#all I wanted was to watch a screen adaptation in which the character looks like how he was meant to look!
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giantkillerjack Ā· 2 years ago
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THE COUNT OF MONTE CRISTO IS BLACK.
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HE IS SUPPOSED TO BE BLACK. 10 MINUTES OF RESEARCH WILL TELL YOU HE IS WRITTEN BY A BLACK MAN AND BASED ON THAT MAN'S BLACK FATHER.
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SO HOW IS THERE NOT EVEN ONE SCREEN ADAPTATION WITH A BLACK COUNT?!?!?
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IT IS 2023. THE MEDIUM OF FILM IS 128 YEARS OLD. I HOPE THE NEXT PERSON TO GREENLIGHT A WHITE EDMOND DANTES IS FRAMED FOR TREASON
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berzahoes Ā· 11 months ago
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manifestation, baby! | tom blyth
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summary: fans find out tomā€™s girlfriend has an old youtube channel where she reviewed the ballad of songbirds and snakes (and she definitely manifested her life)
an: the way i thought about this idea and quickly wrote it down so i didnā€™t forget it. i used to have an app that made those fake tweets but iā€™m just tired to make fake profiles šŸ˜­ maybe iā€™ll change it later idk
for the purpose of this imagine, letā€™s pretend tbosas book was published between 2017-2019
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tomblythxsnow apparently tomā€™s girlfriend has an old youtube channel where she reviews books and she reviewed the ballad of songbirds and snakes and she literally manifested her future šŸ˜­
lucymygf WHATTT WHATS HER CHANNEL NAME
tomblythxsnow itā€™s ynā€™s book corner. she hasnā€™t posted since 2019 ngl i need her to review a little life because that book destroyed me
nat76_ omg i used to watch her videos!! iā€™m still subscribed to her šŸ˜­ i remember only buying and reading the books she liked because i wanted to be her so bad
j4ckaszlol ā€œif someone ever makes a movie adaptation of this book and casts someone attractive to play snow then i am sorry for the person i becomeā€ REALLLLL
graybairdsmockingjay dude the part where she said ā€œiā€™m calling it now whoever plays young snow will be my boyfriend. movie studios always cast someone attractive as the younger version of a character!ā€ MY JAW DROPPED SHE NEEDS TO TELL ME HER WAYS
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ā€œguess what rachel just sent me.ā€ you heard tom say when he arrived to your shared apartment.
ā€œwedding invitations?!ā€ you gasped as you almost stood up from the sofa since you were watching reruns of criminal minds, but tom stopped you.
ā€œno, itā€™s better!ā€ tom sat beside you and showed you his phone. ā€œwhy didnā€™t you tell me you had a youtube channel?ā€ on his phone screen was your review of the ballad of songbirds and snakes, which had become a very popular video over the past couple of days.
you hid your face with a pillow and groaned. ā€œdonā€™t remind me. i just wanted to talk about my books and my family didnā€™t care. donā€™t watch it! itā€™s embarrassing!ā€
ā€œi think itā€™s cute. aw look, your dog made a cameo!ā€ he pointed at your old dog you used to have that walked into the frame.
ā€œindi! no, come sit right here. oh . . . and sheā€™s walking away. okay, anyways.ā€ your younger self said in the video
ā€œindi? why Indi?ā€ tom asked you even though you were still hiding from embarrassment.
ā€œafter indiana jones. my dad and i loved those movies and he gifted me indi as a birthday present.ā€ you confessed.
ā€œlove, donā€™t be embarrassed. i think itā€™s cute that you manifested your life according to the comments on instagram,ā€ tom paused the video then cuddled up to you. ā€œi wonā€™t watch it if you donā€™t want me to.ā€
ā€œitā€™s fine, i just didnā€™t think anyone would find it. we can watch it together.ā€ you uncovered yourself and sat down properly to watch the video with tom. before he pressed the play button and together you watch your younger self review the book.
ā€œiā€™ve read all the hunger games books at least four times and this one did not disappoint. but i do hope whoever ends up being cast as young snow is someone hot. iā€™m sorry itā€™s the rules! and they will be my boyfriend, iā€™m calling dibs.ā€
tom smirked at you. ā€œif only younger you could see you now.ā€
ā€œshe would definitely think ā€˜wow, how did we pull this beautiful man?ā€™ then be confused as to why the hunger games and fnaf is trending in 2023.ā€
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ynlovesbooks told ya. love you tomblyth ā¤ļø
rachelzegler she is THAT girl
ynlovesbooks no u
everdeenx12 bestie heā€™s EVIL
ynlovesbooks heā€™s a walking red flag but my favorite color is red šŸ˜
chamaletproblems pls tell me how you did this
ynlovesbooks i figured out who they were casting and kept him hostage until he agreed to be my bf
tomblyth true
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jibunbosh Ā· 6 months ago
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Mesmerizer is a satire of TikTok, YouTube Shorts, and the rest of the modern short-form vertical video format
A brief thematic analysis.
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I'm sure there are countless people already interpreting the imagery and details in this wonderful song & MV, like here and here, so I won't spend too much time retreading that ground. Miku and Teto are dancing. Miku gets hypnotized. Teto signals for help, but gets hypnotized at the end as well.
That part is obvious enough, but that's still pretty surface-level. What is this seemingly hyperspatial horror scenario supposed to mean to us?
While checking to see if anyone before me's already come to the same conclusions as I did and if I should bother not writing this text post at all (lol), I came across udin's great analysis video. She comes to the conclusion that the song tackles themes of disillusionment with reality and the ways we indulge in escapism to relieve ourselves of the pains of the world.
I agree with that reading! From practically the very beginning, we have Miku call to us - the viewer - to push away our true feelings. Teto comes in to peddle a solution, inviting us to surrender and empty our minds - in her words, "pretending to know nothing."
You, the viewer, are a critical character in this masquerade. For nearly the entire video, Miku and Teto's eyes are unfailingly trained on you. Or, well... perhaps they can't actually see you, but they can see a camera, or whatever other aperture the point of view is supposed to be from. And they know they're being watched. (Who else would Teto be sending distress signals to?)
Let's put a pin on that for later.
udin notes very early on that Miku and Teto are, conspicuously, kept in vertical frames - very similar to the video formats of TikTok (and Instagram Reels, and YouTube Shorts, and whatever other clones of the format exist.) You know, just like the animator Caststation's Rabbit Hole fan MV that went viral some months ago.
Hey wouldn't it be crazy if the song's producer, 32ki, released Mesmerizer shorts too haha. Wouldn't that be crazy.
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Wow, wild.
These short-term vertical videos are captivating & alluring. If you're reading this, it's more likely than not that you've also found yourself caught up in them at least once, scrolling through the infinite algorithmic slurry and forgetting about the real-life issues you have at hand. Would you say, then, that you felt hypnotized? Mesmerized, even?
And so these two invite us to join their world and focus on the... uh... rectangle.
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Their dances are repetitive, following the same loop. Their outfits are distinct, but their choreography isn't. They're copying the same formula, repeating it ad nauseam to the best of their ability.
They're doing a fucking TikTok dance.
Back to the pin I told you about earlier, with Miku and Teto looking at a camera.
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Miku sways with the camera, eyes looking directly at it like a swinging pocket watch. She's been looking at it the entire time, after all. We've been seeing her via our screen this entire time, but, again, she doesn't necessarily see us. She's beholden to the camera, which she dances for day after day, caught up in its spell. She's hypnotized by it. Eventually, she breaks.
Teto, on the other hand, resists. For a while, anyway.
Despite her being the one jumping to us with the "solution" at the beginning of the MV, there's very quickly good reason to question how much agency she has in this. She dances for the camera as well, but she doesn't want to. She's signalling for help. She wants out.
Many content creators (as much as I personally loathe the non-specificity and soullessness of the term) have struggled with the adaptation to the short-form video format, and the preference the algorithm has had for these captivating, bite-sized videos. They're catchy, and easily drive up metrics. Practically anyone who's publishing their work via video format online needs to learn to adapt or fall behind, even if that means whittling their content down to fit the frame, the time, and people's shortening attention spans. Sometimes, that means compromising on specificity and completeness... or, in other words, the true representation of a full work.
The song's writer, 32ki, has been releasing songs on YouTube for several years. Their first YouTube Short, however, was posted only a year ago: a short, whittled-down segment of their previous song, CIRCUS PANIC!!!, hoping for it to win the ProsekaNEXT song contest. It was their first song to achieve widespread popularity and hit a million views.
The shorts, however, aren't the "true" versions of the song. The full song just won't fit.
We're being mesmerized as consumers of this endless stream of content, rather than appreciators of music and art. However, that relationship isn't completely symmetrical across the plane that is the 4th wall. Miku and Teto are trapped not by their attention spans, but by a compulsion to project their "truthful acting" and peddle that window into a colorful, problem-free world.
We, as the collective audience, need not dwell on any one thing for too long - we need only swipe, and move on to the next video. However, Miku and Teto are trapped behind the screen for eternity, day after day.
They're the only characters we get to see, of course. There's no evil 3rd voice synth character that's plotting to keep them trapped in there. We can't put a face to whatever force is hypnotizing them and trapping them behind the screen. It's faceless - like the inscrutable algorithms of YouTube recommendations or the TikTok For You page, or the impersonal corporations that develop & maintain those aforementioned apps. Miku and Teto's likenesses, on the other hand, are being exploited and extracted from for their entertainment value, being strung along by that metaphorical hypnotizing force like puppets on a string.
Many people, represented by Miku, enjoy their success on such platforms. It's freeing and liberating to throw oneself wholeheartedly into such an endeavor, of course! Others, represented by Teto, harbor their doubts of the emotional veracity of such a medium, but know they have little choice lest they face destruction... perhaps not literally as a person, but as an idea.
Wouldn't it be easier just to let oneself be swept away by it and give in?
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alastorsbookie10228 Ā· 3 months ago
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Could you do hazbin hotel (romantic) (you pick which characters! I primarily would like husk and angel) x reader that really loves PDA and just make it wholesome and fluffy
OMG GUYS MY FIRST ASK ANFIHFOHVKVEQHOV (i'm literally giggling and kicking my feet)
Hazbin Hotel men + PDA
includes: Alastor, Husk, Angel Dust, Vox, Lucifer
i made all gender neutral
(Vox is NSFW)
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Alastor is a very reserved, "no touchy" kind of guy. he usually is kinder and more polite to the people he knows (and gets along with), and when you and him started dating, he started to let down his guard. at first, he was still reserved, but he slowly adapted. when no one's around, he'll hug, kiss, and hold you like nobody's business! (literally lol)
"dear?" Alastor said as he walked over to you in your now shared room. "yes?" you respond, looking over at him. "what is it?" wordlessly, he walked the rest of the way towards you and looked down at you, his ever present smile faltering to a small grin and his eyes hooded. he leaned down and kissed your cheek, his hand placed on the other side of your face. you wrap your arms around his neck and hug him, smiling as his arms snake around your waist. "i love you" you mumble into Alastor's shoulder. "and i love you, mon cher" he responds, sealing the deal with a kiss on your lips.
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Husk is...probably not super opposed to PDA, but i feel like he isn't all about it either. he'd be more affectionate in private, or when he's drunk. especially when he's drunk.
"hey babydoll" Husk says to you as you sit on one of the bar stools. you turn to look at him, a small smile on your face as you think "uhm...what?" he smiles at you with a dazed expression as he leans forward. "gimme a kiss, hun" he says, resting his elbows on the wood of the bar and his head on top of his hands. you blush slightly and lean in, pressing a soft kiss on his lips. he watches as you pull away and looks at your lips. "another one, baby" he says and smiles as you lean back in. this goes on for hours. just take the poor baby to bed at this point.
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now...we know he's affectionate in public or private. PDA is his way of living, hun.
"hey baby" he says as he sits by you on the couch. he grabs your chin and turns your face towards him and presses a long kiss to your lips. "how was your day, toots?" he asks, laying his head on your shoulder. "it was good. and yours?" you ask and look over at him. "meh. Val had me fucking randos all day. i'm exhausted"
*30 minutes later*
you lay next to Angel in his bed, Fat Nuggets laying between you both, snoring soundly. your head was rested on Angel's chest fluff as he ran his fingers through your hair, his bottom set of arms secured around your waist. he tilts your head up and kisses your lips. "good night, baby" he says with a small smile. "i love you"
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Vox is very loving, and he'd want to love on you all hours of the day...but the stupid meetings always get in his way. so that kind of means that he can't really have you latched on to him. so he'll make do with what he has. you.
Vox sat in his chair, watching the screen in front of him. the meeting was only 10 minutes in and he'd already missed you. he missed how your mouth felt wrapped around his length. he decided to send you a text.
7 minutes later, and you were back where he wanted you. under the desk, mouth stuffed with him. you slowly bobbed your head and watched as he held back his moans, tightly gripping his desk.
once that meeting was finished, he grabbed you by the hips and picked you up, slamming you into the chair and plunging his length into you.
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okay, now we're talking. so Lucifer isn't opposed to PDA, but he isn't sure he's good at it. he often blames himself for Lillith's absence, and he fears it was because he wasn't good enough. he's just a little baby that needs reassurance that he's good enough...and that his ducks are good enough, too.
Lucifer sat in his office, painting a duck. he hadn't moved in almost 2 hours. you were starting to get concerned. you walked into the room and knocked on the door. "Lucifer?" you say softly and see his shoulders slump slightly. you walk over to him. "honey, you okay?" your worry only increased as you saw the small liquid droplets that were on the desk below his head. he looked up at you. "honey, am i good enough?" he asked, his voice soft and weak. your eyes soften as you kneel down next to him and grab his face. "of course you're good enough, Lucifer. you're the best thing that's ever happened to me!" you lean forward and kiss him, softly smiling as you feel him wrap his arms around you. "i love you" he mumbles against your lips.
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the-monkey-ruler Ā· 8 months ago
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Which translation/adaptation of JTTW is best for beginners? Besides maybe Dragon Ball (doubt it counts)
Heh yeah I mean itā€™s a great anime but I donā€™t think you would have a good Xiyouji experience per se. Usually, I see Dragon Ball used as a gateway for people to THEN read/watch Xiyouji content but like it doesnā€™t really have much Xiyouji plot wise even if the characters are homages.
I would say that if you want an ACCURATE Xiyouji experience then you can choose between three shows. That being the classic 1986 which is many people's first Xiyouji experience as the cast is so iconic you see these designs in dozens of movies and their influence in future performances. The second is more family-friendly but still one of the most charming and fairly accurate portrayals is the 1999 Xiyouji animation, I would say far more younger people's first piece of media and without a doubt the best Xiyouji animation series thus far personally. That last I would suggest is 2011 Xiyouji series which is one of the more newer shows and I would say I would that if you want more modern effects and humor than this might be a preferance to the 1986 version. They both have their own charm but just depends on what you are looking for!
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Now while these are the most accurate there are some Xiyouji media I would still recommend even if they take far more liberties.
This without a doubt being the 1996 tv series. This is portrayed as more of a drama but between the characters and the pure HEART AND LOVE that is in this show that you will be falling in love with the characters. It vaguely follows the Xiyouji monster of the weak formula but taking far more time to humanize each enemy and having our main cast overcome not only physical obstacles but also their own emotional obstacles as well. Fantastic show. Another is Chinese Odessey (please note this is a two part movie)! This does NOT follow the journey at all instead more of an introspective of the character Wukong. This is more of comedy but this is a cult classic as one of the first romance films with Wukong to show him as more of a complex hero which was a deviation from how he was portrayed in media for years as this point. This movie is silly but it is actually very heartfelt and makes you feel for these characters's plights. If you don't know Xiyouji I would say you will be confused, but you can fall in love with these characters anyway! Whil I can't suggest Dragon Ball I can suggest another Son Goku from My Son Goku! This is a Japanese production but the animation is so fluid and the characters are not only charming but there are some heart reaching scenes in this very cute art style! I would say give this a watch if you enjoy anime but also can appreciate angst even in a cute style.
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If you are looking for more just great Xiyouji movies that you can pop in and a fantastic one is the 2015 Hero is Back! This was the Wukong come back animation-wise since 1999 and a lot of people first Wukong in the big screens! Does take liberties story wise as we don't see Sha Wujing or any of the journey really, but the HEART and soul of Sun Wukong is there. Another great one is just watching the first and classic 1961 Havoc in Heaven! This was the staple of Wukong iconics for decades and even now you see this Wukong in commercials! This is just a beautiful art style and without a doubt charming and feel good vibes. This one is surprising but actually Nezha Reborn where Sun Wukong actually makes a cameo appearance, but I hear so many people got into Xiyouji just cause how much they love him. So while it's not Xiyouji I would say give it a watch if you are a die hard Sun Wukong fan.
