#a lot of the people i was hanging with then moved on which is what it is + i dont think we were as close as we were in my head anyway
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i can't stop thinking about joshua as your sugar daddy who just can't say no to you... like, yes, he'll buy whatever you ask him to buy, but ALSO he'll fuck you wherever you want
(cue exhibitionism heheheheh)
ą±Øą§ anything for you, sweetheart - sugar daddy!hong joshua x fem!reader
į”£š© genre: pure smut, slight fluff į”£š© cw: use of pet names (princess, baby, my baby, etc), reader calls joshua daddy, a lot of dirty talk about joshua being older than reader, implies power imbalance, cream pie, piv sex without protection (don't do this), fingering, exhibitionism, almost getting caught, mirror sex, fucking in a bathroom į”£š© words: 1.2k į”£š© notes: omg you get me anon
disclaimer: this is a work of fiction. any names, images, or references to real individuals are purely fictional and do not portray or represent their real-life counterparts in any way.
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"are you sure you don't want anything else, sweetheart?"
you could think of a couple things you want, none of which you can say in such a public space, so you end up just shaking your head to the man beside you in line. the two of you didn't go out shopping a lot, but whenever you did joshua always splurged on you. to be fair, he splurged on you even if you weren't physically going out shopping.
joshua pays for your new bracelet, and the two of you leave the store. he carries your bags for you as you walk around, looking for your next store. you know that people are staring - a young woman hanging onto the arm of a handsome older gentleman is bound to make people stare - but you've been through this for long enough to stop caring. actually, it's a bit of a turn-on for you now.
while joshua is innocently unaware, you've been rubbing your legs together since the car drive here. your panties are completely soaked through, and you can feel them sticking to your skin. all because of the thought of joshua taking you somewhere in the mall you're in right now.
joshua pulls you to another store, excitedly pointing out a cute dress. "this would be gorgeous on you, wouldn't it?"
it's a shorter sundress. all you can think about is how easily he can flip the skirt of it over your ass while he's pounding you in the changing rooms.
"you think so?" you ask innocently, but the grip you have on his bicep is growing stronger.
he looks at you for a moment, no doubt studying your flushed face, and then he smiles and leans down to press a kiss on your temple.
"i'm not embarrassing you, am i?" he asks softly.
"why would you be?" you glance up at him with a twinge of worry in your heart.
joshua carefully brushes a strand of your hair behind your ear. "because such a beautiful girl like you is with an older man like me. i know that people are staring, does it bother you?"
"you're handsome, shua. that's why they're staring," you assure him.
he smiles, and it sends butterflies through your stomach. the ache in your core is growing more and more unbearable. so, when he goes to hold your waist, you jump slightly.
"are you sure you're okay?" he murmurs in your ear.
"i'm..." you trail off as joshua's fingers gently start massaging your hip... he knew what he was doing. "daddy... i need you."
joshua smiles as soon as he hears your pleading whispers, immediately leading you to the nearest bathroom. the walk is quick, but excruciating. he sneaks you in through the bathroom door before following you, locking the door behind him.
his lips are immediately on yours, as he's pushing you up against the wall and working quickly to get his hand under your skirt and into your panties. his other hand pulls up your top over your chest, revealing the lacy bra he bought you last week. as his fingers slip in between your folds, his lips move to kiss the swell of your breasts.
"naughty girl," he murmurs against your skin. "getting this wet in public... does daddy turn you on this much?"
"yes, god yes!" you whine as one of his fingers easily slips inside your pussy. "more, daddy, please!"
joshua chuckles as he plunges in a second finger, and your hands go to stable yourself against his shoulders. he's working you open quickly, scissoring his fingers as he's pulling them out of you.
"did my princess work herself up? did you think about me fucking you in the car earlier? maybe in the changing room?" he whispers in your ear and you nod and whine. "such a good little slut, always thinking about the next way to get my cock inside her."
"i really want your cock, daddy, please, please, please-"
he pulls his fingers out of you, but before you could complain he turns you around and presses your chest against the wall. you hear him unbuckle his belt and unzip his pants before you feel him start to line up his thick cock with your aching hole.
"my baby gets what she wants, right?" he grunts as he pushes inside you.
a moan slips out of your mouth, and joshua quickly goes to cover it with his hands - shushing you as you whine about it. "it's okay, baby... sshh... we just need to keep quiet, don't we? wouldn't want anyone trying to come in here to see me fucking your pretty, young pussy."
"daddy-" your moan is muffled by his hand, but joshua takes the opportunity to slip one of his fingers into your mouth. you can taste yourself on him.
his hard cock is ramming into you relentlessly, and if it weren't for his finger, that you were so eagerly sucking on, you wouldn't be able to keep your mouth shut. he was hitting you in all the right places, right where you needed him. which is why you got so whiny when he stopped his movements. suddenly, joshua grabs your arms and hooks both of your elbow-bends under one of his arms - keeping you up from the wall. without pulling out, he turns you around to face the mirror.
your mascara is smudged, and so is your lipgloss. your tits are hanging out of the bra, and your legs are visibly shaky. "look at how pretty you are, princess. taking my cock so well..."
