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[waiting4thestarstoalign]

do you remember?

do you remember leaving?

how, for once in my life, i actually talked to people that day?

because, god, maybe i was actually happy?

do you remember me, standing there in my hoodie

my hoodie my favorite hoodie talking to people?

you had watched me for so long not talk

and maybe you were jealous that she brought me out of my shell and not you

maybe you were jealous that while you didn't get me to talk, because you didn't listen enough, she did

i don't know

it doesn't matter

do you remember, though?

do you remember sophia hugging you? because she knew?

do you remember asking me if at sometime point, after she came, if we could talk? privately?

do you remember your coat? my hair? my bag? how i didn't have a coat? how i was freezing? the bandaids i bought at the cvs beforehand?

do you remember the walk? how she gave me the charm and the book and the safe sharpener?

do you remember?

do you remember standing in line? getting out of line? going outside?

do you remember what you said to me?

do you remember me just saying “okay” and you feeling the need to explain more and more and more?

do you remember the phone call?

do you remember telling me you didn't want to take the time to fix this?

do you remember telling me you didn't love me, after you had just said it the night before?

do you remember?

do you remember how i was sitting between isles? do you remember her hugging me? her having to hold me? my wrist? the bandaid? the tears? oh, no, cause you were there for that, were you?

but you remember the rest, right?

when you hardly smile anymore? when your grades are dropping? when you're underperforming at rehearsal? when you look miserable during the choir concert? when you look right past me? when you look miserable all the time? how you physically wince when you hear me say her name to someone else?

do you remember it?

do you even fucking remember me?

your best friend.

the person you cried for, for hours on end, until i woke up, because you thought i killed myself?

the person you talked down seven times?

who was always there for you, no matter what happened?

who fought your battles? helped you with homework? got you into half the music you listened to?

or did you forget about them after you introduced them to her?

do you think that might've been your mistake?

because you knew that i would love the one person i never fight with, who has never hurt me, who never blows up on me, who got me to talk more then you?

or did you forget about them in july? when they were going to kill themself and told no one, who texted you “i love you” and didn't text her anything?

did you forget about them, because it wasn't you who saved them?

did you forget?

or do you choose not to remember?

[mkaylater]

Thumbs up emoji with tears in my eyes.

I saw @pillowspace 's Love Bullet AU the other day and thought about this scene. It has been rotating in my brain like a rotisserie chicken.

Refrence bellow

Loop - Koharu

Isabeau - Tamaki

Siffrin - Sakura

[nextik]

what if paul had headphones and everything was fine. crisis averted. dramatic portrayal with pokey. idk how they're interacting but just picture this

[steelbingus]

Uninvited guest 🎭🐦‍⬛

[unshallow-feelings]

Since I've hurt myself with this information I'm going to subject all of you to it as well.

It has come to my realization that after My Clematis we have yet to receive a single Ivan cover song. Quite frankly, I don't think we're ever getting another Ivan cover.

I came to the conclusion after thinking way too hard about how Sua has multiple cover songs after her death while Ivan has none. As much as it pains me as a long time Ivan Kinnie to admit I think this is yet another sign pointing towards his death being permanent.

I think I'm a twisted way this is Vivinos telling us the day Ivan died he was forever silenced not only to those in his world but to us as the viewers as well. His voice died with him that day and the only thing that's left is his ghost haunting the narrative.

This realization was the final thing that squashed my last bit of hope at his revival.

I also believe that the theory that Sua's alive holds more validity than any theory about Ivan's return. There are too many signs that point to Ivan not returning.