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There is also Monkey King Reborn which while less known I still think is wonderfully popular and shows both great animation and also how all three characters of Wukong, Bajie, and Wujing interact in a movie. There is also Monkey King 2 which I know that usually I would say which the first movie but honestly the second movie is my personal fav. You don't miss much without watching the first as the second starts right at the begging of the journey and we are introduced to some of the best designs for these characters in my opinion. This last one is kinda of a hit-or-miss but Conquering the Demon! This one follows Sanzang as a demon hunter in a loosely based story of him finding his disciples, each more monstrous than the last in a dark-comedy! If you enjoy Stephen Chow films then you know what kind of humor you are going to get but it is new take on Xiyouji films in a unique but still entertaining manner! They really make you feel for Sanzang as a character and one of the best humanizations of him really as a man still learning about the world himself.
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There some other that are great but I would suggest more on a second watch or if you know the story more! Saiyuki / The Great Alakazam was the first eng dub saiyuki piece of media that came to the USA and still had a lasting influence with the beloved character Rinrin! There is also Monkey King 2009 that only looks at the story BEFORE the journey, adding so many elements to Wukong's childhood and his relationship with the Six Eared Macaque. I would also suggest the Monkey King Netflix Movie as while it is fast-paced it really makes you understand how dangerous but also how complex Sun Wukong is. I think it was a charming movie so give it a watch!. Last is Immortal Demon Slayer! This movie was based on a web novel that was extremely popular in the early 2000s which was based off Chinese Odessey funny enough! This is a movie I would suggest if you know Xiyouji already but it such a tragedy I have to share if you love angst.
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If anyone wants to share their what was their first Xiyouji or their favorite Xioyuji please let me know!
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welcometothejianghu Ā· 10 months ago
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Welcome to another round of W2 Tells You What You Should See, where W2 (me) tries to sell you (you) on something you should be watching. Today's choice: å°‘å¹“ę­Œč”Œ/The Blood of Youth
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The Blood of Youth is a 2022 live-action adaptation of the tale of a deposed, disabled, and incredibly cunty prince who's on his way back to settle the score with his asshole father, and the rag-tag band of weirdos he accumulates along the way, including Spear Girl, Bad Monk, and Fire Puppy (pictured above).
I hope you like shounen anime, because this is the most shounen anime something is allowed to be without actually being based on something running weekly in Shounen Jump. What if Nirvana in Fire were also Naruto? It would be the Blood of Youth.
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This show is an underrated gem of action-packed fun that not nearly enough people in English-speaking fandom have seen. In an attempt to correct that -- and ahead of an announced second season and prequel in progress -- I'm here with five reasons you should try it out.
1. Zero thoughts head empty
You do not have to pay an enormous amount of attention to this show to understand what's going on. The show itself does not always know what's going on. It got distracted by a shiny object over there, and now we're all gearing up to go punch the shiny object. We'll get back to the main plot when we're done with the punching.
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It has a million billion plot threads going on at any given moment. Bad guys roll in from sects you've never heard of before, using superpowers with stupid names, only to get kicked into next week. There's approximately eleventy thousand characters -- so many, in fact, that I ran into problems several times while making this rec post, because there aren't readily available photos of everyone I want to talk about. Just look at the DramaWiki cast list. See how it goes on for like fifty screens? That's a little what the show feels like.
Except I'm not saying that like it's a bad thing, because the show knows it's doing this, and it acts accordingly. It telegraphs pretty well who's important and who isn't (and then it goes out of its way to color-code the latter, which is handy). What you're left with is absolutely a manga-style plot, complete with training arcs and semi-relevant sidequests, all working up to the final boss match.
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It is an extremely self-aware show. On multiple occasions, something would happen, I would crack a joke about it, and then a beat later the show itself would make the exact same joke. I wouldn't call it an outright comedy, but it's still very funny, and on purpose. It has no illusions about being some kind of profound, meaningful epic. Mostly it's just here for a good time.
Yet this lightheartedness is what makes the powerful emotional parts really powerful by contrast. The show is not stupid; it's just goofing around most of the time. When it knuckles down, it can be devastating. And you know what? It does wind up being profound and meaningful about some stuff. How about that.
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So yeah, if you're up for something that bops merrily right along and only occasionally rips your heart out, here you go!
2. Putting the poly in polycule
Bisexuals, rejoice! It's representin' time!
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Here you go, I made a relationship chart of about 40% of the show's potential and canonical ships. I could have included so many more, but I only had so much space on the image, so I had to leave out some amazing ones, like the sword hedgehog who's real into this one cougar who could easily wipe the floor with him, or the rich nerd who thinks he has a chance with the aforementioned hot butch, or the fancy MILF who cheated on the emperor with a dreamy jianghu man and is trying not to cheat on him again with a different, slightly less dreamy jianghu man. See? There's just so much.
I would also say these are not exclusive ships. They are extremely inclusive ships. I am a fan of most (though admittedly not all) of the pairings listed here, and in fact of many of the three-and-more-somes indicated by these lines. They're such a cuddle puddle of shared intense feelings that it's hard to imagine anyone getting more than mildly jealous. Moreover, the potential for romance does not get in the way of hetero friendships; a boy and a girl who are each dating other people can go do adventures together, and (mostly) nobody gets weird about it, which is nice. If anything, what makes the overall dynamic so polycule-like is how equally friends and love interests get treated, meaning that it's not difficult to see a lot of crossover potential between those two categories.
If you're like me, you're hesitant about canonical romance, especially when it's straight, mostly because so many straight love stories wind up being tiresome, gross, and/or skull-poundingly boring. You will then be pleasantly surprised by how the canon pairings with members of the main cast are not like this at all!
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Xiao Se and Sikong Qianluo are the main textual romance, and golly gee, they're just cute as heck. As the chart above indicates, I like interpreting them as two Kinsey 6's who have found their single exceptions, Mulder-and-Scully-style. Maybe one of the best things about their relationship is that it gets sidelined all the time for the plot. They're not so busy being in love that they forget to get shit done. Then they get a bit of downtime and get to go on a date, and you're like, aww, those sweet gay disaster babies are gonna do a little bit of heterosexuality. Just precious.
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Tang Lian and Fairy Rui are right up there with the cuteness. She's a sex-positive dancing beauty who wants to ride that pretty boy like she stole him, and he's a shy sword boy so tightly bottled up that he'll explode if he sees a bare ankle. Avoiding spoilers, I will simply say that this is a pairing of two relatively soft people, until a bad thing happens to one of them and the other hardens up about it. If that's your jam, they're here for you.
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Lei Wujie and Ye Ruoye are probably the most magical and the most practical of the bunch. They have a beautiful, super-dreamy, really horny sword-dance meet-cute, complete with its own pop song ... and then that's it, they're basically just together. She likes him, he likes her, good for them. In-laws aside, it's a refreshingly low-drama situation. Besides, I always love it when the hypercompetent woman gets the sweet, devoted himbo who'd do anything for her. Ruoye's had a hard life, and she deserves someone who can dick her down good at night and make her a nourishing breakfast the next morning.
And then there is, of course, The Ship:
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Xiao Se and Wuxin are canonical, textual soulmates. The show treats their dynamic as more important than any other. It's so important, in fact, that the show has to sideline Wuxin for huge parts of the drama, lest everything get too damn gay. They each get a boyfriend catch on the other. They both do fairly reckless things when the other is in trouble. They are the secret hidden happy ending to the series. They share the kind of ride-or-die relationship built on mutually being the hugest bitches in any given room. Whether or not you think this is romance, it is extremely romantic, and the series agrees as much as it can, all things considered.
And if none of those flavors of love float your boat? Well, have you considered ... eunuchs?
3. She likes e4e
So I'm on record as being real into eunuch characters, right? Well, if you're with me on that, you are in for a treat here, because these are some absolutely buck-wild eunuchs.
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There's five main ones, and I can't even begin to scratch the surface of what's going there. Like, really, I don't even think I understood all of what was happening with them. They're kind of the bad guys, but then they're kind of the good guys, but then some of them are the bad guys, but then they're just working for the bad guys, but then they screw over the bad guys, and ... it's just a lot, okay? It's a lot, and it's all happening with this bunch of catty bitches.
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Also, you would not believe the difficult time I had finding any images for this section. I guess for some reason, fandom isn't way into a bunch of canonically dickless color-coordinated middle-aged men in weird hats? Whatever, man, they are missing out. If, however, you have the good sense to be into the intense and complicated (semi-romantic??) relationships among colleagues who also professionally just happen to be missing their external genitalia, buddy, strap in (and maybe strap on, depending).
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Don't let me oversell how much these guys are in the show. They're not. They're vaguely important at points throughout, and they become incredibly important near the end, but they're hardly main characters. They're mostly back at the palace, doing their various schemes and looking absolutely fantastic.
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So if they're such a minor part of the story, why do they get their own selling point? Well, I think their presence is a good example of two specific things about the show:
Specific thing the first: It's so queer -- not gay, but queer. Thinking back to my last selling point, you will notice how many of those straight pairings may look normie on the outside, but once you get down to it are not playing by cishet rules. (For instance, I've seen a lot of people read Tang Lian's resistance to sexual advances as asexuality, which, sure!) Likewise, there are lots of incredibly important, intimate relationships that don't conform to standard romantic pair dynamics. Add to that a lot of bodies with unusual characteristics and conditions, and you've got the makings of plenty of delightful non-normative love stories.
Specific thing the second: There are so many things going on with so many side characters that there's a kink here for everyone. Don't care for eunuchs? How about slinky villains with mind-control powers? Devoted servants who would do anything for their masters? Former bad guys who owe life-debts to the good guys who saved them? Bonded pairs traipsing around the jianghu together? Sons nursing legitimate grudges against the men who killed their fathers? Alcoholic widowers with incredibly slutty necklines? Mysterious cross-dressers with unconvincing moustaches? Vengeful brides? Martial siblings? Murderous royals? Guilt-ridden half-siblings? Boring star-crossed lovers? All these and more! It's a smorgasbord of rarepair fuel!
Also, I just love these toxic drama queens. It's like if RuPaul's Drag Race had the authority to have you executed.
4. The most intriguing outfits I've ever seen in anything (and yes, I'm including Winter Begonia)
Time for a fashion show!
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The asymmetrical fits, the detailed embroidery on everything, the brilliant colors -- everybody just looks so good. And yet everything still looks ... eh, I don't know if "practical" is the word I want, but at least wearable. Nobody's dragging ten-foot trains of fabric behind them or wrapped in eighty floofy layers of gauze (except Rui, but she's special). Their outfits are strange and elaborate, but they don't defy physics.
What's truly stunning is how often they get new outfits. Xiao Se alone changes clothes about once every other episode, and more if he's getting a flashback. He is the fashion plate of the whole series, and every look he serves is pitch-perfect.
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They're not outright color-coded, but the main characters do have certain colors associated with them -- which is extra-fun when you watch those colors bleeding into their friends' clothes as their relationships get stronger. I also think -- and I'm willing to be proven wrong on this point, but I think I'm right -- that they recycle some characters' outfits into parts of other characters' outfits. On more than one occasion, I'd swear that Lei Wujie shows up wearing the left half of something Xiao Se was wearing a few episodes back (tailored to fit him, of course, because that dumb ponytail boy is tall).
Where I think the costume design gets massive points, though, is that the costumes are themselves adaptations.
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Before the live-action series, there was a 2018 3D animated donghua. I have never watched the latter, but apparently the drama is intensely faithful to the animated visuals, to the point where some fights are shot-for-shot remakes.
Of course, you can do a lot more with unreal clothing and bodies in animation -- and you can show a lot more skin, at least according to Chinese content laws. The live-action costumers chose to preserve about as many of the appearance beats from the donghua as they could manage, while still accepting the limitations of real-life bodies and materials. You can see some side-by-side comparisons here. The live-action outfits manage to be instantly recognizable without being slavishly devoted recreating to their inspirations.
So if you're sick and tired of dreary, ill-lit shows with bland palettes, this vibrant, colorful drama may be just the thing for you. It's a rainbow from start to finish.
5. Actually a good central plot?
Despite all the wacky delightful shounen nonsense that this show has -- and it has a lot -- the core of the whole narrative, which is Xiao Se's story, is surprisingly great and cohesive.
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The short version is this: Xiao Se used to be Xiao Chuhe, sixth prince and somewhat heir apparent. Then he and his jerk-ass dad had a falling-out that resulted in the prince's having his martial arts abilities all but taken from him. He's been living the life of a very well-dressed innkeeper for several years, trying to avoid all of that palace garbage. But now his jerk-ass dad is dying, which means that a lot of horrible decisions are finally having unfortunate consequences for everyone, and Xiao Se's got to get back in there to make sure everything does not go to shit and land someone terrible on the throne -- even if it has to mean taking it himself.
His central conflict is between what he used to be and what he's become. Does he miss being Xiao Chuhe, high-ranked martial artist and future emperor? Or is he happier being Xiao Se, long-suffering nobody who can barely run a business, much less hold his own in a fight? What would he be willing to do to get back what he's lost? What are his obligations to himself versus his obligations to everyone else? How much is he responsible for his father's bullshit? And why has he wound up having to babysit this stupid Fire Puppy?
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It's okay, they're best friends now. Lei Wujie decided.
No spoilers, but I liked Xiao Se's ending a lot. I feel it's very true to the character and shows a real understanding of who he is and what he values. And really, at the end of the day, sometimes all you need for a happy ending is your girlfriend, your girlfriend's girlfriend, your girlfriend's girlfriend's boyfriend who's also your boyfriend, your other boyfriend, his girlfriend, and your long-distance for-real soulmate.
Feel like giving the youths a try?
You can find them on YouTube or on Viki. But be absolutely sure that no matter where you watch it, you make sure to go watch the epilogue as well. (And if you get real into the story, well, here's a link to information about all the other adaptations.)
You are also welcome for how I did not spend this post going off for five hundred years on how much I love Wuxin and his funky relationship to Buddhism. I figured that's way too niche of a selling point for most people, and might indeed have even been counterproductive. But know that I could have.
Also, I'm very happy about the announcement of a second season, because that's going to mean Liu Xueyi has to shave his head again, and he looks unbearably good with a shaved head.
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Oh yeah, did I forget to mention the whole motorcycle photoshoot?
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In case you hadn't noticed, the whole cast is stupidly hot. Hachi machi.
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helenakwayne Ā· 5 months ago
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And Then There Were Three
Thoughts on Bridgerton S3 Kanthony ā€“ spoilers abound (Alt. Title: Read Me Rant)
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It was never my intention to watch Bridgerton. When season 2 came out, some of my best friends told me I needed to watch season 2, specifically. So, I did, starting from season 1, because context is important to me. I watched season 1. It was all right. I watched season 2. I had a new ship. I love Kate and Anthony, and if Iā€™m entirely honest, I may love her quite a bit more than I love him. But I do love them together. I do think they work better as a unit than apart.
As every Kanthony shipper knows, Season 2 was unsatisfying. We felt precious screentime that should have gone to our leads was wasted somewhere elseā€”something about rubies and American mines. It differed from the book, but we have made peace with it. We have two stories with the same, if slightly different, charactersā€”more to love, right? But if there is something weā€™re all terribly happy about, it is the leads we got. Jonny Bailey and Simone Ashley have chemistry up to their yang; they make that enemies-to-lovers plotline sing, and they act out the hell out of their characters. They have both stated on numerous occasions how much they love their respective characters, and they do make them come alive in a beautiful way. Our complaints about season 2 mainly were about timingā€”did we have to make it all the way to a doomed wedding in episode 6? By then, Si and Daff were getting it on, leaving time to resolve everything else while we were barely reaching peak angst. We had no onscreen courtship. No onscreen wedding. No onscreen honeymoon. No onscreen Kate becoming the kickass viscountess she will prove to be (but Iā€™m getting ahead of myself). No onscreen Anthony letting go of his psychological burdens. But our leads were together, soā€¦ yey?
Bridgerton as a show is not without its MANY problems, but I choose to watch it despite those problems. I wonā€™t dive too much into those. What is troubling, however, is when they seem to waste outstanding opportunities that require minimal effort because of what looks like mere incompetence.
