#advice desperately needed

[angrybatart]

Soooo....my cat killed a mouse...ON MY SKETCHBOOK...there's BLOOD all over the FINISHED Wormy and Jolly Geologist sketch.

I don't know how to fix it. 😭 HELP???

[thedamsorce2]

Hello! I need some advice. I’m going to start watching Doctor Who soon, but I’m not sure where to start. I have school, and I’m going to watch it with a friend, so I don’t really have a huge amount of time, especially because both of us are too young to drive. I have watched the episodes with 14, and some random scenes from behind my dad, and my friend tried (keyword: tried) to explain the basic plot of some of the show to try and make sure I was vaguely aware of what was happening, so I’m kind of aware of new who and old who. I’m pretty sure David Tennant isn’t the start of new who, but I kind of want to start with him. Is that okay?

(also when the meep went ‘they farmed my people’ I just went ‘good for them, I would too.’) (also wtf were those mimic fuckers in the second episode) (also the toymaker is just. the most. i love that the fate of the universe was a game of fucking catch)

[blueredg52]

I DESPERATELY NEED DATING ADVICE OR ANY WORDS OF WISDOM BECAUSE I'M GOING CRAZY RN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

My situation [FxF]:

Last night, I went clubbing with my roommate and her friends and had an amazing night (as we always do after going to our local gay club). Before heading home, we stopped by our popular local pizza shop on our college campus to get some food to sober up a little. I didn't get any food, but my friends did so I waited with them.

While waiting, 3 girls were talking about what to get because one girl, who I will name Red Shirt, was debating whether to get a slice of pizza or cheese fries. This pizza shop is known for having horrible pizza unless drunk. For some reason, I went up to them and told them that I don't get their pizza ever, but I get their cheese fries because the sauce is good and it's one of the cheaper items on the menu. Plz know I'm an extreme introvert and won't willing go up to talk to people, but I was also a little tipsy and a little more social. After hearing what I had to say, the 2 other girls besides Red Shirt agreed and then I went back to my friends.

A few minutes later, Red Shirt comes up to me and tells me one her friends (I'll refer to her as P) thinks I'm cute and asks me if I'm single. I say yes because I'm very very very very single. Then, Red Shirt gets my snapchat for P. I also told Red Shirt to let P know that I thought she was also cute. I tried my best to keep myself calm and collected BECAUSE THIS HAS LITERALLY NEVER HAPPENED TO ME BEFORE.

Next, my friends and I are talking about Chappell Roan because we got our fav DJ to play Chappell in the club. The 3 girls then come up to us and we start talking about Chappell. For context, I didn't directly talk to P or make direct eye contact BECAUSE PRETTY GIRLS INTIMIDATE ME AND I SHUT DOWN. WE DIDN'T EVEN EXCHANGE NAMES 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

When my friends got their food we headed home and said "Have a good night!" to these girls as we were leaving. Before falling asleep (around 3:30 am), I dm her saying hi and introducing my name because we didn't exchange names. Throughout the whole day I was very giddy and I kept checking my snapchat to see if she responded.

SHE HASN'T READ OR OPENED MY MESSAGE

Around 12pm today, I told myself that she probs is still asleep or busy because she probs went to sleep late. Then around 7pm, I started to get sad, but I told myself that it's final exam week and she has other things to attend to. But she still hasn't responded at 8pm and I did cry.

Any way, I threw out my pride and ego and sent her a snap directly telling her I thought she was cute around 9:30pm. I also apologized if I seemed awskward or disinterested in her because I was in shock and an introvert. After I sent the snap, I turned off my snapchat notifications because I'm scared of rejection and heartbreak.

THIS IS ME SHOOTING MY LAST SHOT AND IF SHE DOESN'T RESPOND, THEN I'LL KNOW SHE'S NOT ACTUALLY INTERSTED.

I'm actually really sad because it was hot that she pulled me last night and she is definitely my type physically. My roommate found her insta and knew people who followed her. She then got some info about her from people she knew and while I only got vague info about her, nothing bad was said. I told my roommate that she still hasn't responded around 4pm and she could tell I was sad about it and so we watched Killing Eve for a few hours to make me feel better.

Be honest, is this what dying feels like??!!?!?

FEEL FREE TO LET ME KNOW IF I'M ACTUALLY CRAZY, I SHOULDN'T EXPECT A QUICK RESPONSE, OR IF I FUMBLED IT.

