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You’ll Never Go Down to the Gods Again
Part III/X
Pairing: dark!Alpha stepbrother Ransom Drysdale x innocent!naive Omega stepsister reader
Words: ~3.1k
Summary: Ransom is starting to get used to having you around. Maybe he should be more worried about that.
Chapter Warnings: A/B/O, explicit language, explicit sexual content (female masturbation implied, mirror sex, handjob, m receiving oral, oral knotting, scenting kink, ruined kink, multiple orgasms, minor degradation), no real plot to speak of, dark-adjacent, super naive reader,stepcest, SMUT!! 18+ ONLY!!!
A/N: Chapter three! And it’s all porn. I’m not even sorry. Some very subtle hints about where we may be heading with these two, but there’s not a whole lot of plot here in spite of my intention to add some. May do an inter chapter drabble to flesh some things out, who knows!
Not beta’d so all mistakes are my own
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Ransom groaned as he leaned against the elevator wall while he waited for the doors to open to his apartment.
For some reason, every Omega that had approached him tonight while he was out drinking had seemed especially annoying. Needy, fake, constantly seeking his approval and attention when he thought the look on his face had made it pretty clear he wasn’t interested. He could still smell the cloyingly sweet stink of the last one on himself, like overripe citrus and honey that didn’t seem good for attracting anything except fruit flies.
All he wanted was a shower and to go to sleep, sighing when the door finally opened to his apartment and feeling himself start to relax when the faint trace of your scent filled his lungs. If he had been more sober he might have worried about the fact that he had started to associate your smell with home, but that was a problem for another day. It was late so he was sure you must be asleep, at least until he heard a startled chirp from the couch and turned to see you trying to cover yourself with a blanket while you avoided his gaze.
“Bunny? What are you still doing up?” He cocked his head at you while you tried to curl in on yourself, not missing the way your thighs were squeezed together as your fingers skirted over your stomach.
“I… I didn’t think you were coming home tonight.” You felt yourself growing warmer as he kept staring at you, trying to hide how aroused you were. “I’m so sorry, Alpha.”
“Why are you sorry, bunny?” He had an idea, but he wanted to hear you say it, stalking closer to you and scenting the air as the smell of sex and you grew stronger. “What were you doing?”
“I was… it’s just…” You looked like you were about to cry and that just made him want to ruin you even more. “It felt so good when Alpha Everett used his mouth on me, and I know I’m supposed to save any pleasure for my Alpha, but I couldn’t help it! I need to feel it again, Alpha, please…”
“Oh, poor little bunny.” He was loving every second of this, finally coming to stand in front of you and gripping your chin so he could tilt your face up and force you to look him in the eyes. “You want to come, honey? Want to make that sweet little pussy cream all over your fingers? Use your words.”
“Yes, Alpha.” You opened your mouth to pant desperately when Ransom cupped your jaw, whining when he dragged his thumb over your bottom lip as your eyes fluttered from how needy you were. “Please, help me make my… my pussy feel good.”
“Oh, good girl.” Ransom growled at the filthy word leaving those innocent lips of yours, pulling you to your feet and scenting your neck as he started pulling you towards his bedroom while you kept making soft, wanton noises. “Don’t worry, baby, your mate is probably gonna want to watch you touch that pretty cunt all the time. We have to make sure you know what to do.”
“Oh, thank you Alpha.” Your voice was breathy and low as he sat on the foot of the bed and pulled you into his lap, having you face the mirror and pulling your knees over his thighs so he could spread them wide. “Oh my goodness.”
“I know, god, you’re fucking gorgeous, bunny.” Ransom wound his fingers through yours and slowly trailed them over the inside of your thigh, his lips brushing against your neck while he watched you closely in the mirror with a predatory gleam in his eye. “Relax, honey, and watch close, okay?”
All you could do was whimper when he slid your fingers over your slit and spread your petals apart, leaning your head back on his shoulder and licking your lips when he sucked on your ear. Then he growled and bit your lobe, and you forced yourself to lift your head so you could keep your eyes on the mirror. Slick was pouring out of you and making it easy for Ransom and your fingers to glide over your sex, spreading your mess all over you until your cunt was glistening and swollen and throbbing with your heartbeat as Ransom touched you with your own fingers and pressed gentle kisses over your jaw. Ransom suddenly pressed your fingers against a small nub at the top of your core and you sucked in a harsh breath, arching into his touch and trembling as your toes curled and blood rushed in your ears.
