#afraid of mosters

[ebbyxiii]

I'm very happy to be making progress again on my beloved fic since the last-- FOUR MONTHS?!

No way, you can't tell me it's been four gosh darn months since... oh. Oh wait. No. It has. I checked. I made the note just to embarrass myself as a reminder. A stab at future me. Yeap. I did that. Welp. That's just how it is folks.

Anyway, my darling torment "We Fear the Cry of Monsters" fanfiction is taking off. It just passed 1,000 views on AO3 for the main body and is doing pretty well in other (smut) areas. Which is incredible. I'm so thankful for all the comments and the interactions I've received because of its contents. As a merge between the games Cry of Fear/Afraid of Monsters/ and "Grey", the themes are dark, morbid at times, and indicative of the interpersonal battles of self-control. We all struggle with something. To write about such specific traumas has been very cathartic toward my own. This project has helped me grow as an author and as a member of a weird and awesome community.

In this group of tales, Simon Henriksson takes on the challenge of facing the truth about what really happened to him on The Black Day - the worst event of his young life. Through moments of doubt, perseverance, and opportune interactions, the Author is able to uncover his memories both through a new novel entry as well as in the hospital where he permanently lives. Simon reunites with David, the man behind the wheel of the car that crippled him, who harbors a sinister secret. Grey, a companion from Simon's teenage days. Sophie, his romantic obsession. And Purnell, a pharmacist and mentor who refuses to give up on his patient. (Set in the aftermath of the events of the good ending in Cry of Fear - there's your warning for any spoiler alert concerns.)

I sure would love if you'd come have a peek if you're a fan of the strange, dark and mysterious delivered in story format ;) It's coming close to a conclusion. I can't promise when, but I'll be finishing this project as strong as I can. I'm excited for what's to come. Maybe I'll find you there... at the Source of everything.

We Fear the Cry of Monsters

[kindred-spirit-93]

THIS IS EPIC: THE ITHACA SAGA

i know we all said wed be crying but i didnt expect to be sobbing into my hot chocolate this early in the morning. (spoilers ahead)

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welcome home odysseus, husband to penelope, father of dear telemachus <3

[bichitodibuja]

CW:cry of fear/afraid of mosters (grieving, implied death, a bit sad)

There they are all the sillies!!

In the first drawings you got dimon (AKA simon leatherhoff) and soapie (his childhood friend) from cry of monsters and in the second you got savid (AKA david henriksson) with his older brother josef form afraid of fear!!

They're from my AU that it's about swapping the characters from aom and cof

[woso-dreamzzz]

protective moster frido with young!princesse

Just Frido taking no shit from kids on the playground when they push Princesse over or pull her hair

Frido's not afraid to square up to a five year old

[outofmymindbebacklater]

so in sea of mosters, Clarisse gets a ship of dead soldiers from her dad, cuz people who lose a war are indepted to Ares. In the books it was southern soldiers from the American civil war, but Disney likely won't use that for a number of reasons, so I propose: WW1 German soldiers.

think of this: twas too long ago for anyone to be alive who remembers it, still a famous war, Germans aren't afraid of their history, and also, Germany was in a severely rough shape after WW1 and the Allies cutting everything off from them. idk that just gives me "indebted to Ares" vibes.

[cowboy-like-moony]

Okay theory time. Vampire mythology could work as metaphor for a variety of things. In the context of a relationship (romantic or otherwise) I think it could explore a relationship with someone who sucks all the life out of you, but also a sort of "immortal relationship" in a sense that you never really get over this person or keep coming back to these unhealthy paterns or maybe just in the sense that you want someone to love you for all of eternity. Vampires are also seen as sinister and the they can only live in the dark, so that could stand for somthing secretive and forbidden. It could also be about her relationship with herself, maybe she is the person sucking life out of others, feeling wrong, like a moster, like a parasite, maybe she's hiding in darkness because she's afraid to be burned by the sun. Vampires are also obviously undead and there is a lot you can do with that, for example making it a metaphor for feeling like your dead inside, but you have to keep going. Of course it could also go into a positive direction, maybe a coming of age story, in the past few decades vampires have become incredibly prevalent in media marketed towards teen girls, we know that olivia is a twilight fan and has used it as musical inspiration before for her song twilight, so it's not unlikely that she'll draw from that again. Vampires also work well for that theme because they can be used to explore the theme of eternal youth, feeling immortal and feeling infinite, even the night setting works well for a song about being young. And a song like that could also lean into the idea of being sinister. The bloodlust of vampires can also be used as a metaphor (besides to represent sucking life out of someone) it could stand for always wanting more, craving love, craving fame, something like that. Whatever she does, Vampires make for a killer music video (pun not intended).