I'm also the type of person who responds to messages asap, so maybe I shouldn't expect other people to do the same thing. I don't even know P so maybe I'm making this a bigger deal than it actually is. For context, I just want yall to know that I'm not good with dating and I've never been in a situationship or a relationship ever and maybe I'm just naive.

If you're interested, I'll give an update sometime tomorrow and if she still hasn't responded, I'm going to cry in my room after I take a final exam.

[sunderwight]

Bingqiu roleswap where disciple Shen Yuan knows he's gay, and figures out that he has a big huge crush on his handsome Shizun, but also concludes nearly at once that he's not going to be drawing Luo Binghe's eye any time soon. Firstly, Luo Binghe is notoriously straight. Secondly, even if he weren't, he wouldn't go for his scrawny untalented nerd of a disciple! Shen Yuan's not bad looking, not before or after transmigrating, but he's neither a beautiful nor a hot manly man, and he assumes if Luo Binghe were into dudes he'd be into the same kinds of twunks that Shen Yuan likes. Guys on his own level, etc etc.

Plus Luo Binghe hated the original disciple Shen, and only started to warm up to the transmigrated version after Shen Yuan got injured in front of him trying to stop the other disciples on the peak from killing a small animal. For some reason, Luo Binghe brought Shen Yuan medicine. He got even nicer after Shen Yuan distracted the skinner demon by trying to convince it to take his skin instead of Luo Binghe's, and then again when Shen Yuan successfully fought off a demon invader -- though initially when Luo Binghe volunteered him for that job, he thought it was an assassination attempt. His heart was in his throat when Luo Binghe nearly took a poisoned blow for him, but luckily he reacted more quickly and got hit by the thorns instead. His heavenly demon blood took care of the poison, and he managed to convince everyone that he narrowly avoided getting cut at all.

Shen Yuan's careful not to read anything into it when Luo Binghe finds out about his, erm, uncomfortable dormitory situation and moves him into the side room, or when he completely messes up trying to make dinner and Luo Binghe takes over cooking and bans him from the kitchen (he swears he's not actually that bad at cooking, he just never had to use a kitchen without a microwave or an electric hot plate before...)

After all, it's not like Luo Binghe is cooking for him, he's just making food he likes and letting Shen Yuan eat it too! Because he's nice! He's way nicer than the book gave him credit for being, see, clearly Shen Yuan was correct in signing up for his defense squad, "top ten worst villains of all time" his ass that poll was nonsense...

Unfortunately, though, the plot's still gotta plot. Shen Yuan is heartbroken when the Immortal Alliance Conference rolls around and his shizun stabs him and throws him down into the Endless Abyss. Heartbroken, but not surprised. After all, it was always going to go this way, wasn't it?

But at least, now that it's done, he has some agency in how he reacts to it. He's changed the story enough that he doesn't need to go get revenge. Maybe Luo Binghe's still the villain of his story, maybe that was inevitable, but some heroes let the villains get away. Don't they? It's all part of that noble, breaking the cycle of abuse type stuff. He can be that kind of hero. He can let it go. As long as he avoids Luo Binghe altogether, it should be fine, right? It's not like he's obligated to turn people into human sticks. He asked the system, he's definitely not!

Technically he's not even required to conquer the demon realms. He just has to get out of the Abyss and the be sufficiently cool and/or tragic. Conquest is just one means of doing that, and not even Shen Yuan's preferred, since he doesn't exactly want to rule over anybody. Going around the demon realms beating up some jackasses and rescuing some damsels in distress and becoming sworn brothers with Shang Qinghua, one of the current demon kings, is suitable. He definitely doesn't want to marry any of the damsels he encounters (thank fuck the system lets him off the hook for that!)

But eventually he has to go back to the human world. Not only is it mandated by the system, but he also misses living there. The demonic realms are in many ways better than expected, plus a lot of the monsters are really cool, but he misses the weather and plants and the people he's more accustomed to being around.

He misses Qing Jing Peak, if he's being honest with himself. Shizun's cooking and the bamboo forest and the crisp mountain breezes, the comforts of home.

Not that he can actually go back there in specific. Of course not. If he did that, Luo Binghe would try to kill him, or else the system would try and make him kill Luo Binghe. Bad ideas all around. No, he can't go back to Qing Jing Peak, but he can go find someplace nicer than the demon realms at least. He just has to keep a low profile, which shouldn't be hard since the original goods did that even while actively scheming to kill his former master!

