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vaguely-concerned · 3 months ago

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the relationship between the chantry and the mortalitasi in nevarra is SO fucking funny. the carefully politic and civil syncretism of it all. the ‘I’ll refrain from scratching your back to bloody shreds if you refrain from scratching mine :)’. left hand politely averting its eyes from whatever the fuck the right hand is doing merrily up to its elbow in entrails because it usually knows what it’s doing I guess. speak softly, and have an army of the restless dead ready to go banapants horrorshow bonkers if you don’t get to tend to them. We Receive: being able to keep doing our goth thing mostly unimpeded. You receive: us not raising the great majority to protest your unwelcome meddling. render unto the chantry what is the chantry's and unto the watchers what is theirs (or, with all possible courtesy you understand, else…)

#dragon age #nevarra #mortalitasi #a watcher's work is never done #The maker may take the souls but someone still has to care for the graves #the necropolis is such a trump card for the nevarran mages when you think about it -- try to annul the mortalitasi?#soon you'll have some VERY unpleasant things starting to come up from underground and no one who knows how to deal with it #that place has grown and been built upon itself for like a thousand years at this point hope you're good with surprises with no guide #it's not grey wardens in a blight levels of immunity granted but it's up there. thedas realpolitik hits different idk what to tell you #the idea that the ‘higher dead’ are the original souls lingering after death must be getting spicily close to heresy right #even more so than the mortalitasi usually get I mean #Poor Cassandra. Imagine being born a jock among goth nerds no wonder the religion got to her #if her parents had lived she could have been a hotheated dashing noble getting in righteous duels but instead. her uncle. alas.#I jest but I really am so interested in seeing more of nevarra to understand even more of where she's coming from originally #I'm visiting my wife's folks for the first time I'm really excited :) (I do think my adaar would find it fascinating actually so. sry cass)

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flecks-of-stardust · 1 year ago

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wholeheartedly and with as much gentleness as possible, i truly think there needs to be more discussion about downpour in the community as it is now. for a variety of reasons.

#not main tagging this right now but #some tag babbling. like #some of yall are unnecessarily cruel about downpour. seriously.#you don't have to like it but you can also stand not to tear down someone's work like this #if every word out of your mouth is just about how much you hate downpour. why are you still here?#and i mean that genuinely. it's unpleasant for you and for everyone else. and i say this as someone who still prefers vanilla's lore #at the same time i think it's a real issue where some people take downpour as gospel and assume things about other people's creative choice #even though downpour is a DLC and it's hard to make certain claims about canonicity because of that #it has been publicly acknowledged as being an official AU. multiple times. by the MSC devs themselves #downpour is a fan made passion project that was worked on for years and years before it got DLC status #it was never meant to be scrutinized in the way it is now. i think it's more appropriate to regard it as like #a really popular fanfic most of the fanbase has read #i just feel like. a lot of the community conflicts i've seen stem from downpour's messy existence as a DLC that was originally a mod #and i think it's valuable to have community discussions about that. but also this is tumblr. so. i'm probably asking for too much

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thebirdandhersong · 1 year ago

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I think the problem. the problem is that I have always been afraid of not being invited into the inner circle. and am always wanting to be part of the inner circle. inner circle being the circle of love and companionship and communion. of course being a TCK and a bit of a sheltered homeschooled oddball child has nudged this further along over the years. but I didn't realise how STRONG that desire still burned. to actually be wanted.

