#aghhh idk how to feel about this one either

[chaosduckies]

Friends In Small Places (Chapter 4)

As I’ve mentioned when I had first started writing this, this piece is meant to be gloomy. So, I give you the fearplay chapter. I’m so sorry for the delay, but I hope you enjoy! (I have no idea how to feel about this scene-) Also, I get to put my three years of spanish classes to use :D (Translations are included)

Word Count: 3.5k

CW: Anxiety, panic attacks, slight gore mentioned

4-Liam 

A week can pass by quickly. 

Cas and I have been slowly getting to know each other a little more. Not a whole lot since some topics were a little too hard for him to talk about. Classes at college were getting even more tiring, and before I could ask to take the classes online it turns out that they had already handled it when I brought up the subject. So, now I was practically staying at Cas’s house almost all of the time. Although it isn’t too bad, I’ve noticed something about his behavior. He likes to stay close by me. 

It’s not a bad thing, I’m not complaining at all, it’s just that it’s nerve wracking whenever he asks if I’m okay with him sitting near me. I’m not used to him all that much. I know most people are fine with being around shifters but of course I’ve believed all my life that most shifters were scary, intimidating even. It’ll just take some time to get used to living with one I guess. After all, I was supposed to be a therapist. 

Today I was just writing some notes while Cas sat on the floor, a bright smile on his face as he looked at his phone. I was about to ask what that was about, but then I remembered him telling me something about seeing his parents sometimes this week. Was that today? If it was I should probably get ready. The only thing I knew was that I was required to be there the entire time. They didn’t tell me what was going to happen, how long it would be, but I’m sure Cas would tell me on our way there. 

I shut my computer closed, placing my notebook on top of it before shoving it into my bag and glancing over at Cas. He seemed excited to meet with his parents. I would be too if I had been separated for however long. Then again I live in an entire different city than my parents. They do like calling every once in a while though. I don’t think they let Cas have his own parents phone number. 

“Excited?” I mumbled, walking a little bit closer. I’m pretty sure we’ll have to leave soon. It was already noon and I was mainly waiting on a text or a call that explains that his parents were ready to see him. For some reason he’s not allowed to go in early which I find is kind of irrational, but I can’t just go against them. Heck, I wasn’t even supposed to be part of this organization. 

“Mhm. Last time we were only allowed an hour to talk.” He smiled sadly at me, still looking positive about today’s outcome. I do hope he gets to see them today. I think he needs this. But I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone as excited to see their parents as Cas was. 

“I’ve been meaning to ask you, but how old are you?” I asked, looking up curiously. He can’t be more than three years younger than me. He doesn’t go to school, and I doubt he’s any older than myself. 

“Eighteen. I know, I act like a child.” He chuckled, messing with his hands. Nervous? I don’t really think I could do anything about that. Actually, for someone who has depression and struggles with emotions, he doesn’t lose control a whole lot. Only ever twice has he in front of me, minus the times where he starts growing a couple feet from either watching someone thing or thinking about something. I try my hardest to shut it down before anything bad could happen. Last time I freaked out and couldn’t do anything useful to help him. 

“I don’t think you act like a child.” I laughed, hearing my phone go off. I hurried to pick it up, seeing Cas quite literally beam with a shocked smile. I told them we’d be right there, and then carefully climbed into his hands. Today would be a good day. I don’t know why I get the feeling something bad will happen. It’s just the way they had sounded on the phone… 

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The building looked relatively normal on the outside, with a fancy look that had screamed “We’re rich,” there were different sized doors, but what caught me off guard was that there was an entire security system right at the front that makes sure you’r not bringing a weapon. Cas set me down near the human-sized doors, telling me to just do what they say and we’ll eventually meet up again. It’s kind of awkward taking instructions from someone younger than me, but he’s been here for much, much longer. 

I went through security, answered a few questions, like who I was with, how long I would prefer the visit time be, mostly questions about Cas if I were being honest. Was this why he was only allowed a singular hour to talk last time? Because he had someone else? I don’t really mind spending a few hours here. What could go wrong? I answered as long as Cas and his parents were going to be here. I’d feel bad if I set a time limit. Plus, I’m sure his parents would love to spend some more time with him. 

Eventually they lead me to a huge waiting room, where I was guessing I would be able to keep an eye on Cas. I was I trusted to stay in there in case something goes wrong, but I sincerely doubt it. What was there to be upset about in the first place? I think everything would be fine. I was just staying on the sidelines anyways. Maybe meet his parents, talk for a while. Heck, maybe I’ll even get to know a little more about him. Cas doesn’t answer some questions I have. All for good reason I hope, it’s not like I was going to force it out of him anyways. That would just be plain wrong. 

Out side of the room, Cas had walked in, standing up near the platform I was guessing they’d be at. Weren’t they supposed to take me up there too? A woman wearing a suit walked into my holding room, taking a seat right next to me, “Kayla Cruz. I was Casper’s old therapist.” She giggled, holding her hand out. Oh? What was she doing here then? Why was she replaced by me of all people? She certainly looked like she was more trained for this job than I was. Something wasn’t right here. 

“Oh, um, Liam Rover. It’s nice to meet you.” I smiled, shaking her offered hand and watching as Three people wearing a guard outfit instructed Cas about something to which he nodded to. Wasn’t I supposed to be up there? I think I know which way to go to get up to him. I guess I can wait an extra couple of minutes. I have no idea why, but I had a bad feeling about everything. Maybe I could ask Ryan later? I know the person he was placed with is a shifter who can only reduce their size, was this really any different? I’d have to ask. 

The woman next to me watched, a frown on her face as she looked at Cas, a worried look on his face. His eyes darted all around the room, still waiting for when his parents walk through the safety of the doors high above where I was sitting. Was it supposed to take this long? Why was I the one worried? Was it just a feeling? 

Th woman next to me glared at me from the corner of her eye, a smirk appearing on her face, “They told you he was meeting with his parents today?” She leaned back in the seat. I nodded my head, confused. “It’s technically true, but the company has deemed Casper here too mentally unstable to meet with anyone but shifters and his corresponding therapist, which would be you.” 

My heart sank. 

What the hell. This was just wrong! I have to go up there before they do anythi- I stared up at the platform, seeing a singular guard walk in, say something to Cas, have a short conversation that made his eyes grow wide and slide slowly down the metal-looking wall behind him. My eyes darted around the room, searching for a door to go and help him. Of course I was terrified about what they’ve done, mostly the outcome of what’s about to happen, but it’s not like I can just leave him here. I know what they do to shifters who can’t control their emotions. Their either sent off to a special captivity prison, or they… I can’t think about that right now. I am not about to become the reason Cas gets sent to a place like that. I don’t have the heart in me to do so. 

I found a door that looked like it lead to the room, and almost as if they knew I was searching for it, it unlocked. I threw it open, rushing out, my heart beating fast and uncontrollable. My legs were about to give out from underneath me, breath shaky, my mind screaming at me to get the hell out of here. But I don’t. I knew what was about to happen. They weren’t letting Cas see his parents. I heard slight screaming and yelling in another room that sounded like a woman’s and crying from a kid. But I didn’t focus on that right now. I was more worried about the situation in front of me. 

What do I do? Something tells me this isn’t going to be anything like that other time. Cas has always watched how he reacts to things, what he does, but right now he’s not. He’s most definitely depressed, and there was just something else I couldn’t pin point. People do dumb things while they’re upset. They regret it all later, so it would be best if I make sure Cas doesn’t so anything he’ll regret. Because then that’s an entire different problem to deal with after this one. 

“Cas!” I managed to scream at the top of my lungs, knees buckling underneath me, but I force them to keep me standing upright as his gaze falls onto me. I jumped, chest heaving up and down as I struggled to find the words to say. My body was frozen in fear, not even able to move a single limb from it’s place. He winced when his legs uncomfortably hit the wall opposite of him. I didn’t know what to do. It’s almost like… they wanted him to lash out. Why would they want that? Soon enough, guards ran in, yelling orders while one tugged at me to head back inside, but I didn’t move. Instead, I rushed forward, avoiding the somehow careful limbs that were trying to move into a compact position on the floor. 

A guard was running after me, but I guess someone held him back since I was somehow gaining ground when I was running extremely slow and tripping every once in a while. I found Cas’s head, seeing him scrunched up as much as he could manage as of right now. He laid on the ground, arms and hands covering his face and knees up against the chest. He still realizes that he can hurt people. Maybe I can actually do this? Still, the size difference between us is huge. 

Cas wasn’t crying or anything. Just mumbling words I surprisingly couldn’t make out. He didn’t sound angry. Just upset. That makes it easier to deal with. People do horrible things out of anger. And I could only imagine how devastating it would be if Cas wasn’t thoughtful enough to watch himself. 

I found his head, buried underneath his arms and muttering incomprehensible words to himself. He groaned a bit, slightly turning his body to face the wall, moving his arms away from his face to lay them down. I guess he didn’t see that I was so close to him because his arm almost killed me. I quickly jumped out the way just before I would’ve been nothing but a pile of flesh and bones on the ground. My heart skipped a beat, unable to stare at the spot on the ground where I could’ve died. My breathing became a ragged, and the sounds close to me were slightly muffled, but it’s not like anyone was saying anything important to me. 

Cas turned his head, eyes meeting my frozen minuscule frame and gasping. He moved his arm away from me, doing his best to slowly sit up without alarming the multiple guards in the room, along with the weapons they probably have imbedded in the room itself. I could tell he was still upset, but right now I was too focused on the fact that I could have died. That reminded me just how much power Cas had over me. Even if I was the one who was watching over him. 

“L-Liam I-I’m so sorry I didn’t mean-“ He tried apologizing, voice hitching just before sucked in a sharp breath. My entire body was shaky, but I forced my legs to push me back up and walk over to the towering being. More people had walked in, Cas pressed his back closer to the wall scared. He knew what was going to happen. I knew what was going to happen. I just had to make sure it wasn’t the worst possible outcome of the the two. I don’t think I could handle the guilt that way. 

The week I’ve spent with Cas has been amazing really. Even though sometimes I get a little jumpy from the fast movements, or feel uncomfortable at times when he’s around me, Cas really isn’t bad at all. We’ve hung out for a while, watched movies, played a few games. I think we’re friends? With that thought in mind I’d hate to see them take him to a place he doesn’t even deserve to be in. Of course I was afraid of him still, instincts and all, but I don’t want him to end up being alone. 

