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[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hi Melty, do you drink tea?

Hello Maru. I sometimes will drink tea. It's not as often as I used to. In high school I would have an Arizona since I would always pass a party store on my walk. And I always had a dollar since I was working. Now that I am older I do keep tea in my house. Usually I drink plain green tea for health reasons. Or I will have peppermint when I feel ill. Or I buy the kind with lots of spices when I feel cold. But I don't add sugar since I don't believe in sweet tea.

I just... Don't like sugar very much. Usually all of the tea I drink now will be zero sugar and decaffeinated. I drink a lot of energy drinks and coffee so I cannot have tea also. I think tea smells wonderful. I am a huge fan. Maybe one day I will drink it more... Sometimes I have a craving for Arizona. But I don't like how syrupy sugary drinks are... There is a zero sugar and zero caffeine Arizona tea... If I order it online or go hunting the stores...

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hello, Absolute!~!

It is okay to struggle. It is okay to have things going on. I promise you there are people who care for you and will be there for you. Please do not forget to drink some water and eat something, taking care of yourself is important and your own well being should always come first.

I hope you feel a bit better. You are valued, and dearly appreciated and cared for!~

Hello Alice. I did not think this would be so troublesome so early in the year. So I feel a bit guilty. Usually during this time I will isolate myself until I calm down. It is... A form of anxiety that I need to relieve myself of. So if I am alone, I cannot lash out at anyone. Or say anything I don't mean. Because I have in the past due to the delusions I believed in over what was real.

I went outside and got some air. And I spent time with a friend today after attempting to rot in bed for hours and hours (my original plan). But instead I was sent outside to get some air. And it was nice. I am physically fine. I just have to remove myself from groups I am social in until I am feeling well again. Usually I will mute DMs or close all of my tabs when possible. I fear that I sound... Hard to talk to when I get like this.

I did have water. I did have soup that my friend made me because it is cold. I do feel a bit better. I will still be posting but I will be a lot less social. If that makes sense. So... Thank you for checking on me. I do appreciate it.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hiii Melty. I saw your post about piercings and tattoos. I really like tattoo art. Is there a tattoo you have in mind? I personally want to go to New York to get a pokemon tattoo from a gumball machine.

Hello Maru. I hope your day was lovely today. I do have a tattoo in mind... I am super excited for you to eventually make the trip. I think you would look so cute with a surprise tattoo like that. Especially pokemon... I hope you get one that you want... I will cross my fingers for you!

I have... Had many situations where I use tarot cards when I feel... Lost..? Or like I fear the future too much. and many times I have been shown the three of swords. It's not always negative. But I would be happy to have this somewhere. I am saving my back for a very large piece I want to get done. And I want a large chest piece too... Maybe I'll dedicate time for a sleeve? ... Let's do our best, Maru!

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

hello is the azul commission the only azul thing you will post ?

Hello Alice. I hope you’ve eaten today. If not… Please remember to do so… I have something else I need to post as well. Azul is not a character I personally care for. So I don’t have any big plans to write for him. Not particularly. He is very popular among my friends and some of my mutuals but I personally do not see the excitement.

He looks nice in lavender. And I think he is handsome when he smiles. I just think his personality is awful.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hi there Absolute! If you are comfortable with answering the question, how many piercings do you have exactly?

Hello Alice. I have a few. I actually… Am more interested in tattoos… But becoming a living pin cushion is cheaper.

I have my ears double pierced, my earlobes are stretched 1/2 inch and I am still making them bigger. I also have my cartilage on my left ear pierced but my last piece of jewelry fell out so I need to get something to put in. I have my septum and left nostril. My smiley (the thin skin where your lip connects to your gums), my tongue, my nipples, and at one point my belly button. Which I hope to get re-pierced next year. I am a fan of piercings and body modifications.

Next year I would like split my tongue and actually look into a tattoo… Tattoos are far more dedication but I really would be happy to have one… But I adore piercings. I cannot wait to get more and more. My goal is to cause trouble at the airport…

Just kidding.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hi melty!!!!! I just wanna tell you how awesome your writing is lol (,,> ᴗ <,,) - I'm too anxious to message off of anon, but I feel like I should tell you - I re-read your post with the thigh-fucking with Jack from time to time and it's so good!!! I can't wait to see what you come up with next - I hope you have a wonderful day!!!

Hello Alice. Thank you… I truly do appreciate your words. I actually, get a lot of compliments on that post even though it was so short. A warmup that I thought “For those who enjoy him, since there’s so little content.” I have been quietly encouraging myself to give him another shot.

