#abd i genuinely love taking care of it & making it feel good!!!!

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[ivesambrose]

𝑱𝒖𝒑𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝑻𝒂𝒖𝒓𝒖𝒔 𝒎𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒂𝒈𝒆𝒔 💛

(May 1, 2024 - May 13, 2025)

Based on sidereal transits

To book a personal reading with me DM or email me at Ivesambrose@gmail.com

𝒜𝓁𝓁 ℒ𝒾𝓃𝓀𝓈

PICTURE 1

"I know that if 1 believe in it even in the slightest, I can even make dust turn to gold." There's confidence in your words and even in your skills. You're done being a prisoner to your own limitations, it hasn't really been your ally eitherway. There will be considerable focus in starting or expanding a business or doing well academically for your future. Your focus and persistence will not go to waste either this time You might feel rather competitive though. Like you want to prove yourself no matter what. Be mindful of not falling into another cycle of self imposed limitations, this one being 'taking on too much all at once in order to be taken seriously. There's a strong message of not giving up or losing sight of your wants and goals when you're almost there. Perhaps this confidence feels too new to you and you're trying to find the sweet spot between being conceited and genuinely self assure. Additionally, some of you might be getting pregnant or planning on the same. Rest of you will be choosing a specific venture, whatever you choose will be the right option. Go for whatever inspires you the most. Your heart vigoursly feels called towards something. Don't make further excuses for it.

PICTURE 2

Fortune indeed favours the bold, fortune also favours the determined. You've been anticipating the tables to turn for you. The anticipation soon turned to a vision that you haven't wavered from. You may have at least one person who has been cheering you on from the get go, their presence and words have constantly pushed you to believe in what feels like the impossible. If there's something you have really wanted to excel at or get into, expect to see progress in that. Financially things will be gradually be getting better. You'll be focused on researching on making the right investments or where to invest money. You're advised to keep matters regarding property, work, ambitions, inheritance etc a secret. You may also be leaving behind something that's served it's purpose for something else, At some point after your dedicated efforts and hard work you'd want to move towards a softer life. Additionally, you might get into petty arguments with people who have their noses in your business. You might feel the need to stand up for yourself and what you believe in. Know your power but don't waste time in verbally proving your worth to people who don't really care deep down and want to see you fall, they are not worth the stress. I really do feel you might want to invest in magnesium sprays or melatonin gummies or lavender oils too since there might be sleep issues you might be facing or just a restless mind. Go easy on yourself.

PICTURE 3

You found joy in watching your life unfold, somewhere you, realised that regardless of what you see the result will remain what you want. Like knowing the ending of the movie SO the plot is simply there to take you to the journey. You might also be aggresively pursuing something by that mean this is something you're really fixated on and see unfolding. So what others might call 'obsesseive' doesn't really phase you. It is what it is Likely it's after significant trial and error you have decided to be deliberate in regards to what you want and it's a good thing. Likely you have decided to free yourself from the narrative that you have got to do everything alone abd by yourself and found a friend or people who are willing to encourage and collaborate with you. There will also be a focus on your nervous system/regulating your nervous system and health. You may also try holstic medicine or healing your system through food or lifestyle changes. There is new offer in love or for some an offer that emotionally fulfills you but you might have to self reflect a bit on the way you tend to self sabotage given your past experiences. Addressing this will actually help you look past your fears and illusions and see things from a different perspective. A perspective that serves you better and doesn't make you feel like you're losing grip. There is an emphasis on higher education/studies and travel as well that will further strengthen your faith in yourself. Some of you might just find better job opportunities or expansion out of your current city or hometown or in a foreign land.

PICTURE 4

Often what you so deeply want and what is supposed to happen ends up happening and coming through overnight and when they do, you're no longer counting the days or keeping track of them it simply becomes a part of your reality. Things have been gaining momentum behind simply because despite the circumstances you have still persevered and they will start coming through just as quick.

Be prepared, you're going to be travelling long distances and quiet often, you'll have a lot of connections coming through, new friends, new partnerships, existing ones solidifying and choices to make as well. Step into your new found confidence. You might as well find yourself commanding rooms you walk into with your presence alone. You'll also be finding yourself pursuing your joys and passions and romanticising your life more.

What you love to do might just become your daily routine and work. You'll have to learn to balance there too so you don't continue to associate what brings you joy only to 'work', you'll find other things to engage in too. Take extra care of your health given the travel and opportunities presented. You'll find yourself taking risks you have previously felt unprepared for and you'll be glad that you did. There's a a form of karmic justice that will be served too, The biggest thing you'l achieve is overcoming the worst of your hurdles with ease and being unapologetic about getting what you want. Just stay true to yourself above all.

[mazzystar24]

hi its birthmark anon! weird lore from me i guess i dont mean to trauma dump because my dad is fine lmfao but i HATED that scene because of the “your dad is still alive” line. my dad had heart issues when i was a kid to the point he needed open heart surgery and i remember so clearly my aunt saying something similar to my mom in front of us when he was hospitalized. my mom said she couldnt make thanksgiving dinner because my dad was in the hospital and she had to take care of me and my 3 siblings who were all pretty young kids (i was 11 i think and my younger brother was 9. i remember thinking my dad was gonna die) and my aunt was like “at least you have a family”. we didnt see her for like 5 years after that lmfao

also the “you guys need your own hospital wing” line also frustrated me because i had my own health problems as a kid (im alright now) and people ALWAYS made those sorts of comments to me. i didnt even register the daddy shit until later and that only made the scene worse because while it felt like buck was trying to lighten the mood and make it something they have in common but tommy dismissed it AGAIN. like its not even about sexual jokes to me its about him being an asshole in every scene he’s in 😭

anyway thanks for the birthmark clownery i doubt kim will return but we had fun 🫶 this whole discourse is dumb because the scene just sucked. if they wanted me to believe tommy gave a single fuck they shouldve had him come to the hospital abd they should also address the role he played in the gerrard shit for hen and chimney because they HAVENT and it drives me NUTS

anyway love you bye

Hi birthmark anon!!

