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swifties understand that relationships can end on friendly terms and no one has to cheat or be the bad guy challenge
#challenge: failed miserably#y’all are so annoying i can’t stand you!!!#all from a single PICTURE#besides between the 2 of them it’s taylor the one who has a track record w cheating so!!#y’all are literally turning her longest and probably healthiest relationship into smth horrible#just move on like taylor is doing and leave joe alone like he wanted!!!#tina talks taylor
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do you ever like wanna make something cool but you dont know how so you just sit around like a moron for 5 hours straight pretending you know how
me neither
on a more serious note i know ad astra as a whole isnt over but i still want to thank daybreaker for their fics. what friends are for was the very first md fic i ever stumbled upon when trying out ao3 for the first time, and prior to joining the server i was checking it near daily for uploads. god knows if i'd be as deep in ao3 as i am now if it werent for this story and convenient timing. Thanks for the story.
#so What Friends Are For is over.#i did nOT CRY. i DO NOT CRY.#the lyrics incorporating the lyrics into the final chapter. daybreaker i HATE YOU#i still get GOOSEBUMPS just THINKING about the lyrics and then you FORCE ME to READ THEM#i thought it would be cool for the lyrics to be from different characters so i just picked kinda at random maybe#would i consider this a long post#gonna say no cause its more grid. be happy i didnt spread them out like i usually do#just pretend all the frames are in a consistent style and also better in every way also#oh i could probably tag daybreaker here but i dont remember their tag#its probably @lady-daybreaker or something but im too deep in this to check now#im not that deep im just lazy#i made uzis beanie look good for ONE PANEL. a SINGLE PANEL#and it was the VERY FIRST ONE#this post sucks im going to sleep#art#murder drones#murder drones n#serial designation n#murder drones uzi#not tagging the lyrics or nori. figure them out yourself bozos#for that one guy who liked how i made the limbs bend in the last one. sorry i got lazy#is there a picture limit
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danny and officer martinez's relationship in "late at night, when the nightingale sings" in a nutshell:
Martinez: FREAK! GET YOUR FUCKING KID!
Battinson, on the other side of the crime scene: he don't bite
Martinez, with Nightingale firmly attached his arm, visibly biting him: YES HE DO!
*points at them* Danny is the Bugs Bunny to Martinez's Elmer Fudd.
Another Officer: i can't believe you're fighting with an actual twelve year old. Martinez: i swear to god that is not a twelve year old, that is a little hellion that crawled out of batman's shadow one dark and stormy night and decided to dedicate his existence to tormenting me. Officer: Are you really that mad about him putting a sticky note on your back-- Martinez: thats not the point
in danny's defense: the word "freak" is. a mini beserker button for him for.... obvious ghostly reasons, so like, even if its not directed at him, he still very much unappreciates Martinez's insults at Battinson. Danny may or may not be projecting.
he's not going to hurt the guy! not in any serious or permanently disfiguring way at least! But he is going to leave mean sticky notes on the square part of his spine that he can't reach, and stick salt in his 3AM Late Night Crime Scene Coffee, and kick the bottom of his heel while he's walking so he stumbles. And other petty, infuriating things that tally up and boil over, over time.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#blood blossom au#dpxdc memes#dpxdc au#the only thing martinez is right about is the fact that danny is. in fact. NOT twelve.#he's just shrimpy because he's half-dead#there's eventually a 'martinez vs nightingale' board in the precinct called the beef board. it tallies every time one of them gets got by#the other. danny is currently in the lead by a wide margin. martinez is very limited in what he can do bc of multiple reasons. but one#of them is the fact that batman HAS punched a cop before. three actually. and he won't hesitate to punch another if martinez actually did#anything to harm nightingale. and also nightingale shows up so rarely and doesnt stick around long enough for martinez to retaliate#or properly plan ahead. its kinda a wild card whether or not nightingale pops up on the scene.#nightingale: i am just a little guy!! the littlest of boy!! baddabing-baddaboom! you wouldn't do nothin to a little guy would'ya?#battinson who atp knows full well that if it werent for the blood blossom danny could turn martinez into a red smear: *would you?*#danny: if it werent for the laws of this land i would have committed acts of violence against You Specifically :)#and also like. every single other officer insulting batman and callin him a freak. they're not safe either martinez is just the poor sucker#that i have a name to give the face to#danny's a good kid but also i don't picture him totally.. hm... mentally stable? he's a little spicy. as a treat.#he's kind at his core but also he found his family's corpses and was isolated from society for 4 months by his abusive godfather and was#poisoned with quite literally the only toxin capable of destroying him entirely and can no longer (currently) use his powers without dying#instantly. so he's! he's doing his best! like between being chaotic and being kind he's def gonna choose being kind but also.#he's living on borrowed time and is in a constant active state of being slowly eaten alive by his own bloodstream. it weighs on ya psyche#danny's barely even processed his family's death and now he's got all this other trauma stacked on top to address. he is Windows EXP rn#tormenting martinez is just. an itty bitty way he can let loose some of the stress he's ignoring.#considering danny's alternate timeline was: world annihilation. he thinks he's doing pretty well all things considered