Except.

Everywhere he goes, suddenly Luo Binghe is also there?!

Good thing Shen Yuan thought to take a page out of the book of Luo Binghe's actual love interest, Liu Mingyan, and start wearing a veil. He just didn't want any randos who might have seen him at the Immortal Alliance Conference or on any of the other missions his shizun sent him on to recognize him. But one minute he's investigating a strange case in Jinlan City, and the next the streets are full of Huan Hua cultivators (Shen Yuan has no intention of joining them, that's the path the original took to getting revenge! He doesn't want revenge!), and then Luo Binghe and Sect Leader MBJ and Peak Lord SHL show up, and SY is ducking down alleys and hiding behind columns, just trying to stay out of the way until the lockdown on Jinlan lifts and he can leave.

Except...

Luo Binghe really isn't acting like himself?

He looks like he hasn't been eating or sleeping well. There are dark circles around his eyes, and something almost melancholy in his countenance. And he's dressed entirely in white, none of the usual Qing Jing greens and blues anywhere to be seen. Of even greater concern, he's being reckless. Shen Yuan can't stop himself from rushing out when he sees his former shizun get infected by a sower demon.

Luckily, it's been some years since the last time they saw one another. Shen Yuan's gained a few inches in height, so he's almost at eye-level with his old master now, and though he's still more slender than bulky he's picked up some totally new styles from training the demon realms. He doesn't move the same way he used to. With that, plus the veil, it's enough for him to quickly swallow back his words as he grabs Luo Binghe and quickly administers a cure for the sower infection.

Well, he has one of course. He wouldn't need it himself, heavenly demon blood and all, but his time running around playing hero in the demon realms meant he rescued a lot of humans from such fates. Which is hard to do if you don't have a cure to their afflictions, but between him and Shang Qinghua, sourcing such things was almost easy.

Luo Binghe looks at him like he's just seen a ghost. The other Cang Qiong sect members are alarmed by SY suddenly accosting one of their own and of course find him suspicious, so he runs away right after, and then he has to lose Sha Hualing's pursuit in the city.

But what else could he do? He manages to evade the system's attempts to railroad him into meeting Gongyi Xiao, avoids the rest of the Cang Qiong crowd, and drops some of the cure through the current Qian Cao peak lord's window to get the incident sorted out. Then he flees and puts a good amount of distance between himself, Jinlan City, and every righteous sect he can think of.

The only problem is that after this point, Luo Binghe is everywhere.

Any time Shen Yuan stays in one place for longer than a few days, Qing Jing disciples start turning up. Any time he takes a job hunting some cool-sounding monster or pursuing some interesting tome of knowledge, the better to satisfy the system, it seems like Luo Binghe has selected and gone after the exact same target! Which is especially annoying because back when SY was a disciple, Luo Binghe was always assigning him to do this stuff. Since when does his chronic homebody master have an interesting in six-tailed scorpion lemurs or ancient spiritual kilns?

What's weirder, though, are the rumors.

It seems like any time SY stops at some well-populated place and asks for the latest gossip, he has to hear about how the Qing Jing peak lord lost his beloved disciple during the Immortal Alliance Conference, and mourned like a widow, and now wanders the earth in search of solace for his grief. Seeking something, possibly even the ghost of his dear disciple.

What nonsense! Luo Binghe threw SY into the Abyss himself. He had to do it, it was the plot! And also his obligation as a righteous cultivator, confronted with a "dangerous" half-demon. Does it sting? Yes it stings! That's why SY wouldn't just forget it! Despite logically knowing it's pointless, is there some part of him that wishes his master would have chosen differently? That thinks he should have known that no matter what kind of power Shen Yuan had, he would never use it to hurt people recklessly, or harm innocents, or especially not harm... well. It's pointless, his blood condemned him, and if there is some part of Luo Binghe which regrets what happened, it's doubtless just that he unwittingly harbored a monster for so long.

Which is fine and Shen Yuan would leave it at that, if the guy would just let him!

But no. Instead he has to deal with Luo Binghe turning up and asking him questions, trying to get him to talk (SY has no hope of disguising his voice, if he says anything he's not even sure it won't crack as he comes perilously close to tears instead, so he just stays silent), and then asking for his name, asking if he's mute, asking about his background, his sect, his kin. Is his a righteous cultivator? Where did he get that sword? (NOT Xin Mo, thanks, he used that thing once and then tossed it back into the Abyss before the portal finished closing behind him -- he knows a poisoned chalice when he sees one, although knowing the plot twist about that sword from the novel sure helped.) Where did he learn those forms? Is he... does he have a safe place to go home to? Someone to tend his injuries? Make sure he eats his meals?