Dw Im always down for a good trauma dump like one of my friends and I legit never spoke to eachother before despite being in the same class for a year but only became friends because a cancelled class led to us trauma dumping to eachother for our first proper conversation for like 2 hrs

Omg can’t believe your aunt said that that’s actually so iffy, but yess exactly the “your dad is still alive” line was just so so bad and I hated it sm like idk if you saw my replies on my other post or not cos I put it in much more in depth way there but like I too am a traumatised girlie and if someone said that shit about my bio dad I would literally lose it cos it’s one of those things that get said so much to traumatised people and it’s honestly a big no from me

Like sure SOME traumatised people MAY regret not fixing it but also it might not be fixable and you don’t know the situation and also maybe they won’t either way that’s their prerogative

and sometimes what’s right for them at the time isn’t what’s right for them long term and all these things are fine

Like me personally if my dad dropped dead right now I would genuinely celebrate and feel not a single ounce of regret and that’s fine and id deck anyone who said it’s not

Like if Tommy has his own trauma and feelings about his dad and their relationship then that’s fine but this sort of imposed rhetoric on another traumatised person is just a no from me

The hospital wing line is another thing that I didn’t see mentioned but bucks face DID flip but that’s a whole other debate yeah

See that’s the thing like I know I have Tommy loving followers but I personally dislike him cos they haven’t gave him (imo) substance or like enough other than sardonic comments and shit

Rip our fun with the Kim and buck parallels you’ll always be famous🫡

But yeah like even if people liked Tommy and bucktommy I feel like they can blame the writing or execution or context but like overall not liking that scene it’s not just about hating Tommy or bucktommy imo

YES THEY COULDVE PLAYED IT SO DIFFERENTLY IF THEY WANTED TO DEVELOP TOMMY AND BUCKTOMMY AND IT DEEPLY CONFUSES ME WHY THEY HAVENT IF THEYRE CARRYING IT INTO S8

Anyways also love ya byee🫶🫶🫶🫶

[onlyjaeyun]

hi my angel baby!!🎀🫧 i saw u weren’t having the best day today & wanted to pop in to send some sweet words for my sweetest love🧸💞 u deserve the world and i hope the days ahead are better for u!! pls stay kind to urself and continue to take as much time as u need to recharge. am so happy to hear that this break has been so good for u, bc it’s what u deserve baby!! i know how hard u work whether it be for uni, ur job, and ur writing, so i want u to know how proud i am of u for being such a girlboss and handling everything with ur head high! even though some days feel a bit more down than the others, u are still capable of handling anything and everything, i’m always rooting for u my love!!

pls accept all the hugs & kisses i’m sending ur way🥹🥹 i love & appreciate u so much baby, we all do!! 🫶🏻🩷🧸

- 💌

my angel, my love, my sweetest soul 🥺🤍

firstly, i hope life's been treating you well and you're taking care of yourself and that things with your mans are going as good as possible!🥺✨☁️

secondly: thank you SO, so much. i genuinely love and appreciate you with my whole heart abd i hope yoj know you never fail to cheer me up and make me feel supported and appreciated and just loved. knowing how willing you guys are to waig and how supportive you always are definitely eases a lot of my worries and givws me the opportunity to actually take a break like i need to and not give into the constant pressure of writing all the time.

you're so, so dear to me and i'm sending you the biggest kiss, pls accept and take care of yourself my love 🥺💞☁️🪽

[chisatowo]

uhhh rei or hina or lisa or touko or kasumi or tsugumi <- sorry for so many i just love hearing ur bandori thoughts

I shall now do several of them because I love sharing my bandori thoughts :]

Rei:

First impression: woah holy shit there's a whole other band in the japanese servers??? Also hee hee that one looks silly

Impression now: my absolute beloved light of my life I want slink you over my shoulders like a blanket and then throw you (affectionate) and also hee hee you look silly

Favorite moment: that moment in the second film live when she talks abt liking sasanqua. Number one part of that thing that ruined my life how dare they /pos

Idea for a story: I generally just wanna see them interact with more of the cast, but in particular I wanna see them and Touko interact, so I think it'd be funny to force them to colab on a song or smth. Im thinking like a music festival involving multiple schools that's particularly big this year thanks to Touko's school being involved too, but the rest of morfonica couldn't make it so they bullied Rei into helping or smth like that. Idk again I just wanna see them interact

Unpopular opinion: I don't actually ship Rei and Tae, I think they're cute but I like it when Layer has to 3rd wheel everyone too much sorry <3

Favorite relationship: probably her and Chu2? I'm not actually sure tbh I also like her and Lisa's friendship

Favorite headcanon: crinkly bones

Hina:

First impression: hm ur a little rude but I think ur just blunt we'll see how things go

Impression now: the character of all time. Honestly one of the best written bandori characters in my opinion she is so so dear to me

Favorite moment: like all of them but if I had to chose one then probably her realising she's loved during the wonderful sweet event? Shout out to every time she's talked abt Aya tho, ur so pathetic Hina <3333

Idea for a story: either something from her rock bottom period of her life or smth from current times abt her thinking a bit on how complicated of a history she has with her school, it having been the setting of both the worst period of her life and her recovery from it. Idk just with her graduating soon I think it'd be nice to write abt how she feels abt her school as she's almost ready to leave it

Unpopular opinion: I don't think she abd Sayo should or will live together in the future, I think it's rly important that despite still being very important to eachother and their relationship improving that they're still building towards having a sense of self and life outside of eachother, and that's ultimately so much healthier for them and allows them to have a healthier relationship as siblings too.

Favorite relationship: Hina and Chisato make me lose my mind but that's probably partially the Chisato bias djfnzjdg those characters sure can parallel.

Favorite headcanon: Hina is the only one of the 3rd years that's a good driver. Like scarily so. She just drives so normally it's freaky. There has to be a catch but there isn't she's just the only one who drives like a normal person

Touko:

First impression: oh we blond person

Impression now: *ponts* adhd haver. I care you so so much.

