#ahhh why r ppl

[dally777]

[faunabel]

ough.... why do i have a crush on this person i think i'm going insane

geez... how did this happen.

my anxiety is all over the place but i'll enjoy the happy feelings while i can ♡

[thesilentcrisis]

Sorry to bother you yet a person that you made OC art is shipping her OC with Angel Dust a Gay character and says she does not support LGBT people

Here is the linkhttps://www.tumblr.com/cheetochild989/758655192607686656/thank-u-mine-snake-for-tha-assist-d-you-have?source=share

oh wow she doesn't? I didn't know that. Thanks for letting me know! Your link is not working properly, but I trust your judgement. I swear- Why does everyone I try to interact with be something phobic or ist. . . .

AHHHH- Anyway, have a great day- night, or wherever you are and I wish you luck in whatever you are currently up to <3

[phagodyke]

didn't realise but we have an audit today 🫣

[parcai]

i do get sm 2ndhand embarrassment from this movie tho if u don't get ur STUPID little face out of his GODDAMN shorts im gonna lose it!!!!!

[nightcolorz]

Hiii I wanna share some head-cannons I have about Armand’s autism :D

Here we go:

- I think he’d LOVE a good lava lamp

- Daniel and him are adhd + autism excellency

-I also think his powers with the mind gift definitely show how he uses nonverbal communication. Yet to add on, I always interpreted his powers as kinda a two way street if that makes sense?? Like using his powers to better understand the people around him, so he can better understand what they’re trying to communicate to him? Like being able to read someone’s mind without trying to figure out all the complicated 4d chess that is neurotypical social interaction. (Idk if that made sense)

-vocal stims !! I think he’d sometimes get echolalia with certain words that daniel says (I say this bc I’m the same way, except I just really like meowing with my cats 😭)

-speaking of cats, I think Armand would get along SO well with them!! He would have the magic touch.

Ahhh unrelated, but on the topic of Armand being autistic, do you think he’d know that he’s autistic? How do you think his process of realizing he is on the spectrum play out?

I love ur headcanons SO MUCH OMGG ur 100% correct anon I love u. The vocal stimming is practically canon!! In the vampire Armand’s narration Armand often repeats the same words multiple times in a row which I see as a form of vocal stimming. I think I’ve made the same lava lamp and devils minion adhd + autism duo commentary before when talking to friends, anon we might share a brain <33

And I looooveee ur question ehhehehehhe, I actually think about this a lot! I think Armand definitely knows that there is something different about his brain that separates him from others and is longing to understand what that is, which I think could easily lead him on the road of discovering that he is autistic since that is how I and many other ppl found out. But I don’t think the label is something he would be aware of or connect to himself if a third party didn’t explain it to him or point it out. I think he’d have a few barriers keeping him from coming to that realization, like having a person from the 1500’s understanding of mental health and disabilities and an anxiety of being studied, interviewed, questioned, etc. Armand finds analyzing himself very difficult and talking to people about himself also very difficult, so I think both self diagnosis and formal diagnosis would be a struggle for him. But, not an impossible struggle. Especially during post canon when Armand goes through an improvement arc and becomes a bit more healthier and self aware, I think his desire to improve combined with his desire to understand why he feels so alienated would cumulate in discovering he’s on the spectrum. I think that he is aware enough of his own symptoms that if he was given a label and an explanation he would accept it pretty easily and willingly, and as I said find it comforting to know the reason for his differences. The difficult part for Armand emotionally when he finds this out would be realizing the extent he was taken advantage of, hurt, and wronged by everyone in his life once he begins to understand that his vulnerabilities r due to a disability and not some ambiguous character flaw

thank u sm for the ask anon AHHHHH I could talk about autistic Armand forever bless u

[fazgoo-connoiseur-1987]

me after seeing u post bill with those hyper realistic eyes: AHHH I GET WHY PPL R HOMOPHOBIC THIS SHIT SCARY AF

LOVE the implication that william afton is every queer person

[pjo-obsessed-nerd]

OMG JULIAN RICHINGS IS EVERYWHERE I LOVE THIS MAN

He's so creep, but he's so good

HAH ANNABETH COMING IN CLUTCH

Percabeth power couple, yes pls

"It's either the realm of the dead, or someone left a carton of milk in there in to 1990's" nah, but that's the fastest way to make me gag about a smell I can't smell 🤣

THE RED RUBBER BALL

"No one comes baaaaaack" I love this man so much ❤

"I just think it's safer if I'm not the one holding them all." That's fair. ya know, as someone who drops her phone regularly, that's relatable.

