle mouse” it just sounds SO dissapointed#i just love how layered and they wrote the characters#anyway don't worry booboo i'll do a save file where tav doesn't break your black heart
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this is literally one of my favorite panels of the war arc.

i am OBSESSED with deku’s perception of romance and how it’s probably based off popular melodramas and his peers’ stories about their dates.
because you can’t argue with me that that’s the reason why he will have no idea his and katsuki’s relationship is so close to romantic. i’m so sure he’s gonna be the last one to realise his feelings for katsuki aren’t purely friendly and platonic. the guy will be like “oh yeah we’re really close and i care about him deeply and i hate the very thought of him being hurt and i wanna spend the rest of my life next to kacchan but haha that’s just our friendship! we’re not holding hands and sharing crepes so there are no romantic feelings involved🥰”
bro is gonna be so shocked when kacchan finally confesses his true feelings.
#also yes i believe katsuki’s gonna realise everything first. i mean im pretty sure he already has. damn.#good luck dealing with deku’s obliviousness lmaooo#i think izuku doesnt think about romance at all but his feelings for katsuki sound EXACTLY like any person’s in love#‘wow hes so amazing i wanna be close to him forever and never part’ bro#i dont think he can describe their relationship as friendship tbh… ig for izuku it means much more than any possible common type of bond#bakudeku#bkdk#izuku midoriya#bakugou katsuki#bakugo katsuki#bnha#mha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia
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yall are about to piss me off by not having any PASSING basic knowledge of the way the u.s. military manipulates its recruits into joining by typing up one of your uninformed, unresearched, unempathetic, individualistic, unbelievably annoying posts about how 100% of the people in the military ended up there because they just Love America So Damn Much! they're extremely mature and informed at time of recruitment, they can totally leave anytime they want, they totally had tons of other avenues in life they could've taken, there was no rush at all to get income as fast as possible, and everyone in the military also totally is part of the combat divisions and personally enjoys being IN the military very much, big believers of violence. everyone in the military is shooting guns all day, that's how that works. they LOVE BLOODSHED. also I love the "amewicans haha" twang to this type of shit because you're actually TOTALLY stealing our Thing, which is turning systemic issues into Individual Issues. Instead of talking about the powers that be, it's so Personal Choice up in here. It's, "well you shouldn't have done it then. I totally wouldn't because I know better." you don't wanna talk about the military industrial complex as a whole, and you don't want to talk about recruiters, you just want to pin the blame on Specific Individual People one-by-one, as if they're responsible for the system that they're being ground up in. someone was in the military? bad person, no matter what. it's easier to believe that, I guess, than to acknowledge that Normal People (with high school educations) are manipulated and incentivized into joining a system that is Bad. at like age 18. but yeah no that 18 year old should have just been smarter lol haha anyway here are some screenshots for no particular reason
side note this reply of someone going "umm just get loans and go into a high paying field it's easy XD" as a direct response to someone trying to explain how most americans joining the military are being funneled in that direction out of a need for money.
and another person who Decided that americans join the military just CLENCHING their teeth thinking of other people, and not thinking completely selfishly about their own selves and their own income/housing/healthcare.
#I had a longer post w more bullshit in it but ukw nobody's even gonna read THIS one. so.#dumb ass cunts seriously LMAO just the individualism of it all....#we're all just selectively forgetting that most people join the military straight out of high school / after failing to kickstart#their lives so they don't know shit yet and they are categorically not educated and don't have money#you NEED money and have been groomed by recruiters ALREADY into believing this is#The Best and Only to make a survivable amount of money without a college education-- bc they can't afford college btw#and they don't want to take on student debt either bc everyone already knows what a big fuckeroo that is#recruiters WILL DO ANYTHING TO GET YOU TO JOIN. they will KEEP CALLING YOU. they'll answer your questions#to make it sound like this is going to be a GREAT life decision. you can get all KINDS of jobs (true)#they love to say the thing about how only about 15% of the military will actually see combat in any way#they love to list all the jobs where you will literally just be working at an office or a pharmacy or in tech etc etc etc#the recruiters are offering housing healthcare steady pay and BONUSES if you sign on for longer.#so you let your guard down because you were so scared of the actual fighting. BECAUSE YOU'RE 18 IN THIS SCENARIO BTW.#you cunts will not meet anyone who hates the military as much as people who are NOW DONE working in the military#you don't know enough when they get you and then either you stay placated by the benefits or you scramble away as fast as possible#the number one military haters are people who know what goes on bc they already did it#source: I LIVE NEXT TO A MILITARY BASE LMAO PEOPLE HATE IT HERE!! they are NORMAL PEOPLE#I need you to get it into your head that the people committing atrocities in war were NORMAL when they joined#and that for every person in the military who's actively shedding blood there's 20 who do PAPERWORK#and they both are being put in the same category by you!! and they are BOTH being controlled by the same system!!#sergle.txt#I hate yall I really do.
