pretend-i-don-t-exist

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

maybe i should try to get an official diagnosis because. yeah

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

anyway i think the better thing to do is write if i can just get over this block and this never ending looming anxiety that's a bit too large for me just to ignore rn

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

what if i break down. what theb

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

on a writer's block rn i am so close to having a breakdown

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

living the shang qinghua life

aka eating cup noodles while writing

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

Athena and her two gens of fav mortals

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

qijiu as odypen... honestly i don't think it'll work bc it's based on the premise that qijiu is married and very much in love with each other

now, see:

case 1: sj as ody, yqy as pen

listen do you think sj's going to not kill the cyclops. he's killing the thing and they skip the whole waylaid by a god plotline. and if ever poseidon gods find out, the plotline's derailed bc sj will fuck up a god if it stands between him and qi-ge

also yqy as pen would just smile at the suitors and kindly tells them in no uncertain terms to fuck off. he's not going to be unfaithful to xiao jiu!! he's not going to let their palace be trespassed into by some men!! he's using his sword if it comes down to that

case 2: yqy as ody, sj as pen

this feels like the one with the most potential but like. sj is def instigating fights between the suitors. wiping out noble houses that piss him off. assassinations, by his own hand. this is his and qi-ge's home and as yqy's wife, he has a duty to keep it clean

while i can see yqy going through ody's experiences, i do feel like he's going to have a powerup a la xuan su and that cuts their travel time short and yqy's crew would undoubtedly listen to all of his orders anyway. i also don't think he'll tell his name to the cyclops, so yeah

their would you love me again is just sj telling him that he's stupid and yqy crying bc xiao jiu still loves him after he made him wait for so long—

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

congrats to me for busting out 3k+ words in six hours

anyway my back and my shoulders hurt agh

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

Two times, Luo Binghe?

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

Shen Yuan picks up painting as a hobby to try and fit his role as Shen Qingqiu better and he’s painting anything that comes to mind, masterfully painting tragically beautiful landscapes and cityscapes and portraits he’s dreamed up. Yue Qingyuan is stabbed through the chest with a cruel knife twisting of horror, nostalgia, and relief the first time he comes to Qing Jing Peak and sees one because those are from his and Shen Jiu’s childhood and Shen Jiu’s still there.

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

Shang Qinghua: Ugh, my waist really hurts.

Shen Qingqiu: Did we go too hard last night?

Shang Qinghua: YES! Didn't you hear me beg to slow down????

Shen Qingqiu: Oh, I thought you were just crying for attention as always?

The Other Peak Lords: What the fuck is going on.

Last Night

Shang Qinghua: BRO THIS HURTS!!! PLEASE HAVE MERCY!!

Shen Qingqiu: No can do, bro. *flicks Twister spinner* Left hand on red.

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

A man needs a hobby while he's waiting for his beloved disciple to return from the dead and torture him!!!

(SQQ is a complete fucking freak and I love him so much)

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

About your big brother ghost au, having the floating spector of shen yuan constantly influencing shen jiu would make him worse actually, at least to talk to. Because he doesn’t just have access to the scholar’s silver tongue, he also has the largest repertoire of the strangest, most acrid insults never before said by a man. Curtesy of Shen Yuan, the world’s most okayest babysitter.

(I also desperately wish to hear more of your thoughts on this au!!! I love it!)

I think Shen Jiu didn't really learn hardcore insults until he became a peak lord in canon, because who needs a silver tongue when you can throw hands?