Those pearls sound ✨ c r u n c h y ✨

IT'S THE SCENE - BABY PERCY 😭😭😭 aww my baby I just want to hug him. I can see it now, I'm gonna bawl like a baby in a few mins

"Not in Kansas...", "Hey, focus, we left Kansas four days ago." Reminder she hasn't seen a movie, points for continuity ❤

Grover squeezing that ball omg

Poor Grover, it's ok 😭

"Only suckers wait in line" 🤣🤣

"You're not dead.", "I mean, we're all dying... To some extent." He's a comedian 🤣

The silent whistle admittedly gave me chills; I can just see the horror on Annabeth's face. CERBIE!!!!

Run

CERBERUS LOOKS SO BEAUTIFUL OMG HE'S EVEN MORE GORGEOUS THAN I IMAGINED AHHH

GROVER NO

i just screamed a little... Oh, my sister is gonna cry

aww, Cerbies TOO cute, the little whines omg I'm gonna DIE. Annabeth giving him scratchies aww even though she's terrified. Percy is impreased

I am a Rottweiler lover at heart, so I'm just obsessed with Cerberus I'm not sorry

OH GROVER EW; Thank god he's okay

Oh, ik how they get separated I bet 😭 JUMP SCARE OH

Aww Annabeth threw him the ball such a good puppy omg

Is. Is Cerberus wearing a leather jacket? Or is that leather armor? I can't tell 🤣

Annie lore drop 🥲 grovers so impressed tho

IT HAPPENED IT HAPPENED IT HAPPENED AHH

"I think it's... It's in the dog." His name is Cerbie. /jk

Percy, baby, what did you draw that upset someone so much? He's just a BABY. I WILL FIGHT THIS HEADMASTER TOOTH AND NAIL IT'S A PEGASUS SIR.

Grover, stop guilting yourself sir

OH jeez what tf.

Man I guessed Asphodel, and I was fucking right. My Mythology teacher would be so proud. This is such a haunting take on Asphodel omg. That's terrifying.

run

WHERE ANNABETH

NO SHE'S STUCK NO SWORD SWORD CUT IT CUT CUT CUT KNIVES PPL YOU HAVE KNIVES USE THE KNIVES

"I trust your dad." Athena ain't gonna be happy about this one, ladies and gents. 🤣🥲😭

Annie's gone, and i stg if we lose grover I'm done

GROVER

PERCY MOVE IT

Nah, Riptide looks sick tho. Pretty sure that's the first time we've seen it in good lighting

THE BOLT

so r we not gonna see Hades..?

"Is this?", " No.", "I, I mean it looks like-" "it, it absolutely is not.", "Okay. So... what is it then?", "Yeah, that's the master bolt!" This exchange was so funny 🤣

The pieces r fitting together... Hehe

"Zeus is just gonna have to wait." HELL YA, STICK IT TO HIM, GROVER, THAT'S MY BOY!!! Grover reminding Percy exactly why he chose Grover, his best friend, to come on this quest in the first place. ❤

Sad Baby!Percy 😭 that's a lotta ice cream for such a tiny boy

"Why are you trying so hard to get rid of me?" GOD MY ABANDONMENT ISSUES HAVE BEEN TRIGGERED, I NEED TO PROTECT THIS CHILD FROM THE WORLD NOO

"I would never do this to you." THE LINE DELIVERY, GET THIS BOY AN OSCAR... AND A FUCKING HUG

sally avoiding the topic and crying, I wanna hug her too. She's trying so hard.

Hades palace is gorgeous, damn.

Are we gonna get to see the Furies again???

Percy's hands must hurt from how hard and how constantly he clenches them fists damn.

Who tf-

HADES IS SO NOT WHAT I EXPECTED. I was expecting a rocker dude, but I love the "silk robe, manicured hair". Man's got class.