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Jaiden: Cucurucho, you have a lot of power, right?
Cucurucho: ...I don't know. Maybe.
Roier: Ah... Yes, you know, don't act like a dumbass, you have it. You have it, man. Eh?
Jaiden: Is there a way for us to protect all the Eggs? Do you know? I don't want anything to happen to the Eggs that happened to Bobby.
Cucurucho: Ha ha ha
Roier: WHAT? [Smacks Cucurucho]
Jaiden: [Bops him] Headpats.
Cucurucho: Maybe.
Jaiden: [Continues to bop him] Headpats. C'mon, I can get it out of you! Headpats! Chin scratches! Belly rubs!
Roier: [Joins Jaiden in bopping Cucurucho, chuckling and laughs]
Jaiden: Yeah? He's comin' around!
[Jaiden and Roier both laugh]
#Jaiden Animations#Roier#Cucurucho#QSMP#Jaiden#Animations Family#There is. So much I could say about these three#and so much I could say about their relationship / interactions with Cucurucho and Osito Bimbo#Cards on the table... I really would have loved it if Cucurucho / Osito genuinely cared about Jaiden#I mean I know they DID care about her to some extent that much is clear#But they / the Federation were also ABSOLUTELY using her. I'm not arguing that they weren't#But how could anyone not be charmed by Jaiden? The boba the tea parties the head pats–#The empathy and kindness and everything that made q!Jaiden who she was–#Cucurucho and Osito were tools of the Federation but I do want to believe they cared about Jaiden. Albeit in their own fricked up way#I dunno. I know this sounds like massive copium probably but I watched all of her and Roier's streams interacting with them#and I personally think that conflict and duality makes for a more interesting story#But that's just me and my own personal biases. I dunno how to properly put it into words but I am cradling them all close to my heart#I loved Cucurucho / Osito and I thought they were interesting and I'm SO SAD we'll never know what Jaiden did for them in the past#Anyways. For anyone who's read this far into my rant– you know how Cucurucho saved the Eggs and Jaiden said she died in Purgatory?#I like imagining that she survived the bomb and wound up finding the Eggs in the aftermath#and she helped them survive until Cucurucho found them#I imagine that Jaiden was the reason they were able to escape from the Island / The Watcher / ElQuackity#She stayed behind to slow down their pursuers. And Cucurucho rescuing all the Eggs fulfilled his agreement with Jaiden—#A promise to protect the Eggs#Like I said a lot of this is copium but that's what I like imagining#TLDR: Cucurucho / Osito did care about her in a weird way but that doesn't mean they weren't manipulating her#May 31 2023#Idk man I got a lot of emotions about q!Jaiden#Roier too but I feel like I've done way more analysis posts about him and Cucurucho. Jaiden needs time in the spotlight#Anyways there's my monthly tag rant
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I'm going to be so real I do not understand tim & steph shippers who feel that Steph dating Tim again would save her character. You can make an argument that giving Tim a more compelling love interest would be beneficial for him! And you can at least make an argument that the fujo mischaracterization of Steph would stop. However she'd still, inevitably, be treated as a prop character/extension for someone more popular 😭 it also wouldn't make her appear in more books! Tim doesn't have many frequent appearances at the moment either! You can just say you like the couple and want them back together without acting like you have some kind of moral stance