SY, of course, stays silent. But it's difficult. Not only because Luo Binghe asks, but because he still looks... bad. Sunken, sorrowful, desperate almost. Shen Yuan can't figure out if he knows or not. Maybe he's unsure, maybe he's looking for SY to give him a sign, so that he can figure him out and then flip a switch and try to finish the job he started.

That can't happen. If they fight, SY will win, and he doesn't want to hurt Luo Binghe.

But even if Luo Binghe's not a heavenly demon, he is a highly accomplished cultivator, and it seems he's got his own breaking points to reach. Eventually he corners SY and gets a hand on his veil, and for a moment SY is sure he's going to rip it off, see his face, and confront him all "I knew it was you, you twisted evil demon, you won't escape justice a second time" and he feels a deep, icy terror close around his lungs--

Luo Binghe lets go of the veil before he can lift it.

But then something even worse happens. Because Shen Yuan's handsome, peerless, noble master breaks down. He falls to his knees, begging forgiveness, sobbing, clutching at his head like he's being driven to madness.

It all spills out of him, then. How he pushed his own dearest disciple into the Abyss, which obviously SY already knew, but also how he was apparently qi-deviating the whole time, and his senses could not differentiate between one kind of demonic "threat" and another. How he realized what he'd done only after he regained his senses hours later, and rushed back to the place where the tear to the Abyss had opened, but could not find a way in after the one he lost. How he had betrayed and thrown away the only person who cared about him, and couldn't even explain that he hadn't intended to. How he would accept anything, any punishment, hatred, penance, or revenge, if only he could see his disciple's face once more.

SY is stunned.

Apparently, Luo Binghe hadn't rejected him for his demon blood?

Not only that, but beforehand, he seemed to have valued Shen Yuan a lot more than Shen Yuan would have credited.

Is it a trick? Is he lying? SY would have guessed so, would have assumed that Luo Binghe's plan was to lull him into complacency only to turn on him once he finally had confirmation. But somehow, he just... doesn't think this is an insincere display. His old master is too cool for this stuff! He has too much dignity to just throw it away on a scheme! There are other ways to get what he wants.

Even if it is a lie, Shen Yuan is tired of running. He's the hero. He won't actually lose, and if it comes to it, it's still in his hands to decide if he wants to spare Luo Binghe or not (he does, of course he does, even if this whole spiel is an act). Plus he's got a backup plant body in one of Shang Qinghua's greenhouses if all goes to shit.

He takes the veil off himself.

Luo Binghe, teary-eyed, stares at him as if his face is the most beautiful he's ever seen.

Shen Yuan nearly puts the veil back on. His cheeks heat up. Dear Shizun, aren't you an immortal master? A noble peak lord? Isn't it your calling to vanquish demons? Get up off the dirty ground right this minute! Where did your dignity go? Shen Yuan did not spend all those nights doing the laundry to watch his teacher dirty his knees for no good reason!

There's a quaver in Luo Binghe's voice as he points out that Shen Yuan was terrible at doing laundry. Luo Binghe had to redo it the day after, all the time.

Shen Yuan chides at him that he should have made one of the other disciples do it then.

Luo Binghe just laughs, and stays on the ground, until finally Shen Yuan has to physically pull him up. Muttering about how he's being ridiculous, what's he crying for, why's he been moping so much, doesn't he know that handsome face should never look so bereft? Then he realizes what he's saying and shuts his mouth, but Luo Binghe just looks happy for the first time in years. Since the Abyss. How is it possible that SY, who actually had to slog through that awful place, can still smile more than Luo Binghe, who didn't?

They're standing so close. Holding on to one another. Almost as if... as if the scene's tone is... well...

Oh what the hell!

Shen Yuan closes the last little bit of distance between them, and kisses Luo Binghe.

[i-am-trans-gwender]

I need advice

I'm 19 years old and I need to escape my transphobic parents. A friend wants me to live with him, but there have been issues stopping this.

I have no car, and even if he drove me there, my parents would know where I went.