"I admire the cut of your jib." Ok maybe not what WAS that 🤣

He's way less scary than I expected, tbh.

Is he wearing heels? It sounds like he's walking in heels

SALLY'S A GOLD STATUE NOW??? Sally reaching out for him 😭 I'm done. I'm done.

"What did you do to her?" I can sense the rage coming

Percy 😭

babe, Hades was so confused. He just wants to be left alone, such a mood tho. Percy's so confused

PIECES. P I E C E S. IT'S A PUZZLE PPL

"But that voice, it definitely did not sound like you." That an insult or a compliment, I deadass can't tell 🤣

Ok... Hades is being very generous, but what's the catch here? This feels sus. Oh. There. Run. pearls. now.

"Hold fast, mom." HOLD FAST MOM YESSSSSS

Sad Sally 😭 What's happening rn

NO. NO. IS THAT

I'M GONNA SCREAM. WATER DADDY- sorry

"Tell me why", "you don't wanna hear why." Fair, fair 🤣

Nah, Poseidon's actor fits the bill so well in my mind. Like. Mm.

Poseidon rlly does care.

"His mother raised him well." Damn right!

OH THIS FIGHT FINNA BE SO GOOD

Hehehehehehehehehe

IT SO GOOD AHH I'M GONNA SCREAM NEXT EPISODE O. M. G.

[konishirrr]

hello sweetheart!

I really like your writing, it just fits the characters and you make it sound so casual like ahhhh I love it sm ❤️

I was wondering if you could write some hcs of what being best friends with Dazai, Tachihara or Atsushi and your fav characters would be like? ( I couldn't find the post with info on who you write for, I'm sorry 😭)

also thoughts on calling Kunikida "kuni-kun"? 👉👈

Hiiii <33

ahhh ty I was getting worried that I’m mixing their personalities😭

Bestie Hcs <33

-> Dazai

The type to call u to hang out in the weirdest times

like, u could be in a meeting for anything and he’d text u “I told Kunikida I did my work let’s go to that café :p” <- didn’t actually do it

if y’all r ever get attacked while hanging out he’ll nonchalantly give u a gun and be like “yk what to do” after explaining nothing

but dw he’ll never put u in a position where u do need to use that

teases u for whatever geeky stuff u like

like, “y/n, I didn’t know u liked this stuff” and then start shouting it for everyone to hear

especially when it’s embarrassing😭

makes super weird nicknames for you and always uses them w mutual friends he doesn’t really know <33

-> Tachihara

the reckless cutie type :p

he rlly does care for u but ppl would say his recklessness would say otherwise 😢

he’s a literal spy and a mafioso so I bet he’ll try to keep u away from his work

tells u abt all the tea abt everything honestly

like, “ah, y/n. Took u long enough! Anyways, get this-” and start talking abt the most outrageous things with a casual face

loved going to arcades and amusement parks w u, makes him feel free of all responsibility

usually uses cute nicknames for u but when he’s mad at u or in a jokey mood he’d prolly pull out those weird ass names and stuff u did like 10 centuries ago <33. -> Atsushi

very pure but also very chaotic

like, if there was something going on he’d be like “y/n, do u see this shit?” While staring

tried to make u laugh 24/7 but always happens when he isn’t really consciously thinking abt it

tells u all the tea abt Dazai <- the source of all his problems 😭

always make perfectly planned out plans but somehow there’s always something in his way whether it be a former 15 y.o mafioso or anything tbh

feeds street animals together :p

Loves watching movies together and usually hangs out in one of u guys house -> Fyodor

He’ll prolly be on his computer while ur talking abt all the shit that happened like,

”and then, that bitch actually killed the guard!”

“Well that’s not good” he’d prolly say silently cackling and you’d be like

”I can see u laughing!” While (lightly) glaring at him

the adviser <3 usually his advice is nice and actually makes sense but sometimes ur reminded how much of a terrorist he is bc he goes on talking abt murder and hiring an assassin-💀

tries making u play board games w him like chess and if u don’t like chess he’ll prolly try to understand monopoly <33

finds dead languages to learn and is like “this seems fun. Why don’t we give it a go?”

Also, Kuni-kun is sooo cute <33 + very believable I feel like some person in bsd already calls him that lmao😭

[lucidicer]

📩 Simblr question of the day: Do you have any blogs that make your day when they post? Mention them! Tell us why you like them!