“Oh! What…” it was the same sensation that Alpha Everett had drawn from you. You hadn’t been able to find the spot on your own and now it felt like you were drowning in pleasure, purring while your eyes rolled in your head and you kept sucking in deep breaths. “What is that? Mmmm, it feels so good, Alpha.”
“Oh, you poor dumb baby. You really don’t know anything, do you bunny?” Ransom nipped gently at your mating gland as he felt his cock growing harder underneath your ass, groaning when you squirmed in his lap and trying not to grind against you when he felt your pussy throb under his fingers and watched it clench in the mirror when he kept softly circling your swollen button. “That’s your clit, bunny. If you ever want to make yourself feel good again, just rub it… shit just like that, and you’ll come. But if you want to feel even better…”
“Hngh… ah!” You could barely even form words anymore when he grabbed your other hand and slid one of your fingers inside you alongside his, rubbing your clit harder and stroking the roof of your cunt while he sucked on your gland and made you feel like you were going to pass out. “Al-Alpha, oh Alpha…”
“Jesus Christ, I know, baby.” Every single sweet sound that fell from your lips was making him harder, your scent getting more and more intense as you mewled and keened and your slick soaked both of your hands. “You feel that rough, spongy spot right there? That’s your g-spot. Doesn’t it feel good when you stroke it, bunny?”
“Mmhm, yes Alpha.” It felt like every muscle in your body was winding tighter as Ransom kept helping you work both of these new spots, your mouth filling with saliva and your breasts heaving as your breath sawed in your chest and you felt your pussy clench around your fingers.
The soft wet sounds that were coming from your soaked channel were obscene, your body growing warmer under your stepbrother’s touch as you struggled to keep your eyes from fluttering closed. Ransom’s gaze met yours in the mirror and you gasped at the intensity of his gaze, your body arching into his hands as you felt that strange coil drawing tight in the pit of your stomach. Then his teeth scraped over your mating gland as he let out a low growl and slid a second finger inside you and you felt everything snap, pleasure crashing around you and making you scream as every nerve in your body lit up and you trembled wildly in his grasp.
“Ah, fuck! God you’re so fucking tight.” Ransom felt like he was losing himself as he watched you fall apart in the mirror, burying his face in your neck and moaning as he breathed your scent in deeply while you squirted everywhere and let out a sharp cry. “Good girl… so fucking good for me bunny.”
“Th… thank you, Alpha.” You whimpered when you sagged back against him, panting heavily while you turned your face to nuzzle at Ransom’s cheek and shuddering when he pulled your fingers out of your still fluttering cunt.
“Of course, I’m here to help you, bunny.” He kept a hand on your thigh while he dragged your slick stained fingers up your torso, brushing his nose against yours and gazing into your eyes while he sucked your digits into his mouth and let out a lewd moan. “Fuck… delicious. You wanna taste yourself, bunny?”
“Oh, I…” you felt your cheeks heating up while you watched him lick your fingers clean, his eyes so dark they were practically black while he breathed heavily into your open mouth and you couldn’t help but slide your body closer to his. “Do you want me to taste, Alpha?”
The sound Ransom made at that was somewhere between a purr and a growl while he curled a hand around the back of your neck, turning your body in his lap as he molded his lips to yours and slid his tongue into your mouth. You melted into him with a whine when you tasted yourself on his tongue, clutching his shirt in your fists and letting your eyes fall closed while you lost yourself in your first kiss.
“See how good you taste, bunny? Whoever mates you is gonna get drunk off this sweet little cunt all the time.” He couldn’t stop gazing at you even after you disconnected, cupping your jaw gently and slowly tracing the curve of your cheek with his thumb as he brushed his nose over yours and tried to ignore the way his cock was throbbing in his slacks. “How you feeling, bunny?”
“I feel so good, Alpha.” You chased after his lips with a needy whine, pressing your chest to his and sliding your hands down his stomach slowly while you ran your tongue over your bottom lip. “I want to make you feel good too, please, lemme be good for you Alpha. Just tell me what to do.”
“Bunny… ah, shit!” Ransom hadn’t planned on going any further than showing you how to touch yourself, but then you were reaching down to undo his belt and softly stroking his cock over his slacks and he’d have to be a special kind of idiot to not give you another lesson. “You are, you’re so good, bunny. Fuck, you’re gonna spoil your mate so much.”