Even if they didn't find me, my parents control my bank account, medical care, and phone (luckily they can't put the Verizon Smart Family app on my computer.)

They also use my autism as a reason to prevent me from leaving. They claim I can't legally leave because of this. I've heard some people say that it sounds like BS but I don't know.

I need to transition, but I can't do that while I'm stuck with my parents. I'm willing to do almost anything to leave them.

[spikeface]

Based on (x).

[captainsparklefingers]

There's a distinct lack of Kingsley in that Bell's Hells/M9 meeting and I am very disappointed. :( not surprised, but still disappointed.

I mean maybe Essek is picking him up. Maybe they haven't given Robbie a crash course in how to play him (because no way Tal is doing THREE characters, that's so many. And can you imagine if he had to do Percy too? Jesus.). Maybe...I don't know, but at the very least, mention him! Please?

I just want more of the purple pirate king. Please??

Anyway prayer circle for, at the bare minimum, a mention, hopefully more, I need food here please Matt.

[itsnicsalad]

i love your art smmmm, any tips for an aspiring artist/animator?

mmh take any advice i give with a grain of salt since im still figuring stuff out myself - but dont be afraid to take inspiration and learn techniques from other artists/animators. my art style has developed a lot over the years with the different artists i followed, and there are a ton of videos made by animators that help with the basics (12 principles of animation by alan becker on yt is a good one)

tracing can be helpful sometimes (i recommend you keep that to yourself, a lot of artists probably dont appreciate their art being traced) but it would be beneficial to learn how form and shape work, not just how the lineart fits together if that makes sense-

[uncanny-tranny]

Honestly, I do think it's kind of funny when cis people talk about how Big Trans is forcing them to date, bed, or be friends with trans people because, truly, most of us wouldn't have wanted to be around them, anyway.

If you don't want to be seen as transphobic, there are ways to state your desires without being seen as transphobic. However, you can't have it both ways: treating trans people as second-class people while also not being seen as a bigot while doing so. You need to make your peace with that if you are going to go about this in a transphobic way.

[gideonisms]

My other piece of advice for young people besides you can't force others to like you is that you CAN make it significantly harder for them to take advantage of you and one of the ways you do this is by never acting too desperate around a potential employer, boss, professor, or anyone involved in your housing situation. Explain as little as possible. Give them that "I'm busy that day" treatment. "My apologies for the late response here is the report" type communication. Pretend you've got options lined up all the way out the door. Make them work for you. Girlbosses (gender neutral) only ♥️

[sketchyorsomething]

I miss ski jumping :(

[aetherdoesthings]

HANAHAKI!READER X ROBIN PART 3

forethoughts: guys i need help i don't know how to text people and get terrible anxiety texting people. my aforementioned crush just reacted with a thumbs up to my message six hours later after sending it. we haven't talked since. i wanna talk to her again but idk how to start convos and i don't wanna start a convo since i initiated the convo the last time

tldr: how the heck do you start conversations with someone on text without the possibility of them getting annoyed at your or ghosting you

anyways enough about that :,D part three time baby!

notes: fem!reader, hanahaki au, high school au, modern times

You didn’t respond. You didn’t know how to respond. 

Robin let out a sigh, as she shifted her body, mirroring how you were positioned now.

“I’m worried about you, Y//N.” Robin said plain and simple. 

You let out a cough in response, as a flower petal exited your mouth, landing on your knees.

“It’s a flower petal, isn’t it?” Robin sighed, letting out a faint chuckle.

You froze, but soon relented to the situation at hand. So Robin did see your tabs. You let out a sigh, using your sleeves to wipe your tears. It didn’t matter anyways; Robin knew you had that stupid, stupid love disease. There was no point hiding it anymore; you were going to die anyways.

When you took too long to reply, Robin spoke up. “I had a feeling it was that. I knew I wasn’t hallucinating your palms to be light pink and shaped like a leaf. I’d understand why you’d hide it, I just never expected you to get hanahaki.”

You froze. “You know what hanahaki is?”

“Yes.” Robin simply responded, letting out a sigh. “Would you come out of the stall? It’s hard to have a conversation like this.”

You didn’t want Robin to see you in this state, but the stench was overpowering your ability to think about your appearance. You obliged, standing up as you unlocked the door, looking at your boots the entire time you walked out of the bathroom with Robin. The two of you made your way out into the empty stairwells, opting to take a seat on the steps with a small gap in between the two. With the fresh scenery, your mind cleared, except for one lingering thought.