So, season 3 Kanthonyā€¦ By some miracle, both Simone Ashley and Jonathan Bailey can come back for a few episodes. Jonny, we learn, made an almost superhuman effort to make it happen. Simone may have passed on a role to be there. They are fan favourites. They are the heads of the household, after which the show itself is named. They are excellent actors with a lot of chemistry. Episode 1, you establish theyā€™re happy newlyweds, recently in from an extended honeymoon (and no, I do not think they went to Indiaā€”not enough time); Kateā€™s adapting to her new role, but they both want more time to themselves, so, extended honeymoon. Ok, we can live with that. Is it frustrating that they only have about five minutes of screen time? Sure, but we can stomach it. Those were a lovely 5 minutes. They are happy and in love; they have a purpose and a somewhat logical explanation to exit the screen for a while. We can move on. We sit tight until Part 2 of Season 3 is released. We are told Kate will be pregnant! Andā€¦ nothing else. So, we wait. And here they come. She is pregnant! Sheā€™s looking a bit nauseous from the ride, bless her, but Anthony is as besotted as ever, thinking naughty thoughts about his insanely hot pregnant wife and ready to shout his praises to high heaven. And that is awesome! As shippers, we are so happy for them. Look at them in bed! Arenā€™t they precious? Sure, their four-legged son is cockblocking Ant, and Kate is preoccupied about when to release the news, but they are the sweetest, hottest couple. Let us bask. Let us rejoice in the new Viscountess Bridgerton, running that household, caring for Greg and Eloise, crushing that party. Sheā€™s good at it, and she KNOWS it. She gloats, and she deserves it. You go, Kathani! You were born for this! And then, they have the sweetest, most perfect moment in which she tells Anthony they should announce baby Edmund is coming (because this needs to be Neddy, guys). Heā€™s perfect in his speech, and she loves him, and he loves her. They tell the matriarchs, showing their excitement in different but complementary ways. And we love them. So. Much. Soā€¦ where do they go? Where are they? Did they ā€¦ poof away? We donā€™t know! One minute Kate was being the perfectest new viscountess, organising, hosting, wife-ing, mothering, sistering, being the meanest, toughest bitch in the ton, and thenā€¦ whereā€™s my Kate, you monsters? Anthony is wherever she is, surely, but wasnā€™t he perpetually busy? Wasnā€™t ā€œdutifulā€ his primary descriptor? Remember all that paperwork he was supposed to be completing after the original honeymoon? Remember all that work he did on seasons 1 and 2? Remember all the planning and the family overseeing? Is he doing that? Where? Is Kate there, too? Well, weā€™ll never know. Letā€™s skip to episode 7, shall we? Because we must. This is Kanthony-focused, after allā€¦
Episode 7 is a doozy because thereā€™s so muchā€¦ nothing for us. Do they look amazing? Sure. Look at visibly pregnant Kate. My brain immediately goes into protecting the Queen mode. But where is Anthony? Look, guys, I adore besotted, Kate-obsessed Anthony as much as the next shipper, but we love that Anthony because we know thereā€™s so much more to him. We adore him because of how he grows for her. But this guy? Heā€™s not exactly growing because he has no plotline other than being Kateā€™s husband and the father of her child. And if youā€™re here for just that, then all power to you. I am happy for you. Have at it. But that isnā€™t me. I need more. I need to see him trying to be who he has always beenā€”the dutiful son, the protective brother, the respected viscountā€”while he is also Kateā€™s loving husband and Neddyā€™s amazing dad. The one-dimensionality of Anthony is killing me. Because we do get slightly more of that with Kate. The convo with Colin was her using all of her powers to save her new family once again. We saw a glimpse of Viscountess Bridgerton-Sharma being perfection in episode 5. But then it was taken away! It makes no sense for her to be seen running the household if she is there intermittently. Seriously, where were they? Was there an agreement that Violet would run Bridgerton House while Kate was away? Can youā€¦ I donā€™t knowā€¦ tell us? But to add insult to injury, the things they wrote in. Ant saying he loves weddings? Kate saying theirs was perfect? You know what would have been perfect? WATCHING IT ON SCREEN. And as great as it was to know that Eddie did not marry the prince, but some dude in India who makes her oh so happy (good for you, girlie), Anthony goes on to propose leaving for India right now? NOW? With Kate visibly pregnant? With Frannie's impending wedding? Is this proof of a doppelganger? Has Newton cockblocked him to stupidity? Is this what happens when he ainā€™t allowed to munch to his heartā€™s delight? Seriously, what sort of OOC nonsense is this? And guysā€¦ galsā€¦ palsā€¦ I LOVE Kathani Sharma-Bridgerton being from India. I would commission an entire show about her life. I want to know everything about her backgroundā€”from birth mom to Papa Sharmaā€™s death to their coming to London. I want it all. Educate me! BUT THIS MAKES NO SENSE, ANTHONY! And finallyā€¦ finallyā€¦ as lovely as the nose-boop was, people, THAT MAY VERY WELL BE THEIR LAST SCENE ON THE SHOW. THAT WAS THE PARTING SHOT. THAT WAS IT. THE LAST DIALOGUE. And I cannot. The waste. The absolute waste. The awful writing. The missed chances.
Many would tell me to count my blessings, and I do. I will. I thank the people who made the clipped versions of seasons 2 and 3 so I can watch just my Kanthony without the extra plot. I appreciate the happy ending. And there are amazing fic writers who give me stories that are so much more fun, satisfying, exciting and fulfilling than this shoddy attempt at using two of the best talents in the business right now. Yey, baby Neddy! Yey, Viscountess Bridgerton-Sharma! Yey besotted Kate and Anthony! But, gods aboveā€¦ this SHOULD have been so much more.
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everybodyhatesmiddleschool Ā· 5 months ago
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It has been six excruciating days since I was plunged into the Bridgerton fandom against my will.
I was minding my own business, watching YouTube compilations of the best kisses in TV history, when I unwittingly clicked on a video about Colin and Penelope, and I was immediately down so bad for them.
Let me be clear: Bridgerton was not part of my life before I clicked on that video. I wanted nothing to do with it; I had no intention of ever watching or reading that smut. And then, without warning, it swept in and took me in the night, much like Colin Bridgerton in the back of a carriage.
To say I have been lost in the sauce these past six days would be a gross understatement. The carriage scene is literally ruining my life. I havenā€™t gone to sleep before 1 a.m. since Sunday, and I have been over an hour late to work every day. Why? Because I cannot stop consuming that godforsaken scene ā€” watching gifs of it over and over, reading yā€™allā€™s hilarious takes and memes about it, watching it with the audio descriptions turned on (šŸ„µ), watching it with the music removed (šŸ„µšŸ„µ), watching Luke and Nicola on their press tour, watching, watching, watching.
Have I started actually watching season 1 of the show? Of course. Did I check out the large-print version of the first book from the library since it was the only copy available? You bet. But I do not care about these other characters and storylines. I want it to be Colin and Penelope on the screen and the page in every sentence and every scene.
And either fortunately or unfortunately, I donā€™t even have to be looking at a screen to be distracted by them ā€” my daydreaming has never been as maladaptive in my life as it has been this week. I can hardly think of one ten-minute stretch in the past six days in which some imaginary scenario has not been taking over my brain. I want to be part of their world so bad ā€” not just Bridgerton, but Shondaland. As is the case for 90% of all of my daydreams, I want these actors to know I exist. I want them to look at me with just as much awe and love as I look at them. So I might be staring at my computer screen in my cubicle, but in my mind, Iā€™m on a press tour of my own that intersects with theirs. (Iā€™m never the desperate fan with no life in my dreams; my idols always see me as their equal). I might be driving my commute in my car, but in my mind, theyā€™re congratulating me about my own novel being optioned by Netflix. I might be brushing my teeth in my bathroom, but in my mind, weā€™re laughing together on Graham Nortonā€™s couch.
But Lord, here comes that freaking carriage scene once again, inserting itself into my mind (pun unavoidable). I cannot get over it. Iā€™m so stuck there that Iā€™ve found myself wearing shoes I donā€™t remember putting on, carrying coffee mugs I donā€™t remember putting in my bag, driving a speed limit I donā€™t remember agreeing to as acceptable. There is laundry that needs to be folded. Bills need to be paid. Emails need to be deleted en masse without reading. But I canā€™t find the door that will let me out of this damn carriage.
I had a conversation with myself two days ago about how we might be able to adapt to this new living situation. After a few temper tantrums, I finally said, ā€œGirl, if youā€™re going to watch this scene 1,000 times, you have got to find a way to make it a constructive part of your life.ā€ So I did what any rational adult would do: I started writing a scholarly paper about why itā€™s so powerful ā€” not just for me but, according to the internet, for a lot of women. And I have every intention of writing an entire paper about this ā€¦ if I can find the time. Iā€™m just so busy right now with consuming this damn scene.
Was starting to write that article enough to satiate my obsession with this scene, with this show and these actors? Of course not. So this morning, I started writing a spicy scene of my own, featuring not Colin and Penelope but two other vaguely outlined characters who Iā€™m sure Iā€™ll give names and personalities to later. I was literally sitting in my cubicle, hunched over my planner, writing down snippets of sexiness in as small a print as possible in case someone walked up on me and looked over my shoulder without me noticing. And Iā€™m not gonna lie: this shitā€™s good. Iā€™ve never written smut before, because Iā€™ve never had enough spice in my own life to feel like Iā€™d be able to do it justice on paper. But that imagination of mine ā€” sheā€™s a freak. And my mind? My mind has moved way past the gutter. It is now in the outhouse. Itā€™s in the slop with the pigs.
It should have come as no surprise, but as usual, the act of actually writing down the jumble of mess in my brain has had the effect of breaking some of the spell. I was also forced to focus on work because of looming deadlines, and I currently feel calmer than I have since Sunday. But I am truly living in fear of June 13. I cannot go through this again, and I know that Iā€™m bound to, because I know that whatā€™s been shown so far wonā€™t hold a candle to whatā€™s coming. And if I get down bad any further, I will be deep enough in the ground for this to become my final resting place. Iā€™m not ready to be buried, but it feels inevitable.
But somehow, despite my own wants and fears, and despite the fact that we havenā€™t even been introduced yet to the bedroom where Colin and Penelope are sure to end up, I am somehow already lurking from behind the window curtains in the corner, peeking out at them doing the deed. I know what I hope Iā€™ll see: based on the excerpt Iā€™ve seen from the book, they will be in front of a mirror ā€” expressly because Colin wants Penelope to see herself in full for the glorious goddess she is, and she will look at her sexy, bare self with just as much pride and love as we viewers behind the screen will (but probably with slightly less lust than Colin, who I pray will be very loud about how hot she is).
I am dreaming about this scene, but I dread it. Because if itā€™s as good as the carriage scene, I will immediately be re-enscripted and sent right back to the trenches where I spent the last six days. Iā€™m excited, but Iā€™m scared. And Iā€™m afraid of getting lost in the woods again, because I know that if I do, I wonā€™t want to be found.
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cillianmesoftlyyy Ā· 10 months ago
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I Can Fix That... Pt. 2 | Jonathan Crane x fem!reader
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author's note: I decided to make a pt. 2 purely for my own enjoyment, though I hope there are others out there as sadistic as myself. I finally watched the Batman trilogy and did research on DC fan pages to write this. It follows the plot of Nolan's DC adaptation so all characters mentioned (like Ra's Al Ghul) are from the comics and movies.
Summary| She gave into Crane because she needed to survive, at least that's what she's tried to tell herself, but there was something about this man that just felt so painfully... right. Now Crane has a proposition and he doesn't intend to take no for an answer because he's starting to like her -- uh oh-- too much. Where will their new agreement lead them when Gotham devolves into chaos?
Warnings| Based on an DC action movie- drugging, slut shaming, fear and terror, dubious kidnapping, restraints, drugs, physical violence, spitting, toxic relationship, mentions of a gun, chaos, and needles. I know- it's a lot.
word count: 8596k (lol oopsies?)
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Where did you sleep last night- Iridium, Salazar, Liam Marks šŸŽµ
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The detective nodded her head, surprised that sheā€™d so easily forgotten her plan. Dr. Crane sniffed and spun his set of keys around his finger casually.Ā 
ā€œNow the best thing about being the creator of my fear serum,ā€ he started, moving to the shelf of vials he had previously sorted, ā€œis that I have an endless supply and every opportunity to use it whenever I want.ā€ She could hear him smile but she could no longer see him. Crane admittedly liked the girl and heā€™d fucked her as a minor pivot in his original plan for the night. Now, it was time for business. He pulled a dish of powder from a locked drawer and hid it away from sight as he crossed back into the girlā€™s view. ā€œYou may think you understand what my serum can do, but youā€™ll never truly know until you try it.ā€ She furrowed her brow and shook her head, wishing that she could back away from him but she couldnā€™t move. He changed the subject swiftly, not giving her a moment.Ā 
ā€œI applaud you for your performance tonight. I was more than willing to humor you and of course, your present state did you many favors. I like my women tied downā€¦ā€ he joked and chuckled darkly. ā€œBut now, we need to get practical.ā€ He removed his glasses and folded them slowly. He slipped them into his breast pocket. ā€œYou know too much, Miss ā€”, and we both know that your current allegiance to your job would prioritize a crude sense of justice over your affection for me. We canā€™t have that, can we? So, Iā€™d like to propose a solution or a treatment of sorts.ā€ He clenched his jaw, angling his head down so that he was looking up at her through his eyelashes. ā€œYouā€™ve already proven to yourself tonight that the mind has complete control over the body. Desire rules judgmentā€¦ and I want to rule you.ā€ He smiled darkly. Before she could speak, powder was thrown into her face, blocking every orifice with a sickening gas.Ā 
The anxiety was immediate. She saw strange creatures approach her from all sides, poking and prodding her with dirty nails. She saw the walls leak a disgusting fluid, like blood and fecal matter and it spilled over the floor. People sorted through the liquid for scraps, children screamed and cried around her. Sheā€™d been one of those children, raised in an orphanage because her parents couldnā€™t afford to keep her. Strange men swarmed the children, offering toxic treats and money for favors which the children shied away from. She screamed, pulling at her restraints as she tried to fight off the assailants. She shook her head violently side to side, and she screamed involuntarily with raw terror at what she saw. In the midst of a nightmare of Gothamā€™s poverty and dark underbelly, Dr. Jonathan Crane stood calmly before her. He watched her, his arms crossed against his chest. He cocked his head to the side.Ā 
ā€œWhat do you see,ā€ he asked calmly. She turned her attention to him like he was a beacon of light in a horrible storm.Ā 
ā€œJonathan, help me!ā€ She cried.Ā 
ā€œTell me what you see,ā€ he said again and clucked his tongue to calm her. She looked around again at the people she saw, rummaging through mountains of trash.Ā 
ā€œHorribleā€¦ horrible poverty. The thingsā€¦ the things I saw as a child. People starving, children cryingā€¦ā€ she whimpered. Rats scrambled across her body and she screamed again, shaking against the table. ā€œJonathan, please!ā€ She called for him and he waded towards her, oblivious to the horror around him. He stood above her and stroked her face. He removed the restraints from her waist and her wrists and helped her sit up. The things she saw darted out of her peripheral vision, distorted now and hard to understand. She couldnā€™t run because she couldnā€™t tell where she was anymore, where her body was in relation to her perspective. Did she even still have a body?
Dr. Crane grunted as he helped her off the table and held her up beside him. She fainted in his arms and he carried her out of the secondary lab into the corridor. He punched the elevatorā€™s call button with his free hand and dragged her inside. As the large steel doors closed, he fished for his cellphone in his pocket and called his driver, telling him to meet him outside the hospital immediately. Crane hushed her, gently patting her head though she was still unconscious. The elevator dropped them at the floor sheā€™d entered on originally and Crane carried her to the side door, ignoring the looks the night attendants gave the strange couple. A sleek black car waited outside in the alley, the engine running and dispelling smoky exhaust into the air around them. Crane opened the car door and helped her inside, smirking at the security guard at the door.Ā 
ā€œOur meeting was successful, thank you officer.ā€ He waved goodnight to the security guard who shifted awkwardly in his seat at the side door. Climbing in after her, Crane leaned over the console to speak with his driver.Ā 
ā€œMy apartment, please.ā€ He gave the order sternly, even with the addition of the ā€˜please,ā€™ and the driver nodded, speeding off into Gothamā€™s dark streets. His hand rested comfortably on her thigh as he watched her. She started to come to in the backseat, though the effects of the drug had still not worn off. Her breath was fast and she leaned deliriously into Craneā€™s shoulder, seeking protection from what she saw outside the tinted windows. She was so afraid that she felt safer in the arms of the man that had drugged her, and it would take hours to realize that, but by the time she did, the psychological effects would have already taken root.Ā 
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The car stopped outside of a dark apartment building in one of the only nice parts of town in Gotham city. It was raining as he helped her back out of the car and into the large lobby of his apartment building. She clung to his arm as he led her into an elevator, playing a soft melody that sounded like shrill screams to her intoxicated mind. As the elevator doors opened, effects of the drug began to wane though her heartbeat was still racing. She looked up at Craneā€™s sharp jaw and how he clenched it as he opened the door to his apartment and pushed her gently inside.Ā 
ā€œI pay my people extra to turn a blind eye to everything that I do. I understand these circumstances appear even more nefarious, being that I have admittedly drugged you and brought you to my apartment. What can I say, Iā€™m a bad feminist.ā€ He smiled darkly and locked the door.Ā 
ā€œWhen do I stop seeingā€¦ these things?ā€ She collapsed into a chair behind her and cradled her head in her hands.Ā 
ā€œThe effects will be gone in an hour,ā€ he responded coolly and switched on some of the lights in his modern apartment. The apartment was two stories with a spiral staircase and an elevator that led to the upstairs. She looked around, trying her best to ignore the hallucinations and study the actual apartment itself.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™ll be disappointed to know that I donā€™t have a lab here, itā€™s against the buildingā€™s codes. I spend very little time here actually, Iā€™m always at Arkham or dealing with detectivesā€¦ like you. Iā€™m a busy man. Like I already told you, I have plans to ā€˜treatā€™ Falcone tomorrow so Iā€™ll need that room free. This is the next best option and I think youā€™ll find it more comfortable in comparison.ā€ He smirked and flicked a switch, immediately two restraints looped tightly around her wrists, emerging from a panel in the arms of the chair that she hadnā€™t noticed. Second restraints looped around her ankles, reminding her as her ankles were spread apart that he had removed her underwear. She turned her knees inward, hiding her crotch and scoffing with frustration.Ā 
ā€œAgain?ā€ She groaned and pulled at the strong leather material holding her to the chair.Ā 
ā€œYou sound disappointed,ā€ Crane observed with a small smirk. ā€œItā€™s only temporary. I didnā€™t get a chance to question you back at the lab, so weā€™ll do that here.ā€ He gestured to his empty apartment and started to walk toward her slowly. His lips curled cruelly as he looked her up and down, strapped to the chair. ā€œSo tell me, what do you know?ā€ He whispered and she stopped struggling for a moment. She still felt jumpy and nervous but having him so close relieved some of those feelings. The effects of the drug wore off more but the underlying sense of anxiety and loss of control prompted her to answer honestly.