Favorite moment: again it's hard to pick one but uhhhh that one story where they take notes by just writing down words to describe the energy of Nanami's playing in their mind? Idk why that scene in particular always stood out so much to me but it does

Idea for a story: Touko and Tsukushi have deep talks™ abt romance and sexuality before they decide to stack on top pf each other to reach a book and Tsukushi has to go home from school early 😔 I actually do wanna write this one that's why I'm being super vague fmfbdj

Unpopular opinion: I genuinely don't get any Touko ships I've seen. Maybe it's just my aro bias but I don't get it I just don't </3

Favorite relationship: Touko Tsukushi bestie moments means the world to me y'all don't even know. Every now and then I remember them and just need to lie down for a bit I love them so so much

Favorite headcanon: nonbinary aro lesbian Touko <33333 it's genuinely such an important hc to me, one of my biggest comfort hcs tbh

Tsugumi:

First impression: wow that sure is some girl

Impression now: he's just some guy except he's also a freak at the same time. He's also a lesbian. I also love him.

Favorite moment: just the entirety of the comic panic story, I love that story sm

Idea for a story: gender

Unpopular opinion: idk how much this counts but I love transmasc Tsugumi who very much gets to look like a grill dad eventually very much. Also I think ppl should think abt them more outside of sayotsugu love and light

Favorite relationship: despite what I just said I am indeed a sucker for sayotsugu. But also shout out to Ran and Himari <3

Favorite headcanon: not counting gender uhhhh she's eaten a bathbomb before along with a shit ton of other very non editable things you could hand her anything and their first instinct would probably be to eat it

[prince-of-scenarios]

Hcs on the brotherly dynamic that Shiraishi abd Kirihara have? it’s something i never expected to happen but now i love it soo haha 🥰

(oh my god yes same (even tho i haven’t read the manga til that point but shhh it’s fine))

Older brother / younger brother dynamic that is so weird but also oddly fitting? Sometimes Shiraishi acts more like a mom than a teacher or a brother but either way it’s so obvious that they both respect each other

Shiraishi is probably the one to coax Kirihara to eat the foods that he doesn’t like and Kirihara is so pissed because it works every time—

I also think that Kirihara is the one that lets Shiraishi go feral sometimes, he’s got the “aren’t you just tired of being good? don’t you just want to go feral sometimes?” and Shiraishi is like “hell yeah I do—”

They balance each other out really well, and they take turns reminding each other to take care of themselves (though it’s mostly Shiraishi doing this because he worries and Kirihara is that bratty kid that’s like “yeah whatever I hear you”

They definitely work out together, and Kirihara always challenges Shiraishi really recklessly and Shiraishi is like “okay but you need to meditate after this because goddamn—” 

Kirihara has 100% gone to Shiraishi after having a nightmare and is super pleased to find that Shiraishi doesn’t think less of him, and he doesn’t mind the light-hearted teasing and Shiraishi shows genuine concern which makes him feel better

[feifood]

im honestly not doing the best lol. but its okay, usually i dont tall about my feelings openly with a bunch of people, yk. but i can communicate, and its a big part of my life lol. but yea, im lesbian 🤪. and honestly, since i figured it out, i feel a lot more comfortable with myself. but idk. and yea, he was a little much, in many ways, BUT, i am drinking water abd sleeping enough. are you ? i hope youre doing okay, i hope youre taking care of yourself, and i hope the meeting with your gf was okay, if it happened 😫😫. but, pls remember to eat something, drink water, maybe grab a snack or something. and youre doing great, and everyone is very proud of you, and if it doesnt feel like it in your personal life, everyone on your page is proud of you, ans we all appreciate you because writing is hard, especially with a busy schedule. i love you, angel. remember to get some rest, too <33

awe max :(( yesyes I understand, its a completely different experience sharing your feelings with just one person vs an entire group also im very glad to hear that you’re comfortable w your label !!!!! self acceptance really do be the first step to happiness 😌😌 yeah look at me using big words heuheuheu

just block the dude and move on with ur life love we dont need ppl like him wasting ur time >:( AND YAY FOR SELF CARE my gf is always very big on the whole drinking water + getting enough sleep thing and its starting to rub off on me (dont get me wrong im grateful for it!)

yes i did see her a couple of days ago :)) we went to the park and watched people flying their kites in the field and then we went over to my place to rest a little — before she left we exchanged sweaters so BIG W for me I got her sweater 😎😎

thank you max !! I am remembering to drink water + eat healthy,, I really appreciate you looking out for me ❤️ also you’re literally being so sweet stop it auejdkfk but its great to hear those words of reassurance — im genuinely so happy to hear that you all like my blog and how its become such a safe space for you guys

OKAY ENOUGH OF ME AIWJEIF max if u ever wanna vent about anything u can tell me in the dms if that makes you more comfortable !! But I hope you’re doing good, you’ll be able to get through whatever is happening rn even if idk what it is exactly because I just know u can do it love :)) please take care and take it easy ❤️❤️❤️

[fishisahappydog]

I don't tend to rant so openly but...I need to vent.

The season (and potentially series) finale of Harley Quinn was very disappointing.

Don't get me wrong, I loved the angst and I love Harley's development throughout the season but that finale man.

I am frustrated because it could've easily been better. All you had to do was have Ivy stumble during her vows, look at the guests and see Harley leaving the church and probably her life forever. Herr she makes the realization that the previous scene was pointing at: that Ivy has to put her own happiness first and so she decides that the life Kiteman has planed would only make her miserable (and by extension him as well) so she tells him she can't go on with the wedding. As she's about to walk away from him Gordon notices the Drama and how it could ruin his plan so he shouts for his team to use the gas. Chaos ensues, Ivy barely manages to remain awake and gets outside just in time to see Harley being arrested (Harley is too sad to figgt back). She helps her and Harley is shocked "Ives what about the wedding?" "I realized that is not worth it if I have to sacrifice my happiness:you". They smile at each other and go back inside to kick some ass and break the ceiling much like it happened originally. The villains take care of the cops and Ivy gets a small conversation with Kiteman. He tells her how it became more obvious by the day that Ivy's heart wasn't really into it and that he is hurt. He needs some time andd hopes that one day he'll find someone eho loves him like Harley loves Ivy and leaves with whatever's left of his dignity (given past grievances).

