#again I'm sorry this feels cringey for some reason-

[c00kietin]

I'm sorry <3

[moonstruckme]

Hiiii your marauders fics are AMAZING!! I’m truly obsessed with them. Would you ever do an aftercare fic where the reader is in sort of an emotional subspace and is just super clingy? Totally fine if not just curious :)

Hi, thank you! I realize you said "just curious" lol but I decided to try my hand at it. I'm not super familiar with this stuff, so it might be kinda cringey lol--sorry! Anyway, thank you for asking/requesting lovely :)

cw: smut mdni, p in v, dom/sub dynamics, praise kink

Remus Lupin x fem!reader ♡ 605 words

Your forehead crashes against Remus’ chest, panting breaths blowing warmth back onto your own face. 

Both of his hands had been gripping your hips, but now one coasts up the ridges of your spine, coming to rest on your upper back. 

“You’re alright,” he murmurs. 

You hum in response. It comes out a bit like a whine. You’re feeling teary and torn open, the emotions that had been heightening as you inched toward climax now crashing into the gulley below. 

Remus’ lips press gently to the top of your head. “Was that good for you, sweetheart?”

“Mhm,” you affirm readily. “Really good. Was it for you?” 

“I thought I made that apparent enough.” There’s a teasing edge to his voice, and you smile, turning your head to nuzzle your cheek against this chest. “Ready to get up?”

“No.” It’s almost a whimper. You needle your hands under his arms, wrapping yourself around him. “I wanna stay here.” 

He shifts, and you inhale sharply at the slight movement of his cock, still inside you. Shushes and apologies alike fall from Remus’ lips, but he leans up on his elbows, using one hand to tilt your face towards him. His expression shifts as he realizes your still-fuzzy headspace, lips pulling down.

“Oh, baby.” It sounds almost pitying, one knuckle stroking down your cheek lovingly. “You’re not going to feel better until you let me clean you up, dove.” 

Tears press at your eyes, but you do your best to sound reasonable. “I’ll feel better if we cuddle.” 

He kisses your forehead again. You recognize the apology in it and whine as he moves uncomfortably against your sensitive walls, sitting you both up. “We’ll still cuddle, I promise.” He slides you off his cock despite your protests. “Hey, you’re alright. I’ve got you, sweetheart. Not hurting, are you?” 

“A little,” you say, giving him doe eyes in hopes of some extra attention. But then Remus’ brow furrows concernedly, and you rethink it. “Not really, though. Not more than I wanna be.” 

He lets out a little sigh, pressing his lips to your forehead again. “You’re fine,” he says, seemingly to both of you. “Wanna have a bath, honey? We can cuddle in there, if you like.” 

“Or…” You give him a suggestive look, and he laughs. Not exactly the response you were looking for. 

“Sorry,” he says at your frown. “Sorry, dovey, you just looked too cute.” Admittedly, that softens you a bit. Remus squeezes your hip lightly, tilting his head as he considers you with an odd half-smile. “No, no more tonight. Think I’ve got you a bit too fucked out already, hm?” 

You pout. “Am not.” 

Remus hums, leaning forward to kiss your pushed-out lips. “Right, course not.” He lifts you up a bit, slipping out from under you. “You wanna stay here while I go start the bath?” 

“No.” Your tone pitches desperately, grabbing for his wrists as he stands beside the bed. Your vision blurs. “I want to be with you, Rem.”

“Okay, okay.” He brings his hands to your waist hastily, standing you up in front of him. “You’re fine, baby, you can come with. You gonna be okay with sitting on the counter while I get it all ready for us?” 

You blink at him interestedly. “Because I’m a good girl?” 

His chin comes down on your head and his arms wrap around your shoulders. You’re not sure what’s prompted the show of affection, but you’ll take it, nosing your way into the juncture of his neck. “Sure, darling,” he says, a definite note of amusement in his voice. “My good girl.”

[my-mt-heart]

TBOC 201 Review

Two and a half years ago, Carol fans were terrified that they'd never see her again, that her story would end with so many things left unsaid and unresolved, and now she's finally back. That's a victory I do not take lightly. Carol is a vital part of the show and Melissa McBride deserves to tell her story, but after watching the premiere and having an inkling of what’s ahead, it’s still very clear to me that she deserves a hell of a lot more than what she’s getting.

I never had any expectations for the external plot and in that way I was not disappointed. There really isn’t much of one first of all. The action sequences are hokey and nothing we haven’t seen before—Daryl waiting to shoot Genet a few feet away from him while she monologues and then escapes gives me All Out War flashbacks���and the walkers continue to be a minor nuisance with zero stakes. The editing is really strange, making the movement from one beat to another feel inorganic. There’s also some pretty cringey dialogue and I’m sorry to say that it’s mostly coming from Ash. If they’re only allowed to drop one f-bomb per episode or whatever it is, why don’t they use them more meaningfully? I do like his character and his dynamic with Carol though. I'm not sure how I feel about her lying to him. On one hand, I know she's doing it because she's desperate to get to Daryl and I would never fault her for that. I guess I worry about audience reception because female characters tend to be judged far more harshly for their decisions than male characters.

What I really wanted to get out of this season was a strong emotional arc. That’s what matters to me—honoring the characters’ history and allowing them to grow from it. There isn’t a doubt in my mind that the effort I see on Carol’s side is thanks to Melissa’s wonderful story instincts and devotion to her character. Carol’s line to Ash, “I couldn’t keep waiting, feeling stuck. I had to move forward,” tells us what Melissa has also echoed in interviews. Her quiet life at the Commonwealth is giving her time to reflect on her past, particularly Sophia’s death, and it’s terrifying for her in itself, but also because the only person to share that trauma with her, the only person who makes her feel safe isn’t there. She needs Daryl. It’s such an exciting arc because it puts her on the path to healing from her survivor’s guilt as well as confronting what Daryl means to her.

The problem is that Zabel keeps falling back on the TV book of tricks he swears he doesn’t use and he acts as if he’s allergic to connective tissue. I already talked about some of these issues in my review of the opening minutes available here, so I won’t repeat myself. I’m just frustrated because gimmicks like the cassette tapes take away from Melissa’s performance. She has perfect comedic timing, but I want to see her sit with her feelings every now and again because Melissa knows how to communicate that all on her own. She doesn’t need bells and whistles. To be clear, I despise ambiguity with a burning passion, but I also don’t like gimmicks that treat me like I’m an idiot. The Cherokee rose scene is sweet and I absolutely love seeing Carol recall the speech that started her relationship with the most important person in her life and I love the reminder of why this mission is so important to her. But then it occurs to me that Cherokee roses don’t grow in Maine. The only reason it’s on Ash’s table at all is to make me notice it and I think to myself, there had to be a more organic way to make this callback, right? It takes me out of the story. I'm also still angry that the scene where Carol finds a walker that looks like Daryl got cut, angrier actually, since we’re stuck with a forced and wildly OOC kiss between Daryl and a fucking nun. Carol/Caryl fans always seem to draw the short straw.

When Ash asks Carol if she thinks she'll even recognize Sophia, it's a warning that the person Carol is really searching for might not be the same when she finds him, which is by far the most infuriating part of the story and the most difficult to believe. Nevermind the fact that it's only been a few months according to Zabel and Daryl doesn't build connections that quickly. He's loyal. He wouldn't trade in his family for another, at least not the Daryl that I know and love. Not the Daryl that Carol would take her first flight and cross an entire ocean for.

The point of parallel stories is that they should, well, parallel each other. The point of soulmates is that they stay spiritually connected to each other. If Carol is determined to get to Daryl, Daryl should be determined to get to Carol. If Carol is manipulating someone to do that, then maybe we should see Daryl do the same, which would also reduce the harsh criticism that lands on Carol simply for being a woman. Instead though, Carol seems to embody both hers and Daryl's history, while on Daryl's side, he isn't shown to have any except for the quick mention of "people" back home. Other fans said they see Daryl trying to get back, but I don't. I just see him hovering in between and it makes me so sad. I feel like I'm saying goodbye to this character I thought I knew, who helped me overcome some very dark experiences in my childhood, because I know he's about to change in ways that I can't get past.