#in other words today has been an oddly sad day! discovering that the friends you've made have their own group chats #that are separate from the general group chat (that no one ever talks on) that you aren't a part of is......... i don't know #i KNOW i'm liked by them and i KNOW they love me but do they WANT me around?#like. i know i'm not UNpleasant to have around. i am a good listener and a good conversationalist.#i work very hard at it because it doesn't come naturally to me.#but clearly that's not enough to be added to exclusive group chats! clearly that's not enough to be part of inner core circles #i don't know this just came out of nowhere and i feel as if i've been slapped in the face #sitting at a table where people are talking about the thing someone sent to the group chat #or the photo or quote or reel someone sent to someone else is....... bizarre.#i am trying not to be so hurt by it! i am trying not to take it so personally #it happens. i know it happens. i know it will keep happening. it is just that i thought this was a place where i wouldn't be lonely #and this is the dorm community i've invested so much of my time and energy and love into since last year.#so i think i'm justified in being a little upset!#i'm not crying about it but that's because i'm not about to cry with other people sitting here in the study lounge!#the math is probably really wrong here but i thought that if i poured love in for the sake of pouring love in #somehow somewhere along the line i would also receive love. that i would actually be a part of this community.#anyway that's not going to change how i live here! i committed myself to doing my best this last year #because i don't want anyone to feel left out or unwanted or lonely. i already made the decision #to do everything i can to love the people here.#i'm not trying to toot my horn this is just what i actually want to and have decided to do!#i have birthday cards planned! i have midterm snacks planned!#i've just worked out how i can print christmas and easter cards and stickers!#i'm GOING to love darn it all i'm GOING to pour love in #i think it hurts especially because there's the boy problem going on too #of not being wanted in an area that i DIDN'T expect to be wanted in #and then learning that there is a collective not being wanted in this whole community #it is a Lot and it is very hard and i don't know what to do with it!#i have had this lie (that i'm inherently unloveable and undesirable) in my head since childhood #and i've worked SO HARD to shut that voice up. and it is so so hard to not believe it right now

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sportsthoughts · 2 months ago

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#seen some unpleasant posts here along the lines of “shut up if you aren't american” “sick of patronising european posts” “it's worse for us”#and yes. it is worse for you. you actually have to live there. i can't imagine how much worse and i can't convey in words how sorry i am #HOWEVER please do not be naive enough to think this only impacts you #my husband's entire workplace has been working for weeks on contingency plans based on the worst case scenario that trumpet wins #he has a government job. our government is literally making crisis plans for this. it impacts him and his colleagues directly #i KNOW it is worse for all of you americans. it really is. the scale of our stress and worry is different #but please appreciate when other countries say they're devastated by this too they really do mean it

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semiotomatics · 2 months ago

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lol. i think ive reached my limit.

#i just cannot take this torture anymore #ive been at the mercy of this horrible disease for over half my life now #imagine living knowing that roughly every 3.5 weeks youre going to experience the most excruciating pain of your life #along with crushing. usually suicidal depression. and such extreme fatigue and exhaustion that you easily sleep for 14+ hours a DAY #AND ITS ALL FOR FUCKING *NOTHING*#there is literally ZERO benefit or reason for me to be experiencing this #it is 100% extraneous #and even if you go to a dr and try to get treatment their only recommendation is 1) pain killers and/or 2) birth control #which both come with their own fucking share of unpleasant side effects #not to mention theyre not even 100% effective at stopping the problem in the first FUCKING place #and imagine even tho you have this DEBILITATING DISORDER society at large has decided it straight up DOESNT EXIST #to the point where REAL ACTUAL MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS will dismiss your symptoms #not to mention people in your life who dont understand or just straight up dont believe your disorder is real #good luck keeping a job or any other major commitments #considering you'll either be out of commission for like. 1 out of ever 4 weeks #or youll have to work/whatever WHILE experiencing said excruciating pain/crushing depression/debilitating exhaustion #not to mention the GI issues and the migraines and the brain fog and the fucking. full body aches #wanna go to a concert? or plan a vacation? or just. fucking. RELAX? you better hope its not during Hell Week or youre outta luck #and youve got roughly 30-40 YEARS of this to look forward to #maybe less IF YOURE LUCKY #im fucking over it #i cant take it anymore #im making an appt to see a dr and i WILL NOT LEAVE THEIR OFFICE until they have referred me to whoever i have to talk to to make this stop #my fucking fury at having to live like this has officially outweighed my fear of invasive procedures/recovery time/side effects #let along the torture that is navigating the medical care system as an AFAB #i just. i cant do this anymore.#i want to fucking LIVE #fuck

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babacontainsmultitudes · 1 year ago

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80 or so years of life really ain't enough can I have an elf lifespan instead please? Or at least a dwarf's... I need at least a couple hundred years... Oh and a new spine every 5 or so years, if that's not too much to ask. 3. 3 years actually. Yeah, a new spine every 2 years, and a lifespan of 350-750 years, that's all I want really.

