#a letter to you

[tarotwithavi]

A channeled letter from a loved one for whoever needs it 💌

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My Dear sunshine,

I just wanted to reach out and tell you how proud I am of you. Every step you’ve taken, every decision you’ve made, it’s been inspiring to watch. I know it's not always been easy, and there have been so many voices trying to pull you down, but I see your strength, your determination, and I want you to know that you are on the right path.

Remember those moments when people told you that you shouldn't do it or that you couldn't? Those words weren’t a reflection of your abilities or your potential. They were shadows of their own insecurities, their own fears of stepping out of the comfort zone. They projected their limitations onto you because they couldn’t fathom the courage and vision you have. But you saw beyond that. You’ve always had this incredible ability to look past the noise and focus on what truly matters to you.

You've faced so many challenges head-on, never backing down even when the odds seemed insurmountable. It takes a special kind of person to keep going, to keep believing in themselves when the world tries to shake that belief. You are that special person.

You have this remarkable gift of turning doubt into determination. For every person who said "you can't," you’ve shown them "I can." And not just shown them, but proved it in ways that leave no room for doubt. You’ve paved your own way, built your own path, and in doing so, you’ve become a beacon of hope and inspiration for so many others, including me.

The path you’re on is not just the right one; it’s the one that’s meant for you. It’s the path that will lead you to places beyond your wildest dreams, and I’m so excited to see where it takes you. Your journey is a testament to your courage, your resilience, and your unwavering belief in yourself. Never let anyone dim that light.

Please remember, no matter what anyone says, no matter how tough things get, you are exactly where you need to be. Trust in yourself, trust in your journey. You have everything it takes to achieve your dreams and more. Keep pushing forward, keep believing in yourself, because I believe in you with all my heart.

With all my love,

[caosinterlude]

mb d akrilla? :3

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[trustonlystars]

Things I really wanted to tell you;

I miss you, and I am not saying this because I miss having you around, or for the reasons that I miss making love to you, of course I do but I miss you in a way where I miss having conversations with you. You know I became this extremely talkative person around you, because you've always been so comfortable to me. I really miss that, and I know you do too because the way we shared our life with each other was not something we shared with anyone else. At times I get so selfish and make it all about how I am hurting, I have always been focused and presumed that I am the one who's hurting more. You're probably keeping yourself busy and that's how you're avoiding facing the void but I'm sure there are days when you really need me too, and I am sorry love for not being able to share that moment with you. I am sorry that life turned out to give this twist to our story and I don't know what's ahead but for the first time this feeling of it being wrong is not seeming to fade away. I've tried everything and I don't want to reshape the strings we've drawn to each other and we both know that not talking probably doesn't help the feelings off. In fact I think we are always talking to each other in our thoughts, and there's always going to be a place where we are together. We've known and taught each other to remain sane by remaining connected in our thoughts and that's still there. I can still feel and sometimes I have to stop thinking about you so it doesn't bother you. But you know I'll be right here when you need me. And somedays are really too much, like I don't know why but ever since I've heard you laugh on the call. I didnt even realise how much I missed that sound, your voice is one thing but baby the sound of your laugh is just so therapeutic and I'm not going to sing songs of comparisons. I know there won't be anyone else who will find that peace in it, but I still wish for you to find someone who helps you define love in even better language. If we were magic I want something blissful to happen to you. I am this close for the universe to turn around and tell me we can be, I am this close, so very close sitting with faith an inch away from the final word. I am going places but my heart is seated just there waiting for the universe to accept my plea and say the word, these silent asks have taken all my heart and I am here waiting for life to happen. Because this right now is okay, but it doesn't feel of what's between us. I could stop talking to you but I'm with you in my thoughts and I'm either missing you or either wishing well for you. I'll be right here when you need me and I am just waiting for the universe to align stories and sequences in your life so you could be at a place where you would want to have love and keep it, where you get to a point where you finally start asking for the things and people that you really want in your life. I hope things get easier for you love, I really wish that for you, that everything, every single thing that you put your heart on comes easier to you, with no efforts. If my stars are listening, that's what I want for you, if our stars are listening I want every single thing that you put your heart on to come to you in magical ways with no effort. I want that kind of life to come to you, and I believe you deserve all of it and so much more. I want you to open your heart and seek life the way it seeks you.