It makes me wish the entire episode had been given to Melissa. Maybe the entire season should've been given to her and left just enough space for the reunion at the end, picking up close to where Daryl left off in S1. Maybe that would've saved many of us, Carol especially, a lot of pain. Regardless, Melissa demonstrates over and over that she can carry a show, so the fact that she's not equally billed with Norman is just a crime. The fact that Carol's name isn't right next to Daryl's in the title is so offensive, I have no words left. I've been saying it for a year now and I'll keep bringing it up until it changes. This is Melissa's fucking show too. Act like it, AMC.

I know that the rest of the season has already leaked, so I will take a look at what I can. I still have no intention of watching the two episodes that destroy Daryl's integrity and I'm terrified of how it'll impact Caryl's story going forward. This is not how fans should be made to feel about a show they waited years for...

[ififellinlove]

dark blue

summary: inspired by the song dark red by steve lacy.

pairings: collegestudent!felix x collegestudent!y/n

genres/tropes: lovers to enemies to lovers kinda cringey, fluff, angst (smut further into the book)

wordcount: 888

author's note: I swear I'll make a part soon but I'm still writing the second part to MODEL for Hyunjin.

© ififellinlove 2024

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"You love me, right?"

"Of course I do, why wouldn't I?"

"nevermind-"

you wrap your arms around his neck and sit on his lap in bed, "no tell me,"

"I-I just get these feelings sometimes, like something bad is going to happen to us. I don't know what it is but it scares me." Felix's voice cracks as he admits his fears, his hands trembling slightly as he holds onto you tighter.

you fix his hair out of his face and look at him in worry. "is that why you've been having trouble sleeping this past week?"

Nodding, Felix buries his face in your neck, letting out a shaky breath. "that's part of it...I just can't seem to shake this feeling off. It's like my mind won't let me rest easy...,"

"Is there anything I could do?"

He looks up at you with hopeful eyes, "just being close to you helps...but I want more than that." His voice is filled with longing as he holds onto your hand tightly.

you laugh, "Felix it's 2 in the morning,"

"y/n, please." Felix's voice is pleading, his eyes filled with desperation. "...please don't leave me hanging like this."

you sigh, "fine but we'll have to be quiet,"

before you could even think of what to say or do next he hugs you tight…

"Felix I thought you wanted to-"

"shhh," he puts a finger to your lips, his eyes filled with affection and need. "Just hold me for a while...please."

"Felix... What's really going on? Are you okay? you seem to be like paranoid-"

He buries his face in your neck, his breathing uneven as he tries to hold back his emotions. "I'm sorry...I don't know how to explain it." After a moment of silence, he whispers, "

"can't express it with words huh?"

he hugs her again and whispers in her hair, "I don't want to lose you.... I can't lose you.. please don't ever leave me just stay,"

"Felix I would never even think about leaving you," you say, hugging him back.

Nuzzling against your neck, Felix's heart beats faster with every passing second. His body trembles slightly as if he's cold, though sweat beads on his forehead. "I just...I don't know how to deal with this fear,"

"Just hold as long as you can till you sleep," you say, kissing his cheek.

He leans into your touch, his body relaxing as he begins to drift off. As his breathing evens out and his grip on you loosens, Felix murmurs one last thing before falling asleep in your arms.

"my love will never leave me…,"

That was the last thing he said to you before breaking your heart later on the week after. One night you were sleeping in bed then the morning after you woke up to have your other side of bed to be completely empty, cold and alone.

He left just like that… Did you mean anything to him? I mean in the beginning of the week that Monday he was holding onto you as if life itself was ending before both of your eyes like you were the only one he was holding onto as the world was crumbling before you.

but?

.

.

.

For some reason everything changed in the matter of days. Your relationship of two years ended in one week. You didn't know the reason why… before Felix used to be the sweetest, kindest heart but now it's like he's the inverted version of himself.

"my love will never leave me…," what a load of bullshit.

He was more aggressive and rude, nothing like the sunshine you knew before.

but it doesn't matter anymore… the moment he left that night you knew it was over and now it's been a year you basically cried out all your tears already and is now left feeling hatred towards him no amount of love or memories you held before can make you forgive him… because he's not the same anymore he's a different person.

you might hate him but your heart still aches when you see him walking around the campus with his little fan girls.

yeah…

He's a bad boy or fuckboy nowa or whatever the fuck they call them but let's be honest that's the persona he's trying to play because in his mind Felix is still very much in love with you but is scared of that love.

he's tried to forget about you god did he try but no matter the amount of distractions can get his mind of thoughts away from you. When he tried to forget about you and try to distract himself he would think in the back of his mind that these distractions were only to get rid of you from his thoughts, his dreams, his wishes to be with you again in your arms, just to be near you again but he made this choice himself because he's scared of the thought of you falling out of fall with him so he left before he could ensure the pain.

but no one said you were falling out of love with him. You actually thought at the time you two were in a great place in your relationship but fear kept him away and left him running.

and now you two hate each other.

voting

[paladin--strait]

could you pls pls pls write strangers to lovers with Jamieeeee

warm - jamie drysdale x reader

yesss ofc!! I love this prompt with him 😆 this is really cringey, though! sorry about that. if you had something different in mind, let me know!! thank you for requesting! ❤❤

tw: slight harrassment, language, a random guy being creepy

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the smell of coffee fills my nose once again when I walk into the cafe I work at near packer park, philadelphia. I greet my coworkers, put on my apron and get to work.

"y/n! I need table 3 cleaned please!" my coworker yells out to me.

"on it!" I grab the cleaning supplies from the back and rush out to clean the table. after that table, I look around and notice more tables are not clean, some customers even having to clean their own tables.

"here! I'm so sorry, let me get that for you!" I say, gesturing for the older lady and her daughter to take a step back to let me clean the table. "again, so sorry for that! we're short on staff and today seems to be busier than usual. if you need anything let us know!" they thank me for cleaning the table, then assure me that it's alright.

I clean a couple more tables before I notice a man around my age begin to clean the table at his booth. "ahh! I'm sorry! let me clean that for you, sir!" I say and he thanks me and takes a step back.

while I'm cleaning, I can't help but feel his eyes on me. it's normal for customers to look us at while we clean, but this time it feels different. it's making me feel uncomfortable and I'm not sure whether I should tell him to stop or not since I'm almost done cleaning his booth.

I take a deep breath and just continue to clean. I try to tell myself that its nothing but I can't shake the feeling that his gaze seems to give me. "you're table is ready, sir." I take a look around and I've managed to clean the rest of the tables. "if you haven't already ordered, I can take that for you!" I say, pulling out my pad of paper and a pen.

he takes a seat in his booth. "I'll take a black coffee and a piece of apple pie." he says slowly, reading off of the menu that's been laminated and hung on the wall.

"okay, I'll get that order going for you!" I say, beginning to walk off.

"I'm not done." he says with this tone in his voice that makes me shiver. I put my pen back up to the paper, ready to write down the rest of his order. "I'll also take your number, beautiful."

his words make my eyes widen. I've only had a few people ask me for my number before and that never ended well for me, considering all they wanted was a quick hookup. which has now left me single. but I've never had somebody ask me for my number like this before.

"I'm so sorry sir but I'm not interested. I'll go get your order started for you right away." i begin to walk off when he sits up and grabs my wrist.

"what's the reason? I saw the way you were looking at me. I know you want me." he says, bending down to my level.

"I uh, I have a boyfriend!!" I yell out, a bit louder than I intended, but I hoped he would believe my lie.

"oh yeah? where is he? he's not very smart to let someone so beautiful go out and work their tail off. come on, come back to my place and take a load off." he tries to entice me, but I pull my hand back and almost quite literally put my foot down.

"no. I have a boyfriend and I love him. I would never do such a thing!" I say, my cheeks heating with anger and embarrassment. I just want this guy to leave me alone.

"come on! he won't fuckin' know. you don't have to tell him everything." he says, laughing. his laugh is scary, deep and ugly. it makes my skin crawl and gives me goosebumps from fear.

I'm about to holler for help when hands grip my waist, knocking the guys hand off and pulling me into their chest. "I believe my girlfriend told you to leave her alone." I turn and look at the man who saved me from this creepy guy and he looks down at me, eyes wide and watery. almost as if he was angry.

"she didn't tell me she had a boyfriend!" the man tries to defend himself, but my hero dismisses him. "to hell with this! you're ugly as fuck anyway." his words still cut like a knife, even though they will be meaningless later.