Man, Robin’s perfume smells good. If I’m going to die, I’ll be a happy person dying smelling that. You thought to yourself. You shook your head, berating yourself for thinking about such a thing at a grave moment.

“It’s been two days since your coughs started.” Robin noted. “How bad has it been?”

You were a bit shocked when Robin had offered to help you with your problem about her. Sure, she didn’t know she was your crush, but the fact that she was listening to you and trying to help you… 

Made you regurgitate a flower petal into your mask, prompting you to take it off entirely now that your secret was out. You had done that a million times in the past days; it was ordinary to you at this point. But this time Robin was watching that flower petal exit your mouth. You stared at her with a defeated look, pocketing the petal in the pocket with all the other flower petals as you observed her reaction. You stared at how her brows furrowed, a stoic expression on her face as to not scare you or make you feel worried. She simply sat there, her hands on her knees, back arched and shoulders back. Other than perfect skin and face, of course she had perfect posture.

“Interesting.” Robin murmured. “May I see that flower petal?”

“Sure…” You didn’t question her motives, following her request as you placed the petal in her palms. Robin took it, bringing it closer to her ocean eyes as the sea enveloped the cherry blossom petal. You drummed your leg against the concrete staircase, staring at the bits of dust and dirt littered on the ground and on the wall. 

“My knowledge of hanahaki extends to the fact that you have a crush on someone; you have unrequited love for someone, let’s put it that way. Hanahaki can either be life-threatening or just an irritation to your life, but looking at your case…” Robin grimaced, as her eyes scanned your body head to toe. You gulped in nervousness, quickly mirroring her actions as you stared at your body. There was a stark difference in skin tone, your once lean figure turning skinny and frail. Coughing up flower petals must’ve taken a toll on your body, you thought, even though it logically made no sense. 

You rubbed your knees and legs, looking at the khaki school skirt you wore. Even though a word did not come out of either one of your mouths, the two of you were thinking the same thing.

You were going to die.

You had made peace with that concept already; the mere thought of dying out of love for someone, especially for Robin, lifted an invisible weight from your heart. You had your run with life; you experienced hardship, happiness, and most importantly love. Love that would kill you, but not all love stories had a happy ending.

“You know,” Robin exclaimed, relaxing her shoulders as she gave you a warm smile. “I’ve never seen you around, and we’re both in the same grade. I think we mostly have the same classes too.”

You looked at her with a confused look at the sudden change of subject. 

She’s probably trying to change the subject to make me feel better about dying, I guess. A voice perked up in your head. You relaxed your shoulders as well, leaning against the wall as a small smile crept on your face. The feeling of vomiting another battalion of flowers rumbled deep inside you, but you suppressed it; you were having an in person conversation with Nico Robin, not on text.

“I think so too…” You replied, taking a deep breath. 

“How come I never see you around then?”

“I try to stay in the shadows.. I don’t like attention or the spotlight, so I’ll just go my way and ignore everyone else.”

“I see. And even though you avoid everyone, you still manage to find a way to fall in love with someone. Unrequited love with someone.”

“I guess so…”

“That would lead me to believe then that you have been watching this person for quite some time, until your interest slowly turned into a romantic feeling, I am right?” You felt like you were in an interrogation room, as it suddenly got harder to breathe, your mind getting foggy, still drunk on the fact you were having a conversation with Robin.

“Uhm, y-yeah…” You answered, unfazed by Robin’s accuracy in her assumptions. You knew she was smart, definitely going to become valedictorian of the year, but it was your first time seeing it in person.

“When someone gets hanahaki disease, there’s several endings, but we’ve eliminated it down to two.” Robin stated. “Either the person you love loves you back, or…”

“I die.” You finished her sentence, not a shred of remorse or regret in your voice. 

You could feel Robin’s eyes burn into your skull, melting your brain into mush with those steady and soothing ocean blue eyes. One glance at her face could tell you that she was upset and how nonchalant you were at the idea, and the blatant acceptance about the situation you were in. After a deafening and suffocating silence, you finally spoke up.

“Why are you doing all of this?” You blurted out, facing her. “Why help me? You barely even know me other than just doing our project together.”