[miragetheshadow]

Guys where's the monster one where the kid wasn't afraid of the monster because her dad was abusive and the moster protects her

Love how tumblr has its own folk stories. Yeah the God of Arepo we’ve all heard the story and we all still cry about it. Yeah that one about the woman locked up for centuries finally getting free. That one about the witch who would marry anyone who could get her house key from her cat and it’s revealed she IS the cat after the narrator befriends the cat.

[amberbeach]

'BEATEN AND BROKEN'

gif belongs to me

He always tried to appear unharmed when he entered the house. But his eyes and the slight twitch of his brow revealed how much his body ached with each step he took. You could never sleep when he never returned home, knowing he was out there in the city - likely injured.

When he did finally return home, you had the first aid kit that was bigger than the average households, but you wanted to be prepared for anything. And when he returned home, his hand on his side, you were by his side immediately, guiding him to the sofa.

Carter sighed as he took of his shirt, wincing and you stepped in to help him.

His eyes were on the floor as you dabbed the solution against his cuts, missing the way your eyes teared up at the sight of the bruises littering his side. He knew you wanted answers, so he explained what happened during their latest showdown with Vypra and how the team had lost the fight that night.

You blinked them away, turning to fetch a bandage from the kit, wrapping it around his waist. Once you were satisfied that he was going to be alright, you packed everything away, and took the bag to the cupboard in the hallway, letting a few tears fall.

You went to the bathroom, closing the door quietly, before sitting on the edge of the bathtub, covering your mouth as you let more tears fall.

You hadn't realized how much time had passed until Carter knocked on the door. "Everything alright in there?"

You wiped your cheeks, "Y-Yeah, I'll be out in a minute."

Carter's eyebrows furrowed when he heard the tremble in your voice, turning the handle, entering when it was unlocked. You turned, drying your tears on a towel.

"Y/N..." His concerned eyes met your teary ones.

He reached out to rbing you to his chest, but you moved away, shaking your head. "You should watch what you're doing -"

"I can hug my girlfriend." Carter brought you into a warm embrace, kissing your head. He noticed the way your hands hesitantly rested on his back and knew why you had hidden away. "I'm fine."

"I counted twenty six bruises, and at least five cuts. You are not fine."

Carter sighed, pressing his lips against your temple.

"One day I won't be enough..." You began, making him pull away to meet your gaze. "One day I'm afraid that you won't come back at all."

"I'll always come back." Carter placed his hands on your arms. "I promise."

You stepped away, "Don't make promises you can't keep, Carter." You walked away, heading upstairs and Carter sighed as he watched you go.

He steered clear for twenty minutes before coming upstairs, getting changed into his pyjamas, looking at you over his shoulder as he sat on the bed. You laid with your back turned to him, not sparing him a glance.

"You're right. I can't promise that I will always come back because each threat is different - stronger even. But I'll always fight to return home to you." As he spoke, he laid down behind you, placing a hand on your arm. "I love you." He kissed your shoulder and you closed your eyes, holding back fresh tears.

You turned around to meet his gaze, "I love you too."

Carter placed a hand on your cheek, kissing you tenderly. He wrapped his arms around you when you both pulled away, and you rested your head on his chest gently.

You were always concerned for his wellbeing during his day job as a fireman, but when he told you he had joined the Rangers, you were far from thrilled - aware the danger he would be facing was different. The mosters he was facing were reported on the news, and you feared that one day Vypra would succeed and you would be waiting for a man who would never return home.

