#a little messy but im tired
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Note
I’m curious to know, when you say Remus’s function serves like an alarm clock, do you think Remus is aware of/intentionally fulfilling that role? Because I have always interpreted it as, from his perspective, his role is simply to be c!Thomas’s creativity the same way Roman is. His version of creativity is just rejected by c!Thomas and the other sides (often for good reason, but sometimes not). Even though his ideas are sometimes dangerous or unrealistic, the role of creativity isn’t always to do everything that pops into your head. Roman has unrealistic ideas as well but because they’re not as upsetting to c!Thomas, they’re seen as fanciful rather than totally forbidden. A lot of what Remus wants is just for c!Thomas to censor himself less and explore darker, more mature themes in his art. Idk about him representing ‘repressed truths’ since intrusive thoughts are by definition not rooted in realistic conclusions or in what the individual actually wants. I def see what you mean about Remus serving as an alarm for Thomas’s mental state, especially in WTIT, but idk if I see Remus’s intentions in WTIT as being that complex and altruistic. Especially since he’s genuinely upset whenever c!Thomas and Logan ignore or defeat his creative inventions. (Also sorry if any of this comes off as confrontational, I genuinely love reading your analyses and I’m just curious to hear your perspective more!)
hello! no worries btw, idt this is confrontational at all! i find it to be an interesting point of discussion :3
the reason i entertain the idea of remus being repressed truths (or thoughts in general) is because i acknowledge remus is a faulty representation of intrusive thoughts, in a meta level. this episode was created before major discussions of what intrusive thoughts really means blew up on tiktok. even by how remus is executed as a character, it is clear to a lot of us that what he suggests isn't Just intrusive thoughts. rather he's a mix of that and impulsivity!
but for me, remus Has to be aware of and Cares for his role as a side of thomas. i expounded it more in my extensive orange side theory, but to reiterate: the baseline need of the dark sides is to get listened to, but because thomas has very bad black-and-white thinking, it's almost required that they be meticulous with their plan execution. in this case, remus kinda Has to get along to get what he ultimately wants: to be listened to.
i generally think all sides do things in the interests of thomas and themselves. i don't think it can be divorced from each other actually— their entire foundation of existence begins with their roles in connection to thomas.
it is still. a very open question to ask though about how does remus actually want to give back to thomas. when i say he's an alarm clock, i say that he's hyperaware of thomas and the sides' struggles and his presence means you should probably do sometjing about it. but then we don't actually know if the end goal is if he wants thomas to get better by acknowledging the intrusive thoughts and winding down, OR if thomas should truly follow through with these thoughts.
there's a lot of mystery when it comes to remus and his true intent. all i can say is that he does want the best for thomas in a way only remus sees fit. you asked if he was aware of his role outside of creativity and for me, yeah! i think there's too much scenes for insecurity callouts to the other sides for remus to be unaware of his role :3 man knows all your secrets! all kept hidden!
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Has anyone seen my dog?
He doesn't come when called, has a habit of stealing, and hates father figures.
He's a terrible dog but I miss him and want to see him again.
#ended up a little messy but im tired and I just wanted to draw the doggo#felix fathom#felix graham de vanily#flairmidable#miraculous ladybug#miraculous fanart#miraculous ladybug fanart#selkie draws
593 notes
·
View notes
Text
@saiintvalentiine hello. the npc fic left me absolutely in shambles i needed to draw them.
#☆ my art .#took some liberties in their designs and some other things i hope that's okay um.#i struggle processing a lot of info so i might have missed if there were descriptions of what theyre wearing#i only remembering seeing the cloak mentioned that's like stitched from two different ones?#its a little messy im tired and having trouble focusing im sorry#those didnt really come out how i wanted but ummmm its fine i guess#i could yap so much about how much i loved the fic and their interactions but uhhh i cant gather my thoughts enough rn#im gonna be thinking about them and the au so much....#kenadian#wifies
109 notes
·
View notes
Text
I can't believe Cookie run collabed with One piece no wayy
extras below:
I like the idea of Sabo being underbaked ok
#one piece#koby one piece#coby one piece#monkey d luffy#cobylu#kobylu#moonel.art#i havent tapped into my cookie run artstyle in awhile sorry if its a little messy#Coby is so white I need to put him in the oven more#im sick and tired of all the cookie comps and super epics </333
569 notes
·
View notes
Text
🩶❤️
#just some quick doodles of 2 drunk men#soul eater#spirit albarn#dr. stein#spiritstein#steinspirit#i love them sm!!!#the sketch is messy sorry#Im just a little tired after taking JLPT#middle aged man yaoi#yippee
42 notes
·
View notes
Text
spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
This guy can do no wrong and so much wrong at the same time
#had a little fun with this one#its messy but im too tired to clean it 🫠#midterms suck ass#color theory was my best friend#ninjago#lego ninjago fanart#jay walker fanart#jay walker#jay ninjago#ninjago jay#my art
213 notes
·
View notes
Note
:0000 *dies from feels of Flower having to leave their babies for the sake of the future*
With the grandchild who chose violence, any brave idiots wont be leaving the castle without a bite mark, or worse, without a limb.
