#abigail clementine

[twig-the-edgelord]

HAPPY PRIDE

[drawingsfromthefrogwar]

Weird snake fearing aunt meets weird snake loving aunt

(Also I hope you have a good day :])

waaaaaaa!!! this is adorable!!! the art style is so cute and expressive. Aunt cassie and aunt abby finally meet :0

[bourbonificould]

how do you feel about John marston singing “oh my darling Clementine”

Abigail sings it too, with a nice harmonica duet from Jack. John's is just sloshy asf lmao

[xbrilliantsims]

Clementine and Abigail Lakes

[sacrifesse]

┣▇▇▇═─ LiMiNAL SPACES iD PACK 〰️

🏚️ ︵︵ REQUESTED BY NO ONE ᶻ 𝗓

🏚️ ︵︵ TAGGiNG @id-pack-archive ᶻ 𝗓

✙ ︵︵ SYSTEM NAMES : the liminal council , the surreal system , the eerie system/collective/etc. , the empty system/collective/etc. , the abandoned system/collective/etc. , the uncanny system/collective/etc. , the backrooms (system/collective/etc.) , the nostalgia system/collective/etc. , the dream system/collective/etc.

✙ ︵︵ NAMES : zero , void , noir(e)¹ , noiresse , noirette¹ , alice , adeline , agnes , amelia , beatrice , clara , eleanor , charlotte , margaret , agatha , daphne , lucy , jane , abigail , adelaide , albert , alexander , alfred , annabelle , archie , arthur , atticus , benjamin , benedict , nostalgette , nostalgesse , calvin , catherine , cecilia , clementine , daisy , dorothy , elizabeth , emily , ernest , evelyn , felicity , gideon , graham , harriet , hattie , hazel , henry , hugo , imogen , daze¹ , ivy , juliet , augustus , lulu , mabel , matilda , olive , oliver , olivia , penelope , phoebe , sophie , theodore , victoria , vivian , walter , odditie¹

¹ names that certain alters of the darling stars use

✙ ︵︵ PRONOUNS : liminal liminals , surreal surreals , eerie eeries , empty emptys , abandon abandons , uncanny uncannys , nostalgia nostalgias , dream dreams , zero zeros , void voids , null nulls , daze dazes , yellow yellows , backroom backrooms , dim dims , fog fogs , glitch glitchs , 🏚️ 🏚️s , 🌫️ 🌫️s , 🕳️ 🕳️s , 🗝️ 🗝️s , 🚪 🚪s , ❔ ❔s , ❓ ❓s

✙ ︵︵ USERNAMES : glitchedreality , foggynostalgia , brokendreams , uncannyvoid , forgottenothingness , forgottennothingness

✙ ︵︵ TiTLES : the surreal one , prn who is surreal , the eerie one , prn who is eerie , the uncanny one , prn who is uncanny , prn who hides in (the depths of) the uncanny valley , prn who is lost in a dream , prn whose head is in the clouds , prn who is trapped , the unending terror

✙ ︵︵ LABELS : liminal space system , liminalbased

✙ ︵︵ GENDER SYSTEMS : liminive

✙ ︵︵ GENDERS : liminalgender , liminix , limspacegender , liminalic , liminalspaceic , liminalsnowic , poolroomic , limineontheaterive / limineotheive , unfatholiminal , seiorea , liminalspacestalgic , natatoliraifortic , limingrassybeachroomive / limgrberoive , parkgaraliminix , infiniteakea , liminredglowneighborhoodive / limredgloborive , weirdthing , weirdcoric , dreamcoric , weirdiscomfix , liminalpoolgender , limindoorpondive / limindoponive , liminclosedairyaisleive / limclosedaive , perinul , snowlimcoric , cliproomic , liminalsnowmasc , limneonstairwellive / limnestaweive , liminaquic , weirdcattic , weirdpuppic , weirdbunnic , liminalforestic , abanadductix , liminvoidmasc , crypfrustra , bedroomliminix , hallwayliminix , hotelliminix , houseliminix , malliminix , storeliminix , poolliminix , playgroundliminix , schoolliminix , videogameliminix , liminalpoweric , liminalnucleic , distortic , limisanglitchic , liminalxirasic , horrormossic , liminalnostalgic , backroomsgender , līmenriutal , liminalost , darkliminalspaceic , valicanic , kidliminalic , abandosubwaybodiment , limideathiv , liminalcameraic , liminaldollic