Ivy looks sad for a moment, regreting the hurt she caused to Kiteman, Harley and herself but Harley asures her she wasn't doing it out of malice. They look lovingly at each other when Gordon comes back. They run away abd we get the kiss in the iconic car.

Instead what we got was a load of bullshit. Ivy never chose Harley, she was forced to not chose Kiteman because he dumped her (good for him). Ivy was ready to have Harley, her best friend whom she knows has genuine feelings for her and jist a few minutes ago had asked to leave the wedding, marry her to Kiteman. Why? Just so she can finally notice how commited Harley is to help her be happy? Because it doesn't rrally help.

It makes the next scene in the car like Ivy is settling for Harley, not chosing her. And that happens because they left this very important choice for the very last minute. It doesn't feel like a victory for Harley but rather like she is a consolation price and thst just sucks.

If a third season is greenlit (I hope it is) they better explore this since it doesn't seem like Ivy has truly resolved her trust issues in regards to her own happiness in a romantic life.

[taejeonie]

taehyuck moments that make me feel lonely

every time hyuck would call taehee and how she would respond

“noOOoOoNAaAaAA~”

“hAeChaAnIE~”

taehee had a like,,love-hate relationship with hyuck back then

“noona, i don’t like your hair”

“i don’t like your face, donghyuck”

lol but that was before

present time!!!!

everytime hyuck would look at taehee he looks so

smitten

it’s cute

during yaja time,,,hyuck would always make sure that taehee calls him ‘oppa’ just to tease her

when they both won in rpd in their weekly idol guesting,,,hyuck gave his point to 127 while taehee gave hers to dream

mark mentioning taehee and hyuck used to fight a lot predebut but now they’re super close!!!

taehee being tsundere with hyuck

“noona, i love youuuu |( ^ 3 ^)|”

*shoves hyuck away aggressively*

but then later on she’s like

“haechanie, do you want to play games?”

“i knew you loved me (＾＿＾)”

being good at games

they gave tips to dream on that one weekly idol episode

speaking of weekly idol episode

taehyuck stans got so much content when they guested there during superhuman era

taehee had to ‘appeal’ to them before picking a partner

“should i dance?”

“AEGYO”

“haechan-ssi said aegyo!!! wahh,,it looks like taehee-ssi is a bit reluctant”

taehee: jdkskdkfksk

“i....i’m not acting pretty-“

“AHH CUTEEE”

“i was born pretty”

“PASS!,” hyuck shouted

so the hosts continued to interview her while hyuck and doyoung were waiting behind her

“taehee-ssi, who do you want in mind?”

“haechanie?”

doyoung: <//3

“why haechan?”

“bc he’s good at playing games”

“ahh!! so you’re only using him?”

“yes hehe”

so when taehee turns around she’s like \(//∇//)\ bc hyuck’s there

but then she sees doyoung and she goes ( O . O)

“HER REACTION- HAHAHAHAH”

“okay. appeal to me”

hyuck stands up and proceeds to wink at her and bite his lip

hyuckie sweetie don’t be so provocative or else sunflowers will d word

“ah you’re a bit bold, aren’t you?,” taehee taunts him

“even if you’re just planning to use me, you’ll fall in love with me in the end and i will cherish you forever”

taehee.exe has stopped working part 3948289492

“OH HE OFFERED HIS LOVE”

“i have money-“

lol taehyuck wins in the end

taehee felt hyuck’s lips when they were guessing a ball of yarn was in between them so she got so scared

“WHAT WAS THAT”

they’re so cute during fansigns also

the cutest was one they were sending each other hearts while they were on both ends of the table

taehee can’t resist running her hands through hyuck’s hair

even if the managers tell her not to

like you’d see her stare at hyuck for a moment before patting his head and keeping her hand there

or pushing it back from the front

cheek kisses.

“noona, what are you planning to do after practice?”

“i’m planning to sleep-“

“MWAH”

“LEE HAECHAN!”

“and that was haechan’s kiss cam- OW”

host: “haechan, your birthday is coming up. what do you wish for?”

*glances at taehee sneakily*

“i want a kiss from noona”

then you can hear jisung, chenle, and renjun gag

while mark laughs nervously leader tingz

lowkey the host pestered her to do it so taehee kissed hyuck on the cheek anyways

being each other’s seratonin boosts during performances

like they would pass by each other and next thing you know,,they won’t stop smiling

in america hyuck kept clinging onto taehee

they also kept going on about taeil’s butterfly

when taehee mc’d for isac she was cheering for hyuck

“AH!! THAT’S OUR ACE!!”

and vice versa

when they were planning the 24-hour relay, taehee said she wanted to do frisbee and walk her dog but she wants a member to go with her

“i’ll go with you,” hyuck told her

“really?”

and you can see taehee’s eyes light up bc awowowow she’s so cute

so when they were doing the relay live already

the both of them went out to a park

“you’re in a lot of videos today”

“yes, but i enjoyed this the most since i get to spend it with youuuuu”

“you’re following in my footsteps, aren’t you”

hihi

so taehee taught him like the different throws of frisbee

hyuck threw the disc really hard and it landed far away so taehee had to get it

hyuck went near the camera and pointed it at her

“look at my noonaaaa”

“she’s so cute, isn’t she”

and then later on they walked taehee’s dog named ‘통이’

he’s a brown shitzu puppy that hyuck gave her for her bday

most of taehee’s relay vid was just her and hyuck playing with 통이

“so how’s our child doing in school?”

“OUR CHILD???”

“통이!! 통이’s our child!!”

“since when???”

“i gave him to you!! he’s our child now”

“you’re weird”

then later in hyuck’s relay,,he was about to play games

but he called taehee first

“baby? what are you doing?”

damn hyuck you call jaehyun baby,,,now taehee?? donghyuck bad boy.

“why the sudden english?”

(in korean) “just answer!!”

“umm i’m about to sleep. why?”

“okay..let’s just play games when you wake up!”

“you’re still playing games when i wake up? HAHA”

hyuck laughs with her, “yeaaaa”

“okay, goodnight baby!”