- trustonlystars

[wallowinginpoetry]

A letter for the resident of the planet Mars,

It is a harrowing, horror-filled realization, a confession, all blank pages and wet spots on the paper where one could not stop their tears. And it exists. It exists and it has existed, somewhere between our intertwined fingers and that night in the car we spent in the complete silence.

You were raging, gripping the steering wheel tightly, staring ahead like if you stared long enough, the Earth would crack and we would be 20 000 miles underneath it. My rage was less visible, a quiet, burning thing, consuming soul, and if a child were asked to draw it, it would be dark, dark.

My eyes still linger on the night sky, where the stars blink back at me, and I try to find the brightest dot, hoping it is your planet. And I wave at it, foolishly, childishly, thinking that at the same time you are waving back at me. Remember those shadows of my room? They said that you have moved on. I understood. I was not upset, I was not raging, I was not screaming. I understood, quietly, the way I always was.

However, my mind still does linger on those quiet days, love that could never be contained, the burning that couldn't be slowed down, the passion that never died out, instead becoming bigger until we eventually burnt down with it. I am not angry, I never was, I confess my sins on Sunday, in an empty Church, priest's eyes following me around with pity. This letter should end with me saying that I am doing well, alive and breathing, but I have been decomposing ever since you left me.

With no regrets, undoubtedly, endlessly, foolishly,

Yours, the resident of the planet Mercury.

[tobbi-loves-levi]

Literally, my favorite part of that chapter actually <yes that chapter is written> @sixpennydame

[punkglamwham]

*knocking on door of tumblr*

May I come in?

*sits by you on the comfiest safest couch and gives you the biggest protective big sister hug I can give and offers cookies and a cup of tea or whatever is your favorite drink and takes hand*

How are you?

I saw what happened.

And it’s perfectly fine to be scared and upset about what happened.

It’s ok to cry and scream.

it’s ok to be angry it’s okay to get sick

it’s okay to hide in your bed for a while

Don’t let your demons take over because that’s what they want.

Do not harm yourself sweethearts.

*wipes away your tears and offers you a plushie version of your favorite animal*

Shhh..it’s going to be alright no matter what.

Please Take a few deep breaths

In through your nose and out through your mouth repeat as necessary.

May I offer this gentle reminder?

you are safe in the world that is made by your favorite things.

No one can ever take away that magic or erase that joy of your heart.

So Put on your favorite movies and escape the world.

Read all those fanfics that made you feel like love is stronger than anything

Rewatch a good episode doctor who or star trek or a episode of looney tunes.

Grab a pen and write your feelings down,

history will want to know your feelings and thoughts when everything is In happier times again.

Listen to your favorite songs and sing your heart out.

Take time away if you need

Did you know that the same stars that you looked at and wished on as a child are same ones that shine in the sky now?

It’s true and always know that you are loved

Be kind and brave little soldiers

Love

Chey.

[thoughtless-ramble]

[acesgarden]

✿ Iris - Your Friendship Means so Much to Me

🫶💯❣️

I accidentally clicked on the kast two emojis but why do they kinda work

Not me writing this while work is slow literally no body is here 💀 ooo but those do workkkk. (Then I finished this a while later lolol)

Dear Lori,

I think i’ve said it enough times already ahaha but genuinely, you are not only one of my favorite mutuals, but one of my favorite people on this app. You’re so fun to talk to and your writing is just beautiful (yes, I read most of your writing without you knowing 🤭.)

I love the way you support and love my ocs and whatever I create with them. It makes me happy knowing they’re appreciated, I don’t get to share them often with people. I love the way you support others work too.

And seeing you grow and growing with you has been so fun and amazing to experience. I can’t wait to see where you go this year and the next and hopefully beyond that from my side of the screen. I hope somewhere, sometime, somehow in the future I'll stumble upon your first book or books, and that I'll get to enjoy them. I hope you get to succeed as an author and get an amazing group of readers to cherish your works.

Thank you for reaching out and becoming my mutual.

