#ahhhh playing into every stereotype

[veepriv]

I think I might be a lesbian and I’m scared

[happypotato48]

Wandee Goodday EP 2 Unhinged Tangent Thoughts

"Previously on Wandee Goodday Z. Doctor Wandee set his eyes on Mr. perfect Doctor Ter, but before the battle even starts our hero Dee got hit with the "I only like women." now after humiliated defeat, Dee rise up to meet his new challenger Yor-yak Phadetseuk. can our hero finally get to taste delicious victory or it he going to forever be consign to life of vanillaness. find out in this episode of Wandee Goodday Z!"

To zab or not to zab? an age old question, asks to themself by every repressed Homos that ever live.

Bitch! you just got offered free dick. and this hunk of a dick nonetheless. get off your high horse and go ride this bull of a man instead!

So you people probably figured this out by now. but yes Fluke is a really poppular thai boy name for millennials and gen z. i literally knew like 10+ different Flukes form just my school days alone.

Cher can you share your man with me. pretty please 🥺

Fuck you! how dare you wink your god dang eyebrow like that! เห็นใจคนไม่มีผัวหน่อยสิครับ.

Eyebrows!

Men, can't kill them, can't live without them.

Ok wtf, how is this dumb horny show give me the feels right now. Ohhhh those eyes, god damn those eyes. it's like staring into a hazy morning field touched by a gentle first daylight. i wish i could get lost in them forever..... anyway Hot man me likey!

I don't go there but Yak fursuit game is weak. forking amature smh.

Tank tops! hubba hubba. thank you show for putting all the men in tank tops. i will forever be in your debt.

No thank you. i really don't like this trope of a character getting saves from sa that so prevalent in BL and romance genre in general.

This man is a husband material, Dee. you better not break this poor man's heart. or i swear to all the lords of hell, i will bring down calamity on your ass.

Oh hello stereotypical gossipy gay. your kind was one of the first queer representations we got on thai tv. you walked so these BL boys could run, thank you for your service.

He's so beautiful. i love him and his magnificent eyebrows so much.

Cool grandma! i love her style so much. also loved that she asked Dee how the hell he still can't find a man. freaking savage.

จะเอาหัวเอาหางหรือจะเอากลางตลอดตัว ��็ได้จ่ะ.

"Moan harder" and "play with that longer" i'm fucking dead. this is so hot! ahhhh yessss i love this so much. this is how you do sexy. other BLs take some fucking notes!

This is so fucking tender. my heart is melted.

Oh my, this Ep whewwww. the tenderness expressed by Yak is something that i didn't know i needed, but i'm 100% loving every goddamn second of it. Great is such a great actor (pun intended.) and this version of Yak is already better than his book counterpart.

[eighties-goth-suicide-note]

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answer to every single one or im using the last emoji to unalive myself

Hello my little Dove ♡︎

🎀 - How did you meet your Darling?

Well. . . . we met on a dating app ^___^' not our proudest fact but ... we fell in eachother personalities and were in a 3 day online relationship before seeing eachother!! thats so adorable

♥️- What's your favorite thing about your darling?

Beutiful, long eyelashes....and ocean blue eyes.. *blushes cutely* I also think that you have such kind and delicate soul but also the other half is filled with pure insanity and possesivness!!

🔮- What is your ideal date?

I just need your presence Darling, but im weak for forest, picnic dates, it would be so nice to admire the beauty of the nature with you! Juts imagine how lovely the birds would sing just for us, lonely in the woods. I have very good orientation in field, so taking you to a meadow deep in the forest wouldn't be a problem for me. We would have a delectable picnic with pastries I prepared all by myself and then I would try to paint you or play a song for you!! I also love museum dates . . . im a sucker for culture, I just find humans so interesing, I can watch paintings and wander what was the point behind it? Or watch some artifacts and imagine people, just like us, but many years ago living their little lives! Just like us now, we are also living little lives that take part in big history ! Ahhhh I can ramble for you for hours ! (´｡• ω •｡`)'

🌔- What is your ideal yandere/darling scenario?

I am drolling everyday at the thought of getting creepy letters.. .. ones are full of pure love, how my stalker wants to marry me, thinks im beautiful porcelain doll, they need me like oxygen, other with just lustful disgusting thoughts!! and the last - possesive, dangerous ones!! How im being stalked, how they love taking pictures of me, how they will kill all tthe people i talk to!! nhh g h g hh being followed would be sooo sooo scary i would be sooo terrifed that i would stay in my room and and then you would break into it because you will miss me soo much!!.. also kidnapping.. heh do i need to say more..

for me being yandere, i would find your scared face so adorable! You cant even imagine how awful i can get! i play the role of weak, petite doll for a reason, one day i will lock you up in my basemen . . . or maybe just put collar on you and chain you to the wall so i can see you right after entering living room. . . ahhh... . . to have my little pet waiting for me after a long day . . . i could do anything i want, the good and the bad, , that would be so fun to have you all defendless.. i could just put knife to your neck, scream at you . . ohh ho i would love that salty tears!! I would lick them off without second thought. And you would succumb to all my orders!!! you will be my pet and i will be your master ^__^ But with my harsh traning.. comes rewards, you will be the one reciving attention from me, i would shower you with kisses, make you homemade meals to watch your health ! It would be our little secret. I will be the source of all your happiness, sorrow and fear.

☂️- Do you have a rainy day plan for you and your darling for when you're stuck inside?

My darling playing brawl stars and hugged in his arm reading some good book and drinking hot tea ! (〃＾▽＾〃)

🍒- What are your yandere types (if you have them)?

I have them all in my bio silly... . but im both sadistic and masohistic... it just depends how im feeling :3

🍓- What is your favorite yandere trope or stereotype?

STALKER X VICTIM, the obsessive possesive ones, or when darling gets mad at yandere and they start crying, begging for forgivness on knees mnnn.

🥩- What is your favorite metaphor for love?

“The moon is beautiful, isn't it?”  ִֶָ☾ ⟡ ݁₊

🥀- What would you gift your darling for a special occasion?

lego. or maybe some game... or flowers..because a beautiful boy like you deserve whole bouqet!

🌸- What is your least favorite yandere trope or stereotype?

really dense/oblivious love interests.. i like when yan hides for beggining, sends anonymous signs, ther darling gets so paranoid and then - yan catches them like a wild animal ^__^

🌺- What are you and your darlings respective aesthetics?

I adore gothic, dark academia, dark aesthetic... and my bf is just geek >w<

💖- Would you donate your organs to your darling if needed?

YES. But im afraid im to small for him >___<

💘- Do you have a future plan for you and your darling?

Yes, I can wait for you to finally be in the same uni as me and live together my love :3

💌- What was your first introduction to the yandere community/how did you find out you were a yandere?

Since I can remember I was a fan of dark fiction, I remember I found a stalker au usuk.... YES I WAS A HETALIA FAN. and also THE pregame saiouma fanfics... i have cluster B disorder so intense feelings for my favorite person was always a thing, but before my little lamb it was only platonic.

💋 - What is your love language?

Acts of service? Im busy girl so I always get happy when someone does little things for me. Quality time, I want to spend every second building great memories. Also getting long messages about devotion to me.

⛓️- What would break you?

Getting cheated on.

🔪- How far would you go to express your love?

Im capable of hurting myself or deleting everyone from my life just for one person. ( ❛ᴗ❛ )

Ahhh it got longer than i thought, I hope you enjoyed reading all of this sweetheart!! I hope you will send me more anons or repost more insane things i wuv you (〃＾▽＾〃)

[oflgtfol]

hope you had an awesome time at the show! I’ve pissed off everyone who knows me irl bc I won’t shut up about it lmao but if you want to talk about it 👀 also congrats on escaping michael!

thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to scream into my pillow about this

IT WAS SO FUCKING AMAZINGGGGGG i'm so in awe. SO in awe i'm kinda upset i haven't seen them live before. towards the end dustin did the whole 'raise your hand if this is your first demonstration or if you've seen us before' thing, and straight up 60% of the audience were part of the latter group, and then also 'raise your hand if you've been with us since transmissions' and it was so painful to say i've been here since transmissions but this is my first demonstration AGH. TEN years!!! but in my defense i was a kid for most of those ten years and then covid happened so like. here i am finally. definitely planning on seeing them again whenever they next visit long island

literally my neck hurts so much today i was headbanging so hard i pulled muscles in my NECK over it and there was a mosh pit that lasted for the entire show even for the slower songs. it was lowkey fucking hilarious seeing the moshers go crazy over echo when the lyrics to echo are so flowery and the set visuals were focusing on the little guy from the music video

the music was so loud i could feel the vibrations not only in my own body but also in the clothes around my skin, i ltierally could not hear my own voice as i sang along (which is insane because my only two other concerts i've been to as an independent adult were twrp, and both times we were standing in the first/second rows and yet i still felt so obnoxiously loud when singing along because i'm all that you can hear in any videos. meanwhile even in my videos of starset, even with me recording right next to my face, you still can't hear my voice)

i will admit toksik was kinda meh to me when it first released, like it was a good meh but not in the "holy fuck im gonna listen to this on repeat" kind of song yknow. but then they played it as an encore at the show and they had GAS MASKS ON and i went to the concert with my boyfriend who only barely knows starset (and mostly as preparation because i was bringing him to this concert with me) but he loves toksik so he was having a fucking blast with that song unlike the others that i could tell he wasnt as familiar with and so it just really heightened the experience to hear him singing along with it and he was dancing with me and the music was even more of a banger live than the studio version so just AHHHH i love toksik now so much

AND THE LAST SONG BEFORE THE ENCORE WAS MY DEMONS and i swear yknow as much as we all joke around about my demons being the stereotypical edgy song etc it was a BANGERRRRRRRRR live and the way the entire audience went fucking NUTS (MYSELF INCLUDED!!!) was such a high

only thing i have to say is that i do wish they played more horizons songs, off the top of my head i think they only played devolution (FUCKING BANGER LIVE) and infected? so sad i love horizons so much. they seemed to focus mostly on vessels and divisions. and the way that they said this tour is wrapping up this arc of the storyline that has spanned across two albums - presumably divisions and horizons?? - it feels kinda weird that there was barely any horizons features if that's the case. anyway. i'm not upset about it because of course every single song was a banger just wah they have too large a discography now to have every single song play. too much of a good thing....

[businesscasualart]

honestly i'd be curious to hear 1, 11 and 46 if you like any holiday films, i'm always curious. i have like 3 christmas movies i've been apeshit over since childhood and apparently this isn't common

[AAA I NEVER ACTUALLY SENT THE RESPONSE MY BAD. Try not to monologue forever challenge, FAILED‼️IMPOSSIBLE‼️]

The questions are from here <3 thank you sm this was so fun!

1. Who is/are your comfort character(s)?

I actually don’t really classify my favorite characters. I just get really attached to a lil guy and add him to The Collection and don’t question it. I got a guy for nearly every mood. I collect them in a china cabinet in my mind palace or something. I don’t even know if I know exactly what a comfort character is supposed to be. But I think I can convert any of my blorbos into a source of comfort in case of an emergency. 

I DO recall the like…first and only character I openly called a comfort character with minimal second thought was Dr. Henry Jekyll from the classic gothic lit novel, The Strange Case Of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. 

Then my friends were like “elaborate on that” and I was like “no <3”. 