#ramblings of a lunatic#dc comics#dc#NOT character tagging. for reasons j feel are obvious#honestly i shouldn't even be posting this here I'm responding more to twitter sentiments but they'd cook me on there if i posted this#anyway sometimes i think ppl (again the twt ppl specifically. tumblr timsteph fans mostly normal) are doing that thing-#-where you get so deep into a hyper online discourse cycle that you end up reproducing mainstream sentiments from scratch#''let men date women!'' this is what some of you sound like when talking about timsteph to me /j#there's a lot to critique about how Tim's been written since canonizing his bisexuality!#personally I've noticed (and seen other ppl notice to) that some writers seem unaware that tim is bi#not in the sense of making him straight but in the sense that they seem to think he's gay bc none of his relationships w women-#-are acknowledged as having been. relationships#or if they are there's an idea that tim was using them to 'hide from his true self' or something#genuinely problematic sentiment!#i also don't really find the ''he should cheat on bernard!'' jokes funny#like lets bffr Tim's cheating was NEVER acknowledged as cheating he was seen as a good all-american boy#so like. bringing that trait back and acknowledging it as cheating ONLY after he comes out as bi? i get it- ironic homophobia but-#-i really don't like it!#anyway. close your eyes and focus on the daminika like the rest of us /j#or the stephcass jason dancing image which will live in my head and heart forever despite arguably being ooc as well <3#bc it's funny <3 and at least I'm self aware <3#also much MUCH more importantly DC POWER SPECIAL EXTREMELY GOOD GO READ IT FOR DUKE#and jace but i haven't read future state yet bc i tried and got. extremely bored 😞 sorry jace you seem really cool#but he's great in the story dynamjc duo with duke. loved it love them want more#special was sold out at my comic shop tho so i couldn't grab a copy. might hit the other shop in town today to see#BOOST THE NUMBERS WE NEED A POWER COMPANY ONGOING GANG#anyway yeah. tim & steph thoughts. you can just say you like them you don't have to do all that
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moooore peter and norm swap stuff
I did not bring that up last post but the main idea was by @redtalics ^-^ yapping in tag. If you are curious. Hi
#space peter and factory norm in my dialtown? More than you think#norm at the plant fit so much just think about it man#And space peter???? Oh he gotta miss his family man#NOTE DESIGN wanted to make p much a alternative of both but wanted to keep much of their personality still going on.#Norm look like a florida dad#I still gave him his cowboy theme going on NOT as america much as his og is but still here#HES A HISTORY NERRRRD so he get to have that radio head. Radio. Head? Is he a creep? Is he a WEIRDO?#oh yeah tool belts instead of the whole guns n all thing going on :] he still big into america i think he'll be more about how Mingus care#About the plant and they just CANNOT fail to bring it back#peter as norm sound kinda random at first but if you think much... Yeah... Potential!#Instead of having a motivation of REVENGE he just want to get back into the past#NO matter the circumstance.#If peter at the factory sounded a bit crazy from time to time SO imagine 3 years in a forest missing your wife THE LIGHT OF HIS TUNNEL and#he kinda crazy but me think he a bit more saddy looking than usually norm always look angry#I GAVE him a axe as a alternative of the gun#The ending where you get axed and shit yourselfeand die#GINGI can motivate peter to stay in the present or to fuck around and keep him in that mindset like chapter 3 after all!#REALLY LIKE THE IDEA MY FRIEND ELLIOT MADE ABOUT HIM RIPPING OFF HIS AMERICA FLAG OUT OF ANGER#Hum I have more tobsay but i think thats enough. Tagging.#germa rambling for nothing#dialtown#dialtown fanart#dialtown phone dating sim#dialtown au#dialtown peter#dialtown norm#sgt norm allen
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It was low-key so hot when in the second batman live action, Cillian Crane said "I said my drugs would take you places, I never said they would be places you'd want to go"
I need Btaa scarecrow to say precisely those lines now because he is essentially Cillian crow just fan fitted to be more accurate.