I know that you are trying to make a powerful drug that mimics fear and so far, youā€™ve put it in a powder form. It works when ingested in some ways and immediately elicits a response that incapacitates the victim. You want to use it widely, to control Gothamā€¦ā€
ā€œRight, what else.ā€ He leaned on the arms of the chair, his hands grasped around her wrists.Ā 
ā€œYou donā€™t work for Falcone but you work with someone else. Youā€™ve just been using Falconeā€™s drug operation to move your own prototypes of the fear serum. You want to be in charge and you know that fear can do whatever you want it to. The mind controls the body,ā€ she recalled a sentence that he had used before he had thrown the powder in her face. ā€œYouā€™re also somehow connected to the missing micro-wave emmitter. I donā€™t know why but it may help you in some way, how?ā€ She was breathing heavily like she was going to fall asleep.Ā 
ā€œGood work, detective.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhat are you using the micro-wave emitter for?ā€ She asked. He chuckled and removed his hands from her wrists, backing up. He approached a small liquor cart and poured himself a drink, straight gin. She continued as he drank.Ā 
ā€œWho are you working with and how do you expect to control Gotham when everyone loses their minds?ā€ She could barely contain her voice, anger and confusion rose into her throat like bile.Ā 
ā€œSo many questionsā€¦ā€ he swallowed and set down his glass, turning back to her slowly. ā€œArenā€™t you supposed to figure that out for yourself?ā€ He raised his eyebrow.Ā 
ā€œThe mirco-wave emitter would dry out any water supply that it comes into contact with. Wouldnā€™t it be easier to poison the water supply, you would reach more peopleā€¦ unless it doesnā€™t have the same effect when administered in water.ā€ She looked up at him but his face was hard. ā€œThatā€™s why youā€™ve been using it in a powder, it only works in a powder form. If you dry up the water supply and release the powder into the air, there isnā€™t a way to combat the effects, is there?ā€Ā 
Crane smiled and nodded slowly, ā€œright again.ā€Ā 
ā€œHow can you control people who have lost their minds on the serum? You canā€™t control chaos.ā€ She furrowed her brow and leaned forward, questioning him. Crane cocked his head and studied her for a moment, noticing the last traces of the fear serum leaving her body.Ā 
ā€œControl has many forms, Y/N. The chaos that will come from my serum is planned, its existence is strategically executed.ā€
ā€œBut why are you doing this?ā€Ā 
ā€œI love it when you get flustered,ā€ he chuckled darkly at her and licked his lips, his eyes rolling before returning to her face. ā€œItā€™s not just me, I work for a large organization that has been responsible for all historical catastrophes throughout history. We deal in balance, balanced chaos. They hired me because I can control fear, I know how to use it and weaponize it. Gotham needs to be balanced and it cannot be balanced without it first destroying itself. Create a closed environment with the populationā€™s problems and confront them with chaos, the balance will soon be restored.ā€Ā 
ā€œWho do you work for?ā€ She whispered, her eyes wide.Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t you mean, who do we work for?ā€ He crouched at her feet and placed his hands on her thighs. He smiled crazily up at her and she leaned away from him.Ā 
ā€œWhat?ā€ She whispered.Ā 
ā€œI work for the League of Shadows, and now, so do you.ā€ He dug his finger into the soft bottom of her chin and pushed her head up so that she could see the second floor more clearly.Ā 
Standing at the rail were men clad in dark armor. One man stood out from the rest. He wore a black suit and carried a gold-tipped cane. He had long whiskers of gray hair like a mustache and steady cool eyes, deadlier than Craneā€™s.Ā Ā 
ā€œGood work, Dr. Crane.ā€ The man kept his focus on her and her blood went cold. ā€œItā€™s so nice to finally meet you, Miss ā€”. Weā€™ve heard so much about you and of course, youā€™re the one that has caused us so much trouble!ā€ He laughed sarcastically and descended the spiral staircase.Ā 
ā€œWho are you?ā€ She growled.Ā 
ā€œRaā€™s Al Ghul,ā€ he smiled and the wrinkles on his face creased, pulling against his eyes. ā€œI see youā€™ve already become acquainted with Dr. Crane, our very own criminal mastermind.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re too kind,ā€ Crane smarted back, watching the girlā€™s face as she tried to take in all of the new information.Ā 
ā€œNow, I have a job proposition to offer you, Miss ā€”. You seem to have figured most of our plan out but I donā€™t think you understand the complexity of our organization. You see, the League of Shadows is an ancient organization that has balanced the harmony of every major city in the world since the beginning of time. Gotham has gone bad, to the point of no return. Your ā€˜Batmanā€™ as you call him canā€™t reverse what has been brewing for years. He never saw what you did, how the people of Gotham live in filth and poverty while the elite few enjoy the spoils. This city needs to be reborn, it needs chaos to restore the balance.ā€
ā€œBut wouldnā€™t you be killing thousands of innocent people?ā€ She interjected and Al Ghul shrugged slightly.Ā 
ā€œNobodyā€™s innocent,ā€ he answered quickly and then inhaled, clarifying, ā€œAnyway, thatā€™s not what we want to do here. If we take control of the city and hold it for ransom, we can work out a deal to replace the crooked government with some of our people. Iā€™m offering you a role alongside my people. Youā€™re smart, all that evidence you collected against Crane- none of the senior officers could have held a match to it. We destroyed it of course, as soon as Crane told us about your little visit.ā€ She looked past Al Ghul to Crane who leaned against the wall calmly. Had they destroyed the copies? How could she be sure that they were telling the truth? ā€œThe box of evidence you had put aside for Sgt. Gordon was the hardest to find but we found it. What made you suspect Dr. Crane? Was it a gut instinct?ā€ He drew on before she interrupted him.Ā 
ā€œYou want me to help you kill people?ā€ She furrowed her brow and nearly laughed in disbelief.Ā 
ā€œWe want your help to save Gotham from itself and establish a new and better government.ā€ He corrected, fixing his posture. Crane watched her closely and spoke up from the back of the room.Ā 
ā€œSheā€™ll do it,ā€ he answered and she opened her mouth to interject but his smirk silenced her. ā€œSheā€™ll do it because whether or not she wants to admit it, Miss ā€”, is like us.ā€ Crane reached into his breast pocket and removed his glasses. He cleaned the panels with a dish towel and pushed them onto his nose. She looked between Crane and Al Ghul, her heart beating quickly in her chest.Ā 
ā€œWill you join us, will you help us save Gotham?ā€ Raā€™s Al Ghul placed both of his hands on top of his walking stick and shifted his weight evenly between his feet. Crane folded his arms across his chest and cocked his head to the side, a knowing smile played on his wide pink lips. Her decision surprised her but the serum had already changed her chemistry, Crane had revealed her true self to herself and there was only one choice left.Ā 
ā€œYes,ā€ she whispered.Ā 
Crane nodded, ā€œgood girl.ā€Ā 
iiiĀ 
She was released from her restraints and she rubbed her wrists where the leather marked them. Raā€™s Al Ghul snapped his fingers and a map was rolled out on Craneā€™s dining room table. The map was of the entire city of Gotham, showing the sewer and water lines. They explained the plan, showing her where the micro-wave emitter would be placed in the city and how it would be moved through each neighborhood.Ā 
ā€œWhat about the police?ā€ She asked and gestured to the map of the city. Crane laughed and shook his head.Ā 
ā€œYou were the only cop that suspected this, the rest will have no idea until it's already started. The person we really need to worry about is Batman,ā€ he ran his fingers through his hair and glanced up at Al Ghul, ā€œluckily for him, an old friend is coming by to visit.ā€ Al Ghul nodded and smiled kindly at her.Ā 
ā€œBatman and I go way back. Iā€™ll take care of him.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhat am I supposed to do?ā€ She asked, her arms crossed beneath her breasts. Crane caught himself staring and cleared his throat.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™ll help me with the production of the powder, ensuring that your cop friends donā€™t figure out too much and keeping Sgt. Gordon away from Arkham or leading him astrayā€¦ anything,ā€ Crane answered, setting his face as he spoke. She nodded.Ā 
Though they had asked her to join their efforts, they also obviously didnā€™t trust her completely. They wouldnā€™t tell her everything, she knew. Her night had gone in a completely different direction than how she had imagined it. Everything had changed after the fear serum, it had shown her that what she feared most had already happened. The police were corrupt, run by small-time gangsters and criminals and crime continued to run rampant as the state lost more and more money, forcing social service organizations to close and more families out on the streets. This whole time she thought that the police could solve the problem but they only caused it. Crane was right, she was like him and she would do anything she could to change the city. After the meeting, Crane poured her a drink and dissolved a packet of powder into the liquor. He stirred it in front of her and Al Ghul before sliding it across the tableā€™s surface.Ā 
ā€œThis will put you to sleep for a few hours, twelve at most. Itā€™s only a precaution to make sure that you have truly promised your allegiance to us. Everything that you say will be monitored from this point on.ā€
ā€œEverything?ā€ She looked at Crane who clenched his jaw, a faint tease of blush spread on his cheeks.
ā€œEverything. Do as we say and follow our rules and you stay alive,ā€ Crane finished and tapped the rim of the glass. ā€œNow drink.ā€Ā 
ā€œHow do I know that you arenā€™t just poisoning me?ā€ She asked the men around her.
ā€œWeā€™re learning to trust each other, but you have to go first.ā€ He smiled and when Al Ghul said nothing, she took the glass and drank it slowly. The last thing she saw were Craneā€™s eyes, set perfectly on her.Ā 
She was conscious enough to set her glass down before falling back onto the couch. Crane approached her quickly and checked her pulse, monitoring her reaction to the drug.Ā 
ā€œDid it work?ā€ Raā€™s Al Ghul asked behind him and he nodded.Ā 
ā€œYes, sheā€™s out. Because of all the drugs in her system already, this one may take longer to wear off.ā€Ā 
ā€œAll the other drugs?ā€ Al Ghul raised his eyebrow and Crane chuckled.Ā 
ā€œI couldnā€™t help myself and besides,ā€ he turned to Al Ghul, ā€œyou wanted her alive.ā€Ā 
ā€œIā€™m not convinced that we can trust her,ā€ Al Ghul shook his head and pointed at the map for his men to clean up.Ā 
ā€œOh, Iā€™ll make sure we can.ā€Ā 
ā€œWith your mind tricks?ā€ Al Ghul teased and Crane sighed, rolling his beautiful eyes.Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t insult me, Raā€™s. I know what Iā€™m doing.ā€ He warned the man calmly and nodded to the men. Two men helped carry her body as Crane led them back down the elevator into the lobby which was deserted at that time in the early morning. They climbed into Craneā€™s waiting car and pulled away from the curb. The girlā€™s body was limp against the seat and Crane resisted the urge to stare at her, fascinated by her sleeping body. The men carried her up to her apartment on the third floor of a small walkup. Crane rummaged through her coat pockets for the key into her apartment and unlocked the door.Ā 
Her apartment was small and cozy, furnished with minimal couches and chairs. Books and art decorated the walls. Crane pushed through the door and directed the men to lie her down in her bedroom, the small room off of the main living area. They men looked back at him expectantly as he stood by the doorway, watching her sleep. He rolled his eyes and shooed them away. What did they think he was going to do? Heā€™d already fucked her. Alone in her apartment, he stood by her bed and stroked her cheek. She slept on, engulfed by unconscious darkness. He leaned over her slowly and grasped her throat gently, exhaling across her face. He said nothing but looked her up and down and smirked, pleased at the sight of her. Heā€™d won another spoil: her.Ā 
Ā She woke up in her bed, twisted in the sheets as if she had been restless all night. She was sweaty and hot, the air stuffy around her. Crane and Al Ghul were nowhere to be seen. She checked her watch and hurried out of bed, stripping off her clothes from the night before and into black trousers and a dark blue sweater. She stumbled into the living room and wound her hair up into a claw clip, moving towards the door when a voice startled her.Ā 
ā€œWhere do you think youā€™re going?ā€ Dr. Crane spoke from the couch. He was in a fresh suit and looked well-rested. He was taking notes in a file on Falcone, his briefcase sat on the coffee table in front of him. She jumped, gasping from shock.Ā 
ā€œJesus Christ, what are you doing here?ā€Ā 
ā€œI was waiting for you to wake up. We have work to do today. That bitch at the DAā€™s office wants to speak with me. I'm supposed to meet with her this afternoon. Sheā€™s questioning Falconeā€™s transfer.ā€
ā€œI ordered the transfer after you did Falconeā€™s interview, maybe I could meet with her instead.ā€Ā 
ā€œNo, I need you to take this file to the judge on Falconeā€™s case. I can handle her questions.ā€ He stood and held out Falconeā€™s file. ā€œI already gave my statement at the hearing but this file will confirm my medical opinion, hopefully that will get her off my back.ā€ He pinched the bridge of his nose.Ā 
ā€œDo you think Falcone will talk if she speaks with him?ā€Ā 
ā€œPossibly,ā€ he bent his head side to side and shrugged, ā€œbut we arenā€™t going to find out. Letā€™s go,ā€ he snapped his briefcase closed and made for the front door. She glanced from the couch to her bedroom.
ā€œWere you watching me all night?ā€ She flushed angrily and followed him. He closed the door suddenly and spun her around, forcing her back against the front door.Ā 
ā€œI can only say this once because they arenā€™t listening now but as soon as we get in the car, theyā€™ll be monitoring you. I am keeping you alive, Miss ā€”. I will do everything in my power to keep you alive but the second you step away from me, youā€™re on your own. I know we have an understanding so believe me when I say that I would prefer very much if you didnā€™t die. Follow my directions because theyā€™re following you.ā€ He said in a harsh whisper, a strand of hair falling into his face. They stared at each other in silence, exchanging breath when he kissed her harshly. She wrapped her arms around his neck and moaned softly against his lips. He bucked into her hips and she gasped softly against his jaw. And just as quickly, he pulled away, breathing heavily and led her out the door and down the stairs into the waiting car.Ā 
ā€œIā€™ll need my gun back,ā€ she pointed out as they settled on the backseat. Crane sighed, unbuttoning his suit jacket. He opened a small compartment in the car door and retrieved her gun. As he held it out, he took her jaw in his other hand, his thumb pressing into her fleshy cheek.Ā 
ā€œThis is where that trust would come in handy, detective.ā€ He whispered darkly. She looked at his lips and then up to his eyes, speechless around him. He watched her struggle for words and chuckled, handing her the gun. ā€œBe careful, Y/N, and remember Raā€™s plan.ā€ He looked at her lips and sniffed, slapping the roof of the car. ā€œThis is her stop.ā€Ā 
ivĀ 
She met with the judge who oversaw Falconeā€™s case and gave him the thick folder. He looked at it briefly before recognizing the information.Ā 
ā€œI appreciate you coming out to speak to me about Falconeā€™s transfer to Arkham but I cleared everything with Ms. Dawes yesterday. Sheā€™s already scheduled a second psychiatrist to meet with Falcone first thing tomorrow morning. She mentioned that sheā€™s also requested Dr. Craneā€™s case file. Has she seen this?ā€ He waved the folder and she clicked her tongue, shocked that she had scheduled a second opinion and that Crane didnā€™t know about it.
ā€œIā€™m not sure, sir. I was the detective working with the prosecution and I was the one who oversaw Dr. Craneā€™s examination and request for transfer. I can attest to Falcone's mood at the time as well. He screamed nonstop as Crane was trying to conduct a test of sanity. Anyway, I wanted to make sure that you saw Dr. Craneā€™s diagnosis in the aftermath of his transfer. This has updated notes that Dr. Crane shared with me. It might be useful in your deliberation.ā€ She smiled and the judge looked down his nose at the folder.Ā 
ā€œGood point. Thank you, detective. This is helpful.ā€ He opened the folder on his desk and put on his rounded spectacles.Ā 
ā€œWell now that weā€™ve spoken, Iā€™ll try to catch Dawes and save her the trouble.ā€ She pushed back her chair and brushed off her trousers.Ā 
ā€œMiss ā€”?ā€ The judge called from his desk.Ā 
ā€œYes, sir?ā€ She looked back.