I still don’t know if I can actually elaborate on that. The curse of the Tortured-By-His-Own-Hubris-And-Sin Victorian Man™️ weighs heavily on me as well as he. That’s the best I got. C’est la vie. He’s just like me fr if you squint and tilt your head and actually go blind. 

Besides Jekyll, the beloved. Uhhhh. Who else could be a comfort character? OH haha, okay, so…

How do I condense this down without giving a whole drawn out story…I don’t have much in the way of physical insecurities. I’m usually pretty confident. But, and y’all may have noticed this by now, I’ve always fancied myself…a big, strong, masc woman. Y’know? I say butch-y a lot, idk if I can say “I’m butch” if I’m straight. 

However, despite all that, I am not…the optimal or ideal …or stereotypical? big, strong, masc woman. I am small. Small and scrawny. Greasy, wiry bastard. I’m athletic! I run for hours everyday! I work out! I tend to my family’s farm by hand! But uh…still, short, unnoticeable muscle. Nobody looks at something kinda heavy and thinks I can carry it. People laugh when I even suggest the concept of me fighting someone.

My height and difficult-to-notice muscle can upset me greatly. Like how can I be a big strong lady in this economy? Every character or person I look at that I want to be like…is about at least twice my size, or twice my mass. Like??? I’LL NEVER HAVE THE SAME VIBES, I’ll never achieve that! It’ll never be the same! 

I guess it’s a pretty common thing to feel but it’s not something I’ve really felt before or about anything else. 

Ik you’re into BG3. I haven’t played it, I don’t intend to. I think if I get it, it’s not a matter of if but when it’ll break my computer or my me. 

But…I know Some stuff…I know a little bit about Lae’zel. Like uh…frog lady, warrior or knight, rude, devoted? …uh…something about licking sweat?…xenophobia? idk that’s not my point-

My point is, like…she gets big buff lady privileges, she’s treated the same as I see most big strong ladies I wish I could look like get treated. I thought she was a particularly big strong lady for awhile! But I looked it up and like…She doesn’t have that much visible muscle at all! It’s like, mostly armor. And she’s the shortest of the party too???? But she’s regarded like she’s huge and intimidating and like…ahhhh WHATEVER WHATEVER!!! It’s kinda stupid, it feels like it’s weird to dwell on this sappy stuff towards a character idek and I got two other questions I’m late to answer. I said I wasn’t gonna give a whole lengthy story. Just like. Thinking about her existence as a character and her character’s reception just…makes me feel better about myself. So she’d probably be a big contender for the status of “Comfort Character”.

11. Favorite extracurricular activity?

OUGH extracurricular??? I am…or, ig, was homeschooled in a state with some great loose restrictions. So when it came to school, we liked to play some of it fast and loose. Our neighbor obtains a dead boar and gives it to us? We gotta turn it into dinner? Gather around children, it’s time for some… biology dissections. That type of deal.

I did have some actual “extracurricular activities”, or ig since I was homeschooled they’d be called “hobbies”. Um…I was on a chess club, I wasn’t good; I did ballet, not well; I did tap, briefly; I did piano, with the least amount of passion;……I was not a great student. But I like to talk about them!  I keep forgetting I did all of that. They were fun, my skill and gripes aside. 

I do still run for fun. I started when I was like twelve, and discovered nightcore, and got filled with energy, and realized I cannot dance. I can sprint tho! So I’ve been running, for hours everyday, to music, ever since. Even though I do art, I’d consider it very separate from my education. So “track” or “cross-country” probably has to be it. 

I did also begin learning to code recently with some…questionable free code camp website. That’s pretty fun!

46. Favorite holiday film?

OOO hm. Okay. I always have it in my head that I don’t like holiday films but that might not be entirely true. I just watch them outside of the holiday, have some unconventional choices, or just dislike the ones my family always chooses. 

Idk if the exact definition of a ‘holiday film’ is a film based around a holiday or one viewed every time a certain holiday rolls around, but my favorite that might qualify for both is Jaws. We watched it every 4th of July for good while and it was probably the first horror type movie I’ve seen, I felt like a rebel for it but it was always my parents’ idea. 😂 I’ve loved horror ever since so maybe that started me down this path!…unless it’s not actually horror.

I’d love to hear about those Christmas movies you love! I have not settled on a favorite Christmas movie! I suppose I’m difficult to please.

I keep mixing up Christmas With The Kranks and National Lampoon’s Christmas Vacation, but I think I really enjoyed one or both of those. I ALSO LOVE A CHRISTMAS CAROLS omg, every A Christmas Carol movie, my absolute beloved. The Muppets one will always be The A Christmas Carol to me tho.

There was also It’s A Wonderful Life, I have had the WEIRDEST experience with it. I get why people don’t like it, but I’ve always firmly believed that the best way to experience a movie…is talking over it with friends and family PUT THE PITCHFORKS ASIDE FOR A MINUTE. We aren’t having full conversations the whole time but, for me, the movie watching experience just isn’t right without hearing occasional comments and thoughts and opinions and memories and predictions from company throughout the experience. No matter what movie or show it is. I think it’s a big part of why I can’t watch anything alone without going at an ABYSMALLY sluggish pace. I was raised on Reaction Videos before Reaction Videos were a thing XD

I watched It’s A Wonderful Life for the first time at home with my family last year, and a rarity happened: we all HATED it. Maybe one of us will not enjoy a movie but this one we were all groaning and checking the minutes left. It just felt like Nothing was happening and it was dragging on and on. The second time I watched it was actually later in the month, in a movie theater, with some brief acquaintances from a Women’s Group of sorts, in an attempt to make friends and the like. My mother came with but she was sitting a row behind me, a few chairs away. And I was sitting next to The Hostess and an old lady attending who couldn’t hear very well. I absolutely could Not talk, I am fully aware of theater etiquette and how much other people dislike it. So I didn’t talked. And actually? I actually liked it the second time around????? I asked my mother after and she liked it better too??????? Idk what it was, maybe it was bc we were talking over it at first for the magic of the movie theater experience but I just really liked it better. And that’s probably the closest to Christmas magic I’ve seen….okay, okay, second closest but we don’t need to get into it right here.

also, idk WHAT is going on with The Polar Express…but I think I’m messing with it. I’d need to rewatch it but I think I was a fan of…whatever was happening there <3

And ofc you can’t forget Die Har—[the Time based SAW trap I was trapped in the whole time goes off and kills me immediately for Not. shutting up.]

[im-the-punk-who]

Hey, I was wondering if you have a book rec

!!

Okay so in full disclosure, I have a really hard time reading books. My brain sometime around six years ago just decided that wasn't its style anymore, so I don't read a TON. A lot of these aren’t going to be recent releases. However, here are a bunch of books I would absolutely recommend checking out! I tried to include a variety of genres but I have uh.....five bookshelves in my apartment so if you're looking for more of a certain genre let me know!

Theatre:

Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are Dead - Tom Stoppard

Waiting for Godot - Samuel Beckett

These are my two favorite plays - they're both absurdist, humorous, and have some fun things to say. They’re both by old white guys but like....I love both Tom Stoppard and Samuel Beckett DEEPLY and they have all of my love and respect.

Non-Fiction/Educational:

Why are all the Black Kids Sitting Together in the Cafeteria by Beverly Daniel Tatum - this is considered a 'classic' on the psychology of racism, and was particularly helpful for me as a white person in arming myself against 'reverse racism' thoughts and in dissembling my own prejudices. This is mostly a rec for other white folks, but Tatum also addresses 'having the courage to sit at the black table' as a way of claiming your own identity outside of the stereotypes the dominant society expects of you.

Daring Greatly by Brene Brown - Okay listen I just really REALLY love Brene Brown, she is a therapist most famous for her TED talk about Vulnerability and this is just...listen I really like to read this book when I am sad and feel like shit because it makes me feel strong. I reread this book at least once a year.

Imagined Communities by Benendict Anderson - This is an absolutely fascinating read on the rise of nationalism. It’s a bit dry and wordy, but the ideas and use of history as propaganda, spinning the story of a nation to pit it against or on the same side as other nations, and the ways in which these tactics shaped cultural history is just!!!! Amazing.

Gay New York by George Chauncey - This is just one of the most informative and interesting reads of queer history in New York that I’ve ever come across. It’s one of the ‘must reads’ of queer history and has so many interesting tidbits that I have to recommend it. It’s a bit old(published in 1994) but I still find it relevant and interesting to read.

Personal Fiction/Autobiographical Fiction

White Girls by Hilton Als - I went to a reading of this book when it first came out. It was so much fun and so eye-opening for me as a baby queer in NYC that I bought the book there. I wanna be really clear that Als does not pull punches and a lot of people don’t quite like it, but I love Als’ style of writing. The stories and essays in this book are amazing and funny and heartbreaking and informative of queer experience - particularly black queer experience - that I always feel like...honored? to experience through writing? This is one of those ‘you’re gonna suffer but you’re gonna be happy about it’ reads - it can be hard to face because of how very hard the pills are to swallow but like....gosh I just love this book and it’s interesting and hilarious and great.

Confessions of an Economic Hitman by John Perkins  - this is my tin hat favorite. It hits....ugh. This is one of those books that came out and like every government agency freaked the fuck out over it. It’s an interesting look into the quote-unquote dark underbelly of capitalism; how and why countries manipulate each other through economic policies. Super interesting read with a nice style of prose.

The Know-It-All: One Man's Humble Quest to become the Smartest Person in the World by A.J. Jacobs Okay so full disclosure I have not finished reading this, but I’m far enough through to rec it. This book chronicles the author’s attempt to read the entire Encyclopedia Brittanica from front to back, and it is just as kooky and hilarious as it sounds. I am very incredibly and deeply offended this author stole both my schtick and my initials, thereby preventing me from doing this exact thing. I read through the phone book in its entirety when I was three. I had it in me. Anyway, this is basically the author just listing weird interesting facts he’s read about and connecting them to his daily life, but it’s a fun read, and you learn a lot of totally useless facts, which is absolutely my jam.

When Skatboards Will Be Free by Saïd Sayrafiezadeh - HI I LOVE THIS BOOK. I’ve read it maybe three times over. It’s so fun and interesting. You may notice that a lot of the books I rec are very absurdist in their humor, and this is no exception. This book is full of the dry wit and just weird goddamn shit you could only expect from the child of a revolution that never came. You want to read a book about someone who Went Through Shit? Read this book. It’s funny and heartbreaking and just. AHHHH. Seriously I cannot recommend this enough.

Hyperbole and a Half by Allie Brosch - FIGHT ME ON THIS. I love this book.....so much. Yes it’s technically a comic book but the stories are so INTERESTING and hilarious and full of exactly the dry absurdist humor I eat the fuck up. Also! Allie Brosch recently released a sequel of sorts called Solutions and Other Problems that I recommend without even reading it.

Poetry

Pansy by Andrea Gibson - IF YOU ARE NOT READING THE POETRY OF ANDREA GIBSON WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING WITH YOUR LIFE. I cried seven times reading this book. There are only like 14 poems. Please please read this to break your own queer heart :)

Bloodsport by Yves Olade - This is a tiny book full of absolutely devastating poetry. Most of it has to do with the grief of relationships, but like....gosh I love all of Olade’s stuff. (Also!! This is available as a pay-what-you-wish pdf!!)

Bright Dead Things by Ada Limón - This book focuses a lot on the author’s experiences of loss, and knowing that loss is going to happen. I’m completely devastated every time I read this.

