#a clear answer to any of those questions or at least not anytime soon because my cranium is messed up and unreliable but i won't get the

[fionnaskyborn]

there's something to be said about the very specific feeling of frailty you feel when you come face to face with just how little you've experienced. twenty-odd years on planet earth and you haven't really watched all that many movies. an unlived life facing an uncertain future. i do not know where to point the finger of blame because i live untethered from my past, floating in the present with no clear point of reference no clear definition of who i am or what happened to me and how i turned out the way i am (fucking. can you guess why five is my favorite game. insert that one lyric from that one modest mouse song.) but you're still here, and you can still learn, and you can catch up, but it still feels like you're a pitiful little nobody looking for excuses trying to explain why you're still new to the whole being alive thing. i've got a good head on my shoulders, though, for all that's worth, so i think i might be fine.

in other news, i watched scarface tonight. it was certainly a movie. don't really understand how the movie made it big, but it did have some damn good music. i mean, i don't know. i'm still learning about the world i live in. maybe it really is as much of a masterpiece as people make it out to be and i'm too dumb to see the reason why it's considered a classic. maybe i'm right. i can't tell at the moment. it's kind of a beggars can't be choosers situation - if you ain't watched that many movies, then you can't really be a good judge of quality. but, oh, well. it's one more movie watched. it's a win because i watched a movie. and i'll watch more movies.

[bird-in-the-space]

Echoes of the Unknown

After recovering from your illness, you talk with Emily and the human trio. You learn little about the bots. However, the idea of officially joining Team Prime leaves you in doubt.

Warnings: Ratchet being grumpy, a bit social anxiety, Miko taking pictures without permission, and a lot of self doubt.

Chapter 10

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After Ratchet finished the cleaning progress,  infused you with fresh processed energon, and fixed up your dents, he made adjustments to your body after hearing about how your limbs dragged you a lot due to their weight and how much trouble you had moving them. The process felt like forever, but he finally gave you the clear to stand up and move while he made finishing scans. 

“Alright. How do you feel? The adjustments I made should have made your arms and legs more lighter for you to move,” Ratchet asked as you stretched your arms, and shoulders and tested your knees. Everything felt much better and not like you were carrying limbs that felt more like weights. 

“Much better. I feel like I can finally move without exhausting myself,” you explained. 

“Thank you… doc… you said slightly awkwardly. 

He grumbled at the nickname. “Make sure you do not go drinking any more earth oils. It’s unhealthy and bad for you,” he said before proceeding to do something else. 

“Lesson learned,” you said before seeing Emily walk up to you. 

“How are you feeling? Is the headache gone?” she asked. 

“Yeah. The headache’s gone, and I do not feel like I’m going to pass out anytime soon,” you explained. 

“That’s good. You gave me quite a scare when you passed out in the alley like that,” Emily smiled. 

“Yeah, sorry about that,” you said, feeling embarrassed and a bit guilty for scaring her. 

“Don’t be. You were not feeling well. You were probably gonna pass out sooner or later,” she said. “I’m glad we got you the help you needed before anything serious could happen,” she added. 

Jack, Raf, and Miko then showed up. 

“So… (Name).... what is it like looking at us from there?” Jack asked. 

“Everything is… smaller than it should be,” you answered. 

“Dude. I never knew Vehicons had faces behind their masks,” Miko said. “I thought the eye line and the smooth surface was their face,” 

You frowned. “Haven’t you been with these guys longer than us? Wasn’t there at least one time you saw these cons having faces?” you questioned. 

“We try to avoid putting ourselves in danger. Miko tends to do the opposite so she can take pictures of our bots scrapping the cons.” Jack crossed his arms while looking at Miko. She only rolled her eyes. 

“Well, this is different. Now smile!” Miko took out her phone and took a picture of you. The sudden camera light made you blink your eyes for a moment. 

“So, how long have you three known about these guys?” you asked. 

“For a while now,” Raf answered. 

“You do not have to worry about these guys accidentally stepping on you?” you asked. 

“We’re careful enough. I guess you do not have to worry about getting squashed since you’re a bot yourself,” Miko pointed at you. 

“That’s perhaps the only relief,” Ratchet scoffed. 

You didn’t know what to think of it. Not getting stepped on was one thing, but now you could accidentally do the stepping, and you were not certain if you could trust yourself to be that careful. 

“So… now that you decided to stay. You could become an Autobot,” Jack started. 