“That’s all I want, Alpha.” Your voice was a sultry moan as you leaned forward and brushed your lips over his jaw, gasping into his ear and smiling when you pulled his cock out of his slacks and struggled to wrap your hand around it as he let out a shuddering growl. “Should… should I use my hand, or my mouth?”
“Oh, fucking Christ, just start with your hand bunny.” Ransom was trying so hard to keep himself under control, but those big innocent eyes and the way you were tentatively dragging your fist over his cock was set to drive him feral. “Squeeze a little harder, honey and just make a tugging motion… oh shit.”
“Like that?” The way Ransom sucked in a harsh breath and nodded vigorously when you choked your grip under his tip made you preen, your gaze dropping to his cock as you bit your lip and leaned your head on his shoulder. “Is it supposed to be leaking like that?”
“What? Fuck!” His chest heaved when you swiped your thumb through the precum that was leaking from his slit, the hand he had resting on your waist squeezing you while his hips rose up to meet your hand. “Yeah, it means you’re doing good, bunny.”
“Really?” Oh god, you looked so happy, what were you doing to him?
Ransom couldn’t dwell on that thought when your lips brushed over his gland, feeling your slick soaking through the fabric of his slacks as you slowly humped his thigh while your hand kept pulling on his cock. You were a fucking natural, he couldn’t stop congratulating himself for deciding to take advantage of you. If he hadn’t been drunk still, maybe he would’ve been concerned about the fact that all he could think about was keeping you for the rest of your lives, but then you chirped as you nuzzled at his throat and squeezed him harder and all he could focus on was how every muscle in his core was growing taut.
“Good girl, ah, you’re so fucking good.” He started pressing his lips all over your temple when your hand sped up, purring into your hair and letting your scent wash over him while he held you close.
“I wanna taste it, lemme taste you, please Alpha?” You looked up at him pleadingly as your tongue flicked along your bottom lip, your voice low and thick with lust as you slid between his legs and started to sink to the floor. “I just want to make you feel good.”
“Bunny… goddamn it!” Ransom hissed when you traced the tip of your tongue over his slit with tiny kitten licks when you finally fell to your knees, screwing his eyes closer and struggling not to collapse back on the bed when kissed his spongy head and hummed against his skin at his taste. “Just… don’t fucking stop. Such a good girl.”
You smiled softly up at him when he praised you, cocking your head and gazing at his cock before wrapping your lips around him on an instinct. The heavy, musky taste of him exploded inside your mouth and made your eyes roll back in your head as you felt yourself sinking into a lust filled haze. It felt like this was what you were made for; to please your Alpha, to make them weak, let them use you however they saw fit whenever they wanted as you let them leave their mark all over you. Your hindbrain was urging you to please the Alpha, the scent of his pheromones and sex practically drowning ou and making you whine as you took him deeper into the warm, wet cavern of your mouth.
Ransom finally snapped when you tried to take him down your throat and gagged messily but so fucking pretty, snarling and grabbing your hair so he could drive his hips into your face while you made a muffled noise of protest and then glee. Your lips were stretched painfully tight around him as you gazed up at him with tear filled eyes, slick pouring down your thighs as you let him use your mouth and your drool ran down his length and dripped over his balls. He couldn’t think of anything that looked prettier than you on your knees, completely wrecked for him. It made the pleasure that was curling around the base of his spine even more intense as he felt his knot starting to swell and gritted his teeth.
“Bunny, you’re gonna… oh fuck!” He tried to pull out but then you whined and swallowed around him and he lost it, collapsing back on the mattress with a wretched shout as his back arched and he shot his cum down your spasming throat.
You felt his knot lock him behind your teeth and stretch your jaw even more painfully wide, a low moan escaping from between your lips when your cunt fluttered around nothing as you came again at the sheer delight of pleasing your Alpha. Your throat couldn’t stop constricting around him while you gazed at him and managed to breathe through your nose, running your hands over the insides of his thighs and purring softly while you kept massaging the underside of his length with your tongue. His cum was like nothing you’d ever tasted before, musky and strong and undeniably Ransom, you wanted more of it.