I stood up, taking shaky breaths as I tried my hardest to stay upright. Come on I’m not even hurt- I was just terrified. Shocked. A little unstable right now even. If I had tried talking to Cas now he wouldn’t hear me. The distance between my and himself was huge. I looked back up at him, taking deep breaths. He stared worriedly at the people making their way in, looking ready to advance if he tries anything. 

“I’m not scared. I’m totally fine.” I kept muttering to myself. It usually worked when I felt like this. It’s what my dad would keep telling me. Little did he know that I was terrified of everything going on around me right now. 

Cas’s attention turned to me, a hand reaching taking up my vision as I stood frozen in fear. The next the thing I knew I was pinched tightly between two of his fingers, arms pinned to my sides and barely able to move any part of my body. The pressure against my chest increased, threatening to break my ribs. That was the least of my worries. I couldn’t breathe right now. 

“I-I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to scare you like that!” He freaked out, holding me dangerously close to his face. He’s not being his usual careful self, but that was expected when a person was upset. I gasped for air, trying to free my arms from the prison I was in currently, but Cas just kept looking over the the people on the ground that was far, far below me and muttering words in a language I couldn’t hear. 

My heart was racing fast as my lungs had begged me for air. I managed to free one of my arms, and I forced my voice to work for once, “Cas!” 

“…Lo siento. Lo siento mucho. Estoy arruinando todo...” (*Translation: I’m sorry. I’m very sorry. I’m ruining everything…*)He kept on muttering over and over again, and it just makes me wish I had paid attention to my spanish classes in high school. Something about him being sorry? I think have much, much bigger problems at hand though. 

Cas shifted me in his literal death grip, allowing me to breathe, but he was pressing down harder, and a sharp pain erupted from my leg, but I was fueled by the adrenaline. 

“Cas!” I screamed again, trying to pull myself out of his grip. His eyes darted to me, wide and shocked. It took him a moment to realize, but he let go, laying me down in his open palm, running a hand through his hair. I coughed for air, wincing when I checked out the leg that felt like it was on fire. Most likely broken, but nothing I couldn’t handle. It was fine though. I know he didn’t mean to. But still, my fear never wavered at the fact that he could quite literally kill me by not even trying to. 

“¿Estás bien? I-I didn’t mean to-“ I nodded my head, biting down hard on the bottom of my lip. It’s okay, you know him good enough to know that he wouldn’t do any of this on purpose. I had to remind myself before gathering up my remaining courage to actually do my job. 

“Cas, just take a few breaths, okay? You didn’t do anything wrong.” I had only hoped he heard over how shaky my voice was. He slowly nodded his head, I closed my eyes, hoping that when I opened them the ground wouldn’t be so far from me. When I peaked out, the ground was a bit closer, people stood on the ground, frozen in either fear or shock. I calmed my heart down enough to actually get a few more words in. 

“Feeling a little better?” I asked, putting on the best smile I could manage right now. He slightly nodded again, continuing to take slow breaths. 

“What happened?” I asked calmly, genuinely worried about what was said before I rushed in through here. Cas eyes me sadly, wincing, “I won’t… be able to see my parents for a long time.” He whispered, suddenly aware of everything around him again. He moved further into the wall, away from the people below us. 

“And that means?…” He bit the bottom of his lip, “Apparently I’m too unstable to even see my own family.” He sighed, and I could tell he wanted to cry, but he knew what would happen if he gave into those feelings. 

“I-I have a little brother. He loves trying to climb up anything he can,” He started laughing sadly, “You can imagine how much fun he has when he and my parents come for visits.” He sniffled a little, smiling. Oh. Oh. He’s calming down in his own way. 

Why was the world so adamant on having people watch over the “dangerous” shifters? Cas doesn’t need me… and maybe shifters don’t actually need anyone to watch over them. 

“Yeah?” I smiled, laughing with him while he seemed to have calmed down. 

“… I’m sorry, Liam.” He pressed me up agianst the bridge of his nose, this time a lot more gentle. I winced from the sharp pain in my leg, but sucked it up. I think Cas needs this. Even if I was scared he’d accidentally hurt me again. 

Cas let me down, facing the crowd on the ground that had rushed to help me up, limping the entire way until multiple people were talking behind me, rushing into places. I turned back, ignoring the warning from the people helping me. Cas gave a sad smile as the red band on his wrists started blinking, clasping themselves together like magnetic handcuffs. Cas sighed. 

I heard people in another room yelling, even a child’s voice. It’s his parents. I gasped, finding a door to another room I haven’t been in, seeing a guard and a person with a suit and tie in there. Through the small window, I saw a tall man trying to comfort his wife, who sat crying on the bench while the child stared, screaming at the guard to let him see his brother. My heart sank. 

They weren’t going to kill Cas. I knew they wouldn’t. I just hoped I would be allowed to see him in the hospital they’ll be placing him in. This wasn’t right. Not at all. 

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Aghhh plot build up my beloved. This chapter leads up to something reallyyy important for later.

Aww all Cas wanted was to see his little brother 🥺

I hope you enjoyed! I have no idea how to feel about this chapter if I’m being honest, but I hope it’s alright TwT work is affecting my writing grahhhh. Thank you for reading though!

The drawing I did for this chapter is right here!

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[whoisneo404]

Can you write about either nick with his bfs younger sibling or the other way around and it’s super fluffy, and they just look at each other like aghhh! Idk if that makes sense

Sisters’ best friend.

Summary: in which Nick has a little crush on you and you have a little crush on him but both of you are unaware of it.

Note: Nick is mentioned to be taller.

“Why did you buy all of this?” I ask my sister while looking at the chocolates, drinks and chips on the kitchen counter. “Are you having friends over?”

“Yeah, I’m having a sleepover with some friend. I told mom to tell you.” She talks while texting someone on her phone.

“Oh, cool. She didn’t told me anything, who’s coming anyway?” I look at her, I don’t raise my head, just my eyes. She looks up from her phone.

“The people that always comes, you can have all the snacks you want, just don’t bother us a lot.” I pout and nod.

“Understood.” I grab a small pack of gummies and go to my room. It has been a while, it’s night already, I hear people talking and laughing on the living room, my sister has a lot of ‘girlfriends’, of course she also has a lot of guy friends but they don’t come to the sleepovers… except for one, Nick. Nicolas is fun, I like him, he is very kind to me and I really like his style. I hear his laugh, it’s loud and it makes my cheeks grow red, I’m so dumb but I can’t help it, he’s just so handsome and has pretty eyes, he also brings snacks for me sometimes so I kinda like him. The fact that I know he is gay doesn’t help, because I think I might have a tiny chance with him.

I sit on my bed scrolling on my phone and panic texting my friends that Nick is here and that I might die if I see him. So, I wait for the noise to come down, I hear them go into my sisters’ room at around 12:40, I go out to see if they left any snacks and to grab some water. As I walk past my sisters’ room, I can hear the muffled music and their gossiping, I roll my eyes and keep walking to the kitchen, it was dark and a bit cold. I turn on the lights and go to the fridge, I smile when I see my favorite chocolate right in front of me, I take it out and turn around smiling at myself.

“I see you found my gift.” Nick is standing in the door frame, his arms crossed over his chest, his hair a bit messy and with his pajamas on. I gulp and my cheeks blush a bit.

“I didn’t knew you bought it, thank you.”

“It’s nothing.” He says and walks over to me. “So, how have you been?” he leans on the counter and watches as I fill my bottle with water.

“I’m fine, hm, how about you?”

“I have been good, thanks for asking. Why weren’t you with us while watching the movie?” I turn around and put my filled bottle water on the counter right besides the chocolate.

“Well, I, I don’t know. I didn’t feel like it.” He hums, and I look away from him. Suddenly I feel small, his taller body making me feel tiny, his crossed arms showing off his big arms and broad shoulders. I try not to stare too much, key word = TRY.

“Interesting, you used to love watching movies with us. You love horror movies, don’t you?” I nod. “Well, at least you love curling up to me.” he grins and my eyes widen a bit.

“No, I-“ he talks over me.

“It’s okay, I like it.”

“Oh… cool. I don’t know what to say.” Nick unfolds his arms and walks slowly to me; I start taking tiny steps backwards until my lower back hits the counter. “Nick.”

“Yeah?”

“What are you doing?” he leans down a bit, one of his hands besides my body to cage me in, his other hand on my cheek.

“Nothing, just looking at you.” The tip of his nose lightly touches mine. “I really like your shirt, is it the one I gave you and your birthday?” he laughs a bit and I feel my cheeks burn.

“Nick, what if someone comes looking for you?” my chest feels heavy, my heart is beating fast.

“Let them.” he leans in, his soft lips touch mine for a few seconds. “I’m sorry, was that all right?”

My brain exploded, I can’t imagine how red I am right now, I nod quickly and put both of my hands on his chest. “Yes. I- Can you… please, kiss me again.’’ I see him grin, he kisses me again, this time it was longer, I wrap my arms around his shoulders and play with his hair, the hand that was previously on the counter goes to my waist. His lips move slowly and gracefully, it would be a lie if I said I know how to kiss, I am trying my best. I lean back a bit, looking up at his eyes.

“I wanted to tell you something.” He whispers. “I-“

“NICK!! COME HERE, CARLIE IS GOING TO CALL JAMES!!” Nick rolls his eyes when we hear the loud voice of my sister come down the hall.

“I’m sorry, I have to go. But, how about we go out tomorrow? Just the two of us.’’

“Like, a date?” it’s the first time I see him blush. He looks so handsome with his cheeks turning pink.

“Yeah, like a date. Sorry I have to go, I’ll text you” He gives me a quick kiss and fast walks to my sisters room, when I hear the door close, I let out a high-pitched scream and cover my face. God, what the fuck just happened? I think I’m dreaming.

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[asherlockstudy]

Hey I just saw your post about the 40th anniversary for Rhett and Link where you mentioned they had made RULeS for their friendship!! I’ve always loved them but I haven’t seen all their stuff and don’t know much (I’m learning eagerly lmao) but I would love love love more information on that!! I can’t help but feel bad for link too cuz through your post and others I’ve seen it does seem kinda like Rhett has been controlling/ banking over links abandonment issues especially in the past. I kinda see it through their regular videos too that Rhett seems to have more confidence or at least projects an attitude of confidence and “coolness” almost even lording it over Link at times (but I’m not sure if I’m projecting) I still love them both and acknowledge relationships are complicated obviously but a few times in random compilation clips I’ve seen Rhett talking about being Links only friend and having friends that don’t like link and the crew as a whole being annoyed by Link, which sure I understand that’s their go-to dynamic and it’s entertaining and part of why I love to watch them but the jokes about a link not having friends feels too real so of course my over active mind starts running from there and theorizing. Plus it sounded to me like the rules for their friendship weren’t what link wanted and they feel like aghhh ya know! I’m captivated dude I would love to know more.