#SORRY this is such a random thing to be posting about and I guess it's a vent post haha #I suppose I've just been feeling a lot of... dread and fear lately... especially in the late hours...#''Lately'' as in on and off for most of my life but *a lot* as of the past few months #Like #Oh it's weirdly embarrassing to talk about this here it's a tad personal uh **tw (discussions of) death #But do you ever just feel paralyzed by the knowledge that one day you'll be 40? Or 60? Or 80? If you're lucky!#I worry a lot about wasting my life #I worry a lot about dying an unpleasant death #Or a painful one #I suppose I've always been gerascophobic...#But finishing school and turning 23 and not having a job and having just a hard time with my physical health lately...#I haven't been great I guess #I just feel like time has been moving so quickly lately!!!#And I've been going nowhere.#:0 not to be too much of a bummer y'all I'm not like feeling horrible rn or anything but I do need to vent I think #Cause if not it just stays coiled up inside of me.#*gah* I should channel all of this energy into Glenn in my pirate fic lol #😌 he's insecure (in part) cause he feels old #🥲 ough and I don't feel amazing about that most recent chapter but I guess that's a whole new vent #working on some different stuff for a bit.#ANYWAYS #I hope whoever happens to be reading this is having a good night ✨️#oh or day if it's day for you lol

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astranauticus · 1 year ago

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really not beating the brainrot allegations but genuinely this line has been haunting my brain for ages

#rolling with difficulty #vrla rwd #mrsn rwd #well not technically but close enough #asto stop drawing the same two goddamn characters challenge (difficulty: impossible)#technically the original line was 'i see mr-sn' but this way .. works better? flows better? its 4am words are failing me #also took some artistic liberties with the hypnagoug design bc i think austin's intention was that only its face changes #to match your nightmares #but everyone started describing stuff thats much more elaborate and he didnt stop them so #specifically he says the clawed arms and 'a large gaping mouth' stay constant but i am just gonna Choose Not To See that part #look theres no way for me to fit that into the design and make it work. its just not happening #i mean thank god for mr-sn's cape or else id have to figure out the logistics of attaching bony clawed arm to robot torso #(also why i strategically placed the rips on the cape so you cant see the arm underneath LMAO)#yeah after a certain point i was just like. ok how can i make the mr-sn hypnogoug as nasty and unpleasant to look at as possible #so please let me know if this made you upset/lh bc im the one who drew it and *i* was very upset when drawing this #in hindsight hypnagoug mr-sn has lowkey nightmare animatronic from fnaf energy and i've been fully over my fnaf phase for like 6 years so #not sure how to feel about that #art I made

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famewolf · 8 months ago

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feeling a little burnt out tbh so I think I'm going to just try and relax as much as humanly possible to avoid crashing and burning like I usually do this time of year lmao

#[static]#work has been ..... Unpleasant #home life is wonderful and amazing as always but man i spend so much time at work fklghfdgf #it's around this time of year where i start to think 'what's the fucking point of working the job i do' and i have an existential crisis #even trying to play games rn is just Too much for my senses. I need to just enjoy silly non-serious things for a week or two I think #been hanging out with friends outside of work which has helped a lot!#i need some whimsy among the constant horrors which I feel bad for needing since it's 100% a privilege to be able to have that #it sucks that work drains my happiness away!! it's really just a couple of people there that make life miserable for everyone #there's nothing anyone can do about it ... alas ... we must continue moving forward because that's all we are able to do #i also feel bad because I started ME3 but I'm going to have to put playing it on hold until I'm in a much better headspace to enjoy it #it's been really amazing so far but it's incredibly intense and sad and i know it's going to eat my heart by the time it's done with me

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theprinceandthewitch · 3 days ago

