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Happy womb - evacuation day to me and my birth doppelganger, aka my twin sister.
Here's to another 17 years with you🥳🥳
#birthday#happy birthday#birthday art#birthday post#i just realized#we're turning 18 next year#fuck#im not ready#adulthood is scary#also#yeah#i have a twin#we're twins
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#sunset#sunset drive#south africa#teenagers#not really#adulthood is scary#digital diary#girlblogging#lana del rey#chappell roan
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Today, I was reminded of the copies I used 6 years ago, in grade 10 bought to be by my grandfather. those sweet memories of 2019 ink on paper. I walked to my grandparents home to fetch those copies. memories came flooding back just like my tears
I asked my grandfather where he bought they years back. Cant find copies like that nowadays. he said he will look for them and bring them to me if he finds any.
suddenly nothing feels the same. Sudden realization that those moments were in the past just hits me hard. nothing will be the same. those copies will be different from the ones he bought me 6 years ago. Nothing will ever be the same.
Dwelling on past hurts, but sometimes that is the only place I find comfort in.
I sometimes wish i could go back to that naive 15 year old girl but I wouldn't want to live like her
I still want her I love her I would hug her She deserves the world
#dear diary#diary entry#past#grandpa#grandparents#stationery#29/06/2024#copy#diary#nothing will ever be the same haunts me#its terrifying to think how far i have come along#and how far away i am from the past#the ground that i am standing on right now feels so unfamiliar#everything is scary#adulthood is scary
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#zelda#legend of zelda#ocarina of time#link#linktober#day 13: phantom#aquanutart#actually i meant to do this for day 2: temple but ...#i guess i could really stretch it and say it's day 15 favorite character (oot link)#i listened to the forest temple music while working on this until i couldn't take it anymore#i hear it in my head when i look at this#the haunted paintings are so cool. this temple is amazing#i love how it's not dark and claustrophobic all the time but also has these bright outdoor areas that are eerily overgrown and abandoned#and then it whiplashes you into stuff like the twisted hallways. it's so cool#i'm not really into spooky/scary stuff but eerie with a sense of implied history and mysteries from years ago? go for it#also the wallmasters teaching us all to deal with anxiety in adulthood#(that is: sense its lurking presence; dodge it when it falls; slash it apart but dont let it split into smaller ones that run away from you
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So this has been what's preoccupying my thoughts lately. Here’s my iwatex oc!
Her whole story is that she's from the Heliopause and has been trained to be a soldier since she was young but after landing on Vertumna she decides she wants a career change, and becomes the colony's first delivery woman!
#is it obvious that i dont roller skate/blade irl#dont ask me why she wears a helmet during adulthood but not as a child#Sorry for the watermark btw#Just trying to protect my art in this scary time haha#i was a teenage exocolonist#iwatex#lavandulalurker#my art#art#digital art#character design#teenage exocolonist#iwatec#iwatex oc#oc#original character art#original character#exo oc amara
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I love you smile lines and worry lines and grey and white hair and wrinkles and purple spiderweb veins and the process of aging and living in a body that is standing the test of times. I love you experiences that make you wiser and stories that make you laugh, and every little process that happens to get to the point where you have so many memories because you have the fortune to be here and be so radiant
#positivity#pro aging#also i hate you 'anti aging' scams that capitalize on fear of aging. death by 1000000 papercuts for ye#saw a hair video where they restored the salt-and-pepper colour in an older clients hair and it looked SO GOOD at the end#i love when people throw in the towel and embrace their aging however that looks#it isn't productive to shame people who are ashamed of aging and i just want to. celebrate aging#in a world that simultaneously venerates youth and adulthood and hates BOTH you need to find some sense of freedom#as a Young Adult(tm) please please PLEASE older folks seeing this/following me know that i look up to you#older folks i need you to know that your worth NEVER diminished when you added a new number on your birthday cake#and your body and mind and soul NEVER lost worth because it started to creak a little at the joints#and i might be wrong about this because i'm still young but it can be SO tempted to miss your youth when you feel like...#...you've somehow LOST part of yourself by growing older. and so much of aging is about change and some things don't stay the same...#...and that IS scary and i will never once fault somebody for that. but please don't fall into the trap that because you've aged that...#...you somehow have forever lost fundamental pieces of Who You Are and you could never come back from that...#...for your own sake and sanity you deserve to find comfort and solice and understanding in who you still are...#...because you are still - at the core - the same. you can never take this away from yourself#and i know this might ring hollow because i just don't get what it's like to be older#but i have looked at my elders and felt awe at their age and their experiences#and i know what that is like and it's awesome. i just wish more older people knew that so many of us look at you with awe...#...and - if you can believe it - some of us ENVY your age or experiences or even body#i'm watching an 'older' content creator (older by internet standards 🙄) and i envy him for how eventful his life was#i envy that he experienced a different world - one that i have only heard about from my dad because i was too young to remember it#and i admire this person for their wisdom and thoughts because they've come from his experiences living in a Different World#it's that type of stuff that makes me unafraid to keep on living#inspired by following somebody like. twice my age posting about their excitement abiut growing older and !!!!!!! YEAHHHHHH#didn't realize they were closer to my dad's age but that's so cool???????????
