#You're one of the closest friends I have
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i love how unfatherly crowley and aziraphale both are when it comes down to it. sure aziraphale is more than willing to give the young people in his life help and advice and be their friend but he and crowley spent six years (eleven in the book) practically raising a kid (you just know his parents weren't around that often) and by the end they didn't even like him. crowley even suggested they just fucking kill him. he turned three kids into lizards for annoying him right after he destroyed their house. like it was that or kill them obviously but he did NOT hesitate with the newts. that's so funny to me. they're just inherently disinclined to parenthood. we need more characters like them actually
#good omens#i think if aziraphale HAD to take care of a baby no choice he would give them some cocoa#and play mozart for them and just kind of let them do their thing in the bookshop. away from the books of course.#like he would make sure they were safe and sheltered and he would be kind to them#but it would really show that he was just imitating fathers he had seen in books#crowley was not meant to raise children. he's a wine aunt plain and simple. he'd love to be called 'auntie crowley'#but he has no friends with kids so he has to be content with his brief stint as nanny.#the demon put a basket with a baby in it in the backseat of his car untethered and let it slide around#from side to side while he drove dangerously. canonically that is something he did#it's also my headcanon that he has some complicated feelings about parenthood and family roles#yknow. when you're technically one of 'god's children' but she cast you and so many of your siblings down to hell for asking questions#when the closest thing you have to a mother made you murder innocent children for a bet.#it can make you hesitant about that sort of thing!
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you dont really understand how fragile purely internet friendship is until one of your closest friends, who you've cried with, commiserated with, and had hours-long conversations into the night with, just suddenly stops replying out of the blue. nothing happened to your knowledge, your last conversation was the same as always. they just simply vanished without a word and you're left wondering for the rest of your life what happened.
#sorry this is sort of heavy#this happened recently to me with one of my oldest and closest friends#7 years of near-daily chats and conversation#i have no idea where he went#and he never would go on a hiatus without telling me first#its been almost 3 weeks now and i feel so useless because there is NO way for me to find out if he's okay.#if youre out there man i hope you're okay and i miss you
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mmhh. javier had to wait ninety years to see lloyd once more while lloyd spent three years thinking he would never see javier again. what do you think hurt most. waiting a lifetime with the knowledge you'll see the person you treasure the most at some point or spending what you know will be your last couple years of life without the hope of ever seeing the one person you never thought you'd have to live without.
#i talk a lot <3#tged#tged spoilers#cpsm spoilers#lloyd frontera#javier asrahan#yes javier waiting for lloyd for decades is already insanity inducing. but. lloyd did have to see javier die for 'real' this time.#and then he spent what remained of his life without his best friend.#and like. sure it was after having spent a lifetime with him just like he always thought and wished he would but. that's almost worse.#imagine having to continue living after losing the person you're closest to in the entire world. the one you know better than anyone else#and knows you back just the same. the person you shared a heart with. the one you effectively gave your life for just so he could live.#it does put into perspective that lloyd only lasted three years after javier died doesn't it
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What Egg would have a weird obsession with drinking straight up ketchup because they wanted to be like sans from undertale?
#qsmp#qsmp eggs#qsmp Chayanne#qsmp Tallulah#qsmp Lullah#qsmp dapper#qsmp ramón#qsmp leonarda#qsmp Richarlyson#qsmp pomme#qsmp pepito#qsmp Empanada#qsmp sunny#qsmp sunnysideup#qsmp chunsik#posted: july#I'm posting this one especially to tell the story of how I met someone that I now consider family. and it is all thanks to sans.#in 6th grade I was part of a magic Warriors roleplay. One day this person joined and described the exact powerset of sans. I wanted to be#friends with him (which i mistook as a crush at the time) and we became very close. fast forward to my birthday. Our mothers became close#friends. Now we consider his family to be our family and he is like my brother now. I love him a lot and its nice to have extended family#so remember huevos. Sans undertale is the key to friends; family; and the closest bonds you can imagine <3#Dings I know you wont see this but I love you man. You're a nerd.