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#Why do people in the LGBTQ+ community moralize bisexuality?#It's because we are a group of people that has been deemed “inferior”#Why should they respect us as people when we are simply creatures acting on our own inferiority?#This is why you get non bisexuals and pick me bisexuals proclaiming bisexuals in a “het” relationship don't belong in their own community #even if the people in the “het” relationship are both bisexual #this is also why you get “brilliant” comments suggesting bisexuals go to DV organizations centered around helping gay people #wow Rebecca that is such an intelligent thing to say... I bet the gay people would sure love to hear bis talk about their “het”#relationships. Because you know -- bisexuals and gay ppl are totally the same and have the same problems [this is sarcasm]#your intelligence really is.... unique #I guess you also think it would be a good idea for bisexuals to talk about their “gay” relationships with straight people #see these mind games don't work on me anymore because everyone who says shit like this is actually a fucking loser #i don't need non bisexuals to lecture me on my non existent privilege... you motherfuckers haven't been on a date in 10 years #no one likes you because youre unpleasant to be around #but of course you will never see your current state of loneliness as something you are responsible for because you are a perpetual victim #it's much easier to blame your problems on someone else [ei: bisexuals] than to take accountability for your actions #and actually do the work to fix your fucked up life

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 19 days ago

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my fibro meds have truly destroyed my tolerance for antihistamines

#blue chatter #my nose has been v stuffy this week!#I take a Benadryl (already a bad idea) expecting mild spiders and feeling a bit sleepy #and Pass The Fuck Out for 7 hours #okay cool. I’ll do Claritin. it’ll take longer to work but that’s okay-#Pass The Fuck Out For 7 Hours #okay. sure. fine. I’ll take half a Benadryl; it’ll work less effectively but I rly would like to not be so stuffy-#guess what! Pass The Fuck Out For 5 Hours!#which is. teeeeechnically shorter. but still defeats the point #I’m gonna try half a Claritin but those pills are so small already #I know my gabapentin has warnings about anything with drowsiness as a side effect so I tried to do rly low doses #bc it also has those warnings for alcohol and I can drink one drink and feel like. just a tiny bit tired and otherwise fine.#so I thought an antihistamine would be no issue. I was WRONG.#also for context before my fibro meds I was able to take a 24 hour Claritin and be barely even tired #or take 2 Benadryl and feel sleepy and spidery but not actually *fall asleep about it*.#the spiders are unpleasant but Benadryl does work faster for existing stuffiness/allergic reactions. Claritin for me works better as a #preventative measure than a treatment once I’m already sniffly.#by spiders I do mean tactile hallucinations. which funnily enough I have not gotten at all taking Benadryl now.#BECAUSE IM ASLEEP #not awake enough long enough to feel imaginary spiders! which would be an improvement except I cannot keep falling asleep when I’m busy!#this is also why I’ve only been testing this on days I know I won’t have to drive or go to class/have things due that day #bc I suspected the sleepies would be worse even if I did not understand the magnitude #as a side effect I’ve now ruined my sleep schedule enough that my body is used to taking a midday nap and expects it #which is Not Helping

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orcelito · 10 months ago

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As for my post this morning. If anyone was worried. Me personally I'm okay (I guess) but my dad's in the hospital and things r still very up in the air. So.

#speculation nation #bracing myself for the possibility of Major Grief.....2!!!!#well actualy more like 3 or 4 or 5 (lol lol lol)#but likely the worst one bc it's. my dad. that's my dad.#i left work early to visit him at the hospital. hes stable rn at least (he wasnt this morning)#he wasnt conscious though. and i really really hope he ends up okay #but. i still saw my dad unconscious in a hospital bed hooked up to like a million tubes and #thats my dad. Thats my Dad.#im really trying to not do my processing until after i know for sure how things are gonna go #dont wanna start grieving until after he's officially gone #so im trying not to think about it. but it's still... yeah. unpleasant.#and theres a part of me thats so so resentful. if i have to have a dead parent why would it be the Good one?#take my fucking mom instead. hell my life would even be BETTER without her. horrible as that is to say.#but it's my dad. he's not perfect. he has his flaws. but he's still tried in a way she never ever did.#seeing him like that makes me feel so... small. makes me remember being picked up by him.#makes me remember riding on the back of his harley as a tiny little 10 year old with a helmet that was giant on me #we'll hope for the best. we'll hope for a recovery. even if not a full recovery. i just want to have my dad.#sorry. this is probably too real for my tumblr dot com. it's just been... a lot today.#negative/#death/#hospitals ment/#idfk. sorry

