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Im going camping (again, ugh) so I might as well post this fic until then. It’s not apart of the main story but it’s Rusl and Uli meeting Kori! Fair warning, there’s some talk about premarital sex and the fear of people finding out about it including bein disowned and stuff, but that’s about it, so if that hits too close to home then look out.
Anyways Kori is a baby and I love the Ordon fam
Midna stayed for days, catching up with Link, explaining Kori’s situation more, and trying to ease Kori into his new situation. When she finally left, Link felt like he was thrown into a lake without learning how to swim. Although he accepted that he would take care of Kori when Midna was away, Link couldn’t help but feel intimidated by raising a child. He played with Ordon kids a lot, sure, but he never took care of them. If something happened the parents would be there. But this time, he was the parent.
Kori was just as scared and intimidated as he was though. He didn’t stop crying when Midna went back home for hours. Link tried hard to get him to eat but the boy just wanted his mother, so he’d sit at Link’s door and cry. After three days of this, Kori finally came around and ate the food Link would make for him, and soon he began to accept that his mom was away.
Link was already exhausted by the end of the week, trying to calm down Kori when he missed his mom, trying to balance coddling him and showing him tough love, but most of all his mental state was draining him. How would everyone in Ordon react to Kori? Should he tell them that he’s their son? How would Illia react to his son after he told her that he’s not interested in settling down?
How would his family react?
The people of Ordon looked down upon premarital sex, in fact, all of Hyrule shunned it. Link agreed with them no doubt, he never had a desire to have sex before marriage. It was a sacred act and should happen after he was married to someone. But his emotions got the better of him when he and Midna slept together that night. So if he introduced Kori as his son, everyone would know what he did, and that terrified him.
People who conceived before marriage were shunned and outcasted. Sons were disowned and daughters were labeled as whores, no good came from the consequences of that act. The thought of this happening to Link made him feel sick, and he was constantly anxious on what he should do, to the point where he could barely get out of bed.
He always wanted to be a part of a family, in fact, when he explored the temple of time, Rusl practically adopted him right then and there. They both expressed their feelings towards Link being adopted into Rusl’s family, and it was the happiest he’d felt in a long time. He finally had a family, and though it wasn’t blood related, it was good enough for him. But now… he was going to lose that. He’s been in the family for 2 years and he was going to lose everything.
So Link never left his home. He and Kori stayed inside where Kori would explore what little Link had. He knew he needed to leave his home eventually, they were slowly running out of the food he had stored away, and Kori staying inside wasn’t healthy for him, but he was too scared to face the villagers. He was too scared to lose his family.
Of course, Link couldn’t hide away forever with Rusl and Uli’s concern over their oldest child, and one day, Rusl entered his home, demanding to talk to Link.
Rusl’s face when he saw Kori said it all to Link. He knew who Kori was. Rusl was the only person besides Zelda who knew about Midna, he was the only one who knew about his journey. Rusl didn’t need an explanation that Kori was Link and Midna’s child. With all his anxieties building up, Link finally broke down sobbing.
“I’m sorry pa, I’m so sorry,” he said over and over again, expecting to get slapped, to get yelled at, to be disowned, or all three. But instead, Rusl knelt down beside him and rested a hand on his back.
“What’s his name?”
Link hiccuped and looked up, Rusl’s face wasn’t angry, or disgusted, but it was rather gentle as he stared at the curious Kori. Link was filled with confusion from his response, and it took a moment for him to comprehend the question and answer.
“H-his name is Kori.”
Kori looked from Link to Rusl and waved with a little “hi”. Rusl smiled and waved back.
“Kori this is m—“ Link stopped himself. Rusl was his pa, he always was, but it didn’t feel right to assume that he still was. “This is Rusl.”
“I’m his pa,” Rusl corrected, and Link looked up at him in surprise. Rusl looked back at him with a gentle smile, and wrapped his arm around him. “It seems I’m your grandpa Kori.”
Link looked from Rusl, then to Kori, shocked. What was Rusl doing? Kori looked at his grandpa confused, not understanding what a grandpa was, but he finally walked over to them shyly. Rusl smiled and went to ruffle his hair, but Kori drew back. Rusl’s hand hovered and Link saw him thinking. His hand slowly rested on Kori’s little head and the tension went away.
“I’m nice, Kori,” Rusl said softly and Kori smiled.
“Youw nice!” Kori repeated and Rusl chuckled, ruffling his hair. Kori giggled and they all sat in silence for a moment. Rusl frowned and gave Link a firm look. Link felt his heart skip a beat and he looked down.
“Rusl… I—“
“Link, what the hell happened?”
Link chewed on his lip with anxiety gnawing on his insides. He knew Rusl knew that Kori was his love child, he knew that his mother was Midna, but explaining the situation was still nerve wracking for him.
“Link,” Rusl repeated, firmly. Link let out a breath and fidgeted with his hands. He’s been bottling this up for years now, he might as well let it spill.