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#that clock ticks endlessly HE'S HUMAN HE IS GOING TO DIE!!!! GRIPPIGN MY HAIR!!!!! AUAUUUGHHHH!!!!!!#every second sleeping aging marching endlessly closer to death faster than all his closest people. weeping#i think im done riso-ing out right now i just wanted to do One More. looks away. id do more if i was better at it LOL its rly hard#the endless style versatility. silver will never look the same from picture to picture but they are all drawn by me#actually every single silver ever. even if someone else drew him just know i was in the room. i was there#hes so stinkin cute i cant stop looking at him. hes cute even when hes sad. my poor lil guy#first day of work was today and i did Literally Nothing bc i dont have a computer yet but i make 40 an hour so YIPPEEEEEEE#hopefully ill be able to learn it alright. i simply must. i also start apt hunting tmrw. wish me luck boys#twstファンアート#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#suntails
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Pages from trying to keep a little sketchbook-scrapbook type thing going for two weeks lol. I gave myself specific rules in hopes they might all end up more cohesive/consistent seeming, but alas, scribbly chaos reigns, it seems
#sketchbook#scrapbook#Actually I feel like these are kind of incomprehensible in photo form like.. In person holding the book its easy to look at#but as images on this scale I feel like there's so much tiny little text and small scribles and stuff you'd have to 'right click > open#image in new browser tab > zoom in' just to actually really see the thing. which for 7 images is excessive lol.. so. probably not the best#medium for sharing really but. I suppose I thought they might look cooler lined up next to each other. The whole part of using a#limited color palette is so that maybe they kind of seem to have more consistent color schemes or something throughout. but I dont#know if they look all that 'related' or not. I think these types of challenges I have always sucked at because I am a being of clutter and#excess. I can't just do like one little simple nice looking design and have that Crisp Neat calligraphy with evenhanded perfect lines#and perfect symmetical composition and etc. etc. Like some poeple post very aesthetically clean and cohesive looking sketch#pages or something but I simply cannot hold back the brain impulse to add more. more. more. Fill every single blank space with color#or a little drawing or a sticker or something. I take away 500 things and there are still a million there. Even when I thik I'm being#'simplistic' I'm still usually being 2x more complicated and cluttered than the standard or whatever lol. I guess thats clear from my#outfits/costumes though too. Like whatever that saying is from that person about something like 'before you leave the house take off one#more accessory. you dont need it' for me is like.. 'before you leave the house. add 10 more accessories. and 6 more layers. and another'#AAANyway. I wonder if also maybe some people would try to plan theirs in a way to look good or something or like.. plot things on the page#before placing them. I did sometimes have a theme for a day kind of (like day 10 I ended up finding a few gold and green things and then#was like.. hey... what if I looked for a few other things and only used these colors today') but aside from that I was just slapping down#stickers randomly and working around them to fill the page. Maybe a lot of neat minimalistic asthetic design is about planning and#having a Vision set ahead of time. instead of just complete random whatever. doodling whilst watching youtube videos or eating lunch. It's#a miracle actually I've managed to not spill any food on the book the whole time. anyway.. I do wish the highlighter really showed up. the#scanner kind of makes the colors look VERY different to irl. But also it got much clearer images than just camera pictures of pages. alas..#..Still oddly enjoy the phrase 'Salisbury Steak gently kissed with industrial pollutants'#probably my favorite section of 'gluing random papers and things onto the page' lol#Also I wonder if it's super obvious that I literally never ever use references when I draw (save for the few freakish looking youtube#face sketches) since everyone is always in the same positions and looking very similar ghhb. This could have been a good opportunity to#work on not solely drawing from my mind and try to do more Dynamic Experimental scribbles. NO. Same exact eye for the 90th time#be upon ye. But I guess it was meant to be casual 'daily doodles'. True 'practice' would make it seem too effortful like a full project. hm#(lol the one decimated pencil in the set... never hand me a writing utensil. i will passively destroy it somehow. shaving the sides of a#pencil off with a knife or snapping a pen in half as a nervous fidget without even realizing i've done it. sorry to the drawing implements)
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Wanted to draw a bunch of troll OC's and decided to do something I like to call Oc roulette, where I find and then draw a few at mostly random (I've wanted to draw some of them already hehe) from left to right the creators of these OC's are:
@/Podkidysh10 (you can find their art on insta!)
