#a thing of beauty i know 🎶 will never fade away

[silverselfshippingchaos]

I DID IT CHOOMS!

[cranetreegang]

In the Light of Death - Part 5 - Final

Sebastian x FemReader with former Ominis x FemReader

Summary: She has to make a decision - but will she make it in time.

Music to Listen to

🎶 Never Goodbye 🎶 (whole train scene like my god does this slap and make me teary eye listening to) 🎶 Earth 🎶 (at the very end - this one slaps hard too)

Word Count: ~2,800 words

Warnings... can't think of any besides mentions of death

Read Part 4 Here - Find Whole Light of Death Series Here

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Sebastian caresses her cheek with a gentle hand, admiring the beauty laying next to him. He traces under her closed eyes, noting how the dark circles have faded and her skin has returned some of its vibrancy. As he tucks her tangled hair behind her ear, a smile splays across her face. He wonders - who is she smiling for? 

He’s no fool. He knows the love she has for Ominis will never fade - never diminish. He only wishes to help that love, which had given her such joy, not be her ruin. Yet, despite knowing that she loves Ominis so fiercely still, he can’t get rid of the look in her eyes she had for him last night. It warms him - makes his chest tight and his heart flutter. He never imagined receiving such a thing from her, having accepted his place as her friend long ago. It’s something he never minded, for as long as he was able to be by her side - he would be happy.

Yet now…,

A smile comes over him as he strokes her hair - enjoying how it wraps around his fingers as he does. It’s foolish, selfish even, of him to hope that a new love would blossom within her - just for him. But, he hopes all the same. His eyes drift over her tranquil features and he lets out a soft sigh. Her spark had been reignited - that he won’t deny. The kindling of her spirit is nearly back to its full inferno. She just needs to take flight once again. And the time to spread her wings is rapidly approaching. 

She shifts, her eyes slowly opening. His breath catches in his throat at watching her smile diminish. Disappointment… no, melancholy weighs her eyes for a moment. He’s not the face she longs to see, but her smile slowly forms again. The brief sorrow blossoms to fondness. His breath catches in his throat for a different reason now. She’s always held a certain affection - warmth - for him, but now it’s deeper. It’s something more. 

“Morning, sunshine,” he whispers with a grin. 

She lets out a soft laugh then whispers, “Morning, handsome.” 

“Sleep well?” He manages to ask with nary a hitch in his voice even though his heart is all but frantic in his chest at her simple greeting.

She closes her eyes and hums in thought. 

“Yes… I had the best, yet strangest dream.”

“About?” he wonders.

“You’ll think it’s silly,” she murmurs with a sad smile. “But, since Ominis… I dream of him every night. He’s always facing away from me, and he’s never in my reach. And last night… Ominis was there. Facing me. Waiting for me by the tree line.” 

She meets Sebastian’s gaze with a bittersweet expression, “He smiled at me. It was… nice. Perfect.” 

Sebastian wipes away a stray tear rolling down her cheek and she lets out a slight laugh.

“I’m sorry,” she whispers, “I know it’s silly to think of it as anything more than just a dream. But… something about it…,” 

“I don’t think it’s silly at all,” he replies. 

Appreciation and warmth floods her teary eyes, and he can’t resist placing a tender kiss on her forehead. 

Her features contort into a grimace as she says, “I wish I could talk to him. One last time.” 

“What would you want to say to him?” 

She smiles, “That I love him. And how much I appreciate all the things he’s done. How much he means to me,” a sigh escapes her and she shuts her eyes to keep more tears from forming. “I thought we had more time. I miss him so much. I miss his voice. I worry I won’t be able to remember what he sounded like. What he felt like. He’ll be nothing more than a memory.” 

Sebastian kisses her cheek, “He lives on in you, sweetheart. He’ll always be with you.”

She lets out a shuddering breath as she nuzzles into his warm embrace. His lips press softly along her hairline and the gentle gesture eases the sorrow into something manageable. It’s strange how their relationship has evolved into something more intimate. More precious. Familiar yet wholly new. 

“I was thinking,” Sebastian says after some time.

She giggles, “That’s never good.”

He squeezes her with a scoff, “I have good ideas on occasion,” he releases her from his tight hold so he can look at her. “Would you say that you enjoyed yesterday? Roaming about in an old castle.” 

“I would,” she grins.

“Well,” he begins with a growing mischievous smirk, “what would you say to more jaunts like that? You and I - explorers of the forgotten and unknown!” 

His enthusiasm is contagious - filling her with a similar sort of excitement. The more she thinks about exploring the Highlands, finding more buildings or artifacts just like that castle, the more excited she gets. They could leave every morning and go exploring then return in the evenings to document their findings. 

She nods, “I would like that. I would like it very much.”

