#actualy adhd

[thatonesongyouretryingtoremember]

Maybe ppl w/out ADHD would understand the difference between a hyperfix and a hobby if they knew how often I hyperfixate on mediocre franchizes. Imagine temporarily having your whole brain hijacked and become obsessed with thinking about something 24/7 and mentally connecting everything you do to that hyperfix in ways other people could never understand let alone think of, and if you somehow can't connect them, then doing all that stuff stops interesting you despite being more important, and ON TOP OF THAT the hyperfix isn't even required to be something you like all that much

[duolingos-wet-dreams]

I think my own book (my wip) is my current hyperfixation...

[imjustyappin]

One crazy hard part of having adhd is that I was an exceptionally hard child to parent and to have in a classroom. I was constantly hopping from one thing to another and talking and never slowing down so my poor mother had to constantly be on her toes. I didn’t pay attention in class, instructions went right over my head, I blurted things out, had a hard time waiting, and often made careless mistakes. I was constantly into trouble and novel things when it was time for class or sleep. That resulted in being corrected and yelled at and rejected far more than most of my peers. I was corrected and reprimanded way more than the other children I was around. That’s where a lot of my opposition to authority and rejection sensitivity comes from. If you see this and know somebody with adhd or you have it yourself just remember that there is a reason rejection stings like it does. There’s a reason you don’t trust authority. Depending on compounding factors like race, gender, and other disabilities, authority was probably never on your side, so It makes sense you trust authority way less than most people, just remember there is a reason for the way you feel. Don’t become complacent and let those feelings consume you, but know it’s not out of the blue. Anyways keep kickin and remember your not crazy 🫡

[kinsey3furry300]

Having both glasses and ADHD is fun, because everytime you sleep or shower you choose to intentionaly blind yourserlf and then when you're tired/wet and naked you play a fun little "Choose your own adventure" game to get your sight back.

[neurodivergentbraingoblins]

Growing up I was told I was "unique", "one of a kind", "different", etc.

Then I learned that the traits I have are experienced by millions of people and have names! ADHD, Autism, OCD, seizures, hypotonia, dysautonomia, etc.

Then I was diagnosed with a rare genetic disorder. I was so happy because it meant I finally found "my people" only to discover that I am nothing like all the other people with my genetic disease.

I went right back to being "one of a kind" and "rare within rare". I finally got answers just to discover that the labels we so desperately crave don't actually answer anything.

My advice to people - stop putting so much importance on labels. Labels don't mean anything. The symptoms you experience are what matter. Symptoms can overlap and be identical between different disorders that are nothing a like. But when we hold labels above symptoms we will always exclude people who truly experience the same things as us.

And yes, I'm aware that this may seem like it contradicts my statement that self diagnosing yourself with my genetic disorder is rude. However, it doesn't. A genetic disorder is a mutation of a very specific gene on a very specific chromosome that is specific to each individual person. Just like a heart defect is a very specific condition that only exists in people who don't have a healthy heart.

My genetic disorder doesn't have a label. It is too rare to have a label. So instead, we focus on the symptoms because the symptoms are the only thing that can be controlled.

[horsefreek151]

ESA VS PSD/SD

So just gotta vent here.... My own doc has messed up. I have a Service Dog (SD), She alerts to both cardiac (POTS) and psychiatric issues (AuADHD, CPTD). I'm getting all the documents together so that I can apply for disability so I asked my PCP who should write the letter confirming that I need a SD for my updated records (my doc and psych supported me but we never got the letter ironed out.). Hes like "Dont worry Ive got it" and normally this guy is right. He is awesome 99% of the time. I got the letter today saying I need an Emotional Support Animal (ESA) who stays with me at all times. ESA do not get public access, no training is required and they are not required to do any task to mitigate disabilities. SD (or Psychiatric SD) must be able to behave in public, and have a specific task meant to mitigate a disability. My dog was originally trained as a PSD, She wakes me. Grounds me in a flashback. Tells me Im starting to get anxious and gets me to pet her to re-regulate. Presses herself into my neck to help try to lower panic/flashback episode lengths. She also comes and sits on my chest when I am trying to deal with my anxiety. She then discovered that I had POTS. She would pull me aside before my vision went and get me to sit down. We shaped this into a legit alert (she nudges and can jump up on me and we do "check in" to tell me how bad a heart-rate spike or panic is). She then will press to my neck/lay on my chest till the dizzy spell passes. Shes a full fledged service dog at 3 years old. Shes saved my life. We spent years training her. ESA being confused for SD is a big issue and has lead to way more untrained dogs in public putting my trained SD in danger. Weve been lunged at and chased down by big dogs Ive had to knee out of the way to keep her safe. People think that ESA have public accsess but they dont, they only are at home and dont need any training. SD require legally to have some training and tasks to help mitigate disability. In Most service dogs have liberal training in a variety of situations. My girls on her way to getting the AKC CGC and UCGC titles when we can afford it and has passed Advanced Obedience with flying colors. She has a whole suit of tasks that she dose. She is under the legal definition a SD. As a result for all of that training, all of the hours and hours of work, is public access. She behaves unobtrusive and safe in public. She is able to task in public and Is the only reason I am at all able to leave the house safely. We worked really hard to get her to this point (she worked really hard to do it as well!). Its really important to be labeled properly.

