#ahaha (posts at 2 am) anyways

[starlitcrows]

this is the most cringe thing i could ever say but i recently found you through a homestuck ask blog w art of human bec and would not stop looking until i found your tumblr bc i liked the art so much

[minemiramuse]

visual prison 1st gig retrospective event (x, x)

[cha1cedony]

Silver Linings Ch 8 tonight (unless something crazy happens to prevent me from finishing it today). Buuuut I have 2-ish scenes left, and I’m finally at the part of this fic I’ve been excited to write for months!

[chasedeys]

do you write any rpf, like on Ao3? I’m new so idk if you’ve posted about it or not but IM LITERALLY OBSESSED with your answers to any anon ask. I would read a whole ten page essay from you about joemarr and im not joking. anyways, i love anything you post!!

hiiiiii loveeeee, thank you for liking my thoughts on joemarr!!! kind of self conscious abt it honestly bc im drawing up conclusions abt them technically without any basis but yeah 😭❤️ (also english is very much not my first language so i struggle to word things so saying you'd read a 10 page essay from me is very <33333)

i have written and posted 1 (one) fic and its a ja'marr gets nipple piercings fic lmaooo and opposite to the way it sounds it's not even horny or even tender horny its just like full of love and devotion ahaha no but really don't expect much please

some extra under the cut wkwkwk

SORRY BUT im taking advantage of this ask to add a whole unfinished 2k- jumble of another fic i was working on but probably won't finish bc the lack of full understanding of how contract and free agency works and like refusal to actually research shit bc i get stupid sad thinking about it so:

Joe stares down the stretch of the field, Ja’Marr standing by the rest of the receivers laughing as Chuck and Andrei try to playfully (....maybe) murder each other via sumo wrestling moves that are definitely not regulation. He’s just wearing tights today for bottoms–so the delicious tautness of his thighs are free for Joe to gaze hungrily at. Truck, 30 yards in front of him very patiently waiting to catch his warm-up throws, has cleared his throat three times in the past 45 minutes for Joe to tear his eyes away from Ja’Marr Chase and throw the damn ball.

It’s torture. It’s love, devotion.

It’s disgusting levels of Down Bad.

(joe gets introspective throughout practice post ravens lost yada yada they go back home, joe invites jamarr for sudden cheat day meal at like 2 am)

Ja’Marr shows up in his front door bleary eyed and sleep rumpled. He’s decked in thick flannel pajama pants that absolutely do not look cheap, dark grey geaux tigers hoodie with purple LSU letters that clashes with the red of his pants, last season’s bengals beanie that also clashes with the rest of his outfit colors, and gucci slides…that also clash with the rest of the outfit. It’s a mismatched sort of vulnerability that twists up Joe’s insides. Here’s his north star wrapped up in all the things Joe cherishes.

Ja’Marr turns up his nose when he finally finishes yawning right at Joe’s face and notices Joe with his raised eyebrow looking up and down amusedly at his outfit.

“Shut up,” he says. “It’s a 2 am non-party night. Like hell I’m dressing up pretty for you.”

Ja’Marr’s always pretty to Joe, but that’s fine.

“I didn’t say anything.” Joe replies back, moving to the side so Ja’Marr can drag his feet inside the threshold, “I don’t judge you for your fashion taste.”

Joe cleverly dodges the foot being kicked back to his side. Amazing reflexes, of course.

“Where’s this hearty meal you promised me?” Ja’Marr just talks loudly over the dig Joe makes at him.

“On its way. DoorDash says it’s 7 minutes out.”

“Did you get extra cream soup?”

“Yeah, of course.”

(yada yada some banter some cute shit wanted to describe them sitting in joes billion dollar custom renovated kitchen that i would stress out is 'modern and kitschy' with different shades of pink for accents)

He’s been making insane catch-and-runs, Joe reflects. Offers to his agent would be stacking up starting next year, his last year in his contract with Cincinnati.

“It would be easier.” Joe says, throat cramping. “If you want to trade.”

Ja’Marr’s hands stutter and his stupid little butter knife clatters to the table.

“What?”

Joe darts his eyes to the other man, a millisecond glance and he’s gazing back to his ice cream. The receiver’s voice had been harsh, choked up in surprise. Joe feels his insides curdle even worse.

“Just–” he starts, a mess of thoughts jumbled in his head, “if you wanted to. I would understand. Your stats are amazing. If Duke’s still gunning to be an idiot and wait for your contract to dry up before resigning, you can–”

Here he pauses. Saying things makes it real. Saying they’re not a championship level team made him want to gouge his eyes out. Saying how Ja’Marr could leave him would possibly end his life as he knows it.

But Ja’Marr deserves to know Joe won’t hold him back. He refuses to. So:

“If you want, you can sign up for free agency. Next season.”

Well.

Ja’Marr’s face is heartbreaking to see. Joe feels the corner of his mouth drag down, his eyes are fucking burning, his throat is closing up, his hands are clammy, his ears are ringing, his neck is cold but his head is on fire.

“Do you–” Ja’Marr starts, but his voice is cracking, so he has to start over again. He’s scrunching his eyes shut and his mouth is quivering and Joe feels like he’s clumped up dirt under a needlessly expensive boot. 

Twice this season now he’s caused Ja’Marr to look like this. At least this time he’s not pushing him physically, but with the way Ja’Marr’s trembling all over this might just be worse. God, Joe can’t even blame being in Kansas City for this. This time, Ja’Marr isn’t hiding from the thousands of eyes scrutinizing him from the bleachers, from across the field, from the houses of unknown fans through LED screens. The agony is clear in the widening of his eyes and the curl of his mouth and the crack of his voice. 

“Do you not want me?”

Just the barest whisper like Ja’Marr’s vocal cords has up and left. Joe feels insane thinking of the heart-clenching anymore? Ja’Marr doesnt say.

Joe’s mouth falls open but no sound comes out. There isn’t a single universe in the hypothetical collection of potentially diverse multiverses Joe believes in, that a Joe Burrow wouldn’t want Ja’Marr Chase to stay by his side. But would saying this to the other be right? 

He takes too long to answer. Ja’Marr’s face shuts down, going cold.