Science Fiction/Fantasy

The Bartimeaus Sequence by Jonathan Stroud - So what if I am a dumb millennial I love this series. It’s another dry and deadpan humor, with weird additions and Stroud’s use of footnotes to absolutely crack me the fuck up means I gotta rec this. I just gotta. Four(I think?) books following the deeply unlikeable Nathaniel and his Djinn Bartimaeus, who just wants to eat humans and have a deeply enjoyable enemies to lovers plotline with his arch rival.

The Magic's Price Trilogy by Mercedes Lackey - Okay I know I’ve recced this before. I will rec it again. This was the very first series I ever read that featured a gay protagonist and I was. Devastated? Reformed? I latched onto Vanyel Ashkevron and I am never letting this depressed emo boy go. Try me, I bite. Seriously, this book was released in the 80s and yet it is still relevant, I still cry - god i LOVE this series SO MUCH. And, MERCEDES LACKEY actually invented unbury your gays, sorry I make the rule on that one. :) Also there are magic talking horses??????? Seriously please read this series I love it so much.

Fire Bringer & The Sight by David Clement-Davies - This is another series that was absolutely formative in my baby lexicon. These are books about magical animals and their inner societal workings and both books address the ideas of good, evil, darkness, compassion and good will, and destiny. I am obsessed with these books, they are some of the most interesting of the genre I’ve read, and so incredibly intricately written. LOVE these books.

Vampire Earth Series by E. E. Knight - The Witcher before it was cool. Sort of but like...there are schools of Cat, Bear, etc and it has COOL VAMPIRES I LOVE THSI SERIES. Basically, earth has been taken over by a race of alien ‘Vampires’ and follows a human involved in the resistance. The writing in this series is...wow. It’s so intricate and interesting and involved. I own the whole series because I love it so much, including the after-series hardback novels. I’m so messy and I love it.

Kindred by Octavia Butler - You know how people are like ‘YOU SHOULD READ OCTAVIA BUTLER!!’ ? You should absolutely do that. This novel is mindblowing and interesting and the pace and narrative are so so so interesting. Heartbreaking, god, horrific. Butler is an amazing writer and this novel, while my personal favorite, is not by any means the only of her books I would recommend. STORIES. STORIES!!!!!!!

Fiction

The Ballad of Barnabas Pierkiel: A Novel by Magdalena Zyzak - This book is so fucking good. It’s imaginative, funny, intelligent....it’s honestly one of the best fiction novels I’ve ever read. Again, dry, absurdist humor, this book sort of reminds me of Terry Pratchett’s style of writing.

The Call of the Wild by Jack London - This is a classic, a true classic. The social commentary of this book is so so good, London’s style flows and, personally, as a dog and animal expert, the anthropomorphisation of Buck and his fellow animals is just so well done. I love this book, it’s quite an easy read, and I reread it at least once a year.

Rolling the R's by R. Zamora Linmark - Okay. Okay okay!!!!!! I gotta take a deep breath about this one. This book is. Yuh. This is a bit younger leaning than the other fictions, focusing almost entirely on high school level characters, however the experiences and commentary is just so so good. Focusing on a diverse group of characters growing up in Hawaii in the 1970′s, this book addresses the intersectionalities of gender, sexuality, race, immigration, education, and how we define who we are. I’m obsessed.

A Separate Peace by John Knowles - A heartbreaking novel about war, innocence, adolescence, and how we hide from our truths. It’s...so good, this book hurts me a LOT okay. The prose is phenomenal, the story is poignant, and it feels like I’m ripping my own heart out with a fishhook every time I finish it.

The Toss of a Lemon by Padma Viswanathan - This is one of those books I half recommend because it’s so good, and half because of the deep wealth of knowledge it presents the reader. The author’s use of her own culture is just....goddddddddd. Intricate and interesting and so delicately included in the narrative that you can feel the love the author has for it. It’s a long read and it took me almost a month to get through reading every day, but god. It’s so soft and amazingly written I both wanted to read it all at once and take my time with it. This is another one that deals with the duality of humanity and how we connect with one another. Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!

P.S. Your Cat Is Dead by James Kirkwood Jr. - I love this book I love this book I LOVE THIS BOOK. It’s fucking hilarious, entertaining, I literally laughed out loud at every single chapter. Hilarious and poignant and surprisingly deep, this book literally follows the journey of a man in which literally everything that could go wrong does. It’s fucking hilarious.

I hope that helped and gave you some new books!!! <3

[loser-writings]

Can I please request HCs for Aizawa with a younger male hero? Canonically Aizawa’s 30 so maybe a guy that’s like 21-ish & he gets lowkey worried about the age difference since his bf is closer in age to his students & maybe he occasionally wonders if he’d be better off w someone his own age like Hawks or something? Can bf also be pretty mature/mellow but have a snarky/sarcastic sense of humour but generally more energy? Thank you! & thank you for answering my past asks, love your writing! - 🦇

Ahhhh Bat Anon! I absolutely adore every message you send! This prompt is lovely, and I’m so excited to ramble about it. And No problem! Thank you for giving me inspiration! I hope this turned out like what you wanted, I sort of ended up with more general headcanons for dating Aizawa too.

Aizawa is canonly 30-31, so I’ll have his S/o be 20-21. 10 year younger than he is.

You met Aizawa when you entered your 3rd year, so close to graduating, and Aizawas’ first year teaching. Due to him teaching the 1st years, he didn’t really talk to you much. The only time he did was when you would go out of your way to talk or leave gifts. He was oblivious to your flirting, and wasn't trying to notice them either. 

It wasn’t until 2 years after you had graduated when he found you again. After catching up at a local bar, you exchange numbers. He found himself gravitating towards you due to your maturity and kindness that he had noticed since the beginning. Also, your snarky comments back did make him smile a bit, chuckling at some jokes here and there. Neither of you had started dating until a couple weeks before school had started.

You remember coming over after the first day of the school year. Aizawa instantly told you about All Might joining the staff as well as his new students. You were shocked when he told you that none of the students were expelled, and some of the students did catch his eye. Hearing the students quirks really was interesting, and you could imagine how interesting the school year was going to be.

Your relationship never really was super serious until the attack at USJ. After Mic had called you, (He was aware of your relationship) you found yourself being the one who took care of Aizawa. He would complain and whine about you not letting him do anything, but he honestly enjoyed the attention. This is when he said that he loves you the first time, thinking that you’re asleep. Instead he just hears you giggle and feels you kiss his head, hearing you say that you loved him back. He thought he was going to die, so he just pretended to sleep after that.

Early on in your relationship, Aizawa found himself struggling with the fact that you were so much younger than him. He viewed himself as a washed up hero, and couldn’t understand why you wanted to be with him. He eventually broke and asked you about this after a couple of drinks at his house. You reassured him that his age didn’t matter, playing with his hair and giving him little kisses every time he tried to talk badly about himself. 

He watches as younger heroes flirt with you, or how you and Hizashi mess around with each other. He hardly ever gets jealous because of how often you tell him you love him, but there is always an exception. Whenever you’re around Hawks, he feels his skin crawl. How the number 2 hero stares at you hungrily, making comments and flirting like crazy. It made him want to pull you away and attack the bird, but he found himself smirking the second Hawks placed an arm around you. You smacked his hand away, smiled, and promptly told him you were taken and had no intention of dating someone who would toss you away the second he got bored. He felt prideful knowing that you would pick him over Hawks.

The only downside to dating Aizawa while being a bit younger is that he can go into “Teacher” mode. He will lecture you after you come back from a mission hurt, or when you are feeling down. Sometimes he talks to you as if you are a child, but all you have to do is remind him that “Hey, I’m not your student anymore.” He is quick to apologize to you.

He will often refer to you as “Kid” when in public or when talking about something more serious, but when he is in private his favorite nicknames for you are “Kitten” and “Kitty” Hope you don’t mind that.

He looks MUCH younger when he shaves his stubble, so your age gap isn’t as noticeable at a glance. When he had to hold the press conference, you had to admit that he looked sexy. You did end up missing his stubble though.

One of Aizawas’ favorite moments is when you came to talk to the class about being a new pro hero and what to expect. You talked to the kids maturely, but did throw in some snarky comments and jokes here and there that even had him chuckling. His eyes were on you the whole time (And the girls constantly go “I want someone to look at me like that” now) and it surprised everybody when he stayed awake the whole class period. After the class, You had sat and talked to Izuku for an extra half hour before Aizawa had to drag you away from the green haired boy. 

Because you have more energy than he does, you are often the one who gets him to go out and do things with you. This ends up with Aizawa being a bit happier, looking a bit healthier, and being a bit nicer in general. He actually will go to the game nights Hizashi holds with the other teaching staff because of you, and everyone is quite surprised with how much you help Aizawa out of his shell. Also Cards Against Humanity with the UA staff is amazing, and don’t get me started on UA DnD night with Dungeon Master Hizashi and Aizawa being that horrible edgy rogue stereotype. 

When Aizawa practically adopts a child, you do too. You won’t lie though, when you were with Eri, You couldn’t help but laugh when somebody told Aizawa that his children (Thinking you were his kid) were lovely. You still laugh about that. 

Both Eri and Shinsou end up liking you too. Eri calls you “Papa” and him “Dad” after a while, and Shinsou will end up coming to you for advice when he wants help from someone closer to his age. He looks up to you more as an older sibling than anything else

[decaffeinatedenthusiastmusic]

I sometimes have odd dreams

So this wasn't a request or anything! Just a little blurb I thought people might be interested in. I don't sleep well. Never have. I usually have to take melatonin or exert myself beyond an inch of my life to sleep well. The only problem with melatonin is that it sometimes gives me weird dreams, which is where this is going. Sometimes they turn out to be horrific nightmares, or just completely weird. They're very rarely pleasant or calm but every once in a while I get a decent one.

So I sleep with longer pillows because they're super soft and I love them. They could potentially pass for a body-pillow length, I think. Anyways, I usually end up hugging one because I'm lonely haha. I fell asleep pretty quickly and basically woke up in my dream. I was in a small apartment and it looked like I lived with someone else. Come to find out, I had a roommate and we were on college-paid trips. We're talking around the world trips, which is something I've always wanted to do. My roommate was basically the opposite of me. She was tall and slim with dirty blonde hair, a bit more to the blonde side. She always wore it up as well. We were staying in an apartment in Tokyo for a festival that was happening. When we got dressed she helped me do my hair and omg when I tell y'all that this girl gave me butterflies when her hands touched me- (FYI, this girl was the stereotype of a straight white girl- raised by a very Christian family and always very cheerleader/preppy type girl) We made it to the festival and we were playing games, looking at different vendors and food stalls, and just having fun in general. I think I walked up to one of the food stalls and asked if she wanted to try some local food. She agreed and I bought one for her and one for me. We ate together and watched the fireworks and I felt butterflies again ahhhh- Then it kinda time skipped I guess? Sorta like a tv show or a movie. This time, we were staying in Paris for some sort of social project and we were walking through the Louvre. It was super nice but all I could focus on was her excitedly talking about the different paintings and statues. Obviously after walking around all day and doing research for the project, we were tired. I threw my bag on the chair in the apartment/hotel we were in and went over to flop onto the bed. Pretty soon I felt her sit next to me and I couldn't tell if she was asleep or not. I couldn't fall asleep because she kept reaching out at me while she was asleep. When I tell you this girl gave me a heart attack- she wrapped her arms around my back and rested her face in my chest. I do happen to have an average chest (don't make it weird please! I'm not okay with comments about that!) so obviously, I got flustered and didn't want to move and wake her up. I just figured that she needed something to rest her head on and keep warm with. I eventually fell asleep after a while and somehow felt her get up. I woke up about 20 mins later (in the dream lol) and she was doing her makeup in the bathroom. I got up to make myself some coffee and asked why she was doing her makeup. She reminded me that there was a party that night and I started freaking out because I hate being late for anything. Fast-forward to the party and we're going as "friends" because now I'm confused. The room has a little projector that shows all of our pictures from the trip in a little slideshow and all of our research and stuff. I get really nervous because she sits down next to me and grabs my hand. We laugh and talk with our friends a little and it's fine until we leave and it's awkward again. We're walking back to the hotel/apartment and still holding hands when I turn to her and tell her how I feel. GIRL- she freakin grins at me and kisses my cheek before continuing walking home with me. I'm somehow more confused than before bc what? how? explain, please? Obviously take my makeup off and change into comfy clothes before chilling and watching Netflix before I fall asleep. I think I dozed off before I felt her face nuzzled into my shoulder and her arms wrapped around me. And then I woke up So yeah- This dream girl has made a hole in my brain and will not get out of it.

