#a bit of sisko

[walkingstackofbooks]

A song about grief, and losing Jadzia Dax.

I've always felt her death was severely under-mourned in the show, and so here's a song remembering her, from the point of view of her crewmates.

Once again, it's not a perfect recording, for I do not yet have the patience when my wish to share it is so strong ❤❤ I'm just a bean who likes singing and DS9 and who's been bitten by a creative bug recently. ^_^

I would LOVE to hear what you thought? A comment in the tags would actually mean the world!

Lyrics under the cut:

This place doesn’t feel the same: It’s emptier, heavier. You made us feel alive, So tell me what’s next?

Here’s where you played your games,  Laughed at us, urged us on, Is the ghost of your smile All that remains?

And it aches, this hole in me. I’ve been shot, I’ve been beaten and all that hurt less Than this pain - I can’t believe. I wish I had died instead. I wish you were here.       

But I can't regret missing you, Even when I know it means That my heart won't lighten again. Even losing one memory Would be the death of me: You were magnificent, and I won't forget that You were magnificent and I'll keep remembering you.

Wise words came easily, You’d long mastered bravery, You led with your heart, No matter the cost.

The stars themselves knew of you, Their glimmer’s diminished now, Without you to guide and chide us to explore.

And it hurts, it’s agony: My heart is torn open, your presence ripped out. When I dream, it’s you I see, But I have to wake up, and th’illusion breaks down

But I can't regret missing you, Even when I know it means That my heart won't lighten again. Even losing one memory Would be the death of me: You were magnificent, and I won't forget that. Oh, you were magnificent And I'll keep remembering you.

No corridor’s long enough to escape your phantom touch. Our lives were so intertwined; I never realised how much. I won’t complain - I’ll face these flashbacks face-on.  If I still hear your voice, are you really gone?

There’s so much we still need you for, Please come back from Sto’Vo’Kor, We’re fighting a war here, don’t say you forgot. 

And you should’ve worn the Niners’ shirt, Helped our heist, been a flirt, And held in your arms a small spotted Klingon.

And it hurts, what could have been.  Your future cut off in one bat'leth-sharp beat. It’s not fair - no, nothing is.  Can we have one last joke, one last bet, one last drink? ‘Cause I hate how my heart still thinks you’ll reappear.

But I can't regret missing you, Even when I know it means That my heart won't lighten again. Even losing one memory Would be the death of me: You were magnificent, and I won't forget that. Oh, you were magnificent And I'll keep remembering you.

[1960z]

ds9 characters as onion/reductress articles

[ourobororos]

ds9 dump 3.... (falls over)

[doctor-octiddius]

guys, i can't do this. i am not god's strongest soldier.

[gar-licked]

imgonna throw up

this fucking image haunts me every day. its so funny. i cant not laugh when i see it. what is he Doing why is he doing that

[lesspopped]

every year I’m like “I should do something for my birthday next year” and then it’s january and I’m just too tired and it’s cold and no one can make it anyway and I don’t. BUT a friend took me out for a really nice dinner at alinea (and I made myself feel less guilty about her giving me such an expensive gift by covering the wine lol) and my sister is coming up to visit for a couple days next week and somebody left a really nice comment on one of my fics so overall it was pretty good this year. 😎

[romulan-gf]

hey is this anything

[exasperatedoctopus]

The dichotomy between how Sisko and Odo’s first contact with the Founders is hysterical.

Sisko: A war drama, a spiralling disaster of beurocracy and survivalism that implacably approaches the Horrors of War, Dread Incarnate

Odo: The closest thing to a disney musical training montage I’ve ever seen on Star Trek, they can show him the wooooorld

[youngpettyqueen]

The Sisko spin is AMAZING. Dynamic so good and so unexplored, between Julian and Sisko, and even between all 3 of them.

IM GLAD YOU THINK SO they really do live rent free in my head. I have this entire vision in my head of what I think their dynamic could've looked like if the writers knew what they were doing with Julian earlier on and how that would've impacted both the Sisko and Julian dynamic and also what could've been an amazingggggg Jake and Julian dynamic

[restlesshush]

Watching other star treks through the lens of “what would sisko do ❤️”

[the-eldritch-it-gay]

shaking your hand in 'the dream visitor is a haunting', so how WOULD majexatli feel waking up to see dream visitor althyran for the first time?