Jack is a very good boy. So my next post of him won’t be as yucky… Your message is making me smile. I don’t do it very often but it makes me happy. So… Thank you for enjoying my work. I have been feeling more motivated after a very low period. I hope that I can offer you something to read that can top the Jack post you enjoyed.

I’ll do my best. And I hope that you can too… (////)

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hiii Melty. I was rewatching the anime Food Wars and the character Ikumi Mito reminded me of you. She's very cute and is probably my favorite character in the show.

Hello Maru. I actually adore Nikumi! I always thought she was so pretty… I have an OC and I worry they look extremely similar since I didn’t intend it at all… I bought some of the manga and I want to get a figurine of Nikumi… I also wanted to cosplay her but… I lack… The chest… But I still love her… I am happy you agree that she’s cute. I wish we got to see her more… She deserves to be the most popular character… My meat loving princess…

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hi! I'm just curious, did you discontinue the yandere azul fic? I saw that one chapter left. Not pressuring you tho, sorry if this is came out rude

Hello Alice. Forgive me, it’s not discontinued. I have been having trouble writing lately due to things happening in life… I have been able to write and finish short fics but that one is a commission. I don’t have much more to go, and I am excited to finish it since the persons OC is so cute…

It wasn’t rude at all. It’s okay to ask if you’re curious. I just haven’t had any real time to sit at my PC and write. Usually I’m lying in bed trying because I just don’t… Have the energy. It is in progress… I am so close to finishing I just need to get one of my days off completely free…

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

In Idia's breakdown of their big plan, he describes Malleus as the server, which *hosts* the dreams. Besides, if Malleus decided them, how would he choose Lilia's dream (events he doesn't know) and the dreams of all the people on Sage's Island that he doesn't know at all? Everything would fall apart because he wouldn't have anything for them. The whole point is that the dreamers have this idea of what they want and THEY have to REALIZE that it's not actually what makes them happy. Azul thinks he doesn't need the Tweels and that he can succeed alone, for example. He has to realize that his friends are actually a key factor. I don't mind if people don't like the same characters, but it's irksome when their reasoning isn't even true.

Hello Alice. Before I start, I will tell you that I don't actually care about this conversation enough for a third round. So let's agree to be done after this. Malleus does host the dreams. Which means he also puts things into the dreams. Imagine buying Minecraft and opening a world. Minecraft still has to build a world as a base for you use.

Because of this everyone can pick up based on context we have been given through the almost finished book how the dreams are being formed. Malleus creates the desired dream and leaves them to it. This includes Lilia. Malleus is very aware about Lilia being an ex-general, and leaves it at that for Lilia to do what he remembers. Because Malleus knows very little about Lilia except for some of the things he likes and what he has learned Malleus is using information he picked up through interaction or what he has heard and is using it to his best ability, then allowing the students to use what he gave them. It has been... Almost a week now in the real world? He isn't feeding them constant information to use but he laid out a 'base' for them to build upon.

The dreams are being freestyled after Malleus has given them to work with. If that makes sense. Malleus is seen as big and scary so he often observing the others. Let’s talk about Idia’s dream and book six. Book six was Idia coming to term with Ortho’s death. Why would he dream of Ortho coming back to life? Because he didn’t decide that. His dream is built on what Malleus assumed would make Idia happy.

And again it is stated multiple times in canon that Azul and The Tweels do not see each other as friends. And that’s not a bad thing. You can get along with someone without seeing them as a friend.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Bro Malleus doesn't determine what they dream about. That comes from within their own minds and from their own desires. I'm not saying it's cool that he put them all to sleep, but at least have your facts right

Hello Alice. I am going to actually push up my nerd glasses for this.

It is heavily suggested in the Octavinelle update that he does choose their dreams based on what he knows about his peers. Such as Floyd being good at everything in his dream. That is not something that he actually wanted or has dreamed of because we saw that he was upset and floating aimlessly lacking the stimulation he needs. Floyd actually wants a constant challenge.

Same with Azul forgetting the Tweels existed in his dream just because he mentioned how they aren’t actually friends. They are co-workers. I apologize if my slander towards Malleus has upset you. But you aren’t correct either. Malleus is in control of their dreams. He put them to sleep and he is watching their dreams. That is what his UM does.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Wahh,,,Its..very late now. I am about to head to sleep twt..I hope you had a better end of your day..since you got to leave early!!