I turn to thank my hero but he grabs my shoulders, "are you alright? I heard everything. he had no right to speak to you that way." it's almost like he's scolding me, even though I know that's not his intent. "I'm jamie, by the way. what's your name? if you don't mind me asking, of course."

I smile at him a little and point to my nametag on my apron. "its y/n. and thank you for helping me. you're like my hero!" I joke a little. he laughs, and its infectious. the way his laughs rings out throughout the cafe, and the tone of his voice makes his laugh irresistible.

I hear my coworkers calling my name, telling me to get back to work. I realize i have more tables to clean and I should probably get in the kitchen to help make drinks and food too. "I think I have to get back to work or else I'll probably get fired for slacking on the job or something like that." I chuckle, smiling at jamie.

I hear his name being called too and I turn to see it's a group of guys about his age. one is holding up a to-go coffee, presumably for jamie. "I have to go too. I'll see you around sometime?" I nod in a agreement and we both part ways.

I thought about jamie and the incident the whole rest of the day. I even tell my friends at work about it and they tell me that I should file a police report on the guy and show them the video footage of him. I agreed and went to the station the next day and filed a report. they said they couldn't do anything since he didn't physically hurt me and they didn't have his identity, which makes sense.

with every day that passes for two weeks after that, jamie shows up to the cafe. he orders the same thing everyday and I wonder how he's not broke yet. when he asks me if he could accompany me on my lunch break, I told him yes and he told me all about his life. who he really is, and what he does for work. he tells me that he'll buy me tickets to watch him play in his next hockey game. I told him not to since I don't know anything about hockey and I would have to take a crash course or something else to teach me before I went.

that night I watched a video about the rules of hockey and all that stuff. I learned some stuff about the teams they were going to play in the upcoming games.

and the next day, jamie shows up with a ticket in hand. "it's my team, the flyers, against the ducks. they're from anaheim. I used to play there so I thought that might be a fun game for you to watch." he explains to me after I take the ticket and punch in his order.

a couple days later and a bunch of 'introduction to ice hockey' videos later, I find myself at wells fargo center to watch jamie and his team play. as I'm walking around, trying to figure out how I get to my seat, I see a team store and I spot a jersey with the name 'drysdale' printed on it with the number 9 under it. I run in and grab my size, paying for the jersey and putting it on proudly with a smile on my face.

I finally figure out how to get to my seat and I realize that jamie bought me a rinkside ticket. one that's right by the flyers bench. I try not to think about how much that ticket cost when all the players ran out onto the ice to start warming up.

I'm looking around at everything, taking it all in when I hear a knock on the glass in front of me. I turn and see that its jamie. he has the biggest smile on his face. "you made it!!" he yells, I can barely hear him, but I nod and put my hand on the glass right where his hand is on the other side.

"jamie look!" I turn around and point at the name on the jersey. when I turn around, he doesn't look very happy with me.

"if you wanted my jersey, you should have told me and I would have given you one of mine!" he yells out. he kinda has this pout on his face, but then he smiles. "but I still love that you have my jersey on. I'll see you later!!" he waves as his coach yells something at him.

a few minutes later a guy with flyers clothing on that says 'staff' walks up to me and asks me my name, which I tell him and he hands me a lanyard. I look over at jamie and he nods his head and smiles, giving me a thumbs up. I thank the guy and look down at it. it says VIP access.

the game is brutal to watch. but it's very entertaining and I catch myself laughing at it some. but after the game ends, I'm escorted down a hallway by the staff member that gave me my lanyard.

I'm left in the hallway with a bunch of women and reporters. a few of the guys walk out and a woman goes with them. I assume that those are there wives or girlfriends??

but my eyes light up when I see jamie walking out. he looks around before locking eyes with me, smiling wide, he walks to me and the staff lets me our from behind the ropes that separate the leaving players from the people waiting to see them.

he hugs me before holding my hand and taking me with him. "what did you think of the game?" he asks, smiling at me.

I told him my thoughts and scolded him for paying so much money just for me to watch him play. he tells me its nothing and that he wants me to come to as many games as possible, so he reserved that seat for me for the rest of the season.

"jamie you shouldn't have done that!" I say, smacking him on the arm. "what if I can't come to some of those games?"

"then the seat will be empty. it's alright! I just want you to come whenever you can." he explains.

"but jamie I see you everyday anyway!" I laugh, holding his hand again. "but I did have fun...so I'll come to as many games as I can!"

he smiles and we walk outside to his car, there's already and car with its lights on beside his and jamie's eyes light up when the owner of the car jumps out, calling his name and running to him.

the two guys hug and chat a little before the other guy turns to me and says, "hi, I'm trevor. you must be y/n! jamie has not stopped talking to me about you for weeks! it's nice to finally put a face to the name." he says, pulling me in for a hug. which I kindly return.

"the famous trevor!! jamie has told me so many stories about you!" I say laughing.

"all good things, I hope?" trevor says with a nervous look on his face.

"I can't promise that!" we all laugh and talk a little more before jamie opens the car door for me so we can leave.

I can't hear what they're talking about outside, which makes me a little nervous. but I see them hug and part ways before jamie gets in his car and pulls off.

"so y/n, I know we haven't been on any dates, and I know we just met a few weeks ago and this is even a surprise for me to be saying right now, but I really like you. and I want you to be my girlfriend. I've never met a girl like you. you're always so happy and kind. and my friends have never loved a girl so much that I've been talking to like they love you. so many people tell me that you're someone worth keeping around, and I agree completely. so y/n, will you be my girlfriend?" his nervous words catch me off guard, and I think they caught jamie off guard as well.

I take a minute in silence to think it over. before accepting his 'proposal' and smiling at him brightly. he pulls into my driveway and jumps out of the car, pulling me out and into his arms, giving me to biggest hug I've even gotten.

jamie pulls away, "can I kiss you?" he says, looking at me with eyes that shine even in the darkness of the night.

"please jamie-" I can't even finish my words before he pulls me in for a kiss so electrifying that I think my whole body goes into shock. I swear fireworks just went off.

jamie spends the night at my house, and we spend the whole night talking to each other. just holding one another and embracing the moment.

jamie calls in sick for morning skate and we sleep in, tucked in my bed that is now warm since it keeps another body under its covers. the bed is warm, and so is my heart.

[aliyahwritings]

I honestly don’t even know where to begin with this mess of a story. First of all, the characters are so one-dimensional and predictable, I felt like I was reading the same tired cliché romance over and over again. YN? Seriously? She’s just another ‘perfect model’ with a mysterious past and a bunch of insecurities. I mean, how original. We’ve seen this character a thousand times before, and nothing about her stands out. Her whole ‘I don’t want to be a burden’ routine is just annoying at this point. It’s like you tried to make her relatable, but instead, she comes off as weak and one-note. Rafe? Ugh, don’t even get me started. The cocky, arrogant jock thing is so overdone, and it’s honestly cringeworthy. He’s supposed to be this ‘bad boy’ with a heart of gold, but all I see is an entitled, possessive jerk who thinks he can do whatever he wants because he’s rich and good-looking. His interactions with YN feel forced and shallow, like they were written to make readers swoon but just end up being uncomfortable. And the whole ‘marriage of convenience’ plot? Yawn. Boring. Tomato tomato.

I mean, really? This trope is so outdated and tired, and it’s not even done well here. The ‘fake relationship’ angle is dragged out for way too long, with no real emotional depth or tension. Everything just feels so contrived and predictable, like you know exactly what’s going to happen next. The pacing is awful too. One minute, they’re having a serious conversation, and the next, they’re making out for no real reason.

Also, the whole focus on looks and materialism is nauseating. I mean, seriously, who cares that YN wears fancy clothes or that Rafe drives expensive cars? It’s honestly laughable how much emphasis is put on the superficial stuff. There’s no substance to these characters or their relationship. And don’t even get me started on the dialogue. Half the time, it’s so cringey and forced, it makes me want to close the book and never look at it again. The banter between YN and Rafe is supposed to be playful, but instead, it just feels awkward and rehearsed. Oh, and can we talk about how unrealistic everything is? YN’s life as a model is just so idealized and perfect, and Rafe’s life as a basketball star is so over the top that it’s hard to believe any of it.

I’m sorry, but the whole thing just feels like a cheap fantasy for people who want to escape into some fairy tale world where everything works out in the end, no matter how messed up the characters are. The pacing is all over the place, the plot is predictable, and the characters are so shallow I could barely care about any of them. It’s honestly frustrating to read a story that has so much potential but fails on every level. Do better.