@funktrolls
@leahlozers-blog
@sunberies
@spooky-pop
@v-poreons
@/az.althea01 (you can find their art on insta!!)
@jennjamindraws
Hope I did em justice for ya!!
Little guys on their own:
#dreamworks trolls#trolls#trolls oc#my art#dw trolls#they were all a blast to draw#also im so sorry spookypop your boy fell victim to my current pose hyperfixation#which is this dog doing the upsidedown peace sign#its so freaking silly#and i love it#i tried to emulate your guys styles a bit when drawing them#i hope i was able to get it a little bit#theyre all so FREAKING CUTE#i think the one who got done the fastest was rosie#i drew her first so i had a lot of energy#and then as time went on my energy waned and they got more difficult ajdndk#i wouldnt say one was super hard to draw tho it was mostly posing issues by me#like indi and impala i had issues with due to how i positioned them#i wanted all of them to be able to be separated as single pngs#and so i had to split impala and indi into two parts to make it work#also yes sorrel is leaning on impala but shes cool with it theyre friends#firefly is right on top of harvey so its not like theyre the only ones XD#i like to imagine theyre all posing for a picture and only half of them know#which is why some are goofing around and the others are posing for the camera#silly things from my silly brain hehe#its 5 am#i need to GO TO BED#i think firefly's is the only one whos not full body akfnskd#also for harveys i had to reconstruct his whole head cuz she obliterated him#very tragic but it had to happen
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If you're still taking requests (/nf /gen):
Phoenix and everyone else enjoying fireworks on New Year's?
Reginald is telling Phoenix that he’s surprised they’re not off running the firework show, and they’re telling him that they were asked but they decided to hang out with their friends instead. this is a lie they got hard banned from using fireworks while drunk which, as its New Years, they most definitely are
here’s the version with the flat colors bc i think this is the first time i’ve drawn them all together and idk i like them :]
#Phoenix is on their sixth glass of champagne and it’s only 9pm#with the Agency’s attitude towards alcohol i doubt that a single person who attends the New Year’s party remembers 90% of it afterwards#my apologies to Prism for separating her from the other women in stem. it was for framing reasons :(#Fabby is unimpressed by the fireworks show. she is also unimpressed with Prism and Solaris’ ideas of formal dress#i don’t have a particular vision for the backstory of this picture. universe where they’re all working at the Agency? holiday truce?#idk use your imaginations#thanks for the ask!#ieytd#i expect you to die#agent phoenix#reginald crane#the handler#ollie ieytd#john juniper#dr prism#roxana prism#the fabricator#commander solaris#this also works as a height chart. never forget the fabbylaris height difference you guys
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another album art inspired one- all colorpicked aside from benreys eyes
#couldnt not give him blue screen of death blue. as i usually picture#turns out that single pieces are easier than 1-3 page lyricstucks! (looks at my 4 wips)#album is plastic death by glass beach. got a couple songs from it in my hlvrai playlist#they dont fit super well but the lines abt mayflies get me#'all the mayflies died in a day` the full streams didnt even take nearly 24 hours... games over in less than a day#anyway so i was looking through for good album art and when i noticed the orange parts in the art i knew#hlvrai#half life vr but the ai is self aware#hlvrai fanart#benrey#gordon hlvrai#the others are so tiny. doesnt feel fair to tag#also i never have done a looming xen benrey drawing! feels like i skipped a rite of passage
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Year two of an amazing new hobby/creative outlet and being absolutely smitten with this game and its characters ~
Like last year I had to do two editions, one focused on Vince, one on Vince and Kerry, just because I can xD Because just like last year both of them have been insanely important to me in a journey of self-discovery and growth and making new connections with many wonderful people <3
I was a bit worried that towards the end of the year I wouldn't really have anything to share - bc on the one hand I went through some mental health shit for a couple of months that really drained me, and I also dived deeper into modding, which consumed a lot of my spare time XD But there still were months where it was so hard to choose just one pic!