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thinking about when i had such intense phantom limbs as a kid i told my math teacher about it
#like. I've had phantom wings since i was a CHILD and I'm not even kidding#i remember specifically saying 'i pretend to have wings so much that i can just Feel them there all the time now'#and he reacted in a way where he didn't want to tell me that's weird bc i was a Kid but also he totally thought it was really weird#which. was a reaction i knew very well at the time. that kind of quiet 'i dont know how to react to that but ok'#the trying not to make a weird face about it#so i shut up about it ever since! and then when i was 20 i found out what otherkin was#i remember them specifically being pegasus wings too we've always loved pegasi it was entirely bc of the barbie movie#i can't remember what the term is. for when you're A Fucking Lot of things all at once? poly something?#but we've always been like that#our first OC was plural coded and otherkin coded to the absolute max it was insane#and she was fully and entirely a self insert (at the time. nowadays she's her own guy)#but like. she could absorb souls on the brink of death and communicate with them inside her head#and she could shapeshift into any of those souls' forms at will#and she was supposed to be some kind of chimera#her 'true form' that i made of her was just all of her different forms crammed into one body#like. one owl wing one dragon wing. a dolphin tail. a fox paw and a pegasus hoof. scales mixed with fur. human shaped body. horns#if we weren't a system at the time then we were at least REALLY REALLY susceptible to becoming one we've always been Like This#and I'm willing to say i was an otherkin kid in the same way i say i was trans before i knew what that was#i didn't say I Am A Boy i just said I'm the closest a girl can get to being a boy (a tomboy)#i always leaned towards boys interests and boyish things. in the same way i taught myself to walk like a cat and meow convincingly#(to a point where i meowed once and my sister yelled at me to put the cat down if she's meowing. i was not holding a cat)#i didn't know what being otherkin was but i spent about as much time as possible being as animal as i could get#and i got offended when my friends didn't want to be animals with me. i had a lot of Horse Girl friends as a result#(hard to avoid horse girls in the middle of rural ohio tbh)
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I wonder if most of our coworkers have come to see how close M and I are
#ever since most learned he and I built the snowman together last week I feel they'd come to the thought we're close friends#I actually think it's very cute and sweet when you have a coworker you work with the most who happen to be the closest to you#I've been noticing this with which staffs have the prominent dynamics with those they work with in the most shifts together#I learn a lot in this job it's important to at least try to connect with your coworkers ( who aren't insufferable to you of course )#especially the ones who you're working with the most#there's two cases that aren't like this - which is sad but it is what it is#there's this other staff M and I work most with on day - noon weekday who's hard to connect with as she's... more intense and reserved#M thinks she ' does things too much ' towards clients and I agree as she is usually verbally and sort of physically aggressive with them...#though y'know I try to at least be friendly with her#she had told me M and her don't talk beyond work related ( which is a rare case ) - I see they don't even say hi to each other ever#I don't know how can one can work with another whom they're in shifts with the most#when there is no connection held between at all - it's so stiff and awkward#I can definitely sense the tension between my two weekend day - noon coworkers who don't talk to each other at all#but God. No coworkers know even Two of things that M had done to / for me - one being the snowman thing only#somehow his fatherly attitude is shown strongly as clear to me but still so obscured from others#he's just insane like that /lh#💭#🧧
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feel like i'm being gaslighted by the ofs fandom like where are all these wild think pieces coming from we can't possibly be watching the same ONE EPISODE of the same drama
anyway,