“Wh-when I killed Ganondorf I… was so relieved that it was all over,” he started, looking up at Rusl. He was staring at him intently, listening to every word. Link sighed and ignored his piercing gaze. “I was so relieved that Hyrule was safe, that the kids were safe, and that Midna was alive, and… we got carried away one night and… Rusl— pa, I’m so sorry about what we did I—“ he hiccuped again and rubbed his eyes, and Rusl tried to calm him down by rubbing his back. “I prayed nothing would come of it… I’m so ashamed.”
Rusl let out a sigh and gave his back a quick pat. He stood up silently and went to the door, making Link panic.
“Pa? Where are you going?”
“I’m going to get your ma, she needs to see this.”
“What?” Link sprung up and got to the door before Rusl did. “Pa please don’t tell her. She won’t forgive me.”
“Link,” Rusl rested his hands on his shoulder, staring right into his eyes, “Uli is a lot nicer than me, you got nothing to worry about.”
Link looked away from his gaze and Rusl’s grip tightened.
“I know my wife Link. She won’t be happy, but you’re still her boy, and you’re still mine.”
“I just… I can’t have her know—“
“Why?” Rusl’s voice raised, “because you’re scared? If you can fight the demon king Ganondorf himself then you can face your ma about this.”
“This is different pa!”
“No it’s not Link. Your life isn’t in danger here.”
“Yes it is!” Link started to yell and Kori drew back behind a chair. Link sighed and gave Kori an apologetic look. “I’m sorry Kori… I’m sorry pa… I’m just—I’m sorry.”
“It’s ok Link,” Rusl wrapped his arms around his son and gave him a gentle squeeze. Link melted into the embrace and held onto his pa tightly.
“P-pa… you guys are my life… I was afraid that if you found out about what I did then you would disown me and—“ Link sobbed and buried his face in Rusl’s neck. “I would’ve lost my life then…”
Rusl gave him another squeeze and held him there. He was silent, and Link knew he was thinking of something to say.
“My boy,” Rusl finally spoke up, so quiet Link wouldn’t have been able to hear him if he weren’t so close. “I could never disown you. When you came into our lives I knew it was a blessing from the goddesses themselves. I could never throw that blessing away.”
Link sniffled at the kind words, trying to get his emotions under control as Rusl rubbed his back. After a minute of sitting there, Rusl pulled back and gave him a stern look.
“I’m not proud of what you’ve done,” he said, and though Link knew it, the words still stung. “But you are my son, and I just want to help you get back on the right path so you and Kori can have a bright future.” Rusl smiled at Kori who was watching them curiously. “I’m not going to abandon you. And neither will your ma.”
Link gave a nod and Rusl patted his shoulder before reaching for the door.
“I’m gonna go get her, y’all stay put alright?”
Link knelt on the ground as Rusl left, every minute passing feeling like an hour. Kori felt the tension in the room and has been sitting silently as well, holding onto his goat plushie tightly. After Din knows how long, Rusl came in more gently with Uli behind him. Her face was stricken with worry and Link knew that Rusl told her about Kori. He didn’t know if she knew about Midna though.
Uli immediately looked at the child in the corner of the room, her motherly instincts going off as she wandered closer to Kori.
“Oh my,” she whispered, kneeling to his level, “you weren’t kidding when you said he wasn’t human.”
Kori stared at Uli for a long moment, confusion and curiosity on his little face. Uli smiled softly at him, before turning to look at Link, who was still on the ground. She stood up and crossed her arms, thinking of what to say to Link.
“Link,” she started, glancing at her husband for a moment, “I see you have a son.”
Link nodded quietly, staring hard at his hands. Uli stared at him for a moment and let out a sigh.
“He’s cute.”
Link smiled slightly and nodded again.
“What’s his name again?”
“Kori,” Rusl answered for Link.
“Kori,” she repeated. She looked over at Kori who was mesmerized by the third light dweller he’s ever seen. Uli kneeled down and got closer. “Hello sweetheart, I’m Uli, your grandma.”
Kori looked at Link, then at Rusl, then at Uli.
“G-gwamma?”
Uli giggled. “Yes, that’s me. And that’s your grandpa, can you say grandpa?”
Kori looked at Rusl who was staring at them both with so much love in his eyes. Link smiled at the two new grandparents talking to his son. Kori pointed at Rusl.
“Gwapa.”
Uli giggled again. “Yep. That’s us, grandma and grandpa.”
“Gwamma an’ gwapa.”
Uli clapped her hands gently. “That’s it! Good job!”
Kori smiled and waddled over to where Link was kneeling.
“Papa.”
Link’s mouth fell agape at the little boy by his side, his son. It was almost surreal being called papa, something he never thought he’d experience anytime soon. Rusl chuckled and gave Kori a pat.
“Midna raised a smart little boy. He speaks pretty well!”
“Yeah…” Link smiled at Kori, who was beaming at the praise. A heavy feeling settled in his stomach when he thought about the two years he never got to experience.
“Speaking of,” Uli stood up and walked over to them, looking rather nervous, “I… I want to meet his mother… I know her existence needs to be a secret but, she’s family now, right?”
“Ah—ma— no I don’t think that’ll be a good idea,” Link stood up and rushed to her side. “I’d love for you to meet her too but–”
“I’d like to meet the woman who had a kid with my son, Link,” Uli said firmly.
“I don’t know if she wants to show herself to you guys though! I mean Pa wasn’t supposed to know about her!”