"th-thank you, daddy." you give him your best fucked-out smile before he starts pounding into you again.
your tits are violently bouncing with each movement, and joshua's free hand goes to grab one of them. he squeezes them roughly, and pinches your nipples, making you gasp. you bite down on your bottom lip hard to try to contain your noises - but the noises of his balls slapping against your wet pussy are loud enough.
you hear a sharp knock on the door, and your heart drops - but your pussy clenches. "almost done!" joshua responds in a matter-of-fact tone.
he doesn't stop fucking you, and you're growing closer and closer to your orgasm. "daddy- we're gonna get caught-"
"thought that's what you wanted, baby, wasn't it? didn't you want everyone to see how good i fuck you? how perverted you are for sleeping with an older man?"
you moan out loud, and joshua doesn't stop you. you can hear footsteps echoing away from the door - but you don't care. the only thing you care about now, is cumming. as if reading your mind, joshua brings his hand down to your clit and starts rubbing tight circles over the bud.
"want you to cum with me, princess," he murmurs. "cum around my cock so that i can cum inside that pretty pussy of yours."
"yes, yes! cum inside me, daddy!" you whimper.
the coil in your stomach snaps as you take a final look at yourself, completely at joshua's mercy. at the way you were spasming, joshua came soon after you - burying his cock deep inside you to make sure that not a drop spilled out.
your head went fuzzy after that. but you know that joshua pulled your panties back to their place, that he cleaned up your face, adjusted your clothes, and that he carefully but quickly led you back to the car. in the car, he put his jacket over you as you practically sank into the passenger seat.
"thank you, daddy," you repeated with a pout, and pulled the jacket closer around you.
joshua started the car and started driving. "anything for you, sweetheart."
#seventeen#joshua x you#joshua hong#joshua hong imagines#joshua hong x reader#joshua hong smut#joshua hong fluff#joshua hong fanfic#hong jisoo#svt#seventeen x reader#smut#ask#anon#seventeen smut#kpop smut#seventeen fanfic#seventeen imagines#seventeen fluff#hong joshua#hong joshua x reader#hong joshua smut#hong joshua fluff#joshua#joshua x reader#luvybun ā. š Ė
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HEYY RED I LOVE YOUR CONTENT
i just came here bc i wanted to ask how bakugo was in your MHA DR
I'm glad you like it š§š¤
In 1a I mainly hang out with him, kirishima and a few others like 99% of my free time when I'm not doing something else like sleeping like the dead or fighting for my life somewhere off campus ššš½ me and bakugo had a very rough ish start if I'm being honest. People with big egos just piss me off more than anything else (cough cough because of my Cr dad cough) so I'm always just immediately irritated a bit when I meet people like that so it's nothing surprising. It's okay though because of course later on I moved past that and we ended up alright. When I decided to shift to mha, I basically knew nothing of it fr nor the people I was gunna be surrounded with, I was just focused and excited entirely for the whole quirk and hero shit yk.
People like bakugo, to me, are people that you will need to have patience and understanding if you want to befriend them (it feels weird talking about him like I'm giving advice to single mothers out there or sum about how to deal with an unruly kid š I promise guys seriously he's not that bad at all he's a very good guy especially later on, which is why I said PATIENCE because again, he's a person that goes through a LOT in a short ass amount of time. Understanding and balancing that with your own standards/personality is key.)
My personal relationship with him is mainly just me tagging along as much as I can and eventually he just let it happen. Same thing with kirishima as well, like the reason why I even put up with his attitude was because I genuinely could see us becoming friends in the future and that's exactly what happened. Before I left, we were the closest we've been since I've been shifting to this Dr, I mainly say this because I started to withdraw from everything, school, our usual training and gym seshs, hanging out together or just being in each other's presence, I just stopped and that's what made me realize that he either got so used to it that he noticed this pretty much immediately, or he actually values our friendship (that was shady ik I'm only half joking)
Hes genuinely a good guy, again, like of course he's got his flaws but so does everyone else. Besides, we're all teenagers dude, of course we're gunna be messy. ESPECIALLY with everything happening like the hero course, and villains getting in the way, legit just making life harder for us than it already is yk.
.....his parents too? My god. I bout moved in and kicked him out of his own damn house honestly, they're both so lovely. Truthfully, they're such a beautiful family, their relationship is something I envy like hellš. ANYWAYS
I feel like I don't talk/post about my friends back at UA so feel free to ask about any of them.
11:11 as I post this go shift yall
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pairing: korea local!yunho x new to city!reader [smau]
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y/n was working at their desk when they were called into their bosses office. āyou asked for me?ā when say walking into the office and sitting down. āyes i didā the boss hums typing on her computer. she gestures for them to have a seat though they were already seated.
"you've been here a few months now, yes?" she asks. "yes I have" y/n replies. "im sorry.. did I do something wrong? I thought I reported everything in a timely mann-" y/n starts. "nothing like that" their boss assures them.