His lips crash onto hers, pressing several smothering kisses onto her as he smiles.

“That’s my girl! I knew you couldn’t resist forever,” he trails his lips down to her neck, holding her tightly. “I can see us now. We’ll be infamous.” 

She giggles as he nips and teases her neck. 

“This is cause for a hearty breakfast,” he’s suddenly out of bed, throwing on a pair of pants, then practically skipping out of the room.

She lays in bed, a warm smile unable to leave her lips. She looks out the window - towards the towering tree line by the lake - and she whispers in a teasing tone,

“What have I gotten myself into now, Ominis?” 

They share a late breakfast together, enjoying the quiet comfort of one another. Although, Sebastian does a poor job of keeping his jittering giddiness at bay. A smile hasn’t left his freckled face for a moment, and she chuckles at how overjoyed he is. 

She’s cleaning the dishes when his strong arms wrap around her. He places several kisses on her neck, making her giggle, before he holds out a piece of paper in front of her. 

“What’s this?” She wonders, staring at the ticket. 

“It’s what I wanted to tell you the other night,” he whispers into her ear. “My research is taking me halfway across the country.”

“Oh,” she says, her brows furrowing the longer she stares at the ticket. “Does that mean you’re leaving?” The disappointment is hard to miss in her voice, earning herself a reassuring squeeze around her waist from him.

“It does,” he shifts the ticket to reveal a second one, “And I want you to come with me.”

Her eyes widen as she takes the second ticket from him, noticing that the departure is for this afternoon. She turns to him and his face is bright with a beaming grin.

“We’ll go on an adventure - just like we talked about. We can discover ruins like yesterday. Find lost artifacts - cause a bit of mischief as we go.  Come on, what’d’ya say?”

No… this isn’t how she imagined this going. They were supposed to stay here… discover new things here. Not leave… not now.

She frowns, “Sebastian… you’re asking me to just… leave?”

He firmly takes both of her hands with a sure nod, “I am. The train leaves today. We can be packed and on our way within the hour.”

Her mouth parts in shock and she looks around her house, her home, with pinched brows. 

“I-I can’t leave.”

“You can,” he insists, releasing her hands to hold either side of her face. “You can’t stay locked away here forever, sweetheart. You must start living again. It’s what he would’ve wanted. Not for you to waste away here.”

His dark brown eyes plead with her. The sight makes her head whirl and her heart rip in two. She shuts her eyes and grips his wrists, slowly removing his hands from her face. 

“I’m sorry… but I can’t go with you,” she says in a near whisper.

Sebastian’s eyes widen and he shakes his head.

“It’s not like you’ll be gone forever. We can come back,” Sebastian implores. “It’ll only be for a month. Perhaps two at the most. Think of it as a holiday - if that helps.”

It’s like a vice has been placed around her chest with how shallow her breathing has become. Placing the ticket back into his hand, she whispers, 

“I can’t leave. This is all I have left of him. I-I can’t leave him.”

Sebastian wants to argue, but she hurries out of the kitchen before he can stop her. She locks herself in her room, sliding down against the door until she sinks on the floor. Drawing her knees to her chest, she digs her fingers into her scalp with a whimper. She shuts her eyes, hiding behind her legs while she listens to him packing his things. Then his footsteps make their way up the stairs to just outside her door. 

“Please, come with me,” he begs. “I don’t want to leave you… but we can’t stay here. I can’t stay here any longer. I can’t watch you waste away,” his voice cracks and he lets out a heavy breath.

She opens her mouth to reply, but nothing comes out. 

“Sweetheart,” his head is pressed right against the door and it’s almost like he’s whispering in her ear, “I know it’s scary. I know you’re feeling like it’s impossible. But, take this chance with me. Take a leap - and I think you’ll find that you’re more than ready for this. Staying here will only keep you trapped, and you don’t belong in a cage. You need to free yourself. Be free again.”

Her heart feels like it’s about to pound out of her chest. She can’t breathe - her eyes swimming with black dots. 

“Please,” he whispers. 

There’s a long silence before the ticket slides under the door. She hugs her knees closer to her chest as his footsteps descend down the stairs. When the front door shuts, she rushes to the window. 

He’s walking along the path and towards the village, pausing once he reaches the top of the hill. He turns back towards her with a pleading expression written upon his face. But she remains where she is, and he eventually walks away - leaving her. 

She clings to the windowsill, pressing her hand over her mouth to stifle a sob. Turning back towards her room, she expects to be met with the destruction of the other night. Instead, it’s as if it never happened. Another sharp pang rips through her. He… must have fixed it all at some point. Shuddering breaths leave her as she shuffles towards the picture frame on her bedside table. As she stares at their smiling faces, it feels like she’s looking at two strangers - a totally different life.