“Wow, okay, fuck you.”

Joe flinches back at the viciousness of the curse. He has never once in his life been the direct recipient of Ja’Marr’s brand of tiger claws defense, teeth sharp, no mercy. 

“I cannot believe you. I thought we were fine now! We’re on the same page again! I leave that contract bullshit behind, you fixed your anxiety over your wrist, but, what, another fucking shitty pick and you don’t think I got it anymore? Fucking free agency, shut your stupid fucking mouth, Joe Burrow, before I do something I regret.”

Joe’s hands automatically flashes to settle the plates rattling when Ja’Marr abruptly stands up and slams his hands to the table. He’s looking up at him now, still sitting down on the bright pink stool in his billion dollar kitschy kitchen with Ja’Marr Chase looming over him in fury.

“I followed you here! To fucking Ohio. I hated the idea of even stepping foot in this state before I fell in love with this fucking city! I did it because of you! I have said multiple fucking times that I’m not leaving you. I said to the fucking media that you were like a god to me, are you fucking kidding me? I bullshitted my way through all those disgusting interviews trying not to say the wrong thing and still having people say I’m stalking you or some shit because I can’t help word-vomitting over you! I have been this fucking close–” 

Ja’Marr shoots his right hand up right in the space between them, pressing his thumb and pointer finger so close the skin whitens.

“–to saying to fucking Hobs that I’m ass over tits in love with you! And now you’re telling me it’ll be alright if I leave? That it'll be easier? Just because, what, this stingy ass poverty franchise doesn’t know how to handle its players unless they’re you? That we keep losing even when you throw fucking bullets and I run across the entire fucking field from endzone to the endzone for 60 points? Joe Lee Burrow, I swear if I loved you less I would kill you.”

Ja’Marr finishes his rant with another slam on the table like he needs one more outlet for his anger. He’s heaving breaths, tears running down his cheeks (god, no), face all twisted up. Through Joe’s frozen state, he could see Ja’Marr’s face pale rapidly as he fully realizes what he’s said. Mouth always running a full minute over his brain.

God.

Joe stands wobbly quick when Ja’Marr stumbles around the table towards the kitchen doors.

For all that Joe unashamedly lies over how fast he is–(’i am fast, ja’marr. I can outrun you.’ ‘be so for real right now.’)–he can never outpace Ja’Marr. But for this one thing–this one thing–Joe slams against a blurring Ja’Marr and uses the momentum and extra inches and pounds he’s got over the man to cage him against the nearby fridge.

Ja’Marr yelps as his back rattles against the fridge doors, magnets and receipts and photos and post-it notes not trapped between him and the door fall to the floor. One of those brightly colored humanoid magnets slam against Joe’s left toe. A polaroid of Joe and his Mom somehow balances perfectly right on top of Ja’Marr’s head before fluttering away when Ja’Marr shakes his head in furious disbelief. His beanie had fumbled off his head in the initial tackle, lying on the ground right next to Joe’s right foot. 

Joe’s left hand is pinning his man’s right shoulder against the fridge door, hips flushed against him, a leg between his thighs, right arm tucked against the side of Ja’Marr’s waist, face right up against each other like every other overly enthusiastic helmet slam in the field after a ridiculous yard run–but there’s no helmet this time, and there’s no reason for Joe to hide how his eyes slide down the length of Ja’Marr’s face to his lips, letting his gaze linger deliberately long.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?!” Ja’Marr blusters, cheeks going deep red, eyes pinballing widely over Joe’s own features (to his lips even! how exciting.), hands curling on each of Joe’s elbows with his nails biting down through the thick fabric of his sweatshirt over his skin. “What, are you going to hit me? Break my heart? You already did, asswipe, no need to be an annoying overachiever this time! Get off of me, I swear–”

“I don’t want you to go. I never want you to leave. Ever.” Joe cuts him off brutally. Let this be the firmest truth he’s ever said in his life. “I asked you to come here. I always want to play football with you. I always want random midnight DoorDash dinners with you. You keep saying insane shit about me in interviews, have you heard me talk about you? The last KC presser I had to hold back saying I hurt you in front of 50 people sitting down with their laptops open looking at me like I’m a bug to study. I have never been normal about you. You drive me insane, stop staring at me with those cow eyes. Who the fuck lies about dressing their friends up in magazine interviews? And that fucking photoshoot! Were you planning on killing me? Tee sends me your Instagram training pics from back in May like once a week to torture me! I nearly blocked his ass, Ja’Marr, shut up.”

(like. i want the speech to be more?? idk more emotional in the confessional aspect but alas i don't know how to write shit out)

Ja’Marr looks back at him wide-eyed. He hasn’t really said anything throughout Joe’s turn of ranting, but even so Joe needs him to shut up, genuinely. This beautiful, beautiful man doesn’t know Joe loves him. Stupid. Stupid.

“Ja’Marr.” Joe says, low and hoarse. He slides his hands up to cup at his cheeks now that Ja’Marr isn’t pushing his weight back at him. The wetness of his cheeks from his previous tears seeps into Joe’s skin. “I love you.”

“Oh, wow.” Ja’Marr just says back, hoarse and dumb. This man, Joe swears.

Whatever.

Joe kisses him hard and gets dizzy with it. Ja’Marr chokes in surprise, but gets with the program quick enough.

The side of his nose presses against Ja’Marr’s, he’s biting at his bottom lips, his lashes brush against the cold wetness of his cheeks, his hands press hard against the side of Ja’Marr’s neck and he feels like he can count each heartbeat against the tender skin of his wrists pasted to Ja’Marr’s jugular.

“Hi,” he murmurs over his man’s lips, heart feeling so fucking full.

Ja’Marr laughs against his lips incredulously, eyes screwed shut and lips stretched stupid wide. The prettiest thing Joe’s ever seen in his life. Insanely, he feels that if he were to play all 12 games of the season left this morning right after separating himself from Ja’Marr, he’d throw over 300 yards each. Things love could fuel you to do–winning a championship of a sport he’s thrown his entire heart in, with a man who’s gripped it tight since he knew how to throw it to him too.