HEYYYYYYYYYYYY LETS GET INTO IT!!!! okay before we start if i dont tag u its cause i have bad memory but trust u r all super cool and post dope shit MWAH

ahhh where to begin first of all @mattodore @crsentfairy @literalite @gunthermunch @stinkrascal got some of the coolest fucking ocs and stories going on like id read a whole book abt their little guys if they offered it to me im eating up every bit of lore but nothing can satiate the hunger for it!!!!!!! and they all have such cool unique styles like omggggggg eats all ur posts up yum yum @olya-occult-lover i think ur blog was crafted specifically with me as the target audience like UGHHHHHH SO GOOD EVERY POST!!!!!!!! absolutely incredible actually a whole celebration when u post @softerhaze @wooldawn @minamill @diwnssi @fizzytoo @peonypyxels @briteboy @daminini @crow-simblr me kicking my legs head propped up on my hands as i look at ur gameplay posts like damn i love ur little pixel people dearly pats them and u on the head i am incredibly jealous when yall post ur saves like damn couldnt be me i am going to live vicariously thru u <3 @arcanewonder UHHH WHERE TO BEGIN???? absolutely incredible posts never misses and this includes the gameplay sideblog like i can never get enough im always itching for me I NEED TO LIVE IN UR GAMEEEEE crawling into ur monitor as soon as i post this and ur renders omg...how tf do u do all that actually so so talented @zohrou @desertdusk @uxji @rollingsim got hands down my fav sim styles on simblr TOO GOOD how do we have the same tools and yet yall do all that everytime actually insane u guys graduated top of ur classes at sim making university @void-imp UR EDITING STYLEEEE ITS SO COOL AND DIFFERENT I LOVE IT SM!!!!!!!! like actually so incredibly distinct i adore it it really stands out on simblr @imageingrunge all of ur posts r so dreamy but like in a haunting way but a comfy haunting way like hmm this house is haunted but i kind like this ghosts vibes yknow? obsessed with everything u post also ur presets r gorg btw @plutoeyes UR POSTS ALSO SO DREAMY AND HAUNTING UGHH i eat up everything u put out ur style is so so damn cool thank u for blessing simblr with ur work <3 ahhhh i know i could tag so many more but i dont want this to be too long like for my phone is already lagging rnfofhfjf okay speedrun tag of cool ppl @wildmelon @warmsol @oxalisim @kazuaru @cinamun @djservo @cas-fulleditmode2 @pralinesims @bnt0 @glittermutt @wldestluv-rs @sashima @gashface @kingfakey

[natashasbitxh]

When I said I need to chill out about it, I mean it in the: I need to calm down haha 'cause I been sleeping 5 hours just to watch some videos with them. If I could, I would totally write a lot of thoughts for each video they are in hahaha.

They been acting so silly and I love that. Just having fun. The uno video, that video is so personal right now with everything that's going on. Also a lot of looks, I do wonder what they are thinking when they look at the other like that, it's just so interesting, so curious. Obviously is always so fast so the other one cannot register the eyes.

Another thing you were right about is Chance touching his hair hahaha on those moments.

Also I feel like Chance doesn't insults Shayne that much, he respects him a little bit more in a way as he said in that video of Smosh mouth, he understands boundaries. He says to Shayne the easy insults I suppose when they're playing games. I don't know if this has sense but I feel like they have a soft spot for the other, and that's why they don't be like insulting each other's or something like that.

I hope we get more fun moments, I need them to survive. I also did watch some of your edits and there's a video where they are wearing like a cheerleader costume, I wonder if that's a video or a live and if you could tell me which one it is. I need to see more videos where they're in.

Please share more of your thoughts!! I feel like I love to read all you have to say, it's always nice. Have a nice day!

ahhh, ur genuinely so real for that!!

YES I totally agree, it's just so fun to see THEM have fun, it makes it 10× more entertaining I love it sm. I always think the same thing like WHAT R U THINKING ABTTT, WHAT IS THAT LOOK!

I understand what u mean and I agree! Chanse (as a joke ofc!) insults other ppl a lot, and Shayne too tbh, but they don't rlly do it to one another to the same extent. So yh maybe it's because they have a soft spot for one another idk!