(Huge ass massive character rant in the tags lol, I LOVE JON SO SO SO SO SO MUCH)
#im actually really enjoying seeing all the different faces and behavioural manurisms of the different Cranes.#they are all so unique from each other despite being all the same guy#btaa sounds like he actually does his own drugs in his free time and actively promotes drug misuse to children#WHICH IS LITTERALY CRAZY#codotverse has given me an even deeper view into Scarecrows character making scarecrow a split personality front to protect Jon#showing clearly the severity of his childhood trauma to where his brain created scarecrow to defend him from more psychological harm#Which is so awesome how Codot applied actual real life psychology and diagnosis#to explain Jons actions and show Scarecrow as not just a mask but a physical part of himself#with a mind and actions of his own that he justifies through wanting to protect Jon#can you tell I love Codot Jon#then there was Mof Jon who bless him was bullied for things completely out of his control#ofcourse Jons actions are still unforgivable and evil unjustifiable acts if terrorism but its the complexity of his character that makes me#love him so much.#Jonathan crane#the scarecrow#cillian scarecrow#nolanverse#codotverse#codot Jonathan crane#codot scarecrow#btaa scarecrow#btaa#Honourable mention goes to btas Jon#less justifiable bro I love you but you were straight up just psychologically torturing folk#batman the audio adventures#btas#btas scarecrow#batman the animated series
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1930s AU continued💓💓

#I tried SO HARD to take good picture but unfortunately the paper was pretty warped bahahahahahaha#hopefully you like it anyways🥰 in person I love it#but I separated the two pictures here bc together…the top is so saturated that Eloise looked washed out in comparison even though she ISNT😤#I love doing these little paintings so much😇😇😇#this was in honor of el festival aéreo in my city yesterday#like 4 hour long free plane show on the beach#I always love the old airplanes like this one#but the euro fighter is 😳 I’m obsessed with it !!!!#it breaks the sound barrier so maybe I am more deaf today than I was yesterday#but it’s soooooooooooo cool to see the pilot is just zooming around over the beach like 30 min making us all go deaf bc it’s SO LOUD#on Friday we also happened to see them practicing and he was right above us I’ve never had a plane so close to me before ever#tbh after thinfs like this I understand why hayao Miyazaki is also obsessed with flying#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#oh also added the zoomed in so you can ACTUALLY SEE HER😤
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rotating some asks you answered back in July in my head
uve told us so far that if a hermit grows past their problems, the helsmet that was a manifestation of those problems dies, and if a helsmet grows past that problem that they were made to address, they become their own person, and sometimes even a saint
...what happens to the hermit, in that second case? do they still have those problems? does it change shape? is a new helsmet created to take the spot the other helsmet left behind?
Some important distinctions:
If a hermit addresses the problem that made their helsmet: An RnS example being, if Tango realized he had a codependency problem and worked on that problem, so that codependency was no longer a problem that impacted his daily life, his helsmet would die. This is growing past the problem by solving the problem, and changing so that the problem no longer harms you.
If a helsmet addresses the problem they were made from: An example being, if Tanguish realized he was the manifestation of Tango's codependency issues, and recognized that wasn't the only thing he has to be, he is other things as well. This may end in solving the problem, no longer being codependent, but doesn't necessarily have to end that way, the emphasis is on becoming your own person, not on solving a specific issue. This is growing past the problem by not letting it define who you are.
When a helsmet self-actualizes, becomes their own person undefined by the problem that created them, nothing happens to their hermit counterpart. Their other half was already their own person. I think at most they might feel temporary relief -- something that was weighing on their soul, dragging them down, reminding them of faults and failures, is gone. However, the root of their problem isn't solved. So the universe could make a new helsmet. Or, because that problem no longer weighs as heavily, a new problem could take its place and the universe will make a helsmet for it instead [this is what I imagine keeps happening to Xisuma lol].
In my mind, the helsmets are like the incarnations of a narrative device. The hermits have no reason to change -- they live in a relatively consequence free world. To inspire them to change and be better people, a helsmet is made. In a standard character arc, they would meet their evil half, do their battle at the center of the mind that addresses that evil half, defeat that evil half, and leave changed for the better.
But if a hermit doesn't want to live that story [Tango] or if a helsmet doesn't fit that story [Tanguish], sometimes the universe does weird things.