“goodnight, baby!”

c o n t e n t

them dancing all the parts in kick it during their weekly idol guesting

we stan

hyuck couldn’t look away from taehee when she was doing her facial window

“CUTE!!”

“AHH NOONA I WANT TO HUG YOU”

but the he suddenly goes silent when she does the cold ver.

flustered tm

but then goes back to finding her cute when she whined to jungwoo right after

in the latest nct life, they would sit beside each other all the time

vvvv competitive when they were doing the luge race

when they would sleep during car rides their heads are on top of each other <3

everytime taehee would laugh, the fans would notice how hyuck looked at her

like there’s literally heart eyes for her

and they were roommates

like her, hyuck, and yuta

since there were only two beds, yuta offered to sleep on the floor

“i’ll just sleep beside hyuck. you can take the bed”

later on...

“what are you doing?”

“i can’t help it...i like you too much”

“i can’t move”

“if we stay like this, we won’t need blankets anymore, noonaaa”

“turn the other way”

hyuck complied but made taehee wrap her arms around him

hyuck small spoon uwuuwuwuwu

both of them being good at the shooting game haha

#gamertingz

instead of worrying over hyuck when he almost fell off the 9m thingy

she laughed at him and called him slow

“HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA”

“HEY HAECHAN YOU’RE TOO SLOW WE’RE LOSING”

but then they gang up on the opposing team bc they’re salty they lost

stealing clothes is taehee’s thing

well,,just hyuck’s clothes

like you’d see her wear hyuck’s ‘sinners’ hoodie from time to time

and his green one during the 00’ line vlive

i think she’s worn it a lot more than hyuck does

“you’re wearing my clothes again, why won’t you just buy your own?”

“save money!!!”

the way they hold hands is cute too

like during award shows, their pinkies are linked together akmakskakdl

and they’re always together in the airport

they were doing a punishment bc they lost in a game

and it was a peppero game

*cue mark sweating nervously bc the dreamies are scary and taehee is a rebellious so he doesn’t know what would happen*

anyw they got the peppero stick to go like really really short

like a little bit more and they would get in trouble

and then BOOM

renjun pushes taehee’s head forward, making her and hyuck almost kiss

but they pulled away so quickly

“you dangerous thing :000 we almost kissed”

and when mark thought it couldn’t get any worse

“it wouldn’t be the first time” - jeon taehee, 20

“oKAY CUT”

their iconic vlive moments

aka where hyuck professes his love to taehee it sounds so sincere that it makes her genuinely flustered

“one day, i’m gonna marry taehee noona-“

taehee hits him lightly in surprise before saying, “don’t stay stuff like that hahaha”

“it’s true!! i have my future planned out already”

“you’re so weird”

“it’s okay. as long as you love me”

hyuck moves his face closer to taehee, causing her to look away and gag

“DOYOUNG OPPA HE’S BEING WEIRD AGAIN!!!”

the other one was when taehee was reading comments

“lee donghyuck, do you love me?”

“jeon taehee, i really,,really,,really love you”

“.....i was reading a comment”

dw hyuck gave the fan a heart in slight embarrassment

and then the next one was during taehee’s birthday

she held a solo live yAYYYY

but then the comments were asking about hyuck so she let them know that he’s recovering well and he’ll be back soon before you know it!!

“haechanie? haechanie’s doing fine everyone!! he’s recovering at home and he’ll be back before you know it ∩^ω^∩”

“i think he’s watching this live- hey, haechan! you take care of yourself, okay? and don’t be too stubborn next time....”

“i got a little worried,” she mumbled softly

“just get better quickly, okay? i’ll treat you to beef and we can go watch movies as soon as your better”

she gives a smile before going back to reading the comments

her phones suddenly rings, “oh? it’s haechanie”

she puts it on speaker and says hello cutely

and the first thing hyuck says is

“i love you”

ABD THEN TAEHEE SMILES JUST REALLY WIDE AND HER DIMPLES ARE SHOWING AND HER EYE SMILE

DEFINITELY ARE SOULMATES

“i miss youu”

“i miss you tooo. what are you doing?”

“watching your live of course!! happy birthday”

“hihi thank you”

and then when hyuck got better they had another vlive again with 127 and dream

like the new year one

anyways

it got quiet for a bit after haechan said his like ‘i’m better now’ speech

and then when he finishes taehee calls his attention

and she’s like serious BC SHE WAS WORRIED OKAY

HYUCK’S LIKE HER BABY STFU

“be careful next time. don’t get sick again”

it sounded so sincere hyuck felt his heart melt.

cute

DREAM GRADUATION

ugh such an emotional day

hyuck was tearing up when watching their vcr

then he couldn’t hold back his tears anymore when they were doing their ending ment :(((

i mean he’s still with them in 127 but it feels different :((

when they were about to do a group hug, taehee pulled away from mark and ran into hyuck when he opened his arms out for her

it was a short hug but still

:(((

bUT!!!

they continue to support each other even if they’re in different sub-units at times

taehee kept saying hyuck looked more handsome ever since boom cb

then even MORE handsome in reload

“i know (⌒-⌒; )”

fans noticed how taehee turned more affectionate with hyuck during this era

OGNDNKDKDKS

“most importantly, i miss mark hyung and taehee noona today”

(´༎ຶོρ༎ຶོ`)

OKAY BACK TO LESS ANGSTY MOMENTS

now taehee is more clingy with hyuck these days

it’s either they’re beside each other and one of them is leaning on the other

or they sit on each other’s laps

they also go out and eat often yieeee

“is it good?”

“mhmm!!”

that’s all thank u for tuning in !!!

although, she doesn’t show it that much at first, taehee loves hyuck very much !!!

so does hyuck

i feel like they’re really gonna have a very strong relationship til the end of time

yes they’ll grow old together <33

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Brainstorming about my yokai watch ocs: Dimmy and Gorgeous Ambassador, the most cutest family

* My Dimmy's name is Blythe and they are nonbinary. Gorgeous Ambassador is male and i dont have a name for him yet. I was thinking maybe try and make up a dub name for kageusuo (anime exclusive pre evolution) that sounds like it could have been his nickname as a human? Cos his story is that he used to be a wandering mercenary in ye olde ninja times, i feel like itd be fitting.