I think I know the clip ur talking abt but pls let me know if I'm wrong! I think ur talking abt a clip from a vid on the Smosh Main Channel, its the High School Musical Reunion. That vid is not full of shaynse moments but I will say that certain segment were but only due to the characters they were playing. I'm not sure how familiar u r with hsm, but Shayne is playing Troy and Chanse for a short amount of time is playing Chad. They jokingly hint at romance a little. It's a rlly funny video! The reunions r genuinely some of my fav Smosh vids!

Thank you sm! I love hearing ur thoughts too and ur also so nice and fun to talk to!! Have a nice day/night!

[what-am-i-doing-in-this-fandom]

OKOK SO!!! U tolf me to tell u more abt them so ehehehe…

they use all pronouns n r enby !!! he rlly doesn’t mind what ppl call him (they are amab tho) anddd HES A MEIFWA!

she loves being a straight up meanie… if she were to be shipped with anybody it’d probably beeee travis or michi but im not totally sure yet lol,,,

i haven’t thought of a big backstory for her yet but all ik is shes got mommy issues big time!! n they only think they can resolve it by being an asshole thas incredibly difficult to work with..,,,, he does get better over the years tho :3c!!

his voiceclaim is ash from fantastic mr fox!!

Thank you so much for blessing me with this information 🥹🙏

All pronouns, slay! And also YIPPEE, A MEIFWA!! I was low-key rooting for him to be 🤭

Travis or Michi? How about Travis AND Michi 😈 hehehe *rubs hands together evily* 🙏

Why is she actually so me though. Mommy issue havers, UNITE 🤞

You 🫵 are number ONE ☝️ on the list!! Cause I actually asked you first, and thank you for giving me the idea to just make a post about drawing people's OC's/Self-inserts, I've got three other requests, Ahhh!!! So exciting X3

[hannahlovesluca]

So i heard about u doing nijisanji matchups so why not :DD

Nijisanji male matchup pretty plz w cherry on top

Gender:Gender is nothing but a social conCepttTttt(jk cis female but there were times ppl mistook me as a guy once LMAO)

Pronouns:I don't have any in particular,i don't mind any of them as long as its not they/them

Sexuality:....i..don't know actually.Like.Women.But Men.But women.i'll just say bisexual..

Zodiac:Aquarius

Appearance:Shoulder length black hair,i'm kiiinda tall?Im taller than most of my friends.Black fox-like(i think thats what they call them??) Eyes,and i wear literally anything.Like imagine someone in a black turtleneck and some random ass floral button up shirt with the most obnoxious pants ever(for clarification this isnt my attempt at getting in r/builtdifferentfromothergirls i just get cold easily).Oh and im as blind as a bat without my glasses,i only put them on when i wanna put myself in the attractiveness scale for shits and giggles sometimes i wear random jackets i find in my room like that one hot pink jacket i covered in the bee movie stickers for some reason

Mbti:Entp

Idk my ennagram sorry :((

Personality:im pretty laid-back but based on sources(aka my mutuals) i am the embodiment of a living cockroach because of me almost dying like 5 times(vibe checked by god 5 times and he did NOT approve of me...like mf be frfr) i procastinate until like a day before the deadline cause i only work with pressure cause my brains just built like that(rushing calculus my beloved) I LOVE MATHS SO MUCH U CANT IMAGINE(and the cries of my discord besties cause the moment they go back on vc they see the discord whiteboard filled with god knows what) and im preeeeetty confident in myself unless someone genuinely compliments me,if that happens im just gonna disintegrate into dust

Likes:that one meme where the green guy from avengers goes "why is galora",yugioh,jumping into my friends random vc comedically 4 shits and giggles,resident evil,taking care of everyone(and not taking care of myself cause im a self aware hypocrite),DEBATES I LOVE THEM SM THEY GIVE ME SO MUCH ADRENALINE

Dislikes:when someone gets into my persona space toooooo much.oh and the fact that u can divide 91 by 7.literally unreal.and thunder??dunno it sets uncomfy in me i probably offended zeus in my past life or smth

Love language:

I dont know what that is....i mean like,id send whoever i get random memes i found at 3 am,shower thoughts??and hugs??and cuddles??and giving them reassuring words??does that count?