“Dumbass,” Ja’Marr murmurs back, nudging his nose to Joe’s for the softest nose kiss Joe has ever experienced, “hi to you too.”

ok bye

[guilty-gear-hot-take-hellhole]

If Chaos was partially controlling Ariels to do her shenanigans, that would imply he's partially responsible for the manipulation Ariels did on the Conclave. Which is. I. Ahaha.

Oh what a funny trickster he is, if he did that knowingly. What a jolly guy. What a nice teacher!

He'd probably be compliant in it since his philosophy is that humans need a Big Bad to unite them all to Get Them, but damn? Making the villains of the story be your own students?

I wonder if Chronus knows about what happened to his teacher... And his current ideologies, in turn. Can you fucking imagine that?

The supposed Messiah, that taught you magic, dissapeared, leaving the heavy task of saving humanity from the Universal Will in your and your fellow Apostles' hands. (Not only that, THE ONE RESPONSIBLE FOR CREATING THE UNIVERSAL WILL IN THE FIRST PLACE. If Chronus happens on that info too, oh lord!)

He was the one pulling strings, making you and your colleagues that were desperate enough to save humanity that could only find a solution that effectively ripped humanity of its freedom and creativity. He was the one that cast you into the role of villain. When you were trying your damndest to do what he tasked you all to do.

I don't think Chronus is a man that gets angry, considering how compliant he was with his probable death at the hands of Faust by the after credits, and how he's just shown chilling. Like he pretty much accepted his and Conclave's defeat with grace, I think. While admitting to Asuka in Rev that he still thinks what he thought was the right thing, thought fate disagreed. (I personally take this as him not exactly thinking it was The Solution since he doesn't seem that? Bitter about fate and its plans for him. He just went it is what it is, gotta go to Asuka because he's the only other guy that'd know how to stop this.)

But damn? I feel like he'd get. Pissed. About that, if he ever found out. That was your whole purpose, what you've been living for, for about the last 2 centuries. And it was all just made as an obstacle for humanity to get over? One that cost your colleagues (friends? Partners? Whatever his relationship with the Conclave were) lives?

(You ever think he gets a bit bitter about Asuka and Ramlethal because they also fucked up real bad but their loved ones are still alive and relatively happy? Sure they had some consequences, but in the end, those they cared about got to live, despite their mistakes?)

I'm normal about this totally.

Anyway playable Chronus for Strive please so I can kick Chaos' ass. For Chronus.

Sorry I’ve been taking long to post these there’s not a buildup I’m just a tad overwhelmed

On that note I am really enjoying these longer character diatribes feel free to make more yall 👍

[docholligay]

DOCDOC BIRTHDAY WEEK EXTRAVAGANZA

HELLO AND WELCOME! For my birthday, i am getting to do things that *I* want to do, but I hope that you will love as well! Stuff we don't normally do, stuff I don't always have time for, etc. I hope this looks as fun to you as it does to me: BMuch of this I have handpicked as "Fuck I would love to do that if I had the time"

Saturday, August 10th: That evening, we'll have a lovely fun stream. The movie that won the draw out of the pitches was:

I FUCKING LOVE THE QUICK AND THE DEAD I HAVEN'T WATCHED IT IN YEARS THANK YOU FOR REMINDING ME IT EXISTED. It's so bad, it's so bad. It is so very much a shitty modern girlpower type fucking movie, it has NOT ONE IOTA of subtlety, it was basically a 60s-70s Western made with A Girl but trying to do business with the grittier Westerns of the 90s AMAZING. I CANNOT WAIT to tell you everything that is wrong with this movie, it is so fun and fucking stupid.

Sunday, August 11th: I'm running a race Full Send because this is how I have fun I guess but then, that evening, Jackbox games!

Monday, August 12th: The Patreon release of some more of Justified Episode one, and then that night, the movie club for The Lucky Mill! There's a separate post on that, I'll make sure to reblog it again a few times.

Tuesday, August 13th: First of all, It's Lena's birthday! According to my canon, the only one that matters. Weirdly this is not related to it being close to my birthday--I picked it out of a book about birthdays that I use for that sort of thing. I 'found' her personality and just made that her birthday. It's how I did it for all the Overwatch characters. ANYWAY.

It'll be a 'liveblog' (More like a series of long posts) about Season 2, Episode 9 of Vinland Saga. I streamed this show, and really really liked it, but Oath was, I think, my favorite of a series of very good episodes, and I can't wait to really talk about it.

Wednesday, August 14th: IT IS MY BIRTHDAY SHOWER ME WITH AFFECTION. I am going to the fair all day. It is also, no joke, Doc Holliday's birthday. How's that for fuckin kismet?

Thursday, August 15th: A series of unhinged essays about the television show Interview With The Vampire, deeply informed by the fact that the Vampire Chronicles were akin to my Harry fucking Potter when I was a deeply weird 13-16 year old. HUGE spoilers for the books, but honestly the TV show has been so different that it might NOT be a spoiler for the show ahaha. (I do very much like the show, in case anyone is worried it'll be a hateblog.)

That night: @keyofjetwolf and I will be watching S2E5 of Interview. She will have only seen UP to that point, and it's one of my favorite eps (I am sure all of you who have seen it know why)

Friday, August 16th: We finish off with a drunken stream. I will be asked to identify anime and what they are about in what I can only assume is some kind of Who Wants To Be A Weeaboo Piece of Shit, while I am drunk. May include audience participation. For any more detailed instructions/explanation, @ultrace is the main runner of this, with a heavy assist by @keyofjetwolf I think it will be very funny and I will do badly ahahah.

And that will be it! a full week of fun celebration! PLEASE JOIN ME AND HAVE FUN

[nakanotamu]

good day madam, i am a hungry lesbian in need of your gayest wresting moments. can you spare me a cup of gay?

Anon you have come to the right person. Everything's been leading up to this. This is what it's all been for. This will probably be long.