Hopefully? That answers your question?
#rns worldbuilding#anonymous#rns asks#i feel like this all sounds so vague ack#it makes sense in my head i promise#anyway -- the reason Helsknight is struggling so much is he and Wels are The Stereotype for hels/hermit relationships#helsknight is the evil other half constantly fighting welsknight about a shortcoming/problem#tanguish [and us the audience] recognize he has things outside of wels that could make him his own person#but until they become bigger and more important than the thing tying him to his hermit#he will continue to only be Welsknight's helsmet
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Strangers From Hell Incorrect Quotes [13/?]
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#strangers from hell#seo moonjo#yoon jongwoo#gifset#*brace's#incorrect quotes#//#ok so technically the quote is from IWTV#but what inspired me was this one fic I read yesterday#where Jongwoo tells Moonjo he hates him while they're making out#and the Moonjo there enjoyed that so much. So much you'd think that's dirty talk to him#and. hm. yeah. to me that tracks.#the idea of being able to get under Jongwoo's skin deeper than anyone else#to provoke burning and disorienting reactions with your existence alone#in such a way you just CANNOT be ignored#that sounds. uh. pretty good. very satisfying. from a Moonjo point of view.#but. why did I match this dialogue with this scene you may ask-#well for one I really like the acknowledgement that comes with ''as you should''#no denial. no begging. no bargaining.#if that person hates you that's because you gave them a reason to and you know it#you know you deserve it#you deserve the consequences of your actions. your punishment.#this time. from this one person.#the one person you hold in higher regard than yourself. the only one whose feelings matter more than your own.#if you're in the receiving end of their rage and disgust you should cherish it#that might be all you are ever gonna get from them. all of them that is ever gonna be yours.#their hatred might be the most personal‚ most intimate feeling they will share with you.#... and that's why I picked this scene: the closeness. the intimacy.#Moonjo's surrender. the way he just lays there and wait. watch. the look of reverence in his eyes.#reverence tinted with fondness and pride. with bliss.
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i’ve been learning about cybersecurity as part of on the job training and i think we should petition to change rei’s occupation from con man to this lol
#vee queued to fill the void#homeboy does all of the above lmao#it was so funny listening to those modules like ‘social engineers find your personal info from places like socmed and make tailored scams’#me:…………….R…REI????????#it sounds so much more official than con man i think he can get sound so much more legit if he introduces himself as a social engineer lmao#bb: yeah that’s our dad. he’s a social engineer#others: 🙂💭 oh he influences society and its constructs like a mayor!!!#bb: 😞💭 he fcking scams people
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my n1 guilty pleasure is thinkin that post m2 lauretta moved deeper into criminal after several years & ended up sentenced to jail somewhere in the middle of 1970s
#sorry... had to say it. maybe i just want her to run a brothel&etc somewhere out of empire bay and#giving interviews and shit and she's in her 60+s. and ofc it's a furor. and she enjoys it (more than?) a bit#yk i just was writing texts for SC for m2 women some time ago#and im sorry .. in my delusional head if she got the chance to be in charge; havin the same amount of power#as carlo she'd be so much worse than him (<- here it means better i suppose)#i mean if she'd end up in criminal ofc she cant have an equal position it's clear etc#i just enjoy her being cruel and having no morals. why to let go all this#m2#also it'd be funny if eddie & lauretta'd keep in touch. both end up in jail#i need her to cause a furor genuinely. M4 could be if not exactly bout her#(i'm mentally bargaining w 2kczech) but at least takin place in her area of control#i remember some1 made a post like evil women in mafia series when#Here she is. Here's the woman#sorry. i may be cringe but i had to say it bc i sometimes think bout it since spring#michelle gurevich makes me think bout lauretta its like a ring bell for Pavlov's dogs#Where is this tt sound. “I DON'T GIVE A FUCK! i dont care about homeless fucking people!”#<- lauretta in my eyes#i also need her w wrinkles n greying hair so bad. im a weak person. im lying i need everything above so bad#*picture of a cat w wet eyes*