Robin still had her elegant and calm look, unfazed by your sudden outburst. She instead smiled at you, as your stature shrunk. She moved closer to you, placing a hand on yours. “Why would I not want to help you, Y/N? Based on our conversations we had online and our small interactions, albeit half of them being you coughing, I know you’re a nice person. I know you have a kind soul that loves someone to the point they’d die because of them. Why would I not want to help you? I would be a terrible human being, watching you suffering alone from love that goes one way. Please, let me help you. Let me heal you.”

The last four words of Robin’s speech rang in your head, over and over, making your barricade of flowers start to crumble. Your head jerked downwards, core tightening as you heaved, gripping onto the rail for life and Robin’s arm to the point your knuckles turned white. Flower petals and stems tumbled down the stairs, a majority of it landing on Robin’s and your lap. Robin ran her hand in circles on your back, patting your back when you were able to lift your head again.

“Would you mind if I test a hypothesis, Y/N?” Robin whispered, her free hand moving to your neck, her thumb rubbing small circles on your cheek. Your face had finally gotten color, your heart thudding. 

“N-No…” You stammered, eyes darting all over the stairwell, trying to find something to focus on. 

“Thank you.” Robins’ hand slithered up to your cheek, cupping your jaw as she gently pulled your head towards hers, her eyes closed as her face got closer to yours.

Then you died.

[million-with-a-b]

Hey sysblr, has anyone experienced an alter regressing not in age, but in memory?

One of our alters (nameless for privacy sake) has been with us for five years. And suddenly he just doesn't remember anything about the system, or his time with us, or anything.

I'll be honest it's really stressful for him and the rest of us. Any advice?

[spanishinfluenza]

Can you recommend some good twilight fanfiction?

Boy CAN I?!

So for some Carlesme goodness which is sorta my cuppa Lyon's tea, ive written a few which you can find on my ao3 account here. There will be more to come to which i always post here if you're ever curious.

Some other fics holding up this standom:

Ties of Trauma - the love of my life @youareonlyastory (au Carlesme fic with juice to make you squeal into a pillow. Check out all her works they're honestly golden)

For Appearance's Sake - @palmofafreezinghand (gorgeous canon fic, please check out of all of their oneshots they're to die for, one of my all time fave writers)

This New Life - @carllisle (another canon compliant Carlesme fic, but Ellie died and went to lotr heaven so dont go harrassing for more fics, or do idk she might love it. Specialises in well written Carlesme smut.)

Cullanos - more goodness by Ellie only this time it's au and it's unhinged and sexy as hell

@stregoni-benefici has some delectable Carlesme fanfic on their blog, feel free to check out her tags!

We've also got some cult classics like Stained Glass (canon fic) and it's companion pieces, as well as @fiddlesolo 's fanfic tag, full of Carlesme goodness and glorious oneshots.

As for non-Carlesme twilight fic, theres a plethora but i'm not as familiar. Honestly, @jessicanjpa or @panlight be better suited to give you honest recommendations for other pairings!

Hope this helped! :)

[bunnyboy-juice]

am i suffering with my first piercings as an adult (my second hole on my ear) bc i literally cant figure out how to get these stupid flat back piercings off? yes. am i still daydreaming about getting a medusa piercing bc i think my lips are perfect for that? also yes

[yourstrulyarrow]

i'm gonna get no responses to this but if anyone reads this and likes giving advice PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

so i just finished my GCSEs, and i can't decide which school i want to do A-levels at (for non-brits: did qualifications after turning 16, U minimum grade, 4 pass grade, 9 max grade. i can't decide what school to go to for my pre-uni qualifications). doing psychology, biology, maths, and further maths.

