#about our system

[a-smol-bean]

Bean:

° AuDHD (unmedicated)

° Hates being the center of attention

° Likes reading and writing equally

° Loves color-coding

° Very introverted

° Little social skills

° Enjoys listening to music at high volumes

° Daydreams a lot/likes to get lost in imagination

° Libraries/bookstores are safe spaces

° Demiromantic Asexual

° Anxious

° Prefers no makeup

° Cargo pants and baggy crops or form fitting shirts

° C h a p s t i c k

° Happy to front

Leo:

° AuDHD (unmedicated)

° Doesn't mind being the center of attention

° Prefers reading to writing

° More extroverted

° Good social skills

° Picks up on little details about peoples' behavior

° Likes quieter music

° Doesn't like daydreaming more than staying in reality

° Overprotective

° Anger issues

° Our room is our only safe space

° Enjoys social media

° Biromantic Lesbian

° Leggings and form-fitting clothes to show off our body

° Physical fitness is very important

° Enjoys staying in the headspace

Kara:

° AuDHD (unmedicated)

° Anxious

° Self-care fanatic

° Workout? Yes PLEASE

° Self affirmation

° Quite enjoys fronting

° M O R N I N G S

° Yay organization

° planner

° Aroace

° Quiet

° Likes to roast Leo and Bean

° Protective

° Loves anything pretty

° Quiet

[aetherial-boy]

our system’s hosts (and cohost) are a hypersexual clown thing (Fizz), a dramatic ass lesbian (Rina), and an unstable blonde twink (Theo), and I think that’s a very fun mix

[teaboot]

Acab applies to security guards too.

Okay, so there's two basic kinds of security: public and private

Public security is for government employees like police

Private security is stuff like security guards, bodyguards, and bouncers

As a security guard, you need to pass different licensing exams for different privileges. Someone who might handcuff people needs a license to carry handcuffs- someone who might need to carry a weapon needs a license for that weapon.

I passed my BST exam something like five years ago and stopped there, so I am allowed to carry: A radio

And as private security, again, there are two basic kinds: in-house and contract

Contract security means a company or a person or a location like a park can pay my boss' boss money to send powerless scarecrows in uniforms to walk around and provide what is called "visible presence"

which is, essentially, a life-size cardboard cutout of a guy wearing the classic Spirit Halloween costume, "Black Slacks Law Professional" in size L

So if the entire chain of authority, from a toddler at the mall food court all the way up to whoever happens to have access to the majority of the planet's nukes at this time, you should know that someone like me currently ranks somewhere very slightly above Janitor, but still definitely below Cinnabon Assistant Manager

Which means that if I chose to go rogue and use my powers for evil TOMORROW, I would maybe manage to punch a Cinnabon employee and shoplift half a dozen chocolate bars from the gift shop before I am fired and in jail being sued off my ass with my licenses revoked for life, unable to leave the country or apply for a job at Walmart with my new shiny criminal record

Security guards and mall cops ain't police. We're dressed like police so you don't try and do something illegal in the area, but the vast majority of us can't actually do anything.

Calm down

[systemasiderum]

first art post on here! based on a true and very mean and evil story from our system earlier today.

[madeleinefjall]

brainrot sketch

[loser-pet]

thought I’d make a post about my plurality that’s more comprehensive (in terms of our origins and presentation) and less cluttered with our headmates and random stuff like that. (warning: this will still be a pretty long post (also anything marked in blue is stuff added after the original upload))

we use a mix of singular and plural words to describe us (I/me/my versus we/us/our), and aren’t super picky about which you choose to use. we’re pretty much all nonhuman in some way, so please call us things like creatures, critters, beings, folks, etc (as opposed to humans (saying person/people is fine though)). in terms of what words you can use for us, you can just say system, collective, plural, chat, friends, group, or roommates. we all collectively like they/them, and you can just use the host’s name when talking to us. we also don’t identify at all with the body we are currently inhabiting, so we will sometimes say “the/this body/the/this body’s ___” instead of “my body/my ___”.