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The difference between being a kid and being an adult is my imaginary friends are now called Original Characters and people will say stuff like “[X] is so well observed”
#jane posting#growing up is scary#but i stay silly#creative writing#writer#writing#characters#oc#sillyposting#nerdcore#fiction writing#imagination#creative art#wholesome#meme#stupid#funny#lol#childish#growing up#adulthood#lgbt#autism#adhd#adhd girl#adhd things#jokes#real#shitpost#storytelling
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Lupin III Part 1 Episode 5: The Coming of Goemon Ishikawa XIII
#i really like this episode#lupin acknowledges that goemon's just a kid being abused#and that underneath his scary exterior is a kind person#and that he's been forced into adulthood because of the failure of the adults around him#if we're going by lupin zero lore they aren't too different#they've both had their childhoods robbed from them due to the greed of the adults around them#is lupin trying to save goemon from a similar fate?#does he know they're two sides of the same coin?#that in another life lupin would've become goemon if he let his abuse break him?#lupin iii#lupin the third#lupin the 3rd#goemon ishikawa xiii#goemon#arsene lupin iii
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Guys, the evil plans are proceeding exceedingly... however, everything is moving too fast, and I need to keep up with all the evil deeds that have to be done.
So, it is now time for the evil agenda :)
#steel rambles#i love planning things#give me a calendar with enough space to wtite stuff and I'm out#i could plan my life for the next 4 months#btw yeah help slow down time for a bit#more stuff has happened in 3 weeks than the last 3 months#aaaah#i mean i am pretty happy and satisfied wuth how things are going. i now even see how can they be even better#i am starting to feel some kind of motivation again?#idk#i don't wanna chant victory too early because whenever i say something is happening the very opposite happens so idk#idk I'm happy but also kinda overwhelmed#adulthood is not scary is just a bit too fast for now#please I'd like a bit of a routine back#i need just a tiny bit of boredom because when life is _too interesting_ is fkn intense
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forgot to share Diana's swollen wingbuds!!! should hopefully see him get his wings super super soon and then he can fully take his place as Ar Di 💖
#axel grinds on#mantisposting#he'll be the third mantis ive gotten all the way thru to adulthood!!!! AAAAA#im so proud of my little guy#he absolutely loves being handled#doesnt like wall time at all just loves hanging out on my hands and arms#which is funny bc both trent and arty love(d) wall time#arty also loves hand time but she likes to eat the salt off my skin which is a bit scary#like i can hear her mandibles fucking CRUNCH mealworm exoskeleton she could do some good damage to me#shes always very gentle but. bit scary LMAOOO#di doesnt do that he just chills#likes to sit on my thumb which is why i have so many photos of him doing that
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#but actually can you guys say a prayer about teaching for me?#I know it’s mostly because it’s the end of the year#but a lot of stuff is just forcing its way to the surface#and basically it’s just me struggling with my natural strengths as a teacher and the boundaries of appropriateness that are necessary#to maintain it#like first of all. the beast that is my anxiety compounds everything and makes it so scary and terrible#secondly I thought I had. Like. A total handle on all of it#Teaching and boundaries I mean#and of course I do not#and part of it is that the anxiety that always kept me within the right lines is just shifting and changing#and I’m just distanced from some of the stuff that used to keep me grounded#like my family right now!#the new adulthood is adulting!