"you've been doing great. really incredibly" their boss continues. "its not confirmed but we may move you back to the Australia branch" she drops finally to which y/n freezes on the spot. "i.. im sorry what?" y/n makes sure they heard her correctly. "the employment isn't going as well there since to be honest we moved a lot of people abroad this quarter" their boss continues.
"I was told i'd be here for minimum a year its barely been 8 months" y/n says in disbelief. "I know.. im sorry" the boss replies though it honestly didn't seem that convincing. y/n leaves the office in defeat. it of course wasn't confirmed but the fact that it could happen made them freak out.
they tried texting yunho who wasn't responding again but he's busy they shouldn't bother him its fine. they texted chris for a bit, texted san as well. started getting worried about yunho since he wasn't responding and started freaking out about their job again. they panic FaceTimed chris who picked up immediately.
"everything ok?" chris asked through the phone to which he got a quick "no" from y/n. they re-explain everything their boss had told them "I miss you so much but I also love Korea so much now and I know nothings confirmed but im still scared" y/n rambles. "everythings going to all work out y/n don't worry" chris reassures them.
"I know.. im sorry I shouldn't be freaking out right now" y/n sighs. "don't apologize" chris hums. "I cant confirm what will happen of course but youre strong y/n it'll all work out and be okay" chris finishes. "thanks chris" y/n says.
the two hang up the call and y/n goes back to trying to test yunho with no success. he was at work for another couple hours but they thought he'd at least be able to look at his texts. maybe he was sick of them already.
they tried not to think that way but it only made the thoughts they had in the back of their head stronger. he didn't really like them did he? who were they kidding.. he was too busy for someone as high maintenance as they were. they should have known he'd get tired of them.
maybe he was ignoring them to send them a message without actually telling them. that had to be it? did they do something wrong? did they screw up that bad that he didn't even want to talk to them. all these thoughts rushed into their head till they got an abrupt phone call from mingi that broke them from their thoughts.
"hi mingi" they say picking up the call. "y/nnnnn" mingi says excitedly. "what's up? hope im not bothering you I know you have work right now" he giggles over the phone. to not let him know the anguish they were going through they pretended everything was completely fine. "hi mingi" they chuckle. "yeah im good what's up?"
"just wanted to call you its been a hot minute want to hang out later?" he asks, y/n hears yeosang's distant voice telling him not to bother them at work. "tell yeosang I say hello" y/n hums. "sang y/n says heyy" mingi practically yells. "hi y/n" yeosang chimes in.
y/n got off the phone in a bit of a better mood. mingi always had that charm of helping them feel better. they decide not to think about the potential doom of leaving Korea and head home for the night. they send one last text to yunho wishing him goodnight before crashing and falling asleep.
a notification chimes just as they're falling asleep, from yunho..
extras!
y/n overthinks a lot
mingi #1 y/n cheer upper!
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oh im obsessed with this actuallyā¦ who ever wrote this one i am kissing u on the forehead and hugging you real tightā¦ inigo is such a loverboy im kkkhhhhhhijnsdnfng
#ann plays awakening#EDITING TO SAY I STARTED TAG VENTING HIT READMORE AT YOUR OWN RISK#anyways#LAST LINE IS A KILLERRRR WOW#āann werent you just pairing olivia with tharāā OLIVIA IS A BUSY WOMAN OKAY#but also i just had this old save file from when i wanted to see pink inigo and decided to get some more supports#im obsessed actually like#ok tag venting time maybe this should be its own post but u guys know who i am#not only does this support in my very educated opinion do a good job at emulating inigoās way of speaking#but i think theres also a very underrated characteristic he has that not a lot of people talk about and its that hes honestly quite morbid#him spending hours talking to and dancing with his motherās grave is very beautiful and moving but it is also not a normal way to grieve#which makes sense because duh nothing about his life is normal but its j like. you know#if robin is his father (and maybe j the normal convo i dont remember) in the hot springs scramble heāll insist upon bringingā#severed risen limbs home as a way to remember the peacefulness (lol) of the springs#and he thinks absolutely nothing of it!!#i think he gets attached to things just a little too intensely and because his life is surrounded by death how he expresses that can be#very interesting. and he talks about death all time more than the other kids#bc while a lot of their coping mechanisms are based in fear and the need to instill confidence in themselves (think cyn or gerome or owain#or sev or yarne or noire)#and how their SCARED of death and of loss and adapt different behaviors to act like theyre not (to varying degrees of success)#i think inigo is much more accepting of the fact that death follows him and has made it a normal presence in his life#which is not a good thing it means that he hasnt let himself grieve. he lets death hang over him and follow him instead of pushing back#also guess which one of the awakening trio in fates has the canonical story death. just by the way lmao#anyways bc im writing this in the tags on my phone i cant actually see what the hell ive been saying im j stream of consciousnessing this#but my point is that inigo has a weird fixation on death and dying that stems from his inability to make peace with death and grieve#and i think him idolizing death in this support (this BRILLIANT fan support that made me ill) is so in character and so lovely#i miss him so bad (hes literally in the photos im posting) grghhhrgah#i wuv him :(
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do you write?