#the amount of baseless fanon is... wild#and by baseless i really do mean like. two sentences and a trailer#i feel like.......... bl fandom has never seen a couple like. actually be in the dating phase#so everyone is interpreting their little dance as two MASTER MANIPULATORS when they're just like... feeling each other out?? lmao#also some of u really think that mew is lying about being a virgin#so either he's been lying to his three closest friends for 4+ years or they're lying for him even during private moments with no one around#on the off chance that some hot guy is going to learn about it and want to date him because of it#that is breathtakingly bad writing#(of note: said hot guy was already interested in him before learning he was a virgin and still would've gone home with him had he not known#and if mew is so much of an unreliable narrator that we can't believe ANYTHING that is on screen that is also unbelievably bad writing lol#some of you are CONVINCED that he is an absolute psycho#?????????#ofs liveblog#i use that gif and then these are my tags#also i don't say all this like i know who mew really is. because it's been one episode lmao but he's definitely guarded and intuitive#i'm open to being wrong about MY interpretation of him but if any of these headcanons are true i probably won't finish it lol#(but i find it really unlikely... especially from how many of these takes are from people who hate top...)#(which tells me that you're not actually interested in understanding him as a character and want to cling to your own ideas of him)#(an attitude that i have a hard time believing you don't apply to all the characters. especially mew)#ANYWAY
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Re-tag drop: Yelan
#tag drop#[ yelan. ] i can't change the facts. but if it's a choice between the cold; hard truth and blissful unawareness: i'll take the former.#[ yelan: ic. ] that's a worst-case scenario. but all too often; the most pessimistic speculation turns out to be the closest to the truth.#[ yelan: inquiries. ] oh? you'd like to know more about me? what will you give in exchange then?#[ yelan: countenance. ] an old friend of mine once privately commented to me that ] yelan “is always smiling; but never with her eyes.”#[ yelan: introspection. ] like a phantom she appears in various guises at the center of events; and disappears before the storm stops.#[ yelan: wishes. ] that which hides inside her… that constant calling; it is the blood of heroes which has been howling for 500 years.#[ yelan: etc. ] every round of finger-guessing is a tiny adventure; and every roll of dice sends sporadic thrills down her spine.#[ yelan: liyue. ] liyue will never plunge into disaster without clue of the danger like it once did. she will see that it is not unprepared#[ yelan: home. ] i'm guessing you've fallen for the rumors about me being very wealthy; having high demands for my standards of living?#[ yelan: yanshang. ] the teahouse has really brightened up after the boss took over and kicked the fatui and gamblers out.#[ yelan: lantern rite. ] every year on this day; the lanterns light up the night. may the fire never die and may humanity endure.#[ yelan: chasm. ] perhaps she will plunge into that darkness one day; and the ill fate that once befell her ancestors shall find her too.#[ yelan: scope. ] i serve ningguang. the tianquan of the qixing. the scope of my work includes some of liyue's biggest secrets.#[ yelan: weaponry. ] water. divided it is as streams uncounted: close yet untangled. united it is as a giant wave: inexorable; unstoppable.#[ yelan: wriothesley. ] don't fight over fleeting gains or losses. focus on where your heart is leading you and move forward. [ delusionaid#[ yelan: uncle tian. ] there's nothing wrong with wanting to win other people's respect. but when has uncle tian looked down on anyone?#[ yelan: ningguang. ] we both made a mistake: we shouldn't have involved ordinary folk in what we do. / ordinary folk?#[ yelan: xiao. ] you think you're oh-so cold and ruthless. i'm not buying it. - losing one of us so the rest can escape? some victory that#[ yelan: keqing. ] if something happens that they didn't anticipate; it throws their plans into oblivion. but the yuheng is different.#[ yelan: ganyu. ] i could never work non-stop like she does. certainly not at that level of efficiency. i guess being half-adeptus has its#[ yelan: yanfei. ] when i help her out; i always get some invaluable leads in return. gotta say though: i think she respects me a little mu#[ yelan: traveler. ] you don't have to be on guard around me. i never scheme against people who have my stamp of approval.#[ yelan: v. youth. ] you're still young. be patient. believe in yourself; and don't look outside yourself to prove your value.#[ yelan: v. pre-qixing. ] i don't do these things to help the powerful or mighty get rid of dissident forces. but because water too has a s#[ yelan: v. qixing. ] seeing isn't always believing. and if you can't trust your eyes; you certainly can't trust rumors.#[ yelan: meta. ] the chances are if i open this door; there can be no witnesses left alive. is that a sufficient reason for you?