“Not a bad idea. Hey, maybe we could finally look into a new look for you,” Emily suggested. 

“Yeah. If you ever joined a fight, the bots could mistake you for the enemy because you still look like one of those Vehicons,” Miko said, making punching motions. “That would be really bad for you,” 

“Ugh—” you stayed silent at the suggestions. 

You, an Autobot? 

This was not your war. 

“I don’t really know about that,” you said. 

“One moment, please. I… I need to clear my head for a moment,” you said, walking away from them. Emily looked after you with a frown. 

You found yourself a lone corner and leaned against the wall with a sigh. 

“(Name)?” 

You looked down to see Emily in front of you. You kneeled down to her level. 

“What’s wrong? Something’s on your mind,” she asked.  

“Nothing. It’s just… my social battery is not very high right now,” you excused as it was partly the truth. 

“But there’s something else,” Emily stated with her hands on her hips. 

You stayed quiet, unsure how to explain it to her. 

“Come on. I won’t leave you alone until you tell me,” she said. 

“It’s just…” you sighed. “So much happened today and now we know that there’s a whole alien war going on. I mean it’s insane,” you confessed. 

“I’m glad these Autobots are friendly, but… me joining these guys? Becoming an Autobot?” you questioned. 

“I might be a cybertronian now, but I am very much still a human from inside. This is… This is not my war,” you said.  

“We got lucky escaping the Decepticons, but I can’t fight. What can I do for them? I’ll be more in their way than be any help,” you asked. 

“I get what you mean,” Emily placed her hand on your finger. 

“You do not have to join them if you don’t want to, and you do not have to do any fighting. I guess that was just Miko getting overly excited,” she said. 

“However, after getting to know them a little. I think this is the best place for you to be. They’re not that bad. I have a good feeling about this so how about you give these guys a chance? Become friends with them? That way you have people you can turn to for help,” she suggested with a gentle smile. 

You hesitated, but her smile and words made you consider it. “If you trust them that much already… then I guess I can give it a try,” you uttered. 

“Attagirl. And don’t worry about being any help. We can figure out that later,” she comforted, patting your hand. “Maybe you could be an extra pair of hands for the doc bot,” she grinned. 

“Ratchet seems like he prefers to work alone,” you said. 

“Nah. We never know once we ask,” she said. 

“But everything is going to be alright. Give these guys a chance. Who knows, they might just be the right people for you after all,” she smiled enthusiastically. 

“Okay,” you nodded. 

“Good. Now come on. Time to upgrade your social skills,” she said and you followed her back to the trio. 

You talked to them about random things. They shared interesting stories they had with their bots and slowly you dropped your guard around them. It no longer seemed bad and you found it rather easy to talk with them. Maybe this could work after all.

[akingdomscrypt]

𝑯𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒐 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒄𝒓𝒚𝒑𝒕! 𝑵𝒂𝒎𝒆'𝒔 𝑪𝒂𝒍𝒄𝒊𝒇𝒆𝒓, 𝒐𝒓 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝑪𝒂𝒍 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒔𝒉𝒐𝒓𝒕, 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰'𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒌𝒆𝒆𝒑𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒏 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆. 𝑯𝒆/𝒉𝒊𝒎, 19𝒚𝒐, 𝒈𝒂𝒚, 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒔 𝒎𝒂𝒔𝒄, 𝑨𝒖𝑫𝑯𝑫 (𝒔𝒐 𝒑𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒆 𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒐𝒏𝒆 𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒔<3), 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒏𝒇𝒊𝒄 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒚 𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒚 𝒅𝒖𝒅𝒆𝒔.

𝑾𝒉𝒐 𝒄𝒂𝒏 𝒊𝒏𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒕:

For the most part, I don't really care who interacts with my posts* as long as you are at least 16+. That being said, when I do begin posting more 18+ content, I DO NOT want to see any minors interacting with those posts. I am not y'all's parent, I cannot stop you, just don't let me know. That's all I ask.

I will not make this a MDNI blog because the majority of the content in my fics are pretty SFW with the exception of some major violence warnings, that is unless I find it a reoccurring problem that this boundary is being repeatedly broken. Then that will change.

*I also know that a lot of people on here who have masc centric blogs have a rule against fem aligned accounts interacting, which is completely reasonable and they are within their own right to do so. I personally don't mind nor have an issue with fem aligned folk reading and interacting with my posts; as long as y'all don't make it weird/fetishize my content. But, again, same with above, if this boundary is repeatedly violated, I will change it. And please keep in mind this is a masc-reader centric blog, so don't be surprised when I don't write fem inserts.