She runs her finger along Ominis’ smiling face before bringing it to her chest with a sigh. She returns to the window with the frame in hand. Staring at the photo under the sunlight, she notices something. It’s faint, but it looks like something is written on the back. She quickly flips the picture over and takes it out of the frame. There, written in Ominis’ elegant handwriting, is a note.

My love, 

Despite never seeing your face, I know your smile. I hope to always make you happy.

I love you. Now and forever.

Always yours,

Ominis

She stares at the message then she looks back out at where Sebastian was standing mere moments ago. 

Isn’t that what Sebastian told her? 

That Ominis asked Sebastian to come here, to her, to make her happy. Even in death, he still wanted her to be happy. And right now, that’s with Sebastian. Her mind whirls then settles just as quickly. Sebastian. She has to get to him. Before it’s too late. Before he’s gone too.

She tucks the picture into her pocket, snatches the ticket from the ground, and rushes out the door. Sprinting through the town, and shoving through the crowded streets, she arrives at the station with patrons already boarding the train. She scans the sea of people until her eyes land on Sebastian. She runs to him as he heads towards the train.

“Sebastian!” 

There’s so many people talking, and the train’s steam exhausts over her cries. He’s in line to board, and the crowd seems to conspire against her as she struggles to get to him.

“Sebastian!”

He boards the train while she desperately wrestles through the droves of people. The train’s signaling horn rattles her chest and makes her ears ring. 

“Sebastian!” She cries, but not even herself can hear over the train roaring to life. 

By the time she frees herself, the train is already pulling out of the station. She stares at the departing train with a gut wrenching feeling, and the pain of grief clawing at her heart anew. She missed him. And now he’s gone too. Her hand clutches over her aching heart - like someone had pierced a knife right through her. It takes everything in her to not collapse to the ground. 

“You came,” his voice calls.

She whips around to find him standing at the end of the platform, his face adorned with a wide smile. Her lip trembles, her feet moving her towards him on their own accord. They slowly approach each other, as if in a trance, until she stops just in front of him.

“I won’t stop loving him,” she states in a wavering voice. “I will always love him.”

“And I’m not asking you to stop,” he reaches out and grabs her hand with a soft smile. “I’m only asking you to live with me.”

Tears well in her eyes, a shuddering breath leaving her, as she wraps her arms around his neck in a suffocating embrace. He holds her close, sighing in relief while he strokes her tangled hair. 

“I thought I lost you, too,” she whispers.

He squeezes her against him as he whispers, “Never.”

They hold each other until she’s calm once more. She looks into his earthy brown eyes - finding them filled with warmth.

“I… you’re right,” she states. “I can’t stay here forever. And I am scared. I’m terrified that if I go with you - then I’ll be abandoning him.”

Sebastian shakes his head, “You won’t be abandoning him. He would want you to go wherever your heart decided.”

She lets out a pained gasp then lowers her head. Closing her eyes, she slowly nods then looks back up to Sebastian with newfound resolve. 

“There’s something I would like to do first. Before we leave,” she says. 

He nods, “Anything.”

They head down to the lake - towards the tree line - and to where his headstone stands between the towering trees. Ominis, wanting something simple, has only his name engraved on the polished white marble followed by: Beloved Husband to a Beloved Wife

She kneels before Ominis, while Sebastian stands at a distance, giving her this moment alone. Placing her hand on the stone warmed by the sun, she smiles softly.

“I know I haven’t been down to talk to you, and I deeply apologize,” she frowns. “It made it too real… even though it’s just your name on a slab of stone.” A bitter laugh escapes her for a moment.

She shuts her eyes with a sigh, “I see now. You always knew, didn’t you? You knew the only way I could survive without you, was if he and I were together. You were always so clever, my love,” she whispers, her tears starting to well in her eyes. “And now, I’m living once again. I’m… happy. It’s not the same. I don’t think anything will ever be the same. But, that’s okay. Because this is something new, and I’ll make the most of it.” 

She runs her fingers over his engraved name with a smile, “I’m not leaving you. You’re with me everywhere I go. You’ve made a home within me. And I can’t wait to tell you all about it when I see you again. Even though I’m sure you’ll be giving me quite the lecture about how dangerous this all is, and how reckless we’re about to be. But I look forward to it.”

She places a kiss onto the headstone and takes a deep breath, “I love you. My sweet Ominis. Now, and forever.”

Rising to her feet, she looks towards Sebastian, who smiles back at her. Casting one last glance at Ominis, she strides forward - taking Sebastian’s outstretched hand.

“Ready for this?” He asks with a grin.

She looks at the serene lake, the breeze ruffling her hair, then back to Sebastian’s bright face. Squeezing his hand, she returns his warm smile.

“What’re we waiting for?”