Mel semi-dared me to type: āNo, leave me alone.ā So I have to include it. But in all seriousness, I'll respond this once, because it does allow me to update people a little bit. Though please know that your notification did have me pause mid-writing. Now, I want to politely, and respectfully direct you to my description on both dash-only and on my blog's theme, I also want to point your attention to my pinned post, and I believe that it's even in my rules, but I could be wrong. Though let me repeat it here:
The depictions you'll find here are canon-strict, and so you can expect many analyses of all kinds here, as dissecting the characters that I write is what I'm passionate about, and what I'm here for (and to write, of course!)
I admit, usually I aim to write more threads/asks consistently even if I'm excessively slow, and though I haven't updated the dash about my circumstances for a while (as I'm decently private about my life), know that writing meta has simply come a lot easier lately when time has permitted me to be on Tumblr. Now, that doesn't mean I don't value people's interest in writing with me, and I will live up to the promises that I've made that I will get to that (as I have occasionally done lately, and was in process of doing again)ā but when meta comes easier to me, then I prioritize that as of late, simply because stress' best counter is the distraction that comes the easiest. Now this isn't by any means a waste of time, as it plays into what I quoted above. Because ultimately, here's my thing: I make it exceptionally clear everywhere on my blog that I am canon-strict (or as Tumblr, sadly, disrespectfully seems to call it nowadays: a 'lore purist'), and that this leads me to write a lot of analyses left and right on the characters that I write, but these are fundamental to understanding my portrayals of them. If that isn't your cup of tea, sir, or ma'am, then maybe this isn't the blog for you, and I don't mean that with malice, or in disrespect, but simply as a simple rebuke. In that, I greatly appreciate you checking in on behalf of my writing partners, but I'm also quite certain that they have the capacity to approach me themselves if they have any concerns. Have a nice day or night, wherever you are!
#[ inquiries: out of character. ] they do not know what to make of me. i have kept to myself; for fear of giving them purchase to cling to.#[ i don't have qualms about the message-- though it is a bit of a thing of... if you're waiting to write with me-- ]#[ which bless you; i'm humbled-- but you're more than free to come to me and express this. my answer would've been a lot different. ]#[ instead of having to address it like this; which i'll always do with a bit of a firmer hand. ]#[ but also; i have apologized to people on numerous occasions. but i don't like to half-ass writing. i'm not here to write 50 words. ]#[ i don't do one-liners. i want to give the quality that i know i'm capable of even if i'm a bit rusty. ]#[ and that takes time for me. that isn't just a switch that i can flip and go 'ok! I'LL WRITE'. ]#[ if you've paid attention; you do see the thread or ask come out. amidst a /lot/ of meta. but the meta is important to my blog. ]#[ it has always been. it's always been part of the foundation of my blog(s) and if that isn't up your alley then i present you with... ]#[ many other writers who touch on the same muses as i do. ]#[ but my meta /is/ part of my writing. it /is/ part of my blog. of my portrayals. ]#[ and i know not everyone is game for that and that's okay. but then know it'll /always/ stay a fundamental part of my blog. ]#[ and while threads/asks will come more frequently; they are slower at present. that just is how it is in my current situation. ]#[ to sum up/remind: i'm in the midst of moving/apartment hunting and my roof over my head is an airbnb. so a certain stress hangs over... ]#[ my head. so whatever gives me most distraction; i will indulge in. i have numerous drafts in the works. they'll come out. ]#[ if you're patient-- i thank you immensely. my gratitude is endless. and if you're not; that's okay. but then kindly... ]#[ and respectfully seek the door and let yourself out. ]
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just got a dm abt one of my posts and y'all please don't try and show the hermits (or any minecraft youtuber or content creator for that matter) my posts, i'm uncomfortable with it and don't want any of my posts shown to a cc. if they stumble upon it naturally that's unfortunate but i can live with it since i do maintag a lot (something i REALLY need to stop doing tbh i already know i need to make a tagging system just for my blog that wont clog results) but going out of ur way to show a cc is entirely different and something i am not comfortable with.
