#accountability blog

[improvingatart]

poses for today: done

day streak: 4

poses: 4x60s

[kkgore]

Today I have consolidated my diasporate drafts into on document on world anvil, and have finished off the letter from the unknown soldier.

Tomorrow I will write the article for Mayor Buukschain and start on the transcript of the meeting between chancellor oswally and Queen ber'ha.

[scary-stories-to-remember]

thursday, september 19th, 2024

month 1, week 1, day 5

today was a nice day. i feel so accomplished and tired but like i deserve to feel tired. the highlight of the day was that my mom made "deconstructed chicken pot pie" which was just like... mashed potatoes, chicken, and vegetables. it was really delicious, and i have enough for leftovers! i got all of my homework done for the week, which means my weekend is completely free now! tomorrow my after-work plans are some cleaning, nap, gym, raising cane's and then getting so unbelievably high that i can't feel my body! okay maybe not that crazy, but still pretty close.

amount of water drank: 62oz/120oz

body healthy foods eaten: protein coffee

soul healthy foods eaten: veggie pizza, deconstructed chicken pot pie (tbh this was mostly vegetables but it made my heart happy), biscuits, baked apples, ice cream

exercise done today: walking, about 1.3 miles

medication taken: morning topical medication applied, birth control taken, night topical medication applied

showered today: yes, once in the morning

brushed teeth: yes, once in the morning, once at night

goals for the day:

have a good day

complete remaining college assignments

create some stuff for work (just make it, don't finish or build off of it today)

complete child development class quiz

take notes for speech class quiz tomorrow

make payment on braces treatment

goals for the week:

have a good week

go to the gym at least 3 times this week

complete college assignments

clean guest room

make dentist payment

goals for the month:

have a good month

be mindful with money

prepare for halloween

have at least 2 social outings with friends

manifestations:

i am capable of anything and everything that i set my mind to

i am healthy

my life is and will continue to be fulfilling

i am proud of the obstacles i have overcome

i am proud of overcoming the obstacles with will come

my mind is growing every day

i am beautiful

[improvingatart]

poses for today: done

day streak: 22

poses: 3x60s

100 sessions since the 30th of july 🥳

[scary-stories-to-remember]

wednesday, september 18th, 2024

month 1, week 1, day 4

today was my longest workday of the week. the way my work schedule is currently set up is from 9 am - 12 pm, my students are in class. then the remaining 3 hours of my workday, i use as personal time to do homework or just work on personal projects i can make look like i'm doing work. on wednesdays though, i have a class from 9 am - 12 pm, and then my lunch hour, then from 1 pm - 3 pm i have another class that i assist with. wednesdays are busy, and i am usually a little more tired after the work day is done, but i push through and make it work. i am resilient. i'm extra proud of myself because i got my workday done, did my usual chores that i do after work, did 3 college assignments (3 more to go + a quiz tomorrow and on friday), went to the gym, and now i am rewarding myself with sims videos. my body is tired, but i feel wonderful. i'm looking forward to my parents being gone this weekend, i have the house to myself on friday. i already know how i'm going to celebrate. celebrate is maybe a strong word, but i'm excited for weekends, especially now that i have a cute little ritual that i do with myself. i get my favorite fast food place for dinner (if i've got the money i go to a local thai food place, but this week i've gotta save a *little* money) and then i get high enough that my autistic traits show, and i don't feel shame about it. it's strangely healing, and gives me a big mental reset. plus it helps me unmask for a few hours. overall, it's a fun coping mechanism for me. is it my best or healthiest coping mechanism? probably not, but it does make me happy.

amount of water drank: 50oz/120oz

body healthy foods eaten: protein coffee, grilled chicken, mexican rice, pinto beans, cabbage

soul healthy foods eaten: rice krispie treat

exercise done today, how much: walking, tracked 2.8 miles (mostly on an incline) may be more but wasn't carrying my phone - the outfit i wore today didn't have pockets

medication taken: morning topical medication applied, birth control taken

showered today: yes, once at night - washed hair

brushed teeth: yes, once in the morning, once at night

goals for the day:

have a good day

go to the gym

complete at least 2 college assignments

goals for the week

have a good week

go to the gym at least 3 times this week

complete college assignments

clean guest room

call dentist about payment + make payment

goals for the month

have a good month

be mindful with money

prepare for halloween

have at least 2 social outings with friends

manifestations

i am proud of what i have overcome and what i will overcome

i love my body because my body loves me

i am resilient

[improvingatart]