Uli frowned and crossed her arms. “Well how come he got to know about her and I didn’t?”
“Darling,” Rusl wandered over to the two and wrapped an arm around his wife, “remember when I shot Link in the leg? Midna punched me in the face to protect him, I really wasn’t supposed to know.”
Uli gave Rusl a horrified look and Link sighed.
“There’s a lot to me that you don’t know about Ma,” Link said quietly. Uli sighed and pulled away from Rusl to get closer to Link.
“When is she coming back?” She asked.
“I don’t know, she said she’ll visit whenever she can.”
“Well, talk to her about it, ok? Tell her I want to meet her, I’ll have a nice dinner ready.”
Link smiled slightly. “Ok ma, I’ll talk to her about it.”
Uli smiled back and took a deep breath. “Ok, well, Link no offense but it’s depressing in here, so I’m going to take Kori outside, ok?”
“Wait bu–”
Rusl stopped Link as Uli offered her hand to Kori, who gingerly took it. Link watched as they went outside, every bad thought going through his mind. Will the sun hurt him? What if a villager comes by and sees him? What if a monster comes by? What if–
“He’ll be fine, Link. Staying inside isn’t good for him.”
Link let out a breath and nodded, still worried for his son. Rusl stared at him for a moment before cupping his cheeks and kissing his head.
“It’s gonna be ok son, you’re not alone anymore.”
Link leaned into the touch and rested his head against Rusl, calming down a bit as he was wrapped into a hug. After days of feeling nothing but anxiety, it felt nice. But he wasn’t out of the woods yet.
“Pa?”
“Yes?”
“Do you think ma will even like Midna?”
Rusl’s silence was the answer he got. He sighed and tucked his head into his neck.
“Hey now, Uli is very sweet. She expresses her love through her words… and Midna….”
Link lifted his head and gave Rusl a look, being met with defensive raised hands.
“Midna is very sarcastic! That’s all! She expresses her kindness through her actions, not so much her words and that might clash with your ma’s sweetness!”
Link rolled his eyes but understood where Rusl was coming from. Rusl gave him one more squeeze and tried to lighten the mood.
“Hey, meeting the in-laws isn’t easy, luckily she already met me, and I like Midna, so don’t stress out about it, ok?”
Link nodded and Rusl started to nudge him towards the door.
“Let’s go, you need to go outside too, you’re a little pale.”
Link smiled a bit and let Rusl nudge him out the door, where he recoiled from the bright light. He heard giggling and saw Uli playing with Kori. The boy seemed to be enjoying himself, though he was in the shade, the sun didn’t seem to be hurting him, and Link smiled at him. A heavy weight was lifted off his shoulders as he realized that his parents won’t abandon him over this, and that would make this whole thing significantly easier for him. Having the support of them there would hopefully give him a normal enough life.
“I’m sure Colin would love him,” Rusl interrupted his thoughts. Link turned to look at him and he was greeted with a smile. “He’s Rela’s age too right? He’ll have kids his age he can hang out with.”
“Yeah,” Link said softly, suddenly feeling exhausted. Rusl tilted his head at him and patted his shoulder.
“You should get some rest Link,” Rusl suggested. Link shook his head.
“I can’t leave Kori alone.”
“He’s not alone, me and Uli will take care of him. But it looks like you’ve had a rough few weeks.”
Link sighed and rested his head on his pa’s shoulder. Rusl chuckled and sat down with his feet hanging off Link’s porch. Link followed and watched his little boy run around the clearing, chasing bugs, pulling grass, and observing the scarecrow. He smiled slightly, and let himself drift off into much needed sleep.
#but of an abrupt ending#a lot complicated feelings#love at twilight#kori#legend of zelda#legend of zelda au#zelda au#twilight princess#smiles writes
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License to Kitty.
#dungeon meshi#izutsumi#marcille donato#chilchuk tims#I still stand by my tags on the Izutsumi character study piece I did in January - but I will repeat myself on a few lines here:#I *really* love this character. I love that all of the dungeon meshi crew are complicated and have difficult to love components.#But Izutsumi is a particular kind of hard to love. I foresee a lot of people being turned off by her abrasiveness and lack of teamwork.#She is very self-centered and openly goes against what the party agrees on.#She's a picky eater in a story that is 50% about eating good and healthy food!#It is in part about her growth but admittedly even *then* she remains rather true to her self-centeredness.#Even though she isn't as nice or funny or compassionate as the others...Izutsumi is still someone worth loving.#Even the more difficult people are someone worth loving.#And those people in turn are people who have something and someone they love.#She may be a girlcat but she is the most human of them all.#I hope that if you are an anime only watcher and are feeling put off by her at the moment; you'll give her a chance.#By the way: *yes* I worked very hard to draw that skateboard pose. It was worth it.#EDIT: HAPPY 500th POST OF POORLY-DRAW-MDZS!!! What a comic to commemorate the milestone with!
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you're in the habit of denying yourself things.
if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.
but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?
what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.
and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.
you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.
so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.
it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.
sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.
oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.