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#one piece#sanji#black leg sanji#everysanji#dressrosa#ch801#wanted poster update!!#and we're also done with dressrosa. wild#well ig that's what happens when he doesnt show up for 70 chapters#i made a note to myself as i was skipping through on the wiki for chapters i want to come back to#namely law's backstory and the law/luffy vs doffy fight#man i'm getting nostalgic for the first time i read one piece...#i really got into it in high school esp as a freshman#and i binged so much of it over spring break on a shady manga pirating app LMAO#but that would have been like march 2016 (9 years ago now!!! holy shit!!!) while wci i think was releasing#i remember dressrosa was pretty recent at that point so like regardless of how you feel...#idk dressrosa has always been an arc i've enjoyed personally bc of when i read it originally and i want to reread it in full but this blog#doesnt rest!!! i cant take the time to do that rn while queuing sanjis unfortunately#but bc wci is a sanji centric arc i probably will slow down to actually read some of it#you'll probably get my thoughts on it in the tags as we go too#i have a lot of thoughts and it ties in to why i dont want my posts here tagged as v*nsmoke at all#i've seen some of you fuckers talk about that in my notifications dont think i dont see you#i have my reasons for that. and its bc the vinsmokes suck major ass and sanji is not one of them#i plan on doing more full panels for that and maybe i'll bring back actually adding captions on some of those posts#sound off in the comments if you want that
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ok i got another one
i can’t seem to find a comprehensive list of dub languages online rn, these are the audio options i can select on my netflix account – not included in the poll but also available to me are hindi, indonesian, thai and a japanese audio description. idk tho if those are all that were produced or if there’s more options that are just not available in my region, lmk if there’s something else i missed here! also if you’ve listened to/watched multiple of these options do kindly tell which one(s) you like best!
#personally im a original language with sub truther. not just with anime but in general#rlly tho i hope this gets around bc. well the results could provide some important insights on a lot of discourse in the fandom. imo#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#i uh. for what it’s worth i really don’t like the english dub i think it sounds jarring and weird#german one is pretty hit or miss i’ve watched a few scenes from different episodes and some i liked and other. not so much#most of the VAs are good but don’t really fit their respective characters#french one is pretty good! also sounds like they put more budget/professional VAs into that one. which is no surprise#given how they are about anything comic or cartoon in france#i also listened into italian and spanish i think but. i forgor#other languages that i dont speak at all are harder to judge so haven’t checked those yet#with japanese i have atleast a very basic understanding of grammar and some common vocabulary and phrases
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growing up is like, every single thing you thought would be so complicated and unmanageable and unthinkably difficult turns out to be, actually, pretty simple. and every single thing you thought was so simple and easy to understand and how come adults don’t get this turns out to be painfully hard to deal with, to actually understand and internalize.
the thing you thought you had all figured out—somehow, you forget the right way to handle it. the thing you thought would dictate the course of your entire life, the thing you thought would ruin you forever—you move on in 2 months. the worst thing to ever happen to you hasn’t caught up yet. maybe it never will. maybe life shouldn’t be based on which worst thing happens when.
a hobby you thought would be a silly one-off becomes an all-time favorite. a genre you could never see yourself getting into can offer you the best story you’ve ever experienced. an inherent belief you thought you’d never budge on starts getting cracks. a person you’ve only ever seen in passing and had short conversations with can become your closest three, five, seven years later.
everything you thought about yourself can turn out to be wrong. you’ll get better in ways you didn’t know you could. you’ll slip and fall just as much, get new scrapes along the way as you survive yet another mess of a job, a situation, a relationship. it might be fear, or it might be happiness when you’ll look at yourself in the mirror and not recognize who it is.
so yeah, i guess, if i had to describe what growing up feels like, i could say i’m closer to figuring my life out, or i’m even more lost than before, or that it’s like a rebirth, i’m becoming a new person, i’m finally getting to know myself, or the many, many other things people say when you ask them.
and they’re all right, of course—the future you dreamed for yourself at age 12 is no longer there to guide you anymore, but sometimes it does feel like you see things clearer, like the pieces occasionally click in your head even if you can never comprehend the puzzle. you’re still who you were at your core, but you’re also starting to peel back the layers, to find such things that you never even imagined could be you.
so yeah, i guess, growing up is all of those things and more. it never stops to wait for you to realize it’s happening. it’s changing, changing in a way you can never anticipate, changing in a way that will simultaneously ache deeply and make you the happiest you’ve ever been. it’s the most complex, most intricate experience a human could have.
but, like most complicated things, it’s also actually pretty simple.
i mean—it’s just plain fun, isn’t it?