Anon I got so excited about this I even solicited my friends for THEIR gayest moments so I'll do those first. You were recommended:

Mahiro Kiryu briefly getting a takarazuka gimmick in TJPW's Hyper Misao produced show HYPE

Giulia vs Konami from the 5 Star GP 2021, which was described as "the first match I remember watching and going OH MY GOD KONAMI AND GIULIA ARE FUCKING", and their feud did later give us a promo where Konami was like "Hey Giulia, you know how I bully you and you like it?" and Giulia was like "Ahaha, yeah?" and Konami was like "Well that's basically our entire relationship, so there you go." She did have examples.

pretty much anything with Raku/Pom Harajuku/Yuki Aino in TJPW, who my friends have lovingly dubbed the Pomycule

Okay enough from them though. You didn't ask them, you asked me and I asked them. Now for the me. I think it's important to note as well, anon, that not all of the gay shit in wrestling happens in a match, or even in the ring. Sometimes it's just shit on social media, a lot of the time it happens at press conferences, you must maintain constant vigilance. Anyway.

Whatever the fuck Syuri and Utami have going on, which I wrote about here.

There was the time Himeka kissed Syuri last year

There was Komomo enjoying getting beat up by Saki Kashima a Little Too Much, which I wrote about here.

There was the exchange between Utami and Syuri at the press conference for Stardom Gold Rush last year

There was Tam Nakano starting an entire faction to, in her own words, surround herself with women with big boobs (their focus has since shifted)

There was AliKaba, the tag team of Giulia and Syuri, which was basically just one long enactment of gay longing from Giulia

There was the time Giulia posted this picture with the caption ^-^ and then deleted it

There was the time FWC, the tag team of Hazuki and Koguma, spent 5 hours in the bath together (sadly they just talked about that I don't have pictures)

another time FWC both got matching bruises at the same time, and then later confirmed that yes they got them together. In the bath again

There were both Cosmic Rules matches at Stardom in Showcase 1 & 2 which I unfortunately don't have any great screenshots of but I'm positive were inspired by lesbian porn

There are constant small exchanges like this that don't even have a lot of context they just happen all the time

There was the time Hikari Noa had a hardcore match against Nao Kakuta and after they did this

There was the time Mina Shirakawa spat on Saya Kamitani and then licked her face

There was this shit in Act Wres Girlz, which for the record kind of depressingly does not do gay stories super frequently but has legitimately I think the highest percentage of out wrestlers I've seen in any company

There was the brief Tam Syuri feud which shockingly somehow did not involve anyone kissing but had the vibe that they were kissing mentally the entire time

There was every single exchange Tam and Natsupoi had before they realized they were still in love with each other but ESPECIALLY their cage match

And, for my money, the gay moment that lives the largest and dearest and most bittersweet in my mind was when Tam and Unagi had their singles match as part of the 5 Star GP last year, which was, unknown to us at the time, something of a farewell tour for Unagi before she went freelance, where afterwards they hugged in the ring for two minutes and then kissed.

I'm gonna cut myself off there but trust me I could go on and on and on for way too long but that's why I think you should watch for yourself. Wrestling is always moving and new gay stuff is always happening. In conclusion,

[mikey-stardust-way]

Wait, wait, sorry to ask us or bring up that loser again But his ugly profile pitcher He used in all social media Is traced over over a sonic character from the IDW comics I heard rumors that he was stealing art Mostly just IDW characters and drawing them Then there was another rumor that you've been stealing some other characters and tracing over them Is like real artist like stealing their work And I know he did. The one time still are From a talented sonic artist which I won't name. I'd rather keep your identity safe Someone didn't do that.

It's Okey you can bring him up! Sure he's an ass, but there's SO MUCH ABOUT HIM!

So, I am blessed with the power to Google extremely well~ and he 1. Uses the same name on basically everything and 2. SAME PROFILE!

He's of course on Twitter, Tumblr, but also has a YouTube channel (as many people have an account) which all he does off it makes shitty comments on other YouTube videos...(typical troll behavior)

He has a DA which has a diffrent profile but I KNOW It's him becuse he likes those stupid ass, "Everytime IDW contradicts the games" and other post among his.....odd fetish stuff.

He also has two other sites, which he's one. One of them definitely is so strange and very old internet? And SO HARD to navigate and where he posts and likes a lot of well fetish stuff and the more odd underage sonic character content- namely a couple Cream the Rabbit things. (Not giving the sites name because I forgot)

Then he's on a more popular well known easier to navigate furry website, same name and all, with a self-posted galley of maybe one original work? But traced IDW character sheets? And an image of Kinetic and Pulse, who I assume is surge but... different?

He's not been active posting wise on a lot of theses but of course lurks and likes/favorites and saves things. He's a bit more active on the writing website vs the art ones.(as in posting)

(But wait! There's more!)

I heard the rumor of him tracing/recoloring and it sent me on a wild hunt and I found SO MUCH on him. He's wound up on Reddit forms a NUMBER of times, people from years ago know of him, he's been kicked off and blocked on so much, it's WILD.

The only good thing I've seen him do, is a decent speech bubble edit of the IDW comics which was alright. Otherwise, he bitches and nags day and night which is sad.

He's said he could rewrite them, and there's was a little bit of him genuinly invested in wanting to essentially judt fix speech bubbles- but he gave up on it and has since then gotten on a porn kick of "Oh the SEGA/IDW writers made this for porn!! Ahaha!" Which is gross to me and not true.

Like the sceans in question are those silly more childish fight scenes of fighting, and it's meant to come off as wild and a bit cartoonish- IT'S A COMIC BOOK OF SONIC but anyways either here nor there-

RIP to the one artist however, I'm sure they were and are amazing! Takes a lot of make an IDW/Sonic character- (and I've been drawing them a lot lately and it ain't easier by much....)

Anyways that's all the stuff I have on him...so far..

He can be boiled down to- "Grown ass man obsessed with X fetish and is full of brain rot needs to touch grass severly"

[neverheroes]

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This is a drawing exercise and I’m just making it up page by page

I have a huge sort of AU half-written but I suck at drawing comics and don’t have a style and am so torn between wanting my own style and just drawing like one of the cartoons. Anyway. Here I go watch me learn, or don’t, and as always; if you know me in real life, no you don’t.

First post: Spending my free time drawing a Step Up but make it TMNT 🎶how did this happen🎶.