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AN: annnnnndddd that's a wrap folks!

Hopefully you enjoyed. I had the idea a while back and decided to go ahead with posting it in celebration for reaching 400 followers.

I go hard for Ominis - and the only way I could envision MC and Sebastian getting together was in the aftermath of Ominis' death, and Sebastian being a bit older/more mature.

I probs could have done a better job in building up MC and Seb's romance -> but who has time for that am i right?

Thanks for reading and feedback is always welcomed <3

[naradivision]

Hello! uhhh 🏠 for Fusau

🏠  for a moodboard about my muse’s home aesthetics

I rechecked with @hypster-weebster and verified that this ask is for my moody ex-tycoon, Saigo-san. Well, I’d like to say you totally hit the jackpot there! His house is so far the most interesting one and can be called the Miraitabi meeting place.

So...

❖ Welcome to 『Ajisai Residence』 ❖

Mun’s note: I listen to this song for aesthetic and inspiration in regard to his house's idea 🎶

Warning: somewhat long tidbits below

His place is very well-known among the neighborhood as the “Ajisai Resident” because this area is seemingly surrounded by the lavish number of hydrangea (紫陽花). No one knows why there’s so many of them —Maybe someone intentionally planted them there?

This place isn’t originally his estate. He inherited it from his late mother and she had bought this place a few years before her death.

His uncle, Shūkaidō Minazuki, is the one who brought up this place to him, but the main reason why he decides to move in is because he wants to know more about his mother

This mansion was built in the taisho-roman style which is a mix of beautiful western and eastern retro fashions, so in order to save its grace; he had to go through several contacts with talented remodelers, architects (hopefully, involving WHITE CO.), and traditional craftsmen to revive this place against the tide of time

Yes, like any ancient residence with obscure history; this mansion was rumored at one point to be the ‘haunted’ place. Some passersby indicate their sight of the mysterious lady with long hair and white kimono by the mansion’s window from time to time

However, this rumor soon fades away after he has moved in with his attendant (Bodyguard in disguise), and Saigo himself swears to never encounter any superstitious phenomenon during his stay there. Also, he strongly doesn’t believe in ghosts to begin with

Ergo, this causes some of his clients beg him to accept their believe-to-be stigmatized properties into his care —And that’s maybe why he called his MC name “Tsukumogami” out of annoyance ...By the way, no one knows whether the ghost they saw is the real thing or not

Not only its mysterious atmosphere, this mansion also has so many secret passages built in almost every nook of it. But so far the only one who seems to remember all details of this mansion beside the rightful owner like him is his attendant, Chishio —He is the one who takes care of the security system there

Chishio’s personal room is also hidden in the basement and he seems to enjoy using those secret bypasses to jumpscare other people on a regular basis, both visitors ...and thiefs. Honestly, knowing this man... He is way scarier than ghosts. R.I.P. those burglars in advance

All three of Miratabi crews establish an agreement that they’re going to have dinner together at Saigo’s place for the sake of team bonding (Of course, this was Asahi’s idea)

P.S. More delicious bonus: The “Hydrengea” is also the symbolic crest of his uncle’s household, which I plan to reveal A LOTTT later... I’ve already mentioned few of them somewhere and the members of this weird family are all named in the theme of ‘flowers’.

Thanks for the ask :)

[fleeting-sanity]

OC Talk #10

🎵✨My OC Ships as 90s songs!✨🎶

(Quick portrait of Saxan as 90′s rockstar, he’s kinda not thrilled to be there or maybe he’s just being a typical sleepyhead?)

[Spotify Playlist]

As usual the list will be long with some lyrics pasted on like the previous 2020 songs list. Up to the year 2000! P.S: I’ve actually had this for months but RL went awry and it resulted in this collecting dust in drafts...

( Arcann x Aryuni )

Westlife - Miss You (1999)

I can't sleep, I just can't breathe When your shadow is all over me baby Don't wanna be, a fool in your eyes 'Cause what we had was built on lies And when our love seems to fade away Listen to me hear what I say

I don't wanna feel The way that I do I just wanna be Right here with you I don't wanna see See us apart I just wanna say it straight from my heart I miss you

Björk - Hyperballad (1995) (To Arcann)

We live on a mountain Right at the top This beautiful view From the top of the mountain Every morning I walk towards the edge And throw little things off Like car parts, bottles and cutlery Or whatever I find lying around It's become a habit, a way to start the day

I go through all this Before you wake up So I can feel happier To be safe up here with you

Take That - Back For Good (1994) (To Aryuni)

Unaware but underlined I figured out this story, it wasn't good But in the corner of my mind I celebrated glory But that was not to be

In the twist of separation You excelled at being free Can't you find a little room inside for me

Aerosmith - Crazy (1993) (To Aryuni)

You know you drive me up the wall The way you make good on all the nasty tricks you pull Seems like we're making up more than we're making love And it always seems you got something on your mind other than me Girl, you got to change your crazy ways You hear me?