But you knew that no matter what happened, Carter would go through hell if it meant seeing you again.

[alexglitches]

Okay, just listen to me: Crossover where Yuu who is Sadako's child and is a ghost type pokemon trainer and gym leader, how funny would it be to see Yuu emerging from the screen of some electronic device with a scary costume while their pokemons scare the challengers or make your own Halloween event at Ramshackle which is ghost paradise for your mischievous pokemons. Who wouldn't be afraid to hear them hum in a horror movie scene before emerging from the TV screen along with their Pokemon?

you

anon

big brain

they have tons of ghost pokemon, but their main partner is a Rotom jaskjszm

they just travel through screens of magicam mosters to scare the shit outta them lmao

this sounds like something they'd do just for fun too lmao

[cosmic-shine]

Hello! I'm sorry if this is already listed somewhere in your commission info and I've overlooked it, but what all kinds of character design types do you draw for your commissions? Like Humans, Monsters, Furry, etc. :3 Your art style is beautiful and I'd love to see about commissioning a piece of an OC or two of mine sometime but want to know what you prefer to draw before I decide which character(s) to ask for.

Hello! Thank you both for kind words and the question (i keep forgeting to write about it myself ^^;) - i draw mostly Humans <3

Mosters/Furry, etc. might be discussable, but since i don't really have nor expirience neither artsyle for those, i'm afraid i might spoil the picture X)

[starlightshadowsworld]

What ifs and fanfiction about naruto and sasuke swaped I see and evry time to me is so much worng why becose often they do uchiha mascaer never happening and this is so much inportant to sasuke sotry the thing that conects him to naruto the final peace becose they both are cursed by sonthing that dont have control sasuke uchiha in eyes of so many the clan destined to become mosters in human skins one they unlocked sharingan naruto has kurama/nine tails sealed inside him sienc the day of his birth and as long as he can remeber he was treated like plage like he has desise and some thinks of him as kyubi in human form but in early live sasuke had the whole uchiha clan a family and naruto has noone the uhicha masacere in canon story gives the final pieac that conects naruto and sasuke later that gives sone level of truly understanding each other they both are cursed in the day of thier birth they both lost thier family by man wileding mangekyu sharingan.........qnd them we have fanfiction where that evryting is throwed away like garbed

I wouldn’t know I’m afraid

[ask-bigsistermoon]

❇ hey Moon i made a very bad mistake. I mean its kinda not my fault but still it is my fault to some extent . i was messing around with how adaptable and good at surviving to say it the simplest. i can make my avatars because i was bored . well the answer is : EXTREMELY ADAPTABLE and well i made 3? new avatars... Accualy 2 avatars all of the avatars i made were put to a test of how good at surviving they are . their goal was : SURVIVE UNDER ANY CONDITIONS. All of them passed with 100% . to put them on that test i needed to cut my connection to them making them seperate enteties that can operate without me pozzesing them . i. Was observing each one of them with my overseer avatar to see how well are they at what i made them good at . after the test i regained the connection to them and they stopped being a seperate entity. I i would like to add that i was kinda basing these avatars off creatures from my world and other universes . well theres where the mistake occured or rather i say an error. The third avatar. The one that was doing WAY better than the first and second and must i say it was too good at surviving and adapting went rouge . by that i mean i was unable to regain connection to it - im not able to control it , the " avatar" became its own thing. i made a monster Moon. i didnt even wanna use this avatar i was planning on getting rid of it because it was just... Really hard to control it even before cutting connection. the ' avatar' looks as if Carrion moster from Carrion had an unholy child with Rot and some poor slugcat , its as big as a Miros bird at least the main body because the Legs can change their lenth ,it had the ability of the weird insects from the paincones - it can immobilize a red lizard in seconds , it also has the ability of Spitter Spider-paralizing darts , and big spider - it can revive itself for a short amout of time , and of course Long legs great hearing and the legs if it grabs you therses no escapin it , it also has way too many fucking mouths and eyes it grew them after i lost connection to it , it also can regenerate by eating . it can eat anything , its really smart too . i pray to whatever cruel god there is that this thing cant reproduce even tho i dont believe in god . its currently near Pebbles leg in the memory crypts massacaring Miros birds and i think its heading his way. This avatar is REALLY agressive and it should be killed under any circumstances . killing it in a way that it wont revive itself with its ability should do the trick because i didnt connect these avatars to the cycle before the test at least i hope ,i didnt connect them . i sent a similar message to NSH and a warning to pebbles because no way in hell would he believe me if i explained it to him like i explained it to you and NSH . also i think its good to add that this thing doent give a f about the rain it does nothing to it . it just walks around like its nothing while it rains eating any poor animal that didnt menage to find shelter before the rain came . its also not blind unlike DLL heres the picture of this frobbiten spaghetti monster avatar that i took with my overseer avatar , it was kinda hard to get a good picture of it because it tried to eat the overseer avatar :