#warm up#this isn't good#writeblr#this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3#but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker#and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS#the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!?#..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much.#on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt#and medical debt#i will put that first little bit of cash#into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments)#i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option#but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver#oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs
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Michael and Vanny had wild teen years in FNAF
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#vanessa fnaf#fnaf vanny#micheal afton#security breach#fnaf 4#fnaf fanart#MORE OF Vanny and Michael hanging out 🔥🔥#I like to think both Michael and Vanessa were problem kids#just part of that alt emo moody scene#makes sense seeing both their teen years were pretty complicated#Vannesa finds the photos cute! Think they could of gotten along#if they were born around the same time and all#while Michael believes he’d been awful#he’s definitely more embarrassed about these old photos#I HOPE yall like Vanessa’s teen design!!#I had a lot of fun designing a younger look for her..#her being a scene girl just feels so right#Hope I got both Michael and Vanessa’s vibes right 🩵💜
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People keep on asking for more Baby Robin and Papadile so here is more Baby Robin and Papadile. Now never ask anything from me ever again
#My art#One Piece#Long post#Sir Crocodile#Nico Robin#Alternatively panel 5 would've been a close up of Crocodile's face from Robin's POV where he looks like he's giving her a death glare#Not intentionally he's just a big scary bastard with a Resting Murder Face and Robin is a small traumatized child#But I wanted to focus on the silliness of the moment so you get the goofy version instead#IDK man there's just something very funny to me about the idea of Robin just randomly info-dumping about a subject she's read about#And Crocodile being like ''?????????????????????? The fuck you talking about??''#Robin leaves the ship's kitchen and Crocodile just stares at the tomato like ''...It's a fruit? Forreal?''#(Meanwhile Robin is sweating bullets like ''I called his favorite vegetable a FRUIT right in his FACE he's going to KILL ME'')#Robin grew extra feet from the bottom of her feet to reach the counter and that actually isn't me trying to explain bad art away#In the original Papadile comic there was a panel of Robin doing the dishes with extra feet to reach the sink but I cut it out#(It was a stress relief comic I did not feel like drawing a complicated background in detail) (BUT YES I THOUGHT OF IT)#Nico Robin Age 11 is *more* than capable of cooking Crocodile just does not trust her with his food. At least not yet#She did start doing the dishes unprompted and continues to do so (mostly out of fear). Croc told her she didn't have to but allows it#IDK a lot of people seem to headcanon Crocodile as incapable of cooking and like. Surely Mr ''I don't trust people'' knows how to cook#Like he doesn't have to be a master chef or anything but and maybe he enjoys not HAVING to cook (pain in the ass with one hand + knife/hook#But surely he can cook decent enough. SURELY#Botanists don't @ me I know the ''tomato is a fruit'' thing isn't fully accurate this is just a silly little haha comic
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Since book 7 part 5 (the part where we meet Meleanor/Maleanor 👀) is coming to EN this month, i would love to see your take on lilia’s proposal to meleanor! i mean they were like little kids right? it couldn’t have been that serious…i think the only reason she even brought it up again is because she could tell lilia still genuinely loved her…(even if he didn’t realize it himself?) but, oh well! Let’s think about silly childhood shenanigans to numb the pain! ^_^ (orz)
oh shit?! get ready for a doozy guys, it's comiiiiiing ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ
I chickened out of posting the whole thing (look, I get VERY carried away when it comes to these wacky kids and their Tragedy), but I do believe that it probably ended with Lilia getting embarrassed and just shoving the first thing he sees into his mouth to try and cover for it.
(we're just lucky it wasn't a frog this time)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 5 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 5 spoilers#please excuse the Dissertation that's about to happen (i have too much headcanon about them)#they've been ambiguous about most of the fae aging/developmental stages (plus lilia and mel's species age differently)#so this is entirely me assuming based on context#but i think that lilia being ~99 was probably about the equivalent of 9-10ish?#(i don't think his age maps perfectly onto 'human age times 10') (if only because i absolutely do not believe general lilia is 29)#(but in this case it feels right to me)#and i think of meleanor as being just slightly older (like ~11-12ish)#so like...kids but not LITTLE-little kids#so i think lilia was serious in a 'i have a huge crush on you and i haven't thought beyond that' kind of way#and meanwhile mel was more cognizant of how their dynamic was basically#lilia: i would die for you#meleanor: that's dumb#(lilia 600 years later: man she was right. that was dumb.)#but yeah I think she might've assumed (or hoped) he would grow out of it#except whoops oh no it just got worse#and then raverne made things MORE complicated and you know honestly maybe getting murdered was kind of a relief#meleanor in heaven: well at least he won't accidentally raise my kid to have the exact same -- are you kidding me#(i have too many thoughts to express properly i'm sorry) (i just. love these morons a lot okay.)
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Bad: I don’t think people understand the effect QSMP had on some of the streamers in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. [...] Imagine that you were given a friend to play Minecraft with — like your best friend — BUT if this person dies, if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Can you imagine what that’s like?
Bad: If you did not live through the QSMP, if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience the Eggs were. They were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with.
Bad: I’m not saying I regret it. To this day, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. [...] I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, it was just that fun.
Earlier today during his stream, Bad shared his experience and thoughts about the Eggs and the significant emotional (and traumatic) impact they had on him and his fellow QSMP members.
