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"because if you die, im alone"
i hate people who genuinely hate house and think hes just an asshole with no feelings, like you didnt watch the show..
#house md#gregory house#james wilson#hilson#i wanna#actually analyze house#but im really not in the headspace rn#but i rewatched that clip nd wanted to talk about it#yapping
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Good timezone people I just wanna say i got recommended a trailer for this movie called Mr. Crocket and
CLOCK CLOCK CLOCK CLOCK CLOCK 🫵🫵🫵
#The movie isnt out yet but it drops on Hulu October 11#fair warning its a horror movie and I over-analyzed the trailer for any more appearances of this little guy#and i guess further in the movie he looks scary#(in the background of one of the quick shots in the trailer you can see him in the background on the wall with a spooky face)#Either way i wanna watch this movie and i want that thing in my house#I doubt i could hang it up on the wall because its actually puppet but that makes me love it more#i want you./ref#random#mr. crocket#(Boy why you got that paint face and thinner face?)
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I feel like we as a fandom need to talk about Guinaifen and how horrific her backstory is.
A child who's loving home and father was ripped away from her, who saw her mother stay behind to fight a battle with the knowledge she'll be slaughtered senselessly like her people, who's elder siblings had to be tied up so they wouldnt die with her.
They end up in an IPC mine with conditions so horrific the elderly knight sworn to protect them refused to let them work in it and did it himself, his hands becoming deformed from the wear of it.
And then one day, that steady wall crumbled, their last support system died quietly in his sleep.
Then her brothers become pirates to support their siblings and when they were captured and turned over the Xianzhou, Guinaifen was relieved because supposedly the Xianzhou was kind.
She hoped they were kind enough to let her siblings and her die together with dignity.
The Xianzhou instead put them in respective rehabilitation programs with her elder siblings getting jobs and the younger ones getting an education.
Guinaifen isn't even her name, her real name is Guinevere. Sushang gave her the name Guinaifen. Guinaifen loves the Xianzhou becuase they saved her and she cares so much about Sushang she wanted to be her sworn sister. She's a fascinating character who's backstory emphasizes characterization of the IPC and the Xianzhou. The Xianzhou sought to rehabilitate them even when wronged by them because they were just kids in a shitty situation. The IPC exploited people and made them work in horrific conditions, not caring in the slightest about them until they started losing profit.
I love Guinaifen to bits if you can't tell by now haha.
She's also based on Arthurian folklore which is neat!
#honkai star rail#Finis analyzes#guinaifen#I LOVE HER#SO SO MUCH#She is everything to me#She's such a well written character#Her backstory horrified me when I first read it like good god babygirl are you okay#IN THIS HOUSE WE LOVE AND ADORE GUINAIFEN !!!!#The Stone Wall Knight's death actually made me cry just the way it was written was like a knife to the gut
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Me: This fic needs plot.
My brain: Okay, I understand. The fic needs more wallowing.
Me: No. We need to cut back on the wallowing to get to the plot so this doesn't like three more weeks to write.
My brain. Got it, got it. The fic needs Wilson to have free time so he just walks around and contemplates. Nice long chunk of Wilson's depression and trauma.
Me: No. Not at all. It needs less time reflecting on the past.
My brain: Understood. I have the solution. The fic needs...flashbacks.
Me: Okay fuck it. Fine.