[PT: liminal spaces id pack. requested by no one. tagging id-pack-archive. system names. names. pronouns. usernames. titles. labels. gender systems. genders. /END PT]

[pupsmailbox]

WEIRDCORE ID PACK

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[pyrodolls]

CHARACTERS I WILL WRITE

VIDEO GAMES

MORTAL KOMBAT 1 (ashrah, baraka, havik, johnny cage, kitana, kuai liang, kung lao, liu kang, mileena, raiden, rain, reiko, syzoth, shang tsung, smoke, sub-zero)

UNTIL DAWN (sam, josh, ashley, chris, emily, mike, jessica, matt)

THE QUARRY (laura, max, nick, dylan, ryan, kaitlyn, jacob, emma, abigail)

THE WALKING DEAD (lee, katjaa, kenny, omid, christa, ben, carley, luke, jane, nick, gabe, javier, clementine, louis)

GENSHIN IMPACT (aether, kazuha, kokomi, itto, shenhe, diluc, zhongli, yanfei, raiden shogun/ei, xiangling, navia, ayato, yoimiya, bennett, barbara, ganyu, gorou, yun jin, beidou, kuki shinobu, hu tao, thoma, amber, jean, razor, chongyun, childe, kaeya)

ANIME

ATTACK ON TITAN (eren, armin, mikasa, connie, sasha, marco, jean, levi, ymir)

OCS

YANDERE BOYS X POPSTAR READER (bayani, victor)

please remember to read the rules before requesting!

[lucieebrey]

Hey! So I can't believe I forgot to post this here but I have a book coming out. My first graphic novel, in fact!

And it's out soon! Like, the 5th September soon!

Pre-orders help a whole lot, and especially so if it's via your favourite local bookshop.

And for folks (like me) not in the US, you can still order it no problem.

Here's some previews! (Colours by Boya Sun)

"A Western-inspired graphic novel for young readers who love crime-fighting, gutsy girls, and of course, dinosaurs! For fans of Hilda and the Troll series and Witches of Brooklyn! In the town of Little Spittle, dinosaurs and cowgirls live in harmony. Abigail, who has always dreamed of becoming a detective, lives on the outskirts of town with her pet dinosaur Rootbeer. Meanwhile Clementine, daughter of the sheriff, was born into the life of fighting crime. But when the Bandit Queen gets a hold of some dark magic, the town and the sheriff are nowhere to be found. It's up to Clem, Abigail, and Rootbeer to team up, defeat the Bandit Queen, and save their beloved town from bandits, dinomagik, and undercover attacks. In a hilarious tale of two unlikely friends, Clem and Abigail show us how to be our authentic selves while simultaneously kicking some butt."

[celepom]

FAVOURITE GRAPHIC NOVELS OF 2023

The Infinity Particle - By Wendy Xu

In this gorgeous graphic novel by Wendy Xu, co-creator of the award-winning Mooncakes, a young inventor falls for a lifelike AI and confronts questions of freedom and autonomy. Clementine Chang moves from Earth to Mars for a new start and is lucky enough to land her dream job with Dr. Marcella Lin, an Artificial Intelligence pioneer. On her first day of work, Clem meets Dr. Lin’s assistant, a humanoid AI named Kye. Clem is no stranger to robots—she built herself a cute moth-shaped companion named SENA. Still, there’s something about Kye that feels almost too human. When Clem and Kye begin to collaborate, their chemistry sets off sparks. The only downside? Dr. Lin is enraged by Kye’s growing independence and won’t allow him more freedom. Plus, their relationship throws into question everything Clem thought she knew about AI. After all, if Kye is sentient enough to have feelings, shouldn’t he be able to control his own actions? Where is the line between AI and human? As her past and Kye’s future weigh down on her, Clem becomes determined to help him break free—even if it means risking everything she came to Mars for.

