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Welp, I was going to try and get small business grants now that I am done with an intense semester of finishing the majority of my Applied Science degree of setting things on fire for fun and art but they want see my social media including my face. Woops. I will still apply, but as my attempts to actually work as a bench jeweler have so far been silence or invite you to come show your skills while wearing business formal where previously only had requirements for business casual. Business formal where bench jewelers, who get dirty as a matter of course, are on display and you don't get hired despite your skill and you realize it's because you aren't 18 and skinny and pretty because whar else are you supposed to believe when you are given no other indication and the relatives you no longer speak to made it clear that you were worthless and unhireable if youre plus sized.

With the rest of the industry only hiring people in sales (being on display, and therefore pretty) or independent I went, sure, I'll take an extra summer class and hone my polishing skills enough to feel comfortable selling my peices online while waiting for my last class to get my degree and see if I can get a business grant to see if I can get what I need to set up my own workshop at home that is fire proof and cat free. But no, they want to see my face and that's going to go excellently. And they want to see my social media. That I don't use. Because I never got in the habit of it because the only people that were on Facebook were the before mentioned extended relation, the popular kids, freinds i deep depresion isolated myself from, and people I have had a falling out with and I don't want the people who in the past kept making snide comments about my body or education do so while I'm trying to sell art so I isolated my work stuff from my defunct social media accounts. Now my sparsely populated social media is going to be my downfall since most of these grants want to see my linked in which means I must bridge the gap. I fucking hate dealing with people

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reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

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Why the fuck am I not allowed to have time to process? When I have the time to process I get ignored and I if try to formulate a response to anything I'm the bad guy. And if anyone wanted to bother in my life they should have followed me back when I followed them on this tumblr. But it's both "won't work to better myself" and " selfish snob" and "I don't want you touching a God damn thing in this house" and "I've been asking for help for weeks". Congradulations, Rachel. You became your mother. And you will never read this because I was unimportant beyond what gratification you got for me not arguing with what you wanted me to do.

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Yeah, no my feed is filled with too much mass child murder. I have enough of finding a relation advocating it in without tumbler shoving the rest of my peer group trying blaze at me that either I must die because I'm part jewish and isreal is bad or yeah let's murder those children. All yall can go fuck yourselves.

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Is the unconventional weapon the giant blender blade if death missle?

"Oh you had a plague? Come back to us when you had a World War, brand new unconventional weapons, and a new international order."

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the tragedy of etsy evilly deleting my original (popular) cowboy cat pin listing and having to make a new one that receives no views.. ive been nerfed.. just when i ordered new stock :') also ive seen it being ripped off on other sites which i knew was inevitable but still damages me spiritually.... anyway the pin is back and since etsy seo hates me now im going to yell about my cowboy Here 🤠

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Why can't we send the SEALs? guinuine question, we wandered all over afghanistan for bin laden, why can't we SEAL team 6 Hamas? American citizens were murdered by them, American citizens are getting murdered now, SEAL team six their asses and then have them drag Israli forces in to help them pull children and animals out of the ruble the just made like puppies peeing on the floor. Why isn't this an option?

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It is 92 degrees. In November.

End me.

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real fucked up that caffeine works differently for people in general than it does for me

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I might've added the BG3 Art Book to my dnd assets stash

It's got stuff like the 5e players' handbook + 5e’s character sheet, the dm's guide, critical role's explorer's guide to wildmount, baldur's gate and waterdeep city encounters, 101 potions and their effects, volo's guide to monsters, both of Xanathar's guides, a bunch of other encounters, one shots, class builds, and other fun stuff!!

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Good news! The depression has kicked back in. That means I'm no longer sick!

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To some people you’re an NPC

To other people, you’re the special, unlockable character that they worked and worked to finally get- and when they do they’re so happy because they got the game just so they could find you.

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Vijay Singh with the most outrageous golf shot the masters has ever seen. Ever.

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NEW FISH JUST DROPPED

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Had been avoiding tumblr because news events. Back on tumblr because I'm sick. Entertain me.

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At least you are avoiding the inevitable "do something to improve your balalance!" from your general practicioner doctor. My doctor has watched me trip on air before and no longer doubts my "I fell into a table" as anything other than legit lost the war with gravity and fell over for no reason. She would rather I get up to basic yoga, but I kind of need to not suddenly fall over first.

Not sure if you've already gotten this suggestion yet, but you can balance on one leg while brushing your teeth (using one hand to hold the sink for balance) as a simple balance exercise that is at least better than nothing even if it isn't braving the weather outside.

I often end up standing on one leg for no reason if I need to be on my feet somewhere. If I need to stand in one place for more than a minute, there's a 90% chance that I'm going to go into full flamingo mode.

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