Ransom hissed when you kept swallowing around him, his knot swelling even more as he felt his pleasure building again faster than he would have thought possible. He groaned when he sat up and got a look at you, your eyes glassy and tear filled with creamy drool leaking from your lips and down your chin. Your eyes fluttered closed when he rested his hand on your head, the only thought in your mind was to please your Alpha and make him feel good.
“Bunny, if you don’t stop I’m gonna come again, fuck.” That only seemed to spur you on, your hands sliding over his thighs until they were framing his hips, like you were trying to take him even deeper and draw every last drop from him. “Goddamn it…”
He let his head drop back between his shoulders defeatedly while you kept gagging around him and drew him to another, petting your hair and letting his hips jerk erratically as he shot another load down your eager throat while he couldn’t do anything but groan. When he finally lifted his head you were still looking at him with those eyes filled with almost adoration, resting your cheek on his thigh and purring as he brought his hand down to cup your cheek.
“That’s a good girl, just keep breathing, bunny.” Ransom couldn’t take his eyes off your ruined face, it was almost impossible to believe this had been your first time sucking a cock, but damn if he couldn’t get used to knotting that perfect mouth of yours. “Perfect girl, it’s gonna take a few minutes to go down, honey, just relax.”
You could barely even hear him, your brain buzzing in a blissful fog while he stroked his fingers along your jaw as your eyes fluttered shut. It took a little while for his knot to start to go down, and as soon as he was able he was sliding out of your mouth and drawing you up into his lap. Ransom chuckled when you let out a soft chirp and immediately buried your face in his neck, not too worried about the fact that you didn’t seem to be able to respond to his inquiries about how you were feeling with anything except a series of satisfied hums. He tucked himself back into his slacks before lifting you and carrying you to the bathroom to get cleaned up, keeping you tucked close to his chest while he wet a cloth with warm water and started wiping the mess off your face.
“Such a sweet bunny.” He grinned at the fucked out smile you were giving him, still feeling a little buzzed and constantly leaning forward to scent your hair as he ran the cloth over your skin. “You’re gonna make it real hard to send you to some other asshole Alpha, pretty girl. Making me want to keep you around with how good you’re doing with your lessons. Gonna have to think of what you should learn next.” You
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Greg Stocks and Vic Ethanol absolutely busting it down at the blood rave is everything I didn’t know I needed
#greg stocks#vic ethanol#wendell morris#dang litefoot#just a completely normal sophisticated man in a suit covered in blood busting it down with your average car guy#going absolutely fucking insane#I need this kind of unhinged behavior from a real 007 type character#I love you mister stocks#you’ll always be famous#the image of a sophisticated British spy covered in blood and raving with vampire role players is just..#immaculate#nsbu spoilers#d20#nsbu#dimension 20#never stop blowing up
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having a strong hyperfixation on dan and phil in the year 2025 is so interesting bc my brain is having the normal hyperfix urge to learn as much as i can abt them and gather new information and i have to sit down and be like girl youve been here basically ten years at this point you know everything theres not anything new for you to learn
#like the hyperfixation has been there the whole time i promise like it hasn’t left me once in this past decade#but when it flares up particularly strongly is when i struggle bc theres nothing to feed the adhd#ofc it’s not as bad at the moment bc of tour thank god and lots of new videos#and theres so much backlog to watch like there are things for me to consume!!!#but that feral indulgent hyperfixation learning mode your brain goes into when you get hooked on a brand new thing for the first time#and you can go down the rabbit hole for weeks watching and reading new things and never running out of content#yeah thats nottttt going to happen with dan and phil that ship has LONGGG sailed#i suppose this is a recurring theme across ppl in all long term fandoms but i’m really feeling it atm#want to go back and watch all their old stuff to placate myself but i dont think i could emotionally survive that#bc id be watching videos of them at my age and then i’ll crash out so bad you’ll never hear from me again#god the dnp brainrot is evil rn#SOOOOOOOO BAD!!!! SO BAD!!!! so bad…..#dan and phil#happy birthday phil u mean so much to me… my favourite 38 year old man#dnp#tilda rambling
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the thing is I have no idea how to put it into words but dally loves about as hard as soda does. just in a very different, very specific kind of way. soda loves everyone at first glance until it’s proven a mistake and dally loves only a few specific people so much it kills him.