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BROOOO GUESS WHAT ‼️I JUST REALIZED‼️🗣️🗣️
IT'S ALMOST BEEN 2 (maybe 3) YEARS SINCE WE BECAME FRIENDS!!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉😄😁😁🎂😁😁😁😁🎂🎂🎂 I THINK‼️‼️ TBH I DONT REALLY REMEMBER BUT THATS NOT THE POINT I STILL WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I AM SO HAPPY YOURE MY FRIEND‼️‼️‼️‼️😁😁😁🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND😁😁😁😁😁‼️‼️‼️‼️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🎉🎉🗣️

(sorry if this was out of the blue)
AAAAAAA I WASNT EXPECTING THIS 🥹🥹🥹 ALSO WHAAAATT⁉️⁉️⁉️IT'S ALREADY BEEN 2 YEARS OF BEING FRIENDS❓️❓️❓️🤯🤯DANG TIME FLIES HUH? 🤧🤧😭😭 I AM ALSO GRATEFUL FOR HAVING A FRIEND LIKE YOU BY MY SIDE ‼️‼️🥺🥺🥺 THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME LAUGH DURING OUR SILLY CONVERSATION THROUGHOUT THESE YEARS ‼️‼️😁😁😁 I ALSO ENJOYED TALKING ABOUT OUR BRAINROTS AND JUST JOKE AROUND

IM CRYING JUST LIKE SANJI HERE FR ‼️‼️😭😭😭🔥🔥🔥🔥
#asks#I gotta be honest with you you're the closest friend that I've ever had not even my friends that I had irl can't compete#like I just feel comfortable talking about anything that I dont usually talk about with others and messing with you in a playful way#I pretty much talk like how I talk with my brother at this point and thats a really good thing cuz no one had ever done such thing 😭😭#I am seriously grateful to have you as a friend and I really mean it 😭😭💕💕💕 I'll try to be as loyal as possible ‼️‼️🔥🔥#sorry for writing a whole essay in the tags :')
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ben platt was so right when he said (to paraphrase) your heart can break so much that it breaks open and lets love in. that's 2023 to me baby.
#experienced Real grief and heartbreak for the first time in my life#lived alone for most of the year and really Grew Up because of it#lost the three people i was closest with and lost the person i became for them to love me (which is a good thing)#learned a lot about art and life and myself and what it means to Be Alive.#was this year objectively bad for me??? look at all my personal posts honey.#but i feel like i've Grown so much and i'm really proud of myself not Despite everything that happened but because of it#i'm not ashamed to have loved and made choices and to have been wrong about So Many Things!!! i am so young and always learning!!!#i feel like Myself for the first time in Years. and for the first time since i can remember i genuinely feel Fine.#a lot of things are bad and i have bad days (today was one of them) but!!! i am hopeful and i am Determined to survive and be happy.#i do not have to be great!!! i do not have to be good!!! i simply have to be and that is enough!!!#one thing i said this year that haunts me is when the person i was in love with told me i was being silly for having a panic attack#and i responded with 'why should i feel silly for experiencing true emotion?'. and that's just really guided me since i said it.#ANYWAYS. insane year for me. this time last year i was madly in love and denying So Much and this year i am Accepting and loving what i have#this has been the return of isaac's insane personal posts. which are happening So Much Less due to the healing but hey!! we ball!!#i love you friends who live in my phone <3 if you're still reading happy new year and may you find whatever you're searching for <3
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This has been eye opening for my real life contacts, like who is speaking up and sharing information and who won't stop fucking travel blogging for five minutes to say something, anything. I feel equally heartened by the many people I know who are fighting and equally disheartened by all the people I know who are intentionally looking the other way
#i havent used insta in ages but opening it up and using it as yet another live feed on the continued genocide was a good decision.#not just to hear people's stories and watch what theyre risking their lives to say#but to see the people in my life- most of them people i havent talked to in years and years- either stand up or stay silent#someone i was friends w in hs actually reached out to me after i posted on my story about a protest coming up#so i am not the only one taking notes on who cares.#i know social media doesn't equal real life engagement-#there r countless things in my life i don't talk about on here and this blog is the closest thing i have to a diary (sad!)#but if you are actively posting about your backpacking trip to europe and you're actively ignoring#all of the people in your life who are begging anyone to listen?#no more respect for you. if i had any to begin with
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I strongly resent the commodification of every aspect of existence.