Comic stuff is completely new to me. So is drawing people. All of this. It’s hard. And it’s weird that I’m sticking with it actually. One day it won’t take me like 6 hours to do a basic sketch page because I’m like hey let’s invent a whole cast of characters for a dance class. Wanna name them? I think I accidentally just AU an April? and Karai, what even is my subconscious.

Leo is definitely only in this class because the school has some academic rule about clubs but he can’t be in others for some reason. He’s good at it but not the best enough so is constantly mad at himself, which this nasty little whoever is using to manipulate him to get him to quit. I think he treats it like a fight, is great with improv but struggles to be soft. Anyway. “Am I thinking too hard about this?”

Second post:

I really just don’t like colouring I think, or need to spend some time figuring out colouring I actually like. First page was like 2 panels and the second one is like 2 pages long ahaha so I can add pacing to the things I’m bad at. So far one person has liked this post specific and significant hello to a wonderful potato.

[aubreyathame]

THE YTTD POPULARITY POLL RESULTS!

ALRIGHT i'll call the vote now.

DISCLAIMER !! I accidentally lost the first 30 votes or so. So tragically this does actually effect the poll a small bit (especially for last place winners)

221 responses! ii wouldve wanted one more because i hate odd numbers but im lazy and this is like a month old now so at least 50% of you forgot you did this probably.

Shin Tsukimi (Fake Sou Hiyori) - 224 Points, 91 votes (~13.7%)

Gin Ibushi - 156 Points, 71 Votes (~10.7%)

Keiji Shinogi - 110 Points, 48 Votes (~7.2%)

Joe Tazuna - 99 Points, 45 Votes (~6.7%)

Sara Chidouin - 84 Points, 58 Votes (~8.7%)

Kai Satou - 79 Points, 38 Votes (~5.7%)

Kanna Kizuchi - 71 Points, 38 Votes (~5.7%)

Nao Egokoro - 62 Points, 34 Votes (~5.1%)

Midori (Real Sou Hiyori) - 55 Points, 29 Votes (~4.3%)

Ranmaru Kageyama - 53 Points, 27 Votes (~4%)

Reko Yabusame - 51 Points, 29 Votes (~4.3%)

Alice Yabusame - 44 Points, 22 Votes (~3.3%)

Rio Ranger (Sei) - 42 Points, 25 Votes (~3.7%)

Tia Safalin (Michiru Namida) - 31 Points, 17 Votes (~2.5%)

Q-taro Burgerberg - 24 Points, 17 Votes (~2.5%)

Naomichi Kurumada - 19 Points, 13 Votes (~1.9%)

Kazumi Mishima - 18 Points, 8 Votes (~1.2%)

Mai Tsurugi - 17 Points, 11 Votes (~1.6%)

Maple - 13 Points, 7 Votes (~1%)

Anzu Kinashi - 12 Points, 8 Votes (~1.2%)

Sue Miley (Emiri Harai) - 7 Points, 5 Votes (~0.7%)

Shunsuke Hayasaka - 6 Points, 4 Votes (~0.6%)

Gashu - 5 Points, 3 Votes (~0.4%)

Mr. Policeman - 4 Points, 2 Votes (~0.3%)

Hinako Mishuku (Fake) and Megumi Sasahara - 3 Points - 2 Votes (~0.3%)

Meister, Ryoko Hirose, Kobushi, and Touko Rikuno - 1 Point, 1 Vote (~0.1%)

Kugie Kizuchi*, Mr. Chidouin, Ursheen, Stronghold, Ryuu, Gruusem and Jin Mutou - 0 Points, 0 Votes (0%) *Due to the loss of the first 30 or so submissions, I think Kugie got snubbed of being tied 25th place but with 1 vote. I'm almost certain I saw that during early result checking, and I am SO sorry to that one person...

ANALYSIS BELOW THE CUT

Unsurprisingly, Shin won by a LOT. What did shock me, however, was that Gin got second place. I had no clue there were that many gin fans?? Where are you people at...

Another thing that surprised me was that Midori was...really low actually. I was expecting him to be second, but no...he's 9th.

Due to the points system, a few things like Rio Ranger being below Alice is debatable, but...do you really want to put Ranger in between the Yabusame siblings again? It's also insane how Sara scored a fair few more votes than Joe, yet Joe still won.

If anyone's curious who won based on votes instead of points...I'm not writing that out again. Sorry!! This post just took fucking ages to write and it was entirely because of the list I don't want to do that again... ahaha..

ALSO. REKO AND ALICE AND RIO TOGETHER THAT CLOSE... YOU WERE SO NICE UNTIL YOU WERE EVIL.

In terms of placement, Shin won 1st place for 1st and 2nd, but Sara shockingly overtook him in 3rd.

Also the poll did have some...suspicious activity. Namely this complete duplicate answer HOWEVER it also has 4 Saras in a row here which is very funny.

This is also I think the only exact pair of duplicates but I don't wanna check the data again...

Also shoutout to the LEGEND that only answered their first favorite and put Mishima. You might've only gotten 17th, but you left a huge impact on this poll because you had the funniest answer.

anyways, enough rambling. this was neat!

[schrodingers-romy]

REVERSE AU SELFSHIP SNIPPETS

[Reverse AU: alternate universe where I am fictional and my f/os selfship with me]

Choso

✧ Was introduced to my media by Yuuji.

✧ Is immediately and startlingly enamored with me

✧ Makes his way to social media for the first time for fandom stuff

✧ Learns about selfshipping there

✧ Stays up at 3am arguing with my haters on reddit (gets banned from the subreddit).

