#afraid of love

[endlessmidnights]

I’m afraid that the kind of unconditional love I want doesn’t exist

[starryvomit]

=♥️>

[kaywrites23]

Please don’t break my heart because… because I don’t think I could survive it.

I don’t think I could survive the heartbreak that would come with losing you…

[killabeeblog]

[princeruby]

This playlist shows me claiming my beloved with my heart in flames, only to face the inevitable dissolution of love, as the demon devours everything I hold dear. 😣 🥶

[latibuleofwords]

She braced her hands on the railing and gazed at the skyline, it gave her comfort and tranquility she desperately needed.

The airy silence had a striking contrast to the music playing downstairs.

She sighed and closed her eyes, hoping the night would end sooner rather than later.

Just then, she heard the back door open and the sound of footsteps followed until they stopped right beside her.

She didn't need to open her eyes to guess who it was, the familiar cologne overwhelming her senses and sending her mind to overdrive.

"What are you doing here?", she asked with a hint of exhaustion lacing her voice.

He glanced at her and said," Just came here to admire the view and get away from the chaos downstairs...and I must say, it's quite entrancing, wouldn't you agree?", he questioned.

She opened her eyes, catching a glimpse of the man she once felt contempt for from the corner of her eye before turning her attention back towards the cityscape.

"Hmm", she nodded lightly," How was Russia?"

"Ah, you missed me", he smirked.

She rolled her eyes," Don't push it. I simply asked out of courtesy."

He stared at for several beats "So you did miss me", he said, eyes twinkling with amusement.

She turned her gaze towards him and stared into his eyes.

Of course she missed him. She missed him every second of the day. She missed their banter, she missed his warmth, she missed his touch, she missed the deep look in his eyes...she missed him, but she wouldn't dare say it.

She didn't want to deal with the consequences of love instead she decided to step back and just let go.

[triple3j]

There’s nothing more fun in life then staying up together talking till 5 am with soft music playing in the car. But at the same time there’s nothing more scary than doing just that, because you know it won’t last forever.

[connectingwithsoul]

I'm afraid of the moments I'm happy　

I'm afraid of the pain that could cause

I'm afraid that it all will be over

And I'll forcefully have to move on

I'm afraid when you look in my eyes and

Smile like I'm the best thing in your life

I'm afraid of the joy rising in me

Cuz these memories could cut like a knife

I'm afraid when my hands intertwine

Reaching over the table with yours

Our connection makes me feel so alive

It's the strongest magnetic force

Will my fear ever let me be with you

Or will I always have to be scared

That our happiest moments together

Will inevitably come to an end

@connectingwithsoul

[scaredlilghosty]

Why are normal, everyday things so fucking hard for me?!?!

[ladyjanewatertonroseshire10]

Afraid of Love

I'm 28 year old lady and I have been single since birth. Having flings are unappealing to me because I want a serious and honest relationship with a guy. Crushes are temporary and by luck, I get a nanosecond of a guy's attention before he find someone worth their time. But, I guess that's my fault since I'm closed off and my lack of social skills. I lack the ability to flirt and it doesn't help when you're an introvert who's socially awkward. Guys never approached me and I don't have the courage to approach one either. I don't have a problem being single. Slowly, learning and loving myself more but it doesn't mean I don't want a relationship. In fact, I love to be in a relationship where I can love and care for the guy I love and his as well. I want to experience snuggling with him on the couch while we're watching movies, holding hands and smiling at each other when we walk down the street, bantering and laughing at our silliness and slow dancing to our song. But, the problem is I'm afraid. I'm afraid of love. It's not because I have commitment issues. One thing about me is I'm very loyal and not afraid to commit. What I'm afraid of is him falling out of love for me. I'm afraid when I wake up in the morning, I don't see the love in his eyes anymore. He would say the words I fear the most, 'I don't love you anymore', and gets up and leave. I'm left crying and heartbroken. I'm afraid that I'm not worth enough for him to stay.

I have some experiences where a guy would reach out to me in social media and we would talk ang laugh for long hours. They would flirt with me and I would try to flirt back but I ended up complimenting him which they will laugh and say they find it cute but it doesn't last long. The last message would always be me greeting them good morning and telling them to have a great day and be safe. They left me on read and never replied back. The last one I thought it was going to last.

He reached out to me on Instagram in the year 2020, in the middle of the pandemic. I was skeptical at first because he's a very handsome guy and told me I'm beautiful. I ended up replying later on and we've been talking to each other for two years. He would make me smile and laugh with his cute flirting and we would talk about our dreams and goals. He would tell me his silly pickup lines and I would smile and laugh. I felt happy when he said he liked me because I liked him as well. He told me he hoped I wasn't talking to anyone else and reassured him I wasn't which was true. But, he never said we were couple and I don't want to presume we were because he never made it official and I don't know if I should say something or not. We lasted for two years and I was slowly falling for him but not once he said we were exclusive. His last message was his reply from the joke I learned from Tiktok. Then, a few weeks passed he never messaged me. At first I thought, maybe he was busy with work or resting so I let it be. One day, I decided to message him and asked how he was doing. Only to find out I can no longer view his IG profile. He blocked me. How did I know he blocked me? I have another IG account with a different name. I created it when I was still in college. His profile used to be private but then he made it public. I saw his new posts and stories. I checked the dates and it was the exact same time where he stopped messaging me. I never saw those posts and stories which meant he hid it from me before he blocked me. I saw his IG story with a girl and they were traveling together. In his post, he captioned the girl as 'his love'. I was heartbroken and I felt so stupid. I cried and mend my broken heart. I was like that for two months. It was funny because we started in August 2020 and ended in August 2022. Sadly, he never told me we were couple and maybe that's why he just did what he did. Although, I wished he would talked to me that he found someone and want to end things. I mean sure I would be heartbroken but I will let him go. I won't beg him to reconsider and stay. I just wanted closure but I guess what he did was closure enough.

I know it's ridiculous to get affected but I can't help it. When he blocked me, it felt like I was a piece of trash. Easy to throw away. It made me feel I was never important and not worth his time. To me, my worst fear became a reality. Now, I'm scared it's going to happen again once a guy reaches out or approaches me.

I want to fall in love and be happy but at the same time I'm afraid. I'm afraid he would leave and I don't want to get hurt. The idea of him falling out of love for me at any time scares me.

[starryvomit]

“love aversion”

-S

[dazeddemona]

escape is a heavenly sin.

it’s the love & the fear

that your dying in.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The math just adds up!

[simplyharleen]

At what point or at what phase should you let go of someone you thought was for you? Someone who proved you wrong every time you thought they were done and kept fighting. Someone that is your safe place that you feel protected by. You keep trying and youR paths keep crossing but life and other things get in the way, when one is ready the other is not. Like two ships passing in the night. Your heart does a silent cry every time.

[dilcetto]

it worked out not because “we’re meant for each other”, it worked out because “we chose to love each other”, because “we fought for each other”, because “we are in this together”

"maturing is realizing that a relationship can work and actually be fixed in almost any situation.. it just takes both of y‘all actually wanting to make it work and correcting what you’re doing that’s hurting your partner"

[fakakta-art]

Jason: *terrified, thinks he's gonna die* Bruce: *used to carrying Dick around like a ferret* small child. so small.