Not Sew-Wicked Stepmom - By i r u, Yir, Mo9Rang

Once upon a time, there was a lovely young princess who suffered under her cruel stepmother…that is, until a children’s clothing designer is reborn as the evil stepmother! All the new Queen Abigail Friedkin wants to do is dote on the adorable Princess Blanche and give her the happy childhood she deserves. The problem is, the previous Abigail has garnered a reputation for being extremely jealous and materialistic—and to top it off, her smile is the stuff of children’s nightmares! Will Abigail be able to convince her stepdaughter that she might not be so wicked after all? 

(TW, childhood SA of the main male lead)

Until I Love Myself: The Journey of a Nonbinary Manga Artist

A bravely blunt autobiography about confronting the tangled traumas of gender dysphoria and workplace sexual harassment. Nonbinary manga artist Poppy Pesuyama is excited when forms offer the option to choose “neither” for gender and thrilled about their new job working as an assistant for mangaka X! But then he sexually harasses them, treating them first like a girl and then like something less than human. It only lasts a few months, but in some ways it never ends. Born into a body they hate and still reeling from the abuse they faced seven years ago, Pesuyama begins to rail at their past, their friends, and even their mother as they try to come to terms with who they are and what happened to them.

Belle of the Ball - By Mari Costa

High-school senior and notorious wallflower Hawkins finally works up the courage to remove her mascot mask and ask out her longtime crush: Regina Moreno, head cheerleader, academic overachiever, and all-around popular girl. There’s only one teensy little problem: Regina is already dating Chloe Kitagawa, athletic all-star…and middling English student. Regina sees a perfectly self-serving opportunity here, and asks the smitten Hawkins to tutor Chloe free of charge, knowing Hawkins will do anything to get closer to her. And while Regina’s plan works at first, she doesn’t realize that Hawkins and Chloe knew each other as kids, when Hawkins went by Belle and wore princess dresses to school every single day. Before long, romance does start to blossom…but not between who you might expect. With Belle of the Ball, cartoonist Mariana Costa has reinvigorated satisfying, reliable tropes into your new favorite teen romantic comedy.

The Princess and the Grilled Cheese Sandwich - By Deya Muniz

Lady Camembert wants to live life on her own terms, without marriage. Well, without marrying a man, that is. But the law of the land is that women cannot inherit. So when her father passes away, she does the only thing she can: She disguises herself as a man and moves to the capital city of the Kingdom of Fromage to start over as Count Camembert.   But it’s hard to keep a low profile when the beautiful Princess Brie, with her fierce activism and great sense of fashion, catches her attention. Camembert can’t resist getting to know the princess, but as the two grow closer, will she able to keep her secret?   A romantic comedy about mistaken identity, true love, and lots of grilled cheese.

[sunflawyer]

MAYO. I was hit by an Idea™. Please, what is Abby's favourite fruit ?

~ Gate

HSJDKFDJ 😭😭😭😭😭 HI GATE!!!

abby's favorite fruit .... is none other than Clementines 😭😭 🍊

It's because her middle name is Clementine! (Abigail Clementine McGill)

she does look a bit like clementine, doesn't she....