ANON MAIL PART 2:

I just sent the last ask but I remembered that podcast where Link talks about sending Rhett THE email saying he didn’t want to pretend anymore if they weren’t gonna be real friends, I assume this was the time in which they had rules over their friendship, he even mentioned he got his wife to read over it and support him on it so it sounds like it was a very intense decision for him to even voice his opinion to Rhett like whaaaaa first of all, a little weird, and then Rhett admits freely on the podcast— I think he was the one to bring it all up in the first place — that he regrets that he basically just defended himself to link instead of actually acknowledging what he needed. This was a very short segment of a howee Mandel- idk how to spell that butches name lmao—podcast and they didn’t talk about it a lot so if there’s other ones where they have talked about it that you know of lmk g, but it’s just so sad to me that Link put so much into pouring his heart out to Rhett, basically threatening to end it all cuz he was super serious about it, only for Rhett to defend himself to Link and not take him as seriously or compassionately as he should have AND Link just let it go and found a way to compromise anyways even while Rhett didn’t HEAR him or understand him, he still just kept being Rhett’s friend. And then for Rhett to apologize YEARS later is like bittersweet first of all and then for Rhett to just casually bring it up in a podcast— which Link didn’t seem super happy abt btw. Idk it just rubbed me a little raw tbh but also hooked me in uggggh. This may just be my mind turning link into a new lil meow meow ya know 😂😂 but I would be holding a grudge over that if it was me

Hello and sorry for the super late answer! I have been very busy and have fallen behind with all the mail.

First of all, my speculation is the same; that the phase when they imposed rules on their friendship was some time before Link eventually had enough and sent that email. I agree with how you feel but at least Rhett at some point realised he did not handle the matter properly. Better than nothing I guess. I am not very good at remembering the sources when years have passed, I suppose the rules are mentioned at some point in an EB of late 2017 - early 2018. As for the email, they have mentioned the situation quite a lot of times, in fact I believe the Howee Mandel (<- I don't remember the name either lol) was the first or one of the first times they mentioned it but it is for sure the most detailed and telling one. So even if you don't find the other times, you technically aren't missing something.

I am very tired of this dynamic of Link always being the butt of the joke, the unwanted one, the annoying one. I don't think he has been painted as friendless outside of his friendship with Rhett though, because he speaks often about his other friends, his dads from school club and several others. Actually he mentions friends and going to social events more than Rhett. Rhett has only said Link did not have other friends besides Rhett in their early childhood. Rhett would often go and play with other kids but he had in the back of his mind that Link would be in his house all alone with his toys feeling lonely. That was relatively true when they were kids but then in puberty they had the same friend group, girlfriends and then in adulthood Link developed an assertive personality whereas Rhett sort of withdrew to himself. Real life Rhett is not as confident and outspoken and sociable as he is in their content. Link is often the one dealing with the issues that need "assertiveness" in their company while Rhett deals with the creative part more. To be honest, I think Link is genuinely the least likeable of the two for the majority of the employees but this is not because he is silly or friendless or annoying but because he is visibly the tough boss between the two (like, the bad cop). I am 99% confident that Rhett and Link have the exact same demands and expectations from their employees, however Rhett is less likely to voice them or get impatient because he is always SO worried about how he will be perceived and what the employees will think of him and what reputation he will have then.

Lately I feel like Link is giving up on his interest or assertiveness in a lot of things Mythical though and I have a guess why, however that's a whole story for another post...

[violet-moonstone]

one of these days im going to write about one of my httyd ocs (who will probably never be in my fics, just my head and posts) whose married to dagur but fled beserker island after he was imprisoned (because there was a plot against her life by other beserkers who wanted power - and she's neither a fighter nor a beserker, so they wanted her out)

and then he goes to find her after his redemption arc. and its very shocking to her because he's so different yet so similar. they did fall in love when they were married, though they didn't choose each other, and dagur was...well...dagur, so the marriage was very turbulent.

im very into a certain scene between them that i replay in my head every once in a while in which dagur is trying to convince her to come back to beserker island with him (along with their young son, who was conceived just before dagur was imprisoned) and while she does genuinely want to reunite with him (especially now that he's a noticeably better person) a lot of her motivation is just based in understanding that if she doesn't go back, her son's life might be at risk if dagur has heirs with anyone else and their supporters see their son as a threat.

and dagur gets all sad and says something like "i don't want you to come with me because you're afraid - I want you to come with me because you love me" and he's extremely sad puppy about it and rests his head on her shoulder aghhh

also a scene where dagur meets his son for the first time (and his kid is like...3...4? timelines?? ehh??) and his kid is kinda scared of him because he's big and loud. and his wife tells him not to worry because his son is always shy around new people (because he's a toddler) but dagur takes it very hard and tries to be as gentle as possible around his son until he feels more comfortable and playful with his dad

and then once his kid opens up to him he's tossing him up in the air and chasing him around

hiccup and heather come along to help dagur find her and are both extremely shocked that he was married and never told either of them - he didn't because he didn't know whether or not she was alive and didn't know how to talk about it until he worked up the courage to go look for her

and after becoming aware of the sort of person he used to be, he also didnt know if she would want to see him again

and she kind of didn't want to at first because she assumed he was either there to take her to beserker island against her will or that he was going to be angry with her for leaving. so she kind of brandished knife at him the first time she saw him again

its complicated ok

uhh also this oc doesnt really have a set name, idk what to call her

may or may not be because she's kind of a self insert oc (aka the woman in my profile pic)

[minkkumaz]

as long as ur able to get rest omi!! it’d be the worst to force yourself into writing when its supposed to be a fun hobby. again, u can always resort to smaus and little brainrots when you feel like writing a bit. either way, its really good to do things at ur own pace so u dont get overwhelmed ^^

gosh the fnaf movie.. im terrified of horror movies, but at the same time id love to watch one. has me thinking of so many imagines rn.. I HAVE SO MUCH IDEAS FOR THE MAKNAE LINES VER OF THEM GETTING UR ATTENTION.. but ima get sidetracked and talk abt bonedo halloween!!!!

ID LOVEEE to go trick or treating w them. We could all have matching costumes.. Have you seen the ABCDLOVE mv? The scene with all of them dressed as ghosts (minus riwoo).. Like imagine broke, highschooler bonedo boys just tryna find an easy costume and they resort to ripping their white sheets.

OR OR ORBOR ORROROROROR OMG. idk if youve seen this, but lesserafim dressed up as body guards for eunchae and pretended to escort her somewhere. IMAGINE THAT WITH BONEODIVISOENFIERROROROORROEOEOE.

IM SOBTJIFN. omg bc bc bc BCCCCC. just being in their friendgroup, trick or treating and them "protecting" you. OH MY GOD STOP IT RN BC WAIR.

You've been walking around the neighborhood for atleast over 2 hours, the boys couldnt get enough of the sweet treats getting piled into their baskets. Unfortunately, the heels you wore started to make your feet ache. It was uncomfortable, but you pushed through the pain. It'd be a whole year until Halloween again, and you wouldn't want to ruin the fun by going home early.

Despite that, you couldnt stop the hisses and groans of pain that escaped your lips.

"Are you okay?" Taesan stood close by you, a bit behind the other 5 who were busy trying to figure out if they've been down this street already. His eyes scanned your face, noticing your discomfort.

"I'm okay..!" Though, Taesan noticed how the pitch of your voice increased. He stared at you, waiting for you to tell him the truth. You hesitantly admitted the pain your heels were giving you.

"Take them off."

You gave him a confused look, "Huh?"

"..Just do it." Taesan took off his blazer as you undid your heels, your feet touching the cold concrete. Soon, Taesan quickly wrapped the blazer on you, squatting down for you to get on his back as he picked up your heels.

“You should’ve said that in the first place..” He sighed.

SCREMSIFN. HAN DONGMINN THE MAN TO EVER TKJFJ!!?!1!1!1! no because he so WOULD. he’d wrap his blazer around you to make sure your dress wont rise up too much when your on his back, and he’d carry you as he walked around with the boys trick or treating. His arms are wrapped tightly around your legs, yet he held your heels delicately. TRULY a man who’d watch out for you. I WAS TORNNN between leehan and taesan doing this, but for the sake of it leehan could definitely be the type to also do this. (but instead of letting you ride his back, he’d wear the heels as you wore his shoes.)

-🍉

THE FNAF MOVIE WASN'T VERY SCARY ACTUALLY! in my opinion it's a good horror movie to watch if you dont necessarily like horror movies :3

and omg im a fake fan i havent even seen the abcdlove mv yet! but trick or treating with the boys would be so funny.

them protecting me.. gives me shivers bc why is that the cutest fricken thing. but ngl i imagine them to wear inflatable costumes like that is so woonhak and jaehyun. one is an alien and one is an among us character LMAOOO

AND UR IMAGINE?

melon anon can u make ur own personal tumblr account called melon anon and make imagines because i was actually giggling so bad i had to take a mental reset IT'S JUST SO CUTE AGHHH taking my heels? will be purposefully wearing heels next year just for him!

and him being so considerate and trying to cover up reader too :( whenever i wear skirts and stuff i always worry about what i'm doing because i dont want it to ride up >< leehan strutting in heels?! not a want, a need

[diabolikpersonals]

Yuma with bad memory issues is so good (for us not for him), it gives us a lot of angst bit also a lot of comfort. For example:

Yuma starting to forget a shit ton of things and getting so frustrated about it that he starts crying and throwing things but then the rest of the Mukami's come there all really worried about him, but personally, I like to think this frustrates him even further not because of having to be vurnerable in front of them, but because he can't remember their names either. Now the Mukami's have a sad and a really frustrated Yuma to deal with but we all know hugs make everything better (right?) so Azusa just runs to him and hugs him:D After a few seconds the others join them and now it's a big comforting Mukami cuddle pile (Yay). And maybe after this they might get a lil bit more protective over Yuma than they were before, because if anyone want's to mess with their brother when he can barely remember his own name, they will have hell to pay>:(. Idk what is it about this but Yuma getting comforted by his brothers is just the best thing ever.