Also happy halloween �� i think i should name the overseer avatar i had it for how long? A week , two weeks?? And it still doesnt have a proper name . i mean this thing doent have a name either . im gonna go warn Pebbles. Also idn how long it will the jellyfish take NSH said they will tell me when theire done❇

Oh, I see.. Im afraid I cannot help you, no matter how much I'd want to.. Quite an interesting creature tho.. Fits these seasons perfectly..

(Beautiful beast tho, 10/10. Love the shit)

[originalwinnercheesecake]

Amphibia characters family make up

With True Colors about to come out the Amphibia fandom is alive with a buzz on the characters and I want to talk about one intrstesing topic that has played a role in the characters. That is the make up of thier families back home.

Anne  Boonchuy: We know that Anne is Thai American. Her parents own a Thai restaurant and have taught her to cook many of their dishes, I imagine that she helped out in their restaurant back home. In season 1 it is implied that her parents are still together, but in season 2 she mentions her mom a lot more than her dad, even going as far as to figh in a derby challenge to win her mom a souviner. This could hint to Anne being a mama’s girl back home, and just having a closer relationship with her mom than her dad. One final member of her family is her little rescue kitty domina, whom Anne definetly see’s as her baby, and was the first family member she admitted to feeling homesick for.

The Planters: We have all noticed that Mom and Dad Planter are nt around anymore. Given the mosters and dangers that roam amphibia it was pretty hard to imagine that they were just away n buisness trips. After The Rain confirmed that they were killed and eaten by a pair of Herons that invaded Wartwood a few years back. We also learn that during this attack Hop-pop was away on a trip. Because of this Hop-pop wrongly blames himself for the lose of his son and daughter in law, feeling like if he had been their he could have doen something to save them. Likely he would have eaten as well and Sprig and Polly would have been left with no one. Regardless this played a big part in how he raises Sprig, Polly, and now Anne. Why he has so many rules, acts overprotective most of the time, and why he t times struggles to allow hem to take the risks they need to.

The Flour’s and the Sundew’s: It is also worth mentioning that Sprig and Polly are not the only frog children to lack parents. We have seen no sign of Maddie and Her sisters Mom, or Ivy’s dad (all though one brief scene in Ivy on the run where Wally shows up right after Ivy’s mom mentions meeting her father on a trip had a few people wondering). It is possible that both these frogs were also caught by the Herons. IF so it could explain why Felicia takes her daughters “Training” so seriuosly, and why Maddie’s sisters are so attached to her and obsessed with spening time with her, as she could be the only other female in their lives.

Captian Grime: Or Grimithoy. In Barrel’s Warhammer we learn that Grime has a sister Beatrix. Beatrix controls the Western Toad Tower, while Grime until recently controlled the Southern Tower. This means that Grime and Beatrix are both very high up in the Toad Hiarchy. Like for all we know the Newts are the only ones above them. We also know Grime earned his rank for feats of ferocity he showed during his time as a Gladiator. Maybe Beatrix was one too, Toad females are shown to be warriors just like the males. It is also hinted that Grime and Beatrix have a rivalry going between them. IS it wrong that I want to see them have a match? Not to the death obviously, just to see whom is the tougher toad.