Alright let's get into this 🫤

First off, thank you for reading my work and sharing your... thoughts? I don't even remember asking for criticism but I'll take it.

YN and Rafe may come off as cliché to you, and others, but that's something that I love. I don't even know why people associate cliché with bad, when they're the best. If the stuff is well done, cliché can be perfect.

You complaining about the "marriage of convenience" trope is insane work like this is the "main" trope of my series. They have an arrangement to fake being in a relationship. If you didn't like that, why'd you even read? And it's "dragged out" for a reason?? The fuck?? Would you like an insta-love type thing? 'Cause I wouldn't. My series is a slow-burn. YN and Rafe are slowly falling in love, and learning about each other. Mind you, saying it's "dragged out" when there's only 10 chapters out is (again) insane work. I'm not here to write some cookie-cutter love story with zero tension or drama. I wanted things to feel messy and real, because that's what relationships are like in real life. If you expected a polished, perfect romance, this probably isn't for you. And yeah, I get that materialism is an issue, but these characters live in a world where appearances matter, and that's not something I'm glossing over.

If you think the pacing's horrible then okay. Thank you for the feedback. I'll keep that in mind for future chapters and works.

If it doesn't work for you, that's fine. Not everyone's going to connect with it. But don't assume it's all bad just because it didn't hit the mark for you.

And next time you wanna give criticism, watch your tone. The way you talk is horrible and so condescending 💜

[nobodysdaydreams]

Hey! I just wanted to say I appreciate you Reblogging/posting more Christian content. I’m a Protestant, but I’ve never really seen Tumblr as a place where I can/should talk about faith and engage with other Christians. It’s been really nice, though, to see your Christian posts on my dash, and I might start doing some of my own.

Curio, this ask means the absolute world to me, and please know I would love any Christian posts you made! 🥰

As for seeing tumblr as a place where you "can" or “should/should not” talk about your faith, I think you should do whatever makes you feel comfortable and makes you happy.

The whole reason I got a tumblr was because I didn’t have a place in my life where I could talk about my hyper fixations and interests, so I do that here. The neurotypicals in my life found it hard to listen to my ramblings, and even when they did indulge me, they never really appreciated or understood why it made me so happy. It’s nice to have people who understand and appreciate what I'm talking about (and I’m so grateful to all of you for that).

The reason I started talking about Christianity on my blog is kinda similar: I'm not in a place where I can talk about it irl, which leaves a whole aspect of my life I can't discuss (or even mention) with people. I don’t want to get into the details just in case this post somehow reaches anyone who knows me irl (I doubt any of them would have a tumblr, but I could be wrong), but to make a long story short, I’ve had people who are my peers and higher ups in places I work imply (well not imply, they straight up said it in a public talk) that religious people should not be allowed to have certain jobs or wouldn’t be good at certain jobs, including my job (no they don’t know I’m religious and actually think I’m one of the best at my job, ironically) and in other professional situations I have been harassed in… for the sake of avoiding a trigger warning, “very inappropriate” ways specifically due to the fact that I’m religious. The saying I shouldn’t be allowed to have my job thing was completely unprompted since they didn’t know I was religious at the time. The other thing was because I wrote a cross necklace one time and offhandedly mentioned going to Church when asked on a Monday what I did the day before (which I regret telling them and will not be doing irl again). I have other examples, but I think you get the idea.

So yeah, in both cases it’s been a bummer to have something that’s a part of me, but I just have to go through life pretending it doesn’t exist. Not even in a “yeah I go to Church, I might mention it sometimes, but I’m not trying to force it on you or anything.” Or “there’s this show I really like and I write fan fiction about it. I know you probably think it’s cringe, but it makes me happy and a lot of people really love it” way. In the real world, I don’t talk about going to Church ever even when it’s relevant and most people just assume I don’t have hobbies because I know if I told them I wrote a 300k fanfic they’d find it a cringey waste of time. I don’t want to make either of those my whole personality or force anyone to listen to me talk extensively about an aspect of my life that they personally don’t like, but it is also weird when I have to be like “sorry, gotta run, I have a meeting at 5 today” and people are like “oh what meeting?” And I’m like “uhhhhh… not Bible study?” (Because I’m smooth like that) or when people are like “what do you do for fun?” And I’m like “writing” and they’re like “oh what writing?” And I’m like “well whatever I write, it’s certainly not 300k words of fanfic haha…”

All this to say, if I can’t talk about my hobbies and religion on tumblr, then where exactly am I supposed to do it? Like I said in my original post, I want to be sensitive to people’s traumas, I’ve known people (both religious and nonreligious) who have religious trauma, and I understand people don’t always have the positive relationship Christianity that I do, but that’s what tag blocking is for and there is no reason my followers who don’t like religion shouldn’t still be able to enjoy my fandom related content. Plus so far the worst harassment I’ve gotten online for posting Christian content doesn’t even begin to compare to the stuff I’ve dealt with irl (and I hope we never get there. Obviously, this is the internet, but I’m comforted by the fact the bar for harassment I’ve had to deal with is pretty high. I certainly hope no one is foolish or terrible enough to consider that as a challenge). Additionally, as I said in that post, just because some of my fics have religious themes in them or ideas about redemption, forgiveness, and love that have been directly inspired by my faith doesn’t mean my secular and non-Christian followers don’t, haven’t or can’t enjoy them. And so far, the vast majority of my followers (Catholic, Protestants, atheists, agnostic, those of other faiths, etc.) have been extremely nice about it in my asks and DM’s, saying that they either like the Christian content I’m reblogging or appreciate the tag blocking system so they can continue to enjoy my fandom content.

So post what you want and what you feel comfortable with. It’s your blog, your space, and you should be able to do what you want with it. Best of luck my friend! 💒✝️💕

[mins-fins]

TO MY FIRST LOVE (K.JH)

SUMMARY . . . a letter to his first love, kum junhyeon, and the memories that follow.

PAIRING . . . kum junhyeon x male!reader

GENRE . . . fluff+angst (deadly combination)

WARNINGS . . . none i'm pretty sure!

WORD COUNT . . . 777 (wow shorter than i expected!)

NOTES . . . here we go with junhyeon!! haha, can't tell if this is supposed to be sad or cute but you can decide that for yourself

dear kum junhyeon,

it's been a while, it has. i like to think that i'm a consistent person, but the last time we talked was almost three months ago, and i just wanna check up on you! i hope your okay, how's the performance art major going? i know your passing with no issue, you've always been insanely talented, i have no doubt that your the star student, especially with how much of a lovable person you are.

i hope you haven't forgotten me, because i haven't forgotten you. i know you've responded to my letters, all of them, but it's been three months, and even though this might make me sound like a clingy bitch, i assume you'd forget me already, because.. i just don't really think i'm memorable. i also just wouldn't be surprised if you forgot me at all, because your busy and having fun, i wish i could be there with you, but the world really just hates my guts.

if your interested, art has been going well. my teachers have told me that my paintings are so good that they could get accepted into an art museum someday, you told me that once, remember? when we were twelve and you saw my painting of that house by the lake, you told me i was gonna become the next 'da vinci', which resulted in me punching you in the shoulder.

i dislike thinking about the fact that we haven't talked for the past few months. i constantly check my phone and frown when i see no notifications from you. did you know, the picture i chose for you is the one from your twelfth birthday, when i put icing on your noise. you always said that photo was embarrassing, but you looked cute, even though you would always vehemently deny that.

it's difficult these days, you know student loans and all, but thinking about you always seems to help me forget about all the horrible stuff going on in my life (you better not call me cringey in the return letter), because.. i don't know, i just like thinking about you for some reason. years ago, i could have never imagined myself saying that, but now, it's kind of hard to go on without you, if you get what i mean.

i could never imagine my life without you years ago..

i hate writing like this, because.. well— i sound stupid when i write about stuff like this. sometimes, i wish i could have convinced my parents to not move me to new york for college, but then again, i am "successful" now, so i guess in the end it all amounted to something. of course, i still have a long way to go, i'm only nineteen, there's still so much for me to do and accomplish, but it's disappointing to think i have done this all without you by my side.

i still have that painting you made me, your a really talented artist, i can't believe you called it "just a small hobby for when i'm bored", when you've made some better paintings than me, and that's saying something. i miss you, like a lot, junhyeon, writing my feelings on paper makes me feel stupid, because expressing myself through writing has always been difficult for me to do, as i've told you before.