Also a scenario like this but with Shu would be really good because we would get angst with that aswell (maybe even a bit more?), since I think it would hurt Shu a lot more when Yuma forget's his name, to him it could start feeling like he's losing Yuma again. Which is sad but also gives us those nice moments of Shu really doing his best to make him feel better (of course he always tries his best when Yuma is involved but now he also strongly show's it) which would really make Yuma feel better and if the Mukami's were close by it could also show them that Shu actually isn't all lazy and he really does treat Yuma well (maybe this could even built up the trust between the Mukami's and Shu a bit?)

aghhh anon it's such a sweet spot for me!! I love this topic so much, everything in this ask is soooo <3

it's gotta be really stressful, yknow?? I imagine yuma being continuously asked "do you know who I am?" and he starts getting defensive, like he's being tested with every conversation he has, and if he answers incorrectly then the other person might be upset with him. I feel like he'd get sick and tired of it, and maybe even lash out and avoid people so he won't be in these situations anymore. but no regular contact with people he knows = he's more likely to forget them. a vicious cycle!! :'0 but imagining he and the mukamis working this out together is so wonderful to me. I never get tired of it. (I should publish some stuff about it sometime gsdhsfh)

I TOTALLY agree with what u said about shu doing his best to make him feel better!! this is a really complicated thing for shu. on one hand, he might think that yuma would be better off if he completely forgot about him (because he's shu, and he loves torturing himself like this lol). but this is something about shu that always touches my heart: no matter how much he tries to cut himself off from yuma, if he sees yuma suffering, he can't resist going back to help him. plus, yknow, I think shu tends to be overly-considerate of yuma—in canon this is something yuma doesnt like, but in this scenario it might work out. I'd love it if, while yuma is acting tough with everyone else, he felt like he could relax around shu a little more and accept his help. (is that wishful thinking? maybe, but I like it....!!)

[ki-flor]

Not trying to be a negative Nelly but the idea that Byler is still up in the air made me nervous at first because when I read it I read it as them still trying to choose between Milkvan or Byler. But the more I thought about it made me think. I feel like the writers may have made the love-triangle more complicated than they thought and wrote themselves into a bit of a corner, so it's taking the awhile to figure out how to write the endgame without ruining all (El, Mike, and Will) of their platonic relationships with one another. I mean there's so much that will be going on in s5 so time is limited. The James leaks saying that byler will spend a lot of time together means YES we will be getting that s2 dynamic back which means they will be alone together which would also be the perfect time to allow some romance between them to blossom HOWEVER if the leaks are true (which seems highly likely imo) that means El and Mike are still together (because El believed Mikes monologue and Mike thinks Will's feeling are El's and he also feels responsible for her) it would introduce this essentially cheating plot-line that makes me kinda :/. And idk how they (Mike and Will mainly) will act around each other after the painting fight but if Mike does put the pieces together and realizes those were Wills feelings and lies to el about it, it's gonna get really messy. And I love messy but not the whole cheating thing because Will wouldn't do something like that which will lead to Mike feeling rejected if he try to razz him up and AGHHH

I do think you're over thinking which is natural. I'm excited either way to see what they have planned and whether that's good or bad is a future worry. The way I see it there is no setup for a cheating plot and this is because of the time skip and Mike's dilemma of why would Will lie to him which makes him be distant towards El and lying to her as well. There is a lot of truths that have to be resolved and I have hope maybe stupidly that the duffers are going to pull it off.

[sualne]

quick mel portrait

[starglitterz]

hi there! let's play a game :D tag your moots, and name one special trait about them and why you love it. let's go!

hello !! this sounds SO FUN AKJSDKAJS LET'S GOOOO !!!!

i'm tagging literally all my mutuals including the ones i have never/rarely interacted with so it's super long & under the cut + sorry for the ping!

also it's organised in alphabetical order hehe

@3rdgymbros - your creativity !! AGHHH you always have such great ideas omg, i love seeing your brainrot posts on my dash, they're so inspiring and the way you write is so cool as well!! not to mention you're just all round a very nice person, wishing you a very i hope you get gorou :> HAHA

@abyssheart - GENESIS MY BELOVEDDDDD <3 i love your kindness !! you're always so sweet to me & my works, plus you always offer to hear me out if i need to rant, and that means the entire universe to me !!!!!!!!!!! rmb that i'm always here for you too darling :D also i miss the xiao theme already 😔 /j ILYYYY

@aelatus / @aelbedo - LYRAAAAAAAAAA !! omg we're kinda new moots but also kinda not (???) HAHA EITHER WAY i love your vibes !! you have this rlly calming, peaceful typa personality & aura (??? idk the word 😭) but yes ! and plus you're super friendly and nice and ur blog is so pretty omg ily and it always seems like you rlly care for me in the nicest way possible AHASJKJKS

@almondto-fu - hello sarah !!! omg we're like brand new moots but i've seen you on my friends blogs and you seem like such a nice person omg,,, i can't wait to get to know you more, i hope we get to be friends :D also is this a weird time to say i adore your writing 😭 the xiao ones actually scratch that ALL OF THEM make me go feral i need to go reblog them HAHA ALSO ALSO OMG TYSM FOR REBLOGGING EACH CYNOSURE CHAPTER THATS SO SWEET WTF ILYSM <3

@blisschi - BLISS !! you were my first ever mutual here omg, i love you & thanks for sticking around until now!! thank you for being my friend way back when i was super nervous starting this blog, and i love all your writings they make me so happy :] i love how sweet you are!! your responses to me when we're messaging & even to your anons are always so cute & cheerful omg, it's adorable !!! i hope we stay friends for ages, and i also hope you feel better soon <3

@bluexiao - BLUEEEE :D hi !!! omg first off congrats on almost 2k !!! i'm so super proud of you omg, you've worked super hard for this and you 1 million% deserve it!! i love your compassion hehe,,, which might sound weirdly specific but you've always been very nice to me whenever we interact! PLUS omg you literally offered to help me w the current genshin event which i am Struggling with 😔 HAHAHA speaking of which we need to co op tgt soon!!! i can't wait LOL and ilysm !!!!

@bookuya - BOO!!!!!!!! *cutely types out thesis on reasons why i love you* OK SO YOURE LITERALLY ONE OF MY CLOSEST MUTUALS KJASKDJASKD i love how fun you are !!!! whenever i talk to you the convo goes in all sorts of crazy directions which i absolutely love, and you're so freaking supportive too ?!??!?! not to mention ur a crazy talented writer, i stg almost all your fics are in my 'favourite' tag LMAO 😭 yES ANYWAYS the concepts for your fics + blog is also super adorable ALL THE TIMEEEE pls ‼ now give me a kiss before yumeko hybrid eats you mwah mwah <3 HAHAHA stg i couldn't pick just one trait to choose omg ilysm 🥺💖

@chaoticallychaos - LUCAAA !!! omg i love how multi-talented you are!! pls i adore it when you send me random hcs and stuff in my inbox, they're always so funny & cute like how tf are you so creative KJADSKJADS 😭 OMG not to mention your art skill ?!??!?! it's so good ?!?!? like i remember when you made the animatic of me, and the one of the modern au genshin streamers' room, they were SO COOL AKJSDKJ ily !!

@childeluv - LOVEEE I LITERALLY LOVE YOU AHAHAH <3 ok i admire your determination !! PLS THIS SOUNDS LIKE SUCH A WEIRD THING TO SAY 😭 but im talking abt like how you always accept comfort/emergency requests & write them super fast to help people who need them, youre literally like a superhero SKJDSKJ plus you have so many series ongoing at the same time yet you manage them all, which is so epic omg i stan <3

@constellarations - HIIII !! we're new moots omg and i just wanna say I LOVE YOUR CONTENT !!!! <3 your ideas are always super creative omg and reading your work always makes me smile :DDD here's to hoping we get to become closer, have a lovely day darling <333

@dilucbar - AERI AERI AERI <3333 I LOVE YOU OMGGG YOURE SO FUNNY IN YOUR REPLIES TO MY ASKS AKJSDAKJS 😭😭😭 PLUS I LOVE HOW YOURE JUST SUCH A COOL FRIENDLY PERSON you literally give me yoimiya vibes all fax no printer 🥶🥶🥶 HAHAHA omg plus your writing skill ?!?!? SHEESHHHHH 😩 AHAHA OMG I LOVE YOUR FICS i hope you feel super amazing & better asap!! proposes marriage cutely <3

@eternism - JADE MY DARLING WIFE BELOVED KISSES YOU <3 jade x quill so true <333 HAHAHA youre so nice to me !??!?!? and so chaotic too ?!?!?!?! I LOVE THAT OMG and also we're like married now no take backs HAHAKDKJSDKJ pls your blog is so fun and cute i love interacting with you so much, thank you for being my friend !! let's meet many cats and kittens together in future 😳😳😳 LMAO <333

@favoniuscodex - new mutuals !??!?!? ur blog is super cool and vibey, and i love your humour !! seeing your replies to your asks on my dash is so funny ALSJKDSK i swear 😭 also omg your fics are top tier, i hope diluc comes home for you soon (and that ppl stop asking you abt inheritance) LOL !! also pls stop with the constant xiao angst my heart can't take it /j

@ganyuslily - KNIVES !!! youre so cool omg you have such a badass vibe tbh AHAHA OKOK so i know you like flowers & their symbolism so i googled this and apparently alstroemeria symbolises friendship !! (not sure how accurate this is considering its the internet but you get what im trying to say 😭) SO YES i will now deliver a HUGEEEE bouquet of alstroemeria to you my love i hope you have an awesome day !!! also i forgot to mention i love your fics omg, plus your music taste is WONDERFUL <3

@glazelilyy / @luceyluce - LUCE THE LOML !!! omg in my head i always think of you as like kaeya simp no1 HAHAHA but anyways i love how friendly you are ! your blog is always so chaotic with all your anons causing ww3 HASKJDKJS but you manage to be on all sides at the same time and ALSO send me cute asks ?!?!? bro ur so powerful HAHAHA ily !!! and ur fics are cute asf, keep up the awesome work my love <3

@huataos - LIII i don't think you're active on here anymore T_T honestly i'm sad we didn't get to interact that much, but during the time that we did you were super fun and nice to talk to !! ily, hope you're doing well <3

@kachuuha-deactivated20210720 - cries patchi i miss you 😭 KJKJDSKJS anyways you might not see this but i love how like tranquil you and ur blog are, you have this awesome relaxing vibe which is so cool 🤩 also omg i love your creativity omg royal flush was so GALAXY BRAINED i stg, you deserve the world, i hope youre doing awesome !!