#dally winston#dallas winston#sodapop curtis#the outsiders#the outsiders musical#I’m so fucking tired rn someone explain this for me. it’s in the thing with Sylvia and how he talks to Johnny driving back from dairy queen#it’s in how dally has and would’ve hit ANYONE for talking to him how he did at the drive in but not Johnny. never Johnny#it’s in his delirium after the rumble (how he hits & slumps against the wall begging Johnny not to die)#it’s in calling the gang for help knowing he was going to die anyway because he’d already been shot#but he didn’t want to die alone so he called them so he wouldn’t have to#it’s in how the only thing he does honestly is working with horses.#it’s in ‘you’ll die of pneumonia before the cops ever find you’#i just ugh. the phrase ‘hood with a heart of gold’ embodies him so bad#johnny didn’t have anything but the gang who loved him unconditionally; dally didn’t feel like he had anything but johnny because for him#the gang’s love WAS conditional. or so it seems sometimes. he was an outsider among outsiders and you can tell by the way pony talks#about him in the book. they were all a little scared of him. he wasn’t *quite* the same as the rest. it might be unconditional if it came#down to it but dally hadn’t lived a life where he could risk it.#my post
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me abt Severance:

me abt the implications of Severance:

#severence spoilers#they only showed us two of the rooms WHAT is happening in the other ones 😭#they were targeted bc they were academics and she was infertile and they’d grown apart he’d feel guilty bc he wasn’t listening but LUMON is#an innie got pregnant at work ‘what if you wanted a baby but you didn’t wanna—‘ what if you’ve felt things in the rooms#you never felt with mark what if I’ve SEEN IT she was down here as me she used my body to get to you#he’s moved on he has a daughter now you’ll have to let her go I’ve grown fond of her#and she’s fond of me she tried to break his fingers#the completion of cold harbor will be the greatest feat humanity has ever achieved will I get to see mark#he will benefit from the world you’ve helped create#mark’s reintegrating but the title still works when you realize womanhood is the severance#i am spiraling#free her
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it’s kinda funny to me how that dumb scene in kiwami 1 of majima getting shot and left for dead in the harbor was basically just added as a half-assed way to explain majima not being around for a bit of the plot, but they accidentally(?) just made it seem like start of a chain reaction where majima ended up feeling slighted and heartbroken after being abandoned like that and then lashed out about it via smashing a big truck into the building kiryu was in. and yeah that isn’t inherently a romantic thing as-is but then they go and add the part where majima grabs a hostess and performatively hits on her as in-kiryu’s-face as possible, she says she’s already in love with someone, and majima lets her go immediately, no questions asked, making a big fucking point of it just to say see THAT kiryu? I appreciate when people are HONEST about their FEELINGS. people who won’t just BACKSTAB someone who CARES about them to save themselves. is that so crazy kiryu?? huh??? anyway make it up to me get down here and fight me right fucking now
#I think on another level he was sorta saying like ‘hey kiryu. you’re making it extremely clear that you don’t trust me and my intentions#and I’ve been trying to show you- over and over again- that I’d do just about anything for you and your safety#but I can’t just let my mask fall off in front of everyone- I need to keep up the unpredictable morally grey wildcard act for both my sake#AND yours. because disguising my helping you as crazy random violent outbursts and weird stalker behavior#is the only way I CAN help you. do you think it would go over well with shimano or literally anyone else if I was outright helping you out#of the kindness of my heart and fondness for you? stop being so fucking dense and look past the crazy wacky nonsense for a second and#maybe you’ll realize that all I do at the end of the day- really- is help you and put my own life and reputation on the line for you.#I am an honest guy when it comes to my real values and when I told you I wouldn’t let anyone kill you unelss it was myself- I meant it.#I’ve taken a knife and a bullet for you now. can you REALLY not see through the act yet? am I REALLY that unpredictable when you think about#it?’#that was a longer explanation than i intended but. it was difficult to put into words#I basically feel like it could be read as him implying kiryu shouldn’t backstab the people who put themselves on the line to help him#and/or pointing out that he’s never actually done kiryu dirty and has stuck to his word protecting him in the ways he can#trying to say yeah all this is a crazy act and all but when it comes down to it you Can trust me#it really makes sense when you think about it that he’d have to help kiryu/show affection towards kiryu in unpredictable convoluted ways#at that point in time because. I mean. there’s a reason he was the only person who showed up to welcome kiryu when he got out of prison#and that’s because A) he sticks to his word and his loyalty to people he cares about and B) no one else had the balls or the batshit insane#mask to wear to ward off anyone asking real questions like majima did. because ANYONE associating themselves with the supposed#patriarch-killer was a HUGE NO-NO at the time. someone important showing up for kiryu and welcoming him back outright could’ve caused#all-out warfare probably. except majima. because majima was dedicated and smart enough to use his widely-feared wildcard persona#(that everyone tended to view as incapable of having any Real agenda to worry about) to his And kiryu’s advantage#does that make sense??? I feel like it makes a lot of sense if you get it to click in your head#kazumaji#majima#kiryu#yakuza#kiwami 1#yk1#rambling
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KT and Nina randomly being college roommates is canon, I don’t care that the odds are super slim. I think it’s fate.