I feel like 2024 was so much a year of experimenting and trying new stuff - especially VP comics hhhhhhh I enjoyed doing so much, be it just with my blorbos or also with friends blorbos! Super honorable mention also to my biggest VP project this year with the NC Pride get-together and y'all on CoD <3 Been an honor to take out your guys and gals with Vince and friends, would love to do it again :3 (and hope I can get to finishing NPVince and send them on adventures with you all too xD)
On to another one!!
Summary of VP Template by @pinkyjulien!! 💛
#cyberpunk 2077#cp2077#cyberpunk vp#cp2077 vp#virtual photography#summary of vp#my vp#vincent ezaki#kerry eurodyne#kerry eurodyne x v#otp: to bad decisions#male v cyberpunk#cyberpunk v#my faves from Vince's is probably March as a standalone pic - from tdov 2024 - I peaked xDD#gotta do some more conceptual/experimental stuff again it was fun :D#and from the shippy one my fave is October - bc that was the first photoshoot where I had both NPVince and Kerry+ finished enough for pics#not pictured the VP comics and OUGH. every single one I loved doing - every step of the way from concept to final edit#the one with Midas here as a stand-in for all others xD bc I was loving Vince's post-Arasaka look a lot there
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#can i be real w you for a second about oscar noms like. i only saw the oscars for fun and trying to predict the noms#but these years’ noms are so bad and they suck so much ass. we’re all going to hell#yess queen go off nominate the picture that ridicules mexican people from the point of view of european men#whatever man#i can’t believe david lynch will be in the in memoriam of that shitshow#DISCLAIMER I DONT HATE EVERY SINGLE NOMINATION im just super pissed they gave that movie so much. so so much
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One major factor missing from most debates on Arya and Lyanna's beauty is that they're being judged by their society's extremely patriarchal values. In both looks and personality, that context is essential to understanding how others perceive them. George explores the misogyny experienced by non-conforming women, especially with Arya, and it's interesting how he plays with that regarding their physical beauty.
Her mother used to say she could be pretty if she would just wash and brush her hair and take more care with her dress, the way her sister did. (The Blind Girl, ADWD) "You never knew Lyanna as I did, Robert," Ned told him. "You saw her beauty, but not the iron underneath. She would have told you that you have no business in the melee." (Eddard VII, AGOT)
These two quotes offer a nice summation of this idea. With Arya, her supposed lack of beauty is defined by her being a non-conforming wild child. Her hair is messy, her face is dirty, and she's often in "lower class" clothing while engaging in unladylike activities. None of this says anything about her physical beauty but it tells us everything about how she's perceived. Arya could be pretty...If she conforms to society's standards for a highborn Lady. With Lyanna, however, we get the opposite. Where Arya is judged based on her personality, Robert's romanticization of Lyanna is rooted solely in her looks. He doesn't know anything about the person she really was. There is an assumption that, because she looked a certain way, her personality must fit and Robert imagines her much softer and more passive than she actually was.
That Arya isn't pretty or Lyanna wasn't wild are two perceptions that George specifically pushes back against. This is where people miss the brilliance of them being linked as literary mirrors; it is largely about us learning more about Lyanna, but it touches on more than that. The significance of them being written as wild, willful, and with their own beauty is that George isn't writing his female characters around patriarchal expectations. When people debate their beauty, that's often the trapping they fall into. Beauty and non-conformity are treated as mutually exclusive factors when the story itself never makes that point; this is also the logic that leads people to the (incorrect) conclusion that Lyanna and Arya aren't meant to be similar. Arya's self-esteem issues around her looks and being a Lady make this a topic certain to be addressed in the future; George has made it a part of the story. The conclusion shouldn't be that "looks don't matter", but that looks aren't indicative of a character's value, personality, or morality.