* Blythe is the main partner of my protagonist in my yokai watch lp, basically the jibanyan of the anime of my heart. Their personality is mostly similar to the Dimmy in the anime, but i feel like theyre maybe older and more powerful than the average Dimmy? Like a weak low evolution yokai thats stayed unevolved for centuries and is actually more skilled and world weary than you'd assume. Protag just got lucky that she bumped into this one super magikarp, lol! Also i like to draw them looking more teenage age by just taking the regular Dimmy design and making the tail extra super long. They stand roughly twice as tall as the protagonist and can wrap around her shoulders like a scarf :3 Blythe is however totally unaware of their super powerful mega skill and is very self depreciating and low confidence. But Mallory totally sees them as a cool older sibling mentor figure and is always trying to figure out ways to make their tol squiggle friend feel included and valued :3

* the way Gorgeous Ambassador comes into the picture is that he was actually the same sort of figure to Blythe! Back in the ninja era Blythe was partners with another human, but he passed away in tragic circumstances and it led to their current depressed self. However he actually reincarnated as a yokai and has been trying to find his lil sibling ever since! I feel like he was a failure samurai who tried to protect people but was so weak he never could. And he was always broke and starving and begging to do any sort of miscellaneous jobs for anyone or even let them punch him in the stomach for a few coins. And he had just as much self confidence issues as Blythe but he coped with it by becoming a compulsive liar instead, always boasting and trying to sell himself as some legendary hero to keep from facing the truth. Since Blythe was a cute lil babby yokai at the time, they always believed their human master's tall tales and looked up to him, which made him feel really guilty and try harder to work on becoming someone this kid could be genuinely proud of.

* Blythe was first born as a household spirit. Cos i was thinking about what Dimmy would be before it became a ninja, since the medallium description says it 'got a job as a ninja to put its powers to use', so like it isnt really a ninja yokai but just a yokai thats a ninja? I guess?? I figured that the idea of being an invisible shadow supporter fit with household spirits/domovoi/zakishi warishi (probably mispelled that) and the various other similar creatures in mythologies all over the world. Just the idea that theres some sort of being that protects your house and if you give it offerings and take good care of the place it will protect you and your family. So yeah its my headcanon that thats how Dimmys are born, and that theres probably many variants wearing different outfits inspired by whatever type of humans they guarded. Tho yeh ninja is a job that works really well with their abilities so it makes sense itd be the primary representative of the species in the games.

* Human-dude-who-would-become-gorgeous-ambassador first met Blythe when one of his various failed attempts to get a job happened to cross paths with the family Blythe was guarding. This family didnt believe in such old suspicions and never gave offerings to their household spirit, so it stayed small and weak and was almost fading away. Baby blythe didnt know why their humans didnt love them, even though they tried so hard to bring good luck and clean the fireplace and stuff. So they felt a sense of kinship with this poor failure samurai who was begging for food on their doorstep. The humans of the household spat in his face and turned him away empty handed, but the tiny yokai snuck some rice from the pantry and gave it to him. They were surprised that he was able to see them, and he gave them the first thank you they'd ever had!

* Addendum note: i feel like gorgeous samurai was cursed with being able to see yokai from a young age and its part of whay made him so determined to become strong enough to protect people. Perhaps his biological family was killed by an evil yokai and nobody ever believed what he saw? And he wandered japan trying to save other people and always failing and being blamed for what happened, since nobody could see the real culprit. This reputation of being a liar when he wasnt = he ended up actually lying about how he was totally fine and not sad and also great and not hating himself. Its not really something he can control anymore, its like a stress response and it keeps getting him in trouble but he cant stop. "Yes sure i can save the day, i'm awesome!" only makes things worse when he inevitably loses again, whic only makes his self confidence worse and traps him further in the lies...

* so anyway, he became friends with this lil babby yokai and kept coming back to visit them and tell more tall tales of his grand adventures. And eventually he managed to help Blythe come out of their shell a little and agree to leave this house where they were only fading away. Haunting him instead, the lil shadow soon flourished back to full health from being loved for the first time. And their new big bro would always give them the biggest share of all the food even when he was starving, and always wasted his money buying things for them, and knitted them lil scarfs and just HE WAS A GOODEST BIG BRO! They also made a great team, and he was finally able to fight evil yokai with a yokai of his own helping him out. Things were good for a few years!

* Eventually though, they faced a foe too strong for them to defeat. (Not sure yet who it is, cos it could be cool if they faced it again in the present day for a rematch?) Blythe's human friend ran into a burning building to save the people being attacked by this yokai, but because he was already gravely injured he didnt manage to make it out in time. And blythe was just a tiny bab who wasnt strong enough to carry his unconcious body to safety. So their last memories of him are of crying and begging him to wake up as the house fell apart all around them, and eventually the flames swallowed him up. the tiny yokai just ran and ran away from their shame, and never saw an ashy figure rising from the ruins and calling their name...

* eventually after years of struggling alone and lacking meaning in life, Blythe had a chance meeting with our protagonist and thus begins my yokai watch 1 lets play! At the same time their yokaified big bro is still out there searching for them, and maybe one day theyll meet again...

* also i wanna go with the pre-evo the anime added of Gorgeous Ambassador evolving from a sad depressed vampire lookin dude. Even if the whole circumstances here are vastly different! But we dont really have any info on what kageusuo's powers or stats would be, so i guess i'm free to mess around with that? I like the idea of it being vampiric just cos i feel it looks like that. But instead of drinking blood maybe its a hunger for shadows? Which is actually beneficial to humans and makes them less overshadowed aka the opposite of Dimmy's power. So if you ever feel that you're radiating charisma with perhaps a slightly lighter shadow, maybe youve been inspirited by this guy! And then the evolution into Gorgeous Ambassador doesnt actually change anything at all, except just looking more fashionable and confident (which is absolutely a lie). His power already made people more fabulous while being unable to affect himself, he just worked a bit harder on himself to try and catch up with everyone else. Self care vampire!