✧ "My Wife" <- talking to a normal person about his fictional character he's obsessed with, completely straight faced

✧ Romy Shrine ™

Takashi

✧ More subtle with his affections

✧ Starts casually watching my media with his friends

✧ Sucks at using a computer, so he isn't too involved in larger fandom

✧ Has a sketchbook under his mattress marked 'DESIGN IDEAS' where he stores his gushing and his doodles

✧ Uses social media occasionally to look at gifs/news about my media

✧ Posts his own content in doodle dumps; is known for extremely detailed traditional drawings about me in various outfits

✧ Tries to hide his obsession from his friends

✧ Plays it casual when he receives my figure for his bday but I sit on his side table anyways

✧ His friends are shocked that I am his type so they bully him for his little fictional crush (lovingly)

Kakashi

✧ Usually doesn't get super attached to characters, but I'm different

✧ Keeps thinking of me for weeks, goes in search of more content

✧ Discovers fandom and stays up until dawn reading fanfiction

✧ Ao3 user Romys-Loving-Husband

✧ Is known for dropping the most stunning tens of thousands of words alternate universe reader-insert fics with romance and drama and smut and everything

✧ Writes these fics during office hours

Ryusei

✧ That one freak

✧ Will reblog fanart of me with pages of graphic tags

✧ "No lube, no protection, etc."

✧ Grainy screenshot of my hips with caption: "Look at those hips...God i want to breed them so bad unghh 🥵😈👅🍆💦🍑"

✧ Posts vent posts late at night about wishing I was real so I could hold him when he's sad and kiss him and care for him (deletes these by the morning)

✧ Does goofy little selfship doodles

✧ Has a body pillow and will NOT hide it when guests come over

Shion

✧ "Ahaha I'm not a fanboy" <- guy who rewatches my scenes while grinning and kicking his feet late at night

✧ Once punched a gangmember who said I was a lame character

✧ *sees gumwrapper on the ground* reminds me of them...yearning sigh

✧ More of a fandom consumer than a contributer

✧ Made us in the sims (yes he added on The Extension)

✧ Romy Shrine 2 Electric Boogaloo

✧ Got upset he couldn't make his hair in couple's picrews

✧ Cried with joy when he received his first selfship com

[qqueenofhades]

AHAHA! YOUR GOOD OMENS S2 META AND FIC HAVE MADE ME SCREAM AND THANK YOU FOR WRITING AND SHARING!!!

YOUR ANALYSIS IS SPOT ON AND EVEN MADE ME REALIZE NEW THINGS THAT TWIST MY HEART EVEN MORE!! I AM IN AGONY AND LOVE IT HERE. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!!

I must ask because I’m curious to hear your thoughts on the matter (although feel free to ignore this if you don’t want to/don’t think there’s anything to it) (and also if perhaps you spoke about it in your meta post and I unfortunately missed it): What do you think of the recurring theme of Aziraphale and “Forgiveness/Forgiving people”?

I’m guessing most everyone remembers “May you be forgiven” from the bandstand scene from season 1, and season 2 opens with Aziraphale “forgiving” Maggie’s debt (which I believe he later tells Crowley is for “only selfish reasons of course” and is quite happy about it.) He also mentions he’s quite good at forgiveness… and then I’m forced to think of reminded of the “I forgive you” at the end. I think it’s interesting that he says “I” at this moment… and can’t help but wonder if this is a heat of the moment aspect or something that taps into something much… deeper. Subconscious perhaps. Also the idea of what exactly he is forgiving. Is it really “forgiveness” for a kiss or… forgiveness for something else????

I want to scream into the woods for YEARS

Anyways!! Just curious!! Thank you again for sharing your thoughts and insights, I love to see them!!!

Aha, thank you so much! And yes, GOD YES, I absolutely DO HAVE THOUGHTS (TM) about Aziraphale and Forgiveness. It is one of the things that I could have gotten to in my previous meta, but didn't, in the interest of it not being twice as long as it was. But. Yes.

I think we're meant to read the theme in two senses: one, about Aziraphale's struggle with his identity as an angel, and two, about Aziraphale's struggle with his queerness (in this case, queer being his attraction to a male-presenting demon, but gender isn't at all the thing that's keeping them apart; it's definitely the demon part). Aziraphale likes forgiving people because he's an angel, but as he says re: Maggie, it is selfish. It is a quick and easy way for Aziraphale to demonstrate Goodness, it requires very little sacrifice from him, and he can do it whether or not the person in question wants it (in re: the Final Fifteen, where he just twists the knife further after the kiss). In the case of Maggie, it will get him slavish gratitude, he feels Good, he assumes the other person feels Good too -- success all around!

Except of course, Aziraphale is doing the kind of (inadvertently) hurtful weaponizing that we often talk about in regard to the cultural expectation that you have to Forgive people who have badly hurt you, usually your parents. Consider all the advice that you "need" to forgive them, it's on you to forgive them, you're a bad person if you don't -- even though in the case of toxic or abusive parents/family, they usually don't demonstrate any remorse at all. As discussed in my earlier meta, this is especially, painfully pertinent to Aziraphale because a) Heaven is the toxic family/partner, and b) they have, indeed, not demonstrated any remorse at all. Instead, they only keep tightening the noose, emotionally manipulating and gaslighting him even more, and otherwise showing no signs of ever letting up. They want Aziraphale to apologize for what he is, what he does, what he loves -- they want him to ask them for forgiveness, and they'll make a show of granting it, but only with serious strings attached. They've already convinced him to come back to heaven, only for him to realize they haven't changed at all and still want to unleash the Apocalypse. Aziraphale's own forgiveness, despite his best intentions, is still toxic and performative because this is where he learned how to do it, and Heaven's forgiveness of any kind is only ever an emotional manipulation. So he's doing it as an emotional manipulation of his own, even if he doesn't really mean to. Etc. etc. children of abusive families having to unlearn a shitton of toxic traits/emotional reflexes, and Aziraphale is still very tied to it.

As for his "forgiveness" of Crowley after the kiss, there's a few things going on there. First, he's panicking, he doesn't know what to do, he's terrified of actually, fully choosing Crowley at that moment and therefore openly defying Heaven, and so he just reaches for it as a security blanket. He thinks it'll comfort Crowley by somehow magically telling him, "I don't hold that against you and I know why you did it, I want you too but I can't admit that," but while this might be what Aziraphale means, it's not at all what he communicates. Instead it comes off as condescending, sanctimonious, No Homo, and seemingly ultimate proof to Crowley that Aziraphale doesn't return his feelings and views the kiss as some kind of sacrilege that he, the Bad Old Demon Attempting Fleshly Temptation would otherwise be blamed for -- unless, of course, O Holy Aziraphale is so good as to forgive him for doing it. No wonder Crowley tells him not to bother. Everything that is encapsulated by that statement, and what it means for their relationship, is everything he cannot stand.

