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[traumagenica]

crying all day today because i am yet again in trouble at work for taking too many unscheduled absences and may not be eligible for the yearly bonus for a second year in a row despite that bonus being something i could buy more fucking treatment with so now they're making me apply for all the fucking leave and accommodations again even though THEY DENIED ME last time and i'll probably be on corrective action again which means i won't be able to take any time off and im so sick but i cant not work or my husband and cat and i won't survive and i feel useless and pathetic and tired. im so fucking tired. im so tired of being tired, and im sick of being sick. im a burden and everybody knows it but nobody who has the ability to actually help me has any desire to do so. i can't get in touch with my doctor. the portal to send in my fucking claim for the goddamn leave and accommodations broke as soon as i submitted the completed application. ive done nothing but cry today. i cant deal with this shit anymore but its not like i'm not gonna get on federal disability if i can't even get approved for the shit my job and state offer and if i quit im not eligible for unemployment so my options are endure the continual humiliation of being punished for daring to be fucking sick or die i fucking guess and its like. i would! i would die. but unfortunately my husband and cat need me to not die for at least a few more months, and my parents would cry at my funeral anyway and i dont wanna make them cry, and my brother would probably kill himself next and i can't let my baby brother die. so all i can do is just keep taking it and taking it and taking it and eventually someday maybe giving up wont be an option anymore because my body and mind will simply be too degraded to do anything but stop. like what do i have to do, take myself to the psych ward? hurt myself badly enough for a long inpatient hospital stay? not like getting sick enough to warrant a short hospital stay was enough for them, cause that already happened. why are my only ways out always institutionalization- which i am rightfully scared to death of- and dying- which i cant do without other people suffering for it. im so tired. im so tired. someone please help me. or at least just make it stop for a while.

[slavhew]

two guys enter a closet

[royalarchivist]

Bad: I don’t think people understand the effect QSMP had on some of the streamers in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. [...] Imagine that you were given a friend to play Minecraft with — like your best friend — BUT if this person dies, if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Can you imagine what that’s like?

Bad: If you did not live through the QSMP, if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience the Eggs were. They were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with.

Bad: I’m not saying I regret it. To this day, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. [...] I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, it was just that fun.

Earlier today during his stream, Bad shared his experience and thoughts about the Eggs and the significant emotional (and traumatic) impact they had on him and his fellow QSMP members.

This clip a very edited-down version since his commentary was ~13 minutes long, so I highly recommend checking out Bad's VOD if you have the time. (Timestamp: 47:36 - 1:00:14)

[ Full Transcript ↓ ]

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Bad: To be fair Chat, I really think the QSMP... I don't think anyone really can relate to it, Chat. It's something that's so... I've told people this before, like– but it's hard to understand. Right? Like...

Where was I? Sorry Chat, I'm losing my train of thought. Look, let me explain Chat– here's the dealio, ok? Here's the dealio, and this is what I mean when I say like, it's important to keep this in mind, Chat. Ok? It's important to keep this in mind:

I don’t think people understand the effect that the QSMP had on like, some of the streamers, in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. This is the analogy I’ve given to every person who I’ve like, shared this with. Imagine you meet somebody– [He hears a strange noise] What the fudge was that? Did you hear that?

Anyway– Chip! The story I was just relaying to Chat, Chip, was this: I was sharing this story with them, I said–  I was giving them an analogy. 

Imagine Chat, for example, imagine that you were… playing Minecraft, with like– you were given a friend to play Minecraft with, Chat, like your best friend, and [unintelligible] were like, “Hey, you get to play Minecraft with this person, right? BUT if this person dies – they’re currently your best friend, Chip – but if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Ever again.” Can you imagine what that’s like, Chip?

I don’t think a lot of people understand like, what that does, right? I’m not gonna say that like, it creates this situation, Chip, that like, messes with your head, but it– Chip – but it totally, totally does, Chip. It messes with your head! It literally puts you in a position where you’re second-guessing and thinking about everything, Chip! You’re thinking about EVERYTHING Chip! Ok? And that’s the problem, Chip– is you turn into a paranoid monster because of it, Chip! Like, you don’t understand Chip– I was- I was so afraid of every dirt block, I used to carry a shovel with me Chip, and I would specifically right-click dirt blocks that looked suspicious because mines, Chip– mines could not be shoveled! Like, I was crazy, Chip! But here’s the problem, Chip: that craziness is still there. I’m genuinely like–

I remember thinking Chip, that I would one day– I was like, “I’m going to move past–” here, let’s go up here, Chip. I remember thinking one day Chip, I was like, “I’m gonna move past the underground base, one of these days. You know, one of these days, I feel like I’ll be able to grow and achieve the desire to build a base that doesn’t have to be underground.” But I don’t think it’s possible now Chip, because I think… I just don’t know. I feel like the paranoia– there’s still like, residual leftover trauma from that situation, Chip.