Sasha Waybright: We have gotten a good look at Sasha’s complex in the last few episodes. We know that her obsession with control stems from being afraid of losing control/having no control. We also see that despite the two of them clearly loving her, she is worries that if Anne and Marcy will not want her as a friend, should they stop needing her to get by. A lot of people have thoerized on how this relates back to her home life.She is hinted to be rich, she is mentioned to have a pool at her house. But some people have wondered if she suffers from abuse, a lack of love. That is a bit extreme though. Honestly what seems likely to me though is that Sasha is a child from a broken marriage, and that maybe she hasn’t really seen one her parents since the divorce. Nor being able to make her parents stop fighting could be where her fear of not having control comes from. Likewise if one of her parents walked out on her she could see that as “They didn’t need me so they left me”.

Marcy Wu: We know nothing about Marcy’s family back home. She hasn’t mentioned any of them and the many flashbacks we have seen of her life on earth are always of her losing herself in a game. Think about that, her whole life back home is losing herself in games and imaginary worlds, Marcy is also the one who has seemed in the least hurry to go home. Is it really any wonder fans theorize that she might betray Anne and Sasha to have them all stay in Amphibia forever. Anne and Sasha are the only people she is even implied to have missed, and as of the third temple she has them back while still being in her dream fantasy world.

[imperial-topaz2003]

Your SWTOR OCs are now in the world of the Witcher!

Thanks for the ask, @swtorpadawan ! Ooooo, that's a good one! Wild Hunt is one of my top 3 favorite video games ever! Now, let's see. Yulizzia I imagine being a Witcher-type. I don't remember if females can become Witchers, but I imagine her being some sort of Moster hunter if not. Definitely one of the more optimistic of the OCs, trying her best to save as many lives as possible. Ascillan would be a bit more on the reserved side. He's the type who'd try to observe his surroundings, studying monsters and their weaknesses, as well as trying to get a feel of the world's geopolitical situation. Rather than interact with civilians, he'd rather stick to the wilds as a hermit/Oracle type, avoiding contact for the most part, but not afraid to help any lost travelers. Aellisu is the more opportunistic type. He's the one who'd try to make a wealthy living. Wether it be through setting up a smuggling ring, trading, or just simple mercenary work, lining his pockets would be a priority. Once he stabilizes his financial situation tho, he wouldn't mind taking on more heroic acts, always looking to lend a hand to the little guys...literally in the case of dwarves and gnomes. Baduenda and Hadisha would have fairly similar roles, imo. I could see the both of them (maybe together) taking on jobs such as protecting villages, guarding trade caravans, and the like. In particular, I imagine Baduenda would be fairly opposed to the Nilfgaardians (especially if she arrived during the Northern Wars), as their invasions would remind her too much of the Sith Empire back home. Tyrrnith would have a fairly similar reaction as Ascillan, initially taking it slow and not interacting with many people. However, unlike our Jedi Consular, Tyr would take a more active role once he gets a feel of the world. I could see him starting up a mercenary band of some type, teaching people how to fight and ward off against monsters, bandits, ect. Mostly, this would be to establish a solid powerbase on the Continent, but I could see him having some genuine attachments to his new forces. Lavissia's focus would definitely be on magic. She'd see this new world as an untapped reservoir of opportunities to expand her own power. She'd stick to the wilds, possibly being known in folklore as a mysterious Witch or whatnot. I could definitely see her taking an interest in the Ladies of the Wood, Gaunter O'Dimm, or even Ciri herself...though she'd know better than to pursue the latter. A'vash'l would probably make way for the nearest civilized area, wherever he ends up, as he'd realize those are the safer areas...compared to the rest of the world at least. He'd spend a lot of his time fairly poor, not just due to finances, but also to maintain his cover on the world. Once he settles in, I could see him forming some underground spy/assassination ring, rarely showing his face and taking on contracts for locals, and learning the inner workings of the governments of the Northern Kingdoms and Nilfgaardian Empire.