I also think we're supposed to read it in light of the also-previously-discussed metaphor for religion, queerness, and what religion, especially fundamentalist organized religion, does to queer people. In so many cases, any explicit queerness, or attempt to act on that queerness, in a religious framework, is met with this exact kind of pitying condescension: "I'll pray for you" or "I forgive you for your unseemly queer desires, as long as you repent," or "love the sinner, hate the sin" or other pious platitudes that don't represent any real acceptance and only serve to increase the hurt (not least because "love" is always in very short supply). So for Aziraphale to say that to Crowley, even if that's not really what he means, is the ultimate gut punch. It's not a coincidence that he's offered what he thinks is the best plan -- Heaven! Them as angels together! Returning to serve the terrible system in the fanciful idea they can make it Better! -- and Crowley rejects that unsatisfying and impossible framework in favor of that desperate, wild, angry kiss. It's the antithesis of what Aziraphale is offering, but he can't accept what Crowley's offering instead because it likewise is so far beyond anything he has comprehended or feels ready to take, and... ouch.

Anyway, I also don't think it's a coincidence that the next time we see them in s3 (/stares pointedly at Amazon), Aziraphale will be the one in the position of needing forgiveness -- real forgiveness -- from Crowley, and both of them damn well know it. And how they get there, and how they negotiate to the point where they reach it, will be the emotional key of that final act, and for their happy ever after.

[kimium]

Based on our conversation the other day, because I love hearing what things you love, please list and describe your top 5 favourite moments in Twisted Wonderland so far (from the main plot or side events💜)

I am so excited to answer this, friend! I loved having our conversation together earlier this week as I am always ready to discuss Twisted Wonderland.

To clarify to everyone: I only play on the English server so I will only talk about those events. I'm also going to stick to the main story/events. Vignettes are an entirely separate list.

Also, spoilers for Twisted Wonderland!

My Top Five Favourite Moments in Twisted Wonderland

5. Leona being "volun-told" to help - Fairy Tale Gala

We start this list with an event story! Fairy Tale Gala is one of my favourite events, mostly due to aesthetic and story. Leona is also one of my favourite housewardens! So, naturally, this scene had to end up on my list!

What makes this scene so memorable to me is not just the humour of the situation. Of course, one aspect of Twisted Wonderland that is endlessly funny is how the housewardens (minus Kalim) don't jump to help others. This is especially funny in the Fairy Tale Gala as Leona is "volun-told" that he's the one picked to walk on the runway. I loved his grumpiness upon realizing that he has to go through with the plan.

4. How Yuu persuades Leona to help - Book 3

Another Leona centred scene! I love Yuu, post Leona's overblot, deciding "Yes, I'm not scared of Leona. Yes, this means I'm going to be the biggest, loudest nuisance possible until he agrees to help" is priceless. It also WORKS?? I can't even imagine what the rest of the dorm was thinking. They're recovering from Leona's overblot and now this? I bet everyone's relief that Leona agreed to help was palpable the following day. Though, Leona is a bit of a tsundere, so he was bound to help out anyways ahaha.

3. Rook delivering Vil's moisturizer/lotions - Book 6

I want everyone to know that this encompasses the entire set-up to the punchline of the joke which is "Rook flies halfway across the world to STYX, trespasses, and is nearly killed on sight all to give Vil his moisturizer/lotions." What adds to this punchline is Idia's entire reaction. The sheer humour of Rook going "Oh no, I'm not here to break my housewarden (boyfriend) out of STYX." and proceeds to reveal the truth of his visit? That's comedic gold.

Of course, Vil ends up using it to escape which Rook obviously knew he'd do. However, Rook left the breaking out to Vil and sincerely only came to give the product to Vil.

2. Yuu crashing into Octavinelle - Book 4

I love this scene because it's a stroke of luck/coincidence that Yuu gets Octavinelle involved. There is something about a character desperate for help only to receive it from their prior enemies that makes me happy. Especially when no one expects it. Easily, one of my favourite tropes. I know eventually all dorms help, but Octavinelle is one of the more antagonistic dorms in their book. That makes their decision to help Yuu out all the better for me.

Yuu finding out "Tsunotarou's" identity - Book 5

One of my all-time favourite trope is a dramatic identity reveal. I live for them, especially when the reveal happens in a moment of crisis. So, by far my most favourite scene in Twisted Wonderland is when Yuu finally learns the identity of Malleus.

As someone who loves Malleus, I was waiting with anticipation to how Yuu would discover the truth. Especially when I knew Malleus would arrive to watch the dance competition. The story did not disappoint me. The other's reactions to Yuu casually calling The Crown Prince to Briar Valley "Tsunotarou" lives rent free in my mind. I have replayed that scene multiple times and every time it makes me happy.

And there you have it, friend! I hope you enjoyed my list! I await your own list of top five favourite scenes from Twisted Wonderland! Please, let us know!

[ktracchan]

Haikyuu OC | Kenma Kazue

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Hey guys it’s Kr3l I’m new here in tumblr and I am very glad to post my lovely OC.

Took me a while before posting this cuz … well yeah AHAHA anyways.

You can find me also in IG@ktracchan 😉

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Kazue’s short information:

Name : Kenma Kazue

Age : 16-17 (2012)

Gender : Female

Birthday : December 9 1996

Height : 165"cm

Weight : 52.3kg

School /Year : Nekoma High school 1st year

Occupation: High school student | 1st year Class 2

Team : Nekoma High

Number: 9

Position : Open Spiker / Outside Hitter and part time

Nekoma Boys Manager

Japanese VA : Eri Kitamura

(Dialogue from Judy Alvarez Cyberpunk 2077)

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Others :

Nickname : Kazu, Zuzu,

Fav color : Pink & Violet Fav food : Ramen (anything spicy)

Hobbies besides volleyball : reading,writing, sleeping, painting

Likes : traveling, listening to music, volleyball

Dislikes : Being left out -_

Current concerns: She spaces out too much that's why she can't concentrate to things she is currently doing.