[pionneers-lm]

Ok technically traumaendo because originally it's trauma but we've formed more since from other stuff...idk how this all works

I would change it to a traumaendo flag if there weren't at least four of them and no way to know which is correct

[wolfiegirlxox]

[goldiipond]

have i posted this don autism moment here yet. hes stimming <3

[companionwolf]

HOW DO YOU START NEW TASK/SWITCH TASKS AAAAAA <- the executive dysfunction is killing him

[horsefreek151]

I, every day if im honest, have to unmask in front of my own husband. Hes the one who helped me get my diagnosis. Dude was down for it cause he saw how hard I was suffering.

When I started unmasking he did the kindest thing... he celebrate those moments. My biggest unmasking was Happy stimms and unbridled excitement and curiosity. I am a big jumper and hand flapper and excited talker. My husband gets excited with me and says sweet supportive things to keep it up. He also tells me when he sees me getting stressed or overwhelmed and will always try to help me manage that in he way my autism needs. He hands me my headphones, helps give me place to stim (frustrated shaking or squishing things), and calling over my SD to help me re regulate. We even have a deal that he can tell me when I was aloud to stop talking by putting a hand on my arm or shoulder to help with stressful social situations. Now I'm a happy squeaky jumpy person who stimms all the time and gets excited and obsessive about things and finally lives my life with more openness about myself and my autism.

The level of Upset about it some people have is nuts! My mother blames alot of it on my Depression, others just think im weird and get mad when I don't act normal. Screw them

When I was in the Nurotipical Box, I was in pain, I was suffering, and I didn't fit. Out of it at least Im myself, at least i can find my true friends. I may still be suffering and in pain but im free to express it

My doctor and therapist: now with this autism + ADHD diagnosis you need to learn to unmask because masking all the time will make you burn out again and feel like shit

Other people: well it's just interesting how after getting the diagnosis you suddenly start behaving like that I mean I'm not saying you're faking it's just funny how you suddenly cannot be normal like you were before

[brainrot-stitch]

(Dreamily thinking of jrwi convergence week) awesome sauce..

[a-rat-with-internet-accesses]

How to entertain your self!

Step one: get on a long ride as not the driver a vechile

Step two :look at the road lines outside the windows

Step three:image that it is a race

Step four : profit

^^^The road lines what i am talking about

[kayayayayayayayayayayayaya]

Am doing Story and oh god mhihi Just doing some mhihi

Truly beautiful

[xkcd-r34]

i am 1 year clean on cocaine today. now i need to work on my 1 year of being dirty on cocaine! wish me luck :3

[horsefreek151]

I think we can all agree capitalism is evil and the cause of so many issues in our modern day. It truly is a problem. I live a capitalistic horror cycle right now and I just need to vent I gues?

My husband and I are dealing with a lot of issues right now with life. He had to leave his job for his health. I haven't been able to work due to mine. In fact, I have only gotten sicker. I was diagnosed with EDS, POTS, and MCAS in one day. I've had to stop focusing on getting better and focus on trying to get a job that may not run me into the ground and cause a full health crash. I legit have a condition that gets worse when you are stressed. I'm currently dealing with what I thought was a 4-5 level of pain on a daily basis till I looked up the pain scales, and I am a Mankoski Pain Scale 7-8 (My preferred scale as it discusses pain). My pain level suggests I should be on Oxi or Morphine, according to the scale. I am coping with legal CBD, Max Ibphrophin, and Acitometiphin, and literally typing my hips together with a scarf as well as other braces. Part of my disabilities is that I need multiple and frequent breaks. None of this has to do with the fact that I'm AuADHD. To focus for a normal job, I would need to take Adderall, which has withdrawal that causes me to panic and have horrid anxiety. I am autistic, which means I would have to mask to properly socialize, which also is an added stressor. I have a service dog which can take months if not years too get accommodated at a job. Also, to quote my husband, "You work harder than anyone I know who isn't working a job". I run a Rattery, it's like a Breeding Kennle, but for Rats, So I am doing daily care and socialization for them. Right now, we have 25 babies who need at least 45 minutes of offered out time, and within that, they also need a fresh meal daily. Let alone all the adults I care for, like the pets they truly are. I still get out to walk the dog once a day and give the cat at least half an hour of attention and care for the bearded dragon, and then spend about an hour at least per day posting on social media for the Rattery. Then Usually, an hour to 40 minutes a day just answering questions and helping adopters. I am making all of our Christmas gifts this year and am doing commissions and painting minis for friends. I patch our clothes, Build furniture, and repair our apartment because the landlord specials are pervasive (I not only had to let my husband in the house using a knife today but then had to replace a screw in our front door so that it would not keep locking him out when he left the house). I'm recovering from a URI, but normally I cook at least dinner. I'm doing all that on a Mankoski 4-9 (I may not scream, but I'm doubled over unable to move as I feel like I'm being stabbed from the inside) and periodically Sublexing my Knees, Shoulders, wrists, and fingers. Without pain, I would be badass. If I was neurotypical, I would be unstoppable. But I'm not. I'm disabled and nonneurotypical. And If I want to not starve to death and afford my medication, I'm gonna have to find work (Tho my inlaws would help, I know as a disabled person there is only so long kindness goes). I am probably gonna have to run myself into the ground for low pay and have to quit or be fired due to my disabilities (it's happened before). Hopefully, it will hold us over till my husband is able to get a job himself so that he won't have to quit for his health again. That is the cycle that capitalism has put us into. We are working ourselves to the breaking point and then forced to try and recover from that burnout in too short a time. We just have to hope we will be able to pull it off.

Oh and we want to have kids someday.... (╯°n°)╯︵ ┻━┻