no hate to the person at all but even if i wasn't a little silly and weird with it sometimes i wouldn't be comfortable with it, i want my blog to be a purely fandom only space with none of the creators involved <3 please respect this
#which is imo how a fandom space should be#i'm old fashioned and it breaks the fandom etiquette rules i stand by#i ship and stuff and absolutely NO cc needs to be subjected to that please and thank you even if it's a non-ship post#not saying hermits and others cant hang out and interact if they wish hell no but like....#if you as any person with a following willingly go into a fandom space you have to expect to see some things you find weird#doesn't even necessarily mean ship just stuff the cc finds weird :v idk im not phrasing this right but like#the rule with shipping around any sort of media has been to keep it away and not show the creators anything !!! and thats fallen out#of practice the past few years with ppl getting more and more comfortable demanding boundaries and personal info from creators#which isn't right imo bc its like you're trying to see how much you can get away with. u want a guide on how to interact and social skills#which is... huh??? just be polite and keep anything weird away from them like what we were doing#some folks nowadays need āpermissionā to ship stuff even from SHOWS and shit with no real people and its like wow... huh....#u need it to be canon?? u need everything told to u by the show?? wheres the imagination. the spirit.#the making of everything so far removed from what it once was#like that guy that played nick from heartstopper that had to be outed to play a gay guy. like#idk im so sick of the boundary fandom ppl in mcyt 'what if they saw and made it uncomfortable!! im going to show them!!!!'#you are making them MUCH more uncomfortable than i am by GOING INTO THEIR FACE AND DEMANDING THEY LOOK AT IT!!#AND DEMANDING BOUNDARIES N SHIT... CRAZY.... idk the hermits especially its weird to me bc clearly they understand fandom etiquette#and the dynamic im talking about. most of them understand that by going into fandom spaces they will see things they dont like#which is why a lot of them only like fanart and answer questions asked by fans. even on tumblr !!! where the weird ppl are!!!#they also all seem to understand they are playing characters (citing joel cleo and grian as examples) for their audiences#which is. smth the audience itself doesnt understand most of the time anymore. oh my god they all died in real life in hermitcraft season 8#idk hermitblr used to be a lot more okay with hermitshipping n then a bunch of ppl from other fandoms moved in and its all more negative#and makes me sad. idk...#i never meant for this blog to gain almost 500 followers i just wanted to make silly little ship posts and now im scared to#bc ive gotten hate and its.... bwugh.... tempted to remake blogs and make one thats very clearly just for me and a few weirdos#whatever i went off on a tangent in the tags as usual just pls dont show creators my posts even non-ship ones for this reason#jamies bad posts#talking in tags#serious posts#<- ig??? idk
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feeling a little burnt out tbh so I think I'm going to just try and relax as much as humanly possible to avoid crashing and burning like I usually do this time of year lmao
#[static]#work has been ..... Unpleasant#home life is wonderful and amazing as always but man i spend so much time at work fklghfdgf#it's around this time of year where i start to think 'what's the fucking point of working the job i do' and i have an existential crisis#even trying to play games rn is just Too much for my senses. I need to just enjoy silly non-serious things for a week or two I think#been hanging out with friends outside of work which has helped a lot!#i need some whimsy among the constant horrors which I feel bad for needing since it's 100% a privilege to be able to have that#it sucks that work drains my happiness away!! it's really just a couple of people there that make life miserable for everyone#there's nothing anyone can do about it ... alas ... we must continue moving forward because that's all we are able to do#i also feel bad because I started ME3 but I'm going to have to put playing it on hold until I'm in a much better headspace to enjoy it#it's been really amazing so far but it's incredibly intense and sad and i know it's going to eat my heart by the time it's done with me
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need at least 1 person to be mentally ill with in the dms about my own writing perhaps then ill be able to publish something
#its sooooo pathetique but unfortunately being that im in a 2 year ongoing Rut i kind of uh. need the external stimuli here.#plus its nice to have someone to bounce ideas with & also just care in general yk. ive got whole fics that basically just happened bc i had#a conversation w someone who could 'yes and' with me for a bit#2019 was a good year for this for me personally#very productive i had so much fun#losing it sucked lmao i just dont feel as comfortable speaking my ideas anymore#i still think theyre good. i keep plotting things in my head but they never make it past the draft#IF we get to a concrete draft at all lbr#idk how to explain it. i enjoy what i make i find it interesting but sharing has kind of lost its shine.#a lot of the people i was hanging with then moved on which is what it is + i dont think we were as close as we were in my head anyway#but ive become way more conscious of dominating spaces#idk i just miss it. i feel like everything im doing is a solo project these days#its very lonely#easy to lose steam also when i dont have much energy to start with#but mostly just very lonely.#playing dolls with myself etc etc etc its fine when its voluntary but when its not.#well. its Not.#lol.
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Well...it's been a good run for...every ship left involving a woman in this poll. o7
#or more than one woman. you know what I mean.#(except for the one f/f versus f/f poll so we do at least have ONE guaranteed ship moving forward)#like. I know this is NOT a big deal (& I'll definitely forget about it once it's over) but I just...DO so tire of how guy-focused fandom is#then you try to complain about this and people accuse you of gender essentialist bullshit#which is ALSO exhausting#like I do genuinely like hanging out in my little niches with a handful of like-minded people but it does get...lonely I guess? sometimes?#you know that the things you create will be seen as inherently less valuable. you know that even in the Weird Interestā¢ Spaces you are#still seen as weird. you still don't fit in. the characters like you are discarded/ignored/disproportionately hated the way you are in real#life and it's rooted in a lot of the same ideas. like obviously I'd take THIS over misogynistic shit that actually happened to me but it#certainly doesn't make dealing with the reality of misogyny any EASIER#'I focus on men to escape irl misogyny/creator misogyny' I feel like actively ignoring women is also misogyny. actually.#whatever. nothing is new ever lmao.#In the Vents#at least The Major Evil has been defeated. I CAN at least sleep easy over that one.