PK holding 2 types of baby: a sleepy one who cries on little sound and an energetic one who maims ppl on sight.
He's gonna need 2 more arms for these kids.
SORRY FOR THE LATE REPLY TO THIS IK ITS BEEN LIKE WEEKS AND THE CONVO HAS MOVED ON BUT
(ID start: A rough doodle of The Pale King from Hollow Knight as a human holding two half-vessel toddlers. End ID.)
Needed to doodle Grandpa Time
They're surprisingly calm here, for once
#asks#spooky arts#faaf au#oc: spectre#oc: sting#this is SO messy but ngl i pulled an all nighter and am waiting for my ohone to finish charging bc i need my asmr to fall asleep and i#forgot to charge it earlier so im just sitting here bored and tired as hell KDHDJDH#so doodling a little something felt like not a bad idea#my ocs#i love this au. very bittersweet. PK and WL do their best at being grandparents and raising these two in their child's stead
20 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ooooookay so not sure im gonna keep going to walmart to get my groceries unless absolutely necessary cuz the one closest to my house is awful
Its fucking massive. The app tells you the wrong aisles for everything. And there were way too many fucking people. Not a fan.
#also experienced some culture shock going into a gas station and the cashiers being behind bullet proof glass#theres also like. armed guards at the smaller grocery stores#walmart did not have guards#by the time i got to the gas station from walmart my brain was so fried i couldnt register that there was a keypad on the pump#i normally pay inside anyway but i didnt really feel like talking to anyone after walmart#but then i put my card in and it was like “enter your pin or hit enter to continue”#and for the life of me i could not find the damn keypad#so i went inside anyway#and then once i started putting gas in my car THEN i saw the keypad#which i probably looked directly at before but ugh#I FORGOT TO GET GRANOLA BARS AGAIN#AHHHHH#im so tired#im so glad my job requires very little mental energy#cuz i dont know that i have the bandwidth for anything else this week#and its only monday#but i can handle work#work is easy#i mean the project im working on rn is annoying but its not HARD#the boxes are just messy as fuck and it takes awhile to sort through#like fucking hell why you gotta just shove the papers in and get them all bent out of shape#this is a mess#also me and my mom apparently both wanted toaster waffles today cuz we both bought them on our respective shopping trips#so we're stocked up for awhile lol#same kind same size box and everything lol
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
finsihed reading jonny appleseed by joshua whitehead last night 😢 wtf do i do now .
#v good book . i liked it a lot + recommend#kiddo say#i read the first few pages of Dune maybe ill read that next#ooor finissh a book i already started? pff#jus wanna read punchy good messy fiction#like i love a short fiction book that attacks and bites you and is also v tender + a little surreal + deeply rooted in the authors life#im v tired i need to do funding application -_ -
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
a note from yours truly
a lil emotionally distant when it comes to this site sorry - I don't really have any interest in social media other in discord - maybe it's because i have a tendency to doomscroll but also I've just,, haven't felt very happy with my online presence so to day.
given how things are currently sometimes hopping on the dashboard makes me anxious. i still will reblog important world events and what not , but I kinda just.. shut myself off whenever I'm on here , unrelated to world events .
sometimes i hop on to see what my favorite artists have posted, but that's it really. long story short I just don't have a lot of interest in social media - or at least being myself on here, I feel more comfortable on discord then anything (though.. ill have to weed out a few things first -some spaces I don't really like or feel safe in I guess.)
i sound depressed but im really not , I'm more neutral than anything, I'm kinda going thru artblock so I'm tryna hold it out you know? ever since i left the t/m/c fandom I've got better things to be fixated on - though there's always going to be that hole in my heart where it lies - it lead me to met my 2 of my close friends after all,
OK but regardless though - im not going to be active on tumblr as much now, if any of my mutuals or whatever want my discord just send me an ask - tumblr pms are trash as I'm never rlly sure if the other person sees my message.