[amaranthbirate]

2, 5, 9?

Ahhhh thank u for the ask!!

2. When you were creating this character, what was their original draft? Are they the same character you intended to make? 

Heehee, well it is known notoriously amongst my party that my idea at the beginning for Amaranth was leaning more towards the more brooding, unfriendly loner rogue stereotype. As the game went on for a while, it become more obvious that she wasn’t that (although the character development did line up pretty well with what was going on for her before the game started). She developed into a character who fiercely loyal and protective of friends, is pretty extroverted and hedonist and likes to joke around. I will admit a lot of the comic relief part is me just liking to make my friends laugh during the D&D session, but also Amaranth is just like that. Some of the characteristics I had in mind at the beginning are still there such as that she has a lot of anger issues and is an alcoholic.

5. What was the first time you really connected to this character, if ever? Why do you think this moment made the character special to you? 

Hmmm.... I think it might be during the first arc when Amaranth goes to help Ditto out of her Fear Pit, and afterwards when they have their downtime in the feywild. It helped sort of establish her having a concrete relationship within the party, and helped me round out the initial character concept to a salty ex-pirate who really has a heart of gold, and is very Ride or Die with these people.

9. What are your character’s relationships like with every member of their party? Bonus, if you want to write a short blurb on your character’s opinion of them.

Ohhhh man, there is a lot i can say about character relationships, and they are all interesting! I will try and keep it brief lol

Ditto- I feel Ditto is the first connection that Amaranth made, and it might be to the fact that both of their personalities mesh pretty well. They are both Chaotics, so if left alone, things may explode (they even did an impromptu heist together). Even beyond that, they have both lived off the streets in various cities, and have had to steal and do crime to get by in their own way, which is a reason that Ditto was the first person that Amaranth had opened up to in a while. Amaranth a lot of times will grab Ditto if there are shenanigans to be had. The two of them joke around a lot, but also 100% have each others backs.

Kriv- Amaranth and Kriv have a Rogue and Paladin dynamic, but not in the standard way which makes it a lot of fun. They will also sometimes get into shenanigans, Kriv has helped Amaranth steal booze from a kitchen once, and also they got into a wrestling match in a tavern. I would say Amaranth and Kriv tend to enjoy partying it up. There are a lot of Sibling energies in their relationship. Amaranth’s protectiveness for Kriv is that of a sibling variety, and she has no qualms about teasing him. Beyond that, Amaranth and Kriv are the two Melee fighters in a party, there is a weird comradery that comes with that (speaking from my own perspective). They do have times where things might clash between them, sometimes stemming from Amaranth’s recklessness.

Erwyn- What I love about the development of these two’s relationship is there are some great parallels. Erwyn reminds Amaranth in some ways of her own brother. She feels a certain big sisterly protection about him because of that. Amaranth doesn’t know it, but Erwyn had a sister as well, so I can’t exactly say his feels on the matter, but there are apparently similarities. Amaranth is confidant of Erwyn’s abilities, even though he is more withdrawn about them, and is definitely *points* “look what my elf can do!!” While protective of everyone in the party, she tends to be more hyper vigilant about Erwyn, partly because the last few times he died she wasn’t even there to like. attempt to stop it from happening. She tends to be more gentle around Erwyn for certain things, but will still drag him to a loud tavern to party with everyone (but will still buy him hot chocolate when they are there).

Voski- While Voski is still an enigma to all, she and Amaranth have their moments. Amaranth definitely trusts Voski to have her back, and will usually default to her in most social situations since Amaranth doesn’t really have that delicate sensibility. Besides that, Amaranth bonds with Voski in her own way, a lot of times enjoying the music that Voski plays. She also trusts Voski’s discretion about certain things, Voski being the first one to know about her being a pirate, and other information, and has gone to Voski when she didn’t feel safe sleeping alone in her room, wanting the tiny hut for protection. I think Amaranth is less inclined than than others to bristle at the dragonborn’s bristliness.

[kingofthewilderwest]

7. opinion on… banjo and bluegrass

unusual asks

Ahhhh! You excite me with this prompt! <3 <3 <3

I am resisting the urge to write a book on my opinion of banjo and bluegrass haha because I love this stuff so much. Here I will highlight something I find MAJORLY cool in the history of music: 

Bluegrass banjo revolutionized banjo playing. Completely.

And in a shockingly *SHORT* time span, too!

In the 1940s and prior, the main banjo playing styles were clawhammer and two-finger. Clawhammer is a strumming style where you alternate between the thumb plucking a string and the rest of your hand raking downward in a strum. Two-finger styles involve plucking the strings alternating between your thumb and one finger. There’s a reason old American folk songs like “I’ve Been Working on the Railroad” sing that you’re STRUMMING on the old banjo.

Now, of course there were other styles. I’m definitely simplifying my discussion here. There’s the jazz plectrum banjo stuff. The classic banjo stuff. And in places like pockets of North Carolina, people were doing three-fingered styles, Snuffy Jenkins and Don Reno being examples of this. But banjo was overwhelmingly used as a backup strumming instrument and a comedy prop in country (then called “hillbilly”) music, and in the first half of the 1900s, there didn’t seem to be much reason that that would change. 

The banjo was losing momentum, if anything: it was no longer being used as much in jazz music, it was being foregone by Black players due to horrible racial stereotyping and blackface minstrelsy that arose in the 1830s, and it was starting to become associated with the negative “backwards hillbilly” white stereotype.

Then. Bill Monroe (the Father of Bluegrass, whose band was called the Blue Grass Boys) hired a talented North Carolina three-fingered picker, Earl Scruggs, in December 1945. Earl had developed his own, fairly novel style of three-fingered picking. And when audience members and radio listeners on WSM’s Grand Ole Opry heard that banjo, they were blown away. Instead of assuming the role of background comedy prop, Earl was taking fast-paced, technical leads as a serious solo instrument. Most audience members hadn’t heard anything like it.

This is one of the moments that helped define the style of music that Bill Monroe was creating, allowing it to grow into its own genre we call bluegrass.

Needless to say, Earl’s high profile banjo playing hugely changed impressions of what a banjo could do, what a banjo sounded like, and what a banjo’s role was. As bluegrass developed into its own subgenre in the next few decades (the “traditional” bluegrass sound stabilized in the 50s; people started consistently calling it “bluegrass” in the 1960s), a ton of musicians imitated what they heard. I won’t rattle on by listing out names of other great banjo players who helped bring this sound to their bands. XD But of course all these dudes need to be given their credit too!!!

Bluegrass banjo leaked into pop culture. Flatt & Scruggs did the music to the Beverly Hillbillies Theme Song in 1962; the 1967 Bonnie and Clyde movie inserted a fast-paced banjo instrumental from Flatt & Scruggs into the soundtrack (and today that instrumental, Foggy Mountain Breakdown, is probably THE most prototypical banjo tune out there).

And so in a very short time, what we laypeople expected to hear out of a banjo was transformed. Today, Scruggs-style banjo is *THE* stereotypical banjo sound, *THE* single most common style of banjo performed. It’s the sound most people think about when they think “banjo.” 

When I show my friends banjo music, I usually have to introduce them to clawhammer, because all they’ve seen around them is Scruggs-style (or something heavily influenced from Scruggs-style).

And a whole revolution of performance techniques stemmed out of Scruggs-style, too. Other banjo performers have built upon, expanded upon, and revolutionized upon technique that started with that bluegrass banjo sound. Of course I can fanboy about all sorts of banjo players (Bill Keith, J. D. Crowe, Béla Fleck...), but there’s a reason why I’ve heard it said that Earl Scruggs is the single most imitated musician on his instrument in known Western music history.

Bluegrass completely changed how we hear and perceive the “typical” banjo, and that’s wild.

I fucking *LOVE* it.

The one thing I’m sad about with bluegrass and banjo is that, while bluegrass brought new life into the banjo, it’s simultaneously squeezed the banjo into a niche. Of course banjo can and has been used in any genre. It’s made its way into Irish music. I’ve heard it in classical orchestra concertos and punk rock bands. Earl Scruggs himself left bluegrass and played in a folk rock band for a decade to try to diversify the banjo’s role. But the banjo has been typecast as a country music instrument played in a very specific style that arose out of bluegrass.

The banjo deserves more recognition than as a niche instrument in a niche genre. It’s a beautiful, fun, and exciting instrument. It’s an instrument that arose out of distinctly West African roots and traditions and has had a rich history with Black people for centuries in the Americas, too. It’s one of the few instruments primarily developed in the United States, and one with a complex cultural background that interweaves its past with every element of American history, with all its ups and downs, the best and the worst.

It’s an instrument worth talking about, not dismissing.

[youarejesting]

BTS365 Prompts.Week 45

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Kim Seokjin - Task

Since Kim Seokjin’s name was called from the goblet of fire, he had been a bundle of nerves. He somehow made it through the first and second tasks, how? was beyond you, but he was actually not coming last. He was sitting comfortably in second place. With that being said this task was scary than all the rest, he didn’t know if he would make it out alive. 

Why was asking someone out to the yule ball worse than any other task he had faced so far. Maybe it was because it was you.

Min Yoongi - Devil

“You look like an angel, walk like an angel” you sang walking around the almost empty diner, spinning around to the music playing from the quiet jukebox. “Talk like an angel”

Spotting the customer on his laptop a lot of equipment on the table working with earphones on, his cap low, and mask pulled under his chin to slowly eat some breakfast. He had friends previously sitting at his table but they were asleep in the truck stop overnight and stayed on a big bus. His cup was empty so you grabbed the coffee jug and fluttered over raising the jug in question. He nodded smiling politely to thank you. 

“But I got wise, You’re the devil in disguise,” you sang pouring the coffee looking up connecting eyes before you blushed looking down again, “Sorry.”

“No, it was really nice” he hummed.

Jung Hoseok - Eggs

BTS in the soop was a hit, as were all the bon voyages. But this time it was farm bang, where the boys would have to go to the countryside and learn how to take care of the animals and crops. They woke up early each getting dressed in cute overalls and jeans some with cute straw hats or light flannels. They were each given tasks, Hoseok was to collect the eggs from the chickens. 