OPTION A: my current school. i'm pretty out about being trans, and although i went around asking teachers to use different pronouns for me 2-3 years ago, most don't because they keep forgetting (i don't pass, and the picture of me on the school register they see every day is when i was 11 and very fem-presenting). i have 1 teacher that uses they/them for me (i only use he/him pronouns, they/them is ok because it's not she/her, but i don't like it much). they were okay with my name change, but my school email has my deadname's initial since you can't change an email. i haven't gotten a response yet about whether i can have a new email for sixth form (i'll update when i do). they have zero clue what a trans person even is, they "officially" think i'm non-binary (i'm not, i'm a binary trans guy) but zero teachers were informed of this hence the issue with pronouns. my head of year didn't know i'm trans, and he was awkwardly trying to not offend me by "not assuming" i'm trans. i've been there 5 years and i generally have not had a very nice time, BUT they did let me use the disabled changing room rather than forcing me to go with the girls or the guys back when PE was mandatory (in year 11 they let everyone change in the toilets/whenever during lunch, so no issues there). they're understanding and sympathetic i think, just a bit ignorant. they refused to let teachers sign my deed poll to avoid "getting between [me] and [my mum]", despite using my preferred name in all correspondence anyways (so if there was a problem they would know... ironically all correspondence misgenders me). they give year 12s/13s detentions (which i disagree with... if a sixth former is late or doesn't do their homework that is THEIR PROBLEM and they should be left to deal with the consequences. if they're not responsible enough...), don't let sixth formers attend only for lessons (i.e. 8:30am start even if you don't have lessons until 9:50am or 11:30am, can't leave if you don't have a lesson. can leave for lunch but not break, and only once you gain permission). their school counsellor found about about my mother's abuse of me, and decided to get a social worker called to my house, creating huge problems for me, and when the social worker decided the situation was "resolved", she decided to send the document with EVERYTHING I SAID ABOUT MY ABUSIVE MOTHER... *TO MY MOTHER*. it was hideous. i really really like the maths teacher here, the way he explains things is top-tier, but i'm not guaranteed to get him. i'm attached to the psychology teacher (and she's very lovely, i've had issues with splitting where i swap between "she's my mother" (positive, as in "i wish i was her kid") and "she's the worst teacher and a backstabber i hate her". but after some careful analysis i was greatly overreacting, she's amazing). i like my biology teacher (also not guaranteed to get him, he's very nice though and he likes me and is supportive of me being trans!!). they also have 1 trans teacher (i think he does maths) who could be helpful to me when i do my EPQ, as i'm definitely going to do it on some kind of transgender topic. i'd also have already-established friends, i'm okay with most of the girls with my year but a lot of the guys don't like me much (trans and i was very annoying when i was 11 and they never forgave me). the guys who are chill with me are mostly going to option c school :(

OPTION B: school near-ish me with same sort of grades as current school. they're about the same grades-wise and in terms of oxbridge offers (i want to go to cambridge). their psychology spec is the same as my gcse psychology spec, which you'd think is a net positive but oh dear lord it is so boring. i don't want to re-learn some gcse content. we had our induction day and i don't like the psychology teacher :(. also i got called out for being autistic as fuck (not diagnosed, but peer-reviewed) in our induction day session because she made us do a thing about recognising facial expressions and i got it completely wrong. it made me feel really shit and stupid because i'm not diagnosed or anything ://. i also don't really vibe with the biology teacher, the maths teacher seems chill though. this school is a LOT bigger than my current, and they have a whole separate building/cafeteria/etc. for sixth formers. good because it means i dont have to see the little kids but also there's wayyy more people, kinda scary :/. also i have 1 friend who says she'll go to either option a or b depending on where i go so we can be together (if i choose option c, she'll go to a as one of our other friends is going to a). they have really good lab facilities for the sciences though so i'm not sure?? also public transport is better to there, but distance is similar to option a. big thing for me driving me to consider this school is they have a "transition policy" for trans kids, they know what transgender means, they have a whole system, they understand having the wrong name on exams and stuff can be distressing, etc etc.

option c: amazing school, slightly far. ok so omg i REALLYREALLY want to go to c but the problem is my first mock grades weren't good enough :(( 999988876 + L2D (btec is in business). in last mock, i got 999999996 + L2D. also a distinction in english speaking. so clearly i'm academically capable enough to go there, right?? the 6 is in art, i recently got my raw mark back and it's an 8 (1 mark off a 9). my coursework for business i got 107/120, that's not amazing but i think i can maybe maybe get a L2D* in it anyways? they don't have a very casual atmosphere, it's very much study study study, but i don't mind because the school gets such amazing grades. really good maths department, but they make kids learn all of maths a-level in year12 and then all of fm a-level in y13 (if doing both), treating it as 1 combined a-level. routinely 20+ oxbridge offers every year. a few of my friends are going to option c as well, including a guy who got about the same grades as me in the first mock but lives closer so he got n offer :(. no policies on trans kids so i don't know how they are in this regard. i don't have an offer for this school, i'm on the waitlist, but ppl who got rejected were told if they email on results day with much higher outcome grades than their application, they can get in (subject to spaces left). so there's a small chance if i get all 9s and an 8 or something maybe i can go there??? i'd have to basically get on my knees and beg though.

so anyways, option a, b, or c, and why??