#house md#hatecrimes md#fanfiction#fanfic writing#james wilson#seriously how am I not at the SII part yet#SII is always a tool to START the real plot#After her there must be relationship problems and therapy and even more important angst wallowing and then the climax and resolution#And yet. The fic is already over 5000 words#I not only missed my self-imposed deadline I'm going to miss it by a lot#But I am working on it every day so eventually you can expect a shiny new Research fic casting light in Wilson's trauma#The premise is “what if Wilson's 'eating neediness' and compulsive Fix It attempts are an ingrained habit imposed on him from a young age”#Because just because House says Wilson loves it doesn't mean he actually does#He and House are actually really bad at analyzing each other#I don't think Wilson is so attached to House because he needs to care for House (House doesn't even let him care for him that often)#I think it's kind of the opposite. House lets Wilson shrug off his need to be a caring angel and let out his inner bastard#The attachment is based on NOT fixing House or being expected to make him all better#The attachment is Wilson feeling safe enough to act on the impulse to saw House's cane in half without hating himself or being punished#Like they can fight and be juvenile and insult each other and then still love each other#Neither will leave the other upon figuring out who the other Really Is TM
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I was expecting tadc episode 4 to be like a sitcom but instead we just got psychological horror
#the true customer service experience#can’t believe the fast food restaurant episode was scarier than the actual haunted house episode#/hj#the lack of music was both really fitting for the episode but also really upped the tension#tadc#the amazing digital circus#also now I want to analyze ragatha’s whole character#birb rambles
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I've referenced before how I have a big google document to keep track of every media I've ever seen in my entire life (just for reference because I like to track everything possible lol… I am the Data Collector), but recently as I was updating it, I thought of actually evaluating them to find out random percentages (like for example, out of Total Shows Watched, what percentage did I finish vs. stop watching, what percentage did I like or dislike, etc.)...
Evaluating these things is made easier by the fact that I already place everything on each subsection of the list into 6 broad ranking categories, so I don't have to go back and guess to figure out how I feel about them or anything. The categories are: Ranking 5 - overall best* (despite some criticisms of course because I'm too much of an Analyzer to ever find anything Perfect lol) Ranking 4 - more positive than neutral, but not good enough to be 5 Ranking 3 - either the good + bad negate each other, OR it's just not memorable/interesting in any way enough to be ranked higher or lower (this is the Default category ALL things are placed in if no other rank applies) Ranking 2 - maybe a few redeemable elements but largely more negatives than positives Ranking 1 - So bad that it circles around to being fascinating to observe in some way (not necessarily Funny, or Good, but just interesting somehow) Ranking 0 - Bad in a genuinely frustrating or obnoxious manner
*("best" primarily defined here as most interesting, rather than most good in a technical sense, or some other measure. I tend to value more highly whether there's something novel or thoughtful about the worldbuilding, tone, writing, base premise, etc - than about whether it's actually executed perfectly.)
And here's the amount of shows that have so far been placed into each category -
TV shows ~ Rank 5 (highest) - 20 shows ~ Rank 4 (mid-high) - 28 shows ~ Rank 3 (neutral/default/meh) - 114 shows ~ Rank 2 (mid low) -33 shows ~ Rank 1 (low low but intriguingly so) - 14 shows ~ Rank 0 (iredeemably low) - 2 shows
This would make for a total of 211 TV shows overall. However, there are 57 shows within these list marked as "didn't finish" (typically meaning I quit on the very first or second episode - but log them still to keep a record that I at least had a brief view of them).
So my total of genuinely fully watched shows would be more 154. 211 Total, but a More Accurate Total of 154.
Counting them all and using the Total Number Of The List (211) -- that means roughly 9.5% of all total shows I have ever watched (or at least attempted to watch) have been Mostly Good, 13% have been Moderately Okay, 54% have been either entirely Forgettable or some mix of good + bad that lands them right in the Neutral Middle, 15.6% have been Mostly Bad, 6.6% have been Bad (but in an interesting way), and 0.9% have been Terribly Bad.
Additionally, I didn't even get past the first two episodes of about 27% of the total.
Sooo, discounting ones I didn't finish, my total TV shows ever watched in my life would be about 154 (maybe give or take a few, assuming I might have forgotten some from very long ago).
But instead of entire life, let's just say this is the total for 'About 20 Years' (so, not counting very early childhood when I likely wouldn't remember things I saw/have no detailed recollection of them (like for example, I'm sure at some point when I was like 4yrs old I must have seen an episode of Spongebob or something, but I have zero distinct memories of it, can't quote anything of it, and barely recall the premise - so I don't count it on the list, etc.)).
In that case, 154 divided by 20 would be roughly 7.7 shows a year.
Which is actually surprisingly low considering that I often have stuff on in the background for hours whilst I make sculptures and do costumes and stuff (maybe I should have also marked some distinction between 'things I fully paid attention to' and 'things I kind of half listened to whilst sculpting', but that would further split the categories too much probably lol), but I guess a lot of that is youtube videos or random documentaries, so .. eh.. maybe I get it being lower.