He excitedly ran to the coop and began talking cutely to the chickens “Owaaaaah Chicken Chicken, ahahaha annyeong chicken eeee ah Namjoon-ah look at the chickens!”

“Hoseok-ah they have little piglets over here, ahhhh so cute wow!” The leader of the group called back across the farm.

Hoseok was quick to step into the pen and immediately he froze up, he was afraid of the little chickens that would peck him. “Excuse me miss chicken I have to collect the eggs,” the whole process was scary but soon he had the eggs in his hands and he stepped out.

Running across the yard he shouted, “Yoongi, look, look I got the—” The hyperactive rapper tripped, falling and crushing the eggs in his hands. The whole group started laughing and he whined upset. “No, I broke the eggs!”

“Gwaenchanh-ah?” Jimin said lifting up the older male, “Hobi-Hyung comes first,” 

Kim Namjoon - Common

“Namjoon! Are you okay?” A phrase he had heard multiple times this week when he fainted, vomited, when his nose started bleeding, and when he had refused to eat his favorite foods. This time it was because he couldn’t stop coughing something must have been going on. Something major and scary.

He was referred to your clinic as someone whose job is to investigate and pinpoint illnesses you looked over his blood tests and sighed. “Ah, mister Kim, it seems you have a common cold, my recommendation would be rest and perhaps some chicken noodle soup with a soda on the side” Your grin was cheeky letting the idol know you were a bit of a fan.

Park Jimin - Men

Jimin was searching youtube for the latest trends, music, and funny videos. Just anything to pass the time, he saw something that caught his eye. It was a thumbnail of himself and something he wasn’t too sure what it meant. “The Jimin effect” He read the English title slowly.

Clicking on it he watched a 13-minute compilation of men and women falling in love with him making the idol, giggle his cheeks a brilliant pink. It was funny watching things from a different perspective. He never saw these looks people were giving him because he would be turning away or facing a camera.

Kim Taehyung - saxophone

Taehyung was meeting your parents, it was a really serious thing. Your parents were kind of strict and they didn’t know anything about, Taehyung, South Korea, or Asians in general besides stereotypes. Your parents were kind-hearted people they were just ignorant. 

So when you introduced Taehyung to your father the two shook hands, Taehyung making a polite bow and your father stood there pretty awkward. His only idea was to strike up a conversation. “What do you do for work?”

“I’m a sexy porn star” He grinned

“You’re what?”

“No dad, he pronounces it a little odd he said Saxophonist, see, I have pictures of him playing the saxophone”

Jeon Jungkook - diary

Jungkook was staying with your brother Namjoon, he did that every now and again during the holidays. You had only been crushing on the boy since you saw him your first year at Hogwarts, he was in Namjoon’s year but you were the grade lower. 

He had helped you with your flying lessons even though you were a natural, unlike your brother, but you let him anyway. There was a whole collection of entries in your enchanted diary about him, it was enchanted to never run out of pages.

The diary would only open for those with innocent intentions. You didn’t know where you had put the diary, last you remember writing something whilst in the kitchen that night but when you got there it was no longer around. Thinking your brother perhaps took it and was trying to break it open you raced upstairs. He almost managed to break the spell, the evil genius and you wouldn’t tempt fate this time.

When you stepped into the room you shouted “Namjoon put down my diary!”

“Namjoon isn’t here and sorry, I didn’t know it was a diary and I see you all the time with it I thought it was a good book and when I opened it I saw my name and I read a bit and I am sorry, I was just curious”

You snatched the diary and he frowned, “I think you are really cool y/n, it’s just that”

“I get it I am not your type,” You laughed not turning towards him.

“No, you are definitely my type, it’s just, Namjoon is my best friend and I can’t with you because he will actually destroy me with some elaborate spell that will remove my knee caps and I like my knee caps” the boy was rambling “Albeit, I like you more and would gladly give up my knee caps, ahhh, this was a bad example. Namjoon would kill me if I tried anything”

[criminalhotch]

Both Teams~An Ethan Dolan Imagine

Hey, can you do an Ethan smut where he is best friend with a lesbian? She is in a relationship with a bisexual girl that has a crush on him sooo she ends up asking her best friend to have a threesome with her and her girlfriend. Base idea is Ethan having a threesome with 2 girls 😂

A/N: So that was the request but I ended up mixing them up and Ethan is friends with a girl who is bisexual and I think the way I wrote it may be less stereotypical especially after I had someone say something about it. On the other hand, a lot of you voted for this so I hope you like it. Again I do not mean to offend anyone. This is fictional therefore it is fake and only written for entertainment purposes. 

A/N: Also shout out to @rockstardolan  for making sure this didn’t suck but this is nowhere on Peaches level so sorry to disappoint.

Warnings: Smut, MFF Threesome, swearing, coming out 

Word Count: 3,258

Ethan Dolan has been my best friend for almost three years now. He and Grayson were both very sweet and accepting people. I hid something from both of them for a long time. Something very important yet personal about me. It was only a year ago when they became friends with James and that is when I realized they would still love me for me. A little over a year ago I told them that I was bisexual. I mostly dated guys but girls tended to catch my eye more than I originally thought. Being bisexual was hard. You were always told that you were wrong or a whore that couldn’t pick which team to play for.

It was right before they went home for Thanksgiving in 2017. I decided to tell Grayson first because we weren’t as close as Ethan and I were. Ethan was caught up playing some boring video game so I pulled Grayson to the side. “Hey, G?” I asked. “Yeah?” he replied. “Can we sit down and talk about something?” I asked sincerely. “Of course but can I ask why you aren’t going to E?” he asked. “It’s complicated” I answered simply. “You like him don’t you?” he asked. “No, you ass clown. It’s something I need to tell you both individually” I explained and he nodded then sat down. “So you and E know that I have had some boyfriends over the last couple years” I started. “Most of them being deadbeats but yeah, go on,” Grayson said. “What you don’t know is that I have talked or dated girls in the past but I never told you guys. I was scared of what you would think or say” I explained. “So you’re bi?” Grayson asked. “Yes,” I answered. “I don’t care who or what they are, just know E and I will kick their ass if they hurt you, you know that right?” Gray asked. I laughed and then I nodded. He wrapped me in a warm Grayson bear hug. Soon enough I pulled away and he looked down to me. “Why did you think we wouldn’t accept you? You’re our best friend and we are also friends with James” he said. “I know, I’m scared when I tell anyone no matter who it is but I should’ve told you guys sooner. I should’ve known that you would love me either way” I admitted. “You should’ve but I’m glad you’re telling us now. Like I said E and I are always going to protect you no matter who you introduce us to so keep that in mind, Y/N” Gray explained. “I know, Gray, I know” I laughed as I hugged him. “You should go tell Ethan now” he urged. “I will, I’m more worried about this one” I admitted. “He’s still going to be your best friend,” Gray said. “Yeah, but he’s going to have a lot more questions,” I said. “You’re right,” Grayson said as I started heading to Ethan’s room. Well here goes nothing.

“Hey, E? You busy?” I asked. “Not really, what’s up?” he replied. “So I just told Grayson this and don’t be mad I told him first. I saved you for last because I know it’s going to be a deeper conversation” I explained. “Ok?” he said as more of a question. “You know that I am attracted to men but what you don’t know is-” I said as he interrupted me. “You like girls too?” “How did you know?” I asked. “I’m your best friend, I watch your every move. I see when you check a guy out and I especially see when you check a girl out. You always comment on how pretty girls are on Instagram but you very rarely say a whole lot about guys. I knew you weren’t straight but I wanted you to be comfortable with telling me” he explained. I engulfed him in a hug and began crying almost immediately. “I love you, E” I sniffled. “I love you too, Y/N” E said. “How long have you known?” I asked. “I could ask you the same thing” he sassed back. “I’ve known since way before we were friends but I didn’t want anything to change between us” I explained. “No matter when you told us nothing would’ve changed but I started figuring it about a year ago” Ethan answered. “You never said anything to Grayson?” I asked. “No, it wasn’t my business to tell and on the off chance I was wrong I didn’t want it to turn into chaos,” he said. “You really know me better than I know myself, Grant,” I said using his middle name as a nickname. “Damn straight,” he said. “Maybe it’s time I change it to damn, bisexual?” he joked. “I fucking hate you” I groaned while rolling my eyes. “No, you don’t. Now can I kick your ass at Mario Kart?” he asked. “Oh, it’s on Dolan. Where’s your brother? I need to kick both of your asses” I said as I yelled for Grayson and we all began playing Mario Kart.

Ever since that day I knew I could trust both of them with anything I sent their way especially Ethan. There would be days we would just hang out and talk about what girls we thought were pretty or if these guys were worth my time or just fuck boys. Being in LA for so long Ethan had learned a lot. One day I found a girl on Tinder, her name was Hannah. I swiped right and then we matched instantly. I became so excited and Ethan was excited for me as well. We talked for a month before we went on a date. We went on quite a few dates before she asked me to be her girlfriend but today the twins are meeting my girlfriend and I am a little nervous.

“So when is Hannah going to be here?” Ethan asked. “In an hour, E,” I answered. “So is she bi too?” Gray asked. “No, she only likes girls” I replied. “Well try not to make out with her in front of Gray he may get a boner” Ethan joked. “Fuck off, E,” Grayson said as he cheeks grew red. “Gray maybe you should stick to searching boobies on the internet” I joked as he groaned. “I’m never going to live that down am I?” he sighed as he pulled his hand through his hair and I shook my head no.

An hour later Hannah showed up. “Let me answer the door before you two scare her off” I suggested. I opened the door to see Hannah standing there. “Hey” I smiled. We hugged then I turned to the twins. “So you may mix them up for a bit but the one with the dangly earring and bigger muscles is Grayson and the one with the darker hair and dopey look on his face is Ethan,” I said pointing to each of the twins. “My face is not dopey” Ethan pouted. “I said dopey-looking” I corrected and Hannah laughed. “I’m glad she laughs at your jokes” Ethan sulked. “Well, it was funny” Hannah shrugged. “So I am going to just get right to it and say that even though you’re the first girlfriend Y/N has ever introduced us to we will still kick your ass if you hurt her,” Ethan said. “ETHAN GRANT!” I scolded. “No, it’s fine. I don’t plan on hurting you so we have nothing to worry about” Hannah said as she kissed me once. “So you’re probably pretty good at giving head huh?” Gray asked. “GRAY!” I shouted. “I don’t know, ask Y/N” Hannah smirked as Grayson screamed. “AHHHH FORGET I ASKED” Gray yelled as he ran into the other room. “I’m so sorry they are being weird” I apologized. “Oh no, it’s fine. It’s all very amusing” Hannah admitted.

This was all about 8 months ago. Hannah and I are still together. We hang out with the twins often and we all get along pretty well. Hannah and I’s sex life was pretty good but the other day I wondered if there was a possibility of us having a threesome. “Babe?” I asked as she walked into her kitchen while I made some breakfast. “Yes?” she replied. “What would you think of a threesome? It’s always kind of been on my bucket list” I asked. “I’ve never really thought of it, I guess it depends,” she said. “Depends on what?” I asked. “Well male or female?” she pondered. “Which would you be more comfortable with?” I questioned. “Honestly I think it would be hot to see how a guy can pleasure you differently than I can” she answered. “So a male?” “I mean which did you want?” she asked. “I just wanted to know if you’d be interested and it sure seems like you are” I admitted. “It seems like fun. Do you have anyone in mind?” she asked. “Not really” I replied. “What about Grayson?” she asked. “Oh god, no. I couldn’t. He’s too sweet, we’d ruin his innocence” I responded. “Ok, then Ethan?” she suggested. “I don’t know. I’ve never thought of E that way” I answered honestly. “Even better” she shrugged. “I’ll ask him tonight when we all hang out if you want me to,” I said. “If that’s what you want to do,” Hannah said.