Yours truly,

Ace <3

[tarotwithavi]

A message for you from a friend 💌

Let your heart be open to the wonders of life, and trust in the strength and intuition that guide you. In every moment, there is a chance to grow and create, to turn dreams into reality.

Hello,

I want to remind you that you're surrounded by people who love you, me being one of them. Remember that you are a source of creativity and love, capable of nurturing not only yourself but those around you.

Whether through a gentle touch, a kind word, or a moment of self-care, you have the power to make a difference. Celebrate the connections you have and the warmth you bring into the world. You are a vessel of compassion and creativity , let these qualities flourish and guide you on your journey.

Take a moment to breathe deeply and appreciate the richness of your life. You are cherished and loved, and your presence is a gift to the world.

[namzii-rocks-grief]

Dear "Tesco" John,

I'm so sorry for your loss, lad. My sincerest condolences at this awful time. The loss of a loved one is hard to process, especially when they choose it. And she gave you no reason to be concerned about her wellbeing beforehand, so it must be a massive shock to your system. She was 3 months pregnant with your child, too. And you were the unfortunate one who discovered her hanging. That is an absolute head-fuck, that, mate.

After my "bestie" killed herself last year, I can only imagine how you must be feeling. She had hanged herself, too, but I was fortunate, I suppose, that I knew her mental state and the risk she posed to herself. It was her 4th attempt, after all. But when it comes out of the blue like this, it's baffling, to say the least.

All these feelings & thoughts that make us feel uncomfortable & uneasy are crashing against our soul, grinding against our beliefs. We must ride this tide of uncertainty without restraints. A struggle we didn't choose to partake in yet here we are; drowning in an ocean of sorrow and despair, drifting down a fast-flowing river of grief towards a rocky, death-defying, unforgiving waterfall.

Sadness. Anger. Fear. Relief. Guilt. Shame. Denial. Indifference. Abandonment. Envy. Failure.

You're gonna block all that out, though, aren't you? You're gonna hide away from your emotions and suppress how you feel, right? You can not process how you feel, so you will numb your pain.

And so the pattern continues...

When I saw you earlier, you were standing outside Tesco with a can of beer in your hand. You're wearing your brave face. I saw your lip quiver when I asked you about what happened to her. I read in the local news about it; the local friendly, homeless drunk had passed away, but the report surrounding her death was very vague. A 35 year old was swiftly arrested but released as there were no suspicious circumstances. You spoke very matter-of-fact, completely devoid of any emotion.

She had hanged herself. You found her. You tried to save her but it was too late. Fuck it. It's done, init.

You clearly just want to numb down & forget. And you use illicit drugs and alcohol to do so. You use denial to dismiss your very justified feelings because you've really never been taught how to feel, process, and then let go.

If we deny and suppress how we feel, those feelings manifest physically, emotionally, mentally, fiscally, etc

For you, your trauma manifests as addiction, homelessness & isolation. You're estranged from your family. You have no contact with your children. You are an addict, you're homeless, and you're going nowhere fast.

And so the pattern continues...

You were standing outside Tesco, being your usual friendly self. You've got a can of beer in your hand that you're hoping will last. You're hoping someone will buy you some food & maybe some more beer. You're probably hoping to receive some money donations, too, from the passer-bys so you can buy something a little stronger, no doubt.

I can't afford to buy you any food or a beer today, unfortunately. It's my "cash no flow" week. I'm reduced to using my Tesco club card & Nectar points, 'til the end of the week.

You are a talented artist with big dreams of moving to Japan. Japan, the home of anime, the land of the rising sun where you hope to live & find work where you can create, get paid & possibly inspire others to achieve their dreams.

Yet, you're standing outside Tesco right now. You're pretending that you are okay, as you take small sips from that can of beer that you're clinging onto for dear life.

I've lived up in these there hills for almost 7 years now. I'm from the city, 10 miles west of here. I've settled in this semi-rural town that's becoming a bit ghetto now. History shows us that this little town rose to prominence as an international centre of textile manufacture as it was a boomtown during the Industrial Revolution of the 19th century. It's a hilly little landscape that's got a fascinating history with some strangely interesting people thrown in the mix, and they're from all walks of life.