@kaeyalber1ch - HELP MIMI WE'VE NEVER INTERACTED BEFORE BUT YOU SEEM SO COOL !!!!!!!! omg your recent work abt xiao with an s/o who has a lip piercing *screams into the abyss* HAHAHA i love ur writing and hope we get to interact more !!!!!!!

@koriyue - OMG ASDKASJDK HI KITTY I CANT BELIEVE WE'RE MUTUALS KAJSDKJAS 😭😭😭 bestie i love how sweet you are to everyone on your blog omg, i've seen your replies to asks and you genuinely seem so kind !??!?! PLUS CAN I JUST SAY I LOVE YOUR GRAPHICS WTF ur so creative it blows my mind i have no choice but to stan 😌 KEEP UP THE AWESOME WORKKKK !!!

@lilikags - HELLO LILI !!!! we don't interact that often but i wanna say that ur so epic omg !! you're literally the number 1 kamisato ayato simp HAHAHA if mihoyo ever makes him a playable character we will all have you to thank for pushing the ayato agenda <3 LOL anyways ur writing is super cool and nice to read omg, i hope you have a great day !!

@love-impact - omg rosen you were one of my first mutuals here, and i wanna say tysm !!!!! i adore your humongous mind HAHASKJDKJSD as in your talent at worldbuilding !!!!! holy shoot your oc's and shambhala (did i spell that right 😭) are so creative & unique omg, plus it's so amazing to see how you structured an entire archon quest which showcased all the characters and the land, i love it & can't wait to learn more!!! (also hauteclaire x reader when???)

@mika-zuko - MIKAAAA HI !!! omg we've been mutuals for quite a bit now and i wanna say thank you for always reblogging my fics !!!! the adorable comments you leave always make my day 🥺 besides that i think we are both albedo simps hehe (albedo simps r always swag so true) HAHAHA ily & i hope we get to interact more often, you're always super nice and fun !!

@noirkkat - EZ OMG WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN 😭 genuinely not enough words in any language to express how much i love you ☹ honestly you never fail to make me smile when you send me asks, or comment on my fics, or talk to me; you're literally an angel omg there's no one thing that i love abt you specifically,,, i just love you as a whole sm, you're one of my closest mutuals on here and i'm so glad i get to call you my wife friend <3 AHAHA besides that you're also an awesome source of memes LMAOOO and ur blog is so chaotic yet also organised too ??!?! how do you even. also i want you to know that you can rant to me whenever you need, don't feel guilty abt it mmkay? ANYWAYS KISSES YOUR FACE MWAH MWAH IM TAKING YOU ON OUR HONEYMOON RN LET'S GO TO LIYUE <3

@oreoz-unfortunately - OREOZ MY BELOVED <3 literally ilysm you cant even COMPREHEND 😭 i love what a great listener you are !! whenever we're on discord you're also great at replying, we make so many hilarious hcs (like chongyun and xingqiu and FROG LMAOOO) & you help me out whenever i need help w venti characterisation HAHA plus omg you always listen to whatever im brainrotting abt and don't scold me for rambling abt it which makes me super happy :] anyways i will now proceed to hold your hand and we can move into an apartment together (apartment au so true) AHAHA ilysm !!!!!

@shiningbarbara - cassiel!!!!! i haven't interacted w you in ages omg i'm so sorry T_T i hope you're doing well my love <333 you were also one of my early mutuals here, and i remember that time we were messaging each other about vocaloid & our hobbies omg that was so fun. thank you for being such a caring person and also pls teach me your skill with makeup HAHAHA <3

@test-tube - katttt omg ilysm, i love how cool you are omg!! you're so chill even when dealing with hate anons you literally use memes against them AHAHA i love that 😭 not to mention you're so sweet and positive too !!! i love all your themes omg you're so good at making things look aesthetically pleasing 🤩 plus you just have this very nice calm vibe which i stan and wish i could have too HAHA <3

@teyvatdreams - hello dani !! we have never interacted before omg i cannot BELIEVEEE we're mutuals i love ur writing sm HSAKJDSJKD and you seem like such a cute friendly nice person, so i hope we get to be friends + interact more! ily, have a wonderful day my love !!!

@urujiako / @ohmykazuha - JIA ILYSFM AKJKJSDAS THERES NO AMOUNT TO ACCURATELY QUANTIFY HOW MUCH ILY 😭🥺 i love your positivity !! you always make me want to find the wonder in every day, and talking to you never fails to make me smile super happily AAAA ily ily ily !!! you're somehow so responsible that you can manage like 5 million blogs at one go?!??! and you make them all so pretty ??!?! omg i love that, girlboss vibes HAHAHA thank you for trusting me enough to rant to me, i may suck at giving advice but i'll always do my best to listen if you want to ramble about anything again <3 ilysm and i'm always here for you!! also here's a reminder not to overwhelm yourself, okay? >:( if not i'll have to come aggressively hug you to stop you from overworking. ily and you deserve the galaxy on a platter !!!!!!!!

@velionqs - ASUKAAAAAA MY LOVE !!! omg i love you sm, i still rmb how you sent me that xiao gif when i was on hiatus HAKJSDJKSKDJ THAT WAS SO CUTE !! thank you for being so considerate, i appreciate it loads omg <3 i love talking to you sm, and if you go on hiatus i'll miss you but please take your time !! i'll be here waiting for u to get back hehehe kisses from me to you !!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

@xiaophobic - ATLAS MY DARLING BELOVED KISS KISS MWAH MWAH KJASDKJAS ILYSM HUGS YOU AND PROPOSES MARRIAGE CUTELY atlas x quill lovers arc is currently happening guys dw idk anyone named xiao 🙄🙄🙄 LMAOO atlas i love how thoughtful you are !!!!!!!!!! you always send me xiao (what idk who he is,,,,) hcs in my inbox which are SO CUTE like they have no right to be that adorable omg PLUS i send you diluc hcs too !!! but isok ur eloping w me frick diluc he can go drink grape juice or smth idk LMFAOOO anyways, thanks for being a literal comedian & my friend, ily!!!

@yanbub / @yanphobics / @kokomiluvr - YANNNN you are also one of my early-ish mutuals on this blog but idc how long we've been friends bc either way i love your chaotic energy !!!!!! pls every time your spam posts are SO FUNNY for no reason 😭😭😭 i haven't started tears of themis yet but i am manifesting for you to get a vyn card and for marius to go away (???? HASJDJKSD I HOPE THAT WAS RIGHT) anyways also i love ur fics sm ur like the funniest person on the planet can i marry you rn ☹☹☹ actually who cares about marriage instead can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? 'cause i could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now. LMAOOAJKWDKJASKJD IM SO SORRY BUT I ASSOCIATE THAT SONG W YOU NOW YAN PLS HAHAHA ILYSM !!! I HOPE WE GET TO STAY FRIENDS FOR A SUPER LONG TIME AND CRY OVER FREE ENDING TOGETHER 🥺 MWAHHHHH <3

this doubles as a general mutual appreciation post which i've been meaning to make for a while hehe :] genuinely my mutuals & friends here always help make my day a lot better, you all mean so much more to me than you know and tumblr has rlly become a comfort/safe space for me bc of people like you <3 i love you all, thank you for everything - i'm so lucky i get to call you all friends, and i'm so glad i joined tumblr !!!

lots and lots and lots of love,

quill <3

[royallygray]

stalked my own bookmarks for this lol

believing in the country of me and you by remrose [E, 10k, 1/1] idk your policy on shipping or nsfw but this is a scarian fic with some smut at some points. it's so heartbreaking and it is a fic that I tend to reread every two weeks or so because it's just so insanely good. the entire series (fireworks exploding in the distance) is just god tier and I cannot with it I love it so much. I named one of my AO3 pseuds after this fic. It explores Grian's issues really well. And it uses repetitive language to tell the story and I just. wjrjwkadhakbnaa. oh yeah also it's mostly canon compliant

closer to another shore by remrose [T, 56k, 15/15] This is again a scarian fic by the same author. Scar and Grian are exes, but Scar has to do this Vex dating ritual thingy that is required and he's really not comfortable doing it with anyone but it's required to appease the council (bastards). So Grian offers and Scar takes him up on it. They figure out more about themselves, how they knew/know each other, and just. they figure some things out. OH ALSO SCAR AND CUB BROTHERS AND THATS ACTUALLY THE BEST PART OF THIS FIC CUB IS AMAZING AND JUST. AGHHH I was there when this was coming out I love it so so so much. You can probably read my frantic comments on this fic lol

this is the death of beauty by weareallstardustfallen [T, 6.6k, 2/2] canon compliant. flower husbands. after session 7, Scott goes to Dogwarts to get Jimmys body. my note on my bookmark is "I feel like I’m crying but tears are not falling down my face" so do with that what you will

stuck in a lonely loop by atomicpixiedust [T, 7.8k, 1/1] sobbing screaming. this is a mumbo and Grian fic in the same world as closer to another shore and it is. one of the funniest lines (either in this fic or this one) that Mumbo is trans and he named himself Mumbo to rhyme with his last name and I died there

Wake the Dead by Kiki_the_kiwi [M, 62.6k, 10/10] I FOUND THE OTHER GOD TIER ONE. I have such a soft spot for time loops it's not even funny. I would marry this fic. Lim Life centered. Martyn centric. It throws you in the first chapter with Scott pov (I got rly excited about this and then the rest was Martyn and I was slightly disappointed but ultimately I love this) and then. minor spoilers bc it literally happens in the first chapter. Scott dies. And then you get yeeted into Martyn's pov and you get to watch as he tries to figure out what to do bc he's the only one that remembers the loop. :)

Chickenman, Hold My Hand by crystalrainwing [M, 30k, 5/5] desert duo. Scar is the menace-iest menace to ever menace. Found family by committing crimes. needst I say more. quite chaotic

Through the Sky-Blue Cracks by Amethystfairy1 [T, a series, 464k, 58/?] okay my brain is dissolving it's 1am but this is important. so. this is a superhero AU (Hotguy/cute guy) and it uses hybrid discrimination to tell half the story. and it's super cool. just. super cool. recommend. ALSO FLOWER HUSBANDS IS SO CUTE IN THIS. THEYRE SO CUTE AND SO AWKWARD AND JUST. I AM NOT NORMAL ABT THEM. it also has scarian and also some other ships and also there's a REALLY lovely soup group episode. I say episode. its a fic

bfop au by @insomnya777 it's superhero smalletho. and gem. rip Joel he's not having a good time. Joel and Etho are complicated af and just. stuff happens. I'm so sorry I am not doing this fic justice. literally cannot believe this god of an author is my moot but y'know. Joel is villain, Etho hero. enemies flirt but ooooh they actually care omg ~problems~

anyways I gotta sleep now so my brain works again

you know what I haven’t seen going around in a while, and could use some of myself? fic recs! so, consider this both a rec and a self-promo post: recommend some fics to me in the reblogs and I’ll reblog your recs! in general, try to include both a summary and why you’re reccing it (whether it’s a self-promo or someone else’s), and let’s get some eyes on fics!