i know what we have has always been a little complicated, our feelings are mutual are they not? i'd like to think i'm right in this instance, hopefully, because it would be super embarrassing if i was wrong, but at the same time, how long will it be until we see each other again? how long will it be until i actually get to see you face to face and tell you how i feel all over again?

this is getting kinda depressing, sorry, i just— i really miss you a lot okay? this may come off as desperate and stupid, but honestly, it gets kinda difficult knowing your all the way across the ocean and i could be right there with you if the circumstances were different, but alas, not everything is gonna be in my favor, i realize that now.

anyway, kum junhyeon! it'll be nice to catch up much more personally sometimes, if we ever get the chance to see each other in person once again, which is probably highly unlikely but hey! we all need to have at least a little bit of hope.

of course, make sure to take care of yourself, love, stay hydrated, and get a full eight hours of sleep everyday, i'll talk to you again soon :).

xoxo,♡ y/n

[caitkaminski]

Hi there! I hope you're having a great day :)

I just wanted to know your thoughts and opinions on Lewies public speech to mc? It looked a bit disingenuous to me and a bit like he was saying the things he did for show and not because he meant it. But that could just be me and my trust issues ☠️

As a Lewie girl I will stay by his side until he gives me an actual reason to switch or dump, but so far he's been real sweet, caring etc. I'm honestly just a bit worried because I can't lie, after the whole Chloe situation (ie him putting in effort into their date, wearing a new aftershave for their date, him being on the verge of saying something flirty to Chloe but correcting himself when he sees mc is watching and then after their date saying those things even if it was to hype up the scenario to the boys and telling them what they wanted to hear) I find myself questioning him and his loyalty 😭

Lewie has always made me feel secure and like he is a loyal guy but that whole thing rattled me and now I genuinely am scared of going back and him being with another girl 🥲 and I'm also pretty upset he didn't leave with us but that's just me😩

Sorry for the long post btw lol I just know as a collective, us Lewie lovers are screaming crying and throwing up at the moment 🤣

Hi! Hope you’re having a fab day too!

All in favour of a Lewie lover support group raise your hands 🙋‍♀️

No but the speech

By FAR the least cringey public declaration thing the lis did. In case you don’t know them:

- Ryan sang a song he wrote

- Roberto did a terrible dance

- Jamal wrote his name in flower petals or something?

Yeah so we got off lucky with a speech. I actually think it was genuine and pretty cute! 😂

He’s said quite a few times he’s not good with words. I HC he’s got a lot of thoughts and overthinks stuff but doesn’t say a lot, or anything well anyway lmao

again, it’s another thing Farmer Will did on this years winter love island, he did a speech for his girl. So I like to think that was kinda the inspo and he’s not actually just saying everything we wanna hear. He knows he’s fighting off guys for mc at the minute so he wants to go the extra mile.

I’m a delulu loyal Lewie stan but yeah, some stuffs got me questioning and I think that’ll come out on movie night.

One scene in particular that I found super sus was that scene where we’re on a date with Roberto and Ivy says Lewie was flirting with her while mc was gone AND HE DOESNT DENY IT, he just acts dumb

THEN he goes off for a lil walk with her, mc snoops and again he spots us just before a kiss might happen.

I mean, that was early days but I still don’t like it. Ivy says all he could talk about was us on the date but still.

I love him but I’m getting sick of all the lis being written the same way. Some stuff just doesn’t fit with certain characters. Lewie not leaving with us right after his speech and asking to be an unofficial couple and calling us HIS BEST FRIEND does not sit right with me.

[literaphobe]

no😭😭😭 im sorrrrryyyyyyyy atm im not That into the miraculous fandom i just vibe and enjoy everyone being nuts about them and im also more of a teen&up/ mature reader for that fandom specifically? im sure ur writing is wonderful, the snippets i've scrolled through are really cool! (also i read sadf and i know this is a totally different story but the point is ur writing is really enjoyable :)) idk i think part of the reason i got turned off w the fic here is i like searching on ao3 specifically bu it's hard to find fic that i like for this fandom if im searching on ao3 bc 1) we've gone through so much through so many seasons and 2) a lot of the well-known ones have this weird undertone of Straightness that i really dislike so i mainly look around on tumblr when i'm interested lol (also What is with the dcu crossovers. and class bashing lmfao)

ive been here since the dnf times actually! through the mcc rants and sadf and the dream love and then the dream indifference and quackity love and quackity indifference and u playing twenty and some adhd rants and babbling about singapore's education system and tutoring etc and you've just been on my dash ever since, i got into miraculous apparently at the start of 2022? when you started reblogging stuff about it i got excited ngl but i was also kinda terrified bc a lot of people hatewatch the show or find it cringey and i was worried one of the blogs i liked would end up thinking the same but you ended up adoring it too! another fun anecdote that you might not remember - i also sent you an ask very early on about how i liked the french dub better lol

wishing you the best! hoping you get SO MANY comments and hits and kudos! 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

omg anon NOOOO don’t feel sorry!! it doesn’t matter at all i was just curious :D also yeah in a really big fandom it’s hard to find what appeals specifically to you… if u ever get a bit more into mlb again i hope u find content that suits u!! tysm for following all these years ^_^ here’s to many more

[glyhpsrfvckincol]

If you don't mind the asking, what requests are in your inbox ATM?

Of course!

( 1. ) Hello! Can I request a platonic Luz and Camila Noceda x reader where after they take reader in from foster care, they have to deal with her trying to start fires? Not in the house, but they go outside, gather up sticks and paper, and just set it on fire. I apologise if this goes against what your comfortable with! Thank you if you do! 🙏

↳ Requested; 12th February, 2023

( 2. ) Could you do Belos x male reader where they meet in the tide pools episode and Belos is just absolutely in love?

↳ Requested; 17th February, 2023

( 3. ) Hi! not sure if rqs are open (feel free to ignore or delete this if you want)

But could you write hcs, for Alador Blight x gn!reader, who collects little trinkets, like rocks, shiney things and what not? and the reader will just give him one as a gift randomly?

sorry if its bland lol, i js love alador :D

↳ Requested; 7th March, 2023

( 4. ) Hai again um my doesn't include any spoilers either cuz I have no motivation to finish the show lmao

Could you do a small fic with Hawks x gn!reader where reader has constant nosebleeds, lack of vision, no motivation to even get out of bed and when they do the workd feels like its spinning and dizziness/lightheadedness when theyre standing for to long that even the smallest brush of wind could knock them over.

This has been going on with me for a little bit over 2 years now and me nor my aunt (who's a nurse) knows what's going on with me and I've fainted many times because of it, and Keigo is one of my biggest comfort charcters and it's embarrassing but him kinda being there when this is happening is just is oddly calming lmao

And yeah you are my go-to! Your writing is absolutely amazing and I always find myself scrolling on your page on repeat! You have great works! :))

↳ Requested; 30th March, 2023

( 5. ) HIIIII!! I was wondering if you could request a Jealous Hunter x reader headcanon or scenario. Whichever you want. Maybe something with the reader having a flirty/touchy friend and Hunter does not like that at all. Or something else if you want! Thank you for reading this if you do!

↳ Requested; 1st April, 2023

( 6. ) My mind is broken after the finale so excuse me if this is cringey

Could you maybe do a Eda and Raine with a baby/child!reader where after the battle (this takes place during that time skip sequence) and the reader is seen all alone so Eda and Raine adopts them?

Reada is canon let’s go

↳ Requested; 9th April, 2023

( 7. ) Could you do luz and amity(seperate) with a human that has been in the boiling for a while and has had to get by being a conman and aren't proud of it.

↳ Requested; 10th April, 2023

( 8. ) Can I request headcanons of The Collector with a Reader who doesn't fear him and decides to be they big brother/sister? He deserves a better happy ending I'm sorry 🥲

Thank you!

↳ Requested; 10th April, 2023

( 9. ) Okay sso like many others, my mind is still processing the finale lol. I just want some parent Raine. Any headcanons on what Raine would call King, stepparent Raine for the win

↳ Requested; 10th April, 2023

( 10. ) Any headcanons on what terms of endearment Hunter calls Willow?

↳ Requested; 11th April, 2023

( 11. ) Hiii! Ik this is kinda a cliche request but may I request some head cannons for Hunter with a human S/O (maybe a friend of Luz? It’s up to you) who likes to sing? Thank you!!!