You were one of the first people I met here. A young, skinny, homeless guy who was trying his best with the rubbish hand he was dealt. You told me how you'd lost your way after your long-term relationship broke down. You, a young guy who had latched on to someone else in the hope of love and had moved into her home. You, a young guy who had planted his seeds without setting his roots prior. So, when the relationship inevitably imploded, you found you had nowhere to go except the cold, harsh streets of this little hilly town. Plus, you are estranged from your mum & siblings due to issues with your step-family so you couldn't ever go back home, in your eyes. Your family ties are fraught with mis-trust & uncertainty, and you've admitted that you've made it difficult for your family as you just push them away, as it's easier for you that way.

And so the pattern continues...

I noticed your sketches for sale on display first. I respected that you had a good little hustle there. And that you recognised your talent but stayed humble at the same time. Once we got chatting, you didn't shy away from your role in your downfall. And you were quick to not place the blame on others. You seemed to put it all on yourself, which was quite refreshing, if I'm honest. You did not seek sympathy from anyone. The way you spoke was just very matter-of-fact. I respected your honesty about the struggles you've faced and the problems you've created by your own refusal to feel. And to take any accountability for your emotions.

You prefer to experience numbness.

I remember not long after we first met that I saw you walking down the main road. You were as high as a kite. It didn't register with you at that time that our paths had crossed earlier in Tesco's carpark even though we had talked, and I had bought you a sandwich. And I remember feeling disappointed in you as we walked by each other. Your eyes were glazed over and empty. By this point, you had shared with me about your Japan dream, and it made me feel sad as I realised then that you'd probably never make it. Your chances were getting slimmer each & every time you got high and/or drunk, even though you've got the skills & talent to be successful.

And so the pattern continues...

You're probably still standing outside Tesco even though they'll be shutting up for the night. You're probably still clinging to that same can of beer. Unless someone has been kind enough to replace it with a fresh one. You're probably still pretending like you're not burning in Hell, too. Still wearing your brave face...

"Like a man should."

Something has got to give, though, lad. You have to make changes if you want your dream to become your reality. You have to allow yourself to feel, no matter how painful it is, then you can let it go. But as long as you carry on suppressing your emotions, the pattern will continue, and you will be stuck in this rut until the day you die.

You deserve so much better, but talent alone isn't enough. There is only one person stopping you from achieving your goals... and that's you. Luckily, you're in control of you, so make the necessary changes and get the help and support you need, then you can thrive.

I sincerely hope it works out well for you. I truly do.

Look after yourself, yeah.

And, good luck.

©️namziirocks

[cant-you-be-m1ne-forever]

Dear my dearest.

I don't mean to disturb, i just think I need to say this. I don't mind if you consider this as pathetic, or vulnerable, or desperate, or even cringe, because me myself consider those things I'm going to say worse than that.

These are some thoughts of mine, which I don't know how to change and I'd like to have your assistance to change it (or not, if those things I'm going to say is actually true to you):

- I still consider myself as a replacement. I don't know how but my point of view is, you tell me all of these beautiful words because that's what you couldn't say to the one you love, and you always wanted to say it to her.

- Your intellectual is trying to make yourself love me and foul yourself, when in fact, you can't. You probably in the most possible way, are just healing, and feeling better with life, but you can't love me, and you don't consider yourself to be mine.

Let me be clear; I don't need you to be my lover if you don't want to and you decided it just because there's something on you crossed the line of friendship but it can't be considered as "love" since it didn't reach to that extent. I don't want you to "take responsibility" just only because i love you, and i don't want you to force anything just only because you want to keep my treatment around. If i don't switch statement then I'd still be the same, and nothing would change. So you don't have to do that.

You're free to take a step back. I'm not saying that I'll leave you, but I'll let you decide wisely this time. You're free to take a step back. Think twice and carefully, are you able to carry to weight of the word "love"? Do you really think there's a chance of us? Do you still have faith in what you're seeing, and do you want me to come assist you all the way, and are you sure the person you're going to love after your healing process, is me?

I'm still considering your feelings towards me is being attached. Because I'm safe, because i treat you like how you wanted her to treat you, or them to treat you but sadly none of them did. I want to be with you so i already lowered so much of my standard, which can pressurize you once I tell. So don't worry, i feel not much of things when you can't meet it, because it's already being stated at first since you can't give me the love like I do towards you (again, i don't blame you, i can't, love isn't something forceful).