Extra:im bilingual(swedish,russian,korean,german) so i can make ppl say what seems like romantic words when its a deez nuts joke this is a flex btw.i pace around tasks pretty fast,sometimes im too lazy to get up sometimes i go around doing literally everything at once

Im sorry if this is confusing to u this is my first time doing this :((

i pair you with…

Ver Vermillion!

hear me out…

• you guys will absolutely nerd out over yugioh and will probably end up playfully arguing and malding over the other (i dont know much ab yugioh im sorry 💔💔)

• if you let him nerd out to you and rant to you about the most random things he will immediately fall in love

•likewise if you nerd out/rant to him he will fall in love bc the fact that you confide in him???

• similar to shu yaminerd, he is a huge nerd but hes better at hiding it

• call him a dork. he says he hates it but he loves it.

• YOU GUYS WILL HAVE MEME BATTLES.

• youll sit in discord vc, no sound except the little giggles erupting out while you read each others memes and random messages that you just keep on sending

• will randomly whip out the “why is galora” meme to make you laugh out loud in vc with others, on stream, etc even in public

• god, he loves your hair

• your cuddles up in his arms, half-asleep, and hes running his hands thru your hair AHHH

• will also send you hot-takes out of nowhere so you guys can debate on it solely because he knows how much you love it

• “banana pizza is good.”

• “soggy socks feel nice.”

• will also throw you random compliments because he knows its the only thing that will get you

• “are you a hot mom because damn mama you hot.”

• will assist you in sending deez nuts jokes to your friends in korean

• “내 불알을 빨아.”

RUNNERS UP: Shu Yamino, Doppio Dropscythe

[cool-person-yey]

TMAGP NOTES 15!!! GENUINELY WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUCK

as always There Will Be Spoilers Here

Letz go!

• as per usual, * ominous music *

• * office noises* yippee

• yo Sam! Celia!

• oh drop off the theatrics

• lmaooo what a fucking nerd

• Sam I love you

• hey Alice!

• theatres are a good place to canoodle

• oh it's her brother's band right?

• he's a bassist :0

• damn Luke

• Alice being an older sister <3

• oh cmon

• OH RIGHT SHE'S A MOM

• forgot for a sec sorry Celia

• a baby... Human

• why did you have to say that they were human celia

• oh the awkwardness

• the case !

• a fucking voicemail

• dude r u ok???

• what happened??

• rich ppl shit

• buddy you gotta be more specific

• prepare for what???

• uhhhh

• the fuck?

• oh she's a girlboss

• prepared??? lady cmon

• kinky

• the noise in the background..

• begin what

• wait WHAT

• Hunters huh

• familiar ohhh

• HUNT

• wait there's drums noises in the background too

• HUNT

• nooo Steven

• he was only 23? He should've been at the club

• HUNT

• rip Marcus

• fucking hell dude

• this is murder club except none of them gave consent to that lmao

• good grief

• RUN

• fucking hell

• what ?

• shit shit shit SHIT

• FUCK

• OH WELL RUN

• huh?

• New character

• wait no. Looked at the transcripts. Is the same lady as in the case. Fuck

• Celia get away from there

• gonna go crazy over those SITs I swear

• oh it was to the dogs.

• oh Gwen!

• gonna get you next

• someone who finally recognizes Gwen's last name hmmm

• another call?

• oh Luke's concert!

• ahhh just a good ol' sibling relationships. Can't wait for it to be destroyed

• WAIT WAIT

• TAPE RECORDER

• DUDE R U ALRIGHT?

• ALICE?

• THEY'RE DEAD ??? THE FUCK???

• DARK WATER??? THE DARK???

• her voice's closer

• she picked up the tape recorder fuck

• shit fuck shit shit shit

• fuck

• and it's over

What the fuck. See y'all next Thursday but genuinely what the fuck

[kurjakani]

Just wanted to tell u:

I'm kinda jealous of your levels of being open about things you love. That's not cringe!!! I really wish I had this superpower. (I'm ashamed of everything and this makes me suck at conversations. )Be proud of it.

If imaging plukas helping you with daily life actually works then go for it.