But here’s the problem Chip: I don’t think I don’t think– I don’t think people understand it. Like, I just really don’t. But I also don’t blame them Chip, ‘cuz I don’t think it’s possible to fully understand it if you haven’t lived through it. Like, if you did not live through the QSMP… I’m talking about the QSMP, I don’t- I don’t know if that was obvious– if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience like, the Eggs were. Right? I don’t think people realize it. Like, they were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with, Chip. So, it’s just one of those things that–

[He’s interrupted by a loud rumble of thunder above them]

Did lightning just strike here? Is it thunderstorming out…? But anyway, Chip. That’s the food for thought.

But that’s the problem– Like, every time it rains in Minecraft, I have to like, look at the sky, and I get this weird, like, second--hand vibe because of the trauma. The trauma, Chip! The trauma is real! But that’s the point– I’m not saying I regret it. I, to this day Chip, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. 

[He falls down] Dangit, don’t come over here Chip, ‘cuz I’m coming back up! Ok.

I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering  and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, Chip, it was just that fun. I really wi– I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible, Chip, to give people that same energy, like that same experience. You know what I mean, Chip? I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible again. Like, EVER.

Because… because like, one: I will say on one level Chip, I will say on one level, like– it’s sort of emotionally like… It’s emotionally devastating, and I think to actually go through that– and this is where like, if I ever do end up going to a– see a therapist, if I ever do end up going to see a therapist at any point, I’ll talk it over with them and be like, “Hey, what do you think about this?” Because I genuinely think on one level, like– it’s created this fear of forming attachments because of like, how things can go. You know what I mean? Like, the fear of getting attached to something and then potentially losing it. Like, it’s- it’s a genuine thing. I think people forget about that.

Like, at the end of the day, everything was RP, right? On the server. You know what I mean? Like, everything was RP, Chip. BUT at the same point, even though it was RP Chip, it was still like– there the reality of you were still playing like, with another person, and you were still getting that experience, and it felt like you were genuinely attached to someone and you didn’t want anything bad to happen to them. It was GENUINELY stressful, Chip.

But at the same point, I don’t regret it, and I don’t think it was a bad experience. I’m– 

Sometimes in life Chip, you go through stuff, and maybe you have a certain amount of like, things that like, can happen, that you’re like, “You know what, maybe this wasn’t a good thing that this happened,” but at the same point, you still aren’t necessarily upset about it, because… it’s like growing as a person, right? Here’s the thing Chip; even bad situations, Chip, can lead to an overall good outcome. Like–

Even if you’re going through something bad Chip, just because a bad thing happens doesn’t mean that only bad things have to come from that. That’s one of the things I tell people all the time, Chip, is that if you go through a bad situation, you can learn from it, and you can use your experience to help others. And you can be that– you can be, at the worst-case scenario, you can be someone for other people who are going through that same experience to lean on when they go through that.I think there’s a certain amount of comfort that comes from that; from knowing no matter how bad your situation is, you’re not the only person who’s experienced it. You know what I mean?

[ribbononline]

Hoenn crossing, or something

[badlydrawnronpa]

who does the gang think is the most stupid person and why

[dreadmanconcepts]

i got told i should post these so people can see them. i hope you like these designs i did, they're for a pokemon AU where the trainers are pokemon and their teams are members of the facility they work at/their friends :D im still unsure if i should keep charon an abomasnow or not

[slythereen]

the funniest part of the ferrari 1644 hard launch is red bull racing admin all up in their business like “☝️ don’t forget that’s OUR emotional support driver in law”

[sweeneydino]

IT'S FINISHED!