I left work relatively early too. A very short shift..I got a bonus and I'm..so happy. Hahaha..ah. and a kind lady donated $100 to our fundraiser. Today was alright ^^ (positively).

I have been,,slowly getting back on coffee again. It never stopped but the numbers rise and fall and are growing right now..its just so tasty and helpful. Especially if time leaves you none for a nap. Lets try to keep ourselves hydrated ^.*!!!

Tomorrow will be better than yesterday because today we know we made it through yesterday. Get the vibe? We ball..-🐍

Good morning Viper. Forgive me for answering late. I did end up feeling better. Yesterday, I spent almost an entire day playing a game that gave me a bigger migraine than it gave me satisfaction. I will play again today…

I am very happy you got to leave work early, and you got a bonus! That’s exciting! Coffee… I was planning to get some today. I’m going to drink all my water and I will have my salad because I need to eat veggies. I will do my best to hydrate properly. If I don’t I am certain I will die.

Today is the tomorrow you prophesied. And I am excited about it going well. I am going to do my best today even if I don’t have much energy. I still want to try. I’ll cheer you on too. So we can make it until the end with a smile. It’s okay. Everything will be okay. It has to be.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

TWST ANİME İS COMİNG

Good morning Alice. I saw it before bed yesterday and I just want you to know. I am struggling to not break character. This is something we have all hoped for and dreamed of for a very long time. And it was confirmed for October of 2025… Apparently… Yuu is going to be a girl? But they could be a mistranslation… I won’t mind either way but I am assuming… We will only get one Yuu for the anime. Not different ones like how it is in the manga and light novel.

I am extremely excited about the anime. I cannot wait for next year to come. It fills me with so much energy I have began to kick my feet in bed.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hi Melty. Do you drink all kinds of energy drinks or just Monster? One of my coworkers wanted me to try his energy drink C4 because it was jolly rancher flavor. It made my stomach have a burning sensation. (╥﹏╥)

Hello Maru. I actually make time to try new ones. Primarily I drink Monster energy to get myself up in the morning. When I am depressed and unable to motivate myself I will drink Bang. When I worked third shift I would drink Ghost and I’ve had the sourpatch kids flavor. I’ve tasted Venom (it was bad), Rockstar (it was bad), Kickstart (I like the orange flavor), and other ones.

Energy drinks are good for anyone who doesn’t like the strong taste of coffee. It replicates… Juice? Pop? … Soda… Maybe..? I have tried the pink(?) C4 but I had no strong feelings on it. Nothing memorable for me. I drank it just because I needed something. I know that you are a coffee enjoyer so… Please stick to coffee. Energy drinks are so hit or miss… Especially Redbull…

Now that tastes like batteries.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Hi Melty. How do you feel about jellyfish?

Hello Maru. I hope you had breakfast. Or lunch. Or dinner? Dessert is fine too. Jellyfish…

I want to put one in my mouth and savor the taste of something new.

I saw a jellyfish washed onto the sand the first time I went to the ocean. My first instinct was to reach out and pick it up. But I was told that even when they’re dead they can harm you so I did not. And even in death… It chased me up the beach… By that I mean the waves were so big it sent the jellyfish farther up the sand and I wanted to cry a little… Being bullied by something without a brain… Maybe… We are alike…

I think they’re very pretty. It’s peaceful… Floating in the sea without worry. I think it would be nice to experience something like that. But also… I still have a burning desire to eat a jellyfish. But I am unsure if they even have a flavor… There is jellyfish sushi… But… I am afraid of disappointment…

One day I will eat a jellyfish and tell you all about it.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

take care of yourself darling... no matter what you're going through, no matter what you're feeling, no matter what happens, you are lovely from the inside out. you mustn't stop just yet 💕

Thank you Alice. I am feeling a bit better after sleeping. I don’t think it’s very appropriate to share what was actually wrong. Or what currently is wrong. I am just very sensitive unfortunately and I am dealing with a form of relapse.

It’s not harmful. I mean it is but it doesn’t(it shouldn’t) affect those around me. I just don’t want to mention it entirely as I am very used to getting clowned on for it. So it becomes something I wish I could truly vent about without being told “Well just stop doing that!” I will take your words and hold onto them today. So I appreciate you checking on me.

[meltedbluecaterpillar]

Happy Halloween Melty. <3

Happy, happy, Halloween. I am going to be passing out candy soon... So wish me luck... Cute costumes... And so much candy I could faint... I saw your costume... I hope you have a lot of fun, my benevolent sea witch.