(Other DNI include, but are not limited to; racists, xeno/homo/transphobes, pedos, zionists, necrophilies, fetishizers, etc..)

𝑩𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔:

𝑾𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈:

(Won't be taking requests anytime soon obvi, but if I ever do:)

WILL do - SFW fluff and mild to extreme angst | NSFW such as bdsm, weapon/pain play, blood, humiliation/degradation and praise, size diff, masc/gn readers, age diff (within reason), primal play, pet play, titles, *light* cnc, switch/verse reader & character, etc.. I will do most things, too many to list here, but if the time comes and I take requests, just ask and if I'm comfortable with it I'll do it!

Will NOT do - scat, vomit, underage, incest, sa/noncon, sounding, cheating tropes, fem readers/characters, age play, and I may add more if they come to mind.

𝑷𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒐𝒏𝒂𝒍:

You CAN: PLATONICALLY flirt with me, as a joke, and I may do it back BUT ONLY IF YOU'RE 18+. (If it gets weird and it's clear people are taking advantage of this, I'll remove it and only give this permission to moots). Ask me questions! About most things and I'll answer (fic related and not) if I feel comfortable doing so. Discuss SFW and NSFW topics as long as they're not against my boundaries. Ramble/info dump on me, I love listening to people's interests!

You can NOT: flirt with me in a romantic way, talk to me abt anything in my will not section, try a genuine roleplay that isn't a joke, talk to me about NSFW topics if you are underage, and I may add more if they come to mind.

𝑻𝒂𝒈𝒔(𝒔𝒐 𝒇𝒂𝒓 & 𝑰 𝒎𝒂𝒚 𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒆 𝒖𝒑 𝒘 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒔):

Cal's precious anons - every post that I answer an anon ask

Cal's rambles - me spouting random nonsense

Cal's mutuals - my buds <3

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑳𝒐𝒔𝒕 & 𝑭𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒅:

🦓anon,

𝑭𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒏 𝑲𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕𝒔:

@literallyrousseau , @embry-garrick , @pussygirlpower , @2kiran

𝑴𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒕 |

[mpc-unofficial]

DMs:

Kalani, I know you probably want to keep your distance for a bit, and I can understand why… I think. However, I have to know, how exactly do you summon a persona? I mean, I’ve a vague idea, but now that I think about it I’ve no idea how it actually works. I’ve a sandwich with me, but it’s not actually working. Are you sure I summoned a persona with a sandwich?

Sorry about that I just— something happened and I need some space right now. I don’t blame you for anything to be clear, I just… sorry. I promise I’m not mad at you or anything.

On another note, why are you trying to summon a persona right now? Did something happen?

No! Nothing happened. Or at least, well, nothing that’s an immediate emergency. Also yea, I understand the whole needing space thing so I’ll try to stay away for a bit till you’re uh… ready to see me I suppose? On another note, have you been backreading the blog?

Not yet. I-I don’t actually think I’ll be able to for a while…

That’s… understandable. To give you a small rundown, I might have lied about the whole pelipper mail incident and now nearly everyone in the center thinks that you’ve gotten those bruises from a shadow.

That… honestly yea that’s probably a good idea for now. I’ll keep that in mind if anyone asks.

Still, what does this have to do with summoning a persona?

Due to… recent events and the small lie I’ve told. The MPC is starting to get extremely wary regarding the shadow nest. In fact, I think they’re only tentatively authorising people with a persona to enter it right now, which while valid, would also mean that you’re currently the only one with clearance to properly study Ordell, unless I’m also able to prove that I have one.

Why don’t you use the mysterious camera footage?

Because that would raise a million more questions that I do not have a good answer for? Like the fact that there’s currently something stalking us?

Right, yea, you have a point. Let me think about this for a bit…

Do you still have that old upgrade you used on Byte?

Yea? I don’t think I’ll be throwing that out anytime soon, but how is that related?

Try using that.

What?

Just… humour me for a bit?

Sure? Give me a second…

Wait, oh god that actually worked. How the heck did that work?!

It was a guess of sorts, but I had a feeling that any object with sentimental value should work.

Guess it is true to some extent.

Wait this would mean that the sandwich had sentimental value.

Yea, I’m still trying to figure that part out.

Oh, oh wait... I think I’ve figured that out. I… I think I need a moment to think about the implications of this.