↳ Requested; 12th April, 2023

( 12. ) Hiii! If it’s alright, may I request some general Eddie Blight dating head canons? Thank you :D

↳ Requested; 19th April, 2023

( 13. ) Hi! Hope your having a nice day! could I request a Hunter x Shapeshifter!reader just some hcs of Hunter w a reader who can turn into different animals and mimic people/voices and uses said abilities to be a menace and cause chaos just cuz they can no real reasoning behind it it’s just fun.

Also here’s some ideas I’ve had about reader for if you do choose to do this request that might help!

-> I feel like reader would probably be able to change their body to be able to take on like a half form of things so like they could give them-self ears or like wings (I personally rlly like wings) and depending on if they have a ‘Main form’ of sorts they could probably have some of the features of that thing like idk enhanced hearing or their good at being quiet/Sneaky.

-> Also I imagine that they might get like aches if they haven’t done it in a long while just based on the fact that in a way it’s like changing your bones/Bone structure if that makes sense so if they do it too much (Like an unhealthy amount like every single day for hours on end) Or haven’t done it in a long time they’d get aches n stuff

->They would probably use smaller/Quieter forms to scare/sneak up on people

-> I also just wanted to quickly mention that they might have a ‘main form’ that’s kinda just like the thing they first ever turned into and is something they turn into when they don’t rlly think about it

If not that’s fine too! Thanks for reading my request :]

↳ Requested; 21st April, 2023

( 14. ) I saw in your sensitivity HC’s that you bc Hunter has a mommy kink and I was hoping you could elaborate on that more? NSFW? If you’re comfortable of course if not then please direct me to a list of rules so I can refrain from making you uncomfy again ❤️

↳ Requested; 21st April, 2024

( 15. ) hi hi!! hope ur doing well ^^ can i request some headcanons for luz and hunter? so in my head this would take place when the gang is trapped in the human world but ya know do whatever’s fun or makes the most sense. reader is like one of one luz’s few human school friends, and maybe they see Hunter around town with luz sometimes start like, developing a crush on him ya know? so they start asking luz about him and its like OBVI theyre like sorta into him even though they haven’t actually? talked? and they aren’t ASKING to talk to him either, they’re being avoidant in a very “teenage crush” way, but maybe they start asking luz to put in a good word for them, or asking what he likes or like asking luz to give him stuff for them. just their general reactions would be fun!! sorry if this is too much lol

↳ Requested; 24th April, 2023

( 16. ) Hey um. If rq are open Will you pretty please do a Hunter x Wild Witch!Reader, who specializes in Beast Keeper magic? They know the ins-and-outs of all the little (and big) critters of the Boiling Isles, and whenever they see something, they just go "NEW FRIEND!! MUST PET!!" So Hunter is VERY concerned for their well-being.

"Will you PLEASE leave the WILD GRIFFIN alone?!" "But he needs head scritches!! Griffins can't reach their heads!! :<" "... Just be careful. Please." -A convo that happens every week other week

Love your work btw<3

↳ Requested; 6th May, 2023

( 17. ) Hiii I love your writing 🫶 could you do hexsquad like reactions to seeing you again after they returned from the human realm?

↳ Requested; 23rd May, 2023

( 18. ) Hi! 💕

Can I request a fluffy headcanon about Fluff relationship (Friends to Lovers) with his shy!female!human!reader for Hunter (TOH)? Please??

↳ Requested; 24th May, 2023

( 19. ) Hello! 😊

Can I request a fluffy headcanon about hugs and hand-holdings with his shy!female!human!reader for Hunter (TOH)? I live for flustered and touch-starved Hunter! 💕 Please??

↳ Requested; 24th May, 2023

( 20. ) Hello! ✨

Can I request a long fluffy/comfort&hurt oneshot with prompts: "Hey-y, hey, don't cry. It's okay. C'mon, come sit under the blanket with me.", "Everything hurts. Being with you is the only good thing in the world anymore, Y/n.", "Just stay a little longer. Please, Y/n." and [She gives her gentle kisses on his tear-stained cheeks for comfort] about his shy!female!human! reader comforts Hunter (TOH)in her room at Eda's home for Hollow Mind aftermath? 😭💕

Hint: Hunter quickly decided to stay with his shy!female!human!reader in her bedroom because he trusted her so much and she is his safe place too.

I really live for flustered Hunter! 💗 Please??

↳ Requested; 24th May, 2023

( 21. ) Hi! 😊

Can I request a long fluffy oneshot with prompts: "Um, C-can I touch your ears, p-please? B-because your ears are so extremely adorable, Hunter.” and “G-go on..I don’t m-mind at all, y/n” about what Hunter (TOH) would reacts to his shy!female!human!reader gentlely touches his ears then strokes his ears gently made him purring like a cat in guest room at Luz's house on Human Realm? I really love to see Hunter's blushing reaction to it! 😆

I live for flustered and touch-starved Hunter! 💘 Please??

↳ Requested; 24th May, 2023

( 22. ) May I request Gus with a human reader who is just telling him more and more outrageous lies about human society and culture for shits and giggles? Like he asks them about the human society and they just start making up shit to see what he believes?

↳ Requested; 30th May, 2023

[rainylana]

I followed you on Wattpad because I read your Michael story and I loved the first half of the book so much. You are an incredibly talented writer who I'm sure will/should very well succeed at whatever she does. I loved the way you portrayed both the main characters as they fell in love, went through a lot of trauma, and how healthy their relationship was in the beginning.

That was so beautiful, idk if you're still on here but I do hope you see this, I saw when I came on your blog, how upset you were and I know how upset you must feel, you should really know even if you don't think so, you're such a sweet and talented person, you deserve to feel the kind of love you write/fantasize about. Whether the love is familial, friendly, or romantic. It can sometimes come off as repetitive because I'm sure you've heard this so many times before, everyone loves to give the same speech and I understand hearing it over and over again can be tiring and annoying AF.

You deserve to live and be able to live happily, I'm sorry that you don't have the relationship with your father you used to, idk how different it is but I hope one day you get that in some way or another. I used to send these messages to people but every time I do I always felt so stupid because words can only do so much and people can only hear the same thing in different ways so many times as well.

I've been only here scarcely for the past few months for my own reasons but if you ever need anyone to talk to or just vent to, it won't be a bother, I'm not saying this out of pity, I don't want you to feel like some charity case or pity party because you're not you're just accepting a friend. Sigh, I hope this doesn't sound neither cringey nor intrusive. You should be able to wake up every day feeling the happiness you want and I know I've been saying this a lot but it's because you deserve it, I'm not one to waste my time doing certain things I don't want to so please know that I didn't just send you this because I felt somehow obligated to, or because I had to but I genuinely wanted to.

I hope you see this, if not, I hope you find the happiness and love you deserve, I'll always keep you in my heart!. I'm taking this off anon.

also ugh I really hope this didn't sound horrible or anything.

oh gosh you made my heart SWELL!! thank you so so much for this! this made my night, honestly. i wish i had friends who would say this to me. and the fact you read my old story?? wow what a flashback! i loved writing for that since it was my first. i appreciate you a lot coming on here, please don’t feel bad or annoying because you aren’t in any way!! i love you dearly for this and hope that wherever you are in your own life is amazing like you are. i can tell from this message you have a good heart. thank you so much <3

[unfathomablethoughtsandreasons]

96

So, life update after 9 years, I finally broke up with Haqim due to some reasons. I would love to tell you the reason why, but I already wrote a whole essay and I don't feel like re-writing them here.

On another note, I'm currently in a relationship with a guy named Aniq. A guy that I met when I was 15, and met again when I was 16. The guy I was annoyed at for "stealing my seat" refer to one of the posts here lmao. By annoyed, actually being creepy and stalked his whole entire being. Like. How the fuck do I even get his IC number? How the fuck do I even know where he lives? That's some crazy research that I don't think I'm able to do now that I'm old.

Nice guy, interesting guy. Something about him that I'm attracted to but I still can't put a finger to it. I love him a lot and with that comes the part where I'm worried that this wouldn't last long. That I will lose interest along the way. But he is very gentle and smart. He knows the right word to say. The right tone on how to say it. And the right tone to be able to convince me to follow what he is saying. A pro manipulator perhaps(?) He also has this alpha dominant aura around him that I like and want to take advantage of but we'll see. He keeps on hinting on certain things that I prefer eventhough I never told him or even accidentally slipped out of my mouth. But it'd be interesting if it is something he likes too.