This clip a very edited-down version since his commentary was ~13 minutes long, so I highly recommend checking out Bad's VOD if you have the time. (Timestamp: 47:36 - 1:00:14)
[ Full Transcript ↓ ]
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Bad: To be fair Chat, I really think the QSMP... I don't think anyone really can relate to it, Chat. It's something that's so... I've told people this before, like– but it's hard to understand. Right? Like...
Where was I? Sorry Chat, I'm losing my train of thought. Look, let me explain Chat– here's the dealio, ok? Here's the dealio, and this is what I mean when I say like, it's important to keep this in mind, Chat. Ok? It's important to keep this in mind:
I don’t think people understand the effect that the QSMP had on like, some of the streamers, in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. This is the analogy I’ve given to every person who I’ve like, shared this with. Imagine you meet somebody– [He hears a strange noise] What the fudge was that? Did you hear that?
Anyway– Chip! The story I was just relaying to Chat, Chip, was this: I was sharing this story with them, I said– I was giving them an analogy.
Imagine Chat, for example, imagine that you were… playing Minecraft, with like– you were given a friend to play Minecraft with, Chat, like your best friend, and [unintelligible] were like, “Hey, you get to play Minecraft with this person, right? BUT if this person dies – they’re currently your best friend, Chip – but if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Ever again.” Can you imagine what that’s like, Chip?
I don’t think a lot of people understand like, what that does, right? I’m not gonna say that like, it creates this situation, Chip, that like, messes with your head, but it– Chip – but it totally, totally does, Chip. It messes with your head! It literally puts you in a position where you’re second-guessing and thinking about everything, Chip! You’re thinking about EVERYTHING Chip! Ok? And that’s the problem, Chip– is you turn into a paranoid monster because of it, Chip! Like, you don’t understand Chip– I was- I was so afraid of every dirt block, I used to carry a shovel with me Chip, and I would specifically right-click dirt blocks that looked suspicious because mines, Chip– mines could not be shoveled! Like, I was crazy, Chip! But here’s the problem, Chip: that craziness is still there. I’m genuinely like–
I remember thinking Chip, that I would one day– I was like, “I’m going to move past–” here, let’s go up here, Chip. I remember thinking one day Chip, I was like, “I’m gonna move past the underground base, one of these days. You know, one of these days, I feel like I’ll be able to grow and achieve the desire to build a base that doesn’t have to be underground.” But I don’t think it’s possible now Chip, because I think… I just don’t know. I feel like the paranoia– there’s still like, residual leftover trauma from that situation, Chip.
But here’s the problem Chip: I don’t think I don’t think– I don’t think people understand it. Like, I just really don’t. But I also don’t blame them Chip, ‘cuz I don’t think it’s possible to fully understand it if you haven’t lived through it. Like, if you did not live through the QSMP… I’m talking about the QSMP, I don’t- I don’t know if that was obvious– if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience like, the Eggs were. Right? I don’t think people realize it. Like, they were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with, Chip. So, it’s just one of those things that–
[He’s interrupted by a loud rumble of thunder above them]
Did lightning just strike here? Is it thunderstorming out…? But anyway, Chip. That’s the food for thought.
But that’s the problem– Like, every time it rains in Minecraft, I have to like, look at the sky, and I get this weird, like, second--hand vibe because of the trauma. The trauma, Chip! The trauma is real! But that’s the point– I’m not saying I regret it. I, to this day Chip, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again.
[He falls down] Dangit, don’t come over here Chip, ‘cuz I’m coming back up! Ok.
I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, Chip, it was just that fun. I really wi– I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible, Chip, to give people that same energy, like that same experience. You know what I mean, Chip? I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible again. Like, EVER.
Because… because like, one: I will say on one level Chip, I will say on one level, like– it’s sort of emotionally like… It’s emotionally devastating, and I think to actually go through that– and this is where like, if I ever do end up going to a– see a therapist, if I ever do end up going to see a therapist at any point, I’ll talk it over with them and be like, “Hey, what do you think about this?” Because I genuinely think on one level, like– it’s created this fear of forming attachments because of like, how things can go. You know what I mean? Like, the fear of getting attached to something and then potentially losing it. Like, it’s- it’s a genuine thing. I think people forget about that.
Like, at the end of the day, everything was RP, right? On the server. You know what I mean? Like, everything was RP, Chip. BUT at the same point, even though it was RP Chip, it was still like– there the reality of you were still playing like, with another person, and you were still getting that experience, and it felt like you were genuinely attached to someone and you didn’t want anything bad to happen to them. It was GENUINELY stressful, Chip.
But at the same point, I don’t regret it, and I don’t think it was a bad experience. I’m–
Sometimes in life Chip, you go through stuff, and maybe you have a certain amount of like, things that like, can happen, that you’re like, “You know what, maybe this wasn’t a good thing that this happened,” but at the same point, you still aren’t necessarily upset about it, because… it’s like growing as a person, right? Here’s the thing Chip; even bad situations, Chip, can lead to an overall good outcome. Like–
Even if you’re going through something bad Chip, just because a bad thing happens doesn’t mean that only bad things have to come from that. That’s one of the things I tell people all the time, Chip, is that if you go through a bad situation, you can learn from it, and you can use your experience to help others. And you can be that– you can be, at the worst-case scenario, you can be someone for other people who are going through that same experience to lean on when they go through that.I think there’s a certain amount of comfort that comes from that; from knowing no matter how bad your situation is, you’re not the only person who’s experienced it. You know what I mean?