“stop traumadumping to your friends tell this to your therapist” my god they paywalled human connection
#capitalism#this is bullshit#you can't traumadump on most people though#only the ones who you're closest with and are in a state to handle it and are okay with it#but not everyone can afford a therapist#or has the time or energy#and you already know certain friends care about you#I have irrational fears about my therapist complaining about me behind my back
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one way to tell how close someone is to me is if i call them "my buddy". why is that why do i do that
#if you're my buddy then it probably means you're one of my closest friends#i have. four? three? buddies#ii think its a httyd thing#avis talks#(ignore me)
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object permanence issues but for emotions is so weird, ngl.
#weird as in wow this thing effecting me sure it having effects#not weird as in having it is weird#one of my previously closest friends of 4 years decided they hated us#didnt communicate any of the issues either#but then has seemingly back tracked when they presumably realised they were the problem#and now i think they're banking on me and my other friend's emotional permanence issues working in their favour?#so that they can come back like normal without addressing the issue or apologising?#theyre in for a rude shock when they realise its the opposite#you cant insult people and then tell them that you're only going to allow them to stay your friends because you dont have any others#we have more self worth than that lmao#im pretty much over it now that the friend they for some reason didnt have an issue with now isnt in the dark anymore#we didnt want to accidentally ruin their friendship by telling them#but leaving them out of the loop felt wrong so we gave them the option#now we just have to figure out whats happening with dnd#i dont want them as one of my players anymore#and the other two are still down to continue without them#we just... dont want to deal with the fall out when we tell them this lmao#personal#oh well it is what it is#my trip to visit friends next year just got cheaper with one less destination#thoughts in my head i just need to say them to someone that isnt immediately effected by it
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I need to talk about this because it's making me feel insane.
Last week, my white leftist goyisch friends sat me, a wholeass antizionist Jew, down for a "talk" because they "needed to check in about Palestine" and make sure "our values aligned before we hung out again". They apparently needed to "suss out" where I stood on Palestinian rights, despite having had several conversations about Palestine and them being some of my closest friends. They needed to check, to search for and uncover my true values, because I had said some "disturbing things" that had made them "suspicious".
Disturbing things included:
Supporting IfNotNow which is a "liberal zionist organization" because it normalizes Jewish heritage in the Levant
Not bringing Palestine up enough, despite them also not bringing it up (this was apparently a test)
Mentioning that the Houthi's flag talks about cursing all Jews
Saying Stalin was antisemitic because of the "all the paw-grihms"
...and apparently other things they wouldn't specify, but had been tracking for months.
To clarify, I am an antizionist Jew from three generations of antizionist Jews. I have been vocal in my support of Palestinian liberation and in my condemnation both of Israel's actions and its violent founding as a state, and of zionism in many of its forms. I am a regular donor to Palestinian and Jewish NGOs and advocate for Jewish antizionism in person, at temple, and online. I have been talking about Palestinian liberation before they could point to Gaza on a map. But they needed to make sure, they needed to "suss out", they needed to check. And it's notable that the majority of moments that made them suspicious of me were times where I talked about antisemitism: not about Palestinian liberation, not about Israeli decolonization, not about anything actually relevant to Palestine. It was talking about antisemitism that made them check to see if I was a cryptozionist.
One of the most pervasive and insidious forms of antisemitism is the idea that Jews are inherently untrustworthy and suspicious. You have to constantly be on guard, track what they say and do, "suss out" the real truth. You have to keep them in line and and watch them carefully because they're liars and sneaks, and if you're not looking closely they'll return to their real values (and drag you down with them). This is where the idea of "cryptozionist" comes from and what it's directly building off of: the inherent untrustworthiness of Jews and the need to check. Because no matter how close you become you can't actually trust them, and any upstanding gentile should make sure to avoid associating with Jews before "sussing out" their real allegiances and intentions. You have to make them turn out their pockets, just in case.
