#adulthood is scary

[sofieartz]

[ Personal Art ]

Happy womb - evacuation day to me and my birth doppelganger, aka my twin sister.

Here's to another 17 years with you🥳🥳

[queendynamight2001]

Today, I was reminded of the copies I used 6 years ago, in grade 10 bought to be by my grandfather. those sweet memories of 2019 ink on paper. I walked to my grandparents home to fetch those copies. memories came flooding back just like my tears

I asked my grandfather where he bought they years back. Cant find copies like that nowadays. he said he will look for them and bring them to me if he finds any.

suddenly nothing feels the same. Sudden realization that those moments were in the past just hits me hard. nothing will be the same. those copies will be different from the ones he bought me 6 years ago. Nothing will ever be the same.

Dwelling on past hurts, but sometimes that is the only place I find comfort in.

I sometimes wish i could go back to that naive 15 year old girl but I wouldn't want to live like her

I still want her I love her I would hug her She deserves the world

[aquanutart]

[artuurle]

Did capochin and Hector take in the bizzyboys when they were kids or adults?

The bizzyboys were not all hired at once (thank god imagine the paperwork)- and most actually joined when they were adults at different times in their lives- Grujaja is a specific outlier because of the situation he was in. Even THEN he still wasn't actually a member until adulthood; he was more Sponsored by the bizzyboys until then instead of actually an official member.

There is a scrapped part of the first time i shared this hc that talks about this besides the opening line saying they couldn't hire a kid.

Fun fact: I had to go through an older sketch file with over 80+ layers to get these doodles (to the potential horror of others who see how much i already post)

Ignoring what i said for a sillies however, This ask has beamed an image in my brain so enjoy what i'd assume be capo's actual personal hell /SILLY

[lavandulalurker]

So this has been what's preoccupying my thoughts lately. Here’s my iwatex oc!

Her whole story is that she's from the Heliopause and has been trained to be a soldier since she was young but after landing on Vertumna she decides she wants a career change, and becomes the colony's first delivery woman!

[uncanny-tranny]

I love you smile lines and worry lines and grey and white hair and wrinkles and purple spiderweb veins and the process of aging and living in a body that is standing the test of times. I love you experiences that make you wiser and stories that make you laugh, and every little process that happens to get to the point where you have so many memories because you have the fortune to be here and be so radiant

[jane-not-rizzoli]

The difference between being a kid and being an adult is my imaginary friends are now called Original Characters and people will say stuff like “[X] is so well observed”

[sagessge]

[The sheer irony of the society telling teenagers to choose their whole life is idiotic to me,aren't we supposed to learn and make mistakes? What do we know? We're just humans trying to hold onto the last pieces of our childhood at the brink of adulthood creeping in,trying to haunt us,looking us dead in the eye.]

I'm only 16,I don't know anything of the world

But at the same time I think I know all too much

It causes a hemorrhage

In my brain

And it recociates in the form of tears

From my eyes

I think I cry too much

I consume the very sweetness

Brutality makes me want to die

The salt of it all,keeps me sane and alive

Do you think I can choose what I want to do my whole life?

Do you think I can understand the very nature of life?

Or society I mean,sorry

That gives me a taunt at every step

Their praise comes with a price

A price that weighs you down

Do you want to wear out?

Walk a way so old,safe and give up on yourself and the dreams of your dear mind?

Or do you want to set the mouths waging?

Do you want to lie?

Or utter a truth so bitter?

How can I, as a 16 year old,choose my whole life?

[goemon-fan]

Lupin III Part 1 Episode 5: The Coming of Goemon Ishikawa XIII

[venacoeurva]

One time I depersonalized and was on autopilot more or less for like 2 years straight with very few breaks during college because I was so stressed out by it and I barely remember anything except summer breaks (got good grades though). Can I do that again. please

[greenteathoughts]

the constant struggle between wanting to grow up and be independent and also to give in to nostalgia and stay in the past

[steelthroat]

Guys, the evil plans are proceeding exceedingly... however, everything is moving too fast, and I need to keep up with all the evil deeds that have to be done.

So, it is now time for the evil agenda :)

[itspileofgoodthings]

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[quietlyblooms]

josh is laughing, joking, teasing, even boasting to the group of mixed uni students around them. he isn’t just throwing this party — he IS the party. still, despite his split attention and demanded jokes, he manages to keep an easy arm around her shoulders, smiling the entire time. a few times he cascades a fallen look her way, raising his brows to make an expression that says hey, can you believe that? if this is a party, he’s got to have a date, right? what a friends for? that’s what they’d say — but he wonders … what does that mean? for her? for him? for them? he sets that aside, asks if she wants another drink, and playfully shakes out the tension by providing a few key dance moves as he shimmies away. from across the room, were she to watch him, she would see he’s never stopped looking her way, almost dropping the glass bottles of beer he’s snagged from an open cooler. he returns — because he always does — and twists the tops off before forcing her to clink cheers with him. bottoms up!

unprompted | @pavlovianpanic needed a date... but did he?

she would normally overthink the hell out of this. there have been past parties spent without dates, so what makes this one different? what made josh ask her? they're in college now. they're friends. she tells herself that whenever her mind wanders from the loads of homework her teachers have assigned, and it's easy enough to accept those answers and push down that little voice of doubt.