- After finishing middle school in the US as a scholar with her grandparents,Kazue goes back to her hometown in Tokyo , Japan reunited with her parents and brother (Kenma Kozume). Starting as a first year at Nekoma High where her brother studies, she pursues her passion as a volleyball player things still feel the same but some things goes back to square one.

(Will be posting her full info lore soon ) 🫶

[mephinomaly]

[TL] BIOHAZARD/Chapter 9

[ This post uses Ois~su ♪ ]

Koga: Hm~...?

Rei: ? Something the matter, Koga?

Koga: Nah, jus’ thinkin’ about Adonis. At this point in time, we barely had any contact.

Rei: I was his closest confidant and I introduced the two of you and you began having lessons and such together.

Koga: Yeah. But I guess it wasn’t until much later that we began meetin’ up regularly… Ya know, when he officially became one of us.

Basically when Deadmanz was rebirthed ‘n became UNDEAD.

Wonder why Adonis was so reserved back then. He wouldn’t come t’lessons unless I kept insistently invitin’ him.

Rei: Despite his tough exterior, he is a surprisingly timid boy. Especially back then.

That’s why, once you open your heart, you become attached to him since he’s so cute. The same happened with you two— Kaoru-kun, Koga ♪

Koga: Haa? Who’s wagging their tail now, hM?

Kaoru: Ahaha. But really guys, I’m curious where Adonis-kun is. This situation is so weird, and I’d like for him to be here too.

Koga: Hng~! Hnnngggg~! This blows! We can’t even get away from our past selves. Lookin’ for Adonis is gonna be difficu—

Adonis: That won’t be necessary.

I’m here.

Kaoru: Gahh, is that you Adonis-kun!?

You scared me so much… Next time, tell me that you’re here, ‘kay?

Adonis: I’m sorry. I was confused and unsure about this whole situation up until I heard everyone’s voices.

Rei: No matter. It appears that we can hear each other’s voices, but cannot see one another.

Even if you’re here, unless you speak, we won’t know of your presence.

Adonis: Yes. I’m not much of a talker, therefore I am at a bit of a disadvantage. I’m having a bit of a difficult time with what’s happening.

Koga: Anyway. We’re talkin’ like this is the most normal thing ever but, why are you here, Adonis?

Adonis: Like in a philosophical sense?

Koga: Noo, not like that! I could be wrong but I think we can only exist if our physical selves are nearby? Grrra, talkin’ like this ‘bout myself is hella confusin’!

Kaoru: I think we’re going crazy… But what I think he means is, if you’re here, then the old Adonis-kun should be nearby, right?

Isn’t this weird? We didn’t even know each other back then?

Adonis: I also am finding this strange.

I don’t understand why, but earlier, Sakuma-senpai attacked me.

Rei: Eh? Why do I keep attacking people?

Adonis: It wasn’t you, ‘wagahai’ Sakuma-senpai, but ‘oresama’ Sakuma-senpai.[1]

Rei: I understand, however, I don’t believe I really referred to myself as ‘oresama’ back then.

I’m not sure where you got that idea from, but most probably because of Koga.[2]

Since Koga was copying me at that time, people seem to assume I spoke in that manner as well–

Koga: Haa? What, so you’re sayin’ it’s all my fault?

Rei: Not exactly, no… However, this is rather peculiar.

The four of us, who at this time weren’t too involved with one another, are all here together. I don’t recall anything like this happening.

What could possibly be causing these inconsistencies? And what does it all mean?

Adonis: If Sakuma-senpai doesn’t understand, there’s no hope for the rest of us.

Rei: I am still not an almighty, all knowing god… Ah, hush now. Something is happening.

Rei: Haha. My bad for tellin’ you guys to come out here, but everythin’s already been sorted.

This guy’s the main offender in today’s ‘vampire riot’.

Adonis: ...

Keito: You’re… Otogari, right? ‘Vampire’? What are you talking about?

Rei: What on earth am I talking about?

Adonis: I have no idea.

But, I do remember something bad happening around this time. I don’t know what is meant by vampire, though—

Wasn’t this the event that led us to be us becoming UNDEAD?

Rei: Ah, now that you say that… it was. How nostalgic.

This was the last Deadmanz related incident, and the first UNDEAD related incident.

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Current rei uses the personal pronoun wagahai (我輩) and old rei, you know the one in deadmanz used ore (俺). The rei that supposedly attacked adonis used oresama (俺様)

current koga uses oresama!

Chapter 8

Chapter 10

[l1mit-breaker]

GOD FINALLY HES DONE OH MY G O

i present to you my favoritest time travel boi

extra dumb rants from me utc .

chris ( me ) after watching horror videssays while drawing at midnight

they are so lovely but i do not need to be jumpscared by WHEELS and DOORS AAAA ( kane pixels “the rolling giant” for context ) shakes fists ………

i wouldve got this post out sooner if the art arted better but well . SIGH . i also realized i accidentally kind of made him colored like fucking steve from minecraft and now im . i make bad decisions .

anyways ! heres a thing for whoevers still reading; design choices ! because i actually think sometimes ! woo !

i have all the uh , color pallet stuff (???) of the characters saved and i try to use as much as the colors on those as possible because (1. its a pretty cool challenge , and (2. iiii am horrendous with coming up with my own pallets !! ahaha ! for roman i had it in my heart and in my soul ( for some reason ) that he has wavy/fluffy brown hair . i added the highlight things because . uh . colors . and it looks cool . AND WHY NOT :D i put him in a very simple outfit because he is a prisoner ( /j ) and the gloves are for coolness points and because of ✨THE LAB✨ . safety and all that jazz wAIT I SHOULDVE GIVEN HIM GOGGLES GODAMMIT- ahem , anyways the side doodle is just yknow regular evil time travel bull . i think thats it . i probably wouldve done more if not for my brain being half turned off and the fact ive been procrastinating on this ever since i finished cyril .

i also want to mention how badly i want to make an animatic of the time travel experiment log video . but hell knows id never be able to finish that if i tried .

anyways thanks for reading have a great time !