#anyway like. I am not doing anything inappropriate or close to it (sounds like I am when I deny it lol)#but I am aware in a new and newly exhausted way of the absolute dangers#of being the kind of teacher who uses all of my personality etc. to wake kids up#And make them respond#but then still have to want to need to keep certain boundaries up#And I’m trying to figure it out but of course I CAN’t Do it perfectly#and then it’s so hard when your personal life is so hard and you’ve just gone through so much change in such a fast period of time#And it just feels like everything is spinning#and your heart aches and you’re tired and you just feel like you’re right at the center of all this emotional chaos#and all these people who wanna pull you off course and get you to cross certain lines#and some of the lines are just weird and arbitrary boundaries you put up to protect yourself when you started teaching at 23#Because you HAD to#So you can take some of them down and it’s fine but then there are some boundaries you know you need to keep up#And it’s more subtle than the black and white stuff re: appropriateness#Just the stuff that protects you and makes it easier to be the kind of teacher and influence that you want to be#and just trying to figure it all out while you’re exhausted and it’s the end of the school year#it’s just a LOT. A lot a lot
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remembered I'm moving to my favourite place in the world for uni and got so excited I squeaked and accidentally bashed my toe because I kicked my leg out without meaning to
#IM SO HAPPY#not only to my favourite country but one of my favourite towns in said country. peace and love!!!!!!!#I was so nervous for uni because I'd be alone with no family in a student dorm#with strict rules for decoration#but now I'm lucky enough to have the chance to live in my own tiny house!!!!!! and in the backyard of my lovely auntie and uncle!!!#in a gorgeous seaside town!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHH!!!!!!!!!#listen to my gibberish boy#excited for my scary scary venture into adulthood#it's gonna be difficult and scary but!!!!! there is so much to look forward to
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i seriously doubt my adulthood every time i decide do take a "quick little spin" on insta to take my mind off things before bed (yes yes not a good habit I know) and then I accidentally end up on the "horror story, conspiracy theory, crazy superstition with oddly believable anecdotes to support it" side of social media
anyway I'm going to text my mom goodnight so I feel safe, goodnight friends
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the weirdest thing so far is simply the fact that this comic is still a hit with The Youths™️
i kinda just started posting about my silly little oc without thinking about it too deeply because this is a comic series from before a lot of people who seem to really like it were born- which is NOT a dig or discouragement AT ALL. it's such a fun series and i found it really cathartic when i was an angry, nerdy teenager. im really happy it continues to thrive with new fans also discovering it
i just thought there'd be more nostalgic adults 😭
#haha#this isn't even my usual wheelhouse of writing either#adulthood is just really intimidating . getting older is a scary experience and ironically ive been thinking about the epilogue a lot#in this context#writing in the wte fandom was also one of the last times i felt really good about the group i was with yk#all in all like i said this was a Much Needed nostalgia trip and talking about buffy and the boys is very cathartic#so a very genuine thank you to everyone whos been super nice about her! its very cool
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hello! it has been a long time since i've talked through my day! this one had such a big turnaround that i needed to document it, mostly for myself.