but it gets hard when she remains tucked into josh's side all evening, comfortable and content while she watches him light up the room. he does it so naturally — entertaining others, making them laugh — and chiyo can tell there are a few of their fellow students who might like to be in her position, their stares pointed upon the casual arm around her shoulders. yet josh’s gaze always find hers, seeking out her reactions with those pretty eyes of his. she is not a convenient accessory to keep on his hip just to make him look good, even if that lie would calm her racing heart.

she's something else to him tonight. they're something else. that's how it feels, a sort of tension building the longer chiyo has to think and watch and notice. it's forgotten for a moment as josh dances away to grab them new drinks, pulling a grin from glossed lips; her classmate approaches, strikes up conversation, further distracts chiyo from those pesky thoughts; then her eyes meet josh's from across the room. her heart jumps, heat rising to already rosy cheeks, and there is a very fragile thing that rustles in her chest. he doesn't look away from her. did he ever?

chiyo looks away first, flustered and apologizing to her classmate. she completely missed what they said. they grin.

" s'fine. you're in the honeymoon phase -- i get it. "

a nervous laugh escapes her, lips parting to explain she and josh aren't dating ( she's his date, but they're not dating. get it? no? she doesn't either ), but her classmate slinks off with waggling eyebrows to make way for the man of the hour himself. chiyo's pulse seems to thrum in her ears as she meets his eyes and takes an offered beer, clinking her bottle against his. bottoms up!

her mouth feels dry despite the swig she just took. her heart won't settle down. she'll be damned if she lets it show, though, so chiyo smiles behind her bottle, the rim brushing against her lips. she puts on a mask of normalcy, attempts to bury her heart and focus on her friend ( that's right -- her friend. not her date. the date part just complicates everything ). chiyo leans in to speak.

" so... should we make a bet? " a playful attitude comes easily to her, seems like the right choice. " which one of us will be helpin' the other make it to bed later? "

[crabussy]

remembered I'm moving to my favourite place in the world for uni and got so excited I squeaked and accidentally bashed my toe because I kicked my leg out without meaning to

[dearmrsawyer]

hello! it has been a long time since i've talked through my day! this one had such a big turnaround that i needed to document it, mostly for myself.

i had an appointment with a 'root canal specialist' today bc i had my first app with my new dentist a couple of weeks ago and his xray revealed an abscess wow how fun :) i couldn't feel it bc that tooth has a decade old root canal so there are no nerves to reveal there is anything going on!! fun!!!! he's a super nice dentist, i like him but he made me very panicked lol he was showing me how close it is to my sinuses on the xray. so he was like 'go see this guy asap' bc he wanted to know whether there was a chance my old root canal could be redone or if i'd have to get the whole tooth removed/an implant, all for the low low price of $5-6000 🙃 but obviously you can never see specialists asap!!! so i've been walking around for 2.5 weeks with dread/phantom pains that by the time i saw him the infection would've spread and idk had catastrophic consequences??? and then today when i went there was CONSTRUCTION at the turn i needed to make and the road was closed and i was like i don't know how to get there from another street??!?!?!??! i spent 10 minutes driving through suburban streets and my navigation kept trying to take me back to the original route with the closed road, and its the middle of town so there was nowhere i could just temporarily stop and look at the map, and i called them almost crying to let them know i'm coming but i might be late bc i just can't navigate these streets jegjkdgkjdkg

anyway i MADE it, i think i parked in another business's parking lot and just hoped they didn't care lol and then the lady at the desk was like 'our other specialist will have to see you bc the guy you're here for isn't here' so i was feeling uhhhh not good after my dentist talked him up so much. AND my dentist didn't send over my electronic referral and i had LITERALLY been stressed that he would forget to do exactly that for the whole 2.5 weeks oh my god, thankfully they didnt even seem to care. but then as i was filling out the paperwork in the waiting room 'no judgment' came on, and then 'wolves' right after??? and i was like this seems deliberate to try and calm me down 😂 and when the substitute specialist called me in he was so extremely calming and talked me through my options, one of which is indeed to try and redo the root canal bc he's confident he can, it would still cost a lot but wayyyyy less. he also said i could 'do nothing' (which is obv risky, and i would never do nothing, but that made me realise my infection is not about to bust through and spread across my sinuses any second, one fear down!). he was just softly spoken and super relaxed and he made me feel like this was not in fact a crisis and said i could go and think about what i wanted to do, and just call for an appointment when i decided. and then when i went out to pay 'i want to write you a song' was playing 😭 i asked the receptionists if there was a 1d fan in the house and one of them said it must just be a random playlist on spotify, so this was all a complete coincidence????? i told them i was enjoying it very much.

anyway long story short i had already taken the rest of the afternoon off work to go work in the garden, but figured there was a good chance i'd be so down about an unexpected and immiment $5000 hit that i wouldn't want to do anything, but i drove home feeling extremely reassured that i had options and i was not on the clock to decide, and also very relaxed by 1d playing in the background the entire time. i have also been extremely stressed that i would need to take the next step asap and this would be such a bad time as mum is working 50 hour weeks right now bc of the referendum, so i am on caring duty with nonna/nonno anytime we don't have carers here. but there's time! i had a v good afternoon in the garden after all!