And to top it all of, he's able to make me turn on. I thought I'm slightly broken in that department. Turns out, I can be very much alive and actually crave for his touches. It is all sorts of funny if we even want to talk about that. Like, I didn't find him attractive initially but now, he's all I'm thinking about. I can only see him as a handsome boyfriend, a cute boyfriend or a sexy boyfriend. So cringey for a 27 year old to be saying things like this. Who'd knew an emo girl could be this way 10 years later. Sorry high school me, but I know this is something you wanted too lmao

[run-me-through-but-not-like-that]

Hi!!! Your writing is amazing! May I please request an Izzy Hands + gender-neutral Reader?

Okay, so my idea for this is that Izzy and the Reader are already dating and he's giving them swordfighting lessons on the deck one night, when suddenly the Reader messes up or panics and moves the wrong way, and Izzy accidentally stabs them. They aren't hurt too seriously or anything like that, but Izzy can't help but feel terribly guilty about it, because in his mind, he can't seem to stop hurting everything and everyone he loves. And maybe the Reader reassures him that they're not mad at him at all, and comforts him?

Of course, if you don't want to write this, that's totally cool!! Thanks and have an awesome day/night!! 🖤🖤🖤

Izzy Hands Accidently Hurts you while Sparring:

Izzy had started giving you sword fighting lessons a little while ago, sometime after you got together. You had been begging him to teach you and he finally gave in, after realising it would be for the best for future raids. The more you knew how to protect yourself, the less he had to worry himself sick about you (not that he would ever stop worrying completely).

After getting some new techniques down in your most recent lesson and Izzy complimenting you on your improvements, the sparring fell into something more playful.

Izzy laughing and shaking his head at your cringey one liners or your impressions of a 'real pirate'. Izzy was always so serious about your sword fighting lessons, and for good reason, but it was nice to see him let loose a little like this.

Even Izzy added some extra flare to his movements just for fun. You did the same, though his were much more impressive than yours. One day you would be just as good.

"Alright, properly one more time, working on your blocks. Then we'll call it a night," Izzy decided with a quiet chuckle.

So, the two of you took your stances again and began your next round of sparring. Izzy would strike and you would block, sometimes a single attack, sometimes a sequence of them. You managed to deflect each of them well enough that Izzy didn't stop to correct you.

At least until you misjudged which Izzy was going to strike causing you to fumble. You moved to block right but he attacked your left, swiping at your side before you could reroute and deflect his blade.

You hissed at the sting that cut through your side, instinctively lunging backwards and away from the threat. Izzy froze, eyes widening when he realised he had caught you. That he had hurt you.

"I was striking for your left!" Izzy shouted, as if you hadn't realised that.

"I thought you were going right!" you retorted, placing your hand over your injured side.

Realisation seemed to settle over Izzy, his initial shock wearing off and panic setting in. "Fuck," he dropped his sword to the side and hurried over to you. "Fuck..."

"I don't think it's bad," you tossed your sword to the side as well, lifting your hand from your side to see it painted in crimson. It certainly wasn't ideal but you knew it could have been a lot worse.

"Let me look," Izzy took hold of your arms, ushering you over to a barrel and helping you up to sit on top of it.

He had torn your shirt, your blood staining the tear. He lifted the bottom of your shirt to get a better look at your wound. It was a slash across your side, more of a scratch than a gash. It was bleeding but wasn't really anything to worry about as long as it didn't get infected.

As he studied your injury, you watched him. The wound stung, making you shift and hiss now and then, but it wasn't too bad. It would have been worse if the sword had been dulled. He was still staring at it, an unreadable expression on his face.

"Iz?" you spoke, trying to bring him out of his thoughts. You could tell when he was lost in his head.

"Fuck," he snapped back to the present, looking up at your face. "I'm so sorry. I thought you would block it, I should have pulled the strike. I'm sorry, I..."

"Izzy, hey, it's alright," you soothed him, stroking your hands up and down his arms. "It was an accident and it's really not that bad," you assured him. Izzy was still looking at you, his eyes glassy and reddening, his lips parted slightly as he struggled to find the words he wanted to say.

"Really, love, I'm okay," you promised him as you cupped his face in your hands, thumbs stroking over his cheeks, "it's not your fault, things like this happen."

"...I hurt you," his voice cracked, hand pressed against your side. As if to slow the bleeding even though you thought it might be impossible to bleed out from such a wound.

"Oh love...it was an accident, I wouldn't blame you for something like this. We were using real swords, I knew the risk."

"But-"

"Izzy, look at me and listen to me," you took a slightly stern tone to get him to listen, but your face remained as gentle as ever. "It's okay. A mistake was made, it was nobody's fault, and it's not that bad. Yes, it hurts, but I'm going to be just fine," your voice softened again.

Izzy sighed, eyelids fluttering slightly. "I love you, Iz, and I trust you," you rested your forehead against his, "I know you would never hurt me on purpose."

"I'm sorry, love," Izzy sighed. He knew you were right, the cut really wasn't something to worry about. It wasn't the specific injury he was worried about.

He hurt you. He made you bleed. It was his fault.

"You don't need to apologise, but I forgive you," you pressed a light kiss to the corner of his mouth.

"Will you let me clean and bandage it?" he asked.

"Of course," you nodded. The wound needed cleaning if nothing else and you knew Izzy would feel a little better if he could take care of it.

Izzy helped you down from the barrel, making sure you didn't pull on your new wound, before taking you down to the galley. He lit the oil lamps as you removed your shirt and sat down on the bench.

Admittedly, the injury looked even less serious once he washed the blood away. The would really was nothing to worry about. He worked in silence, wiping away the drying blood until you wouldn't even know it had been there, then washing your bloodied hand.

He applied the salved and washed his own hands before wrapping the wound. The bandages would probably be able to be removed sometime tomorrow but he would take the extra precaution. Your shirt could also be washed and sewn up tomorrow.

"I really am sorry, love," Izzy apologised again after checking the give of your bandages.

"I told you-" you began to reassure him again but he shushed you and took your hands in his.

"No, I know but...but I hurt you and I really am sorry," he continued. Izzy wasn't one to apologise so you knew that whenever he did, he truly meant it. And the way he was looking at you, looking pained and apologetic.

You couldn't help but smile softly. "It's okay," you whispered once again, leaning in to press and slow, lingering kiss to his lips.

Izzy sighed into the kiss, finally beginning to relax. He had hurt you but he took care of it, he took care of you and he made it right. He couldn't do anymore but he would still try. He would make this up to you properly over the following days, make sure that you didn't strain yourself so you didn't tug on the healing cut. Even if it was shallow enough that he would have told any other crewmember to get back to work instantly.

[lavender-at-heart]

Can I request ahsoka x reader with severe angst but happy ending??? If not it’s absolutely fine, don’t worry. hope you have a good day 😊

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Pairing: Ahsoka Tano x gn!reader

Warnings: angst, death, minor(as in opposite of major, not underage person) violence, crying, fainting.

Notes: ok tysm for the request!!! I've never written angst so this might be rlly cringey and bad. Also it's pretty short and im sorry if this was not angsty enough. Feedback is welcome and appreciated, requests are open and thank you for reading!

~ with love, cc♡

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"Sorry [nickname]...but I'm not coming back"

I stand still staring back at her, mouth slightly agape. I'm not sure what to say, jedi training has never taught me how to handle a situation like this before. I try and think of what master Obi-wan would do, but nothing comes. I try and say anything, some touching words of parting, some fleeting phrase of condolence- yet nothing seems good enough to say.

"Ahsoka..." that's all I manage to spit out, I can feel tears briming my eyes and I tell myself that this is the one time I'll ever allow them to fall.

"Goodbye [____]. You'll make a great jedi knight."

Her sorrowful face turns away from me and towards the setting sun. The Padawan braid I used to pull on is missing. Her walk is missing the brightness it usually has as she walks away. She, Ahsoha, my Ahsoka walks away from me, never to return. Will anything ever be the same?

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I passed my trials, I became a jedi knight, just like she said I would. And to everyone else life went on, but I still felt stuck in that moment, unable to let go.