[jrwiyuri]

Fuck I had a whole ask written out and it deleted :<

I’m too tired to rewrite all the explanations so just ask about anything you’d like to know more about

Rockabye: Chip & Ollie mirroring Arlin & Chip

Crazy = Genuis: Chip. The opposite of Gillian, how he’s doing morally mindset & things but also not really in a malicious way. He’s a child who never got the chance to mature. Plus his batshit plans somehow working and general spark/spunk.

Shots: Jay, especially concerning her “family” looming as a very real threat to her real family

I’m Gonna Win: Gillian. Specifically in the context of his good message in an ominous tone. Like, he’s definitely going to hurt or even betray someone on accident just because he’s a stubborn paragon. Not on purpose of course! But his mindset is dangerous.

I’m on a boat: Earl

Nothing Critical: Lizzie

I’m fairly local: el ch

Okay wtf these are all so accurate??? Fucking hell the first one made me get emotional REALLL quick cause I know the song like ahzkzbdksnfkSjnfjsnf sobbing.

The second one does describe chip hella well- he is that very chaotic but somehow manages to get shit right type (some fucking how;;)

Jays made me sad as well but like agHhh it’s so accurate :((!! It’s hurts even more cause I can relate to having very complicated feelings with family and like djskfjemn jay doesn’t wanna hurt either of themmmm Hhh :( (chip I love u but why the FUCK did you say they’d help with the war god dammit you stupid bitch arGGg bARK BARK)

Again- gillions is VERY accurate!! Like seriously- from the over confidence but also kind of jsut faking it to saying he’d possibly end up very i Kruger / alone (losing all of his allies) to ‘win’ (likely the shit to do with the prophecy but tbh can jsut go for anything with his moral compass) it’s a very good song 4 him

Earls is.. it’s just accurate. Nothing else to even say LMAO

Lizzie is also soo good!! The kind of relaxedness to it but also being very aware that she is prepared for betrayal or sudden aggression and will fuck you up (specially towards jay?? Yeah this is very good)

Also idk if you ended up being cut off or I’m stupid and have a bad memory but idk who el ch is 😔

[apenapaperandadoofus]

college au (spicy)

Yoosung x MC? 👀

Oop I see you there nonny :0

MM college AU (Yoosung x MC) nsfw-ish wink wonk

Warnings: uhhh lote of fluff and also sum drinking so uh yeah (idk if I should put it as a warning but there ya go anyway, just in case!)

You bitterly congratulated yourself as you looked at the text message you just received from your classmate.

Basically you had overslept, playing games too late at night(or should we say morning? You went to sleep at 4am and your class was at 7!) You didn't hear your alarm and basically missed your first day of class!

To be fair, you had planned on going to sleep at 12, but all of a sudden this bastard stole your loot and you wanted v e n g e a n c e

Sadly you weren't able to find the guy and had to cool off by playing a few rounds of LOLOL and just massacring the enemy team. Still, you swore to get back that amazing item you had just received.

The thing was, the first day of class, your professor had actually given everyone a group project! Yes, he was one of those teachers -_-

Since you hadn't been there you weren't able to group with your friend, and you had gotten paired up with people you didn't really know. You weren't super good at making friends, so you were getting a bit nervous, and you also didn't want to loose the whole percentage of the work, since you did have to get good grades!

A few weeks later, the group (who had already made a group chat a few days after you missed class, there were a total of five people with you included) and you all decided to meet at the coffee shop near the campus to talk about the project. It was due in two days, and you already had most of your part of the work done thankfully! We stan being responsible (a/n says the procastination queen LMFAO SORRY)

When you made it to the coffee shop, you only saw a total of two people there. One of them was a plain looking dude, with brown hair wearing some purple glasses, and the other one was a blonde boy who immediately made you think of a golden retriever! The two guys looked up at you, with the blonde one immediately standing up and introducing himself.

"Hi! Uhm, my name is Yoosung! Yoosung Kim! Nice to meet you!"

Oh my goodness he's adorable... though where have I heard that name before...?

You introduced yourself and told him your name, replying that it was nice to meet him too!

As you sat down beside him, you couldn't help but sneak glances in his directions. He was very very cute, his purple eyes looking all happy and excited all the time. Yet sometimes you could see a hint of.... hopelessness. You wondered why.

It turned out, that the other group members had suddenly called in sick, or said they had a family emergency. Not only that, but the plain guy with glasses gave you both an usb and mumbled that he actually had to go somewhere else today, but that he had his part of the presentation done and was in the usb.

Of course that did not make any of you happy at all. Yoosung looked as if he was about to either cry or punch someone, maybe both, and you werw mad that your teammates were so useless. But you tried to stay positive, I mean hey, now you get to spend time with the cute guy alone!

The two of you seemed to be the only ones to have done any work, the glasses dude's presentation was....let's just say wrong information and a white background with a yellow sans font. No I'm not joking.

"AGHHH this is impossible! How are we going to get all this work done in two days!? This is three people's part of the project, and it's not exactly short! Were gonna be here all afternoon!" Yoosung sobbed, as he covered his face and laid his head on the table.

"H-hey it's alright! We can uh...we can do it! I'm sure it won't take that long!"

It did take that long.

In face, it was 3am when you finished and had to leave the place because it was closing, so you had to go to your room and finish it there.

As soon as you were done, you both let out a tired victory yell and you fell back on your bed.

"Oh,hey Y/N, could I borrow your computer for a second? I just gotta check something that can't really wait..."

"Sure!" You gave him a thumbs up and rolled on your side to face Yoosung who was probably checking his emails.

You were not prepared for the scream that he suddenly let out.

"YOOSUNG!? IS EVERYTHING ALRIGHT!?"

He flinched when he heard your voice and slowly got up from the chair, pointing a finger shakily in your direction.

"Y-you....y-y-you a-are....TortillasRock320?"

You immediately sat up upon hearing the username you had made when you were 13 suddenly being said. Then you nodded. "How...how do you know me...?"

Yoosung's face became paler and you could see him start fidgeting a little before he pointed at himself.

"S-Supeman...Y-Yoosung...."

You immediately let out a gasp, shocking the poor boy and you stood up. "YOU!! YOU STOLE ALL MY LOOT IN LOLOL!"

"IMSOSORRYIDIDNTMEANTOITWASANACCIDENTITRIEDGIVINGITBACKBUTYOUATTACKEDMEANDTHENIJUSTPANICKEDANDLOGGEDOFF."

"I...ugh....dammit. it just had to be you didn't it?" You rubbed your temples and then Yoosung looked up from the ground.

"U-uhm...I could give it back...and uh...maybe get you some food?"

"Food isn't gonna cut it, as much as I love it."

"W-well how about we go and eat in a few days f-for now and then uh...we couldddd....think of something else!" He looked at you with a big smile and who could say no to that face?

So you exchanged phone numbers. It was just meant to try and see whenever the two of you could meet up for some food, but then it became into LOLOL discussions, and just talks about everything and anything. He talked a out his family, his friends, and his struggled with school, with you eventually telling him about your struggles as well. Before you knew it, the two fo you were speaking every single day, at any hour, and you had found out so much about each other. Not only that, but you had eventually become attracted to him.

Finally, vacations came! And the two of you decided to celebrate it by going to a bar with your friends! But then the two of you left because there was too many people, so you bought some beer and went to a nearby internet cafe to play....you guessed it! LOLOL

The two of you had such an AMAZING time, taking shots everyone one of you got killed, or destroyed a tower, or killed one of the dragons, or....well eventually it was just you two drinking and playing.

When you were done it was about 1am, and the cafe closed so you decided to go to Yoosung's place to maybe play there. But then, as the two of you drunkenly made it up the elevator, you suddenly remembered that Yoosung owed you from stealing your loot!

"Hic! Y-Yoosung...l-listen to me y-you brat. You oweeee me a wishhhh."

"Huh?.....oh wait...yeah I d-do right? Bec- hic! Becauzeee I stole your loot last t-time right??"

"I k-know what I want. L-lets just go to y-your apartment first....hic!" You smiled evilly as you thought about what you would do.

You grabbed Yoosung's hand, and he led you towards his place. After laughing and fumbling with his keys for a solid 2 minutes, Yoosung managed to open his door! He mockingly bowed and said "Y-you firstttt~" which made you courtesy and giggle replying "Wh-what a gentleman!"

You waited for Yoosung to close the door, and then he turned around to look at you with a big smile on his face.

"S-sooo Y/N! What...what do you want me t-to do?" He asked.

You made your way towards him and smirked. Then before Yoosung could reply he let out a help as you grabbed him by the hair and made him kneel in front of you, in all fours. "Yoosung. I want you to be my....servant for a day. I want you to do anything I ask you to."

Yoosung gulped and shyly looked up at you, his entire face red. "I...I should? Anything?"

You chuckled. "Yes. You owe me remember? That was a pretty rare item, the one you stole for me. So you should....pay...for what you've done, don't you think so?" He slowly nodded and you pet his head. "Good boy~ Now how about we start by....you taking your clothes off."

Yoosung's eyes widened, but you tightened your grip on his hair and he slowly started undoing his shirt buttons. Then he looked up at you again. "U-uhm...Wh-what else should I do...?"

"Mmm how about you take your pants off now? And do it quickly Yoosung, we don't have all day."

He nodded and took his pants off, kneeling in the ground only in his boxers, and then, in the heat of the moment (you don't exactly knew what took over you) you pressed your foot between his legs, making Yoosung let out a surprised gasp.