And you said, you would want me to tell you how to treat me well. I'm trying to repress the feeling of guilt telling you this, but here's the first request:

- Please read all of this. And reply my questions, tell me what you actually think, and don't lie to me, don't foul yourself, stop, just look straight at the truth and fix me where I said wrong or tell me which one I made it correctly.

This can be long and I'm sorry I made you read this paragraph, i know you hate reading, but I really need a conversation to you so yes, please do.

I'm trying to do something right in this relationship, since I feel like I'm not good enough, never be enough, never be the one and always out of your world, my existence is out of your world. I love you and I want to continue our relationship, personally (I'm sorry)

I really want to beg you not to leave me, beg you to be mine, and treat me better but I right now can't, because that could be way too pathetic, and I'm sorry but my intellectual self feels like you're not safe enough for me to beg you, because that means i show my most vulnerable self to you, which will set my expectations even higher, and it would hit me so hard if once my brain finally decided to kill itself by switching statement forcefully.

So yes, I'd rather beg you to choke me 'til I'm dead, because this is so painful to take, and i don't want to stand this any longer.

From:

Your... Uh-... lover.

[glorygirlki]

My therapist says I should write a letter to you for my own closure.

Not that I feel it would do any good, but here goes...

Words can't describe how much you changed my view on love for both good and bad.

From the day I laid eyes on you, my soul recognized yours as if we'd been here before. As if Shakespeare had written our love story before we even started. Filled with love, true solace, tragedy, and heartbreak.

A love that started at the speed of light. Intimacy deeper than the ocean. I knew from the beginning it would be dangerous. But, I cherished every moment I had with you.

The way you'd speak wisdom and life into me when I'd be at my lowest. When you'd allow me to soak your t-shirts with my tears and constantly reminded me to breathe. Until you'd rock me to sleep in your arms like a baby. Sometimes I wouldn't even be sleeping and would hear you pray over me. God, to experience you was a blessing.

Lying in the dark at night, holding each other. Spilling out our biggest dreams, darkest moments, down to our unfathomable fears that would never leave our four walls. The same walls that held the sounds of our laughter, screams, fighting and our all day love making.

The slightest touch of yours would send butterflies from my stomach to head to toe. You spoke my body's foreign language on your own without me having to teach you. To be held by you was a privilege, to have your lips against mine was a gift the way you'd steal my breath every single time was so damn good, even if it was a crime. I couldn't resist.

The nights I couldn't sleep I'd lay next you. Prayed over you. Watched you sleep. Head on your chest, ear to your heart, counting every single heartbeat, never missing a beat. Counting every breath you'd take.

You were my center. My safe haven. Even during our own world of chaos. No matter how far, whatever argument that caused us disruption in our sanctuary of bliss, love and peace. You were my home.

Blessed to experience a love like yours. A lot of first experiences with you that my heart could never erase, no matter how hard I tried.

And on the dark days I'd pray our hearts would find their way back to one another.. Until one day they no longer did.

The days you couldn't bare it all I held your darkest secrets, I carried your pain so you wouldn't have to. Anything I could do to save you. I'd do. To risk my soul to save yours.

Now I carry you with me everywhere I go. You live within every song on my radio, every book I touch, movie I watch, down to every meal I cook.

May the woman who gets to experience you now knows how to hold you when the world is cruel to you. That she caresses your emotional and physical scars you don't bare to speak. To sit in the silence with you when every alarm in your nervous system is going off.

I wasn't prepared for our story to end this way. With so many unwritten pages.. Saying goodbye to you is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

If our souls meet again in another lifetime, I'd do it all over again, and again, again. Until I run out of lifelines.

Sincerely Yours,

Kiana🦋

[priestessofpresephone]

Just tell me that you hate me now, Just tell me that and I'll leave you be. I dropped contact with you and deleted everything you could contact me on. So why did I reach out?

Was it because I missed you?

I knew you wouldn't want to hear from me after that, but I did what I needed to do to better myself to be good to myself. To learn to love myself again to learn to laugh again to learn how to be a person again. To find a way to even out to find a way to make me, well me again.