Now, doing the same thing for movies-
Movies ~ Rank 5 (highest) - 4 movies (3.4% of total) ~ Rank 4 (mid-high) - 12 movies (10.3% of total) ~ Rank 3 (neutral/default/meh) - 91 movies (78.4% of total) ~ Rank 2 (mid low) - 8 movies (6.8% of total) ~ Rank 1 (low but interesting) - 1 movie (0.8% of total) ~ Rank 0 (irredeemably low) - none in this category (0%)
That makes 116 for a Total (Actually Remembered) Movies Watched In Lifetime (Or At Least In 20 Years).
116 divided by 20 is roughly 5 or 6 movies a year (I feel this has probably been skewed though by adding everything since like elementary school onwards, as I remember a lot more movies from child/teen years.. Whereas, the past 3 years I feel like I've barely seen maybe even 5 movies?? lol). I also have "Didn't Finish" marked on 18 of them. Which means I quit halfway through about 15% of the total movies.
So, a for broader summary stuff..
I seem to be less forgiving to movies than tv shows, by far. Which makes sense to me, I guess, because I love elaboration and details, so "short form" things that only last an hour or two are often lost on me a bit. My biggest complaint with movies is indeed usually walking away just wishing there had been more exposition, more scenes where characters are doing nothing, more "mindless bantering" conversations, more Quiet Downtime and Lore Elaboration and so on lol, so... of course most 1-2hr films end up feeling a bit Not Enough To Draw My Interest/Nothingy to me.
If you count 5 and 4 as "like" and rankings 2 to 0 as "dislike", then for TV shows I at least somewhat liked 48 of them, and at least somewhat disliked 47 of them.. So it's almost exactly the same lol. I'm just about equally as likely to find something bad as I am to find something redeeming about it. But overall, the largest chance is that I just won't really care much for it at all and it will be tossed into the 'neutral' pile, forgotten forever. Movies have a bit better of a balance, "liking" 16 of them, and "disliking" only 9 of them. So I'm slightly more likely to enjoy a movie than to find it annoying - though still VASTLY more likely to just not find it anything in particular, possibly not even finishing it.
ANYWAY.. this is vague and literally pointless, but like I said, I just really find information fun. Like my document where I've rated every apple flavor I've ever tried (like 40 of them now?), or reviewed every oreo flavor (32?), or ranking data from my entire 10 years of Trying To Make Friends process (out of 100 people, roughly 8% chance of a moderate compatibility, 3% chance of high), or etc. etc.. I love to have random pointless things to analyze I suppose lol.
I doubt anyone tracks things in their life in this same exact way, but I'd be interested in hearing any at least somewhat similar data !!! (like, how many TV shows you watch a year on average, and what percentage of those you like vs. dislike (if you keep track of that sort of thing), etc.)). I guess it might be easier with movies, since I think some people use those websites where you curate a list of movies you've seen and you can rate them or something, so maybe the numbers are already available on those places. :0
#maybe this is my version of spotify wrapped lol.. Lifetime Media Google Doc Wrapped.. kind of.. except I'm not going over specific titles.#I can't do this with music since I rarely EVER look for new music or add to my Youtube To MP3 folder library as I just don't really#listen to music that often. When I'm working (the majority of when I seek background noise) I need like.. people's talking voices#for some reason. Just instruments and singing are not distracting enough to me to work as background noise because theyre#almost TOO in the background if that makes sense? like if I put music on then I just tune it out and it's virtually no different#than if I were daydreaming stream of consciousness thoughts in an entirely quiet room lol. And I can't really do it with books since#essentially 100% of what I read is non-fiction. usually about some specific subject or academic topic OR stuff like#1800s magazines or cookbooks or historical people's diaries. Which is not really.. the type of thing I would#rank as easily I guess? like 'ooh yeah putting the sociology textbook in my top 5 hee hee right next to the 1920s radio recipes book' lol.