That kinda loving turns a man to a slave That kinda loving sends a man right to his grave

I go crazy, crazy baby, I go crazy You turn it on Then you're gone Yeah, you drive me crazy Crazy, crazy for you baby

Extreme - More Than Words (1990) (To Arcann)

Saying "I love you" Is not the words I want to hear from you It's not that I want you Not to say, but if you only knew

How easy It would be to show me how you feel

More than words Is all you have to do to make it real Then you wouldn't have to say That you love me 'Cause I'd already know

( Duriello x Enzaran )

Shania Twain - You’re Still The One (1997)

Looks like we made it Look how far we’ve come, my baby I’m glad we took the long road We knew we’d get there someday They say, “I bet they’ll never make it” But just look at us going on We’re still together, still going strong

Björk - Venus As A Boy (1993) (To Enzaran)

His wicked sense of humor Suggests exciting sex His fingers they focus on him and touches He's Venus as a boy

He's exploring the taste of him Arousal So accurate He sets off the beauty in him He's Venus, Venus as a boy

Backstreet Boys - I Want It That Way (1999)

You are my fire The one desire Believe when I say I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart Can't reach to your heart When you say That I want it that way

Bryan Adams - (Everything I Do) I Do It For You (1991) (To Duriello)

Look into my eyes You will see What you mean to me Search your heart Search your soul And when you find me there You'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for You know it's true Everything I do I do it for you

( Eniriva x Torian )

Aerosmith - I Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing (1998)

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender I could stay lost in this moment forever Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating And I wonder what you’re dreaming Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing

Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we’re together I just wanna stay with you In this moment forever and ever

Jennifer Lopez - If You Had My Love (1999)

If you had my love and I gave you all my trust Would you comfort me? And if somehow you knew that your love would be untrue Would you lie to me? And call me baby

Now if I give you me, this is how it's got to be First of all I won't take your cheating on me Tell me who can I trust if I can't trust in you And I refuse to let you play me for a fool

Tina Arena ft. Marc Anthony - I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You (1994)

Moon so bright, night so fine Keep your heart here with mine Life's a dream we are dreaming Race the moon, catch the wind Ride the night to the end Seize the day, stand up for the light I want to spend my lifetime loving you

Heroes rise, heroes fall Rise again, win it all In your heart, can't you feel the glory? Through our joy, through our pain We can move worlds again Take my hand, dance with me, dance with me

*NSYNC - Tearin’ Up My Heart (1997)

It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you But when we are apart, I feel it too And no matter what I do, I feel the pain With or without you

Baby don't misunderstand, What I'm trying to tell ya In the corner of my mind, corner of my mind Baby it feels like we're running out of time

Let it go If you want me, girl, let me know I am down on my knees I can't take it anymore

( Ezekiel x Avelyn )

Faye Wong - Eyes On Me (1999) (To Ezekiel)

I kind of liked your way How you shyly placed your eyes on me Did you ever know that I had mine on you?

Darling so there you are With that look on your face As if you’ve never hurt As if you’re never down

Shall I be the one for you? Who pinches you softly, but sure If frown is shown then I will know that you are not dreaming

Seal - Kiss From A Rose (1995) (To Avelyn)

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea You became the light on the dark side of me Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill But did you know that when it snows My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen?

Baby, I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray Ooh, the more I get of you, the stranger it feels, yeah And now that your rose is in bloom A light hits the gloom on the gray

Britney Spears - Sometimes (1999)

You tell me, you're in love with me That you can't take your pretty eyes away from me It's not that I don't want to stay But every time you come too close, I move away I wanna believe in everything that you say 'Cause it sounds so good But if you really want me, move slow There's things about me, you just have to know

Sometimes I run Sometimes I hide Sometimes I'm scared of you But all I really want is to hold you tight Treat you right, be with you day and night Baby, all I need is time

Janet Jackson - Every Time (1997)

I'm scared to fall in love Afraid to love so fast Cuz everytime I fall in love It seems to never last

Everytime your love is near And every time I'm filled with fear Cuz every time I see your face Could it be that this will be the one that lasts? The fear does start to erase every time Oh could it be that this will be the one that lasts For all my times

( Jaesa x Rionnic )

Mr. Big - Just Take My Heart (1996)

It's late at night and neither one of us is sleeping I can't imagine living my life after you're gone Wondering why so many questions have no answers I keep on searching for the reason why we went wrong

Where is our yesterday You and I could use it right now But if this is goodbye

Just take my heart when you go I don't have the need for it anymore I'll always love you, but you're too hard to hold Just take my heart when you go