"Oho~ You like this don't you? You're hard." You chuckled and pressed harder between his legs, and Yoosung let out a moan.

"I'm...ngh! S-sorry, I d-don't really understand why it's...it's like that uhm.. I'm sorry."

You chuckled and knelt beside Yoosung, cupping his face in your hands. "Yoosung you don't need to apologize. It must feel hot down there...how about we make you feel good?"

Yoosung became even redder, but he looked to the side and covered his mouth with the back of his hand, shyly nodding at you to continue.

You smiled and took Yoosung's underwear off, his member already hard, and slowly, you started licking the tip making Yoosung moan.

"MNGHHH! Y-Y/N!!!"

"Mhmm? What ish it Yoosung? Mmph..." You replied, looking up at him while having his member in your mouth.

"Y-you're....s-sucking...it! Ah! I- I'm....if you do it with your tongue like that...I'm going to...-mmmgh!".

He's adorable, you thought, as you sucked harder and harder. Soon, Yoosung reached his climax, and you mischievously smirked. "I'm glad you enjoyed it...now how about we go to the main course? I deserve to feel good too, you know?" You said, as you took your jeans and underwear off.

"H-huh?! N-no, wait I just ca-AHHHHN~"

Yoosung gasped as you slowly took him in, straddling him. You tangled your fingers in his hair while Yoosung gripped your hips, his hands trembling.

"I'm....I'm moving now, ok Yoosung?"

Yoosung moaned as you started grinding your hips against him, your hips moving quickly up and down on their own. You laughed and leaned your head back, making Yoosung look confusedly up at you.

"You're just so adorable Yoosung!....I really like you, you know?"

Yoosung stared at you, and then he quickly grabbed your head and pulled you in for a rough kiss.

"I...mhm...I've liked you...too...mmm...for a very...very long time...Y/N." He whispered between kisses. "Agh! Y-you suddenly tightened up, down there....mhm it...it feels really good." He said as he looked at you, his eyes teary and full of lust.

Goddamn this man.

"Yoosung...I...I like you too!" You felt your face heat up a bit, and Yoosung quickly pulled away to look at you. Then, he tightened his grip on your hips and quickly started moving up and down

"Y-Yoosung!!!! Y-you're moving t-too fast! Mhm!!! I can't!! Too fast! Too fast!"

"Y/N...Y/N...." He whispered, burying his face in the crook of your neck, as his thrust became faster and harder.

"I'm going to...." You gasped.

"M-me too! Let's...let's do it...together!"

You pulled Yoosung in for a kiss and the two of you moaned as you both reached your climax.

The two of you held each other for a bit, until Yoosung got cold and he carried you to his bed. The two of you kissed each other for a bit, before falling asleep.

The next morning you found Yoosung on the corner of his room, his ears all red while he hugged his knees.

"Uhm....Yoosung! Mor...ning...?"

He flinched as he heard you and then he slowly looked up. Before you could ask him what in the diddly darn heck his ass was doing in there, he got up and bowed.

"I'm so sorry!!! I'm sorry about, about yesterday I was drunk, and then I just got really excited and kept going even after you said it was too fast, and I also said all that weird stuff and I'm just, I'm really really sorry!!"

You were taken aback for a minute before you smiled and made your way towards him, making him look up at you. "Yoosung...you don't have to apologize for anything. I know we....we were a bit uh...well we were really drunk but... I still stand by everything I said yesterday. I do like you. I...I like everything about you Yoosung."

His face became red, bue eventually Yoosung slowly and shyly smiled at you. "You...you really do?"

"Yessir."

"Heh....I'm...I'm so happy Y/N...I really like you too!"

He cupped your cheek and the two of you slowly got closer and closer until your lips were touching in a chaste kiss. When you finished Yoosung chuckled, still red in the face. "So uhmm...does that mean we're a...couple now?"

You smiled and poked his cheek. "Yup! And there's no going back after this, you hear me?"

"Y-yes! Of course I'd never think of it!"

"Good! Now how about we go back to bed...and have a little fun hmm?~"

Yoosung smiled and pulled you towards him, smiling. "That doesn't sound too bad...and we're on vacation right now, so I don't see any reason we shouldn't stay in bed and do...that all day."

You laughed and Yoosung picked you up bridal style, gently throwing you in his bed and pinning you down.

The two of you officially became a couple that day! Yayyy!

Also btw you got an A- in the assignment so good work fellas ;)

The end!

[queerlyglittering]

so I just found out that the guy whom I’ve been hanging out with playing board games and such, and who DMs the D&D campaign I just joined, is trans. Like he came out to me and Brett after a couple of the other guys left; he said he felt like we were most likely to be cool with it. and I’m really glad he felt comfortable to tell me that! like it’s a lot more obvious on here, because I’m out about a lot of my own gender/sexuality stuff on here? but irl we live in a really shitty rural conservative town, so I’m not as open about.. well anything really lmao. So it’s good to know that I still put out the vibe of like. being like a decent and accepting person irl, even in small-town Conservativeville lmao. I still kinda didn’t really know how to react? like I feel bad because I feel like I may have belittled his coming out in a way? like I know coming out is a huge thing, I know, I’ve been through that before with coming out about my bisexuality, and my nonbinary gender (which I’ve really only come out about irl to literally one person lmao; shoutout to @wiccawolflover, ilu gurl). So like I didn’t mean to like, downplay the significance of that, but I feel like I may have. I just wanted to like express that it’s sort of a non-issue for me, like it’s not gonna change my perspective of him or anything. I really want to like clarify that with him next time I see him (which will probly be Tuesday, apparently we’re moving D&D to Tuesdays from Thursdays) because aghhh. Like also a big part of why he came out was because of like gender presentation/clothes issues? like he mostly is trying to come out to the whole group a little at a time, so he can just feel comfortable wearing whatever he wants in his own home lmao. so then Brett made some cracks about guys wearing dresses and about how he’s worn them before so it’s no big deal, and just Brett’s nature and stuff... idk it came off like maybe we didn’t take it seriously enough. like i don’t want Sam to feel like we were mocking him or anything. like I didn’t mean anything of what was said disrespectfully, and I’m sure Brett didn’t either, but I can still see how it could’ve come off that way and idk. maybe i’m just overthinking this. but i just want him to like feel cool and not uncomfortable around us because of how we reacted. aghhhhh

also I kind of did mention @jxhniarty in passing, like “oh it’s cool, one of my best friends is a trans guy so I’m cool with that” like I didn’t mean to make you my token trans friend or anything lmao, that’s just kinda how it came out, so I’m sorry about that too OTL

aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i’m an idiot, more at 2

[feuqueerfire]

History 3: Make Our Days Count

I don’t actually know much about what this is about except the ending (I’m gonna watch till ep 9 I think) and I think this is high school + one of the mains is some kind of delinquent? 

Ep 1 (Nov 13) 

Haoting the class hero in rebelliousness 

Haoting’s girlfriend so pretty. i haven’t heard of a cheating plot, so I assume they break up?

wait are they getting frisky in the nurse’s office lol 

dang they really went for it

lol I like that we get to see Haoting’s dynamic with his family

are this gym people a second couple? I forget those exist sometimes

Sometimes the subs are missing for a sentence or two and it greatly annoys me, should I try to see if the Viki version is free with VPN. aghhh Switzerland does have free MODC but it’s like no you’re using VPN, so you can’t watch

Ep 2 (Nov 13)

The drama with the girl is kinda interesting like she’s Haoting’s gf, Haoting’s ambivalent towards her so she starts liking Shi-gu

second couple older guy being like “he’s at the age to like something quickly and move on quickly” about his younger love interest, okay, i like that

lmfaoo not the 2nd couple younger guy (i keep forgetting his name rip) going to surprise his crush but seeing him with Shi-gu and being upset

Ep 3 (Nov 13)

lmfao Shigu so funny, he got harassed by two guys in the same friend group for trying to 1) steal his older male crush and 2) steal his current girlfriend. whole time Shigu doesn’t like either lmfao

huh [BoXiang?] just kissed Chigang randomly like that? agh

What did Hiaoting write on Shigu’s desk

loll now that Shigu told her he doesn’t like her, the gf went back to Haoting 

lmfaooo Boxiang tryna get Haoting to apologize to Chigang on his behalf but Haoting’s first like loll wait you fr like a guy? and then after pointed out who it is, he’s like wait he’s kinda old? 

wait Boxiang has a little mushroom that gives him luck/strength/smth? 

bro Boxiang’s giving me such a headache, do I skip their storyline...

also I think Boxiang’s name means Sun or smth, the subs refer to him as such

Ep 4 (Nov 14)

Haoting preventing Shigu from taking an exam... death

y’know when Shigu was running to school I was like wow... running across on street with cars coming... and now Haoting actually saving Shigu from getting run over by a motorcycle... they really were foreshadowing this to hell and back (although idk who actually even dies)

i just don’t care about the side couple agh, so sad because I love an age gap w younger seme 

bro BoXiang (Sun) is so annoying, idgaf about this side couple

Ep 5 (Nov 14)

lmfao not Haoting literally having dreamy thoughts about Shigu while watching him sleep at the nurse’s office

loll it’s cute that Haoting’s asking Sun about how he feels about Shigu and how to know if he likes a boy

aslkd;fj the little mushroom was referring to their dick?