[twig-the-edgelord]

Abigail wallpaper

[tashaiswriting]

· Aaron Taylor-Johnson · Abigail Cowen · Adeline Rudolph · Adonis Bosso · Adria Arjona · Aiyesha Hart · Aldis Hodge · Alexander Skarsgard · Amita Suman · Andre Hamann · Anne Hathaway · Anya Chalotra · Anya Taylor Joy · Ashley Holat · Ashley Moore · Awkwafina · Billy Huxley · Briana Shanee · Bryden Jenkins · Charithra Chandran · Charlize Theron · Chris Hemsworth · Chris Pine · Christina Nadin · Cillian Murphy · Cindy Kimberly · Clementine Desseaux · Denise Bidot · Dev Patel · Diane Guerrero · Doja Cat · Don Benjamin · Dove Cameron · Dudley O'Shaughnessy · Elle Fanning · Emilia Clarke · Emily Bador · Emily Blunt · Emma Mackey · Eva Noblezada · Florence Pugh · Gemma Chan · Gideon Adlon · Giza Lagarce · Golshifteh Farahani · Hailee Steinfeld · Haley Lu Richardso · Halsey · Hannah Snowdon · Hari Nef · Henry Cavill · HoYeon Jung · Imaan Hammam · Jake Gyllenhaal · Jamie Clayton · Janelle Monae · Janhvi Kapoor · Jason Momoa · Jenna Ortega · Jennie Kim · Jenny Slate · Jimmy Q · Kat Dennings · Kehlani · Kennedy Dawn Stearns · Kennedy McMann · Kiana Lede Brown · Kiki Layne · Kiko Mizuhara · Kylie Bunbury · Leah Lewis · Lily James · Logan Lerman · Lorde · Luanna Perez Garreaud · Luke Hemmings · Madeleine Petsch · Magdalena Zalejska · Maggie Duran · Maggie Lindemann · Malaika Firth · Marilhea Peillard · Marina Nery · Matreyi Ramakrishnan · Michiel Huisman · Mila Kunis · Mimi Elashiri · Mishti Rahman · Nadia Abhoulhosn · Nadine Shah · Naressa Valdez · Natalia Nootenboom · Natalie Portman · Natasha Lyonne · Nicola Coughlan · Oliver Jackson-Cohen · Philipa Soo · Rahul Kohli · Reece King · Richard Madden · Ricky Hall · Rina Fukushi · Robert Pattinson · Ryan Reynolds · Sadie Sink · Sakura Heffron · Scarlett Simoneit · Simone Ashley · Stephen James · Suki Waterhouse · Tashi Rodriguez · Tatiana Maslany · Taylor Lashae · Tom Hardy · Zazie Beetz · Zion Moreno · Zoe Kravitz

[nhgtu]

Name: Abigail “Abbie” Reyes

Date of Birth: April 11th

Species: Human

Seasons: 1 (Background), 2 (Minor), 5 (Main)

Love Interest: Alicia Boyd

Faceclaim: Sara Waisglass

Name: Angie Evans

Date of Birth: TBD

Species: Human -> Werewolf (Beta, Bitten)

Seasons: All

Love Interest: Hayden Romero

Faceclaim: Sarah Jefferey

Name: Benjiro “Baby” Sasaki

Date of Birth: July 28th

Species: Psychic

Seasons: 2 (Main), 3 (Main), 4 (Minor), 5 (Minor)

Love Interest: Isaac Lahey

Faceclaim: Honda Kyoya

Name: Rebecca “Beck” Rivera

Date of Birth: December 20th

Species: Witch

Seasons: 3 (Main), 5 (Minor)

Love Interest: Cora Hale

Faceclaim: Victoria Justice

Name: Bellamy Banks

Date of Birth: November 27th

Species: Demon

Seasons: 5 (Main), 6 (Main)

Love Interest: Theo Raeken

Faceclaim: Booboo Stewart

Name: Beatrice “Bunny” Holloway

Date of Birth: February 24th

Species: Witch

Seasons: 2 (Minor), 3 (Minor), 4 (Background), 5 (Main), 6 (Minor)

Love Interest: Tracy Stewart

Faceclaim: Stefanie Scott

Name: Chris Argent Jr.