Bon Jovi - Bed Of Roses (1992) (To Jaesa)

With an ironclad fist I wake up and french kiss the morning While some marching band keeps its own beat in my head While we're talking

About all of the things that I long to believe About love, the truth, what you mean to me And the truth is Baby you're all that I need

I want to lay you down in a bed of roses For tonight I'll sleep on a bed of nails Oh I want to be just as close as the Holy Ghost is And lay you down on a bed of roses

Toni Braxton - Un-Break My Heart (1996)

Don't leave me in all this pain Don't leave me out in the rain Come back and bring back my smile Come and take these tears away I need your arms to hold me now The nights are so unkind Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart Say you'll love me again Undo this hurt you caused When you walked out the door And walked out of my life Un-cry these tears I cried so many nights Un-break my heart

Mariah Carey - My All (1997) (To Rionnic)

Baby can you feel me Imagining I'm looking in your eyes I can see you clearly Vividly emblazoned in my mind And yet you're so far Like a distant star I'm wishing on tonight

I'd give my all to have Just one more night with you I'd risk my life to feel Your body next to mine 'Cause I can't go on Living in the memory of our song I'd give my all for your love tonight

( Jurbiend x Vianiel )

Madonna - Frozen (1997) (To Jurbiend)

You only see what your eyes want to see How can life be what you want it to be? You’re frozen When your heart’s not open

If I could melt your heart We’d never be apart Give yourself to me You hold the key

Backstreet Boys - Shape of My Heart (2000) (To Vianiel)

Baby, please try to forgive me Stay here don't put out the glow Hold me now don't bother If every minute it makes me weaker You can save me from the man that I've become

Looking back on the things I've done I was trying to be someone I played my part, kept you in the dark Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Björk - 5 Years (1997) (To Jurbiend)

You think you're denying me of something  Well I've got plenty You're the one who's missing out But you won't notice 'Til after five years If you'll live that long You'll wake up All loveless

I dare you To take me on I dare you To show me your palms

What's so scary? Not a threat in sight You just can't handle You can't handle love

Cèline Dion - My Heart Will Go On (1997)

Love was when I loved you One true time I'd hold to In my life, we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are I believe that the heart does go on Once more, you open the door And you're here in my heart And my heart will go on and on

( Keoven x Avery )

Dido - Thank You (1999) (To Keoven)

I drank too much last night Got bills to pay My head just feels in pain I missed the bus and there’ll be hell today I’m late for work again And even if I’m there they’ll all imply That I might not last the day And then you called me And it’s not so bad 

Westlife - Swear It Again (1999) (To Avery)

I wanna know Whoever told you I was letting go Of the only joy that I have ever known Girl, they were lying

Just look around And all of the people that we used to know Have just given up, they wanna let it go But we're still trying

So you should know this love we share Was never made to die I'm glad we're on this one-way street Just you and I

Whitney Houston - I Have Nothing (1991) (To Keoven)

I don't really need to look Very much further I don't want to have to go Where you don't follow I will hold it back again This passion inside Can't run from myself There's nowhere to hide

Don't make me close one more door I don't want to hurt anymore Stay in my arms if you dare Or must I imagine you there Don't walk away from me I have nothing, nothing, nothing If I don't have you

(Spoiler: LOL The Bodyguard anyone? XD)

Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You (2000)

So I'll hold you tonight like I would if you were mine To hold forevermore And I'll savor each touch that I've wanted so much To feel before, to feel before How beautiful it is Just to be like this

Oh, baby I can't fight this feeling anymore Drives me crazy when I try to So call my name and take my hand Can you make my wish, baby, your command?

( Nadia x Vyria )

Marc Anthony - I Need To Know (1999) (To Nadia)

They say around the way you've asked for me There's even talk about you wanting me I must admit that's what I want to hear But that's just talk until you take me there

'Cause I need to know I need to know Tell me baby girl 'cause I need to know

Westlife - Nothing Is Impossible (2000)

Isn't life strange A total mystery As we passed each day Did you notice me?