#and they go wayyyy too long not knowing#i feel like kt would randomly have eddie or patricia or someone visit her at school#and when she’s like ‘my roommate’s kinda weird but she’s really nice i think you’ll like her’ & then they walk in & everyone just freezes#or nina mentions going to school in england and kt is like ‘damn that’s crazy me too!’#and then they compare notes and kt just screams ‘WAIT YOURE NINA????’#and nina is like ‘you’ve known my name for like three months??????’#idk there’s just so many funny ways that this could go down#the funniest is lowkey that they get along so well that they live together all four years#but no one from anubis has the chance to come visit until their graduation#and they all freak out like#‘WHY DID YOU GUYS NEVER MENTION IT???’#and nina + kt are like#‘we didn’t know???’#anyway canon!!!#house of anubis#nina martin#kt rush
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Am I just stressed (mostly bc of 爸爸), getting sick, or getting sick bc I’m stressed?
Completely related I want to lay down and sleep for a week. (I cannot. I have class and homework and meetings and work).
#shattered fragments#vent#I don’t have time for this bullshit#especially not since we’re down another person too…#for a While#if it’s true that your parents model what you’ll accept in a relationship down the line I’m fucking doomed#but I still hope to hell I can at least trust whoever happens in the future#bc tbh. grounds for divorce to me.#I would never trust them and I wouldn’t feel safe#and that’s just. not a good basis for a relationship#who knows#maybe I will stop getting new concert tickets (except for my must sees)#and save up to go back to school full time or maybe for a down payment for a shitty condo#bc I can’t keep going on like ‘I can’t keep going on like this’ as often as I do#and the most likely thing is that I just stay in stasis#hating living with my parents. not enjoying work or school#and my main enjoyment comes from my friends and walks in nature#gosh. this is a lot for being on my lunch…#at least I feel useful at work…#most of the time#I know my main co decorator appreciates me#I. I just feel like I’m withering#maybe I just need a good cry and a long night’s sleep
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PTSD is so stupid saw a jar of biscoff cookie butter at the store and went ha that’s the brand they had in res. (Completely unaffected). Then went home and had a panic attack about it (????)
#first of all. how is a jar on a shelf that you didn’t even touch harming you at all???#second of all. now that I know that chain Carrie’s bidcoff cookie butter I’m never going there again. let’s leave those worms in their can.#(sees a food) huh. cookie butter. (the ptsd gremlin cooking up a nice panic sequence for me) well probably staff are trailing you right now#and they just left that there on accident because obv they keep cookie butter with them. and they’re going to restrain and sedate you and to#you’ll wake up tubed xoxo#<- INSANE ITS A JAR OF BISCOFF COOKIE BUTTER CALM THE SHIT DOWN#I only slept an hour last night and didn’t sleep at all the night before so like that might have something to do with it but I feel like we’#were gunning for day 3 here with the cookie induced paranoia#don’t buy belsomra guys belsomra is a ripoff that I’m pretty sure is just sugar pills#although I am abnormally resistant to pretty much every sleep med like iv ambien just makes me a bit lethargic the doctor who gave me it sai#said that was really weird and then ordered another piss test bc he thought I was on speed LMAO#nope just my brain. rotten. gone.#day 3 is usually when the insomnia hallucinations come out so like pray for me if you see this#though I did get an hour last night so maybe that counts
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cannot believe the results of that poll……we need better financial literacy education my god
#INVESTING MAKES A LOT OF MONEY OVER TIME!!!#if you can afford it even a tiny bit like $50 a month or something you should be putting money in an investment account#not just a savings account but index funds etc. yes they’ll go up and down but over time you’ll make a lot of money#if you contribute $50 a month to an index fund account which gets an average annual return of 10%. in 20 years you will have contributed#$12k.#but the account will have about $36k assuming you never touch it. which means you TRIPLED your money in 20 years.#anyway TLDR if you can afford it in any tiny way you should be investing.