ā€œDr. Crane has committed many of Falconeā€™s men to Arkham in the past few months, is that correct?ā€Ā 
ā€œYes,ā€ she nodded and her heart raced.Ā 
ā€œThat must be a pretty crazy group.ā€ The judge laughed and went back to the folder, completely missing the pattern. She sighed in relief and left quickly. She started to walk to Arkham, moving so quickly she felt like she may have been running. Dawes had already scheduled a second opinion, meaning that she was probably at Arkham pressuring Crane for his detailed diagnosis. It would take Dawes one second to figure it out so she hoped she could get there quickly enough to do something. She had no plan which she knew was stupid but whatever was bound to happen in the next few hours would be bad and she needed to help Crane. Her phone began to ring and she put it to her ear.Ā 
ā€œHello?ā€
ā€œY/N.ā€
ā€œRaā€™s?ā€
ā€œAre you on your way to Arkham?ā€
ā€œYes, sir.ā€Ā 
ā€œTurn around and go back to your precinct. I want you to stick close to Sgt. Gordon, go where he goes. Youā€™re his top detective so run with it. If anything happens at Arkham, heā€™ll be there and I want you there with him. Crane will be fine.ā€
She slowed to a stop, skeptical but wanting to believe what her new boss was telling her, ā€œok, sir.ā€
After a second of silence, Raā€™s added, ā€œItā€™s Batmanā€™s birthday and what better way to celebrate a playboy than with chaos?ā€ The call ended before she could respond.Ā 
She spun around and headed straight for the precinct. She spotted Gordon at his desk, working on paperwork. She hurried over and knocked on the door, letting herself in when he waved.Ā 
ā€œGood, Iā€™m glad to see you. I need to run some ideas by you for the Falcone case.ā€Ā 
ā€œI just dropped off Crane's diagnosis for the judge but he said that Dawes may be seeking a second opinion.ā€Ā 
ā€œAbout that -ā€ The intercom went off with a loud screech.Ā 
ā€œAttention all units! Attention all units! Batman was spotted at Arkham Asylum. He is believed to be armed and dangerous. Backup is requested at this time.ā€ The voice repeated with a robotic drone. Sgt. Gordon looked from the speaker to her and grabbed his coat from his chair.Ā 
ā€œWe need to get to the asylum right now.ā€ Gordon yelled and she followed him closely, checking that her gun was still secured to her hip. She clipped her badge to her front pocket and pretended to sound confused.Ā 
ā€œWhy are we going, Sgt? Do you think this is about Falcone?ā€
ā€œIt might, Iā€™d feel better if I was there to find out; and if Batman is there, someoneā€™s in trouble.ā€ They hurried down the stairs and climbed into a car. Gordon sped away from the precinct and ran red lights. The tires bled across the roads as they came to a screeching halt behind a row of police cars parked outside the Asylum.Ā 
ā€œWhy is everyone waiting outside?ā€ She yelled over the noise. An officer standing with his gun aimed at the building yelled back.Ā 
ā€œWeā€™re waiting for backup!ā€
ā€œTheyā€™ll be here soon, sir. We should wait!ā€ She yelled over the noise at the Sgt.Ā 
Gordon looked up at the building and pulled his gun from his holster. He started moving towards the building, looking back to wave her on.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m going in. You coming?ā€ He called.Ā 
She groaned anxiously beneath her breath before responding, ā€œyes, sir!ā€ They raced up the stairs into the lobby which was left completely vacant. Gordon held up his gun and she followed suit, staying close behind him. She felt the urge to kill him now and find Crane but her gut warned her that someone else was in the room, watching. They walked slowly through the main corridor, past the abandoned security checkpoint, creeping closer to the wide atrium. When they stepped beneath the enormous domed ceiling a loud noise broke through the top of the building. She looked up and covered her face with her forearm to protect her eyes from large shards of falling glass. She saw a large dark blur surround Sgt. Gordon and pull him up to the roof.Ā 
ā€œSgt. Gordon!ā€ She yelled after him. She knew immediately that the blur was that bastard Batman. A small laugh escaped her mouth as she shook her head and lowered her gun. A group of SWAT ran in seconds later. She pointed at the ceiling with her gun and called them over.Ā 
ā€œHe came down and took Sgt. Gordon!ā€
ā€œWho?ā€ Someone yelled at her and she shook her head, pretending to be unsure.Ā 
ā€œI donā€™t know! I think it was Batman.ā€ She yelled, adding to their panic.Ā 
ā€œBatman!ā€ Someone shouted and in the moment of distraction, she slipped away into a side corridor. She bolted towards a staircase and stopped at every floor, looking for signs of activity. Her body burned with soreness as she sprinted down each corridor. She wanted to scream his name but her lungs wouldnā€™t allow her the extra air to do so. She rounded a corner and ran into a group of police. They all started shouting at her until she showed them her badge.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m a detective- What the hell is going on here?ā€ She yelled.Ā 
ā€œWeā€™re looking for Dr. Crane!ā€
ā€œHave you seen Sgt. Gordon?ā€ She asked, panting and trying not to panic when they mentioned Craneā€™s name. ā€œHe disappeared and I've been looking for him.ā€
ā€œNo, we havenā€™t. We got a call that they found drugs in the building and then Batman showed up. Crane was running the operation.ā€ One police officer responded and jerked their head to the side where they were going to run next. ā€œIt's down this corridor!ā€Ā Ā 
ā€œIā€™ll come with you,ā€ she shouted and led the unit, her gun pointed at the ground. Two large doors were falling off their hinges further down the hallway. The room itself was smokey and gaseous. She looked down from the doorway where there were stairs leading into a cement lined room like an empty indoor pool. Tables were littered with Craneā€™s fear serum and men that she assumed were dead. Huge vats of liquid marked with a toxic symbol sat on their sides by an open waterline.Ā 
ā€œThis is it,ā€ she said to the officer beside her and started to descend the staircase. The smoke made it hard to see so she moved slowly, looking around the floor for Craneā€™s familiar face. The men she saw were all part of Falconeā€™s posse who had been hired to help the drug operation run. Something snapped beneath her food and she looked down, seeing Craneā€™s scarecrow mask which she recognized from his drawing. She picked it up and looked around anxiously, her fingers around the gun shook. Then she saw him. Crane was propped up against a wall and bleeding slightly from the head, a thin trail of blood oozed on the wall behind his head. He was panting and flailing around, his pupils were mere penpoints. Heā€™d been attacked with his own fear powder. She looked around before dropping into a crouch beside him. He recognized her but continued to shake, his eyes darting around her head.Ā 
ā€œJonathan,ā€ she whispered, ā€œit's me.ā€Ā 
ā€œDid you find him?ā€ Someone shouted and she yelled back that she had. He raised a judgemental eyebrow, his mouth forming a cuss word. His glasses were gone.Ā 
ā€œTrust me, Crane.ā€ She whispered against his ear and held his wrists together. She took her handcuffs from her belt and handcuffed him.Ā 
vĀ 
She leaned against the wall and tapped her foot anxiously as they strapped him into a white straightjacket. She crossed the room and helped the officer secure the last belt, thankful for any excuse to touch him and remind him that she was still there. Looking up at her, he spat and she flinched slightly. His light eyes were ringed with red swollen skin and she wondered if he really felt betrayed by her. She wiped his spit from her cheek and returned to her place by the wall.Ā 
ā€œSo this is the scarecrow,ā€ Sgt. Gordon entered the room and let the door slam shut. Crane jumped from the noise and closed his eyes, taking a deep shaky breath.Ā 
ā€œScarecrowā€¦ scarecrow.ā€ Crane whispered with his eyes closed and shifted within the straightjacket. Sgt. Gordon pulled up a chair, the metal scraping against the floor, bristling Crane into opening his eyes.Ā 
ā€œWhat was the plan, Crane? How were you going to get the toxin into the air?ā€ Gordon asked calmly and fingered the scarecrow mask. Her stomach turned watching Crane struggle to regain control over his mind. He shook and his eyes darted around the room, landing once or twice on her. She kept a straight face, giving no sign that she was terrified that something would happen to him or she would accidentally reveal something about him that they didnā€™t already know. When Crane didnā€™t respond, Gordon continued, his voice rising.Ā 
ā€œWho were you working for?ā€ Gordon pressed and Craneā€™s eyes snapped to his, a crazy smile pulling at his lips.Ā 
ā€œOh, itā€™s too late. You canā€™t stop it now.ā€ He spoke through shivers, cutting up his words. He smiled at the end and Gordon shook his head. He stood and shoved the mask into her hands.Ā 
ā€œHere. Stay with Crane.ā€ He growled and left the room, his footsteps echoing through the heavy steel door. She looked down at the mask in her hands and hid her smile. There was only one officer left in the room with them and she bit the inside of her cheek, trying to come up with a quick plan.Ā 
ā€œAre there any officers outside?ā€ She asked the cop by the door who peeked his head outside the door.Ā 
ā€œNo, maā€™am.ā€Ā 
ā€œGood,ā€ she smiled and raised her gun when the door snapped behind him. ā€œThen this should be easy.ā€ She cocked the gun and cornered the officer. ā€œFace the wall,ā€ she ordered and when he turned, she hit him over the head with the butt of her pistol, knocking him unconscious. She quickly handcuffed him and checked outside one last time before running over to Crane. He was still recovering from the toxin, his face set in a deep frown. She began to free him from his restraints, glancing at the door every few seconds. His eyes stayed on her face and he kept muttering things below his breath. When she undid the last restraint he jumped up and it fell from around his shoulders to the floor. She started to smile when he lunged at her and pushed her up against the tiled wall. Her hair clip cracked against the tile and clattered to the floor in pieces. She gasped beneath his hands, one holding her throat and the other grabbing the slack in her sweater, exposing her navel.Ā 
ā€œYou betrayed me,ā€ he growled, ā€œyou told Gordon... I saw you.ā€ His eyes were wild and glazed, he looked right through her.
ā€œWhat?ā€ she gasped out though his hand was crushing her windpipe.Ā 
ā€œI saw you two! You fucked him. You fucked him!ā€ He yelled, his body shook with anger like he was coming down from an adrenaline high.Ā 
ā€œNo, I didnā€™t!ā€ She struggled beneath his hands, ā€œthis is the toxin talking, Jonathan! I didnā€™t betray you-ā€
ā€œBut you fucked him,ā€ his voice twisted into a heatbreaking whine, an image flicked before his eyes and he closed them quickly, shaking it from his head.
ā€œNo!ā€ She coughed and she could feel herself getting light-headed.Ā 
ā€œYou love him,ā€ his voice was breaking beneath him and his eyes darted between hers as the toxin showed him more and more; everything of which included her.
ā€œJonathan!ā€ she screamed and hit his chest hard with closed fists, ā€œI canā€™t fucking breathe!ā€Ā 
His eyes snapped open wider and he released his grip around her throat. Her feet landed on the ground and she coughed, sinking into a crouch against the wall. Crane stepped back and watched her silently. He was still shaking as he ran a hand anxiously through his hair.Ā 
ā€œWhy would I save you if I loved him?ā€ She cried in frustration, rubbing her bruised throat. ā€œItā€™s the toxin, Jonathanā€¦ I didnā€™t do the things you think I did,ā€ her voice softened. She looked up at him and stood slowly, grabbing onto the wall for support. Crane cradled his head in his hands and whimpered.Ā 
ā€œWhat do you see?ā€ she asked quietly and stepped closer. He shook his head and created more distance between them. ā€œJonathan, tell me.ā€ She pressed and he exhaled with a soft shutter.
ā€œYouā€¦ fuck,ā€ he started through heavy breaths, working himself up again. ā€œI see you and Gordonā€¦ā€ He rubbed his eyes and looked back up at her. ā€œItā€™s been so long sinceā€¦ā€
ā€œSince what?ā€ She furrowed her brow, questioning. His eyes darted away into the corner and he shook.
ā€œSince my father last used itā€¦ā€ he took a deep breath and finished his sentence with a lengthy exhale, ā€œon me.ā€Ā 
ā€œThe fear toxin?ā€ She whispered, slowly starting to understand what he was suggesting. He nodded and flinched as if something had attacked him. Was he saying that his father used a prototype of the fear toxin on him? She grabbed onto the sleeve of his suit jacket and tugged his attention away.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s just me. Thereā€™s no one else- nothing else in here except for me,ā€ she gestured to the nearly empty room (the officer was still unconscious in the corner). ā€œAnd Iā€™m here for you,ā€ she whispered and closed the distance between them, her hands slipped around his small waist beneath his suit jacket. She felt his body tense beneath her embrace before slowly (very slowly) releasing its tension. He didnā€™t hug her back but rested his forehead on her shoulder. She stroked his hair, and found the shallow wound on the back of his head. She ducked her head as she pulled away, finding his mouth and kissing him gently. The toxin was slowly wearing off and she could tell he was only beginning to return to his normal self.Ā 
ā€œWe need to get up to my office,ā€ he muttered and looked at the door. ā€œTheyā€™re releasing the patients.ā€
ā€œWhat?ā€ She furrowed her brow. Crane sighed and shook his head.Ā 
ā€œRaā€™s gave orders to open all of the cells. The patients will be let loose into the city.ā€ He licked his lips and looked down at her. ā€œWe need to get upstairs.ā€ His expression was tense as she could tell he was trying to fight the lingering effects of the toxin. She nodded.Ā 
ā€œShow me where to go.ā€Ā 
He pulled her through the door and they ran down the corridor to an elevator. When the doors opened, Crane used his key to override the system, preventing anyone else from calling the elevator. He pressed the button for the floor with his office, not realizing that his other hand was squeezing tightly around hers. When the doors opened again, they rushed down the hallway and into Craneā€™s office. He sighed when the door was locked and the blinds closed.Ā 
ā€œWhat are we going to do?ā€ She asked him quietly and he inhaled slowly.Ā 
ā€œI need to inject you with the antidote so the toxin doesnā€™t affect you when we leave the building.ā€ He murmured, more to himself.
ā€œWeā€™re going out there?ā€ She tried to keep the fear from her voice but he detected it instantly, raising an eyebrow.Ā 
ā€œAre you scared?ā€ He asked automatically.Ā 
ā€œOf both of us dying out there at the hands of one of your old patients, yes, yes I am.ā€ She nearly laughed.Ā 
ā€œDonā€™t you want to be part of the fun?ā€ The Jonathan Crane she knew was definitely coming back.Ā 
ā€œIā€™d rather not become the ā€˜funā€™,ā€ she quipped and he smirked.Ā 
ā€œAs you wish.ā€Ā 
She followed him into his lab and he rummaged through a collection of vials arranged on one of the counters. Finding the right one, he slipped it inside a cartridge of what looked like an epipen.Ā 
ā€œPull down your pants,ā€ he ordered and then it was her turn to raise her eyebrow. ā€œDonā€™t look at me like that and do what I tell you,ā€ he said sternly and she did as he asked, pulling down her trousers where he had access to her thigh. ā€œThis will hurt,ā€ he warned her before immediately plunging the needle into the fat around her thigh. She hissed in pain and heaved out a breath.Ā 
ā€œThe good news is that you donā€™t have to ever do this again,ā€ he patted her leg and buttoned her pants for her. ā€œNow me,ā€ he changed the vial and unbuckled his pants. He raised the hem of his boxers and punctured the needle into his upper thigh. He grunted in pain and closed his eyes for a moment and whistled out a tight breath. A large explosion shook the ground below their feet. She jumped and winced as she landed on her sore leg. Without opening his eyes, Crane nodded.Ā 
ā€œAnd that would be the patients leaving the building now.ā€ He withdrew the needle and tossed it to the side, buckling his pants.Ā 
ā€œLet me see your head,ā€ she touched his arm and he leaned forward slightly, turning his head where she could see it clearly. She carded her fingers through his dark hair and parted the dark roots away from the shallow wound. ā€œIt's a small cut, youā€™ll live.ā€Ā 
ā€œThanks, doctor.ā€ He smirked. Her fingers shifted through his hair as he straightened and she tried not to look disappointed when they were no longer twirled around his black locks.Ā 
ā€œAre you back now?ā€ She looked up into his eyes, looking for trances of fear.Ā 
ā€œI think so,ā€ he responded and traced his index finger around the collar of her sweater. There were small bruises where his fingers had been when he forced her against the wall in his state of panic. ā€œWas I terrible?ā€ He whispered.Ā 
ā€œNot more than usual,ā€ she laughed lightly and covered his hand with hers. ā€œIā€™m ok.ā€ She insisted and he furrowed his eyebrows and licked his lips.Ā 
He was going to apologize, he was going to tell her how much he loved her and that was why he had reacted so strongly to the toxin, but the words died on his lips so instead he said, ā€œWe should leave before the city goes all the way under.ā€
ā€œTheyā€™ll raise the bridges so no one can leave, itā€™s too late.ā€Ā 
Crane chuckled and leaned against the lab table behind him, his fingers grasping around the edge. ā€œAnd once again, you severely underestimate me. Come on.ā€Ā 
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ā€œGet on,ā€ Crane held the bridle and gestured for her to mount the large black steed.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re kidding right?ā€ She looked around at the burning city and then back to the police horse whoā€™d lost its rider.Ā 
ā€œI wish I was,ā€ he sighed and tugged her closer by her waistband, ā€œnow giddy-up, Miss ā€”.ā€ He joked flatley and pushed her up onto the saddle. He hoisted himself up after her and sat in front, taking the reins in his hands. She wrapped her arms around his waist and squeezed her thighs around the horse's stomach, holding on for dear life.Ā 
ā€œWhere the hell did you learn to ride a horse?ā€ She yelled over the panic and she felt him chuckle.Ā 
ā€œOh, there are a lot of things that you donā€™t know about me, detective.ā€ He smirked and kicked the horse into action. She gasped and held him tighter as they flew through the violence-strewn streets. She couldnā€™t imagine how ridiculous they looked to the people of Gotham but under the influence of the fear toxin, she hoped people were more afraid than amused seeing a man in a full suit riding a horse. Crane focused on the route ahead, navigating them through the broken city.Ā 
ā€œWhereā€™s Raā€™s?ā€ She yelled into his ear.Ā 
ā€œForget about him.ā€ He growled and urged the horse faster.Ā 
ā€œWhy? What happened?ā€Ā 
ā€œHe tricked me. He didn't just want to impose an arguably better government, he wanted to kill everyone and to kill us too. He tipped off Batman and thatā€™s how Batman found me. He didn't need me after the toxin had been released. He kept you away from me, didnā€™t he?ā€ He called over his shoulder, leaping over a crashed car.Ā 
ā€œYes, he told me to go to the precinct instead when I tried to warn you about the DA.ā€Ā 
ā€œHe wanted Batman to find me and he assumed that youā€™d get stuck here after you followed Gordon. Two birds with one stone. I canā€™t believe I didnā€™t see it before.ā€ He growled and turned the horse onto a side-street and into an alley.Ā 
ā€œWhere are we going?ā€ She asked, her grip tightening around Crane as she saw people screaming in the streets.Ā 
ā€œTo my fatherā€™s house.ā€Ā 
ā€œHow?ā€ His fatherā€™s house? After his father had probably done something horrible to him?