#arya stark#lyanna stark#asoiaf#valyrianscrolls#I know we're tired of this topic but I'm going to keep bringing it up until people base their analysis on what's actually in the books#it's not about needing/wanting Arya to be pretty it's about! the story being told#and it's just frustrating that this is such a highly debated topic that lacks all the nuance it's handled with in the source material#among a lot of other reasons people miss this point because they miss the way misogyny is handled in Arya's chapters#they think her being non-conforming mean she has some super special privilege that makes her exempt from it#Arya being pretty is a relatively small part her character but the message behind it contributes to a larger picture#and the biggest shame about this whole debate is that it misses genuinely brilliant writing#it's just absurd to be that /female character being non-conforming and pretty/ is beyond this fandom's comprehension skills#you guys really just want to force them into being flat no-nuance archetypes for easier consumption#Arya and Lyanna...I'm so sorry this fandom can't handle you because they hate women#mind you several people refer to Arya as pretty but apparently every single one of them is lying/unreliable because...reasons#this fandom truly has zero comprehension skills
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Ed learning how to sketch and doing these elaborate ones of Stede and getting frustrated when he can't get the nose right but trying to get it to look as much like Stede as he possibly can, and then eventually graduating to make full body sketches and the walls of the inn are littered with smudgy charcoal prints and sketches of Stede reading naked, Stede cooking naked, Stede fishing naked, and in every single one Stede's dick has a little smiley face drawn on it c:
#this went away from me but the idea of Ed pursuing new hobbies with the same single minded focus has me weeping#stede hangs all these pictures of the fridge they can barely open the door anymore#but it's okay#who needs milk and veggies anyways#meow speaks#ofmd
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i am going to scream
#rain world#dp spoilers#seven red suns#since i started out using in-game art as a ref for suns - not realizing the concept art existed -#i've been using nine dots#i might swap to seven though#it's easier to draw too. lol#ALSO. THE PINK MUPPET HAS YELLOW MARKINGS AND HIS SIGNATURE COLOR IS TEAL#the blue robot has red markings and her signature color is gold#NSH king of color coordination and we don't even see most of his design smh#part of me loves how inconsistent things are in rain world#do you want a solid design for moon?#a canon color palette for five pebbles?#no. they change between every single in-game piece of art#look at moon's antennae between each picture. look at them. look to the antennae#part of me is infuriated by it too#i tend to prefer when there's a solid canon to draw from#but i also enjoy how rain world is so interpretable#it makes seeing what headcanons are common in the community neat#and all the new ideas people come up with are a treat too#including everyone's interpretation of the characters' designs!
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my main groupchat core
#it’s all friends from school and they’re like my best friends ever#my love for thayne/seabury is referenced every single day here it’s very fun#im like a reference point for how insane someone is about something#we were JOKING about the last one okay 😭😭😭👎👎👎👎#they match my freak so bad i love them#we also change the gc name/picture for every upcoming holiday so it doesn’t have a specific name#<- it’s always a variant of “those who know” though#like for this month it’s “those who fight for civil rights” for MLK day
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I am not immune to the charms of beaten, bedraggled, post-pyrrhic-victory gunfighter-turned-preacher-turned-sheriff Cort
#i mean come on#that is a face sculpted in heaven#and he just somehow wears bruises and cuts like some people wear makeup#it only ✨enhances✨#and the fact that this is the last shot of cort’s face#he feels like he’s lost his faith and fallen back to what he was#but ellen gives him this special hope#like even though he’s killed again and given into his rage#he did it to kill a genuinely evil man and free a town from fear and corruption#AND NOW#he has a chance to do some good again#i don’t think cort could ever go back to being a preacher after this movie#but being a sheriff can give him the same feeling of helping and protecting people#while still using his natural skills as a gunfighter!#i just finished the novelization and am not at all thrilled about how jack curtis concluded cort’s characterization#so i’m thrilled that the movie did so well with him#but let’s not get distracted from the main point here which is WOWZA#the hair is just begging for me to run my fingers through it#and his neck? BEGGING to get kissed#i have the insatiable urge to just lay him down and take care of every injury he has#i would be so good to this man y’all have no idea#i’ve honestly been in such a cort mood#i need some of that repressed passion in my life. and also my bed#*quick cut to me and cort coaxing some hallelujahs of a different kind out of each other*#that single lock of hair that blows across his face is my whole personality at this point#the things i’d do to him and let him do to me. cannot and should not be uttered#the second picture I SWEAR just marry me cort#russell crowe#the quick and the dead#cort
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hi au where billy and max are child stars
neil auditioning billy for a (soon-to-be) beloved family sitcom as a baby, very mary-kate and ashley vibes, maybe billy getting the role for being the only baby not to cry during the auditions, and then putting him to work from basically day dot.