#Then for games... I just sadly dont play enough of them. I've been banned from new games as I've told myself I cant play anyting#long form (no rpgs or etc) until I actually finish MY OWN game first - to keep me from wasting time. so on average#I play... 0 new games a year. ToT... I do play the sims sometimes but that's really all (which is not a new game at all since#I've been playing it on and off for years). Thus I guess movies/TV are really the only things that make sense#to collect this sort of information on. I could do youtube videos I guess also but that seems kind of strange like...#giving a rating to every single video I watch in a ranked list lol.. Especially since I would say a good 85% of the time#they are exclusively background noise whilst I'm working on something or cleaning the house or etc. and not things I pay serious attention#to. There are only a few specific topics/types/creators of videos I watch where I'm ACTUALLY sitting in front of a screen paying#direct attention to the content (usually when it's educational or political things). Everything else is too mindless to even rank.#ANYWAY... ever analyzing my little hermit Weird Relationship To Media (in the sense of seemingly not processing or getting the same#things out of it as many other seem to). I think that can contribute sometimes to the whole difficulty socializing and stuff#since our culture is very centered around media consumption generally speaking. People want to talk about The New Movie that came#out or The Big TV Show Of The Year. and for me it's like.. highly likely I just plain have NOT seen it. Or if i have. statistically#I most likely was entirely ambivalent if not slightly negative towards it lol. Which just kind of takes the steam out of a 'fun' 'casual'#conversation and you seem like a bit of a bummer if most of your only feedback is either 'idk what that is' or 'oh yea... i did#see that one.... i didnt like it all that much though... I think it'd be better with elves in it.. and 7 hours longer..'' lol..#Which I am not disliking things in a 'grr i hate it bc its popular'/just to be contrarian way. I actually dislike that mindset/find it#silly (by striving so hard to be counterculture you are thus still defining yourself by the whims of external culture - just in the#opposite direction. but are still just as preoccupied with the mainstream (going against it) as everyone else. etc. lol..)) In my#case I think it IS just having niche hyperspecific tastes.. for example- it peeves me when cell phones are in media bc I dont want to be#reminded at ALL of the real world. so.. cross off anything set in modern times. so on & etc. Judging all things by these weird criteria lol
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annette is so often overlooked because she's bubbly. she's energetic and happy and whimsical in a way the others aren't, and so her pain is overlooked.
but look at how distraught she gets whenever she does something wrong, or she forgets something. in her supports with byleth, she's so disappointed in herself for missing training. in her supports with dedue, she's distressed when dedue has to help her clean up and make dinner. she hates letting people down, she hates failing, she always strives to be better, and that is how her trauma manifests.
her father left her, and so she assumed it was because she wasn't good enough. so she worked, and worked, and worked, and he still didn't want anything to do with her - and she twisted it to think that it was because she didn't work hard enough. so she continues to throw herself into her work, throw herself into her studies, until maybe, just maybe, she'll be good enough.
but it's quiet. it doesn't manifest in hurting other people, or insulting them, or otherwise being an outward jerk. it manifests in her helping everyone wherever she can, because maybe then she'll be nice enough. it manifests in her studying late into the night, because maybe then she'll be smart enough. it manifests in her training every moment she can squeeze in, because maybe then she'll be strong enough. just look at the juxtaposition between her heroes relic and her class - she covers all bases, unique bases, pushes herself harder and stronger, because that way she doesn't have room for the thoughts, and she's growing alongside that. and maybe then, after all that is said and done, after she's mastered all the things that could possibly make someone love and appreciate her, she'll eventually be enough.