Date of Birth: June 23rd

Species: Human -> Werewolf (Beta, Bitten)

Seasons: 2 (Minor), 3 (Main), 4 (Minor), 5 (Minor), 6 (Minor), Movie (Main)

Love Interest: Scott McCall

Faceclaim: Alex Fitzalan

Name: Clementine Deaton

Date of Birth: January 18th

Species: Druid

Seasons: 1 (Main), 2, (Main), 3 (Minor), 4 (Minor), 5 (Minor), 6 (Minor), Movie (Minor)

Love Interest: Lydia Martin

Faceclaim: Zuri Reed

Name: Cody "Cookie" Cook

Date of Birth: TBD

Species: Human

Seasons: TBD

Love Interest: Vernon Boyd

Name: Elpis Osaki

Date of Birth: February 21st

Species: [Redacted]

Seasons: 4 (Main), 5 (Minor)

Love Interest: Kira Yukimura

Faceclaim: Kaylee Kaneshiro

Name: Francesca "Frankie" Davis

Date of Birth: June 12th

Species: Chimera

Seasons: 4 (Background), 5 (Main), 6 (Minor)

Love Interest: Liam Dunbar

Faceclaim: Chiara Aurelia

Name: Hyunwoo Hale

Date of Birth: April 1st

Species: Werewolf (Beta, Born)

Seasons: 2 (Main), 3 (Minor)

Love Interest: Alan Deaton

Faceclaim: Park Jinyoung

Name: Jacob Limb

Date of Birth: May 27th

Species: Banshee

Seasons: 6 (Main)

Love Interest: Nolan Holloway

Faceclaim: Drew Starkey

Name: Jonah Cruz

Date of Birth: TBD

Species: Werewolf (Beta, Born)

Seasons: TBD

Love Interest: TBD

Name: Leona “Leo” Calavera

Date of Birth: August 1st

Species: Human

Seasons: 4 (Minor), 6 (Main)

Love Interest: Tamora Monroe

Faceclaim: Seychelle Gabriel

Name: Lola Walker

Date of Birth: September 9th

Species: Werewolf (Bitten, Omega)

Seasons: 3 (Minor), 4 (Main), 5 (Minor)

Love Interest: Allison Argent

Faceclaim: Hailee Steinfeld

Name: Natalia Walsh

Date of Birth: TBD

Species: Werewolf (Born, Alpha)

Seasons: Movie (Minor)

Love Interest: Derek Hale

Faceclaim: Jessica De Gouw

Name: Oliver Patterson

Date of Birth: October 31st

Species: Human

Seasons: 5 (Main)

Love Interest: Josh Diaz

Faceclaim: Joshua Bassett

Name: Roxanne “Roxie” Jiminez

Date of Birth: November 15

Species: Werewolf (Bitten, Beta)

Seasons: 2 (Main), 3 (Minor)

Love Interest: Erica Reyes

Faceclaim: Ariela Barer

[dinoswordsb]

wren 6, 28, 33. khio 35, 23. amadeus 1, 12. ben 20, 32, 50

Wren:

6. If they were badly injured, and for whatever reason couldn't go to a hospital, who would they go to for help?

I suppose this depends on the uni they're in but in their canon, without a doubt their roomie and best friend Clementine, who belongs to @snapplewapple. Clem is the only person they really, truly trust because they know each other better than anyone else does, until their eventual romance with Sebastian, but trust is not something that comes easy for them and when they're in any sort of critical state, that is what comes first

28. Are they a #gamer?

They play junimo kart and like thats it...maybe eventually but they were not given the luxury of video games growing up so like on one hand its new and exciting to them but on the other theyre kind of hard to understand its like showing your mom how to play a video game like they kind of get it but they still need practice. Arcade games are what they take to first though and they love them so i guess that counts