#Badboyhalo#BBH#Bad#QSMP#January 8 2025#Edited#I know folks are going to add their two cents on this subject in the tags / comments / replies (and as always you're welcome to do that)#But for the sake of my sanity please don't be an asshole to any of the CCs / ex-admins / fellow fans / anyone else. Thanks#Most folks here don't need a ''Don't be a dumbass'' reminder but I had to block someone for that earlier and it was a bit disappointing#This is going to be a Tumblr exclusive clip because I don't trust Twitter to have common sense or common decency about this topic#Tumblr exclusive#Anyways business aside – that black line on the side is just part of Bad's stream btw. He just Has That#Took too long for this to render otherwise I'd edit it out because it's annoying#I'm just realizing this screenshot doesn't even have Dapper OTL but it's the best one I have so I gotta work with what I got#Honestly; I still miss QSMP dearly... I love the core intent of the project and the multicultural exchange#I love all the language barriers that were broken and I loved all the stories that were told and watching beautiful friendships bloom#But I am still so angry and disappointed about how things ended and all the poor communication and the admin situation as a whole#It's a complicated feeling#I agree with pretty much everything Bad says here#It's ironic that he uses that analogy because I've said almost the exact same thing when explaining why losing any Egg was so devastating#We weren't just mourning for the characters. We were mourning for the admins too#I'll never forget that last stream with Tazercraft and Richas; and Pac ending stream in tears#I wish they'd done away with the Egg life system. I wish they'd done a lot of things differently#If the project ever does come back in some shape or form I hope they are more transparent about things and have better communication#I dunno how I'd feel personally. They would have to do a lot of work regaining people's trust#And frankly I don't think they'll ever regain that trust from a large portion of the community#I remember near the start of QSMP I saw a comment from a fan that simply said ''QSMP; please don't leave me feeling bitter''#I think about that comment a lot
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Beings and entities, @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are has once again approached me with an amazing concept, so we present to you... a fusion, Steven Universe style! we're calling him Charwin because we can't be creative all the time.
AND there's lore. It's us, of course there's lore.
I tried to include it in the comics themselves, but basically, there was a case of dissappearing ghosts. Just like Esther, the people behind this were trying to use the pure energy to their advantage. These rocks are supposed to amplify the energy, but it kept resulting on the ghosts dissipating. The boys were captured and experimented on (yes that's horrifying. Not pictured here because... the reverse verse is angsty enough, so I wanted this one to be a bit more fluffy), but since they both went through Hell, they're stronger than your average ghost, and the rocks stayed on! The fusion was an unexpected side effect.
Plus he can make a weapon appear! it is just an oil lamp though.
#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#charwin#yes i shamelessly just used ruby and sapphire as their respective rocks#it suits them okay?#i kept drawing the wrong gem on the boys so if that tells you something...#charwin is constantly hugging himself because he is made o-o-o-o-of lo-o-o-o-ove#oh niko thought this might be a good opportunity for a boy she knows to understand his own feelings better#it wasn't#charwin has complicated feelings about himself because they love each other but edwin has a lot of things he dislikes about himself and#charles thinks he's a bad person#so this is all a mess#are we calling this one fusion au?#fusion au
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I had the idea of the brothers sharing their music tastes with each other. Then it turned into this.
In case you can’t read my handwriting the songs are:
-“Black Bear Road” by C.W. McCall
-“Lay All Your Love On Me” by ABBA
-“Candy Paint” by Post Malone
-“Numb” by Linkin Park
-“Hurt” by Johnny Cash
(Also to be clear, Floyd is happy that Branch has similar tastes in music, not that he’s sad.)
(Also also, I think John Dory would have a complicated history with country music since I love the idea of JD and Delta Dawn being exs lol)
(Also also also Poppy gave Branch the boom box, that’s why is has some stickers on it)
#trolls#trolls 3#trolls band together#trolls brozone#trolls branch#trolls bruce#trolls john dory#trolls clay#trolls floyd#my art#art#sam draws#sketch#music taste#headcanon#this sorta turned into my own headcanons about the bros#and a little angsty#Floyd and branch are especially emo#lol#I imagine there are a lot of complicated feelings going on#also tried a different style#idk how I feel about#just experimenting#also branch like sad country music#that’s canon#also also also I listen to all theses songs#they’re good
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If you give someone a ride home, or walk someone home, don't leave or drive away until you see them get inside and close the door behind them. Make sure you see to it that they get fully get inside safely before you leave.
This also applies to temporary residences, such as a hotel, airbnb, dormitories, ect.
Seeing to it that they fully make it inside safely isn't just about fear of something as drastic as an assault or a mugging. It would also be awfully annoying and stressful for them if they lost their key, and before realizing they're locked out their ride or walking companion has already sped off, so now they're stuck outside alone with nowhere else to go, and possibly a dead phone (when it rains it pours). Or maybe there's dangerous fauna in the area. Or maybe the neighbor's poorly trained dog with aggression issues is loose. Or maybe they slip and hurt themselves while walking to the door.