#idk if i'll be able to actually pump out a fic so here's an analysis#happy birthday annette#annette fantine dominic#annette dominic#annette fe#annette fe3h#annette fe16#annette fire emblem#fe annette#fe3h annette#fe16 annette#fire emblem annette#fe3h#fe16#fire emblem 3h#fe three houses#three houses#onyxed rambles#onyx analyzes
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was aemond’s scene with the brothel lady strange and disgusting? yes but also I get it because just like aemond I have been searching for the comfort of my mother’s embrace for years, my memories being made up more of my wanting than actually receiving, and so its with much regret that I must compare myself to one of alicent’s kids but i guess it was also inevitable as my own mother shares even more similarities with her
#my hate love relationship with team green#like they’re all so frustrating but their relationship with eachother just breaks me#aemond please there are better ways to deal with this#westeros needs to invest in therapists#actually nvm the nobles would just kill the therapists after being analyzed too much#house of the dragon#aemond targaryen#alicent hightower#hotd season 2#hotd spoilers#hotd#house targaryen
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it is beyond infuriating how anne rice seems to insist on marius being a positive force in anyone's life ever. like she can't fully commit to exploring the fact he groomed armand and has repeatedly taken away his consent for what marius thinks is best (take the end of TVA as an example) and just kind of flatly puts it in the narrative. there's not really much interest in how these horrific events make marius come across as the worst because EVERYONE loves him. for gods sake, lestat learns from armand exactly what marius did to him in TVL and then proceeds to go find marius and be super friendly to him in the same fucking book. even armand and pandora, two of the people who have MORE than enough right to hate him, do not. it doesnt feel like shes trying to explore the toxicity of the abusive dynamic he traps them in, it just is there. and like yeah ofc the toxic vampire romance series but i think that this should be handled with more care. and it is not ever really framed in a way that she is interested in exploring how marius should easily be one of the most horrific characters in this series because it kind of feels like sa/rape/grooming/other things of that sort are just put there to further plot and not to really get the respect that they deserve in a medium.
#twist rambles#vc posting#grooming mention#for blocklist sorry im on my im really mad about this fucking series soapbox again#to be fucking honest she treats slavery similar. like its just THERE and the characters doing it dont really feel bad about it (much like m#rius doesnt seem to.. feel much if any remorse for arm.and) and it is just like... ok heres another bad thing with no examination. this isn#a super coherent post but i went a bit forward to see how b&g was handling the arm.and stuff and oh my god. oh im so mad. like i just... i#wish so badly that arma.nds abuse was taken seriously other than haha its sooo quirky that mari.us is in a position of power over him and#provides housing money sex comfort etc for him and is abusing him but hes sooo happy with himmmm. like he fucking sold him into sex slavery#and we are supposed to root for him#ask to tag#sorry this is just. its a very triggering part of the books but its something that i kind of keep returning to to mull over because it is#handled really badly. like i think she was trying to go for a lo.lita vibe (iirc she did actually mention nabok.ov as an inspiration) but#didnt really care enough to examine WHY that is an interesting take on the subject matter. not even to get into pan.doras stuff bc its just#really bad but at least he waited until she was an adult i suppose. like i will give anne one thing that she has characters and (poorly han#led) writing that makes you really think and analyze. which i think is where i enjoy media that is like... this kind of sucks at points but#u can tell the authors viewpoints soo transparently. and u can examine it thru this. like i think thats why i find the gr.ell run of GA int#resting too bc u can telll that man is a libertarian and doesnt respect women. and then claims to do so. its interesting to me. anyways#did u guys know she defended bill clin.ton when the monica stuff came out and victim blamed her. just a funny coincidence.#sorry for the really long tag rant but i am sooo fed up with how she treats this topic forever and ever. bc its been this way forever.#anyways back to reading had to get that out. lmk if u need me to tag this bc its a lot of tws :)
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Random Togami Headcanon 11
I can say with 100% confidence that, if anyone in his class or like, anyone, took a picture of him in a dumb angle or a warped top-down perspective, he'd fucking HATE it! Like, a fish-eye lens! Byakuya's all about looking elegant, powerful, and presentable. So, looking anything NOT like that is the worst for him. Not to mention, he doesn't get why anyone would wish to have or take pictures of themselves in weird states like this. Byakuya also has a lot of pride in his appearance, so, even if he didn't hate it out of the principle, he'd also just be like uncomfortable about it too. Another one of those "Byakuya being out of his element and being pissed about it" moments. I kinda feel ya, my buddy. At least with not be the kind to take those pics. Not a selfie person so that stuff just makes me uncomfy warping my face like that T-T The ONLY way I could see him being like, SOMEWHAT fine with a weird picture or unflattering angle of himself is if there's super strict rules or guidelines. Like, "Oh my gosh, Byakuya! Calm down" type strict. For instance, the pic would probably have to be: 1. Beyond subtle. Like, basically him blinking or mid-blinking. Something close or along those lines. 2. The person who took the picture was himself or someone he HEAVILY trusts. Even then, he'd still be salty about it. 3. The picture was immediately wiped afterwards and quickly forgotten about ever existing to begin with. Yeah. Byakuya is DEF not overdramatic about this stuff. Though, at least one can understand him on this end. He's got a title to uphold and takes it very seriously. It's very apparent with how much he mentions his name and his title as both The Ultimate Affluent Progeny and the heir to the Togami Conglomerate. Guy is NOT messing around with that info! Another thing to note is that Byakuya's also not a "go with the flow" kinda guy. So, being casual about pictures is both not his style but also something he's not used too. Specifically the playful kind of pictures with friends. Cus well, yeah. Bastard's never had friends like that of any kind and you cannot convince me that he did! Took the guy forever to gain empathy in the main canon of Danganronpa! Also, since I mentioned it. AMEM!