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My heart is beating so hard Iām so pissed about Everything rn
#you see there was really no one my age in our neighborhood#There were kids slightly older than me or slightly younger than me#And for some reason a lot of teen girls and little boys#so my siblings both got on fine. Her with the slightly older kids him with the boys#and I was just kind of stuck in the middle#always#now. I am a middle child. My whole deal is being stuck in the middle#so I was used to it#But like it does suck#I never really had any friends except this one boy that everyone accused me of being in love with#and like heās a good kid but we never shared any interests so it was hard to hang out past kindergarten#(Yes we were already accused of being bf/gf at 3 years old yes thatās fucked up and I hated it with my entire being)#so I didnāt have friends save for him in school#I didnāt get along very well with my sister because she was very very bossy when playing so I had to do exactly what she said#(or get yelled at)#I had the choice between hanging out with like. Girl that only lives here every second weekend. Snippy girl that was chronically ill.#older girl thatās okay and friends with older girl that hates my guts#The Twinsā¢ļø (their mom didnāt like me and their dad made me deeply uncomfortable. He turned out to be physically abusive.)#and those two neighbours#which you guessed it lead to the aforementioned teaming up and me being stuck with the kid my mom now thinks is like my best friend or smt#so I had the choice between that or my mom inviting people I didnāt know that I didnāt want to play with or playing alone#and thatās just how I lived until I was ten#which is when we moved and I started secondary and OH MY GOD I COULD HAVE FRIENDS?? WHO COULDVE GUESSED#og
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my football team is so hopeless
#not dortmund lol i mean the club i play at myself#it makes me want to quit ngl#there are just so many things i'm fed up with#at times it's not fun anymore#i like playing football but there's just a lot wrong with this team#but i'm mostly just hanging around because i don't want to let my coach down like he cares and genuinly seems like a good coach#the only thing which gives me a bit of hope#and i hate letting people down š
that and also i hate giving up#but i have never seen a team more hopeless or felt more hopeless playing a sport š
#and he apparently thinks i'm kind of important to the team which i kind of get but also it doesn't really make a difference...#we're just so hopeless i canāt turn this around lol#i always start and i hope it continues but there's not much i can do#we just have too many people who don't care last match so many have given up#some of our team just refuse to run or move at some point it's awful#like why can't you try#we always loose so high like what's the point but still don't give up#besides that the endurance (and also sprint speed) of most is awful which could be trained to a point#but whenever the coach tries to do that almost no one shows up š#and i usually play wing or outside midfielder but i'm supposed to also be a defender apparently what#whenever we get a goal on my side and i'm not back in defence someone moans at me like that's my fault#i get working back but i canāt be everywhere especially when some people don't move#and i actually try to get the ball foreward or try to get the ball back in the front because i don't give up when we're behind#i want to score goals and not settle with loosing and only sit back to do defence anymore#naturally there will be open spaces when i try to do that but how is giving up better even when it's hopeless we could still try scoring#and i can't be everywhere they should try my position they would never last 90min running like i do#besides i'm already exausted each week from my training before like i do sports 2-3 hours 6 or 7 days a week#unfortunately i have to because once again i'm trying some entrance exam (for sports to become a teach in sports and english hopefully)#asides from that i don't like most of the people at my club š
it feels a bit like highschool again and i didn't like highschool#so many are ignorant and judgemental#like the girl i told you about with her comment about the cleaning lady instead of wanting to clean up her stuff herself š
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When I was making my first trying-to-be-serious ocs it was in the start of the 2010s (and I mean the START, 2010-2012) and there was a big āanti Mary-sueā movement on deviantart (the website I spent half my internet time on and was posting my art on) and I liked to make my character designs pretty extra (although compared to modern stuff they look pretty normal) so I started to get self-conscious. At the time though I was watching soul eater (and there was another thing Iām forgetting and itās really frustrating me) and I saw that it was popular with a cool art style and the characters were extra AF, so I was like āokay. Maybe, as long as I can draw my character often and consistently it doesnāt matter if they are wild!ā and you know what? Early teen me was RIGHT. Not about many things, but about this in particular she was!