poses for today: done

day streak: 20

poses: 6x60s

[scary-stories-to-remember]

tuesday, september 17th, 2024

month 1, week 1, day 3

today was a much more relaxing day compared to yesterday. my co-worker who i was having issues with was not at work today, and i got to do my favorite part of my job - actually doing my job and helping students. i also removed my acrylic nails because my nail tech said that i was going to need to put a fresh set on the next time i see her anyway, so i took them off myself because they were starting to make me upset. i ran out of the products i use to do my eyebrows, so i went and replaced them, as well as buying myself some other self-care things i needed. i have a pimple that's buried underneath my skin, so i bought some patches to get it out, as well as stuff like face wash and hair ties. yknow, the essentials. i finished the day watching taskmaster with my parents, which is always very nice. big fan of the british people. overall, today was good and productive, and i feel very postively about it.

amount of water drank: 58oz/120oz (exact amounts may be off, i do need to get a proper water bottle and calculate this better)

body healthy foods eaten: assorted vegetables and meatballs in soup, caesar salad, protein coffee

soul healthy foods eaten: crumpet with jam, bread with cheese, donut, matcha latte

exercise done today: walking 2.3 miles

medication taken: morning topical medication applied, birth control, have not applied night topical medication yet // update: applied night topical medication

showered today: yes, 1 time in the morning

brushed teeth: yes, 1 time in the morning, have not done night brushing yet // update: brushed teeth for the night

goals for the day:

have a good day

get at least 2 college assignments done

buy necessities and self-care items at the store

goals for the week:

have a good week

clean guest room

complete college assignments

go to the gym 3 times this week

call the dentist about treatment payment + make payment

goals for the month:

have a good month

be mindful with money

create a makeup look

preparing for halloween

have at least 2 social outings with friends

manifestations:

i am in control of myself, my feelings, my actions, and my destiny

there is a plan for me, and i will fulfill that plan

my family is loving and supportive

i am worthy of love and support

i am allowed to take care of myself

i am allowed to be happy

[improvingatart]

poses for today: done

day streak: 19

poses: 3x60s

[scary-stories-to-remember]

monday, september 16th, 2024

month 1, week 1, day 2

today was rough in some areas, but definitely a lot better in others. my hair and makeup looked good today, i had a really good protein coffee and a good breakfast, i got 2 of my major assignments finished in less than an hour, got dishes done, cleaned some of the guest room at my parents' house, my mom made a really good soup, went to the gym, i told my lover how much he means to me and how much i love him, and as i'm writing this, i'm unwinding and watching one of my closest friends make a "smash or pass" tier list, which is fucking ridiculous. it's truly a wonder. the only negative part of my day was in regards to a co-worker talking down to me and making me feel inferior despite the fact that we are all adults in the building and we're all educators. at the end of the day, i'm there for my students and i don't have to worry about her. i'm not letting her words and actions ruin my otherwise very good day. i'm feeling motivated, positive, and confident. despite the negativity from others, i feel good today. tomorrow will be a good day as well.

lately i have been having some reasonable worries about my life, my safety, and my well-being. overall, i do believe that it has something to do with my paranoia, and i would like to get to a better place mentally with it. i am in a good place mentally and emotionally at this moment, but i will try to log the next time i feel anxious, or at all bad.

amount of water drank: 37oz/160oz (i may have this wrong i'm bad at keeping track of how much water i drink, oops)

body healthy foods eaten: assorted vegetables and meatballs in soup, protein coffee

soul healthy foods eaten: pasta in soup, cheese garlic bread, crumpets with jam

exercise done today: walked ~3.7 miles (more than half on an incline at the gym)

medication taken: birth control, morning topical medication applied

showered today: yes, twice

brushed teeth: yes, twice

goals for the day:

have a good day

go to the gym

have protein

complete at least one assignment

goals for the week:

have a good week

clean guest room

complete college assignments

go to the gym 3 times this week

goals for the month:

have a good month

be mindful with money

create a makeup look

preparing for halloween

have at least 2 social outings with friends

manifestations:

i am in control of my own destiny

i am in control of my emotions and my feelings

i am allowed to be happy

i am confident

i am loved and worthy of being loved

i am safe and i am kept safe

things i am worried about are not likely to happen

it is okay to be worried sometimes, however i am secure and i am safe

i am in a healthy situation in my life

[improvingatart]

poses for today: done

day streak: 15

poses: 6x60s