we weren’t exactly sure of our origins in the beginning (as we were still learning about our plurality and constantly thought we were faking or not quite legit), but we’ve found some terms that match our origins pretty well! we’re mixed origin nontraumagenic, specifically endogenic and cathartigenic. we also think that our headmates were formed through me giving a name and vibe to different personalities, interests, or identities of mine (so they’re basically the personification of different parts of me)—and then woops, they gained sentience (if there’s a specific word for that, then feel free to tell us).

in terms of presentation, we’re a proxy/specutien (also blurian) systemflux system that experiences frequent moments of some/all of my headmates going “offline” as I call it (basically where I lose contact with them or they go dormant for a period of time). at times, I can’t contact any of my headmates (this usually comes from me being really stressed or preoccupied with something), but these moments don’t last for long. we don’t experience full on switches (due to us being a specutien system), but we do experience co-fronting and blurring. our collective is also really weird because we don’t have a defined headspace (or any kind of shared space where we all hang out and interact for that matter), and everyone sounds like me (I can usually tell who’s who based on their speech patterns or their vibe though).

in terms of a metaphor, think of some kind of streaming site (like twitch). there’s a streamer doing something live (for us, we most often like comparing our life to a video game, so just pretend the streamer is playing a video game of sorts), and there are people who like watching them. there are some viewers who are diehard fans of this person, so they’re constantly watching their content and interacting with the streamer. on the other paw, there’s some people who watch the stream but don’t choose to chat. or sometimes, they’ll be watching the stream, but they have to leave and don’t end up coming back for a while. these viewers would be my headmates. they can interact with the streamer (aka me, the host), but they can’t control the game the streamer is playing (although they can influence what the streamer chooses to do). but sometimes, the streamer has a particularly slow day, and nobody shows up to the stream. this is how I feel sometimes when I can’t sense any of my headmates (which makes me feel like a singlet at times).

[starryaike]

Cobigail doodle

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

bodyswap au with sy in sqh's body and sqh in sqq's body

i like to hc that sj has chronic pain from recurrent qi deviations and his terrible childhood, so sqh is not really surprised with that. he does question how on earth sy just goes with it so easily though. like peerless cucumber??? not complaining about smth on sqh's novel??? sounds very unlikely.

the (kind of) funny thing is sy was terminally ill in his prev life so he's very very used to chronic pain. it just doesn't click in his funky little brain that it's not normal. he just assumed that it was something that came along with his transmigration, so he ignores it. even the pain of without-a-cure is easily disregarded. (mqf was having a Lot of Thoughts regarding sqq's pain tolerance).

so sqh is like "BRO why aren't you saying anything about the pain??? everything hurts???"

and sy goes "what pain??? oh. oh yeah that must be from me."

"haha..."

"wait that wasn't from me?"

"BRO PUT DOWN THE SHOE"

depending on the timeline lqg and lbh are worried. yqy is, as always, very worried. sqh gets discovered pretty quickly bc of his hamster vibes. sy has no idea how to run an ding, but they seem to be doing pretty well without his input!! the merchants scramble to give cqm what they need when he smiles at them. (the merchants are absolutely terrified of sqh smiling).

[nipuni]

We are finally playing Clair Obscur 👩‍🎨 I've already cried my eyes out five times, the acting is excellent, the themes immaculate, great writing, aesthetically gorgeous. It feels tailor made to our taste, there is so much to dig into, there is so much meaning to everything

[fairuzfan]

One thing I've learned as I've progressed in my archival studies is that there is evidence for everything. There are records for everything.

The things Palestinians have been documenting—even Israelis themselves documenting both within their "civilian" population and their governmental records—portray a concentrated effort to erase every trace of the Palestinian people. This (October of 2023) is no different—there are probably internal documents specifying how to communicate to the press while explicitly dehumanizing the Palestinians. Internal documents that detail best mutilation practices to inflict of the people of Gaza to break their will to live.