#emma posts#girl was relying too heavily on character tropes and some stuff of that era#but she was so right about character design#if maybe using a few too many colors for each one#now people are just being wild with it and it fucking works#two examples I can think of in modern popular animation are mha/bnha and hazbin hotel (still havenāt watched that one)#but damn if those characters donāt look like some of my favorite early teen creations#and the artist made it WORK#i donāt think Iāve gone quite as wild as bnha but you know what? one of my old worlds still could#Iām sentimental about that one and even if Iāve been stuck Iām still taking that one with me forever#other projects might come and go. but (project currently named absolution) is constant#as well as its main cast. Iāve been learning a bit more about some of the mythologies I used as inspiration and itās been giving a lot of#ideas for how I can develop things. it has not solved a few hang ups though#the biggest one being what was the divide about and how was it defined?ā#itās been made more gray as I learn more about mythology and folklore#the Christian aspects of it can be a bit clear. but others have more gray areas and i like it but it also makes things a bit frustrating#interestingly enough. flight rising having so many different species on one world has given me some ideas#I am a bit reluctant to use too much from outside certain cultures though. which can appear a bit biased and probably is. but I donāt want#to mess up something you canāt really change about a creature from a culture in less familiar with. it would be a dick move#but yeah. if death the kid can exist my weirdos can as well
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#one other thing is i dont even dislike my actual job... like the baking part and seeing dogs and stuff#ive always had issues with the management but i felt like i didn't have to handle it that much bc im not full time#but now they're maming me handle it#like if they just let me bake my little dog treats in peace i could hang back and let the full time employees attack them#which they kinda have lol but also they've kinda just quit too#but a lot of people there are paying rent or tuition or all of their own food and working 40hrs a week#they need their jobs and they deserve to be treated better !! i never truly needed this job bc i live at home#i enjoy it bc im baking !! let me just be a shadow and bake#but now i need it more bc im saving to move...#and im not a baking shadow anymore!! they hate me!!!! ok well what if i just quit!!!!!#but its so scary and getting a new job is scary and im gonna miss baking so much#anyway ā¤ļø
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dining hall energy is so fucked
#boink#school tag#i hate it here#but if i go home i will fall asleep#anyway i have one friend that i do stuff outside of class and rehearsal with#but things are#..#weird rn#:/#so#idk#i just cant be alone or i will start losing it so fast#i need to get dinner but they have a new buffet system and im so scared to do it by myself#i spent three hours today with the guy i like#two of which were impromptu#it was pleasant#i need to get over him#i care about him a lot but the crush part of that has to end#he's in love with someone else lol#he told me about how theyre hanging out this weekend and he seemed so happy#and i am very happy that he's finally getting somewhere with this person#however. for my own sake. i need to move on asap#i especially do not need him catching on to my feelings. sk#so . so so so#he's so lovely though. he's just so lovely#i can hardly listen to him talk without smiling#he's very into math.#he's applying to grad schools and he said that if he can't get in anywhere for what he's looking for he'll do quantum computing. as a backup#in many ways i dont really know what to make of him#he hates people. he loves his friends. hes a mathematician. hes a communist. he hates engineering. hes kind of clueless. hes wonderful.
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OKAY here we are, all caught up! For now. I donāt have any buffer or anything really specific planned for the next few days. Wish me luck. So! This one is set probably like.. three-ish months? Into Volo getting pulled into the agency/under Eclipseās wing? So yeah, Eclipse hasnāt done anything super serious yet, just messed with his head.
Warnings: ngl I have No Idea what to tag this one.
Whumpee having Issues, that are only being exacerbated by whumper, who isnāt hurting him physically quite yet but he sure isnāt good for Whumpeeās mental or emotional state. Emotional hurt no comfort I guess is what this is. You know when you look back at something really shitty you did and go āā¦oooohh no.ā Yeah itās that, thatās what this is
Anyway uh. Iām not super happy with how it turned out, this scene is supposed to come in between some other stuff whenever I actually pull everything together, BUT!!!! At least the first draft is written! So I can edit it and string it together with other stuff later!
But yeah, the context this needs is by this point, heās aware that what he was trying (subjugate Arceus and rewrite history) was never going to work out, and heās been a little aimless since then, not sure he has a purpose. And this is him kinda finding one!
(Poor guy has a traumatization arc at the same time as his redemption arc š wish him luck heās gonna need it)
Day 3: Shame
āGIRATINA!! STRIKE THEM DOWN!!!ā
Volo sighs as he watches it play out. Again, again.
Four teenagers, twenty four PokƩmon, and two gods; one present, one absent.
One teenager blinded by a dream of a world without suffering, the other three fighting for the right to exist.
Six PokƩmon against eighteen, and then the playing field is leveled by the help of a god, but still the three teenagers won.
Three siblings, one angry, one upset, one cynical, watching as their flute changes into one that can summon Arceus, and one teenager, alone in the world, angry at the god heād worshipped for abandoning him in every single time of need. Angry at the god who had helped him for failing.
He had lashed out, and now he was completely and utterly alone.
Three siblings finding their way back to the home they had protected while one teenager grieves the life he never got to live. Three siblings chasing their dreams and meeting their goals while one teenager is lost, stuck with nowhere else to go but away. But he canāt go away, because Hisui is his home. His broken, pain-filled home, full of the memories of his people.
They have everything, and he is left alone.
Three siblings growing up and becoming champions of their region, one teenager finding a strange device and traveling to another time.
To another dimension.
Would things have been different, had I not done all this? Would I have more than just myself, my PokƩmon, and Eclipse to rely on?
He scrolls back in time.
Three siblings and one teenager meeting for the first time. A PokƩmon battle, and two of the siblings became fast friends with the teenager.
And a few months later, he betrays them for nothing but a chance at a plan that never would have worked in the first place.
āGIRATINA!! STRIKE THEM DOWN!!!ā
..He turns his holocomputer off and lays in bed, staring up at the ceiling.
..maybe Eclipse is right. I deserve to hurt for what I put those three through.
We were all teenagers, but I was older. They were 15. I was an adult. I shouldāve known better- I tried to KILL them.
And my actions indirectly killed so many more..
He lets his eyes slip closed.
..Iām lucky I have Eclipse. At least he wonāt hurt me, despite the fact that I deserve it. Not like so many of the others in this place would.
..I wonder if things would be different, had I called it all off.