That night we were at the twins’ house. Grayson had left with Bryant to go get us food and Hannah had fallen asleep on the couch. “E can I ask you something in the kitchen?” “Um sure,” he said hesitantly. “So Hannah and I were talking about our-um sex life. Which it’s good and all, no worries there but I asked if she’d be interested in a threesome and she thought it would be interesting seeing how a guy can pleasure me differently than she can” I rambled. “What’s your point Y/N?” he asked. “Well she suggested Grayson and I shot that down. Then she suggested you because we both know and trust you so IwaswonderingifyouwantedtohaveathreesomewithmygirlfriendandI” I said in one breath.  I looked at Ethan as he wore a huge smirk on his face. “I cannot believe you are asking me for a threesome” he taunted. “Yes or no, Ethan?” I asked, my voice filled with annoyance. “Oh, fuck yeah. I’m totally up for that. I’ve always been curious about what makes you squirm” Ethan growled. “Don’t start, Grant” I warned as he laughed it off.

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Hannah and I were hanging out at my house when she started toying with my shorts. “Don’t, E’s on his way” I warned. “Who cares, we can have that threesome? Isn’t that what you want?” she purred. Oh, I can not handle all of this. Before I knew it she was on top of me, kissing me roughly. Her hips grinding into mine. I was so focused on her actions I didn’t notice Ethan’s arrival. He stood there in shock, his dick already hard from watching us make out. “Two girls making out too much for your little dick to handle?” I teased. “You won’t think it’s so little when I’m blowing your back out in a little bit” he winked. “Ethan why don’t you just sit and watch for a minute seems how you seem to be doing pretty good at that already” Hannah instructed as Ethan nodded. He sat in the chair across from my bed. I ripped my shirt off and threw it across the room. Then Hannah slipped my shorts down my thighs. She trailed kisses up my legs, dragging her lips slowly, inch by inch, teasing me. She placed a single kiss to my clothed clit before running my panties down my legs then flinging them at Ethan. She immediately attached her lips to my clit making me moan loudly at the sudden contact. She continued to suck and nibble on my clit. She then entered one of her petite fingers inside of me. “Fuck” I hissed. I began grinding my hips on to her nimble fingers yearning for more pleasure. “Stop or I’ll stop what I am doing then I’ll make Ethan go home” she growled. I whined as she continued moving her finger in out of me as she relocated her tongue to my pussy lapping up the juices already spilling out of me. I looked at Ethan and he looked painfully hard. Like he could bust just watching us, which he probably could.

Soon enough Hannah stopped everything and I whined at the loss of contact. “I think it’s Ethan’s turn to pleasure you while I ride your pretty little face” Hannah suggested looking towards Ethan as his eyes lit up. He sauntered over to me. “You sure about this?” he asked. “Hurry before I change my mind” I joked. Hannah slowly lowered herself onto my face so I began kitten licking at her clit as I anticipated Ethan’s touch. Before I knew it he had two fingers pounding in and out of me making my body jerk. “So responsive with just a couple of fingers, just imagine what it’s like when it’s my dick pounding into you mercilessly” he teased and I groaned into Hannah’s folds making her moan on top of me. “You guys have no idea how hot this is” Ethan groaned right before he licked up my folds making me moan once more. “Fuck, E” I moaned. Hannah climbed off of me as she strode across the room. She sat in the chair putting her legs on either side of the armrests. She began rubbing her clit. She was teasing me because she knew there was nothing I could about it. “You think you can handle a third finger?” E teased. “Oh I know she can” Hannah spoke up while smirking. Ethan entered a third finger inside of me. “How much longer is this going to last?” Ethan asked. “I want to see Ethan make Y/N cum with just your mouth and fingers” Hannah admitted. “Don’t have to tell me twice” Ethan smirked as he dove right back into my pussy. Slamming his fingers in and out of me, his tongue lapping up and down my folds, and the slight scruff on his face rubbing my thighs. Every time I managed to look up Hannah was toying with herself only making things worse for me. I started to feel my walls contract around Ethan’s fingers and I knew I was close. “Fuck, E” I moaned. “She’s close” Hannah added. “I can tell, she’s tightening around me like she’s never been fingered before” Ethan added cockily. “Fuck you both” I groaned. “Kind of the whole reason we’re here” Ethan smirked. His pace picked up once again. “C’mon, cum for me. Cum around my fingers. Who is making you feel this good?” Ethan egged me on.”Oh fuck, E-E. Ethan” I screamed as I came around his fingers. His face down by my thighs lapping up the juices flowing out of me. “Damn, Y/N. Who knew how good you taste” Ethan said. “Oh, I do. Sweet as a peach, huh, E?” Hannah said walking back across the room running her hands through Ethan’s hair tugging loosely at his dark strands. “Tonight’s all about you, Y/N. So I’m going to go back over there and let Ethan fuck you senseless but first off pretty boy needs to put a condom on, we don’t need any little ones running around here” Hannah finished explaining as she walked back over to the chair. “Face down, ass up. I’m here to blow your back out with my quote ‘little dick’” Ethan teased. He ran his tip up and down my folds teasing me. “Please, E” I begged. “Look at you begging for me” he taunted and I rolled my eyes at his snarky comment. “You ready for me?” Ethan asked. “Yes, fuck me, Ethan, please” I begged. “Your wish is my command princess,” he said ramming himself in and out of me without any warning and not letting me adapt to his size. “Oh my god, E” I moaned as his speed never slowed.His hands attached to my hips for stability. All of a sudden he pulled all the way out of me as I sighed from the emptiness that accompanied me. “Smack her ass” Hannah added. I groaned at the thought. Ethan slammed back into me and added a harsh slap to my ass causing me to clench around his cock. “She’s like a little whore, wrap your hand around her throat” Hannah requested. I could feel Ethan smirk from behind me. He reached around causing his dick to go even deeper inside of me. I felt his hand wrap around my throat restricting my airway just enough. “F-f-fuck, E” I muttered out in between breaths. “K-keep going” I begged. “As you please” he said going even deeper which I didn’t think was possible. “E, I’m so close” I gurgled out. “Hmm, why doesn’t your girlfriend come over here and rub your clit while I fuck you senselessly so we both make you cum, huh? How does that sound, little one?” Ethan asked. “Fuck, yes. Please. Hannah” I groaned. I heard her footsteps then shortly after felt her soft fingertips on my clit and her lips pressing gentle kisses to my body. I could feel my orgasm approaching but it felt different than it usually does. “Oh, fuck” I said as Ethan repeatedly hit my g-spot. I could feel myself clenching around him with every stroke. “You’re close Y/N. C’mon, cum for me. Cum for us” Ethan begged. “C’mon, babe. Show us how we made you feel tonight” Hannah said. That’s all it took for my orgasm to wash over me but it was more than that. An urgent rush washed over me too. Ethan nor Hannah ever stopped what they were doing until they knew I had finished. “Who knew my best friend was a squirter” Ethan smirked as he pulled out and admired his handy work. “Oh my god” I groaned. “Damn, babe. Now, why don’t you suck Ethan off so that he gets to cum too” Hannah suggested. I looked at Ethan who was still supporting an aching hard-on. “You want me to fix that for you?” I asked gesturing to his dick. “Uh could you?” he asked. I went down to my knees. I knew he couldn’t be that far from the edge because we had done so much. I sucked at his tip gently which made him groan. “Fuck Y/N” he moaned as I took more and more of him in my mouth and hollowing my cheeks. I reached down and gently massaged his balls in my hand. I could feel his tip hit the back of my throat causing me to gag slightly around him. Every time I gagged around him he would moan at the contact. “Oh fuck, Y/N. Keep going, I’m close” Ethan groaned as I began bobbing my head faster. “Oh shit, Y/N” he moaned as his cum spurted down my throat. “This was a lot of fun,” Ethan said as he began putting his underwear back on. “Yeah, I’d have to agree with you on that,” I said. “You know, we could make this a frequent thing” Ethan suggested. “Oh, hell no. You can leave now, E. We will see you later” Hannah said shooing him out of the room. Well, I definitely think that playing for both teams is the best thing that’s ever happened to me especially after tonight.

[wokeaf-blog]

WEEK 6 SCRAPBOOK- WISHFUL THINKING

“Pretty Dudes” is an inclusive web series following 5 “pretty” guys, and while the title may be misleading, it’s actually a show revolving around 5 queer guys, that aren’t conventionally attractive in the straight heteronormative world. With an ethnically diverse cast that challenges stereotypes for the LGTBQ community and POC. *BONUS! I acted in this web series! Included is a short comedic scene, that I believe queers the audience, by bringing them with the comedy at the top of the scene. The straight friend, Alexander asks, “So, you are a top or are you a bottom?” A question that almost every queer person has probably been asked by their straight friends. So this beginning line could easily draw in a straight audience- possibly by tricking them into thinking this is going to confirm their heteronormative roles that society has pinned upon the LGBTQ community (i.e. “So which one is the man, and which one is the woman?”). However, it then skillfully and comedically uses that opportunity to educate his straight friend, and the audience in the process. 

This show is so important in a lot of different ways, but the portrayal of not only LGBTQ, but POC as well in these main character positions, validates the fact that queer POC CAN lead a show, and be hilarious!

Second, I’m going to explore my favorite pop artist, Hayley Kiyoko. I have talked about her before, but for good reason! She is a pop icon, and she’s a lesbian! (AHHHH) I love a lot things about her, her music, her videos, her style, everything! But what’s important about Hayley Kiyoko goes beyond being a straight girls girl crush. One thing in particular that I love about her music, is her use of “she” in her songs, proudly exclaiming that a woman is the object of her affection. She writes love songs in a pop tune and as a young queer girl coming into my own, it was so encouraging to see an out woman loudly and proudly exclaiming her love for women and singing about them. Her music videos always feature a female protagonist that she’s after, and they’re short film love stories (something that I feel is lacking in the lesbian community).

Hayley has the reputation of making straight girls “question their sexuality” (as said by my straight, female best friend), and I think while that’s annoying (you have enough male pop stars to fawn over! Leave Hayley alone!) It’s also saying something to the pull that rockstars have over women in particular. Seeing a female dance, have swag, and seduce a woman right in front of your eyes definitely redefines the usual images of desire we see in pop culture. Being a queer artist myself, it’s validating to see a queer woman of color succeed in the entertainment world, and to continue thriving. She’s masculine and feminine all at the same time, and that’s so powerful in this current entertainment climate.

Hayley embracing her masculine identity...

They don’t call her “Lesbian Jesus” for nothin’.

More examples...

Halsey

Ruby Rose as Batwoman, an important first step in seeing queer characters as superheroes! Not only will she be powerful and badass, but she will be out and proud!