i had an appointment with a 'root canal specialist' today bc i had my first app with my new dentist a couple of weeks ago and his xray revealed an abscess wow how fun :) i couldn't feel it bc that tooth has a decade old root canal so there are no nerves to reveal there is anything going on!! fun!!!! he's a super nice dentist, i like him but he made me very panicked lol he was showing me how close it is to my sinuses on the xray. so he was like 'go see this guy asap' bc he wanted to know whether there was a chance my old root canal could be redone or if i'd have to get the whole tooth removed/an implant, all for the low low price of $5-6000 🙃 but obviously you can never see specialists asap!!! so i've been walking around for 2.5 weeks with dread/phantom pains that by the time i saw him the infection would've spread and idk had catastrophic consequences??? and then today when i went there was CONSTRUCTION at the turn i needed to make and the road was closed and i was like i don't know how to get there from another street??!?!?!??! i spent 10 minutes driving through suburban streets and my navigation kept trying to take me back to the original route with the closed road, and its the middle of town so there was nowhere i could just temporarily stop and look at the map, and i called them almost crying to let them know i'm coming but i might be late bc i just can't navigate these streets jegjkdgkjdkg
anyway i MADE it, i think i parked in another business's parking lot and just hoped they didn't care lol and then the lady at the desk was like 'our other specialist will have to see you bc the guy you're here for isn't here' so i was feeling uhhhh not good after my dentist talked him up so much. AND my dentist didn't send over my electronic referral and i had LITERALLY been stressed that he would forget to do exactly that for the whole 2.5 weeks oh my god, thankfully they didnt even seem to care. but then as i was filling out the paperwork in the waiting room 'no judgment' came on, and then 'wolves' right after??? and i was like this seems deliberate to try and calm me down 😂 and when the substitute specialist called me in he was so extremely calming and talked me through my options, one of which is indeed to try and redo the root canal bc he's confident he can, it would still cost a lot but wayyyyy less. he also said i could 'do nothing' (which is obv risky, and i would never do nothing, but that made me realise my infection is not about to bust through and spread across my sinuses any second, one fear down!). he was just softly spoken and super relaxed and he made me feel like this was not in fact a crisis and said i could go and think about what i wanted to do, and just call for an appointment when i decided. and then when i went out to pay 'i want to write you a song' was playing 😭 i asked the receptionists if there was a 1d fan in the house and one of them said it must just be a random playlist on spotify, so this was all a complete coincidence????? i told them i was enjoying it very much.
anyway long story short i had already taken the rest of the afternoon off work to go work in the garden, but figured there was a good chance i'd be so down about an unexpected and immiment $5000 hit that i wouldn't want to do anything, but i drove home feeling extremely reassured that i had options and i was not on the clock to decide, and also very relaxed by 1d playing in the background the entire time. i have also been extremely stressed that i would need to take the next step asap and this would be such a bad time as mum is working 50 hour weeks right now bc of the referendum, so i am on caring duty with nonna/nonno anytime we don't have carers here. but there's time! i had a v good afternoon in the garden after all!
#i am extremely comfortable at the dentist (i had the kindest dentist all through childhood/adolescence/early adulthood)#(who put lots of time into making us comfortable/safe in his chair when we were tiny)#but i have a lot of dental fear bc you only get one go#(i have v regular dreams of my teeth falling out lol)#i also have v weak teeth rip my mouth is a filling factory#i do eat a lot of sugar lol but my teeth clearly suffer more than other ppl i know who eat just as much#anyways the point is everything was monumentally stressful/scary until i stepped inside that place#im very thankful with how the entire appointment played out#for the substitute specialist and also for the soothing tunes lol#im not sure what i will do yet but i will think about it. bc i can!#i am crediting god for this one 😂 he took good care of me today#tp
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i hate how replayed it is and how it associates sm w tiktok trends
but billie’s ‘What Was I Made For?’ feels like the sad anthem for people who enter adulthood with mental illnesses or who are neurodivergent, came out late and missed a whole childhood and teen experience of knowing who they are, or who have no idea what to do or who they are bc we are pressured to know at 18 but not everyone knows that shit and now you’re lost…
#it’s just so…#empty in adulthood#and i didn’t used to feel so empty#and everything is so hard and heavy and scary on top of it all too#bc the future looks so unknown and scary with how bad the economy and all is#it’s like#why tf am i here#what am i supposed to be here doing?#struggling and exhausted all the time???#working til the grave to barely afford living life??#like no#that’s not what i’m here for#but it’s what i’m being forced into#and it’s not who i am#but its how to survive i guess#vent
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