ā€œJust hold on,ā€ he warned and flicked the reins again. She closed her eyes, wanting to block out the terror in the streets. While some of it gave her pleasure to see the raw side of humanity express itself, it reminded her of what she had seen as a child- the side of people that came out when they needed to survive.Ā 
They rode to the edge of the city and Crane slowed the horse to a stop beside a tall building that looked abandoned. He hopped off of the horse and helped her down, catching her as she forced herself to slip over the saddle. The building was far enough away from the inner-city that it looked like it hadnā€™t been touched yet by the chaos, though the toxins had definitely reached it.Ā 
ā€œWe need to get to the roof,ā€ he informed her calmly and pointed her to the elevator.Ā 
ā€œAnother elevatorā€¦ā€ she whispered beneath her breath, knowing it wasnā€™t the right time to mention how much she hated the idea of going into one when the world around them was ending. Crane pressed the button labeled ā€œ20R,ā€ and the elevator began to soar up. The elevator had windows that opened into the city. As the elevator climbed, they could see the destruction of Gotham and right across the bridge, normalcy.
ā€œRaā€™s is moving the micro-wave emitter by the high speed rail. If his plan goes accordingly, the emitter will poison the other side of the city beneath Wayne tower.ā€ He pointed out the tall Wayne building from their vantage point. ā€œI hate Gotham and I hate Batman, but I think I hate Raā€™s Al Ghul more.ā€ He sneered distastefully. ā€œWe could have run Gothamā€¦ā€ he sighed and shrugged, ā€œmaybe another day.ā€Ā 
She couldnā€™t help herself but laugh. Being with Crane had opened her eyes to a new side of herself, one that was dark and masochistic. She liked this side better, way better. She liked thinking that one day she could be in charge, force out all of the government officials that were too dumb or sexist to listen to her. She could lead beside Craneā€¦Ā 
When the elevator doors opened a gust of wind met them. The doors opened onto the roof of the huge building. A helicopter stood in the center of a large bullā€™s eye, its blades running in circles above their heads. Craneā€™s hair ruffled in the wind and he squinted his eyes against it. Her mouth fell open in shock and Crane chuckled at her reaction.Ā 
ā€œThatā€™s the funny thing about, trust, detective. I donā€™t believe in it,ā€ he smirked and beckoned her to the helicopterā€™s doors.Ā 
ā€œYou planned this?ā€ She yelled as he gestured her to climb onto the landing gear.Ā 
ā€œOf course,ā€ he smiled, "I always have a backup plan." Her mary janes slipped across the bars as she climbed and Crane supported her back, guiding her back into the body of the machine. He pulled himself inside after her and collapsed in one of the seats. She tried to orient herself, looking around the small helicopter, landing on the pilot. The pilot nodded at Crane, he was wearing a thick mask and goggles to keep the toxin away.Ā 
ā€œReady doctor?ā€ The pilot called from the front and Crane nodded breathlessly. He looked at her and clenched his jaw, returning to the version of Crane she knew so well.Ā 
ā€œYes.ā€
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absolutebl Ā· 1 year ago
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I Cannot Reach You - Kimi ni wa Todokanai REVIEWED
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This image perfectly captures how I feel about this show. You ready? I wasn't.
I Cannot Reach You
AKA I Can't Reach You AKA Kimi ni wa Todokanai
Japan 2023 - 8 eps 20 ea approx 2.5 hours
Themes, main tropes & archetypes: friends to lovers, tsundere/sunshine, self acceptance, self worth, high school BL, live action yaoi, soft romance, kindness
Rating? 10/10
Yeah, it happened again in 2023.
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Adapted from a manga.
The moment I finished binging this show I was thinking about writing about it and re-watching it. This is a sure sign that I adored a piece of media.Ā 
This is a wonderful BL.
Truly well executed, with smooth filming and lovely acting, both of a simplistic style that felt slightly more Korean than it did Japanese. It reminded me a little bit of Seven Days and a little bit of Takara and Amagi, and since these are my two favorite high school JBLs obviously I was bound to adore ICRY.
But what it reminded me of more than anything was Cherry Blossoms After Winter.
Odd for JBL and KBL to be so closely linked.Ā 
Like CBAW show, ICRY is classic live action yaoi.
Like the MOST classic of CLASSIC.
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All the JBL tropes. I mean look at that image above? It's rooftop assignation, kabedon, and a handhold ALL AT ONCE.
There was also multiple runnings of the gays, surprise kisses (one on a bridge), and shoulder leans.
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There is even a ā€œseme looses control to desireā€ scene which leads to dub con. There is an abject apology after but still - youā€™ve been warned.Ā 
The premise is: smart sporty hot (and hella gay) Yamato has a long standing crush on his silly sunshine sweetheart bestie, Kakeru. Yamato is also stiff, self isolated, shy, and has only ever really managed to get along with Kakeru. I love this kind of pining seme so damn much, it probably biased me.Ā 
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Unlike most uke, Kakeru starts to slowly figure out that his best friend is in love with him by ep 2 (let the chaos bisexual identity crisis commence).
So do some of the friends around them.
The story thus revolves around Yamato trying to unsuccessfully suppress his desire, and Kakeru trying to figure out if he can return Yamatoā€˜s affection.
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This biggest barrier is actually Kakeru's feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness (when compared to Yamato). But this is tempered by his genuine kindness which forces him into act with integrity around his dear friend's love and strive to fix everything (even himself) to prove worthy of it - whether he can ultimately return it or not.
Kakeru's struggles are pitted against Yamatoā€˜s repressed need that keeps bubbling over and figuratively (sometimes literally) attacking Kakeru with romantic, emotional, and physical intensity.Ā 
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Quick pitch:
This classic friends-to-lovers BL is everything Japan does best. Angsty. Emo. Aching. Driven by real thirst. Yamato is deeply in love with his childhood bestie, Kakeru, and has been for ages, unable to hide his ungainly damaging high school need. He wants Kakeru in every way possible and it oozes off of the screen. Kakeru is silly and a little simple, but not frenetic or overly camp about it. He is earnest, and genuinely wants to keep Yamato in his life which means giving a romance (and gayness) a fair chance. We watch him realize his affection and what form it can take in a truly authentic way. This show was impossibly kind to both of its lead characters and I felt almost honored that I got to watch something so lovely and rare play out on my screen.
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Iā€™m not gonna lie, I dithered over whether to give this a 10/10 and nearly didnā€™t.Ā But there is nothing wrong with it AS A BL.
And it's so GOOD to ALL of its characters and they are so good to each other. It's quiet, and because of that and its goodness, it will get overlooked, but I LOVED IT.
It's not one of those that BL outsiders will get and you must like Japan's style to enjoy it. But I'm in it. It's for me.
What am I hung up over? Even the kisses are good.
10/10
I CAN'T RECOMMEND IT HIGHLY ENOUGH
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Welcome to a very elite club. I gotta change all my best of lists now.
I am sorry to tell you how difficult this show is to get hold of. It deserves a much wider distribution. As of Nov 2023 I do not know where to legally find it internationally with eng subs. Please check the comments for updates.
It's on Netflix in some countries!
Try to find it, you won't regret it.
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my-rose-tinted-glasses Ā· 4 months ago
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My memory is terrible so I wanted to do a breakdown of my stuff every once in a while. Might be monthly, might be whenever I feel like it. And also. Spoilers and opinions below, read at your own risk.
QL - Currently Watching
šŸ‡ÆšŸ‡µI Hear the Sunspot [1/12] - I'm so grateful that I get a new jbl just as I'm mourning the end of the last one. I didn't read this manga but I've watched the film, and I really liked it even if it felt unfinished. Hopefully with 12 episodes it means we get the full story. This was a very good first episode, I feel like we established the main relationships dynamics and got a good insight into the main characters core. Taichi is my new child.
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­ Knock Knock, Boys! [6/12] - I continue to enjoy this group. Jane turned out to be a great addition instead of what I feared, but Peak really needs to step up so I can keep rooting for him and Thanwa, cause I'm also not a huge fan of the ex coming back as an obstacle for the couple. Latte and Almond are really great together and I'm curious how Almond will deal with his feelings for Latte, when he actually realizes he's having them.
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­Love Sea [4/12] - Before anything else, I love the ocean and I love when shows get out of the city. Also I like Mut. Now. I'm not a Mame hater. I'm a 'trauma is the only way to write deep characters' hater. I'm also a 'trauma gives you an excuse to be an asshole' hater. But most of all, I'm very much a 'love will fix you' hater. So just don't give me 3 out of 3 and it's fine. Also this last episode, all the talk about money and contracts made me feel some kind of way, although it doesn't seem to bother Mut so... And as much I like having Aya on my screen, Mook is really testing that line between cute and incredibly annoying. I'm not sure how long I'm staying with this one.
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­My Love Mix-Up! [4/12] - So... this is not good. The technical aspects of this are actually bad. Considering the number of sponsors is actually kinda incredible that it's so badly put together. The sound, the lighting, the editing, overall just... not good. Now, the rest. Look I don't want to ruin anybody's fun, so I'll keep watching this one quietly, unless something outrageous happens. But for the record, and this is all I'm gonna say, they are ruining the best parts of these characters and this story, and even if I ignore that (which I can't because it's an adaptation), it's pandering and it's a lazy attempt at recapturing the magic of msp, with a worse script and recycled material. Also I cannot believe they didn't put Atom in a trashing bag.
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­ My Stand-In [1/12] - For a number of reasons I'm waiting to binge this one. I do love watching the gifs on my dash though, pretty is pretty.
šŸ‡ÆšŸ‡µOssan no Pants ga Nandatte Ii Janai ka! [9/11] - It's so good. I love them all. This last episode I was close to tears in several parts but the street proposal ended me. It's definitely one of those shows that I'm grateful that I get to watch even if I can't always find the words to talk about it. These characters have my whole heart. [everyone should be watching this and the wonderful @isaksbestpillow has made that possible with her subs. Here is the post with the latest episode. ]
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­SunsetxVibes [3/12] - It's ridiculous, it's fun, it's cute. Sun is such a simp. Man basically proposed before they were even dating. And yeah the way it started was not amazing, with the lying, but these two actually communicate about their expectations and what they're feeling which is better than a lot of shows right now. And I adore the sides.
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­The Rebound [2/12] - Everyone is gay and naked. And they play a sport of some kind.
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­The Trainee [1/12] - OffGun are back! I really liked the set up for this. It's only the first episode but I really like how they are walking the line between the comedy and the seriousness of the workplace. I love a good friend group so I'm looking forward to seeing how the relationships between all the interns grow. Poon is once again playing the silly brainless child of the pack but I don't care, I adore that kid for some reason. And next week we already got Gun crying so what's not to like?
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­ Wandee Goodday [10/12] - I already talked about my feelings regarding the last episode. I'm here for Oyei/Cher and Plakao. I love Inn and Great, they deliver with the chemistry but the DeeYak storyline is just a mess for me right now. I am also not looking forward to the inevitable redemption of the terrible parental figure.
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­ We Are [13/16] - The friendships are still great and mainly why I'm watching. I have a really good time watching those scenes. Only 3 episodes left and ChainPun continue to be the tinniest of crumbs. I don't expect much from this couple at this point and I'm a bit disappointed. FangTan are so cute and such good communicators. They are my favourites. QToey are cute. Now, Phum and Peem. Look PondPhuwin are really good at looking at each other like they're the only person in the universe. However. There's only so many times I can enjoy them staring at each other in slow mo. Once per episode oughta be enough I think. Hopefully now that they're actual boyfriends it gets a little less annoying.
QL - Finished
šŸ‡ÆšŸ‡µ25 Ji, Akasaka de - What an incredible journey. I have to say it has been a while since a show surprised me this much, for the positive. For most of it I wasn't sure where it was gonna go or how it would end or who would be doing the running. The way they played with the show within a show was so well done. I loved the change in pov, which I always love in jbls, but it not only gave us the opportunity to see how Hayama's crush started but also we were allowed to see behind the mask that Hayama had been keeping up. Speaking of. I love him, one of my favourite characters of the year. And Komagine Kiita did an incredible job. I can't wait to watch him again when Tengu returns. If I had to say, the one thing I wish I had was more of Shirasaki's backstory. I wanted to understand better why his self-esteem got that bad. But that ending was great and honestly, I earned it.
šŸ‡µšŸ‡­Marahuyo Project - Well that was excellent. This show is beautiful. I want to hug them all and walk next to them. I really don't have the words for it right now so just go watch it. Because these characters are incredible and the visuals are stunning. All episodes here.
šŸ‡¹šŸ‡­ Only Boo! - This is getting tiresome. Here it goes. Why? It was so great. They were the cutest shit and I had a smile on my face the entire episode. Even with the singing. It was wholesome and the mains delightful. And then... Heartbreak, time skip, no consequences, unearned happy ending. I mean Moo is a great character still, and Kang is the best boy, but I'm tired.
Rose Watches OJBL
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Mood Indigo (2019) - I liked this one slightly better than the first. I think the visuals are stronger and there are some incredible shots throughout. The sex scenes are some of the best shot that I've ever seen. I love Kijima so even though I'm not always on board with prequels, it was great that we got more insight into him. Obviously we know this relationship was doomed from the start, and Kido has a lot to do with how we find Kijima in the beginning of The Novelist, but I can't help but feel for Kido. He is a mess that is struggling between the expectations that are on him (put there by others but also himself) and the affection and desire he feels for Kijima. And even without watching The Novelist there is always an air that this will not end well. For lack of a better phrase, it just wasn't meant to be. I'm looking forward to watching the rest of this series.
Dangerous Drugs of Sex (2020) - One of my first thoughts when I was watching this was 'we are using the word unhinged too freely'. Cause Ryoji has little competition on that score. This is not an easy watch. I really liked the way it was shot even if at times that meant my view was too narrow so I couldn't look anywhere else but the 'uglier' parts. In completely different ways they were both stuck in an uncomfortable (yeah that's not really the best word but I can't think of another) place and I could feel that throughout. I'm not sure about the ending but they look happy, so what do I know?
Other - Watched
There's a lot airing so I didn't watch much outside ql. I finished Under the Skin and rewatched a couple of things. My watchlist got longer and I have a bunch of shows that I'll hopefully tackle during my summer holiday in July. Speaking of...
There is a lot coming next month, so here is a post with all the shows that have been announced for July that I updated to include Meet You at the Blossom that was recently announced. New jbl starts tomorrow!!!!