In this AU, Shen Yuan teaches him how to murder with words. Good job SY <3

Unfortunately, most NPCs cannot grasp the glories of SYs usual insults, so he has to use concepts more native to this world. Tragic because you KNOW he wanted to start this interaction with "listen here you six piece chicken mcnobody"

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

feeling unmotivated rn like i do wanna write but like. what for

anyway conclusion is to go to sleep and hopefully finish a chaptee by tomorrow

[pretend-i-don-t-exist]

Well, he (user: HeavenlyPillar666) is just a guy who only reads a webnovel out of boredom after his martial arts classes and finds himself unfortunately trapped- the plot is uninteresting in the first instance, the descriptions are long and absurd (SERIOUSLY, FIVE PARAGRAPHS TO DESCRIBE A DAMN PLANT? TEN PARAGRAPHS TO DESCRIBE A MONSTER? More action scenes than dialogue!? Who the hell is that IcedBlueBeast and why the hell does he insist on making everything SO DENSE AND SLOW?), but... one of his characters? DEFINITELY HIS FAVORITE CHARACTER IN THAT HORRIBLE WORLD. HIS MISUNDERSTOOD BLORBO. HIS BELOVED.

In a summary not summarized, a story about two twin brothers who were separated at birth, and both found their way to cultivation world in different ways. Reunited first like disciples and then Peak Lords of different peaks of the same sect, suddenly, the brother who remained with his wealthy family - Shen Yuan - was seen as something of a villain for having had kind and lovely parents, a home and an education, always portrayed as the spoiled rich kid who bought his way into the Sect, while the REAL SCUM VILLAIN ACCORDING TO HEAVENLYPILLAR666, that bitch Shen Jiu who was stolen from his family and raised as a slave and then on the streets, ended with basically a harem of peak lords, fanning himself with his fourth-rate victim role.

And the rest of that pathetic novel it's just... shit full of dramas, betrayal and eternal descriptions being an ode to finding the hundreds of ways in which Shen Yuan's inherent kindness was misinterpreted as manipulation, judged and accused of wanting to do something bad just because he comes from a rich and well-off background.

And how it should be fair after all that gaslighting and psychological torture, Shen Yuan finally agree with them!

Crack under the pressure and the mistreatment of everyone, he just decide that if everyone thought he was a villain, then he was one!!

Allying with the demons first as an informant spy and then rising to power among the court, he ended up being something like a emperor-demonic cultivator eager for revenge and proving that no matter where he came from, he would show them what he was capable of! If the Cang Qiong Mountain Sect believed that a powerful cultivator was only forged through hard work and suffering, look at him now!

So all that good revenge plot would go to shit with Shen Yuan start to fucking monsters in scenes that were almost fade to black despite the deep descriptions and CHEMISTRY between the passionate Shen Yuan and the mythical creatures to have more power for the revenge that never seemed to come... To end with a completely unsatisfying shitty ending in which Shen Yuan gave up his revenge for filial love and the power of forgiveness, giving his own life to save his fucking damnit brother's life!

Where was the cruel revenge?! The taking over of the world?! HeavenlyPillar666 is RAGING, more than anyone else in all those damn comments!! Dumbfuck author, dumbfuck novel!!!!!

...

Yea, the user HeavenlyPillar666 shouldn't have said that while choking on his damn glass of water. It's not that he thinks he could die by drowning in a glass of water, LITERALLY. That's ridiculous. It's the height of ridiculousness.

But now he is dead, and he has transmigrated into one of Shen Yuan's less filial disciples who would ultimately be the person who would hurt him the most when he turned his back on him, after having been practically raised and adored by Shen Yuan, this damn disciple who always treating his Shizun with contempt and disdain knowing his invented reputation, but despite that, he was so dear to Shen Yuan who more than once was capable of putting himself at risk for him...

No, nothing like that!! No more of that trash!!! Shen Yuan deserves MORE, and the one who now is Luo Binghe is going to make sure Shen Yuan has all of it. A happy ending, a filial disciple, someone to count on, someone to stand up for him when no one else will. Someone by his side when he decides to destroy the cultivation world, someone to HELP HIM DO IT AND GET REVENGE ON ALL THOSE ASSHOLES SONS OF A B-

If only that fucking System would stop yelling at him for being OOC. Luo Binghe already knows!!! Fuck you System!! He's not going to respond that rudely to his Shizun, he is a beautiful little sun, what's wrong with you!?