#me#god given ramble by yours truly#i will post art on here tho! ill just be .. less personal nd less active i guess -_-;;#mentally i haven't been very well either as i have an addiction to attention so if nobody talks to me in a while#i just automatically assume they don't like me or are purposely ignoring me.#im not gonna use the term 'mentally ill' because that' doesn't fit me personally - more so 'a little brain messy'#tried to throw in some optimism do not worry gang I'm not depressed or suicidal I'm just a lil tired - literally I'm a lil sleepy
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
he slep
#im so tired omg and for no reason#this was not what i had in mind but then again i also dont remember what I had in mind so#messy lineart or well is it even lineart w that little effort i dunno but anyway my beloved#nabari no ou#nno#my art#yoite
38 notes
·
View notes
Note
could i perhaps get a doodle of watobu even the tiniest little thing i really want to see them in your style,,...
of course, anon. <3 their dynamic was so funny. wato was NOT paid enough to deal with wemmbu's shit.
#☆ my art .#☆ request .#might be a little messy#sorry im tired#wemmbu#wato1876#watobu#that's a thing apparently
71 notes
·
View notes
Text
#it's coooold and my head huuuurts and i don't feel gooooooooood#...#k ive complained i can move on#shift complicated and im so tired and cold and nauseous#apartment so messy brain so messier#how to tell u were just barely clinging to sanity to get through the holidays#i just Feel Bad dude it's so hard to do all of the stupid little things consistently and now i have to do all of them at once#weh#my boss last week like youre gonna have a lot of emails abt this outage when u get back but ignore them#so i ignored them#come in tonight like oh btw actually............. they fucked up the outage u were gonna be able to ignore#AND GUESS WHO STILL HASNT BEEN TRAINED ON RADIO MASTER CONTROL#gonna start biting with the intent to kill
4 notes
·
View notes
Text
i'm seriously tired of this like,,, constant feeling of never really feeling important to anyone. and it's like, it's 100% on me, it is 100% my fault i feel this way but,,, eugh
#blaire.txt#it isnt anyone's fault at all im just like super unwell LOL#its like. i mourn the friendships where i genuinely felt wanted. because it was ME who fucked them up and now i just feel legitimately like#no matter how many people i befriend and burn through it's like i can never ever feel truly wanted or like im at all important to them#and when i DO#when i do feel wanted and important its always so short-lived and they move on to someone else#and im just like really tired of wanting to be loved and never actually feeling loved#every friendship i was a part of where i felt like i was genuinely important or wanted has completely eroded and its like. all my fault and#im just. really fucking tired of never feeling loved like ever#and its not anyones fault its not like people are mistreating me#I AM THE PROBLEM. I am the reason i feel unloved#because theres something wrong with me and i can never ever feel like im loved even if people say they love me!!! it always feels so hollow#and every time i see my friends get along better with other people i always feel so fucking jealous and its like its such a me problem#but its so hard to get out of this mindset because its one i've been trapped in for YEARS#i've dug this hole and now i lay in it because there is no way out and im so. tired. i just want to be loved#i want to be important to someone i want to be someone's special person their number one and its like#that'll never happen to me!!!! because I AM THE REASON no one views me that way!!!! Im unstable messy reactionary lazy and mean#and so fucking anxious about every little thing that like of FUCKING course no one would love me!!!! loving me is HARD because#i am not MEANT to be loved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am meant to be hated or seen as disposable!!!!#ugh im just so fucking sick of feeling disposable.#vent#ask to tag
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
aftercare but still,,, in the dynamic,
aftercare praise, "you did so good, im proud of you, you're so smart," or "you're learning so fast, good job, you did amazing" or "good job, you're growing up so fast aren't you?" and like,,,, anything that still keeps you in that fuzzy feeling and makes you feel so tiny and loved,, "you did so good, did you have fun? you're such a quick learner," and "amazing job, you took everything so good for being so small,," or like, like- just aanythimg super babied and sweet n soft,, reallly going into keeping the safe fuzzy feelings going and not just, stopping
#umphfm... after care brainrot#i want to feel so loved n tiny#i want.. so much. that i know isn't gonna happen really#i feel so guilty for the things in my head. especially recently uhm.. i wanna be held n kissed n called little and kept in that tiny mindset#it feels somuch safer n nicer to be small and babied and. idk. idk if its even about the. like. fucking? idk#i think its about the intimacy and the love. its so.. hard through a phone. i hate long distance..#i want to feel better. wanna feel like im actually being held and babied instead of.. idk#idk. idk.#cuz everything is so good n feels so nice n my partner hasnt evr messed up but. idk. im in a state lately and its.. idk.#i wanna be hugged n feel like someones favorite little girl. small n delicate and pretty. wana be someons best doll daughter n be smothered#with affection n love n soft words n praise but. also wanna be dirty n bloody n brused and so messy and out of it. wanna be on my knees#gettin smacked around n choked and kicked. talked to like im nothing. im just somethng to break. but.. loved.#likr..#ur favorite little thing to. ruin#idk. whatever#anyways. im.. tired
0 notes