And I know girl You've been looking at me And I know now That you and me were meant to be What would it take to realize That in my heart No matter what they say

No matter what they say When it comes to love Two hearts are inseparable No matter what they say When it comes to love Nothing is impossible

Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me (1997)

Kiss me, out of the bearded barley Nightly, beside the green, green grass Swing, swing, swing the spinning step You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh, kiss me, beneath the milky twilight Lead me out on the moonlit floor Lift your open hand Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance Silver moon's sparkling So kiss me

Savage Garden - I Knew I Loved You (1999)

Maybe it's intuition But some things you just don't question Like in your eyes, I see my future in an instant And there it goes I think I found my best friend I know that it might sound More than a little crazy but I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you I think I dreamed you into life I knew I loved you before I met you I have been waiting all my life

( Saxan x Linnea )

Jennifer Paige - Crush (1998) (To Linnea)

It's raising my adrenaline You're banging on a heart of tin Please don't make too much of it baby You say the word forevermore That's not what I'm looking for All I can commit to is maybe

So let it be what it'll be Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me Here's what I'll do I'll play loose Not like we have a date with destiny

Vanilla skies White picket fences in your eyes A vision of you and me

STEELHEART - She’s Gone (1992) (To Linnea)

She’s gone, out of my life I was wrong, I’m to blame I was so untrue That I couldn’t live without love Come back into my arms I’m so alone I’m begging you I’m down on my knees Forgive me

(Spoiler: LMAO that escalated quickly)

Westlife - If I Let You Go (1999)

Night after night, I hear myself say Why can’t this feeling just fade away There’s no one like you Can speak to my heart It’s such a shame we’re worlds apart

I’m too shy to ask I’m too proud to lose But sooner or later I got to choose And once again I’m thinking about Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know What my life would be Holding you close to me

The Corrs - What Can I Do (1998) (To Saxan)

What can I do to make you love me? What can I do to make you care? What can I say to make you feel this? What can I do to get you there?

No more waiting, no more, aching No more fighting, no more, trying

Maybe there's nothing more to say And in a funny way I'm calm Because the power is not mine I'm just going to let it fly

Bon Jovi - Always (1994)

It's been raining since you left me Now I'm drowning in the flood You see, I've always been a fighter But without you, I give up

I can't sing a love song Like the way it's meant to be Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore But baby, that's just me

And I will love you, baby, always And I'll be there forever and a day, always I'll be there 'til the stars don't shine 'Til the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind And I'll love you, always

( Vaylin x Riornivo )

Backstreet Boys - As Long As You Love Me (1997) (To Vaylin)

People say I'm crazy and that I am blind Risking it all in a glance And how you got me blind is still a mystery I can't get you out of my head Don't care what is written in your history As long as you're here with me

I don’t care who you are Where you’re from What you did As long as you love me

I’m trying to hide it so that no one knows But I guess it shows When you look into my eyes What you did and where you’re coming from (I don’t care)

(Spoiler: he does care)

Aaliyah - Try Again (2000) (To Riornivo)

What would you do To get to me? What would you say To have your way? Would you give up? Or try again If I hesitate to let you in? Now would you be yourself Or play a role? Tell all the boys Or keep it low? If I say no Would you turn away Or play me off Or would you stay

Björk - Come To Me (1993) (To Vaylin)

Come to me I'll take care of you Protect you Calm, calm down You're exhausted Come lie down You don't have to explain I understand

Jump off Your building's on fire And I'll catch you I'll catch you Destroy all that is keeping you down And then I'll nurse you I'll nurse you

Sheryl Crow - Tomorrow Never Dies (1997) (To Riornivo)

Darling I'm killed I'm in a puddle on the floor Waiting for you to return Oh what a thrill Fascinations galore How you tease, how you leave me to burn

It's so deadly my dear The power of having you near

Until that day Until the world falls away Until you say there'll be no more goodbyes I see it in your eyes Tomorrow never dies

Goo Goo Dolls - Iris (1998)

And I'd give up forever to touch you 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be And I don't wanna go home right now And all I can taste is this moment And all I can breathe is your life When sooner or later it's over I just don't wanna miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand When everything's made to be broken I just want you to know who I am

[oxiegoeimi]

. 🎨 Sketches | 002 🧑🏻‍🎨 #Aenami Running after her was probably one of the most reckless things I could’ve done. Torching plans and ignoring counsel, I locked away my mirror so that reflection wouldn’t slow me down. Arriving at the campus, I didn’t know what I would say. Flowers in hand and nerves running amuck, I was ten feet away when I saw him. World come crashing down and heart left on life support, I didn’t know what to do . . . Empty parking lot and metal blaring behind locked doors, the tears began to flood. I thought that prayer would help or at least make the shame go away. Nope. Would have been a little less painful if she was the only one, but I ran this course before a few times. So, tattoo artist don’t question it. Paint that wedding ring on my finger, and let’s try something else. Ink staining every fiber of my mind, reminding me of the nightmares and failures, never let me forget rock bottom. Years later and eyes set on locking away the slightest glimpse of desire, I’m fully aware of the beauty which came about through leaping out of the plane, letting the bungee cord catch me, and diving deep into the ocean of vulnerability. Lifelong bonds and memories, laughter and silence, growing older and grateful; what was looking like a drama became a greater adventure than my soul could ever manifest without crossing paths with them. So, dearest what could have been, thank you. Boy, interrupted by those hazel eyes, experienced wonder and fear leading me out of this shell. Friendships and memories will never fade. Caught up in the flames, I gain such light to guide me out of pessimism. Maybe, I never should have taken the leap. Whatever . . . Falling for them always gives me another inch of purpose and a lifetime of emotion worth more than safety. - oxiegoeimi wonder 11.1 🦁🏳🔐💙 remember to always #trust #nature 🌲 #Healer 🔥 #Spirit 🕊 #hope ⚜️ #grace ☔️ #love 🌸 #life 🌊 #unity 🌈 #believe 💝 #weareone ✂️🕚🎶 #energy #PinkySwear #prayer #meditation #freelove #hereandhereafter #dream #vision #Eternity #paradise #infinity #light #origin #writing #source journey #create #coexist #together 💜🌠🌅🌟 (at Hope) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ce9XPjqvTCz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[dawnie1988]

