#all caps warning

[im-not-here-im-dead]

OLDER RELATIVES STOP TOUCHING ME AND CALLING ME PET NAMES CHALLENGE. IT’S NOT CUTE AND IT’S NOT FUCKING FUNNY. WOULD YOU DO THAT IF YOU KNEW I WAS A LEGAL ADULT? IF I WAS VISIBLY AGING? IF MY AUTISM DIDN’T MAKE ME ‘CHILDISH’? WHY DO YOU THINK IT’S OKAY TO JUST GO UP TO YOUR KID RELATIVES AND TOUCH THEM WITHOUT THEIR PERMISSION? YOU DON’T DO THAT TO FELLOW ADULTS, SO WHY AM I AN EXCEPTION? STOP IT. AND WHILE YOU’RE AT IT, STOP ASSUMING THAT WE’RE AUTOMATICALLY BUDDIES JUST BECAUSE WE’RE RELATIVES. WE’VE MET TWICE WHEN I WAS LITTLE. I DON’T FUCKING KNOW YOU. AND EVEN IF I DID, THAT WOULD’NT GIVE YOU A PASS TO CALL ME ‘SWEETIE’ AND FUCKING STROKE MY HAIR WHEN I HAVE NOT TOLD YOU THAT IT WAS OKAY TO DO SO. I AM NOT YOUR FUCKING PET. STARS I HATE ADULTS SO DAMN MUCH SOMETIMES. I HATE HOW PRESUMPTUOUS THEY ARE. I HATE HOW COMFORTABLE THEY ARE WITH ENCROACHING ON MY PERSONAL SPACE. I HATE THAT THEY STILL DON’T CONSIDER ME THEIR EQUAL.

why am i still not. worthy of respect? why is respect the exception? and not the rule? why do i need to ask you to stop? can’t you just ask for my permission? how will you act if i say no?

[ingo-in-places-he-shouldnt-be]

HAVE YOU BEEN TO BAHIA, INGO!?

[despite-everything-im-not-here]

Opinion on FINAGLC

i assume you are talking about Flowey Is Not A Good Life Coach. correct me if i am wrong.

opinion under the cut.

it has been a while since i last read it, but i have read it three times in the past. each time, i was struck with how much papyrus’ story resonated with me. it was such a heart-wrenchingly real depiction of someone going through that kind of abuse, and there were moments where i saw myself in him. this fic helped me start to recognize the ways i was being abused. and for that, i am grateful.

that being said, i absolutely despise this fic for its portrayal of flowey. others have said it better, but this author seems to misunderstand flowey on a fundamental level. in this fic, flowey is portrayed as an emotionless husk who is cruel and sadistic for the sake of it and cannot be changed because he is incapable of real emotion or caring about others in any meaningful way, so it’s in his nature. apparently. besides being yet another iteration of a deeply ableist trope, this portrayal of flowey completely contradicts what he is actually like in the game.

firstly, flowey is not cruel ‘by nature’. he CHOSE to be cruel when he didn’t have to. and he was never cruel for the sake of it. he did awful things to stave off unbearable boredom and sate his curiosity. i do not say this to ‘justify’ his actions. quite the opposite. if flowey really was cruel and sadistic because of his ‘nature’, something he CANNOT CONTROL, how could he possibly be held responsible for his actions? he made the CHOICE to torture and kill people COMPLETELY of his own volition, and he is not proud of his actions. he’s so ashamed of himself that he condemns himself to the fate of staying alone in the underground for the rest of his life, tending to his lost sibling’s grave.

secondly, flowey isn’t emotionless either. in fact, he is the MOST emotional character in undertale. he even cries on screen at least three times, which is more than any other character (asgore and napstablook only do this twice). he seems to deal with emotional numbness, but he never says that he can’t feel anything AT ALL, just that he can’t feel anything FOR ANYONE. he also says that he can’t truly care about anyone, but he has been proven to care about others many times (ie; the true route when he begs ‘chara’ not to reset and to let everyone live their lives, the times he took care of toriel, the fact he never has anything bad to say about papyrus, his secret admiration for sans). it’s not that he doesn’t care about anyone, it’s just that he conflates not feeling love and empathy for someone with not truly caring about them.

lastly, but not leastly, flowey IS asriel. i don’t really feel like explaining why right now, so for now i’ll just let this post do it for me.

another thing that really bothers me about this fic is that it’s just not a good or accurate rendition of papyrus and flowey’s relationship. in undertale, flowey seems to think very highly of papyrus and i think a lot of it has to do with his of unwavering belief that everyone can choose to do the right thing and make a change for the better. because it challenges his beliefs that the world is kill or be killed and that he is beyond redemption. papyrus challenges him to think critically about how he views the world and himself.

they have a lot in common too. they both put up a front all the time, they both feel like no one really understands them, they’re both painfully lonely, they both have a sibling they would do anything for. i think because they had so much in common, flowey felt closer to papyrus than anyone since chara was alive.