I don't want to make u feel bad - I'm not sad or anything.It's just a long long path for me until I'll unlearn the shame. And you already have this precious sprinkle to your personality. I believe in you.

NOOOO I RLY GET YOU. Ahhh i do. I unfortunately do also live w a lot of shame still. And w a lot of worry? I am like, 99% sure that the extent that im steering towards is Not Healthy. But i also don't.think its detrimental.for.my health, and it brings me some joy. I don't need to be a fully functional normal adult. We r simply allowed 2 do shameful things. We r allowed to be cringey. Because it doesn't. Like hurt anyone fr. Imagining a dilf making breakfast for me helped me get out of bed this.morning so 😭😭😭 YIPEE. I & the peopl3 who think im cringe will be only dirt and fading memories in a hundred years.

But honestly yhe thing is, ppl have told me this before, and thats one of the reasons why ive been able to unlearn shame a bit..? Normalizing shamelessness and all that. (Not that.im shameless. I ezperienge shame so fucking much but also joy so. )

This is messy bg im abt to pass out but i wish all th3 best 2 u & ur journey w what is te best for u in life!!!

[nightcolorz]

Another Armandtism q: how do you think he would relate to the modern conceptualization of his neurodivergence? Would he see himself in the concept of autism and find some measure of comfort in it, or reject it out of hand as something that doesn’t apply to him? How would someone who was born before the field of psychiatry react to being told that part of who they are is considered reflective of a “condition” or a “disorder”?

ahhhh omggg I love this question!!! ❤️❤️ I think Armand would have trouble applying it to himself partly bcus he is much more spiritually +philosophy minded then conscious of like modern medicine and science. So I think it would be easier for him to understand his autism as a hypothetical characteristic then a diagnosis, bcus that’s what he’s used to. I doubt this dude has ever even been to a doctor so I imagine trying to understand himself through that modern perspective would be uncomfortable and feel foreign for him.

But! Armand is a fast and eager learner, while characters like lestat and Louis have that old person bitterness that keeps them from wanting to understand the modern perspective (bcus of pride that tells them that what they’re used to is better) Armand rlly wants to evolve with the times and to understand all the new technology and scientific advancements that come with it. So I don’t think he’d be so hesitant to explore the world of modern psychiatry. I think his natural curiosity and desire to understand things outside of his comprehension would overpower his fear of vulnerability + fear of exploring his own mind + lack of natural understanding of what he’s being exposed to. I don’t think it would be out of character for Armand to seek out an autism diagnosis just out of interest in learning about modern day phycology and neurology practices 😭.

Also, on my earlier note about how understanding these things from a modern perspective would be hard for Armand bcus of how spiritual he is, Armand has already tried adopting the spiritual explanation for his autism into his self perception (the whole “not made by human hands”, u r in some way other and inhuman bcus of ur connections to god, thing of his childhood), and that mindset has caused him nothing but pain and confusion. I can say from experience that being unaware of and undiagnosed autistic, for me and for someone as overthinking as Armand, feels often like always looking for an ambiguous answer that u can not even identify u r looking for. And I see that in Armand, I feel like for a lot of his existence he has been searching for an explanation for “why he is the way that he is” and the older he gets the more distressing and hopeless this search feels, bcus it seems that there is no answer, and he is just weird and unknowable and forever isolated for reasons he can not understand. So!! I think if he was able to get past his barriers, like his fear and difficulty when it comes to talking about himself, and the vulnerability it would take to open himself up to that, Armand would find the explanation that he is autistic rlly comforting + validating! Despite his spirituality, Armand finds science more comforting them God, bcus of all that religious trauma he considers modern secularism and technology almost soothing and reassuring (which is probably part of his fixation on it). So I think being given a diagnosis, a reassurance that this ambiguous wrongness about him is in fact a scientific, concrete neurological disorder that isn’t indicative of some spiritual destiny or devil influence or whatever, would rlly be pretty comforting for Armand to hear. “You have a fairly common disorder” I feel like is less scary and difficult to cope with then “you have an ambiguous, inherent wrongness that separates u from other ppl and is probably connected to ur divine fate” (which is what Armand has been internalizing for his entire life 😭)

thank u sm for the ask AHHH!!! I love Armand autism asks SM!!