33. Do they play ttrpgs? If so what kind of characters do they play? Or are they more likely to GM?

They are way too shy to ever gm or play any ttrpg unless it was with very very close friends. I think for the most part they just like to sit in on Sebastian's sessions with sam and abigail and eventually get pulled into it once they learn the ropes, but i doubt they would play with anyone else. Its like a hobby they engage with bc they know seb likes it and its fun but not their first choice because improv is scary to them

Khio:

35. Do they believe in fate or do they believe they are in charge of their own destiny?

If you ask them they'll say the latter, but deep down they know it isn't true. They know they're put in the world for a reason and it bothers them deeply and is partially why theyre so invested in the lives of the residents of sleepy creek

23. How would they want to die?

Alone.

Amadeus:

Do they have any crafting hobbies?

He likes to make potions I think that counts. He really takes to this when his powers are taken because it's some semblance of magic he can still use; by the end of his arc he is actually very proficient with it.

12. Do they have any sense of style? Regardless of the answer do they believe they have a sense of style?

I don't have a sense of style so i cant answer this but he definitely thinks he does even if its gaudy and tacky he knows it is and he owns it

Ben:

20. Do they have a strong connection to their culture?

Depends on the day. Ben never truly comes to a peaceful resolution over his religion until the day he dies in which he decides that nothing matters because really its out of his hands anyways. So, sometimes.

32. If they could change one thing about themselves what would it be?

Depends when you asked him. Pre silent hill he would want to be a better man, not in the moral sense, but in the way that he could be happy filling his role as a godly man in society. Want to be cis straight and have no confliction about his religion without realizing thats what he was asking for, post he would just want to be happy

50. What is your favorite thing about them?

um i like being able to shove my own experiences and feelings on someone else idk ^_^

[reveriehq-moved]

Most wanted female characters only??

hi, love ! these are some mw suggested by the main ! you can also check out the most wanted tag . rue ( hunger games ), clementine ( the walking dead ), blossom, buttercup, bubbles ( the powerpuff girls ), sasha brauss ( attack on titan ), nina zenik ( six of crows ), cho chang, katie bell, bellatrix lestrange ( harry potter ), victoria chase, max caufield, chloe price, alex chen ( life is strange ), edwina sharma ( bridgerton ), genya & zoya ( shadow and bone ), black widow ( marvel ), leah, maru, abigail ( stardew valley ), ellie ( the last of us ), beth & meg march ( little women ), ty lee, yue, suki ( atla ), katherine pierce ( the vampire diaries ), leia organa ( star wars ) , alice cullen ( twilight ), blue sargent ( the raven cycle ), edith & sybil crawley, rose aldrige ( downton abbey ), donna sheridan ( mamma mia ), bianca ( wednesday )

if members have any mwf characters, feel free to comment <3

[philadelphia-hq]

"I always thought when I got older that God would sort of come into my life in some way. He didn't. I don't blame him. If I was him I'd have the same opinion about me that he does."

CLEMENTINE GREENWOOD

Age: 24 Gender and pronouns: Female, She/Her Occupation: Sales Associate & Flowers & Company, Undergrad Biology Major @ UPenn Neighborhood: University City

BIOGRAPHY

tw: religion, religious trauma, parental trauma, infidelity, abandonment, death, allusion to guns

From day one, Clementine Greenwood was a paradox of conflicting information. During the entirety of her mother Abigail’s (unplanned) pregnancy, she believed she was having a boy, confirmed by the doctors and never second-guessed until Clementine was born. “God heard me and gave me another baby girl,” Abigail told her husband. Abigail had wanted another girl because her first, Gemma, eight years old at that point, had already disappointed her by resisting the Catholic faith she held so close to her heart. Clementine was a do-over. Another chance to create a person in her own image.