I think there’s so much racing through their head. Like, on the one hand they’re terrified, suddenly once again facing the man who took so much from them and who they ran away from decades ago. As much as they believe everything that happens is their fault and don't reflect on the way Althyran was manipulating them and had so much power over them, they also can’t deny that it was Althyran that very publicly blamed them for what happened to them which led to their loss of status in the circle. And losing the circle meant losing literally the only home they ever had and the only family they ever had.

So there’s that but also, seeing him after all this time suddenly throws into perspective the way their relationship wasn’t health or balanced. Because Majexatli has spent at least 2 decades now away from him and becoming their own independent person, and when they see him and instantly fall back into the way they were when they were a teen they can see how different it is. When they first was involved with Althyran, they had never had so much as a friend, let alone a partner, they had no frame of reference for what was healthy or normal back then, they had no idea that things could be different, they had no idea that things could be better, but now they do and can see just the world of difference between how they are now and who they were with Althyran.

On the other hand, though, the dream visitor first appears when Majexatli’s about to transform, when they’re feverish and nauseated and weak and he shows up to help them and. Isn’t that what Majexatli wanted? Those decades ago, when they were weak and barely hanging on after their attack? Majexatli had tried to reach out for Althyran’s hand, both when they were in the cave before the attack and when they were on a cot in the infirmary after it. But Althyran wasn’t there, he pulled away, abandoned them, ridiculed them. All Majexatli wanted was to be comforted by him, to be loved by him.

The Dream Visitor coming to save them, to help them, that’s what they always wanted from Althyran. How can they resist that? Even though they have the knowledge now to realize how what was between them wasn’t healthy and in fact was incredibly abusive and exploitative, even though they can’t help being afraid, they’ve never been able to resist Althyran as much as they hate that, and they can’t deny how much they’ve wanted him to take care of them. One of their biggest things they grapple with, is they still cling to the dreams they once had of marrying Althyran and having a family, and the fact that they cling to the belief that if they had been better or if they hadn’t been so scarred by the attack that maybe Althyran would have actually loved them.

They know it isn’t a dream, because their dreams aren’t kind, the dreams with Althyran almost never are. But it doesn’t cross their mind that it might be an ilithid trick until the next day when they hear their companions mention the dream figure and what it said to them.

I do think the next morning, they stay on their bedroll and the others go off to work on the quests. And they just lay there, awake, just unable to grapple with it all and not wanting to let the others see them like that.

[walkingstackofbooks]

A version of DBIP where Julian coped with his parents' sudden appearance just a little less well and had a minor panic attack... Which Jadzia and Sisko notice and help him through, assuming, however, that it's another (unfortunately-timed) prison-camp flashback, and so they still don't realise how bothered Julian is by his parents' arrival until much later

[gossyreblogs]

I’ve been on a slow rewatch of Star Trek DS9; tonight I’m on S2 E23, “Crossover”

And, just. Damn. I’d almost started to think it was just part of Avery Brook’s acting style, but he absolutely can be mobile and expressive—even with subtle expressions—when he wants to be!

Which just… means that Sisko, as a character, isn’t. With very nearly the sole exception being when he’s interacting with Jake. Huh.

[peearrdee]

I love it when you tag my ds9 posts with something about your dad /gen 😭 star trek is such a dad show I’m glad I’m reaching the right audience

Since the tender age of 5, Star Trek has been a staple of my life, just as it was for my dad. I can’t remember a time when it wasn’t present in my life in some capacity, even though the Star Wars movies were the ones I actually watched first. ST is formative media for both of us. I spent my teen years watching TNG with him after dinner, before bed. Sometimes he pauses it and talks about the behind the scenes or just infodumps about something. We both have ADHD ejdhehdhhehehdhdh

I’m dead certain I can trace my political leanings to 1. My mom’s way of practicing Catholicism (St. Francis of Assisi stangirl), and 2. My dad’s love for Star Trek (and Star Wars.) Fuck man!!! War sucks ass!!! We should all have food and clothing and shelter and medical care and be chilling!!!

[yourbuerokrat2]

I really love scenarios, where Q comes running to Picard after the DS9 episode where Sisko punched talking about how mean Sisko was. 

And completely ignoring and leaving out the things he himself has done prior to that. Like insulting Sisko and, I don’t know, literally transporting himself and Sisko in a make-shift boxing arena and putting both of them in boxing gear. And then proceeding to taunt Sisko while mock punching. 

[basingstokemercury]

Wait is Jake actually dating an adult woman? I am very bad at guessing ages