' I never said I was a smart woman. '

Yes! I will gladly take foolish and happy over smart and miserable any day of the week!

' “I wanted to show you,” I whispered. “That… I’m yours. I’m all yours, and I have been since the night we met.” '

Now this, is smart.

Jesus, bringing back Sam's words about the healing process and having them be a strong factor in her decision making is such a great full circle kind of moment. And I always love the inclusion of the ' in/out ' bit.

' but we could work on ourselves for a fucking century and it wouldn’t be easy, so let’s fucking work on it together. '

Yes! Yes! Yes! Teamwork makes the dream work! Just consider me to be on the sidelines cheering as their own personal cheerleader.

' His kiss tasted like salt and felt like a promise. '

Melting into a full on puddle of mush here.

' He shot me an oddly shy grin as he unbuttoned his shirt; '

*squeal* Bashful Dean. I can't.

' He was smiling, and he was mine, and he was the most beautiful thing I’d ever seen, broken pieces and all. '

....sorry, my Taylor Swift fangirl gets triggered and I just can't deny it.

Ok so this whole section of them in bed together is just......exquisite and divine. The slowed down pace and tenderness of them reexploring each other and almost like relearning each other is one of the most stunning bits over this entire series. I do adore when puzzle pieces are able to recconect with each other.

' he mouthed my inner thigh and brushed his lips delicately over my stretch marks '

Bless your ever giving heart for that one.

' “That’s my girl,” he breathed. “Love you. Love you so fucking much, god.” '

.......I'm drowning here.

' Cuts scab over, bruises fade away. Our bodies knit themselves back together. When I look at my scars, I don’t see damage. I see proof that I survived.

Every experience (every experience worth having, at least) changes you in its own invisible way. The things that shape you, the things that matter, leave their own scars. Love always leaves a mark. '

Uhhggg. Again, to see these words and themes that have not only been a running line through the whole story but always pop up most strongly at these strong crossroads moments between them is not not an amazing form of consistency and symbolism, but also just douses my feels with gasoline and sets them on fire until all the hurt is gone and there's only warm happiness left in the wake.

- Side note, it's still quite early for me and I got next to no sleep last night so I don't even know if any of that just now made any sense 💁

' We stepped into the sunshine together. '

Oh man, there goes the song lyrics portion of my brain being activated again.......🎶Here comes the sun (doo doo doo)

Here comes the sun, and I say

It's all right.........oh hell, the whole damn song would make a great addition to the soundtrack of these two.

I am so freakin' estactic! This conclusion is so much better then anything I could have wished for. There's still issues and problems, it's all still a mess, but it's their mess. It's raw and broken and messy but it's there's to do will as they please. What's the famous quote? Without chaos there can be no rebirth or some shit like that? Yup, that is them, inside and out. And I don't think I've ever seen anything more gloriousously fitting. The fact that they got their own version of a happy ending was more then any of us could have dreamed. I got my cleansing cry sessions, I feel like I could take on the world! I know you've got some other shots plans for these two crazy kids, but still allow me to say it's been an absolute pleasure and gift to go on this journey with them and you.

Marked (Part 24)

Dean x Reader

Word Count: ~4700

Warnings: Good ol’ fashioned missionary sex, heh. Discussion of some of the same issues that have come up so far in this series. 

A/N: Thanks to @stunudo, @dean-winchesters-bacon, and @fookinghelljensensthighs for checking this out in its early stages. Also thanks to everybody who has been so kind to this series; @dawnie1988, @the-chocolate-moose, @thoughtslikeaminefield, @covered-byroses… you all are so wonderful. 

This is the last “real” chapter of Marked, although there’s an epilogue coming soon and at least two codas planned already. I love these two fuckwits and I’m not ready to say goodbye to them quite yet. 

This references several other chapters, most notably Part 1 and Part 12. If you want to refresh your memory or catch up, the masterpost is HERE. 

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