He forehead so beeg. I just felt compelled to do this to him cus why not. I will exaggerate it more one day. For now though, here he is!
#danganronpa#danganronpa fanart#danganronpa art#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#togami headcanon series#text sector#resident big-headed heir#Byakuya's probably barely been out of his rich boy comfort zone#I bet one can count the things Byakuya actually likes with one hand and one hand alone/hj#I swear though. The headcanon of Makoto being able to semi-convince Byakuya to do dumb shit will never not charm my dumb little heart#SHIIIIT! My heart wants to put all of those silly Byakuya audio's from his VA as a dumb little timeline now!#The "You are my hope#Guess you could say he's “weak to Naegi”?! EY?!?!?!#Byakuya would probably despite funhouse mirrors now that I think about it too.#And just carnivals in general#And bouncy houses#Why must I relate to him so much after analyzing him a bit via headcanons?! Like#HOW DO I STILL HAVE SO MUCH HEADCANON MATERIAL MY GOOOOOSH?!?!?
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starting to kind of date someone right before christmas is so stressful fr. do i get him a gift or what we've been on two dates but i'm seeing him tonight n it's christmas eve.....but what if he didn't get me anything then it will be weird.....
#i planned to try to find something small enough that i could easily carry around concealed then take it out if he got something for me#but the thing i got ened up being a bit too big for that lol#im gonna bring a big bag of gifts for all my friends maybe and then it won't be weird idk#by some miracle my mom showed me a bag of emergency gifts for the girlies and i was like cool im taking all of them tonight 😂#which was not what she intended lol#but im gonna do it#if i had time i would have gotten him something different but its good enough#he mentioned a book he hadn't read last night so would have been cool the got him that but its too late its a music hat now#if he even got me anything idk#but he specifically told me he was last minute christmas shopping so idk#i am over analyzing this for sure tho#anyway most unrealistic part of christmas romance movies is they're not anxious wondering whether to gift or not to gift#also im lowkey scared abt new years 😳#not that i wouldn't like to kiss him probably but i already have a hard time looking at him without blushing 😂#so that would make it 10000x worse lmao#also idk if i want to kiss him JUST bc its new years instead of waiting for the right moment to just happen? idk i dont wanna rush things#its not for sure we'll be together at midnight on new years idk what his plans are#but we'll see#anyway things are going well but moving faster than expected 😅#also not 100% sure i'm seeing him tonight and def not tomorrow so that might take the gift pressure off but idk#waiting to hear back abt tonight#😐😐😐#also idk why we waited until we were both on break from work to do stuff bc honestly every time we've met it's been after work hours anyway#however it allows us to stay up later than on work nights which is nice#he didn't leave my house until after 11 last night lol#anyway trying hard not to get swept up in all this while its new but fr im like oh this is what it's supposed to feel like 🥺#never been in love before every relationship i've had was awk and forced was starting to think maybe im just not capable of love#but literally cuddling on the couch watching it's a wonderful life last night i was like hm i'm definitely capable of love actually#not saying im actually there yet but it would be soooo easy to fall for this guy which is p scary actually#esp bc im not sure it would work for other reasons
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#house md#gregory house#james wilson#hilson#screencap#s04e11 “frozen”#so dreamy when he steals your wallet to analyze receipts~#giving you a migraine~#which you actually greatly enjoy~#in front of my Foreman#eric foreman#hes here#witnessing#holding House's ball#a lot is going on here
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I am eternally amused by Mrs Gardiner pausing her effusions to dissect Wickham's vs Darcy's attractiveness—Wickham's kind of prettiness just gives him this look of goodness, you feel like he's got to be a great person, while Darcy's kind of prettiness is like, perfect features, which is nice and all, but not the same ... though there's something about him as well that makes it hard to believe he's actually bad, even though he's got to be a bad person because Our Pal Wickham would never lie, but Darcy does have such a nice mouth, you notice it when he talks—