Even if you're absolutely positive they'll make it to the door safely, it's still a kind and thoughtful gesture to let them know that you care enough about their safety to see to it that they make it inside safely.
#manners#good manners#courtesy#etiquette#politeness#submission#I wanted to add something about dropping someone off at work or school#but I feel like that's more complicated and I felt like this was already getting too long#I feel like people are often more likely to do this for residences than places like work or school#because residences are often more isolated than workplaces or school#so less likely than someone can come to their aid right away if something is wrong and they need help#same with why this is more likely to be done in the evening or at night#because it's less likely that a neighbor or random passerby will see them and see that they need help if it's evening or night time#I feel like people are less likely to do this for work or school first and foremost because of traffic and time constraints#but also people are more likely to be starting work or school in the morning in broad daylight#so lots of witnesses and passerby-s around if they need help for whatever reason#but I think if it can be helped this can also be a nice thing to do when dropping someone off at work or school#especially if they start work or school in the evening or at night#and also especially if their school or workplace is somewhere more isolated
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A Grave Visit (Extended version of this comic from last year)
Comics master post
#i'm not arguing that rhoam was a great father and that he deserves forgiveness#there are a lot of complicated feelings to unpack#circumstances were not kind to any of them#zelda#botw#totk#link#zelink#king rhoam#my art#my comic#i think this is the only time she visits his grave
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Dev this is serious stop beatboxing.
#fop nature au#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#dev dimmadome#fop dev#dale dimmadome#emetophobia#art#digital art#fanart#comic#Sorry for taking so long on this I was procrastinating bcs its just kinda a context page that needs to exist for other stuff to happen#I love it when they interact like disgruntled roommates#like on one had he SHOT HIM on the other hand whats Dev supposed to do? Go no contact?? Hes ten#This takes place like 2 days after the deer attack#Dale got whisked away to fairy world to get speed healed and had his memory wiped of the whole thing#Devs relationship with his dad is so messy cause like yes his dad hurt him but also thats his dad and he loves him.#even if his dad doesnt love him back#He wants to Want To Hurt his dad. thats the right way to feel about after what he did. and he does feel that way sometimes.#but on some level its was kind of a relief to hear that he couldnt wish harm on people#because even if he could he isnt sure he could go through with it#and there would be nothing worse than having the power to do something and yet. not#sorry if that sounds insane#complicated relationships with your abuser my beloved#also just the quiet acceptance Dev has for (what he thinks is) Peri straight up lying to his face#Dev likes Peri a lot but he is also deeply aware that Peri hides a lot of things from him#I think he appreciates that Peri tries to shield his feelings. His dad doesnt do that#ofc Peri isnt actually lying here I just think the layers of such a small interaction are hilarious
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Taking the current topic as an excuse to ask you to tell me all the reasons you love Rarijack. Your art for the ship is so sweet and intimate I'd love to hear any in depth thoughts you have.
Breathes in.
I think what makes their dynamic really strong is that they have opposing personalities but aligned values. It's deeper than just "opposites attract." Rarity's fancy, prissy, and femme while Applejack's modest, rough, and "masculine." But both value hard work (to the point of being workaholics), their families (both have guardianship over their little sisters), running successful businesses, and eventually each other. Their relationship can be boiled down to, "Despite our differences/disagreements, I still like you because we value the same things."
We see their relationship develop so much. In the first season, they can't stop bickering about surface-level differences. By season four, they still bicker, but will mend their relationship because they can't help but do nice things for each other. In Trade Ya, they start off arguing over personality differences (Applejack likes old junk and Rarity likes useless crap). Then they pivot and start arguing that they value their relationship more than the other. In the end, they mend things by sacrificing their needs and buying each other a gift. Even if they don't understand it, they know it'd make the other happy. And that's all that really matters. It's a genuinely sweet moment that shows how arguing can be healthy and necessary for relationships to strengthen.
We even see them dropping their hang-ups about each others' personalities. In Made in Manehattan, when Rarity runs off in dramatics about someone's fashion, AJ doesn't roll her eyes or scoff, she smiles. Oftentimes, their conflicts are very common domestic conflicts romantic couples face. Applejack's Day Off is about a woman's inability to balance work and life and find time to properly spend with her partner, causing her partner to feel neglected.
By season seven, they're actively participating in each others' interests. Any problems or conflicts that arise are dealt with, and they come out the other end stronger and closer. In Honest Apple, AJ pretty much spells out why their relationship works so well: even though she doesn't understand fashion, she can recognize and appreciate how much work it takes and wants to respect that. When she realizes her mistake in the episode, AJ goes above and beyond to fix things and apologize to Rarity. They care about each other so much.
The two go out of their way, sacrificing their personal desires and beliefs and doing things they normally wouldn't, to make the other happy. That's just love.
There's Simple Ways, where AJ gets stuck in an unwanted love triangle between Rarity and her hipster crush. And her frustration and anger can be so easily interpreted as AJ finding herself in a terrible position; the girl she loves wants another man, and that man wants her.