So why am I so surprised by your coldness when I expected it? Why am I so surprised by how quickly you wanted that conversation to end?

Five years- Five years we were together. And you're the one who left me. I tried to be sympathetic and empathize with your feelings over our relationship being over. I know I changed but that's because I lost someone close to me. Someone who I brought a child into this world with. Someone who was by my side for 8 years, and you left me because I just wasn't the same. I needed space after that I had to figure out what I was going through. I knew you wanted to support me but there was no way you could, no one could. I had to learn how to be alone for my sake. I had to learn how to be a person again and not a victim.

I don't think you'll ever understand that kind of pain, and if you ever do I am so sorry. But I'm not going to let myself feel guilty for doing what I needed to get done. I'm not going to let my self guilt eat me away until I'm nothing more than a hallow shell. I am above that now.

I was hoping we could be friends but it's clear now- after just 1 month of absolutely no contact that now you want nothing to do with me. I could say all those paranoid thought I had when we were together were true, now I'm just a memory of a pretty face and words on a screen.

And yes it's upsetting and yes it does make my chest hurt and my heart tense and fall into my stomach thinking about that. But I've learned I need to not put other peoples feelings before my own, that it's okay to feel my emotions and feel them how they come now and no longer allow them to dictate my actions.

With all this being said I want to apologize. For everything we know I did, I want to apologize for the hurt I caused you and the stress and heart ache. I am truly sorry, but you'll never know that.

I'm writing this here because I need to let these emotions out, I need to feel this but I don't need you to hear it. I guess this is my good bye, in a long self centered vent. Good bye to you and may life treat you well, may the gods watch over you and guide down the path in life you so deserve. I'm sorry Loki had been rough on you this last month and I'm sorry he's playing these factors in your life.

But maybe it's what you deserve. I felt like I knew you but in the same breath I felt I didn't. I always brought it up and you never changed. You stayed bottled up about your friends about your personal life, about it all. Unless you were complaining about a car or you were complaining about the home life, that's all I knew.

I asked Loki one day during my journey to right those who have wronged me and bring upon them the consequences they deserve to have. And so he did, I'm not sorry for asking him for help but I am sorry for what happened to you.

I'm done being sorry, and I will no longer contact you. You can reach out to me when you're ready, but I know now nothing I can say or do could fix the friendship I have ruined and I just have to be okay with that and if that's how I have to be then I'll learn how to be okay with it.

Goodbye.

[such-a-freak]

A letter I will never send. For you.

You treated me horribly and it was half your fault for being so cruel and half my fault for letting you. But still holding on to it after all this time is entirely on me.

I want to apologize for that. I’m sorry for begrudging you for moving on when I should’ve done the same. I’m sorry for expecting you to think of me and care when I should have been doing that for myself. I’m sorry I let you define so much of my self-worth when that should’ve come from me and not anyone else. I’m sorry for all the envy I felt over the fact that you can fall in love with other people so freely and easily when I can’t. I’m sorry I focused so much on all the hurt you caused me when I should have been focusing on all the lessons you taught me and how they made me an infinitely better person. I’m sorry I stayed in that restaurant for so long. I’m sorry I held on so tight to love you never wanted to give me in the first place. I’m sorry it took me so long to learn to enjoy life again without you in it.

I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. I know that’s not what you would have wanted for me.

My hands are open now and I know you will tear and shred your way out of my heart but you are free now.

I’ll always have love for you but I’m letting you go. I’m letting you go. I’m letting you go.

[polengl-blog]

Hello you,

You are a passionate and loving soul. I hope and pray that you find someone who sees you with the same love and care that you offer them. Someone who looks at you with fervor and won't let anyone come between you because they know they belong to you and no one else.

I hope you find someone who shows you that love is an action, a choice, and a commitment. Love is patience. It’s recognizing your worth despite any shortcomings. It’s someone who chooses to stay and work through challenges with you, rather than seeking solace elsewhere. It’s about consistency, protection, and building a life together, with you as their priority.

I hope you find someone like that. Until you do, take this time to be that person for yourself. Stay strong and positive. Know your worth and believe that someone special will one day come into your life to stay forever.

Cheers to you.

Xoxo,

Polengl