That's the best I can think up for now. Lemme know what you think!

[safetyrat]

anybody watched pixars luca and thinks it really would work for a clingy duo/bench trio au?

(//luca spoiler warning!!)

tubbo is luca and tommy is alberto

tubbo starts out being more insecure but becomes more confident due to tommy and later ranboo

tommy acts overconfident to hide how much he has been hurt by Father Figure Of Choice (not phil though, so probably dadtdm?) tubbo helps him to open up

tubbos fish family that doesnt allow him to go to the surface probably has to be sparklez and crumb? or dadschlatt?

ranboo is guilia. their personalities are pretty different but i like the idea of him teaching tubbo about human stuff

tommy is jealous of this as tubbo is the first friend hes had and hes afraid to loose him

instead of living with his dad ranboo lives with his adopted family that is the rest of sbi

after tommy and tubbo get revealed as sea monsters they essentially go "yes we've known these fishy fucks for 5 minutes. yes we are adopting them"

the entirety of the disc wars are actually just a bike riding and pasta eating contest against dream

also not from the movie or anything but niki is definitely a fish lady too. shes a friend of sbi who lives a double life and helps the boys hide their identity for a bit

also sea moster x pirate background puffychu? 👀

yeah!!! i think this is fun!!! feel free to add on ideas!!!

[heelwriting]

Prompt: We're roommates but we're falling for each other

Fandom: Wrestling, AEW

Pairing: Orange Cassidy x Reader

Warnings: None

Genre: Fluff

Word Count: 1,518

Masterlist | Buy Me coffee

Requested by @dancingwithsilhouettes

A/N: I'm not going to lie, this is probably my favorite I've written so far, I put much of myself in it I kind of feel vulnerable, well... hope you enjoy it!

I loved living with James, we've lived together for the past year, he was searching for a roommate and I had just finished my stay at another complex, it accommodated more to my expenses not having to pay full rent and it was a plus living with my best friend. But of course I didn’t know I would get so attached to him emotionally, I started to depend on him for a lot of things. During the morning one would cook breakfast for the both of us, we would go to restaurants together, dinner was almost always pizza or some other delivered food so we didn't get out of the house, we always had marathons of movies, I will be honest, he made me care about Fast and Furious. Lately I've felt small changes, but significant ones, we used to sit side by side on the couch and now he would put his arm around my shoulders or he would rest his head on my lap and I would play with his hair, he started kissing me more often, kisses on the cheek and forehead, he would take my hand if he went for a walk, he always let me decide where to go or what to do, and I know I could be exaggerated but maybe, just maybe he does like me. I got up in the morning and started making pancakes, as they started to cook I feel James enter the kitchen. “This smells great, why do they smell so good? What did you put in them? " He asked as he walked closer to me or rather the plate filled with pancakes, he took the plate and sniffed he almost moaned appreciating the sweet smell. "Family recipe, I can't say" I say as I keep myself occupied, I was trying not to look at him for too long, I always found myself looking at him for long minutes at a time, I couldn't help but look in admiration, it was early in the morning and he looked perfect, his hair brushed to the side, he just put on some sweatpants and at shirt, I could say we were dressed exactly the same but I looked like shit. The lights that came from the window made his blond hair glow, his skin looked pale, his eyes as blue as they ever looked, he was the closest thing I’d seen to an angel. After breakfast we started watching Avatar, the bald kid, not the blue mosters, i love making Cassidy watch kid oriented movies or shows he seemed to be more calm and relaxed when we saw them, he was hesitant at first but with time he started liking them again, I loved the way he concentrated and he would pause the show to ask something if he didnt understand or sometimes he made up his own conclusions to what was next and I thought it was the cutest thing ever. "So is he like the ultimate bad guy?" He asked, as Zuko was yelling at his uncle. "No, his father is, but he doesn’t show up until later" I explained. "Ohh" He said nodding, he kept watching and didn’t say much, only laughing at things Sokka would say or do, I feel like he would take inspiration for Orange by looking at Sokka and his comedic antics. We kept watching for hours, he started reclining his head on my shoulder until he had his head on my lap, he was absently playing with the cordons of my sweatpants as I started brushing his soft hair with my fingers, i knew the show from front to back i wasn’t paying much attention, instead I would watch his features, the long bridge of his nose, the little concave part down the lower part of his nose, I loved that part. His laugh was contagious, it was like fuel to me, I loved the way the lines appeared beside his mouth because he smiled so much, I liked being the reason he smiled so much that’s why I’m always trying to break him especially if he is in character, this days it doesn’t take much, and he is just a very giggly person. That was part of his charm and it was easy to love him. We ordered food not wanting to even move from the couch, we heard the bell ring and we looked at each other. “Rock, paper, scissors?” I asked. “Shoot, two out of three” He answered smiling, he stuck his tongue out while he played, after losing the first two games he got up, resigned, he came back with pizza and a soda from the fridge, I concentrated in devouring the pizza but I felt him staring at me, I almost