I'm the first and only Jew they actually were friends with; I know because they've told me (strangely proud of it in the way white Americans are proud of that kind of thing). They've asked me questions about Judaism and fawned over how beautiful and unique it was for me to be connected to my community and culture. Pre-October 7th, one of them had even mentioned being interested in coming to services at my temple. She still has my copy of our siddur. But now she needed to "check" before she could be seen with me in public. Which is what it was: it wasn't a "you're my friend and I need to give you some feedback because you're fucking up" kind of intervention (which is normal and important to have), it was a trial. It was a last chance for me to prove to them that I'm clean-enough that they could afford to risk being seen with me in public, just in case someone noticed them fraternizing with a hypothetical Enemy and their leftism was compromised. It was a test to make sure that I behave properly when required to, that I'd play along and do what I'm told and turn out my pockets if asked (because any refusal would validate the notion of having something to hide). And above all it was an opportunity for them to reaffirm their own cleanliness by putting my imagined immorality in its place.
I did what I needed to do: I smiled. I apologized. I "didn't know that". I "appreciated the feedback". I turned out my pockets because what else could I do? They'd decided who I was and what I believed, regardless of what I said or did, so there was no point in explaining that they were wrong about me. If I had told them they were being antisemitic, it would just have been proof that they were right. Caring about antisemitism is a dogwhistle in the spaces they've chosen: it's not a real form of oppression, it's a tactic for sneaky, lying Jews to weasel out of admitting their true alliances. There was nothing I could say.
Nothing's really changed for me. I'm going to continue my activism for Palestinian liberation rooted in my culture and my faith. Antizionism is still not antisemitism. But I got a reminder that many white goyisch leftists fundamentally just don't trust Jews, and that the activist spaces they're in not only exacerbate their antisemitism in an increasingly insular echo chamber, but also allow them to finally vent their internalized bigotry in a socially-acceptable way. In my former friends' eyes, what they did was activism—disavowing a Jew (and making me feel humiliated, scared, and unclean in the process) as a cathartic stand-in for doing fucking anything for actual Palestinian liberation—but for me it was a grief that I'll be feeling for a long time: not only over losing friends I loved and trusted, but also over my sense of belonging and security in leftist spaces.
#jumblr#I need to talk about this because I feel like I'm losing it a little#its incredibly disconcerting to have this come out of nowhere from people I trusted and it's hard to not blame myself somehow#antizionism#antizionist jew#judaism#jewish#jew#jewblr#leftist#leftism#leftist antisemitism#antisemitism#Palestine#Israel#again to reiterate: I am just as committed to Palestinian liberation as ever and antizionism is still not antisemitism#but fuck do some leftists put in the legwork to making it seem like it is huh#free Palestine
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As far as I know, the trans lady currently in charge of my local trans support group is a person of color. (She's awesome and beautiful and I'm so proud of her and glad that the old folks there chose her to take over🙏)
There are so many more people in our community than the two or three in the now very fucking old Stonewall fables.
saying this for my non black queer followers but: black queer folk have always existed, we've always been around, especially when it came to defending and fighting for our communities rights.
it sucks to see us never included in queer centered art or post, but we exist.
#Idk if art of people with different skin tones is a part of modern classes in art#but they weren't back when I was in school in my tiny white-ass European country and took every art course I possibly could for a decade#I think the closest media to me I'm aware of that has people of color is a fanfic my partner has been slowly writing#There's this polycule friend group in it that's loosely based on people they've met#they're side characters but my partner loves them#Of course one of the POV characters is from our home country because they're doing write what you know for once#but yeah that's the closest I'm aware of at the moment. You're right it does feel kinda empty in general.#We don't try much to represent POC. I don't think we know how and that makes us too scared?#(At least that's how a lot of white cis people are about trans people. But I've seen people learn their way around the fear with help🤷♀️)#(My partner's page is allthewaydownhere and the fic is This Is Why We Fight (I think)(I've been off tumblr for a long time))#I think making friends helps (for white people who need to learn). Being in cities can help with that.#I could 100% use some more friends of color to actively chat with but lately life has made it hard to maintain relationships in general#so that's gonna have to wait until I'm eventually vaguely functional again
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