i think what finally made flowey go from considering papyrus as his friend to considering him as just another character was when he realized that he was getting predictable and boring just like everyone else. his words of encouragement and admonishment started to ring hollow. it became just lines of dialogue to him. i think that flowey thinking of the world as a game is his way of coping with derealization rather than just plain disregard for the people who live in it. it gives him a sense of control and comfort.

but i digress. all this to say that papyrus is really important to flowey and the significance of their friendship cannot be understated.

in this fic however, papyrus is flowey’s favorite because he just can’t quite figure out what makes him tick. he is oh so fascinated by his staunch pacifism because it makes no sense to him. he wants to figure out what would break his will and get him to murder. he has no real respect or admiration for papyrus. he just sees him as a toy.

in conclusion, Flowey Is Not A Good Life Coach, while a moving story and an excellent depiction of the effects that extreme abuse can have on someone, is also an abominable portrayal of flowey and his relationship with papyrus.

verdict: i really don’t like this fic and i never want to read it again.

[atlasthecactus]

lore behind the drawing (read if you want):

I WAS JUST AT THERAPY AND WE WERE TALKING ABOUT ANXIETY AND MY THERAPIST TOLD ME TO COMPARE IT TO SOMETHING SO I STRAIGHT UP JUST WENT “like how silver the hedgehog says ‘it’s no use’” AND BECAUSE SHE KNOWS THAT IM AN ARTIST MY THERAPIST PROCEEDS TO GO “ah you should draw silver then” SO THE REST OF THE SESSION I LITERALLY WAS JUST DRAWING THIS WHILE TALKING ABOUT MY ANXIETY. anyway that whole experience was very surreal.

+bonus: my therapist continued to refer to my anxiety as “silver” throughout the session 💀

[keep-on-trying]

TOEI PLS I LOVE YOU FOR ADDKNG MAHOPRE AND GOPRINCESSPRE TO CR ON EU SO PLS PLS PLS GIVE US HEALIN' GOOD ON EU AND ADD STARPRE AND HUGPRE AS WELL PLSPLSPLSPLSPLS

[followmetoyourdoom]

My UK friend! Please! What is the story of Moonpig?! Googling has not yielded much that requires me to clutch my pearls??

THEY SELL CARDS!!!!!! THEIR ADVERT IS STUCK IN MY BRAIN!!! SURE THEY BRANCHED OUT INTO CHEAP PICTURE NOVELTY GIFTS BUT THEY'RE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE SELLING ACTUAL COOL SHIT

[casuallydyinginthecorner]

*kicks down door* *climbs on table* *takes deep breath* SIMCHA RABA SIMCHA RABA

[promithiae]

*hisses at clothing companies* STOP MAKING EVERY SINGLE PANT HIGH RISE. I AM ONLY 5'1 HIGH RISE PANTS GO UP TO MY NECK. STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT

[pierswife]

okay but i think albedo would appreciate your company in dragonspine. just you, him, the quiet hum of the alchemic machinery, the faint glow and warmth of the fireplace, and the unforgiving landscape of falling snow. there's a certain comfort that he takes in your presence, in just having you near him and he thinks that perhaps he should ask you to just sit with him more often in the future.

*beats my fist on a table* THIS. THIS IS THE SHIT I LIVE FOR. JUST COMFORTABLE SILENCE WITH NO NEED FOR TALKING CAUSE YOU'RE JUST COMFORTABLE AROUND EACH OTHER AAAA

*aggressively slapping this*

THIS IS THE SHIT I LOVE.

[dumbassacademia]

WHY DO OLD PEOPLE THINK THEY CAN JUST SWIPE WHEN YOU SHOW THEM A PICTURE ON YOUR PHONE GODDAMMIT

[im-not-here-im-dead]

my PDA saying i can’t do it or i will DIE

vs.

my OCD saying i have to do it or i will DIE

FIGHT !!!

[jinglerat]

FINALLY WE'RE GETTING MORE JOEL MILLER TLOU FICS GODDAMN I ONLY HAD TO WAIT A DECADE BUT HERE WE ARE

[decimakitty]

MASS BOOPING WOULD BE A LOT EASIER IF TUMBLR WOULD LET ME BOOP MORE THAN ONE IN TEN TRIES

also apparently if you get booped a hundred times over a short time period the activity log gets very sad about keeping a consistent order/ record of boops

[casuallydyinginthecorner]

UM SO UM A CHEVRON IN CALIFORNIA IS PROMOTING ANTI-ROMANI RACISM

[despite-everything-im-not-here]

HATE KILL KILL DIE MAIM BITE

Another quiz for if you were a fictional character how would your fandom treat you (if you think your life is too boring to have a fandom just think of yourself as living the domestic!au of some sci-fi or fantasy)

reblog with your results

[an-absolute-trainwreck]

Shaking everyone not tagging their toh spoilers like a fucking chew toy in my teeth