Elizabeth: this is how I die
#mrs gardiner is so determined to be accurate lmao and elizabeth just has to sit there and listen to her backtrack and over-analyze#we don't actually know how elizabeth takes it beyond her general radioactive level of embarrassment at the time#between running into darcy at his own house and then her mistakes catching up with her w/ the gardiners#but i canNOT think this is helping :P#anghraine babbles#austen blogging#m gardiner#elizabeth bennet#fitzwilliam darcy#george wickham#deep blogging
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One third of my newer layer of understanding of Jerott Blyth (and especially his relationship with Lymond) is from other readers’ thoughts here and elsewhere, one third is from rereading Pawn in Frankincense after getting my major dislike of him out of my system (and with the continuing benefit of people with whom to roast him), and the last third is from Francis’s reassurance to Khaireddin that “men quarrel and are friends.” Men quarrel and are friends! They do, and they are. It’s a complicated mess, but it’s also that simple.
#he’s still a house goose#but I’m not fully shooing him away#and like everyone else in these books he is INTERESTING#complaining about Jerott to cope vs emotionally analyzing Jerott to avoid thinking about the scene that comment is from?#perhaps. But I’m definitely thinking about that scene too 😭#anyway … Jerott#Love him. Despair at him. Can’t stand him. Could read so much more about him. Genuinely appreciate what his narration has to offer.#jerott blyth#lymond chronicles spoilers#lymond#something i#this is still rather disparaging and I do intend to come back to it with some actual thoughts about his narration#Jerott blyth
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sometimes i'm like i don't have adhd and then the Executive Dysfunction literally starts driving me crazy
#emyrs.txt#slight vent i think. incoming.#just. so so hard to get myself to careeeee i fell behind on week 1 and now there's two more weeks and i've only turned in stuff for week 1.#and the prof has answered zero of my emails. i made an appointment w him and he just did not show up.#spiraling and spiraling and spiraling and all i feel is a block in my head and hands and cold sweat and everything is overwhelming me to th#point of inaction. sitting in a bubble watching my house burn down & all i can make myself do is turn the page of the book i'm reading#need to get actually diagnosed need to be put on something need to be medicated but what if there's nothing wrong w me what if this is just#who i am what if there's no solution or cure or or or. i'm just stuck like this. forever having doctors analyze me for problems i don't hav#<- jesus. you know it's bad when i start quoting other people and start explaining how i feel through weird metaphors and convoluted#comparisons. goodbye.#gonna continue putting this off.
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KINK DISCOURSE IN THE WAR CRIMES FANDOM.
#fandom#call of duty#call of duty tumblr fandom u are fucking insane please realize by nature being a CoD fan makes you problematic(TM) (she is also a CoD fan)#like hello how many of you have actually PLAYED CoD I am playing MW 2019 rn and it's SO MUCH oh god it makes my skin crawl#and is simultaneously super fun. haha my blorbos!#here. for you. does a scene when you shoot what you think is an unarmed woman in the back as she runs from you-#-only for the game to go. literally. via a character. “nah dude it's ok she was going for a detonater”#sit well with you? does it?#have you thought critically about this? I have!! I am being psychologically tormented by propaganda during my gaming downtime!!#like please analyze what CoD is saying about the west's relationship to terrorism as a whole (it's progaganda)#especially when real war crimes are happening very much literally right now#your house is made of glass!!!!!! leave the perverts alone!!!#as a kinkster I have analyzed this and am fully prepared to look at pics of hot soldiers for smut#military#discourse
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