chocked, I looked back at him a little embarrassed, I must have looked like a maniac, he smiled and I imitated him. We went back to watch the show afterwards, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that James was watching me, I started biting my lip unconsciously. Out of nowhere he turned off the tv and he sat looking directly at me. “What’s up?” I asked confused, he evaded my face for a few seconds, he scratched the back of his neck, unintentionally my eyes looked at his arms, he may not be the biggest guy but he is certainly more muscular than a regular person. “We need to talk” He said in a serious voice, he didn’t use that tone often so I was scared of what he would say. “Sure… about what?” I said. “I don’t know how to do this” He mumbled to himself, I put a hand on his knee trying to comfort him, but he froze, he looked at my hand and then at my face, his mouth a little open, he lost concentration, I was confused all around. “I… don’t know if I should say it” He said hesitated. “It’s ok just say it” I wanted him to talk, every second I was more and more afraid of what could come. “I love you” He says in shaky voice, he looks at me expecting my reaction, I didn’t know how to react. “I love you too” I say between confusion and without me trying to sound that way, it came out like nonchalant, but I was dying on the inside, he never said ‘love’ before, I started sweating from how nervous I was, he shakes his head. “You don’t get it, I’m in love with you” And there it was, my mouth felt dry suddenly, I could not move I couldn’t think straight, I didn’t say anything and he took it as a sign to keep talking. “I’m not sure when it happened but I am” He pauses for a second, he moves closer to me, taking my hand in his, he locked eyes with me, the shine in them was distracting me, but then his voice brought me back to reality, a reality I didn’t know I could be in. “I love the way your hair smells when we cuddle, I love to spoil you with your favorite dessert, I love watching movies and how you do commentary for them, sometimes it’s much better than the actual lines, I love your smile, I love your laugh and I do everything I can to see it every day, I know we’re supposed to be friends but I can’t fake it anymore I have fallen in love with you and if you are ok with it, would you go on a date with me?” I felt tears almost falling from my eyes, were did the emotion come from? Only he could make me feel like a million bucks, with his thumb he wiped my tears, he kept his hand over my cheek. “Are you ok?” He asked preoccupied, his thumb rubbing my skin lovely, I nodded as I smiled, I hugged the arm that was touching my face. “I think I’m alright, it’s just… I’ve waited a long time to hear you say that, and part of me doesn’t want to wake up from this dream” He smiled. “It’s not a dream” He said. James moved slowly towards me, I looked at his blue eyes as he closed the distance, he looked at me one last time, his lips were parted as he waited one more second before he kissed me for the first time, his lips touching mine as electricity rushed into me, his free hand went to my waist, I kept one on his arm and the other went to his hair, tilting his head to the side we didn’t waste time and deepened the kiss, but it wasn’t long before we had to separate. I looked at the floor for a while, I felt my cheeks burning hot, I felt like a teenager with my first crush again. “Defiantly not a dream” I said joking as I find the courage to look at him, he took my hand and kissed it. “So… what do you say?” He asks expectantly. “I’d love to go out with you”

Originally posted on October 7, 2020