But Clementine, even at five years old and starting private Catholic school, was already destined to disappoint her mother eventually. She certainly tried not to — from that age forward, a willful cognitive dissonance began to form like a wall in her mind, making space for two conflicting truths to coexist. In some deep part of herself, she never believed in the god they spoke of in school, or any god at all for that matter. She didn’t believe any of the stories they told, or that miracles were real, and when she watched her teachers and her peers and the priests during mass, transported by their faith, she felt nothing more than a deep and aching loneliness, as if for some reason god or Jesus or some unnameable third thing had forgotten about her. She tried though; as she got older, Clementine forced herself to believe. It didn’t work on a fundamental level, and the guilt would sometimes creep up on her in the middle of night, scaring her nearly into panic attacks, but during the day she shut down her instinct and grasped bravely at straws. Sometimes she even believed she believed.

She was only eight when Gemma moved out. Ten years younger, Clementine’s older sister had babied her as much as their parents did, and when she left she told a very young and very devastated Clementine that she was sorry she had to leave her, but that she simply couldn’t live there anymore without destroying her mental health and sense of self. An eight year old Clementine didn’t understand this, and only began to reflect on it more as she got older.

As a preteen, she began to tell herself that one day god would come to her. This, she found, was easier to believe. That one day, by those same miracles they taught them about in school, the holy spirit would find her and she would stop having to pretend, which became harder and harder as time wore on. The cognitive dissonance grew as she split her time between playing the part and rebelling against it. She would wear her prettiest dress to Sunday services and beg Jesus to come find her, and then at night let a boy from the other school feel her up behind the church.

It was partly her mother’s religious mania that drove Clementine closer to her father, but it wasn’t just that. Her dad was her person. He knew all her favorite things, and he never inadvertently made her feel guilty for her internal struggles the way her mom did. He was a rock in a world that felt horribly unstable. And here was another paradox: Bobby Greenwood was a good father — and he was also a terrible father. What Abigail knew, Gemma suspected, and Clementine had not one single clue about, was the affair Bobby had had before Gemma was born, with a woman in Arizona who got pregnant around the same time as Abigail, and the estranged daughter he’d been sending letters to in secret since then.

In her late teens and early twenties, Clementine began searching for meaning anywhere she could find it. God had still not come to her, and now her comfort thought from her teen years — that he would come eventually — had begun to fade. She looked for it in hobbies that never grew into anything, books of poetry and philosophy that contradicted each other, in relationships that felt shallow and confusing at best, and in sex with strangers that only heightened her sense of existential dread. It was around 20 years old that something occurred to her: perhaps she’d been looking for meaning in all the wrong places. It was not philosophy or literature or religion or even language she needed to look to, but science. If she wanted to understand herself and the people around her, surely understanding humans at a biological level was the true starting point.

And she was good at it, she found. With Gemma’s help, she enrolled herself in community college, received her Associate’s Degree in just under two years, and got accepted into UPenn to finish her degree in biology. There was no career path she had in mind, no ultimate goal beyond understanding how humans and animals and all living things on this planet functioned on an anatomic level. She piled loans on herself with the carelessness of a person who has never shouldered much real responsibility, and whose ability to plan for the future had never been very good.

In early fall of 2022, when Clementine was starting her senior year at UPenn, her father died in a sudden and violent fashion. The police told them he’d been mugged, and that it appeared there had been a struggle over his watch before he was shot. Not even an expensive watch — obviously something with sentimental value. Abigail had long ago surmised that the watch he never took off was something given to him by the Arizona woman, and this not only confirmed it but made her hate him in death. Again, Gemma suspected. And again, Clementine felt only lost and confused. Where in the last few years she’d had some success trying to heal from her religious trauma, this brought it all back again. She found herself on her knees by her bed every night praying for answers, for god to give her a reason for taking her dad, and to forgive her for the intrusive thoughts that kept asking why if one of them had to go, it couldn’t have been her mom.

She’s still reeling from his death, and now, coming to the end of her degree, she doesn’t know anymore if it was worth it, or if she found any of the meaning she was looking for.

CLEMENTINE GREENWOOD has the face claim of GRACE VAN DIEN and is played by NEV.