(Everybody say thank you @rockwgooglyeyes I couldn't have come up with this without you 🙃)

[chaos-theoryyy]

Hey so I'm late but. Here's a little rushed fanart for @scout-enthusiast 's AU as I promised :) Blu light in the fog!! It's so interesting and I'm obsessed with it and yeah. Go check it out right NOW

I don't do coloring so sorry if I fucked up your design 😭

[angelwishess]

Was looking through old doodles and found this gem again LMAOO

(This was months back, Kyra’s first design😭😭 + an old Jester design)

TRHIS IS SO FUNNY IM REDRAWING THIS (as well as an old Floyra doodle teehee)

[sami-uso]

This whole segment lives rent free in my mind

[techtechonmymind]

xiaojun is one of the most charismatic and talented idols i have ever seen in this essay i will

[celestiaras]

[waiting4thestarstoalign]

and ill wait by the door that you slammed

like im a child, waiting for her mother to finish in the bathroom

and eventually, yes, she'll come to pull me away from the door, like she pulled me away from the cliff and the creek

but im afraid that until she does

i will wait by the door

like a dog

waiting to be let outside, inside?

how could you bring me to the top of the mountain

how could you show me the world

how could you show me another planet

and then on the way back to earth,

do a pit stop at the moon and leave me there?

how could you let me taste love

and then tear it from my mouth

how could you let me taste love

and then say you don't mean it?

how could you say you dont love me

when it used to be you who pulled me away from the cliffs and the creeks?

and the oceans, and the volcanos?

how could you replace yourself with her

and then just leave?

how could you leave me in the middle of the forest

without a map and compass?

how could you leave?

[imallpointyears]

day 2. blanket | flame

[silverselfshippingchaos]

if i had a nickel for every time i liked a young cool y.akuza dude that had dyed hair...

i'd have three nickels.

[gaywario420]

got a cool punch-out headcanon i wanna share actually

right, so i have myoclonic epilepsy, and the seizures that i have cus of it remind me a lot of von kaizer's ticking movements, so perhaps he has myoclonic epilepsy too? just really wanted to project this onto him tbh, i think he's one of my favourites!

[unshallow-feelings]

I think there's an essay to be written about Mizi and Ivan both believing that Till doesn't care about them but both of them want to form some connection with him and vice versa.

[callofduty-shrimpemotions]

Simon "Ghost" Riley doesn't really do physical touch. He can take it from members of the 141 just fine, but it's hard for him to open up enough to really return the affection.

You can't blame him for it, really, after all he's gone through. Regardless of it all, though, he does try.

It's not obvious, at first. He stares just a little too long, makes a point to hand you things when you ask. Where he would turn away or pull his hand back immediately, he starts to linger. A little nod before he stops staring, letting your fingers brush when he hands you a document file or when you hand him a cup of tea. At first, he could feel his heart in his throat whenever you would get too close to him, but it gets a little less overwhelming with every instance of you touching him.

After a while, his fleeting touches turn into something a little more obvious, a little more clear in his intent. A hand to your shoulderblade to guide you somewhere, hands on yours as he teaches you something new. He sits a little closer than before, to where you could probably touch knees if you stretched your leg towards his. Simon would never tell you how his heart hurts whenever you come back to him with some new wound or bruise, but you learn quickly that the way he sticks to your side like a big dog is his way of showing his concern for you. It's kind of cute, really, how much he cares.

If you think he's bad now, just wait until you two become a thing. He beelines for you whenever he enters a room you're in, interlocks pinkies with you instead of holding hands. If you're relaxing in the base, he'll sit so close to you that you can rest your head on his shoulder, but he won't go out of his way to hold you unless you guys are sharing a bed or one of you has had a bad dream. In those cases, he'll hold you so close that you'd think he's trying to meld your bodies together, to keep both of you safe, to make sure neither of you will ever be without the other again. He's lost too many people he cares about, he's not gonna let you join that list. Not when he's finally found someone that lets him see a light in the darkness of a bad night, a bad mission.

Simon's not one to go in for a kiss, but he'll rest his head against yours when you lay your head on his shoulder. He'll let you hold his hand if you want, but he'd rather loop a finger through one of your belt loops to keep you close. It's comforting to him, having you close like that, but sometimes traditional physical contact is too much. It's too overwhelming, how much he cares, he can't handle you getting close. Be patient with him, watch his body language, and you'll see that even if he can't express it the way most people can, he loves you so, so much.