Lastly, I want to mention my new favorite show, Euphoria on HBO. What’s special about this show is particularly the casting. Trans folk have often be portrayed and casted terribly in the entertainment industry. Laverne Cox being the first notable trans woman to play a trans character in a tv show. Euphoria has taken it a step even further and cast Hunter Shafer, a trans young woman, to play a trans young woman in the tv show. The presence of Jules adds so much complexity to the show that simply would not have been there if it weren’t for Shafer’s character. The show explores the fetish that straight males often have with trans women and the violence that usually comes along with that attraction that they don’t want to admit they have, the spectrum of sexuality (Jules has relations with boys and girls, questioning: if she is trans, can she be attracted to women? Does that make her a lesbian?). What to me, is most important about Jules, is that she is fully transitioned. Many trans characters we see on screen are still in the beginnings of their transition; they’re coming out, and they’re starting. To see a young, happy, fulfilled trans girl is validating to so many young trans girls watching! They get to see someone who is fully transitioned, doesn’t question herself or her transition, and is surrounded by a supportive parental unit. Sometimes seeing a genuinely happy character is just as important as seeing a struggling character.

[gentlemanmendes]

Lace baby? | smut |

A/n: this is my fav smut I’ve written so far!

warning: ahhhh smut, smut, smut, and more fucking smut!!!!!!!!!

Y/n bent over the the table as she rummaged through her makeup to find her stay spray, finding the bottle she hurriedly sprayed it over her newly makeup applied face. Taking a brief moment to admire her work in the mirror y/n posed to herself before reaching for her perfume and spraying herself.

“Shawn, I’m ready. Hurry up!” Y/n huffed as she bounced her freshly curled hair hoping to give  it more volume continuing to admire herself in the mirror while she waited for Shawn. It amazed her that she had taken so long to get ready and she was still finished before Shawn, the stereotype of girls taking longer than guys to get ready never in his favor.

From the reflection in the mirror y/n saw the bathroom door open and Shawn come out. She turned around excitedly and leaned against the vanity table as she waited for Shawn’s reaction to her dressed up state. Whenever they went out on occasions such as tonight she always looked forward most to Shawn’s compliments. He always made her feel beautiful no matter how she looked but when she actually put effort into her appearance and felt good about herself she felt more confident and believed him.

Shawn’s eyes widened in surprise as his eyes racked up and down y/n’s body as he bit down on his bottom lip not bothering to hide his smirk. Thoughts of what he would do to y/n’s body rushing through his mind. No matter what he could never get over y/n and his obsession with her. But the thing that caught his attention most were her shoes. He had never seen them before and assumed they were new. They way they clung to her legs, wrapping around them all the way to her thighs, still showing off all her skin, he couldn’t seem to help himself.

“Well, what do you think?” She wandered smirking to herself knowing that Shawn was impressed, speechless would be the better word.

Shawn slowly made his way towards y/n a devilish grin playing across his pink lips. It always fascinated y/n how Shawn could go from being cute and charming to malice and darkly sexy but this was the quickest she had ever seen his mood change.

When Shawn was standing right in front of y/n he placed his hands on her hips, pulling her up so she was now no longer leaning on the vanity but standing chest to chest with Shawn. As she looked up at Shawn she attempted to look innocent as though she didn’t know what was running through his mind right now when she new very well thanks to the forbidding look that had taken over his face.

Y/n took this quick chance to admire how good Shawn looked in his black jeans an white dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up and his top few buttons undone. Even his mess of curls that he hadn’t cut yet were a turn on to her right now. All she could think of was her fingers getting lost in the those curls as she tugged on them while Shawn’s face was nuzzled deep within her thighs.

Hastily, Shawn had turned y/n around before her mind could comprehend the action. He pressed his crotch against her ass the skin tight dress she wore showed off effortlessly. He pushed her forward slightly so she was leaning against the vanity table, her ass sticking out enough for Shawn to happily feel the curve of it digging deep into his slowly hardening member.

His neck dipped lower to y/n, nibbling at her neck as his mouth made its way towards her ear.

“You look so good for me baby girl.” He whispered feeling her arch her spine against his chest as the shivers ran through her pressing her ass harder against him. Shawn’s hands stayed firmly on y/n hips gripping her so she didn’t move. He was in control now.

Without hesitation Shawn began his assault on the skin of y/n’s neck and down to her collarbone and shoulder as he grinned himself against y/n’s ass. He inhaled her scent deeply as he continued to suck harshly on her neck wanting nothing more than for her skin to be converted in purple marks as a reminder of tonight’s events. Y/n allowed herself to smile as she let out breathy sighs at Shawn’s actions knowing it would only add to his cocky side which she loved to see during sex.

Shawn’s hand moved to the zipper and unzipped the lousy excuse of a dress that she was wearing. Any idiot with eyes could admit that the dress looked stunning on y/n bit only Shawn knew just how amazing she looked without it.

“Lace baby?” Shawn noted impressed as his lips left her skin for a brief moment to get a better look at his lingerie clad girlfriend. They locked eyes in the mirror as shawn gave her a daunting smirk. “Did you plan this all along?” He quizzed though he knew very well what the answer was. Y/n bit down on her bottom lip attempting to hide the coy smile as she nodded her head in response. “What do you want me to do?” Shawn’s fingers dug deeper into y/n’s hips.

Now fully bent over the vanity leaning on her hands as she gripped onto the edge of the vanity, y/n’s gaze lifted to meet Shawn’s gaze again.

“I want you to fuck me so hard the mirror shatters.” at her words Shawn’s eyes filled with a rapacious lust before hurriedly working on his belt then tugging his pants down to just below the knees. Y/n reached over to the small draw of the vanity pulling out a bow filled with smaller wrapped packets. She pulled one out before throwing the box to the side before handing shawn the condom. She watched Shawn’s face in the mirror as he pumped on his hardened member a few times before spreading the pre-cum that had escaped his tip before sliding the condom on. Without even the slightest warning Shawn’s hands went back to gripping y/n’s hips harshly as he lined himself up with her center, abruptly thrusting into her feeling her walls rapidly stretch around him. He didn’t give y/n time to adjust, instead he quickly set the pace driving himself as deep into her as he could get.

The vanity thumped against the wall with every advance shawn took into y/n. She gripped into the vanity harder as she attempted to grow comfortable with the harshness of Shawn’s movements inside her. As soon as she adjusted Shawn’s hands moved, one sliding around her waist to keep a steady hold on her while the other moved to the small of her back where the hem of her lace panties sat above her bum. He tugged on them causing the lace to tighten against her clit causing a relishing strife to rush through her at the friction. Tauntingly Shawn tightened and released his grip on the hem of her pantie causing the lace to rub teasingly against her aching clit causing y/n to let a pained moan at the lack of relief she was receiving where she wanted shawn to touch her most.

Growing frustrated with Shawn’s distressing actions y/n lifted one of her hands from the vanity, pushing her panties to the side she began giving herself the attention shawn wasn’t giving her. As her finger slipped onto her own clit she felt the lush wetness from her folds that had been caused by Shawn’s teasing and desired actions.

Noticing y/n’s actions shawn grew barbarous with fury at the fact that she was touching herself especially without his permission.  He stopped his agonizing tugs on her panties and instead reached for a fistful of her perfectly curled hair before giving it a harsh yank pulling y/n up so her back was now pressed against his shirt cover torso. Her hand instantly dropped from her clit in surprise but Shawn’s trusts never faltered.

“Did I say you could touch yourself.” His rugged voice sounded in her ear as his hot heavy pants could be felt against the heated skin of hr neck. When y/n didn’t respond Shawn gave a harder tug on her hair as he repeated himself, “Did I.”

“No.” Y/n cried out the pleasure slowly beginning to build up.

“So why don’t you ask.” Shawn suggested..

“Shawn, please.” Y/n breathed out knowing that her release was so close. Her hand covered Shawn’s as she guided it down to where she wanted to feel his touch most. At the force of Shawn’s skilled fingers against her throbbing clit y/n let out another loud sigh full moan as she placed both hands back on the vanity focusing on the infinite bliss shawn was close to sending her to.

Shawn’s hand gave another tug on y/n’s hair only this one not as hard as the previous had been.

“Open your eyes baby, I know your close. I want you to watch yourself cum and see just why I’m so fucking obsessed with you.” He instructed causing y/n to meet her own gaze in the mirror. She watched as the mirror shook along with Shawn’s body pounding into hers. Her body faltering against Shawn’s as her moans became louder and more stretched out.

“Come on pretty girl, cum for me I know just how badly you want this.” Shawn’s husky voice added to the pleasure of Shawn’s luscious movements. She felt Shawn’s member begin to twitch inside her knowing he was just as close as she was.

Her heart pounded in her chest as an overwhelming tsunami of ecstasy overcame her. Through hooded eyes she attempted desperately to watch herself as shawn had instructed, her eyes drifting every so often to her boyfriends face watching as his face began to contour as he began to come closer to his release. As he rode out y/n’s high his release overcame him causing his movements to falter slowly down and he was sure he was done.

As shawn pulled out y/n leaned her body over the vanity as she attempted to regain her composure astonished at the release shawn had given her.

“Round two when we get home?” Shawn suggested as he attempted to fix himself up. Y/n’s gaze lifted to meet shawn again in the mirror as she still stood awestruck. She gave him a small smile which earned her a smirk in response.

[squadron-leader-farrier]

Let's spice things up a bit; ANSWER ALL OF THE QUESTIONS

oh baby, you answered m prayers lol this is gonna be long so buckle up ?

1. favourite place in your country? my hill station, because of the weather, and because i haven’t been to many places, and the ones that i have been to were extremely hot and i never want to go there again,

2. do you prefer spending your holidays in your country or travel abroad? depends on the holidays tbh. what the festivals the holidays fall near and that. i’d stay here for some, but for the ones that we don’t celebrate in my country like Halloween, i’d like to go abroad.

3. does your country have access to sea? peninsula, babey!

4. favourite dish specific for your country? chicken biryani. boy, oh boy, just thinking about it makes my mouth water. it’s that good. gosh, the flavour, the spice. the way they cook it,,,, the colours ahhhh

5. favourite song in your native language? ones made before the 60s. and the patriotic songs. there are too many to name, but two (non patriotic) ones are this and this (because they’re sad love songs and give me flyboys feels ya kno?)

6. most hated song in your native language? like, as a nation? idk. but personally, i hate, absolutely loathe any songs made after the 60s. they lack originality and creativity. all they did was rip off popular english songs, and changed the lyrics. that’s literally all they did. and they are super proud of it. i hate it. the music industry had gone to complete shit. even today they don’t know what good music is and ow to make it. they’re remixing all the old ones because they lack creativity. i hate it. 

7. three words from your native language that you like the most? i don’t like any three words, because they’re not that appealing on their own (not the ones i can think of right at this moment) but rather, phrases. when you string those words and make poetry or prose. it’s really beautiful, and really poetic. perhaps the best ones are in those two songs, and others like them.

8. do you get confused with other nationalities? if so, which ones and by whom? i haven’t been in a situation like that so i can’t say.

9. which of your neighbouring countries would you like to visit most/know best? probably Russia because the ones right next to me are exactly the same in topographical, cultural and architectural respects. there’s literally nothing new to see there, so i’d like to go to Russia.

10. most enjoyable swear word in your native language? so it’s basically three: bhenchod/madarchod/chutiya. all of them mean motherfucker in their basic essence, but are used to describe people, cuss out people, call your pal, so basically, the hindi equivalent of fuck. can be used as adjectives, prepositions, verbs, nouns, whatnot. can be used individually or all together. perhaps splash one of them in a conversation to make the group giggle a bit more while telling a funny story. 