his mom doing her best to run interference and make sure he gets treated right, only letting him be on set for a few hours a week and making sure either herself or neil is always with him, but the older he grows and the more screen time he gets, the more the show runners and neil try and weasel their way for more time with him.
him turning five and the show airing it's fourth season, his parents marriage being over. his mom handing neil the divorce papers and walking out, then dipping her hand into his earnings (that neil has tied up in his own name) to try and buy them a future, trying to get full custody.
the divorce being messy and drawn out and public, neil having made her out to be the villain, the fans and magazines tearing her to shreds and writing headlines trying to shame her, saying she's a heartless bitch for trying to end her own child's career just as it's starting to take off.
billy getting caught in the middle, the separation and custody battle drawing out for years, him struggling to handle the fall out of his home life coming apart at the same time as the sitcom he grew up on comes to an end.
his life being a fucking mess by the time he turns eight.
having a little bit of free time then, technically being jobless. starting to explore other hobbies and interests now that he has some time and getting more into music and sports, begging for a guitar and a surfboard for his birthday, asking neil if he can join little league.
neil promising him one better, and instead, getting him auditions for disney, telling him the only thing better than playing the guitar, is playing the guitar for disney.
turning ten and being a series regular on an already airing disney show, but the execs and directors being so impressed by him that there's talks of him getting his own show.
part of him being excited, proud, but a bigger part of him being terrified.
being so scared to tell his mom cos he knows she'll cry. she used to run her fingers through his hair to lull him to sleep, hug him close and whisper about how she never wanted this life for him, how she's so sorry.
it becoming official and him getting his own show on disney.
him getting the news exactly one week after his mom walks out for good, his dad having finally won full custody, no visitation allowed.
him feeling sick to his stomach. he never thought she'd actually leave.
he never even got to tell her his news.
it not taking long for the shine of having his own show to wear off, the few things he was excited about starting to become a hassle.
starting to resent it.
hating it.
hating the lights and the cameras and the scripts and the running lines. the early mornings and the make up and the flights and the night shoots and the interviews and the press. hating the way he's always surrounded by adults, never having had an actual friend his own age in his entire life. that all the other kids he knows are pitted to him like rivals, there being always talk about ratings and viewers and timeslots. him not knowing what a friend without it being tied up in publicity and pr.
hating the fact that he has a sister on the show, but his dad and her mom end up getting close, and suddenly he's getting a step-sister in real life.
hating the way max only has to film for x amount of hours a day because she's a kid, but he has to film for longer, and thats on top of everything else he's gotta do, very miley cyrus sharing her schedule during her hannah montana years vibes.
him becoming a household name in his younger years from the sitcom, but disney cementing his fame, him being known by what feels like the entire world by the time he's in his teens.
growing up and getting into shit, experimenting with drugs and alcohol and sex, trying to find any and every escape he can. him and max always being on the outs in private, but being the picture perfect family in public.
neil being a controlling fucker, a true momager, has kris jenner on speed dial.
rebelling in every way he can, not giving a fuck what stories or pictures of him get leaked anymore, the press and public turning against him as he gets older.
his show ending and him expecting to finally feel free, except just becos the shows over, doesn't mean anything else is. suddenly the pressure starts feeling heavier, everyone asking him what he's got lined up next, if he's gonna straighten himself out, if he's gonna finally take his career seriously.
neil riding him, telling him to forget about whatever he wants to do, and do what he tells him to do instead. him having various commitments and auditions lined up for billy already, and billy being ready to end it all.
emancipating himself at age seventeen, cutting off contact with everyone.
going off the rails and living his worst life. catching the headlines and updates of maxine mayfield: now managed by neil hargrove, and shoving down the urge to call her and tell her to run, knows she won't listen to a thing he says any way. he was nothing but an asshole and a spoilt brat no good fuck up in her eyes anyway, neil making sure they never got close.