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raycats · 2 months ago

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why is everyone in the Mouthwashing fandom so angry all the time lol

#honestly what is going on #i'm just going to drop a fanfic and sit out of all the discourse because this fandom genuinely does not look like a welcoming place #i love a good debate and discussion but a lot of these fans are just really mean-spirited #why has fandom in general become such a deeply unpleasant thing #in the last 5 years the environment has gotten so hostile across the board. why.#for the last few years i have been doing this thing in fandom called Not Participating and Just Letting My Work Speak For Itself #and i think a lot of people would also be better off doing the same

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asinglesock · 2 months ago

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went to get my tires checked this morning and I was super nervous that something would go wrong so I called ahead of time and gave myself a pep talk and then my CAR DIED in the parking lot and I couldn't get it to start again and as soon as I went and asked for help it started up immediately. I hope I may someday become a hermit and escape this suffering.

#a sock speaks #also a guy from church works there and he saw all of this happening RIP #I hate being clueless about cars and unfortunately this has led me to associate very unpleasant emotions with car maintainence!#I'm so thankful I didn't have to get it towed or something. it could've been so much worse. my tires are fine now.

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gingerbreadmonsters · 1 year ago

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sleepy and v fed up w this blasted reading for japanese history class tomorrow. give me 45 minutes to finish this article and i will be back to talk about kissing or something

#for the blissfully uninitiated: hello i am history student #which is a fantastic thing to be but also a significant pain in the [REDACTED] when it wants to be #the professor for this class is almost unbearably terrible which does not exactly make me WANT to do this reading #but the exam is in like 2 weeks lol #so yk. i have the hardest life of anyone on earth etc etc #god forbid i actually do the degree i asked to do lmao #also i up early this morning to drag myself to the immigration bureau for a visa amendment #which meant a decidedly unpleasant hour on the metro during rush hour :(#its bc im applying for this english TA position in spring #its literally only for 5 days and tbh i wouldn't mind doing it for free bc i am sad like that and enjoy teaching for fun #but it IS paid - and paid work is Not Allowed under my student visa #so even though i literally have not even GOT the job (applications close today) i still had to go and apply for permission to work #watch as they dont hire me lol #oh i should mention - for those who may not know i am in tokyo this year #i am british and i usually go to uni in the uk but im on a study abroad year this year #i came to japan in sept of 2023 so ive been here for coming up on 5 months and i will be going back home in august on 2024 #its weird to think that im approaching the halfway point #tbh i should really just make this a separate post but whatever #coming to japan has been very strange but a good thing i think

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formerbogbody · 1 year ago

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Many magic systems are punishing or unpredictable in some way, and I love the systems that lean into those aspects, but what I love most is when magic systems are dangerous. I find myself drawn to the idea of magic as not only risky to use/perform, but outright dangerous to attempt. I want to see more magic systems that are only a little nice to casters.

#babbles #the magic sys im working on began as something very bland and safe and structured #but it has turned more and more unstable and…unpleasant #which is exactly the way i want it #still needs work but ive been having fun brainstorming horrifying magical consequences #worldbuilding #fantasy #magic systems

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victory-cookies · 7 months ago

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my boss let me do six hours instead of three today which is good, but that means that im now sitting here five hours into my shift feeling kinda fucked up

#can’t tell if I’m weak from eating very little and doing almost nothing basically every day this week expect yesterday #or if I’m not actually over my sickness and I’m nauseous again!#I took some pepto and I’m praying #the problem with this job is it’s like half an hour away from my home #so it’s not even like my other job where I can just call it a day and be home in five #I’m better off waiting here for it to pass than to be driving #I really hope I’m not still sick #I was feeling better and I’m masking and staying mostly away from people today #(I’ve been in the back counting inventory)#so I should hopefully be fine on that front #but I’d really really like to be done with feeling like shit #bc it has been a damn unpleasant week for me #and I can’t afford to miss any more work either

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