* oh and in this interpretation the way that kageusuo would be integrated into the gameplay is that Gorgeous Ambassador would get a new ability that lets him switch forms in battle, rather than it being a separate yokai. (Tho would still have a separate entry in the medallium just for conveinience of being able to view both character models whenever you want) Stuff that causes low confidence would make him poof between forms, and itd just be something like more attack based vs defense based, or maybe having two separate personality stats so its like his AI is slightly more versatile than the usual frustratingness of most yokai? Srsly im still so annoyed at so many yokai that have two mutually exclusive moves and the ai is stupid about using them at the wrong time to cancel each other out. Like how Dimmy can be given the AI personality to focus on attacking and thus take advantage of its auto-skill to be good at dodging aka a glass cannon. BUT also one of its skills gives that same status to an ally instead, which by definition takes it away from itself cos 'dont target this other guy' means there arent many other options. So you cpuld alternatively play dimmy as a supporter who exclusively protects others with that ability BUT the annoying part is that even when you set an AI profile to one particular move it still only makes it LIKELY to do that and not guaranteed. So every now and again your attacking dimmy will cancel its own buff to protect an enemy, or your supporting dimmy will forget to support abd instead buff itself despite not having the attack stat build to take advantage of it. Plus you cant have both and switch between modes mid battle, so thatd be REALLY useful if one yokai actually could do that, and also could change stats to fit! Im not sure how to give it a trigger condition thatd let you sorta change at will but also not be 100% easy and overpowered. I was thinking tying it to his confidence could mean missed attacks turn him into kageusuo and critical hits turn into gorgeous? But thatd be TOO uncontrollable...

* oh actually i think maybe i'll nickname him Amber! Just cos my brain just mispronounced gorgeous ambassador and It Kinda Works??? Also its a kind of name that sounds very pretty but also has connotations of gentle shyness, i think. Matches the duality of his fake boastfulness vs his true self doubt.

* Oh and i also thought of maybe having Blythe evolve into Casanono, even though you cant do that in canon. I feel like turning into a pretty humanoid would be a good way to symbolize their growing confidence ans casanono/casanuva has a big nonbinary aesthetic in my opinion. Plus of course the fact casanono is a variabt of a confident yokai thats actyally shy. Originally older brother dude was gonna be a casanuva to match, until i heard about Gorgerous Ambassador and decided it fits him better (especially with that new anime form!) So now im thinking maybe have Blythe be both casanono and casanuva at once, similar to their bro's form switching? But itd be more like casanuva is a rare super saiyan esque powerup when they experience rare moments of confidence. Im pretty much just doing this because SADLY casanono is a joke character who is literally mechanically forced to be useless in battle. Its ability makes it harder to catch yokai which ia already goddamn difficult, and it wastes a skill slot too. As opposed to Dimmy who has a similar personality of always being ignored and depressed but its abilities are actually beneficial. Itd suck to go from Blythe being my mvp to being unable to use them at all, so this would be a way to still always draw them as casanono in comics to match their actual personality, but using casanuva in battle cos.. Well.. Yeah its the functional one of the two. Level-5 if youre listening please make casanono useable in future games!! Casanuva is absolutely the worst one personality wise so it sucks that the game agrees with his ego that he's great and also punches his depressed counterpart into the bin of ignoreness DESPITE BEING SUPER SYMPATHETIC AND RELATEABLE AND ALSO CUTER COLOURSCHEME

Anyway thats all the thoughts i have so far. Except oh also itd be funny if throughout the whole story blythe keeps talking about their dead brother as if he was the super best most serious hero and then when the protagobists actually meet him he's this gaudy dork XD

[jrbalufbfnzl]

Today was very lonely boring and empty i kinda reaxh a new level of emptiness each day lol i dont feel suicidal or anything just completely passive and my dogs are kindz keeping me alive honnesly but i feel like all this shit will just bever end. I cannot fathom feeling genuinely happy and motivated anymore. I feel like even wheb ill reach my goal weight and glow my bf wont lift me up. Maybe he doesbt have the strenght to care that mych but having someone actually carrying me checking on me abd getting involved to the slightest bit like saying good night everynight and checking up on me like how i did w my day n stuff would help . But i can understand that its time and energy consuming and kind of teiggerubg but idk i wiuld fight the shit out of a loved ones depression even tho ik i wasnt always good to my best friend i always tried to be herr duribg hard times listening to her and giving her advices and alternatives ? Idk i know how hard it is to jave someone lay in bed in the dark all day and not helping themselves bc they dont eat abd stuff but idk i wiuld try and make the riutine happend but maybe hes too depressed himself to do that. Idk

Maybe its unrealistic to have soleone passionate enough about me to kind of make me shine a lil more im not asking him to hokd ly hand 24/7 but maybe idk spending time by my side staying in bed w me from tim to time znd just do zt lezst the morning routine w me to get me stzrted ? I feel like eaxh time i vent i take toi luch spa e bc i was abusive in the past w my complaints and how i acted from time to time idk. Maybe we should give eaxh other real forgiveness ? 1nd give each other the benefit of the doubt agin ? And even if i go back to bed after meditzting exercusing and walking the digs out ill jus kind of feel better about myself and itll mzke me actually wznt to keep going on w my day ? I think im kind of afrzid to get better and to be bringed down again. Or maybe like im afraid to win and having someone by my side not being a part of it not believing in it not valuing it and not ubderstznding it supporting it and boosting it. I dont want to be taken care of but idk whats the right balance. I might be afraid to get back to a better me and being knocked out agzin bc im not enough or for whztever reasons

[beautifulrzilience]

Officially Back in School: Week 1 Reflections

Good morning world. It’s 7:41 am out here in the east coast and I’m already sweating up a storm! Although I must admit, it is starting to get a bit cooler. 

Today marks my first week that I  have completed for my PhD program in Criminal Justice at the John Jay College of Criminal Justice. And damn! I am pretty worn out. I have managed to go to sleep at 10 p.m and wake up at 6:30 a.m most of this week now. I think the commute to school is what wears me out the most. 30 minutes to get there, 40 minutes to get back. And trust me, being packed like a sardine in a train with 50 sweaty people who are usually taller than you--is not--the business.