As usual my ask box is open for questions or requests. Have a wonderful weekšŸ’œ
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gracexthoughts Ā· 9 months ago
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Okay, I have a lot of thoughts about the Percy Jackson show and the discourse I have been seeing about it. This is going to be long and possibly all over the place but I just want to share. If you disagree, thatā€™s fine. Just donā€™t hate because you have a different opinion. Deal?
I want to start this by saying I am a new fan. I did not read the PJO books when I was a kid. I watched the first two episodes when they came out in Dec purely out of curiosity and was just immediately in love with the world. So in true ADHD hyperfixation fashion, I devoured Percy Jackson and the Olympians and Heroes of Olympus books and I am currently on Book 1 of Trials of Apollo. And maybe it's because I am a newer fan but a lot of the gripes I see about PJOTV just donā€™t make sense to me and I feel like they really are just rooted in nostalgia. Watching the show and all the interviews of the cast and crew, it is clear to me they wrote this season with the intention and hope that they would get to make all 5 seasons, and possibly even further. I can see how all the changes make sense when looking at the narrative as a whole. They are really setting up this world and this story in a way that I think lends more to the future of this narrative better than The Lighting Thief book does.
I also want to say I have yet to find a book to screen adaptation that is beat for beat accurate. So much of what works in novels, especially novels told in first person, just does not translate to third person screen adaptations. Ultimately, literature and film/TV are art forms and what works for one may not work for another and the creators are allowed to make changes, especially when it is for the overall good of the product.
To start, the exposition dumping didnā€™t really bother me that much although I agree it is there and noticeable. Now, I watched the first two episodes before reading the books but after reading the books, I think the exposition is just as noticeable in the books as it is in the show. Percy walks into this world without knowing or believing in any of it. In the book, he learns about this world through the people around him explaining it in dialogue. It is just condensed a little more in the show which makes it feel a little heavier. Nonetheless, fantasy tends to have a lot of exposition because there are a lot of things you as a reader/ viewer need to know at the start of the story. It is part of the nature of the genre, especially when it is intended for a younger audience. Exposition that seems clunky to an older viewer is probably not going to feel the same way to a younger audience member (which is the target audience).
The biggest complaint I see, and disagree with, is that the kids are ā€œtoo smart which ruins the suspense.ā€ Annabeth has been at camp since she was 7 and it is clear, both in the books and the show, she is determined to prove that she is strong and capable and intelligent. She has been training to go out on a quest since she was 7 years old. Annabeth would have been studying these monsters and these myths so of course she can figure out the traps. They arenā€™t that hard to figure out, even for someone who isnā€™t super knowledgeable about Greek mythology.
Groverā€™s job is a protector of demigods. It makes sense he knows these myths like the back of his hand. I imagine that after Thalia, Grover would have studied and worked so hard to prove he was ready for another chance. Grover in the books also fell a little flat in The Lighting Thief to me because it seemed like most of his personality was just to be scared and funny until later books. I love what they did with Grover in the show because he feels like an actual character with his own goals, intelligence, trauma and authority.
Now onto Percyā€¦ I have so many thoughts about Show Percy so bear with me.
While I was reading the books, I was confused as to why Sally didnā€™t teach Percy about Greek mythology. Book Sally seemed to just hope Percy being attacked by monsters and going to camp isnā€™t going to happen or just assumes that when it does happen, Percy will figure it out. Sally always knew what would happen to her son, at least to some extent, so why wouldnā€™t she do everything in her power to prepare her son for this life she knows is inevitable? I loved the addition of her teaching Percy about Greek Mythology and Ancient Greek because it makes so much sense because I never saw her as a just ā€œsit back and waitā€ kind of character. Percy is her son, her baby, her miracle. She is terrified for him (which we see in EP 7 in the flashbacks) and, to me, it makes sense she would do everything in her mortal power to prepare him in a way that doesnā€™t scare him or reveal to him who he actually is. (It is also such a beautiful call back to Rick telling his son these stories as a kid, like I just think that is beautiful).
While on the subject of Ancient Greek, I saw someone complain how Percy doesnā€™t inherently know Ancient Greek in the Olympus scene in EP 8. ā€œPoseidon and Zeus looked at each other. They had a quick, intense discussion in Ancient Greek. I only caught one word. Father.ā€ - The Lightning Thief, page 343. This moment was literally pulled straight from the book! Percy talks about Annabeth tutoring him in Ancient Greek in the book (The Lighting Thief, page 107) and I loved how the show changed it to be his mom that taught him because of the previous reasons I gave above.
In general, Percy is an unreliable narrator. We see that in The Last Olympian when Rachel painted him defeating Antaeus. Percy is shocked at how he looks. We also see this in Heroes of Olympus where he is constantly talked about as this powerful and sometimes scary person whereas Percy never describes himself as anything other than kind of mediocre. Percy is constantly underestimating his intelligence and power in his POV because at his core he is still an insecure kid who was bullied and uses humor as a defense mechanism. But no matter what he thinks, he is smart and powerful and capable and I love that we get to see that in the show because it isnā€™t in first person.
In the books I was constantly frustrated that they werenā€™t seeing the traps. Aunty Emā€™s is so clearly out of place and weird and creepy but the Book Trio just ignores it? Also the Medusa story change was beautiful and needed and added so much depth to what was a very simple scene in the books. The Crustyā€™s scene was jarring at first, but in hindsight it didn't bother me either because Hermes told them about the entrance. Why wouldnā€™t he tell them about the trap too? The way Hermes is portrayed, I get the sense that he really wants Percy to succeed, in the books and show, and that he is holding onto hope that somehow, someway, he can still save his son. Why would he send them somewhere just to lead them into a trap that does not benefit Hermes in any way? (And us not seeing that conversation happen is showing and not telling BTW)
Also, the overall claim that Percy, Annabeth and Grover know everything is justā€¦ wrong. (@pareiwheeler made a post about this that really made me realize this so go read their post too: https://www.tumblr.com/pareiwheeler/740600563986808832/theres-know-mystery-or-suspense-they-know) They know the small things but the big things? They didnā€™t think Luke was the thief, they didn't know it was Kronos, they didnā€™t know they would lose the fourth pearl, they didnā€™t know the casino would mess with time, they didnā€™t know the shoes were a trap, etc etc. They walk into these situations thinking they are prepared, thinking they know everything they need to but they DONā€™T And that is where the suspense lies, in the overarching storyline that is the driving force of the plot. Not in these moment to moment scenes that are not the main conflict.
Now onto the smaller changes that, in my opinion, benefit the overall narrative of this story.
Missing the solstice deadline: Not only is Percy choosing to continue the quest despite missing the deadline such a great character moment for him but this ups the stakes so much!! Zeus and Poseidon are currently at war for the last two episodes of the show and even if they donā€™t talk about it much, that knowledge is still there in the characters' heads and in the viewersā€™. Every moment they take in the Underworld, you are watching with the knowledge that war is raging above. And it's a great way to show the kind of hero Percy is and what he will become. Percy doesnā€™t care he ā€œfailedā€ because he didnā€™t come all this way just to run back to camp with his tail tucked between his legs because that is not Percy. Percy sneaks out of camp twice to go on quests he was not invited on because he will not let someoneā€™s rules get in his way while he is protecting people he cares about. Percy doesnā€™t want war to happen so with even the slightest chance he can stop Zeus and Poseidon, he takes it! Also the addition of Poseidon stepping in and saving Percy from Zeus was beautiful.
I also loved that Poseidon gave them 4 pearls instead of 3 because such a small detail shows how Poseidon cares about Percy and Sally. And, plot wise, it didnā€™t change anything. Percy still left the Underworld without his mom. But starting with 4 pearls gives them hope that they actually can complete the quest AND save Sally. Percy leaving the Underworld without Sally is so much more impactful in the show than the books because of this tiny detail change.
The fact that the pearls take them to the east coast rather than the west coast works well too. I loved that they returned to the cabin because of how important that cabin is not only to Percy and Sally but also to Poseidon.
Hermes being added to the Lotus Casino and bringing in Lukeā€™s background earlier on was beautiful and Lin Manuel Mirandaā€™s performance was one of the standouts for me. It is such a beautiful moment and you can see the anguish in Hermes at his feeling powerless and I think it sets up Percy learning about Lukeā€™s family in The Last Olympian in a great way. This is one of those moments where you can tell the writers and showrunners are playing the long game with this series.
Last but not least, the change in the betrayal scene. I love it. I do. Not only in the changes in the way it happens but how they characterized Luke. Luke clearly does not want to hurt Percy, he wants Percy to help him and to come with Luke because he cares about him. The prophecy states ā€œYou shall be betrayed by one who calls you a friendā€ and Luke in the book didnā€™t really seem to care about Percy or view him as a friend at the end of it. But Show Luke? He cares about Percy and he is heartbroken that Percy doesnā€™t side with him. Also the addition of Annabeth hearing Lukeā€™s betrayal first hand was brilliant, in my opinion. Not only were Walker, Charlie and Leah ACTING but it was so much more impactful that Annabeth sees Luke turn and chooses Percy in that moment. And I donā€™t think it will change much of Annabethā€™s actions in the future because you can see how hurt she is and how desperately she still wants him to come back and be good.
Anyway, I think the show is brilliantly done. That isnā€™t to say it doesnā€™t have its faults but nothing is perfect and if you were expecting this show to be 100% perfect then I think you just set your expectations too high because that is not realistic.
If you made it to the end of this, I love you. The Percy Jackson brain rot is real and if we donā€™t get an S2 announcement soon Iā€™m going to riot
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bairdthereader Ā· 4 months ago
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It's Imogen's turn now.
[I'll preface this by saying that I usually hate when tv or film adaptations of books add new characters, and I'm immediately biased against them when they show up on screen (hi, I'm the problem, it's me). I'll admit I felt that way about Imogen at first. But Alice is such a genius, and they wrote Imogen into the storyline in such a way that she feels not just essential to the plot, but also to some of the other characters' development. And to top it off, this girl gets one heck of a character arc. For this post, I'll focus on just one aspect of her journey: her gradual movement from loneliness to connection.]
At the beginning of season 1, Imogen is one of the few girls who hangs out regularly in front of the boys' school. On the surface this could look like a typical way to attract a boyfriend within a known and relatively safe group. But, unusually, she's never seen interacting with anyone else in any meaningful way, the first clue that this group might be all she has. The other boys in the group seem to engage her minimally, and only mention her in terms of her attractiveness and as a potential match for Nick. Compared with their indifference, Imogen can clearly see that Nick is a good choice--attractiveness and rugby king status aside, he's a kind and attentive part of their friend group, and she's known him a long time, even if only superficially. Cue an awkwardly aggressive pursuit that includes:
A lack of respect for Nick's privacy;
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Nonconsensual touch;
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Inviting herself into his life in public where it's hard for him to say no, then broadcasting an inaccurate relationship status to their friends;
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And petty, self-protecting revenge for perceived rejection.
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None of these behaviors are particularly pleasing to watch happen, especially when we know everything Nick is struggling with internally, but they are very typical of someone who desperately wants connection but doesn't know how to achieve it in a non-superficial way. Imogen is genuinely fond of Nick, and even amid all of the obnoxious but socially acceptable ways she tries to hold his attention you can see glimpses of that fondness and care (letting him off the hook when he clearly doesn't want to say he likes her back at the dance comes to mind). The fact that she still pursues him the way she does doesn't make Imogen a bad person; it shows us sheā€™s a lonely person, particularly vulnerable to the currents of peer pressure and expected societal norms, long before she admits in season 2 that she doesnā€™t actually have that many friends.
And then, we get the hugely important conversation in the park with Nick (and Nellie, the emotional support dog we all need). It must be said that Nick is choosing to share a really complex part of himself with Imogen here; he could easily have left it at ā€œI donā€™t like you like that.ā€ But instead, he takes this moment when Imogen isnā€™t distracted by posturing or fitting in or flirting to tell her whatā€™s really going on in his mind. On some level, he trusts her with this truthā€”not the whole truth, obviously, but a big part of itā€”which tells us he recognizes that beneath her faƧade Imogen is a caring, trustworthy, and kind person. Naturally most of the focus in this scene is on Nick, but this talk also marks the beginning of Imogen's journey toward authenticity. It starts with the realization that she feels at least some of the same things Nick is feeling about being afraid to change and not fitting in, followed by a shift in her perspective on Nick himself.
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Once Nick is no longer a romantic prospect, there's room for her to consider him as a whole person and a true friend, not just someone she "hangs out with every morning." She can begin to see and value the things about him that are intrinsic parts of his nature, rather than the outward trappings of just a datable boy. Imogen can let down her guard with him because he let his down with her first. She can give more of her true self to this friendship because Nick has no expectations of her beyond that she be kind and be herself. There are no popularity points to earn, no hoops to jump through, no fear of rejection. So now, she protects him from the scorn he might have received from their friend group by saying the decision not to date was hers. She begins respecting his personal space. She cares for and observes him on a deep enough level to understand at least a bit of what is happening when Nick takes Charlie off the field at sports day. Sheā€™s learning what it is to both be and have a real, authentic friend, maybe for the first time. This helps her to view other people in her life through this more discerning and nuanced lens as well.
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Clearly Nick has grown to appreciate Imogen's friendship on a deeper level too, since she's the first person from his old friend group he really wants to come out to and tell about Charlie, so much so that he and Charlie make a fairly elaborate plan to create a safe space for him to do so. The sleepover at Charlie's house is another quiet watershed moment for Imogen, because Charlie's friend group welcomes her so unreservedly. They might be a little surprised to see Imogen there, Tara and Darcy may have not had the most positive feelings toward her before, and the rest of them might have some lingering reserve based on her attachment to the Harry cadre, but... They put all of that aside and draw her in with warmth and enthusiasm, partly because that is just the kind of lovely people they are, partly because Charlie and Nick are implicitly vouching for Imogen, and partly because when Imogen lets her guard down, when she's not trying to impress or flirt or maintain a certain image, she's quite lovely and fun herself.
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Nick has been making a parallel journey toward connection and true friendship, but in a slightly different way. While Nick actively seeks points of connection by using his emotional intelligence and intuition, Imogen journeys into deeper friendships by enjoying the genuine kindness of the people in Charlie's friend group enough to be herself around them. She realizes that there are people who do like her just the way she is--a novel experience for her.
Of course, this is a gradual evolution for Imogen, so it doesn't all change overnight. She still spends the bulk of her time with her old friend group, who often leave her alone, and her ever-present desire to be liked and loved draws her into a relationship with Ben, who uses her in the worst way.
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When she begins to suspect that Ben cares less for her than he should, that perhaps heā€™s even using her to get at Nick and Charlie, she starts to pull away. She recognizes that her true wants and needs are speaking more loudly than the old desire to have a boyfriend or to be part of the more popular group. Sheā€™s listening to herself, finally.
She starts spending more time with Charlieā€™s friend group, with people who appreciate her sunshine personality, her quirks, her big smile, who listen to her problems and give her honest advice. People whose company she enjoys on a complex level.
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Once she has people in her life who accept her the way she is, Imogen can finally begin to accept herself, see herself, and value herself. Which leads us to this truly phenomenal moment, Imogenā€™s catharsis, her break for freedom from not only Ben's manipulations and toxicity, but the suffocating pressure of being someone she's not.
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This must have been simultaneously liberating and terrifying for Imogen, but now, when she has to be brave, she has true friends to bolster and support her. She's not alone anymore.
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And then, then, we get Imogen's final layer peeled away, the moment when she looks deeply enough into her true self to see this:
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Imogen's self-realization is so powerful and, I think, just beginning. We are ready for season 3 Imogen.
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healerfromhell Ā· 4 months ago
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On The Night Nurse
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hi dead boy detectives fandom, iā€™m here to give you the tea on the night nurse because i cannot watch her incredible lore get overlooked any longer. this post was initially a thread on my twitter but i wanted to cross post :3
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long post under the cut
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DOOM PATROL
we first see this iteration of the night nurse in what ruth described as a ā€œbackdoor pilotā€ in s3e3 of doom patrol. sheā€™s only on screen for 3 minutes but in that time thereā€™s an insane amount of implications in terms of her abilities.
sheā€™s shown to have telekinesis, as well as shifting her appearance into a more ā€œdemonicā€ form, including her mouth seemingly splitting in half. finally, as the doom patrol escapes, she projectile vomits acid onto them which later turns them into living-dead style zombies!
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itā€™s up for debate whether or not this is canon to the dead boys show, HOWEVER, in terms of asa herself weā€™re not given any reason to believe she isnā€™t functionally the same, even if this IS an alternate universe.
as such, it is likely that the night nurse possesses these abilities in dbd and we simply havenā€™t seen them yet. furthermore, sheā€™s already canonically an ā€œeternal, trans-dimensional beingā€, so while this is a different universe, it could potentially be a single, dimension-hoping night nurse.....
COMIC HISTORY
hereā€™s where we get into the good stuff. itā€™s pretty much agreed upon that the night nurse is an adaptation of the comic character ā€œnightmare nurseā€, also known as asa the healer. sheā€™s a demon of an unknown age and sheā€™s absolutely delicious as a character.