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The blaster shots seem to be coming from every direction, I don't understand what's happening and for a seccond time in my life, I am left unable to think. This isn't supposed to be happening, where is everyone? Where is Anakin, is he making sure padme is safe? Is Obi-wan OK? Is this happening to all the clones? Is there a reason to this? Or have I just been targeted by all my closest friends for no reason?

Even though I can't think my body can still move, I run and run faster than I'd ever dream I'd be able of. My lugs burn, my eyes sting and my ears ring. There is a blaster shot on my arm but I keep running. My vision becomes hazier but I keep running. I can hear something screaming, are those younglings? Turn back, something tells me. But I can't I know I must keep runing. Another shot- my abdomen this time.

I make it out of the temple, how? I don't know. I see a street sign, it's the one that leads to the undercity, I follow it. There's still shouting behind me but it's less jaring than before. But is the shouting fading because there's less people chasing me or is my hearing going? Come to think of it my vision is starting to blur. My breaths become shallow and the world around me seems to spin uncontrollably. I try and reach for something to hold onto but my balance gives out and I fall to the ground. On my hands and knees my life flashes before my eyes- or rather in my haze I manage to conjure up Ahsokas beautiful face so that I might see her one last time before I die.

I fade in. I fade out. I fade in. I fade out.

In, out, in, out, in, out. Out.

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When I waken, I know I'm not at the temple. I have a feeling I'm supposed to be dead but can't place why. I'm nowhere I should be and I can't seem to recognize my surroundings. The panels on the ceilings tell me I'm on a ship and the blinding lights make me close my eyes again. There's shuffling from behind me but the pain in me is too strong to get me to turn. A warm cloth is placed on my head. Suddenly I realize the events that put me in this situation. The screaming, the fighting, the death. It all comes rushing back and my mind starts to sink.

Tears are falling down my face, they sting my eyes. My head starts pounding even more than before. I feel a searing hot pain in my chest and my heart feels like it has been drowned in a ocean of screams. Through the force I can feel them, all of them crying for help, lost souls with their purpose being ripped from them. I let out a small whimper and pray for all of it to end. Free me of my suffering I scream in my mind.

"Lie still, it will be ok." Her voice like honey, pulling me out of my dark ocean of thoughts, Ahsoka, my Ahsoka has returned to me, at last. My tears go on flowing but from a sweet sense of relief and serendipity instead of hate and anguish. My smile knows no bounds as her gentle kiss on my forehead seems to dull any pain remaining in my body. She places another couple kisses on my face to dry my tears. My thoughts seem to flow endlessly so many things I mean to tell her: apologies, gentle phrases, and words of praise, but nothing seems good enough to say.

"Ahsoka..." is all I manage to spill out, and I finally allow myself to just let go; our thoughts becoming one as we both start to cry.

[i-want-my-iwtv]

Regarding that last ask about people still engaging with the show despite not liking it... I think it's also partially frustration. Can't say I'm that active in VC fandom, but I see it now in the LotR fandom with Rings of Power. Pretty early on I decided to just ignore it, but now it's in every LotR space/group I ever go to, and filtering/blocking does not work because people don't tag or post mix of ROP and not ROP content. So it feels like I'm forced to engage no matter how hard I try.

[Re: This ask.]

Yes, Anon, you're so right! I definitely see this as part of the reason. It's unavoidable, we're in a shared space, using shared tags, LotR fandom with Rings of Power is a great example.

I'm sorry in advance that this response got TOO LONG again. Oops. And you didn't mention racism, but that has been present in LOTR:ROP, and some of the people in VC who criticize the AMC show are/were being called racists, and it feels relevant to bring up here, in the context of this shared space issue.

TL;DR: This is a shared space. People who enjoy the show and people who want to criticize it are both in this shared space.

People are going to criticize even shows that try to be progressive. It's up to those adaptations to be strong enough to withstand it.

AMC has already greenlit a Season 2 for IWTV, so it's not going anywhere.

There are racists and homophobes in the world. I'm not spending my limited time seeking them out to try to educate them, and my stance is to block them, or drown them out with positivity.

I've been following the reactions to ROP pretty closely because I saw what was happening and had the same feeling that you do. And truly, some of the wave of fans of ROP/IWTV AMC are just happily posting their fanworks but some of them appear to be targeting resistance they find, aiming for fanspaces to dominate, this is a legit kind of conquest. More on that in a bit.

Example below. This is actually a really light hearted one, but if Brian Morgan in this tweet could genuinely just enjoy LOTR:ROP, then why post this at all? Because Brian wanted to also say, "Take that trolls!" Brian wanted to stand up for what they love. Which takes courage! I'm actually kind of charmed by this meme (maybe bc the context of Shia LaBoeuf watching his own movies was so bizarre that it flew past cringey and landed in heartwarming territory imo 💖) despite the fact that it's clearly being provocative.

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So it is a legit kind of conquest. Re: People still engaging with the show despite not liking it (let's call them Skeptics, bc "haters" is too strong for some), that's because the shared spaces have become a kind of battleground, as you say, the content from people who enjoy the shows (let's call them Stans) are unavoidable because of the shared tags. When I've seen Stans trying to engage/provoke Skeptics, I know for a fact that at least some of them are concerned that the criticism (whether it's gentle/strong/good faith/bad faith doesn't matter) could end their show, and then they won't have it anymore. That's why criticism of the show is a personal attack on Stans, so they feel justified in seeking out all the spaces to fight any criticism in order to protect what they enjoy.

Not to worry, fans of IWTV AMC, because just in today: ‘Anne Rice’s Interview With The Vampire’ Renewed For Season 2 By AMC Ahead of Premiere. AMC is clearly pulling out all the stops, far beyond what Bezos is attempting with ROP, to create a multifaceted fanbase that'll be the foundation for their "Immortal Universe."

They've posted articles and cast interviews, they keep up their social media

There's been an avalanche of positive reviews

They've sent the first several episodes out to fans who have requested them in advance to start generating GIFs and other fan content

They're having a podcast review post-episodes in what seems like the spirit of the post-TWD episodes "Talking Dead".

They're having a free screening in NYC, and I would bet there will be more

They're promoting a fandom location for fanworks, Dorian

Negative criticism can end a show. But it looks like IWTV AMC is plenty robust enough to handle and outlast their share.💪

Whether the Stans like it or not, criticism is going to happen. Different fans of VC have different needs. Queer people are not a hive mind. Different groups of queer people see different things as good and progressive. This show can be meaningful to some fans and progressive to them, and not meaningful or progressive to others. The changes the showrunners made to IWTV appear to me to be a widening out to try to appeal to new groups of people, and that's fine. Just because a show attempts to be progressive does not mean that it gets a free pass and can be free of criticism.

Are there homophobes and racists complaining about race and gender/sexual orientation changes? Yes, of course. I have not seen these towards IWTV AMC myself, but there's been a huge reaction against Halle Bailey, the Black actress cast as Ariel in Ariel the Little Mermaid. There has been good faith criticism, and horrible racism. There was apparently a #NotMyAriel racist Twitter campaign.

There's also been good stuff that restores faith in humanity: "A new TikTok trend also shows young girls of color exclaiming at seeing Bailey as Ariel for the first time: “She’s Black like me!”" [X] This is such a wonderful way to respond to racism, IMO, by drowning it out with this positive impact!

DISCLAIMER: I am not a POC, so I'm not telling anyone, POC or otherwise, how to react to racism. But this is how I'm doing it at this time.

[I couldn't figure out how to embed the video but here's the link: X]

I have not seen racism against IWTV AMC, and even if I do in the future, it's not my job to act as the fandom police to seek out this content and go to battle over it. If I see someone make a racist comment, if it was a friend, I'd try to have a private dialogue about it. But if it's a stranger, I block. I am not spending my limited free time trying to educate strangers on the internet.

At least in VC tumblr fandom, I don't even know what they want from me/us. I assume they're trying to delegate fandom policing to others, but they are welcome to do it themselves. Or, they want to have public conversations about racist comments they have seen. They can write about whatever they choose on their own blog, and people can choose to engage with them or not.

We're in a shared space together. No one can ask the people who enjoy Rings of Power to tag their content without Lord of the Rings, because it technically is part of that IP. For the same reason, asking people posting about AMC to not use Vampire Chronicles or Interview with the Vampire would be completely absurd, because the AMC adaptation is within those tags.

It would be great to have some separation between Stans and Skeptics, if at all possible.