I wanted to reflect a bit on this week and some of my take aways. This semester I have 4 classes: Research & Methods, Public Policy (focused on Criminal Justice of course), Theory, and STATISTICS (not my favorite!). And I must say that I really like the set up. Unlike my former program, the professors we have this semester, are the same professors we have next semester. And the next semester we basically have “part 2″ of the classes we take this semester, so there is clear continuity and consistency in the material we learn. What I really like about this is that because we have the same professors for an entire year, when we have our “Comps” (Comprehensive Exams in order to move towards ABD status), the same professors who have taught us for the past year, write our exams, knowing what we’ve talked about and what we should’ve learned as a base for creating the exams. Complete opposite in Ethnic Studies at Cal. So some advice for folks considering grad school: when you research programs that you are interested in, I would highly recommend you to consider looking into the structure of the program. You want to know how they run their ship, and if you believe it is run with intention. You don’t want to be in a situation where you find yourself taking a loss because the screw ups of your program and the professors. I feel really confident that I will be successful in passing my exams in order to finally be where I want to be: writing my damn dissertation!

Some thoughts on the classes themselves. Well, my professors this semester are quirky, but that’s expected.I like them though. They are all really energetic and seem to have genuine love for the field of criminal justice and teaching. More importantly for me, I feel really comfortable in my classes and already I am absorbing new material that’s making me thing about what kind of career I want to pave for myself, and where I can take my research as a scholar. Although, I already get the sense that folks in CJ may not be too critical in terms of race, class, gender, colonialism, resistance etc. it gives me an opportunity to shine in the classroom with the knowledge I bring as an Ethnic Studies scholar. I caught myself at times in class, where I felt the need to speak up because out of 12 students, I am the only Chicana in my classrooms. So even though I haven’t been formerly incarcerated, a lot of the people (friends and family) I love and study are. And I feel the urgency and need to speak up for them since they can’t physically be there. I feel like not only my background but also my racial identification inevitably puts me in these at times, weird positions. I have also already experienced moments where I have stated certain ideas, only to have a male professor restate what I say, while simultaneously having blown off my original comment. Not sure if that was intentional or not, but an observation I have made nonetheless. 

Now as far as STATS.  I feel like because I’ve been meditating on a daily, my day to day outlook on things are changing. I am taking Stats this semester and for some odd reason I don’t feel anxious or stressed about it. And for those of you who know me, KNOW that I don’t do math. I mean the last time I took Stats was when I was 19 as part of my requirements for Sociology. And let me tell you- I FAILED 3/4 of the exams. But it seems that most of my peers failed that summer too because when I received my final grade for the course, I received a B! Just goes to show that even with a college degree, doesn’t mean you are intellectually well rounded. Higher education is a business not a place that people are 100% invested in the education of people.

Alas, I digress. I still have a little voice in my head that doubts myself as far as making it through Stats. As a woman and young girl, math and the “hard” sciences were never pushed on me, and I never did well in them. So my confidence there is pretty weak. But I need to-- ABSOLUTELY must pass Stats because if not, I could be looking at another program that I don’t finish. That’s something that I hate, that sometimes programs have certain classes that end up weeding people out. People like me. And as the professor stated, “For those of you who find this difficult, you’re going to have to work extra hard, because I’m going to move fast.” --Not the most encouraging for someone like me. But I’m going to have a positive outlook and just give it my all, I don’t have any other choice.

I quit Staples today. YUP. I know. After 4 long years in Cali, I thought I could handle working at the Staples here in NY, but with the commute to school, classes (which are pretty intense), reading, studying for Stats, working for The Safe Return Project, working for a professor as part of my Graduate Student Research Assistantship to pay for school, and making sure I am engaging in activities for self care and self love, I just don’t have the time or energy to put for Staples anymore. So while I am going to miss out on building community with regular folks, I did what was best for me and my education. 

My partner and I planted sage on the lunar eclipse about a week and a half ago. The instructions said that it would take 3-4 weeks for the seeds to sprout, but low and behold within a week and a half my baby girl has blossomed. We named her Mochi, and I am super excited to see her grow. She symbolizes so many things for me, but especially in the moment I’m in right now, all I can think about is new beginnings. I’m feelin myself.

#BeKind #BeStrong #BeBrave #BeLove #BeFree

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Zayn

*smiles as you kiss me my eyes widening a bit as you hand me your keys this meaning so much as it showed you trusted me smiling a bit to myself and nodding* ok love see you soon *kisses your cheek and smiles as I watch you go before heading to your place smiling as Zeus greets me at the door taking him for a walk before I get back to the apartment getting an idea as I grab one of Zeus’ bone and attaching a piece of paper that says “will you officially be mine?” Knowing you werent the girly romantic type so not wanting to do anything too big but thinking if Zeus was involved you wouldn’t be able to say no. Making sure he has the bone in his mouth abd to be ready before you get back*- Zayn *turns to you and smiles* today went great thank you fro bringing me and supporting me jo matter what *grins your support meaning so much to me* also Zayn really really cares about you I am really glad you found him, I now approve *chuckles a bit knowing I wad hard on him but for good reason* that doesn’t mean I am still not ready to break his face if he hurts you *chuckles*- Elliot

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*looks over at Elliot with a bright grin, being in such a good mood and I couldn’t hide it, feeling like everything was perfect right now* You know Ive always got your back El, I’m so proud of you and you’re so talented. You deserve it. *pokes his cheek affectionately as I drive to the home before blushing a little at his words, eyes lighting up at the approval and stomach fluttering with butterflies* Yeah? You do? God this day keeps getting better and better. *giggles a little before rolling my eyes playfully* He’s such a genuine guy, and he’s trying you know? *chuckles a little as I pull up to the home, parking and reaching across to give him a big hug* Love you loads Eli. *thats being the affectionate name I gave him when we were kids, him and the other kids always calling me ‘Banana’* Go tell them the good news.