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asa first appears in the phantom stranger, but sheā€™s most notably present in justice league dark. during this itā€™s explicitly stated that john constantine is her ex-boyfriend and that sheā€™s sapphic! let's go through some of the most important connections we get from these comics.
Constantine
we see her make several references to her history with constantine, but sheā€™s also pretty loud about how her priorities are, first and foremost, her job, as you can see here, which i think ties in nicely to her pendanticism in dbd ā€” all she wants to do is her job.
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Zatanna
here are a few panels in which she hits on zatanna, then kisses her, then says sheā€™s a much better kisser than constantine. girl kisser asa youā€™ll always be famous.
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by the way, that creature with the red eyes? yeah, that's asa. that's her demon form that she appears in after enduring the blackmare curse with constantine.
Alice Winter
it is revealed that asa used to work as a nursemaid for a sickly woman named alice, but eventually she decided to possess alice instead. this is the body we see her in throughout her comic appearances.
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however, it turns out asa is the only thing keeping alice alive. when this becomes evident, alice invites asa back into her body for good.
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Other Appearances
asa is also seen a few times in other comic runs, iā€™m just gonna add some of my favourites here.
Suicide Squad
i love her character design here and i think her ability to remove trauma like a cancerous growth is a nice tease at how she can literally go into charlesā€™ head and watch his trauma in dbd
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The Phantom Stranger
this is from issue 8 of the phantom stranger and thereā€™s several reasons i love it. firstly, LOOK AT HER.
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second, letā€™s go queer demon who enjoys threesomes! youā€™re an icon, asa. third, apollo and panacea. oh, apollo and panacea. weā€™re about to get tinfoil hat-y for this last bit.
FINAL THOUGHTS
so you mightā€™ve noticed, up until this point asaā€™s mentioned having sworn an oath, but that panel has her outright stating she was actually FORCED into it by the gods. we also get a hint at this in jld, though they donā€™t explicitly name apollo and panacea.
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ā€œasaā€ quite literally means ā€œhealerā€. her given name; every time somebody addresses her, they are calling for a healer. that cannot be coincidental. it makes me wonder if she even HAD a name before this oath was forced upon her, or if she was justā€¦ a creature. a monster.
perhaps the gods saw fit to name her asa as a means of throwing salt in the wound. not only have they branded her, even her name is a reminder of her new purpose. it gives a lot of weight to the numerous occasions on which she says that she is, no matter what, a healer.
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because regardless of where she is, what skin she wears, no matter whatā€¦ she has that oath, and her name is healer. thereā€™s no escaping that for her. itā€™s the fundamental core of who she is.
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and as a final, final thought i would like to draw attention to this casting because hooooooly shit. perfect.
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anyway if anyone cares to see any more of my never-ending thoughts about asa you can find all my head canons on the carrd i have for my rp portrayal or my ao3 where i will no doubt be posting writings about her :3
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heycarrots Ā· 8 months ago
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Thereā€™s been a lot of discourse about the nature of James and Mirandaā€™s relationship. Thereā€™s even been a lot of discussion on my podcast about it. One thing I want to make clear is that my podcast is a platform for discussion on all points of view. Iā€™m not going to agree, 100%, with everything thatā€™s said, but it makes the views of my guests no less valid. Thereā€™s no right or wrong, here, because this is art and therefore, it is subject to interpretation.
My intent, however, is to attempt to get as close to the original intent of the actors as possible because we look at a show or a film or a play as going through several layers of distillation. Each level purifies the intended narrative leaving its truest essence.
When we make a reduction sauce using an alcohol of some kind, letā€™s say a red wine, the heat applied to it burns off things we donā€™t need for flavor. Youā€™re never going to get drunk off of red wine reduction because thereā€™s almost no alcohol left in it. That all gets burned off, leaving only the flavor components, which is what we wanted all along, anyway. We want that extra element that enriches the flavor of the steak, by adding nuance.
So letā€™s take apart that meal.
We start with the birth of the idea. The story kicks around in an authorā€™s head, trying to get out, growing bigger and more persistent until it outgrows the confines of the mental box inspiration is stored in and has to be let out. That idea, thatā€™s the cow.
The author raises that idea, feeds it, watches it grow, and then, ultimately slaughters it. That sounds awful, but once you have that idea pulsing, growing, evolving and then finally commit the final draft on paper, it is a kind of death. The life of the story comes to an end and it becomes memorialized in a mausoleum. Readers will come to visit, spend time with it, lay down flowers, cherish it, and mourn its passing.
The next level is adaptation. Thatā€™s the steak. There are many ways you can slice the story, large roasts encompassing the whole story or a smaller, hyper-focused character study fillet mignon.
A writers room gets hold of the cow and carves it up. They choose what gets cooked and what gets tossed. A GREAT group of writers saves the bones. They take in the entire supporting structure of the piece and while the whole story may not make it onto the screen, they will have slow roasted the bones for a stock. When you watch a show like Black Sails, where themes are introduced that wonā€™t fully be explained or explored until several seasons later, thatā€™s what that is. It is the stock being used to flavor the whole dish. Youā€™ve distilled the entire cow to its purest essence and so every scene, every line of dialogue, every acting choice, encompasses the entirety of the story. A line from episode one is defined by knowledge of the finale and in regard to dialogue, defined by an actorsā€™ knowledge of a characterā€™s backstory. There are many writers rooms who are creating the bones of the story as they go, which means they arenā€™t starting with a rich stock. You canā€™t trace back character motivations or choices to begin with because those motivations changed throughout production.
Black Sails, again, isnā€™t one of those shows. Steinberg and Levine came into the writers room with their stock pot full and sloshing, spilling story everywhere. The richness of the details they were laying can make season one a bit hard to consume unless you are ready for a story on that level. Viewers need to come to the table with some bread to sop up all those character details because we WILL need them later.
Over the course of finalizing scripts and blocking out episodes, the steak is cooked. Like any great steak, this story is medium rare. More juice comes out with every bite. Itā€™s what makes the show infinitely rewatchable. It continues to cook on the plate, but because it wasnā€™t overdone, it never dries out.
When the actors get ahold of it, thatā€™s the reduction sauce we were talking about. That sauce provides nuance and flavor. Thatā€™s the emotion. A line of dialogue on a page is just ink. Itā€™s nothing until itā€™s spoken aloud. And like any bit of language in this world, itā€™s subject to interpretation. In this case, itā€™s the actor who does the interpreting.
I spoke on the podcast about the art of subtext and how huge a role it plays in Black Sails. One example we used is Jane Eyre. Itā€™s one of the most frequently adapted novels in the English language and with each adaptation, we get a new version of our characters. The most volatile and subject to change is Rochester. There are MANY versions of Rochester that I find appalling (including the original beast in the book), but each actor has formed him into something else, based on their performance. Toby Stephens takes Rochester and turns him into a silly tragic romantic, broken many times over by a society he never really fits into, despite the status of his birth. He connects with Ruth Wilsonā€™s Jane because she fully and happily inhabits that space on the fringes that Rochester thinks he needs to climb out of. Jane takes his hand on the outside of the wall, turns him away from the guarded palace and shows him the wild world that was at his back this whole time.
This is what Toby Stephens, Luke Arnold, Louise Barnes, Zethu Dlomo, and really all the actors for whom their subtextual choices make them reflect like prisms, have done with their performances.
In the final distillation, character motivations and emotions are finalized by the actor. Writers can pontificate, the source material lies dead in its lovely tomb, but stories live and breathe by their storytellers.
What weā€™re left with is Tobyā€™s face telling the world how deeply Flint loves Silver. Every single choice tells this story.
Weā€™re left with Luke showing us how much Silver is repressing in his feelings for Flint. Lukeā€™s face shows us an incredible depth of feeling and a door slamming shut.
Weā€™re left with the incredible intimacy between James and Miranda, which speaks of a decade of shared physical intimacy. Thereā€™s an openness, a freeness to it until the moment in episode 3 when Miranda learns that James has found the Urca and is leaving soon to pursue it. She gives some of it away when she says ā€œI thought Iā€™d have you all to myselfā€. She is mourning the loss of intimacy that she only gets in short windows of time. They arenā€™t strained because James isnā€™t attracted to her, but because heā€™s rarely there. She has him for a few days at a time before heā€™s off on another hunt. The coldness starts from the moment he tells her heā€™s leaving in a few days because I believe she thinks he wonā€™t be coming back, that this is the hunt he wonā€™t survive and sheā€™ll finally have lost both James and Thomas. From the moment Richard Guthrie darkens her door, sheā€™s looking for a way to weaponize him and get them out. For her, itā€™s a race against the clock and sheā€™s willing to sacrifice a bit of her relationship with James in the present to secure happiness for them in the future.
This is also why James still has sex with her before leaving, even though heā€™s furious for her reading Meditations to Richard. This is how they connect. They connected through physical intimacy in the flashbacks, as well. Him stroking her thumb in the carriage before the kiss. Tactile contact to seal their understanding of each other. Miranda bracing her hands on his chest during important moments in the Hamiltonā€™s home, something she also does to Thomas, to show physical connection, physical intimacy. Miranda thrives on physical touch.
To think that, for 10 years, James is lying there like an object for Miranda to use, is, to me, short sighted. To think that James doesnā€™t love Miranda outside of a group, is also ignoring the fact that, 10 years on, James will not leave on a hunt (angry as they both are) without physically connecting with her, trying so hard to reach beyond his anger and the wound freshly opened from sight of that book heā€™s chosen not to look at for probably the better part of those 10 years. The way his hands hover over her back after she comes and he desperately wants to be with her in that moment, like the best of their moments, but he just canā€™t, speaks to the depth of his love for her.
So many fans of the show point to this sad sex scene as one of the most important character moments for James and Miranda, but I consistently come to the opposite conclusions about WHY itā€™s important and what we learn from it, because Iā€™m taking my cues from the actorā€™s choices, not the director or the writers. On the page, in plain ink, he hates having sex with her. Toby and Louise show us, however, that they are trying to recapture a thing that is fleeting, reaching out to each other to patch up an old wound from which the scab has been picked off, leaving it seeping and raw.
From Tobyā€™s performance, regardless of the words he uses years later to describe it, we see not a character who ā€œloves menā€ or a character who ā€œloves womenā€, but a character who LOVES. I donā€™t see Flint defining that love in terms of boxes and parameters. Heā€™s a character who must be coaxed out, but then loves without reason, without a safety net, as he proves with his love of Silver. As was also referenced by a guest on the podcast, he places a sword in Silverā€™s hand and says ā€œdo itā€.
Anyway, this post got away from me and took several turns, but the love between James and Miranda being dismissed by so many in the fandom has been bugging me for a while and I just needed to emotionally vomit on tumblr.
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two kittens
SUMMARY; you are also a kitten to wonwoo
FEATURING; wonwoo x gn!reader
TAGS; fluff, established relationship, non-idol au, gamer boyfriend!wonwoo x gamer gn!reader, wonwoo as a dad cat <3 and reader is also a cat lover !
WORD COUNT; 1.7 K
WARNINGS; mentions of being killed by a knife (because wonwoo and reader are playing horror game here), use of pet names (baby, kitten), some kisses on the cheek !
NOTES FROM KALA; write this after i just watched his latest gaming live yesterday and found these two clips on my tl > click ! another click ! he has that black cat bf energy AGFSWSSSKLD 慠慠 and also because i've been playing the texas chainsaw massacre lol
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Wonwoo looks excited to play his game, his eyes glued to the computer screen. He's playing a horror game called "The Texas Chainsaw Massacre" which is adapted from a movie. Wonwoo has wanted to play it for a long time and he feels lucky that you invited him to play together. Small things like inviting him to play a game can make Wonwoo feel happy because it means he can spend time with you, while doing his hobby.
"Baby, be careful! The grandfather has dangerous skills!" says Wonwoo. So on this game, there are survivors and there is a family. This family consists a grandfather and his two grandchildren, and then the leatherface as villain. Well, they're all villains actually, murderers. And the grandfather has special skillā€” every time he screams, the survivors who are hiding will be detected and his two grandchildren and the leatherface are in charge of killing them.
But don't worry, you really don't have to because Wonwoo says, as long as you stay still and don't move when the grandfather screams, you won't be detected. Except in the final level. Ugh, the final level is really hard and you always lose. Luckily Wonwoo is always there to help you. Protecting you and giving you directions on what to do, and telling you where to hide.
"Don't worry, I'll protect you." Wonwoo says as you scream between excitement and fear as leatherface chases you, wanting to kill the character you're playing.
"Please please please I don't want to die! I want to end this game with my boyfriend!" you ramble while your hands aggressively clicking your mouse and the keyboard.
Wonwoo chuckles while adjusting his glasses. He turns his head to take a look at your face. You are so expressive and it warms Wonwoo's heart. Adorable.
"Hide at the basement, baby. I will open the back door first so you can run easily, yeah?"
You nod, eyes staring at the screen like it's your last chance to live. You're getting scared even though it's just a game but Wonwoo strokes your shoulder softly. "We can finish this together. Just keep running, baby. I got your back. I'm right behind you."
Unfortunately, while you're running, the killer is right in front of the door. Your character is immediately caught, killed with a knife. You scream, "AAAA NO! WE ALMOST MADE IT, WON!"
Wonwoo laughs, his laugh sounds so endearing and it makes your anger doesn't stay longer, though. "That's okay. You did very well at surviving. I'm proud, tho. Good game!"
You just exhale heavily. Then you remove your headphones from your ears. Wonwoo glances over, "Don't want to play anymore?"
"I'm tired." You grin. "I'll just watch you play games." You turn off your computer again, now moving closer to Wonwoo's computer. You and Wonwoo's computer desks are placed side by side because you both like to play games. To make it easier to strategize while playing games and of course because playing games next to your boyfriend is so much fun!
"If you're tired, just rest your body on the bed." Wonwoo massages his fingers for a moment, feeling sore from playing three rounds with you. It's been an hour and you guys haven't had lunch yet. "I'll continue a bit more and we'll have lunch together, okay?"
"Okay!" you reply enthusiastically, smiling cheerfully. Wonwoo smiles too, he ruffles your hair gently then kisses your cheek. Then the new game starts, and he's back to looking seriously at his computer screen.
You walk over to the bed, laying your body down because of the soreness in your back. Your eyes look around your shared bedroom. Looking for something. "Princess?" you call. "Princess, where are you?"
"Look under our bed, she likes to sleep there." Wonwoo responses to your call looking for his kitten.
Wonwoo has a kitten, a white furred kitten that he named Princess because he didn't know what to name her at that time right after he adopted her. Wonwoo said, "It's okay. Princess is what she looks like." Indeed, that kitten acts like a total princess who loves to be pampered and doesn't want to be told to play outside. Her fur is so soft, and well-groomed. The way she walks is also graceful, just like a princess!
You get up from the bed and peek underneath. Sure enough, you can see a white blob of fur, Princess is asleep, curled up until her body looks like a snowball. You smile, Princess is so adorable and lovable. When you first meet her, you immediately love her as if she were your own cat. Wonwoo even used Princess as an excuse to meet you because your boyfriend knows that you love his cat so much.
"Come here, furball!" you reach for the white feline's body. She doesn't react, just wriggles a little in your arms. Then you lay back down on the bed, half leaning on the headboard while Princess rests on your chest.
"Aw, so cute. Won, look at your baby!"
Wonwoo smiles, and he tries to reciprocate your words by turning to you briefly even though his game character is in crisis, being chased by the leatherface. "She's adorable, like you."
"How can there's such a cute creature like this?" you start talking to yourself, telling Wonwoo's cat the fairy tales of your childhood like Peter Pan and Sleeping Beauty, as if she understands what you're saying and even if she doesn't, just having Princess being comfortable in your arms is enough.
On the other side, Wonwoo is playing the game seriously, his fingers moving so fast to avoid the killer. But his ears are focused on listening to your ramblings, making his face continue to display a sincere smile even though it looks like he's about to lose. "A-ah, no!"
And sure enough, it isn't long before Wonwoo lost because he is no longer focused on playing the game. His character is killed by leatherface. He starts to feel tired and wants to have lunch with you, then cuddle together with Princess in the middle of the two of you.
"Baby, what do you wanna have forā€”" Wonwoo's words is cut short because when he looks back at you, you are already asleep with Princess in your arms. Your mouth opened slightly, letting out a soft exhale. The sight of you sleeping with the kitten makes Wonwoo's smile grows wider. He had no idea that your interaction with his kitten can make him fall so deeply in love. Making his heart melt like honey.
Wonwoo takes off his headphones, ends his gaming agenda and slowly walking towards you. His big hand gently strokes the top of your head, as if you're a fragile creature that he must treat with care.
"Kitten," he whispers as he gazes at your peacefully sleeping face. You look so peaceful and sound, even though you were just playing a game with Wonwoo a few minutes ago. He takes his phone out of his pants pocket and quietly snap a picture of you sleeping while hugging Princess.
He giggles while looking at the photo. "My kittens taking a nap together. How cute,"
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