I wish I could go back and stop it. But that would only create a paradox involving the Agency itself. It would only make everything worse, might actually break reality as a whole..
He rolls over, curling up on his side and hiding in the plush blankets.
..Maybe, if I hadnāt been born, the world would be better off.
Thousands dead, tens of thousands hurt, and SO MANY displaced throughout time and space.. All because of a dream that could never have worked.
I need to help them. Itās my fault theyāre lost, after all.
I canāt bring back the dead.
But I can at least help the living.
#whumprilday3#whumpril2024#š»volo#yeah idk how well this fits the prompt but every other time I tried to write the prompt it didnāt Work#and this STILL doesnāt really work how I want but at this point I need to cut my losses and move on#anyway. my boy thinks too much#okay so. ramble on The Agency!#the TTPPA. also known as the time travelers paradox prevention agency#so these guys look into timespace phenomena and make sure history doesnāt get fucked and reality doesnāt die#they exist in a separate dimension from the real world#a place between time and space#this dimension was gifted to someone by Arceus#and that person let some time travelers hang out in there#and it grew from there#anyway theyāre really big and have a lot of people so#they grow their own food and have their own everything basically#because they donāt want to mess with the other dimension too much#aside from stopping things like time loops and paradoxes and such#they do their best to leave as little of an impact as possible#and basically their function is to keep reality safe in case something happens with the legendaries#or someoneās time travel tech#Eclipse is the leader of the Hoppers#the hoppers do pretty much everything involving jumping through time loops and such#they catch timespace criminals and stuff like that#a few other sectors are research#which help hoppers find time loops/criminals and they help tech too#theres the tech people who do everything with the watches which have Special Functions that I havenāt shown yet#thereās management who run the place and make sure theres enough room and board and keep everything sorted out on whoās doing what and. yea#thereās the food people who. grow food#those are the main ones but thereās all sorts of jobs you can do
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As we are arriving to the end of this, I made a recopilation of the art made by the Ina11 fandom in the last two polls. Whatever happens here, thank you so much, I've loved this, and I will keep it as a fond memory
Starting with @corvidayays . It was done for the first poll and I remember almost jumping from my seat at seeing it.
Next, @d34dbr4in's artworks. Come on, these are so gorgeous!
This one was done for the first poll. š
And this one!! Wow!! It was done for this poll, and it's just so stunning <3
And here they are @honeycrashed 's works!! Three of them!! (Wow!!!)
This was one of the first artworks and it was done for the first poll. š„
The second one was also done for the first poll. <3
And this last one was also for the first poll. Look at how cute it is!!
And here it is @voetballers , it was made for the first poll, and I without doubt will take his hand and vote <3
This last ones were mine for the first poll jeje ;p (sorry for the bad quality I had to mash them together because they exceeded the maximum amount of images in a Tumblr post)
And here it is, the very last one, the one I did for this poll
As you can see, we have done a big amount of fanarts for this tournament. And, once again, I want to thank every one of you. This is a lot of work, and I think we all had fun doing it. That's why I love this community. Even though you can't see their fanarts here, I also want to thank @soccerpunching , @frosty-tian , @feisaru and all of the others that have been commenting and reblogging. Because of you Afuro won the first poll, and because of you we are having such a good time together. Here, in the last hours of the Afuro poll, I want to remind you, It's not Afurover, not yet <3
(This is an updated version of the meme I did for the other poll) (Also, the original post had my comments of each piece if you want to see them for some reason they are in the tags)
Round 1 Poll 15
Aphrodite is the Greek goddess of beauty, love and sex and one of the Olympians
Cytherea is another name for the goddess Aphrodite (meaning "lady of Cythrus")
#The original version had comments about every piece#But I'm moving them here to make a more rebloggable version#First piece:#I was very surprised when I saw this#There wasn't that many propaganda at the moment#so I was reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally happy to see it! <3#Second piece:#The warm tones...the texture... I'm so obsessed with it. My jaw dropped when I first saw it.#Third piece:#And this one!! What can I said that it isn't said by itself? Aghhh it's just so perfect. Afrodi.. the sunset sky... the warm tones.#It's just so beautiful.... And the āIt's not Afuroverā! If I could hang this at the door of my life I would.#Forth:#Look at this... If this isn't propaganda at it's finest I don't know what else you could call it.#I came back to it over and over again. It's just so good!! (And the shadow has Afuro's form with the wings and the halo! What a cool detail#Fifth: Once again#look how the heart motifs are introduced!! Ahhh#we love a good representation of Aphrodi's name into his design š.#Also! The pose and how cute it looks? I really#really love that.#Sixth:#Ok at that moment I was about to explode /pos#That is a full colored piece!! And it looks so good!#The sparkles; his expression; I'm literally giggling and kicking my feet#(the next ones are mine so I didn't have comments)#AGHHHHHHH FINISHING THIS I'M GOING TO CRY#I'M GETTING ALL EMOTIONAL#I'm sorry for not tagging everyone slfn#But it felt wrong not to tag some of the people that didn't explicitly make fanarts but helped a lot#WAAAA INABLR ILY#In which other fandom could I have this fun with a poll
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