11. favourite native writer/poet? the ones who wrote nationalistic literature during the freedom struggle. so, to say, i like Sarojni Naidu, and Tagore. they’re perhaps the most famous ones of the time, and i like their work. 

12. what do you think about English translations of your favourite native prose/poem? i don’t have any, because they’re already written in english by the authors. i read a poem or two lying around somewhere, but the thing about hindi is that the translations don’t bear the same feelings as the originals. 

13. does your country (or family) have any specific superstitions or traditions that might seem strange to outsiders?  oh there are too many. too many by far. most of them are the usual black cat and others, oh, one i heard when i was in like 4th grade was that you shouldn’t go out with open wet hair at night because a spirit can get caught in em and come home with you. so that was strange. my family doesn’t have any, we’re rather realistic.

14. do you enjoy your country’s cinema and/or TV? no not in the least. you know why? because of this. i swear to fuck, the person who uploaded this compilation didn’t edit a single thing in. how do i know? because i’ve watched these on actual television. when i was young. in my neighbour’s tv. 

15. a saying, joke, or hermetic meme that only people from your country will get? remember when some of you motherfuckers got offended by bitch lasagna because you lack basic understanding what a fucking joke is? you don’t know what satire is? you are the reason why people think indians have no sense of humour because you DON’T it was a fucking JOKE holy shit i’m so triggered by this

16. which stereotype about your country you hate the most and which one you somewhat agree with? haven’t heard of many stereotypes about us, but the laziest one i can think of is that we can do math and are good at science. we’re not. i’m shit at all of that. so are my 34 other classmates. 

17. are you interested in your country’s history?  not really, tbh. maybe the period just before independence, and some post-independence stuff, because i got dirt on those politicians and i want more of that so that i have a reasonable justification for hating politicians.

18. do you speak with a dialect of your native language? i don’t know, maybe i’m so used to it i don’t even realise lol. but i guess so.

19. do you like your country’s flag and/or emblem? what about the national anthem? YES. YES. YES. i love them. i absolutely adore them. the flag is so symbolic and so beautiful i love her (orange on top for sacrifice, white in the middle for purity, green at the bottom for prosperity, the blue circle in the middle for resolution and justice, just ahhhh). the national anthem always gives me the chills. everytime i hear it playing somewhere, or when we sing it sometimes after assembly, or during days like today (independence day) or republic day, when we finish singing the last line it just always makes me a bit emotional and proud? yeah. today i almost started crying because i love it so much.

20. which sport is The Sport in your country? Cricket. even though the national sport is hockey. no one cares about hockey :(

21. if you could send two things from your country into space, what would they be?  the memers who think they’re very funny, (which they are not in the least), and the anti nationalists and separatists. i do not want them here. get lost. fuck off. shooo.

22. what makes you proud about your country? what makes you ashamed? what makes me proud, is the freedom struggle of the revolutionaries, and the progress we’re making in every field, the hospitality of the people, and the unity in diversity. what makes me ashamed is that there’s still so much corruption in the government, can’t help it, the law’s delay, gosh the people who think they’’re better than everybody else, the entertainment industry, the music industry, some of the people, most of the politicians, etc.

23. which alcoholic beverage is the favoured one in your country? bold of you to assume we have a single favourite beverage for the entire country. i think it varies from state to state. for mine i think it may be something apple related, because we have lots of apples here. the season is also coming lol and also, it’s very confusing because some states have completely banned alcohol and in some the legal drinking age is 18. 

24. what other nation is joked about most often in your country? canada and ‘murica mostly because so many people immigrate there 

25. would you like to come from another place, be born in another country? i’d like to be British, because  i like the aesthetic and weather. 

26. does your nationality get portrayed in Hollywood/American media? what do you think about the portrayal? i don’t watch many movies, but i think it’s not much/a small amount and neither do i mind nor do i care. 

27. favourite national celebrity? no one. i hate all of them.

28. does your country have a lot of lakes, mountains, rivers? do you have favourites? yep!! she’s not called a subcontinent for nothing, babey! i live near the Himalayas, so i like that.

29. does your region/city have a beef with another place in your country? oooooh yes. ooooooooooh  boy. with Pakistan lol. mainly because of the union territory of jammu and kashmir. because pakistan wants it, we want it, and it legally also belongs to us. there’s separatists there, anti nationalists, and there’s poverty there, so it’s easy to instigate the people against the government. there were wars fought for it, most of them ended in our favour, but the other side is still making so many ceasefire violations, it is insane. it has been years, and every other day there’s a new violation. there’s lots of unrest in the valley, which is a shame, because it is a truly beautiful place. 

30. do you have people of different nationalities in your family? my uncle is British, my cousin’s husband is also a Brit. a great-grand relative of mine was also British. there are none on my mother’s side.

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001 BATIM 003 Summer - rnm (I don't often see you talk about her lol)

Thank you for the ask! It’s 

OOOOOOOOoooo Summer!

You are right I do not talk about her nearly enough, even though she’s somewhere in my top 5 favs (top 3 counting only characters from the show)! Also I’m kinda talking about comic book Summer and show Summer (s)

So, as I stated up top, love her but when I started watching the show I didn’t like her too much (she was okay but I thought she was going to be flat stereotypical teen girl)But that was beginning season 1 (which she was a side character) and then Season 2 came along and I said “Hell yeah, she cool” and I started really loving her as a character! Wasteland Summer was also cool to see and I was sad to see her frozen with not much more exploration on her character.

Hmmm as much as I ship and love to do so…I really don’t with Summer. The one universe in the comics where she’s a lesbian I totally support and I low key ship the crackship with the car. Other then that though I think she’s doing well on her own. I personally don’t ship her with Ethan since based on what’s seen not really compatible (of course when did I care compatibility-Eh I just don’t see enough substance for em). I’ve seen a few arts with her and Jessica which is cute but not really my taste either.

Now to non romantic relationship-

Well I feel like her and Rick get along well in the end, whether that’s good or bad I’m not sure, but I really enjoy her relationship with Beth? Like at first it sucked, it really really sucked. But I feel as though it got progressively better (especially the end episode where they’re shopping and doing daughter mom things). I hope to see the relationship in the next season and even her to grow a stronger bond with her dad as well (since that ones been shaky too. Honestly she doesn’t have stable relationships with anyone platonic and romantic which Is sad)

Unpopular opinion…

Hmm a lot of people show her as badass (which I love me some good ol fighten Sum Sum) But some people, when doing so, make her exactly like Rick. Now I’m not disagreeing she has some parallels to him (she definitely does especially showcased in season 3) but I think people need to remember she IS a different person. She CAN be a genius and strong and whatever but she will approach situations with her own twist! I also see (in fics mostly) them blow Summer off completely or make her stereotypical teen (doesn’t talk to anyone about anything ever, always grochy, and if does appear in said fic is just on her phone) which is an interpretation that I don’t care for.

Hmm, again explore more her relationship with her family (asside from Rick since I think that has been showcased in Season 2 and 3 a lot). Maybe even her teen/school life since she doesn’t blow off school as much as Morty does.

Fav friendship, hands down her and Morty. I feel like, at times, the top can work really well together (although not always- but that’s the complication with relations thier not always perfect). I also hope in future eps she makes some cool alien friends or something. I think that would be fun!

Crossover ship? Ehhhhh? Her and Wendy from Gravity Falls? I saw it once (or twice?) in fic/art and they seem pretty decent together. They would make a nice couple and also I think they’d also be pretty good friends! Yeah badass red heads unite!

BATIM!!!! Oooooooo boy! Also I’ll be doing lil more descriptions for the characters then RnM one since your less familiar with these characters 😊

Fav character, that is tricky. Staying strictly to canon game Wally (pure janitor boy) or Bertrum (local narssarsist finds someone who’s got an even bigger ego and now thier partners or AKA the octopus ride). I like Wally because throughout the whole game he’s got tapes and they’re always nice and cheerful which is a nice lil break (or poik(perk) as he’d say) from the horror and darkness. Also the whole probable he’s Perfect Boris just makes him better (I love Boris). And Bertrum; well for one he’s an annoying cool mini boss, I like that both him and Joey had big egos but he had one AND he seemed like a decent guy, cool design in general, and he’s got his motavations figured out Joey gipped him and now Joey’s gotta pay. As for everyone’s interpretation and also my personal hc? All of them! Even that bastard Joey!

No least fav’s. Some times I don’t like certain people’s interpretation of a character but I really like them all. If I had to pick one I’d say Allison since I felt in cannon she was a bit bland. But really in cannon we didn’t have much to go off of many of the characters.

Fav ships (in no particular order btw and one more then said but whatever)

Henry X Joey (like how can you not ship the protagonist and antagonist? Doesn’t every fandom do that? But honestly why else would you come back to mean bosses’ studio after 30 years if you two hadn’t dated or at least had a lil but more then a friendship. Also angst train woot woo). 

 Sammy X Suzie (ahhhh. I love em so much I just hsjaownjw. And it’s almost cannon and SO MUCH ANGST POSSIBLE HEHEHHE) 

 Tom X Alison (cannon but very cute). 

 Wally X Shawn (bring me the pure boys! Honestly this ship is kinda ‘random’ but also is a lil popular and has a toooonnnn if cute HC’s.). 

Ink Sammy X Projectionist Norman  (I love inky angsty boys!)

Lacie X female OC ( I love when she has a noice girlfriend)

Who do I find attractive: hmmm not really anyone (in game)Like Inky Sammy buff so I guess him.

Who I’d marry: ghanakjsjsks??? Idk! No one?

Best Friend: preink-Wally, no questions. Postink- Boris (so still Wally) because I’d just hide in the safe house and play cards.

Random thought:

Unpopular Opinion: Sammy, Henry, And Joey are all around same age and they grew up together. Idk if it’s unpopular but I’ve seen a lot of times Sammy is younger then the other two.

Cannon OTP: Samsie isn’t cannon? Maybe? it’s definitely alluded to but the only thing cannon cannon is Thomas X Allison so I guess by default them. 

Non Cannon: Wally X Shawn please and thank you

Badass character: based on cannon,Bertrum? Like I said he’s a heck of boss fight. Maybe Henry cause he’s had to dealt with everyone’s crap. Projectionist because he literally fist fights the ink demon. Based on personal hc Lacie.

Epic Villian: Idk if he counts as epic but Sammy was an interesting villian. I feel like he should’ve been explored more (so does the rest of the fandom) but I feel like straight up trying to sacrifice

Pairing I’m not a fan of: I used to not like Sammy X Wally but now I think it’s kinda cute. Maybe Wally X Norman just HC they have a more father son bond but I’ve seen some stories where it’s not the case sooo, it really does depend on people’s personal story. I also don’t care for Alice X Bendy (but some content of them is cute and I still enjoy some of it).

Character I feel like they screwed up: Sammy they didn’t do to much with even though he had a lot of potential. Same with Allison and Thomas who were kinda just bland especially Allison.

Character I identify with: when hc I project a lot on Wally but i don’t identify with anyone imparticular.

Character I wish I could be: I’m going to take this as if I could be one of the toons (and not in game toons, since I’d be trapped and I’d rather not) Boris. Who wouldn’t want to be a wolf who just eats all day. Or Edgar (spider boy) because he’s so cute!