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I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again but Fleetwood Mac’s Silver Springs literally makes me foam at the fucking mouth
#els.txt#musicposting#JUST. the entire chorus of#‘time cast a spell on you you won’t forget me/ I know I could have loved you but you would not let me#I’ll follow you down till the sound of my voice will haunt you/you’ll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you’#literally going to chew off my own fucking arm#crying screaming beating my fists against the chests of an andorian and a tellarite
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the only fandom i’ve ever seen that was worse than what 911blr has become was being part of the kum canoe in the age of klaine on glee. iykyk
#yes i was a kummer (sigh.) i was 15 ok.#ive never hated a character the way i hated blaine and honestly some of you FULL GROWN ADULTS give that energy with tommy#like perhaps go lie down and you’ll feel better
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Just because something doesn’t end up being romantic love, does NOT mean it isn’t still love. Love exists in many forms.
#all I’m gonna say on the matter at hand#some of ya’ll need to touch the grass#actually that’s not enough#lie down in the grass and stay there goddamn#seeing so many weird ass tweets and tiktoks about the n/l situation#they stopped pretending????#ya’ll don’t say this weird shit about Clauds and luke T and they have a similar bond imo#the funniest thing about this perhaps is that I called it HAHA#I said ‘oh he’s 3009% going public with his gf after this’#premiere after party is moving mad to be fair but honestly? I get it#anyway#you’ll never take n/l friendship from me#they LOVE each other it’s so OBVIOUS#and maybe it’s not romantic!! but that’s okay and it’s still love#hannah musings
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Oh my pretty little trophy you know if hung you down and kidnap you to keep you as a pet. I’d look after you real good so you’re always ready for me to use.
#then I’d really be your trophy 🫣#the thought of someone actually hunting me down has me weak in the knees#guys it’s HILARIOUS how easy id be to catch#if you want somewhat of a challenge give me a little head start#cause uh#maybe if my adrenaline was pumping it would be different#but usually I’m really good at sprinting but after a little bit I’m fucking done man#also can’t climb a tree (sad I never did as a kid ☹️)#when I think of someone hunting me down in the woods or something#I feel like I’d sprint off in some random direction#maybe running into a tree or tripping on some shit#and then not even 5 min will go by and I’ll hear you behind me or see you#and I’ll just like lol yell#or like freak out#grab some sort of twig for defense#knowing damn well that ain’t gonna do shit#or I’ll try to keep running but I feel like my anxiety and adrenaline would not mix well and I’d fall or something#and just be so so so easy to catch#you’ll be able to jump right on top of me and pin me down#or when I get up it’ll be so so easy to grab me and push me against a tree and tear off my clothes#gotta claim me by forced breeding before you kidnap me#okkkkkkkkkkk#I need to calm down wtf#ask#anon
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life is going to an art museum only to have something happen that forces you to distract yourself in the world of art and when it comes time to think you try to think of anything but yourself and you land yourself in a rabbit hole of fandom mischaracterization that went identified too late and is engraved in the thoughts of many, only noticed by few, and soon to be hopefully captured on a digital canvas—a free place for the muddled thoughts between my head and my pencil to live.
#My day has me going on poetic rants about fanart I wish to make essentially#You’ll never guess who it’s about….or maybe you will#I’m only in like….what..one main fandom? Of three characters?#It’s not that hard to figure out#The hard part is making it come to fruition#S.K thinks#Wait. Is that entire paragraph one sentence#Go me. That’s impressive#This post boils down to “hi I has a bad experience and plan to escape it by drawing strange soul fanart bye”#Soul Chonny Jash has me going insane
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hello seattle, i am an old lighthouse
throwing beams of bright light
red in the morning, blue in the evening sun
taking heed for everyone
#me @ me: go listen to some owl city and maybe you’ll calm down#a boy never outgrows his ocean eyes phase i fear#owl city#musicbox#Spotify
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