I dunno. I've always had a preference for opposites attract ships, but Rarijack's stuck with me like a brain worm because they have the perfect chemistry. The way they show they care, or do things for each other, I've always read it as the truest representation of romance in the show.
#rarijack#i refuse to be embarrased by how much i know about this damn pony show#this is part of the reason why i never bought into appledash unfortunately. their values aren't aligned#rd lies a lot and often for very self serving reasons#and she distances herself from her family because they're. cringe? overbearing? her parents are very loving and supportive#meanwhile aj's. whole fucking thing. is honesty and family#ask me#anon#this is why it's still a little baffling they aren't canon#we got SO much real development with so much potential subtext#and it never really crossed the finish line#i dunno every time they do something to show they care i'm reminded of myself and my partner too#whenever i see something that's inconvenient or complicated or against my personality (adhd haver) but i know it'd make my#boyfriend happy. i do it anyways. and i always think to myself “wow. that's what love is. that's what it feels like”
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he's,,, a cat
adrientte fruits basket au ;)
#miraculous ladybug#miraculoustalesofladybugandcatnoir#miraculous fanart#miraculous ladybug fanart#marinette dupain cheng#ladybug#ml ladybug#adrien agreste#chat noir#cat noir#adrienette#ladynoir#ml ladynoir#adrienette fanart#westy doodles#HAHA YALL GUESSED IT#okay im loving this au a lot but HERES THE THING#i have no idea how im going to go about it story-wise#im not sure im going to include the superhero lives??? i feel like that would complicate things#if yall have any ideas of where to flush this au to send me an ask!! lets brainstorm!!#comic#furuba au
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Does Mycheal know that humans live shorter than him?
He does! Has been long aware of it, actually!
#mushroom oasis vn#mychael ask#i understand it brings a lot of angst but his relationship with death is complicated and now even moreso with MC in the picture#he'd def feel sad about it though but chooses to focus on the now
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Hi it's just to let you know that the official romanization of Revaan's name is Raverne ! Also they have romanized Baul's name to Baur !
Twst coming back at us again with the least expected romanization! thank you everybody (oh god my inbox) (no it's great, I literally asked for this and the reactions have been INCREDIBLE, thank you all!)
I do like Raverne though, I think it's got a nice fancy sound to it! (I had kinda suspected it was going to be an R instead of an L, so the fact that it's SO close to Laverne except for that is hilarious to me personally.) and Dragoneye Duke is honestly probably the best translation for his title, I wasn't envying the localizers that one. :') Baur instead of Baul I was NOT expecting, but in retrospect I think his name's supposed to be a reference to the Bauru crocodile, so that actually makes way more sense!
someone else also said Meleanor has become Maleanor, which is the REALLY weird one to me, because I was so surprised it was written as Mel instead of Mal in the first place?! oh god no I can't decide which one I like better. 😭 (I wonder if they might change it to Mal...they have made romanization changes before) (like I remember House of Distraction being corrected to House of Destruction in Playful Land) (I did check and she's still Mel for now, but I dunno, they might Mal her up and some point and save me from having to make a decision about which one to use) (HECK I CAN'T DECIDE)
uhhhh thank you for letting me ramble about anime names, let's just say MONOGRAMMED SWEATERS FOR EVERYONE
#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 part 4 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 part 4 spoilers#mel is so cute but mal fits with the rest of the draconias better#eng version no you were supposed to save me not make things MORE confusing#anyway raverne huh#that uh. that sure feels like it's supposed to evoke raven doesn't it.#what does it mean WHAT DOES IT MEAN#hold on i'm going to flail around embarrassingly about anime character theories now#(okay first a disclaimer: i do think we need to sit down as a fandom at some point)#(and have a discussion about exactly what is actual canon versus meta speculation versus jokes)#(because i think there has been. some confusion. over that re:crowley and raverne specifically)#(but i do feel justified in being like THEY ARE PROBABLY CONNECTED SOMEHOW RIGHT?! right now)#like i really don't think it's as simple as crowley being raverne but with memory loss or something#(and if they pull that on us i'm going to need an EXTREMELY good explanation to go with it to justify that)#they've gone out of their way several times now to make a point about them acting and sounding different and it feels very intentional to m#(and once again: i super 100% absolutely do not believe that lilia wouldn't recognize him with the top half of his face covered)#i just think the contradictions are a lot stronger than the connections right now but there ARE some connections and i'm 👀ing at them#to be fair the connections are mostly meta like crowley being diablo/raverne being evocative of raven#also the general 'raverne mysteriously disappeared and apparently had distinctive eyes' thing#versus 'crowley's past is unknown and he never shows his eyes'#(i will argue that crowley DOES seem to have some kind of canon connection to briar valley)#(since he is clearly some sort of fae and the masks are a briar valley thing)#and that is kinda it right now isn't it#okay hold on i had to delete some tags because i used too many (thanks tumblr for letting me know and not just vanishing them OH WAIT)#so tl;dr: i'm in the 'crowley is connected to raverne somehow but it's more complicated than just him being in disguise' camp personally#but that will probably change as we get more info and also don't take this as an anti-speculation thing because i love theories HOORAY
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