Left to Right ->

Spikangelo, & Raph(Here)

Ghost In The Shell, Ghost & Ghostlets by @amevello-blue / @bluepeachstudios

Two Souls, Aoi & his little lion by @virgilisspidey

Shellshocked, Raph & his gremlins kids by @lieutenantbiscute

Cass Apocalypse, Uncle Tello & Casey Junior by @somerandomdudelmao

The Last Ronin Becomes A Discord Admin, Slonkangelo & The Little Ones by @melonpalooza

And finally, Snapper Lou Au, feat. Snapper Lou from @kittynomore, Nini from @amevello-blue, and The Eldest Brother AU from @debb987

PLEASE check out everyone here! Their works are amazing, and I bet you'll find something that'll stick with you for a while!

I noticed the quality gets screwed up when you zoom in, so I decided to export it myself so yall can see them better. Hope it helped!

Have a wonderful day, everyone!

Oh, and I added little easter eggs, too.

[svtskneecaps]

i also just want to point out the qsmp members' commitment to like never letting the inactive members die. like dantdm logged on twice and is canonically dead and everyone continues to blame mysterious happenstance on him. spreen is canonically dead and yet people are still like namedropping him even tho the house façade he built has been demolished and also probably consumed by a mountain. they meme on kameto who's barely been on except that time he was a fed spy that was iconic as hell. they just immortalize their members and they're always so happy to see old faces come back and it lowkey makes me emotional lmfaoo like missa barely logged on for a while but goddamn nobody forgot his name bc philza can't go one day without mentioning him and mariana barely logs on but every time fit saw the homeless mariana in roier's city no matter what he'd stop dead and tell it "come home" and when slime came back to the server for elections after having logged off for the last like two months everyone was still excited to meet him bc the others had kept his memories on the server fresh and alive, maxo died canonically in the nuke and pierre pasted his face all over the server, luzu vanished for months and we never forgot him either thanks to the computers and foolish's wack ass family tree. like when purgatory teams were chosen and team red constantly joked about how it would be so over for the other teams once germán logged on despite the fact that germán had only ever logged on ONCE, the way they cheered when they snatched rubius in the split of green despite the fact that rubius hadn't logged on more than twice since march. they just keep the names alive all the time and it's like

it just makes me really happy to see. like it makes me really happy. like the admin team and the members alike are like 'no way in HELL are we letting your memory go' like damn once ur on isla quesadilla you really are stuck as an islander forever :D

[reasonsforhope]

Withdrew the post on a revolution in Alzheimer's and dementia treatment due to significant issues with data and evidence.

I am not trained in neuroscience enough to fully evaluate - as the below articles point out, these drugs have been receiving a lot of hype for a few years now - but the issues outlined in the below links are definitely persuasive enough that I'm withdrawing the link anyway.

Thanks to @burnishedvictory (I'm 98% sure, I accidentally deleted the post before copying the username) for pointing that out to me.

Here are the articles they linked about the issues with the data:

https://scopeblog.stanford.edu/2024/03/13/why-alzheimers-plaque-attack-drugs-dont-work/

https://www.science.org/content/blog-post/faked-beta-amyloid-data-what-does-it-mean

Anyway! Yes as a reminder/info for new followers, I do retract posts when presented with compelling evidence. If you ever need to fact-check something, you can usually hit up my ask box (tho it's closed right now) or put it in the comments/replies of the post - I'm usually pretty thorough about checking those.

I have to retract something pretty rarely - a few times a year, generally - but I try to be transparent about it when I do.

Finding a new post for today to replace it with now!

[dear-ao3]

oh also. in case anyone is curious for some reason. i got my final grades back for that anatomy class and:

idk how it happened but it did

[outofcontextdiscord]

submitted by @aggressiveplace

[slavhew]

i blacked out sorry

[royalarchivist]

Dono: I'm using my extra speaking time for a thank you. You've made work something I looked forward to, so thank you Phil from the bottom of my heart. Sincerely, your former QsmpEN update admin.

Phil: OHHH- yeah, I heard about the admins get- like-

Dono: I saw everything. I loved making you all insane, KEKW.

Phil: [Laughs] Nahh, fck off, it was you? It was fckin' you? Makin' everyone lose their sht? [Pointing at the camera] Good job. Good job. Good job. [Laughs] Fckin' hell... fckin' hell... I would just see chat compl- like, they- not complaining, but like, stressing out just saying "It's Crowver, the update account is taking in poems again."

[theantarcticempire]

happy four year anniversary to the antarctic empire!