For supporters of Israel: nothing you see is uncalculated. Recognize that. Palestinians have grown up for 75+ years KNOWING that propaganda is so easily disseminated. Palestinians who received no formal education (which is not to say such a thing is necessary—this just speaks to the innate knowledge of the Palestinian people) understand the way in which the machine of imperialism works in an intimate and personal manner. So I'd like to invite you to consider: who is proclaiming support and for whom? What would they gain? Why is the United States, a well documented imperial core of the modern war, so vehemently supportive of Israel? Why would they do such a thing given their extensive history of "US first" within their policy decisions?

Why would the British government—the source of many colonial struggles—wish to support a regime with already one of the strongest, most powerful armies in the world? Why does the Israeli government need aid when they claim to be so well off compared to their Arab neighbors?

Propaganda is something so embedded in the everyday life of Europeans and USAmericans that they (primarily white individuals) often do not think to examine the core logic of the way their government works. To reiterate: nothing is accidental and everything is calculated. There ARE records for these events and tactics—they just won't release them yet.

It is imperative that you understand the political implications of how this will affect the United States and why they have a vested interest in such matters, considering their historic distance from other atrocities unless personal involvement occurred.

[myfootyrthroat]

Call it a cop out, but there are a ton of things where my actual stance is "This is really complicated, there is no easy solution, and all possible solutions have downsides."

If you're firmly planted on one side, you might read that as me being "for the opposition", but I'm probably not.

[nibbelraz]

Let's make some Coffee and rant about novels together with my submission for the 2024 @mxtxfoodzine!

Definitely believe these two would drink Coffee all night to talk, edit, and review airplane bros writing

You can find the recipe and other beautiful works for free here!

[laika-of-the-stars]

so many stuffies, so little space

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

A fierce duel commences!

[thejakeformerlyknownasprince]

Animorphs #11: The Forgotten thoughts (pt. 1):

Jake describes shrinking into falcon morph as "dwindling down like a fast-burning candle" (p. 14). You okay there, kid?

"Tobias came zooming up alongside us, zipping around like he'd been born a bird" (p. 16). I mean... y'ain't wrong, Big Jake.

This is one of those books that hinges on the whole idea that things break, even for space-people. Ships crash, because crashes happen. Random weapons malfunctions are a fact of life, if you carry weapons around. Shit happens. Even to alien invaders.

The whole first part of this book lends weight to my hypothesis that Jake is the most, like, aware of being mentally ill. He kind of just accepts that he's hallucinating, chalks it up to "Things I wish I'd never seen... things I'd done I wish I couldn't remember" and then goes back to planning the mission. Marco is the most aware the others are falling apart, that "One of us would snap" (#5), Cassie's the most conscious of the shifting team dynamics, and of course Tobias is the identified patient. But it's Jake who most openly accepts okay, I'm losing my mind; I'll worry about that later. "The good thing about rushing is it didn't give me too much time to think," according to Jake, "thinking meant worry, and worry gets in the way of getting things done" (p. 33).

Animorphs books can be read here | Book Club schedule is here

[c0ntaminxted]

on tonight accidental glance into syscourse i continue to hate the idea that "endo systems actually have horrible trauma but its been hidden by dissociative barriers!!!"

i will forever HATE this idea. god forbid a system just exist peacefully. not every system has to be in a cycle of misery and hatred. trust and believe that shit isn't fun anyway

i get happy when i see other systems just enjoying the company of their headmates. having silly moments and playing games with them. doing mundane stuff with their headmates. that makes me happy to see other people get to have that

forcing the idea that endogenic systems are actually traumatised is incredibly harmful, because it can lead to doubt. it can cause the uncovering of trauma that maybe shouldn't have been found in the first place, or wasn't ready to be found (IF it's there). it can cause false memories. it can change so much about a system and their perception of their life, and i think that's so unnecessary