#at the risk of sounding trite—i used to think i had relationships and mental health down to a T when i was a kid. i could seeeee it allllll#and i mean i very much might’ve had it all figured out! because middle school relationships are famously not that complex (most of the time)#so i guess back then i really could see it all. i handled all the conflicts and navigated what i could and just went with the flow#then you grow up and people change and *you* change and it’s like ohhhh. My world was so small#my world was so small and now with each day i expand it inch by inch and it’s just *exciting*. it’s just fun.#with each day i feel more and more like a person. like i’m taking up more space in this world and so are the people around me. i love it#crammerposting#so yes here is some random poetic late night writing for u. doing this shit instead of what i should Actually be writing#but i’ve been having these thoughts for a while. growing up is sooo (trails off forever)#looking over this again and it just reads like Such an inkskinned post#can u tell i am a huge fan of their work yet
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the scene where you talk to davrin in his room while he whittles tiny models of monsters (while assan watches with rapt attention <3 there is nothing about this whole setup, man or griffon, that isn't adorable) when your rook IS one of the dainty little academic mage types he so besmirches and you consistently pick the purple options through the conversation -- I am SCREECHING the covert jock/nerd war rages on between clenched teeth and forced jollity, they are doing this on purpose, bioware really have given me this gift all nicely wrapped and lovingly crafted! rook is so fucking bitchy and passive aggressive in these purple options (and once or twice davrin doesn't seem to realize it/takes what they say at face value); it's not very nice of them but it is hilarious. also I must say that hearing these two just relentlessly neg each other with palpable tension of. SOME kind thick in the air* for five minutes straight and then walking away and seeing the 'davrin approves' pop up at the end gets close to the otherwise unapproachable gaming high that is having a tense standoff with sten in origins and seeing +7 affection as you leave. davrin clearly is going 'good talk man nice to see you stand up for yourself more, I respect the roast game' while my rook walks away with a forced smile and clenched fists like 'okay so that wasn't very mature of me I'll admit it but god why is this guy such an asshole'
I cannot imagine how this conversation must play out with a character more on davrin's wavelength because for my setup here this was *chef's kiss* perfect. ideal. I'm so glad this dynamic exists it's one of the funniest and most characterization-enriching things that could have happened to me
*there's some insanity going on here where like... I don't think either of them like want to fuck, they're not actually attracted to each other, but they both would fuck each other in a 'go fuck yourself'/'fuck me yourself you coward'/'fine I will see if I don't!!!!'/'oh yeah??? do it then!!!!!' kind of way. the vibes are indescribable and unhinged on both of their parts.
#the more I play the more I realize rye ingellvar is a HUGE petty bitch when pressed and I like him so so much#their vibe with lucanis is SO tender and patient and gentle. they have such respect and steady admiration for bellara.#they strive to be friendly and inviting with harding despite their different personalities and courteously lets neve have her space#and whenever davrin speaks they immediately choose violence. we must all contain multitudes#'oh. oh *I'm* a useless nerd and you're convincing yourself whittling your little action figures is actually just sound tactics???#fine. sure. alright. I can be an adult about this. ...tomorrow.'#once these two actually manage to hash it out they're going to have the most unbreakable brotherly bond ever tho#I'm calling it now. no one else gets to pick on either on them while the other is here sort of thing#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#davrin#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#bad news for rye: another jock has joined the team. the mage nerd coalition no longer quite so safe in their numbers#(well it's still four against two you'll still probably win the figurative movie night vote pretty easily. but still#three maybe. depends on where you put harding. lucanis is a theater kid so he's technically switzerlanding it#but really rook and neve can look at him with big beseeching eyes#and he turns collaborateur for the mage side in a heartbeat. hey. I um. I love this team)
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