doing his best to go down the music route, feeling physically ill at the thought of acting again, but thinking maybe music could be the answer. he always liked it better. felt more comfortable with a guitar in his hands or a piano under his fingers than cameras and lights in his face.
the music industry being just as harsh and ruthless as the entertainment industry, him not getting taken seriously by anyone he needs to be taken seriously by, everyones expectations of him being so fucking high that he knows he'll never be able to meet them.
deciding he doesn't give a fuck about anything anymore, his life's never been his own to control or have any say over anyway. signing a five year contract with a well-known label, not writing a single song of his own or playing a single instrument aside from when they want him to trot out an acoustic set, and instead singing words richer people than him wrote and performing show after show after show, flying from country to country to country, barely fucking existing. the songs becoming chart toppers, like they were written to be, and selling out stadiums.
hitting rock bottom.
getting a wake up call from max of all people, her ringing to check he's still alive. him pulling the phone away to check this is an actual call and not a hallucination. putting the phone back up to his ear, asking why she's calling.
her saying happy birthday and billy realising he's turning twenty today.
them sitting in silence for a while before max finally cracks.
her telling him his dad's an asshole. billy laughing. no shit.
them hanging up, but max calling again, a month later, then again, a few weeks after that.
billy being hungover as fuck and having no idea what country he's in, but max is in a new movie, out in cinemas now, and it's a serious drama, it's fucking emmy nominated, so he calls the front desk of whatever hotel he's staying at and asks for directions to the closest cinema and before he knows it, he's going incognito, hoodie on, and watching her on the big screen, and she's so much better at acting than he ever was.
neil must be so goddamn pleased with himself.
too bad max sounds completely miserable everytime they talk on the phone.
he calls her instead of her calling him for the first time, opening the conversation with saw your movie, how much fucking overtime did you get for all those night-shoots?
before or after your dad took his cut?
billy laughs. he can't remember the last time he laughed.
ANYWAY. i was listening to robot by miley cyrus on repeat and!!!! child stars au!!!! them both being worked to the bone!!! hating each other becos they barely know each other cos they barely know themselves!!!! getting through their childhoods battered and bruised, billy coming out the other side first, max finally catching up to him a few years later. them both, one by one, cutting their parents out!!!! max taking the big screen by storm when she grows up, neil frothing at the mouth that he can't touch her money when she cuts him out!!!! billy never signing another contract again after his record deal ends, disappearing off the face off the earth!!!! slight the lucky one by tswift vibes!!!! idk!!!!!
#the idea of steve and like the other st teens being disney stars and billy and steve having a thing#after stevenancy of course. and then steve bailing and going back to nancy the second she shows him attention#and billy being like. hurt and heartbroken and soooo fucking fifteen years old about it#things leaking and neil losing his shit over the gay rumours#things coming out over the years of neil being a piece of shit and billys team being fucking awful#max having it good for a while at the start before neil comes into the picture then realising how fucked things can be when he takes over#cutting him out and considering giving up acting#but realising she actually loves it. just not on neils terms and not on disneys terms.#taking a slight break and getting new management before getting back out there.#billy seeing every one of her movies and calling her to nitpick every single one#also the idea of steve and nancy getting married then divorced a year later and billy catching the headlines#like damn. whatevers happening over theres probably 10x as fucked than whats getting reported. thank fuck i dodged that bullet.#100% have what happens with billy when he fucks off from the public eye mapped out but whatever we're not focusing on that#gonna go listen to my hannah montana/miley playlist now thanku#also thinking about this au made me realise there really is no Disney guy like miley hilary raven demi selena were#like theres zefron cos hsm i guess#but like. guy disney channel star????#whatever it's not important its fiction it doesnt matter#anyway the idea of billy coming back to social media to post once in a blue moon#and him being like. 'well my therapist says i need to accept and make peace w my childhood so imma try and see what u all see#and watch this shit' and then start like. liveposting while watching the shows that made him famous#posting a story to insta with 'you all made this punk a fuckin household name?????' over a clip of him doing some acting at like. age 6.#and then another clip with 'at some point u gotta realise the problem is you holy fuck'#'i was a kid i had an excuse. you all just made anything famous back then jfc'#m#nqff#text
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