Haoting’s wildass methods of confirming and then confessing his feelings

lmfao I’m dead at Haoting buying food for Shigu and doing pushups as he waits for him at the nurse’s office, whole time Haoting has a gf

Ep 6 (Nov 14)

I’m so done with Haoting, why is he getting overly worked up and accidentally outing his friend Sun Bo aghh

I’m kinda skipping through Sun Bo and Chigang but some of their convo during that confession is interesting

Haoting tryna convince Shigu to eat his lunchbox lol kinda cute in its ridiculousness + the “hmm if we 2 guys start going out, won’t the pressure be too much? but to make an enemy of the world feels pretty nice” lol

Haoting is so fucking hotheaded, I can’t do this anymore. Just straight up punching a guy at the bar because he was touching Shigu but I’m pretty sure it’s just his employer or smth

fuckkk seeing Shigu kneeling in front of Haoting and begging to be left alone and confessing that he has no fucking money I’m so askdlfj

I was supposed to either go to sleep or watch 20 mins of one of my lectures but I guess I’ll watch ep 7

Ep 7 (Nov 14)

for sure going to sleep after this 

Aw, some brother sister bonding even though it feels unearned to heart the sister talk about Haoting’s good qualities and praise him

bro Haoting breaking up with his gf (only good thing he’s done so far) and her crying face D: oh noo so cute and pitiful. i’m just soooo susceptible to girls who are pretty but unfaithful (Ploy in Love Mechanics, the gf here)

it’s so tiring to just have either Sun or Haoting get angry or impulsive and do something that makes it bad for themselves, their love interest, or each other. like haoting rlly just started yelling in the middle of chigang’s cafe even though he was literally regretting being cocky and inconsiderate last night after doing smth similar at shigu’s workplace like i’m so done

am i supposed to be happy for Sun Bo and Chigang like idcccc

Ep 8 (Nov 15)

soft ‘i don’t like men, i just like him’ trope

loll Haoting’s friends reading yaoi to understand things better

okay acc i can forgive the ‘i don’t like men, i just like him’ soft trope here bc it’s not acc saying that? before he was more like ‘i only like him rn so i don’t like men’ and with the friends supporting Sun for liking men, Haoting said he also likes men

Chigang was out of line with the way he spoke to Haoting; should’ve explained the situation and how Haoting can support Shigu, not insinuate that his presence in Shigu’s life can only be negative

Ep 9 (Nov 15)

dang, Shigu waiting for Haoting to show up

bruh, everything became so complicated. hope the gf gets ting-an to confess that he’s the one who mocked up the photo (all this over a pic in front of a gay bar lol)

i love haoting and his sister’s dynamic ahh siblings 

Ep 10 (Nov 15)

Shigu in Haoting’s bedroom

aww Shigu being envious of Haoting’s freedom to do whatever the heck he wants and tearing up thinking of how it would’ve been different for him if his parents didn’t pass away when he was younger

how old is Chigang btw like I’m assuming the high schoolers are 17/18 bc it sounds like they’re in their final year but is Chigang like... 20 or mid-20s

Shigu so cute and smiley around Haoting now

loll I think I’ve seen a bit of a clip of when Shigu comes to Haoting’s house and his parents’ reaction on tiktok before

Wooa, Haoting kissed Shigu

lol Sun and Chigang making out in the bathroom

Ep 11 (Nov 16)

dang the Sun and Chigang scene just continued lol I’m kinda just not into them so i skipped it  

damn haoting is so enviable for being able to just be #2 in terms of grades at school whenever he wants

them messing around like this in Haoting’s living room is making me so nervous like bro what if ppl really are still home + they even talked about not locking the front door

‘damn, they’re really going at it’ i say as i forward through it bc i’m anxious and yep, here the parents are

i will say though, haoting’s shirt baring his shoulders while he’s on shigu’s lap is interesting; it’s a v uke trope 

oh fuck, the parental homophobia. the recent shows i’ve watched have had supportive parents or no homophobia (like LITA, The Eclipse, Star in My Mind) so this is... :’)

once again, i love sibling relationships ah Haoting’s sister being there for him :(

okay mom pls come around quickly and also convince the dad pls

Ep 12 (Nov 16)

sun bo’s cousin giving chigang the safe sex talk (i think? based on the skimming)

oof, that phone call. shigu not speaking

woah shigu coming to ask permission from haoting’s parents, a very seme move, i guess it’s bc taiwan doesn’t really do as much seme/uke so it’s really fun to see the tropes be spread across both characters (as if they’re real people and not archetypes lmfao)

the parents realizing Haoting listens to Shigu... hope this means they’ll allow them to date and not that they’ll 

Ep 13 (Nov 16)

okayyy the parents are gonna talk to yu shigu,i believe in their approval

i was wondering if shigu and chigang-ge hanging out will cause problems bc sun and haoting are fucking impulsive and angry but seems like it went well so far... who knows tho

why the fuck is the side couple getting engaged or smth

Ep 14 (Nov 17)

so haoting and shigu are talking about how they’ll go to college/workforce etc whatever if the parents don’t agree and are planning for “forever” but like... it all feels so serious considering they’ve dated for like 2 days bruh

girl that convo b/w haoting and sun bo about first time... so awkward T.T but endearing too i guess. same with sun bo then inquiring to chigang ge whether that time in the shower had hurt or felt good

Ep 15 (Nov 17)

Haoting just annoys me. he did bad on the placement test and instead of studying keeps wanting ‘rewards’ from Shigu like bruh focus on your fucking studying

this ep really makes me realize how much idgaf about anything

Ep 16 (Nov 17)

i was wondering if they’d make Haoting be unable to get into a national uni but guess not

2 more half-eps left

Ep 17 (Nov 17)

i would maybe care more about this interpersonal turmoil if i cared about the characters but rn i’m just like agh, all this drama over not wanting to have sex? grow up

they kept talking about it raining but am i blind or was it just not raining?

Ep 18 (Nov 17)

lmfao haoting pretending this 18k rent is actually 8k, can he afford this?

the friends coming over is cute

lol now i’ve gotten to witness the crime of the salt

in the beginning i was really annoyed by several characters (esp Haoting and Sun Bo) and after I stopped being annoyed, I also stopped caring oof. Don’t think I’ll think about the show or characters ever again. Also am not gonna watch ep 19/20. I liked the occasional scenes of Haoting and his sister; I am lover of sibling relationships.

I actually didn’t have this show on my to watch list for so long but I added it recently because I thought I’d still really enjoy it as long as I don’t watch the last part but meh. idc

Rating: 5.5/10

[2018-01-20]

henlo it me again 👋👁️👄👁️

i mainly consume seventeen (STAN THEM PLS FOR GOOD LIFE AND EVEN BETTER VIBES if you wanna HHAHAHAH AND THEY HAD A COMEBACK YESTERDAY 😭), enhypen and tomorrow x together. i have heard of exo though, my classmates in junior high were super into them 😭 buut are there any other groups you are interested in?

im still at chapter 125 🥲 and i had remember pausing the reading a few months ago because one of the character deaths was slightly anticlimatic imo considering how big the character's individual fanbase is. and also i do have a general idea of what happens at the end because i asked my brother 😭 HAHAHAHAH

in terms of books, the last ones i read were 'the song of achilles' (but idk if i would recommend it cuz there are other options for lgbtq+ books 😅), and 'the red queen' by victoria aveyard which i LOVE and would recommend if you like fantasy plus a love triangle, mhmm, and im about to start the second book.

and im gonna do my very best to keep interacting this time 😭 *pinky promises* *gives you a brownie*

ROSIEEE IM SO SORRY FOR ANSWERING THIS SOOO LATE 😭😭😭 YOU DESERVE BETTER THAN THISSS 😭💞💞

SEVENTEENNN omg let me tell u these past few months i’ve been trying into get into new kpop groups and seventeen is just chefs kiss 😚 darl+ing is my favorite so far AGHHH but im trying to listen to more so u gotta tell me ur fav songs from them >:)) im also interested in girl groups/soloists, like mamamoo and sunmi and chungha and etc 😫😍

omg iM SO SORRY AGAINNN its been so long that i dunno which manga we were talking about 😭😔 im gonna guess either jjk or mha or tr but HAHDHDHS so understandable i love asking for spoilers 😫

TY FOR THE RECS!! >:D i’ll definitely keep those books noted in mind 😚 lmk what u think of them, i definitely dont mind spoilers! AND NOOO IM THE ONE THAT NEEDS TO INTERACT BETTER 😤😤😤 rosie AGHH ilysm omg ty for the brownie <3 in return u deserve such good bagels!! please feel free to let me know how ur doing!

[deathsmallcaps]

Agh my farm boss is supposed to be my editor and she said ‘Yeah I’ll read it yesterday!’. And she didn’t have time. To be fair she’s a busy lady but I can feel the weight of all the inconsistent speech patterns and horror story elements crashing around me. Aghhh

Context and worries under the cut

Two old horses believe in a legend that proves they’ve found their permanent home, after so many years of moving around, but only one can benefit, and has to be chosen by this younger horse (who also won’t benefit, she’s too young).

The main character decides to sabotage his old friend in order to win, so of course it’s going to be a bit dark! They make up at the end but he takes advantage of her elderly age, makes her look basically like a witch, and then nearly abandons her to be scared and alone when she’s having a tough day seeing.

I mean the word amount I came up with means it’s going to either need to be adapted into a younger kids story, or be awkwardly made into a short older kid’s story. Idk I just wrote something that felt good at the time. I was also writing way past midnight sometimes so that’s obviously going to waver and change, especially since I didn’t write this consistently or in one go.

Also my favorite animal on that farm isn’t horses. I like the horses but my favorite is the goats. So the boss is getting on me about some little details*. And now since another (loved but non favorite) animal is getting famous on the farm, she said that she’d like me to work on the next one, about him! I just want to write silly goat stories.

* for example the lead mare has a white spot in one eye and doesn’t like to rely on seeing from that one side, but apparently she’s ‘not blind’. I probably played it up more than real life but I also had to change a couple details for most of the characters lol

I think for my first ever completely original long work* it’s not bad but I don’t know if it’s adaptable :,). In the long run it won’t kill me but I really want this to work out, ughhhh

*:’), it’s not very long, I need to build stamina lol, I also don’t like writing during the school year so that limits my time/ability to do so. 13,700~ … I can read that in like 2 hours tops :,)

Anyways I’ve less than 5 hours sleep so I’m going to try to restart the day a little bit and feel better after some sleep lol

The longest I’ve ever written for an original work is ~6100, a ~4100, followed by a ~3900, and then a sharp drop of a ~2300. Intellectually, I understand how people can write longer fiction than that, but it exhausts me just thinking about it!

Then again, I am running my very stupid and Ill-timed coloring book project (Win a Commission). I’ve been working on it since I was 16, so it’s about 5.5 years old, Jesus. It might get finished IRL this year but I doubt it. I only have 14 stories to go!!!! Wahoo! I’m going to have to stay off of long term projects, please don’t let me start another one.

Considering how much I’ve written for the story explanations, and the parts I’ve changed, I’ve written a lot, but it’s such little chunks and the hardest part is doing the drawings. I just ramble in the explanations and change details in the actual tales. Hmmm now I have to try and calculate that.

Ok so I’ve written ~40500 words of explanation over five years. Along with a decent amount of short fiction along the way! You know what, I’m going to say that’s a sign of improvement of writing stamina! :D. And I didn’t even count the footnotes, which can be quite long, or the changes to the stories I’ve written